#it’s a big skip album for me tbh

[theamazingannie]

Me before tour began: Honestly, all I need is Cruel Summer and august and I will be fine with whatever else she chooses.

Me after seeing the set list: Wait where’s x???😭

[that-was-a-bit-stupid-of-you]

ttpd review: thoughts (and prayers)

cuz wtf was that. (also providing my two cents that no one gives a shit about)

Is the promotion in the room with us?

Not going to lie, this part pissed me off. As a post evermore release swiftie, the first album release I got was midnights. And while the promotion for midnights wasn't astoundingly genius, the track list release (midnights mayhem with me) was smart. Everyday, there would be chaos all over social media of taylor taking out a number and releasing the track name. The excitement over YOYOK was to die for. But after reaching peak fame, girlie just decided shit wasn't necessary anymore. Absolutely no promotion for ttpd, except a few lyrics that provided no context (or excitement) whatsoever. That, and the very non subtle "hinting" of some big reveal of what went down between her and joe, by making some playlists, that not only ruined the perspective of many of her fans and the relationship they had with her previous songs, but ALSO. THE ALBUM HAD BARELY ANYTHING ABOUT JOE. (Not that i personally care about what happened, but it was so unnecessary to center the ONLY promotion done around someone who was barely a part of the album). Swifties went on the internet to harass joe alwyn (and his female coworkers) who might as well be called a special mention on a matty healy album. Why even do all that then? We will never know.

Confusion?

taylor released 31 songs, and while a double album theory coming true would be a dream come true for any swiftie, it just... wasn't. Out of 31 songs, barely 10 stood out. Some of it just didn't make sense, in any way. "Why is this on the album?" "This sounds like a midnights vault track." "No issues, maybe this is just a skip. I'll listen to the next. Oh wait nvm. Um." Like girl what. It just feels like a giant vault album of synth pop music.

Also, it's called the tortured poets department. There is barely anything poetic or tortured about the album aesthetic. Except maybe it's torturing me, but I'm as much of a poet as she is, which basically means I'm not one.

The album just feels so different than the other albums, in the sense that they followed an aesthetic, a certain style of music and lyrics, and created some sort of story. This one just feels like she wrote many songs and put them all on an album, picked whatever track name seemed interesting enough as the album name, and called it a day. Some of the songs are gems, some create a confusion as to why they are on this album, and some just make you cringe- or atleast go "wtf". Which is fine, but if not even half the songs fall under the first category out of 30 songs, then it's a problem.

These were written by... taylor?

The lyrics omfg. I'm not going to be one of those ppl who go around saying that the lyrics sounded like an emo middle schooler (I've heard this take) BUT again, some songs have lyrics that make you question how taylor, someone who wrote the albums folklore and evermore, and many great songs like would've, could've, should've, story of us, all too well, fearless, white horse, dbatc, daylight, red... I could keep going tbh, produced...this.

It was very weird to listen to the words "tattooed golden retriever" from someone who wrote "handsome, you're a mansion with a view" (also who the FUCK is calling matty healy that??)

A very important part of taylor's music is how it is focused on the lyrics. The music itself isn't the most special, or different, in most of her songs, but what makes them (and her) special is her songwriting. However, from her songwriting going from commonly used phrases and idioms to make them tell a story, use a wide range of vocabulary, heavily using personification, allusion, transferred epithet, and a few other figures of speech that she uses in her songs to make elements such as colours, for example, tell a story, in a way it seemed effortless and fit perfectly, to this... now it feels like she's trying to do that, but that's it. She's TRYING, and it's not yielding results, and seems more like a try hard "poet" rather than... whatever she was going for. The songs are filled with self-satisfied "clever" metaphors that are being reused and recycled over and over. This is not what ppl meant when they asked you to be more environmentally friendly, taylor.

Final thoughts I guess?

While the songs are basically only an empty shell of something that taylor used to make, the album isn't all bad. Some of the songs do sound good and go well with taylor's voice (aaron dessner, the fucking legend you are) and are quite enjoyable, if not as memorable as her other songs.

There are songs such as the prophecy, clara bow, so long, london, loml, guilty as sin?, etc., that really do come through and honestly I really like them.

I do feel that the album can grow on people, but it's just... not the best. Like she says so much, and not to quote taylor swift, but genuinely the only thing in my head right now is "the more you say, the less I know".

Overall, the album is fine, but not in taylor swift standards. It's just... not bad, with some exceptions.

[ecoamerica]

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[dalkyum]

EVERY MONTH OF 2023 IN CONTENT! I was tagged by @taegyunie and @dazzlingkai, thank you for thinking of me!! 💕

rules: link your favorite and/or most popular post from each month this year <3 (it’s totally fine to skip months!) and tag some CCs you love!

I know this is late so no pressure to do this at all but I'll tag @tamburins @hwangelbaby @jae-bums @jftk if you'd like to do it!

this is literally going to be emi reviews all of her gifs of yugyeom but like. let's go skfjdkjf

JANUARY most popular: yugjae from youngjae best friend radio (deserved) my favorites: this yugyeom instalive set!! also I think this set from the ponytail mv came out really pretty

FEBRUARY most popular: jinyoung album shoot (I think this is literally my most popular gifset jdjkfj) my favorites: ok I love this set from one of the aomg tour stops because well. wet. also he's cute. and this markjingyeom set that I did for the ahgase admirer event is the most like. technical gifset I've ever done and I think the colors came out so good

MARCH most popular: youngjae errr day behind (I need to do another set with this formatting I think it's so fun) my favorites: yugyeom aomg online concert cuteness, this youngjae performance set is soso pretty, and these dyeary gifs of yugyeom bc I always wanted to make big gifs of this clip even before I taught myself how to gif so they are special to mee

APRIL most popular + my favorite: another big gif yugyeom dyeary set as is my right

MAY most popular: yugyeom falling in love radio perf (apparently I was not giffing in april or may skjdkdf but I do like this set a lot of people said it was pretty)

JUNE most popular: YUGYEOM @ SEOUL WATERBOMB (DESERVED!!) also my most popular yugyeom set in general. also one of my faves 💕 my favorites: I think this set is cute too:) and!! this yugyeom w korea edit, I think I colored this so well. just absolutely killed that evil green filter

JULY most popular: yugyeom from it's live's tiktok (also a fave tbh) my favorites: this lolo performance set! and this one too, I think the coloring came out really nice

