Chapter 20 pt. 1- I Do
Summary: It's finally here, the day you've been waiting for since the day Javi came into your life and changed it for the better- It's your wedding day, and things couldn't be more perfect. Except for the fact that you and Javi can barley contain your excitement as you wait to see each other.
Word Count: 11.4K (If this wasn't 2 parts, this would be 30k long and wouldn't be finished until May)
Warnings: SMUT (18+) oral (f receiving), vaginal fingering, praise kink, marriage kink (?), kind of semi-public sex (they're gettin' busy in the bathroom), Kind of getting caught (Steve needs to mind his own business), wedding things!!, family dynamics, mentions of death/grief, lots of emotions, Javi being an anxious, blubbering, hot mess, Javi being so in love and is so excited to spend the rest of his life with you that it physically hurts me (this chapter is lots of fluff and feelings and not as much smut, sorry!! Don't worry, there's PLENTY more to come next chapter š¤Ŗ)
A/N: Hi friends!!! Well, she's finally here, the moment we've all been waiting for- our two favorite idiots are finally getting married šš While I would have loved to make this one chapter, it literally would have been SO long, and Lord knows when I actually would have finished with it. So this chapter is the morning leading up to the ceremony, and part 2 will be the ceremony and reception!! I'm not even gonna lie, I bawled several times writing this chapter. These two mean so much to me, and I'm so honored that you care enough about them to be invested in my silly little story, too š„ŗ HAPPY WEDDING DAY!!!
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For the better part of his life, Javier PeƱa was convinced there was nothing more soul-crushingly painful and miserable than a wedding. On a day that was supposed to be filled with happiness and joy, Javi had spent more years than heād like to admit doing anything to avoid the occasion all together. Because for him, weddings had meant none of those things. Weddings had only served as yet another reminder of the failure he had chalked himself up to be.Ā
Leaving Lorraine at the altar and running away to Colombia.Ā
Watching the successes of everyone elseās blissful domestic lives play out in front of him, while heād never felt so alone.Ā
Convincing himself that he would never be worthy of love because of the terrible person that heād become.Ā
Weddings had been something that Javier PeƱa hated more than most things in life.Ā
But that was until he met you.Ā
Because today, on the morning of his own wedding, Javi was quite literally bursting at the seams with excitement, goofy grin stretched from ear to ear knowing that in a few short hours, he got to marry the most amazing, beautiful, perfect woman he had ever met. And even though the reality had set in that today was finally the day the two of you started your forever together, he was positive that heād never get over the reality that you would always be his.Ā
As he pulled his truck up the driveway to your new home where he should have been sleeping for the better half of last night, there was a part of him that couldnāt have been more thankful he had been able to sneak in just a few more hours with you before sunrise, knowing the anxious anticipation of waiting to see you all day, let alone see you in your wedding dress at the other end of the aisle, was enough to already have his heart beating a million miles a minute at the ripe hours of the morning.Ā
While he should have known better his Dad would already be well awake by the time he snuck back home, Chuchoās welcoming grin from the front porch was already laced with enough forgiveness for Javi to hope heād be spared at least some shit from his father.Ā
āāMorning, mijo.ā Chucho chuckled, watching Javiās sheepish stride up the driveway towards the house, slowly sipping on his cup of coffee with a boyish grin on his face, knowing damn well where his son had been without having to say a word.Ā
āI already know what youāre gonna say, Pops.ā Javi sighed, shaking his head in embarrassment as he approached his dad, letting out a soft grunt as he took a seat next to his father on the top step of the front porch.Ā
āI havenāt said anything, Javier. Do you have something you want to say?ā Chucho couldnāt help but snicker, raising his eyebrows at his son, as he watched his cheeks turn a petrified pink.Ā
āNope, I am- oh, fuck me- nope I am, uh, all good.ā Javi stammered, burying his hands in his face before running them through the sleepy curls of his hair and over the nape of his neck, his eyes still peeled to the ground, avoiding Chuchoās smug grin.Ā
āThen all I have to say is,ā Cucho paused, taking another swig of coffee, āI hope you never stop loving her the way that you do now.ā Javi looked up at his dad in confusion, wondering how his sneaking out wasnāt shaping up to be some sort of teenage scolding from his father. āI already know that you know you are a very, very lucky man Javier, but I also hope that you know you are going to make a wonderful husband. Eres un buen hombre. Estoy muy feliz por ti, mijo. Tu madre tambiĆ©n lo estarĆa. Muy feliz.ā (You are a good man. I am so happy for you, son. Your mom would be, too. So happy.)Ā
Letting his eyes shift off his feet where they had been stuck, Javi looked back up at his father, tears welling in his eyes at Chuchoās reassuring smile, reaching out to wrap his arm around his son, pulling him close enough to let Javiās head fall on his shoulder, the two sitting for a quiet moment in silence.Ā
Javi couldnāt help but feel a twinge in his heart, thinking about the fact his mom wouldnāt be with him for the biggest day of his life. His mother had left this world when Javi was at his lowest- alone and halfway across the globe, fighting for a cause he wasnāt even sure he believed in. It had always haunted him that his mom had died worried that her son had become a broken man, and would never be proud of the person heād turned out to be. When he returned home, he felt even worse thinking that his one living parent probably felt that way, too.Ā
But what brought him solace in a time that he needed it most, was you. You had given him a reason to make his parents proud, to make himself proud. While his mom would never be able to tell him the words he so desperately longed to hear, he knew in his heart that the life heād built because of you was all the comfort he needed to prove to himself Lucia was smiling down on him when he needed it most. And as he looked up at the sky, the pink and orange rays of the beautiful sunrise beginning to spill over the horizon, he had never been more sure that even though his mom couldnāt physically be by his side, that Lucia PeƱa would still be with him every step of the way.Ā Ā
āFuck, I miss her, Pops. I wish she was here.āĀ
āShe is, Javier. She always will be.āĀ
After soaking in a few more quiet moments together staring out into the shimmering sunrise, Chucho let out a content sigh, giving Javi a gentle pat on the back and rustling the dark curls of his sonās thick hair.Ā
āBut, if there is one thing I know about your Mother, itās thatĀ I can practically hear her screeching at us wasting our time being sad about her on the happiest day of your life. Chucho, por quĆ© piedres el tiempo estar triste? Basta de quejarte! Nuestro hijo se estĆ” casando, pendejo!ā (Why are you wasting your time being sad! Stop moping! Our son is getting married, stupid.) Chucho mocked, shaking his head at the sky at the scolding he knew heād be getting from his wife, making him and Javi burst into laughter. āAnd, if thereās another thing I know about your mother,ā Chucho paused again, letting out a loud grunt as he pushed himself up to stand, resting his arm on Javiās shoulder, āitās that her and I would both agree there better be a nieto (grandchild) in our lives 9 months from now. Dios mĆo (oh my God), Javier, even on the night before your wedding you two canāt keep your hands to yourselves! I am truly surprised I donāt have 14 grandchildren already.āĀ
āJesus fucking Christ, Popsā¦.ā Javi whispered to himself over his dadās schoolgirl snickers, watching his sonās face fall flush once again, standing up to follow behind his dad back inside as Chuhco began to waddle his way across the porch.Ā
Although Javi could have tried to plead his case to his dad to prove his innocence, truth be told, today, he really didnāt care. Today, the only thing he cared about was that in just a few short hours, he got to meet you, his wife, at the end of the aisle and spend his forever with the woman he loved more than life itself. For the first time in his life, Javier PeƱa couldnāt have been more excited for a wedding.Ā
You werenāt sure how many more times you had read the scratchy print scribbled across the bright yellow post-it Javi had left behind on his pillow before he had snuck out for the morning, but you did know that your heart beat faster and faster in anxious anticipation with every glance over his words, counting down the second until you got to see him again.Ā
You had kept yourself in your room, convinced that your excited impatience would have you awake well before everyone else still sleeping at the ranch, but as you heard clanging and bickering starting to echo from the kitchen, you should have known better that your mom and Connie would be up to something to kick start your wedding day.Ā
With a yawn and stretch of your arms above your head, you flopped yourself out of bed, exchanging Javiās worn t-shirt and sleep shorts for the white pajama set your mom had insisted she buy for you to get ready in as a compromise for your adamant despise at the white silky robe that had ābrideā stitched across it in big pink letters that she had begged to buy you.Ā
