#it was soooo much fun seeing my name in the credits

[laylaisthename]

ILW // Here they are! All 7 different end cards you can get in the many many more variations of the niche endings available in the game.

Google Drive Link to the cgs here

I am beyond honored to have been allowed to leave my own mark in the game like this, and honestly never in a million years expected to actually become involved with the game.

Everyone is fine to use these as phone backgrounds but if you do youre legally required to tell me which one is your favorite.

Putting it under the cut for length, but here's a breakdown of each card;

Starting with the Evil!MC end cards, that are lovingly dubbed Judas' Kiss if you stayed with Matty, or Scorched Earth for MC's solo end.

The images really mostly speaks for themselves; the flaming heart, hand in atrocious hand if you chose to share the power with Matthias, but then when you put it next to the solo end is where it got fun for me. The heart is broken, its just you now, but the glowing eyes are smiling. My first time testing the judas kiss route I did not hestiate for a second to hit "kill him"

Next is the death card

I really liked the idea of (if your mc wasnt a huge dick anyway) that they give you a grave outside the cave, something for people to leave Rowan flowers and gifts. A classic grave didnt quite feel like it fit so I settled on a cairn. It felt very fitting with the Power being a respect for nature and such. I set it to be at night, with moonlight streaming down on the grave to give it a melancholic sort of feeling, with the sun charm sunny gives you strung off it, and then placed flowers at the grave to kinda show that people have come by because they care about Rowan. Meanings for the flowers are below and while not canon, I like to think each of the LI's left behind one of them; red roses from Abel, blue violets from Amalia, sunflowers from Lincoln and the marigolds from Joss, though really they were all chosen more generally.

Onto the blood end card! Which I named New Horizons, and not because of animal crossing. A winding road in the mountains at sunset; the road has been long, it has been hard and now youre choosing to move on. Symbolically what i wanted this card to be is that feeling of leaving everything behind. The sun is setting on your old life as you go to embrace the normal life that Blood MC wants so much. Youre on the top road moving around the bend, not sure where life will take you but that's alright, you have the rest of your life to look forward to figure out where you'll go.

Onto my own canon end; the Mixed end!

Lovingly called "Best of Both Worlds" because mixed rowan is playing that hannah montanna life. More seriously; this card in contrast to the blood end is not about leaving everything behind, but embracing what you are. The card itself is set at dawn to contrast this; soft yellows and pinks, morning dew and fog clinging to the forest floor with a streak of Power playfully dancing among the trees. Its the dawn of a new day, seeing everything in new light after the darkness of the past weeks/years rowan spent trying to understand themselves. It's my personal favorite end even if my mc and Linc gotta do long distance for a while. But to me its about accepting yourself; moving on from the grief of losing your family without alienating yourself from your memories of them and embracing that Power side of yourself without being changed by it. The life you built after being ressurected is your own and no one can take that from you.

Next up my almost canon end, that does live rent free in my mind because I love angst.

Closed gate shadow end, Far, Far away (yes this is a shrek/starwars/nerd refrence); its a fairly straight forward card, thought it does have one of my personal favorite little details. This is the second draft I made of it after this scene from Lincoln's shadow goodbye stuck with me; looking up through the trees at the night sky.

I really wanted to hide an eye shaped constellation in the stars but couldnt make it look good sadly :sob: But my favorite little detail are the fireflies and how some of them are cyan; touched by the power Rowan is now again a part of. Not canon, but I like to think these little cyan fireflies come to sit on the LI's heads next they wander too close to the woods (Fireflies by Owl City starts playing).

Shadow end is just. Its so beautiful really. From sharing your experiences with the wisps, how Rowan's wisp has been changed by their time as a person, how despite their grief they are not sad or unhappy, melancholic yes but this is where you want to be. Its a cosmic love, the joy of having lived, coming inside on a cold winter day to find your home warm and inviting, your family waiting for you to tell them about your day. The card itself is a little whimsical, hopeful despite the closed gate that the power will forever be part of the world, even if its been cut off. And this brings us to the other shadow ending card; the flower

Eternal Bloom, a ghostly hand reaching out to hand this flower over to the world, a final gift, a final goodbye. Maybe a promise of "I'll see you soon" but first and foremost, it is a promise of love.

Thats right babes. Its all about Love. Unfading Love.

symbolically there isnt anything hidden in the card, but thats also in part of it at face value telling you all you need to know; its about love! its a gift, for you, to remember me by. You have not forgotten me, and even changed as I am, I have not forgotten you. Rowan's change in personality after merging shadow was sooooo heart breaking tbh but ITS SO GOOD. You found joy in what you were, but its time to come home, take off your coat, hang it up, take off your shoes.

And it is all about love! All these cards (well, not all of them) were for me made from the heart, trying to keep in line for the different themes each end resolves to give the players something to remember each route by.

To anyone that made it this far, let me know which one is your canon card/which card you like best! And im kissing you on the lips I love rambling about my thoughts and if you got to here then you deserve a reward. So.

[inawearyworld]

little things in the wonka score/soundtrack that get me every time: a post made by a music major with severe brainrot (seriously it’s getting bad)

• even though i’m not sure how to feel abt what they did orchestrally to pure imagination when it was sung in full, i loved the way it was interwoven until then-the opening credits, the clock tower chiming its intro, etc

• when the intro to hatful of dreams ends and the instrumental HITS. that was the moment i was sitting in the theater like “…oh i’m going to be so charmed by this movie huh”

• something abt the way timmy sings “i’ve put everything i’ve got into my choc’late”. see above bullet point

• welcome to scrubbit’s has no right to be that much of a banger

• the low brass in scrub scrub HELLOOOOO?!?!? the chromatic slides. the muted trumpets. abacus’ bass moments (go off king). the song is literally about laundry and yet IT GOES SO HARD

• walk into the club on a friday night like FIRST YOU PICK UP THE APPAREL AND YOU

• the instrumental of ynhclt that plays while everyone’s flying is so cheesy and so golden-age-of-hollywood-children’s-musical and i cannot help but smile

• the cuh-lassic “one instrument at a time” opening of sweet tooth

• mathew baynton’s voice. that’s it that’s the bullet point.

• #GiveTheCartelMoreTight3PartHarmonies2k24

• well we’ve got lots and lots and lots and loTS AND LOTS AND LOWHY AM I SINGINGGGGGGG

• somethin about how the “noodle noodle” countermelody is a sort of arpeggiated outline of each chord, like a vocal warmup, like he’s letting her take the melody bc he knows she will in time. i’m gonna sob they’re literally family

• the orchestration of for a moment, esp while they’re dancing on the rooftop, just SOARS. idk if anyone here has seen mr magorium’s wonder emporium but that movie shaped my childhood, it’s probably my favorite film score ever, and this instrumental bit is SOOOO reminiscent of it

• clock tower. a fifty-second masterpiece

• CHOCOPOCALYPSE. (for those of us who were on the theatre kid side of the internet in 2018, i think chocopocalypse should be the new calculust. hear me out)

• mat’s voice gets a second bullet point bc what the hell man. literally the sonic embodiment of dark mint chocolate. h e l p m e

• …#fickelgruberisathinmint2k24

• noodle’s portion of ynhclt, while she’s teaching willy to read, has a few instrumental nods to mozart’s famous sonata in c, a typical piece for piano beginners-kids-to learn. in the 1971 film mrs teavee incorrectly identifies mozart as rachmaninoff. this MOVIE

• i wish there could have been more, and more involved/complex, ensemble vocal moments

• charlotte ritchie <3 (okay i’m biased sue me)

• the new orchestration for the oompa loompa song is straight fire

• the LEITMOTIFS the fucking LEITMOTIFS!!!!!!!! the opening fanfare that became the basis of hatful of dreams popping up here and there. the melody to a world of your own playing whenever he thinks of his mom. every time we think willy’s safe from the cartel, ope there’s that descending major sixth again.

• (now that i think about it. sweet tooth is in g major of all keys, rather atypical of a villain song. most of the intervals are major too. it’s the trembling strings that give it that “evil” sound. and it fits so well-like, “we’re not completely immoral! time for a fun little tango! there’s colorful lights! killthisguyplsOH LOOK CONFETTI!” they’re so sinister i love it)

• the way that the intro to a world of your own echoes the intro to pure imagination

• THE ORCHESTRATION DURING “chocolate bushes, chocolate trees” etc AND THE WAY IT BUILDS OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOD. MY HEART JUST BURSTS. EVERY TIME. I AM NOT IMMUNE TO CHEESY MUSICALS.

• the!! chromatic!! basslines!! in!! that!! song!!!!!!!!

