#longing from afar

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🧠 BLACKSITE SCROLLTRAP — “THE MAN AFAR”

I stand afar. I see her every day. She works so often, it’s practically a clock ritual. Does she see me? Probably. Do I register on her heart’s Richter scale? No.

I cast thunder and lightning down online, cracking tectonic plates with every sentence, splitting minds open like overripe fruit, exiling pretenders into silence and irrelevance.

And yet— to her, I am a passing shadow.

Just another customer. Just another man with eggs and protein powder in his basket. Just another voice too quiet to register against the screaming chorus of her inbox or the memory of some other man’s voice once whispered into her neck.

She doesn’t realize— I noticed her changing her hair color. Three times this year. She wouldn’t realize I traced her jawline in my memory when all I had was the upper third of her face —when masks were more common than eye contact.

She wouldn’t notice that I recognized her eyes light up when she talked to the tall guy in the flannel shirt with a job probably more exciting than mine.

I’m not a creep. I swear.

I just grab my items from the aisle, bag my own groceries, tap my card— and leave. On time. Every time.

But in those 12 seconds of exposure, I memorize every blink, every lilt in her laugh, every way she moves like life still makes sense to her.

I wonder what her touch feels like. I envy the man she probably has. Because in my experience, very few women are unclaimed— not for long, not ever.

The faster wolves get there first. The ones who don’t need poems. The ones who don’t need silence. The ones who’ve never known what it’s like to love from the other side of anonymity.

I even wonder— shamefully, quietly— what the scent of her would be if I ever had her in the throes of pleasure. I’m not proud of it. But I don’t lie to myself.

Men like me can’t afford to lie.

The world moves on. So I do too.

No one asks how many lonely victories a man must swallow. No one notices when he disappears. They just see the headline, never the withdrawal symptoms of being irrelevant to the one woman whose glance could have rewritten his self-worth.

She’ll never know I picked a different checkout lane once just to see if she’d notice.

She didn’t. Of course not.

She wouldn’t know that I paused one morning in the cereal aisle, just to breathe in the memory of her voice after a long week.

And I’m not asking for sympathy. I’m a man. We are the disposable sex.

If I cried about it, they’d call me weak. If I wrote about it, they’d call me dangerous. If I spoke about it, they’d tell me to shut the fuck up and “be a man.”

So here I am. Being a man. Quietly. Silently. From afar.

Because the world doesn’t stop to notice a man who dreams too poetically about a woman who doesn’t know his name.

But I see her. I saw her. And I’ll keep seeing her until the version of her that haunts my silence finally fades into the noise of the life I never shared with her.

I am the man afar. Not by choice. But by design. By cosmic assignment. By the cruel math of visibility and worth.

And if I am to die unknown, then let my ghost at least remember her with dignity.

With poetry.

With ache that didn't ask for permission.

Let the world burn. Let me be silent.

But never let her be forgotten.

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[thelostmoongazer]

so i recently watched all the sonic movies

[ellasword]

When you get older, plainer, saner

Will you remember all the danger we came from?

Burnin' like embers, fallin' tender

Long before the days of no surrender years ago

And will you know?

So smoke 'em if you got 'em, 'cause it's goin' down

All I ever wanted was you

I'll never get to heaven 'cause I don't know how

Let's raise a glass or two

To all the things I've lost on you, oh, oh

Tell me, are they lost on you? Oh, oh

Just that you could cut me loose, oh, oh

After everything I've lost on you

Is that lost on you? (8)

[extraordinarilyextreme]

devotion not as worship. but as recognition. as "i want to stand with you, and beside you." as learning. as understanding. as "i want to know you." as "i am making the choice to get to know you." as persistence. as care. as "you are knowable." as "you are lovable." devotion not as idolatry. but devotion as mortality. as a reflection. "you and i, together. equals. partners." devotion as accompaniment. devotion as humanity.

[warmfuzzyanimal]

cow cuddles commission for @/halfcrazydaisy featuring @/sleepycowtails !! 🐮💕🌾

[chocostrwberry]

Peacock miraculous holders!! 🦚 it might be my favorite miraculous ngl, I love the fan and just the bird as a miraculous concept in general. I tried to give them all kind of an elegant old-century look, since that’s what I imagined it to look like before the reveal ehehehe. Felix’s canon design kind of grew on me, but I wanted to give him something else anywaysss, a lil less green and more teal!

[alicornze7]

Ribbun week - Day 5: Angst

Angst…? Good ending

This is a continuation of the day 2 prompt

It’s somehow more angsty than a drawing from the day literally called “angst”

[sunlit-mess]

I can only take so much, but lately, they have replaced my reflection. And realize I'm just as bad as them.

