#irl rant

[marshmellow-oxo]

I WANT ATTENTION AHHHHHH

SOME ONE, ANYONE LOOK AT ME

PLEASEEEEE

[mildarka]

gonna throttle my lecturer for not making the class page readable in the slightest like-

We have weekly tutorials but the lectures are only sorted by weeks up until week 3???????? And there's more lecture notes than there is weeks in the semester so sorting them is useless??? it doesn't make sense??

There's 6 extra drop down sections with nothing in them and some have notes on whats MEANT to be there but isn't.

There's an assignment page for an assignment that we don't have (which is empty of course). And another section lovingly titled "Section 33" which is, if you were curious, also fucking empty.

[kyuushiro]

the urge to be alone but i need people at the same time but people are so annoying

[thegoldenphantom]

When I get info about theme parks I wanna share but I can’t because legal reasons 😭 YALL I WANNA YAP I CANT CONTAIN THIS BUT I HAVE TO

[sonseru2004]

(TW: DRAMA FROM MY MOM'S WORK + LOST JOB AND UNEMPLOYED)

WTF YA PEOPLE FROM MY MOM'S WORK!

Welp last friday, my mom got fired from her work for no reasons or some false information reasons but she haven't done anything wrong bro >m<

She have been worked at Turkey hill for almost 11 damn years and SHE WAS IN HER MID 40S (44 ABOUT BE 45 UNTIL OCTOBER 2025 THIS YEAR BRO!!)

AS THE PEOPLE WHOEVER SAW IT IN FACEBOOK, THANK YOU WHOEVER REACHED OUT TO HER PERSONALLY

Unlike someone whoever fired her

. . .FUCK THEM! 💢

Anyways good thing she's fine but i smelled signs of exhaustion nor stress from her which i founded out that there were false information that wasn't happening at her work during some paperwork that she have to do (ya know getting the jobs done) which she's 24 years older than me ;–;"

and some hopes for many blessings and hugs there 🥺😭

(PS: AS I'M AFRAID THAT I WOULD RATHER NOT SHOW HER NAME THERE SO YEAH ;-;)

[bi-disastersoup]

Sending you warm and comforting vibes from an internet stranger. I hope the anxiety and depression become less crushing and you get to enjoy the joy in little things again 💕

🥺🥺🥺 You are so incredibly kind, internet stranger. Thank you.

I should maybe take the opportunity to clarify a couple things. I know I've been posting some mildly concerning things, at least in the tags, but let me assure everyone that my depression is not in any way life-threatening. It just drains my energy and motivation to do the things I love to do, which is exceptionally frustrating. The little things are all I really can find joy in at the moment because all the big things are too stressful or too bitter to bring me any joy, but that will change.

Some really exhausting shit has been going on, and every time I feel like I'm finally pulling myself clear, something else grabs on and drags me right back into the muck. My outbursts here are just me trying to relieve the pressure and frustration when that happens because I don't want to be held down anymore by this.

Anyway, I have found something that makes me irrationally happy, and if you scroll through my blog for the last like month or two you can see me clinging desperately to the serotonin. It is starting to make me angry that the depression persists, and I am starting to fight back out of pure spite because it's not fair that I have to be miserable just because my stupid depression says so.

There's a reason I took on the phoenix as my own personal symbol all the way back in highschool, and it's because even then I recognized that no matter what happens to me, I will always be okay, I will always pull through to the other side and recover. I'm a survivor, it's how I'm built. It just sucks in the meantime while I'm still going through it.

[zehnmou]

During a conversation on Facebook with someone, they told me these exact words "you being a Vietnamese with an Adler pfp made me laugh a bit", and I feel so seen 😭😭😭😭😭😭. I have been giggling ever since. Help, it's complicated.

[mikyx-daily]

[absolutely not league related so you can skip this] so i just had my finals and did pretty well and that means i'm officially a 12/12 semester med girlie and i can't fucking believe i'll be a doctor in 6 months like what the fuck six years went flying jesus fucking chirst i'm literally in my bed rn balling my eyes out for being so proud of myself + so fucking scared of the future at the same time. i bet things we'll be alright but i kinda just wanna sob today if that's ok

[cryoexorcist]

mild rant under the cut irl issues

has anyone else had issues with their food delivery driver getting so stupidly lost even with clear instructions on how to find your damn place? because i have to get my food redelivered. my driver got lost and drove around in circles for a half hour before giving up and pressing "food delivered" button. i am so fucking hangry right now I WANT MY FOOD.

why are delivery drivers kinda dumb though. if it's not issues with them eating your food, it's issues with them not knowing how to read instructions.

[matty-hatter]

Honestly super nervous to be starting college at WVU in a week. But I need to do this…..for myself. But I feel kinda guilty because my grandma lowkey gaslit me at first…..but I must stay strong and remember that in the end it’ll only be me, myself, and I. My family won’t be here my entire life and more than likely I will one day die alone, no family or friends, and afraid of what might be in the afterlife. Lol. God OCD anxiety gives me existential crises that are too deep.

[marshmellow-oxo]

Can Trump just keep his musty old man hands away from my fucking country, I swear to God. My country will NOT be a state of America. We fought for our country to stay separate in 1812. Maybe Alberta would agree(/hj), but the rest of us are fairly proud of being Canadian.

(I'm fucking leaving this place if we fall under American control.)