• the fact that the bridge comes before the second verse-name any other songs where that happens i dare you. just another example of willy changing the narrative in every way

• the fact that sorry noodle is AN ENTIRE *OTHER* COUNTERMELODY that then falls back into the for a moment melody at the end what the FUUUUUUUUUUUCK

• the monks chanting “giraffe. a massive giraffe”. so fucking funny

• stripping down pure imagination to its essence while willy sings it to noodle was a thousand percent the right decision. and the lyric changes for the situation are sooooooo clever

• as someone who grew up with the 71 movie and has been utterly enamored with its music her whole life, i’m not the world’s hugest fan of this version’s pure imagination orchestration; i get they felt they had to do something different, it just feels slightly too modern/disneyesque, but it had the vibe that they intended for the end of the movie

• anyway god i love this score

[eggsploded]

fausto for the ask thing...... the girl herself

butterflaust :)

first impression: you really get the feeling that she fucking hates you. shes rly funny cuz shes the tutorial character but doesnt leave after the prologue. shes here forever, judging dante. i feel in the beginning i skimmed over all the nuance in her dialogue assuming its just wordy for the sake of wordiness.

current impression: faust is soooo... faust. upon replaying the prologue shes way less cold than i first thought, her little c: smile when talking about mephis was saur cute. in fact shes not really cold at all to me, simply operating in a faustly way. you can contextualize what she does as a way to keep herself occupied. not really for some deeper lore sense (because ionno what her deal is) but a bitch needs some stimuli. i think if she was made to do arts and crafts with no larger purpose outside of fun she would explode into blood and gore. it also makes her friendship with yi sang really funny because i wonder if she cares to understand his artsy spech past it being a little clever wordplay. if he made her a drawing she wouldnt know how to compliment it outside of a technical sense. her flavor of arrogance is also so funny to me because its so stupid? like when rodya complimented her and she puffed up and went faust Is cool. the speaking in 3rd person too is funny, knowing she isnt LARPing like don and is very much just Like That. theres alot about herself she either doesnt notice or simply does not want to examine deeply like her mild competitiveness or tendency to manipulate people if it means theyll be less annoying to her. simply the faust of all time

favorite moment: i think the sweetest and funniest thing was realizing her spiel about yi sang not being a genius Unlike Her and believing in more philosophical things unlike her Sensible and Tactile self was an attempt at a COMPLIMENT. i thought she was ripping him to shreds but no she was actually hyping him up a bit in the most clinical way possible

story idea: you know earlier when i said making faust attempt creative expression would cause her to explode into bits? well i want to see it anyway. im forcing her at the kindergarten table of that nasty smelling homemade playdoh and telling her to make a new animal. sinclair made a bear with with wings called a beear. very nice young man.

fav relationships: im enjoying the fandom divide with faust shipping where she is either getting bitches left and right and not giving a fuck to maintain them (because it comes out weird when she tries) or not even being aware of when shes down bad and having the primal part of her brain that tells her to bite and roll around hijack her motherboard. shes being corroded by an insidious EGO called... horny, different to lust, which is Krausts jam. i already wrote a little bit about fausang and i think fausts inability to know how to enjoy things makes them a very sweet duo. in her mind the guy doesnt come a lick close to her own brilliance, but something about how he closes his eyes in understanding speaks more words than compliments do. not to say that faust doesnt like being hyped up. because she does, like all the time. if they were walking she wouldve tripped when rodya called her babe. her greatest flaw is pretending shes above anything, if there was a chance to maul ryoshu she would without pausing. probably so turned on she cant see anything. ishmael too. also outis. hey, whats going on here? my sources tell me due to her ongoing opposites to yi sang she is incapable of a domestic lame marriage the way he is. ishmael is the yuri messiah, but faust is the yuri menace. you know what they are both capable of though? following rodya around enamored because that was the first pet name theyve ever been called and it felt Funny.

fav headcanon: in the newest credits cg for canto 4 i think shes telling vergil she has a tummyache

[goldensunset]

you wanted me to talk about ooparts from twewy. ok. this song is an absolute hot mess and it’s one of my absolute FAVORITES. but specifically only the version that plays when you fight konishi in final remix (‘ooparts -give me a chance’) the original is. eh. but the difference between them is not the thing that matters to me anyway so i guess i like the original too

first and foremost. i have gone through the process of color-highlighting the lyrics (screenshotted from the wiki) to point out which song each line comes from to visually represent just how much this massive word mashup borrows stuff. i also just straight up put the names of the songs next to some of them but i couldn’t fit them all or else this would be a mess lol. please enjoy

🍎red: ‘hybrid’ (both english and japanese)

🍊orange: ‘detonation’

⭐️yellow: ‘game over’

🍃green: ‘owari-hajimari’ (japanese)

💎light blue: ‘someday’ (both english and japanese)

🫐dark blue: ‘satisfy’

☂️purple: ‘twister’ (both english and japanese)

🌸pink: ‘make or break’

•‘surely there was a better way to convey this information’ no there wasn’t

•most of this information is on the wiki page but i’ll have you know i discovered most of these connections by myself anyway long before i ever even checked the trivia section. also there are a few that i caught that the wiki didn’t. not to flex or anything. but y’know what credit really isn’t important anyway it’s really all about sharing information within a community so. peace and love

•there is a bit of a liberty taken with ‘you’re getting out of control’ bc the line in game over is just ‘you’re out of control’ but i still think it counts as a connection

so basically i think this song is really cool and amazing not just bc the music goes really hard at about one minute in (but only specifically in the one where you fight konishi, at least in final remix) but mostly because it represents a few of my favorite things about twewy. the whole ‘melody/vibe over lyrics’ thing twewy has going on where it says hey who cares if these lyrics are in any way comprehensible; what matters is that it’s a lot of fun to sing

but beyond that? ooparts also does the thing that twister is known for but even better. aka word salad lyrics that may not have any innate meaning in the words themselves, but they matter BECAUSE they’re word salad. apparently the intention behind twister’s nonsense lyrics is to represent all the different clashing ideas in shibuya. it’s diverse and noisy and weird and it all comes together into something fun. ooparts does the same except its lyrics aren’t even random words; they’re from other songs in this game. including twister itself!

to me it really feels like a turning point in the game when you fight konishi, the final week’s game master, the last actual valid legal boss within the framework of the game, and you have this crazy wild song playing that, through its lyrics, serves to remind you of everything else you’ve encountered in your insane journey. it’s a culmination of all your struggles and you’re here to see it all through

and the call-and-response lyrics back and forth between the two vocalists are soooo fun! it feels like teamwork: the song. like truly this is the moment of revenge and triumph for neku and beat. they’ve made it this far and nothing can stop them now. they’re not afraid of konishi they’re hyped up to defeat her. and konishi is such a great villain with a really tricky and unique boss fight so it feels super satisfying to finally get the better of her! it’s not about fear it’s about fun! and when the beat switches on the chorus to something so much brighter and smoother… feels like that moment in the battle where you break through one of her gimmicks and you can see clearly now

in conclusion: i love the weird telephone beep song with the strangest lyrics known to man

[effen-draws]

HUGEEEEE fan of your de!swap fic! Just finished reading chapter 5 and WOW what a chapter. I'm soooo glad to see that suzerainty popped up, the original scene with that game is my favorite scene, and I'm overjoyed to see that it carried over to your fic!!

Curious question, what was your motivation behind choosing what skills Kim has? I love all the skills you created for the fic, and I'd like to know your thought process behind it

Thank you so much!!! I’m super glad that you liked the chapter! The Suzerainty scene was hella fun to write:-D And I’m very happy that you like the skills as well! 

But, yes, the skills. Oh man, anon, the skills. You have opened up a can of worms here. You’ve given me an opportunity to rant here, anon. So I really hope you’re ready for a long post because I have plenty of thoughts, my friend. 

But before we actually get into any of my skill related thought processes and ideas I’d like to preface this post with 2 things!

Many of the skills (and generally the early parts of the fic) are inspired by a hodgepodge of many different people’s headcanons and art here on tumblr! Which, because I’m one of god’s favourite clowns with a terrible short term memory, I have no idea what came from  where! I looked at and read a lot of the things that later inspired me before I ever thought of writing the fic at all. And I never thought about writing any of my sources of inspiration down before I had already finished the draft of chapter 1! Which I kinda feel terrible about! The readers with a better memory than I might remember that I wrote in the first chapter that if anyone saw anything that looked familiar they should tell me so I could give proper credit. (Which I still implore any keen eyed reader to do!) So yeah, this is just to say; I’m not a genius who came up with all of this on my own and I was inspired by many cool people so don’t give me too much credit!

