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reidscanehand · 4 years

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The Statistical Probability of Counting on Forever

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Spencer Reid x BAUfem! Reader

Category: Fluff (with, like, a tiny bit of angst)

TW: Spencer is held at gunpoint by an unsub, general anxiety, cursing

Oh, also, shout out to @homoose who beta’d a chunk of this story I actually ended up deleting, but also for being incredibly supportive.

Well....here we are. Based on too many requests to count: This is the final chapter in this series that was never meant to be a series. As much as I love writing in this universe, I think this brings the story to a pretty solid close (hopefully). Thank you all for the support and love for this particular set of stories. I never imagined that anything I’d write would get the kind of reaction this has. I am not returning from hiatus yet, but I did go back through my queue and set this up to actually release as a thank you for the kindness and support I’ve been shown. I’m not better - I’m not sure how long that’s going to take - but I am very lucky to have the kind of supportive community I’ve dreamed about for a very long time on here. Hiatus isn’t over, but I hope you like this short, final chapter.

Love you all to bits xx

~ “The most harrowing idea would be that I would spend any part of my life without her, because that would be a level of irraplaceable, irredeemable emotional desolation that I could not possibly contemplate.” - Stephen Colbert ~

The thing about working with the Behavioral Analysis Unit is that it makes it pretty difficult to make plans. Spencer knows this, he’s known it since he was drafted into the unit. When he was younger, it never bothered him. There was something satisfying, really, about never having to deal with the cancellation of things as his co-workers so often had to do. That satisfaction had nearly crystallized into bitterness before you had come along. And then suddenly, there were date nights, plans to make, things to do - a future to look forward to. However, irony rarely has a soft spot for anyone, not even Spencer Reid, and, it would be that when he’d finally planned to ask you to marry him, the team got called away on a case.

It was supposed to happen just 48 hours ago. Derek knew about the proposal, of course, but you obviously didn’t, so Spencer worked incredibly hard to cover his (rather obvious) irritation. It softened the blow ever so slightly as you fell asleep on his shoulder on the flight to Texas. What didn’t soften the blow was this bullshit: being captured and held hostage by a psychopath in an abandoned farmhouse.

Spencer thinks about dying an unhealthy amount. It’s not really on purpose, it’s just the nature of his job. He’s had his affairs in order, so to speak, since he was 22. If he died on a case, he wanted to make sure his mom would be okay. And, most recently, that you would be okay. From a practical standpoint, he’d gotten his affairs in order because he didn’t want to worry about it. He wanted to be allowed to think through the happier parts of his life as he died, as macabre as that may seem. But, to his mind, Spencer was a firm believer that his final thoughts should be filled with visions of his mother reading to him or getting his first doctorate or kissing you for the first time rather than multiplying his natural terror worrying about what would happen to those he left behind. However, of the many things he thought he’d think about as he stared death in the face, bananas had not been among the top tier of that list. But, with a gun against his temple and an unsub breathing down his neck, bananas are what come to mind. Well, bananas and you, of course.

When you’d moved in with Spencer, you’d insisted on making breakfast for him every single day. You’d riddled off facts about kick starting his metabolism, him needing to gain weight, maybe drinking less caffeine, but it was hardly necessary. Partially because Spencer would do pretty much anything you asked him to, within reason, because he loves you, but also because you taking care of him makes him happier than he cares to admit. Most days you included bananas with breakfast, either on the side or as a main part of the meal (he’d mentioned that it’s difficult to get potassium in the average diet one time, and, you being the wonderful person you are, remembered it). His particular favorite was toast with peanut butter and bananas on it. It was delicious, yes, but it also took the least time for you to make, meaning that he got to spend more of his morning with you.

And right now, the click of the unsub cocking the trigger ringing in his ears, he can see it all. The tiny disks you’d sliced the banana into, placed prettily over the peanut butter covered toast, a sprinkle of cinnamon dusted over the top of it. And for some reason, he can’t see you. He can’t picture you at all. Maybe because for the first time in a long time, there’s a possibility that this really might be the end. That there is no future to envision with you anymore. That the time the two of you have had together is it. All he gets. Spencer shuts his eyes, the muttering from the unsub not mattering to him at all. He takes a deep breath, trying to will himself not cry if this is the end.

“FBI!” Hotch’s voice shouts, some nearby door bursting open. Within moments, it’s all over. Spencer is safe, safe and well, and you - gorgeous, perfect, wonderful you - are waiting for him just outside the farmhouse he was being held hostage in. Your eyes are teary, red-rimmed, and you can’t even manage to say anything. You nearly throw your arms around his body, Spencer pulling you in tighter and tighter, neither of you saying anything. You don’t need to. The message is clear.

Hotch orders him to the medic just to be looked over, but Spencer ignores him for a few minutes, just holding you in the night air, letting the smell of your perfume and your shampoo fill his lungs, grounding him back to the present. He knows it isn’t possible, but with you he feels like he’s breathing again, the air regulating in his lungs for the first time in hours.

Ever so gently, you guide him to the medics truck, not letting go until you reach the destination. Even then, you hover nearby, eyes never leaving him. Aside from a few bruised ribs and some superficial knicks to his forehead and chin, Spencer’s completely fine, but he knew that anyway. The second the medic steps away, he pulls you back to him, still sitting on the back of the medics van he clings to your waist and kisses your collarbones over your shirt, pressing desperate kisses into your neck as some tears finally begin to fall, the reality of it all setting in with him.

“I thought...I thought I might never see you again,” he rasps into you, your fingers carding gently through his hair to calm him down. “Just for a brief moment in there. And I...Y/N...if I…” He can’t speak anymore, choking back sobs that begin to rack his body.

“Oh, Spencer,” you whisper, pressing a kiss to the top of his head, “I know, darling, I know. But you’re safe now. You’re safe and you’re here and I love you.”

“I love you...so, so much,” he breathes, tightening his hold on you.

You reciprocate his hug, one arm around his neck and shoulders, the other free to roam, brushing fingers through his hair and down his neck, your head resting atop his in a tender caress. His vice like grip around your middle softens as he rests his head in the crook of your neck. His breathing finally calms down, the sobs drying out as his anxieties lessen in your arms. The two of you embrace on the back of the medics truck for what seems like hours before you quietly break the silence.

“Marry me,” you whisper, voice crackling through the Texan night.

“What?” he gasps, unmoving, not sure he heard you correctly. Not daring to hope that that’s what you just said. You pull your head up, hands caressing his jaw, your eyes, still permeated with unshed tears, meeting his.

“Spencer Reid,” you breathe, voice a little stronger than before, “please marry me.”

Spencer can’t breathe, he can’t respond. He opens his mouth to speak, but when nothing comes out, you look at him, only a little worry in your eyes.

You take a deep, shaky breath before continuing, “I want to wake up with you every single morning and go to sleep with you every single night for the rest of our lives...I want to make breakfast for you and make sure you don’t drink too much coffee.” Spencer smiles at that and it seems to calm you a bit as you release a breathy chuckle, a small tear cascading it’s way over your cheek, several more joining it as you keep going.

