#kylerush

[kjthegingerone]

Another short poem today, I'm really enjoying getting back into writing, almost all of the ones I've posted are from about 5 years ago or more. New ones like this one, Fragile Beings, Split Lip/Split Life, In My Eyes and Sometimes I Sit and Wonder are all written in the past week or so. I hope you enjoy reading them and thank you for the likes. #KyleRush #Writersofinstagram #writerscommunity #poetsofinstagram #poetssociety #poetryofinstagram #poetrysociety #Love #Lovehurts #poet #poetry #scottishpoet #writer #scottishwriter #lyrics #lyricist #Scotland #Scottish #Glasgow #Glasgowlife #peoplemakeglasgow #Barrhead #scottishlife #scotland_insta #scotlandlover #spoonie #chronicillness #chronicpain https://www.instagram.com/p/Btn8yCZjLWn/?igshid=177gve3ycgmro

[strangederision]

Oh lookey, another broke-saq fountain of bullshit.

Kyle over here is most likely another Q-tard Santorum-gargler who hides it my trying to look “manly” and instead looks like a fucking depressed back up dancer for a Village People tribute band. Fucking dumbshit god-twat shit-skid.

[southxmrm]

SouthXMRM caught up with Kyle Rush after his talk at SXSW. Kyle explains A/B testing, talks about a trend he is seeing in the space, and tells us "who" his phone is!

[kjthegingerone]

Chasing A Memory

I walk along these lonely streets, to find a face long dead to me, he hides beneath the falling rain a shadow on a window pane, a fleeting trick of my eye, so many times I’ve watched him cry.

I’m just chasing a memory, of who I used to be, I don’t want to bring him back, no it’s too late for that, I want to tell him it’s alright, that we made it through in time, wrap my arms around my past and make him see, that he’s now me.

A constant battle through the pain a fight to break out of these chains, he disappeared inside of me, afraid to let the outside see, that hurt is caused inside my head, almost like it wants me dead.

I’m just chasing a memory, of who I used to be, I don’t want to bring him back, no it’s too late for that, I want to tell him it’s alright, that we made it through in time, wrap my arms around my past and make him see, that he’s now me.

I walk along these lonely streets, to find a face long dead to me, he hides beneath the falling rain a shadow on a window pane, a fleeting trick of my eye, so many times I’ve watched him cry.

I’m just chasing a memory, of who I used to be, I don’t want to bring him back, no it’s too late for that, I want to tell him it’s alright, that we made it through in time, wrap my arms around my past and make him see, that he’s now me.

Kyle Rush #writingformentalhealth #writing #poems #poetry #lyrics #lyricist #writer #poet #scottishwriter #scottishpoet #artformentalhealth #depression #anxiety #changes #mentalhealth #movingon #KyleRush #poetssociety #love #mentalhealthpoetry #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthwriting #writersofinstagram #writerscommunity #songwriter #chronicpain #spoonie #chronicillness #poetryisnotdead #crpsawareness https://www.instagram.com/p/BsLoBefDyB4/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=q67yxghki07h

[kjthegingerone]

The Mirror In The Hall

There’s a mirror in the hall and it just hangs there on the wall, I can’t look in it anymore, the man inside isn’t someone that I know, he’s changed in so many ways.

But I can’t look in that mirror anymore, the reflection isn’t me and I don’t wanna see him slowly fade away, living a backwards life within the guilded walls of the mirror in the hall, reflecting in his eyes I see that this is a disguise.

I took it down today but I couldn’t put it away he spoke to me as we came face to face. Looking in his eyes I began to cry he said this is not your fault, this is not your fault.

But I can’t look in that mirror anymore, the reflection isn’t me and I don’t wanna see him slowly fade away, living a backwards life within the guilded walls of the mirror in the hall, reflecting in his eyes I see that this is a disguise.

"This is not your fault" he wails as he starts to disappear, "this is not your fault I need you to promise when I’m gone, that you will carry on I am the way I am, somethings went badly wrong but you’ve held it together like a man, this is not your fault".

But I can’t look in that mirror anymore, the reflection isn’t me and I don’t wanna see him slowly fade away, living a backwards life within the guilded walls of the mirror in the hall, reflecting in his eyes I see that this is a disguise.

