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anaalnathrakhs · 2 months

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heeehee hooohoho nothing has weight, sense, or value anymore. everything is everybody's fault. no one can be blamed for anything. sorry for being an asshole i'm just going to fucking kill myself.

i asked my mom if she remembered if we set up an account for me to check an info, she said she didn't know, i said okay thanks, don't do anything about it though.

this afternoon, while i'm sleeping, i get a text that goes like "okay so you do this and this and this on the website!" and i haul my ass out of bed to do it before the cutoff time this evening, and it leads me to the exact same problem of needing an account. so. my mom could take the time to search for a way to resolve a problem she THOUGHT i had. despite me telling her explicitely, bc i'm starting to get used to it, not to do anything about it and it was just a question. but then she didn't click through the thing to check. bc she just googled it and sent me what she read. after telling me "noooo, no need to check" when i had asked her. she said it "went over her head" that i had said EXPLICITELY "please don't do anything about it".

i have no fucking idea what to think. i'm making a mountain out of a molehill, yes, and my own fault for even mentioning the topic, yes. but on the other hand, why the fuck is such a simple thing impossible? we've had so many discussions about what i'm uncomfortable with, and there's many things that didn't change, which i understand, because i'm not a toddler, i have complex needs but also the ability to mitigate and handle discomfort, they have priorities, they have no obligation to uproot their habits for me. but then such a small fucking thing is also too much?????? i ask her one yes/no question, and she invents a problem i didn't have from the situation, halfasses solving it, and brings me the result like yay! mom to the rescue! despite me telling her NOT TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT THE TOPIC OF THE VERY SIMPLE YES/NO QUESTION. that she had told me to not even bother checking when she answered. we've had discussions about it. i've learned to tell her NOT TO CHECK because for some reason when i say "hey have you seen this thing around?" she hears "go fetch me this thing", and despite that she was still showing up two days later like yay! i found it in the back of the guest room closet where we never go! mom to the rescue! and like, i know you're a workaholic, but could you please not invent yourself fucking quests when i told you to drop it?

and on the other other hand, i'm a fucking hypocrite, because it's true she does tell me often not to do something, and i slide the problem a little to the left and carry on. but i don't fucking know. she said that like, well, you know what i'm talking about. purging in the toilets. I HAVENT ASKED YOU TO CLEAN THEM AND I HAVE DONE MY BEST TO CLEAN THEM AND I WOULD'VE DONE THE PROPER DEEP-CLEAN IF YOU HAD ASKED ME AND ALSO I HAVE A FUCKING RAGING EATING DISORDER THAT AFFECTS ME LIKE PRETTY MUCH 24/7.

and holy fuck. i'm a constant problem for everybody around me. it's cool. how am i supposed to "get better progressively" when everything i do is fucking poison damage to everybody around. how am i supposed to accept being around people often, when this is not a harsh pass or a difficult time, it's just what life's been for my entire existence.

like trust me mom, i'm counting the days til i can move out too! but am i. im possibly planning to get a year of higher education in my hometown, after all. but also i might have to drop out of school so 🥴 possibly a step towards leaving, possibly a step towards living in my parents basement until they die out and i inherit the house. fucking fantastic. i should just cut it short and either have the balls to kill myself, or drop out and get the best job i can with what i have.

it's cool! i thought i was doing good, doing better, improving, but turns out haha me doing better is just at the expense of other people! how silly of me to believe i could perhaps not be a source of suffering to everybody around me if i worked hard on it! everybody in my life fucking hates me and they're right tbh what the fuck have i done for them. i mean i tried, but have i succeeded?

ANYWAY i have until monday to figure out what i'm going to do. does anyone have a movie rec for someone killing some stand-in for the unfeeling standardize reglementation, cuz i need some catharsis rn.

#it makes me so deeply mad that there is some kind of obligation of treatement in place #when the system is not build to accomodate the needs of those who are sent to it #let alone their numbers #okay so my personal life is a bit difficult but school generally helps me be a bit better #solution proposed by fuckheads: you're suspended until you get help from our Flawless system that has harmed you in the past #that has five billion years of waitime for the two and a half people in the city who accept new clients #good luck for your graduation exams next month that will define your life from now on!#broadcasting my misery #vent

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eirianerisdar · 15 days

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I wonder if Jacques Villeneuve knows why he’s got exactly the same number of championships as Jenson Button and Nico Rosberg each do but while they’re generally liked, Jacques is faced with an approximate reaction of a barfing cat?

