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sicklyseraphnsuch · 2 months
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contracts, clauses, and causes for action
It seems to me that the ball is entirely in the gods court. Like the only way for Ludinus to become compelling is if the gods leapfrog over the divine gate, rendering their word null and void.
Then there's a cause for action because the mortals will realize "hey, we have no way of keeping you honest, there's no consequence that we can enact when you fail to fulfill your oath". Like a contract is only binding if there's way to enforce it - when you pinky promise to take your kid to disneyland, is that a valid contract or just performative? because if you break a pinky promise, the only consequence is your kid loses faith in you - is that penalty enough?
and the thing is: the divine gate is proof that yeah, the gods do believe that's penalty enough. the one thing that downfall managed to reinforce (which granted we already knew but deeper context only further supports) is that the gods are capable of acknowledging their harm (however unintentional) done to mortals. And not only are they able to acknowledge it, they are able to correct themselves.
and so far, thats holding true. they are demonstrating their discipline and willingness to follow through even if the mortals remain powerless and hold no leverage against them, they can keep themselves beholden to their word because they are in fact Good.
so literally, the only way Ludinus can be proven somewhat compelling is if the gods decide to hop the divine gate. then we'll have some proof that their word is not that ironclad but even then its not to the level of "all gods must die". Thats more on the level of "all gods need to come to the table and renegotiate this contract so theres clauses to allow you exceptions". because absolute contracts tend to force people's hands anyways.
and the only implication that a god hopping the divine gate gives is to reintroduce the idea that the gods are not beholden to mortals in any way and there is no way to keep a god honest - that mortals will have to rely on a god's inherent Goodness to keep themselves honest. but again - what the fuck have the Prime Deities done in this world that has ever pointed in that direction truly? (and no, dont attest the workings of their mortal followers when the gods have banned themselves from interference).
the gods would have to break the contract twice - once to stop predathos, and a second time for less dire purposes - in order to really showcase that they arent trustworthy. thats a Fucking Lot to mess up. and again they dont seem willing to even break the divine gate for Ludinus so what is even the problem here?
the problem, narratively speaking, is that the current world is built by fairly Good gods who really havent done anything of significance to showcase tyranny. none of them is on the level of Marika, from Elden Ring, whose personal history has led to death and discrimination of innocent children - which she actively campaigned for and did to her own children. (No slander on Marika btw)
Matt has not made any of the Prime Deities bad and sure, the Betrayers are bad and sure, maybe the mortals would prefer to have them entirely eliminated. but like mortals live under so many threats with less protections against than they currently do against the Betrayers. That deprioritizes them from the level of "eliminate at all costs". There's nothing dire or urgent that hasnt been manufactured by the Big Bad himself.
the gods are traumatized yes. theyre stuck in a toxic family situation yes. but none of that toxicity has affected their desire to protect mortals. and the only time a mortal became worthy of destruction by divine hand was when those mortals nearly unleashed oblivion? like come on man.
the gods are in their lane and the mortals are thriving and ludinus needs fucking therapy plus a better hobby.
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freakythecry · 2 months
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@murdersin asked: "You may sit upon my lap." she smiles, all too kind and innocent given the situation. "i wouldn't want you to go untouched any longer, darlin'. you've been so good and patient... and after that hard work with that li'l interruption, i'd say you definitely deserve somethin', don't you?" evelyn drawls, her eyes gentle but mischievous. ( to marnan, if youre comfortable w it ^_^ ik we havent done much w them yet!! )
hazel eyes hazily look up to meet with tan skin and light eyes , feeling how his knees and palms pressed into the hard wood , how to essence of HER dripped down his fair chin . today had been LONG to put it lightly . to being ambushed , to being injured , to healing a fair amount of wounds , it was safe to say mentally marnan was beat . evelyn had assisted him beautifully in ensuring their now tightly wound group was safe , he'd commended and praised her , thanking her for here dutiful assistance as the foes they encountered seemed to only increase in strength and the brunet had found himself struggling . he remembers even through his pained expression the way her strong hands had pressed into his gash to heal him , the way she cooed at him and told him that it was fine , HE was fine , HE did great , promised if he was well fit by night he'd have a reward awaiting him .
now , here he was , lips pink and wet from her slick , face flushed from the way it had been held so delicately between solid thighs , being beckoned by the light to come CLOSER . " thank you , miss . . . " moth to flame , marnan can feel his limbs move to try and fulfill the request , crawling to stand . their difference in height makes it difficult to say the least , gangly long limbs trying to wrap around her wide yet stout frame . the brunet's expression is dazed and bashful , grin lopsided and toothy as fair hands run along toned abs and strong shoulders . in this moment marnan feels no shame being on display like this , feeling his hard cock twitch and jump against his stomach , two devote followers embraced in a dance of beautiful blasphemy .
marnan looms over the blonde , a hand coming to run through the bouncy hair , pushing it from her face . " eve . . . " he coos the pet name he'd adopted for the shorter human as if SHE were his patron deity , rolling his hips so his leaking cock pressed against her frame . " gods , you're so beautiful . . . " he hums , brain foggy as he finds calloused hands placidly grabbing at her shoulders , seeking salvation in her form .
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whalefill · 1 year
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Who are your ocs? Tell Me
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ok so basically its the early 1970s and people are still under the impression that the deep sea is inhospitable to any kind of life. but then this rando autistic dude named lake is out scuba diving one day on a coral reef along rhode island and he uncovers this HUGE cave
he takes the discovery back to the organization he works for, they run a bunch of tests, and they literally cannot figure out how deep it is. like anyone and anything they send down there has to come back up or they'll never reach the end, bc there is no bottom to this thing that they know of let alone have the technology to reach. they also DO find traces of life inside it which is fucking insane and awesome for science but terrifying to everyone else. it seems ok at first but it really all goes downhill from there. lakes career skyrockets, the cavern becomes a public attraction, there's a religious panic about it because christians think some ocean research institution opened a gate to hell, etc.
lake's story though is mainly about grief. i'm going to write it and release it one day, i'm not sure if it's going to be a novel or what but. anyway. it's told in the form of journal entries, letters, and then statements. sort of laid out like dracula where you watch jonathan harker lose his sanity and then die, yknow. except i havent finished that book so idk
but basically lake is a very very lonely guy, has been his whole life, and the events of the main plot all coincide with different tragedies that fall on him. he's in love with his married best friend/lab partner, he has friends and family that pass away, his job that used to bring him so much joy and fulfillment starts to get too hectic and scary for him to handle ... he just keeps losing everything. he quits work to process it all but the self isolation only makes it worse
and throughout all this, he grows gradually more obsessed with the cavern, feeling some weird connection to it. with every trip he makes down, he feels a call to sink deeper and he knows it's imminent that he will. so in his suffering he decides fuck it. i'm going to die in you!
