#just dumping my thoughts here

[noises-of-nothing]

I didn’t have cable tv or the internet during the time between 2012-2019. 

My dad would pirate shows when he could, while at work, but if he didn't get it, it didn't exist, as far as I was aware. It didn't bother me much when I was still in elementary school as I didn't really have friends to talk to about these shows I was missing. But when I got to high school I made actual friends that I would talk to about the interests I did have that we shared, like video games and comics and such.

I had missed A LOT of shows that a lot of my new friends would talk about often or draw fan art for. I always felt lost and out of place when they talked about the different shows and anime they watched, while I just sat there confused. They explained the premise of the shows as best as they could, but it wasn't the same as watching and experiencing these stories myself. I would ask my dad if he could get these shows so I knew what it was my friends were talking about, but he could only do so much with the websites he knew how to use to get any entertainment for my family.

Now, I'm out of school, currently out of work, and I have time on my hands. I’ve been watching these shows that my friends from high school used to watch, and I've been really enjoying them.

But, I don't talk to any of my high school friends anymore, I don't really have anyone to share the thoughts and feelings I'm experiencing while watching these shows for the first time, or watching episode my dad missed for the first time.

It’s really bittersweet, seeing characters that my old friends used to talk to me about and being reminded of them, even if I don't see these friends anymore. But it also makes me feel incredibly lonely and like I fell behind...

[collophora]

Do yourself a favor and go read the entire fanfic work of @fanfoolishness

(In order: Under sun and shade, Blind Side, and Breathless (patching up is one of my fav too, I just had no cool sketch idea for it)

[wriothesleybear]

Gallagher is an old fashioned romantic. Meaning he is a gentlemen who will bring you your favorite flowers, kiss you on the back of your hand every time he greets you, hold the door open for you, serenade you with his saxophone, use his vest to put over a puddle so you can walk over it. (Okay, maybe not the last one but you get what I mean.) Although he looks unkempt and doesn't seem like he cares much by looking at his disheveled attire, he actually cares a lot about his s/o. He will make the time for you even if he's tired from work. Spending time with you is his favorite part of the day and it's what he looks forward to, which helps gets him through his stressful jobs. He really likes chill dates where you two just talk, bask in each others presence, and do simple mundane things. If you wanted to go out and do something exciting, he wouldn't mind, but he really enjoys your chill dates the most.

Man will swoon you. The type of man to cover the floor with a trail of rose petals that lead to the bed which is also covered in rose petals. Then he would proceed to make love to you on said rose petal covered bed. And it would be the slow, passionate sex where you're both not in a rush to get off and take your time exploring and admiring each other's body. He's really good at appreciating his woman, both in general and in bed. Just imagine being married to this man. Having this man as your boyfriend is basically like having him as your husband. This man will do anything for you. He'd be like a house husband. Cooking, running errands, cleaning the house, getting on his knees for you (I may be delulu but hear me out).

A part of me feels like he isn't the type to sleep around, you know like having flings. Dating around takes a lot of time and energy which he doesn't care for so when he finds someone he really likes, he's in it for the long haul like you're stuck with him. His thoughts on marriage are pretty simple. He could see marriage with you in the future, but he believes you don't need a piece of paper or wedding to make your love for each other official. If you want to get married, he's down. If you don't want to get married, he's down as well. He literally could go either way, he's chill like that.

[11thsense]

Going through my files of my more illustrative work and this is a bunch of studies, abandoned pieces, and Wips. Some of which I posted then deleted.

[femininomena]

some of the discourse around loustat seems to come from the fact that a lot of people don't understand that louis and lestat not only love each other, but they like each other. louis wasn't straight up manipulated into loving lestat because they had been best friends for months - if anything, they were friends who fell in love more than anything. louis sees in lestat someone who knows him, he genuinely believes that lestat is the only being he can trust because, at one point, lestat was the only person he could trust, especially after paul's death.

understanding that allows for people to understand that:

yes dreamstat shows up as a consequence of trauma and, esp during the first episode, he truly is a terrifying presence. but he shifts into not only a lestat louis wishes he could have but also a lestat that louis misses. it's the lestat of their friendship when louis was a human, but also the lestat of their early marriage, the lestat of the good moments between them. the "good" dreamstat is not only a figment of louis' imagination, but also a memory of a lestat louis did have.