Shuffling down the hallway, the commotion in the kitchen only became increasingly louder, now realizing almost everyone must be awake for whatever antics were taking place for the early hours of the morning. As you turned the corner, you were greeted by an adorable āHappy Wedding Day!ā banner that had been made by the girls hanging on the wall, decorated with adorable crayon drawings of flowers, you and Javi, and all of the horses of the PeƱa ranch dressed in wedding apparel. As your eyes scanned across the rest of the room, the kitchen table was already full of breakfast, balloons dangled from the ceiling, and your mom and Connie were actively working on filling up what was most likely one too many glasses of mimosas.Ā Ā
āHappy wedding day, Auntie Bear!ā A little voice cooed behind you, looking down to see a still very sleepy Olivia, hair still crazed and bed ridden as she wrapped herself around your hip, squeezing you in a tight hug.Ā
āAhhhhh, thereās the bride!!ā Your mom shrieked, her pitch enough to make everyone in the room wince as she barreled towards you, joining Olivia to engulf you in her grasp. After everyone had recovered from your momās shrill greeting, everyone else had soon joined in on squeezing you in a giant group hug, the gesture in itself making you smile, but the physical restraint in the middle of a human sandwich being a little too much for you this early in the morning.Ā
āThanks guys. I uh, I would like to make it out alive for my wedding so maybe if we donāt squish me to death, that would be great.ā You grunted, trying to wriggle out of the arms squishing your body, hoping that someone would get the hint.Ā
āAlright, I think sheās probably had enough.ā Connie laughed, finally noticing the look on your face, prompting everyone to give you at least a little breathing room.Ā
āIām just so excited for you! I canāt believe youāre getting married, sweetie!ā Your mom, clearly not picking up on the hint, was now back to squeezing you in a bear hug again tight enough to make your eyes pop out of your head. āOkay, sorry, sorry, Iām done now, just had to get one last one out of my systemā¦ for now. Here, have a seat, honey,ā Your mom gestured towards the kitchen table, pulling out a chair for you to sit in, āwe have about an hour before we have to start doing hair and makeup but we have plenty of breakfast for you to choose from before we get the day started. Howād you sleep?āĀ
āOh, um- fine, I um, I slept fine.ā You lied, now sheepishly staring down at the overflowing plate of breakfast food your mom had set in front of you, taking a hefty bite of pancake before looking back up, your eyes meeting Connieās, a suspicious smirk gleaming on her face as she stared at you, crossing your arms over your chest as you swallowed your food with a more audible than intended gulp.Ā
āOh good!ā Your mom replied, obvious to yours and Connieās silent interaction as she meandered around the kitchen. āWell, eat up, Iām off to go check on some things outside, but by the time I get back in here, that plate better be cleared! Girls, come help Grandma, let your Aunt finish her breakfast!āĀ
āOkay!ā Your nieces giggled, following behind your mom into the backyard, leaving you and Connie alone in the kitchen, hearing her silently laugh to herself as she sat down next to you at the table.Ā
āGood sleep, huh? Good sleep that definitely had nothing to do with Javiās truck that left here at 6:00 AM this morning?ā Connie snickered, giving you a little wink as your cheeks turned pink with embarrassment, letting out a defeated sigh.Ā
āI promise itās not what you think. I actually couldnāt sleep and I called Javi and he ended up coming over so I wouldnāt be up the whole night. I told him he didnāt have to, but I was up and stressed and having him here was the only thing that was going to help. It was just sleep, I promise.āĀ
āItās okay, I believe you. I couldnāt sleep the night before my wedding either. Iām pretty sure if I did what you had done, Steve would have slept right through the phone call, or still would have been too drunk to drive over.ā The two of you quietly giggled to yourselves as Connie reached out for your hand, holding it in hers, āI hope you know that he loves you so much. It always broke my heart to see Javi go through what he did, and how hard on himself he was because of it. You really are the best thing that could have ever happened to him. Iām so happy for the two of you, I couldnāt be more excited for today, honey.āĀ
Reaching across the table, Connie wrapped her arms around you, squeezing you in another hug, trying to hold back your sniffles as you felt happy tears beginning to well in your eyes.Ā
āThank you, Connie.āĀ
āOf course. Now, you better pick what you want from that breakfast and throw away the rest before your mom gets back, I donāt think either one of us wants to be responsible for telling her that her food wasnāt sufficient enough for you.āĀ
You snorted, rolling your eyes at the thought of the dismay your mom would be in thinking that you didnāt get enough to eat before your big day as you put a reasonable amount of breakfast on a new plate to eat, discarding the other heaping pile that your mom had left you.Ā
āYou are a smart woman, Connie Murphy.āĀ
āSo Iāve been told.āĀ
The rest of the morning seemed to move by at an exponential pace- At the Pena ranch, hair and makeup was well underway for everyone, and running on time with incredible efficiency from the detailed schedule that your mom and Connie had put together. Even though your body was riddled with endless amounts of anxious anticipation and excitement as the clock ticked closer and closer to when Javi and the rest of the boys would finally get here, you were pleasantly surprised at how fun the morning had ended up being with all the girls, especially since your nieces and the Murphy girls had insisted on putting on a hilarious sing along spectacular for the majority of the time for entertainment while you got ready.Ā
Over at your new house, however, with the only getting ready that Javi needed to do being taking a shower and putting on his suit, the boys were convinced that he was going to put a hole in the floor from his anxious pacing as he counted down the minutes to leave.Ā
āJav, have a beer, man, you just put this floor in, I think your wifeās gonna be pissed when she finds out she has to replace it before yāall even move in because you canāt sit still.ā Steve chuckled, taking a sip out of his can before nudging your brothers sitting next to him on the couch as they watched their friend and future brother in law tread back and forth across the living room for what felt like the 117th time since theyād sat down.Ā
āI think I have to agree with Steve on this one, Javier, you are making me anxious and Iām not even the one getting married.ā Chucho chimed in from the armchair seated next to the couch.Ā
āIāll second what Steve said, man. Have a beer, Javi. You havenāt shut up all day about how fuckinā excited you are, so whatās got you so worked up? Youāve seen her in a dress before dude, this oneās just white.ā Your brother David snorted, his joke now soliciting some eye rolls from the rest of the boys, considering David was about single as they came, and was the only one of the group who wasnāt even remotely close to being married.Ā
āItās a fucking wedding dress, you dingus, thereās obviously a difference.ā Your dad groaned, walking up to your brother to give him a prompt smack in the back of the head, making your other brother Charlie snicker to himself, until he also decided to greet him with an equally harsh slap for good measure.Ā
āWhat the fuck was that for? I didnāt say anything!ā Charlie winced, holding his hands up in defense.Ā
āTell your brother to stop being an ass! Sheās your sister too, for Christās Sake, youāre not gonna stand up for her either?! Jesus you two are the biggest idiots Iāve ever met. Even Patrick would have had enough common sense to keep that one in his head. Well, maybe not, but thatās besides the point.ā That one at least cracked a little smile from your brothers, wishing that Patrick would have been here to see their sisterās big day, and to distribute the slapping pain more equally between the pair.Ā
āI justā¦ Fuck, I just wanna see her. I canāt wait to see her. Iāve never wanted anything so bad in my whole life. The suspense is fucking killing me.ā Javi signed, resting one hand on his hip before running his hand through his hair, anxiously drumming his fingers on his side, foot tapping on the well worn path he had been treading on the hardwood floor of the living room.Ā
Chucho chuckled, resting his hands on his knees and pushing himself up to stand with a low grunt, making his way over to his son, resting his hand on his shoulder as he looked up at him. āEres como tu madre.. Impaciente. (You are just like your motherā¦ Impatient). Mijo, I remember when I married your mother, she was so excited that she actually asked if we could start the wedding an hour early, just so we could see each other sooner. I can almost hear her laughing at the fact that her son is no better than her. How I wish she were here to see this. Soon, Javier. I promise.āĀ
āDo you think sheās gonna like the gift? You made sure she has it for today, right? And everything from her brothers too?ā Javi asked, nervously biting at the tip of his thumb as he glanced down at his father before looking over at David and Charlie sitting on the couch, smiling back at him.Ā
āYes, Javier. I triple checked last night. Iām sure that she will love it. I know she will love it. All of it. Now, why donāt you go put on your suit and we can leave a little ahead of schedule, I will just make sure to drive extra slow. Even slower than normal. I think if we wait any longer you may actually combust.ā He teased, pulling Javi into a tight hug before releasing him, giving him a gentle pat on the back.Ā
āAlright boys, you heard the man, get your sorry asses moving and letās get these monkey suits on, itās time to get this boy married!ā David cheered, holding up his beer to toast Javi before promptly chugging the rest of it down his throat and slamming it down on the table, soliciting another round of eye rolls and muffled laughter from the crowd.Ā