#Kyle Rush #poetry #lyrics #buddingwriter #artformentalhealth #mentalhealth #depression #whoami #mirrorinthehall #Gingerbuddha #KyleRush #whatdoyouthink #overthinker #writersofinstagram #writerscommunity #poet #scottishpoet #writer #scottishwriter #lyricist #songwriter #scottishsongwriter #poetssociety #poetsofinstagram #poetrysociety #poetryofinstagram #Scotland #chronicpain #chronicillness #spoonie https://www.instagram.com/p/Br8CbnNjrEy/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1bkaims15o547

[kjthegingerone]

Fleeting Affection In brief and brutal dalliances we fill empty spaces within, chasing joy with bleakest optimism, chasing contented existence under weight of dark depression. It's unnerving just how quickly love turns into tortured silence, we spill feigned expressions upon vague strangers, fawning in desperate, angsty attempts to impress and seduce fleeting affection, a synapse firing, hormone flood of tangled misery and soft bodies. #kylerush #glistenandflow #growingup #poetrycommunity #poetryofinstagram #poetryisnotdead #poetryporn #poetry #poetrylovers #poetrygram #poetryofinstagram #poetryislife #poetrysociety #poetryinmotion #poetrybooks #poetryislove #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #Depression #anxiety #chronicillness #chronicpain #crpswarrior #crpsawareness #crps #spoonielife #spoonie #spooniewarrior #depressed #anxious https://www.instagram.com/p/CE1J5JvBbNk/?igshid=11zsk65xqu0na

[kjthegingerone]

Ornamental Stars The last words you uttered in my direction, were of a dissatisfied, morbid confession, the sordid truth of your own infidelity, scarring words cut me to the bone, while the sweetest memories decorate my mind, like ornamental stars in midnight skies. Soon your words begin to just fall away, as you talk, as you tear my heart out, I fall into empty space, into misery and all I want is somber silence, to stop the torturous sentences and end what's being said. #kylerush #glistenandflow #growingup #poetrycommunity #poetryofinstagram #poetryisnotdead #poetryporn #poetry #poetrylovers #poetrygram #poetryofinstagram #poetryislife #poetrysociety #poetryinmotion #poetrybooks #poetryislove #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #Depression #anxiety #chronicillness #chronicpain #crpswarrior #crpsawareness #crps #spoonielife #spoonie #spooniewarrior #depressed #anxious https://www.instagram.com/p/B-yAqhKBTqe/?igshid=s9tnd1orj4g9

[kjthegingerone]

This has been half finished for about 6 months because I started it and felt like shit and never came back to it, until today, so this is Just Gone. Give me a comment, let me know what you think. Just Gone Don't cry for me, I'm just a man in a box, cover me with earth and move on, save your tears for the living, not this pile of dirt and rocks, I'm not in pain now, I'm just gone, just another soul lost in the ether, haunting the thoughts of those sad enough to remember. Don't cry for me, I'm not worth the sting, forget me like the rest, let go, I know I'm not going to be forgiven, I can't be not after what I've done, please know I'm not in pain now, I'm just gone, just another spirit in the sea of life, haunting everything hoping someone will remember me. #kylerush #glistenandflow #growingup #poetrycommunity #poetryofinstagram #poetryisnotdead #poetryporn #poetry #poetrylovers #poetrygram #poetryofinstagram #poetryislife #poetrysociety #poetryinmotion #poetrybooks #poetryislove #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #Depression #anxiety #chronicillness #chronicpain #crpswarrior #crpsawareness #crps #spoonielife #spoonie #spooniewarrior #depressed #anxious https://www.instagram.com/p/B_Fyy6DhBGm/?igshid=18zlqhs63wuos

[kjthegingerone]