BUT! If anyone ever wants to write or draw anything using the skillset I’ve made for my version of swap!Kim, then you are so very welcome! So don’t sweat it if you want to reuse a name, concept, or the entire set! I’d just be happy to have inspired you:-]

Anyways sorry for the preamble. I just needed to get that said before I go down my rabbit hole:-)

So, let’s get to it! (For real this time I promise, anon) Here are a few of my general thoughts about my Kim skillset and some individual insight into more of the “interesting” skills! 

There were a few things I considered when making the skills. For one I needed to figure out what skills were needed because of narrative necessity and what were needed for characterisation. For an example HANDS ON is almost only a “Kim is physically interacting with his surroundings and I need to describe that” skill while TORQUE DORK, on the other hand, is a fluff skill that’s there because of Kim’s interests in machinery. Besides their personalities the skills also need to serve a role in telling a story, y’know? Whether that be description or character. That’s also one of the reasons that Kim only has 16 skills instead of Harry’s 24. A fic is a different medium than a game so it’s not necessary to have quite so many skills. But, if you want my non-boring justification for that, I also just think that Kim is far less scattered brained than Harry! The man is simply more together even when he’s falling apart so he therefore has a few more “multi purpose skills”:-]

Speaking about Harry, I felt like it would be important that Kim’s skills felt unique to him even if some of them started out as reskins of Harry’s (I mean, how do you make a skill responsible for logic without giving it similarities to Harry’s LOGIC skill??). Not that they needed to stand out completely but rather I didn’t want to feel like I was applying Harry’s voices to Kim’s head. Which also means that Kim’s skills just can’t do the same things that Harry’s can! For one they aren’t as psychically inclined even if they can take guesses and read people in similar ways (which they’re partially that good at because of narrative necessity, but hey man, don’t look at me I’m just trying to tell a good story here!)

One thing which I also really wanted to stress with the skills too is that many of them have “rivalries” or “alliances” with one another. Some of them are complete opposites (EYES vs. OUTSIDER) while others will almost always back each other up (POISE & COMMAND). This animosity is there because; one, Kim is constantly trying to keep himself in check and is very harsh on himself so therefore no skill can ever “win” for long. Two; I’m a BIG fan of the thought of “Kim’s centrism is killing him”. So therefore every skill is almost always pulling him in different directions and opposing each other while Kim is trying to thread the needle of just existing. And because there’s this constant infighting Kim’s mind becomes a very hostile place to be. One last general consideration before I get into some individual skills! I really love how having a high level skill in DE also has its downsides! They have blindspots! They have one track thoughts and motivations! And it’s dangerous to only listen to one of them! So I attempted to show that with Kim’s high level skills like VOLTA DO MAR and POISE in the fic:-]

Anyways: individual skill thoughts! I don’t have something to say about all of them but I'll quickly go through my thoughts on some of the more interesting ones in order. (Also I’m so sorry for rambling so long, anon. Here's the part of the post I think you're interested in.)

Starting off with PUZZLEBOX and NOTEKEEPER! If I’m honest I think these two are inseparable; Note provides information and Puz connects the dots. They’re quite obviously Kim’s deductive and note taking powerhouses. Note does however also have a purpose as a narrative device since it’s the one that recalls past information (that Kim can remember). They’re a little like a narrator in that sense. Anyways I don’t have many thoughts about these two but I think they’re kinda cute in how “dumb” they can be despite being intellect skills:-]

FANTASME is not a skill that gets a lot of the limelight but they do have a good amount to say even though they’re a low level skill. They’re kind of a CONCEPTUALISATION and INLAND EMPIRE mix I guess. They’re focused on Kim’s “nerd” things (that isn’t machinery or paperwork) and escapism. They know about art but they don’t really “get it” as Harry can. They’re also the driving force behind Kim’s existential dread as you have seen in chapter 4.

BLEEDING HEART is what I labelled as the “feelings” skill, and they were kind of an EMPATHY clone in the early concepts before I really figured them out. Because all they really want for Kim is for him to feel. Their second priority is making sure that Kim feels for the people around him as well. To Bleed it doesn’t really matter what emotions Kim is feeling as long as they are being felt and that he isn’t hurting or “burdening” anyone. They’re sad, suppressed, and visceral. Another thing about them is that similarly to how ESPRIT DE CORPS is the “gateway skill” that Harry uses to read Kim, BLEEDING HEART is the “gateway skill” Kim uses to read Harry in the fic. This is mostly because I don’t think Harry can be understood through the lens of the RCM like Kim can in the game.

EYES is interesting to me. Because they aren’t the RCM but rather swap!Kim’s understanding of the RCM personified. Which both means they’re brutally honest about how the police sucks but that they also cannot let go of duty and loyalty for the life of them. They are aptly named after Eyes; Kim’s last main connection to the RCM and its office culture. Which is very cool but also not my original idea! And because of the reasons mentioned prior I really don’t remember who came up with that stroke of genius but I would honestly like to thank them personally. (If I ever get my hands on the post I saw it in I’ll link it here)

I love the idea of OUTSIDER. Kim having a skill that’s specifically manifested because of how alienated he feels is so interesting to me! That how much the world has failed him is ingrained in him just speaks volumes, y’know. Outs don’t have too much of a narrative purpose compared to other skills but I do love them regardless. They aren’t completely my original idea either, but unlike EYES, I have no idea where I got this one from. (Again, if I find the source I’ll put in a link, but for now my cursed memory can produce nothing.)

JOIE DE VIVRE is the most fun little guy in Kim’s mind to me. They are what makes life fun (as their name suggests) and they ultimately represent indulgence. They are essentially good to listen to occasionally but not constantly. Because Joie is all about base desires which they want fulfilled now. “Hey! Smoke that cigarette now! Hey! Fuck that guy now! Hey! Avoid your responsibilities now!” And if they don’t get that they will immediately trash talk whoever shut them down. And, to say the least, they are constantly being repressed by the other skills. Kim can’t get rid of them but, oh man, does he wish he could.

VOLTA DO MAR is my swap!Kim’s signature skill. And it shows: they are used to being in control. They are all about keeping Kim going and they generally serve a similar role like VOLITION does in terms of keeping Kim sane. But they are really nothing like VOLITION. They’re mean. They’re efficient. They’re a completionist and simultaneously a survivor. They will shut down anything they deem unnecessary while also dealing with any odd situation which Kim simply needs to roll with. Volt ultimately thinks they know best and is thusly kind of a dick. 

NERVE is a kind of “physical skill all in one” with the added on flavour of repressed anger. NERVE’s name then, of course, both comes from the biological nerve and because of the “that struck a nerve” saying. They just want Kim to follow his gut and retaliate for once. They’re the physicality of anger and instinct. Which has pros and cons… 

POISE is an interesting little fella to me. They’re kind of like a teen who’s obsessed with being cool and keeping up face and facade in my eyes:-) And since they’re also such a high level skill they get to talk a lot, and with their focus being reputation a large part of that talk is about how embarrassed Kim should be. They’re a personification of self consciousness and intrusive anxiety riddled thoughts and yet they’re also one of Kim’s most useful skills, both in regards to reading others and not being read himself. They’re sort of a necessary evil in that sense.

Oh man. That was a ramble. And I didn’t even talk about every skill. Well, I’m all tuckered out now but thank you so much for the ask, anon! I kinda took it as an excuse to just talk for once so I hope that alright:-] 

I don’t know how many people (if any) will find this interesting so, to the people who got this far, I’ll tell you my swap!Kim’s 5 highest level skills as a token of my appreciation for reading:-) Number one is of course VOLTA DO MAR, followed by POISE, BLEEDING HEART, NOTEKEEPER, and then lastly COMMAND. Extra fun fact; EYES and OUTSIDER are always the exact same level and this makes them furious.

Anyways, thank you again for reading my fic and this long ass answer to an otherwise simple ask! I hope you have a great rest of your day:-]

[game-set-canet]

Just wanted to say love your recent Carlos nothing is moreimportant than Wimbledon fluff was soooo good.

Could I request an Andrey one where he and the reader are forced to play mixed doubles by their coaches but the end up having a good time

But now we're stressed out

Pairing: Andrey Rublev x f!reader

category: fluff

warnings: none

Author’s Note: this imagine turned out way different than i intended but i hope you like it as much is i do 💕 also: English isn’t my first language, so I’m very sorry for mistakes!

* Y/N = your name

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(not my gif! credits to the owner/creator!)

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“I’ve found the perfect double partner for you!”, your coach Albert smiles at you proudly.

You raise an eyebrow while you continue sipping at your morning coffee: “Who?”

You and your team were sitting in the eating room of the hotel, enjoying the breakfast buffet.