AUGUST most popular: just some guy for my isa's birthday (love this set, the clips go together so well it's so satisfying kfdkjd) my favorites: apparently I like everything I made in august so these are my most favorite posts. yugyeom dazed korea photoshoot is my best edit to date I love these sm. this yugyeom it's live set came out so hd looking and the colors are pretty:) I also love this lolo ending fairy set the coloring came out so good. AND no one cared abt this one but I love this set of yugyeom on monstop he's so prettie

SEPTEMBER most popular: yugyeom daebak show set (also a fave!! amazing. glad we all agree) my favorites: this yugyeom ig live set I think he looks so good in the blue 💙 I really need to make more ig live/vlive gifs they're truly my calling and yet I never make them skldfk

OCTOBER most popular: yugyeom lolo curv live my favorites: I love both of these sets of yugyeom at octopop he looked so amazing incredible this is one of my fav looks on him ever (yes I know it's just a tank top don't worry about me I can't be saved)

NOVEMBER most popular: my fancam set of yugyeom performing lights in berlin (screaming crying throwing up. nothing to add. obviously also one of my favorites, the lighting is so pretty and warm 🥹) my favorites: apparently I also like everything from november asdklf this youngjae suit dance set came out exactly the way I wanted 🩷 also yugyeom's birthday post of course. and yugyeom x buzzfeed uk just bc I didn't stop staring at this set for like a week. the first gif alone gave me enough serotonin to survive for a month

DECEMBER most popular: yugyeom take you down perf 220331 (this set came out so good. deserved) my favorites: I love this youngjae mencert set, this also came out exactly how I wanted skfjd youngjae has the best performance videos I swear. and this gifset of yugyeom performing take you down is so beautiful to mee I redid it a lot of times and I like what I ended up with!!

my goals for 2024 are to post more gifs and keep being normal about that man 🩷 I can literally see my improvement from the beginning of the year to now and I think that's really cool:)

if u have ever reblogged my gifs I love u. I'm literally over here just doing my thing and u are all so kind. kiss kiss

[angel-bruises]

Initial opinions on the suggestions I was given for songs that feel like Twin Peaks & Laura Palmer (including some I was suggested on Instagram) Under a read more because it ended up being quite long

Les Revenants Soundtrack album - Mogwai  I did sort of skip through each track since this was an entire album suggested, but I agree it sounds like Twin Peaks. Like the town's grief after Laura's death. Will definitely be giving this album a proper listen later because I really like what I heard.

Otterley - Cocteau Twins I'm already a massive Cocteau Twins fan tbh. And I totally see the Twin Peaks vibes here! It's Agent Cooper having dreams about the case. It's owls flying at you in mysterious caves.

Midnight Cowboy - Faith no More This is so Cooper-core. And the brighter side of Twin Peaks in general. Love it.

Painless Steel - Bohren & der Club of Gore Oh I completely hear it tbh! It's giving traffic light in the wind at night. It's giving Twin Peaks soundtrack. The low hum sounds right out of Laura's theme, but then it also gets a bit jazzy like the rest of the soundtrack. Really like this one

On The Sea - Beach House I really enjoyed it. The lyrics definitely fit Laura's story.

A Warm Place- Nine Inch Nails Oh my god I love it. Gorgeous. AAAAAAAGHHH

La Mer - Nine Inch Nails Ngl I had no idea Nine Inch Nails made music like this and I'm really loving it??? It's so good!! And definitely get the Twin Peaks vibe with this, moving from beautiful to chaotic.

Ghosts I - 1 - Nine Inch Nails  Well I'm definitely going to start listening to Nine Inch Nails. And yeah, it absolutely gives a Laura & Black Lodge vibe to me. Like, all the darkness of Twin Peaks.

An Angel Held me Like a Child - Yeule Yeule can play at The Roadhouse like a modern Julee Cruise. It reminds me of Laura's happy ending getting her angel. Or when she's created by Dido in The Return.

Laura - Bat for Lashes I see the connection to Laura with the lyrics. I'm not sure it feels like her to me though. But maybe I'm wrong because two separate people suggested this one

Ptolemaea - Ethel Cain Very black lodge. This is what they're listening to in the room above the convenience store. Sounds like Laura's heartache. I also love it (although the outro is kind of long)

Laura Palmer’s theme - Xiu xiu Kind of cheating imo since it's a cover of a track off the soundtrack but I did like it. Nothing beats the original one though, Angelo Badalamenti is on another level and you can't improve on perfection.

Caroline - Concrete Blonde Makes me want to just get on my bike and go with this playing. Very 'giving a little lap dance in the Fat Trout trailer park' (I may have been influenced by the music video)

Redlights - Salem I'm already a huge Salem fan so I already know this track well and love it. Definitely get the Twin Peaks feeling from a lot of Salem's tracks, though I think Asia fits the vibe the most personally.

Better Off Alone - Salem Another track I already love. And I very much agree it has that feeling. It's Laura Palmer high out of her mind having a breakdown at James before running away. It's the darkness of the Lodge. It's dopplegangers and pain. Which is kind of funny when you remember what it's a remix of

Cocteau Twins Like I mentioned, I'm already a big Cocteau Twins fan and agree that most of their stuff feels very Twin Peaks! Or just Lynchian in general.

Fast moving cars - Carla Del Forno I totally get that Twin Peaks vibe from this one too. I'm running out of things to say lol. But yeah I like it and whoever suggested it is right.

Sarah Missing - Should This is so Bobby and Shelly. This is exactly what their romance sounds like and you can't convince me otherwise. I like it!

Rough Song - Beach House 30 seconds in and I love it, I love the bright sound Beach House have & will def be listening to more of them. The lyrics here are very fitting of Laura's story and the song itself sounds like Twin Peaks as a whole and very Laura.

Shadow - Chromatics I mean it's literally a song on the show. I would argue it's the song of The Return, much like Falling the song of the original show. Of course it sounds like Twin Peaks, it is Twin Peaks The Return!! And it's great

You Wish You Were Red - Trailer Trash Tracy I could see them playing at The Roadhouse! I feel like I've heard this song before but idk if I have. Feels like Cooper's journey?

I'm so glad for all these suggestions, I def have some new music I'm gonna listen to more!!

