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singwhenyoucantspeak · 1 year

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the thing about being a musician... is that sometimes that feeling of musical and artistic chemistry trumps pretty much everything else and also becomes everything else. like daisy and billy need to completely unravel eachother and will never not be drawn to eachother because of it. and he can never relax the same way with camila anymore because he feels responsible to her and also she is a reminder of the worst time of his life and his biggest mistakes. unfortunately none of that means he doesnt still love her. and she clearly deserves the world good lord. but also that artistic chemistry is not something you can just walk away from.

#i did not expect to care about shippy things with this show TBH #especially not straight ones lmao #i just was here for the music but good lord the chemistry in their voices #anyway my point is that the one time after i came out that i was most tempted to hook up with a man #was when i was in a band and the guitarist and i spoke the same music language #like if he hadnt had a longtime gf and i hadnt been so idk insecure i guess #that would have happened LOL #actually come to think of it if it had been just a few years later i probably wouldnt have been so concerned about the gf situation since i #apparently no longer care about being a home wrecker lmao #and when the band broke up (and it was basically him and the drummer breaking up with me and the bassist)#it really felt like an actual breakup #the bassist and i continued to try to make music together but we never had the same vibe #lmao he wanted me to quit my masters program to move to LA with him #i wasnt gonna do that for him but i might have for the guitarist if he'd been that serious about it #anyway point is good musical chemistry does make you go a little insane #colleen watches daisy jones & the six #also #personal #i guess cuz all those tags lmaoo

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pepperpixel · 10 months

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“Can't remember when we walked past the O.R. sign!

(sur-ger-y!)

Can't remember passing out with her hand in mine!

(my-my-mind!!!!)

I remember waking up with my mind repaired.

(A-OK! ^^)

I remember when I realized, she wasn't there...”

Amnesia was her name….. is. so. horrifically. sadly fitting for these two in literally every single line. And I’m gonna NEED ALL OF U GUYS TO GO LISTEN TO IT NOW OK… THIS ISNT A DRILL GO GO GO GO!!!

Anyway… uhh. the fact Betty “blessed” this guy to like. An eternally long lifespan w THIS FUCKED UP OF A MENTAL STATE IS SO SCREWED UP GHGH- Like poor Simon god damn…! u kno he’d rather just keep on not sorting out his baggage and trauma forever too cuz it’d be too complicated… too much… force him to admit things about himself and about BETTY that he really really doesn’t want to… better to just leave it all unexamined.. pack it all into lil boxes so he can just try to ignore it and pretend it doesn’t exist… HE GOTTA LIVE FOREVER W IT THO… *ME BANGING ON SIMONS DOOR AT 3 IN THE MORNING*: “SIMON U GOTTA ACCEPT URSELF!!!! LOVE URSELF!!!! ACKNOWLEDGE N ACCEPT EVEN THE “BAD” PARTS OF URSELF!!!! SIMON PLEASE!!!!! SIMON EVEN PPL WHO LOVE YOU AND WHO YOU LOVE CAN HURT YOU!!!! ACKNOWLEDGE IT!!! ACKNOWLEDGE THE HURT AND ACKNOWLEDGE UR FEELINGS!!!! AND URSELF!!!!! SIMON!!!!” anyway… gGHGH YEA, SRRY. SIMON PETRIKOVS MENTAL ILLNESSES MAKE ME FEEL LIKE IM GONNA EXPLODE. ANYWAY HAVE SOME ART. W a bunch of diff versions cuz I’m indecisive!

