'penelope is gonna be irresistible' 'penelope is gonna have multiple suitors' 'penelope is gonna be the diamond of S3' ENOUGH!!!! penelope is for us fuckups! the 'alone on friday night' babes! she's for our messy gals! our clumsy weirdos! us disasters! us 'hanging out by the wall because if i go on this dancefloor i'll have a panic attack' bitches!
i wanna see colin show up going 'her swagless looks and cringefail personality has captivated me' or i don't wanna see it at ALL
I love you astrology girls I love you gamer girls I love you crystal girls I love you horse girls I love you emo girls I love you spiritual girls I love you blue haired girls I love you basic girls I love you girls that don't like make up I love you athletic girls I love you weird girls. You are awesome!! You deserve all the love:)
Yall better stfu abt michaels "hotness" im genuinely going to rip my eyeballs out!!!
SURE yes i find Michael very attractive and hot. He has an amazing personality and he’s a good looking guy! BUT IF ONE MORE MF SAYS "he better not be ugly" IM GOING TO SCREAM. He’s not even supposed to be “hot” he’s just an average British white dude.
I was skipping/fast forwarding bits of TTEOTM episodes (for reasons related to my fic E&L) and I think I just understood something I didn't at first. I feel very stupid right now for not to, but at the same time, I wonder if others missed that bit too so I want to share.
So, we're in the Immortal Sects arc, ep 32, and this pivotal moment happens (forgive my low-quality screenshots):
Susu proceeds to deny she ever was Ye Xiwu and, although it's clear it pains her (we saw she was in as much pain as he was during their later scene when she rejects him and their past, comparing it to a dream they must wake from), I couldn't quite understand the full reasons for such complete rejection, only to change her mind later on... just because the truth has been revealed? It's clear she didn't resent him any longer at this point, so why this? It felt like there was something I was missing.
And then we have this:
And she also says that she can't tell him who she is for now. And I wonder... why?
But, before that, in ep 31 we have this:
and then again this:
And here I have my answer: Susu is worried she won't be able to suppress and contain the Evil Bone, that it could prevail on her and escape her control. We saw that the Devil God's weapons are drawn to the Evil Fetus, therefore we can speculate if the Evil Bone could find its way back to him it would. Susu can surely guess that much and her fear is that he can go back to the start and the Devil God will return even after all they've been through (and, uh, she's right, in a way) because she had not reached a solution to keep it in check yet. She hopes the Heartless Way will help her, but it'll be a lengthy procedure and she needs him away from her until she's sure she can do it.
This means her mission still comes first, yes, as I guessed upon my first watching, but not only! She does it for him too! To keep him away from the Devil's artifacts (and we saw in ep 32 she doesn't hesitate to help him fight them) so he's spared his sad fate. She's still in self-sacrificial mood (which she'd later pass on TTJ, she actually taught him that!), still all taken in by her lifetime mission and doesn't hesitate to get hurt herself, like she always did, do to it, even, and perhaps even more so, when she knows she loves him.
Stans who try to turn sadistic, cruel, violent, deranged characters into Poor traumatized little beans who were abused and/or never actually wanted to do those things when canon literally says otherwise are actually just so fucking BORING.
Not only are they delusional, but they’re also just so fucking boring. Like... why the fuck do they want them to be a totally different character? These are stans, not fans; they don’t actually like that character, they like some 100% AU version of them to project on. (Or to thirst over, but they’re so delusional that they believe liking a fictional villain disrupts their real life morals, so they have to make them into someone entirely different. 🙄)
Oh, old horror movies. Where the REAL suspense is not "will the church organist will join the demonic carnival?" but rather "do the writers of this film REALLY expect me to believe that this incredibly pushy romantic interest is actually charming and somehow a better choice than a rad-as-hell demon carnival???"
The answer is almost certainly yes, of course. They probably ALSO want me to be more creeped out by carnival music than church organ sounds, but lemme tell ya church music is CREEPY.