Silently nodding and smiling to himself, letting out one last reassuring breath before looking at the boys standing in front of him.Ā
āFuck. Iām gonna get married.āĀ
Back at the ranch, the last of getting ready was beginning to wrap up, all the girls' hair and makeup finally finished, and the youngest of the crew giddily dancing in their flower girl dresses, twirling and swirling in excitement at their pristine outfits as they gathered around you, patiently awaiting for you to get into your own wedding dress.Ā Ā
For as long as youād wanted to get married, youād always known that you wanted your wedding dress to be simple- No excessive frills, poof, glitter, or anything that made you feel like you were playing dress up for the worldās goofiest fashion show, simply because it was your wedding, and your dress needed to reflect the extravagance of the event. Your style choice came as a surprise to no one, given the fact you had practically lived in your brotherās hand-me-downās until the 8th grade, and even when your mom had flown down a few months ago to go dress shopping with you and Connie, she had even laid down the hammer with one of the wedding dress consultants that you wouldnāt even step anywhere near a dress that was an ounce too over the top.Ā
Thatās why you were absolutely shocked that despite your firm parameters around what you wanted to wear for your big day, that you fell in love with the very first dress you tried on, and never looked back.Ā
It was everything you wanted and never you needed in a dress- a simple a-line skirt with thin straps that ran across your shoulders and scooped down your back, along with a delicate, lacy floral pattern stitched across your top that flowed down the wispy length of your gown. There were few times that you had ever admitted it to yourself, but you had truly never felt more beautiful than when you were wearing that dress, and when you had tried it on for the first time, only to turn around to see the tears welling in your mom and Connieās eyes as you revealed it to them, it was every confirmation that you needed that this dress was made for you.Ā
And while you had been counting down the days in excitement, waiting to put your dress on for your big day, Javi had been counting down along with you, to the point where Connie had made the executive decision to keep the dress at her house to prevent any preemptive peeking, considering that Javi had spent every day since you had bought your dress telling you how he couldnāt wait to see how beautiful you were going to look in it, without even knowing a single clue about what you had boughten, besides your lovingly sarcastic and vague āItās a dress, and itās white, Jav.āĀ
But after all the time you had spent imagining what it would be like to finally put your dress on for your actual wedding day, you almost couldnāt believe that you were finally here, carefully taking the straps off the hanger where it had been resting, holding the beautiful, white fabric out in front of you with a goofy grin spread across your face, eyeing down the outfit that meant you got to spend forever with your best friend.Ā
āYou ready to put it on?ā Connie asked softly, her hand resting on your shoulder as she stepped behind you, excitedly gazing at your dress right alongside you.Ā
āYeah.ā You smiled, gently nodding your head as you looked back at Connie, taking one last deep breath before passing off the dress to her before shimmying out of your clothes, letting them fall to a pile on the floor before turning to Connie, stepping into the opening of the dress and carefully pulling each strap over your shoulders while she pulled the zipper along your back, letting out a little sigh of relief as it clasped at the top. With one more long inhale, you slowly turned around to face everyone, eagerly awaiting your reveal, picking up your gown with a little floof as it gently draped around you, meeting the tears and smiles painted across everyoneās faces while they gazed at you.Ā
āAuntie Bear, you look like a princess! Uncle Javi is gonna think that you look like the most beautifulest person heās ever seen.ā Olivia squealed, jumping up and down in excitement before running over to you, wrapping her little arms around your waist in a tight hug.Ā
āOh sweetheartā¦. You look absolutely stunning.ā Your mom sniffled through her tears, holding her hands crossed over her chest, soaking in your full wedding ensemble.Ā
āYou look gorgeous. Like, seriously. I hope you know that Javiās gonna lose his mind when he sees you in this.ā Connie giggled, giving you a wink and a playful nudge, looking you up and down in astonishment.Ā
Stepping over to see yourself in the mirror, your heart skipped a beat to see yourself, your stomach churning with anxious, excited butterflies knowing that you were only getting closer and closer to finally seeing Javi and his reaction, trying your best to not your smirk grow too wide between your warm cheeks, thinking about his reaction.Ā
āYou really think heās gonna like it?ā You asked, your eyes still fixed at your reflection in the mirror, gently swaying your lacy, floral skirt back and forth, running your hand against the delicate fabric.Ā
āHoney, Iāve watched that man ogle over you in a hockey jersey. I told the boys theyāre in charge of making sure he doesnāt faint when you walk down the aisle.ā Your mom teased, Connie nodding her head in agreement.Ā
āIām gonna second your mom on this one, girl. Steve has a running bet with the guys on how long it takes Javi to cry after he sees you. I think the over/under is 2 seconds, but after seeing you right now, Iām convinced heās all waterworks from the moment he lays eyes on you.āĀ
Connieās comment made you laugh to yourself, shaking your head at the idea of Javi instantly bursting into tears from just the sight of you, but when you thought about seeing Javi in his tux (that you had already seen before, multiple times) and what a mess you were going to be, maybe the boyās betting line didnāt seem so unfair after all.Ā
āSpeaking of tearsā¦ā Connie smirked at your mom, nodding at her to signify some little secret they seemed to be in on, āThereās one last thing you need to see beforeā¦ Well, weāll let you open it up and find out.āĀ
With that, your mom reached over to one of the tables where a white box with a neatly wrapped bow had been hidden, your mom passing it to Connie before then passing it over to you, making you tilt your head in confusion as you took the box in your hands, looking back and forth between your mom, Connie and the box waiting for some sort of explanation.Ā
āWhat is this?ā you questioned, still puzzled as you noticed the gift tag hidden under the bow, gently peeling it open, their suspicious smirks beginning to spread as you read the all too familiar scratchy handwriting inside.Ā
To: Osita
Love: Javi
Now even more confused, you carefully began unwrapping the bow from around the packaging, letting the ribbon fall to the floor, followed by the lid of the box, revealing another longer note from Javi, resting on top of a bed of neatly folded tissue paper. You sat down in one of the chairs close by, letting the box rest on your lap as you held the note in your hands, already beginning to tremble as you felt the tears start to well in your eyes as you began to read.Ā
Osita,Ā
I knew from the moment I met you, that I wanted nothing more than to spend the rest of my life with you. I canāt believe that day is finally here. I hope that this day is everything that you could ever dream it to be.Ā
I hope you know that if I could I would give you everything. The moon, the sun, the stars- if you wanted it, I would give it to you.Ā
But I know that no matter how hard I try, there is one thing I know canāt give to you, and thatās the presence of the people who arenāt with us anymore.Ā
And while I canāt bring back your brother or my mom to be here today, I hope that whatās in this box will remind you that theyāll always be here for you, no matter what.Ā
I know my mom would have wanted you to have this. Thereās not a day that goes by that I wish she could have met you. She would have loved you so much. I hope she knows that youāre the best thing that could have ever happened to me.Ā
Your family was able to find something of your brotherās for you to have on here too- I wish I could have met him. I hope he knows how much I love you, and the beautiful and resilient woman youāve become. I hope he knows how proud I am of you.Ā
I canāt wait to see you, amor. I canāt even imagine how beautiful you look right now. Iām the luckiest man in the world.Ā
I love you more than words, and I promise Iāll spend every day for the rest of my life making sure you know it.Ā
Happy Wedding Day, Osita. Soy tuyo para siempre (Iām yours forever).Ā
-JĀ
You could feel your heart practically exploding after reading what Javi had wrote for you, wiping away the wetness from your cheeks, you took a deep breath as you carefully set down his note next to you before ever so slowly peeling back the layers of tissue paper folded on top of one another, hiding the gift hidden beneath them. As the last layer of the delicate paper was shed, you let out a gasp, you hand covering your mouth in shock as you put together the pieces of Javiās note and the present now sitting in your lap, looking up at everyone else in the room, nodding back at you with sympathetic smiles and tears in their eyes at your realization.Ā
Not only had Javi had given you his motherās wedding veil to wear, but stitched in the bottom corner was a patch of Patrickās old hockey jerseys, a small number 2 from his arm sleeve, the number he had worn for every jersey he had ever played in.Ā
āOh myā¦ Oh my god? I canāt, I- how did you- oh my god.ā You whispered to yourself, your voice trembling in disbelief, tears now streaming down your face as you held the veil in your hands, your thumb gently tracing over the worn patch of Patrickās jersey, truly too stunned to speak at what Javi had done for you, to make sure a piece of two people who were no longer with you could still be a part of the biggest day of your life.
