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[pettypuppy-jonghyun]

Masked Dream

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Felix oneshot

Genre: royalty, dream, romance, fiction, au

Warnings: angsty af

Words: 1,603

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When the mask comes off, the night ends. When the mask comes off, the thrill of a chase ends. When the mask comes off, the deepest desires within your heart also ends. When the mask comes off, you are forced to wake up from the dream your mind escapes to---and everything ends.

A ball was held that evening in your palace. A ritual ball, one made yearly to keep your place as the Queen, high and unmatched. A royal ball that was always exquisitely and delicately designed each year to impress those of status and keep the routine.

With your heart elsewhere, endlessly searching the crowd for a familiar face, it was difficult to enjoy the night. Recently, your entire world has changed because of someone else. They made your sight more clear, your heart more filled, and your mind more open to the continuous routines of royalty. Now, yearly balls like this have no appeal to you anymore. Though, it was freshened up with the help of wearing masks in addition to new music.

He was nowhere to be seen in the ballroom. His ideas had stood ground and became real, with many stories of what his home was like and the differences in lifestyle. The music he had played for you, claiming it was something he learned from his home, was now ringing in your ears and catching your attention. It was not music your people were accustomed to, but it seemed to bring them all joy nonetheless. The stories he had told of different dancing styles that were now being enjoyed amongst your guests created laughter. They accepted change very easily when it came to him.

Your heart felt so broken knowing why it was he didn't attend your masquerade party. You recall him mentioning many times before how much he missed his home. How he yearned to be with the people he loved, his family and friends, and how he at least owed them an explanation for his absence. You had tried to convince him to stay, to write letters or visit on occasion, but he told you it wouldn't work. That his life was different. No matter how hard you had tried to understand, you couldn't quite grasp the concept of his world being so different to that extent.

No, you didn't want to understand.

Wherever he was from, whoever he was, you didn't want to know the truth. If anyone had questioned his origin, his status, or anything about him at all, you were the first to defend him. To hide it all. And now that your life has changed so much because of him, you feel even more empty than you did before he came. He wasn't even there to witness his effect on your world and your people. The people you wanted him to rule as well.

Your eyes suddenly met his in the crowd. Although he was masked, a dark black intricate design covering most of his face, you could recognize him anywhere. Surprised, you lent to the edge of your seat to catch a better glimpse. He stood still, watching you as well. As you go to move to stand from your throne, he slips back into the crowd and swiftly glides last everyone.

The rush of adrenaline fills your body as you quickly grasp your gown into your hands and race down the stairs. No one noticed your presence as you squeezed past the dancing couples and followed the same path he did. Out the balcony doors you went, the cold wind biting harshly at your exposed arms. However, you pushed through to run into the garden, not looking behind once.

Felix was sitting on the bench when you rounded high bushes, cautiously walking towards him. His mask now pushes his dark, long hair back and out of his eyes. He turns to meet your eyes again, but this time sharing a smile with you. He pats the space beside him, encouraging you to sit as well.

"What are you doing back here?" Is all you could manage to say. You felt shocked to see him at all, especially after the goodbyes he gave you the day prior. But you had hoped he would show, and that's why you were so desperately searching the crowd for his familiar eyes of fire. The flame that never died.

Felix turns his legs toward you and reaches a hand to your own, placing his on top. "My dearest love," he speaks softly. His left hand moves to caress the side of your face. "I don't have much time to say goodbye."

"We said our goodbyes before," you sadly mention. How could you forget? Your heart was aching because of that. "Why must you hurt me again?"

Felix smiles bitterly. "This goodbye is not the same. I have some unfinished feelings I would love to regret if I don't fulfill them now."

You grip his right hand tightly between your own and lean into the palm on your cheek. "Whatever you request of me, I will make happen like all the others you have requested before. Say it. Your word is my command, my darling, and if this be your last request I would only be able to listen."

Felix plays with the ends of your hair that was not tucked into the style your maids twisted it into. He took a deep breath before removing himself from you completely to stand. He outreaches his hand to you again before pulling you close into his chest.

"If I must make this request, I will do so after a dance. Dance with me, my love. While the music is faint, let us dance the way my home does. The way I have taught you."

And so you did. His hand wraps around your waist, pulling you even closer, and guides your hands around his neck. You began to sway gently as the intimate position forced your breath from your lungs. Oh, how you wished to stay like this forever.

Your fingers slip into his black hair, pulling on the ends softly. Your eyes look into his own, feeling as if you had to read his thoughts for them to be known. He didn't speak as he continued to sway, just smiling softly at you. It was like every other problem had washed away with him in your arms.

All too soon, the song ended. Stepping away, you both bow to one another as a courtesy from your home. Even more so than before, you could feel your heart beating harshly against your chest. You began to count the beats to ensure they were regular. You didn't look at Felix this time.

"My Queen," he whispers. He reaches to remove the purple mask from your eyes, gently placing it on the bench. "There are so many things I must explain, like who I am and where I come from. But for now, I am only able to tell you this."

You grasp his forearms to keep him from pulling away. "You don't have to tell me anything-!"

He shook his head. "No, darling, I must. It is for the best that I do so now while you are happy within my grasp." He tucks a tendril from the side of your face behind your ear. Gently. Softly. Tenderly. "I want you to know that everything we have felt together has been real. My love for you, my actions, my words, have all been true. Real. But I'm afraid, that is not the case for you."

Suddenly, Felix's voice was cracking. The tears began to well up in his eyes as he gazed so lovingly at you. You couldn't breathe. "I don't understand," you quietly tell him. "I have always been true to you. I have always been honest with my love for you."

Nodding, he breathes out, "I know. And I will always remember you for that. But I have realized now the truth that I have been missing. It is not I who is from another world, but you. You are not real. You are a figment of my own imagination, and will be gone when I go back."

You were startled from his confession. The tears pour down his cheeks like a river stream. His grip on your wrist tightens as you move to take a step back. Your mouth was dry when you attempted to speak again. You couldn't bring yourself to say anything.

"I am so sorry," he cried out.

You wanted to reassured him. You wanted to wipe away those fretful tears and try to convince him to stay with you regardless. To never go back again, now that he was still here. But his words rang in your mind.

It didn't make sense.

"Felix," you try to call his name after a moment. "Please, I don't understand what you are trying to say to me. Are you leaving me? Why must you cry so terribly? Your tears are breaking my heart."

"How I wish you were real," he whispers. He didn't look at you, head hung low and eyes to the ground. "I should have known this was my fault."

When Felix opened his eyes again, you were gone. His eyes met the inner walls of his apartment instead, and his heart dropped to the pit of his stomach. The feeling of your body against his was still vividly there, and he wrapped his own arms around his chest, almost as if to savor it. The tears were still falling, the only real part that followed him back from the dream.

[cutecherrygirl]

Felix - Love you Goodbye

Warnings: Angst, smut.

Summary: The year is 2020, and Skz is going through hard times. This causes the members to start overworking themselves and go through waves of stress. Your boyfriend Felix is persistent but you can see everything is starting to take a toll on him. Scared of becoming a burden, and also wanting Felix to be able to give his full focus on the group you decide to end things. Before that happens though, Felix wants just one more night with you.

You and Felix have been together for a year. To be honest, you both have never been happier. Felix had never felt so much love from one source alone. Being together was like something out of movie scenes, that is until recently. These past couple of weeks have been more than hectic. Hyunjin went to Hiatus ,while skz were trying to figure out how to perform Cover is Du4 without Hyunjin.

You’ve attempted to help in any way you possibly could. You would bring lunch and dinner over to the boys dorms when you had time, and when horrid rumors about the members started to suffice you would try to be there emotionally for them as best as you could. There were also plenty of nights where none of you would get any sleep thanks to due dates or practice. You truly tried your best, but you were only one person. You could see how not only exhausted Felix was, but all of the members. 

Even though everything was rigid, they continued to work hard. You felt bad, only being able to watch from afar. That’s when you started to think, how hard it must be for Felix to try to juggle a relationship & his work. He shouldn’t have to worry about not being able to make time for you then feel bad because of his career. You also had just received a job offer in a different country. You knew first hand that with both of your already crazy schedules, a long distance relationship would not be possible.

You sighed, looking up at the ceiling. You had to carry out the toughest decision of your life. You had to do it. It would be harder later than now. Still though, you laid in bed, deep in though. Is this really where it’s going to end? Just like that? The situation didn’t seem real to you. Suddenly your thoughts are interrupted by your phone ringing. It’s now or never. You gulped and answered the phone.

"Hey Lixie..."

“Baby…” Felix whined from the other side of the line. You couldn’t help but smile. “Yes bub?” He was so cute. “I miss you. Come see your cute Chicken boyfriend.” Felix spoke with a sweet tone. You giggled. “I’ll be there in 10.” With that you hung up the phone. You sat up from your bed, realizing the reality that was about to hit you both. You rushed and grabbed your car keys, heading out.

“Hello there, my sweetie.” Felix greeted you at his room door. He pecked your lips, smiling afterwards. You looked down, allowing your thoughts from earlier to eat you up. Felix noticed something was off and looked down at you. “Are you okay baby?” He asked, concern clear in his voice. Your eyes looked up to meet his own. “Felix we need to break up.” Your words lingered in the air. The room was suddenly silent, your breathing being the only thing audible. Felix was looking towards the ground, unable to say anything. “What are you talking about? Is it me? Was it something I did? Y/n I promise I can-'' You stopped his babbling, “No Felix, it’s nothing you did.” Your voice started to become shaky and your vision blurry. You took his hands in yours and he held on tight. “I’m moving out of the country, I got a job offer. It just wouldn’t work. And you should be able to focus on Skz.”