which he does. sort of. i mean its the only version of the story that makes logical sense. you cant just sink into a hole infinitely and survive, but it's as if he does. because he fills an entire journal with records of what he finds down there, and it's found stained with ink and seawater in his boat he'd taken out. but they never find him, not his body, not his equipment, nothing. all they have is what he wrote
and it's really up to the reader to decide whether they believe what he says. but he finds various colossal fish and other animals and talks about some sort of telepathic link he has with them. i wont go into too much detail because i'm going to make art of them in the near future but they're super cool i promise !!!
essentially it ends with a fucked up, surreal, uncomfortable sequence where sentient deep sea creatures cry to lake about everything wrong with their lives, and all of their experiences mirror his own. so as sad as it is that he "dies", or even just wanted to, by the end of it he realizes how loved he was. and that's really all that matters. even if it wasn't enough to save him. it was still there
SORRY THIS IS SO LONG. but thats the gist of it
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malachiexists13 · 2 years
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My first impression of the Ikemen Villains guys:
[Disclaimer: I know nothing about these characters asides from the descriptions shared around Tumblr. I probably won't play the game any time soon considering that its being first released in Japanese, so unless it later on gets released in English, I won't play. Also this post is partially a joke, don't take me too seriously.]
William Rex
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He gives off a more "evil, avoid at all costs, worldwide disaster" vibe than Gilbert ever did. My first thought upon seeing him was, "omg- Vlad???" But then I read his description and thought, "ohhh. So Vlad, but evil. Like if Vlad and Motonari had a baby..."
Harrison Gray
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First thought, "yo, Edgar, what are you doing here??" Like bro does look like Edgar, even his description screams Edgar to me. I've seen others compare him with Nokto, but I havent paid much attention to Nokto so maybe thats why I cant see it? Idk. But yeah, I guess since Ikerev is over, Edgar had to find a new profession :/
Liam Evans
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Omg, look. Loki grew up, he's a big kid now!
Idk how to really react to this one? Like, ok, he's got the chesire cat curse or whatever, he looks a bit like Loki, ..and he's supposed to be sexy? I mean, I see the vibe they were going for. But if they try to shove that "drop-dead gorgeous" or "sexy ladies man" shit down our throats like they did with Yoshimoto and Shingen in Ikesen (could also probably find other examples in the other games..) then I might end up hating him.
ALSO HIS POSE AND SORTA HIS OUTFIT REMINDS ME OF YVES-
Elbert Greetia
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Omg its Chevalier but if he was actually angsty. Or maybe it's just Lancelot.
Ok- so its mostly like the hair that screams both Lancelot and Chevalier to me. Its Lancelot's style but Chev's color. And the eyes could easily be a mix of both-
But he also kinda reminds me of Satan from Obey Me, with the whole "obsessively collects beautiful things and leaves them untidy in his room." That's literally Satan but with books, but Satan also likes beautiful things.
Alfons Slyvatica
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Omg is that Sebastian Michaelis?? (Im sorry- Ive never even seen Black Butler, I'll go home now-)
Idk. Ive seen others compare him to like, Jean but evil. I look at him and see Sebastian Michaelis. Or maybe like, Kicho because of the hair. But then the line "With his consistent dishonesty, he teases you, but-" makes me think of, strangely, Mitsuhide?
Roger Barel
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I've seen other compare him to Jin. I look at him and see Loid Forger. Which funny enough, his VA, Eguchi Takuya, also voices Loid Forger-
Its mostly the hair style, and the face, and the glasses- like if he was blonde, with blue (is it blue-? Or does Loid have green-?) eyes then he'd look even more like Loid. I cant really think of any ikemen series characters he reminds me of, at least not appearance. But with the part in his description that says "An egoist who seems rational and will go to any lengths for his own research." makes me think of Faust for some reason..
Jude Jazza
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He doesnt immediately remind me of anyone. Ive seen comparisons to Clavis and Silvio, which kinda makes sense? I guess I could see it. The uhh "A twisted man, he has a promise he wants to fulfill and a sullen heart." at first made me think of Mitsuhide. But then I remembered the definition of sullen and that doesnt fit Mitsu. But I guess the having many enemies and being seen as a cold-blooded person who loves the despair and misfortune of others DOES fit Mitsuhide, at least on the surface. Idk. Im bad at analysis like this.
But also like- I share a birthday with this man. Like the exact same date, Dec. 13. So im gonna end up HATING him.
Ellis Twilight
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His appearance doesnt really remind me of anyone right away. But his description of being somewhat disturbing yet kind and gentle to everyone, being strangely obsessed with other people's "Happiest Moments in Life" and the having a "love" that he wants to prove makes me think of Charles.
But like, the opposite. Because Charles wants someone to love him, while it seems like Ellis wants to prove his love to someone? So... Charles but emo.
Victor
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So.. A lot of people speculate he's the one who put the curses on the others, because his own curse is scratched out. Like we cant read it. Some have compared him to Sariel, because he's like the guide in the game. But also uhh- sorta reminds me of Amon. Maybe its the long hair (probably is).
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snow-and-saltea · 9 months
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People I'd like to know better
Tagged by @paleasamoon (hi tex i love you tex sorry this took a year) (HEH. get it. cus you tagged me last year. heh.)
Last song: just putting on yt music as im reading manga and talking to muwi, and now its playing burn for you, from the bridgerton musical! (i don't know watch or follow it) (it's just a nice song) but i'd also like to recommend this song
Favourite colour: YELLOW!!!! 💛💛💛💛💛💛
Currently watching: my computer screen writing this up
Last movie / TV show: skip to loafer! i was screaming with muwi the entire time bc the story was so sweet and healing and everyone is so sympathetic and cute and we kept being like AAAAAAAAAA I LOVE WOMEN FRIENDSHIPS SO MUCHHHHHH
Spicy/savoury/sweet: sweet! if i could choose a combo, i like savoury-sweet. i like spice but only if i like the flavour! i'm not keen on the actual pain sensation of spice!!
Last thing I googled: hummmm i don't remember... i think a marinade recipe i made yesterday night? i made a korean base marinade for some lamb chops!! i cooked them today and invited my sister to eat with us, it was rlly yummy!
