#kenji the shiba

[jaegerpilotmax]

Inktober 2022 day 26, ego

No dog has the ego of a shiba

[a-smol-gayologist]

Kenji displeased by the consequences of his actions vs. Kenji after I posted bail

[one-time-i-dreamt]

I was in the apocalypse and a talking Shiba Inu named Kenji bought me ice cream.

[tokudocu]

Firsts in Sentai

First Team - Himitsu Sentai GoRenger

First Red - Kaijo Tsuyoshi, Akarenger: Himitsu Sentai GoRenger

First Blue - Shinmei Akira, Aorenger: Himitsu Sentai GoRenger

First Yellow - Oiwa Daita, Kirenger: Himitsu Sentai GoRenger

First Green - Asuka Kenji, Midorenger: Himitsu Sentai GoRenger

First Pink - Matsuyama Peggy, Momorenger: Himitsu Sentai GoRenger

First Black - Kuroda Kanpei, Goggle Black: Dai Sentai Goggle V

First White - Banba Sokichi, Big One: J.AK.Q. Dengikitai

First Brown// - Tatsui Naohisa (Seto), Ryusoul Brown: Kishiryu Sentai Ryusoulger

First Gold* - Mary Gold, Deka Gold: Tokusou Sentai Dekaranger

First Gold - Hikaru, MagiShine: Mahou Sentai Magiranger

First Gray - Tessai, KyoryuGray: Zyuden Sentai Kyoryuger

First Orange - Shiraishi Kensaku, Battle Cossack: Battle Fever J

First Silver - Hayakawa Yuusaku, Mega Silver: Denji Sentai Megaranger

First Violet - Fukami Gou, GekiViolet: Juken Sentai Gekiranger

First Unknown Color - Akebono Shirou, Battle Kenya: Battle Fever J

First Sixth Ranger - Yamato Tribe Knight Burai, Dragon Ranger: Kyoryu Sentai Zyuranger

First Extra Ranger - Doggie Kruger, DekaMaster: Tokusou Sentai Dekaranger

First Female Red - Shiba Kaoru, Princess Shinken Ren: Samurai Sentai Shinkenger

Fist Female Blue - Misaki Megumi, Blue Dolphin: Chojuu Sentai Liveman

First Female Yellow - Koizumi Mika, Yellow4: Choudenshi Bioman

First Female Green*// - Kokonoe Luna (Kyuemon Shingetsu Kibaoni), MidoNinger: Shuriken Sentai Ninninger

First Female Green - Hammie, Chameleon Green: Uchu Sentai Kyuranger

First Male Pink - Kijino Tsuyoshi, Kiji Brother: Avataro Sentai DonBrothers

First Female White - Nagisa Sayaka, ChangeMermaid: Dengeki Sentai Changeman

First Female Gold* - Mary Gold, Deka Gold: Tokusou Sentai Dekaranger

First Male Gold - Hikaru, MagiShine: Mahou Sentai Magiranger

First Female Silver* - Lisa Teegel, DekaBright: Tokusou Sentai Dekaranger

First Female Silver - Sutou Miu, Go-On Silver: Engine Sentai Go-Onger

First Female Violet - Yayoi Ulshade, Kyoryu Violet: Zyuden Sentai Kyoryuger

First Female Sixth Ranger - Sutou Miu, Go-On Silver: Engine Sentai Go-Onger

First Female Extra Ranger - Shiratori Swan, DekaSwan: Tokusou Sentai Dekaranger

Legend:

* - Only one appearance from the ranger and its debatable whether to consider them the "first" of anything in Super Sentai History

// - Denotes being possessed by the name of the character inside the parenthesis.

[trashexplorer]

BLCD 2022: October Releases

Legends:

✓ - have      

💡 - interested

✘ - not interested (but will probably still listen to)    

🙏 - dying for

1. Midara na Neko wa Toiki ni Torokeru ✘

Release Date: 2022/10/12

Cast: Nakajima Yoshiki x Saitou Souma *can we have more Ikigami to Donor instead???

Synopsis: Third damn sequel of this damned series. *sigh*

2. Oni to Tengoku 💡 

Release Date: 2022/10/14

Cast: Okitsu Kazuyuki x Komada Wataru

Synopsis: Aoki, a high school teacher, has motivation for little else than expending as little effort as possible. After being scolded by a senior teacher, he goes to the infirmary to check on a student that has been skipping class. There he shares his first real conversation with the eerily perceptive school nurse, Tengoku Manabu.