You smiled as you continued, trying to hold back tears. “Plus, I don’t doubt Skz will conquer success.” It was the truth, they were the strongest group of people you’ve ever met. You had every bit of faith in them. “But it’s not fair to the both of us if we can only hold each other back. It’ll be better if we both just ended things here.” There was no doubt Felix’s heart was breaking at this very moment. But he understood your every word. You were right. He couldn’t argue with that.

“Where are you going?” He asked trying to focus on the more positive. “If I tell you that, you’d just end up at my doorstep.” You forced a smile at your remark. “So? I love you Y/n.” Felix couldn’t contain his tears anymore. He grabbed your waist, pulling you into his embrace. Felix held on tightly, letting his cries become vocal as he sobbed into the crook of your neck. “I love you too.” You joined him in woe. You caressed his back, trying to sooth him by any means. Felix lifted your chin up with his fingers. He planted a soft tender kiss. But even that couldn’t stop the tears. The kiss became more sloppy but longing at the same time, the taste of your salty tears mixed in added additional wetness. You suddenly pulled away, looking him in the eyes.

“Stay with me… one last night.” Felix requested. How could you deny him? Tonight would be the last of each other, why not spend it in pure sensual love?

You nodded in response and once again Felix’s lips met yours. This time it was more passionate, more heated, but still full of heartbreak. Felix’s hands began crawling up your shirt, rubbing small circles into your bare waist. His touch was something you had never gotten used too, goosebumps spread all over. His tongue slipped into your mouth, twirling around with yours. After being like this for a good minute, the heat became too much for Felix. He pulled away, a tiny string of saliva pulling between you. He lifted up your shirt.

His lips rushed to kissing your exposed skin. He was sucking, licking, biting all over your neck and collarbones, while unclamping your bra. Your breathing became heavy. You couldn’t help but moan softly as Felix found your sweet spot. It was a good thing some members were gone for a family visit, & the rest of the members were out of the dorms.

Once Felix got your bra off he picked you up and laid you on his bed. He hovered over you kissing you again. 

You were still his for the time being. You tugged at his shirt, usually he would smirk at your eagerness, but he just bit his lip trying to refrain from a look of bitterness. He pulled his shirt over his head. You sat up and began kissing his upper body, small sweet pecks. Felix sighed at the feeling. Everything was hot but his mind kept going back to the fact this would be the last he would be able to feel your lips all over him like this. Felix grew frustrated and pushed you back down into the bed.

He pulled your jeans off with haste, you gasped at his swift motions. He went down and kissed your hardened nipples. He grinded down on your heat while his tongue swirled around your breast. “Felix..” You moaned his name, letting him take over every inch of you. “What baby? Tell me what you want.” His voice was breathy, trying to mask the shakiness. You grinded up into him, creating heated tension. You moaned again, “Felix, I want…” You trailed off. You pulled Felix’s face down, you bit his ear softly, a moan escaping his plump lips. “No. I need you.” You stated. With those words, he unbuckled his pants, stripping off the last remaining clothing. 

Before he could move further you grasped his member in your hand. Felix sucked in his breath quickly. You bent over leaving wet kisses up and down his shaft. Felix closed his eyes as you took him in your mouth. He loved when you sucked him off. “Just like that baby.” He exhaled. You detached your mouth and smiled up at his scrunched up expression. His hair already clung to his sweaty face. Oh, how you were going to miss him. Felix went back to hovering over you and slipped off your panties. You let out a shaky breath, remembering for the hundredth time that this was the last time.

It’s like you were both connected, because Felix felt it too. He looked down, making direct eye contact. His eyes held nothing but both, love and melancholy. “I love you so much.” He said, You smiled sadly at him, too scared to respond to anything, scared because this was becoming real. Felix aligned himself with your entrance and slowly pushed in. You moaned loudly. Felix kissed you passionately. Once he felt you adjust he slowly pumped in & out at a slow pace. Even though you were lost in the euphoria of the moment your heart continued to ache. Felix made love to you slowly and lovingly. He made sure that you could feel his love for you, even as his chest felt like it was being ripped open. “Felix..”

You moaned his name, gripping his hair. He grunted lowly. He quickened his pace. “You feel so good Y/n. Keep moaning my name baby.” He was engulfed in these hot flames of arousal and despair. He clung onto your body because this was the last time he’d be able to hold you this close again. You shut your eyes, a single tear rolling down as you moaned. You kissed Felix’s shoulder, relishing in the feeling of him inside you. The thought alone was enough to send you over the edge. Your body shuddered as you came undone around him.

Pretty soon you felt his movement become unsteady and sloppy. With a few more thrust he pulled out, letting out low moans as his hot liquid released on your lower stomach. Your heavy breathing was the only thing audible in the room now. Once Felix calmed down he grabbed a towel and cleaned you up. He laid beside you pulling your body close to him. He pecked your temple and closed his eyes. He knew yours remained on him but he ignored your gaze on purpose. He didn’t want to come to terms with the reality in front of him. He didn’t want to let you go.

He didn’t want to hear you speak a word because he would fall apart all over again. Maybe if he just held you close & shut his eyes all of this would’ve been a bad dream. He’d wake you up to the smell of pancakes, you’d strut into the kitchen with his shirt on, and he’d be able to see your beautiful smile once again.

Serenity had taken its course as you engulfed yourself in the feeling of his arms wrapped around you. You closed your eyes and fell into a slumber by the boy you who would soon become a memory.

Your eyes fluttered open. Your first instinct was to look towards the window. The color of the morning was a taint greyish blue. Meaning, the sun hadn’t come out yet. Your head turned towards Felix’s sleeping body. His blonde hair was sticking up in all sorts of places, his lips swollen were puffy, and the duvet outlined the silhouette of his body beautifully. You smiled, mentally snapping a picture of his state in your head. You pecked his forehead tenderly. The feeling of overwhelming heartbreak returning. You stood up gathering your things and putting your clothes back on. You grabbed your keys and turned the doorknob to leave. You looked back at Jimin one last time and frowned. The tears formed in your eyes but you hastily walked out, leaving before you could turn back and do something stupid.

A couple hours later, when the sun was peeking through the windows Felix slowly opened his eyes. He smiled remembering the events of last night. He turned to look at your sleeping body but he was met with emptiness. And there was his cruel reality. The loneliness had hit him like a ton of bricks. His heart clenched in his chest and the tears built up in his eyes again. Could you really be gone? For good? Forever?

Felix looked around the room in panic looking for any piece of you. Suddenly your existence itself felt like a dream. A dream that was never true. A dream that was disappearing from his memory. To his dismay, not a trace of you was found. It was like you were never there. Felix wept aloud, his hand gripping his chest tightly. The pain was too much to bear. He fell to his knees as the tears ran down his face nonstop. His worst nightmare had come true. This really was the end.

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[goldenjupiterz]

staring contest — idol!lee felix x f!reader

pairing — idol!lee felix x female!reader

trigger warnings — almost kiss, getting pinned, and idk what else

word count — 0.3k

summary — you volunteer to go up on stage to participate in a staring contest with one of the members of skz, but something unexpected happens.

lowercase intended ! p.s. this was heavily inspired by that one video of VAV and that staring contest with a fan. yk the one- p.p.s. i'm currently accepting requests for imagines of skz ( just not for 18+ content ) so don't be afraid to ask !

staring contest | idol!lee felix x f!reader

you almost immediately regretted volunteering to participate in the staring contest. for one, you were on stage, which was something you hated by itself already, and you were also on stage, facing most likely thousands of people. yet another thing you strongly disliked. people.

yet you were feeling brave, and how often did someone get to participate in a staring contest against their bias from their favorite group?

so, here you were, standing two feet away from felix, doing your best not to blink. you tried to look everywhere but his eyes - his freckles, his hair, his nose, yet none of it seemed to be working, because your gaze would wander back. and every time it did, you got closer and closer to losing the challenge.

it also didn’t help that felix was slowly leaning in, to the point where you instinctively stepped back, only to be met with a hard as rock back. 

the fact that you were backed up didn’t stop his approach and his face was now inches away from your own. he casually placed his arms on either side of your head, trapping you in place. “what’s your name?” he asked casually, leaning in even closer, your noses brushing against each other. his gaze searched yours and you could feel the heat creeping up your neck.

“y/n.” you said, your voice cracking. you silently cursed it for failing you at the wrong time.

his lips were centimeters away now. and he began to lean in closer and you didn’t run away and-

blink. he grinned, removing his hands from both sides of your head. “i win.” he said smugly, taking several steps away from you. 

you continued to blink quickly, now feeling the wetness in your eyes roll down your cheek. felix reached up, wiping it away with his thumb. “we’ll see who wins next time.” he continued.

next time?

[skzimagines]

Characters: Dom!Bangchan x female reader. | All of Skz |

Genre: College!AU | Smut, smut and more smut.

Summary: Chan has had his eye on the “femme fatale” of their group, for a while now. When you all get invited to a party, he takes this as his shot to get closer to you, without making it obvious.

Warnings: 18+ | Smut | Alcohol | Weed | Swearing |

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“You’re way out of her league anyway.” Minho say says, wrapping his arm around Chans shoulders with a laugh. “No he’s not! Shut the fuck up. He just isn’t interested. Asshole.” I laugh.

Minho has been trying to hook Chan up with this girl in our class all night. Chan has no interest in this girl, but Minho has taken it upon himself to invite her over with us. She stood around by Minho most of the time. I think she got the hint that Chan wasn’t feeling her, when she tried to dance with him and he lightly pushed her away.

We’ve all had plenty to drink, not understanding anything coming from our mouths anymore. Being tipsy quickly turned in to us being drunk.

“He’s not interested because he’s in love with you.” Minho yells over the music. I look at Chan, he looks down at the floor with a light blush tinted on his cheeks. “Go away!” I yell, pushing Minho away with a laugh. Minho walks away, and things become quiet between Chan and I. I get a text from one of my friends, who are outside smoking. They ask if I want to come out with them. I get closer to Chan, to talk into his ear. Considering he wouldn’t be able to hear me from the distance I was at, with how loud the music is. “Hey, do you want to come outside with me?” I ask. He rests his hand on my hip as I ask in his ear. I pull back to find an answer, he nods his head with a smile.

