#listen to me blabber

[missarchivistdoodles]

I have been in a funk.

And not a fun funky funk like Saturday Night Disco, but a regular 'my brain chemicals went on vacation and forgot to contact the temp agency' funk. Most of the past few months have felt like I've been in a fog. My mom had surgery (and is completely cancer free - after she finishes radiation in two weeks, she'll be officially in 'remission'! And her hair is growing back!), I finished my spring semester and signed up for summer classes, and I've been working extra hours at one of the other libraries in our system. I've also started volunteering at our county museum and have been roped into three separate programs that all have to do with archiving, which is great but also takes up a lot of time. It's all been done through a sort of brain fog, which has been killing me creatively. Luckily my doctor and I worked out a plan and I have now started an ADHD medication called Vyvanse! Do you know what Vyvanse does to a brain that has ADHD?

Dopamine.

All. The. Dopamine. (Okay, an average level of dopamine that non-ADHD people experience but still, that's more than what I usually have!)

Holy FUCK does it make a difference! I'm able to think clearly, I'm able to keep tasks at work straight, I'm able to remember to return my library books (which is an amazing feat seeing as how I work at the library). I've been drawing a ton, some of which I plan on uploading in the next little while. I've started non-fanfiction plot bunnies! I've worked on my fanfiction plot bunnies! I feel motivated to work on Warning: Battery Low again! I've actually managed to sit down and read a book - okay, part of a book.

1/3 of a book.

It's still an improvement.

ANYWAY thank you to those who have sent me well wishes, and to those who are still eagerly waiting for the next chapter of Warning: Battery Low - it's still gonna be a bit. Remember how Swatch just kinda burst in and threw off all my plotting? Yeah, still working on fixing that. The next chapter is going to be a bit Crimson-centric as I work on better establishing their past relationship in the mansion. Then there will be good stuff! Then a fire. Then bad stuff. Then past stuff will come into play and someone will get their ass kicked!

Then the phone will ring.

Don't want to wait that long for more of my writing? Check out my other story, House Arrest, on AO3. It's Addison-centric and ponders what would have happened if the Addisons were forced to take Spamton back after their estrangement...

Anyway, thank you for your support as always, lovelies! I'm going to work harder on being more active on Tumblr again, since I love this wild and crazy place so much. Feel free to send me any questions you may have, I'm happy to answer them! Even if it's about the medication, I don't mind talking about it.

(Also figured out last month I'm not ace/aro, I'm just a really, really introverted lesbian, so finding that out after 10 years of being super 'I'm Ace!' has been weirdly stressful but also kind of freeing...? My life is a mess...)

[chirpsythismorning]

Bringing this back bc I think we as a society moved on too fast

[willlmesh]

i think every vocaloid fan should have at least one unknown/underrated producer they're obsessed with. it's good for the ecosystem

[honestlydarkprincess]

there’s no better feeling than infodumping to someone who actually seems interested

[greypetrel]

Art Summary 2023

Now that it's 2024.

This year has been probably one of the most in terms of growth ever since I was in university and attended art school in the evenings. It's been a difficult year, and horribly unproductive for my original projects, BUT! New friends, new things and look, I can colour now in a way that doesn't make me scrunch my nose. These are few of my favourite works in terms of quality and in how much fun I had when doing them.

Plus nasty face reveal don't mind the "deer in frontlights" expression I'm not comfortable on that side of the camera, but I'm actually threee seagulls in a trenchcoat and they aren't that good at impersonating a human.

Thank you to everyone who's here, old and new, it's been a pleasure and I hope it's been nice having me around for you too. . <3

[basilpaste]

thinks about the bathroom convo where mira and isa say they love each other and bursts into tears

[tubbytarchia]

My Vocaloid phase was half a decade ago but h.... fish Pearl... Deep Sea Girl Pearl..... GemPearl... hh

[moralesmilesanhour]

All I'm saying is that if there's a Miles Morales in Spider-Ham's universe, there can be one in Web Slinger's

[ride-a-dromedary]

I love you media interpretation, I love you overthinking things, I love you hyperanalyzing tiny details that may mean absolutely nothing in the grand scheme of things but they mean something to *you* in that moment in time, I love you metaphor and allegory, I love you logical and completely non-logical thought process, I love you joke and serious conversations of meaning, I love you looking too deep into media that is constantly framed as “not that deep”, I love you contextual and non-contextual readings, I love you comparing and contrasting noticed details with friends who get excited about them with you, I love you putting thought and energy into things that seem small just for fun, I love you critical conversation, I loVE -

[sisterdivinium]

"We can't kill this woman, she's astounding" -- I couldn't agree more with what was said of Sylvia by Mr Hayter himself after the revelation that they were going to kill Superion off. Wow.

Then again, this ties in with one of the many things I eventually want to talk about concerning what the show did or didn't do with its older cast and it's very interesting to see that... The older characters really were in peril and escaped death thanks to decisions made in the writers' room later on, mostly because they liked the actors so much. Narratively speaking, within the genre, it was very likely we'd see them go and these comments by one of the writers confirm it.

Good thing the show really didn't care about sticking to the conventional!

[reallunargift]

there are two wolves inside you, one is a writer:

the other is an artist:

"haha what if 1290 when D. Dinis made Portuguese the official language for legal stuff, but make it a parent-teacher meeting"

no one appreciates Catullus anymore :'(

[superbattrash]

Coworker, noticing it’s a different monster can I’m drinking today: oh, what’s this? New flavor?

Me: info dumps about my favorite monsters, how I couldn’t get my usual one this morning, how I’m only supposed to drink 2 a day because my sister has heart problems and her cardiologist said she can’t drink any but if she has to it’s a maximum of 2 and-

Me: [sweating] um

Coworker: [blinks slowly] neat and nice of you to go with her rules too. So it’s pineapple flavored? Have you tried the pineapple soda from (random brand)?

Me: oh yeah yes, I love that one!

[iiryoku]

Me, when I played the update. Calling myself out.

[paint-music-with-me]

im so conflicted bc i wanted to rewrite ep 11 pt 4 where mhok and day actually talk and mhok actually gets to open up to day but while i was writing the outline for the fic, i realized how much more similar mhok and night are re: guilt and responsibility for their siblings, rung and day respectively. like write a scene where night and mhok are talking, maybe about guilt and night notices that mhok is carrying some emotional weight and maybe he opens up bc he doesn't feel like he could open up like that to day (not bc he's doesn't trust day but bc "why should i dump this trauma onto him?" kind of thing yk?) and maybe while night and mhok talk, day overhears and is like connecting a couple strings from previous eps? then maybe something happens and day brings it up and mhok allows himself to be vulnerable to day and day takes care of him 🥺🥺🥺

[andreabandrea]

yeah i listen to rap

[basilpaste]

i need to do isat colour hcs at some point.