Relationship status: single! waves my aroace flag!!! i'm curious about how it feels to be in a relationship but it's not smth i try to actualize LOL i'm content w reading my shoujosei man-ga/hwa/huas <33
Current obsession: idk if i could call them obsessions yet but right now i'm really invested in sousou no frieren (anime only, havent caught up to the manga), skip to loafer (same there), and i'm looking for more wholesome healing stories. although now that i'm going through my reading lists for stories i've dropped, i'm laughing at them fjaksfjkasfj
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(i promise this one has proper context bc i usually like pacifist mcs just bc i like politics and connection seeking to be based on a foundation of empathy and kindness. but this one was just so stupid and just a way to establish how good the mc was to the point that i couldn't get immersed in the story bc it was that nonsensical and i wanted to die)
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i'm typically fine w mary sues / jane(?) FLs and i even tend to be biased for them just bc there's a lot of misogyny about the subject matter, so i normally don't bat an eye unless it's a writing choice i find unsuitable / doesn't fulfill the potential it could've achieved with an interesting plot.
(btw the context is that the first screenie which this rant also applies to was when some guy caught the baddies and the FL is like "No let's reward them for trying to kill us. they're just misunderstood!! i bet if we try really hard we can all get along!!")
but! i only really like it when it actually does something useful, like thematically or symbolically. like tohru's innate goodness for furuba inline with the sohma's family curse and mitsumi's unending positivity and earnestness that helps the people around her heal from emotional wounds. not that they're mary sues in any way, but since people understand mary sues as "female protagonists who can do no wrong and will be liked no matter what" (even thought their psychology and personality is just genuinely likeable), i think it makes my point clear. there's a way to write a character who is Good and Kind without cheapening them to a naivete that at best, makes the mc pitiable, or worst, is treated like the mc's totally unique worldview of "lets be nice to people and never hurt anyone ever :)" is the end all be all of the story and the solution to the plot. kindness and empathy is a coiled spring that projects you forward, a motivator. it's how you guide your hand and where it goes, not that the hand is never raised. i don't agree that cowardice towards change and the potential promise of conflict is any kind of wisdom >:T plus it kinda puts the shame to the idea of kindness as a legitimate basis for political strategy, and that leads to some set up for a lot of zero sum games i don't care for in this specific story. there is a good story where each character is trying to one up each other politically, psychologically, at all times, but this is not that story and so the tone feels very off kilter.
but yeah!! sometimes a character is just OP and the story is not even having fun with it (aka its not satire or irony), which makes me think they want to take it seriously. and my serious thoughts was that it sucked.
(i just realised this also applies to the first screenie LMFAO it just loops back huh!!)
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not gonna comment about the others bc i think they speak for themselves <33 but also the first one of these three is fucked up in the sense that i dont even get where they're going w the story. its a revenge story and the FL uses the ML from childhood to achieve her revenge, but then suddenly when he's an adult she has Feelings for Him and now im like.... okay....? belief no longer suspended. beliefs are like those garter straps that snapped. my socks are like my beliefs. fallen to my feet. they are no longer suspended.
sorry that got off track </33 i enjoy looking into why i dont like things, im in this stage of life where i realise i actually have specific ass tastes!! i always have, but i just realised it very recently a few years back fjskfjskjf
People I'd like to know better (i also wanna include some mutuals who i haven't talked to but i like to see on my dash):
@snickerdoodlles
@fflewddurfflam7
@00uroboros
@perpetualstateofcrying
@pirate-with-internet-connection
💛🐢😤💪
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literallys-illiteracy · 2 months
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"3 days left" - analysis and predictions made from (what i assume to be) 1/3rd through Omori.
Gebura and the floor of language (roland series part 2)
Yan Vismok, predetermination, nonexistence of free will
"The Council of Fausts, Carmen Coded Characters and the Eternal Feminine" - Request from Freischutz anon. 1/?? finished
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Carmen
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love-nakamura · 8 months
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Hi
For the character ask game, Percy Jackson numbers 4 and 18?
first of all HI FRIEND<33 thank you for asking you are so brave and amazing and I love you
[so the thing about Percy is 1. I love him and 2. I havent read the source material in.... Years.. but I shall answer most honestly]
4: If I could put Percy in any other media where would I put him?
a) technically he does have 2 movies hes in a TV show now my baby!!!!!!
b) actually I think this question is asking if I could put him in another world maybe..?
If so, with the pre-requisit he travels with Annabeth, I would honestly love to see him in a Brandon Sanderson universe, specifically the Reckoners series. I think it would be interesting to see him fight other People with 'powers' rather than gods/non humans.
All of the Percy Jackson series in my head always has people fighting for causes that are blamed on a higher power or another group/being (eg. the fights, although against another demigods, are people who side with demigods vs people who side with gods, titans, monsters, etc. to fulfill human desires/pride... yet at the same time these guys are being manipulated by others... ) and I would love to see him navigate slightly more human-blamed causes and issues!!
Also he would just be so cool and strong!!!!! hahah
18) A relationship Percy has in canon that I admire
all of them m...... Percy has great chemistry with Everyone, but two more specifically:
a) Grover. I think theres so much missed potential tbh in the series as time goes on. Grover is like a full ass adult but theyre also best friends. technically Grover lied by omission to percy for like the start and basis of their friendship but also they have an emotional and mental bond that connects them for life. they have saved each others lives a hundred times over. theyre brothers. also theyre stupid.
I think Grover must have felt a lot of like.. fakeness? Imposter syndrome? at first because dude hes basically a spy whos in charge of taking care of this kid, specifically a kid who reminds you a lot about a kid he Failed before.... and yet Percy forgives him and loves him and the fact that hes a half goat and an adult is like hey whatever since we're friends
It speaks a lot about Percy's character (and his loyalty) to me and also if you've read the other series you'll know Grover doesn't really go on quests anymore/show up a lot and yet their love for each other is still there and hey thats what friendship is yeah?
b) Nico. AHHH NICO *ahem* anyways. I Love Percy and Nicos relationship. one sided crush, percy is So Cool and like the Awesome Older Guy™ you know whose like..??? everything to you?? and also you're Gay and Percy freaking Hurt you and you feel like he was Wrong and Broke a Promise to you but you also realize as you grow older that guy is Literally Just A Guy™ and a Child at that.. and for Percy like.... this kid who looks up to you and hey this is actually like..? the First time in your life where someone explicitly states they think youre cool and a good role model and that Pressure!! and you feel that responsibility but also youre like 14????
and then later when you both get older you realize that the other person is so much more than you can ever see or understand and the portrait you had of them in your head barely scratches the surface and thats a Good thing because it means that people are so much greater than you knew and your past does not define you and moving on from something doesnt mean you dont love it anymore
I think Percy and Nico's relationship is admirable because theres so much forgiveness (both for each other and for themselves as they navigate what it means to have/make/maintain relationships with people that you've never experienced before) and thats beautiful to me.
this was Super Fun and I hope you have a wonderful day muah <3333
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spacialshrimp · 1 year
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[The House of The God's]
Many believe that there are no gods, others think that there are only a few or even only one, the reality is that, in the infinite galaxies, which exist in what in our opinion is an infinite universe, there are an infinite number of planets. , and many planets have life on them, life which sometimes evolves enough to be aware of its surroundings, that's when they ask themselves "how was what I know created? how does my species exist? who was the first?" Thus, the gods or the god that created them (because yes, there are a large number of gods in the universe), send them signals, unlike what many believe, the divine ones do not control, they do not send instructions, at least not always, some like to see where their creation can go without any clue or help, others have implemented free will as a form of punishment to their creation, for having offended them.