I grab his hand and drag him through the crowd of people, finding the back door and stepping out on to the balcony. The smell of smoke instantly hits my face. My friend walks up to Chan and I, embracing me into a hug. She pulls away and eyes Chan up and down. “Who’s this fine man?” She asks with a smirk. I laugh at her reaction to him, turning around and pulling him foreword by his sweater pocket to introduce himself. “I’m Chan.” He says, with that award winning smile. She stares at him for a few seconds longer.

“Are you fucking my best friend?” She says out of no where. I playfully smack her arm and give her a look of warning. “What? I’m just asking!” She says in a high pitch tone with a smirk. “Umm.. n-no I’m not… fucking her.” Chan answers her, but he’s looking into my eyes as he says it. My friend passes me a joint and a lighter. “Here, you two need to relax. I can taste the sexual tension between you guys. It’s sickening.” She says with a laugh before walking away.

“I am so sorry about her, she just has a mouth that cannot be tamed, I’m sor-” he cuts me off by taking the joint out of my hand. “It’s okay, no worries.” He says, placing the blunt between his lips and lighting the end. Taking a long drag before passing it to me. I do the same. I pass it back to him and he takes it, moving closer to me. His face centimeters from mine. “Besides, even if I was fucking you… I wouldn’t walk around telling everyone.” He whispers, sending chills up my spine. He takes another hit, blowing the smoke out directly into my face. I take a deep breath in as it flows past me. “Do you want to fuck me Chan?” I ask, in the most innocent way that I can. I take the blunt from him and take another long drag, exhaling it to the side. “I’ve wanted to fuck you since the first time I laid eyes on you.” He admits.

I drop the blunt and grab his face, slamming my lips into his. The kiss was aggressive, our tongues slapping against each others and our head rock back and forth, trying to explore each others mouths as much as possible. His hands cup my ass, mine pull his hair. Heavy breathing, moans and groans are all you can hear from the both of us. Like two lost souls have just found their soulmates.

“Mmm.. take me to a room Chan.” I say in between kissing. “You don’t have to tell me twice. He pulls away and grabs my hand, pulling me into the house through the crowd of people. He drags me down a hallway, finding a room and pulling me in. He shuts the door and turns the lock, then turns around and smashes his lips into mine.

I begin to back up, until the back of my knees hit the bed. I scoot across the bed, laying down. Chan climbs on top of me, quickly undoing his belt. “Give me your hands.” He demands. I give him a questingly look, holding my hands out for him. He moves my hands closer together and starts to wrap his belt around my wrists, finishing up by giving it a tight pull. “Try to get out baby.” He whispers. I pull at the restraint, trying my best to free my hands, to which I fail. “Perfect.” He says. He stands up, and strips himself of his clothes. He then pulls my pants down, leaving me in nothing but my white tshirt and black thong. “Mmm… you dressed up for me.” He says, twirling his finger around the string of my thong. Letting it go with a snap against my hip. “All for you Chan.” I whisper. I suddenly feel a sting on my thigh, as he lands a harsh smack on it. He slips out of his boxers before crawling back on top of me. He takes my restrained hands and places them over my head, holding them down with his hand. “From this point foreword…” he starts to say, as he drags his other hand up my body and under my shirt, pulling it up. “You don’t call me Chan.” He continues. He pulls my bra down, my tits falling out of the top on full display for him. He grasps one in his free hand and begins to squeeze my sensitive bud between his fingers. “You call me daddy.” He finishes. Giving my nipple a tight squeeze. A loud moan escapes my lips as he does so.

He eagerly lines himself up with my entrance, pulling the string of my thong to the side, out of his way. Before slamming himself into me. His hard cock slamming into my walls, my head flys back and my eyes roll. “I’ve.. waited.. for this.. for a very… long time.” He says with every deep and hard thrust. Cries and streams of moans are the only thing I can bring myself to say.

“Are you close baby?” He asks. I’m too fucked out to answer. A light slap is placed on my cheek. “Answer me when I talk to you.” He growls, fucking into me harder. “Yes daddy, I’m going to cum.” I moan out, louder than expected. “Good girl baby, cum all over daddy’s cock.” He groans.

My stomach grows tighter the more he talks. I can feel his thrusts growing sloppy, telling me he’s just as close as I am. He brings his free hand up to my mouth. “Open.” He says. I open and take his thumb into my mouth, licking and sucking as if my life depended on it. The look on his face sends me over board. My legs wrap around his waist, my head falls back and my eyes roll into my head, as I feel myself come undone around his cock.

“Mmm. That’s it baby, that’s it.” He groans as he hits his high. Covering the inside of me with his seed. He lays there for a second before pulling out and collapsing on the bed next to me.

“Why did this take so long to happen?” I ask with a smile. “Because I was too big of a pussy to make it happen.” He says with a chuckle. We lay in silence for a few minutes. Just taking in each others features. “Round two?” I ask with a smirk. “For your sexy ass? As many rounds as you want.” He smiles, before climbing on top of me again.

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[skzoolandia]

[boydepartment]

Just thinking 💌

Just thinking about watching Felix play videos games after a really tiring day. Watching how he’ll either be really overdramatic to make you laugh, or so focused on the game that you could admire him. You’d admire his side profile and try to count the freckles on one side of his face. Then you’d slowly fall asleep.

Just thinking

Just thinking about how after Felix gets home you have brownies ready for him. Usually he bakes for you but today you wanted to surprise him. He gets so happy that he makes a sprint towards you and practically tackles you. You two enjoy a nice dinner (spoiled by the sweets OOPS) and then watch a movie. You barely pay attention to the movie though, you and Felix talk through it making little inside jokes.

It’s the little things that matter to him.

Just thinking 💌

[emilyssky]

Chapter 1: 3:45am

PAIRING: Lee Know! x Fem!reader

GENRE(S): college au,smut,angst

WARNINGS: Mentions of violence and abuse, depression, self harm, eating disorders etc.. mentions of blood, swearing, smoking, smut [ dirty talk, oral; giving and receiving, chocking, spanking, praising, degradation, pet names, sometimes Minho is a dick :)

SUMMARY: "Do you remember what you told me the first time we met?"  

"What?"

"You said; Always leave people a little better than you found them" he looked at the floor with a small smile for a few seconds and then his eyes found mine. "You really annoyed me when we first met. I envied your optimism and excitement for life. But each time I saw you, I felt a certain thrill. You made me angry, you made me laugh., you made me feel everything. Something about you made me feel a little more alive each time. I know I fucked up and I know I'm an asshole but I'm also brutally in love with you."    

[the GIF is not mine]

1 year ago.

Tonight the night breeze feels more gentle than ever, even though it's freezing outside. Maybe it was too hot inside the frat house or maybe I'm still numb from everything that happened to feel the cold. My hands are still shaking from anger, my eyeliner is probably messed up and the world is still spinning. Tonight wasn't the night to drink so much but it was the only thing that numbed the pain, even for a few moments. The realization hasn't quite hit me yet. The tears have dried, but my heart still hurts. 1 year. 1 whole year of my life I dedicated to him. I cried over him, we fought, we laughed, we talked, and we made love. I opened up to him more than anyone. I trusted him and I fell for him. I thought Jackson would never hurt me. Everyone was warning me, telling me to stay away, reminding me of his 'fuckboy' reputation but I didn't listen. I was stupid enough to believe that with me he would be different like I'm some main character in a fucking movie. He was, in a way but he was also going through a lot but regardless I was there every single time. He had so many issues, so many demons, and such pain from his past that he hadn't and couldn't deal with, and I stayed despite everything. Despite the fighting and the yelling. Despite his cruel words and despite his inability to control his anger. I stayed even after the nights I forced myself to bury deep in my memories where his anger would take over completely. I understood him in a way and I loved him despite everything. But it was all a lie and finding out I was a joke to him made my world crash. That I was just some chick he wanted to fuck and make fun of with his friends. He tried to explain by saying that at some point he started to feel more and couldn't stop thinking about me. Bullshit. I slapped him for the first time that day, the day I went by his apartment, unexpected, and found all of his friends there that had no clue I was even his girlfriend. For a week straight he wouldn't leave me alone, He was calling me none stop, banging at my door, and showing up to my classes. I was thankful to Hyunjin and Felix for never leaving me alone when he was around. I hadn't left my bedroom for a week and Emma was begging me to come with her to this Frat party tonight.  I showered for the first time in days, put on make-up, and got dressed up. The alcohol made me forget for a while. I was dancing and drinking and I was having fun. Accidentally opening a bedroom door instead of the bathroom door and seeing Jackson half-naked on top of some blonde girl was when everything came back, crashing down. I left, I left and I've been walking in the cold for the past half an hour. My thigh-high boots and the leather jacket I stole from Chan are doing a decent job at protecting my legs from the cold but I still wrap my arms around my body tighter as I go up the familiar flight of stairs. When I reach the top, I notice that the door that leads to the rooftop is slightly open. I walk outside and when the air hits me, I feel like I can breathe again. I closed my eyes and take a deep breath. I take a few steps, aimlessly toward the center of the roof until a male figure comes into view. All I can is his back, that's rising and falling, almost as if he's trying to breathe. His head is down and he's only a few feet from the railing.

"Excuse- " I try to say in a quiet voice.

"Shit!" His body jerks backward, his hand searching behind him for the wall beside the door. "You scared the shit out of me" His eyes snap to mine when he reaches it.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to-"

"Fuckin hell" He curses under his breath and turns back around, this time with his head up, facing the sky. I found out about the secret door that leads to the rooftop of the dance building only a few months after I first started college and I've been coming here ever since whenever I needed to clear my head. It's the clear view of the whole campus, along with the height, the complete silence, and the occasional, calming breeze that makes me feel at peace and makes all of my problems disappear, even for a few moments. Tonight's the first time I see someone else here. I was kinda hoping that I was the only one that had figured out how to get up here, making it my special place but I guess I was wrong.