Albert sits down next to you and starts eating his muesli: “Andrey Rublev!”

“Andrey Rublev?”, you pull a face and shake your head, “Why?”

“Why not?”

“Because I can’t remember a single time we have actually talked with each other.”

“Doesn’t matter!”, your coach smiles at you encouraging, “You’ll have plenty of time to talk before today’s practise session this afternoon!”

“Today?”, you put down your mug and frown, “But I have an interview in the afternoon.”

“Yeah, we will practise afterwards.” Albert looks really happy and actually pleased with everything he organised and decided.

You try to sound as neutral as possible but can’t hide the frustration: “I don’t want to play doubles with him. I just want to play with Jessica.”

“Pegula is injured, and Andrey is the right choice for your double partner. You will agree with me as soon as you spend some time with him on court.”

You roll your eyes: “Just because you are best friend with Fernando Vicente doesn’t mean Rublev and I have to be best friends as well.”, you finish your coffee and get up from the breakfast table, “Gotta go now, I have a photoshoot in 30 minutes.”

 “I’m your coach and I know what’s best for you!”, Albert tries to sound serious but everyone on the table could tell that he is joking.

“You sound like my father!”

“See you in the afternoon, daughter!”

You can still hear him laughing when you have already left the room.

Little do you know that Andrey and his coaches had a very similar conversation on the other side of the breakfast room.

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Later this day you find yourself on the tennis court. Your coach is talking animatedly with Andrey's coach, every now and then one of the men laughs out loud. You tie your shoes while Andrey puts on his hair band - there is silence between you.

You sigh. It’s ridiculous that you don’t talk to each other but as far as you know, Andrey isn’t very good at small talk – just like you.

You clear your throat and play with the racket in your hands: “I was supposed to double with Jessica Pegula, but she is injured, you know?”

It takes a few moments before Andrey finally answers, voice low: “Yeah, same for me…I planned to double with Karen Khachanov.”

Without thinking twice you blur out: “Seems like both of us aren’t very happy with the decision of your coaches, huh?”

At first Andrey just looks at you with a strange expression, but then he starts grinning wryly and shrugs: “I guess.”

One hour later you have to admit that your coach might be right: Andrey is a great double partner. And that you complement each other quite well. And – and that’s something you will never say out loud – it’s actually great fun to practise with him.

At the end of the practise your coaches and the rest of your teams stand in a circle and your coach looks back and forth between Andrey and you: “So, what do you say? Do we have a mixed double pair?”

Andrey looks at you from the corner of his eyes, biting his lip as he waits for you to take the final decision.

You take a deep breath and nod slowly: “Yeah, I think this could work.”

“Great! Good practise! See you two tomorrow - same time, same court”, Andrey’s coach gives a thumbs-up, waves at everyone and turns to leave the court, “Let’s win this tournament!”

You turn to face Andrey and nod towards to his coach: “Uhm, does he really think we gonna win this tournament? As a new double pair? After one hour of practice?”

Andrey sighs deeply: “Yes, he does.”

“Is he always like that?”

“Yes, he is.”

“My condolence.”

The Russian starts laughing because of your words, and you join him shortly after.

*** *** *** *** *** ***

You just finished your practise session with Maria Sakkari and decided to spend some time in the gym, when someone stepped next to you and begun training on the ergometer on your right. You turn your head and see Andrey getting ready for his first cycling set – already with earphone in the ears. You smile a little and wave at him and he waved back. That was the greeting.

Fifteen minutes later you got bored with your training and your own music, so you stretch to tap Andrey on the left shoulder. You wait until he removed one of the earphones before you start speaking: “What are you listening to?”

Without a word, Andrey holds his phone out to you so that you can see the title of the song.

You stare at the display with big eyes, grab your phone and you're now holding it out for Andrey.

He blinks in surprise before he starts smiling: “So, we have the same taste in music? You like Twenty One Pilots?”, he quickly removes the second earphone.

You nod your head vigorously: “I love them! I’ve seen them live three times already!”

You have never seen Andrey so radiant as he exclaims: “Me too!”

“Oh, that’s so cool! What else do you listen to?”

“Linkin Park and Avicii…”

“Oh my god, me too!”

For the next 20 minutes you two were lost in a conversation about your favourite songs, your favourite albums and Andrey even started the “What is the most beautiful cover you can think of?” debate.  

*** *** *** *** *** ***

After only two more practice sessions it’s the day of your first match. You are waiting in the tunnel to be called up for the walk on court.

You shift your weight from one leg to the other: “Do you think we can win this match?”

Andrey bits his lip while fumbling with his headband: “No, no change at all.”

You spend a lot of time with Andrey during the last few days – on and off the court – and if you are honest: he is a really great guy. But sometimes he is way too pessimistic.

You chuckle a little and shake your head: “That’s the wrong answer, Rublev, try again!”

He rolls his eyes but grins: “Fine. I think we won’t be as bad as I – and everyone else - expect us to be.”

“Wow. You must be the hit at every party…”, your words drip with sarcasm.

“I’m, actually.”

“Yeah, I don’t believe that.”

“That’s because you have never seen me partying.”, Andrey turns his head to look at you, “A friend of mine is celebrating his birthday on Sunday in a club near our hotel…you should come too.”

You smile to yourself as you follow Andrey on the court.

Maybe you will accept his invitation.

*** *** *** *** *** ***

Two and a half hours later you feel Andrey hugging you from behind. You just played the perfect stop for the match ball.

You really won your double match.

“We won it!”, you can’t stop beaming as you look at him, “We won it!”

“Yeah, we did. Like I said!”, he hangs an arm around your shoulders.

“You said that we won’t be as bad as you – and everyone else - expect us to be?!”

“Yes, and I’m right. Everyone expected us to lose but we won it, sooo…���, he grins at you.

You poke him in the side with your elbow: “My god, I can’t believe I actually like you and like spending time with you.”

Andrey looks a bit surprise because of your words and runs his hand through his hair with a smooth gesture: “You do?”

“Of course! I think we are a good team and-“, you hesitate and look him directly in the eyes, “And we have great fun, don’t we?”

“Yes, we have.”, he agrees and tightens the grip around your shoulder, “And? Will you join me and my friends on Sunday?”

“I’d love to.”, you smile at him.

He returns the smile and tilts the head: “I'm very happy to hear that.”

*** *** *** *** *** ***

One year later you two are at the exact same court playing doubles again.

“Who would have thought, hm?”, you lean against Andrey’s shoulder as you wait for your walk on court, “We’re still playing doubles together.”

The Russian sighs softly and adjusts his headband: “And I still don’t think we gonna win this match.”

“That’s ok.”, you smile at him, “Because I think we won’t be as bad as you – and everyone else - expect us to be.”

Lost in thought, you look out over the court, “Isn't it crazy how everything has changed since then?”

Andrey raises an eyebrow but the corners of his mouth twitch: “Are you getting sentimental now?”

“Excuse me for getting a bit emotional when coming back to the place where it all started and where I fell in love with my boyfriend.”, you cross your arms in front of your chest.

“Technically it all started in the club at the birthday party of my friend.”

“No, it actually started right here in this tunnel, where I kissed you after our final loss.”

Andrey steps closer to you and bends down, his face only centimetre aways from yours: “I say, we repeat this…”

“What?”, you reply teasingly, “Winning every double match but losing the final?”

“I meant our kiss.”

“I know.”

He chuckles softly before he slides his arms around your waist and kisses you.

You smile against his lips. Your coach was right back then: he found the right double partner for you – on the court and off the court.

