#me lazy for long posts😮‍💨

[me-be-bubbles]

What is your opinion about online relationships??

Hiya anon, tbh you really have to clarify what do you mean by online relationships

Like do you mean meeting online and then meeting up (for eg. Dating apps) or continuing online for a long time?

Coz if the first then well no harm in it, provided you're cautious with respect to your safety

If you mean the latter, then....well that gets tricky. You can maintain online relationships sure. That will prolly polish your trust to the highest degree. But it's still gonna be frustrating

The actual physical presence of a person matters tremendously. And you're just dying for it in online relationships. It's worse if you have conflicting times and that bungles up communication. The only thing that keeps online relationships together is communication (it's required in all relationships tho). If you can't do that, you have literally no hopes. Coz you can't even comfort your partner by being present either. And I highly doubt that's going to last. You need to meet if you are seriously considering the relationship. You can know best if you find your partner's habits and quirks tolerable when you're spending time physically with them which is equally important in considering your compatibility.

If you mean online mostly and then meet up for a few days, that works too! That basically just sums up army relationships and I think they work quite well. (I could never be an army wife😮‍💨 iron women those)

And factors like trust, security, etc etc. In the end it's your relationship. You have to have a good head on your shoulders and not just keep getting swept away. Practicality is essential and it is upto you whether you make it work or not.

[o0o0thorn0o0o]

Late, I know, but…! Only by two days, so I’ll still label/tag it:

Ichihime Week, Day 7: Mythical Lovers / Rainbow

I was planning on adding in magpies in the background this time, but I was getting lazy, and it’s already late, so maybe next time ^^;

(Also I was thinking of making a rainbow version, but it didn't come out as I would have liked? Idk. I still think it’s cute, though, so I put it under the cut)

Alrighty, listen: I really didn’t mean to wait this long to post. But, like, very shortly after Eid, my iPad’s storage filled up, like, to the point I couldn’t even access my mail (that’s how I found out, pfft). I was wondering why I’d ever need 256 GB 4 years ago… but still, it was $100 extra bucks. Sure, it was a grad gift, but 128 GB was expensive enough—still a lot of storage, too… Not enough, clearly!

Hoarding layers (and recoloring my own art, pfft) has really caught up to me… but also, it wouldn’t help too much if I didn’t either. After deleting what I could bear to part with, that took away around 5 GB, but merging layers in other works barely made a dent.

So I’ve spent these past few weeks wondering what to do, thinking about emailing my 2019 (imported from my 5s) and 2020 works to an email I also created 4 years ago for some reason I totally forgot about and never used so that I don’t end up taking any space in my actual one and then uploading them onto two (since I really don’t want my files corrupting) USBs via my laptop, trying to get those USBs from Target (but since I was adamant this time in getting 256 GB USBs—I don’t want to have to worry about storage for a longgggg time—there were none in stock), ordering them off of eBay instead since my dad insisted on their cheapness, waiting a week for them, then transferring them to that email and uploading them onto its Google drive if the files was too big…

But that was taking much too long and still left space on my iPad while I was doing it. I managed to complete the 2019 and 2020 pieces from my iPad, but it also only ended up being around 1 GB… So, like, I need to clear more years (breaks my heart, it does ;~; Sure, I still have access to them via that email and those USBs, but it’s not convenient anymore, and there are still pieces I plan on getting back to… ackkkkk).

Contemplating it some more and discussing it with a friend, much as I abhor subscription services, I finally decided to purchase a premium membership on Ibis for that 20 GB of cloud storage. I can afford the 30 bucks a year, and I like the app anyway—serves me good—and not having to watch an ad every 18 hours to access my go-to brushes would be nice, plus having access to the other stuff, but yeah: ✋🌈✨cloud storage✨🌈 🤚

Anyway, I’m pretty sure a good chunk of what’s taking up my space is actually the cache, as I’m already more than halfway through my drawings, and I’m not sure if I’ll reach that 75 GB of storage Ibis was apparently taking up with just my drawings. So I’ll probably need to download everything, then delete the app and redownload it ‘cause stupid IOS doesn’t let you easily clear it 🫠

Anyway, I really thought I’d be done by now, but am not—that said, I managed to clear out around 10 GB off of Ibis (not my iPad; I somehow managed to gain back 5?? Somewhere?? I’ve no clue; I don’t see it), which is wayyy more than enough to get one drawing done for IH week, so I paused the whole storage thing for now. I actually tried to get day one’s drawing done on the 6th, but I’m dealing with perspective that’s hurting my brain, so I decided to get day seven’s done instead, ‘cause I thought I’d be on time…

Me? On time? Man, who knew I was so funny… 😒

But yeah, day seven is done! I’ll definitely revisit that day one drawing in the future, but not anytime soon. As if I wasn’t backed up already, this whole storage mess has backlogged even further, and there are other dates coming up 😮‍💨 And, y’know, gotta finish the storage transfer, too… Ahhhhhhhhhh!