There are many types of gods, some that are just beginning to exist and create, others that are already more "elderly" and have been creating for a long time, the gods are usually born from gods, command is usually handed over to the next generation or they can To reign together in harmony, it also often happens that the children take power by force or that the parents never give any power to their children beyond what they already have at birth, because they do not consider them worthy.
Some gods have their own kingdoms and spaces and do not mix with other gods, others live in what is known as "The universal palace" many gods like to spend time there, because it is a great place to rest from the heavy task To prevent your creation from self-destructing, others arrive because their reign has ended and they want to rest or because they have already fulfilled their work as prophets and hope that their words will be heard, but only one got there, out of desire for freedom.
In the heavenly palace, although there are several gods, mostly the following are found:
Paya; Goddess of life and creation for the Yautja, (Her brother would be here too, but he doesn't like to socialize and he likes his cave)
Zeus; He used to be the god of lightning and the heavens for humans (Greeks and Romans he was known as Jupiter)
Aphrodite; She used to be the goddess of Fertility and beauty for humans (Greeks and Romans she was known as Venus)
Loki; He used to be the god of lies, transformation and mischief for humans (Nordic), after Ragnarok he is here with Freya and Thor until they let them come back.
Buda; He is here to rest from the day like Paya he is from the humans
Dē-ty; They are one of the yougest gods, havent created more than plants, but give them enough time and you will see in a couple if centuries.
Jesus: He is traumatized, but even so, loves humans, but also fears them, even tho he didn't create them, he still love humans. (Don't comment about his scars, unless ur paya) and yes, he cant be on a pool not because he walk above the water, but because he turns water into wine.
And yes the other gods specially Zeus is like "J.C i need a miracle"
And J.C is like "How much water do you have?" , yep, he, he is chill.
Paya is like the mother of the group she puts zeus in his place most of the time.
And what about the other gods? Well you will have to discover it asking them! The asks to the gods are open!
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Excuse my inactivity , i just closed this semester and im about to explode, but i promise that will be more active during this winter vacations.
Remember to drink water!
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crumble-cookii · 3 years
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tea man concept, because I love him. this one's a bit messy bc I couldn't put my thoughts into words/doodles very well this time, so I'm sorry for that, but there's lots of rambles in the tags which you should check out too 💜
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one of few actually allowed near the children(and they like him)
does not actually want to be a Cookie of Darkness, but stays for the kids(and hates DE)
pulls the "I'm not mad, just disappointed" card(very effective)
indulges a lot of media which are unexpected if him
shares client stories with Eclair(brother)
complicated relationship with Roguefort(twin)
therapy friend
keeps extra glasses with him at all times
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#cookie run#cookie run fanart#earl grey cookie#so this is where it starts getting into the more concept and less headcanon part#because literally none of this is based off of canon except for maybe the kids liking him but thats a stretch#the devs refuse to give me tea man content so i simply make it myself#i mean they technically did give tea man content an update ago in CRK but thats the WRONG tea man >:(#anyways time to ramble#so two concepts here are based off of much bigger and complicated concepts ive thought of that i havent shared yet#one is how i believe the CoD work and the other is the idea that Eclair Rogue and Earl are all siblings#ive kinda touched on that one a little but not as in depth as id like#still not going in depth but the basics is Eclair is the oldest by a year and Rogue and Earl are unidentical twins#eclair and earl are close as they share a lot of interests but rogue and earl were seperated in their teens so their not close anymore#earl despises how rogue turned out and wishes they could do better but he still loves them the way any twin does#rogue comes to him if they ever get injured or are just bored but they sadly dont interact much otherwise#them being separated is also the main reason that he refuses to separate the chess twins. ever#they dont like being away from each other in a way that only Earl can understand since thats what happened to him#the twins are also a big part as to why he absolutely hates DE#aside from the obvious of shes evil and destructive which he already dislikes he hates the way shes manipulated them#she gave them a promise which wouldve never been fulfilled if he hadnt agreed to stay for them but they hold her in such a high light#<because of it. and technically theyre right since the three wouldve never met if she hadnt encouraged them which is worse#its not just the twins though. while it was initially he was different from the others in that he had a healthy mindset when he joined#he could see all the lies and manipulation because his mind wasnt clouded with sorrow grief and desperationg the way it was for the others#and he hates that he has such a tight grasp on them and how they all seem to worship her unrelentlessly#while im still not yet explaining how i think the CoD works i will say that while Earl is the most defiant hes probably the most useful#not only does he run the hotel catered for the wealthy and bring in a shit ton of money he also fulfills the promises DE made which she#<never actually intended to keep up#hes trapped in a cycle of fighting his battles by helping the enemy and over time itll lead him to the fate the others hold#which is trapped in a contract he knows will never be finished until hes probably dead or worse#anyways thats kinda all i wanted to explain but im always open to questions so please ask i love explaining
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dangerliesbeforeyou · 5 years
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i finally finished watching series 2 of killing eve! loveddd that ending tbh ... also i was constantly caught between wanting eve to run for the goddamn hills away from villanelle & wanting them to run off together as murder-wives lol...