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tagging: @bluetackbaby @lxndonorris @fedalev

[stormyoceans]

it hasn't been that long but as I said vv brainrot will never let you go. I didn't catch it in ep 1 but ep 2, I was just crazy about puentalay dynamics that mork and day radiated.

you can't understand me (day to mork, puen to talay)

why are you shirtless (poor talay asked about it more than once)

get out of my room (tess-talay expelling puen)

how old are you (not again, guys)

you don't want to know what I look like (I'm already dreaming of vice versa, sure)

watching a movie and wasted food that ended up on the floor (poor staff who have to clean it up again)

scary huh (puentalay are here and no one will convince me, even the way day pushed mork gives puentalay)

calling day (calling talay in the ambulance)

after an argument, someone tells the character sea where to look for the character jimmy (neo; namtan)

a ride on a moped (thank god for the absence of yamaha)

mork talks at the aquarium in a soft voice (as if jigsaw is standing nearby)

we have to give the fish a name (let's call the palette by your name - rawi palette)

the way day got nervous after mork's words about loneliness reminded me of puen and talay's date at a jazz restaurant, where puen said he remembered all the lines of the "mascot of friends credits", talay was so nervous at that moment

IT MAY NOT HAVE BEEN THAT LONG BUT VICE VERSA BRAINROT ANON MY BELOVED I'VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!

i agree with you that during episode 1 there weren't that many moments that reminded me of vice versa, tho i have to admit i did not quite realized just how many things puen and mork have in common. jimmy really sees a bisexual character with dead parents who gets arrested at least once throughout the show and looks at sea's character with a love so deep and encompassing it strikes you almost like a physical blow to the gut and he's like THAT'S MY TRUE CALLING (also fun fact for anyone who doesn't know it: in the vice versa novel puen has a sister too)

EPISODE 2 THO!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE SOOOO RIGHT PUENTALAY'S SPIRITS WERE THERE I FELT THEM IN THE EARTH I FELT THEM IN THE AIR AND THEY GOT ME SOBBING ON MY KNEES!!!!!!! THE MOVIE SCENE WAS SO INSANE LIKE THAT PLAYFULNESS?????? THAT'S JUST PUENTALAY IN A NUTSHELL!!!!!!!!! you honestly got so many parallels, some of which i didn't even think about (THE 'MORK YELLING FOR DAY AND PUEN YELLING FOR TALAY' ONE HAD ME CRAWLING THROUGH SHARDS OF GLASSES THANKS FOR REMINDING ME), but may i also submit to your consideration:

mork looking around day's room vs talay looking around puen's (well, tun's) room (and interesting enough, both contain a sort of aquarium) [WATER MOTIF MY BEST FRIEND WATER MOTIF]

mork giving day a jasmine flower vs puen giving talay lotus flowers (in multiple occasions)

MEANINGFUL GIFTS!!!!!!!!!

shirts with meanings!!!!!!!!!

ALSO LISTEN. GMMTV can pry 'mork' from my cold dead hands but if there's one reason im willing to allow the 'mhok' transliteration is because of THIS

AND THEN THEY WENT AND ALSO MADE JIMMY PLAY MEK IN PLOY'S YEARBOOK LIKE AT THIS POINT THEY'RE DOING IT ON PURPOSE FR ✋😭

[cheatingexploitation]

would love to hear abt your made up strident crisis lore! especially anything pertaining to hellbreaker

not the hugest stridenthead any more but i will say what i have because why not.. lets a go

REMEMBER! IF YOU MIDDLE CLICK, YOU CAN SCROLL REALLY FAST!

in other words im not putting a read more thing on this post cz i dont feel like it... however! if theres an issue with this i havent anticipated lmk and ill edit the post. i might be trying to be funny in a slightly obnoxious manner but i do not mean to create a real nuisance...

so while witnessing the mod for. technically the second time but the first time after figuring out what was going on with those daves and bambis i was a bit surprised to see that the mod where the wiki says "it actually has a story" had 0 dialogue or anything so i was like. ok. ill make one up in my head

the gist: classic dave bambi lore Except bambi is not a nice wisdom god he's actually a mean war god. hence why everything surrounding him is much more.. aggressive

when pissed off he doesnt just throw his stupid phone at you. his body contorts and shakes and catches fire like some freak of nature. scary

here i have decided bambi is just a vessel of sorts to contain a dormant god and boyfriend hopping into his farm specifically to piss him off somehow wakes up the god Just a little (probably not entirely though? not enough trolling)

lord bambi being a fucked up tyrant here is also inspired by the title of the song "thearchy", which is a word meaning like. you know a monarchy. imagine that but with a god. rule of god. badass word actually. also i think it's funny to interpret mods where expunged is probably supposed to be a god as them like... not being one (im evil)

i did make some kind of design for him based on that opposition form... never really finalized it (i think it looks Too modern blah blah) but here

anyway expunged is actually not the worst guy ever they're just taking bambis form because (???i forgot) anyway they figure out that Hey actually lord bambi was pretty cringe (horrific and bad and scary) and so phonophobia is them having a Strident Crisis about this ROLL CREDITS THEY SAID THE NAME OF THE MOD

also! heebie. hellbreakie. minesweeper. probably the reason you sent this ask it's ok shes cute and fun i get it. i thought it would be funny if shes madden here so she's madden here. specifically she was an executioner for lord bambi because even though he could do it himself it would be worse if he made someone else do it and for some reason this is his goal i forgot why sorry but this is actually where the name hellbreaker comes from here. that's her title... the hellbreaker. after lord bambi dips no one likes her so for one reason or another (i don't think i decided?) she goes to the void and goes funny 3d mode and Actually i think i made her and expungie friends because that would give expunged a reason to freak out during phonophobia because wow how could i be so mean to this guy i respect. or something. yeah

heres stident maddis Which i have certainly put here before probably but for the big post. yeah

dave also had some part in this whole thing, mainly for the sake of justifying Why the Expunged Is Different, but also i have 0 recollection of what that part Was exactly. i just remember saying something like "wouldnt it be funny if strident crisis dave was emo" (which i said meaning he wears like a darker blue shirt as i think it's very funny when people call any dark clothing emo though sometimes i worry i am only contributing to the watering down of the complexities of alt fashion ? sorry)

anyway i also made designs for strident crisis beef nd geef because i thought it would be cool to base them on the colours they get from hellbreaker's shader. fits the tone better i think !

the plot here would probably be less of a mess if i like, cleaned it up and made something out of it, but also i don't really want to soooo for now all you get is this jumble of words. still think the mod is pretty cool even though i just prefer not to interact with it Too much for Reasons I Forgot but are most likely not important to the general public so don't worry about it

maybe i should do the same thing for spamtrap since i dont plan on finishing it even though spamfriend is one of my favourite children? find out next time on cheat's blog i suppose...

[darkorderaf]

hi i love your work!! idk if you'd be willing to write for an out-of-character danhausen, but i would love to see something where he and a female wrestler hooked up but she's lowkey embarrassed about it and wants to keep it quiet (not because she doesn't like him but because of his goofy character). then maybe the elite tease her about rumors that he has a crush on her but to deflect she joins in on making fun of him but he overhears it and is like "oh so you think i'm a joke :("

Ahhh thank you kindly. I try to keep things generally kayfabe as best I can so I hope it’s cool that I did it with in-character Danhausen! I think I made it work? :o The Elite are mean here and this is my first stab at Danhausen spice which was…an interesting experience. I’m a little rusty after my break so I hope this is okay. Thanks so much for requesting; please enjoy!

Pairing: Danhausen x OFC. Rating: M. Warnings/Content: Some spicehausen and angst. Word Count: 2017.

Tag List (asked to be added/removed!): @alyhull @boutmachines @chrisdickinson @lghockey @rubyred1980 @sillynilly27 @simoneinside

(I don’t own gif; all credit to allelitewrestlings!)

“Soooo, I heard a rumor…”

An inelegant snort scrunched her nose and put a pause on her pre-match ritual. Matt Jackson wiggled his eyebrows at her from the doorway. Uh oh, she didn’t like that. She smiled at him, the very well constructed image of unphased.

“Someone’s been watching too much Umbrella Academy,” she remarked. Boots finally laced, she laced her fingers behind her back and stretched forward. A deep pop pulled a sigh out of her and then she straightened up. “A rumor, huh? Alright, fine I’ll bite. What kind of rumor?”

Rumors in the business that they were skirted all along the spectrum from barely a concern to ah, fuck. Something in Matt’s face would surely tell her which one it was but then Nick stepped into the room, followed by Adam, and her heart lurched toward the deep end. All with the same, shit-eating smiles that she could only deflect for so long. Adam glanced between the two brothers then pointed at her and pulled one hand back in a bastardized parody of a…gesture, a trait that she was all too familiar with.

Her mouth went dry.

“A very nice, very dorky one,” Adam said with a too-loud laugh that hurt her ears. Hurt something else in her chest but with her mouth as dry as it was, her thoughts too frantic, she couldn’t put a name to what that was. “You really haven’t heard? Ostrich meet sand much, huh?”

—

Her jaw ached and the taste of copper took longer than she wanted for it to go away. It could have gone better but right then, everything just felt worse. She wasn’t unfamiliar with losses but this one felt different and it hung like a shadow over her. A chance to prove herself to The Elite, to go beyond where she was. And she had let it fall through.

“How are your teeth?”

She picked her head up and locked eyes with a man, or demon perhaps, that seemed to always find himself in her gravity. What to make of him, she never quite locked on to any one feeling. He sat down beside her and looked at her expectantly, eyes wide. He held a little black velvet bag in his hands and it bounced when he jostled his legs.