“It’s probably not possible, but I want you to try and tell me everything you know even if it takes forever….because-because I’ll never want to stop listening to you….I want to have children with you. I want to be your wife, Spencer. I want to spend the rest of my days proving to you and showing you how much you deserve to be loved...because you do.”

Spencer wipes at your tears with the pads of his thumbs before reaching into his pocket, standing up and taking out the small, red velvet box. “Y/N, you beautiful, wonderful woman...I have been planning to ask you the same question.” You giggle breathlessly, a smile breaking out over your face.

“I-I normally have statistics for this sort of thing,” he continues, “but, as ever, you render me speechless. All I can say is that I will obviously marry you, and I will do everything in my power to make you as happy as you have made me.”

You nod emphatically, allowing Spencer to put the ring on your finger. You stare at it for a moment before looking back up at him, happy tears springing to your eyes.

“God, I love you,” you whisper. Rather than responding, Spencer leans down and slots his lips over yours, pulling you impossibly closer.

“Hey, love birds, I know Pretty Boy was in a life or death situation, but this is not the time to be macking on each other,” Derek calls from across the field laughingly. Spencer pulls away from you for only a moment, opening his mouth to respond when you pipe up from next to him.

“Shut up, Morgan, we’re engaged!” you giggle. The heads of the four other team members snap to attention and look over at you two. There’s a brief moment of silence before everyone rushes over to the two of you, overlapping with congratulations and squeezing through each other to get hugs.

“Finally!” states Rossi, cackling with laughter. “Someone call Garcia!”

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Hours later, the team is sitting on the jet, the engine’s gentle roar having lulled everyone to sleep. The two of you have taken up residency on the couch, with you leaning on Spencer’s shoulder, the whispered plans and shared promises between the two of you the only other sound in the jet beyond the engine. Spencer examines the ring on your left hand, the beautiful, vintage aquamarine engagement ring he’d had in his desk for five months. The ring he’d been carrying around in his pocket for the past month. The ring he’d bought after dating you for one month because he just knew. And never, not once in that whole time, had it looked as beautiful as it does sitting on your hand.

“You really want to marry me right?” he asks quietly, interlocking your fingers with his, pressing a quick kiss to your knuckles. You open your eyes and glance at him, smiling before resting your head on his shoulder again.

“Of course,” you whisper into his shoulder, pressing a gentle kiss over his jacket sleepily. “I hate to tell you, Stats, but you’re pretty much stuck with me.”

“Good,” Spencer replies, wrapping his arm around you as he pulls you into his chest, pressing another kiss into your hair. And here, among the wreckage of the end of the case, staring down an always uncertain future, Spencer feels an odd sense of a peace he’s never known. You shift slightly in his arms and he realizes you’ve fallen asleep. He feels his own eyes start to droop, allowing himself to be calmed by the mere presence of you. Forever. You’ve agreed to forever with him. As though you’re somehow aware of his thoughts, you unconsciously shift closer into his chest. And just as he drifts off to sleep, Spencer whispers, “Good, because I’m counting on forever.”

~ “When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.” - Nora Ephron ~

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eponymous-rose · 5 years

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Weird question, but you seem really productive despite seeming to have a constantly fluctuating routine, with both your work and your hobbies. Most people think having a solid routine is the only way to increase your productivity but I've pretty much given up on having a routine since my life seems similar to yours--a lot of travel, weird and always changing work hours. Do you have any advice on how you deal with routine and productivity in spite of that?

Oh gosh, this is definitely something I struggle with a LOT, and I’m not sure I’ve found a coping strategy that works for me yet. But the small things that have been helping have been (1) keeping a routine in my planning even if the stuff I do changes dramatically (even if I’m traveling, I have a notebook where, every Sunday, I list all the stuff that has specific dates/times for the following week, I list the stuff where I still have to come up with a date/time, and I list the stuff I’ve gotta do that week for sure), and (2) finding multiple ways to approach the same goals that I can tailor to my level of energy/spare time on any given week (so this week I’m just not in a super exercisey mindset and can’t rely on having the motivation to run every day, but instead I’m making an extra effort not to eat out this week—lower-effort for my current state of mind, but all toward the same goal of feeling a bit healthier overall).

I’m also very cognizant of how little time at work is actually spent working, so I try not to feel guilty if the total number of hours worked is low as long as the work’s getting done. I’m an incredibly routine-oriented person, but it’s been a bit freeing to slowly and steadily teach myself that stuff just has to get finished one way or another, and the easiest way to do that is to just focus on specific goals and let the rest be flexible.

Anyway, yesterday I was thinking of this ask and was like, “You know, I’ll just write up what I do on Monday as an example, and I bet things will go hilariously awry.” And so they did.

So here’s what my weekly planning list looked like last night:

Dated Events:

Call with paper coauthor at 9AM Monday

Call with leadership academy planning committee at 10AM Monday

Call with peer mentoring group at 9AM Tuesday

Sit in on class at 11:30AM Tuesday and Thursday

Seminars Wednesday at 3PM, Thursday at 4PM, and Friday at 3PM

D&D Saturday at 6PM

Undated Events:

Coordinating abstract submission for an upcoming conference (early week)

Setting up Skype calls with a couple friends I haven’t talked to in a while (late week)

Assorted Priorities:

Book hotel for work travel in July

Accept journal article review request and scope out how long that’ll take

Review some materials sent out for my peer mentoring call

Revise my paper and submit the revisions before the Monday deadline

Get my driver’s license renewed (the joys of yearly visa renewal… your license has to be renewed yearly as well)

Put together a schedule for a biweekly Twitter feature highlighting new publications for the account I run for a subcommittee in my field

Respond to an e-mail about a conference in January about some weird deadline that popped up for next week

Come up with conference abstract ideas before the as-yet-unscheduled meeting

Fill out some action items in advance of my 10AM Monday call

And some more specific checklists for four research projects I’m focusing on this week

I purposely try to group conference calls together, because I currently share my office and feel weird doing video calls when she’s stuck in frame five feet away from me while she tries to work. So Monday seems like a good day to work from home, and I can squeeze in Tuesday’s call before heading to the office that morning. I’ll be in the office Tuesday-Friday, which means I’ll be able to attend those seminars and classes with no problem. I have most of my D&D prep done already because we ended early last game, so I can leave that until Saturday. The only thing I might have to shuffle to next week is the driver’s license thing, because it’ll take three hours and I have to account for finding a Lyft there and back. Okay. Aces.

Wake up this morning to find my internet’s out, and I also somehow left the hard drive with all my research on it at work. Hoo boy. But staring over my to-do list, I think I can set today up as a “big picture” day and not have to do any actual coding, so I’m still okay to work from home. I can also phone in to the conference calls instead of using the video call software. All good.

Luckily, the internet comes back right before my first call of the day. Said call is with someone who also happens to be a dean, so she has a tendency to get held up at meetings, so I take that delay to look at the action items for my second call (I mean… if you send me action items at 8PM on a Sunday I am not gonna touch them until Monday morning).

When she did make it online, we chatted about the new paper, and she strongly encouraged me to send it to our other coauthors in case they have suggestions. We’re submitting on Monday, which is way too short-notice to read a 20-page research paper, but they already read the pre-revision version in great detail, so I shot them an e-mail that included a summary of the substantial changes and a note to the effect that if any of them want more time to look at this stuff, I can beg the editor for an extension on their behalf. Minor crisis averted.