#adventure time #simon petrikov #betty grof #petrigrof #doodles #lol at tagging this petrigroff but nah I stand by it man!!!!#being a petrigroff shipper is understanding that I’m actually canon these two need som fuckin COUPLES COUNSELING. OR TO JUST BREAKUP.#like….. gGHG I LOVE BETTY BUT ALSO. ALSO… also…. these 2 have some issues… seperate and together issues. lmao #ANYWAY THO. ANYWAY THO. IM SO FUCKING EXCITED. I SAW THE NEW TRAILER. IM GONNA DIE. MY WIFE I GOT TO SEE MY WIFE #AND WERE ACTUSLLY GONNA GET SIMON MENTAL STATE SHIT YEAHHHHH!!!!#HELL FUCKING YEAH!!!!!!!!!#FIONNA AND CAKE DO NOT LET THIS NERD KEEP RUNNING AWAY FROM HIS FEELINGS FUCKING GET HIS ASS!!! MAKE HIM FACE IT AND WORK THRU IT!!!#pls!!!! if even Simon Petrikovs can start working thru his mental traumas there might be hope for all of us ghghg #uh but anyway yeah. AMBESIA IS HER NAME IS SO THEM.. STRAIGHT UP I FELT THE URGE TO EVEN LIKE. make an animatic for it!! it was so fitting!#im not gonna make an animatic cuz I don’t feel like it but!!! I saw it… I saw the animatic in my brain ghghg-#there’s a lot of typos in these tags but. just do me a favor… and pretend like there aren’t lol #fionna and cake #am I…. possibly…. projecting more mental trauma and issues on Simon. then he ACTUALLY has…#probably. yes. but!!!! he def still DOES have issues. I feel like I’m probably exaggerating the Betty ones cuz he #never really outright expresses feeling hurt by her. but also I feel like!!!! he’s the sorta guy!!! WHO WOULDNT EXPRESS THAT!#cuz he loves her!!!!! sO MUCH!! and she did so much and pushed herself so far and was trying so hard… and also she’s fucking basically d #dead now!!!! it’d be like. disrespectful of her memory…. to feel that. also what’s even the point of expressing that pain she’s gone!!!!!#she did all of that.. for him… how could he…. just. spit in the face of that #im writing those last few tags in the he perspective of simons mind btw… the things he tells himself….#anyway gGHG MAYBE I AM PROBABLY PROJECTING MORE ISSUES ON HIM THEN HE ACTUALLY HAS BUT WHO CARES MAN #I’m allowed ghghgh-#I wanna draw art of Simon having a traumatic flashback to the ‘Dont worry ull be obliterated soon!’ line and hating himself for it #ice king isn’t him!!! it isn’t him! it’s not him!!! why does that hurt it shouldn’t hurt she wasn’t talking to HIM #BUT SHE WAS #SHE WAS… she didn’t think of the ice king as Simon but he IS… HE IS AND JUST. URGHGH

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camgoloud · 2 months

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you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

#‘out of nowhere’ she says like she hasn’t been doing a lot of reading/thinking recently about various tragic messy breakups #and the later regrets of the parties involved #anyway. tell me not to text her #it’s been over two years since the last time we talked… absolutely no reason to break that streak now. lord give me strength #she was really fucking mean to me! like objectively intentionally unwarrantedly cruel! it ruined an entire year of my life #and fundamentally changed me as a person on a deep level! there’s a lot of things i used to like about myself that i don’t think i’m ever #going to get back #and yet every once in a while we have to do the whole ‘maybe i could make things right’ song and dance 😔#the thing is most of the time i’m not even really angry with her anymore like enough time has passed since all the shit went down that #really i just sort of look at her behavior and feel sad. both because of the impact on me but also because of the ‘that’s really how you #felt you needed to act towards someone who cared about you? you couldn’t have just expressed your feelings in an honest and productive way #instead of just lashing out in the cruelest possible way and ruining the entire relationship beyond hope of repair?’#and i feel bad and sorry that it went that way and honestly i kind of pity her and hope she’s gotten some of her shit worked out #so i’m not like. actively pissed off at her anymore. but also i can’t think about her without thinking about the worst year of my life so 🙃#i don’t actually feel that trying to reopen that door would be very healthy for me at least #we did try a Reconciliation of sorts a couple of months after the initial falling-out and while it was kind of helpful for me in that she #like. apologized lmao. and affirmed that i wasn’t crazy and she did in fact On Purpose say the most hurtful things she possibly could have #said to me given the information she had at her disposal. and that i really had not done anything to her that could warrant that. etc.#it also left a sour enough taste in my mouth that i just don’t see a future where the two of us spending time together is enjoyable for me #and yet… the regret will always live inside me i think. maybe if i were a stronger person…#caseyposting

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toastsnaffler · 8 days

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dating an art student was so crazy I'm just thinking abt that one birthday I had where my ex got me stickers from the etsy of the person they were cheating on me with....