“They’re fine, all accounted for,” she answered with a slim smile. The one he always managed to pull from her no matter how shitty she felt. One day she would have to ask what magic, what curse, that was. “Why?”

“If you had lost one, Danhausen was going to give you a new one,” he answered simply, the corner of his mouth lifted into a crooked smirk. “Your smile is nice like it is, it would be a shame to–Ah, yes, the one you’re doing right now!”

She laughed and winced but truthfully, didn’t mind the ache. 

“I’ll curse the person who takes it away from you.”

—

“No kidding,” Matt followed up. The light of the room glinted off his dangling earrings and she squinted as she came back to the moment. “It’s the newest ‘hot goss’ and y’know, I usually walk right by the rumor mill but I’m just so baffled and fascinated by this one that I had to ask. We had to ask.”

Nick hummed an affirmative and watched her closely.

“What are you guys even talking about?”

Her brain stumbled over the possibilities and her hand curled into a fist behind her back. Focused on the half-moon pressure from her nails. Tried not to focus on how the bite of nail into flesh warmed her with memory, the way it elicited a response down her spine. It was their fault for reminding her of…of him. 

Between blinks, her eyes narrowed. A thought cleaved right through her.

Had he…? She couldn’t fathom that he had. Not with the way his hand entwined with hers and he smiled that goddamned smile that shouldn’t have done what it did to her head and her stomach and the damned heart in between. Her eyes cut away from the men in front of her and she burned a hole into the wall.

—

“I want to just…I want to feel good,” she told him. Nearly chest to chest with him, her fingers tight in the long dark shirt he wore. Another rough night, another smile he pulled from her. She wanted to know what else he could coax out of her. “That’s…I want that. You. Tonight.”

A brimstone heat simmered in his eyes and he traced along the angle of her jaw. Down her neck, over the hint of clavicle from her shirt’s lopsided opening. 

“Good, hmm? Danhausen doesn’t do good,” he said and his tone, a tease from a smoky corner, nearly buckled her knees. “But nice…I can do that. For you.”

His hands dropped from her face and slid under her shirt, to feel along the hot skin of her stomach that heaved and trembled from his touch. To squeeze her waist and thumb along the underside of her breast. His thumbs, softer than she expected, circled around her pebbled nipples and she caught his mouth in a harsh kiss.

Her jaw ached and she didn’t care. His fingers cradled the angle of bone and skin, his lips insistent upon hers as they walked further back into the shadow of his room. Every sound she made, he swallowed it and hummed with satisfaction. Then a noise, a growl, rumbled through him and he searched her mouth with his tongue. Hungry for more. 

His mouth hovered by hers when she pulled away, lips slightly parted as he panted.

“You’re not counting my teeth, are you?”

He grinned against her mouth and her shocked laughter died down when he gently pushed her back onto the bed. Stripped his shirt off and he looked at her with a seriousness, an attentiveness, she hadn’t expected.

There he was, always surprising her.

Her fingertips learned the intricacies of the tattoos down his arms, her mouth the juncture between his neck and shoulder. He didn’t tease her. Every moan from her lips and squeeze of her muscles around his fingers, his tongue, told him exactly where he needed to be and he never relented. Never strayed. He watched her, dark eyes on the heave of her breast and the twist of her bottom lip between her teeth. The way her breath hitched and she said his name.

She had never met anyone like him and swathed in bliss from his tongue alone, she had told him as much with soft breaths. Fingers in his hair as he trailed black kisses up the curve of her body.

“Hmm, was that nice? It sounded like it was nice but Danhausen can never be sure,” he said as he pressed his hips against hers. He angled her head back and kissed along her throat. “What’s the saying, there’s charm in the third time?”

He asked her and she huffed, a blush on her face as she smiled with her lip between her teeth. On instinct, her thighs cradled his hips between them and he placed his hands beside her head. Her half-lidded eyes slid along him. His pale, expressive face. The dark of his eyes and the wicked, crooked curve of his mouth still slicked with her…

“Keep being nice to me.”

—

Adam’s grin grew and his eyes sparkled and she fucking hated him for it when her gaze snapped back to him. He widened his stance a little, arms folded. Smug and almost satisfied.

“The company’s resident gremlin has a crush,” he said. “On someone in this room and way more elite than he is or could ever dream to be in whatever hole he calls a house. And it’s not me, it’s not Matt, it’s not Nick. So, that leaves only one of us.”

A…crush? Was that it? He said, she said around the office? Her fist loosened behind her back and slowly, with every confused breath, air refilled her lungs. She found her words.

“Really? This is so juvenile,” she said with a furrowed brow. Anything to get away from this line of questioning. “I have a match to get to, guys, come on. You’re really going to make me late because of what, Danhausen rumors?”

“We know, we know, but hold on a second,” Nick said. He didn’t grin the way the other two did. Instead, he frowned some. “That’s not the only thing we heard. Not by a long shot. We also heard that you just might like this dorky gremlin back. Is that true? It’s not, right? Tell me it’s not because wow, that would be…Something else. I’d be embarrassed for you.”

“Worse than embarrassed,” Adam cut in. “Do you know how that would look? You going for the biggest clown in the circus?”

The loss of the Elite, the loss of the status she had earned, where she had climbed to. The possibilities crowded her and she needed to breathe. The way they looked at her, the accusation, the confusion, and regretfully, the shame, had her mouth moving before she could stop it. Anything to get away, anything to get them off her ass. Time slowed and her teeth weirdly felt too sharp in her mouth, a poisonous flavor on her tongue that twisted her stomach as she brushed past them to get to the door.

“Are you serious? Of course it's not true,” she said as she teetered precariously on the knife edge of calm. She turned on her heel to face them.“Like you said, he’s a…” She hesitated. “A dorky gremlin and I don’t waste my time with the jokes this place likes to throw money at. Seriously, guys? I thought you knew me better than that and that I have a thing called standards. Happy?”

“Are you?”

A voice decidedly not Adam’s, Matt’s, or Nick’s, sounded softly behind her and she sucked in a breath. Danhausen, arms loosely folded in front of him, came into view as she turned around. His quiet, dejected look wounded her and pinpricks crawled across her eyes. Before the others could throw in their opinion, she stepped out and shut the door behind her. Less than a foot between her and Danhausen, paralysis locked her where she was. From fear, shame, regret. Want. She didn’t know.

“What?”

“Your smile,” he said and weakly gestured at her face. “It’s gone.”

“Danhausen, there’s–”

His hand dropped then rubbed the back of his head as he looked back and forth down the hallway. The tired look in his eyes almost stopped up her throat.

“How much of that did you hear?”

A smile wobbled on his face then fell.

“Gremlin isn’t new for me,” he said with a shrug and a thoughtful look to the side, eyes slightly narrowed and nose scrunched. “Dorky gremlin? That one Danhausen doesn’t think he’s heard before.”

“Shit, I’m–I’m so…There’s just…”

She couldn’t get the words out. Panic began to set in.

“Danhausen came here to wish you good luck in your match,” he hesitated. “So, good luck.”

“You don’t have to do that,” she said, her voice tight. “I shouldn’t have said that and, and…”

“You told me to keep being nice to you,” he said in that simple and honest tone of his, the one he had had when he sighed into her neck. Had made her feel so damn good. “So there’s no taking back the good luck. Danhausen already gave it. It’s yours. I…I suppose I will see you around the circus.”

Another moment of hesitation, another heartbeat or ten where their eyes held one another, and then he was gone. As if on cue, the three in the room funneled out into the hallway just as his form vanished.

“What the hell was that?”

Adam stood beside her and watched down the hallway where she looked. Danhausen was already gone and she counted down her breaths. Forced that smile that made her jaw uncomfortable.

“Nothing,” she said quickly and subtly wiped under her eyes. I feel like nothing. I don’t feel nice. “It’s nothing. Let’s just go.”

[threephantomrey]

my thoughts on Scooby Doo and Krypto Too: (don’t read if you don’t want to see some spoilers!)

• that opening credits song is A BANGERRRR and so is “Brave” this movie and Trick Or Treat have had such banger songs (tbh all of the scooby movies have banger songs, but these ones especially for me) i know this has been said before, but WB should DEFINITELY release all the songs from the movies someday. these are wayyy too good to only be available on youtube or when you watch the actual movies.

• i loved the dynamics between Fred and Daphne in this one. very well done. Fred especially was great in this one

• Krypto is cute. i never watched the original cartoon so this is my only exposure to him, but i like him here

• the firey phantoms (i don’t remember their names, so im just going to call them that) were SOOOO cool! literally one of my favorite Scooby villains now. one of my favorite parts of the entire movie.