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ddarker-dreams · 3 years
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hi lock !!! i havent been to your blog in such a long time even thought you were like the first person i followed on tumblr,, anyways !! which yandere do you think would pay someone to harass you and beat them up/murder them unexpectedly like some knight in shining armor so you'd look at them like theyre god,,, i lit just thought of this in a whim so it might not make a lot of sense ehehe
-r
the first person you followed?? omg... i'm honored... i hope i didn't fill up the timeline with too much cursed content. this is extremely sweet to hear <33 thank you very much!!
and let's see... for your question, i'm thinking the yanderes who would do that are:
chrollo from hxh. he tries to leave a good impression on you from the start, turning the charisma up unfairly high. if that doesn't work, then he won't dwell on it for long; that's what his many connections in the underground are for. he wouldn't just stop with saving you from hired goons. he'd sabotage your engine and offer you a ride to work/school, or steal your wallet when you're in line and swoop in at the last second to pay for everything. not all within the same time period, of course, can't have you catching on or becoming suspicious. he'll space things out so you'll remain none the wiser.
giorno from jjba. really, there's not much that you do that he wouldn't know about. he's familiar enough with your routes to know the best place to stage the "attack", where you'll feel secluded enough that your hopelessness will be higher. he wouldn't want to resort to this method, however. he doesn't particularly like the thought of putting you in a situation where you'll feel scared. giorno tells himself that he'll be able to make it up to you after. that keeps the guilt from getting to him too much. he'll come in like a perfect gentleman, kissing your hand and offering to put you up in a high end hotel for the night with guards if you still don't feel safe.
diluc from genshin impact. social interaction outside of formal events isn't his forte. which is frustrating, because he wants nothing more than to get closer to you and embed himself into your life, but isn't sure the best way to go about that. it's likely the first time you ever meet him will be a situation like this. he'll take care of the men trying to rob you, then assess you with a silent expression. you might almost find yourself frightened of him too. he's thinking to himself how nice, how fulfilling it is to protect you. it's like everything in his world clicked into place. he'll offer to walk you home that night, content with how things turned out.
kazuha from genshin impact. his setup would be different, in that he wouldn't need to hire ruffians to harass you. kazuha already stalks you enough from afar to know if you would be in any potential danger. instead of rescuing you right away, or stopping the attack prematurely, he'd allow it to begin just shy of you being placed in physical harm. then he'd jump from the thickets, gallant and swift in getting rid of the threat. he'd even lift you into his arms, carrying you bridal style to safety, fretting over any scrapes and insisting to dress them himself. if your hand is shaking, he'll hold it until you feel better. kazuha promises that so long as you're with him, you never need to be scared. he'll always protect you.
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tiktaalic · 3 years
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since you're the ceo of gay dean, do you have any fic recs? i have trouble finding anything good besides yours, ao3 user saltyfeathers and wtf gay little jack :(
ceo of gay dean??? oh boy the gay dean economy must be in shambles if that’s me. and i don’t have any specific recs, sorry! idk if you’ve already checked the gay dean tag on ao3? i sorted by kudos and excluded That pairing but oof these pickings look slim... i personally dont read aus (and havent read any of the fics that i’m about to link so i can’t vouch) but here r some canonverse works in the gay dean tag. cut for length
dean winchester really needs to make some gay friends - “Like, I’m trying to think if I’ve had, I don’t know, crushes. If I ever had a gay thing before you came along and just didn’t notice,” Dean said.Cas suddenly looked down, and away from Dean. If Dean didn’t know better, he would swear Cas looked guilty.“What is it, Cas?”“You have had several… gay things before.” Cas still wouldn’t look at him.“What? When? How come you know this better than I do?
something on your mind? -  Sam and Dean are cursed to have personifications of their minds following them around. That's shouldn't be too bad of a problem. Just another day for the Winchesters. Except for the part where their minds speak every single thought Sam and Dean have.
the other sides of the story -  Sam and Dean go check out portals popping up in their world to make sure no more monsters cross over. They meet alternate versions of people they know and there seems to be one common thread-Dean and Cas are together.
doing life with me - He remembers the rules. The same rules set by the most beautiful drag queen in all of Alabama, spoken to him while he hid his tear-stained face, cowering on the grimy floor of a rest station bathroom: don’t talk; don’t ask for money, because most of the time, they won’t pay him anyway; don’t cry; don’t let them kiss him; and most importantly, don’t get attached. For the first time in two decades, Dean breaks the cardinal rule—and opens his mouth. “I’m too old for this.”
how many more times -  After a hunt that forces Castiel to admit his feelings for Dean, more than one truth comes out. Desperate to right the wrong he allowed to happen 26 years ago, he travels back in time and stops Azazel from murdering Mary Winchester. John never becomes a hunter, and Dean grows up a normal kid while Castiel deals with the aftermath of his decision in Heaven. When the war dies down, he comes back to Earth to fulfill a promise - a promise he made to come back for Dean one day. They fall in love all over again, but just when Castiel is finally happy, they're thrown back in time once more. How many times will Cass and Dean need to find each other before they figure out who’s screwing with them, and more importantly, how to stop them?
psalm 40:2 - “How the fuck do you know my name?” Dean hisses. The man doesn’t look scared. He is watching Dean like there is nothing else worth watching, lips a little parted, eyes a little soft. And blue. Real blue, like the ocean on a postcard. The ice spreading down Dean’s spine makes him shiver. “I suppose you could say I’m your guardian angel,” the man murmurs. His breath fogs pale between them. All of him is unnaturally warm, like Dean’s touching somebody with the sun sewn up beneath their skin. “I have known you, Dean Winchester, for a very long time.” * Dean meets an angel who says he's from the future. It all gets a lot more complicated from there.
just trying to shake off the shame - “What, you don’t think this warrants any kind of discussion?" Or: Sam is nosy, Dean is uncooperative.
tell me i’m an angel kick me like a stray -  Pain is the first emotion Castiel, angel of the lord, feels. If only it had ended at pain. Castiel documents every new emotion that nestles its way into his stolen heart. As time passes, he realises how truly fucked he is, how human he has become.
best of both worlds -  Dean is very jealous, Cas is finally getting the love he deserves, AU Dean is a badass little bitch, Sam is done with y'all's shit.
through mine, you were looking in yours -  A missing scene from "The End". In which Dean realises things, another Dean struggles, and Cas is being just a bit of an asshole
when angels fall -  On a hunting accident gone wrong, Dean accidentally shoots a creature instead of a fleeing monster. The creature in question turns out to be Castiel, an angel assigned to the Winchester's, tasked with watching over them. The bullet, engraved and imbued with magical properties, clips Castiel’s wings and leaves him grievously injured and unable to return to heaven. As such, Dean takes him in and cares for him.
the savior, our wedding, & a pizza surprise -  As Castiel Winchester slept with his head resting in Dean’s lap in the Man of Letters bunker, Dean looked lovingly at two framed photographs proudly displayed on a nearby table and wistfully remembered how Dean had begged Jack to rescue Cas from the Empty, how elated he had been to have Cas back, how their relationship quickly escalated as if they were trying to make up for years of lost time, and what a spectacularly fun adventure their wedding and honeymoon had been. A kiss from Cas brought Dean back into the present, and is followed by a pizza surprise in a way which Sam hopes to never see photographic evidence of, although it sparked Eileen’s interest in receiving helpful tips from the infamous pizza man.
what is the truth -  Dean and Sam, after knowing about Huntercop and their other self from an another universe, were willing to help them to find a place in which they can stay. But suddenly, Castiel cames and met them too, and this other Dean can't stop to flirt with him. Our Dean is not so happy about it
again, i haven’t actually read any of these, just skimmed the summaries as i copy and pasted em. my taste is pretty specific and out of step w other ppl’s, but the ones i put in my marked for later list were something on your mind, the other sides of the story, doing life with me, psalm 40:2, just trying to shake off the shame, through mine, you were looking in yours, and when angels fall. 