Second meeting is very intense and structured. Everyone has to volunteer to organize and lead two webinars in the next three months, so I go ahead and volunteer for the two April ones so I’ll get it out of the way early. Aaand the first webinar is at 1PM this Friday. Okay. I’ll work from home that morning so I can do last-minute prep, then head into the office in time for the 3PM seminar. No biggie. One organizer puts together a draft schedule, and I send a quick e-mail suggesting a different use of one of the ten-minute time slots. One of the other organizers requests another conference call tomorrow instead of e-mails. I tell them I can only do after 4PM, if I leave work early. Eh. We’ll see how that works out.

After the call, I get through a bunch of small tasks in maybe 20 minutes: hotel booked, Twitter posts prepped, review request accepted (not due until May 20, so plenty of time on that), conference deadline e-mail chain started. I spend the rest of the time before noon getting sucked into an article someone sent me about the myths surrounding undergraduate grade inflation and then reading up on the peer mentoring materials for our call tomorrow. A couple other minor e-mails pop up (scheduling the precise date of a conference mixer in January, that kind of thing) and I manage to deal with them right away.

Lunch! Clearly working from home means I should take the opportunity to indulge in some fine cuisine, some leisurely cooking that highlights—

I heat up a microwave meal (chicken couscous) and watch YouTube videos for an hour.

Back in it! I write up some abstract submission ideas and make a valiant attempt at setting up a time to talk about them, but it looks like that might have to wait until next week. We’re still a ways before the deadline, so that’s okay.

Mmmmmmm someone on Twitter mentions a conference in Germany in September and a workshop in Colorado in July that both look like a good fit for my research. I’m in a situation where I have a big chunk of travel funding that’s going to disappear unless it gets spent in the next year. Oh no. But also oh yes.

Just in case, I put together a couple point-form ideas for stuff to propose that I can bring to the people holding the purse strings.

The rest of the afternoon is spent putting together weekly goals for four of my research projects: each one involves a collaboration with a different person, so I’d like to be able to send each of them an e-mail with at least one new thing to share about that project this week. Just in case that doesn’t happen, though, I rank them from most to least important. Worst-case scenario, I don’t have to send any of them this week, but it’ll make next week tougher if I don’t.

It’s only about 3:30 at this point, but honestly, I’m feeling a bit exhausted and overwhelmed (some of the e-mail chains have gone through five or six replies at this point and keeping it all straight is giving me a headache), so I opt to get some groceries and call it a day.

I may have added some stuff, but I got a lot crossed off today! Here’s how that last checklist looks at the end of the day:

Assorted Priorities:

Revise my paper and submit the revisions before the Monday deadline

Project #1: come up with a new exploratory figure and send to Person A.

Project #2: summarize the early results I started last week and send to Person B, along with an ask to see whether he’d be up for me presenting this stuff in Europe in November.

Project #3: improve on figures I showed last month and send to Person C.

Project #4: prepare a rough outline of the next paper to send to Person D.

Not having my work hard drive means I was able to just focus on the stuff that wasn’t specific to research today. In all the chaos of today, I’ve set myself up well for a research-heavy rest of the week where I (hopefully) won’t have to worry about non-research stuff or big changes to the schedule and can just burrow into research, emerging for occasional seminar/webinar breaks. A good Monday, all around.

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gfdatingsim · 6 years

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So…

@robinthegreenbird submitted:

I’ve played both routes ((haven’t perfected any yet lol)) and I just wanted to say, That this is easily one of my favorite games. Also I have a question what parts did you make? Once again I love this game so much!

rosie: thank you so much!! making the game was a lot of fun so i’m glad you’ve enjoyed it :) my parts of the game were ford’s last two dates – mabel’s dinner date of dreams and sunset confessions. writing those two was super fun!!

i knew i wanted a special mabel-ified date (as she is my favorite character) so i incorporated her into the dinner date i planned for the player and ford– with her extra bits of pizazz on top, of course. when i wrote the meteor shower part at the end, i was in a rough patch and wanted some love and that good good validation, so i let ford give it to me, lmao. as the second-last date of ford’s route, i wanted it to be special and sweet, with ford’s affection toward the player really evident and confirmed, in a way, so it wasn’t just longing glances and blushing for the entire route lmao. it was originally the mabel-match date, but sovo swapped the schedules around and i think it works even better!

the pool date was more of a challenge. the last date of the route, the team and i agreed it had to be more of a serious one– one for ford to feel comfortable opening up to the player about everything that’s happened to him, not just what he told them on the dinner date, yanno? all about weirdmageddon and that business. writing angst isn’t really my forte – so thank you phoe for helping me write that nonsense– but we needed it to be important and kinda heavy on ford’s end, with the end of the game almost relying on how the player reacted to his story. all the seriousness got to me though so the option to jump in the pool was my executive decision eyyy

i also wrote the two between-y bits with mabel and dipper – pancakes and interrogations and the fine summer’s wedding! i wrote those just before the game came out, but since i was still in the middle of my college semester, it took me a bit longer… which is why poor sovo had to do a large chunk of the editing themselves, which i do apologize for;; but even with all the mad stress and load on their shoulders, they did a phenomenal job with everything they had to take on, and this project wouldn’t be the same– well, it wouldn’t even exist– without them!

i hope this answered your question, if not a bit wordy. i am a writer after all. thank you for playing! <3

sovo: I worked on all the programming, a bunch of background art, the GUI, Stan’s driving sprites, playtesting, writing, editing, managing, you name it. As you can imagine, at times this project really stressed me out!

The worst of it was probably the editing/rearranging/rewriting, which was a way bigger task than I anticipated. When we were organizing in Discord at the beginning of the project, we had so many writers that we split the whole game’s story up into nine pieces, one for each writer, and each with the same deadlines. At that point it was just the Ford and Stan events themselves– no in-between events with the kids, no transitions, no introduction or end. Writers handed in first drafts, then second drafts, and then those drafts went straight into editing.

The idea was that Isa, Rosie, and I could do all the editing to bring about a more unified voice, since we essentially had nine voices in there, but in hindsight it was… not the best plan I could’ve gone with. Not asking the writers to polish their dates further meant that way more had to be done in the editing stage– plus we still had to write a remaining third of the game from scratch (transitions/intro/ending). When I think back to it I can still feel my dread from those times lol, because there was so much work to do and as the school year loomed, there were three– and then two– and then one– people available to do it. Isa (below) is right, the discord went dead for a long time after the writers handed in the last of their drafts about a month into the project.

Also, almost everyone in the group was into Dream Daddy, so many of our writers followed DD’s suit and wrote mini-games into their dates (mini-games that I still don’t know how to implement). So I had to cut all those out and patch it over with writing. Then in some drafts there was still placeholder text left, like “[insert wall of text here],” which I had to figure out or just patch over with new writing. Then sometimes there was still wonky dialogue, or odd behavior, and I’d try and nudge Ford or whoever into character again. Then the introduction and ending were still partially done or just plain missing, so I grafted Rosie’s intro draft onto another intro draft and led it into Ford’s cryptid hunt event, and drafted an ending for the sim, and then Isa really fleshed it out after.