Anyway, on a more positive note, gradient maps are actually very neat to use—had a little too much fun, eheh. I won’t confess how much time I spent testing it out on this piece, but here be my favorite:

They’re so golden <3 ☺️

[luvfy0dor]

since requests are open can i request like just lazy mornings with fyodor?? obviously, take your time with it!

“Sleep in Half the Day” ♡⁠˖” Fyodor Dostoevsky x GN! Reader ੈ✩‧₊˚

Warnings; None

Description; Sleeping in and savoring a Saturday morning with your lover.

A/n; AHHHH this is so cute, I'm so sorry it's so short, but I really wanted to put emphasis on lazy mornings. I'm so so sorry it took me so long!! Its so cold in my bedroom and it makes it hard to sit up and write and I have so much school work to do OMG 😮‍💨

It was the average Saturday morning for you and your lover, basking in the sun as it shines through the blinds like lizards on rocks in the desert. One of his arms was draped over your waist with his other curled into his own body, the blanket strewn every which way but directly on top of both of you. Neither of you cared, it wasn't particularly cold this morning, and his body heat did a fine job at keeping you relatively warm anyway. Fyodors hand ran up and down your side before slipping under your top and rubbing circles into your skin. You could feel his soft exhales, the cool air hitting the nape of your neck while he holds you close, your back to his chest.

"Are you awake, myshka?" His sleepy voice pierces the silence and you nod, reaching and interlocking your fingers with his. He hums quietly and props himself up with his elbow and his eyes scan over your still sleepy face. His eyelids droop and he leans down to kiss your forehead. "Good morning." He murmurs against your skin, his Russian accent as present as ever when he speaks. You smile and gather all the energy it takes to roll over so that you're facing him. "Good morning. You look so refreshed." You mumble, your hand cupping his cheek and your thumb swiping underneath his eyes where he had dark circles. They contrasted his skin, but they did so beautifully. His flushed cheeks and nose did the same.

"Do I? I've been sleeping a lot, recently." He admits, returning to his position of lying down at your side with his eyes closed again. "I could go back to sleep right now." His chin rested on the top of your head. "Then go back to sleep. I'm still tired, too." You say, your breathing steady and your nose pressed against his neck. "Mmm, okay." He softly sighs and his fingers play with the fabric of your shirt while his own sleepiness pulls him back into unconsciousness. You run your fingers through his hair with your own eyes closed, making an attempt to fall back asleep yourself. "I love you, Fedya." You murmur quietly against his skin. He obviously hadn't replied, already being knocked out cold and snoring quietly. You couldn't help but smile a little, holding back a snicker at the sound. It's not long before you also end up asleep, cherishing the lack of plans in the day and therefore ability to laze around for as long as the two of you want.

A/n; I'm really sorry that posts have been few and far apart!! I got midterms next week, but I know the topics pretty well so I'll definitely have some free time in between them to write more.

[nochepsicodelica]

OMG IVE BEEN READING YOUR TOJI BEING A BEAR BF ON MY DASH N LIKE ?!?!?! i jst realized that i haven’t even followed you 😦 your toji works are sauuuuuur delightful it reminds me of @lymtw who also writes about toji n like the both of you are soo amazing!!! ALSO I HAVENT REBLOGGED 😟😟😟😟 which is lowk crz cuz in my head i thought i’ve done it multiple times n when i go check to reread some works i couldn’t find the toji being a big cuddly bear 😕😕 sauuur yeah! anyways just here to show my appreciation‼️‼️ Take care xox meow meow <3

Ehehe, he just gives me bear vibes 🐻🥰 Everyone says he's a wolf and I see it, too, but him being the most lazy, huggable bear ever, not a care in the world as long as he has his player 2 by his side is heavy on my mind, all the time. Plus he weighs loads like a bear 'cause of those muscles (😮‍💨) and what better way to use that weight than to lay on his favorite person and just nap? Ugh, love him 😔

Mal is a huge inspiration of mine 🥹 I think we share more than a couple brain cells in terms of our love for Toji and the way we write him as the gentle giant he is in love.

