#important.

[pinktrashgoblin]

SERIOUS POST.

This may have some uncomfortable topics. But please read this whole thing. It’s important to be transparent, and I don’t want Cin to spread more shit.

my deepest apologies to people who are just here on my blog and reblogging my work for fun.

EDIT: I can’t believe I have to say this but don’t fucking harass anyone mentioned in this post. That just reflects on YOU.

Alright, Cin. Since you want a response so bad, here ya go.

So what is this whole thing about?

User @/cintagonisupset is going around telling people this.

I’m already seeing the impacts, having my friends come to me about this. You’ve got my hands tied, so I’m making my statement.

First and foremost: I‘m not going to pretend that I didn’t make dirty jokes in my server in the past, before my birthday when I was 17, a minor myself, and before I banned such jokes last year. With 100% earnest I know this was a bad idea, and I have taken the time to be more careful about what I say around certain audiences. I am not perfect. But in his haste to fuck me up, he left out some crucial details.

1: I was 17 at the time, a minor myself, and was and still am in high school. I was a high schooler, making high-school-tier jokes in a server of other high schoolers. I am not ACTIVELY MAKING THESE JOKES like he says I am, and I do not condone the idea of doing so.

2: I am autistic. I struggle with social cues, with decision-making and so forth. I am only recently 18, but that does not mean I am mentally or emotionally mature, far from it. Mentally I am still a child. I struggle more than the average person with judgement, and often slip up around those I let my guard down around. I am working on this to avoid things such as this.

3: I am incredibly susceptible to peer pressure. In a place where those jokes were made, I wanted to feel like part of the group. So, as I often do, I mirrored behavior to feel like I fit in. I wasn’t sitting my high-school ass down and going “Let’s make raunchy jokes with kids!”, I was thinking in terms of “Maybe if I talk like them, they’ll like me and I’ll fit in somewhere” without fully realizing what everything meant, and without being able to properly process the social queues associated.

4: This was MONTHS ago. I do not actively do these things, nor condone them, I think it’s fucked up and I’ve done everything I can to be better than that. But to misrepresent the situation as me actively doing so isn’t great either.

So with that out of the way.

Do I think it was a good idea? No, absolutely not, but let’s not pretend that this is unheard of in high school and definitely on the internet. Since the dawn of time kids have made stupid jokes with one another. I was a middle schooler once and a high schooler now, I know exactly what goes on in those places. Let me restate: that doesn’t make it good, but let’s not pretend I’m the only high school kid who’s ever made a joke like that around their peers.

My point is, once this thing has become so normalized all over the place, in school, in media, it becomes difficult, especially for a neurodivergent such as myself, to deduce what to and not to do. I have fundamental principles and rules, but that does not mean I am not susceptible to being pressured into this sort of thing.

As I mentioned: I am not emotionally, or mentally, mature. I don’t know everything. I don’t fully comprehend the nuances of things. I am not always aware of what I am saying. I cannot understand social queues in the same way you do.

Make your conclusions as you will, but this is my stance, and this is the truth.

Also, maybe don’t tell people to kill themselves and that nobody likes them? Just a thought. (BTW: As mentioned I am autistic, it’s not as simple as “grow up”.)

TL;DR: I made raunchy/dirty jokes in my server when I was 17, in high school, with a bunch of other high schoolers, and Cin is telling me to end my life because of it.

Please consider my words. I have worked hard to build what I have, and feel it is important to be transparent. I want nothing but to make a positive impact on this community and the people within it. This does not mean I am perfect, but I am trying my best and my intentions are good.

Feel free to ask me, or leave opinions in the reblogs and replies. This is a conversation, not a preaching.

Also, about the art thief thing: I genuinely have no fuckin clue what he’s going on about there.

Edit: I have deleted the “P.S.” section regarding a suspicion I have to avoid further conflict.

[justplaggin]

[emotionally-xyz-mercs]

We got another problem with a user spreading misinformation on Mentally-Quiet-Spycrab. 😥

here's a link to said incident:

https://www.tumblr.com/disturbedgent/733214273265860608/i-didnt-think-it-was-possible-for-me-to-hate-the?source=share

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At this point, we have no idea what to do about these people. We have like 5 medics. And double the amount of soldiers. We aren’t replacing anyone. We didn’t have anything to do with the creation of quiet Spycrab that is just a HUMAN BEING having fun on the internet. They saw something they liked, and they joined us. It wasn’t their fault that someone who left the server willingly decided that they had to be the only Spycrab. It’s not quiet crabs fault that the original Spycrab left. None of it was their fault, but they are getting the pain for it.

And they don’t deserve that. That is someone with thoughts and feelings. Someone with a life, dreams, and sorrows. Someone who found something, a community, that they wanted to add to, and got shot down for wanting to have fun, just like the rest of us.

We, the emotional, physical, mental, and spiritual mercenaries are people. We are human beings. This is all for fun. If you have personal beef with someone, don’t take it public, don’t soil the name of an entire community because you find distaste with one.