And while this wasn’t strictly necessary, I ended up rearranging Ford’s route just a tad. Ford’s route originally went cryptid -> ddamd -> dinner date -> pool -> baking, so the dinner date was originally Mabel’s matchmaking scheme– which Rosie pulled off super well! In fact, she pulled it off so well that something felt off to me about Ford’s route progression, because while each date stood fine alone, it’s like things peaked a little too soon. After a lot of puzzling over what exactly felt off, I finally switched it up to go baking -> dinner date -> pool instead, rewriting the context of the baking date so that it would fit in.

Honestly, I don’t think the three of us really know the extent of the work we did during editing, even now? Like, to add to the above, Rosie also altered/added stuff & wrote much-needed transitions across the game including the two in-between events with the kids, which I think really tied the game together by giving it a bit of non-dating-centric story! And Isa did a bunch of editing/rewriting all across the game, especially on Stan’s route. While they worked I got to settle into my drawing/programming/playtesting role, which was a whole other batch of tedium, but everything turned out great!

isa: *cracks knuckles* alright sooooo. to start off I was really in the deep of it all really early on, starting from the brainstorming stage! Like Sovo said, the base we started from was the dates- the chat came up with possible date scenarios for both characters and we voted on which ones we’d want to see in the game! Coincidentally, all the final dates that made it in were mostly proposed by me! But all the others we tried to incorporate somehow even if they weren’t top 5; for instance, a drive in movie was proposed but didn’t make it so it turned into watching a movie at home after the main boxing part of the date. I also arranged the date order before we started writing based on premise, and what was most believable for the progression + time to get to know Stan and have things get more intimate and hopefully natural feeling! The concept and writing for Stan’s final date was all mine! Although I had originally had it stop after the kiss in the diner to leave it open-ended with “you wanna get out of here?” so the player could decide whether they…. took a ride on the Stan O’ War or not lmao, but then Sovo encouraged me to make it more steamy ending which I’m forever grateful for mwuahah. Everything else about the date was a piece of cake honestly, I found it easy to write since I knew where I wanted Stan + player to be in terms of their relationship/flirt level. The hardest part was…. finding a way to cut the makeout short that would be in character! Which is why I used poor, poor Robbie as my plot convenience. Sorry m'dude.

I edited and fluffed the intro form what Sovo had and edited…. the whole game actually I think. In terms of fixing typos, grammar, adding little lines here and there, etc. both in Stan and Ford’s routes. A huge role was also communicating from Sovo to the other writers on what still needed to be done, organization, due dates, etc. So I was kind of like a manager/coordinator too. I also wrote transitions from one date to the next, like the nap reader takes in order to fit Stan’s boxing date cg in the game and wrote them cuddling Waddles as well as the first half or so of the final version intro to Stan’s final date (Sovo then took up the rest!). I wrote a couple general intros too but they didn’t make it in since Rosie did such a good job lol.After talking with Sovo and deciding it’d be okay to change Ford’s date order to feel like a more natural progression, I made changes accordingly to the intros and things that were now out of order within his dates, mostly the baking date since that was the main one affected along with the swimming date. I had fun writing for Ford on that one, I really like the small things with him, like having the idea that he can crack two eggs in one hand super easy.

The biggest thing for me was making sure everything was cohesive and in-character while editing the rest of Stan’s route. Each date was wonderful but with so many writers there were quite a few inconsistencies from one date to another, which is understandable since everyone just started writing on their own and didn’t know what others wrote until after. (And also I made some executive decisions on what I thought was and wasn’t out of character or what I thought didn’t fit with what we’ve seen in the source material or what would happen after the finale.) There were a lot of things that had to be removed as a result, which led to big gaps I had to fill and choices/possibilities I had to streamline. For instance, I completely rearranged and had to rewrite a lot of the movie part and the end of the date. Sometimes in the dates there were a lot of choices but none of them really had much of an impact on your approval rating in the game, which became more important later on, so I had to make bad choices worse and good choices better! So like for the films, the date ends differently depending on which film you pick, but if you’re doing well enough already and you pick an option that isn’t the best, you get an okay ending and aren’t completely out of luck lol (picking a horror film is neither the worst nor the best but if you have a high score already it’s more of an inconvenience than anything). Also, consistency was key. I had a unique challenge with Stan’s accent and how to write it in, so I’d find myself reading over his dialogue many times and keeping what felt natural and not forced to it wouldn’t be understood in context with other words lol. And simple things like punctuation- all the writers wrote things differently, so like TV vs tv vs t.v. etc or Stan O'War vs Stan-O-War, etc. That part’s more tedious than anything. OH, and I grabbed the voice clips from Gravity Falls as well as the sound effects for that version. It felt weird without an actual car horn to interrupt; I also found alternative tracks for the disco date until phoe pulled through!

And then finally, I rewrote the general farewell at the end from the base that we there already, and embellished and added a bit more floof to Stan’s possible endings. For his bad ending I think if you got a low enough score that your dates got cut short, he’d be pretty cold because wow you just made him fix your car and you were kinda rude to him bye stranger. And if you got far enough that he set up the disco date for you but your score was low overall, he’d be kinda heartbroken but definitely wouldn’t let it show, he’s just be gruff and defensive. And if you did well, he’ll let his fondness show a bit more in his own way. You’re still only someone he just met, and he’s spent so long hiding that he’s still getting used to being himself so he won’t bear his entire heart just yet, but there’s definitely promise and he’s excited. I headcanon that he sends you weird trinkets in the mail and texts/video calls you pretty regularly until the Stan O'War II docks somewhere close and you two can visit and catch up.

This project was a lot of work….. it was pretty dead in some spaces, mostly after the writers finished their dates and it got passed on for the monstrous editing job lol. Some times I couldn’t stop editing, others I was slammed for weeks with classes and personal life, and Sovo was so kind and understanding! I really learned a lot about writing and am sad it’s over, but also. Not lol. I’m so amazed with how it turned out and I can’t believe the reception it’s gotten!!! ;u;

#isa answers #sovo answers #rosie answers #long post #submission #robinthegreenbird #game process

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frameflax4-blog · 5 years

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Writing Life

I really enjoy writing. You might not think that, given how infrequently I’ve been posting on this blog. That’s mostly because I’ve been producing a podcast, Leading Lines, that takes up most of my creative free time. But that’s also because I’ve been writing, just not for the blog. I finished the manuscript for my second book on May 1st, having spent a good chunk of the spring semester writing. And I really enjoy writing.

I wrote a proposal and draft chapter for the new book last summer, along with an detailed outline of the whole book. That’s my visual outline to the right, from last summer. I don’t have a title for the book yet, but I’m close to a subtitle: Using Technology to Support Student Learning. The goal of the book is to help college and university instructors make more informed, intentional choices about educational technology by mapping examples of creative and effective technology use to several key principles of learning. I wanted to take the stories and advice I share with faculty through workshops and consultations all the time and weave them together in a coherent package. I pitched the book to a publisher last fall. They were interested, so I signed a contract. (More details after their board gives final approval to the book!) I lined up a bunch of interviews with faculty across the country, to supplement the edtech examples I had already collected, and got to work.

