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[rook-de-rivas]

If I put half as much effort into literally anything else in my life as I do into this fic, I’d probably be a billionaire

[veliseraptor]

once again petitioning for at least the temporary retirement of the word "problematic" in order to encourage more specific and precise language and force people to actually say what the issue is

"[x] is problematic because it depicts homophobia" okay but that doesn't actually tell me anything at all, try "[x] includes outdated stereotypes about gay people that go unquestioned/unchallenged by the narrative", more specific, more informative, less fucking obnoxious for me personally to read

[karalovesallthegirls]

My wife has convinced me that I should create a cohesive archive of all the little ficlets and blurbs I write on here, so I have made Maybe Someday, a collection of stories I may or may not expand on someday. I am slowly adding stories to it as I find them. I have only somewhat recently started tagging my posts so it’ll take some digging to find some of the older ones but I feel like it’s what I should do!

So that’ll update periodically if u even care

[ztrashblog]

not hot enough for tiktok fame

not naked enough for insta thirst

not mean enough for twitter clout

not cool enough for tumblr legacy

not nice enough to be loved IRL

stuck in a liminal space between aesthetics and irrelevance.

Fed go the algorithm like digital roadkill

posting anyway tho !! RAWR XP

[haenels]

ok but the resentment in rio's voice when she says "how long's it been agatha? since you acquired the darkhold, you hid behind all that dark magic"...

say agatha obtains the darkhold in return for nicky's life but ONLY bc she thinks hey his other mama is the literal personification of death and therefore wrongly believes it's possible for rio to covertly spare his life

but not only can't rio do anything to save their boy she's now tasked with this horrible job of ferrying their son away and that's where HER animosity towards agatha in the fight scene comes from

what if theyre just a divorced lesbian couple grieving and blaming each other for the loss of their baby boy 😭

[symbologic]

Law thought he'd need to change the world to honor Cora's sacrifice

But he was already living Cora's legacy: Simply by being with the people he loves, the family he created for himself in the wake of Cora setting him free

You'd almost expect Law to wander alone for years after Cora's death. And in a different story? I think that's likely what would've happened so the MC could finally show him what love means

But Law met Bepo and the others within a few days of Cora's death

And so Law fulfilled Cora's dying wish — continued to fulfill that wish everyday after that, even — without ever realizing it. There is something so devastatingly beautiful about that

[speedyphilosopherpanda]

The universe is too big. And I am so little.

[sunnemona]

☆i have lately been feeling pretty anxious with myself about the pace at which i create. it is difficult to feel like i am doing enough when my peers are doing more, difficult to balance my constant need for attention and admiration with how much "content" i can realistically create at any time, difficult not to be upset when my peers who create more often than i do receive more of the attention i crave than i do - it feels like i have missed a train and i am running to catch up with it. i am not burnt out, far from it, but i fear my light is not bright enough to reach others, i fear i am not doing enough to make it bright enough. does that make sense?

☆in case anyone needs to hear this, though i know this is likely a sentiment expressed many times before by people more eloquent than me, it is okay to not create all the time. it is okay to only create when you feel like it, to be unable to create on a schedule or to meet a self imposed deadline, to be unavailable to create because of obstacles like school or work or home management or disability, to be in a mental valley and be too tired or hurt or in pain to create. it is okay. you are not worth any less because of it. the world is not moving on without you, you will not become irrelevant because you have not posted in a week or cannot find it in yourself to draw something every day. creation is meant to bring joy, not stress, this is not a job, you are allowed to work at your own pace. there are no consequences to suffer for it. no matter what there will always be someone out there who will enjoy it, wholeheartedly. no matter how long it takes for you to create something or if you think you've been forgotten. you are allowed to want your creations to be loved by another. and they will be. rest if you need it

[smallest-turtle]

A mutual has brought up the apparent continuing discourse in the lies of p fandom about the puppets 'age' and in-fandom sexualization again and the two schools of thought about it

And while I will not make a comment on the 'morality' of it because that's silly I will make the point that I made in private to this mutual at the very beginning when the game first came out, which is.

[rook-de-rivas]

get to know my rook!

