Remind me again just what you were saying
When you walked in the room when the music was playing
When I was lost too, but in my own thoughts
and I could not find you
Tell me your story, I'm listening this time
I can get us some glasses and a bottle of wine
We can sit on the carpet, sit on the table or sit on the moon
You can reach for my hand
You can say what you like
Is just what you just can't stand
be your boy or a little old man,
be what you want
or even nothing at all
Be with me
Why not forgive us quit holding your breath
you reach with your right hand like it's all that is left
With a knock of the door
I love all your ankles
You fall on my floor
You roll your eyes
You're so sick of this
Jay made the bracelet I placed on your wrist
you lost it and lets face it I think we both lost it
a little bit
I know you're living in London
Cause you keep on complaining
where is the sunshine, it always is raining
That's all I am hearing, skies ain't clearing
Your eyes keep on tearing
You're missing New York
But do you miss me
Do you miss our talks
Do you miss our touching and our midnight walks
Do you miss the ocean
Do you miss the sand
Do you miss me at all miss here man
I have to laugh like crazy
I really think you're crazy
You might as well ask if a hot day is hazy
If you left I still maybe
have I ever laid lazy with you on the grass
Let's get something straight
I really do hate
This feeling that's growing
You think you not knowing
Wherever I may run
Even if it's dumb
I love only you
You are the only one
So it really doesn't matter
If I'm sorta having fun
If your cruel even second
I get a glimpse of the sun
Whether singing on the stages or filling up the pages
Somethings undone
And the song ends here
Cause you're really really weird near
We haven't said a word in over a year
It just gives me hope
like music gives you rope
to hold you right here
And I'm sorry for these lines
I'm sorry for my crimes
sorry for the oceans that sails all the times
if I ever gave you something it probably was the notion
I never gave you nothing but a very hard time
Fate? And Gay Platonic Siblinghood in Gossip Girl, Dawson's Creek and The Summer I Turned Pretty
Masterlist
Text Only
Once Upon Another Time by Sara Bareilles/Once Upon Another Time by Sara Bareilles/We'll Always Have Summer by Jenny Han/Flaws by Bastille/Peach Pit by Peach Pit/In a Week by Hozier/Portions for Foxes by Rilo Kiley/Gossip Girl 4.10/Sort Of by Ingrid Michealson/ Gossip Girl 4.10/Sort Of by Ingrid Michealson/Gossip Girl 4.10/Marlene on the Wall by Suzanne Vega/ Gossip Girl 1.9/
Aftertaste by Ben Lee/Dawson's Creek 2.18/The Summer I Turned Pretty by Jenny Han/Dawson's Creek 2.18/The Summer I Turned Pretty by Jenny Han/Dawson's Creek 2.18/Portions for Foxes by Rilo Kiley/My Brilliant Friend by Elena Ferrante/ Dawson's Creek 2.16/Brooklyn 3am by Jaymay/Brooklyn 3am by Jaymay/ Dawson's Creek 2.13/Dawson's Creek 2.10/
Brooklyn 3am by Jaymay/The Summer I Turned Pretty 2.8/The Summer I Turned Pretty 2.8/Antigone/Gossip Girl 6.10/Spacetime Fairytale by Regina Spector/ Gossip Girl 1.1/Gossip Girl 1.1/ Flaws by Bastille/Portions for Foxes by Rilo Kiley/Spacetime Fairytale by Regina Spector/Spacetime Fairytale by Regina Spector/Dawson's Creek 6.21/
Dawson's Creek 6.21/Spacetime Fairytale by Regina Spector/Dawson's Creek 6.21/ Dawson's Creek 6.21/Gossip Girl 6.10/ Gossip Girl 6.10/ Gossip Girl 6.10/Gossip Girl 6.10/We'll Always Have Summer by Jenny Han/We'll Always Have Summer by Jenny Han/We'll Always Have Summer by Jenny Han/ Gossip Girl 6.10/Gossip Girl 6.10/Gossip Girl 6.10/We'll Always Have Summer by Jenny Han/We'll Always Have Summer by Jenny Han/We'll Always Have Summer by Jenny Han/Dawson's Creek 6.? Dawson's Creek 6.?/ Gossip Girl 6.10
Ship fanmix for Voice of the Cold/Voice of the Paranoid from Slay the Princess.
If you can tolerate pain, can you tolerate joy? (Art credit to @phospolipid-bilayer, right here!)
Acceptance - So Contagious
Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected
And I can tell you I've been moving in so slow
Don't let it throw you off too far
Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
aeseaes - Mahogany
String his neck, would you, would you?
Steer this wreck, would you, would you?