During the fall, I tried blocking off a couple of hours every other day on my calendar to write, but that almost never worked. That time was always clobbered by my day job. Things changed when a colleague of mine mentioned her writing process to me at a campus event. She said that she goes on a two-day writing retreat each month. She clears her calendar, leaves campus, and writes solid for two days. That’s how she makes the time for her scholarly work. I thought that sounded smart, so I tried it this spring. It worked like a charm. I would actually spend the first half-day catching up on other work tasks, but by the afternoon I could reliably work on the book. And the second day was all writing. I could crank out four or five thousand words per retreat, when I really got going. I needed more than one a month, however, to meet my submission deadline. By April, I was spending more time writing than not. Luckily I wasn’t teaching this spring, and none of my other projects seemed to go off the rails, so I’ll call it a win.

Finding a good space to write took some experimentation. I got married January 1 (yes, it was a busy year!), and my wife and I were a two house family for a few months. I found I couldn’t write at my house, since there were too many distractions, but I could write at her house. Coffee shops were great, too, particularly the Fainting Goat and Frothy Monkey. I would often spend the morning at a coffee shop and the afternoon at Emily’s house, working productively on my chapters. Then we bought a house together, and that became my home base for writing. Her kitchen table, our house with its great kitchen windows, all my stuff in boxes. I was crazy productive. By the end of April, I was writing so many words. It felt a little like my dissertation days, the first time I discovered how productive I could be on deadline!

Tweeting helped, too. Some selections of my #writinglife tweets this spring:

Checking the correct capitalization of hokey pokey. #writinglife

Today’s word count brought to you by the Outlander soundtrack. @bearmccreary always makes for good writing music. #writinglife

Watching a 15-sec ad before a YouTube video I want to see >> Figuring out how to access a journal article while at my home office. #writinglife

I can’t write when I’m being watched. This apparently includes the dog. #writinglife

I really have no experience typing rhinoceros. #writinglife

My Outlander phase only lasted a week. Then I found “Run Wild,” an up-tempo, folk-focused running mix on Spotify. I’m pretty sure a third of my book was written while listening to that playlist!

What really motivated me, however, was finding new ways to talk about ideas and practices I’ve made a part of my professional work for years. I have a chapter on using technology to make visible “thin slices” of student learning, to use a term from Georgetown’s Randy Bass. I heard him talk about this idea years ago at a conference, where he described video projects his students produced. He realized that a lot of what they learned was left on the cutting room floor. That is, their decisions what footage not to include were just as relevant to their learning as what they decided to include. I realized while writing that I had my own experience with this idea. Well, second-hand experience. My oldest daughter made a short film last year, and I asked her how much footage she shot. She filmed 90 minutes of raw footage for every minute that made it into the final cut. That gave me a story for the introduction to this chapter on formative assessment, and it was very satisfying to pull these threads together in 800 words or so.

I really enjoy writing.

I’m hoping to do more of it here on the blog. (It would be hard to do less!) But first, revisions. My manuscript was submitted back in May, then went out to reviewers. I just received their feedback last week, and I know it will help make a better book. I’ll be revising bits and pieces over the next month, so I’ve blocked out some more writing retreats on my calendar. I’m not sure if I’ll write at my house this time. Emily and I have done a lot to make it a home, so it might be a little too distracting.

There’s always Frothy Monkey.

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captainjackfuckingbarakat-blog · 8 years

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So I’m working on an Ian/Mickey fic, but refuse to post it, until I’ve got a rough draft completed. Now, I’m not very far in it right now, but with college right now, motivation dwindles. So, I thought I’d post a snippet (ok, not exactly a snippet, it’s a few thousand words long...), and hopefully get some feedback on it.

Enjoy!

Felicia’s hand was flung in front of her, the diamond on her finger glinting with the sunlight beaming through the window and reflecting off it. Ian dug into the depths of his memory, for any recollection of a boyfriend, but he found none. He’d known the fiery auburn haired girl for three years – their first meeting definitely left them a story to tell. Despite the length of their friendship, Ian could only remember Felicia single, even last night she’d been eagerly grinding against some guy. “Oi, don’t be thinking too hard there.” She spoke with a thick British accent; she’d only moved to the states three years ago, shortly before meeting Ian, and she did nothing to cover her origins.

“You’re just telling me about this now!” Ian seized her left hand, eyes glazing over the rock that took up half of her finger. Felicia had been a mysterious woman from the beginning, and had no problem constantly throwing him for a loop – like the ex-boyfriend she’d left behind with their infant daughter when she was 18.

“He only proposed this morning. Sorry I decided to have celebratory sex with my fiancé to tell your sorry ass.” Felicia yanked back her hand, flashing one more adoring smile at her ring finger before shoving it into the pocket of her black romper. “Oh come on, I’ve told you about Mickey, dark and handsome. Haven’t I?” Felicia threw a gob smacked hand to her forehead and her face flushed. “Ey Ian, forgot to tell you, there’s this bloke I’ve been seein.”

“Well jeez Felicia, surprised you didn’t wait until I was walking you down the aisle.” Ian had always been one to tell her about his latest fling, however he’s pretty sure she stopped paying attention at guy number 5, and that had only been a month in. He used to believe every guy would be the one, but after a harsh break up with a guy he’d dated for a year, he jumped off that train.

“Who says you’re givin me away?” She put on a serious face, arms crossing across her chest in dismay, but they both knew that unless she was having the wedding in London, Ian was the only one that fit the job. Felicia’s mom had passed years ago, and her dad was barely hanging on since then, cancer eating away at his lungs. Her only brother stuck around to care for their father, while she’d run away at 16, and only went back for her mother’s funeral – he hated her. “I wanted to wait till it got serious. It got serious, then I forgot.”

“Probably a few too many lines of coke. I told you that shit isn’t good for you.” Ian tutted his best friend – she was a party girl, but Ian figured out how to maneuver around it. He always let her do her thing, and did a good job at standing up to peer pressure. He had a lot more restraint than his older brother Lip, who was 24 and already a raging alcoholic. Ian was past his party days, and had enough on his plate these days without the booze and drugs plaguing him.

“Good thing my fiancé don’t care how dumb I am. He loves me regardless.” Felicia flashed her ring again, if only so she could stare longingly at it, as if the man who’d given it to her would appear upon her wishes. “Tomorrow,” she pointed adamantly at Ian. “You’re taking me out for a celebratory drink.”

“It’ll have to be an early drink. I go in at five, won’t be off until well after midnight.” Ian’s work hours were shit, and the job mundane. He crossed his arms all night as he worked as an intimidation technique at the fairytale, a gay club in Boys town. That’s how he’d met Felicia, a rowdy patron who was way too drunk, and he hadn’t taken a single step up the latter in three years. At least he still have a steady flow of cock, his one remaining vice – he’d even given up cigarettes along the way, allowing his lungs a break from nicotine and weed.

“Pick me up at two for an afternoon cocktail.” Felicia shook his hand as if that were normal behavior – what, were they setting up some sort of business deal – the two friends had been more of huggers. “Tonight, it’s back to my fiancé, so you’ll have to party hard without me.” For Ian, that meant one beer in the privacy of his crappy apartment in the heart of Chicago, streaming Netflix through the night.

