#itd break her

[pzyii]

Every now and then I think how it'd be if Allison would've survived. And like not in a complete au way but just. How she'd react to what happened to lydia in season 5. Having to see her like that.

Realistically speaking of Allison would live things would've ultimately probably gone differently, she's probably the best option to talk Natalie out of putting Lydia in Eichen for example but with how extreme things where, like I get why Natalie did what she did even if I know it's a bad choice given what she had seen Lydia go through throughout every season, without knowing why. The attack in s1, everything in s2, her stumbling on bodies and almost getting murdered and losing Aiden (and Allison but since this is a post about Allison lives au that derailed uhm yeah semi counts), just. Everything. I get why she did it. So maybe not even Allison would be able to help.

I also just think that seeing Lydia catatonic would break Allisons brain a little, she'd struggle to get the words out. Lydia is the most important thing in her life, just like Allison is in Lydia's (they are). Remeber she died (almost in this thought experiment) trying to save Lydia, some of her last words were making sure she was okay.

She'd be able to talk to Lydia more than Stiles I think, Natalie trusts her less than she did before but she's definitely her favourite out of her daughters friends.

She'd hunt down Theo, she won't kill someone. Probably. She's at least damn close to breaking her moral code.

Uhm. Yeah. Them.

[diddlesnap]

everyone say happy pride month katniss!!!

[cutemeat]

so whats mac’s equivalent to the pen chewing thing in this verse……

[redux-iterum]

I had a thought, has Fireheart even talked to Brindleface about letting Cloudkit know about his kittypet origins? Fireheart just kind of promised his sister without laying out any groundwork. He never said "I'll talk to Brindeface about it" he literally just "I promise he'll know you". Does Cloudkit even want to know his bio mom? Does Brindleface want him to know? Especially given in her mind Cloudkit *is* her kit.

It's sort of an unspoken thing. Brindleface is aware that trying to hide Cloudkit's origins is going to be an impossibility - his appearance alone would make that difficult, let alone having a kittypet relative in the Clan who's notorious for not hiding difficult truths. She loves Cloudkit very fiercely and considers him her son in all but blood, but she does intend on letting Fireheart reveal that secret to him when it's appropriate. They haven't talked about it much, but since Fireheart's going to be his mentor (as was agreed upon when Cloudkit was brought in), she's willing to let him handle sharing that particular information.

[shoezuki]

Gepard is a Silvermane so he must necessarily see corpses, horrors every day, every day n every day, like, he spends 6/7 days of the week on the front so he spends his life seeing dead people n things like that so I was wondering l: Geppie can't be sane, it's not possible ?? Even the most imperturbable woman or man cannot stay sane while living this kind of thing all the time, in my opinion he must have periods of acute depression and lots of nightmares n sleep paralysis, stuff like that idk n he hides it or takes loads of antidepressants

What dya think about it

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ur right ur right like no way gepard is 100% ok. i think he like is very fucked up by all hes experienced and he only seems to have it all together cuz like. its how he copes. he avoids the reality of what hes experienced by putting himself entirely into being the captain and not really acting or living much for himself. i imagine that like. he feels he cant fall apart or be impacted by The Horrors cuz hes The shield of belobog. so he puts himself entirely into that protective role both to ignore his own traumas and justify some of what hes experienced. especially in terms of any time he would doubt cocolia or what they were doing like. he was absolutely dodging the cognitive dissonance by just putting himself into being captain and following orders 'for the greater good'

i hc that outside of his job hes basically a mess. a shell of a man. he cant be outside of his job/title much because he cant sleep at night and he gets stuck in his own head. he struggles with taking care of himself or really doing anything for himself

[thepartyishere]

I've said this before but please consider: transmasc Dazai who wants Kunikida to be his girlfriend but can't have that until she realizes she's a girl. He's getting very tired of waiting for her egg to crack.

[thedrotter]

not-yet-dead-person

silly comic of a conversation in-game i thought was too funny not to make something proper for instead of a doodle ww

(timelapse + wip images (thus silly process commentary in read more if you like artist commentary :3)

i think the sketch looks silly and goofy and funny so i find it important to share with you the mere presence of the faces i drew on it. i drew it on top of the boxes without staying inside its borders because i find my proportions can get wonky if i draw them cropped in a restricted space. and I feel trapped otherwise and i will draw BAD!!! give me spaceeeee to go wild!!!!

the head circles are there for emotional support

very low res speedpaint because truth is the canvas was much bigger than the space where my comic was placed. i didnt account when exporting my timelapse in 720px that that tiny space would look so pixelated ... but it's able to be percieved, so its okay.