louis goes to lestat in the end because louis wants to. it's not about lestat, lestat is barely present on episode 2x08, and louis is not going there because he wants to comfort lestat. louis wants the comfort he gets from seeing lestat. his husband, his maker, his abuser, his best friend - and, most importantly, the father of his daughter who was not responsible for her death. do you understand the guilt that lifts from his shoulders when he no longer has to face a reality where the love of his life and claudia's other father murdered her? it's about louis and how he feels for lestat, not about giving lestat some redemption or whatever (esp bc showing remorse does not a redemption make. it's a step in the right direction for lestat, but that's hardly what will make him a more sympathetic figure.)

tl;dr - reducing loustat to only the trauma and abuse in your analysis of them takes away not from the ship, but from the characters themselves. there has to be a reason louis wants to see lestat at the end of it all, when the veil falls, when the lies are put out there, and assuming that reason is only because louis is lestat's victim and he needs to return to his abuser is a disservice to louis' character and a wide misunderstanding of the arc he goes through on s1 & s2.

[bruhstation]

can't it even be more obvious thomas. why are you surprised that a sudrian historical site filled to the brim with armor and weaponry that dates back to the middle ages has old people afflicted with the gold dust working around the castle

[theartbishop324]

I get the marriage to Irulan is a political thing and she might even be glad that Paul leaves her alone but I kinda feel bad for her. Irulan has be deprived of a lot of parental love and it even states clearly in the books that she's had to guard herself from her father's schemes and plots at times and avoid assassination from her own family members.

Now she expects to be Paul's wife in their political marriage and as such, the mother to his children only to be let down to understand that Chani is his true love and she'll be his exclusive partner. She might have even expected to finally find the love she's been deprived of all her life.

It just seems cruel to me that Irulan has been, in some ways, alone emotionally all her life and now is trapped in a marriage to a man who won't show her an ounce of love and perhaps hostile to her at times.

Now, since she's empress she'll have her own freedom and do whatever she wants within her power but I just feel bad for her for her loss of affection from the man she's bound to in marriage. I feel like Paul could at least be kind to her and idk, give her gifts and do something to make her a bit happy.

Who knows how Denis(the director of Dune) will write her in Dune: Messiah and I'm very curious to see how her story line goes along with Chani's change from the books as she isn't just another fanatical follower anymore but that's just what's been on my mind after three trips to the cinema.

[magicicephoenix]

Erase - The Ink Demonth 2024 (Day 16)

Weird, huh? Almost like someone thought eight legs would be two too many and took action… or something.

[governmentmandatedryujinstan420]

releasing this from the hj discord dungeon because the public populace was in agreement also i'm chronically offline on tumblr and need to fix that for my chronically online ahh

[cat-mentality]

Sad QSMP headcannons that have like half a toenail in canon.

The French version:

Baghera cries very silently, like someone who is used to having to keep quiet.

She also has a very high pain tolerance and she didn't understand why until recently.

When Pomme disappeared Baghera was terrified that the Federation had something to do with that, terrified that her little girl would be at the hands of the people who made her and hurt her so badly.

As much as she wants to hate the Federation for having hurt her, at the same time she can't and that makes everything so much worse.

Baghera doesn't have wings. But she does have two scars on her back where no feathers have ever grown.

Antoine was not prepared to actually get attached to any of the French, or even to Pomme. He knows he is in too deep, has too much to lose if he cuts ties with the Federation, and yet it twists something inside of him when he thinks about their possible reactions, especially Etoiles. For the first time in a very long existence he understands what friendship is, knows what it feels like instead of just watching others experience it, and is very aware that he will lose it all.

That is why Antoine was so pissed off at Osito for being careless with the picture, the earlier they discover about his true past, the earlier he will lose them.

If the Federation truly had Pomme he would have burned it all down himself just to bring her back.

The first time Cucurucho saw Antoine angry was after the torture session nearly killed Pierre for good. No one knows who was more shocked by his display, Cucurucho or Antoine himself.

Pierre continues to trouble sleeping and constant nightmares when he does, he can't remember the last time he managed to truly rest without waking up in a cold sweat or screaming, he is always on the verge of passing out and even when he does crash he still has nightmares.

He refuses to acknowledge it or even talk about it, hides his exhaustion with everything he has, pushes people away just to make sure they wouldn't realize there is something wrong, too afraid they will see a weakness to be exploited.

Pierre hates being alone as much as he craves it- He likes being by himself working on his machines and keeping his secrets close to his chest, but at the same time when he is alone is when the dark thoughts take over

He will, on occasion, not exactly seek to get himself hurt but not exactly avoid it either- If he can feel pain it means that there is something human in him doesn't it?