Also I know my writing is cringe as hell but you know what they say, I am cringe but I am free ;) I wasn't expecting to write as much as I did lmao

[mooodyblue]

elvis tag game by @headfullofpresley 💗

this is gonna be so loong i apologize in advance 😭😭 i have a lot of thoughts and opinions

tagging: @lllsaslll @elvisfatass @prayerstopresley @kiankiwi-blog and whoever wants to do this 😅

questions under the cut bc i rly listed a good chunk of his discography lol

When was the first time you heard of Elvis?

i'm sure my parents have played something of his growing up, i was more into mj than anything else. i wish i could remember like....the first real time i was ever really introduced to him. he's been referenced in so many of my interests that im sure there was i time i was like 10 and being like "oh that's an elvis reference" lol

what's your favorite era?

70s!!!! big daddy era as y'all call it 😅

favorite song(s) from the 50s?

trying to get to you, i'm counting on you, love me, don't be cruel, lawdy miss clawdy, as long as i have you, trouble, crawfish, i want you i need you i love you, one sided love affair, loving you, young and beautiful ...... i should probably stop before i list them all

favorite song(s) from the 60s

fever, such a night, im coming home, pocketful of rainbows, edge of reality, almost in love, can't help falling in love, the walls have ears, do not disturb, cotton candy land, it's now or never, rubberneckin', summer kisses winter tears, crying in the chapel, suspicious minds....literally everything on from elvis in memphis. god i want to list more but i need to STOP!!

favorite song(s) from the 70s

runaway, polk salad annie, you've lost that loving feeling, moody blue(duh), rags to riches, funny how time slips away, american trilogy!!!!!!!!!, hurt, make the world go away, the wonder of you

all time favorite songs that you can't skip?

suspicious minds, an american trilogy, pocketful of rainbows, i'm coming home, rubberneckin', honestly there's so many. i feel bad if i skip sometimes LOL

least favorite song?

im so sorry but tutti frutti💔

favorite gospel song(s)?

i still need to dive more into his gospel music, but i really love crying in the chapel and you never walk alone.

favorite country song(s)?

funny how time slips away, kentucky rain, always on my mind, make the world go away

favorite non english song?

wooden heart <3

a song(s) that make you feel nostalgic?

can't help falling in love 💗

a song(s) that makes you cry?

unchained melody!!!!! lord i can barely listen to it 😭

a song(s) that make you wanna dance?

rubberneckin', im coming home, got a lot o' livin to do, polk salad annie, suspicious minds

favorite song elvis as covered?

any day now and yesterday

what's a modern song you wish you could hear elvis cover?

i think he'd eat up two ghosts or ever since new york by harry styles tbh.

do you prefer vinyl or cd?

vinyl!!! i actually don't own a single elvis cd, just vinyls(cassettes too!)

favorite album?

self titled and from elvis in memphis <3

favorite movie soundtrack?

king creole for SURE

favorite live performance?

the laughing version of are you lonesome tonight 😅 also welcome to my world from aloha from hawaii !!!

a live performance you wish you were present at?

aloha from hawaii 100% but also literally any of his vegas shows in '69 because that entire live album had me laughing my ass off LMAO

favorite jumpsuits?

THIS ONE.

favorite movie(s)?

king creole, loving you, live a little love a little, follow that dream and girl happy(mostly because elvis in a dress)

least favorite movie(s)?

stay away joe, kissin' cousins, and double trouble.

favorite costar?

michele carey <3 i luv bernice

favorite documentary?

that's the way it is

favorite interview?

i didn't even have to THINK about this one. i know this is a press conference but idk. same thing? anyway, june 9th 1972 new york hilton elvis i want you so bad !!!!!! it's iconic and i just love how he is with everyone 😭

favorite car?

idk after i first watched elvis (2022) i wanted a pink cadillac so LOL

do you collect merch? if so, what's the one thing you hold most dear to your heart?

i do!! i have his vinyls mostly. but my tcb necklace is my lucky charm at this point, i just wish i had gotten it in silver instead of gold 😅

do you think you'll be a fan of elvis for the rest of your life?

absolutely. ive had a lot of interests and have lost interest in a lot of things but this is so much more different. he truly is everything to me and i've never felt so connected with someone in my whole life. i really do adore him.

[mydoctor]

Tagged by @catalogercas

Rules: list your ten favorite albums of all time and tag ten people to list theirs!

THIS GOT SO LONG IM SORRY

There is absolutely 0 order to this. Also I did 11 because I thought of all of these and then kept going back and forth about which one to eliminate and I couldn’t do it!! They’re all here for different reasons so I’m saying fuck the rules everybody lives! I am an absolute Album Listener like I’m usually in the mood for a specific album and I’ll listen straight through(but maybe skip a couple songs here and there)

1. Montaigne- Complex (This is the first year in like 3 years that Montaigne hasn’t been my number 1 or 2 artist on wrapped but all their albums still absolutely rule but this one is my fave.)

2. The Killers- Sam’s Town (I’ve been a Killers fan since I saw Somebody Told Me on the vh1 top 20 video countdown ✌️Hot Fuss is a banger but Sam’s Town holds a special place. Remember when we had song ringtones? The song Sam’s Town from the album Sam’s Town was mine for so long in high school.)

3. Punisher- Phoebe Bridgers (the soundtrack of my 2020 I used to come home exhausted from work and sit in bed and listen to punisher straight through and read fanfic to unwind. In hindsight not a Great Time but in the moment it kept me sane)

4. Coheed and Cambria- In Keeping Secrets Of Silent Earth 3 (the amount of Coheed I listened to in college was astronomical. For a while they got linked to a shitty time so I couldn’t listen but seeing them in the line up for WWWY is bringing me back babeyyy. Honestly big respect to Claudio Sanchez for making a whole band and multiple albums around his little OCs)

5. My Chemical Romance- The Black Parade (truly do I have to explain)

6. Petey- Lean Into Life (Petey made up 28% of my top 100 songs this year alone so he’s earned his place)

7. The Wombats- Glitterbug (I was torn between this one and Beautiful People Will Ruin Your Life but Headspace being on Glitterbug means it wins)

8. Metric- Live It Out (Another HS/College banger. I used to get so anxious during boss/big enemy fights in video games so I would listen to this album and sometimes specifically Monster Hospital on repeat. Sad I don’t like any of Metrics stuff post Fantasies but their early albums are great)

9. One Direction- Made In The AM (if yall haven’t been here for long you missed the 1D years and tbh I’m sad for you it was a fun time. Glad I got in as a fully cooked adult so I could avoid the extremely toxic parts and just have fun. Anyway last album best album when is the hiatus ending boys!!!!!!!!!)