• i think the only part that actually annoyed me was the guy who was like “oh of course it’s a her!” when Fred said “take good care of her” referring to the Mystery Machine.

• i liked the artstyle in this one. i know it’s similar to a lot of the 2010’s DTV movies, and it was supposed to come out before Trick Or Treat, but it was nice to see after we got the Guess Who animation in the last movie. i liked Daphne’s pink lipstick too and her purple eyes. her lipstick and the artstyle in general reminded me of the early 2010’s DTV movies specifically, like Legend Of The Phantosaur

• absolutely loved the joke of Lois Lane (hope i spelled her name right) not recognizing Velma without her glasses on. as a person whose been wearing glasses since i was little, i’ve had many people throughout the years tell me that i look different without them on, so i relate very much to this

i could say more, but i don’t want this post to get taken down by WB or for something to happen to my account. anyways, i enjoyed the movie and i thought it was fun. definitely a feel-good scooby movie imo

[cobwebinthecorner]

Going to see The Super Mario Bros. Movie and Dungeons and Dragons: Honor Among Thieves in a couple of days. Very excited!

There is one thing I'm hoping doesn't happen, though.

There's probably an actual trope name for this, but I hope the D&D movie doesn't have one of those "zoom-out" scenes at the end.

They did this sort of thing near the end of The Lego Movie, and it kinda ruined that movie for me. They get you all excited and I vested in these characters and the story, and then they abruptly "zoom out" and whoops, turns out none of the last hour or so actually mattered or had any stakes in the first place because it all took place in the imagination of some random kid.

And the thing is, I can totally imagine the movie ending with Chris Pine's character getting in the final hit on the BBEG or something and blinding white light fills the screen and then HARD CUT to the main cast sitting around a table in like a basement or something bc "haha d&d players are all nerds living in their mom's basement" and then the DM (might as well be Dwayne Johnson at this point too bc WHY THE FUCK NOT) is just like "haha, that was great. same time next week everyone?" And then someone else is like "uhh actually that doesn't fit with my schedule" because D&D HARD TO SCHEDULE DO YOU GET IT? DO YOU GET THE FUNNY JOKE??? and everyone laughs and then credits.

Sorry

But like that would suck SOOOO fuucking much

You'd spend two fucking hours getting to know these characters and having fun D&D times and epic action-packed battles and then they'd just pull the biggest fucking cop-out since "it was all just a dream"

FOR A JOKE

for a JOKE, Y'ALL.

[turtlesocksv2]

Liveblogging Dead Friend Forever Ep 5

Flashback Time! Let's Go!

only at the 2:40 timestamp and already there's some crunchy little details. Tee has money - where from? He tells Top to go clean the toilets at Por's house for spending money, but we all know that's not what Tee is up to. And it's soooo convenient that there's a short film contest and it just so happens that Por has an idea for it and also a location to shoot in that just so happens to be in the Cult Murder Woods. Here at 2:40 in I am still banging the drum of Por And His Family Are True Believers. Will I be putting on my clown shoes later? Perhaps!

Jin and Tee are both skeptical that they'll be able to pull it off. Por and Fluke are really trying hard to get Tee to agree... Por mentions selling tickets to see the movie and the music changes and you can see Tee fall for it. Why is Tee so desperate for money when he's buying expensive In Game Purchases? does he have a gatcha gambling problem lmao.

Non is so unsure when he comes into the planning room and is immediately bullied! Why are they so mean! He's the only one giving actual ideas! And I see that Jin isn't involved in the bullying and doesn't know the backstory between them. Poor Non does seem a little weird but not in a bad way. The way they're just using him to get a script is so mean!

Wait, are they in a fucking Catholic School hold up i gotta rewind that. "Think Good, Do Good, Be A Good Person" I mean....words to live by i guess. Not that these Mean Girls-ass friends will pay any attention.

Ooooh, Por telling Non to send the script digitally he doesn't want a literal paper trail he is already planning to steal the credit! He's doing all this work and they're still calling him Greasy! These shitheads deserve what's coming to them. Jin is right to call them out about it. No wonder Jin will be the Final Girl. Non, sweetie, please develop some self respect!

ok but like JinNon are being really cute together. no wonder if Non gets a crush on him.

OK OK OK HOLD THE FUCK UP. THIS CONVERSATION BETWEEN NON'S PARENTS IS INTERESTING. Non has a sibling they send money to, but they're having money problems and can only afford to pay their bills this month and don't have the money to spare. Non's mom wants to take an emergency loan to cover it and if I learned anything from Kinnporsche one of those things was don't take sketchy emergency loans because the mafia will come after you. Mom mentions to Non that New is studying abroad buuuuuuut....hmmm. it just seems shady.

Non's sure on a lot of pills for a highschooler. also, someone with a heart for their contact name is asking if he took his meds....

Top is the fucking worst. but Por's not any better really. I did laugh at "Move, my beloved Greasy will sit here" and the way the other kids scattered. Por really is throwing his family's money and influence around isn't he. ugh the way Por and Top wipe their hands after touching Non is so gross and mean and awful.

oh no. Hot Teacher just offered to give Non a ride home and i feel nothing but dread.

Gambling Hall! Oh my god i was right about the gambling lmao. Anyway, Tee's in the mafia. so that's fun.

That lady on the board saw Por's name and was like "oh. we definitely don't want to make his parents mad" the way she nudged the other judge!

can't believe they tried to exclude Non from the results reveal oh wait, yes i can. because they're the worst.

Por's mom spoils him but lmao you can see that his dad is just Done even if he does get worn down by mom.

Por is so fucking stupid for leaving that expensive-ass camera in the unlocked classroom. Top is so fucking stupid for messing around with the camera. I hate Top so much oh my god.

oh no. Tee is going to frame Non for it isn't he. that was the money Por was saying he shouldn't have taken from Non isn't it. And we know Non's family has money problems!!! Tee is the worst. lmao at Fluke just being there the whole time.

I like that Jin knows what's up and tried to defend Non.

I really want to know who ❤️ is. Is it New? Is it Hot Teacher?

Boo Tee trying to drag poor Non into his Mafia shit. leave him alone! Haven't you done enough???!

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it’s soooo annoying that so many ppl consider the better player to be the one who scores the most goals. Yes goals are important but half the time they aren’t representative of a players true qualities. I don’t wanna name names but so many of the “stars” we hear of are only considered good bc they are fed goals every match. It’s unfair that the ppl in midfield aren’t getting credit for making the goals happen. Or the defenders who work their ass off to keep clean sheets. Pedri is one of my favorite footballers bc he’s literally magic on the field, but it’s so easy for ppl to look at g/a stats and decide he hasn’t contributed anything. I dont know if I’ll ever take the next ballon dor winners seriously. Messi deserved it bc he was amazing in every aspect of football. I don’t care to watch someone receive the award bc they scored some tap-ins.

Exactly. Like I'm sorry but I rate footballers based on what I see with my own damn eyes not stats. Idc if someone scores every game. it takes much more than that to be a complete footballer. I think Messi is so special because he can score goals for fun while also being the kind of player you can't take your eyes off of. He can do everything and he will remain the best player in the world for as long as he plays. I'm not trying to be unfair to good goalscorers tho because that too is a talent that not everyone has and being clinical in front of goal isn't an easy task (us barça know best given the state of our current forwards) but that alone isn't enough to make someone the best player in the world. It just doesn't.

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I just hope that tomorrow apart from the " do more" we' ll have some eddie scenes, because the way they're underusing him in s6 it's criminal, ofc since kr hates him and likes to keep him far away from buck the moment he'll start to date again we'll see him 20 min for episodes because no homo, like there wasn't really any other sl for him but dating again right?

I know that whatever we get from all the cast tomorrow is gonna be soooo good, but I'm not gonna lie, I'm trying to keep my expectations for how much Eddie we're getting low, just so I'm not overly disappointed. I wouldn't necessarily say KR hates him (that argument could be made of Oliver too since Buck's personal storylines outside the firefam have been trash since she took over), which we know isn't true, she's just....bad a coming up with storylines in general across the board 🤷🏻‍♀️ Honestly I think that's what him dating again is about too.