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technowoah · 3 years
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Fuck JYP [1:16 am]
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A BangChan blurb! (Fem reader????)
Its a small thing that I whipped up because I miss bangchan
⚠︎ "babygirl", swear words, mentions of jyp (the human 🤢), angst, fluff, unresloved issue. I didnt proofread and im sorry if this dosen't make any sense.
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It was something about tonight that made you feel this way.
Today was like any normal day. You woke up, went to work like usual, then Chan called you to come over to JYP and spend time with him as he worked on new Stray Kid's new album. You two havent seen eachother all day, so it was calming after a hectic day to walk into Chan's studio while listening to R&B music as it bounced through the room.
Anytime Chan lets you come into JYP he makes sure everything is safe. No one knows about your relationship, but Chan's group members. He was able to date now that the group wasn't in their rookie stages anymore, but it wasn't encouraged. Even though they could, if Chan was caught with you, all hell would break loose in JYP entertainment and in social media.
You two hated being secretive and having select times where you could sneak into Chan's studio for the rest of the night, only to sneak out when Chan is for sure positive that everyone who works on that floor was gone for the night. It was a handful but it became a routine that you two got accustomed to. The only part you hated was waiting for his texts.
Luckily at this point and time Chan finally texted you to tell you that it was okay to come. He waited for you in the back entrance and finally uou two made it to the floor his studio was on.
You two were currently sitting next to eachother close as possible in the small rollerchairs. He worked on music with his headphone around his neck while the contrast of Joji and the hard beat of a Stray Kids song, through Chan's headphones floated around. You had to admire how hard he worked for his group, how he loved his group. You admired how Chan's lips moved when he heard something he didn't like, how he sighed in frustration and reached for your hand to calm himself down, how he knew you were listening and looked to you for confirmation.
The clock on his desk striked 1:16 am and you audibly sighed.
"What's wrong?" Chan asked while still working on his computer.
"Maybe you should give your eyes a break babe." You suggested.
He saved his work, which he has been doing every 5 minutes, then turned and stared you directly in the eyes. His eyes were bloodshot from staring at multiple screens, being stressed out, and probably not blinking, but his eyes were soft and filled with gratitude.
"What are you doing?" You laughed confused.
"Giving my eyes a break. C'mere." Chan opened his arms inviting you into his lap.
You fulfilled his request and sat youself into his lap, leaning back into his chest and making Chan you new chair for now. He swayed back and forth in his chair humming along to Human Nature.
"Haven't I told you you're a sight for sore eyes?" Chan chuckled.
"Only by you." You agreed.
"Its true."
You both hummed in acknowledgement. You were ready. Not to leave, well yes leave the studio, but you wanted to leave this secretive life that you and Chan had been living. You two were in love and you wanted the world to know it. Who cares if his so called "fans" get upset, they aren't his fans if they get upset at his happiness.
The tempation to take your phone out and post pictures on instagram and let the chaos insue is creeping up on you. You needed to talk to Chan first about it, of course, but then he would want to play it safe. Will he ever want to become public with you? You both are still young and he has so much more ahead of him, you understand the need to play safe, on the other hand you wanted to show off Chan to your friends and family, take him out in public on dates, basically be outside together without repercussions.
"What's on your mind? I know you're thinking hard." Chan leaned his head back on the head rest.
"Im thinking about us." You sighed.
"What about us? Are we good?" Chan rushed through his words.
"Yeah! We're fine don't worry Chan, I just-"
"You called me Chan." He sat up with you on his lap bringing you closer as he said that.
"What?"
"When you are upset about something you call me Chan. I dont know how you didn't pick up on that." Chan smiled down at you.
"Maybe I should change the way I speak then." You chuckled.
"No, dont do that. Just tell me what's wrong." Chan hugged you closer.
"I want to go public with you. I want the world to know that were together I dont fucking care anymore. I just wanna go outside with you without your managers breathing down your neck." You finished your small rant as Chan hummed, knowing what you meant.
Chan sighed. "I know baby girl. I know. I just-"
You cut Chan off and stood up off of his lap. "Just what? Lets go! Lets do it now, lets go outside, drive out in the middle of nowhere, stay in a hotel. Fuck JYP! Fuck, Park Jin-young he could rot for all I care. I want you Chan."
You were standing up holding both of his hands while Chan looked up from his seat in admiration. He looked starstruck and conflicted. Yes the rant came from the top of your head, and it was just a fantasy. It wasn't going to happen, you both had jobs, he had a bigger obligation to fill than you. You just wanted freedom.
"Hey! I promise we can do those things. I promise. I never break a promise. I want you too, I have you! You know I want to stay safe." Chan reluctantly said.
You sighed as Chan mumbled another "Im sorry." You sat back down in the other chair next to his, he gave you a hand squeeze before going back to his work. The situation felt incomplete, but it might've been that you didn't get the answer you really wanted, but that's okay for now.
Chan never broke his promises no matter how much he had to sacrifice to make those promises happen you two will find a way. You two always find a way.
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lavender--fairy · 2 years
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hiii so ive known about manifesting since like 2020 (around there) and i still havent been able to consciously manifest much/my desires. like sometimes ill manage to manifest "small things" but even thats kinda rare :/. ive tried working on my self concept multiple times before and i dont really feel any different than before and idk. i dont mean to complain or sound like a victim and i know that manifesting is supposed to be fun and easy, but rn its not. i KNOW what to do and i know that getting my desires is a promise for sure but idk what to do. like for example when i affirm "i have the perfect self concept" or "i manifest instantly" i dont feel like im in the wish fulfilled and after a few days of affirming i cant help but wonder when its gonna happen. ive tried other methods like scripting, lullaby, the void but they werent successful lol. i try to pinpoint what my assumptions are so i can affirm against it but i feel like theres so many to affirm against. idk what to do anymore and i feel like time is running out for me. i want to be able to manifest atleast most of my desires during summer/ before the next school year starts so i wont have to struggle with life. i know manifesting is real and i understand weve been doing it for literally our whole lives but i have no idea why its taking me this long to consciously manifest what i want. could i have some advice or anything at this point?
hey butterbean!! you need to calm your mind honey, cause like you've made it hard for yourself for no reason. i think your main problem is not persisting and no one can make your persist but yourself. its so simple like all you have to do is think thoughts that align you with your desire and flip the negative ones. maybe read neville's books, listen to his lectures.