#they made them address the thank you note to me and everything ajskfjfkfb. i didnt know they were cheating at the time but wow...#every time i break out my sticker collection and see them im reminded of it. but i cant throw out the stickers theyre deltarune ones 😭#like they were a rly cool artist.... just unfortunate that happened 💀#the drama was insane. my ex only wanted to sleep with them but they (other person) wanted them to break up with me so they could date #but my ex dumped them rly harshly for suggesting that i guess 'romantic' cheating was a step too far even for them lmaooo #i heard abt their breakup secondhand and god could they be cruel sometimes. they made fun of the sex theyd had w them #to all their mutual friends n everything i actually felt so bad for the other person when i found out. at least our breakup wasnt that bad #i only finally got that cruel side of them directed towards me like a year after when they wanted us to stop being friends #but yeah. its also funny in a way bc my ex only suggested i had adhd bc the other person did too + struggled a lot with rsd #which i guess they found out when they broke up with them. and then looked at that and thought huh my gf is kind of similar...#and this was like. 2 years before i even considered i had adhd myself and sought diagnosis ahdkfidjcjdjfjfjfkdbfnf #this made me go look the other persons art page up on instagram + then i recognised some of their friends/flatmates art pages and i found #their (my exs that is) grad year film which is still being shown at animation festivals... good for them good for them #i dont think they have an art page themselves tho cuz they were always v shy and weird abt sharing art on social media #like everyone else except them is tagged on things... shame i wouldve liked to see what they were making now. even if we're not friends #also one of their old roommates made some REALLY similar squid game fanart to mine like a month after i posted it huh..#not mad abt it or anything i think its cool i just didnt realise they showed my art to their friends. thats cute #ah this was years ago anyway. getting my head out of the rabbit hole #im gonna go play some elden ring and then maybe do smth fun in my sketchbook we shall seeee #.diaries

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itspileofgoodthings · 1 year

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weird take but I’m fascinated by the use of pronouns in pop music and I think they’re really important and telling

#who are you speaking to? who are you talking about? is it real?#do you mean it?#there’s a range you know #I was thinking about Kelly for example and there’s literally only two times I believe she’s speaking to a real person #and it’s about her dad and that one Christmas song where her ex-husband’s presence is truly felt #Lorde has never spoken to a person in a single song EVER #which used to be fine but then she started telling people to worship the sun and it was like lorde pls #Olivia rodrigo DEFINITELY talking to a person but it was the same one and a very milquetoast person and so it was like girl pls #Maisie is interesting because she’s drifting away from really personal use of pronouns #to something where it’s more about the statement she can make AT them #and it’s personally not working for me though she is actually capable of being very personal #this is honestly why I hate Boy #You can tell she created it in a void just to be mean to an idea of a person #and it’s not about the Person actually being real! because outdoor pool is i believe fictional #and it’s SO true and personal #John Hughes movie too #but lost the breakup (a song I enjoy) not sung to a real person!#and then of course there’s Taylor the most personal user of pronouns there ever was #she can make you feel someone’s whole presence with one use of a pronoun!#like the other girl in girl at home. Or the Great War t b h !!!!#(Katy Perry has never sung to a person in her LIFE but has never pretended to. Adele pretends to but doesn’t. Her one exception? Her kid!)#Okay done speaking on this #This is just how I experience the world akskkdkdjdjdjjejejehehe #If you’re talking and you say ‘we’ or ‘they’ or ‘you’ my heart is just so touched!