Name? Ashara de Riva

Gender? She/Her

Age? 29-31, depending

Are they more optimistic or pessimistic? Ash is very much neutral but she likes to think things will work out

Are they introverted or extroverted? Extroverted introvert — she can be who she needs to be but prefers quiet and her own company, or the company or a select few

How do they display affection? Despite being a de Riva, or maybe partially because of it, Ashara’s natural inclination is physical affection — an arm around the shoulder, a touch— but she’s also wildly uncomfortable with physical touch so she tends to default to leaving gifts for people— their favourite food, a book she thinks they’ll like, a piece of paper with a (terrible!) doodle

What is their greatest fear? Becoming a slave again is a big one, but rejection by her chosen family.

Do they have siblings? Older or younger? Only child

Did they grow up nurtured or neglected? Neglected. Ashara was born a slave as far as she knows, and was a slave until 5-6 when she was being transported for sale and the ship was overthrown. She then lived on the Treviso streets for a while.

What is the worst thing they did to someone they loved? That’s a tough one because Ashara would argue she’s never loved anyone (until Viago, Teia, Jacobus, Lucanis, her team, etc) but if you dig down to it, she once lied to Lucanis when they were young and she’s never stopped feeling guilty about it.

Has anyone ever saved their life? Viago saved her life when she tried to steal his coinpurse — while she was fleeing, she tried to make a jump she couldn’t possibly survive and he caught her by the scuff of the neck

Do they believe in love at first sight? No. She loves the idea of it in stories, but reality is rarely so kind

Are they in a relationship? She ends up with Viago in the end but as to whether they’re together— that depends on where in her timeline we are.

Has your character ever been in love? Yes. Like most Crows, she is very attached to her trainer / Talon / mentor, but unlike most, she never got over it. Very in love with Viago whether she wants to accept it or not

Are they most likely to fight with their fists or their tongue? Tongue first, but she’s a street rat at heart so she’ll fight if she has to

What is their choice of weapon? Necrotic blades — she has a tiny amount of magic but nothing useful

How many weapons they can use? As a Crow, she’s proficient with most weapons, but she prefers poisons and blades. Decent at archery— cannot swing a blade or weapon larger than she is though, and would be a terrible warrior!

If they could save one person, who would it be? Viago. Ashara is relatively well known amongst her contemporaries in the Crows for being very very quick to defend her Talon.

What is their greatest regret? She always wished she could’ve known her parents properly, but it was never a possibility. She regrets not getting that chance.

How do they respond to a threat? Poisoning it, usually. Or being sarcastic.

Tag (with no pressure): @deputyrook, @lady-ephemeral, @zozi-j, @fenrelmercar and all who want to play!

[veliseraptor]

look, i can understand that people like fluff, more power to them, but i don't really understand why. every time i end up reading it without even a hint of something else i'm just like. where's the spice? where's the flavor??

[jollyreginaldrancher]

Yellowjackets text posts 231-240

assuming my calculations are correct

[wildsaltair]

I need Maximus in the way that a starving forest creature needs meat, the way a thirsty desert cactus needs water, the way a Tamagotchi needs love and care

[unproduciblesmackdown]

revisited some parts of deh i hadn't in a while via obc boots, mostly kicked off by audio of an aus tour show, & it's like now hang on lol reevaluating the whole of heidi's material / that arc like i have been too generous what in the....kind of worked backwards from good for you b/c for that song i've Been like sympathetic re: alana & jared's sections while like Shrug at heidi like i'm on evan's side there really. but the whole thing is like, sympathy for heidi's feelings aside, i'm on evan's side b/c like yeah heidi has feelings & insecurities too but it's not the same peer to peer like fellow unpopular couple of students as parent to child & i'm looking at it all like The Whole Thread is heidi's insecurities as A Mother & the demand is on evan all the time to not just Not cause her insecurity but also assuage ones that have nothing to do with him, e.g. what's he supposed to say about digs at his dad's wife