Anyway, alls I know is if the choice was "exist as a woman employed by a church in the 60s" and "oh shit I think maybe I DIDN'T survive falling off that bridge," then you know I am already at that death carnival having gay sex idk what to tell you.
labels like psychopathy and sociopathy are too hastily ascribed to Shauna Shipman not least of all because, A) all of the #unhinged behaviors & actions we've seen from her are more accurately attributable to a combination of 1) PTSD, 2) post-partum depression, 3) grief, 4) arrested development
AND-- more importantly insofar as it concerns definitions:
B) the key hallmarks of antisocial personality disorder (the clinical term for sociopathy/psychopathy) distinguishing it from mere jerkass behavior are 1) lack of remorse/regret or guilt for past actions, 2) inability to feel empathy* for others.
*empathy: the action of understanding, being aware of, being sensitive to, and vicariously experiencing the feelings, thoughts, and experience of another
two things Shauna is not are unempathetic and unable to feel remorse.
From the moment we meet Shauna as a kid she's writhing in guilt, and--I would argue--empathy. The whole reason she can't bring herself to tell Jackie she's planning on going to Brown is that she knows the disappointment will devastate Jackie and she doesn't want to hurt her best friend's feelings. Yes, she resents herself and especially Jackie for this but Shauna's empathy is what paralyzes her and keeps her from being honest.
Adult Shauna is just as capable of remorse/guilt and empathy:
When Tai shows up at her house and confides in her that she's started sleepwalking again, without Tai even having to ask, Shauna invites her to spend the night and promises to watch over her
after Callie shares with her how Shauna's unwillingness to discuss her past has deeply hurt Callie, Shauna acknowledges how her inability to confront her trauma has hurt her child and immediately tries to make amends by giving Callie what she needs and opening up.
And this is without getting into how Shauna's immense guilt and shame over her actions in the wilderness compelled her to punish herself post-rescue by not going to Brown (her dream school) and instead transforming her life into a living memorial to her dead friend.
Even adult Shauna's most violent action--killing Adam--wasn't an act of cold-blooded murder but rather happened as a result of PTSD-induced psychosis, as evidenced by her hallucinating that her journals are missing from the safe in the first place, and the flash to teen Shauna right after she guts him. She wasn't in her right mind. Does that excuse her? No. But killing someone during a bout of psychosis brought on by untreated PTSD is not the same as intentionally killing someone to solve a problem or in a fit of rage.
Is Shauna a violent person? Yes. Is she a selfish person? Yes. Is she self-destructive? Yes. Does she often behave irresponsibly and inappropriately? Yes. Is she dangerous? YES. But these qualities don't make her a psychopath. She's got too much empathy and is too burdened by guilt to have APD.
Shauna Shipman is what 2 1/2 decades of untreated PTSD & PPD + unresolved grief does to a person
Ok guys I knowwwww the 2016 PPG remake is bad. I'm seeing it firsthand with my own eyes as I watch it because I'm a bit sadistic. There's a lot of shit in here that makes me gag from its sheer stupidity.
But listen. Where the fuck else do I get fanservice gold like THIS 💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖
the side effects of experiencing all this funeral stuff from this up close is honestly that im just starting to plan my own funeral in my head to entertain myself and it also kinda stopped me from being suicidal because i realised no one but me could do it right
i think what gets me most about aoki’s death is that it is the perfect allegory for how rgg treats its antagonists: even if the antagonist is willing to change or implies they’re ready to start over, even if the protagonist is ready to accept them and help them move forward, even if it’s the very last second before the start of their redemption can begin, rgg has to throw in the BIGGEST Fuck You and stop any kind of progress from happening and kill them off before they can either change for the better, or justly face the consequences of their actions and get their comeuppance
ironically it’s like a stab in the back- like even if you want to change for the better, you’re doomed to the path you set out on and there’s nothing you can do to stop that now no matter how earnest you are in wanting to change and no matter who’s there to guide you to a better future (or at least get you to jail)
Nothing more jading than existing as an autistic person in a social setting and having a person who you have no real connection to invalidate your entire political and emotional standing with the simple technique of talking louder and more normal and appealing to the group and by nothing I mean a lot but it’s still a surprise every time until it happens again and again and