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koifsssh · 1 year

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a small gift for @cookie-catcoon !

oh... i cant seem to get them out of my head... he would try to learn spanish, i think. He wants to be able to communicate with all of his friends, of course!

I do think he'd be successful, he'd probably sound a little funny until he's developed his accent. (i know it took me a while...)

he's not very good at expressing how he feels about anything to be frank with you... so he probably speaks through flowers and small thoughtful little gifts... (most likely needs help from julie when it comes to flowers! bahaha!)

[ translation! : "Ah... um... th-this flower reminded me of you..."

"For me?" ]

I adore them both so much... bah!

#welcome home #welcome home oc #rainy dewdrop #they both live rent free in my head...#it's alright though! as long as the space is clean #they are both so cute...#i suppose this can be seen as either platonic or romantic... whichever works i suppose!#ive been trying to sleep... i am very tired!#yet!!! somehow!!! my insomnia decides it is time to stay up at 1 am in the morning!#ah... at least i have my darling little puppets...

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year

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ough the absolute Rarepair i have in my head rn.... it literally has not been done yet

#wait what do you call it when theres three of em #rarethrouple? raretriple? rarepoly? whatever!#im.... chewing on it #Not Rabidly!!! but i am biting it #its not like... something id seriously ship in the Least #a very fun 'suspending my disblief Just Having A Good Time' ship yk yk #its cute i think!#not realistic at All but thats not the point here!!#yk ive been meaning to just make a post of a bunch of random scribbles of my favorite wh pairings #and throuplings. is that a word #bc i am a Multishipper! i enjoy multitudes at once!#ofc i have Preferences and Favorites but that does not mean i dont enjoy others!#just like how i enjoy many different kinds of cake #i will Sample almost all of them!#absolutely unprompted #anyway i gotta sleep uhhhh im gonna think on this one #and maybe scribble a little something in the morn to try and Share My Vision #its so fun.... pure delight with a smidge of angst for Flavor....#ouagshfbsjdnkss the intricacies... adding on facets yes....#ok sleep time im So Tired #i will drift off to dreamland while thinking about this throuple...

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lesbianlenas · 2 months

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hot blonde woman on bb who i thought maybe this time the hot blonde woman will not flop on me & will be a good player i was soooooo hopeful of course she immediately aligns w the ppl who i do not like & is having group delusions w them abt how they’re the best players in the house when they have no power at all omg i am doomed w these blonde women legit just texted my friend that i will never trust a hot blonde woman on bb again i am DONE…..look at the world’s saddest progression of texts between thursday night & last night 😩

#michelle speaks #let me explain my deep rooted logic to u. see i am very attracted to blonde women it’s my curse #so i would like them to stay for longer so i can stare at them bc they r beautiful #however if they r playing a game i do not like i want them gone which must battle w my lesbianism #yes there are other hot women for me to appreciate. but this is just abt the blondes in particular 😩#i have my other women……..i just want to catch these blonde women like pokemon idk. but it’s like u see her stats & ur like oh. nvm.#idk ive only ever played pokemon go i’m assuming that makes sense as a statement. i’m also very tired #bc i did not sleep a lot last night bc i was watching feeds & i have been trying not to fall asleep since like 6pm #so i will go to sleep now perhaps but i will remain angry that i have witnessed another blonde FLOP. i dont deserve it 😩#i just want a blonde woman i can root for so i dont have to feel bad abt wanting her to stay so i can stare at her…..ok #why must i be cursed to be so into blondes it isn’t fair 😭😭😭 they either flop on bb or are icons and WAY less r icons i’ll say that 😔#anyway i will not post abt bb again i promise i know no one cares 😭 i just wanted to update abt Her

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kylos-starlight · 8 months

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My f/o making a soft comfy spot for me on the floor in the living room for me to pass out onto is self care.

Imagining my f/o coming with me to the bathroom so I can squeeze their hand when I'm in pain and then reassuring me and not being grossed out is self care.

My f/o reminding me to drink a lot of water so it flushes out those nasty little bacterias is self care.

My f/o helping and reminding me to take my antibiotics in the morning and before bed is self care.

My f/o comforting and reassuring me when I'm having a break down because I'm so sick of this constant state of my body shutting down or having something wrong with it is self care...

I just want to be better.. :c

#I didn't sleep well last night. the urgency to pee thanks to this stupid UTI kept me up almost all night.#I am t i r e d and I don't own a bed so the next best thing is to sprawl out on the floor with my squishmallows and blankets/pillows #💤 very tired 😴#I just want to sleeeeeeep but its hard to do rn :c #Want my f/o to tell me its just another bump in the road and I'll be okay soon... This has been the sickest ive ever been in my entire life #in terms of things ohysically going wrong with my body. cold/extreme salmonella poisoning/covid/and now this damn UTI.#im frustrated. im trying whatever i can to be healthier... i cut back drinking a lot and ive quit smoking #I make sure to shower when i can even tho its hard. I try to do exercises in the mornins now.....#im just so tired of my body not being well #vent.tw

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toastsnaffler · 20 days

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ah shit only just realised its september now.... lets hope the rest of this month isn't like this.....