10. Rilo Kiley- The Execution Of All Things(back to HS/college woohoooo! Truly is there anything better than screaming A Better Son/Daughter I DONT THINK SO)

11. Modest Mouse- We Were Dead Before The Ship Even Sank (Missed The Boat is one of my favorites songs of all time. This is another band that got stuck in the Associated With Bad Person zone for awhile but I just relistened a couple years ago and we’re so back baby)

tagging @pixiestickers @lookforanewangle @captainshakespear @bishakespeares @cassiefisherdrake @varricandhawke @thychesters @ursanic

11 albums 8 people I’m a great rule follower

Also if you see this and want to do it this is blanket permission to just say I tagged you ✌️

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[nebulanewts]

So to the surprise of absolutely no one,here are my first impressions of each Fly With You!! solo song on the new Nijigasaki album :] (listen I’ve been waiting for this for SO LONG like…how many times have I referenced wondering when Nijigasaki’s 5th / 6th album to come out??)

🎀 “Walking Dream” : 7/10 - Ok,so the song itself is super pretty,it feels like I’m sitting on a cloud with the light + dreamy feeling it has,but here’s the thing…I read somewhere that the English lyrics were “interesting” and as someone who isn’t a big fan of yandere Ayumu memes I really didn’t want to believe it…but MAN did they run with it in this song,like she is way more aggressive this time like here’s some examples: “I want you to be trapped in me forever” “Who are you looking at? Don’t do that” “The private account you have, the secret hobbies you have - As long as it’s about you I know everything” - Like hello? Hi? Is it just me reading too far into this or what?? Because it looks to me like this was done on purpose 👀 idk it’s started to grow on me more now that I’ve heard the whole song,it’s not like my FAVORITE Ayumu song but it’s very pretty and I like it even if the lyrics are a little questionable cndjdj

👑 “Senobi Shittate” : 8 or 9/10 - Not gonna lie,I don’t think the preview did this song justice bc I wasn’t sure about it at first BUT the full song is definitely better,I like that they’ve been giving Kasumi more “mature” sounding songs bc while the cutesy idol sound works for her too,this sort of slower dramatic guitar song also fits her image a lot too :0c idk it’s a nice balance,we have songs for bubbly cutesy number one idol Kasumin and songs for the less confident shyer Nakasu Kasumi it’s a nice balance ^^ one of my favorites so far

💧 “Koakuma LOVE ♡” : 10/10 - Ok so my first impression of the preview still stands now because…um…HUH???? This does not sound anything like any other Shizuku song we’ve heard - it’s very fluffy and cute,she’s using onomatopoeia like “kyururin” and “doki doki”,she even talk-raps at some points…wait a minute…this isn’t a Shizuku song at all,this is a Kasumi song! It’s like Mia sent these two the wrong songs on accident,but they didn’t notice and went with it anyway chdjdj but I love it,it’s still one of my favorite songs on this album for the sheer silliness alone it’s fantastic,tbh she never makes a bad solo song in my opinion

👠 “My Shadow” : 10/10 - KARIN! NEVER! MISSES!! I’m just so happy that she finally has a jazzy funky song,it’s a sound I’ve always wanted her to try and now that she has one it’s AMAZING! It really suits her,one of my favorite things about Karin is that she never does the same concept / sound twice like there’s something for everyone and I love it,I love this song it MIGHT be my one of my favorites on the album and my favorite Karin solo it’s SO good

👏 “Request for U” : 7/10 - Well…I like that they slowed it down this time for Ai,plus the funkier trumpet sound is nice idk how to describe it’s not BAD,like it wouldn’t be an instant skip for me but I’m not going out of my way to listen to it ykwim?? For me I like her other solos a lot better,but it’s a good listen regardless

🐏 “Cooking with Love” : 12/10 - YEP! This one is my favorite,I knew it would be just from the preview but this did not disappoint like we know Kanata can do EDM bc of Butterfly - but they took it to another *level* with this song,it’s so sweet and sugary but then the DROP??? The drop near the end blew my mind,like I definitely didn’t see that coming that at all,it was amazing I love this song so much omg - to think Kanata would be the second Nijigaku member to have a kawaii bass-ish song along w/ Rina is a little bit of a surprise,but definitely a welcome one ^^

🎙️ “Cherry Bomb” : 9/10 - First of all,Hayamaru is a SPECTACULAR Setsuna like she captures the feeling of the character while also doing her own thing if that makes sense I think this is a great debut song for her,usually I’m pretty 50/50 on Setsuna’s songs but this one is really good :0c I love the drums and how high energy it is,it’s definitely up there on my favorite songs on the album and favorite solos of hers

🍞 “Koisuru Sunflower” : 8/10 - …ok so I mean this in the nicest way possible,but this song kinda sounds like the Coconut Mall theme in Mario Kart not fully but a little bit ok cndjdj anyways smth I like about Emma’s solos is they always have this warm comfy feel like they’re just hugs in song form - this one feels like I’m chilling on the beach,watching the sunset w/ a fun little drink in hand and it’s really nice :] not much else to say,I just like this song a lot which isn’t surprising because all of Emma’s solos are pretty good

🛜 “Watashi wa Magnet” : 6/10 - Well…this may be the first Rina solo that isn’t immediately one of my favorites,it’s kind of like Ai’s where it’s not bad but I’m not gonna seek it out ykwim?? It’s a cute song but not really my style,it’s a little slower than I expected it to sound ig

🔖 “Koufukuron” : 5/10 - Y’know,I was REALLY hoping that they just previewed the wrong part of the song but…why would you give this girl outfits with names like “Royal Skeleton” and “Undead Celeb” if you’re going to give her a generic pop ballad?? It’s not like. The worst song it’s fine but it’s definitely my least favorite Shioriko solo 😔 which makes me sad because I love her so much…maybe it’ll grow on me but for right now it’s my least favorite solo on this album like again it’s not horrible but I’m a little disappointed because imo her outfit choices built it up to be something it isn’t ykwim??? Maybe that’ll change but for now it’s kinda meh imo :/