"Are you okay?" I dare to ask after a few seconds of silence.

"I came here for some peace and quiet, can you leave? I wanna be alone" He harshly says without even looking my way.

I'm a bit taken back by his response but I choose to ignore it, he seems like he's had a rough night. I bet I look the same.

"Yeah, same." I cross my hands. I can only see his side profile from where I'm standing. His hair is dark and slightly falling into his eyes, his lips big and full and his nose almost perfect. "Do you own this roof?"

He rolls his eyes, not amused by my attempt to joke. "I came here first"

"That's a really mature answer" I laugh and move forward to sit on the small bench that's in the middle of the roof. We're now on the same level but he continues to look straight ahead. His jaw suddenly tightens, and the hand that isn't touching the wall turns into a fist. He looks genually upset and my drunken mind is suddenly curious about the reason.

"If something's on your mind, just spit it out. There's nothing better than talking to a complete tranger about your problems. The fact that we probably won't ever see each other again makes it a lot easier." I say, trying to make him feel a bit more comfortable.

"Is your life going that great that you don't have any problems of your own or is just boring?" He starts pacing back and forth.

Excuse me, what?

"Just because I asked you a simple, human question when I saw that you're obviously upset about something, you think that I don't have my own problems?" I snap at him, getting annoyed. "Not all people are fucking rude out of nowhere."

He brings his hands behind his head, then back down to rub his face. "I'm not rude out of nowhere, I came here to be alone. I'm sorry if I don't wanna deal with some chick that probably wants to avoid her own issues and thinks that solving a stranger's will make her feel somewhat special" His voice rises with each word and his hands are everywhere, from his face to his hair the back to his side, clenching, unclenching. I'm trying really hard to control my temper. Oh, how I despise rude people. I rise to my feet, taking a step toward him.

"You're obviously going through something right now and you want to be alone but you don't have to be a dick about it . I was just trying to be polite." I spit through my clenched teeth.

" I don't want your kindness." He finally stops pacing and turns to face me. His hair is a bit wild from running his hands through it so many times, and his jaw is still tensed but what I notice more is his eyes. They're slightly red. Calm and wary as they stare at me. I study his face for a second. I definetly would remember him if I had seen him around here before, he's gorgeous.

"Have people not been kind to you?" I decide to ask. "Is that it? You're not used to it?"

His eyes shift and a small smile of satisfaction makes it's way to my lips, knowing I hit a nerve. "The world is cruel and people are crueler. There are no 'kind people' , only people that play nice because they want something for you or just wanna use you to feel better about themselves." His face is expressionless.

I narrow my eyes at him, wondering what could have possibly happened in this man's life to make him believe something like that. I smile at him, shaking my head.

"What's so funny?" He raises a brow at me.

"You have such a wrong idea about the world. Yes, people can be cruel, and use you at times but not everyone is like that. Everyone has problems, some bigger than others but at the end of the day, we're all struggling. Being kind to someone costs nothing to you but it may mean the world to someone. You don't know what someone is going through, they might be fighting to stay alive. You don't know what I'm going through, but you were so quick to judge me."

He blinks. His eyes seem just slightly softer than before. He parts his lips as if he's about to speak and then closes them again, almost as if I caught him off guard. He takes a deep breath and rests his back on the wall.

"Why are you so mad at the world?" I break the silence once again. At that, he smiles. His face completely transforms. He's even prettier when he smiles, I think to myself. I walk towards him but stumble on my feet, almost losing my balance. The world is still spinning and I mentally curse myself for drinking so much.

My actions draw his attention "Are you drunk?" He asks slightly amused.

"Well, I wouldn't say it like that" I walk back towards the railing "but I've had a couple of drinks"

He straightens his back and his face hardens in a second. "Hey stop." I stop walking. "You're drunk, don't move to close to the railing."

"I'm not drunk" I roll my eyes. "And stop changing the subject"

"Why do you care?" He groans.

"It's like 3 am, we're 2 strangers on a college rooftop, I'm tipsy and you're for some reason mad. Why not ask questions?" I shrug. "Come on, entertain me and maybe I'll entertain you with my problems." I offer with a smile.

He takes a deep breath and looks at the night sky. I spot the tiniest hint of a smile on his lips. "Why wouldn't I be mad at the world?" He says mostly to himself. "The world's unfair. A cruel place where none gets what they deserve. Life hasn't been kind to me, and people have definitely not been kind to me, why would I be kind to them?" He laughs. It's not a happy laugh.

"People always get what they deserve," My eyes focus on the sky, as I speak, mostly to myself as well. "it's not your fault that you've had shitty people in your life but being like them doesn't make you any better."

"Please spear me the 'treat people with kindness' talk". He slides down to the floor.

"You listen to harry styles?" I say surprised.

He freezes only for a split second. "That's beside the point-"

"What's the point?" I giggle. "Huh? Mysterious stranger, who hates everything?" I question, throwing my hands in the air "No actually let me tell you," I speak again before he has any chance to say anything." The point is that; there's no point" I smile. "The world is coming to an end, and we're all going to die eventually," I walk back and forth, my hands all over the place, my mind still a fuzzy mess. "So just live your life. Stop hating everything and stop giving a shit about other people. Life is unfair, deal with it." I'm now standing in front of him, looking at him like I've just figured out the most amazing theory.  His eyes are fixed on me, searching, analyzing. His lips frown, hands resting on his knees.  His mouth opens and then closes again. His eyes move to his hands and then back to my face.

His lips fall to small smile. "You're drunk. And annoying, and-"

"Right?" I tilt my head to the left, A laugh escapes him, and he shakes his head. After a few seconds, his face falls a bit, eyes focused back on the night sky.

"I don't really see the point"

"Then change it". I fall to the ground beside him.

He looks at me confused. "Change what?"

"Your life. If you don't like it, change it"

He bursts into a laugh. His whole face changes. His eyes are almost closed, little wrinkles appearing on each side from laughing. His lips tug to create a smile, that takes almost half of his face. I stare at him in awe.

"What?" I ask with a smile on my lips as well.

"You make life sound so easy. You present everything about life so simple as if you actually have a saying in everything." He turns his head to me. "News flash kid, there are a lot of things that have happened or will happen in your life that are beyond your control."

"Maybe" I shrug "You're probably right, but giving up on trying to be the happiest you can be is definitely not the answer to your problems."

"And what is?" He half smiles, challenging me.

"Don't you have any dreams? Things you want to do? Places you wanna go?"

He takes a few moments to think before answering. "I used to, yeah. I wanted a lot of things but every time I wanted something, it was taken away from me. So I stopped wanting things. If you don't want anything, you can't be disappointed for getting nothing."

"Yeah, I get it . That's hard but," I pause, and he looks at me from the side of his eyes. "You have to appreciate the little things in life and be grateful for everything." I finally say, repeating the words my mother used to say to me whenever I would think that everything was going to shit.

"You don't know shit about my life" He sifts his body to face mine. His eyes are somewhat harder than before, cold almost. "Stop talking like you do"

I wanna laugh at how defensive he's getting but I don't wanna appear heartless just because I'm drunk and everything seems a little funnier than usual. So instead I sigh, choosing a different approach. "Look, I'm not some optimistic chick who always smiles and only sees the best in every situation."

"You sure act like it" He glares at me.

I wish. I wish I was all the things I present myself to be. I wish I could take my own advice.

"Everyone is fucked up in a way. I just don't need anyone to know how fucked up I actually am. I'm more than all of my problems and mistakes. I'm also my dreams and everything that I've gone through and accomplished. All of us as are." I rest my head on my knees. My words draw his attention. He chooses to mirror my position, resting his own head on his knees. I smile, finding it cute. "Everyone has their own story, and maybe yours is sadder than others's but it's your own story and you're the writer. Scratch people out. Feel free to fuck everything up with a plot twist." I giggle. "Write something better."

His eyes haven't left my face, they bore into mine and for a moment I swear they sparkled. "What are your problems? It's you turn to entertain me."

"There are plenty." I nod my head,smiling.

"Tell me the biggest on right now."

I feel the words in my throat, the words that never actually left my mouth. The words that I've never said out loud let along to another person. I look into the stragner's eyes. "I've been in an abusive relationship for almost a year and I finally found the courage to leave him. " The weight begins to lift of my shoulders. "I've kept that part of my relationship hidden for all of my friends, among other things cause I'm too ashamed to admit that I was so stupid and weak for so long." I break into a laugh but tears begin to fill my eyes, as the realization of the whole situation now that I'm saying it out loud feel more real than ever. It makes me  feel kinda free to finally share this with someone nevertheless.

For the first time tonight his face visibly holds emotion. He takes his bottom lip between his teeth and then he takes a breath, getting ready to speak.

My phone starts ringing. interrupting whatever he was going to say. Chan's name flashes across the screen.

"Hi-"

"Where the fuck are you?" Chan's angry voice comes louder than I was expecting, making me pull my phone away from my ear.

"I'm walking back home" I lie.

"Why would you leave without telling us? And why are walking back home alone at 3 am? Are you stupid or are you stupid?" He sounds a bit out of breath. "Send me your location, we're leaving now. I'll come and get you" He says sternly.

"Okay" I choose not to anger him further and hang up.

I look back at the guy. His eyes are not on me, instead, they're glued to the sky, almost as if he's searching for something.

"I have to go," I quietly say. He doesn't say anything instead he closes his eyes and rests his head against the wall once again. "Next time you'll meet a stranger on a rooftop, don't be an ass." I joke as I lift myself off the ground.

He stays quiet.

