#maybe lost passion

[gojology]

I'M NOT REQUESTING BUT I GENUINELY WANT TO KNOW IF YOUR ALIVE😭😭 LMFAO

HIII I WAS CHECKING BACK UP IN THIS ACC AFTER A YEAR I’M ALIVE!

ive been busy w life and writing has just been pushed aside.

not sure if i’ll ever b back but im looking into different manga and anime now. if i do come back i probably wont write solely jjk… hopefully i have enough time

[priscirat]

it would be helpful to have a sign showing me the right way. would it show me the right way ?

[skylark325]

Ok bear with me because I have no idea how i’m going to sound or whether this’ll make sense.

Ever since I got into danmei, specifically mxtx i’ve started to despise the word ‘crush’. Suddenly it feels like such an oversimplification and casual instance of something that has the potential to be so incredibly earth shattering and soul consuming. The concept of a crush just feels unappealable now? And yes I know irl crushes are very normal and this is me being the chronic reader I am.

I saw someone say ‘Lan Wangji’s crush’ and I’m just like????? CRUSH??? And yes i’m being too sensitive but crush feels so insignificant, so temporary that it hurts my brain. Plus the idea of liking someone for a couple of months only to forget or possibly move on because of distance or circumstances which seems more ‘crush’ like, to someone else feels icky.

And I’ve read a multitude of romances from JA classics to SJM and LB. And yet now that i’ve read MXTX the idea of a casual romance makes me cringe so hard internally.

[circlesthatyoufind]

i see a lot of stuff thats like ''steve's thing is sports" and eddie or the other kids should make an effort to get into it for him. but also... like i get the desire to give steve a thing, but i also think a lot of steve's life before the show starts and even continuing on is based on being cool and being popular (even in season 3 he still makes comments about it, still trapped in that mindset) and i think sports are very much part of that. like yeah i think he likes them and enjoys playing but i don't think he's actually as passionate about them the way the others are about their interests. or if he is it's tinged with the need to have acceptable hobbies and that should be unpacked.

and just like steve is what 19? 20? i think the idea of him not knowing what he's passionate about is a lot more compelling. him being friends with a bunch of nerds slowly let's him start to be okay with being passionate about things at all, especially things that aren't expected of him.

i just really like the idea of steve changing and growing. like him being a preppy high school jock is not actually his final form, thats like fucking small beans, thats fucking high school. and it is and will always be a part of him but let him grow up and find his own weird self.

[granitxhka]

"we have 4 finals left to play guys focus" "real arsenal fans aren't celebrating until the season is over" for the love of everything that is beautiful in the world, shut up

[grey-has-rusted]

what they don't tell you about life is that it's hard. woe is me

[birdybellicose]

The corners of Lark’s mouth lifted into an almost smile at Nick’s singing as he tried to make himself more comfortable in his friend’s lap, feeling oddly safer than he had ever felt in a long time. 

He falls asleep to Nick’s voice and the hypnotic twang of guitar strings in the air, the lyrics flowing out of Nick’s mouth like liquid honey. Lark falls asleep before he can understand the full weight of the song Nick chose to “practice” with, or notice how hushed and breathless Nick’s voice had suddenly become.

Nick continued to sing that same song long after Lark falls asleep, long enough for the itch of caressing Lark’s face to become downright unbearable. Nick suddenly paused and his left hand slowly uncurled and slid down the fretboard, his eyes trained on the small strands of hair that had fallen over Lark’s eyes. A second later Nick stopped himself, shook his head as if he had been under a spell, and forced himself to play the next guitar riff-- accidentally strumming the strings a little too loudly. Lark stirred and grunted in his sleep for a second before going quiet again. Nick breathed a sigh of relief before chuckling affectionately at the man.

Nick adjusted his old hand-me-down acoustic in his lap and began slowly singing the song again, this time really feeling the lyrics. His voice softly crooned perfect reverence and longing into each verse, heartbreak was evident in the words and all the notes he hit. After awhile, Nick’s lip began to tremble and his eyes burned but he sang on, his left hand now gripping the fretboard so hard it made his knuckles white.

[thresholdbb]

You know what I like? Star Trek

[jasonsscar]

it’s kind of hard to be excited for chalice of the gods when i know for a fact that this is all just part of the marketing for the tv show. it’s genuinely worrying because this is considered the “sixth pjo book” and if this is just marketing for the tv show then? will the novel have the same heart that the original pjo series had? hoping the show just genuinely made him miss the original trio and have passion for writing about them again but that’s just hope.

[ilovefredjones]

i wish i had more collected and intellectual thoughts on jim and la’an. instead my brain just screams about them all the time

[f1-stuff]

how do you cope with this carlos-hate between the lines here on tumblr? btw love following you for your good vibes and funny tags

Hello, sweet anon ❤️

Tbh some days are harder than others! I like to think I’ve gotten a lot better at simply not logging on when I expect there to be those sorts of posts - also making sure that the blogs I follow are the only ones I wanna see on my tl. Sometimes, like earlier today, I just channel my energy into making gifs and only come on tumblr to post those and leave lol

Obviously, I still see stuff if I go looking in his tag or something slips thru the cracks, and some days I write out a whole rant and then delete it (it can be v therapeutic just to type your feelings, even if you never post it). Also having someone/people who I can talk to about it can be pretty helpful. Or even revisiting a Carlos thing that makes you smile! I’ll sometimes just go thru his tag on my blog and inevitably something silly he did will make me laugh and I feel (mostly) better 😂❤️

Other than that, I think just recognizing that everyone’s opinions are just that - opinions! Pro sports is one of the areas in life that people can be the most opinionated/vocal/vitriolic about online but it’s bc it inspires such passion in people. Personally, I like to channel my passion for f1 in positive ways - it makes me a happier person and it’s the whole ‘be the change you want to see’ in the fandom philosophy haha

I hope some of this is helpful ❤️ you can always come to me if you’re needing someone to talk to or wanna just toss something in my inbox to take your mind off of things!

[shrimpeon]

Translation: Bayern needs a psychologist. Davies is saying on social media he is depressed. Sané Is missing his family. Musiala has lost his intensity. Gnabry is a shadow. Mané never arrived to Munich. There are many psychological factors affecting the squad.

[bbyquokka]

hi. it's been a while. i kinda, sorta went poof lmao ops

[froqgy]

curious because ghost trick fans are always telling people to play ghost trick, personally i had mixed feelings so i wonder how other people felt.

[summerlycoris]

Guess whos potentially working a triple tomorrow?????????

Im going to transform into my final form if this shit keeps up i swear to god.

[turqrambles]

I know those two were basically using it as a cozy honeymoon cruise but it bothers me way more than it should that Sir Daniel and Kiya just leave Professor Kift behind when they use the time machine.

Yeah sure, leave the guy who invented the thing behind. It's not like he'd want to know if his own creation worked. It's not like he'd be a valuable asset in case the big sensitive piece of machinery breaks.

You don't have to take him everywhere but he seems good at holding up the fort when Dan and Kiya go on missions, maybe bring him along in case something bad inevitably happens or else Dan might do something stupid like kidnap his past self or something.