But Pierre hates dying and he will avoid and lash out when put into such a situation. He fears what will wake up, if it will still be him.

Sometimes Kameto look at the rest of the Islanders and he wonders what his own life could have been, what sort of bonds he could have forged with people, if the Federation didn't come for him first.

Etoiles does not know what his worth is if not as a warrior.

He is not smart like the others, he doesn't build pretty buildings or incredible machines, he doesn't know how to do anything but fight. And if he can't fight, if he can't protect the people he cares about, then why is he still around?

War is everything Etoiles really knows. By the time he reached his late teens and was released from the battlefield he had seen more combat than some people in their old age, everything he knew how to do was to fight, he had nowhere to go, knew no one, had nothing.

He was never able to settle down for too long or even to truly build himself a home, Etoiles knew so very little about the world that he just decided he would explore it. Some people in the army talked about things they missed, things they thought worth fighting for, and Etoiles wanted to understand that feeling of fighting for anything but his own survival.

To this day he still feel more comfortable fighting than he ever does doing anything else.

None of them ever had families.

The concept of family was something Antoine learned by watching other species and for a very long time it was not something he truly understood or could relate. It was only after the plane crash and Pomme that it hit him that maybe he can understand this thing now.

Baghera always thought she was just an orphan with amnesia. She had very little memories of her young years and none of them involved other people, just her and a room, so for a long time she believed she was alone in the world. Even now she struggles with that emptiness, especially now that she knows that the Federation may be the closest thing to family that she will ever have.

Etoiles had parents once. He knows he did, but he cannot remember their faces or even their voices most of the time. He was still just a small child when they came for him and sent him to war.

Pierre was always alone. He had parents but they could as well be ghosts haunting their home, he hardly could see glimpses of them from time to time, all he ever truly had were his machines.

[themeraldee]

For the awkward sex fic how about him busting way too early like with Madelyn? Reader hasn't even really started but she just says the right thing and he makes a mess👀

love that I'm becoming the awkward sex go to (absolutely keep em coming!) 😂 If you haven't read it yet, the incredibly talented @blindmagdalena wrote exactly that here !

I shall put this on my to-write list as well because over-eager Homelander who cannot hold it in is my favourite.

I'm forever transfixed by how he apologized so earnestly in that moment. Sorry but a man of his strength apologizing to you because he blew his load too early has me 🥴🥴

Like bby don't apologize, I wanna see more of that!

I could see once the reader finds out this about his praise kink they weaponize the ever loving shit out of it. Anytime they need something from him. If he can weaponize his influence over you, why couldn't you😉

"Be a good boy today and behave for me please?" You say to him just before his next public appearance. And as much as he's fed up and loathes keeping to the corporate script he listens because he wants to be good for you, he wants you to reward him, to sing his praises as soon as he comes off the stage after a job well done.

Vought is happy that they have someone keeping him in line even though originally they were not accepting of your relationship after you pretty much stole the marketing opportunity of getting him into a public relationship with another supe.

I see this later translating into the bedroom, where the reader is verrry curious just how easy he is to get off. In a crack fic scenario they make it a game where the reader has a stopwatch just keeping track of how long it takes him to finish when they keep praising him. Whether that's during a blowjob, handjob or sex.

"Look at that! 15 seconds today, that's definitely a record."

(If I'm taking the time in the show at face value, it took him 30 seconds with Madelyn)

[dunmeshistash]

Are you the creator of the manga?

No, I'm just obsessed with it lmao. Dungeon Meshi was created by Ryoko Kui, here's her blog.

[coffeeforkris]

ART DUMP SINCE I HAVEN'T POSTED IN A WHILE RGRHDIKJK//...

[robyntherav3n]

sol

[2hoothoots]

i was having a chuckle to myself last night about Gristol, and how his plans are basically:

Restore Ford Cruller's memory

Find Maligula

???

Profit

but then... of course they are, right? this is Gristol we're talking about. Fatherland Follies drives home again and again that he's still operating on a child's logic, a warped and reductive version of the world that he never bothered to grow out of. both of his memory vaults center on the images of his childhood, this idealized version of the past that he clings to no matter what. and that's still how he remembers Maligula, too - as this saviour figure, who rushes in to help him when he's in trouble.