#just med shit innit. gonna force myself up at my usual work time even tho i have the day off bc I need to be in my routine or ill lose it #i am. very tired and very sad. and thats ok generally im ok ive been keeping myself so busy for weeks and weeks #and im glad im going out n doing shit often n meeting new ppl n trying to focus more on hobbies n get more on the life balance #but whenever i have a moment to stop i still get so sad. ik exactly why theyre all just old aches n wounds i dont want to wallow in them!!#lately its been well under control i only usually have one actual bad day a week and sometimes its not even a whole day #and the rest im.just busy and i dont know if im just avoiding things and its not satisfying being busy bc im still missing out needs #but i cant fulfil them so might as well stay busy and not think about it!!#and its okay its all okay im just so sad right now :-( but im going to sleep soon and then ill be busy tmr so i dont have to think abt it #i wanna ventpost abt it but also i dont rly want to bc findinf the words to talk abt the things distressing me involves thinking abt it #which will just.make me feel worse. and it wont resolve anything bc its all mostly outside of my control anyway just hurts innit #but im trying hard to make my life bigger than it was before even if its still shallow and not quite enough at least it covers more space #yeah yeah we all want to feel genuine connection and wanted and loved but life doesnt often work out like that so.#hands in your pockets player keep it moving. im goiny to brush my teeth and then rly need to go to bed zzzzz #.diaries #hope everyone else had a nice weekend i had a pretty good saturday at least. and played a lot of videogames today so could be worse #very glad i dont have work tomorrow as well thank u past me for booking it off ahh..

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elegyofthemoon · 9 months

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motivation where have you gone :(

#i ah #i have no motivation to do any studying despite not studying for the past like two days askldjfalkh #ive been too sleep deprived the last two days to focus so i just figured its better to sleep/rest instead #but now that its a full day im like :I hmmm this doesnt seem like fun #which is silly because i actually really like respiratory lmao #i dont mind doing questions for resp because its not too bad #but my problem is the energy it takes to take notes is whats making it Tiring #if i could id just skim instead and then move on but if i do that i wouldnt remember anything alksjdfha #maybe i should make a list of things i could do with my breaks #ill try to also do the timer thingy too #im just :( can i go play my viddygames instead why is studying so hard and such a long process aslkdjhfal #im at least in a better mood though!! im happy at least with that but also i am very sleepy bzzztbzzt #snow speaks

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flintbian · 10 months

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Well, one year to go

#well at least im trying for that #ive scheduled round two for alaska and hopefully i see the lights this time #and my second favorite band announced yesterday they're coming here with guess who? another of my favorite bands #(blackbriar and battle beast may 2024)#i literally said the other day id be happy if i got to see them and now they're coming! can you believe it #but im tired...my health has plummeted and i am not doing well #im not going to last #ive just got to hold out for these last bucket list items #so im trying for the auora again in september around the equinox #ugh it's so bad im hooked up to shit all day now and constantly have to monitor tachycardia for instance #im exhausted. i can barely breathe. it hurts so much. i never stop shaking and spasming now #but hey ive started playing dnd...finally found a group. so that's crossed off my list too and it's been very fun so far #i need to get the motivation to read all the books i want to read #it aint in my control though...i just have to hope i can hold out until september #ive been trying lots of new foods but there's still so much more i want to try #but yeah im tired...every day i wake up from pain and feel like im going to die...if i sleep at all #even clare has given up it's progressed too much #but im trying. im trying #and ive been gathering all our family photos and things so theyll have memories #me and my dad take a selfie every time he visits too #idk. there's not a whole lot i can say without making people sad but it's been so much lately #i struggle to scrape through the pain every day. it's been 14 years. i just want to be free #it's not like i want to die...i just want to be free of the pain and rest finally #wish me luck #p

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d0d0-b0i · 2 years

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always get so pleasantly surprised when people really like my stuff i post :) love you all. whether you celebrate something or not around this time i wish you all the best <3

#i always first and foremost post for me if not otherwise stated on the post itself #and that is what i always have done and aspire to continue. but #it makes me happy to see so many likeminded people around me #sorry. i am getting sappy and emotional; today has been draining for reasons i do not know #i am very tired and it is late for me so i will try sleeping soon #i am glad to have found such a nice and large fandom in sonic. it has allowed me to try and be more approachable and friendly while still #being myself at my core interactions. this year has been strange and new and exciting so i figured i might as well try #and make some more friends. which i have; i am happy to say :’) i have always had a hard time socializing. and to find people willing #to understand the things i say even though it’s worded weirdly #and i’m happy so many can enjoy the art i post <3 it means a lot to me #especially when i feel as if i don’t do enough. i like many others have some. issues regarding worth and content but i am trying my best #and. am getting better at it 👍 i think i might be getting sick ergo the sappiness and long tags #but i don’t regret the things i say. i love you all followers mutual ppl i follow #there is so much space in my heart and i am not afraid to admit that i get attached easily and do not know where friendships begin.#but i. am willing to try and find out! if the gods are willing; hopefully a good new year for us all next week! and more commmunity and love #i hope you understand what i am trying to convey. ive been scared of being this open but if i am not then i will never know living #and loving <3 will still be posting obvs i am simply joyous rn! gonna sleep now :3