🎩 “Lemonade” : 7/10 - So we’ve gone from a Taylor Swift song in 2006 to Avril Lavigne song to Avril Lavigne b-side and now we’ve circled back to a b-side on a Disney pop star’s album,honestly I’m loving Mia’s song journey chdjdj but this is probably my favorite out of the slower songs,it’s just cute and boppy Mia has one of my favorite voices in Nijigaku + I think she can pull off a lot of different concepts w/ this being no exception - not much else to say,it’s just a nice song (and I’m glad that they’ve dialed it back w/ the weird lyrics for her…for a second there she always got the slightly suspicious lyrics but this time it’s decent)

🪽 “5201314 (I Love You Forever)” : 10/10 - WHOA!!!! Lanzhu bringing in the HEAT after all of the slower songs before her,oh my g o d this song is amazing :0 I like that she speaks Chinese more,I like that it sounds like video game BGM,this might have topped Ye Mingzhu for me when it comes to Lanzhu solos like…that intro alone slapped me in the face but in the best way possible WOW this song is awesome,as expected of the queen herself to end this set of solos with a bang

🌈 “Fly with You!!” : 9/10 - Usually Nijigaku’s group songs aren’t really my thing,but this one is nice :] it makes me think of like…Hirogaru Precure for some reason even tho I haven’t seen a single episode of any Pretty Cure series cjdjdj it’s a little orchestral but also a good cheer up song idk what it is,but it’s probably one of my fave group songs now

[the1975attheirverybest]

oooooh fav lyrics??? fuck thats hard. i will not explain why because i want to seem somewhat cool still and not like a total fucking nerd (despite having incredibly in depth reasonings)

The 1975 - ok this is Album has some interesting lyrics because its before he had it all figured out and i fucking love it for that, theres so many fucking contenders for fav lyrics (including all of anobrain, antichrist or The city) the entire abum is just so mmmmm. but if i had to pick an absolute fav id say

"I put your mother through hell, don't you mind I hate your brother as well, don't you mind, don't you mind Oh I was thinking bout killing myself, don't you mind I love you, don't you mind, don't you mind"

and i know i know its a verse but it isnt complete otherwise. Plus i have it tattooed on me so i feel like i had to.

I Like it when you sleep for you are so beautiful yet so unaware of it - once again mmm chefs kiss of an album no skips (theyve never made a bad album) and lyricaly very beautiful, i could absolutely nerd out about all of their catalogue tbh. but for this i am excluding Nana and She lays down because theyre...just perfect, and also i sob.

so it would have to be

"And if I believe you Will that make it stop? If I told you I need you Is that what you want?"

or

"Before you go (please don't go), turn the big light off"

its really easy and tempting to put ballad on here but i think thats because his performance style for it is so visceral and while lyrically its beautiful still i cant imagine myself enjoying them if they were sung by someone else because they need the guts behind it ya know.

A brief enquiry into online relationships - delicious as always matthew thank you this day for our daily bread.

so its either

"I can show you the photographs of you getting on with life I've had dreams where there's blood on you" thank you for referencing the bible matthew very cool.

or

"You build it to a high to say goodbye Because you're not the same as them" because it is like a fucking gut punch

notes on a conditional form - seasoned to perfection. difficult because Guys is on this album and its so sweet but i dont think its my fav lyrically, for no particular reason. same for roadkill although "i pissed myself on a texan intersection" always has a place in my heart.

"I'm in love, but I'm feeling low For I am just a footprint in the snow" did you need to fucking wreck me or is that just for funsies huh?

or

"Don't wanna bore you with my frail state of mind "Oh, winner, winner, that's your biggest lie I'm sure that you're fine" I haven't told a lie in quite some time (Quite some time) "You know we'll leave if you keep lying Don't lie behind your (Frail state of mind)"

Being funny in a foreign language - i take 0 slander for this album because its just as brilliant as the others. so first all of part of the band is fucking art and so im excluding it because it should be all of our favs.

"I've been suicidal, you've been gone for weeks If I'm undecided, will you decide for me?W

and

"'Cause, baby, I'll do anything that you wanna I'll try anything that you wanna I'll find myself in the moonlight 'Cause, baby, I want everything that you wanna And I've tried to just be me, like, a thousand times But you're on my mind"

sorry its so long and i couldnt pick just 1 (not a libra but still indecisive) in order to remain seeming somewhat cool and not a total nerd ive refrained from explaining each choice but yeah.

Welllllll……did you HAVE to bring up “Me” AND “Frail State of Mind”?!? Are you trying to make me cry? Cuz it’s almost working.

It’s weird I’ve always kinda thought of Oh Caroline as some of his simpler writing. Not in a bad way. Like “Me” is simple as well. Simplicity has its time and its place and can be wonderful. And it IS wonderful in Oh Caroline. But I’m a layers girlie, so maybe I haven’t been giving this one much attention *runs to listen to it*

[virgincels]

okok things i assume abt u... um. I feel like your favorite Lana album is ultraviolence bc i see you post a lot abt the limited releases and unreleased from it (ave maria, cult leader, flipside like 5ever ago when I had an irl-contaminated alt and a dream...) but also I could be wrong bcs we were both raised on btd and i'll personally always love it a lot for nostalgia tbh!!

my favorite lana album is honeymoon but i get told that i'm "not that vibe" a lot which is... a lil confusing LMAO like fym i'm not dreamy and lovesick!?! I feel like ur vibe is very specifically the unreleased tracks she has where she used the surf-rock esque guitar (idk how to describe it!!) like push me down/kinda outta luck/butterflies pts 1 + 2/is it wrong/big bad wolf type shit

miss u sweetpea ♡

OMG HAI EM.. ultraviolence is the album I listen to the most and I never skip a single song.. it was the first album I listened to when I first signed up for a Spotify account I think and I was sat there jaw dropped… like what is this .. I REALLY just like music with.. erm guitar and whatnot I love all of them so much I can’t choose I love nfr but I always bounce between albums like ack but I def listen to ultraviolence the most 😞

honeymoon is sooo dreamy and it sounds like a cinematic album. like it was made for a film.. honeymoon part that says mr born to lose reminds me of leon LMFAO ur dreamy and lovesick to ME EM!!! I LOVEEE ALL OF THOSE SONGS ACTUALLY they’re so playful and cute I love push me down so much.. it’s so fun and I miss it

[pandaemoanium]