[ID: Two slides from Gristol's memory vault, Glory to Grulovia! Left: Gristol clings to Maligula's back as she summons waves to sweep away his assailants. Right: Gristol and Maligula waving from a balcony as the people cheer. Gzar Theodore brandishes a dagger in the background.]

like so much else, Maligula represents a return to this idyllic childhood - to the peace and simplicity of his youth, when he was free from worries and responsibilities. in his mind, he doesn't need to make any further plans - once Maligula's back, everything will go back to normal. Maligula will make everything better.

...is what i thought, but then i remembered this line:

[Screenshot source. ID: Gristol, in Truman's body, bows on his hands and knees in front of the newly-awaked Maligula. The caption reads: "Yes, High Priestess! I am here to correct the mistakes made by my father!"]

and that's kind of interesting, right?

to be clear: this happens directly after Maligula sees Helmut-in-Gristol's-body, and recognises him. her line before this is:

"Little Gzesaravich! Have you come to pay for your father's sins?"

my first thought was that Gristol hadn't expected to still be in Truman's body by the time he managed to find Maligula, and this was him trying to placate her and buy some time until he could explain the situation. but watching the cutscene back, that's clearly not what's happening here. Gristol is answering as himself, and his response of throwing himself to his knees before her is, as far as i can tell, genuine.

so what is going on here?

in Fatherland Follies, there's this line in the ride narration that stuck out to me:

"Why didn't the Gzar help Maligula in her time of need? No one knows, but historians agree - it is Gzar Theodore's biggest failure."

other lines mention Gzar Theodore's "mistake", and it's wording Gristol himself echoes in the screencap above. evidently, he believes that his father abandoned Maligula, leaving her to her fate at the hands of the Psychonauts, and it was that mistake that lead to them being driven out of the country - that mistake which he seeks to correct. maybe he even feels like he has a debt to repay to her for his family turning their backs on her all those years ago.

the 'High Priestess' thing, though - that's kinda weird, and threw me for a loop the first time i played the game. it took me until my second playthrough to connect the dots, and remember how the room in the Lady Luctopus - Gristol's room - was full of Delugionist scribblings and symbols.

[Screenshot source. ID: left, the walls of the hidden backroom in Gristol's hotel suite, covered in scrawlings of eyeballs and Maligula's name. Right, the pinboard from the hidden backroom. On its surface are photographs and newspaper clippings connected by pieces of string.]

i mean, look at this stuff! he had a whole conspiracy board and everything!

we learn very little about the Delugionists and their beliefs as a whole during the game, but i think drawing the connection here suggests two important things. one: that Gristol was in deep with this stuff. i don't know how he linked up with them - maybe via old family connections, or just good old-fashioned digging (we know he's skilled at worming his way into peoples' good graces, after all) - but it seems likely that he's begun to internalise their ideas, maybe even warping his own memories of events. and two: the Delugionists themselves are, if you'll pardon the pun, pretty far off the deep end.

like... i understand why PN2 didn't go heavy on the "mass-murderer cult worship" aspect of things, in the end, but man this is such a tantalising glimpse into the wider mythos around Maligula. Gristol is proud and haughty and thinks himself above everyone else; the fact that his first reaction seeing Maligula is to throw himself to the ground at her feet says so much about the way he's come to see her. he's not just trying to bring back Maligula, his childhood bodyguard. he's trying to bring back Maligula, the High Priestess of the deluge, the semi-mythical figure whose supporters believe even death couldn't stop. he doesn't even flinch at the way she confronts him, and maybe it's because he's bought in so completely to this deified figurehead, this idea of Maligula; more a living force of nature than a person. and it all comes back to the same place: an abdication of responsibility, not just to the person who protected him when he was little but to this avatar of floods and destruction. Maligula will make everything better.

i'd write more about my thoughts on the Delugionists but that'd be taking a hard turn into speculation, and this is already kind of long and rambling so i'd better end it here. but what an unexpected and evocative line, right? it's some of the only stuff we have to go off of regarding the Delugionists as a whole, but i think it does such a good job of hinting at the wider story - at teasing another layer to the mythos surrounding Maligula, one whose ripples we see throughout the game but which never quite breaches the surface.

[ladyswillmart]

You ever like, end up in like a Discord for a fandom you like, but the people in the Discord aren't really Your People and it's not that you don't like the people in this Discord but you're pretty sure they think you're Scum even though you're posting more or less the same stuff you post for Your People and they seem to like it just fine