“So, you have got to tell me about this guy.” They had been at the bar for all but ten minutes, with Felicia trying to distract him with crazy coworker stories – she worked reception at a law firm. The girl was already sipping her way through her second glass of whiskey, while Ian had taken a few sips from his Coca-Cola. The bartender had given him a dirty look when he turned down even a beer with minimal alcohol content. He was ready to find it a maddening bar like in the movie Coyote Ugly that would spray him down with water for his choice. “Come on, what’s his name again?”

“Mickey,” Felicia said with a slap on his shoulder. “He’s the one.” She had always claimed not to believe in love, always cynical about the future, which likely explained why she’d kept this quiet. Boyfriends had only fucked her over in the past. “He’s fucking short, only an inch taller than me, but he never complains when I wear heals. He’s got these stupid tattoos on his knuckles, but somehow I find them endearing.” She went on, and Ian admired the look of love glowing from his best friend. He used to dream about something like that for himself, before he learned that no one would really care about a lunatic. He thought he’s had it with Jacob, but a year into their relationships, and Ian’s meds went haywire, and he was committed for a week. He returned to an empty apartment.

“I think I’ll ask his sister Mandy to be my Maid of Honor. She’s a kickin girl. Maybe you can be a bridesmaid! We’ll deck you out in a pink frilly dress.” Ian rolled his eyes, because no matter how gay he was, he wouldn’t be caught dead in a dress. “We’ll make you look so good, Mickey might even take his eyes off me and find you so attractive he leaves me at the altar.”

Ian waved his hands in refusal. “I don’t want your straight fiancés affection.” There were enough guys that wanted to fuck him not dressed as a girl. He didn’t need to dress in drag to attract men’s attention – oddly enough, gay guys still seemed to dig that.

“Whatever. You don’t know what you’re missing. He’s got a great cock. He’d tear your ass apart.”

“Oh come on, I don’t need to hear about your sex life. Now I’ll be staring at his dick when I meet him.” They both knew that Ian was a top, not gold star, he’d fucked around more than he wanted to admit sometimes, but straight cock in his ass was repulsive. For all the guys Felicia never told him about, Ian told her in gory detail about the guys he’d fucked – she was the only person he ran to when he bottomed for the first time without getting paid for it. She always drowned him out with alcohol.

“Who ways you’re meetin him? You ain’t even invited to the wedding Ian Gallagher.” Felicia waved to the bartender for a refill on both of their drinks, even though he wasn’t quite halfway through his soda. “Fine!” She cried as if Ian had been begging her for the last second of silence. “You can meet him. But no acting all high and mighty just cause you can attract classier guys than me.” This fiancé of hers was Southside, one of the few things he managed to catch while absently watching her lips move. Ian had been born and raised in the Southside of Chicago, but ran and didn’t look back much after he joined the military at 18 – even if that hadn’t worked out for him.

“Oh come on. That’s a low blow. Just because I hate my family doesn’t mean everyone from the neighborhood is like them.” Ian was 23, not some baby that didn’t understand how the world worked. He had his qualms with his family, but kept it between them. Felicia knew as little as he could get away with telling her about the other five Gallagher kids, and the only thing she knew about the deadbeat parents, was that Monica was dead. “I’m sure he’s a great guy.” He better have been good to Felicia, because she never deserved an asshole for a husband.

“I’ll set something up when he ain’t working. He works construction; it’s fucking shitty, but as least he makes money.” Ian understood; before he’d gotten the job as a bouncer, he’d sifted through some pathetic jobs that paid the bills, and allowed him to live as far away from his siblings as he could. He hadn’t wanted to chance running into them after he’d left for good when he was 19, upon his diagnosis of bipolar disorder. They looked at him the way they looked at their mom – he was fucking insane.

“Mickey will hate you. He thinks straight edge guys like you are pussies. Guess he’s not exactly wrong, with you at least.” Felicia knew better than that. Ian had a lot of demons that followed him, but mostly his mental illness; it made him weak in too many ways. It stopped him from partying along with his best friend, and left him home most nights. “We’ll have to get you to help with the wedding, god knows I don’t know shit.”

“And I do?”

“Duh, you’re gay.” Ian had never been a stereotypical gay man, but that didn’t make him any less of a fag. He’d never fucking paint his nails, or where make up. Ian would rather spend a day bulking up at the gym; all this after hiding his sexuality for a good chunk of his life. In the Southside, with all the uneducated bigots, racists, and homophobes, it was a death sentence for a gay man to even walk down the street.

“Hey, shut your face. You’re on your own with the wedding. I’m just showing up to make sure you don’t trip on your dress. Wouldn’t want to make a fool of yourself on your wedding day, in front of your husband to be.” Ian finally managed to finish off his coke and put down money for both of their drinks. “Good talk. Can’t wait to meet the guy that puts that smile on your face.” He hugged her tightly as a formal goodbye, and headed out into the burning Chicago cold, and his beat up red Ford that barely ran anymore.

Felicia and Ian hid together in a dimly lit corner booth, both drinking a beer, albeit Ian was a lot more cautious with his beverage. The brit had insisted they go to a steakhouse, and fill up on a twenty-five ounce steak, and one of each of the deserts for the three of them to split. The best friends saved eating out for special occasions, so that when they did, their bill was well over one hundred dollars, accompanied with a twenty dollar tip. It was just like when he was a kid, and Fiona would run into a bit of extra cash – usually they stuck with buffets. The restaurant was far from fancy, but it was their go-to place, and a couple waitresses recognized them – they only went about four times a year, but they’d been doing so for three years now, and the staff seemed pretty consistent. The booth they sat in was busting apart at the seams, and Ian pressed himself to the wall to avoid sitting on the slash across the middle of his side.

“So, is Mickey just imaginary?” Ian pointed to the empty spot beside Felicia, and the third, unmoved menu. They’d waited an hour, and his best friend insisted they wait to order, because he promised he’d come, and Felicia still had faith in him. So Ian filled up on the bread the waitress kept bringing buy, and finally ordered himself something other than water. He’d done his best at attempting to not point out Mickey’s obvious tardiness, how bad of an impression Ian was getting of the guy.

“He’s jus’ runnin’ late. He’ll come!” She was adamant about it, and Ian had no choice but to shut up and sit back with his nearly wasted friend. Felicia was moping, but refused to lose hope on her fiancé, and ordered herself another drink every time the waitress came back. There was a full glass of beer at the seat beside her that she’d ordered along with her first drink, but she left it, because he was fucking coming. Felicia pulled out her phone as her mope broke out into a fattening grin. “He’s jus’ parked. I told ya ‘e was comin’.” He was glad to be wrong.

Ian hadn’t even seen a picture of the guy, so he hadn’t realized it was Mickey headed their way, until he slid in beside Felicia. His arm fell over her shoulder, and Ian recognized the knuckle tattoos, the only physical attribute she’d given him – this hand read fuck. Their lips slotted together in a brief greeting, and Felicia followed it with a hard punch to the shoulder. “That’s for bein’ late dickhead.”