"You know a few years back, I saw a quote somewhere, I don't remember where exactly." I giggle as I stumble towards the door. "But it was something like; Always leave people a little better than you found them." I turn to him.

He opens his eyes, keeping his face stays unreadable. I simply stare at him, and he stares back. His eyes sparkle under the dim light of the moon for the second time tonight, gazing towards me In the saddest way I've ever seen, and my heart tightens. Something in his eyes pulls me to him, forces my legs to move forward, and before my mind can catch up, I'm standing right in front of him. He's up to his feet by the time I reach him, lifting his hand to tug a stray piece of hair behind me ear. His touch is so light, that I don't even feel it when his thumb brushes my cheek before lowering his head back down. He exhales a short breath and I'm so close that I inhale it right back. I silently ask for his permission and instead of answering, he wets his lips and tilts his head downwards. A tiny smile makes its way to my lips as I reach forwards and wrap my arms around his neck. He smells like vanilla and cigarettes and I bring my face closer to the curve of his neck. I feel him freeze, probably not expecting me to hug him instead but I stay still, tightening my grip around him. I slowly feel his hands leaving his sides and a few seconds later they wrap around my waist pulling me closer to his chest. He releases a breath I didn't know he was holding and my smile grows. We stay like this for almost a minute, silently holding each other. Just two strangers comforting one another without knowing anything about each other's pain or problems. Moments like these are golden for a person like me.

I pull away, unwrapping my arms from his body and taking a step back.

" I hope you feel a little better. See you around, stranger" This Is the last thing I say to him before walking out the door.

[hwabang]

SKZ Reaction to S/O Celebrating Eid

Genre: Fluff

Warnings: fem!reader, muslim!reader, mentions of food, i included mood boards but if you guys think they’re offensive in some way or don’t like them tell me and i’ll remove them!, if i missed anything let me know!

Author’s Note 1: I was supposed to post this 2 weeks ago on Eid, but I decided to wait it out due to certain events at that time. RIP Moonbin❤️

Author’s Note 2: Yes I am well aware Muslims aren’t supposed to date, and I’m also well aware that Muslim people who do date refrain from it during the month of Ramadan. However this is a reaction, an imagine, and that’s exactly what it is– imagining! So don’t come for me for this, thankssss

Author’s Note 3: Eid Mubarak to those celebrating!❤️☪️

Author’s Note 4: I love doing this Muslim!Reader series. Do you guys wanna see a ‘dating a Desi!Reader’ or something like that? Let me know!

mood boards are mine, gifs are not mine

Bang Chan:

Omg he’s so excited

Chan is especially excited when you show him the matching black outfits you ordered online

He had never worn such clothing before and he was ecstatic that he could share this experience with you

Chan felt absolutely horrible that you didn’t really have a chance to celebrate Eid the proper way in Korea, due to the lack of Muslims here

So he suggested that on the night of Eid, you two would host a dinner at a hall Chan rented out and you’d invite people from JYP, his members, and close idol friends

Chan insisted that you two cook for everyone since he wanted to learn how to make your traditional dishes and other Eid staple foods

What really made your heart tingle was when Chan told you the night before Eid to get up early in the morning because you two were gonna go to the Eid prayer at Seoul Central Mosque

He remembered to vlog the whole day so that this could be posted later on for Muslim STAY; he felt they’d really appreciate it

Chan had so much fun preparing for Eid as much as he did on the actual Eid day

That day he made a mental note that he was going to spend every single Eid with you from now on

AKA Chan decided he’s going to marry you, lucky girl

“Baby you’re home! So I was looking at more recipes, and I found this dish I want to make for the Eid dinner but I wanted to try and make it today so I don’t mess it up later. How’s the taste?”

LeeKnow:

He is determined to make this the best day of your life

And his determine only grows when he’s out with the members one day in Itaewon and sees that there’s a shop selling lots of styles of traditional Eid clothing

Immediately brought you back to the shop the next day and bought you two matching Eid outfits

While you were in the area he took you to a Halal grocery store and you bought ingredients together for dishes you two wanted to make for Eid

Minho decided he’d invite the members over for Eid and feed them the dishes you two would prepare together

He insisted on doing all the cooking since he found YouTube videos he could follow, and he assigned the desserts to you

He’d make sure that when you call your parents, you do a video call so you can show them the outfits you’re wearing

Mainly, he wanted to show off the food you two prepared

You were kinda stuck translating tho sorry

He’d ask if you wanna go to the mosque for the Eid prayer. If you didn’t he’d make sure you didn’t miss the time to pray it at home

But if you wanted to go, he’d drag Jisung along because he thought Jisung could guide him since he lived in Malaysia (Minho was wrong, Jisung was somehow even more confused than Minho)

*you’re on the phone with your mom* “Yeah, jagi, tell her this is comfortable. Oh did you show her the food? Well, show her! I worked hard! Tell her the kebabs were so fun to make but the hardest dish was…”

Changbin:

He goes ALL. OUT.

And I really mean like this guy has your jaw dropping the entire day

This guy plans everything at his parents’ house. Yes, the big rich vibe one.

So first he’d insist that you two go home to wear the outfits he bought for you after you’re done with the Eid prayer at the mosque

Which by the way, his choice when he ordered these made you fall in love with him even more

Anyways, you’d get ready and y’all would pull up to his parents house which had you confused but when you walked in, you guessed it; your jaw dropped

In the house waiting for you two were Changbin’s parents, his sister, the members, some family, and his sister’s close friends ALL DRESSED IN YOUR COUNTRY’S CLOTHES

As you looked around the place you saw that the whole place was decorated top to bottom for Eid

And the dining table was filled with food from your country that he ordered

You all had a blast the entire day and he made sure you showed your parents everything on a video call

And since it’s Changbin, along with your Eidi he also got you a gift; a gold chain with his name written in Arabic

“This is too much? YAH! For you, I’d have all of Korea celebrating Eid in a heartbeat! I could do anything in the world if it was for you!”

Hyunjin:

Your personal photographer. ALL. DAY. LONG.

Literally from the morning since you started getting ready, he had his camera out and was taking candid pictures of you

And all day he was making yo pose, and even took more candids of you just enjoying yourself and slaying in your fit

You guys didn’t go to Eid prayer because you woke up so late you wouldn’t have made it in time, so you prayed at home

But poor baby was so confused; men have to pray in front of women in Islam so he was completely lost and just followed you looking in the mirror

Made sure to post an “Eid Mubarak” on Bubble because he thought the fans would appreciate it

One thing I forgot to mention in the Ramadan post is that the ENTIRE month, Kkami was at Hyunjin’s parents’ house. 

Like girl , that's how much he loves you; he kept his dog away during your holy month.

Hyunjin definitely helped you prepare food for Eid

Although he kinda was like a lost puppy but he followed your instructions quite well!

Would be so surprised with all the flavor bursting in his mouth, he wished every day was Eid

“Jagi, what is this?? Can we eat this every week?”

Han Jisung:

Out of all the members Jisung was the most excited

He spent a couple years in Malaysia so he was there for a couple Ramadans and Eids

So he was feeling quite nostalgic and was really eager to celebrate Eid with you

Jisung was especially excited to choose the Eid outfits online with you

He also made sure you guys were up bright and early for Fajr and stayed up to make it to Eid prayer early

You’d spend some time in the Masjid with all the Muslims surrounding the area or take a walk in Itaewon before heading back to your place where you’d eat delicious food

As for the food, you were making it all the night before Eid and Jisung walked into your place seeing you working so hard. So quite reluctantly, he decide to come help you

He was nervous hed mess the food up but he actually was huge help

Jisung would also remember to go live on YouTube at some point of the day for about an hr so he could celebrate Eid with Muslim STAY

And of course he’d beg Felix or Seungmin to take lots and lots of photos of the two of you because y’all were slaying

“Ooh we look so good! Hey, do you think your mom could send me more of these clothes? Preferably matching with yours hehe..”

Felix:

THE ABSOLUTE SWEETEST

LIKE HE LITERALLY MAKES YOUR HEART MELT THE ENTIRE DAY

Felix spent the entirety of Ramadan memorizing how to recite the Eid prayer so that he could lead you in prayer (bye I’m crying)

He spent hours finding recipes you two could make for Eid

But also spent hours shopping for your Eid fits which he eventually settled on and when they arrived you were shocked because they were SO BEAUTIFUL

You and Felix decided to make little bento boxes for staff and idols at JYP to give out on Eid

So you’d make your traditional foods plus some desserts

Did I mention that he spent time on Pinterest and Instagram looking for Eid couple poses??

Okay well I’m mentioning it now. And he had Seungmin take all the pictures which turned out absolutely perfect

He got all the pictures washed and he made an Eid scrapbook for you two to keep as a keepsake (he’s so romantic)

“Baby should I make cookies?? I have moon and star cookie cutters!”

Seungmin:

Your photographer pt. 2

He forced you to get up early so you wouldn’t miss the Eid prayer at the mosque

You wore your Eid fits to the mosque and had someone take really cute but modest pictures of you two inside the mosque (gave you Nikkah/Katb-al-Kitaab vibes fr)

You asked Seungmin to help you prepare Eid food and he happily agreed

You guys even made cute Eid themed cupcakes to hand out in the JYP building

You would make a video call to back home and Seungmin would be going on and on to your family about how much he learned during Ramadan and all the new things he’s been doing for Eid

Asked Felix to take couple pictures of you two and Felix happily agreed

You wondered what he was gonna do with all these pictures, but your question was answered 2 weeks later

Similar to Felix, Seungmin had the pictures washed out and printed into a beautiful photo album. He sent one copy to your family and had one delivered to your home

He makes this a tradition for every year

“Sweetheart get up, we’ll be late to the prayer. What do you always tell me, that Allah is watching, right? Get up or I throw cold water in your face.”