3. Goshisou Omega wa Chuu to Naku ✘

Release Date: 2022/10/19

Cast: Okitsu Kazuyuki x Nojima Kenji *stop with the abos Okitsu omg

Synopsis: Sachio Kurumizawa is an omega mouse manga artist, and Ukano, the alpha fox, is his editor... but Sachio can't help but feel uncomfortable around Ukano. He always seems to look at Sachio with predatory eyes. One night, Sachio goes into heat at an omega-only bar, and Ukano saves him. Unfortunately, Sachio has no idea how long he'll stay in heat... and then Ukano offers to help him stop it. Will Sachio say yes to getting between the sheets with Ukano despite his terror of being devoured...!?

4. Amakute Atsukute Iki mo Dekinai Bangaihen Mini Drama CD Daria December 2022 ✘

Release Date: 2022/10/21

Cast: Azakami Youhei x Terashima Junta

Synopsis: Special Mini Drama CD released with the magazine.

5. Amakute Atsukute Iki mo Dekinai ✘

Release Date: 2022/10/22

Cast: Azakami Youhei x Terashima Junta

Synopsis: 

“The pain in my body doesn't stop! This is the first time a fragrance ...”

Ayato, a professional student with a constitution that is sensitive to odors, sniffs a fascinating scent on the train, and for some reason, his body reacts to the scent! What's more, the main scent is Ayato, a good-looking classmate with scary eyes, what will happen next?

6. Ai no Yoake wo Mate! 💡

Release Date: 2022/10/26

Cast: Shingaki Tarusuke x Toki Shunichi

Synopsis: 

“What hurts me the most is the fact that I can’t make you happy.”

Kibe Takaya and Shiba Hisafumi spent their childhood and college years together. Kibe has been a playboy since time immemorial, but this doesn’t get in the way of their friendship. However, when Shiba marries years later, Kibe chooses to keep his distance in order to nurse his now failed one-sided feelings for him. Before he knew it, five years had passed since they last saw each other. One day, Shiba appears at his doorstep with news of his divorce and a plea to move in with him. Kibe wants to reject him, but his feelings for Shiba get in the way... 

7. Kiss Me Crying ✘

Release Date: 2022/10/26

Cast: Satou Takuya x Yashiro Taku

Synopsis: Noa has been a part of the glittering entertainment industry for years, but he hasn't had his break since. Just when he thinks he's finally going to be let go, he gets struck with the surprise of a lifetime: Korea's record breaking idol J is redebuting in Japan - alongside Noa! But how much more does Noa have to improve to stand on the same stage as him? J has a solution...

8. Zettai BL ni Naru Sekai VS Zettai BL ni Naritakunai Otoko 3 ✘

Release Date: 2022/10/26

Cast: 

Nakajima Yoshiki

Tsuchida Reiou

Eguchi Takuya

Shimoo Hiro

Hatano Wataru

Amasaki Kouhei

Okamoto Nobuhiko

Masuda Toshiki

Synopsis: Third installment of the BLCD adaptation of the series of the same name.

9. Amaetai Kemono 💡

Release Date: 2022/10/28

Cast: Masuda Toshiki x Azakami Youhei

Synopsis: Arata's a college student working as a "big brother for rent." One day, he meets his new client, Junta, who looks like a total tough guy!! Arata wonders if this is some sort of trap to get his money, but what Junta wants is for someone to pat him on the head. Seeing someone this hot go bright red and be so vulnerable is turning Arata on... Junta's just so adorable... what's going on here!!?

10. Boku no Omawari-san 3 ✘ 

Release Date: 2022/10/28

Cast: Furukawa Makoto x Shingaki Tarusuke

Synopsis: Third installment of the BLCD adaptation of the series of the same name.

11. Bokura no Koi to Seishun no Subete case:06 Shuugakuryokou no Bokura ✘

Release Date: 2022/10/28

Cast: Itou Kentou x Kijima Ryuuichi

Synopsis: Sixth installment of the the series.

12. Kabukichou Bad Trip 2 ✘  

Release Date: 2022/10/28

Cast: Saitou Souma x Shirai Yuusuke

Synopsis: Adaptation of the second volume of the series.

[astrau]

My dear Kenji, the best shiba inu pooch is learning how to pick mushrooms

[vamplu]

*This post is going to come before I post the actual announcement, so just ignore this for the time being! It’s for a silly little fall event I’m doing.

NOTES:

-For characters listed under 18, I will NOT write smut/NSFW, anything of that kind. Understandable, ey?

-For characters listed under 17, I will NOT write romance. (There won’t be that many characters under this bracket, but examples would be Kenji from BSD and Ortho from TWST.)

*Exception for 17+ rule can occur, depending on character/context/prompt, but under no circumstance will bend past 15+.

-Scroll to the Bottom for some prompt ideas!

BUNGO STRAY DOGS

-Fyodor Dostoyevsky

-Nikolai Gogol

-Sigma

-Osamu Dazai

-Chuuya Nakahara

-Ryunosuke Akutagawa

-Suehiro Tecchou

-Saigiku Jouno

-Doppo Kunikida

-Michizou Tachihara

-Kenji Miyazawa

-Kyoka Isumi

-Yukichi Fukuzawa

OBEY ME!

-Lucifer

-Mammon

-Leviathan

-Satan

-Asmodeus

-Beelzebub

-Belphegor

-Diavolo

-Barbatos

-Simeon

-Luke

-Solomon

-Thirteen

JUJUTSU KAISEN

-Satoru Gojo

-Suguro Geto

-Toji Fushiguro

-Sukuna

-Yuuji Itadori

-Megumi Fushiguro

-Nobara Kugisaki

-Maki Zen’in

-Toge Inumaki

GENSHIN IMPACT

-Alhaitham

-Kaveh

-Zhongli

-Ayaka

-Yae Miko

-Scaramouche

-Kazuha

-Fischl

-Kokomi

-Itto

-Childe

-Raiden

-Shenhe

-Lyney

-Cyno

-Hu Tao

-Xiao

-Kaeya

-Diluc

-Yelan

-Neuvilette

HONKAI STAR RAIL

-Blade

-Jing Yuan

-Fu Xuan

-Bronya

-Seele

-Kafka

-Silver Wolf

TWISTED WONDERLAND

(To spare myself some time, I’ll be listing the dorms!)

-Pomefiore

-Diasomnia

-Heartslaybul

-Octavinelle

-Savannaclaw

-Ignihyde

-Crowley

TOKYO REVENGERS

-Manjiro Sano (Mikey)

-Ken Ryuguji (Draken)

-Keisuke Baji

-Chifuyu Matsuno

-Kazutora Hanemiya

-Shuji Hanma

-Takashi Mitsuya

-Rindo Hitani

-Ran Hitani

-Hakkai Shiba

-Yuzuha Shiba

BLACK BUTLER

-Sebastain Michealis

-The Undertaker

-Ash Landers

-Ronald Knox

-Grelle Sutcliff

-William T. Spears

SERVAMP

-Kuro/Sleepy Ash

-Lawless

-The Mother/Freya

-Ildio/World End

-Sakuya Watanuki

-Tsubaki

*You can also request OTHER characters not listed, and I’ll do my best to educate myself about them/write them!

PROMPTS

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Since this is an Autumn-themed event, here’s a list of the “Top 100 Things to Do in the Autumn”! (link underlined)

-When you submit a request, please describe the prompt you have in mind in your submission!

-I accept NSFW requests as well!

(Note: if there isn’t an age indication of 18+ in your blog, I most likely will not accept your NSFW request!)

-It could be from the list, something original, or a different prompt from another place!

[uppastthejelliclemoon]

I wished that they cast a black or Asian actors to play munkustrap and rum Tum Tugger. Could that ever happen?

for anyone seeing this: this list is very long, so i'm apologizing in advance if i've missed any actors!! i've gone through the entire cats wiki for both characters and did my best to compile a thorough list, but ofc let me know if there's any mistakes!

Tugger:

Richard Lloyd King (1980s London)

Tee Jay (1980s London)

Yuichiro Yamaguchi (1980s Tokyo Tugger)

Mayo Kawasaki (1980s Tokyo)

Gregory McKinnon (1980s Vienna Tugger - Cover)

Takanori Shimomura (1995 Tokyo)

Eric Clausell (1993 Australia)

Masaru Yamaki (1999 Nagoya, Osaka 2001)

Tsutomu Arakawa (1995 Tokyo, 1999 Nagoya, Osaka 2001, Tokyo 2004, Yokohama 2009)

Kiyomichi Shiba (1995 Tokyo, 1999 Nagoya Osaka 2001, Tokyo 2004, Yokohama 2009, Fukuoka 2014)

Shoichi Fukui (Tokyo 2004, Yokohama 2009)

Shinya Tanabe (Tokyo 2004, Yokohama 2009, Sapporo 2015, Osaka 2016)

Kim Sungrak (Osaka 2001, Tokyo 2004)

Yoichiro Akutsu (Tokyo 2004, Yokohama 2009, Sendai 2013, Shizuoka 2013, Fukuoka 2013)

Toshihide Kaneda (Tokyo 2004)

Kan Muto (Tokyo 2004)

Masaru Kanamori (Yokohama 2009)

Li Tao (Yokohama 2009, Hiroshima 2012, Sapporo 2015)

Tatsuro Iida (Yokohama 2009, Hiroshima 2012, Sendai 2013, Sapporo 2015)

Gino Emnes (Dutch Tour 2006)

Stanley Burleson (Dutch Tour 2006)

Daesung (South Korea 2008/2011)

Kim Jin-woo (South Korea 2008/2011)

Ra Jun (South Korea 2008/2011)

E Nok (South Korea 2008/2011)

Jung Min (South Korea 2008/2011)

Earl Gregory (South Africa 2009, Asia Tour 2014)

Antoine Murray-Straughan (London 2014)

Marcquelle Ward (London 2015, UK Tour 2016)

Jordan Shaw (London 2014)

Ahmad Simmons (Broadway 2016)

Retsu Kanehisa (Shizuoka 2013, Fukuoka 2014)

Takumi Omine (Sapporo 2015, Osaka 2016, Tokyo 2018)

Kenji Nishio (Osaka 2016)

Kazuya Kamikawa (Osaka 2016, Tokyo 2018, Fukuoka 2021)

Mizuki Omori (Tokyo 2018, Fukuoka 2021, Nagoya 2022)

Jin Sakuma (Tokyo 2018, Fukuoka 2021)

Togo Kaminaga (Tokyo 2018, Fukuoka 2021)

Liu Lingfei (China 2012)

DevinRe Lewis Adams (RCCL Cast 12)

Jason Derulo (2019 Movie)

Todrick Hall (US Regional - La Mirada Theatre 2014)

Munkustrap:

Shintaro Sonooka (Tokyo 1983)

Kenkichi Hamahata (Tokyo 1983)

Osami Iino (Tokyo 1995)

Shoichi Fukui (Nagoya 1999, Osaka 2001, Tokyo 2004, Yokohama 2009)

Kiyomichi Shiba (Nagoya 1999, Osaka 2001, Tokyo 2004, Yokohama 2009)

Yuji Aoyama (Nagoya 1999, Tokyo 2004)

Masuo Nonaka (Osaka 2001, Tokyo 2004)

Takashi Saimon (Tokyo 2004)

Yuichi Tamura (Tokyo 2004)

Tsutomu Arakawa (Tokyo 2004)

Shouma Kanzaki (Tokyo 2004)

Kan Muto (Yokohama 2009)

Takamasa Hagiwara (Yokohama 2009, Hiroshima 2012, Sendai 2013, Shizuoka 2013, Sapporo 2015, Osaka 2016)

Hong Gyeong-su (South Korea 2008/2011)

Jordan Shaw (London Revival - Munkustrap Cover)

Yuki Matsushima (Hiroshima 2012, Fukuoka 2014)

Susumu Kato (Fukuoka 2014, Sapporo 2015, Osaka 2016, Tokyo 2018, Nagoya 2022)

Kei Tokuyama (Sapporo 2015, Osaka 2016, Tokyo 2018)

Kenji Nishio (Osaka 2016)

Masaru Kitamura (Tokyo 2018)

Taijun Kanemoto (Tokyo 2018, Fukuoka 2021)

Shinya Iwasaki (Tokyo 2021)

Junpei Wakebe (Tokyo 2021, Nagoya 2022)

Tarquinn Whitebooi (Asia Tour 2014 - Munkustrap Cover)

Xia Zhenkai (China 2012)

Mao Haifei (China 2012 - Munkustrap Cover)

[jaegerpilotmax]

Inktober 2020 day 21, sleep

my dozing shiba, kenji

[a-smol-gayologist]

My dogs (and Griffin!) may drive me insane at times but I am so glad to have them in life. Sometimes they make me want to put my head through a wall and other times… they're the sole things that make life worth living.

[bbgthoma]

— MY TOP 10 FAVORITES CHARACTERS

asassination classroom: 1. gakushuu asano 2. tadaomi karasuma 3. ryunosuke chiba 4. itona horibe 5. karma akabane 6. yuma isogai 7. nagisa shiota 8. ryoma terasaka 9. ren sakakibara 10. rio nakamura

attack on titan: 1. armin arlert 2. ymir 3. jean kirstein 4. connie springer 5. levi ackerman 6. historia reiss 7. marco bott 8. sasha braus 9. niccolo 10. falco grice

black butler 1. vincent phantomhive 2. edward midford 3. snake 4. prince soma asman kadar 5. snake 6. sebastian michaelis 7. grell sutcliff 8. agni 9. lau 10. undertaker

bungo stray dogs: 1. chuuya nakahara 2. kenji miyazawa 3. sakunosuke oda 4. ryunosuke akutgawa 5. fyodor dostoevsky 6. ranpo edoagawa 7. gin akutagawa 8. edgar allan poe 9. sigma 10. ango sakaguchi

death note: 1. l lawliet 2. misa amane 3. mello 4. near 5. rem 6. ryuk 7. naomi misora 8. light yagami 9. touta matsuda 10. light’s sister

free: 1. natsuya kirishima 2. rin matsuoka 3. go matsuoka 4. kisumi shigino 5. isuzu mikoshiba 6. momotaro mikoshiba 7. ikuya kirishima 8. haruka nanase 9. ryuji azuma 10. seijuro mikoshiba

genshin impact: 1. thoma/tartaglia 2. kaveh 3. kazuha 4. chongyun 5. xiao 6. cyno 7. kaeya alberich/diluc ragnvindr 8. dainsleif 9. albedo 10. tomo

haikyuu: 1. yu nishinoya 2. tetsuro kuroo 3. kenma kozume 4. hajime iwaizumi 5. toru oikawa 6. hitoka yachi 7. keiji akaashi 8. kei tsukishima 9. lev haiba 10. ryunosuke tanaka

hunter x hunter: 1. kite 2. chrollo lucilfer 3. leorio paradinight 4. kurapika 5. alluka zoldyck 6. shalnark 7. killua zoldyck 8. pakunoda 9. shizuku murasaki 10. gon freecss

jujutsu kaisen: 1. toge inumaki 2. megumi fushiguro 3. mai zenin 4. yuta okkotsu 5. yuji itadori 6. choso 7. ryomen sukuna 8. utahime iori 9. kento nanami 10. suguru geto

kuroko’s basketball: 1. ryota kise 2. kazunari takao 3. tatsuya himuro 4. atsushi murasakibara 5. seijuro akashi 6. daiki aomine 7. tetsuya kuroko 8. taiga kagami 9. yukio kasamtsu 10. riko aida

moriarty the patriot: 1. james bonde 2. sebastian moran 3. william james moriarty 4. fred porlock 5. sherlock holmes 6. louis james moriarty 7. albert james moriarty 8. john h watson 9. lucien atwood 10. frida macaulay

my hero academia: 1. hitoshi shinso 2. hawks 3. oboro shirakumo 5. eijiro kirishima 4. dabi 5. mirko 6. shota aizawa 7. denki kaminari 8. rody soul 9. mirko 10. hanta sero

neon genesis evangelion: 1. rei ayanami 2. kaworu nagisa 3. toji sukuhara 4. shinji ikari 5. ryoji kaji 6. ritsuko akagi 7. asuka langley sohryu 8. kensuke aida 9. hikari horaki 10. pen pen

seraph of the end: 1. guren ichinose 2. shinya hiragi 3. mikaela hiyakuya 4. yuichiro hiyakuya 5. shiho kimizuki 6. lacus welt 7. yoichi saotome 8. makoto narumi 9. shinao hiragi 10. mitsuba sangu

sk8 the infinity: 1. reki kyan 2. miya chenin 3. cherry blossom 4. joe 5. langa hasegawa 6. nanako hasegawa 7. koyomi kyan 8. shokichi oka 9. shadow 10. reki’s childhood best friend

spy x family: 1. yor forger 2. anya forger 3. loid forger 4. becky blackbell 5. damian desmond 6. franky franklin 7. bond forger 8. sylvia sherwood 9. yuri briar (ik he’s obsessed with yor but still…) 10. henry henderson

the case study of vanitas: 1. astolfo granatum 2. dominique de sade 3. noé archiviste 4. louis de sade 5. vanitas 5. chloé d’apchier 6. jean-jacques chastel 7. olivier 8. roland fortis 9. murr 10. loki oriflamme

tokyo revengers: 1. takashi mitsuya/seishu inui 2. hajime kokonoi 3. kazutora hanemiya 4. keisuke baji 5. hakkai shiba 6. chifuyu matsuno 7. shuji hanma 8. atsushi sendo 9. naoto tachibana 10. kakucho

[galesautismdiagnosis]

White people with Shibas LOVE naming them dogs shit like “Kenji” “Kai” “Sushi”

Like where are the people who name their shibas “Mike” or French Toast smth

[astrau]

Shiba Kenji is the king of the hill😊

[tierinserate]

KENJI - noch schüchtern, spielt sehr gerne

https://www.tier-inserate.com/ad_listing/kenji-noch-schuechtern-spielt-sehr-gerne/

KENJI - noch schüchtern, spielt sehr gerne

Kenji Rüde knapp 1 Jahr geschätzt, ca 35-40cm Shiba Inu Mix Noch in der Slowakei geimpft, gechipt, entwurmt, wird vor Ausreise kastriert Huhuuu ich bin Kenji und wurde von den Sheltermädels aus der Vermehrerhölle gerettet. Wie all meine anderen Kompanen, bin ich Anfangs sehr schüchtern, taue aber...

[marueonmain]

WINDFLOWER

part six ~ to be more normal ~

(part one) (part two) (part three) (part four) (part five) (part six)

A/N: I want to thank each of you who have continued reading and supporting me through all these parts (that’s almost 12k words total!) and I hope you keep wanting to stick around until the end. Stay safe. Stay healthy. 

Summary: Alex visits with James & Fraser in a bid to distract himself from thinking about his feelings toward Y/N. George is concerned.

Pairing: imallexx x reader

Warning: Implications of Disordered Eating Habits. References to a Real/Imagined Domestic. An Absurd Amount of Pining.  

Word Count: 2.4k

Subdued shades of orange with the occasional single brushstrokes of pink projected through his bedroom window and painted him in light. A bird chirped, and another chirped back in a cycle of communication lost on other animals. Alex did not realize the change outside his window until the light gradient settled on a loud yellow and created glare on his monitor.

It was sunrise, and he had just finished editing for his most recent video. Where the hours of work went was unclear as it played back with the same level of effects as other videos on his channel. But the hours showed in his fringe, darkened with grease, and in his hands that shook from low blood sugar.

Sleep was for the strong – for those who executed enough psychological control to shush their thoughts. To untie their mental boat and let it drift into the oblivion sea. Alex was not one of those people. Quieting his internal monologue required medication that put him in a state not unlike how he imaged it felt to be roofied.

Or else he did not sleep.

And Alex did not sleep that night. Not because he needed to edit or because he was so busy he did not realize he was tired. No, none of that. He knew he was tired: exhausted even: his limbs felt heavier as, throughout the evening, his blood was spliced and diluted with concrete mix.

Why did he not take his medication? Why not sleep? He did not want to be trapped in ~the dream~ again.

Despite his fundamental understanding of the uncontrollable manner in which the unconscious forms dreams, Alex was consumed with guilt for dreaming about kissing his friend's girlfriend. So, he punished himself: not allowing his mind rest nor his stomach food as he threw himself into his editing.

He would not allow himself think about it long enough to come to the obvious conclusion – that the real issue was not the dream itself. Despite what imallexx edits might guide someone to believe (with their cutesy music over compilations of smiling pictures or clips of him laughing), Alex was a young man in his twenties. And young men (who enjoy kissing) think and fantasize and dream about kissing.

And far more than kissing but regardless... He had dreamed about kissing his friends' girlfriends before: or at least Mia that one time. Ok, two times. He had dreamed about kissing cute men he saw on the train. He had even once dreamed about kissing Princess Leia.

It was natural. But Alex's thoughts about Y/N felt damning, felt wrong. Perhaps because it was the first instance in which he thought he had a chance to get the girl. Not that he would do; he refused.

It hit him. If he were always doing something else, then he would simply not have time to think about it – about her. Alex grabbed a pencil off his desk and his JoJo Siwa notebook and wrote a schedule for the coming week.

His hand cramped from furiously trying to keep up with dictating the information as it spilled from his head. He finished writing, but there were still stretches of time to fill-up including that entire morning. Was he desperate enough to disconnect from himself that he would risk the Budweiser Bug to visit his other friends outside his apartment building? Yes.

While rummaging around his bedroom for fresh(er) clothing to wear, Alex swiped a hat off his desk and concealed his unwashed hair with it. Not his tiktok bucket hat nor his iconic pink one, it was a lilac snapback with an image of lavender embroidered on the side. He rang Fraser.

“Hello?” Fraser answered with a voice bogged down with exhaustion. 

“How’re you doing?” Alex greeted.

“Um.” (a pause – a processing delay) “Fine. Good. Yeah, what about you?” 

“Trying to keep busy.” He tucked his wallet and keys into the pocket of a pair of joggers he found hanging, oddly enough, over the towel rail in his bathroom. Changing into them required a series of short jumping motions as he used just one hand. “You have any videos to film that I could jump in on?”

“Well I’ve been brainstorming ideas for a new series called…”

At the bathroom sink: Alex did not wait for the water to warm before splashing it over his face. He did a quick once-over and washed his cheeks and forehead with hand soap. Picking up his toothbrush from its holder stirred an uneasiness in him, he could not explain; he brushed his teeth and spit without rinsing.

Returning into the conversation he caught the middle of what would sound like a rant or passionate tangent if he did not know that was just how Fraser talked, “…and I’ve been working on a script for something on social repose—”

“Another needs to be stopped?" asked Alex.

Fraser laughed, letting it linger before continuing, "You got me. It's not done, but I could definitely use you for some reaction bits."

"Great! I'll be setting off within the hour." Ambling around – as is the norm during phone calls – Alex found himself in the kitchen. Half-full liters of lemonade, grocers bags, and dirty dishes cluttered the counters. He worked around the rubbish to make himself scrambled eggs with ham.

Fraser asked, "And you're sure about leaving the apartment? With the Bug? We could do a discord-call."

"Might as well get in some time on the train before things shut down."

"Alright, mate," there was a smile behind Fraser's voice, "just don't get arrested."

With their call ended, Alex finished cooking. He ate his entire breakfast in the same amount of time it took him to pull on his shoes.

During the train ride, he turned his phone's volume to eighty percent and blasted his music through his earbuds. His playlist was a mixture of two to three alt-rock or indie pop bands with a sprinkling of mainstream hits: a calm and comfortable backbeat throughout. No outlier tracks that burst into hard-hitting or exceptionally fast beats – nothing that might pump-up his adrenaline or be useful to scream along with in a fit of anger. That was not the connection he made with music in his formative years. Music to him was something to drown out that pesky internal monologue when lying in bed for too long – doing nothing – but perhaps pondering on some heartbreaking or otherwise emotional line in a song.

He arrived at Fraser and James' apartment when it was still technically morning. Knocking on the door, he was greeted with frantic barking and his tired ~obviously hungover~ friend.

After fussing over Kenji, Alex spotted the camera set-up in the kitchen and took his seat. Fraser and him watched several of social repose's music videos: covers of emo electronic, synth-pop songs, and a lot more original EMD songs than either man guessed – and all were dreadful. Neither could sit through a single video for more than forty-five seconds, and most of the footage they shot was just of their mouths hanging open in a disturbed shock.

Nonetheless, it was a great distraction. Alex liked feeling like he was helping out smaller channels – even if it was just those who were his friends.

Only as Fraser was cleaning up his equipment and Alex was sitting on the couch playing with Kenji, did James clamber out of bed and stroll out of his bedroom.

"Ow. What was that?" Alex asked in an exaggerated voice when the shiba nipped at yet another one of his fingers. Turning his attention to James, he asked, "Has he been biting a lot recently?"

James answered in his softer and calmer 'tired' voice, "He only bites sometimes. His brain is probably just locked on the idea of food right now; this is around the time Fraser usually feeds him."

"I just wanted a picture for instagram." Alex tried to find a good angle to hold his phone. He pushed Kenji to sit on his lap for a nice picture (which was sure to get hundreds of comments and love heart emojis), but the shiba was far too hyper to sit still. The few useable photos he got were of Kenji biting at and tugging the strings of his hoodie. "Come on, Kenj."

"Reckon he knows what you're doing with your phone, just mugging you off on purpose."

Alex hung around the apartment for the rest of the afternoon: enjoying an ubereats lunch and having James crush him at mario kart...multiple times in a row. The three talked youtube and the continuing aftershocks and effects of the ad crisis, and Fraser asked for feedback on a few video ideas.

An hour or two from sunset, Alex said his goodbyes and caught the train home to his apartment. Upon unlocking the front door, he was met with an interrogation.

"And where have you been all day?" asked George standing with his feet planted shoulder-width apart, and his arms crossed over his chest – the spitting image of a disapproving parent to a reckless teenager.

Smiling his fang-displaying side smile, Alex challenged, "Why do you need to know?"

"Sammy came over to film the opening pokemon cards video, and you weren't here. Neither of us could get a hold of you. Do you even care about my upload schedule?" It was a half-humorous rant with an eerie sense of latent seriousness.

"Phone died." He shrugged, not looking his flatmate in the eye and certainly not wanting to admit the truth – he put his phone on do not disturb earlier that morning, muting most everyone, including George and Sammy.

There was not an ounce of belief in George's expression, "Fine. Where were you, though, for real? You never leave the flat, let alone disappear; almost called Will and got a search team going."

"I was just filming with Fraser." Alex bent over to take off his trainers. There was a click from his shoulder when he did – alarming for such young bones. "We should host something soon."

And he meant soon. As talk of a complete social shutdown, rather than just more public health advisements, dominated news outlets; the thought of non-essential businesses being made to close their doors was frightening. And what was worse than the eking paranoia seeping into every day, was the horrifying realization that the pubs were considered non-essential.

Uncrossing his arms, George's posture shifted to be more normal. His brow furrowed as he seemed to examine his flatmate heavily; even so, he nodded in agreement. "Sure, we could do that."

"Great," Alex chirped and started toward his bedroom.

George grabbed his arm as he tried to walk past him. His hand clasped tight enough that his fingers touched his thumb, and nails would have dug into the pale skin – if he had nails that is. Both men were silent amongst the awkwardness of the interaction.

Sidestepping out of the armlock, Alex waited for George to speak.

"You're doing ok. Right, Al?"

"Yeah. I'm ok."

"But, you'd tell me if you weren't."

"Of course." Alex left to his bedroom. It was in a bad state, but he did not bother himself with picking clothes off the floor or taking food wrappers from his side table to the kitchen bin. He pulled his phone from his pocket and checked for messages: sure enough, there were eleven messages from George: ranging from asking where he was to blaming his laziness for ruining their chance to film.

Alex flopped himself onto his bed and started to scroll through his photos with Kenji. There was not much choice, so he took the least blurry one and posted it to instagram – with a bright filter and a sarcastic caption that took him longer to come up with than he would have liked.

Fifty minutes he spent scrolling through instagram, occasionally checking back to watch the likes on his photo go up and to reply to some of the first commenters. It was mind-numbing in the good and proper sense.

Until he saw it – and it was not his fault, he just happened upon it – and it sent his thoughts into hyperdrive.

A post. A photo. Y/N sitting on her sofa in the dark with the one light source (presumably her television) from behind the camera casting a blue light across her face. One hand clutching the blanket in her lap as the other hand was held up. Jewel-like eyes peering through her fingers and connecting with the camera. A smile playing purposefully on her lips.

If Alex's thoughts at that moment were put into a blender, they might still have come out making more sense than they did in his head. Eyes. Lips. Blue. Watching? Angelic. Eyes. Fingers. Dancing. Blue. Lips. Taste. Lips. Soft. Photographer. Photographer.

Before he might ask for the app to load more photos, Alex's burst of energy and hectic but classic over-thinking was interrupted. From above him came the sound of muffled shouting. He held his breath, stilled as if a prey animal not wanting to be spotted, and focused an ear to the noise.

There were no words he could pick out, but from what he could tell – or from the details he filled in – it was not a light argument of few words but something that might supersede a genuine scrap. And it was coming from Sammy and Y/N's apartment.

As he listened, his imagination wandered. Alex visualized himself, rushing to Y/N's aid and wrapping his thin arms around her in more emotional comfort than physical protection. He saw her turn to him with wet eyes and a red nose before burying her face into his shirt. It would be uncomfortable – as it is to be around distressed people. Yet it would be comfortable – as she would fit against him so well.

Again, his imagination wandered. Alex visualized himself as the one shouting at Y/N and growing angrier as she refused his hard-hitting gaze. He saw her turn to him with wet eyes and a red nose before hiccupping out a sob and dashing from the room. No. That was not right. It was wrong. He would not— could not do that.

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