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sakebytheriver · 6 months

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#i wish my brain would stop fixating on this friendship breakup but its just so frustrating and annoying #the way she tells me shes 'done with second chances' as ive felt for months now that i had to be on edge and walk on eggshells around her #the way she always made me the bad guy and had me convinced i was the problem and that i just had to ignore the feeling in my gut that this #friendship was really one sided and broken in a way where i had to always be perfect or else i would be abandoned #the more i go over everything the more im realizing just how toxic she was to me and just how much she built the friendship in a way #that made me feel so unstable and uncomfortable and like i would always have to swallow her bullshit because shed never change for me #but she would constantly tell me how i needed to change for her #its frustrating to get dumped by someone who had you convinced you were the toxic one when in reality it was actually them

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tiredofthehumanlife · 4 months

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Yk the breakup is bad when you're dancing with your shoes off and eating a box of fries in a public place with zero music

#those kids looked at me weird too #idek if it even counts as a breakup #i dont think we actually dated we really only talked tbh #felt like a breakup #there were tears #and a lot of apologies #it was civil i think #literally it was like max 1.5 months i need to take a walk #breakup #dating #men

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thestarsarecool · 2 years

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“I suppose the story was that [John and I] were pretty close in the beginning when we were writing stuff together. We felt alot of sympathy for each other, although on a personal level, based on a lot of stuff that went down later, I obviously wasn’t that close to him. To me, he was a fella, and you don’t get that close to fellas. I felt very close to him, but from alot of what he said later, obviously, I was missing in the picture. But anyway, I felt very close to him then and when the Beatles started to feel the strain towards the last couple of years, it was getting to be a bit of a strain and we were drifting more apart. I think the kind of anchor that had held us together was still there.”

— Paul McCartney, Music Express, 1982

#my quotes #what a fucking MESS #he literally goes #yes we were close #but I guess based on the beatles breakup we weren’t actually close #well that’s just normal cause we’re fellas #but I actually did feel really close to him #but I guess it was all a lie based on what he said later #but I still felt very close to him #but we broke up #but we were still together #like holy FUCK the back and forth and internal contradiction here is INSANE #it’s almost as bad as that April 1970 rolling stone interview #where he literally says that he and john used to call each other and they never called each other in the same breath #anyways though #sometimes I actually doubt paul and john were that close and I think that paul has just been convincing himself otherwise since 1989ish #but quotes like this actually convince me otherwise #where paul 100% believed they were close but the breakup shattered this belief #and since he never understood why john left #he feels he has to retroactively conclude they weren’t close #but that’s a retroactive assessment #ANYWAY #the best paul interviews are from 1970-1971/1981-1984/1998-2001 #cause for some reason when something traumatic happens something switches in his brain and he forgets how to lie #this may be my favorite paul interview btw #paul mccartney #john lennon #the beatles #beatles

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aro-culture-is · 2 years

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Aro culture is realizing not ever being heartbroken over breakups is not allo

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#Anonymous #aro culture is #aro #aromantic #actually aro #actually aromantic #ask #mod axel #honestly like. how you process breakups is really individual and idk that there's a distinct pattern to allo/aro responses #even though i wanted to break up with my ex i was heartbroken afterwards because she responded very poorly and i felt like it was my fault

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kiiros-paint-bucket · 2 years

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“…and, god, no! of course i don’t wanna feel better!! can you fucking imagine?!” (/ly)

#flynn watch out the twins are gonna attack you… oh god they’re still upset over the fact that they had to indirectly watch the first-#-person they felt they could trust in years burn alive and they’re distracted from brooding over it and can’t hear us. oh god. oh fuck.#anyway hi oc lore go #this was originally inspired by a cover of it means everything from omori but then i started listening to feel better by penelope scott #(which is where i got the caption from)#and i was like “wait this works really well actually”#like i know that song is probably about a breakup or realizing how terribly a past friend/partner treated you but yknow what #it’s *MY* oc and *I* get to choose what songs fit them and their arc!!!!#lots of thoughts surrounding this one as you can see #terraria #terraria fanart #terraria oc #terraria ocs #terraria boss #terraria bosses #twins #the twins #terraria twins #terraria the twins #twins terraria #the twins terraria #fanart #art #digital art #artists on tumblr #procreate #oc #original character

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bansheesofinisherin2022 · 1 year

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#sorry if this has been done yet #i actually do not think they were gay but it really felt like a bad breakup and the meme fits #actually dunno if they were gay or not - it didnt matetr #the banshees of inisherin #i'm soooo normal about this movie #p

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tamaharu · 8 months

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a sumi haircut variation ive been testing out. i wanna say its a bit post-canon, not too far off, maybe a year or so. hasnt quite figured out what to do with herself yet, but shes getting there. only a little ways away from graduation.