Thank you for following and for liking my work as much as you do, by the way :) I really hope to continue giving you all what you want in these Toji posts because in truth, i'm really having so much fun with this! Thank you for this kind message <3

[brianyololau]

January 4, 2023

starting the year off with good habits. I’m gonna journal lol. kind of weird making a post after i’ve been so lazy to for so long, but there have been too many times where i thought about how journaling would be really good for my mental clarity right now. there were times when i had multiple stressors in my life going on at once, and i didn’t allow myself some way to express and think about these things. i think it’s a necessary process because allowing time to be present creates realizations and through realizations come wisdom & experience.

So here I am. i have a lot to unfold, but I guess i’ll take this one day at a time because i’m busy tonight. today is my first day that i’m working at orange coast memorial hospital night shift 😮‍💨. ur boy’s employed and not just that.. at a muh fudgin HOSPITAL BITCH. I got an ID that scans into computers, opens doors, and everything. I gotta be at work in an hour so imma cut it short.

I made grandma cry today. I didn’t mean to, but I feel like shit for it. I woke up stressed bc I let myself sleep in, I had work to worry about, some fear of how my life is gonna change, and I knew I had more errands I hadn’t finished. So, i got more annoyed when i was microwaving food and grandma kept asking mundane questions that felt like I was being talked to by a robot. no substance. it felt like a chore just speaking to her. so i didn’t as i was eating and she noticed and asked why i was upset. so i basically told her that and said if she wants me to talk to her more she should start asking more personable questions like how i’m feeling and how was my first day at work. she said okay and started crying, so she left to the sofa. I came over and asked what was wrong, and she told me it hurts when i don’t talk to her because she loves me and always wants to talk to me. But i don’t ask about her. I started feeling terrible. I knew she’s been sad and becoming more weak minded. However, I just didn’t feel like I had the power to change her situation which is why I tried to just be there for her in presence, but I should’ve known that wasn’t enough. Even though I’m not good at expressing emotions nonetheless inquiring about them, I realized how important it was to always consider them. Because you never know who you could be affecting by neglecting them. And I had neglected my grandma’s without realizing it.

I apologized. I explained to her that a lot of things in my life recently have made it hard for me to feel at peace and waking up in the morning to these stressors have made me more irritable which made me more cold to her. I told her I never meant to hurt her like that. I could never. Talking to her made me realize that I was ungrateful for the people I have in my life and that I was forgetting who I’m living and trying to be happy with.

What’s the point of striving for success if you’re not making your life any happier? Knowing that my grandma loves me and supports me with everything she has makes me happy enough. How could I forget that?

Grandpa came during this conversation and started demanding me to read something for him. so told him I was busy. he had the audacity to get pissed and tell me it would just take a minute. I raised my voice and repeated myself which i probably shouldn’t have done but he got the message. Immediately he assessed the situation, looked at my grandma and said why’re you crying? who made you cry? hurry up and tell me so i can fix this. she said no one im just feeling sick. she had my back. he then scoffed and said what kinda wife doesn’t share things with her husband and went back to his room. he came back out to get picked up by someone, and i heard him call mutter to himself how grandma was clumsy, slow, and basically a person not worthy of respect. real pos moment right there, myself included as well.

I went to the gym later and told myself that this year, i should stop letting stressors in life affect my personal life at home. they should be mutually exclusive until i remove myself from the comfort of my home because allowing stress into every part of my life is not worth projecting its manifestations onto myself and around the people i love during every waking moment.

[justwritedreams]

Shout out to your ex | Baekhyun

Baekhyun x Reader Word count:1598 Genre: fluff Author: maari Warnings: Baekhyun being jealous, language, a awful ex, Baekhyun gives a playful slap in reader’s ass. Note: Not me turning my personal experiences into imagines 🤣 2 imagines in one day to show that my inspiration is BACK Request: now i'm curious about what if baekhyun is jealous 😮‍💨🥹 so can i request something about when baekhyun gets jealous because of his gf? ⫷ Exo Masterlist

Y/N had her face buried in Baekhyun's neck as he patted her back, the movie was ready to start on TV but they were expecting only one thing.

When the microwave beeped, signaling it was over, Y/N pulled away from her boyfriend with great effort. It felt so good to cuddle with him that she didn't even want to watch the movie they had separated or eat anymore.