Is madness really as bad as it seems? Asking for a friend 😉 Let me know what you think, this is... The Poet & The Madman Two sides of the same disfunctional coin, both wrestling to face the light of day, both fighting to see the other obey. A neverending battle for some semblance of control. The Poet endeavours to quell the insanity, with beguiling words of love and wonder, enchanting and illuminating prose of darkness and misery. Trying to soothe the madness as he's come to understand him, the words fall on angered ears to no avail. "Enough!" Cries The Madman, palms clutched against his head, rantung and raving of the horrors in his mind, wailing at the words The Poet tries to make him see. Hatred and confusion spew from his mouth at every turn, every insane notion he can summon he hurls at his enemy in the hope that he'll be left alone, in the hope he'll go away. The Madman feeds The Poet the haunting words and unbearable pain he can only imagine. The Poet feeds The Madman a glimpse of his sanity and the peace he desperately craves. #kylerush #glistenandflow #growingup #poetrycommunity #poetryofinstagram #poetryisnotdead #poetryporn #poetry #poetrylovers #poetrygram #poetryofinstagram #poetryislife #poetrysociety #poetryinmotion #poetrybooks #poetryislove #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #Depression #anxiety #chronicillness #chronicpain #crpswarrior #crpsawareness #crps #spoonielife #spoonie #spooniewarrior #depressed #anxious https://www.instagram.com/p/B_PvX5Th0kZ/?igshid=7m7eocnh0nur

[kjthegingerone]

Destructive Forces Why do you torture yourself with their lies? You destroy yourself when you close your eyes We follow in the path of the righteous but they're the ones who want to fight us. Now you know I wouldn't say it if it wasn't true because you know for a fact, I couldn't lie to you. There are destructive forces, your sick mind endorses. Look at the holes in stories they once told us. I can't tell you all you need to know, I can't tell you; you should let them go You must see for yourself that they're full of shit, before they drag you down inside their pit. We need to hit a turning point in this tale Show these ingrates that we're not for sale. Can't be faulted in this cause we're right Can't show signs of weakness or they just might bite. Now you know I wouldn't say it if it wasn't true because you know for a fact, I couldn't lie to you But there are destructive forces, your sick mind endorses Look at the holes in stories they once told us. I can't tell you all you need to know I can't tell you; you should let them go You must see for yourself that they're full of shit, before they drag you down inside their pit We can't live in a world run by parasites Who would rather sell you off than protect your rights that's how this is all designed Get you so hung up that you lose your mind Now you know I wouldn't say it if it wasn't true because you know for a fact, I couldn't lie to you But there are destructive forces, your sick mind endorses Look at the holes in stories they once told us. I can't tell you all you need to know I can't tell you; you should let them go You must see for yourself that they're full of shit, before they drag you down inside their pit. #KyleRush #poetsofinstagram #poetry #writerscommunity #writersofinstagram #poet #scottishpoet #corruption #lyrics #lyricist #songwriter #songwriters #writer #scottishwriter #governmentcorruption #richvspoor #poetsociety #corrupt #corruptpoliticians #corruptgovernment #fightback #protectthevulnerable #mostvulnerable #politicalrevolution #scottishindependence #independence #Scotland #spoonie #chronicpain #chronicillness https://www.instagram.com/p/Bs9DD8mjUO4/?igshid=kbmc0ifbex3s

[kjthegingerone]

Shadow Of A Better Me I blame myself for all the wrongs I take it just to make you smile Tell myself that's what I need That somehow you're the one But you've proved wrong more than once I played along, the doating fool Now I've grown and see what's right Play your games all on your own Don't look at me with innocent eyes That look of virtue I despise Won't play that part anymore It sickens me down to my core The fog has lifted and now I see The way I want my life to be Start again all by myself Taking myself down off your shelf Anything you'd ask of me Was done without a moments thought Each time a piece of me got lost I tried to make you see me there To see my love out on the line Stood there right in front of you A shadow of a better me But you just looked straight through Don't look at me with innocent eyes That look of virtue I despise Won't play that part anymore It sickens me down to my core The fog has lifted and now I see The way I want my life to be Start again all by myself Taking myself down off your shelf Didn't say all I wanted to Just enough to bring me back Salvage who I was before Find what makes me, me again New beginnings, open doors The sense of purpose I had lost Given up on long ago Back with vengeance on my side Don't look at me with innocent eyes That look of virtue I despise Won't play that part anymore It sickens me down to my core The fog has lifted and now I see The way I want my life to be Start again all by myself Taking myself down off your shelf The sense of purpose I had lost Given up on long ago Back with vengeance on my side. #KyleRush #poet #poem #scottishpoet #writersofinstagram #writerscommunity #writer #scottishwriter #lyrics #lyricist #songwriters #songwriter #song #songs #love #underappreciated #relationships #badrelationships #poetry #poetsofinstagram #poetssociety #poetryofinstagram #poetrysociety #Scotland #Scottish #Glasgow #chronicpain #chronicillness #spoonie https://www.instagram.com/p/BsoatZojkp1/?igshid=8r8guu13e9zu