There are people behind the screens. Behind the blogs. And they don’t deserve what you people are saying to them because a small group of people decided that one day a group THEY joined WILLINGLY with ZERO STRINGS attached wasn’t good enough for them.

Please, have some SEMBLANCE of humanity, because they are trying their very best.

[ceebit]

hey y’all. never did i think i would have to make one of these posts, but 2023 has proved to be more than crazy for me, so here i am.

a few days ago i was notified by my uni’s bursar’s office that i would have to pay out of pocket a balance of $1,600~ by jan 20 for me to be able to register for classes for next semester. as a student on financial aid, i was shocked to see that my aid plan had not covered all of my expenses, which leads me to making this post.

i know most people come on here to just read and reblog, but as a creator, i’m asking for your support. and why not use a medium that people enjoy on here?

currently i have commissions open at five slots starting at $8, but there is also a donation goal for the amount pending on my kofi. again, you don’t have to purchase anything, but everything helps. i’ve gone through all of my options, and this is my last resort.

thank you for reading.

kofi / commission post / donation goal

[angelnicknelson]

Reflecting back, he says, “It's regrettable what happened to me. I think it was a bit disappointing. The reaction that I got in just trying to be myself and trying to discover myself and putting boundaries up. But despite that, I was still happy.” 

Connor is so much more than that tweet, more than the sexuality he never wanted labeled in public, more than the character we see onscreen. “If people can take something positive out of it, if it's benefited anyone, then that's great,” he says. Perhaps now that there is a label for that, the world can find other words to describe him: diligent, reflective, kind.

Says Locke, who had woken up to see Connor’s viral tweet and hugged him on set later that day, “We were all very proud of him, and we're proud of him controlling the narrative…. I’m very proud of him for doing his own thing and what was right for him.” 

Locke adds, “There’s an idea that it's part of the job to lose your privacy, that you lose your right to having privacy. That's something I hope the next generation of people in the public eye can change…. I think people are understanding that privacy is a nonnegotiable.”

— kit and joe talking about that tweet [source]

[cheerstotheelites-if]

Life Update

Heyo sorry for the silence and lack of activity lately. It's been hectic for me over here. Besides hosting relatives over the holidays, I've also received the news that I'll be dropping out of college. I won't go into full detail because that's its own can of worms, but the tl;dr of it is that my parents and I agreed that I'll drop out of college if I fail one subject this semester. Fail one subject I did, and now here I am.

So, uh, been stressing about it for a while now and still figuring out how I'm gonna survive because the Philippines' economy is shit and there aren't many job opportunities for people like me. You know, as one, who experienced a life changing decision, should. I might make IF writing my full-time job and start taking commissions soon, but I don't know if that'll be sustainable in the long run.

Either way, I'll figure something out eventually. Hopefully. If you want to donate and help me out a bit, I do have a kofi. It's on the pinned post on this blog, and unfortunately a bit barren right now since I never had the time to put or make exclusive stuff yet. Though with the extra time I now have on my hands, I hopefully can start doing that.

I'm not forcing any of you, and please, if you need the money more, do not donate to me. Your own needs are just as important, so please give them priority too. Only give what you can, if you can. Any sort of help is appreciated and I will eternally be grateful to you.

Again, I am so sorry for the silence and I am still trying to work on my IF's despite the stress and all. Thank you all for your patience and understanding, and I deeply apologize again for the delays in chapters.

[twyz]

this is important ; please read!!!

I do not appreciate people taking extreme inspiration from me, nor do I appreciate them collecting STACKS of my art to use for their own. i refuse to name names, but this has been happening for a good year now

I don't know you, you don't know me, and I certainly don't like you. I'm someone on the internet who just draws for the sake of drawing. mutuals are fine, I consider you lot friends, but no one else

if you blatantly use my art for inspiration, TAG. ME. it's not that hard. And don't stalk me either, that just makes me dislike you even more. please just consider me some rando on the internet, not your friend, not your idol, nothing.

sorry for being so passive-aggressive, but this has been happening for too long, and I'm really not fond of it. thanks for understanding, yall. have a good one

[modernghostfare]

Hello.. can we get more ghostmace headcanons. If you ever wrote any pls link them too...