I.N:

Aw Jeongin is extremely excited to be a part of a different culture

He’s always been so interested in everything about your religion and culture so he’s been waiting so patiently for Eid to come around

He wasn’t gonna get matching outfits until he saw so many TikToks Felix sent him of couples getting matching Eid fits

Felix asked if you and Jeongin were getting matching fits and Jeongin ran to his laptop to order something for you two

He was nervous to pray at the mosque even though he’s prayed with you before, because he heard the Eid prayer was a bit different and he didn’t want to mess up

So you two prayed at home which turned out to be better since it was such an intimate affair

Jeongin was also nervous to help you cook but he helped as he didn’t want all the pressure going on you. 

You guys took all the food to Jeongin’s parent’s house and spent most of the day there.

He was surprised at all the delicious food, so he decided to go live on Instagram to showcase all the delicious food you two made closely to STAY

As a surprise, the night before Eid, Jeongin met up with Felix and they made Eid themed cupcakes together that matched both of your outfits

You fell in love with him even more of course

“You know what, this look is growing on me jagiya. Let’s wear these more often.”

[fabyunaa]

felix: so what’s it like being roommates with leeknow?

jisung:  once, i asked him for water while he was pissed at me, and he brought me a glass full of ice and told me to wait

[ftmfics]

i can't stop listening to "waiting for us"

[sweet-stay]

top of the class

Pairing: Felix x reader

Genre: suggestive (not nsfw), class rivals!au, rivals to lovers

A short and fun scenario :)

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Oh no.

“Oh no” doesn’t even cover it.

It is taking every fibre in your being to play it cool and not let your jaw drop to the stupid perfect polished floor right now.

Your test result was good.

But not good enough.

One more answer and you would have gotten that A+ that you wanted so terribly.

Your lucky streak was broken.

If you were notorious for one thing in this class it was your ridiculously high test scores, you sunk deep into your studies, sacrificing your social life as well as your sleep schedule. You cared about your studies and the way others would perceive you, it was especially important considering the prestigious school you were attending. You had worked so hard to get in and you didn’t stop working after getting in either.

Every test result you had worked for up until this point was an A+.

Key phrase being “Up until this point.”.

Crap.

What had gotten into you?

“Miss who received the highest test score in the class?” Changbin called out with no warning as he rocked back and forth on his chair.

Tsk tsk.

You could feel the eyes on you from all around the room and your cheeks began to burn.

The teacher smiled unknowingly “Lee Felix.”.

Of course.

That jerk.

Lee Felix was perfect, perfect in every way imaginable.

He dedicated himself to his studies just as much as you did and would always come second in the test rankings. His papers were always perfectly organised and he asked the questions you thought of before you could even articulate them.

Not to mention how annoyingly gorgeous he was. The way his freckles danced across the bridge of his nose and cheeks was annoying. The way strands of hair fell across his forehead as he tilted his head. The way his pink lips parted and closed before and after talking. The way he-

Yeah.

Really annoying.

The bell rung and it was just Felix, you and the teacher.

Both of you liked to stay back after class to talk to the teacher but there was no point this time. You had lost fair and square.

You wanted slap Felix than congratulate him at this point: angered by his efforts but ignorant of your own

Your cheeks were still hot and you were fighting tears. Damn you Lee Felix.

You strutted out of the classroom with your head down clenching your books in your arms.

You could hear footsteps behind you.

Crap.

“Y/n”

The sound of your name in his mouth makes you shiver a little bit, you couldn’t deny he was attractive and his deep voice only added to that.

“I wanted to congratulate you on your test results, you should be proud.”

Easy for him to say. Jerk.

That’s another thing you hated about him. He always acted so sweet and kind to everyone but it was all an act. Surely it wasn’t real.

It flies out of your mouth without warning “Shut up Felix.”

It echoes through the empty hallway and the weight of your words is like a dint in his academic armour.

“Just leave me alone.” forceful words leave your mouth the tears are begging to come back, it's hard not to sound like a whiny child

A smirk plays across his face.

“You’re jealous aren’t you?”

He steps closer and your feet are glued to the ground. You can’t bring yourself to move. Something clicks.

“It all makes sense now. The excessive eye contact, the cheap insults, the avoidance…”

“You’re obsessed with me, but you can’t bring yourself to admit it.” He looks at you and the eye contact is overwhelming.

He’s closer now, he’s given you no choice but to step back…

Into a locker. You’re cornered.

You’re heart is racing in your chest and everything else prior seems to blur. Something about a test maybe.

He steps forward once more and you can feel his hot breath on your features.

His ears are a little pinker than usual and his breath is slightly shaken.

His voice lowers

“Jealousy looks good on you y/n, no wonder you wear it so much.”.

He leans in and before you can fully process what’s going on his glossy pink lips are on yours, his hands go to your waist, caressing your hips and oh my god this is really happening.

The kiss is slow until you bite his lip, and something in him snaps. The pace of the kiss quickens, filled with passion. Your hands go to his soft, beautiful, silky hair and you can feel him smile into the kiss. God he smells so good, like cinnamon and vanilla. A whimper escapes your mouth and he laughs before pulling you back in more until there is no space between you both.

He wants this so badly.

You want this so badly.

You could stay like this forever. But he can never know that.

You pull away slowly but the goosebumps don’t seem to leave.

Damn you Felix.

You know you could have just asked, if you wanted that so badly y/n” he smiles still looking at your lips and it takes everything in you not to close the gap between you both again. You were usually quite good at controlling yourself but this was... different.

“Shut up Felix” your cheeks warm again and he laughs.

“Put this up on your wall as some incentive to study rather than spending your nights obsessing over me.” His perfect test results. You groan as he leans in one more time.

His voice lowers to a whisper “Take this too.. In the case you want to study or…something like that.” He winks at you as he passes you a sticky note. He looks at your lips one more time and your world spins a little bit.

"I- I'm not obsessed with you" but what a terrible lie. Lee Felix lived inside your head all of the time but... now?

You couldn't stop replaying that moment in your head over and over again. His sweet scent, the dizzying feeling, his soft lips, his hands on your waist.

He turns around to leave but he's not going to leave yet. You grab him by his tie and pull him in, mere inches from your face. His eyes widen and his breathing speeds up:

he's nervous. HA.

"I don't lose Felix, and I will tear you down to get back to the top again, regardless of how stupidly attractive you are. ". you let him go and he stumbles back a little bit.

He chuckles as he walks away and you open the carefully folded piece of paper.

His phone number.

Damn you Lee Felix.

[pettypuppy-jonghyun]

Gamer Sweets| Lee Felix

Summary: spending free moments with your bf while it rains outside

Warnings: none. Absolute fluff

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The soft patter of rain on the roof was a sweet humming in the background of your apartment. The little bit of sun poked through your curtains with all it's might as the afternoon heat began to die down. You had settled inside for the day as the storm blew over, leaving small trails of it's presence behind.

Beside you was Felix, tapping away at his computer to quickly complete the mission he was on. The clicking of the mouse followed in suit to most of his movements. Little sounds escapes his mouth as he sits on the edge of his gaming chair, eyes concentrating intently on the screen.

Sometimes you would glance up from your project to watch the intense moments, waiting to see if he failed or succeeded. If he lost, you would giggle and throw a joke his way. When he won, he would have a proud smirk across his lips as he stuck his tongue out. Regardless of the outcome, you interacted with each other occasionally and it settled a comforting mood.

When your project was finished, you cleaned it all and put it away for a new task. Deciding you wished to stay beside Felix anyway, you grabbed out a few nail polish colors and items to decorate with. A red, white, black and peach polish was perfect to make a Mario Mushroom nail art. Seeing as you had previously convinced your boyfriend he wouldn't be able to beat your old record on Mario, you believed game nails would be fitting.

"You have it easy," you comment, not looking his way as you swiped the white brush over a nail. "I had to play on a physical console to beat that level. Computer games are simplified."

He scoffed, rolling his eyes with a smile. "Easier? I highly doubt it. What did you play it on, the WII?"

"I'll have you know I was the master of the WII growing up. Game Cube too," you defended.

Felix came to a pause on the game, using the chance to swivel the chair around to face you. "A Game Cube? Really? Do you know how many years ago that was?"

You shrugged. "You can't beat old systems, babe. Retro is gold."

You both continued to tease back and forth before going into comfortable silence again. A couple more strokes of the nail brushes before you brought them to your lips, blowing gently to speed up the drying process. Your eyes would drift to his screen to check his progress, smiling softly to yourself as you took in this moment.

The rain gave you an excuse to stay inside and enjoy time together. It was rare the both of you had time to even spare, so you had to soak in each moment when you could. Felix was given a break after his North American tour, but most of it you were unable to spend with him. Your life never seemed to match up with his.

After delicately taking a dotting tool to dot the black eyes on your middle finger, you proudly proclaimed, "there!"

Felix pulls his headset completely off when he heard you speak again. "Lemme see!"

You stood up, nails high in the air to keep them from touching anything accidentally. Hands fanned out, you watch as he reached to delicately hold your hands by the back, careful of the wet polish. "They are mushrooms!"

He laughs when he recognizes the design. "These look amazing, darling. You did a good job." Taking your arms, he gently places them over his shoulder as he sits back in his seat. He then guides you by your waist to sit on his lap, wrapping both arms around you.

You cross your hands behind him, nails still pointed upwards. "I think they turned out pretty well," you say smugly.

Felix smiles brightly, eyes glimmering with adoration. "Wouldn't have expected any less from my love," he whispers softly. He exaggeratedly puckers his lips, creating a light clicking sound. "Gimme kiss."

You shook your head defiantly. "No. I don't kiss losers. You still haven't passed this level."

His brows furrow and he continues to move his lips expectantly. "Gimme kiss!" He urges, pulling you closer.

"No!" You giggle, trying to pull back as you came closer to his face. "No kiss!"

"Gimme!" He yells, matching your energy, eyes lightened and happy.

You caved, immediately placing your lips upon his in a quick peck. "There."