"I'll get the popcorn." she slurred and Baekhyun lightly slapped her ass as she got up from the couch. “Oh, hey!”

“Lazy.” he stuck out his tongue and she just rolled her eyes, laughing and heading to the kitchen.

Baekhyun stretched, complaining and heard the sound of a new message from Y/N's phone. One more. And another.

“Babe, see who messaged me please.” Y/N yelled from the kitchen and he reached for her phone on the couch. "I think it's my sister."

Baekhyun smiled as he unlocked the phone screen and opened the notification that signaled that Y/N had messages on Instagram, in fact it was her sister, tagging his girlfriend in a video of her nephew and he opened it, laughing at the sight of the one-year-old dancing to his own MV, it was nice to know that his girlfriend's nephew liked his music.

He left the post but something caught his eye as he returned to the DM.

Requests (1)

He shrugged and clicked it, figuring it was a spam message some asshole always sent, but his face suddenly turned serious as he saw it wasn't spam.

It was far from that.

"I don't think popcorn alone will do both of us." she said laughing as she came back with the bucket in one hand and the soda in the other. "Even because-" she saw her boyfriend's face, seriously staring at the phone screen and approached, putting the popcorn bucket on the sofa and the soda on the coffee table. "What's it?"

“Did you see the request you received?” Baekhyun asked, looking at his girlfriend more seriously than he should have.

This was strange and abnormal.

“No, I hardly see my DM. Why?" she asked, resting her hands on her hips and watched as her boyfriend turned the screen to face her.

She did and felt her blood run cold when she saw the long message from a user she didn't follow but knew from the photo.

Not only did she know. That was her ex.

Trying to get in touch after two years.

It wasn't like she had control over it, but it wasn't like she asked for it either.

"He sent you yesterday." Baekhyun said, expression not at all happy.

Rarely had she seen him so serious and so angry that it disconcerted her, she didn't know what to say.

“Yesterday I was with you at Chen's, I didn't even see it. And I don't even care.” she replied, huffing.

She wasn't mad at him but at the situation. Their relationship was going too well, she didn't need someone to get in the way of what she had.

"I'm sorry for everything I put you through, I just wish I had a chance to explain myself." he read it and Y/N closed her eyes, rubbing her face.

Great, the ex had already been a bad boyfriend and now he was going to make Baekhyun argue with her even after the breakup happened two years ago.

“You will always be the love of my life, you seriously dated this?” Y/N opened her eyes when she realized that there was a certain tone of amusement in her boyfriend's voice and in fact, he had a slight smile on the side of his mouth.

She frowned, staring at her boyfriend not knowing what to say.

"Aren't you mad at me?" she asked, pointing to herself.

Baekhyun laughed in disbelief.

“Why would I be mad at you?” he questioned, leaving her confused.

"Aren't you jealous?"

“Yes, I’m possessed.” he replied, turning the phone screen towards him, his eyes lit up and Y/N looked at him suspiciously. “Oops, I accepted the request.”

"What you-"

"Look, he's online!" he interrupted her and Y/N's eyes widened as he clicked on the screen.

Wait a moment…

"Aren't you going to-" she took a step towards him and tried to take the phone out of his hand but in vain, Baekhyun put the phone down and got up from the couch as she followed him.

“Y/N?” a voice came over the phone and she slapped her forehead. Oh no!

Baekhyun put the phone in front of his face and Y/N stopped where she was, seeing him smile devilishly.

"No, this is Santa Claus." He answered and Y/N motioned for him to hang up.

"Who are you?!"

"Who are you?" Baekhyun mimicked her ex's voice in a mocking tone. "I'm the current and only boyfriend Y/N will have from now on, you loser."

"Stop it!" she spoke quietly but Baekhyun just waved his hand in the air, not paying attention.

“Listen, you little shit, I was in the Korean army, do you understand me?” Y/N was shocked but she ended up laughing at her boyfriend's menacing expression and had to cover her mouth with a hand. "If you ever text my girlfriend again or keep pestering her, I swear I'll take your sunglasses and stick them in a place where it's going to hurt-" Baekhyun looked offended at the phone screen and lowered the device, looking at Y/N. “He hung up right on the my face.”

Y/N tried to control it but the laughter came, loud and uncontrolled. She was laughing so hard her stomach hurt, tears came out and she had to sit on the couch.

"I can't believe you did that!" she spoke between bursts of laughter, clapping her hands and lying on the couch. “Oh my belly.”