#the clock chimes at midnight #selk.art #okay because im going stir crazy in my beautiful mind here. i forgot where everyone in the royal ending went so ive just kinda been doing a #post canon au based entirely arnd sumire and the only person whos really gone is ren. the others are in school and stuff still lol #ANYWAYS she and ren start dating a few weeks before 2/3 and after they restore the world its a very tumultuous start considering ren #immediately gets sent to jail. even after he gets out theyre both grieving akechi + it feels like theyre just going through the motions.#everyones like omg we could tell this was gonna happen! and it makes them uncomfortable for reasons they cant articulate #ren is using sumire to get over akechi + sumire is modeling rens identity + both see akechi in the other and are sad abt it #on top of all that they get into a huge fight when sumire learns rens leaving in like. a month. and she didnt know.#(he genuinely didnt realize she didnt know but gets bitchy in return)#they try to make it work long distance for a month/two but eventually mutually breakup (both a little bitter but agree to remain friends)#overall its a cute relationship with um . very odd undertones.#anyways she still wears her hair straight up or straight down during all that point. HAHAHA remember this is abt hair!#after ren leaves she latches onto ann + ryuji who are still going to school w her. and after the breakup simply bc #ryuji is a Boy and sumire is a Girl and They Enjoy Being Around Each Other they both reflexively think abt getting together #sumire starts to imitate him (bc for some weird reason she keeps wanting to be like boys!) and ryuji is like am i breaking bro code rn..#nothing ever happens bc neither actually wants to date the other and ann is always hanging around but its an odd time for everyone #she bleaches the tips of her hair for a little bit but its so small when she gets it chopped off its like nothing happened lol #this is probably around third year when ann/ryuji have graduated and the only thief around is futaba.#and. please nobody kill me for this. i think the two have interesting thematic similarities but the ship between them has always felt like #pairing the same-age spares to me. and i havent read anything thats convinced me of its full potential yet.#that to say i think theyre friendly but not super close. so sumire has to learn to just. exist by herself for the first time in years.#like i said this is probably when this actual haircut starts getting used. shes figuring it out!#after she graduates shes the first one to find akechi again and theyre both doing a lot better and become very close.#they move in together! platonically! unless...? but thats not the point! akechi helps her realize shes transmasc at which point she gets a #real short haircut. i cant decide. theres one thats like a curly haired bob almost and one thats shorter + looks kinda windswept #and thats all the haircut hcs i have for her postcanon timeline! spreads hands jazz hands. not all the timeline hcs but my thumbs r tired.

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halfdeadfriedrice · 1 year

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filling out an application to join my work LGBT diversity committee and one of the application prompts about prior experience reminded me about the time i tried to join the local bi group meetup and the leader of the group ... was somehow both overly concerned with bi erasure and yet was so actively biphobic....

#the main reason i left the group was actually (my own) dating/breakup shenanigans #and then being friendly with someone prompting them to ask me for rides places bc they didn't have transport #but i didn't live near them so this was like #not going to happen #and yet it felt v uncomfortable #also one of my favorite group members was like 'actually i'm a lesbian' and left the group #which sort of gave the whole thing a like 'is this really how we want to define things?'#this prompted one of my original 'i like queer but everyone always wants specifics and it feels like copping out WHAT AM I' spirals #anyway it's been like 5 years or something i ought to try coordinating with the local groups again #maybe she's gone #half dead fried life

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cum-roll · 2 years

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i actually like strange new worlds so much

#i don't really mind t'spock as long as we're gonna have a dramatic breakup with possibly stonn in the background #i just think they're sweet and there's no reason they shouldn't remain besties after breakup #but i agree it's weird to see spock with a woman he;s so gay #but hey good for them #ok heavier spoilers later #ok #and i really hope they don't fuck up sybok #i like him so much and i so look forward to seeing him in his daddy era #and he has a non-binary partner!! they're queer!#i love angel so much they're so cool and i just felt that they're there to fuck! shit! up!#my brain goes brr after the last epiosde #and i really hope to see pike interested in men #because girl #i just do #he's lgbt shaped #ok that's about it #actually today i wrote two 700-900 word essays and i am s dead what am i doing to myself #star trek #star trek strange new worlds #star trek snw #christopher pike #spock #t'pring #t'spock #sybok #star trek angel #young master is saying things??