(i will now comment on my process and it is not brief sorry)

usually i would try to clean up my sketches and figure out what goes on top before jumping into linework, but since there are multiple panels and drawings i chose to jump into inking right away for the sake of brevity. i just went in with a brush that uses pen pressure and drew what was needed. i added extra line thickness and contrast in areas around the face because it helps direct your eyes there more easily that way.

according to her equipment rei has a chain belt but i only remembered it existed once I was going to color, and i did not like that discovery... I chose to ignore it to maintain my peace. i already have the color palettes for these characters figured out, and i didnt really want to think about a new element at the moment www I tend to overthink those things a lot so i skipped it

the rest is rather straightforward! not that anything else wasn't, but in here i could turn my brain off and sing. linework and sketching require mumbling so i cannot turn my brain off. just block in the characters with a solid color so i can have a mask (something along those lines,) where the color can stay inside. then just color in !!!

Base colors just had slight cell shading on the skin, and for the hair i airbrush a bit of the skincolor in low opacity near the forehead... I'm not sure what it means, but i can look at the faces easier with it somehow. i like the gentle subtlety it adds even if you cant really tell. it makes things look nice.

background was just me blocking in the color of the wall and floor, shade the wall a bit, then slap a noise and free use wood texture on top. work smarter not harder ! yet it took a bit to make it look stylistically fitting with the characters, and even now i think bottom middle panel looks odd. whatever!!!

for the middle panel i thought itd be funny if the background was a solid silly and colorful one to contrast the next panel's sketchy black one. a contrast to how the word widow is seen. on that note my handwritting is not pointy. i gaslighted my hand into thinking that it was indeed pointy in that moment so i could write "not-yet dead person" in letters that didn't seem cute. my hand did not fall for it but it complied anyway

that's basically it! I'm not sure what else i could say that doesn't feel barebones because it really is that straightforward. if you're curious I used clip studio paint for this. only special brush used was for linework (a brush named Lemon Brush), the rest used were just the default. my computer gets the least credit. it was trying to convince me a 20mb file was going to nuke it all the time and hardly let me save multiple times so i do not appreciate it

[festivalofthe12]

mannnnnnnn IDK if it's just because I never fully finished the manga myself (sorry everyone;;) but I just. don't. really understand how Akito being just another one of Tohru's friends is supposed to. work. in practice. with Yuki.

Not because Akito is an ~irredeemable person who never earned her redemption~ or whatever. People being good is good!!! If Akito is legitimately a better person now, that's awesome!!! And frankly I love stories where legitimate kindness breaks through to save people who are shitty but also deeply deeply sad!!!!!

But to most of the cast, Akito was a pretty distant enemy. Yes, she'd show up in person now and then to be chilling and mysterious, but her primary source of contention was Being God. The way she ran the family and the rules she set up around it. Other characters might have spent a lot of time seething at her, but mainly to blame her for indirectly causing things to happen in their lives. Apart from a very small number, most have never actually had much experience just... talking to her.

Which is not true for Yuki.

Yuki has spent more time with her than almost anybody. By the end of the manga, she's still probably the person he's spent the most time in contact with, total, over his life. He literally could not get away from being in the same physical space as her.

His reactions to Akito aren't based on him blaming her for what she did to the Sohma family. His reactions to Akito are based on a very simple 'if I can see her, things about about to get very bad very quickly for me personally.'

At that point, it's not even really about whether he blames or forgives her, or what he thinks she 'deserves'. It is an immediate anxiety (let's be real: PTSD) trigger. It's neither conscious nor logical. He spent endless amounts of time waiting with horror for her to show up, unable to know or control when that would happen, and then having that horror fully justified. He was trained on it, endlessly.

I fully believe that Yuki would want to trust Tohru and respect her friendship with Akito and believe that everything has changed and it's all good now. But I just can't see him being him able to actually... act on that. In practice.

He never even really properly got to process it. Ayame did the classic oblivious parent thing of trying to override Yuki's negative emotions with happy ones before he was actually ready to move on. (Not critiquing Ayame; he's just a flawed human being in his own right!) Tohru comforted him and told him he didn't deserve it, and now she's friends with his abuser asking him to say everything's fine. If Kakeru ever fully found out what happened, it was off-screen, and not all that much time before this all went down.