A) TPTB haven't fully pulled the Buddie trigger (I expect that Tim wants to be around to get the credit for that and also she's....not the one anyone would pick to head that train), and these guys can only have so many scenes screaming each other's names while single before they gotta wedge some woman in there to "prove" there's nothing to see. 🙄

B) KR is bad at coming up with ideas and while I don't think she hates Ryan/Eddie, I DO think that she just doesn't find the character interesting so she doesn't know what to do with him. It's the same with Chim who is getting the first storyline centered on him since season THREE when Albert showed up. Everything else has been about Madney and he was written off the show for most of that, and their breakup AND resolution/working things out happened off screen. JLH has negotiated for limited time on set apparently but they continued to squander the majority of the time she DID have on random stuff instead of making sure she was included in firefam stuff like being the one at dispatch on big calls which she could film separately from the team to fit her schedule. Bobby has this WHOLE arc with Wendall, and yet KR didn't think that name needed to come up a single time before 6x09 and Bobby spent the previous 8 episodes being a background character with nothing going on. Ravi is supposed to be back with a big episode and his name hasn't been mentioned a single time in 10 episodes. Hen was apparently going to officially leave the 118 to continue med school and it wasn't ever mentioned until suddenly there was a going away party. There was no Chim being nostalgic on calls that "this could be the last time you have to hold the vomit bag in the back of the ambulance" or anything. Honestly, I didn't even KNOW she was resigning, until that party because everything was about her passing the test to move on, it never came up that moving on would necessitate her leaving which SHOULD have been a huge plot point. Chim was going to lose his partner and we didn't hear anything about it until we were watching her going away party! Yet another of the things KR had in her notes that she didn't think needed to make it on screen so the audience knows what's going on. And it's not like there wasn't time for all that ins 6a because nothing much else happened.

Point is, we've got some GOOD writers and directors back, and the cast is really excited about the work they've been doing (though it's good to remember what an actor finds exciting to DO and a fun experience for them ACTING, doesn't necessarily translate perfectly to what the audience prefers to SEE on our end), but at the end of the day the same person is still making the decisions and planning the arcs. And unless someone higher up steps in (as they did with the L mess and what appears to have happened with the sperm donor arc given that the interviews are showing distinctly opposite answers to what they were after 6x09), we're still stuck with someone who has proven since taking over partway through s4, that she fundamentally doesn't understand the characters or what motivates them, or what the audience wants from the show. The tone of the seasons has swung wildly all over the place and been horribly inconsistent, and either nothing is happening or they're trying to pack too much in to an episode.

So for my personal edification and to make my experience as enjoyable for me personally as possible, I'm working on managing my expectations so I'm either right, or pleasantly surprised and delighted by what's delivered. And as I said, at the very least, whatever we DO get, from Ryan or any of the rest of the cast, is gonna be GOLD.

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Soooo what happened at the bad campaign?

OKAY, so it's been a month since this has been asked. And that group has now cut me off entirely. Okay, anon this is what happened.

This was the first group I joined, legitly the first time using roll 20 and complete strangers. Now the "plot" was to free this guy named Jasper who did something for your character and you now owe him a life debt. So gotta break him out of a jail. However when I joined this group had been playing for half a year and had been doing this grand quest for the mayor so that guy can free Jasper from prison with some kind of pardon. Right off the bat, combat. Boe (I used him in two campaigns to develop his character more) and another guy who I rather enjoyed were thrown right into combat while we were level 1 and the rest were lvl 3. I didn't see the problem till the dungeon master was throwing lvl 5 enemies and turning people into stone. Course there was some fun! Like Boe got known for screaming "I don't know YOU!" for some reason. The combat was excessive, I looked back in the summary of the group I joined to see if it said combat ONLY cause the story? Non-existent. We had a bunch of good players, with interesting characters and the roleplay didn't happen. We were just a group of strangers battling. We battle then had to take a long rest, sometimes three times a session. After a couple weeks I did voice my opinion and tried to request we lessen the combat. And the DM said sure. Well. Didn't happen. He ended up KILLING this one guy's character, not once, not TWICE but THREE times. This guy had to make new characters constantly. Then the DM would target the only woman in the group constantly, and this was her first time playing DnD and this dm was killing the fun for her. Jumping around now, remember there was no plot? No story? Just combat. Yeah that, we kept doing as much as we could. The group TRIED to keep to the story where we are killing wizards for the mayor which BTW made a zombie apocalypse. So the world was in GREAT danger because NOTHING WOULD DIE. He would raise it back up, the black dragon the group killed? Undead now and won't die. EVEN AFTER we killed the necro wizard person who he abused the legendary skills out of, the zombies didn't go away and then had another WORLD ending situation with these Wunderbugs or whatever. These "wunderburgs " also can one-shot you in one look. And have 18 natural armor. The DM's excuse to make this all combat-heavy and purposely trying to get our characters to die is "I want to make it like you barely survived." Which I can get but when no character survives there is no thrill there. Then also the whole "bard" thing happened where "THE BARD" stole any credit of the group. I left after we killed the necromancer and returned to the mayor who STILL wasn't gonna free Jasper and when I asked how close we were to like the end of the campaign we were only HALF way THROUGH. After a year, we got barely anywhere. I apologize for the unorganized rant but it was just.. Woof... So much. I did not enjoy this experience even when we had nice players. Just wished the DM actually listened to us and I hope they finish that campaign.

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RAKING it in ! Not yet but it's coming to a table near you. Online Casino Malaysia

Quick update on my break from Online Casino Malaysia. I'm back playing intermittently and really find that I’ve improved as a player in every aspect. Tilt still exists within and can do it's devilish damage but it's under control, hand reading skills have improved 10 fold and my luck is probably above average at the minute.

Mmm keep looking at the £25/50 10 seated NL on betfair it looks soooo juicy, however the odd multi and no more than 3 x 6-pacs a day for the moment. I say no more than 3 because I tend to find that more than 2hrs is too much at the poker table when focussing on a game. Multi’s I tend to not take notice too much of the table before the 1st couple of hours and music, TV etc are all good distractions.

At the minute Strictly (NO CASH) poker although I’m like an addict that thinks hey I’m clean I could play a bit of cash now I know I’m not ready yet; still e few creases to iron out. Losing 19k in a short period of time is a pisser but the manner in which it is lost is where I have learned a few things. Firstly, and undeniably even in the cold light of day I was on a miserable run of bad luck and bad cards (fact). However, secondly as a result I was not playing appropriate poker and one hand springs to mind which was the pinnacle of my tilty crap play.

Quick reflection coming:

I had witnessed dozens of premiums being busted and was pretty pissed to say the least, not alcohol BTW just playing pissed off (not good). I’m playing the 10/20 NL 10 seated cash and winning about £1500 so I have with my buy-in £3500 on the table and in late position I get dealt AA. Yes the best preflop starting hand possible, I remember when I got it thinking ooooh dear, anyway everyone folds round to ‘Rhaegar’ a Rock/solid player who frequents the Crypto tables who raises 4 x BB to £80. I feel I have to name the player here so that anyone who knows him will know what a Muppet play I made here. I smooth call and no other takers, see a flop 6 7 J Rhaegar bets £120 and I’m not messing here I re-raise to £240 to see where I am LOL. Rhaegar re-raises to £800 and I think SET SET SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET and proceed to re-raise all-in for all my stack – my AA will not be beat, it cant be beat, it’s lost too many times! Rhaegar calls with 6 7 and his 2 pair stand up as quick as I stand up to bang my head against the wall.

What have I learned from this and all the bad beats, A LOT. A lot about me in particular and a lot about poker which won’t be much to most but to me is a lot. I learned that OK I suffered terrible bad luck on occasion but had I not tilted the money I saved could have helped me earn it back. I lost 3k I didn’t need to here which is 1.5 buyin’s on 10/20 and if I add it all up I could have probably played through the bad run and came out on top like the top players do. Just an insight to my thinking here since having time out but obviously I could write forever with the amount of thinking I’ve been doing.

Back to now:

This blog has been a real reflection of my poker playing career and being able to look back on previous posts is a real eye opener and insight into the sometimes crazy view I have of events, especially when I was in 'Zombie' mode. In 'Zombie' mode I didn’t think it was tilt, it was everything else in my life the girlfriend, Kids, Dog, someone phoning me whilst in the middle of an important pots everyone but me basically. Playing like a twat was easy, it came natural. I looked for any reason I could to call instead of considering the opposite and well played like a twat. Also, I took the game serious and didn’t like the view one bit TY.

The only reason I have played the last couple of weeks is that a friend told me to check my account I may have some rake back and when I looked I had been credited with £300 so I though Ok I’ll have a dabble like the old days ‘bit of fun’ play. The account now has £3575 in it and I think Toshiwonka is back looking for some scalps!!!

The racehorse I bought MrToshiwonka 2yr old is doing really well and we have entered him for the £200,000 Super sprint @ Newbury in July so fingers crossed I’ll be in the winners enclosure with a bottle of the finest.

Good luck as always to anyone reading and be disciplined! LOOOOL

I would recommend a break to anyone feeling like the games against them it works wonders. I’ve lost a stone of poker weight as well. Only another 4 to go.