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queen-haq · 3 years
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I love youuuuu for writing and despite the initial despair i had for the loss of reader & billys relationship i really love that i have something new to look forward to with awr😁 it reminds me of my english fiction writing workshop and i had a ball in that class!
i was veryyy skeptical with where you would take awr because aws was sooo good. i felt like you were gonna throw all that hard work away to chase this enemies to lovers storyline. (I’ve been burned by the ‘memory loss trope in the past)
But 10 chapters in and i love billys recollections of their married life as he starts to remember their past together. i’m just so 🥲 cause i miss them! I can’t imagine reader ever going back to billy so i’m sure you have some tricks up your sleeve to change our minds😉
Also i just love seeing sad billy like yes… You deserve to mourn your marriage just as reader did! And i mean actual sad, heartbroken, can’t-go-on billy. Not so-sad-he’s-angry billy. I just love an angsty, i really fucked up now billy. I feel like we never see him sad! in the fics i’ve read he’s almost always turning his sadness into anger. Obvs he’s doing that in awr but you do give us glimpses of his heart shattering and i live for it, i truly do.
Sorry this is rambly and long and if i’m not clear enough in my explanations (i’ve not been feeling good so i’ve been sleeping all day) but good work! And i hope you and your friend enjoy spending time together! I’ve just moved out of my home state and i’m sooo lonely here i havent made any friends😫 so i’ll be back to ask how your weekend went! 💕
No need to be sorry about rambling! I adore long messages, short messages, messages period 😀
I also look forward to posting the updates and then anxiously awaiting to see how the chapters are received. It feels so rewarding when I receive messages like yours with comments about the fic - I'm truly grateful.
And yes, I completely understand the hesitation about reading AWR after AWS. I hope AWR hasn't been a disappointment to you or anyone else so far - It's still the middle of the story so it's hard for me to say much about it without spoilers but I do think itll be a fulfilling journey. Of course opinions may differ, but I do hope most enjoy it. And if people don't, that's okay too 😉
We will see Billy’s perspective in the next chapter. Chapter 11 is not going to be plot heavy, it's going to be more of a character study for Billy. It sorta reminds me of AWS chapter 8.
I hope you take care of yourself, dear anon and get more sleep! I've been in your shoes, moving to a new place. I moved to SD from Toronto and I didn't know anybody here and it took some time to make friends, good friends, but just hang in there! It'll get better I promise 🙏 ❤️
Thanks for the well wishes 🥰 We went to the zoo today and had such a blast 💖
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pinkykitten · 4 years
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chapter 1 - blood on her hands :: gisela klein [ an aot oc story ] 
note: hey guys i know its been a rlly long time since ive posted anything and u may be rlly let down and underwhelmed that ive chosen to write a aot oc instead of fanfic but its what i want to write and i rlly love my oc and wanna give her some love and some praise and let u a little in how i see her. im sorry i havent posted a lot im going to try to write more and who knows i may or may not finish this but its ok imma try lol but life sometimes is a butthole. i hope you love her as much as i do an tysm for taking time out of ur day to read this story. enjoy!
Even though she knew that this day would have to come and that it was near, it still was a surprise for her. She was taken aback. It didn’t make sense and add up to her; she was trained for this since she was little; preparing mentally and physically for phase one of the plan; and the day appeared through the trees; past the wall; the opportunity was present; the fate of the people were waiting in their hands; and yet she felt a sense of evilness within her heart. Was this right? But there was no time. 
The day was written down in history. The stories were spread around like a disease. Heights, jaws, teeth, feet, stench, the screams. If they survived that nightmare they were seen as a tough soldier; as someone that was applauded because they probably had PTSD and had to see everyday as a reason within themselves or God that they were alive. That maybe just maybe they were saved for a reason; for a purpose. That is what Gisela Klein thought. Maybe there was something greater out there for her to do, to accomplish and that was why she saw another day; breathed another breath. 
But one thing was for sure. Forgiveness would never come her way; she would never expect it. To be a warrior she had to endure the horror; the pain; feelings of worthlessness; and friendships lost. 
This is the story of the 10th finding titan; the Slash Titan.
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The pounding of her heart rang through her ears. It had taken everything for her to keep going on this journey; to continue on the path to and through Hell. She felt a loss within her and the light in her eyes died out. The loss of her friend made it hard for her to function. To keep her head in the game and in the plan. 
She sighed as she stared at her hands. Broken and bruised like her heart; scars and scratches scattered on her skin. Her bite mark deeply engraved into her flesh. She heaved a huge sigh. Ready to give death a handshake and make a deal with the devil. Panic was rising in her chest from her stomach, almost ready to throw up. 
As she thought about her family back home she realized there was no other way; she had to do this. In order to be with her family, to save them she had to do the one thing she was trained to do. 
Kill.
A lightning strike shot over the wall. The wall that kept the monsters away and at bay. Something was wrong; the air seemed to change. The lightning strike caused a boom, clap and the ground started to shake. 
Bertholdt drew his leg back and with full force swung his leg forward, knocking a hole into the wall that was impenetrable. Many people flew back from the wind of the blow and some were crushed by the debris of the wall. 
Many were going to die; but it’s what needed to be done. 
The titans were called. 
Finally the titans entered the devils homes and started to rip up their lives. “This is right, this is right.” Gisela had to keep reminding herself. “For my family.” And something snapped within her. The image of her mother, tortured, flashed in her mind. And suddenly everything was worth it. “No regrets.”
Gisela eyed Reiner, an agreement, a sign. She exhaled and in a quick motion placed her hand to her mouth and bit into it. In a spark she transformed into her titan form. Her eyes were much like a cats, sharp. She was made into the slash titan, she was chosen for this program. Her titans fingers were like sharp knives, able to cut any object or person. They hung a little past her knees. 
Reiner then transformed and both stomped past the hole. Many citizens glanced up, horrified. Gisela and Reiner were titans never seen before. 
She nodded to Reiner, bent down and started to pick up debris and pieces of houses to throw over the bigger wall. The chunks started to smash against people. Blood splattering everywhere. Gisela almost wanted to close her eyes from the immense amount of dead bodies piled on top of others, graves upon graves. 