Jenson Button and Nico Rosberg appear on Sky and instantly elevate a normal broadcast into brilliance. They both know an incredible amount of wheel, Nico especially, and are gracious with drivers while being firm with visible mistakes.

What, precisely, did Jacques Villeneuve bring to that FP1 commentary except to show he’s a entitled, toxic bastard who knows next to nothing about wheel, the current drivers, or the fans?

If he wanted to act so much like a turd he could at least be less surprised pikachu face when everyone calls him one

#the number of entitled things he said in five minutes alone #adding nothing to technical commentary #while bragging and being self obsessed #put him and Danica in the same room let them murder each other #f1 #jacques villeneuve #canadian gp 2024 #my post

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molabuddy · 4 months

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i think splatoon should have a free-for-all gamemode. a true anarchy mode you could say? could be 4 players (sounds managable) or maybe 8 players (sounds fucked). every player has a unique ink colour, there are no teams. objectives: kill eachother, survive

#score would be decided by the person's splats - the amount of times splatted. person w the biggest number wins?#would this be even playable let alone fun at all? i have no clue:]

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alumirp · 7 months

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The Good Citizen

An AU where Izuku is just an ordinary boy. He never meets All Might and has his application for Yuuei's entrance exam rejected because of his quirkless status. He still wants to be a hero, but then again, he's just a normal kid with a mom who works two jobs, and since he failed to get into his dream school, he still has to get into another one, he doesn't have time. to go to the gym or learn to fight, or whatever. And yet, he wants to be a hero, so he grabs a pair of old skates and a stick. And he sneaks out the window at night, intending to be a vigilante.

But like a normal boy, he's a bit of a coward, so when he encounters his first crime, instead of getting involved, he calls the police. He calls the police and hides and is delighted when a police car arrives a few minutes later and does its job. And then he repeats that, goes out, finds a crime and calls the police. And repeat. And the next time, he identifies himself as "Good Citizen" when the person on the line recognizes his voice. And the name sticks. And Izuku keeps it, thinking of it as a way to keep his identity safe. But one day, 'The Good Citizen' calls the police on a group of men beating up a guy. And next he stops a man from harassing a girl.

The mens who beat the guy are part of a powerfull gang and their high-rankers discovers that the person who reported them was the same person who has been making several reports. The old man who harassed the girl was an important member of the HPSC, whose arrest creates a huge scandal

With this he successfully angers the villains and the HPSC all at once. Next week there's a bounty on 'snitch's head. And an arrest warrant for the vigilante who is 'an enemy in the making for the society of heroes'.

Then a race begins, villains and heroes mobilizing to kill/arrest one (1) well-intentioned green bean.

And, out of nowhere, this all becomes Aizawa Fucking Shota's problem.

#izuku: gotta arrest the bad guys hpsc: nuh uh zuku:tf you mean nuh uh #aizawa is not paid for it but whats new #let's pretend that tracking phone numbers isn't an thing #ok #pretend dude #(i forgot that it was a thing lol)#I used to love those fics where Izuku learned to fight and program very quickly and became a badass vigilante #Now I study programming and I feel offended by these fanfics #aint no way this kid learned all this in two months alone #I've been at this for almost a year. in a school. with a teacher. I still don't know shit #no illogical and magical hacking in this house (I'm sad he's smarter than me)#he can learn later. correctly. with a teacher. like me #im mad u can notice?#izuku midoriya #aizawa shouta #dadzawa #vigilante midoriya izuku #quirkless au #quirkless midoriya izuku #i love quirkless au. like why can he be just normal for once?#i know hes green and normal is not a thing for people whos green but guys #guys #hear me out #normal people are nice ok #im nice #(im not lol)#if anyone writes this tag me so I can tag my friend moon. She's begging (literally)#She gets mad at me for not writing my own ideas lmaaaaao #boku no hero academia #my hero academia