Tease me, torturous, bend to your death
I give in easy, hold me now
I'll be reckless, not yet
Andy Grammer - Fine By Me
And it seems that every time we're eye to eye
I can find another piece of you that I don't wanna lose
I'm just saying it's fine by me if you never leave
And we can live like this forever, it's fine by me
Angus & Julia Stone - Just a Boy
Girl, you make me want to feel
Things I've never felt before
Girl, you make me want to feel
Did I say I'm just a boy?
You can hold me to that
Cash Cash - Surrender
I was running on an empty heart
Not a trace of gasoline
Trying to dim every single spark
That could hurt, that could burn all of me
Charlotte Martin - Four Walls
Here is the part you reach for me
Say that you have no need of this
Say it again, again, again, again
Head up straight, I know what I'm doing
Head up straight, I know what I'm doing
(I don't)
girl in red - i wanna be your girlfriend
Oh Hannah, I will follow you home
Although my lips are blue and I'm cold
I don't wanna be your friend, I wanna kiss your lips
I wanna kiss you until I lose my breath
Oh Hannah, oh Hannah, oh Hannah, oh Hannah
Holly Conlan - OK
I build up walls no one can climb
And I tear them down, this process takes up all my time
And now I'm confused on top of it all
I was ready to lose and ready to fall
But then something about the way you look at me
It makes it feel okay, you make it feel okay
Jaymay - Sycamore Down
I'm just a cloud, I'm not proud
Of how I've been dealing with things
No one's allowed into my world
To see how I'm feeling
If this isn't love
What is love if this isn't love?
Keaton Henson - Limb
And I will shed my skin
Oh, to let you in
So lay down your guns for me
I'm only temporary
Maria Mena - Just Hold Me
But if I wanted silence I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness I'd choose to go
And if I liked rejection I'd audition
And if I didn't love you, you would know
And why can't you just hold me?
Motion City Soundtrack - L.G. FUAD
Yeah, so I'm already dead
On the inside, but I have learned to pretend
It's the only way I have learned to express myself, through other people's descriptions of life
I'm afraid I'm alone and entirely useless
(In this department)
Of Monsters and Men - Love Love Love
Yeah, maybe I'm a bad, bad, bad, bad person
Well baby, I know
Oh, cause you love, love, love
When you know I can't love
So I think it's best we both forget before we dwell on it...
Ricky Montgomery - This December
Well, this December, I'll remember
Want you to see it when I do
It's this state in this state I'm living in
It's just a little bit, it's just a little bit lonely in this home
It's always colder on your own
My darling I, I let the season change my mind
Sharon Van Etten - It's Not Like
Take both my hands, tie them behind my back
To keep me from holding, from holding, from holding
But that's so unlike myself
And it's not like I have anyone to hold, or do I want to?
These eyes, this heart, these arms have held almost everything
But not you, but not you, but I want to
Bonus: DECO*27 - The Vampire (Rachie English cover)
Back and forth from good to bad in every heartbeat
Let's turn that fear of yours into something sweet
Acting like I just don't care and yet I'm feeling everything
The distance tears me open, holding back all emotion
But if I keep tempting fate then it'll crush me 'till I finally break
i’m still liking these asks, so here’s a few more i’m asking myself
10: a song that makes you sad
close to ten years ago now, one of my best friend’s younger sisters died very suddenly at 18, just starting her first year at uni. it was so heartbreaking. they played the song “Riptide” by Vance Joy at her funeral, and it was the first time i ever heard it. it’s a great song, but i can’t hear it without feeling a little sad.
22: a song that moves you forward
i’ve talked about how much i love Kesha’s Rainbow album before. the title song is the one that thrusts me out of my feels. it’s kind of indescribable how healing it is to me.
26: a song that makes you want to fall in love
i mean, i’m very lucky to already be madly in love with the best person on the planet (i love him so much). but a key song on my playlist back then that really nailed what was going on in my head for the two years during which i was seriously crushing on him was “Gray or Blue” by Jaymay. gosh, i love love and once again, i love late ‘00s indie rock.
rules: pick a song for each letter of your url – no repeating artists!