āCan I put it on?ā Your mom asked, smiling at you with tears in her eyes, walking towards you as you nodded, handing her over the veil as she gently nestled it into your hair, straightening it out behind you, even more tears streaming down her face while she watched your reaction in the mirror.Ā
Not only was Luciaās veil absolutely beautiful, if you hadnāt known any better, you would have thought Javi had asked someone to see what your dress looked like to pick out a veil that matched it perfectly.Ā Like it truly was meant to be.
Still too shocked to form any sort of coherent thought, you stared at yourself in the mirror, silently smiling and crying at your reflection until a soft knock came from outside the bedroom door, making everyone in the room whip their heads around to see all of the boys who had just arrived peeking through the door frame, waiting in anticipation.Ā
āCan we come in? Weāre dyinā to see you, Cubby. Well, the one whoās dyin to see you the most we banished to the outside so he wasnāt even tempted to come in, but the rest of us fools still wanna see you too.ā Your dadās voice chuckled from behind the door, making you break from your crying just enough to let a soft laugh escape from your chest, nodding your head as you turned around to greet the gang gathered at the door.Ā
Growing up the youngest of 3 brothers, sentimental wasnāt a term thrown around in your household very often. Of course you loved your family, and they loved you, but you and your brothers had often joked that itād probably be easier to projectile vomit than to actually say the words āI love youā eachother. So thatās why when your dad and brothers walked through the door with awestruck looks on their faces, you couldnāt help but start crying even more.Ā
Well, until they actually got a chance to speak.Ā
āDonāt cry you dingus, youāre gonna mess up all your makeup. And god knows how long it took to try and make you look like you didnāt just crawl out of a garbage can.ā David quietly snickered, pulling you in for a much gentler than usual headlock before wrapping his arms around you for a legitimate hug.Ā
āFuck off, David. How many people had to help you put that suit on, huh? You use every last brain cell trying to do up those buttons?ā You teased back, trying to wipe the tears that had been rolling down your cheeks before giving him a loving slap to the stomach, making the two of you laugh even more.Ā
āYou know his dumbass needed all the help he could get.ā Charlie joked, pulling you in for another hug before stepping back to look you up and down, āNot too shabby. You clean up good, Cubby.āĀ
āThanks Charlie.āĀ
The last one to step towards you was your dad, who you could tell was trying with everything in him not to absolutely burst into tears, putting one hand on your shoulder as he smiled at you. āIāll say it once and I wonāt say it again because you know as well as I do Iām not good with the sappy shit. You look beautiful, Cubby. Iām so proud of you. I know Patrick would have been too. Although that motherfucker is probably pissed at us that we cut the number off of his favorite jersey, but I think heāll forgive us.ā Wrapping you in a tight squeeze, your dad engulfed you in a bear hug, quickly followed by your brothers and your mom, trapping you in the center of their bodies, knowing you all were wishing there was one more person there in your group to fill in your hug.Ā
āI love you guys. Thank you.ā You whispered, just loud enough to make sure they could hear, but quiet enough that even though your brothers had heard it, just this once, they wouldnāt give you shit for it. And just this once, everyone seemed to silently agree that they really, truly, did love you too.Ā
After a few more seconds of your group hug, there was another soft knock on the door, followed by another familiar voice, Chucho and Steve now peeking through the doorway to say hello.Ā
āIs it okay if we come in, Mija?ā Chuco asked, already halfway through the door in excitement.Ā
āYes, of course.ā You sniffed, breaking free from the middle of your group hug to greet Chucho, less than shocked that his hug was almost tighter than the 4 other members of your family combined.Ā
āMijaā¦ Mija, you look so beautiful. Oh, goodness. I had always saved this veil one day, just in case. And even though it sat in the attic for years, I pulled it out the week that Javier first met you. I donāt think that there was ever a doubt in anyoneās mind that you werenāt the one for him. My sweet Lucia would have been so happy to know that you have given Javier everything he never thought that he deserved. Oh, how I wish with everything she could have been here today to see how happy you make him. But I hope that you know, she would have been so excited that you get to be a part of our family.ā He grinned through his tears, stepping back to look at you with a soft smile on his face, gently reaching up to wipe away the wetness on your cheek before pulling you back in for another hug. āI hope you know that Javier is going to be a wreck when he sees you. Poor boy has been in shambles all day waiting to see you.āĀ
āI donāt think Iāve ever seen the man this anxious. And thatās sayinā somethinā.ā Steve chimed in, laughing to himself. āYou look great, sweetheart. Chuchoās right, Javiās ābout to be a goddamn mess.āĀ
As if your heart couldnāt feel any fuller from all of the love and warmth overflowing into the room, you had almost forgotten about the one person that had brought you all together in the first place- Javi.Ā
You could feel the pace of your heart begin to race, your stomach swirling in anticipation as the reality of the situation slowly began to sink in.Ā
Your future husband was here, and there was nothing more in the world that you wanted than to see him. Not soon, not at the end of the aisle, not waiting for you at the altar, right this very second.Ā
āHeās here, right? Javi?ā You asked, biting down on your lip to contain the stupid grin growing between your cheeks, swaying back and forth on your heels in childlike impatience. Before you could barely ask your question, all eyes in the room were on your, giving you a collective look that seemed to scream āSeriously? You canāt wait either?ā without having to say a word.Ā
As you could hear the beginning rumblings of protest, David stepped in as the most unexpected voice of reason, holding his hands up to the crowd in your defense, trying to silence everyoneās potential disagreement for what you were about to suggest.Ā
āListenā¦ Yāall know as well as I do that we could hold back these two with iron restraints, and theyād still probably find a way to see each other before the ceremony. And to be quite honest, I am pretty convinced if we donāt let them, one of them is gonna fucking combust, and I am not willing to be held personally responsible for any damages done before you two idiots can even get married.āĀ
Giving you a silent nod of approval, David stepped back to pat your back with the loving force that only a brother could, as everyone else in the room seemed to very quickly agree with his sentiment, joining with head bobs of quiet agreement.Ā
āIāll go let the big man know youāre cominā. Gotta find some way to redeem myself before I bust his balls in my speech later.ā Steve snickered, giving you a quick wink before quickly disappearing out the door to find the man behind it, waiting half as patiently as you.Ā
To say that Javi was disappointed when the boys booted him to the outdoors while everyone else got to go in and see you was the understatement of the year. Even though he couldnāt have been sitting on the front porch of his childhood home for more than 10 minutes, it felt like he had been waiting for hours, counting down each second until the moment he finally got to lay his eyes on you. After about 2 minutes of sitting in his dadās rocking chair, nervously swaying as his hands shifted between his fingers drumming on his legs and balling up in anxious fists, he pushed himself up to stand, walking off the steps of the porch to pace in the front yard under the warmth of the late June sun.Ā
He had been so preoccupied as he meandered the front of the home, picturing just how breathtaking you would look as you walked down the aisle to greet him- how gorgeous you would be in your dress, your hair, your stunning smile, everything about you that made him look at you and know that he was the luckiest man in the world. That you were his. That you were everything that made him feel like home. It wasnāt until after a few careless steps too far around the corner of the house, that Javi was catching himself from tumbling to the ground as he tripped over a larger than suspected rock underneath him, quietly cursing under his breath while he tried to steady himself, peering down at the ground to see what had almost caused his fall. And when he finally read the words etched into the round stone beneath him, he couldnāt help but laugh at the fact the thing resting below him was none other than the heading that read āLuciaās Gardenā.Ā
āJesus Christ, Ma, youāre not even here and youāre gonna take me out before the wedding even happens.ā Javi chuckled to himself, gently tapping his foot against the rock, staring at the worn and weathered letters of her name. āYou know, the very first time Pops met her, he let her work on the garden. I couldnāt believe it, because he barely lets me within 10 feet of here without worrying Iām gonna ruin something. But uh, I think that he knew. I think before he even met her, he already knew that she was the one.āĀ
Letting out a soft sigh, Javi crouched down, squatting next to the stone, gently brushing his thumb across the grittiness, carefully tracing each letter back and forth, praying with every ounce of him that one way or another, she could hear what he had to say.Ā
