Till: aslkdaglkhasg
Ivan: What is that?
Till: It's a keyboard smash
Ivan: How do I do it?
Till: Just press anything.
Ivan: 7
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originally created & published on: 20 june 2024 in ao3 [ no changes are made ]
ivantill from alien stage / mini angst story or oneshot
i wrote this for my wife (/p) originally but then published it to spread the pain internationally.
i have language development disorder + english isn't my first language. there are possible mistakes. i also wrote this when i was a brand new alnst fan so there might be some mistakes. ( such as ooc or parts of incorrect lore )
The warm feeling on his skin.
The feeling of hands against his neck, chin and cheek.
And the feeling of an embrace.
It all felt so comforting, so warm and cozy. Like sitting nearby a bonfire, although he hadn't experienced that before. It felt awfully similar to the feeling in his heart he held all those years towards Mizi, holding so much love to the point it could overflow.
All he could see was emptiness, black. He was somewhat conscious each time he passed out, but not enough to be aware of who was nearby or around himself, and not enough to be awake. But he could feel those touches every time. But when he finally gained his consciousness, the touch and warmth already had nearly left. Lingering, but not enough. He wanted to feel it again, to snuggle against the source.
But how could he if he never found out whose embrace and comfort it was?
He always yearned for it at times. He couldn't help it. It felt like it was a part of the cure he needed. A part that was so similar to the tenderness that was brought to his guts and heart whenever he saw Mizi singing, or laughing, or just doing anything in general.. That he craved for more. But it always appeared when he was practically unconscious, and he couldn't discover the source.
And when he finally did, he lost it again. The lingering feeling of Ivan's hands on his neck, it was like those from when he was unconscious. But he could not help but be dazed as he looked at the unmoving body on the floor. 3 shots, all bleeding onto the stage floor he stood on. The very shoes he finally wore were stained by it. He questioned everything.
What did I want?
What did I do to get to this point?
The sounds of footsteps coming close to drag away the corpse. Till looked at his hands, that held his neck, before looking at Ivan's. A bubbling feeling in his stomach, he felt like he was about to go insane.
He wanted to reach out, but it felt like time stopped him. The trail of blood left behind as the body was dragged away. The feeling of cold hands on his arms, resisting his movement as Till wanted to scream.
But he couldn't get one small voice out of his mouth. All he could hear now, were his thoughts that were suddenly so loud in his ears.
'Please..'
'Bring him back..'
'Don't take him away...'
'Let me feel your embrace for the last time,'
'please, Ivan.'
eughhh i hate my writing for some reason
i wrote this back then in like, what? 30 mins? pls don't expect too much from me i'm literally a 14yo barely surviving school..
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Sua: I can’t fucking stand you.
Ivan: You don’t have to stand, there’s a chair right there.
Sua, sitting down: Fuck you.
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Till: That's not funny.
Ivan: I thought it was funny.
Till: You don't count. You started laughing in the middle of a funeral because you started thinking of a meme you saw on Facebook.
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Till: Can I ask you for a favor?
Ivan: I would literally die for you, but continue.
Till: We need to talk about you starting sentences that way.
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Till: Are...
Till: Are you flirting with me?
Ivan: I have been for the past year but thanks for noticing.
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[Everyone standing around the broken coffee maker]
Luka: So. Who broke it?
Luka: I'm not mad, I just wanna know.
Mizi: ...I did. I broke it.
Luka: No. No you didn't. Ivan?
Ivan: Don't look at me. Look at Sua.
Sua: What?! I didn't break it.
Ivan: Huh, that's weird. How did you know it was broken?
Sua: Because it's sitting right in front of us and it's broken.
Ivan: Suspicious.
Sua: No it's not!
Dewey: If it matters, probably not, but Hyuna was the last one to use it.
Hyuna: Liar! I don't even drink that crap!
Dewey: Oh really? Then what were you doing near the coffee cart earlier?
Hyuna: I use the wooden stirrers to push back my cuticles. Everyone knows that, Dewey!
Mizi: Okay let's not fight. I broke the coffee it. Let me pay for it Luka.
Luka: No! Who broke it?!
Isaac: Luka... Till's been awfully quiet.
Till: Really?!
[Everyone starts arguing]
Luka: I broke it. I burned my hand so I punched it.
Luka: I predict 10 minutes from now they'll be at each other's throats with warpaint on their faces and a pig head on a stick.
Luka: Good. It was getting a little chummy around here.
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