@ prev post; ive always been rly hesitant to post it here bc im unable to credit the artist and i hate uncredited art posting hahah

just reminiscing and rambling under the cut

me and the artist met at the psych ward in 2017 and they were probably one of the first ppl outside of my closest friends who i came out to as a furry. we became friends pretty quickly and always hung out together. they listened to me practicing the piano while they drew. we bonded over our favorite songs. they were my support when Brand New (yikes) released their last album and i fought the nurses to let me have my phone for one day just so i could listen to the album on release. they were my support when i ended up defying the rules, skipped the group sessions to listen to it anyway, and having a major crisis right after bc the album broke me, crying against their shoulder. one day they just asked to see reference of Steven and i was all ?????? until they brought me that artwork as a surprise at the end of the day

we had a lot of fun together at the ward, but sadly we kinda lost touch after we both got out.

its pretty unlikely they will ever find me here, but if youre ever reading this, i hope the transpoli persevittu went well, i hope youve found more reasons to stick around, and i hope you know youve made a lot of people happy! i still remember our shenanigans fondly even though we all had a *really* rough time.

i still laugh thinking about the day when i didnt want to go home because i didnt feel safe, and you told me to come over to your place, and i was starving and wanted instant noodles but you didnt have a pot so we cooked the noodles on a frying pan. it wasnt a big deal tbh but i still remember those days and smile.

i ended up finding happiness in other people, i sincerely hope you did as well. you deserve the world and more!!!!

[nayeonline]

!! updated taylor album ranking !!

the blackpink ranking was a bit wild so I thought let’s do it again :)))) this is very much subject to change I’ll probably change my mind within thirty minutes of posting but whatever let’s gooooo

REPUTATION - this album is such a no skip album that once you start listening to it you legally have to listen to the whole thing. Easily her most iconic era, easily her best album cover, hits include ALL OF THEM.

FOLKLORE - this album saved lives like it’s that serious. THE ARTISTRY THE POETRY THE STORYTELLING. It’s also marauders coded which is automatically a slay :) hits include all of them again :)

EVERMORE - folklore but slightly less melancholy??? Tbh folklore and evermore are so close in how much I love them but folklore is so close to my heart lmao. This album also has my fave Taylor song EVER which is the wonderful, the life changing, the FLAWLESS ‘cowboy like me’ :))))

1989 - dare I say invented pop??? Career defining, pure hits. Style is actually the greatest pop song ever conceived like it’s factually gods gift to music and not liking it is a globally recognised illness :) the other songs are also earth shattering xx

LOVER - potentially my hottest take on this list but I FUCKING LOVE THIS ALBUM. she’s a little frustrating for me bc there are a couple skips but literally everything else is life changing??? Like hello, cruel summer, dbatc, cornelia street, FALSE GOD???

MIDNIGHTS - quintessential taylor. Lyrical slay, production slay, flawless execution. I may not really love anti hero but I LOVE yoyok, question, karma, sweet nothing, mastermind the Great War and of course Would’ve Could’ve Should’ve TO NAME A FEW

RED - she’s so underrated and for what??? Like this is a stacked track list and of course all too well TMV was a cultural reset

SPEAK NOW - ugh I’m going to get hate for this I can tell but HEAR ME OUT. She’s fun I love her but I LOVE THE OTHER ALBUMS MORE OK RELAX.

FEARLESS - (there is a big gap between speak now and fearless btw) if you love this album I understand, but I am simply not a country gyal

DEBUT - she was necessary but ngl I don’t really listen to her that much lol I’m not a country girl. Also I’m very much british so singing in a southern accent is a little grating lmao. Picture to burn is still a hit tho

[orchidsangel]

ro i just need to tell you that i love your writing so much i literally explode everytime you post and i’m in love with you i think ! The way u write jason is literally how i want my dream man! I don’t even want men! he’s so scrumdiddlyumptious and i am so glad that i found yr writing Tbh

thank u for being The Jason Todd writer ever and i can’t wait to see what else u have in store :33!!!!

(also i think i have to hear what went down between mattel and mga that caused the downfall of bratz now!! ur making me curious with that one thing on ur sideblog ⁉️)

i really don't know what i've done to get so many kind messages from all these people, it kinda feels a little surreal like woah...u like me? i am in love with YOU for sending me this sweet n kind message like, should we get married now?

i am a man hater till the day i die, but i unfortunately am attracted to them :( too bad they fucking suck. ughhhh i've written him as my dream man too (accidentally set the bar too high for myself so fml) and i'm soooooooooo glad you find joy in my writing, it means the world to me, and i hope you continue to find joy in it <33

as for MATTEL v MGA...

(this is a really shit summary and all from memory so i could be wrong about some things but this is the general gist of what happened and i'll try to find a good article or video with much more accurate info)

basically in may of 2001, MGA entertainment released the original/main 4 bratz dolls, a group of four girls consisting of cloe, jade, yasmin, and sasha. bratz, similarly to barbie, was advertised towards young girls, but the biggest differences between the two doll lines were the diversity & the fashions. where barbie was typically shown with a pale complexion, blonde hair, and blue eyes; each original bratz girl was a different race. cloe was white, jade was asian, sasha was black, and yasmin was a bown hispanic. aside from the diversity of these four girlies, they were also dressed to the NINES !! head to toe in fashions that were unique and trendy for the time period, and to this day they absolutely devour like they're on moodboards for every fashion girlie and it's literally been 20+ years, like talk about longevity.

anyway, i'll skip most of the mumbo jumbo about their releases (even though i could literally give a list of my fave bratz lines of that era), but they became BIG, releasing literally hundreds of dolls and continuously expanding the ever-rotating list of side characters to go along on the core four adventures. some of the more notable releases are the ever iconic rock angelz dolls (my literal 4lyfers), pretty n punk (which came from that same movie), tokyo a go go, slumber party and nighty nite, etc., and aside from those dolls, they had movies, merch, electronics, albums, food, cosmetics, etc. like they were MASSIVE despite so much controversy surrounding them. sooooo massive that they surpassed barbie, and one thing mattel doesn't play about is fucking BARBIE (literally nerfed monster high bc they were gaining too much popularity, and that was THEIR brand).