& like really going over that First Scene i.e. opening scene post evan's soliloquy i.e. anybody have a map it's like. sure only increasingly like Oh Boy when evan not being able to order pizza despite the online option is met with the "you Need to be able to order dinner for yourself" ft. that he should be "too old for this" (disability....grow up) (not a direct quote but rather yknow the "you're a senior in high school, evan" intro) & nothing about like, support or alternatives, certainly nothing about it being Okay that he couldn't. just that he Has to do this thing this way (why. or else what.) & also just the simple fact that evan has been honest about "something wrong with him" / something he did that he figures she wouldn't like & gotten this wholly negative response about that just being Unacceptable to hear, regardless of the "positive" pivot like you can do it re: school, just must not be Trying enough, just must be evan's own attitude or something else about him, the letters had better help....& all this revisiting inspired by beau woodbridge evan's delivery after heidi says the line about Her Not Wanting To Hear (framed about Her Feelings if evan were to Tell her about this) about evan having no friends, & like the delivery of "neither do i??" like a sort of nonplussed indignation that is a kind of "how do you think *i* feel about it??" like no yeah what about evan's feelings about him dealing with his problems here, the one not having dinner, not having friends, not Not having anxiety, etc. like obviously heidi like every person ever has feelings & problems too but it's that the parent's problems are supposed to be Made Up For by the child somehow, while evan's problems are framed as Being A Problem for his mom, how she feels about Knowing about it, try harder please okay evan....but cue, yknow, how she resents evan feeling any responsibility for Her Problems in gfy yknow not insofar as she's been embarrassed to tell him like "yeah money is a problem" when it's been about pushing him to get scholarships but rather when the murphys know (maybe just via evan implying they're Not Rich to zoe after zoe is like ah, to be poor....) that heidi will need Financial Support for college for evan & then heidi like i'm not That poor & to take money would be wrong (always the reminder heidi does not know everything re: evan & connor isn't true either)

which, that last part of her dinner at the murphys pre gfy was really this time hitting like ://// whew okay. all of it always grating lmao but like, "i don't want evan to get the idea etc" like ma'am he's sitting right here? he's seventeen? can't just Declare the ideas evan will or won't absorb even though like yeah also clearly it's about her pride as A Good Mom being wounded & just putting it on evan by expressing it that way like no i have to be A Good Mom via my example, is why i must decline....& like i'm sure it can all be softened depending on how heidi is played but still like, this is about her Full Story / Material, & just what is written lol like even if she was more [pensive emoji single tear] in delivery or something, vs watching the obc like full anger & contempt by this point & i'm like yeah this Shouldn't be familiar if the excuse of like "well heidi is messing up in this Special Occasion, an outlier" really went that far. or was actually out of line w/how she acts other times. or how this all resolves. but heidi storming out While lashing out at evan / blaming him like my god lmfaooo & like. speaking of "do you think the murphy parents did read between the lines & think evan & connor are secret gay high school lovers" like gee evan having no problem moving in to the murphy household, keeping secrets from his mom like his ostensible epic friendship w/connor, not talking aobut her or really trying on his own to involve her, being fairly alarmed when Surprise Dinner With Your Mom, heidi acting like That??? like "do you think the murphy parents read between the lines to think evan is abused by his parent" i mean like lol lmfaooo on both points like heternormativity? the normativity of abuse & parents Owning their child as well? in the murphy household? but you know. of course no deh is not supposed to be about that but i'm like, uh oh, whole time i was like "well my own perspective based on what i learned from personal experience & then learned About such experiences isn't that relevant at least to heidi b/c it's supposed to be that she's Not Like That at the end of the day" but i'm like is it in effect though lol, is it really that different In Essence if not also like "yep the way heidi acts is just directly familiar sometimes. maybe often. or always" difference in degree like. plus just that how often is whatever particular lens/perspective like Useless to apply

anyway & that fight in the leadup to gfy is wild & just like further illuminating re: how the whole time, from the first scene, it's like okay to heidi what's most important in her motivations is Her Insecurity about how anything about evan supposedly reflects on her being a mom, like. again that heidi has no idea everything about evan & connor isn't true & she's just going sicko mode at evan b/c the murphys Aren't His Family, yknow, She is, & that entitlement that's supposed to come with it, evan can't have these other adults acting Parently towards him re: money & housing & dinners & feeling fond of him or anything, all circumventing her status as His Mother....the whole "sorry i can't give you more than that, shit" "well it's not my fault other people can" like yeah sorry about your feelings heidi, yeah it's not "nice" of evan to say that but i'm not like yes evan must never even think things that aren't nice(tm) much less say them, that again like even if we sympathize w/heidi there b/c obviously yeah she'd be hurt & feel insecure. even if we suppose that was mean of evan. i'm like well yeah he's right. just setting aside the apparent universal desire for a life as closely approximating the brady bunch as possible, it's like hey yeah look evan's been getting dinners this way, re: him not ordering a pizza at the start of a show. turning out to be less important like "well at least you've been eating, good" than evan not doing so through the Proper efforts to Become Normal(tm) & of course that like. coming from another mom staying home making him food is unacceptable b/c she imagines this is supplanting her / making her the Bad Mom vs this Good Mom & then taking it out on evan to make her feel Good Enough(tm) like truly just the usual fallback refrain of "ohh sorry i'm not perfect / have feelings / have problems" which is true for everyone ever but yknow evan is the one having to Defend his feelings & problems & imperfections against the fallout of "failing" to be "responsible" for mitigating or fulfilling heidi's & she's the one who can break out "i'm your mother" whereas evan's less overtly declared "i'm your son" about her potentially failing Him is what gets met with more contempt & "ohh sorry i'm not perfect & have feelings & problems" & her starting off Good For You. great