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nesperus · 1 year

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maybe something sparrow related? maybe him and little lark being mischievous, or him with rebecca if ur thinking older!! i just really love how u draw all the oaks

little different than what i normally do but can we cut him some slack

#he will literally never have a normal life #the last good thing to happen to him was punching a tree with his brother when he was 12 #of course he’s not gonna be a great dad #leave my boy aLONE this is LARK’S FAULT #i am the number one sparrow defender #everyone is an unreliable narrator let him live #anyways rant over sorry anon #dndads #dungeons and daddies #sage doodles #my art #dndads s2 #sparrow oak

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uncanny-tranny · 7 months

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When I find it hard to do certain things, I like to pretend I am a neanderthal living in a cave with my clan, and I must do The Thing in order to survive.

So, when I'm doing cardio at the gym, I'm actually chasing and tracking a mammoth, and when I need to cook, well, I'm not cooking on a stove top, I am hurdled over the first fire and watching the fat of our kill drip down onto the burning wood. And when I find it hard to crochet, I pretend that the first winter storm is coming and our clan needs me to make blankets to hurdle under and that I must contribute.

I hope whatever you do to do The Things will help. It is a uniquely personable trait to motivate yourself through pretend and stories. That's what makes this life interesting - that's what makes you feel larger than yourself 💛

#mental health #positivity #it helps that i absolutely adore learning things about ancient people too - it's endlessly fascinating #unironically if somebody has textbook/video recommendations about neanderthals/ancient civilization let me know i will froth at the mouth #i like talking about this because it gives other people ideas about how they can motivate themselves #and personally the feeling of being ancient or a part of something old makes me feel that #in addition to the There Are 8 Billion People principle i work on the There Have Been ~117 Billion People Here principle #i find it comforting to think that i don't stand out significantly in a good or bad way because of the sheer NUMBER of people who have live #the human brain is bad at computing those numbers but... just... that's an insurmountable number #there truly are very VERY few experiences truly unique and that's not a bad thing #that just means that you aren't forgotten nor are you alone in anything #i was watching a video about somebody making flax into thread using a paper that was published about ancient textiles #and holy shit i wanted to bite somebody because i was so interested in it and it's just so humanizing to both us but also ancient people #those people probably used very very similar techniques that the video maker did - at first she used a rock to get the fibers #and then she remarked that saliva helped to get to the fiber of the flax and i wonder how many ancient people also did that

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schmweed · 5 months

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#David Tennant #Alec Hardy #Ellie Miller #Broadchurch #my gifs #Ellie just keeps sparing him any direct eye contact outside of serious work-related situations #And he only looks at her when she's looking away #The way Ellie lights up when she realizes what he's saying.#That 'mostly' from him is the kindest most genuine and delightfully playful way of expressing how much she means to him #Love how she lets him know she doesn't believe he lost his phone and therefore her number and yet doesn't give him a hard time abt it #he's too brilliant a detective not to have memorized her number or found a way to say hi #It's just that she probably thinks he didn't care enough #I think Tess gave him an ultimatum -- stop contacting his outstanding Miller if they're going to make this work or Tess won't try #How many times do you think he looked at Ellie's number when he was alone and ached to contact her in any way #Especially given how concerned he was abt her at the end of S2 #But trying to fix the family came first and honestly he's a wonderful human to do that for his daughter's sake #I think he's relieved Ellie would never in her wildest dreams suspect that's why -- but he still wishes he could tell her.#Complicated doesn't begin to cover it. But he decides basking in her presence for their endless hours of work has to be enough. Oh Alec.#Aww. Look at Ellie's beaming face.#I love them so much! <3

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justafriend-ql · 11 months

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This is the problem I will face for the rest of my life. NEVER LET ME GO Episode 10

#never let me go #never let me go the series #nlmg #nuengdiao kiattrakulmethee #phuwin tangsakyuen #melgifs #yes this is the 3rd time I've giffed this scene #1) because there are literally an infinite number of ways to gif a given scene #2) you all know i LOVE a good reflection a.k.a. identity questioning shot #3) this time i wanted to emphasize the sense of loss in the scene.#i wanted the coloring to be metallic and lonesome - like nuengdiao's necklace #the happiness and color of the island now faded. the return to the heavy grey of his reality #'this is the problem I will face for the rest of my life' and the problem is just being who he is - the 'only one'#and having to accept and clutch that truth in his hand because if he's honest with himself - he always knew it would come to this #all alone again and the only one who can - and must - uphold his family's legacy #spiraling in the tags sorry it will happen again

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varpusvaras · 10 months

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Rex, walking downstairs at 8.05 am after Anakin let him sleep in: Morning..how're we doing?