Felix's smile widened as he gazed up at you. "Thank you," he says, voice in his cute tone you never could resist. That's how he knew to continue his request, because you couldn't say no for very long anyway.

[jazyjaz]

Stray Kids Horror Imagines

W e l c o m e f a i r y s

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[skzimagines]

Characters: Hyunjin x female reader. All of Skz and y/n’s friends.

Genre: Camping!skz Obsessed!Hyunjin

Warnings- alcohol, swearing, smut.

Summary: Hyunjin and y/n have always had feelings for one another, but were always too scared to admit it. But maybe with the help of their friends, and the annual yearly camping trip they’ve all been attending together, they will finally admit to their feelings.

“Where are the poles to this stupid thing?” Changbin says, ripping through his tent bag.

Everyone has just arrived to the campsite we’d picked out together and putting up the tents was hell, no one looked forward to this part. So far we’ve gotten four tents up and we’re on to our last two. No one had any idea which tent we were sleeping in, we haven’t made it that far yet. But with the amount of alcohol that Chan and Minho brought, tells me we’ll just be sleeping wherever our drunken bodies take us.

As Changbin and Felix finally find the poles, I make my way to Hyunjin’s car to grab my last bag. We drove together, with Han, Seungmin and one of my friends, her name is Ash. Ash and Felix have been together for a little over a year now. With the way they act together, you’d think they’d been together for ten.

I see Hyunjin is sitting in the beck seat of the car with the door open as I walk up to it. “Are you alright?” I ask. Leaning against the open door. He looks up at me and gives me a warm smile. His roots have grown out since the last time I’d seen him. It’s pulled back by the sunglasses that he wore on the way here. “Yeah, just happy to be here. We needed this.” He says, looking down at his hands, that are playing with the rips on his jeans. I give him a smile and grab my bag out of the trunk. “Well, let’s get moving then. We don’t have all I night.” I say, giving his shoulder and light push, to tell him in joking.

I see Hyunjin getting up and shutting the car door as I walk back to the fire pit, where all of the tents are set up around it. “So, where’s everyone sleeping?” I ask Chan, who’s just opened a beer and standing with his one leg on the rocks around the fire pit. “No one has chose a tent yet, so I guess just throw your stuff into whatever tent and that claims ownership.” He says with a laugh. “Ownership.” I say with a chuckle. I pick the tent all the way to the right and head in. The boys had already blown up an air mattress inside. I set down my bags and begin to unpack. Throwing my pillow and blanket on the air mattress and setting up my phone charger. I set my bags on the other side of the tent and head out to find what Ash is doing.

•

“Where’d y/n go?” Hyunjin asks. Making his way to the tents with his things. “Your girlfriend went to find Ash.” Jisung says, tapping hyunjin on his back as he walks from behind him with his bags nearly falling from his arms. “Will you shut up, she’s going to hear you… and she’s not my girlfriend.” Hyunjin says, in a hushed tone. “As if she doesn’t know, you stalk her like she’s your own prey.” Minho says laughing. Hyunjin rolls his eyes at that. “All of the tents are taken.” Seungmin says, throwing his arm around hyuniins shoulders. “But there’s room in your girlfriends tent.” He whispers in his ear. Laughing and walking off.

His words cause goosebumps to form on Hyunjin’s arms. He looks over the tents, finally landing on the tent with your things inside. He takes a deep breath and makes his way into your guys’ shared tent. He sets his things down and begins to unpack, just like you had before. He throws his blanket and pillow on top of yours. Throwing the rest of his things to the side. He sits on the bed, deciding to lay back. It was a long drive, and with you sitting next to him the entire time had killed his nerves even more. He is obsessed with you, every single thing about you made him squirm. He took every chance he got to talk to you, sit by you, touch you. Although those touches might seem so innocent to you, he’d think about them later on, but not in an innocent way. He is completely and utterly in love with you. Although he’d never admit it to you, because the minute you come around, his brain shuts down.

He lays down, getting a whiff of your smell from your blanket. He rolls onto his side, starring at the large piece of fabric sprawled out on the air mattress, before grabbing it into a ball and bringing it up to his nose. His eyes close as he breaths in the scent of you, his hips involuntarily buck at the scent. He lets out a light desperate moan.

“HYUNJIN!” Minho yells from right outside your guys’ tent.

Hyunjin throws your blanket away, and shoots up out of the bed. Minho pokes his head into the door of the tent. “Are you coming?” He asks. “Where?” “We’re all going down to the water, swimming. You in?” He asks. Looking around the tent. “Are you sharing with y/n?” He asks with a smirk. “Yes.” Hyunjin says, still worked up from the whole blanket situation. “Nice! Well maybe now you can ask her out, instead of dry humping her blanket while she’s not around, pervert.” Minho says with a loud laugh. “Now get your swimsuit on, let’s go.” he says before leaving hyunjin to sit in his own misery.

Hyunjin is left with his eyes wide, feeling completely disturbed with himself. ‘Why do you have to be so weird? Just ask her out you pussy’ he thinks to himself, before getting his swimsuit on and meeting you all by the water.

And there you are, laughing and splashing water at Ash the same way as she does to you. The water slowly falling down your chest and over your barely covered breasts. Your hair wet, sticking to your back. All it would take was for him to go in that water and grab you by the waist, whip you around and slam his lips in to yours. Pulling you up as you wrap your legs around his hips. Grinding your wet heat against his.

“Snap out of it bro, just go talk to her.” Chan says. Pushing Hyunjin to the water. He makes his way into the water towards you.

•

“Here comes your boyfriend.” Ash says, pushing you toward him, with a smirk. “Shut up.” I say in a whisper. Making your way towards Hyunjin, meeting him half way. “Hey.” He says smiling at you. “Hey.” I smile back. “The waters warm.” I say with a chuckle. Trying to make decent conversation. He laughs. “Yeah it is.” “So we’re sharing at tent I hear?” I ask, with a smile. I notice his eyes go a little wide and he looks away. “Oh, um, yeah. Im sorry, everyone already picked their tents. It was the only option, but if you want me to change, I’m sure one of the guys will-” “Hyunjin.. it’s okay!” I say with a chuckle, cutting him off. “I don’t mind.” I smirk. “You don’t?” He asks, his eyes falling to your lips. Completely enchanted by the way your top teeth bring in your bottom lip. “I’d feel safer with you anyway.” I say, bringing my hand to his shoulder and rubbing it gently. “Me too..” he says in a whisper, still starring at your lips. I bring my other arm up and place it on his other shoulder, slowly moving closer to him. He brings his head down, closer to mine. “Y/n..” he says. “Yeah?” “Can I k-” “GUYS COME ON, ITS GETTING DARK, TIME TO PARTY.” Ash yells from the beach. I quickly pull away from hyunjin, embarrassed about how bold I became in that moment. I glance up and see that Hyunjin had thrown his head back with his eyes closed. I hear him silently ask the sky ‘why do you do this to me’ but I act as if I didn’t hear it. I smile at him and tell him to come on.

•

We make our way back to our tents to get changed.

“So um.. can you just turn around while I do this?” I ask hyunjin. There were no bathrooms close to the campground we got, only a porta potty and I refuse to get dressed in those things. So it’s resulted into changing in the tent. “I can just get out while you get changed, it’s okay.” Hyunjin says. Making his way to the door of the tent. “No! It’s okay, really. Just… turn around.” I say, grabbing his arm and giving him a reassuring smile. He smiles in return and turns around. I quickly try to untie the top of my bathing suit, but it had gotten tangled up while swimming with Ash. “Umm, hyunjin?” I quietly say. He hums to answer. “Can you help me? My top string is tangled.” I say, still trying to undo it.

Hyunjin turns around, and sees your bottom strap untied. He also sees you struggling trying to get the top undone. “Umm. Yeah.” He says shyly. He makes his way toward you, reaching his hands out to grab the strings of your bathing suit. He carefully pulls your hair to the side and sets it over your shoulder. You have such a beautiful neck, the things he would do just to get his lips on it. He slowly drags his fingers down from your shoulder, to the tie of your bathing suit. Causing goosebumps to form on your skin. He leaves his fingers on your back for a second before picking up the stings and slowly undoing them. The strings fall down your back as he gets it undone. Your hands reach around your neck to grab the strings and pull them down your front. “Thank you.” I whisper.

Hyunjin turns back around so you can continue getting changed. His hand slowly falls down the harden length in his pants, running his hand over it and taking in a deep breath. ‘You’re going to be the death of me’ he thinks to himself.

•

Everyone gets changed and passes drinks around the fire pit. I pick the spot between hyunjin and Ash and everyone else finds their own places. We all sit around the fire and reminisce on life. By now everyone has had a few drinks, some are completely waisted, some are tipsy. But as of right now, I am completely hammered. Being a light weight sucks at times like these.

Everyone’s laughing and cracking jokes, loudly talking amongst each other. I look to my right, seeing hyunjin sitting there just staring into the fire. “You alright?” I ask. Placing my hand on his blanket covered thigh. I see him tense up at my touch and I chuckle. I begging to rub my thumb back and forth. “You’re so pretty hyunjin.” I say, his hair is pulled back in a messy ponytail, he’s wrapped in an oversized sweater and sweatpants, with a blanket tossed over his legs. I stare at the beauty mark, placed right under his eye. This man has been the center of my heart for as long as I can remember. And knowing now that he’s felt the same way this whole time, has brought out a more confident side of me. Ash had told me through text on the way here that the guys had told her that hyunjin has the same feelings for me as I do for him. So I made it my mission to bring those feelings out of him. “What?” He asks as a whisper. Turning all of his attention to you. “I said you’re so pretty.” I say, scooting closer to him. “I.. um… thank you.” He says shyly. Looking down at his hands in his lap. I take a deep breath and take one for gulp of my drink. “Can you come with me?” I ask. “S.. sure? Where are we going?” He asks as I grab his hand and stand up together. “I want to go lay down, don’t want to be alone.” I say. Standing up made me realize how much I have had to drink. I nearly fall over before hyunjin grabs my waist to hold me up.