here's where it all goes to shit. so naturally, when faced with a fierce competitor, mattel filed a lawsuit after discovering that carter bryant was involved in the creation of bratz. who is carter bryant? well, not only the creator of bratz but a FORMER MATTEL EMPLOYEE !!! and that's why shit hit the fan; mattels lawsuit was basically over the rights to bratz. their argument was that because bryant was employed under mattel at the time of his big idea, that bratz was technically mattels property. this legal battle lasts like literal ages, and there were a lot of layers to it that i can't really understand because legal jargon hurts my brain, but there's a book that goes into great detail called 'you don't own me' i believe. mattel won the lawsuit in 2008, and ownership of the bratz brand was to be handed over to them, but at some point between 2008 and 2010, mga took their case to the court of appeals and won, meaning they regained ownership. during all of that time bratz fashions had become less stylish, releases weren't as often, the hair was shit (but that was also cuz of mattel bc those fuckers play dirty), and overall the brand just wasn't the same. imo, the best way to see the decline in quality is to go to the lookin bratz site and see how different post-2009 releases were (and even then, some of those were...like cowgirlz was, imo, the last really good bratz line, but one could argue it was dance crewz)

they continued producing dolls through 2014, even creating their own version of monster high called bratzillaz (i should also mention that myscene was mattels version of bratz). then, in 2015, they completely rebooted the franchise with a new line titled 'hello my name is'. this line featured the original 4 girls plus a new girl named raya. and that whole...that entire thing was BAD to me, but some people like it.

anyway, there was never like a "real" downfall, but they had some pretty bad years lmao. they're back tho so we up!!!! i have a collection of fashion dolls, monster high, bratz, rainbow high, and hopefully barbies soon. literally my favorite collection (i have a lot)

[strawberrycircuits]

[Music ask thingy]

Loud: SO HOT - WATER SPIRIT, P.L.U.R - WATER SPIRIT, i hate it here - osquinn/p4rkr, B.B.K.K.B.K.K - nora2r

Not Loud: When he died - Lemon Demon, Mary - Alex G, Labyrinth - Miracle Musical, Caroline please kill me - Coma cinema

ok i super appreciate u splitting up this into loud and not loud :)) this gets kinda long so everythings under the cut !!

✨️SO HOT, PLUR, B.B.K.K.B.K.K.

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

I'm putting all three of these together bc my opinions r relatively the same and i dont wanna get too too repetitive. ive never been one for dubstep/hardcore and its derivatives, and that sort of thing can be pretty overwhelming for me esp when theres not really any lyrics for me to focus on. im glad i gave em a chance regardless, though !!

✨️i hate it here

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

also not really that big of a hyperpop fan, but i really didnt mind this one! the backing tracks at time remind me of chiptune and old gameboy music, like whatd you hear if ur character died in a level? i do like how heavy the bass is and how the producer clearly wasnt afraid to play with the volume of the vocals. i probably wouldnt listen to it again, but id love it if it had an instrumental version :]

✨️when he died

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

spirit phone tracks my beloved....... i like this one a lot (the laughing record part is so so sooo good ahahhaeeha!!) but tbh i think its one of the weaker tracks on the album :/ but its not bad at all! i wouldnt skip it if it came one yakno

✨️mary

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

this is one of those songs thats just, like, absolutely everywhere and that i really ought to have listened to in full before now. i like how the descriptions of mary all together are a little unnerving and uncanny (red eyes, sharp teeth, a leather heart, the "i am real and you are not" line, etc)! might fuck around and put it on an oc playlist or somethin idk

✨️labyrinth

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

shoutout to the welcome home fandom for putting the first minute of this song in absolutely everything lmaooaoaosdfhjfg. this is another song ive never actually listened to fully but man i really shouldve. i knew abt the mind electric for years b4 i heard this one, and i heard it right when the chonny jash cover got popular too, so i had this weird moment of "holy shit why are there so many the mind electric lyric change covers out rn" but nope! labyrinth is by the same people!!! anyway this fucks am absolutely gonna keep listening to this one 👍

✨️caroline, please kill me

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

OH MY GOD FINALLY SOMEONE ELSE WHO KNOWS THIS FUCKING SONG !!! YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW INSANE I AM OVER THIS ONE MAN . ITS IN MY PORTAL PLAYLISTS ITS IN MY OC PLAYLISTS I PUT IT IN MY DRIVING PLAYLIST LIKE? 3 TIMES? JUST TO MAKE IT PLAY MORE OFTEN?? I FUCKING LOVE THIS SONG IM SO GLAD SOMEONE ELSE KNOWS IT TOO AUDUDHFJFJDNBFKFHGBF!!!!!!!!!11!1

[twracehorse]

Spoilers for the next breed. I just want to speak my thoughts into the void :P

I’m just hoping they move well otherwise all these potential plans go down the drain XD. If their animations would be anything like the American Paints, Arabians, or Haflingers I will be SOLD!! 

We’ve got a good basic bay. Not too light nor too dark, just a nice middle ground bay. Tbh the dark shoulder patch could be a deal breaker potentially. But who knows what it’ll look like in game. Otherwise, it currently has no markings and therefore I deem it too plain for my tastes

Now this one!!!! Oh, I’ve been waiting for a horse like this! Okay so I’m into Attack on Titan, right? Regardless of the current arcs in the anime. That sweet time when titans were a mystery, and the Survey Corps traversed the infested land and escaped via horseback. I have an AoT OC and being the horse girl that I am, I gave her like 6 horses in her charge. One of them, being the main one Lily would train on, was a lighter bay with some sort of stripe or blaze face marking. Back when the Trakehner came out, it was tempting to get that one to be this embodiment. But it was too light. There was the Thoroughbred that was a little closer to the desired color but had no markings. But now!! Axel could potentially finally have a solidified rendition!

I am also a huge sucker for chestnuts. I have been OBSESSED with a song called Cyberpunk by Ateez since they uploaded a preview of their latest album. Every now and then I’ll watch jumping events on YouTube with music when I’m bored. The timing of some songs and the jumps of the horse match and makes it pretty fun! and I’ve come to associate the song with a chestnut. I do have plans to name a horse Pirate King aka Treasure, but idk if that fits this horse specifically. I’ll need to find a name if I like them. It’ll be down to how they are in game that’ll be the deciding factor

I’m normally a HUGE fan of dark bays. A little biased because Brave Rebel is my soul horse, the ever-iconic dark bay Morgan. I’m still waiting for the updated Morgans, but if they don’t do them justice, I’ll just have to remake Rebel as a different breed that has similar color. This horse....wouldn’t be the remake option. It looks kind of like an ashy dark bay. Cool on its own, but doesn’t really call my name

A buckskin? A cutie! Not my personal cup of tea, but I will enjoy other people riding around on this horse and seeing their tack ideas (that I may or may not end up stealing)

A typical black horse yada yada, BUT! It is what I’m looking for as an anime boy™. Megumi from Jujutsu Kaisen to be exact. I still haven’t decided if the name should be Divine Shadow or Divine Abyss. He will have all the pets! A handful in rotation to mimic his shikigami. The brown raven for Nue, a rabbit for his “rabbit escape”, and I’m hoping we’ll get bigger running pets. Especially wolves or just a big dog that’s close enough for his iconic demon dogs!