h_how you holding up? by ylroy
a_alternate world by son lux
n_nights in white satin by the moody blues
d_don't worry about me by frances
g_get home by bastille
i_in the wind ii by thomas fehlmann
v_velvet wings of serenity by irena & vojtěch havlovi
e_everything's alright from jesus christ superstar
n_never be daunted by jaymay
tagged by: stole it from the president @talentforlying
tagging: whoever wants <3
No one asked, but I was curious since most of my fic titles are song lyrics. Here’s the number of fics by artist:
The Mountain Goats: 5
Julien Baker, The Wonder Years: 2 each
Sarge, Stars, Visqueen, Into the Woods, Ella Fitzgerald, The Cure, Indigo Girls, Barenaked Ladies, That Thing You Do, Lagwagon, Joni Mitchell, Taylor Swift, Baby Queen, Crazy Ex-Girlfriend, Conan Gray, Dolly Parton, Neko Case, The Features, Paul Simon, Florence + the Machine, W. Darling, tick tick Boom, Frightened Rabbit, Gaslight Anthem, Cabaret, Dean Martin, Jaymay: 1 each
This could be an angry rage breakdown or sad emotional one so I’ll do a mix
In no particular order
1. Teenagers by MCR
2. Miss Murder by AFI
3. Why am I like this by Orla Gartland
4. Sea Green, See Blue by Jaymay
5. There’s one song by Halsey in particular that has some lines that really get to me, it’s not one of her more popular ones and I’m forgetting the name
There’s probably a lot more I could list but these are ones that come to mind. Honorable mention to any song with Fuck you as a line
Tagged by the beautiful, talented, and amazing @clown-femme
Nicknames: Katie is technically a nickname, also Tundra
Height: 5’8” (and the shortest one in my immediate family which is why I give off shorter vibes)
Last thing googled: it was either knives out to see where I could download it when I got home or Walter Koenig because I wanted to see if he was still married to the wife mentioned in the Star Trek book I was reading (which he was until she passed last year)
Song stuck in my head: I’ve got dueling songs atm Ruby Blue by Róisìn Murphy and Sugarhouse by Sugarhouse
Followers: it’s like 1,400 and change I think?
Amount of sleep: i average like 7.5 hours last night was like 8:10
Lucky number: 21
Dream job: organizing things like I do for my streamer friend but getting paid for it tbh. I keep a spreadsheet of all of his shinies, update his shiny dex, and have been fiddling with coding a website that is better than the one we’re currently using for it. So basically like a spreadsheet fairy for one patron.
Wearing: compression socks, Uggs, mulberry leggings, grey tank top, my favorite long skull shirt (that I fixed last summer so there are pics of it somewhere on here), a long striped cardigan, and a black N95 mask (travel outfit bay bee)
Movies/Books that summarize me: I don’t know that they summarize me but these are my vibes or things that are so entrenched in my history they can’t be separated- Josie and The Pussycats (2001), The Magician’s Assistant by Anne Patchett, Howl’s Moving Castle (both the film and book), My Neighbor Totoro, Coraline (both the film and book), Paranorman, The Immortal Series by Tamora Pierce, Secretary (2002), A Christmas Story
Fave song: Grey or Blue by Jaymay (I even made an art about it, check out my year of lyrics)
Fave instrument: I don’t play anything but I’m a slut for acoustic guitar and the string section of an orchestra
Aesthetic: dusty academia, yarn and thread pieces littering the floor under a sewing machine, the sound scissors make when you hit the right slide cutting wrapping paper, the paper towel you used to clean your watercolor brushes during a painting, a femme in a fitted or flared brightly colored skirt giving you the coldest stare you’ve ever received, the little bit of nail polish around your cuticles after you paint your own nails
Fave author: Joy Demorra aka @thebibliosphere
Fave animal noise: the little questioning brrpppt? that cats do
Random: I am so ready to get home and sleep in my own bed that I’m a little delirious
Tagging: @ghostsinthecellar @sad-n-subbyy @lucidlymelanated @mrdreadful @mind-altering-bugs and anyone else who would like to do this :) feel free to ignore if you’re tagged or add if you’re not!
Okay, now I’m curious to know some of your favorite albums if you don’t mind? ‘Cause I can relate A LOT to the way you see Ms. Swift’s albums. And I’m searching for good music, so please give me recs! (Old & new.)
oh boy!! gear up, because i LOVE talking music.
pop:
rae by ashe & ashlyn by ashe (she's such a unique voice in pop today <3)
begin to hope by regina spektor
emails i can't send by sabrina carpenter
strangers forever by maude latour
woman on the internet by orla gartland
build a problem by dodie
bad together by rozzi
ed buys houses by sidney gish
gracetown by san cisco
wrong crowd by tom odell
bad ideas by tessa violet
some feelings by julia nunes
tell it to the volcano by miniature tigers
cuz i love you by lizzo
don't get dark by del water gap
be ok by ingrid michaelson
country:
you don't own me anymore by the secret sisters (LOVING this one lately)
jolene by dolly parton
out among the stars & american IV by johnny cash
lady & gentlemen by leeann rimes
rock:
jade bird by jade bird (OH MY GOD!!!!!)