[fiona-fififi]

There's something about Buck saying "I'm having more trouble dealing with the idea of you not being around than I like to admit."

Something about "not being around" versus "leaving," and the way it implies Buck's not willing to let this be something they let go with Eddie's absence. Something I very much think has become a fear for both of them—especially once Buck lashed out and made Eddie feel like Buck was pushing him away.

And I know that's the point. That's exactly what Buck was trying to make clear to Eddie with this grand gesture. But also, I think it means something big that Buck is stepping in to vow to be Eddie's support, even if he has to do it from afar.

[elfpen]

The time has come once more.

We are on the eve of my annual “clueless American attempts to follow the progress of Eurovision exclusively through tumblr reaction posts”

Knowing absolutely nothing about the contenders this year, I’m going to go ahead and root for Finland. Y’all were robbed in 2023 and I’m still mad about it.

[sugurouge]

helppppp ryu is so out for my ass atp i really cant afford to actively look at a genshin man anymoreeeee

[salezmanradioz]

Anyways I don't want to ramble about this under someone's post but I do want to speak my mind about this since thank god I thought I was kinda being too attached to media and being sensitive about it. I'm glad I'm not the only one speaking about this.

While I loved the entire IEYTD event, answering questions in the emails whilst under the guise of Zoe and Zavier and all the articles, it seems a bit cruel to me just to say everything they've answered and all those articles are fake. It was all a test by The Agency to "test if we'd defect or figure out the puzzle". Like it feels bad man.

Not only because of this, but because the intention to pander an audience, knowing that we as a community really love Juniper. To confirm his bisexuality and EVEN back it up with statements about his "EXES" attempting to hack into things numerous times and even when asked if it's really true he's still alive, implying "I can't say nothing read the articles" just to sum it up "hah all fake get a grip" is such a low blow.

Another addition is when asked about the women of IEYTD (Solaris, Prism, Fabricator etc etc), all we got was "classified" and "can't say anything". Going to spit out a hardball here but Prism and Fabricator has had more of an impact to me than Ollie anyday so it felt weird to play pretend "Uncle Ollie" is missing and focusing on him when you got 3-4 main women characters RIGHT THERE. Even then, ending off the whole Ollie thing with (((REDACTED))) stuff like ,,okay?? What are we going to do with this? I'm not saying this to downplay Ollie btw. I think IEYTD characters are great and I'm biased and understand why Schell loves Juniper. I do too but I also really love Prism. I love both Juniper and Prism especially when you have entire games made about them in particular.

In a sense though, I feel like some of the articles have partial truths to them. It feels a little weird to me to write lengthy articles about some of the more prominent characters of the franchise then claim everything was fake. Obviously there are some that was whacky (Juniper giving honey to orphans sounds like a Hivemind thing to do) but to an extent there had to be some truths to it.

Overall, it feels a bit mean spirited knowingly feeding your fanbase some content of their favorite prominent characters just to say "lol this is a puzzle do better anyways have a discount code". I appreciate the discount code for their game but come on now 😭

Anyways IEYTD community, ily let's be strong together. I am marrying Juniper and Prism as we speak <3

[aldisobey]

six pics that aren't selfies

lovely to see a peek into the life of @redheadsramblings thanks for tag! post six pictures from my camera roll that aren’t selfies. Here are some pics. Gabe. AZ sunset sky. Triss.

Spider I found at Haigler Creek. Boat. My tree! The leaves were arriving its so full now.

if you're tagged i say hi below

no pressure tags im saying helloooooo @by-ilmater i know you got cool gunpla and trees. @mistressandry duck. I seen pics. @ollypopwrites 🌱 i mean no pressure. @emmg got any chickens? @lavenderprose how is new dog?! @heylittleriotact I liked that one. Album cover worthy. @caffeinatedmunchkin hope you're keeping well kisses! @jainydoe mwah and hugs too. @spitslap im taggin this account because. Because. U know. @shadowed-rook and how dare tumblr try to keep you down

[gummi-ships]

Kingdom Hearts 0.2 Birth by Sleep - A Fragmentary Passage - Depths of Darkness

[er9tic]

thinking about the tragedy that is bartylus today

[greenteaandtattoos]

listen, i know the whole story of epic is about odysseus getting back to his wife and i know in some iterations hermes is ody's great great great something grandfather but like... the fruity-ass flirting and genuine concern from hermes? yeah. yeah, i'm brainrotting about hermes having a one-sided crush and yearning for odysseus.