Anakin: Good. Luke has only cried four times so far

Rex: Oh, that's good. How's Leia-

Baby Leia, angrily, from her crib that has appeared in the living room: BAH

Rex: ....why is the crib here and why is she in it

Anakin: she growled at me

Rex: Oh dear gods...

Anakin: What? Last time she did so she tried to bite my fingers, and I don't think biting into metal is good for her teeth! Anyway I don't think she likes me much, since she keeps trying to bite me

Rex, with his will to live draining away by every second: I don't know. She bites everyone pretty indiscriminatoly

Anakin: I've never seen her bite you

Rex: That's because I'm her favorite, and I don't wonder why

#the adventures of stay at home dads Anakin and Rex #Rex maybe respects Anakin as a general but he doesn't trust him to take care of a baby #let alone two #so there he is #Padmé is the breadwinner in this family and she has learned to put Rex's number before Anakin's in all the forms about the twins #star wars #the clone wars #anakin skywalker #captain rex

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centaurator · 1 year

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can you hit the griddy

I think I've heard of that before. Is that where they do the... ugh, the....

Nevermind— nevermind!

... ... Ahem.

DAPA is the one who mentioned it to me. I'm sure they'd enjoy demonstrating it to you, just leave me out of it.

#this boy did NOT do the griddy #he tried! for a few seconds. but it's hard to remember how to do the griddy with the correct number of limbs let alone six. seven?#i had to ask my younger sister to demonstrate to me what the griddy was btw. how embarrassing #at least nips is having fun #she probably did it better than he did #ok. sleep time :)

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palmtreepalmtree · 1 month

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Someone passed along a question from someone's assistant via email, and my boss is suddenly hyper-fixated on the assistant. We are doing nothing for the assistant other than answering their question for their boss. The assistant has nothing to do with anything. But my boss keeps slacking me asking me about what immigration things we're doing for the assistant. We are not. We are not doing anything. At all. So there's nothing to do or discuss. Like... this is a one-day shoot. No one is paying to do immigration things for this person's assistant for one day. Stop asking about the assistant. No one is talking about the assistant. I am not doing anything for the assistant.

#literally this person is playing generic job title number 2 #i don't even know why they have an assistant to begin with #i don't even know why we're doing immigration things for this person at all let alone their assistant #screams into the void #just rants about work

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phoenix-clan · 4 months

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been thinking a lot about the structure of the comic lately and i wanted your guys' opinions on this:

#i think maybe i've been trying to keep everything categorized like this when realistically it doesn't totally make sense #with how i have been drawing the comic it means more eventful chapters (like 4) get up to 30+ pages alone!#where smaller parts like 5 and 1 only take a handful of pages #so i wonder if the numbering was ever even necessary at all #idk i wanna hear ur thoughts on this :) ur the audience so u should get a say!#feels weird to call y'all the audience but it's true 😅#also if ur wondering i didn't go with a moons-based system bc 1) i thought rveryone did it so not doing it would make me stand out #and 2) the kits were young enough that i figured they had yet to be taught how to calculate when a moon passes #so not using the moons system was like. an indicator that the fire not only took their family and friends but also their culture #anyways YES please let me know ur thoughts!#max moment

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possiblyfunny · 2 months

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SURPRISE ITS ANOTHER DRAWING-

Silent Orders

(Inspired by a drawing made by Clover_Noir on twitter of the same name. It gave me Fire vibes for some reason-)

Fire is made by @creatively-cosmic for their story, Missing Numbers. They have an ask blog called @themissingnumbers, so please go check them out if anybody sees this.

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