āI really wish you could be here, Mom. I really miss you. I really wish she could have gotten to meet you. I know that youād love her.ā Javi paused, his eyes beginning to well with tears, letting out a long, shaky exhale to try and compose himself. āSheās so good to me. I donāt know what I ever did to deserve her. Sheās made me a better man. A man that Iām proud of. A man I hope youād be proud of, too.ā He paused again, pinching the bridge of his nose before wiping his wet cheeks with the back of his hand. āI know that uh- I know before, um you were gone, that you really worried about me. I know youād never say it, but um, I could tell. And Iām so sorry. Iām so sorry, Mom.ā His voice was now barely above a whisper, years of guilt and anger bubbling in his chest for the person heād been, the life his mother had lived to see him play out while halfway across the world, fighting for a cause he wasnāt even sure he believed in anymore.Ā
āBut, I um- I just- fuck, I just want you to know that Iām okay. Iām more than okay, now. This is the happiest Iāve ever been, all because of her. Weāre gonna build a house, weāre gonna have kids, weāre gonna be so happy, Mom. So fucking happy. Te amo mucho, Mama. Siempre lo hare (I love you so much, Mama. I always will).āĀ
So focused on the quiet conversation with the simple stone sitting beneath him, Javi hadnāt even heard Steveās hurried footsteps creeping up behind him, making Javi practically jump out of his skin as Steveās hand met his shoulder.Ā
āHey, buddy. You ready to-āĀ
āJesus, fuck Murph. You scared the fucking shit out of me.ā Javi gasped, thoroughly startled as he shot to his feet, quickly trying to wipe the tears from his face as he faced his friend.Ā
āSorry, man, I didnāt mean to, promise!ā Steve laughed, holding his hands up in defense before letting his expression shift to concern at Javiās face. āHey, you okay, Jav?āĀ
āYeah, yeah, Iām- No, Iām good, sorry. Just um- Just wish my mom could have been here for this, ya know? She would have really fucking loved her.āĀ
āHey, itās okay, man. My dad was gone before my wedding, too. Fuckinā sucks.ā Steve smiled sympathetically, āTruth be told Jav, that girl youāre gonna marry, I think itās hard for anyone not to love her. Your mom would be really happy for ya.āĀ
āThanks, Murph.ā Javi huffed, a small smile spreading across his face at Steveās genuine sympathy, a trait he didnāt see very often.Ā
āCāmere, buddy.ā Without giving him a choice, Steve wrapped his arms around Javi, pulling him in for a hug with a few stiff pats on the back before pulling away with a nod, hands on his hips as he stared down his friend with a shit eating grin, knowing the news he was about to tell Javi would instantly turn his mood around. āSpeakinā of your future wifeā¦ You wanna see her?āĀ
āWait, like, now? Like, actually?ā Javiās mood instantly shifted, his entire body lighting up at the prospect, looking at Steve with relief glistening in his dark brown eyes.Ā
āYeah, actually. Thank God your wife is just as obsessed with you as you are with her. Jesus Christ, I think the both of ya would have fuckinā exploded if we made you wait ātill the ceremony.ā Steve chuckled, grabbing Javiās shoulder and giving it a playful shake. āAlright, you turn around so itās a surprise when she gets out here, lemme go get her. And Jav?ā Steve asked, turning his head back over his shoulder to look at his friend as he began to walk away back towards the house.Ā
āYeah, Murph?āĀ
āYouāre losinā that bet. No way in fuckinā hell you aināt sobbinā like a baby the second you lay eyes on her.āĀ
As Steve disappeared back into the house, Javi couldnāt help but quietly laugh to himself, because as much as he wanted to dish shit back to Steve, he knew his friend was right- He was about to be a fucking mess.Ā
āSo? Are we good? Does he wanna see me?ā You asked, anxiously waiting at the door, feet tapping on the floor hidden underneath your dress as you waited for Steveās return.Ā
āNo offense, Sweetheart, but that's just about the dumbest question I've ever heard. What do you think? Of course the bastard wants to see you. Iām just gonna warn ya though, that man is a hot mess, and I really think ya just may kill him the second he sees you.ā The two of you laughed to yourselves, feeling your heart beat faster and faster in your chest with every passing second, using all of your self restraint to keep from bolting out the door past Steve to see Javi. āAlright, I wonāt keep ya any longer, go get āem, killer.āĀ
Before you could get yourself out the door, you embraced Steve in a hug, catching him off guard for a moment before he hugged you back, smiles spread across both your faces.Ā
āThanks, Steve.ā
āSweetheart, you aināt got nothinā to thank me for. If anything, hell, I should be thankinā you. You two lovebirds are a match made in fuckinā heaven. I was real worried about that old bastard for a long time. Glad to know I donāt have to worry about him anymore. Well, at least too much more. Now, enough about my sorry ass, go see your husband.āĀ
With a silent nod, you gave Steve one more quick hug before you were turning the knob to the front door, quietly stepping out to the front porch to see Javiās back to you at the bottom of the stairs, already trying to fight the tears welling in your eyes without even seeing his face. As you closed the door behind you, Javi instantly perked up, turning his head back over his shoulder just enough to speak, but not enough to see that it was you who was walking to greet him.Ā
āShe good to come out, Murph? Iām fucking dying out here.ā Javi laughed, making you giggle at the fact that he had no idea it was you who was standing behind him.Ā
āHate to break it to you, but unfortunately, I am not Steve. So sorry.ā You snickered, practically feeling Javiās eyes roll at your sarcastic comment, even though the both of you were thankful for a little humor to break the anxious anticipation that had been festering in your stomachs since this morning.Ā
āGod, youāre such a dork.ā He laughed, his back still turned to you as you took your final steps down the stairs with your dress in hand, trying to fluff it back out as you settled yourself behind him.Ā
āHey, youāve got me for the rest of your life, babe. Lucky you. Iām not gonna lie, donāt think I cleaned up half bad, ya know, if you wanna see.ā You teased, giving Javi a playful poke on the back as you bit down on your bottom lip, so excited to see Javiās reaction you truly thought your heart was going to explode out of your chest.Ā
āBaby, you have no fucking idea. C-can I, can I see you?ā Javi stammered, his voice already beginning to tremble.Ā
āWell, I think Iām gonna implode if you donāt, so yeah.ā You took one last long inhale in, holding your breath as Javi slowly began to turn to face you, feeling like everything was suddenly moving in slow motion when Javiās eyes finally locked with yours.Ā
Javi couldnāt even get a word out before his hands were covering his mouth, his jaw dropping open in absolute awe to see you standing behind him. The tears he swore to himself heād try to fight back were already streaming down his face, his eyes looking you up and down over and over again, trying to soak in every ounce of you, only crying harder as he noticed each and every new detail of you standing before him.Ā
āOsitaā¦ Oh my god. Oh my god.ā Javiās hand stayed glued over his mouth to try and keep his jaw from dropping any further than it already was, absolutely mesmerized by your beauty, barely able to get out any sort of coherent thought out of his brain. āBaby, you, oh my god, you look so beautiful. You look so fucking beautiful.āĀ Ā
While you figured that Javi would cry and be excited to see you, nothing could have prepared you for the reaction that you were witnessing in real time, watching your future husband become a complete, blubbering mess at the sight of you, making it damn near impossible for you to hold it together yourself, considering the fact that you were also busy trying to take in the ridiculously handsome sight of Javi in his tuxedo- his broad body filling out every inch of the black fabric perfectly, hair and mustache impeccably groomed, and sweet, teary brown eyes sparkling in the sunlight, making you melt, tears rolling down your face as your heart bursted at the seams over and over again, wondering how in the world this wasnāt all some sort of a perfect dream.Ā
āYou like it?ā You managed to choke out through your happy sobs, your cheeks straining from the stupid grin that had spread across your face, the both of you radiating in the blissful glow of your excitement.Ā
āLike it? Osita, are you fucking kidding me? Do I like it? Holy shit, baby, you are the most beautiful thing Iāve ever seen. You look... Osita, you look incredible.ā Javi laughed through his tears, taking another step back to grab your hand, looking you up and down again before holding your arms up to twirl you in a circle, your dress flowing around you, making you giggle as you finally finished rotating to lock eyes with Javi again. āHermosa, I knew you were gonna look amazing, but I- I never, I never could have imagined that you were gonna look like this.āĀ
āComing from you? Jesus, Jav, Iām convinced youāre trying to kill me in that tux before we can even get married. You look so good. Javi?ā You paused, grabbing his other hand so your fingers were intertwined, his thumb automatically tracing soft circles on your skin.Ā
āYeah, baby?ā Javi replied, biting down on his bottom lip as he gulped, trying to hold back the lump resting in his throat from his happy tears as he stared down at you.Ā
āJaviā¦ Weāre getting married. Weāre getting fucking married.āĀ