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vanillabat99 · 10 months

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I've been slowly fleshing out the plot for my game, and I was telling my wife about it (hi wife, I love you wife), and having it all in one spot really hit me hard. I decided to make the plot something more meaningful to me, but in the process I think I have accidentally dug up some unfortunate feelings. I have been reminded of some things I would rather forget, and I hope that making this game helps me through these memories.

#once again development is on pause since ive pivoted to rpgmaker which costs money i do not have. so it is back to the theoretical stages.#just not comfortable using unity.#anyways im making it a story about abuse because thats the kind of story i feel i need to tell.#maybe i can learn to forgive myself for what i have endured through my doggirl character.#i got triggered earlier after laying out the plot to my wife. im doing better now and im totally safe n stuff but like.#still kinda bummed out. ya know.#im probably gonna wake up drenched in sweat and feeling like ive been screaming with a sore throat once again. alas. that is life.#EMPHASIS ON ME BEING TOTALLY FINE!!!!#if i was not fine this would be a very different post.#it is almost 7am and i am very tired so i will try to sleep.#batty blogging #text

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years

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#sometimes i feel very normal and then i interact with ppl lol #i had an in person meeting with my boss for the 1st time in ages and i usually talk to ppl while theyre driving or were walking somewhere #so i forgot how much im like obviously not making eye contact when ppl talk to me while hunched over and fidgeting lol #and when im trying to explain ideas to ppl abt like data stuff im like: i dont understand how what im saying doesnt make sense???#also with a healthy dose of wtf is this person trying to say to me? u r saying words and i dont kno what theyre directed at #we had a lab party and im like v awkward at those things. idk how to interact in groups #ppl r interacting and im watching like u r clearly getting something out of this that i am not #i did maybe secure a place as a patient for one of our undergrads who is in the dental school lol #she was like yea i need 8 patients and i was like lol u can look in my mouth and then proceeded to tell her all the weird teeth problems #ive had. maybe that was weird but she seemed interested so 🤷#i hope she follows up bc i havent been to the dentist in like 3 years #and i still habe my wisdome teeth #lol me at any party: i am waiting patiently until i can leave.#like its weird bc those r the time when ppl bond and make memories and all that but everytime someone calls back to events that ive been #there fore it baffles me bc im like. yea that was a thing that happened. i dont really have any feelings abt it so idk y u r recalling it #fondly??? plus my ears r kinda fucked so it was hard to focus on individual conversations #ay im so scatterbrained. thats what happens when u get little sleep and dont allow ur self to chill. ill just crunch myself into a lil ball #at least my boss tried to reassure me that id get accepted somewhere phd wise. but i will not relax until its official so rip #i just really want 2 specific schools to work out bc one is close to home and the other i can prob get good classes and opportunities #ugh i need to sleep. but im not tired :-P #unrelated

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possiblytracker · 2 years

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I should just sit down and get some of my commissions out the way this morning so I don't rapidly contract in on myself and implode anticlimatically before my copy of scarlet delivers

#hello its 8am i am up because my house doesn't have a safe place for parcels and if i miss the delivery and they take it back to the depot #i think i will lose it just a little bit #it is very cold now but im still not turning the heating on i don't want to pay for that shit. thinking abt investing in a heating pad #but that's smth to save up for so i don't burn the house down with a shit one #idk whether i will get much done of comms but i will try. tired as hell and ive been artblock ish lately #im working on it but it's smth i need to slowly coax my way out of by just chipping away at it i think #i have a bunch of comms *started* i just paused on all of them halfway thru the lineart for some reason. like 3 of them #so i need to just force myself to sit down and finish some of those #also trade. i have one old trade that's been on the backburner too long im sorRY i still haven't forgotten #gwuh this is a hell of a post but my meds haven't kicked in yet dbfSD im used to just going back to sleep after until they do but not today

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gothamcityneedsme · 2 years

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problem: i keep falling asleep reading this book

#shitpost #THIS IS LIKE THE 8TH TIME #its something like...it can be exciting but a lot of it reads like a stable drum #and the stability just makesme fall asleep with the thing open in my hands #ive never lost my place tho #the narrative is just very continuous and solid-stable #ofc this doesnt work for me to go to bed with it but it works when you know #im just trying to read #also i am very very very very fucking tired which probably helps #lol..#there is a certain cat who has been decreasing the quality and length of my sleep lately

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29121996 · 4 months

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