“Was it funny enough for you?” he asked, putting his hands on his hips and Y/N rested hers on her aching belly. "He was terrified, you had to see his face." Y/N opened her mouth to respond but didn't. "You know what, it's even better that you didn't see it." Baekhyun sat on the couch and laughed through his nose. “Tell me how you managed to date that?”

She took the opportunity to sit on the couch and dried her tears, approaching her boyfriend and putting her hand on the back of his head, he looked out of the corner of his eye with a pout and she knew he was just posing angry.

"I didn't know you, that's why." She placed a kiss on his cheek. "Any guy who came before you doesn't matter to me at all."

Baekhyun turned his face completely, looking at her seriously.

"You’re my girlfriend. Mine." he spoke firmly without taking his eyes from hers.

“And I intend it to stay that way.” she replied, stroking the back of his neck.

“Was it sexy?”

"What?" she asked laughing.

"Me being jealous." he replied in a tone of obviousness.

“Better than when I got jealous.” she admitted and he smiled proudly.

"I want everyone to know you're with me, especially all the idiots who left you behind." he brought a hand up to her cheek, caressing it. "I want them to see the wonderful woman they lost."

Y/N smiled shyly and he took the opportunity to place a quick and light kiss on her lips.

She closed her eyes at the contact, causing all the anger she'd felt in such a short time to evaporate and go far away.

When she opened her eyes, he was looking at her expectantly.

“Do you still want to see the movie?” she asked and Baekhyun grinned widely as he shook his head.

He brought his hands to her waist and applied pressure, pulling her towards him, understanding the message she slipped her leg between his waist and sat on his lap, taking her hands to play with his hair.

"I just want to appreciate how lucky I am." he replied and Y/N bit her lip to try to contain her huge smile.

But the movement was minutely observed by her boyfriend who didn't take long to bring her body closer to his, one of his hands went to the back of her neck and brought her until he could kiss her with desire, passion and almost possession.

His lips were moving steadily, dominating in a way that made Y/N completely give in to that moment, forgetting everything that wasn't important besides his lips and the way his hand gripped the back of her neck as if he wanted to bring their bodies even closer, and that was exactly what she felt too.

The kiss was causing the temperature of both to start to rise, Y/N felt warm inside and out, and suddenly their rhythm started to accelerate faster than they had imagined.

That's when Baekhyun turned around with her still on his lap and laid her on the couch, to be on top, he had only forgotten about the popcorn bucket that fell with the sudden movement.

The two broke apart and started laughing as they realized that the popcorn was now in Y/N's hair.

“I wish my night ended a little sweeter, you know.” Baekhyun spoke while helping Y/N to get the popcorn.

She laughed but not just because of the funny situation they were in, but because she was happy.

Happy to finally be with someone worth it.

[mistyminded24k]

Today is January 17th, Martin Luther King Jr. Day, Betty White’s birthday, and my cousin Relle’s bday (which reminds me, I better made her birthday post soon 🤔)

I meant to start journaling daily, but it seems like something always pops up, or I’m just being completely lazy. Some days it’s my anxiety 😵‍💫😮‍💨

I’ve been trying to improve my mental health and well-being so my anxiety isn’t as bad as it can be. I’ve been reading about how your gut health can impact your mental state and perception, and now I’m pretty sure I can fit myself without the need for anxiety meds or uneventful counselings (I’ve been seeing mental health off and on since 2012, when I had to work past a physically and mentally abusive marriage I had narrowly escaped with my life back in 2010.)

Now don’t get me wrong, counseling has done me a lot of help over the past 10 years, but I honestly feel I’ve taken all I can from it and now it’s my job to use all of what I’ve learned to make my own changes and move in the right direction to who I want to be, as a woman, mother, wife, friend, and artist.

So far, along with counseling and reading different psychology and spirituality book, I’ve been able to a clearer view of the woman I want to be. Not just who others see me as, or how I thought I saw myself… but WHO I actually WANT to be. The divine feminine that lives within. Who I’ve suppressed and looked over so I could foster all my fire energy 🔥♈️

As I learn more about Ouse of through things like astrology and psychology, I realize I have so much more power than I ever could’ve thought. Things will always “happen to me,” but my reaction to them will decide if they work for me, or against me in the long run.

Patience has never been my strong suit, but I’ve learned that if I don’t have patience early on, I’ll be even more pissed wasting my time in the long run.

Life is about lessons. As I unpack some of mine here, I hope others are able to learn and grow without having to make the same mistakes.

💙 Misty