āFuck. Weāre getting married. Holy shit.ā As if the smile on Javiās face couldnāt get any wider, his boyish grin gleamed between his cheeks, wrapping his arms around you to engulf you in a tight hug against his chest, the two of you laughing to yourself in disbelief that you had finally made it here- that only a few short moments, the two of you got to begin the rest of your forevers together. āCan I- Can I kiss you?ā He asked in a soft whisper, pulling back to tilt his head towards yours, sliding one of his hands up to gently cup your cheek, shifting your gaze up towards him.Ā
āWhat kind of question is that, you dork?ā You teased, bringing your mouth close enough to his to let your lips barely ghost over one anothers, butterflies swarming in a sea of excitement.Ā
āBecause Iām afraid if I start kissing you, Iām not gonna be able to stop.āĀ
āDo your worst, PeƱa.āĀ
As if time began to move in slow motion, your mouths met with an electric and tender intensity, slowly becoming a mix of tangled tongues and teeth, your hand sneaking under the opening of Javiās suit jacket to wrap around his waist as the grip around your face began to tighten, your bodies melting together as one in a nearly magical moment- Well, as magical as it could get before being interrupted by all your friends and family that had gathered on the front porch to share in the moment with you.Ā
āHey! Lovebirds! Jesus Christ, save it for the ceremony!ā Steve shouted, a chorus of laughter erupting behind him, startling you and Javi.Ā
āGood Lord, Steve, give it a rest. They missed each other!ā Connie sighed, shaking her head at her husbandās loud interruption.Ā
āYeah, thatās our sister, you pervert!ā David chimed in, the familiarity of his taunting voice making you roll your eyes, putting your hands on your hips as you stared back at the crowd.Ā
āWill you can it, you dingus? Itās their wedding day for Christās sake!ā Your dad groaned, slapping David in the back of the head.Ā
āDaddy, whatās a pervert?ā Olivia asked, looking over at Charlie as Chucho held her against his hip, grimacing as he tried not to laugh at the exchange.Ā
āSeriously David, really? Grow up! Theyāre so adorable, let your sister have this.ā Your mom scolded, promptly giving him another whack to the stomach, you and Javi now laughing to each other at the scene that was unfolding in front of you on the porch.Ā
āWell,ā You giggled, giving Javi a playful nudge, āIt seems like everyone else has been able to solve the āyou not being able to stop kissing meā problem.āĀ
āJesus Christā¦ā Javi sighed to himself, running his hand over his face as he stared back into the crowd watching you and him, āCan we get a few more minutes to ourselves before the ceremony? Please? I havenāt seen her all day.āĀ
āCāmon, letās give the two some privacy. Lindas (cuties), why donāt we go look to make sure all the flowers are ready. Maybe we can practice walking down the aisle again?ā Cucho smiled at the two of you, giving Javi a subtle wink as the girls began to giggle with delight, racing off to the backyard in a fit of squeals of excitement.Ā
āWeāll do another check of everything, too, I wanna make sure everythingās in place before the ceremony. Do you mind helping, Connie? Boys, will you go check to make sure all the food and drinks are ready for cocktail hourā Your mom asked, picking up on Chuchoās hint to give the two of you some space, now trying to rope your dad, brothers and Steve into that equation as well.Ā
āCan I have a beer if I help?āĀ
āJesus Christ, David.āĀ
Everyone's conversations began to trail as they headed their separate ways, leaving you and Javi standing in the front yard alone, once again,Ā looking at each other with mischievous grins- Yours from knowing damn well that Javi had something up his sleeve, and Javiās from the something stored up there.Ā
āWhatās that look for, Jav?ā You smirked, crossing your arms over your chest, raising an eyebrow at Javi as you waited for him to let you in on whatever plan he had brewing in his brain.Ā
āI thinkā¦ I think that I really have to go to the bathroom.ā Javi replied, boyish grin glowing between his cheeks as he wrapped his arm around your waist, pulling you close to his chest.Ā
āAnd youāre really making it seem like going to the bathroom is a two person job.ā You snickered, rolling your eyes at Javi, knowing exactly what he was implying. āBaby, the ceremony is gonna start in an hour, everyoneās here and I donāt think thereās gonna be enough-āĀ
Before you could finish your thought, Javi was swallowing the rest of your sentence in a long, deep kiss, only pulling away to quietly rasp in your ear.Ā
āIs that a challenge, Osita? I promise Iāll be fast, baby, you just look so fucking beautiful, and I donāt think Iām gonna make it if I canāt have my wife all to myself, even if itās just for a few minutes. āĀ
āGod, youāre such a drama queen.ā You sighed with a snicker, heat creeping in your core knowing that you had just as little self control as Javi did, peeking your head to make sure that everyone had dispersed before they watched you and Javi sneak inside together. āWe have to be quick, okay? I just donāt want-AH! Javi!ā You squealed as Javi was scooping you off your feet mid sentence, very fittingly carrying you bridal style across the front yard and up the steps of the porch, nudging the door open with his hip, the two of you all giggles and smiles as he whisked you through the house, stopping at his childhood bedroom, promptly setting you on the ground to shut the door behind him.Ā
With a click of the lock and a rattle of the door handle to make sure they were safe from intruders, Javiās hands were all over you in an instant, his mouth crashing into yours as he walked you back towards the ensuite attached to his bedroom, hoisting you up onto the kitchen sink as he shut the bathroom door behind him for an extra layer of protection.Ā
You could tell how hard Javi was trying to keep himself in check, considering the amount of time and effort that had gone into your hair and makeup, and the delicacy of your dress, but it was taking every ounce of self control he had to not rip it right off you. Softly letting his kisses trail down your body, Javi began to sink to his knees, smirking up at you with his awestruck gaze as he carefully began to lift up the layers of your dress, running his hands up and down your bare thighs.Ā
āDo you know how fucking beautiful you are, Osita? Fuck, I canāt believe youāre gonna be my wife. My beautiful, amazing, perfect wife.ā The hot breath of his words danced against your skin as Javi peppered soft kisses up the inside of your thighs, his head almost disappearing underneath your dress as he creeped closer and closer to your core, already soaked with your arousal waiting for Javiās touch. āYouāre mine forever, Hermosa. Fuck, Iām so lucky. I love you so much.āĀ
āI-I love you too, Javi.ā You whined, your breath already shaky as Javiās fingers hooked around the waistband of your underwear, tugging them down your legs and letting them drop to the floor below you before letting his fingers glide through your folds, already glistening with your arousal.Ā
āFuck, youāre already so wet, baby. Canāt believe this perfect pussy is all mine forever too. God, youāre so fucking perfect. Everything about you. Mmmm, I know we donāt have a lot of time, but I have to taste you, Hermosa. Can I, baby?ā Javi mewled, making you gasp as he gently slid two fingers into your aching core, curling them to bump against the spongy spot inside you that already had you fisting at the edge of the bathroom counter to try and keep your composure, and better yet, your voice down.Ā
āJaviā¦ Oh, shit. Fuck, Fu-ahhhhh.ā You moaned, feeling the strong arch of Javiās nose bumping against your clit, placing a soft kiss there before the flat of his tongue licked a long, broad stroke across your cunt, putting just the right amount of pressure on your sensitive bundle of nerves as his fingers worked in tandem to send the sweet tingling sensation to start building in your spine.Ā
While Javi would have loved to take every second of his sweet time to savor in watching you fall apart on his tongue, he knew just as well as you that he was working on a limited schedule, and wanted, no, needed to make sure he could get you off at least once before his luck ran out.Ā
Javi began to work his tongue against your clit, circling and flicking in fast and firm motions as his fingers curled deeper into your heat, his free hand hooking around your thigh and draping it over his shoulder, digging his fingertips into the meat of your flesh, like he was trying to ground himself more than you.Ā
You could already feel the coil in your stomach beginning to tighten from the way Javi was working so relentlessly to make you come undone, drinking every ounce of you up as, his lips now latching around your sensitive bundle of nerves, making your back arch and mind go blank while that all too familiar tingle began to creep through your core, cunt beginning to clench tighter and tighter around Javiās fingers with every movement of his mouth against you.Ā
āThatās it, mi amor.ā Javi cooed, peeking his head out from under you just enough so that his sweet, brown eyes were locked with yours, the hot words of his breath dancing against your pussy as his fingers continued to rock in and out of you. āIāve got you, Osita. Forever. Iāve always got you. Promento (I promise).āĀ
Before you could respond, your jaw dropped open and face scrunched in pleasure as Javi dove back in, burying his face in your cunt as each press of his tongue became more firm and precise than the last, feeling your pussy begin to flutter as you clutched tighter around the edge of the counter, trying to keep from screaming out in pleasure and raise any suspicion. But as your legs began to tremble and heart race, teetering on the brink of collapse, it was taking every ounce of willpower you had left to make that happenĀ
