#mod is facing a new reality and is uncertain how to feel

[nextwarden]

Webtoons are good for the soul [Long post] [but worth it] [hopefully]

Bit of a long one (for a change...), sorry.

I haven’t read that many that’s a lie but here are my favs!

Lore Olympus by Rachel Smythe [ongoing - every Sunday]

or when Hades met Persephone. It’s a love story, fluffy yet deep and sad at times. Very well told and with incredible art (as you can see from the cover ci-dessus), in a pastel/watercolour fluid style, as is the storytelling. It has compelling characters, character growth, love, funny moments, and basically the best you could ask from a romantic story. And it had enough material to get you through good number of hours of reading before you have to break down every sunday in wait of the following week like the rest of us.

mah-hart-mah-sole/10

Love Advice From the Great Duke of Hell by unfins [ongoing - every Friday]

Paul is in love with a cute girl who works in a café nearby. But Paul is shy and can’t work out how to go ask her out. So Paul does what anyone would do and summons one of the Great Dukes of Hell in order to get better at fumbling his sentences and blushing at beautiful maidens. It’s about discovery of one’s true self and how getting deep into shenanigans will lead you to find so much more. Also, sister. (You’ll understand when you get there.)

It’s funny but also compelling and serious but still incredibly funny. I don’t think I’ve laughed as much reading any other webtoon and yet the story is also really cool. It strikes a perfect balance, or near perfect. The expressions and the action scenes are just incredible too.

chenandeler bong/10

Suitor Armor by Purpah [ongoing - every Friday]

In a land with magic and war between humans and fairies, Lucia is the princess’s lady in waiting and her only goal in life at the moment is to get her Lady to have the wedding she wishes for and deserves. But then she gets a flower from a magic armor and everything changes. Also, she’s a fairy.

It’s well drawn, characters all seem unique, varied and personnality-driven. The art style is beautiful. It’s also deeper than what I expected, with inklings of different types and levels of drama.

Alright, I’ll say it, it feels like a ‘promising new Lore Olympus’. By which I mean not to compare but simply to say I felt as taken by the story as I did with L.O.

Modeus/10

Facing the Sun by ArtbyTesslyn [ongoing]

Aarya reaserches the intricacies of dobotics and artificial intelligence with her companion robot Liza who's expiration is long everdue. Things change with a hardware update. One can’t live without the other, and neither can the other.

It’s dark but beautiful, both in the art and in the story. The sci-fi elements aren’t overwhelming and pieces of lore bring begin to pain a picture over time. It’s a slow burn but oh lord! if it isn’t going to be blazing hot...

I Robot/10

Spellbound by Ronce [ongoing]

Eglantine joins a new highschool midyear and finds herself paired with a refractarian roommate. She does her best to fit in to her new school despite not conforming to all the expectations that others might have of her. Or of her strange but likeable roommate.

It’s a cute and queer little romance, very underrated in my opinion. The art is wonderful, it’s black and white in the beginning and starts having touches of colour here and there before going full blown coloured, and I didn’t even realize it had until many chapters into it... The characters all all diverse and interesting. Also did I forget to say it’s set in France and it’s a wizarding school? Because it is!

conseiller principal d’éducation/10

180 Angel by King Katbird [ongoing]

Chloe is an angel, she lives in Heaven and goes to school in the hopes of becoming a delivery angel one day! However her plan are compromised by her inability to do anything well except halo manipulation. Even flying is not easy for her. But a fateful meeting with a reaper sends her on a trip to Hell and back which changes her. Or is it that she had always been different?

It may not seem much from the banner but I tried it and I got hooke. The art is great and still improves over time, the plot takes a bit of time to set in - I’m still not sure it’s fully set in yet - but it’s worth it, and the characters are visually deep. It sometimes jumps weirdly between scenes or sequences but not so much it completely loses you.

LAMP/10

Letters on the Wall by JaelynGs [ongoing]

Tara comes back fom spain after a five years abroad to find things have changed and others haven’t, to her equal pleasure and dismay. This is how she and her friends deal with these old relatioships that they are now reviving.

Everything doesn’t go smoothly despite each and every character deserving them to. The art is good to begin with and manages to improve over time, as well as the storytelling. Where it might have been a bit hectic before, it smoothes over time. It was for the longest time the only reason I would stalk Webtoons everyday to see if there was any updates. Also each chapter has a colour in the name and that’s just cool!

If Da Yomanville Gang [see below] got me to come to Webtoons, this sealed the deal for me to stay. [And then there was Lore Olympus.]/10

Not So Shoujo Love Story by Curryuku [ongoing - every Tuesday]

Rei Chan-chan loves Hansum, the chin chin chinny goodest looking student, more than she loves her shoujo manga. But gorgeous Hannah is in her way and won’t seem to let her get her way with him. Why is that? Well, gaybe there’s a secret hidden behind her motives? Read it to find out...