Another chestnut that’s darker than the previous one. I like this color, but again, no markings currently. Markings or a lack thereof will make or break a horse for me. If it has cute markings, I’ll take it! If it stays a plain bagel, then I’ll skip it for another

This one is a potential horse. Will it end up being a released coat? Will it be made into something else? Who knows! But if it does end up making the cut and going from a blinding white to a sweetly dappled grey (ideally like the Shire, those dapples are just the right amount for me on a mostly “white” horse in game!) then I will take it! Only if the animations are good. Because the theme for a sporty white/grey horse is one of my favorite bois, Inumaki from again Jujutsu Kaisen. Once I saw that you could name a horse “Thorn” in game, I HAD to plan a horse for Toge! As his name translates to Thorn. I just need to wait for the right horse. Could this be the one? 

This one while it’s speculated to be changed or removed, it does have a grey muzzle that has a hint of a nose marking. Soooo we’ll see!

[patronsaintofgirls]

hoo boy do i have albums!!!

okay starting out with a fine country-esc rock palette of a debut album that feels like a greatest hit and perfect for the season: August and Everything After by The Counting Crows

This one is simply insane to me and i love her so so so so so so so so so so- : Sleater Kinney by Sleater Kinney

Insane debut album no one should be able to get it this right first time around. i would say thsos debut is the most put together and constant with the rest of the debut albums i put here: She Hangs Brightly by Mazzy Star

Okay i am so sorry that i keep doing debuts but i just really think more bands should stick to that sound but also i just love raw music and like uncorporate sounds and that's really funny for me to say for our next album: Led Zeppelin by Led Zeppelin

Great we are out of the debuts for long enough for me to recommend this one by my favorite band ever: Louder Than Bombs by The Smiths

i'm sorry how mainstream some of these are i got a lot of my music taste from my dad but all of that is to say this album being very popular and a huge reflection of the scene at the time and being basically a pop album with how big it was doesn't stop it from being INSANE: In Utero by Nirvana

if you haven't listened to her start here, one of the best albums of all time: Rumours by Fleetwood Mac

shoutout to my wife. There's one main song here that makes me insane but check out the whole ass album i love it sm: Queen Of The Meadow by Elysian Fields

You've heard of them, they just got it tour with LS Dunes and are INCREDIBLE. i would go to dunes and skip out on dunes themselves if the tickets weren't so fucking expensive: Love Me Forever by Pinkshift

and to close things out

this is a punk/grunge classic and tbh one of the best album openers of all time: Frenching The Bully by The Gits

gonna start going through these today!!!

[jaeyooniverse]

sharing a refreshing melona bar with jaeyoon in honor of our 4th anniversary!! 💞

I'll try to not be super embarrassing in case someone actually reads this

I think I've mentioned this before but it's still mind boggling to me to think that at this point, I've been stanning for more than half the time sf9 has been active (as sf9). When I first joined I was, as everyone is when they first start out, a baby fantasy who felt like she had so much to catch up on, like I wasn't "that big of a fan" bc I wasn't there since the beginning. At the time sf9 was turning 3 and already finding their sound and style. But even if I was "late" I'm so happy I've found them and decided to be a fan. The way everything happened by chance I really feel like it's fate, the way everything played out. (My friend pointed out how I stanned seventeen in 2017 so of course 2019 would be the year for sf9😂) but I had been listening to them (the sensuous album, at least) since late 2018 but it wasn't until enough that I decided to check out more of their stuff. Even then, I think I was ready to just be a casual stan. But then they announced their tour and my friend and I had to go !! So to prep I binged their content bc I needed to know the people I'm about to see lolll

So that takes me to jaeyoon.. I was watching Star Road and got to his turn when he had to resist laughin/smiling while other members tickled him.. honestly I really cannot explain why I fell for him the way I did...but for whatever reason the moment I saw him I swear my heart skipped and I was like HIM. That's my sf9 bias!! And he's been able to maintain the title ever since (yes we've had some bias wrecking but....we won't talk about that rn dgjfgsksh) and seeing him in person!!!! Just made it even more clear how attracted I was to him like not just abt his appearance but his character I just have always loved his energy and personality he's always such a wonderful and endearing person to watch how could I NOT love him??? But then as I started to really stan (literally the moment I left the concert I was like I HAVE to stan now) I just found more and more things i love about him. His relationship with the other members, his laugh, his singing, the way he both has a great sense of coordination (we stan dancer jaeyoon in this house) but also is just such a clumsy mess at times and how awkward he is sometimes but like he's not even awkward he's just HIM idk like do you understand ??? Jaeyoon I love you, and I love how you love! Where else will I find a man who decorates 89 bags, posts 89 pics for his birthday? How hard he worked on binnies bracelet even after it fell apart like twice😭😭😭

OK maybe it's not the healthiest coping mechanism to use someone as your comfort but he really is my kpop comfort boy 😭😭 (I do think a good part of it is his voice, it's just so comforting to me. Or is it comforting bc I like him? Do i like him bc he's comforting? It's been so long I'm not even sure anymore) which is why it really was kinda hard on me when his enlistment was announced like I was literally in the middle of looking at a photo book and was ON HIS PAGE when the enlistment notice was posted. Idk if the timing makes it better or worse tbh. (Definitely worse) I feel silly about it sometimes bc it's not like he's someone who is physically present in my everyday life, it's not really much different from before, just watching him from behind my screen. But there are moments I miss him and hope he's doing alright, bc that's just how people feel when they care about someone right? And i care about jaeyoon a lot, and I'm really thankful I have had him and all the sepgus to make me laugh, smile, and cry, to connect with fellow fantasy, over the last few years.

Maybe I'm just extra sentimental bc my ult group who got me into kpop also just had their anniversary recently (iykyk) so my emotions are HIGH but also I've just. Been in such a tough space lately I'm always sensitive tbh LMAO

Anyway i don't really know where I was going with this. Tldr I love jaeyoon so much and hope I can support and be a fan for years to come ♡