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disemboweled-fish-pastry · 2 years

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Little Yoosung's medical lab coat came in yesterday. He's an official phD!

Everyone knows having a medical jacket makes you a phD.

#on another note. let me vent just a bit in these lonesome tags.#not gonna like. in some ways the Ssum has made me feel a bit sadder. I visit the bamboo planet daily and too often do some of the confessio #ns remind me of how things ended with my last breakup. Many things sound alike and the people posting them have such a hatred for their ex.#Makes me wonder if my ex hates me that much too.#I actually had a dream about her a couple nights ago. We were friendly together. It felt weird because my body knows that would be an impo #ssible dream. So it had weird vibes.#On another note!!! I'm always thinking about Yoosung and that cheers me up. but it's also kind of bittersweet. because while yes thinking #him and hearing him and playing the game with him there makes me feel so happy #I also can't feel his sweet words as if they were for me. He's so sweet. but it doesn't feel like he's talking to me somehow. I think my #mind automatically supresses the ability to feel like it's for me as a defense mechanism.#because he's not real and I can't know if he'd love me as I am.#Also I wish I could really feel him and hug him. Gosh that sounds so sad lol. Thanks jeebus for body pillows. but still it's different from #holding the person you love.#I get so lonely and touch starved. I guess.#but no worries!! I manage somehow! and Just knowing Yoosung exists feels so nice by itself. ☺️#private later #honestly... Im not as tame as MC. I'm a lot more like 7. Could he still want a girl who might be stranger than seven?

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tempesthreads · 2 years

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I'm so tired and need to work but I just want to say how...relieving the process has been for me this few weeks or so of letting go of toxic people, making new friends, and reaching out and reconnecting with old friends. After being in a particularly shitty 'friendship' (it honestly felt more parasitical than anything sometimes), it was so weird to meet people who respect my boundaries and listened to what I had to say, rather than just use me to satisfy their own wants or needs. I'm still working on making sure I set and keep those boundaries up, but yeah. I'm glad I'm making progress.

#tempest talks #Mutuals i love you so much.#You know who you are. I love you so so so much. Thank you for bearing with me.#very long vent in tags:#I gave this toxic person a second chance because technically I had a friendship breakup with them once before.#But ultimately realized how unhappy I was talking to them #And how fundamentally different our ideologies were.#It's not to say people with different opinions can't be friends with each other.#But this person checked off so many of my personal 'red flags' and I just ignored them #because I felt bad about breaking up a relationship they seemed happy in #but spoiler alert: I was not happy in that relationship at all and it almost definitely wasn't healthy.#Ending that relationship was probably the best thing I could've done for myself.#And I'm so so so proud of myself for actually standing up for myself for once and getting myself out of a situation that made me unhappy.#Like this person is blocked from my blogs but if they're somehow reading this:#No I don't have regrets about ending our relationship. You have a lot of stuff you need to work through #and you really need to ask yourself how you view 'friends' and how you treat them.#Because from the perspective of one of your ex-friends: you are self-centered and do not give a flying fuck about your 'friends"#Correction: You do give a few fucks. But you're still self-centered and fail to listen to them when they set boundaries.#And you expect them to comfort you in a crisis when you offer the bare minimum back when they need help.#You also display a very concerning amount of ignorance when it comes to current events and history that is very important to acknowledge.#And yet for some reason you think you know better about the politics and injustices in my country than *me* a person living there?#All because you asked your parent? Who is also not from my country or living here???#You have a lot of privilege due to the way you were born. And you don't acknowledge it.#Anyway please stay off my blog thanks.#Yes this is loaded with salt #but I wish you the best with whatever you're up to now.#and I hope you learn and grow to be a better friend and human being in general.

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