[feveredvisions]

job's gutting me rn and im bleeding raw and hot.

[oakthefrog]

I might move house in a year or so (it wont be too far from my family but its a different county, so i can go outside without seeing an old classmate or see somewhere thats triggering)

The place we’re looking at has decent amounts of shops and it has a train station and buses going through it so i can actually walk around and do shit (i live in the middle of nowhere kinda, nearest train station is a 20-30 min drive away and buses are rare unless its for school)

I’m excited, they have a pretty good high school there and I wanna do normal schooling for GCSEs (high school in Britain kinda)

[atlaskrr]

IF YOU THINK YOU KNOW ME IRL PLEASE SCROLL. NOW.

worst part abt current crush is that its NOT a straight girl or aroace for once. ITS A BI GIRL WITH A BF. bcs the thing is. i sort of like her nefore she even met her bf for the 1st time and weve been friends since like- 7-8th grade and were sorth of friends back in 5th. WHICH WAS A LONG.TIME AGO. and i def felt feelings when she had was crushing on her bf i just DIDNT KNOW IT. otherwise i wouldve stopped them faster DUH. BUT NOW IM IN DEEPPP. i thought i liked some other ppl but NO. its back to HER. and they like love at firsts sight. im DEAD. and she tells me stuff she doesnt tell her BESTIES. but also she has other ppl she tells stuff she doesnt tell to.me and im always late to the news like when she got tgt with her bf or the fact she had a crush at all so were not in eo close close circle but i do consider her a very close friend. when she was telling me the story of her crush before she and her bf got tgt she said she was still scarred from prev relationship (with a girl which i didnt know abt til they broke up) so shes more into guys now she thinks shes traumatized from dating girls for a while. when i tell you my heart DROPPED. now after some stuff she said its possibly a bit of internalized homophobia lies but idkkkkk. i never stood a chance hahahahahhahaha. and the thing is i dont like her bf and that may just seem like me being jealous but even one of her besties who im very close with agrees. ok. listen. this dude is religious in the bad way like even if i still believed in christianity my views would clash with his. which is fine. but he makes bad jokes like almost saying the n word (tho mainly only with his friend group but STILL) and hes kinda annoying idrk and thats what her bestie thinks too. and like. yk how shes bi. he doesnt support lgbt. but hes chill abt it ig???? but hes the person who think sexuality can be controlled. BITCH NO IT CANT. when she told me this my hatred for him just rised. im not supposed to tell anyone this but i cant take it so here i am online. ill rant to my bestie abt this ltr but i obv wont tell him her secrets but yk. hes just busy asf with no internet for long enough to call rant like i need and im suffering cause weve been texting more lately. like im out of the country and it was 4am for her. but she was up. texting ME. and if i died then what. and we have common interest like she also likes cool vids abt space and nature (specifically the deep sea). she watches the same shows as me. shes. AOUGH. she has such a comforting presence and she knows im very anxious so she makes sure like "im not ignoring you i just need to do this first" etcetc. shes so accomadating and caring. i cant do this. and she has the prettiest smile. ive always thought she looked pretty esp when she started wearing her hair down. what if i combust. the only downside i can find besides her yk, BEING TAKEN, is bl no gl (which isnt that big but still) but i think thats internalized homophobia which shes working through and jumps to sides very quick (but humans alas have flaws and i have way more than her lmao). also idk her views on palestine which is very important to me. oh and she doesnt wanna date anyone non chindo/dark skin but i think thats mainly due to years of upbringing under her crazy asf parents but its not like shes racist nor colorist as her 2 besties are literally balinese dark skin sooo. yea. maybe if i focus enough on the flaws itll deter me........ writing this out helped me sort through my thoughts smm

[sonseru2004]

(TW: passing and loss of the people irl)

I'm not sure how explain this to discovered from my mom last night that one of the daycare teachers of mine have passed away this year but i haven't heard everything from the daycare for a while until this now. . . .

Why is this always happening to me when to having a emotional breakdown from losing one of the people that i knew there but hey she's sometimes very spunky or stubborn but have a gentle heart in her ;–;"

[sendasan]

I wanted my first trip to my country of origin to be a symbolic testament of a healthy and stable milestone of independence, but it ended up being the opposite of where I am.

I hate that I was somewhat guilt tripped into a lose and lose situation with my family I'm still dependent on them in living in a HCOL. The only reason I didn't try to argue back too much is because my last living grandparent is there, and to see my nibling in person.

I'm certainly am not at my best in mental or social wellbeing either. I stick out so badly for them to give an impression of being painfully shy. I'm better off talking to strangers than my own relatives.

I hate that I'm still stuck in the same income range, even if they're adjusted to inflation. All the savings still ended up reset nearly the same number in my account.

I think what I hate the most is that they've invited that asshole into my family person space twice. I am mad that I hardly got informed in advance he would be coming. Hell, I'm mad I can't even walk out by my free will because of reputation crap.

I wish I could have tell them what that asshole did to me for nearly 20 years of my first life, but considering how they think or how I barely have proof to show it, I don't think anyone will believe me.

This is honestly one of the most gut wrenching feeling I have ever felt. I never really had a worst vacation in my life, because it has never gotten this bad but here we are.

I am still really of taking the hard steps of leaving my lifelong home for good. Even at the risk of further damaging my job prospects on the possible state to settle.

But at this point, I am just ready to get out alone. This day really tear my eyes open and I am just done.