She was hauling boulders as high and fast as she could. Her titan held a high amount of power and strength. Being slim, muscular and as tall as the armored titan and female titan. Reiner took a step back and gained his speed to go onward to destroy the bigger wall. 
“Fire!” Their soldiers cried out. Fear evident on their face. They shot their cannons, not even slowing down Reiner. Gisela continued flinging, wanting to create a path for Reiner. She was faster than before and many of her hits flattened the men in the front lines. Their screams and cries loud. 
“Close the gate!” They tried, it was their last hope to save humanity. But it was not enough. Reiner broke the wall and killed those running and they went flying. They reached even higher than Gisela. It astounded her almost, they seemed like helpless birds flying high in the sky; but that thought was quickly wiped clean because the second they flew up in the air they came straight down with much force that many parts of their bodies broke. 
Reiner did what he needed to do, he opened up a way for the titans to get in and they were swarming by the bunches. 
In the distance, the survivors fled in boats across the river to get into the other walls. Gisela put herself in their shoes for a second. They had reason to be scared. Everything they have ever known was gone; their houses, loved ones, food, a place to feel the most comfortable you can feel despite situations; it was all gone. Gisela shook the thought out, not caring about these cruel humans feelings. They had none. No emotions. Gisela had to believe that thought; what she was told, she had to believe it with all her heart, or else what was real?
They waited till they were able to not be seen and Gisela turned human first and then so did Reiner. The four of them hopped on the boat. Talking amongst themselves. The wind howled through the vacant homes. Destruction everywhere. Gisela looked around her setting and saw a little girl had been crushed because a tree fell on her, her doll mere inches away from her grasp. She died with her eyes open; almost looking into Gisela’s soul through the eyes. Gisela’s body trembled and she threw up. 
“Don’t.”
Gisela looked up to see Reiner wiping blood and debris off his clothes. He picked his sleeve and turned Gisela’s head to look away, he wiped her chin and mouth off the puke. He saw the trauma in her eyes and felt guilty. But it’s what needed to be done. He kept telling himself that the more he did this the more he would understand and get used to it. It was still all new to her and he had to be strong for her. He knelt in front of her small frame. “It’s not your fault. They needed to die. We are in this together. You don’t need them. Look at me.”
Gisela looked into his eyes, away from the sadness. His eyes carried the feeling of wanting to be wanted. That was always what Reiner wanted. But they also had fear in his eyes. 
“Stop acting like you’re in control when I know how sick you feel. I know how afraid you are Reiner.”
He paused and took a look at his hands and others surrounding him. “You’re right. But I made a promise to Marcel.”
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They joined the other citizens arriving at the food reserves. The master of disguise was needed in this mission. People needed to see four hungry, depressed children that survived the fall of their homes, not mass murderers. 
Annie was only able to fetch two loaves. “Alright, who's the most hungry?”
“You girls should eat, you’re more feeble.” Bertholdt sat on a crate, pointing to Gisela and Annie. 
Annie tsked, moving a bang from her eyes, “who says girls are more feeble? I recall kicking your ass all those times in training.”
“You guys can eat it, I’m not hungry.” Gisela sat on the other crate and saw the chaos of the crowds. A boy caught her interest. He had dark brown hair, tan skin, and light blue green eyes. He was having bread shoved in his mouth and he seemed to have such a strong personality to him. If only Gisela felt so strongly about her motive and her placement in this life. 
“You really should eat, you need your energy after all you did.” Annie broke all the loaves in half and shared it amongst the four of you. “It’s not much but at least it's something.”
Gisela sighed, “you’re right. Thanks.”
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After that day there was land given to only a few refugees but there were too many of them. Luckily the four of them had a piece of land that was enough until further inching themselves within society. Through that whole span each day was getting easier and easier living with the lies and day by day Gisela felt more at sure with herself and knowing that she could fulfill this mission. Pills and alcohol helped the pain and ease the thoughts. She taught herself to put a gap between what she came here to do and feelings. She told herself every day that nobody else mattered except her family and Reiner. She trained her brain to not care, to not have strings attached or any love for anything. It was all a play, all a rehearsal for when the curtain would fall. She was readying herself for that fall. Everyday she educated herself more on these scums. What they liked, wanted, needed, craved for, and what they craved more than ever in their life was freedom. 
She trained her body as if it were her last day, barely getting sleep. The face of her mother haunting her every night making her get up at three in the morning to do pushups or sit ups. Not only was her mind getting stronger but also her body. Even Reiner would make jokes noticing the muscles that would appear. The six pack that formed on her stomach. Her thighs growing tight and firm, her arms growing stronger. The sweat growing on her forehead longer. 
With her body growing her relationship with Reiner also changed. They no longer were the tiny children that didn’t understand anatomy or the air between two people. Reiner and Gisela’s relationship was of being flirty, sharing a few kisses here and there, trying to be a couple but then yelling at each other and breaking it up and realizing maybe this isn’t right a million times. Even Bertholdt and Annie were getting tired of their outbursts. But each time they made up to be friends only and then the cycle started where the feelings came in the way and they wanted to be more. They would tease each other, especially Reiner. They were each other's best friends. Gisela was like one of the boys, loud, obnoxious, burping all the time, Reiner would get a look at her and smirk thinking he taught her well. When Reiner looked at her he felt at home and that everything was going to be okay. Her nightmares continued and each time Reiner would come to her room and hold her, let her cry into his arms. She felt he was the only person that knew her pain. 
Gisela understood many things in life and for once she understood her life here, she understood why she was born and chosen. 
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It was the following year and in order to get closer to finding the founding titan the four became part of the 104th cadet corps. 
“Are you ready to train more?” Gisela nudged Reiner, eyebrow raised.
“What do you mean train more? This is going to be a new but scary experience honestly.” Reiner spoke as if he was a different person. As if he didn’t have a life outside of the walls. 
“Reiner?” Gisela placed her hand on his shoulder, steadying him. He looked fine on the outside but Gisela knew the issues were inside, his mind. She knew this was becoming disastrous to him, he was starting to have almost two personalities, two lives, two worlds, two people. Gisela tried to tell Annie or Bertholdt, they saw it too but there was nothing they could do. 
All that Gisela could do was smile as they made their way to the first day of training. 
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note: again ty y’all sm!!!! If u liked it lmk and this is kinda new for me cuz I usually don’t post my ocs stories here or much at all but I’m rlly excited for y’all to see her and for y’all to know this oc of mine and hopefully accept her ❤️
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