[kjthegingerone]

What Comes At Night I pray that darkness won't come But I'm forsaken by the sun The light begins to fade So many times I've been betrayed Regrets resurface in the night Uncompromised by broad daylight Made to fear each speck of black by night I'm under full attack Can't close my eyes for fear of falling I can hear dark angels calling Darkness destroys all I see Only daylight comforts me Not felt its warmth for so long This pitch black holds so strong I do my best to overcome What lurks out of sight What comes at night Darkness wraps around my heart Tearing piece of mind apart A full assault of memories Spreading my pain like disease I throw my arms out to the night Begging it to end my plight It throws my weakness in my face And drags me to my darkest place Can't close my eyes for fear of falling I can hear dark angels calling Darkness destroys all I see Only daylight comforts me Not felt its warmth for so long This pitch black holds so strong I do my best to overcome What lurks out of sight What comes at night Kyle Rush #poem #poet #poetry #lyrics #lyricist #depression #anxiety #mentalhealth #scottishpoet #darkpoetry #suicidepoem #writingformentalhealth #writer #scottishwriter #dark #depressionawareness #KyleRush #darkness #mentallyexhausted #writersofinstagram #writerscommunity #songwriter #scottishsongwriter #poetsofinstagram #poetssociety #poetryofinstagram #poetrysociety #chronicpain #spoonie #chronicillness https://www.instagram.com/p/BsWXqTTD-xv/?igshid=o17mbh6ewcqs

[kjthegingerone]

Corner Of A Padded Cell So often my kindness You've taken for granted Made me feel an obligation To do the things that I wanted My heart abused and kindness used It spins around inside my head This goes against my nature But I can't do it anymore The disillusioned entity Of the fool I used to be Is rocking back and forth In the corner of a padded cell Staring through the glass I see The pathway to another hell He looks at me with tainted eyes As if to say he's been betrayed Haunted by loves fingertips Still pressed against my lips A lifes plan left in ruins Hung by a thread for so long A memory that lingers still A virus that I don't want to kill Spreads like sickness in my mind This heart's afraid to love again The disillusioned entity Of the fool I used to be Is rocking back and forth In the corner of a padded cell Staring through the glass I see The pathway to another hell He looks at me with tainted eyes As if to say he's been betrayed If I make it through another day I'll gather strength and keep it safe Times a healer but still leaves scars These scars of life are hard to hide Marks left by torture and pain Hope built up then knocked down You can't forget a past so bright Memories of that stolen light The disillusioned entity Of the fool I used to be Is rocking back and forth In the corner of a padded cell Staring through the glass I see The pathway to another hell He looks at me with tainted eyes As if to say he's been betrayed If I make it through another day I'll gather strength and keep it safe Kyle Rush #KyleRush #poems #poetry #scottishpoet #writerscommunity #writersofinstagram #lyrics #lyricist #songwriters #mentalhealth #mentallyexhausted #relationships #love #despair #paddedcell #darkpoetry #dark #emo #depression #depressed #poet #poetsofinstagram #poetssociety #poetryofinstagram #poetrysociety #scottishwriter #Scotland #chronicpain #chronicillness #spoonie https://www.instagram.com/p/BsmCN2GDS3d/?igshid=sxi7dhr1zb7e

[kjthegingerone]