•

We make our way into the tent and I fall on to the air mattress with a giggle. “I love you hyunjin.” “Y/n, you are drunk.” He says, zipping up the door. “I am.” I say, sitting up on my elbows. “But I love you. I love every single inch of you.” I take a deep breath and lay back down. Hyunjin stands at the side of the bed, shaking with excitement. “You know I love you right? Everyone must have told you.” I say. Looking up at him. “I- I didn’t know. No.” He says, shaking his head quickly. “You love me too right? That’s what they all said. Lee know told me what you were doing in here earlier…” I say with a smirk. Minho had informed me of the blanket situation before Hyunjin came down to the water with us earlier. Hyunjin stands there, looking into my eyes. Completely lost for words. “Y/n, I - I am so sorry. I- I don’t know what i wa-” I cut him off, getting up and smashing my lips into his. The kiss was deep, and long. As if we’d been waiting our entire lives for this exact moment. I wrap my arms around his neck and pull him on top of me. He brings his hand up and cups my breast. He deepens the kiss by shoving his tongue on to mine, his teeth hit mine in a rage of lust as he presses his tongue even further. Moans falling from the both of us as we fight for dominance. He pulls away and immediately shoved his face in my neck, leaving kisses and hickeys all along the side. He stops sucking on my neck and he gently wraps his hand around my neck and makes me look up at him. “You are going to be the death of me one day.” He whispers, before smashing his lips into mine again.

Part two

[skzoolandia]

I'd pass out if he looked at me like that

[strayflowersstarsandlove]

Grey areas (leefelix)

DISCLAIMER: these longer writings can be read as both standalones or part 2's/prequels etc if you will.

IF you wish to imagine the characters following a chronological narration of events, this one can definitely be read after "Peaches and cream" as it could serve as a moment in time that happens after the events in the blurb mentioned above.

You had been staring at the ceiling for a bit now, floating in and out of sleep for a few hours until you finally decided to just stay awake while Felix was still fast asleep right next to you, with his bare arms clutching the duvet and his pouty lips and delicate side profile he looked so much younger and innocent you just didn't have the heart to wake him up. And so a few hours had already come and gone, you scrolled on your phone, counted up to 10.000 in your head, tried to fall back asleep a couple of times but in the end you just ended up awake and restless.

Your thoughts were nagging at you no matter how much you tried to ignore them. Admittedly, you had always been an overthinker but ever since your friendship with Felix started transitioning into something else you hadn't been able to stop your head from spinning and spinning. You two were in that awkward inbetween stage where you weren't just friends but you weren't in an official relationship either. You'd hang out all the time and hold hands and kiss an awful lot and he would often spend the night at your place, he would be walking around just in his boxer or cuddling you silly while still being respectful of your boundaries and calling you pet names all the time and that's probably what drove you insane: he acted like he was your boyfriend through and through but never outwardly said anything about you guys officialy dating.

It had been over two months since you decided you wanted to try it out and see if you were meant to be more than just best friends and it wasn't like you hated it or anything, you actually liked that there was a mutual understanding in taking things slow and not forcing something that perhaps wasn't there yet.

Problem was you were probably much more into him than he might have been into you. You yearned to spend all of your time with him, you desperately wanted him to introduce you to his friends as his girlfriend and not just by your name. You were almost getting too impatient for him to just want you as much as you wanted him.

"Mmmh ..whattimeisit?", Felix grumbles, his words coming out jumbled and muffled by sleep, his voice so cavernously low it sends shivers down your back still, no matter how many times you guys slept at each other's place, religiously only just slept. You roll over on your side so you're now facing him and force a smile on your face, "it's almost 1 pm", his eyes go wide and his expression adorably shocked, "OH", he exclaims, rubbing his eyes and cheeks, "why didn't you wake me up earlier?", he mumbles then, blinking sleepy eyes, pouty face and messy messy hair sticking out in all directions, "you looked too cute and peaceful, I didn't have the heart to", you admit shyly and he grins at you in that radiant way it makes you melt from the inside, "mmh c'me here",Felix pulls you close to him, nuzzling his face in the crook of your neck, cushiony lips pressing gentle kisses on the goosebumps covering your skin.

His hands slip beneath your shirt, palms running up your sides and your waist, fingers inching closer and closer up your torso. The feeling of his mouth opening and closing on your skin, his tongue caressing the pulsating vein next to your birthmark beneath your ear, his leg hooking around your lower body... It is all a bit too much for you.

You physically feel all your muscles giving in all at once as if you were actually melting into him. Melting for him. His teeth graze your skin and in a moment you know you're gonna get a purple flower blooming on the side of your neck, maybe even multiple ones, his breath is labored and hot as he sucks on your skin, and you just let him. You just let it all overwhelm you for a second cause it feels way too good to spoil it with the million thoughts currently spinning in your head, the inside of your brain now looking very much like a overheating blender.

Love bites soon turn into just kisses, long, sloppy kisses that leave a wet trail all over your face as soon as he redirects his lips back on your cheeks and your nose and your mouth and it feels heavenly and intoxicating and his hands move up to brush the sides of your boobs, and your fingers move on autopilot, finding their way through his wispy blonde locks which you pull at a little, making him groan against your mouth, grind against your lower abdomen. You are burning up now. Your cheeks aflame, your breath erratic when he suddenly grabs your hand and places it right on the crotch of his boxers-"stop stop, wait, Felix please wait".

And Felix immediately stops. He promptly removes your hand from him and his hands from you and just looks up at you with the most concerned eyes you've ever seen, "are you okay? Was that too - too much?", he stutters a little, his eyes going so wide and panicked, "I can't do this anymore. I'm sorry. I'm so incredibly sorry, Lix. But I can't".

You didn't expect it to come out like that, so suddenly, so strained, your eyes already getting teary, "what? What is it that you can't do anymore? Did I come on too strong? I'm sorry. I'm so sorry if I did", he apologises profusely, a frown taking over his whole face as his eyes run frantically all over your own, "no, no it's just... I can't be friends with benefits with you, I just can't. I'm not - I'm not comfortable with that. I'm falling for you, Felix. I cannot keep up with this pretense of us being simultaneously this close and this cool,almost cold, almost fuck buddies. I think I might need you more than you need me", you pause, taking a ragged breath in, trying to keep your composure even if you feel your eyes already brimming with tears, "but I need you as a boyfriend, or as a true friend. Just a friend. I'm sorry. We might just want different things and that's okay. I can't force you to be in a relationship with me, but please don't make me do this anymore".

Your heart feels a little lighter now. But with that lightness the floodgates open as copious amounts of tears start rolling down your cheeks, and in your overwhelmed state you barely register Felix tearing up as well, pulling you into his arms and sobbing in your hair as his desperate voice comes out croacky and broken, "I can't believe you've been feeling like this for this long, God I'm so sorry. I fucked up so bad, I fucked up so so bad". You cry in each other's arms, the both of you breaking down over and over, letting it all out.

You gradually calm down and after a little while, your tears are now dry and salty on your lips, you slowly peel yourself from him, tucking his hair away from his blotchy face, you force a bittersweet smile on your lips and brush your thumb underneath his swollen eyes, "are you going to be alright?", you ask quietly, tentaintevely almost, Felix shakes his head, "I don't think so. I can't lose you y/n, I never meant for any of this to happen, never wanted us to be friends with benefits, the thought of using you and making you feel trapped in something you hated never even crossed my mind", he replies quietly, you sigh softly, your heart breaking all over again as you listen to the little sobs still escaping his mouth.

"I wanted to be with you from day one. Remember that time at the park when we went biking and then we went for a walk and then we had a picnic and I told you I'd never felt that pure, blissful happiness with another person up until that point? I think it was our first date after we'd decided we wanted to see if we could be more than friends", Felix continues, and you nod your agreement, biting the inside of your lip out of nervousness, "I remember telling you I never wanted that feeling to end, that that one date was all I needed to know and that my best friend had been that one person I had been looking for all along, and I truly meant that. Every word. And you seemed so happy as well... ".

Felix reaches out and touches your cheekbone, his finger pads just gently brushing your skin," what went wrong? This whole time I thought we were going to be okay, I thought we were just getting closer… I had no idea you were in so much pain".

You blink away few random leftover tears and rest your hand on top oh his, still on your cheek, "Lixy I wanted to be with you from day one too, I wanted you to look at me and see your girlfriend cause I looked at you and saw everything I've ever wanted. But you introduced me to all of your friends like I was just another one of your girl friends, some days we barely talked, some others you'd camp out at my place and we'd sleep in the same bed but you wouldn't touch me with a stick. And then some other days you were all over me. And we started only seeing each other at night, went to no more dates. I thought you just… I don't know. I thought maybe you changed your mind and were reassessing whether you just wanted for us to be just friends with benefits".

Felix looks at you perplexed, frowning, with his eyebrows knitting together, "y/n that's the exact opposite of what I wanted. I didn't want rush into things, didn't want to push you. I guess my actions weren't very consistent and I'm sorry. Please forgive me", he pleads, shiny, kind eyes staring into yours and joined hands praying for your mercy.

You catch yourself tearing up again but this time you smile through your silent crying and nod, you nod until your necks starts hurting and launch yourself into his arms once again, "I'm sorry I misinterpreted your heart. You are such a kind person Felix, I should've never doubted you", you mumble into his hair and he tightens his grip around you, sniffling and kissing your head and your ears and your hair, "no, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I gave you a million reasons to. But no more",he reluctantly pulls away from you and kisses the tip of your nose, "no more doubts. No more grey areas. I'm yours, I'm fully, completely yours, I'd love to be your boyfriend and I'd love for you to be my girlfriend, officially".