I just. Really think that what Yuki needs is at least some time to just be better and angry, or at the very least openly mourn his lost childhood. And he needs to be able to do that without those constant triggers of anxiety from interacting with Akito. All things being equal, I think it would be for the best if he could just tell Tohru straight-up that he's fine with their friendship and he's not going to intervene but he just does not want to be in the same room with Akito ever again.

And... if I were to stretch this a bit further, and potentially really betray my unfamiliarity with endgame canon........... it is kind of hard for me to imagine Akito being okay with that.

Yes, Akito has changed. But surely she still needs time to grow and learn and figure out her new place in this world? And Yuki deliberately avoiding her would... be a difficult thing to accept. Firstly because she's still getting used to giving up that selfishness (especially towards Yuki), but also because it's a reminder of some of the awful shit she did. Which, if she's a changed person, should make her feel bad. Which again, she isn't qualified to process!!

I honestly wouldn't be surprised if Akito twisted it around in her head to where Yuki really was her friend. Like they were in this together and Akito didn't always handle it well but at the end of the day, they're the only two who can really understand each other. Because Akito really didn't have that, either. (Kureno being... idk man he always seemed more like a guardian, or at least older brother figure than someone who was 'in the trenches' so to speak with her.)

Either way, it'd all place Tohru in such a deeply complicated position. Akito is hurting badly and needs Tohru to be on her side if no-one else is, because to be fair, that's not all wrong? (Kureno has always been there, but Tohru is her saviour.) But she can't really do that if she's enforcing Yuki's boundaries for him. I feel like Akito would really want Tohru to tell her that she's forgiven and that everything's good now, and if she hesitated even a little, it wouldn't go well. Because Akito only knows how to understand two things: obedience and manipulation. So having others set healthy boundaries - and dealing with the resulting feelings of rejection and shame and guilt - is something she still has to learn how to do.

It just sounds. A bit like a clusterfuck tbh. A clusterfuck that could, eventually, turn out okay!!!!!! But one that would take a LONG time and continued process of reflection and self-awareness (and, ideally, HEAVY THERAPY, but of course we all know nobody in the Fruits Basket universe ever gets that, so). Obviously like that's the happy ending and we don't need to extend it out for four more volumes of like 'Yuki and Akito undergo cbt separately via Tohru's infinite patience' lmfao but. Idk. It just seems to imply a lot in that happy ending that has not really set up by the story to be all that easy.

Unless I'm completely wrong and the last volume or two does in fact set this up perfectly. In which case never mind!!!!!!!!!!

[action-not-despair]

shut up im thinking abt loquatious' final speech again. such a small detail is that he mispronounces zerxus' name. which is fine, hell he did it with his own name in the first episode's broadcast. but theres something about this one.

zerxus has made a Deal, and if anyone in the ring of brass knows something about deals itd be our faerie warlock. and i think about vespin chloras, whos wish to not be forgotten was granted by being remembered as the worst villain in history. and i think about how loquatious tells laerryn "history is not true". and how faerie and devilish lore both share a belief in the importance of names.

and yeah, its probably not that deep. but maybe, just maybe, it was loquatious' way of protecting his friend from the march of history flattening a person's identity into a word on a sheet of paper.

[hearts401]

raises my hand i actually like the concept of a shitty parent getting better i just hate when its used to be like "im good now so you should forgive me."

people grow and change and hurt people!!! and those hurt people deserve to move on without having to forgive their abuser!!!

[toastsnaffler]

ALSOOO thinking abt this bit in ntn... the obvious revulsion ianthe has for the realisation that palamedes was right + she IS irreversibly part naberius + her immediate abandonment of naberius' body in response.... the whole thing reeks of denial like rest in peace to the sandy foundations she built her performative sense of self on but this wave is inevitable girl!! you can't uneat what you've already digested

[sorenlionheart]

i am dangerously close to making my own interpretation of superman

[l0rd-0f-c0ws]

I frequently feel completely isolated no matter how much I talk to people. So that's fun

[orcelito]

Ykno the suckiest thing about being broken up with for someone else is that like. Well I'm doing generally fine, all things considered, but I Am kinda sad thinking about the things I've lost and all the casual affection that I can't have now.

But she's out there having all the affection she wants from her coworker, and it's just like. Damn this feels so skewed and SO unfair.

[just-spacetrash]

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[gorillaxyz]

shes making jokes about marriage... funny how when a guy moves too fast like that it makes me want to brutally murder him and then kill myself in a similar fashion. but when a lady does it....... i wonder why its different.... hmmm hmmmmmm i wonder why