What Went Wrong? I feel the stress tighten round my neck And I slip from consciousness I begin to fall through the dark clouds Into a wondrous white light And down onto green pastures In this place I'll call Limbo I'll find out what went wrong What went wrong? With what I had left torn apart I lashed out at my own heart In this place that I have found I can see what I've become All the things that had kept me alive All of the people who want me to thrive And only now I can see that they were all there for me What went wrong? And the feelings are spinning, Like hurricane winds Picking me up and spitting me out, As the winds die down, there is hardly a sound, Just a breeze that whistles through trees. It's hard to believe but I started to grieve For the life I've forsaken, just asking myself What went wrong? With what I have left, all torn apart, I lashed out at my own crippled heart. This place that I'm in, I see what I have become, All the things that kept me awake at night All of the memories, dragging me back from the light And only now can I see What went wrong with me It's taken some time But I've committed no crime I'm just being myself Which is something I'm starting to see Don't break me Just take me The way that I am All this stressing and messing Around in my head Is all 'cause I want to be loved If you can't love me For how I want to be Then ask yourself What went wrong? #writersofinstagram #writerscommunity #poem #poets #scottishpoet #writer #writers #scottishwriter #lyrics #lyricist #scottishlyricist #loveyourself #love #songs #anxiety #depression #depressionawareness #KyleRush #Scotland #Scottish #Glasgow #GlasgowWriter #glasgowpoets #poetsofinstagram #poetssociety #poetryofinstagram #poetrysociety #spoonie #chronicpain #chronicillness https://www.instagram.com/p/BtR0yn_DWGk/?igshid=uq8uiqze8kcq

[kjthegingerone]

I'm not sure if I'm fully finished with this one yet but we'll see. This is Beautiful Again. Beautiful Again This is how you stole my heart, all you did was take my hand. When things got tough and I fell apart, you were there to help me stand, kept me smiling when I was down, you made my life beautiful again. Now you've turned my life around, I recognise you saved my soul. How do I sweep you off the ground, so that this world can't take it's toll. I'll hold your hand through all that comes, I love you because you made life beautiful again. #KyleRush #Writer #Writers #Scottishwriter #instawriter #poet #poets #ScottishPoet #igpoets #poetssociety #poetryisart #poetryislove #poetryisnotdead #poetrygram #Scotland #Scottish #Glasgow #peoplemakeGlasgow #poemsofig #chronicpain #chronicillness #spoonie #writing #creativewriting #Scottishlife #Glasgowlife #Scotlandlife #love #positivevibes #beautiful https://www.instagram.com/p/Bwhvmrfjkgx/?igshid=7b6fs0hw26es

[kjthegingerone]

Sleepers Walking among us every day They pass by unseen Barely conscious of what we say So unaware it's almost obscene It's hard for us to comprehend That they live in their own heads Into our madness they won't descend They're the sleepers of this world Never causing any harm Swept along in the undertow Carried by their thoughts and dreams Always cancelled out by the haters Because they won't get in your faces What if they told you all their dreams? Would you tell them what they mean? What if they told you how they feel? Would you tell them if it was real? They're not looking for you to verify They don't want to be heard out All they want is to sleep away As they live their story in their own way It's far from a life of peace and quiet They never moan, maybe we should try it Facing their demons one on one Before holding their faces towards the sun It's not easy to keep things under wraps But they always seem to plug the gaps Don't take these warriors for granted They're the sleepers of this world Never causing any harm Swept along in the undertow Carried by their thoughts and dreams Always cancelled out by the haters Because they won't get in your faces What if they told you all their dreams? Would you tell them what they mean? What if they told you how they feel? Would you tell them if it was real? They're not looking for you to verify They don't want to be heard out All they want is to sleep away As they live their story in their own way They're not looking for you to verify They don't want to be heard out All they want is to sleep away As they live their story in their own way. Kyle Rush #poet #poetry #sleepers #poem #life #lyricist #lyrics #songwriter #scottishpoet #KyleRush #songs #song #words #commentifyoulike #writersofinstagram #lyricist #writerscommunity #scottishsongwriter #poetsofinstagram #poetssociety #poetryofinstagram #poetrysociety #Scotland #sqcottishwriter #writer #chronicillness #spoonie #chronicpain https://www.instagram.com/p/BsZGrRHj6Z4/?igshid=1usp69oy6zx15