āFuck, Javi. Oh shit- Baby, Iām so close, Iām so close, Iām so cl-ooohhhhh.ā You whimpered, feeling your orgasm crash through you, pleasure radiating in your veins as you fell apart, losing all inhibitions to keep yourself quiet as you threw your head back in all consuming bliss. With his fingers still buried in your cunt, gently working you through your high, Javi shot back up, his mouth engulfing yours in an electric kiss to try and capture your ragged moans that had been coating the walls of the bathroom, the tangy taste of you still lingering on his lips.Ā
Your heartbeat finally began to slow, your chest heaving in long, heavy breaths as you slumped into Javi, your head resting on his shoulder, shuttering at the loss of Javiās fingers inside you. He carefully pulled them out, bringing them to his mouth and sucking them clean with a devilish smirk of satisfaction on his face.Ā
āTastes so fucking sweet. My wife tastes so fucking sweet. Fuck, I donāt think Iāll ever get over that.ā Javi chuckled with a boyish grin, gently cupping his hand under your chin as the other wrapped around your waist.Ā
āGet over what? Calling me your wife or eating me out?ā You giggled, still trying to catch your breath as you came down from your high, biting down on your lip as your arms draped over Javiās shoulders, your fingers tracing soft circles at the nape of his neck.Ā
āBoth. Fuck, I love you so much.āĀ
āI love you so much too, you menace.ā You smiled, tilting your head back to kiss Javi again, so blissfully lost in the moment, that the two of you both about jumped out of your skin when you heard a loud knock coming from the bedroom door.Ā
āJav? You in here, buddy?āĀ
āGoddamnit, Murphā¦āĀ
The familiar twang of Steveās voice made you freeze in fear, Javi quickly helping you down off the counter as he cursed to himself before the two of you were trying your best to fix yourselves up in the mirror to try and hide any signs of the horny whirlwind that had blown through the bathroom.Ā
āJavi?ā Steve called out again, continuing to knock on the door.Ā
āYeah, Iām here, just uh- Just give me a second, Murph.ā Javi sighed, the two of you trying to keep from laughing at your current predicament, wondering how the hell Javi was going to talk you both out of this one.Ā
āWhatās the plan, PeƱa?ā You giggled, giving Javi a playful nudge as he carefully turned the knob to the bathroom door.Ā
āTo tell Murph to fuck off if he tries to give me shit.ā The two of you quietly snorted, feeling a little less guilty than you would have if it wasnāt your wedding day. āYou stay here, okay? Iāll take care of him.ā He smiled, pressing a soft kiss on your cheek as he opened the door.Ā
āGod, I love you.āĀ
āI love you too, Osita.āĀ
Closing the bathroom door behind him, Javi took a few deep breaths as he ran his hands through his hair, turning the knob to open up his bedroom door to be greeted by an unamused Steve leaning in the door frame.Ā
āWhatās up, Murph? We were just, uh-ā Javi asked, trying his best to stay casual.Ā
āI fuckinā knew it. Donāt āwhatās upā me, you horny bastard.ā Steve groaned, rolling his eyes at his friend. āYāall havenāt even made it to the ceremony yet! Jesus Fuckinā Christ. Everyoneās been lookinā for yāall. I had a fuckinā feeling this is what you two were up two, and as your Best Man, Iāll cover for your ass now, but I sure as shit aināt doinā this all night for you two rabbits. Now cāmon, Casanova, go get your wife from in there and come outside. Remember that thing yāall gotta do where you actually go get married?ā Steve teased, slapping Javi in the chest before shaking his head at his friend, his cheeks pink in embarrassment as his eyes darted to the floor.Ā
āYeah, yeah, weāll be out in a second.ā Javi grumbled sheepishly, quietly accepting defeat.Ā
āAn actual second, ya hear? Not a horny Javier PeƱa second, or I swear to God.ā Steve groaned, raising an eyebrow at Javi.Ā
āPromise.āĀ
āAlright then. Chop, chop, Mr. PeƱa. Letās go get your ass married.ā Steve laughed, grabbing Javi by the shoulder before giving him a little shake and disappearing back down the hallway.Ā
Hearing Steveās voice and footsteps fade, you slowly peeked your head out of the bathroom door to see Javi standing by himself, head buried in his hands, pinching the bridge of his nose before turning back to see your face, equally embarrassed as his.Ā
ā... He knew, didnāt he?ā You grimaced, now fully opening the door and walking through to meet Javi on the other side.Ā
āYup.ā Javi sighed, adding an extra emphasis to the āpā with a pop.Ā
āWellā¦ Either Steve has the worldās most unlucky timing, or he just needs to do a better job of minding his business.ā The two of you snickered, crossing your arms over your chest as you stared up at Javi. āOr maybe someone needs to stop being such a bad influence.ā You teased, poking Javi in the chest.Ā
āMe? Iām the bad influence? Okay.ā Javi chuckled, teasing you right back. āSorry Iām getting married to the hottest woman alive and I canāt help myself. My gorgeous wife is one not making it any easier on me.āĀ
āStill not technically your wife yet, you dork.āĀ
āClose enough.āĀ
Grabbing you by your waist, Javi pulled you flush against chest, tilting his head in for a long, tender kiss- the kind that made heat creep through your cheeks and butterflies churn in your stomach, the kind that made your heart beat a million miles a minute, the kind that seemed to make everything else in the world stand still, even if just for a moment. The kind of kiss that made you know without a single doubt that you had never been more in love than you were at this very moment.Ā
āI love you, Javi.āĀ
āI love you too, Osita.āĀ
āYou wanna go get married?āĀ
āMrs. PeƱa,ā Javi grinned, grabbing your hand to interlock it with his, āThereās nothing Iāve ever wanted more in my fucking life.ā
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Can I request geto suguru with prompt 29. After the last angst u wrote, I figured I want to be hurt more, maybe y/n confronts him again and tries to get him back (fails miserably) šš keep writing, ur writing is really good š
Thank you so much for that request, I just had to write that immediately! Hope I shatter your soul in a good way love, enjoy and let me know what you think ā”
Dying ray of sunshine Part ll
Pairing: Geto x fem!reader
Word Count: 2,5k
Synopsis: After searching for your former boyfriend Suguru for 10 years, he finally shows himself again at the Night Parade. You try your best to convince him back into your open arms, but it seems like the man you love is gone forever.
Warnings: hurt (obviously), injury, lanuage, death
Itās been a while since you last saw him. 10 years, 6 months and 9 days to be exact. Somehow you managed to carry on, found a job in the center of Tokyo, cut your hair a little shorter, met up with Satoru from time to time. Youāre a grown woman now, absolutely stunning as some might say. On the surface, everything is going great for you. Expect for the fact that you never let a single man touch your soul after Suguru.
Sorry, just doesnāt work I guess.
You block the number of the random man youāve met last night without balling an eye and straighten your posture. No one seems to mesmerize you like Suguru did. Along with Satoru, you searched for him over the last years, still eager to find him and talk everything out. You know that he has a tender heart, that even after all this time you will manage to get him back, your Suguru. The promise you made will come true. Sooner or later, you will track down the traces of horror he leaves behind. Deep down you know that he would never hurt or let alone kill you. Just a few words, thatās all you need.
The ringing of your phone disturbs your peace rudely. A look at the screen reveals that in fact Satoru is calling.
āYou know I have to leave for work soon, donāt you?ā
ā(y/n), he was hereā, Satoro breathes out.
Immediately you jump out of your chair, blood rushing through your ears as your heart nearly pounds out of your chest. You know exactly who heās talking about. Suguru was at Jujutsu High? Why? Maybe he wanted to sort things out, maybe he had a conversation with Satoru, maybeā¦Maybe he asked about you.
āWhat did he say? Is he still with you? Why was he there? Were you able to convince him to come back to us? How is he? Does he look fine?ā, you babble out, mind racing faster than your mouth can follow.
ā(y/n)ā¦I think you should pay me a visit. Donāt expect anything positive thoughā¦ā
Your heart sinks immediately, a wave of disappointment and foreboding rushes over you just like ten years ago. Nothing positive means something really bad must have happened. But still, this is the first personal contact the two of you had with Suguru since he left that day. This has to be a good sign, right? Ā Ā
āIām coming right nowā, you response hastily, put on your high heels and sprint down the halls with your car keys tinkling in your hand.
Jujutsu High isnāt far away from your home, but still the empty road feels like an eternity this day. You press your foot on the gas, donāt give a shit about the rain that starts to poor and the bad sight. He was there. Suguru was finally seen again, alive and speaking. You canāt help but shed a tear of joy while cruising down the street with enormous tempo. At some point you thought about giving him up, to stop searching for someone who doesnāt want to be found and who last told you that he wants to see you dead. But you never had the heart to call it quit, to simply throw all the time youāve had together into the trash. This is your chance.