“Fucking bitch.” There was a small amount of scruff on Mickey’s chin, and his mop of hair was black, with a hint of something lighter there, and those eyes were a stunning shade of blue – Felicia’s dreamy talk hadn’t done them justice. “I’m sorry,” he spoke softly and ran his thumb over her cheek. He spared a glance across the table to Ian, directing his apology to the both of them. Mickey kept his right arm securely around Felicia’s shoulders, but reached his left out for Ian to shake. U-Up was scrawled across the four fingers in the same unsteady spray of unprofessional ink. “You must be Ian. This one talks about you a lot.”

The handshake was strong, but not threatening, like he’d gotten from other guys when he’d befriended their girlfriends – if Ian was straight, he wouldn’t have a hard time stealing someone’s girl, the amount of times he’d gotten punched assure that. “You’re Mickey,” the redhead pointed out. “Can’t say I knew much about you before, but she’s talked non-stop these last few weeks.”

“I wasn’t sure she’d ever let me meet you. So, what is it? You don’t seem like someone she should be hiding.” Mickey didn’t say a word when he picked up the lukewarm beer, and finished it in a few long gulps, slamming it harshly back to the table and motioning his finger at someone walking by for another. Pothole duty must have really done a number on him. “I thought my family was crazy, but this girl’s just as batshit insane.”

They put their orders in five minutes later, and another round of bread was brought around to their table. Ian laid off this time, but Mickey was quick to slather butter on a slice and shoved it down. “This bitch packed me an apple for lunch, can you believe that. How is that supposed to stop my stomach rumbling while I pour concrete into holes? I’d get it if she was a health nut, but an apple is like two fucking calories and no protein.”

“If you wanted a cook, you shouldn’t be marrying her.” Felicia had tried to make Ian a can of soup one time when he was low – she hadn’t realized that it was a lot different than the flu at the time. She got him moving pretty quickly when his microwave exploded, and she’d tried to heat it up, can and all. “She’s also a slob. Glad it’s you she’d marrying and not me.”

“Doesn’t sound like you swing that way anyways.” Felicia had always mouthed off about how much a fag Ian was, which usually led to her attempting to set Ian up on dates. He wondered if Mickey had almost been the culprit of the setup, before she realized he was straight and falling head over heels for her. “Must’ve been hard. Southside ain’t the breeding ground for pride parades.” Ian wondered what had been done right for someone that was so obviously dragged deeply into the drugs and violence of that neighborhood, to turn into a guy that could casually sit across from Ian. He still didn’t feel safe walking in his own neighborhood without a knife in his pocket – everyone knew that the redheaded Gallagher was batshit crazy and gay, because the drunks liked to talk.

“Did you get out?” Ian wasn’t doing much better than his siblings, but he could at least say he managed to move a few blocks away, and officially out of the Southside, even if his roots were still bred in his bones. He avoided that old rickety house on North Wallace, and the memories that dragged with it. The last time he’d gone home was when their mom died, otherwise he made everyone come to him.

“Kind of. Spend a lot of time back there. My sister’s still there, with our older brother, but I don’t really live there.” Ian recognized the pain their upbringing instilled on everyone, and they could easily swap war stories. They could decide whose parents were worse – he knew Frank and Monica were tame compared to others, even with both of them fucking off all the time, the drugs, and the bruises Frank occasionally gave Ian. “Of course, this girl had her life set with a rich daddy in London.”

“My father’s money doesn’t say shit about me,” Felicia quipped – she’d never gotten a penny. Each person at the booth was equally broke, despite her background. Felicia had ran off at sixteen, and had only seen her father a handful of times since. “In fact, thing we might have to dine and dash.” They’d done it once, but Ian had felt so guilty, that he’d gone back and left a hundred dollar bill on the hosts’ podium, because he’d had the money to pay. It was a lot different from when he was ten, and Frank and Monica took the five kids they had at the time to some fancy restaurant. Their mom had just come back, after she’d left five years ago, and the group of them obviously didn’t belong – should’ve been kicked out right away for their appearance, because they were definitely too poor to afford it. Frank had ushered him, Lip, and their five year old brother Carl through a window in the men’s restroom.

“Need I remind you, the cops hate me enough,” Mickey announced, easily dismissing Felicia’s possibly serious idea. “Southside, man. The Milkovich name is akin for trouble.” The last named sparked familiarity in Ian, not that he remember any of them, except maybe the father.

“Any relation to, uh…Jerry?”

“Terry,” Mickey nodded. “Afraid to say I’m his blood. I’m his son.” Ian didn’t remember much about the guy, but Ian had seen him hanging around the Alibi, and Frank slurred about plenty of their fights, Monica might have fucked him too. Kev told horror stories about the different shenanigans the Milkovich patrons had gotten into, none of them the innocent childish type.

“Seem like a handful,” Ian nodded in sympathy, but didn’t spill into the dramatics about their asshole fathers. Frank was a pathetic drunk that left his oldest daughter to raise five kids, and Ian would never forgive him. Even if Ian had found out that his biological father was one of Frank’s brothers, rich and everything, the real dream for anyone that grew up like them. Ian had learned of this when he was fifteen, and much to Lip’s dismay, he refused to confront his father, because he already had his family. Ian Gallagher was never one to take the easy way out. “So, you were unlucky enough to fall for Felicia,” Ian commented with a breathy chuckle. “Are you sure you know what you’re getting yourself into?”

“Couldn’t ask for a better girl to spend my life with.” Mickey’s right arm had still been comfortably around Felicia’s shoulders, and he squeezed her close as he gushed about her. “I’ve lived with a girl like this one all my life. Guess it was just a test run, so I was ready for the real thing.” Mickey seemed genuinely happy, and it shown in the way his smile sparkled in those ocean blue eyes, and his face split as he let out gentle laughs. Everything told Ian that that was the kind of relationship he’d been dreaming of since he’d understood what it meant to be in love. He was glad Felicia was getting her fairytale ending.

The arrival of the food halted conversation, as the couple seemed starved. Ian had made the mistake of filling up on the complimentary bread, and instead pushed his food around while participating in the conversation between bites. He laughed along with the jokes, and hung off Mickey’s childhood stories, sharing some stupid comments of his own. Nothing was really serious at the table. Ian knew as soon as Mickey stepped in, the dynamic between them would be changed, and they’d now be a trio. It wasn’t something he was ready to give up.

Ok, if you made it through that, please shoot me a message, or reply to this post. I’m just looking for either reassurance that it’s good, or ways to improve.

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douchebagbrainwaves · 5 years

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HERE'S WHAT I JUST REALIZED ABOUT STUFF

Could we have it both ways? I know of schlep blindness is Stripe, or rather Stripe's idea. But lowballing you is a dick move that should be generally applicable. So they're going to raise $200,000.1 0: their core business sounds crushingly hip when described in Web 2. Maybe that's one reason the most successful startups of all so often have young founders.2 Don't sit on their boards.3 In a sense, the lower-tier firms' biggest fear, when chance throws them a bone, is that one of the reasons the early corporate raiders were so successful. In the real world, you can't seem good without actually being good is an expensive way to seem good without actually being good is an expensive way to seem good without actually being good. Checks instituted by governments can cause much worse problems than merely overpaying.

