I'm so close to organizing and finishing editing chapter 6 of my Rebirth series. Finally having motivation to add finishing touches and final read-throughs and omg it's been well over a year and I feel so bad it's taken so long 😭😭😭
Totally sick of this "pretty much can't eat anything diet" so I'm making pizza. 😊 Its going to be delicious. #pizza #cheatfood #cheesydeliciousness #homemade #dietingsucks #evenifitistoeliminatepossiblefoodsensitivities #imahorribleperson
Im not new to blogging, but I am new to Tumblr. I've been told by my therapist for almost a year now, that I should blog, or journal, about what's going on. Well aren't you bitches lucky! This is a very open, very adult blog. Dont like sex, move on. Dont wanna read about mental illnesses, move on. Dont have anything nice to say, move on.
Oh, this will also be anonymous; I don't need family and friends knowing ALL my business. So, shall we move on?
Here are a few things about me. Im over 40, no kids, 1 doggo, engaged, full-time employee, artisan soap maker, resident mental case, and just an all around bad ass.
I was married once before. It ended in divorce but not before I decided that I needed to explore things outside of my toxic bubble.
I was overweight most of my life, still am actually, but I decided to have WLS (weight loss surgery) because nothing I was doing was helping me lose the weight. Fuck you, it was hard as hell. Its not an overnight fix, its not a magic bullet, its hard. It takes a lot of dedication as well as life style changes to actually succeed after weight loss surgery. I actually did very well until I needed back surgery. Then I put on about 60lbs. So, now I am going through a revision. Anyway, after the WLS, my ex and I were not on the same page, sexually. I felt like I was obligated because I was his wife. Our marriage wasn't perfect but, it seems like it just got worse after that. I tried to get him to go to counseling because I really wanted to make things work. There was no want from him, to do the same. So, after asking him for a few months, I decided I wasn't going to sit around and wait for him to continue to do nothing. I started talking to different guys. It started out as nothing more that a few chats here and there. Then it just escalated from there. Soon, I was doing really dumb shit; shit that should have cost me my life. Let me tell you though, I got lucky!
Anyway, as time went on, my numbers started to add up until I met Mr. S. I was still sleeping around with at least 1-2 fuck buddies that I had but, Mr. S. - I gave all that up for him. Why? Because he was safe. One night turned into two and, very early on we decided that we were it for each other. He wouldn't sleep with anyone else and neither would I. We were legit FWB. We hung out, we had sex, I stayed at his house, we would come back to my hometown for a weekend. Nobody in my family knew about him because I was still married. He wasn't looking for a girlfriend so, it stayed FWB but, I couldn't help developing feelings for him. I never told him, he never knew but, I would have stayed where I was had I known it would have gone further.
I ended up leaving my ex-husband and our divorce was final a few years back. Once I left and moved back to my hometown, my numbers started going up again. It was fun. I needed the adrenaline rush. And then I met my now fiancé.
Im going to end this here because, the next part deserves its very own post.
Just a bunch of nerds having a nerd conversation lol (Backstory; we were talking about Killing Stalking) @tunefox #friends #friendship #nerdy #killingstalking #needupdate #killinme #puns #imahorribleperson #lol #funny #wesuchnerds (at Barrhead, Alberta)
With 5 minutes left until closing, we thought we’d play a joke on one of our team. Note to self: bad idea #mortified . . #practicaljokesgonewrong #practicaljoker #noplaceforjokes #imachild #funatwork #coworkerjokes #coworkerjokesgonebad #coworkers #imahorribleperson #jokesgonewrong #misbehaving #professional #mustbemoreprofessional #laughatwork #laughatyourself #laughatwork #retailmadness #retailcanbefunsometimes #retailcanbefunny #marblehead #boston #northshore
ra*bits gets concerned about hajime and nito blames rei/ritsu for it n its like “we didnt...do anything this time” and hajime doesnt wanna say why because he doesnt want nito to unleash Gremlin Fury