āSatoru!ā, you cry out, dashing down the wet sidewalk into the center of Jujutsu High.
There he stands along with his students, all of them wearing thoughtful, anxious and competitive expressions. You are alarmed immediately. Satoru warned you, it is written on their faces that something pretty bad has happened.
āWhatās going on?ā, you breathlessly inquire, trembling hands pressed against your figure in order to stop you from shivering.
Your whole body seems to be electrified, still in absolute shock at this sudden opportunity.
āHe was here. Suguru was here to announce warā, Satoru explains briefly, his gaze pinned to the grey sky above him.
āWar?ā
You canāt believe your ears. Is that the only reason he came here? To proclaim that he is going to take other innocent lives? You feel like fading, suddenly a breath-taking nausea overcomes you. This is not the Suguru you know, heād never do that. Absolutely impossible.
āThis has to be a misunderstanding, we both know that-ā
āSorry (y/n), it wasnāt. Apparently he doesnāt even stop at jujutsu sorcerers anymoreā¦ā
āB-Butā¦This means heāll come back, right? I will talk to him, Iām sure thereās a way to convince him to stop. After all, I was his girlfriend for so many years! Iām sure heāll listen to me!ā, you desperately try to convince Satoru.
āAināt no way Iāll take you to the battlefield. Forget that, (y/n). Youāll stay here, at Jujutsu High. I will talk to him first. Only when I can be sure that he wonāt hurt you I will come and get you, understood? As a non-jujutsu sorcerer, you are completely at his mercy. I wonāt lose you too.ā
You can feel Satoruās tense gaze eyeing you up and down while you urgently try to hold back tears. Of course heās right, you know all too well that Suguruās heart is clouded by grief and rage. He could kill you in a heartbeat before even recognizing that itās you. But still, the thought of sitting here and waiting for Satoruās call while your boyfriend is out there slaughters you from the inside. You waited 10 fucking years for this moment. How long do you have to wait until you can finally embrace him in your arms again, until you are reunited and get your well-deserved happy ending? It is so frustrating ā hunting down the shell of the person you love most in this entire word and then not being able to talk this out.
āDid he ask about me?ā
Your voice is a fade whisper, close to breaking like the finest glass. There is nothing you want more than to embrace him into your arms again, to feel his broad chest against your fingertips and let his delicious scent tingle your nose. Satoruās heart breaks at the way you stare into the ground, the tears you try to hold back so badly glistering in your eyes. He canāt help but pull you into his arms, gently caressing your back just like he did on that fateful day that took your spark away.
āHe asked me if youāre still around. I told him that you are searching for himā, Satoru whispers into your ear, making your heart shudder in hopefulness.
So he does care about you. After all the things that happened after the night ten years ago, you are still on his mind. Yes, this is a good sign. That means that he does in fact remember his feelings towards you, the beautiful moments you both shared.
āI will bring him back, Satoru.ā
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āSee ya, watch out for the little ones, (y/n)!ā
āYouāll probably have to watch out for me, Iām no use when it comes to curses. Hopefully Iām not in your wayā, you admit towards Maki and Yuta.
The boy in front of you smiles kindly at you while shaking his head.
āOh please, donāt be so hard on yourself! You are a very impressive and strong woman, Gojo-sensei talks only positively about you!ā
āIām not able to see curses either, donāt let that stop or bring you down.ā
A kind smile is plastered on your face, heart warmed by their kind words. It seems like Satoru is doing his job very well, apparently. You definitely need to tell him that when all of this is over.
āIāll go back insideā, the girl named Maki announces, turns on her heels and leaves.
āDo you want to join?ā, Yuta asks friendly towards you.
āOh no, thank you. I will wait here.ā
And with that, you are alone. Only you and the soft breeze that strokes your hair on this quiet cold day like every other. You canāt keep your mind still, everything revolves around Suguru and the prospect of seeing him. How will it go? Will he even recognize you? Your curves got a little rounder, jawline a little sharper and hair a little shorter. But your eyes. He should be able to tell that itās you by your eyes. After all, he spent hours getting lost in their sight. Oh, the beautiful old days. Waking up next to him still sleeping, letting your needy hands wander around his muscular body, caress every inch of his delicate skin. Suguru is your blessing of a lifetime and he told you over and over that you are his ray of sunshine. Surely itās not too late. It is never too late to change your path.
āWho do we have here?ā, a voice behind you jeers.
You quickly get up on your feet, courageous gaze set in the direction of the unknown male.
But he isnāt unknown. Youād be able to recognize his long black hair and mesmerizing orbs anywhere. Itās him. God, Suguru is here. Still as breathtaking as ten years ago, face matured in the most delicate way. And that striking smile that is plastered on his face.
āIs that really you, Suguru?ā
Ten years, ten whole years of your life youāve been searching for him. Ten years without letting any man touch you in the way he did, ten years of constantly thinking about him and the unconditional love you hold for him deep within your heart. And now heās finally here. Standing right in front of you, only about ten feet away.
His eyes examine you up and down. Can this really be true? He thought heād never see you again. After all, he told you to run away this one time, he spared your life once. Suguru never expected to set is eyes on you alive.
ā(y/n)ā
His voice grew stronger and sounds a little deeper than you remembered. Oh, how badly you want to bury your face in his arms, beg him to come with you and forget about this madness. Maybe youāll be able to laugh about what happened in a few years together.
āOver the past 10 years I searched you everywhere. Remember that promise that I made? I told you Iāll come back. And now weāre finally able to talk this out.ā
Your voice is shaking. It feels like a far away dream to see him standing there, safe and sound right in front of your very own eyes. The horror of the last few years isnāt noticeable on his lovely face. You canāt help but close the distance between your bodies, every step feels like a victory. Yes, you can do this. You will convert him back to his normal self, to the sweet and loving Suguru everyone knows and loves.
āWow, you actually managed to grow up even though you are nothing but a defenseless monkey. Congrats, (y/n).ā
The sound of his stone cold voice and venomous words makes the world around you turn black. He called you a monkey again. Just like he did back then. You shake your head, determination plastered on your surface. No, you wonāt give up so easily. This isnāt him.
āSuguru, this isnāt you. I know you better than that. You are the gentlest, most caring and loving soul I know, a man that would never hurt an innocent soul. You donāt have to do this. Please, let me help you out of this vicious circle, let me give you the attention you needed ten years ago. We can still fix this. I never stopped loving you.ā
āBut I did, (y/n). You are nothing but a stranger I share memories with for me. I forgot about you a long time agoā, he replies dryly, cold gaze staring right through your soul.
You swallow heavily when his words hit you like a bullet. Itās like you never knew him, disgust is plastered on his face. Noā¦no, it canāt be! Your heartbeat picks up, hands balling into fist while your whole body hardens in agony. You didnāt threw your life away for him to stab you in the back like this. You didnāt love him for noting all these years. This just canāt be true. He just doesnāt want to let you too close, a coping mechanism to defend his current way.
āKill me right now then, I dare you!ā
Your blood-curling scream hangs heavy in the thick air between both of you, waiting for any reaction, any words, any twitches. Only to be greeted by a small grin and his eyes filled with so much hatred that it leaves you completely motionless.
āYour wish is my command.ā
In the split of a second you are torn into the hard ground beneath, multiple bones in your body cracking at the invisible force that seems to burry you alive. Your lungs are out of air, all you can do is stare at the grey sky above, heart completely shattered by the love of your life all over again. Salty tears mix with your blood, plastering your sight in crimson.
āYouāre just fucking hilarious, donāt you think? Mark my words before you die, you mean absolutely nothing to me. (y/n), you are nothing but an insignificant shadow and embarrassment of my past, a freaking monkey that has no place in this world, not worth my time. And that is exactly how you will die today. I wonāt give you another chance to escape.ā
His words seem to slowly fade away. Every time you woke up you reached for him, but he was never there. You want to tell yourself that thereās still hope, that thereās a small chance to convince him to return back into your open arms.
But itās too late.
He will never be the Suguru that loved you so dearly ten years ago. He will never be the Suguru that held you in his arms all night, that told you over and over again how much he loves every inch of your body. He will never be the Suguru that came home to you after an exhausting mission with a bouquet of flowers in his hands and a tired smile on his face. He will never be the Suguru you wanted so badly to bring back. No, this version of Suguru is dead. The man whoās bending over you right now with a satisfying grin decorating his features is a stranger, the shell of the man you used to know and love.
With a single tear escaping your eye, you steal one last glance of him and your past, present and future glistering in his emotionless orbs.
You failed him. And he will never be the same man again.
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