odessey and oracle by the zombies
hotel tv by lawrence (this is sorta pop/rock/r&b fusion)
combat sports by the vaccines
bad self portraits by lake street dive (my favs)
playing chess by elise legrow
back to black by amy winehouse (EVERYTHING BY HER!)
chills and fever by samantha fish
songs for a sinking ship by april smith and the great picture show
we need medicine by the fratellis
the stranger by billy joel
love tattoo by imelda may
folk/indie:
in between dreams by jack johnson
songs of leonard cohen by leonard cohen (oh my god everything this man touches is GENIUS, he is probably my favorite lyricist of all time)
bridge over troubled water and sounds of silence by simon and garfunkel
wide awake & feathers and fishooks by rayland baxter
autumn fallin' by jaymay
maple ridge by swear and shake
healing and a remedy by upstate (SO underrated, one of my fav albums of all time is healing)
dead and born and grown by the staves
how i knew her by nataly dawn (SO GOOD)
jazz/r&b
lady soul by aretha franklin
lo-fi soul by haley reinhart
somewhere in between by eloise
it could happen to you by chet baker
the jerome kern songbook by ella fitzgerald
the astrud gilberto album by astrud gilberto
ella swings lightly by ella fitzgerald
songs from the heart by johnny hartman
in the wee small hours by frank sinatra
cocktail by rose colella
yesterday i had the blues by jose james
ella and louis by ella fitzgerald and louis armstrong (maybe my fav of all time?)
Honorable mentions:
Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds or PJ Harvey - Red Right Hand
Maria McKee - If Love Is A Red Dress (Hang Me In Rags)
Gray or Blue - Jaymay
A song you like with a number in the title:
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The Wallflowers - One Headlight
Honorable mentions:
The Cure - Just One Kiss
The Pretenders - 2000 Miles
The Breeders - Drivin’ on 9
6. A song that makes you want to dance:
Truthfully, I don’t dance or want to dance but I like the excitement of this:
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The Cure - 13th
Honorable mention:
Feist - 1234
23. A song you think everyone should listen to:
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Phoebe Bridgers - Teenage Dirtbag
This one’s big. I feel it overtly states all the tenderness and yearning a guy singing a pop song in 2000 couldn’t get away with.
Honorable mentions:
The Housemartins - Caravan of Love
Black 47s - Bridie’s Song
Utah Philips - Moose Turd Pie
The Proclaimers - Cap in Hand
Urban Dance Squad - Deeper Shade of Soul
Thanks for tagging me! I hope everyone who follows me will play, I’d love to know.
It's almost 7 in the morning after I woke up at midnight, and I have a lot on this weekend so I may be promising too much, but
I think with the end of Thirteen's run on Doctor Who, I'm finally going to knuckle down and write Yaz's Extraordinarily Bisexual Playlist.
The goal of it is to explore potential romantic feelings with Ryan, Dan, The Doctor and an OC (who may not be an OC, but a canon-compliant character), paired with a story about grand larceny and deceit, set to a Spotify algorithm that's way out of whack for Yaz's liking but which begins to sync up with her life as she changes over time.
It's a real-world AU, Ryan and Graham run an activity centre for low-income youths and Yaz uses what standing she has on the police force to help them secure better funding and better accommodate the centre in the community. Through that, she meets Dan and the Doctor at a support group held at the centre, and the plan is for the different relationship vibes to ebb and flow over the course of in-story months. Yaz shares a tender moment with Ryan at a Bonfire Night picnic, she goes to dinner with Dan for Valentine's Day. The Doctor pops up all over the place in her dark blue Honda Accord, and Yaz has a great time whenever she does.
Endgame couple should be pretty obvious if you know my AO3 account - which I'm almost certain you don't - and with the title referring to a playlist, it's also going to be a songfic-lite with lyrics opening and closing each chapter. Some songs I wanna use are:
1000 Times - Sara Bareilles ("kiss me goodnight, like a good friend might")
Gray or Blue - Jaymay ("Your eyes are either gray or blue, I'm never close enough to say")
Subway Song - Julianne Zachirou ("Sway left, sway right, slow-dancing in the middle of the subway") + others!
What are you top 5 most favourite songs of all time? send this to 5 of your favourite followers when you answer! if you get a second one say your top five favourite artists and if you get a third say your top 5 favourite albums!
Hi! Thank you for asking! I don’t know why these questions are so hard to answer but I’ll try! 😅
My list usually changes a lot depending really on how I feel during a particular time in my life. Right now these are mine in no particular order: