#kilig-to-the-bones

[bobsidoodle]

Love, Laughter and a Whole Lot of "Kilig"

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[cornley-amateur-drama-society]

i love max and sandra i love maxand sandra i lvoea mx and sandra i lvoe maskx adn sandraaaaaaaaaa theyre'rsooooo cuteee

[kazumist]

ㅤㅤㅤㅤミㅤthe cold has never been so niceㅤ⋆ ｡˚ㅤ♡ ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤspending cold evenings with them ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤventi, xiao, kazuha, heizou, wanderer !

"anonymous order; ...could i have lovey dovey + 5wirl + warm milk vs. hot chocolate ? — message cut."

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤthese guys are in high demand esp for lovey dovey LMAO ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤthank you and please enjoy, xoxo ♡

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ｡ﾟ ⊹ㅤventi !ㅤ

sometimes the wind can be cold, and those are the times that venti uses to his advantage as an excuse to coddle - or to be coddled by - you.

and in his defense, it's not much. since it's not everyday and night that he has your undivided attention after all. so he wants to make the most of this evening with you, even if it means refusing to let you get out of bed.

"windblume don't leave the bed ~" he pleaded, hand tugging on your clothes to hold you back, though it wasn't really effective. you stood up from the bed despite your boyfriend's protests, slightly dragging him with you by the arm that still refused to let go.

"i'll be right back, promise ! i'm just gonna go make us hot chocolate." you took the hand that tugged on your shirt in yours, chuckling at the childish huffs your boyfriend let out. he begrudgingly got up, rubbing his eyes and choosing to follow you instead. "i'll just . . go with you." "i said i'll be right back ?" "it'll be cold without you either way !"

"alright, alright, if you say so."

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ｡ﾟ ⊹ㅤalatus xiao !

he believes he's adapted to the cold, both figuratively and literally. but even a yaksha can't deny the comforting warmth that shields against the harsh breeze.

here he is, sitting by his now favored spot on the balcony of the inn, across from you. the makeshift coffee table you had borrowed from downstairs sat between the two of you, with the tea set you had oh so excitedly showed him the other day set out.

as you poured the newly boiled water into the cups, xiao sighed as the steam warmed him up. "i think it's strange how instead of making tea with this set, you're brewing up milk instead." he commented, bringing the cup closer to his face to further warm himself up with the steam. "well we don't have tea now do we ?" "couldn't you have asked smiley yanxiao ?" "i did, he didn't have any." "i see,"

the wind on the balcony brought a sudden breeze, and xiao reached over to tuck some stray strands away from your face for you.

"do you like the cold, xiao ?" "i like it better with you."

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ｡ﾟ ⊹ㅤkaedehara kazuha !ㅤ

the winds were feeling generous today, he hummed to himself as he chose to redo his low ponytail, brushing back most of his bangs as he tied it back up, slowly growing inconvenience by how the wind blew his hair into his line of sight.

kazuha took a deep breathe as he admired the moon, illuminating the water in a way you'd see in a painting.

"kazu, come down would you ?" he whipped his head around to see you below, taking note of the two cups in your hands. he smiled softly as he used the ropes to glide down to the deck. "sorry darling, did you get cold without me ?" he asked, taking the cup you offered him and breathing in the scent of the cocoa. "i did actually, but i figured to make some hot chocolate before coming out for you." he chuckled, pulling you in as you two now sat on a nearby bench, his hand resting on your waist as he blew softly on his cup.

"the moon is beautiful, isn't it ?" he leaned his head on your shoulder, while yours leaned on his. "it is, but that's no excuse for you to be staying up so late." you flicked his forehead lightly, laughing along with him.

"i know, i know. besides," he looked up at you, "i have my own moon already."

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ｡ﾟ ⊹ㅤshikanoin heizou !ㅤ

soft lips trailed kisses all over your collarbone as heizou laid on your chest, the pitter patter of the rain on the windows fading into somewhat of a melody.

he sighed whenever your fingertips would massage his scalp lightly before brushing through his burgundy locks. "mhmm, if only we could be like this more often." he huffed, nuzzling his face further into your chest as his arms comfortably wrapped around you.

you chuckled, "yeah, but a great detective is always needed, otherwise, cases aren't going to solve themselves are they ?" this earned a scoff from the detective. "but you need a great boyfriend too, am i right ?" he smiled up at you, now leaning up on his elbows.

you shook your head with an ear to ear smile on your face, reaching over for the cup of hot chocolate left on the table, with heizou mimicking you and reaching for his own.

"but seriously, i do wish we could do this more often too." you whispered, leaning back on his shoulder as heizou nodded. "and i promise you, we'll do this as much as we want soon enough." he smiled, both for you and himself.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ｡ﾟ ⊹ㅤwanderer !ㅤ

he's never felt the cold before, nor has he ever felt the warmth. he can't, really.

but he can at least imagine what it feels like. and this, the way your face nuzzled into the crook of his neck with your arms around his shoulders, breathes tickling his skin. this is what he imagines warmth to feel like.

he felt everytime you blew the cup of warm milk in your hands before taking a sip, while he instead would drink straight up while it was steaming. as a matter of fact, this is what he hopes warmth feels like.

"kuni, you seem lost in thought again." you shifted back, looking at him with a concerned hint in your eyes. he shook his head, mustering the most genuine smile he can. "i am, but don't worry, they're not bad thoughts." you nodded, "if you say so."

his gaze shifts around the room, then back to you. "can i . . can i ask you something ?" he hesitated, but relaxed when you hummed so patiently. "this, like this," he set his cup down on the table next to the two of you and pulled you closer by the waist, "is this what warmth should feel like ?" he looks up at you, looking for every hint he may find, the way your face heated up, is that warmth too ?

"well, warmth can be felt in many ways," you tried to explain, with kuni nodding on, listening. "but this is one of my favorite ways to feel it." he blinked, "so, yes ?" "yeah, yes." . . .

"then, this is my favorite warmth too."

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ© amaiaqt, 2023 ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ ㅤㅤㅤㅤdo not plagiarize !

[ventique18]

Souvenir (Malleyuu♀️)

Lilia: "You owe these old bones gratitude, lad. It was terribly difficult to take good angle pictures without getting arrested, you see. I had to move quickly at this age for you."

Malleus: "You did well, Lilia! Expect great compensation later. Well then, I shall excuse myself for today."

Lilia: "Excuse yourself? It's almost dinner."

Malleus: "You three take your meal ahead of me."

Lilia: "Alrighty. Just be sure to clean up. It would be quite shameful to take some nasty-smelling cloth to the cleaners--"

Malleus: "What? Are you insinuating something disrespectful to my person, Vanrouge?"

Lilia: "It's quite fine, you know. It's healthy for boys your age--"

Malleus, turning to stomp away: "I am NOT. Doing that."

Sebek: "What... What was that, Lilia sir?"

Lilia: "It's nothing. Your royal highness was just denying he's secretly doing some training."

Silver: "..."

Sebek: "Training? At this hour? Why, my liege is so hardworking! Admirable! What inspiration!"

Sebek, screaming after Malleus: "I WILL FOREVER FOLLOW IN YOUR HONORABLE FOOTSTEPS, MY KING!!"

Lilia, stifling a laughter: "Oh, such innocence."

Malleus was, indeed, not doing what Lilia suggested. What he was doing was far more humiliating you see: staring at his ever-growing photo collection of his beloved, giggling to himself, and rolling on his bed in kilig. He had to overwork the cafeteria ghosts later to make him dinner at two in the morning.

*Note: the original chibi is ToT's Vyn sticker, and Lilia's pose is Yugi.

[boba-beom]

me while writing this taehyun fic: kilig to the bones

idk how to say this in english — romantic excitement in my bones?

it's like a form of expression T^T

[maomaojinshi]

How sweet 😍 😘 🥰

Chilling Kilig to the Bones!!!! 🩷

[heartz4tob]

25/08/24 23:59

i made the decision to stop caring so much about you. gosh how stupid i was for pouring my heart out to God about you when i didn't cross yours once. i'm gonna say this one more time. i have deleted all evidence of you in my camera roll, i cut off the long hair that i treasured that i thought you would've liked, i blocked all your friends and the reminders of you that would be an obstacle in this journey. but one last time i want to recap on everything since i've fallen for you:

the moment i saw you in whoever's post i knew i would fall head over heels for you. you stood out to everyone in that photo and i was determined to know who you were. once i found out your name through stalking everyone you knew, i became obsessed well not until after qasim. i fell in love with the idea of you knowing nothing about your life other than the basic stuff.

i really wanted to know you toby. i wish you knew that. the day i followed you on instagram i didn't know if you'd follow back (i wish you didn't, this wouldn't have happened) when you did that's when all hell broke loose. and when i found out that you won poty award, i was so so proud of you. you will never know how proud i am of you toby. and when i found out you got an academic award for whatever you achieved i was beyond proud of you. i am your biggest and no.1 supporter.

but i was obsessed with getting your attention and getting you to notice me. i'd follow up on everything about you, i was desperate for your love. and when i found out you could've loved another i crashed out. i unfollowed you and wanted you out my mind in hopes that "out of sight, out of mind" would work. it didn't. it made me even more obsessed with you.

and when i saw you days after i tried removing you from my life, i was so kilig to the bone. the way you smiled and the way you looked under the sunlight made me melt. (no pun intended) like why did you have to look? i get it my mom honked the horn but you looked at me? ME? i actually wish your eyes never met mine.

i love you toby but im not letting you take over my mind, heart and life. you've brought me nothing but doubt and stress. you made me skitz out night after night making me change myself in ways so i could look appealing to you. i've prayed to God for 30 minutes just to get an answer. you will never know what i said. you made me believe there were good people in the world but at what cost? you made me happy and miserable all at once. how is that possible? i will never forget all the sadness you made me feel but if you ever need me my arms are wide open for you. i am not waiting for you anymore but my heart will continue to wish you Godspeed until we die. good luck with your basketball stuff and good luck in the next academic year.

and this is not my position to say but if you ever feel bad about yourself please consider my thoughts. if you saw yourself through my rose tinted glasses you'd never have a bad thought of yourself again. no matter how much people tell me, i think you're perfect in my eyes. God made you with so much love and care that i can practically see Jesus Christ through you. you're beautiful and you'll never hear me say that. (Solomon 4:7)

i wish nothing but the best for you. and one day i hope you find a woman of God who treats you perfectly. a proverbs 31 woman. i pray that she builds you to become an ecclesiastes 5 man. im so sorry but ive had enough. i've had enough of all the doubt and sadness loving you brought to me. although this whole thing put me through some tough stuff in not going to be a liar and say it was a waste. i enjoyed my little fancy for you even if it meant tears being shed. i mean hey, that's life. loving you made me realize that love can be silent and that i can love someone without knowing them properly and with no words exchanged. you made me believe that i do indeed hold love in my heart and it isn't all just bad in the world.

i truly believed it was you and me. and if my prayers are answered and we are in Gods plan i hope when we meet again in the future that we make it, and i intend on waiting forever if that's the case. (Genesis 29:20). cause gosh i wanted it to be you so bad. but if it's not you then that's okay and i'll learn to be okay with it. and to be honest i really do not see myself loving someone that's not you, i hoped it was you from the beginning. and i pray if it's not you and me in this lifetime that it's you and me in the next one. "sa susunod na habang buhay" is associated with your name in my heart.

but if you did reciprocate the love i have for you, i'd be the best you'll ever have. the love i have for you is unhealthy at this point. and in all honesty i was more pulled in by the idea of loving you than building my relationship with God first. i'd be as loyal as a dog to you. you could break my heart 1 million times and i would still rather that over giving it to someone else. gosh toby i love you so much. the love that i have for you in my heart needed more space so i planted the love i have for you in things i loved too. i envied anything you loved knowing ill never be those things. inanimate or not. how crazy do i sound right now?

you looked like a prayer i made to God about my future husband and i was gutted realizing that you may not be that. i know deep down that you're a good guy toby. don't let that potential go to waste and please don't be consumed by the bad people around you. keep your dreams alive and i just pray and i pray so hard that you end up succeeding in what you aspire to do. if you can't be with me i pray you be with God. build that relationship between you and Jesus. keep going. i'm here on the sidelines rooting for you.

please, if you feel like the world is mean to you, run to me. call out for me and i'll be there for you. i'm an idiot for you.

this whole account made me realize how deluded i am. and i don't think i can go like this for longer before i actually go skitzo, and, for the last time,

i love you toby. goodbye. 💗

[hannahfayecess]

Thank you so much vitabears for making our day!

Our gala ended with such a good blessing huhu i can’t imagine it and i feel so kilig like tagos to the bones, as in!

Thank you so much vitabears and kay God for this, More n more blessings like this in the future. 🙏😍🙏

upd: ang sakit ng paa ko huhu (heels pa more)

[dyaryobagwis]

Kasal nina Bea Alonzo at Dominic Roque, isinulat sa buhangin

Ang pinakahuling larawan sa social media na magkasama sina Bea Alonzo at Dominic Roque ay noong nagbakasyon sila sa Japan bago matapos ang 2023.

Ang bakasyong grandeng ito ay bahagi na ng plano nina Bea at Dominic ng mga unang bahagi noong isang taon.

Marami pa silang balak noon at kulay-rosas pa ang kanilang paligid.

Panay pa ang kilig-to-the-bones na mga statement ni Alonzo pag itinatanong sa kanya si Roque.

Na para bang wala nang katapusan ang kanilang kaligayahan.

Inspiradung-inspirado ang aktres sa kanyang pakikipagromansa sa aktor kahit ano pa ang sabihin ng kanyang mga kaibigan na kesyo hindi bagay sa kanya ang isang tulad ni Dom na anila at sa pananaw nila'y wala pang napatunayan at hindi malaking pangalan ang kasintahan.

***

Ngayon ay wala nang lumalabas na mga larawan na magkasama sina Dom at Bea kundi sila-sila lang, solo-solo lang.

Sa kanyang pinakabagong post sa Facebook at Instagram, mag-isa lang si Roque samantalang dati-rati'y matatamis na pagsasama o kaya'y pagkiling ng aktres sa mga bisig ng aktor ang makikita sa social media.

Ang isa pang pinakahuling publisidad ni Dom sa kanyang sarili sa IG at FB ay may karga-karga siyang bata.

Nakakaintriga, di ba?

Pero kaanak lang niya ang baby girl at hindi anak.

Nakasulat din sa IG caption ni Dom na "Missing New York" dahil pabalik-balik naman siya sa US.

May isa namang litrato si Roque na nakaupo sa dalampasigan at nakatanaw sa malayo.

Nag-iisa rin siya.

***

Sa panig naman ni Bea, solo na rin ang mga rekuwerdong kanyang ipino-post sa social media.

Hindi tulad noon na namumutiktik ang kanilang photos together ni Dom saanman at kailanman sila magpunta kung saan-saan.

Ngayon ay bigla na lang ipinamarali ni Bea sa apat na sulok ng mundo ang kasaluluyang sitwasyon ng kanyang buong pamilya.

Isinir-culate niya ang family photo nila na parang sinasabing sa gitna ng kanilang paghihiwalay ni Dominic ay handa siyang suportahan ng kanyang malaki at malawak na angkan.

***

Wala pa naman talagang eksaktong petsa ang kasal nina Bea at Dominic dahil bago pa umugong ang hiwalayan ay hindi pa sila solido sa plano.

Ang general information lamang ay ang plano nilang destination wedding at ibig sabihin ay sa ibang bansa.

Pero wala na rin ito.

Wala na rin ang naka-schedule na pre-nuptial photoshoots para sa dalawa.

'Yon lang ang may nakatalagang petsa at lugar.

Pero ang sinasabing sa April ang .matrimonya para sa dalawa ay walang katotohanan lalo pa ngayong ang kasalan ay iginuhit lang pala sa buhangin sa dalampasigan na pag hinampas ng alon ay mabubura na lang at sukat.

***

Nito namang mga huling araw na Enero at mga unang bahagi ng Pebrero ay wala na ring isinasagot si Alonzo tungkol sa balak nilang kasal ni Dominic bagamat may sinasabi siya tungkol sa kasintahan.

“He is self-assured now,” pahayag ng aktres.

“He is health conscious. He always plays golf,” wika pa ni Bea.

“Wala pa talaga,” ang tanging sagot lang ng dalaga sa mga tanong ng mga peryodistang pampelikula tungkol sa kasal.

Matatandaan na nag-engage sina Bea at Dom noong July last year.

Pero bigla na lang nitong pagkatapos ng unang linggo ng Pebrero ay nagpasabog sina Cristy Fermin, Boy Abunda at Ogie Diaz na hiwalay na sina Alonzo at Roque.

Sa anong dahilan, walang sibabi sina Boy, Ogie at Cristy.

Pre-nuptial agreement nga ba ang dahilan?

Umoo naman daw si Dominic sa kasunduan pero bakit hindi pa rin tuloy ang kasal?

Ano ba talaga, Kuya?

Kasi nga raw, sobrang dami nang naipundar ni Bea--malawak na farm, makapal na ipon sa bangko, mamahaling mga alahas, mga bahay na elegante at marami pang iba.

Sa pagkadalaga naipundar ni Bea ang mga ari-ariang ito.

Paano kung kasal na sila ni Dom?

May karapatan ba ang lalaki sa kayamanan ng babae?

Nandoon nga 'yon sa premarital agreement para alam ng bawat isa ang kani-kanilang karapatan at obligasyon sa pang-ekonomiko nilang buhay.

Bakit sinisiraan ng netizens si Bea?

Ipinagtatanggol naman siya ni Dom. "Bea, a beautiful person inside and out," sabi ng aktor.

Lalabas din naman ang katotohanan.

[chacha-diaries]

when you least expect it

November 19, 2023 - December 30, 2023

It is exactly 1:51 AM and the clock continues to tick at this moment. When I bravely face this year, I have no idea what is going to happen. There is so much to feel.

In January, all I did was survive one day at a time. I woke up every morning with a heavy stomp in my heart. The agony, pain, and disrespect. The blurriness of my emotions and thoughts. I can't get anything straight, but I am forcing myself to. I am holding my shit together despite resisting to collapse any minute. I thought it'd last forever. I thought there would be no end to what it felt. But I survived it.

In February, I grieved. I lost my grandpa in heaven. I gotta set aside my inner battles, so I can mourn with my family. December still stings though. But I have to get up and redefine it. I walked on it again. Every single thing that reminds me of December, I made a new image of it. I changed the narrative, this time it was only me. And it's beautiful. I cried a lot. I still question why. I wonder why it had happened. But little by little, the stomp in my heart is getting lighter. It made me hug myself. It made me love every part of me that was mishandled, unvalued, and unseen. I survived it.

In March, I found a new universe. I got myself busy with my internship. I had little relapses from December. I was still in pain, but it was getting cheerfuller. I fell in love with desserts. I found another soulmate, at least for 400 hours. We vibe very well. He listened to my December almost every day, and he never got tired of it, 'cause he had his December too. We found a connection because of our December. We healed as we walked McArthur Highway. It's the wisdom of every resentment moment. He witnessed my happy painful moments. He helped me see through it by letting me talk about it endlessly. Thank you to my internship buddy, I made it to April. I survived March.

In April, I had the best vacation. It was the most fulfilling one since the dawn of my existence. I lived each day of it. I never thought I could see such an exhilarating breath of life in the North. The wind brushes off the remains of my December. It washed off the residue of pain in my body. It was the Renaissance. I loved the food, the people, and the twists and turns of this month. I let it all go. I loosened the gripping thought of as to why December had to happen. I survived it. I breathe in. I was present.

In May, I had my first genuine laughter. It was profound. I felt love. I felt belongingness. I was surrounded by pure people who saw through me. I had the best people in the world. It feels like exactly day one on earth. I only feel peace and happiness. In my mind, what I have at that moment is worth everything I lost in December. It was enough for me. This is enough for me. And yes I survived May, with people who love me very much & I felt it in every crack of bones and gaps in my heart. I swear it, it filled the spaces in my soul.

In June, my body was thunderstruck with academic & work commitments. I was sick most of the day. This was my weakest point of the year. But I got through it! It felt like a brand-new page for me. Zero thoughts remained with my December. I had something more important to deal with than what had happened. It is what it is as the saying goes. I survived it. I surpassed the difficult waves of June.

In July, my heart was thrilled. It was both my birth month & my graduation day! However, my graduation day just passed me by. It was happy & sad because right after I had to go straight to work. I never had the staring blankly at home phase. But I was so kilig because I got to have a picture & meet my little light bulb of the year — Steffi! She's one of the best. Then I dealt with my valid IDs then prepared for my birthday!!!! I thank God for Jonathan every day for making my birthday special. I swear to God, there was no residue of the past left in my heart. It was just plainly full of joy & peace. Nothing else matters but the purest of my days. I lived by July.

In August, pressure came to me. I had 2 weeks remaining to prepare for an examination that would determine my future. I studied diligently for the first two weeks of the month. I was anxious as to whether I'd get to see my name in the list of passers. I was scared because I could not cover all the topics covered. After the exam, I went to Intramuros to breathe. I rode a bamboo bike & went to the seaside amusement park. It was exhilarating. All the pressure is released. Then I went on my normal work routine. I got to bond with my new people from the office. I got to share my story & listen to their tales. I can never do this without these people. I sailed, in August.

In September, my days at work were numbered. I knew that when I accepted the job, it was just a good six-month contract to relieve my superior while she was on study leave. And I am extremely exhausted. I am craving rest. I badly want to hibernate for a month or two. And there’s this sadness when something is coming to an end. I cherish every moment I have left with my colleagues at work. I did my best to be present. Enjoy their company & appreciate and be grateful for God let me meet these wonderful people. I bid my farewell despite them wishing me to continue. The compensation can’t suffice me anymore, I have a degree now, and I believe I am worth more. I took the risk of taking a pause. I had my first photo booth too. With that, I closed in September. I slept when September ended.

In October, it felt like I was a lost soul. Wandering in nothingness. I had no idea as to where to go next. The next step was missing, it was blurry. So I took my time and loosened the grip for a moment. I watched a lot of series, learned to cook, and bothered my Mom everywhere she went at home. I spend my time breathing and stop thinking. But at the back of my mind, I am scared. I am scared for what’s next. I tried to look on different job searching platforms and it scared me more because I had no idea what the job descriptions were all about. I had doubts if I could do this nonetheless I am still a four-year-old adult. I gotta soft with myself when the world is rushing to harden me. I breathe even if I am scared. I work consistently, preparing for whatever is to come in my professional life. October passed me by just like that.

In November, the result that will determine the next step came out. It was nerve-wracking waiting for it. All of the sites were crashing. Then Ms. Camil messaged me. I passed. My heart is crying with so much delight. Now my path has clearer steps. Two weeks later, they offered to train me. Though I'm still taking my rest, I accepted the opportunity. My first at work was overwhelming. I cried myself walking home. I had my doubts. I am becoming unsure as to whether I can make it. It was hard. The job was tough. But I told myself, let’ give it time. Maybe it will get easy, ‘cause no one got it on the first try. No beginner is great on their first day. I am proud of how I showed up this month. Trying with uncertainty in my heart. I loved it. November made me proud.

In December, the universe gave me the final blow of its ginormous blessings this year. Every time I look back, I can't help but wonder how someone like me can receive so much. So much love, joy, and peace. Everything was good. Every twists and turns was made for me. I am a million miles far away last December. Every single thing that cracked my heart open in the most soul-crashing & heart-wrenching way, gave me the possibility to receive an overflowing love from myself and from the people I met this year. Every wound is a space for better things. Perhaps life unimaginably breaks us so we can unimaginably experience the beauty of life too. In a world that depletes us, it has its way of filling up those spaces with something better. Something you truly deserve and what you need exactly at the moment. In the end, everything that broke you will build you. This month it was light. I had zero worries. I felt sufficient. With that, I am forever grateful to you December. Let's meet again next year.

Love, Chacha

[benefits1986]

Living Legends are Made of Shattered Bones & Finely Crushed Ego

South to Katips Station na ba talaga tayo? Thank you, Vito Cruz Station and Ikot-Toki. HUY. LUH.

As a side note agad: Ang first ever subok ko sa screenwriting as a non-technical writer ng scripts for movie and film with dyslexia na may gingko biloba and fucking grammar problems ay tinawag ng prof ko sa grad school for my elective? Akala ko, babaralin ako e. Ready naman ako... always. Sabi niya, for pitching na raw ito sa mainstream media na hindi malapit sa puso ko. Go figure. Hahahaha. I was dumbfounded and hindi ko tinapos kasi nga gusto ko sa Netflix or other online streaming platforms tulad ng IWantTV (hahaha) siya i-pitch. Arte ko talaga. Hahahaha. Got it from mom, I guess. Super nagulat ako e. Not bad for a first timer, right? Hihi. Huhu. Haha. Hehe. Hoho. Probably my most "lakas maka-ego and hypothalamus" boost in my existence levels 'tong bit na 'to. :p KILIG LEVELS: 1000000000000 Also me rn: Magkano ba isang full-length and short film script ngayon? DM slide please. CHOZ. Wala talaga akong idea pa kasi ayokong ma-corrupt ang WIP files ko. Charaught.

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It's so excruciating to go from the South all the way to Diliman and beyond. While driving is an option, the truth is that I can leave the house at 5:30 AM, ride the train going to Q Ave. then ride an Ikot. Minimum travel time is around 1 hour, 45 minutes when I don't brisk walk. If I'm going to Katips, that would take me around the same time. This is how I hustled back in 2015. This is not the case anymore these days, though. Apart from being frailer than usual, Manila's public transport is too painful to watch and conquer. Another option would be driving to Boni or Shaw and parking there to somehow avoid the hassle of commuting from my tiny home. Guada and Kapitolyo are the main bitch roads. These are the type of roads that will make you pray and surrender, traffic-wise.

However, it's funny how my time and motion version of my dream (turned harsh reality) school, Diliman brings me to Katips area. Alam ko lang talaga kasi Philcoa, Maginhawa at Krus na Ligas e.

LOL. As a Southie for life, the roads here are too busy, too wide and too densely populated. I can not unsee. I'm always bothered and curious because I keep stumbling upon stuff that has derivatives from the sedated South. I abhor all kinds of foot bridges because it means I have to walk a lot while overthinking about the thought of me tripping or falling down the merciless road on my way to carnage. Ang lala 'di ba?

The first time I told mother dragon that I got accepted in Diliman, she was RBF but I can sense that she is crying so badly deep inside. HAHAHAHAHA. Later, she told me during our three-hour morning routine that she was so sorry that she didn't allow me to go after my dreams. And that she wasted my time even more. Of course, I retorted with a huge lump in my throat. I told her flatly that it's okay because I'm trained to wait even when I'm totally impatient. What's more important is that while I wasted time in Vito Cruz, she got her dream; hence, win-win... at my expense.

I think her next lines were probably my salvation after a long damnation, an Exodus: Anak, sorry talaga. Akala ko mapipigilan kita sa pangarap mo. Hindi pala. Sorry. Siguro kung sinuportahan kita noon, wala ka dito ngayon. Proud ako sa'yo, anak, mula noon hanggang ngayon. Me: Ma, eto lang kasi 'yan. Kung nakuha ko na pangarap ko noon, e 'di sana wala akong time at pake na alagaan ka ngayon 'di ba? Syempre, dream ko 'yun e. Ibang usapan na 'yun. LUH. Mom teared up. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. That feeling of seeing her actually being apologetic is what made me euphoric; however, I knew that my other dream was to let her live vicariously through my Vito Cruz days. What I realized during countless days, hours and minutes of choosing to be at home with mom was that, time is but a bloody social construct. Syempre, hindi pa at its peak itong realization na 'to because I'm a newbie adult then. I held on to one of my favorite Psalms: God is faithful to the brokenhearted with so much fervor meets delulu levels. I was an agnostic, then. But, I think cool off phase ko lang talaga 'to with the church life. Hindi naman ako officially nakipag-break sa Katolisismo, because I knew that apart from breaking mom's bones and heart again, my faith is my refuge.

And so, I finished off some important work stuff and while I'm yet to finish the mega working file that would spell 2024, especially Q1, I braved my way to my first ever face to face meet up with the living legend (aka National Artist, baby) Ricky Lee and friends. HUHUHUHUHUHU. What took me this long? Here we go!

27 MARCH 2020. Syempre, sagad deadline tayo sa pag-submit ng "what if + this would matter 1 year from now" letter of intent + author's bio to Ricky Lee and his team. This involved his first ever online writing workshop. I was in legit spiral mode and still thankful that I have steady work, at home pa. Might be because I tried to recover from the high turned crash of my Japan dream. Might be because I was shackled and I'd like to dress in laces. Arte. Might be because I was bored to death and ready to not give a fuck anymore. I revisited my letter of intent. Intense. Two pages. LOL. It read "Digital Story Binder" pala. Ang angas. Ang feeling. :D CHOZ. Kahihiyan. Hahahaha.

Dinaan natin sa listicle ang mga reasons why I need and want a spot because mas madali siyang basahin and digest ng kung sino mang babasa. And syempre, may kalakip na author's bio. Shemay. May linyahan pang: I am not a storyteller. I'm but a story binder. Rationale: Andami ng kwento sa mundo. OPAK. Reading this ka-shemayan is very curious lalo 2023 is ending soon.

Anyway, I'd most likely do a more focused dive on this bit since may tatapusin pa ako today. :)

To cut the story short, I purposefully flaked and skipped all meet ups IRL with Ricky Lee and friends because I was not ready to face this dream then. I felt like I was never enough and that my drama, my dirty linen, my frailty is not worth their time and mine, too. OPAK. Diesel girl kasi talaga ako e. I want it to brew the right way even when it had to take years pero bawi na tayo bilang road to 14 going 40 na ang peg natin sa life.

Last night, I met the living legend with akbay pa from him in his humble home. HUHUHU. Sobrang grounded. Sobrang wapakels. Sobrang organic niya. I don't like mainstream movies that much, honestly. But mom likes Anak a lot. I didn't know nga that Ricky Lee wrote it e. Hahahaha. But, when I did my research, all the mainstream films I like are penned by him. Muro Ami, Himala, Moral, and syempre, Anak. Hahahaha. Hindi naman ako super pasaway pero feel na feel ng nanay kong pakitong-kitong na suwail ako and kahit hindi naman siya OFW, feel na feel niya ang lahat ng dayukdok as a stay at home mother na selfless to the highest level.

I'd most likely squeeze in more time for finishing my scripts, finally. Why now lang? 'Di ako handa noon e. 'Di ako in to terms sa what I have and what I don't have pa. Sa pagsusulat kasi, sabi nga ni Bob Ong, 'yung rejection dito, malala. 'Di tulad nung pagbabalik ng Size 8 na sapatos sa SM via sales lady. Pero, sanay naman akong pagalitan, makarne, malambast. So eto na tayo. Eto na tayo sa exciting part as a saling kitkit kahit bano akong mag-ten-twenty since birth.

Baka sumubok muna tayo sa Vivamax kasi 'di umano, doon maraming budget. Pero syempre, ang subtext ay tungkol sa gender equality and mala-social commentary in the light of L meaning landi to the max. LUH. Confirmed nung isang writer kagabi. LUH. Shemay. Choz. Tawang-tawa ako sa mga usapan as in. Para akong isang Avatar na getting to know Pandora: Third World x Highway to Hell Edition. Abangan!

Kidding aside kahit jokes are half meant... these days, ang pinaka optimal route ng writers is script for... digital content aka content creators' hell and heaven. Ola. Ola. Ola. Olalalalala. Stumbled upon this the past months pero obvious naman kasi noh. Duh.

PS: Gusto kong i-optimize ang website ni Ricky Lee. UGH. How po ba i-pitch ito? Leads gen po bitbit ko, Sir. Baka naman. In black and white lang kasi dapat 'tong palette to begin with plus... okay, back to reality muna. Laters!

[jojojojonat]

Saekano: How to Raise a Boring Girlfriend (Anime) - 4/10 — good as past time if you got nothing to watch

I dont know if its either just my mood watching this or theres really no captivating essence in this anime. I mean its not generally bad, theres lots of okayish scene here and there but maybe it lack kilig aspects for me? Or those kilig moments in the anime doesnt really pack quite a punch. You may smile but not enough to dig deep down to your bones. Fav girl is surely Megumi ofc. The rest are just fetish WHAHHAHA most of them are even in the childhood friends category. Im not discriminating tho but yeah, not really appealing to me. The goal of the anime doesnt really gets you hype or whatever, even the rivalry part doesnt have a punch. I mean I do love making art, which in this case is making the game but yeah did really not stick with me. There were better ones in same category that can overtake this. So just watch this if you dont have anything to watch. Its an okayish past time.

Manga/Movies/Books/Song/Videos Review & Recommendation:

Its all just basically my thoughts, feelings and rating.

[lifeonmarssss]

I lost some weight recently but I got more kilig when I went out with my friend and she complimented me by saying I look sexy no matter what size I'm in because of my body shape daw. Of course nitukar na sab ako kahilas.I know every body has its own beauty but I'll always be grateful that I don't have a wide ribcage and high hips. God knows it's much harder to get a snatched figure with an inherently square bone structure. I'm just thankful I'm shaped the way I am. Anyways, I'm gonna continue with my hotter body 2023 agenda!! Mayta pwede na ko masud sa VS by the end of this year. Eme.

[mrskodzuken]

Grrrrrrrraaaahhhhh @lumpiang-toge I’LL MAKE THE EVENT BANNER LOOK GOOD DAMMIT 😤😤😤💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕👊🏻🙈🙈

[kwentongclengguh]

He rarely calls me anything na usually ginagamit ng couples, such as baby, babe, mahal, and love. We got used to calling each other “bebi” instead, especially pag magkasama kami, minsan “bebe” yung pronounciation but I don’t really mind.

To be honest, wala naman talaga sakin if may tawagan kami or wala, kasi in the first place alam ko naman na akin sya 😂 So I don’t really know if that makes sense, but of all his name calling to me, iba ang dating ng “my love” nya 😩

Para akong hinipan sa pwet at literal na kinilig ang tumbong. 😂 For all I know, buto sa pwet ang pinakamahirap pakiligin. Pero yung kilig ko kanina, umabot sa tumbong. HAHAHAHA

Gagu miss ko na boyfriend ko

[dyaryobagwis]

Kasal nina Bea Alonzo at Dominic Roque, isinulat sa buhangin

Ang pinakahuling larawan sa social media na magkasama sina Bea Alonzo at Dominic Roque ay noong nagbakasyon sila sa Japan bago matapos ang 2023.

Ang bakasyong grandeng ito ay bahagi na ng plano nina Bea at Dominic ng mga unang bahagi noong isang taon.

Marami pa silang balak noon at kulay-rosas pa ang kanilang paligid.

Panay pa ang kilig-to-the-bones na mga statement ni Alonzo pag itinatanong sa kanya si Roque.

Na para bang wala nang katapusan ang kanilang kaligayahan.

Inspiradung-inspirado ang aktres sa kanyang pakikipagromansa sa aktor kahit ano pa ang sabihin ng kanyang mga kaibigan na kesyo hindi bagay sa kanya ang isang tulad ni Dom na anila at sa pananaw nila'y wala pang napatunayan at hindi malaking pangalan ang kasintahan.

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Ngayon ay wala nang lumalabas na mga larawan na magkasama sina Dom at Bea kundi sila-sila lang, solo-solo lang.

Sa kanyang pinakabagong post sa Facebook at Instagram, mag-isa lang si Roque samantalang dati-rati'y matatamis na pagsasama o kaya'y pagkiling ng aktres sa mga bisig ng aktor ang makikita sa social media.

Ang isa pang pinakahuling publisidad ni Dom sa kanyang sarili sa IG at FB ay may karga-karga siyang bata.

Nakakaintriga, di ba?

Pero kaanak lang niya ang baby girl at hindi anak.

Nakasulat din sa IG caption ni Dom na "Missing New York" dahil pabalik-balik naman siya sa US.

May isa namang litrato si Roque na nakaupo sa dalampasigan at nakatanaw sa malayo.

Nag-iisa rin siya.

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Sa panig naman ni Bea, solo na rin ang mga rekuwerdong kanyang ipino-post sa social media.

Hindi tulad noon na namumutiktik ang kanilang photos together ni Dom saanman at kailanman sila magpunta kung saan-saan.

Ngayon ay bigla na lang ipinamarali ni Bea sa apat na sulok ng mundo ang kasaluluyang sitwasyon ng kanyang buong pamilya.

Isinir-culate niya ang family photo nila na parang sinasabing sa gitna ng kanilang paghihiwalay ni Dominic ay handa siyang suportahan ng kanyang malaki at malawak na angkan.

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Wala pa naman talagang eksaktong petsa ang kasal nina Bea at Dominic dahil bago pa umugong ang hiwalayan ay hindi pa sila solido sa plano.

Ang general information lamang ay ang plano nilang destination wedding at ibig sabihin ay sa ibang bansa.

Pero wala na rin ito.

Wala na rin ang naka-schedule na pre-nuptial photoshoots para sa dalawa.

'Yon lang ang may nakatalagang petsa at lugar.

Pero ang sinasabing sa April ang .matrimonya para sa dalawa ay walang katotohanan lalo pa ngayong ang kasalan ay iginuhit lang pala sa buhangin sa dalampasigan na pag hinampas ng alon ay mabubura na lang at sukat.

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Nito namang mga huling araw na Enero at mga unang bahagi ng Pebrero ay wala na ring isinasagot si Alonzo tungkol sa balak nilang kasal ni Dominic bagamat may sinasabi siya tungkol sa kasintahan.

“He is self-assured now,” pahayag ng aktres.

“He is health conscious. He always plays golf,” wika pa ni Bea.

“Wala pa talaga,” ang tanging sagot lang ng dalaga sa mga tanong ng mga peryodistang pampelikula tungkol sa kasal.

Matatandaan na nag-engage sina Bea at Dom noong July last year.

Pero bigla na lang nitong pagkatapos ng unang linggo ng Pebrero ay nagpasabog sina Cristy Fermin, Boy Abunda at Ogie Diaz na hiwalay na sina Alonzo at Roque.

Sa anong dahilan, walang sibabi sina Boy, Ogie at Cristy.

Pre-nuptial agreement nga ba ang dahilan?

Umoo naman daw si Dominic sa kasunduan pero bakit hindi pa rin tuloy ang kasal?

Ano ba talaga, Kuya?

Kasi nga raw, sobrang dami nang naipundar ni Bea--malawak na farm, makapal na ipon sa bangko, mamahaling mga alahas, mga bahay na elegante at marami pang iba.

Sa pagkadalaga naipundar ni Bea ang mga ari-ariang ito.

Paano kung kasal na sila ni Dom?

May karapatan ba ang lalaki sa kayamanan ng babae?

Nandoon nga 'yon sa premarital agreement para alam ng bawat isa ang kani-kanilang karapatan at obligasyon sa pang-ekonomiko nilang buhay.

Bakit sinisiraan ng netizens si Bea?

Ipinagtatanggol naman siya ni Dom. "Bea, a beautiful person inside and out," sabi ng aktor.

Lalabas din naman ang katotohanan.