#like. normal brains don't function like this do they

[le-velo-pour-dru]

It's so comforting to realize that since the self-imposed rules I put upon myself are completely made up, I can change them to make myself more comfortable. I forget about that all the time X'3

[moghedien]

i swear if you people start uwuifying OCD like you did with ADHD and autism I'm going to start attacking

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[loversandantiheroes]

It is so goddamn bizarre when you finally get meds that actually kinda work and you realize that your baseline for normality was buried so deep it could've struck oil.

[sherlock-is-ace]

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[watery-melon-baller]

its so fun :)) and awesome :)) that i cannot fucking make my brain focus on my homework :))) holy shit im gonna kill someone :)) why can't my brain just work for five fucking minutes :)) this is easy homework too I just can't concentrate on it at all :)) and it's due tomorrow morning :)))

[indigodawns]

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[didntaskforfrozenyoghurt]

ironic that after all these years advocating for photosensitivity warnings, i'm only just now realising i have probably had epilepsy that whole time too. doesn't help that my dad didn't know about the existence of focal seizures

[gurorori]

im so so sad i wish i could be an adult

[friendofthecrows]

Wish I had more of that stereotypical "refined genius psychopath mystery villain" vibes and less "dysfunctional no sleep cycle can't tell when/if they have emotions traumatized mess doesn't feel like a human paranoid future true crime psychopath" vibes. So that was word salad. Moving on.

[queerstudiesnatural]

ok well. just went to see a neuropsychologist and all she asked me were the standard questions you find in every internet autism test. which i KNOW don't apply to me ("do you find it difficult to infer people's intentions", "do you find it difficult to read between the lines" etc) and like she was literally reading off of her computer and asking me to pick one of the options between "strongly agree" and "strongly disagree" and it's like girl i could have done that at home. sure hope she's not stopping there and that she's not gonna just look at what i said but at the way i said it. idk it irked me that she just pulled up the old (as in outdated and reductive) standardised test on her computer and acted as if those questions would make me question myself like girl i've done this test fifteen times. not only is it not going to tell you anything about me but it's not going to tell you anything about most people. and most autistics. and she did suggest i come back for a more formal and global assessment, but she also kept using the words "cognitive deficit" to describe autism. which i realise is a commonly used term, but it feels reductive idk. so overall i'm not overjoyed with how this went lol.

[cheesey-rice]

anyway if you miss learning the way you used to learn as a kid you have to just like. Stop filtering sensory perceptions through "thoughts." "just do it" "Lose the ego" "Become one with the flow" etc, what these guys are all describing is just not putting your sensory stimulus between too many complicated thought pathways. Like when you're "not thinking" you're still going to experience things/record them/behave like a person but you're just putting a pause on filtering the sensory patterns you find distinct through your pre-existing probability affecting pathways. Without thinking you already have like automatic mechanisms of pattern recognition, and when learning a new skill like a language or basketball or dancing trying to push your behaviors through pre-existing connections to previous environments will Not Help because like. You don't already know how to do those things bruv. it will be easier to attach your motivational/reward/ corrective mechanisms (the sensation of emotion) to the new stimuli (how your body is moving in response to the new cues you're looking at/paying attention to) if you don't filter your attention through the momentarily excess processing space of pre-existing connections.

[unhinged-nymph]

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[wickedhawtwexler]

i need to stop reading articles about the adhd medication shortage because every time i do i see some god-awful take that fills me with rage. today i read an article that said "people who take adderall to ''feel normal'' are likely to experience withdrawal symptoms". like. people who take adderall to feel normal as opposed to what exactly????? like of course i'm taking brain medication to make my brain feel normal that's literally what it's for????

[nexus-nebulae]

the executive is really just not functioning today huh

[loverboybrightsideghost]

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