& like the way All That illustrates, like the way evan getting dinner now through a different now available avenue is, to heidi, more about her own feelings than about [evan gets dinner now], like just that expanded to how it's not Okay that evan's problems seem to be getting better / he's getting more support / he's doing better or anything as soon as heidi becomes insecure about her not having the role she wants in it. the entire thread about her being bothered about evan not telling her things, lying about things, hiding things, like yeah evident that she Is worried about him but same as she's evidently worried about him in the first scene, when, again, we Did see him share something honestly with her & she was like "UGH evan jeez i Hate that you told me this" & then her input is to tell him to Get Good, yknow, must be his own failures, get on that. gosh why would he keep anything from her. & then yknow we have that line later on, evan like you don't know me & heidi like "i thought i did" (contempt again) & like the main issue of this not being like "oh no if i Don't know him or about his problems then i'm not supporting him like i thought i was / he's not getting the support Overall i thought he was" but rather like i can't believe evan is doing this to me / her insecurities & evan's "responsibility" for them, again, rather than yknow. evan's wellbeing regardless of her personal feelings? & we're ready for resolution after heidi inadvertently reads his diary to realize he was that sad & it's like. even if he wasn't That Sad like none of that response was okay. at any point lol like it's still the issue of her dynamic with him where evan is In Charge Of how heidi feels & that obviously she can act on this in the ways she can & what can evan do about anything but avoid her / not share things / idk indeed move in with this other family lol, sorry about the pretenses (also obviously like. murphy parents not doing that much better. certainly larry like, are you kidding? never changes his mind that all connor's problems were connor's fault & Failings & now his reaction to it is about facing any insecurity & Rejecting It as no i'm always right & just have to hold out forever. vs that zoe is also bearing the brunt of being Trapped In The Family(tm) but cynthia dares to be like "no, i feel like i failed my dead son" & "no, i don't feel someone 'has to be the bad guy' who tramples boundaries")

like speaking of boundaries. ppl having always pointed out "uh oh, heidi's not good with those" or the point like "in gfy heidi's also mad about the rejection by her ex-husband & just putting that over her fight w/evan" like not beating the [parent making their child the one in charge of them & their feelings & actions] allegations.......

& you know, the resolution like "ohh you were sadder than i knew" like okay Now that matters instead of heidi Just being insecure that he wasn't sharing this with her already, thus the important part being how that makes her feel like a bad mom vs like, how evan is actually doing & her actual role in this beyond what makes her feel best, personally? or that like oh i'm Not going to not be here, physically, in this house....like okay. but what about the actual dynamic you have while around him & you will always be around him, b/c like, has that changed from the start. how is heidi going to offer support re: evan Feeling Like This that's different from "you Need to order pizza and Need to get your cast signed, Just Do It" or that b/c she doesn't want to hear otherwise like well then of course evan won't tell her, or maybe a therapist if that's not confidential, or other people if it'll get back to his mom, or the internet if that'll get back to his mom which i guess it will. is evan gonna be not in charge of her feelings anymore. i'm just like yeah evan find yourself in college sure get outta there idk if you're even rude along the way. & obv shoot larry into the sun

[mexican-neji]

why do people write naruto fics and tag the whole entire konoha 13 girl if your fic is about sasusaku why is tenten just randomly thrown in the 50 billion tags just for being mentioned like once 😭💀

[homoangel]

...sorry ¯\_(ツ)_/¯