:)c YESSS i love talking abt maceghost.. i know ive made a bunch of sporadic posts about them but i havent done a like dedicated hcs post. i feel like often im struggling to understand the narrative of their past but generally i keep the same vibe to it all.

mace is for sure the more level headed of the two only because relationships and love freak ghost out. ive mentioned on a post like years ago hes traumatized by watching his mother stick with his father and i still believe this. hes like scared to be in a position where something Isn't working anymore but hes too emotional to cut it off so he self sabotages the relationship so mace will get pissed and stop talking to him.

in the past (as i mentioned in another post) mace Did also feed into this. he had a good home life but his own personal issues and anger at more outward issues caused him to like. seek an outlet for this sort of petty squabbling. and he found it in ghost. until he got tired of festering and being pissed off all the time and decided to actually like Do Shit he feels good about. and he broke up with ghost.

now in modern times where theyve caught up with each other it's like a weird mash of their past and them both being more mature. ghost struggles more because hes very adverse to actually improving himself and how he feels about himself bc hes like. hes Given Up on being a person. while mace has done a lot of healing.

like the toxic factor of maceghost Is Ghost at this point to me. but theres a lot of love there bc theres a lot of mutual respect and, like, easy familiarity there. mace understands how ghost works at his core.

so like. when ghost is being Normal and not anxious they literally just. like. Click? mace can extremely put ghost at ease with just his presence. and mace in turn rly enjoys his company bc a calm ghost is actually just sort of casually funny.

and ghost does like making mace laugh i imagine mace has a really beautiful smile bc he has resting bitch face so when it lights up it's very special.

ghost also i think would be 100% willing to take his mask off in a room of just him and mace. no special occasion needed he's just comforted. mace has already seen it over many, many years.

because they're like an Old couple i think theyve been on and off since their mid twenties for ghost and late twenties for mace. WHICH is another reason mace like wont entertain the childish picking ghost does theyre literally too old.

but he does play along a little. sometimes. old habits die hard. if it's petty mace will have a back and forth w ghost for old times sake its just how ghost communicates sometimes. emotions are just hard for ghost mace understands this. to put all of this simply.

i will say tho if more comes out and they end up more antagonistic than my current read i will still be a huge stan i love when dudes try to fuck and kill each other 💪🥰💕

speaking of fucking tho. tw for implying sexual assault also i just got kinda nasty sowwy.

LIKE we know ghost has a complicated relationship w sex a lot of his past history w it is like traumatic. i think he was already promiscuous as a teen bc he already had issues from his upbringing so hes like. well experienced. and he likes sex. and he likes fucking mace bc his dick is thick, hes good with his hands, and he's not afraid to be rough with him and take their time bc mace likes to be edged and when ghost is rly into it he Likes it to Last esp if he can cum more than once. he likes when his pussy is sore.

BUT ALSOO theyre both like. verse esp w each other. ghost likes topping more tho. he likes fucking mace for being a little bit vocal and just. like. huge. ghost loves bending him over and watching his fat bounce. ghost would blow off any task and anyone to go fuck him.

but also, bc its ghost and i think if the wrong buttons get pressed in the wrong order and it goes sour he gets quiet and, like, disassociates. and mace keeps watch for that bc he doesn't want to put ghost in that state. its not fun

[shuxiii]

CLOSED.

i’ll be permanently closing this acc. i had a tough time thinking about this but it’s for the best. thank you for all the memories. i’ll never forget it. i love you guys so much, and i hope u all understand that i want to focus on my marriage with pham hanni.

[timelessxmemories]

You are enough. Never forget that. You are loved, you are needed and you are wanted. Don't even doubt this for one second. Because it's true. I might not know you, maybe we've never met, but in the end, you still matter. You are so important, never underestimate yourself. No matter what. Keep going, you've come so far, don't stop moving forwards. Hydrate yourself, make sure you eat something, get a good sleep, and take care of yourself. Even if all you did today was get out of bed. You're doing so well. Keep going. I'm proud of you.

[tinytowns]

this loss has been felt across the community + you are allowed to grieve even if you did not stan the group.

[unboundpower]

Hey. Idk if it's really needed to say this here, but after a certain event came to my attention, I feel the urge just in case it may apply to any of my followers.

If you believe "blackwashing" exists, or that depicting a fair/light-skinned character with darker skin is racist, kindly fuck off. Unfollow me, block me, do whatever. I have no tolerance for that kind of ignorance.

[callmeklair]

‼️hiatus I guess???

So I have my important foundation/entrance exams from 31st December till 6th January (new year who?) and as I'm busy preparing for it this is the reason why I have been slow with updates. plus this exam is really important for me as it lays a path for my future career 🏃🏻‍♀️

so I'm sorry for disappointing you guys without releasing a new chapter update of declaration :/

(but I'm hoping I somehow manage to do that in between)

I'll be fully active again after 6th January with more contents and also open requests from that time on.

Thank you for always supporting me, and again I'm sorry for disappointing 🥹🫶

[stariekis]

as you might have noticed i'm back to being very inactive here, uni is putting so much pressure on my back atm and i don't have inspiration enough to continue the smau nor write other things so basically i'm going on a indefinite hiatus ) : i'm not going to leave completely bcs i'll use this acc to read aus but i won't write anything for now ... i'm still available so if any of you guys wants to talk to me or need my help dm me <3 i'll answer !

that's everything bbies ) : feeling kinda bad abt this bcs i love interacting with all of you but i have like zero motivation and a lot of things going on not only bcs of uni but i have some personal problems that needs to be taken care of, hope you understand 🤲🏻