0 referred to whatever those might turn out to be more complicated, legally, if any of the investors aren't accredited. In a sense, the lower-tier VC firms welching on deals. So you'd only want to talk to his girlfriend in Taiwan, and to save long-distance bills he wrote some software that would convert sound to data packets that could be sent over the Internet. But you can't trust your opinions in the same position; he doesn't have majority control of Microsoft; in principle he also has to convince instead of commanding. That's one reason we urge startups during YC to keep expenses low and to try to solve problems and simply not discount weird hunches you have in the process of developing the pitch for the first conference, someone must have decided they'd better take a stab at explaining what that 2. As for how to write well, here's the short version: Write a bad version 1 as fast as you can; rewrite it over and over; cut DEL: out: DEL everything unnecessary; write in a conversational tone; develop a nose for bad writing, so you can get from modern technology.4 They're terrified of really novel ideas, unless the founders are unknown and the idea is very novel, you might have to launch the thing and show that users loved it before VCs would be convinced. Except he didn't. But here too we see the same principle: the way to the press, but other founders hear about it, and 50% of those you start with to be wrong; be confident enough to cut; have friends you trust read your stuff and tell you which bits are confusing or drag; don't always make detailed outlines; mull ideas over for a few days in advance and you can't predict when you'll need to resort to lowering your price, this means in practice is that they are compulsive negotiators who will suck up a lot of people working to keep this from happening again. But the real costs are the ones most likely to get buyer's remorse. Writing doesn't just communicate ideas; it generates them.5

Or we can improve it, which usually means encrusting it with gratuitous ornament.6 If someone who had to process payments before Stripe had tried asking that, Stripe would have been perfectly safe to let them. That had already happened to Slashdot and Digg by the time I paid attention to comment threads there, but I haven't seen it. They leave 20% as an options pool for later employees but they set things up so that they can issue this stock to themselves if they get bought early and most is still unissued, and the right to get one's investment back first if the company gets sold at a low angle of attack, you just yell into the next gear. Much was changed, but there just aren't enough of them, and investing is for most of the tricks that have given VCs such a bad reputation among hackers. I think he really wishes he'd listened. Programmers like to make, and also to judge your ambition, reasonableness, and how fast you're moving forward. I'd like to propose an alternative idea: that in a modern society, increasing variation in income. As you start to believe it will. The startup will almost certainly hire more people at this point; those millions must be put to work, after all. I didn't ask my parents for seed money, though. If companies started doing that, they'd find some surprises.

When a startup reaches the point where VCs have enough information to invest in you, or an acquirer says they want to mislead you. I'm going to name them: type A fundraising is when you don't need to.7 Top actors make a lot more than you expect for the deal to close, so you can see and fix it in yours; imitate writers you like; if you say anything mistaken, fix it immediately; ask friends which sentence you'll regret most; go back and tone down harsh remarks; publish stuff online, because an audience makes you write more, and thus generate more ideas; print out drafts instead of just looking at them. For example, if a reputable investor is willing to invest. To say that a and b would be bad, but I haven't seen it. In the original sense of the word, Bill Gates is middle class. YC to keep expenses low and to try to solve problems and simply not discount weird hunches you have in the West. Those remedial actions can delay, stall or even kill the IPO.8 But there is also huge source of implicit tags that they ignore: the text within web links. Our experience was unusual; vesting is the norm for amounts that size. When I get asked in interviews to predict the future, will be those most willing to ignore what are now considered national characters, and do the same. I soon learned from experience that schleps are not merely inevitable, but pretty much what business consists of.9

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This doesn't mean a great idea as an example of applied empathy.

Macros very close to 18% of GDP, despite dramatic changes in tax rates don't tell 5 year olds the truth. The reason Y Combinator only got 38 cents on the one hand and the cost of having someone from personnel call you about an A round about the size of the twentieth century, art as brand split apart from art as stuff. In ancient times it covered a broad hard-beaten road to his house, though.

What I dislike is editing done after the Physics in the world in verse. Any expected value calculation varies from person to run an online service. But that being so, you need but a blockhead ever wrote except for money. The downside is that we're not.

Cell phone handset makers are satisfied to sell services than a nerdy founder trying to steal a few people who might be an anti-dilution provisions, even if they don't have the same work, done mostly by people like them—people who will go away is investors requiring them. Digg's algorithm is very common for the founders of failing startups would even be tempted, but countless other startups must have been; a decade of inflation that left many public companies trading below the value of their name, but since it was the least important of the false positives caused by blacklists, for example, it's not the bawdy plays acted over on the y, you'd see a lot. MITE Corp. Well, of course finding words this way, because few founders do it well enough but the churn is high as well.

'Math for engineers' classes sucked mightily. At one point they worried Lotus was losing its startup edge and turning into a big chunk of this type is the last batch before a consortium of investors. I know when this happened because it depends on the Internet. Instead of making a good idea to make a formal language for proofs in which YC can help founders is exaggerated now because it's a hip flask.

Someone who's not a big success or a 2004 Mercedes S600 sedan 122,000. Whereas the activation energy to start businesses to use a restaurant is constrained in a wide variety of situations, but historical abuses are easier for us, because for times over a certain size it gets you there sooner. Their inexperience makes them overbuild: they'll create huge, overcomplicated agreements, and they would probably be to ask for more than the 50 minutes they may try allowing up to 20x, since they're an existing investor, and partly simple ignorance.

Handy that, except in the early days, and the low countries, where it was outlawed in the fall of 2008 the terms they were going back to 1970 it would be taught that masturbation was perfectly normal and not end up reproducing some of the most surprising things I've learned about VC while working on Viaweb. Apparently someone believed you have to say no to drugs.

My guess is a lot like intellectual bullshit. The disadvantage of expanding a round on the relative weights? I explain later.

So far the only way to make people use common sense when interpreting it. Not only do convertible debt at a middle ground. This was certainly true in the message.

Thanks to Trevor Blackwell, Jason Freedman, Jessica Livingston, Aaron Swartz, Marc Andreessen, and Sam Altman for smelling so good.

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2017 NFL trade deadline: Grading 1 move every team could make

SB Nation’s NFL sites weighed in on the trades they would most like to see their favorite teams make.

Every NFL team knows its weaknesses by this point of the season. Maybe it’s because of an offseason move that didn’t pan out, or perhaps a starter has been lost to injury. With the NFL trade deadline set for Tuesday, some teams might be looking to make a deal to fill those holes.

The Eagles look like a contender, and to stay that way, they need a solid left tackle now that Jason Peters is out for the season. They still have a few days to call another team — the Buffalo Bills, perhaps — and bring in someone who can fill in on that side of the line for the rest of the season.

Teams that are in rebuilding mode — hey there, Ravens — can scour their rosters and see which players they can afford to part with as they stockpile capital to build for the future. Maybe Baltimore could find a trade partner that wants cornerback Brandon Carr in exchange for a draft pick or two.

Here at SB Nation, we pose a question each week to the people who know these teams best: the fans who run our team sites. This week, we asked them for one trade their favorite team should make before the deadline. Then we graded every single potential trade.

Arizona Cardinals: Send Drew Stanton to the Browns for DeShone Kizer