It’s funny, it’s cute, and it’s so, so stupid. I love them all. It’s dumb but so much fun to read. There aren’t that many chapters yet but enough to get into it. Also, sisters. (You’ll understand when you get there. Bis) So this is what the spring of youth feels like, huh...

chips/10

Always Human by walkingnorth [completed]

Sunati, a young engineer in training, fan of all those mods you can add to change your appearance, meets Austen, a beautiful yet modless girl who she’s been admiring from afar for a while now. She thinks the girl’s beautiful, but sdly she’s refused when she asks her out on a date, and for rather good reasons.

Now watch as they gravitate around each other and how it influences them both.

It’s a slow-burn quite realistic lesbian sci-fi story about finding love and accepting oneself and others in the midst of life and all it brings upon us. It’s cute, it’s fluffy, and it’s heartwarming despite broaching serious subjects - in a good way -, and it’s finished so you can read the whole thing! (It has enough chapters to give you a few hours of reading)

hay fever sucks/10

Da Yomanville Gang by Jason King [ongoing - every Tuesday]

Layla moved recently, to get away from a dose of angst she didn’t want to have to deal with. She meets new people, fun and friendly people, but it seems the angst can’t quite seem to leave her alone. Alone is what she’s not to deal with it anymore, however.

This is the one, long before Lore Olympus, which brought bme over to Webtoons. It’s not the best drawn, not the most compelling, but the strong point and what made me love it - beyond Layla’s chara design - is the depth of most of the characters, how not all good is good and all bad is bad, and reality often lies in the middle - and how they evolve over the course of the story. Definitely worth a read.

wheelbarrow/10

Love Bot by Chase Keels and Miranda Mundt [ongoing - every Sunday]

In the near future - the year is (Blade Runner) 2049 - technology has advanced enough to creat pseudo-artificial intelligence and thus lovebots. Xada mods and repairs those emotionnaly intelligent robots for a living. What brings this story about is him toying with a less-than-friendly client’s bot so much so that he finds himself in quite a pickle when the bot ‘wakes up’.

It seems to be BL. Let it be BL, please! The art is very nice, the story feels dark but the pitch give way to many interesting possibilities, and, well, the characters are quite nice to look at, I’ll admit... Also, angst. I don’t always enjoy it but when I do, I do.

Not many chapters but it’s getting there.

i’ll let you bot my love/10

Mage & Demon Queen by Color_LES [ongoing - every Thusday]

Malori is the best and the most promising mage student at her school. Aided by Cerik, her best friend and swordsman party member, she attempts to conquer the last floor of the demon tower, reigned over by the ferocious Velverosa, the demon queen, whose defeat will bring glory and richess to those who defeat her. But all is not quite as it seems and, what is that, might it be a crush I see over there? Oh, wait, no, that’s just our protagonist getting squished by the weight of her love...

Once again, it’s fun and stupid (a pattern? noooo) but it’s worth a read.

LES/10

Down to Earth by Pookie Senpai [ongoing - every Tuesday]

Kade live alone and depressed in spite of fleeting relatioships since his big breakup, content with simply going by life while he works in retail. One day, an alien crashes into his backyard. Zaida’s an alien but she’s cute, seems innocent, is unfamiliar with everything, so he agrees to help. Thus begins a slice of life story of them roommating in his appartment until, maybe, one of them crashes into the other’s heart?

It’s cute, heartwarming, and I sort f relate with the main character. Although I don’t know if’d prefer a cute alien, a dragon or a stalking neighbour... [that’s an inside joke, I’ll explain if I ever make a list of the good yamete onii-chan! I’ve been reading] It’s a slow burn with enough depth to hook you up. Some characters are still uncertain in my eyes but that makes me curious.

loner/10

The Remarried Empress by Alphatart / Sumpul [ongoing - every Wednesday and Sunday]

Navier Ellie Trovi is an empress. Perfect and perfectly content in every way with her life until the day a mistress enters her husband’s life. Things sort of go downhill from there. Or do they? For she also learns about herself and what she might actually want out of life to be happy. Breaking the status quo might be the way.

It feels like one of those poor quality isekai comics or manga in which the MC is brought back to a time where she has the power to change her life and decides for emancipation and revenge, but it’s not. It’s more ‘yolo’ and had interesting characters, especially the MC - no pushover - and a slow-burn plot. Don’t expect to see the flash-forward in the first chapter quite yet, but come to experience the whole affaire in detail and in the most satisfying of ways! Also the art is cool!

divorce/10

Muted by Miranda Mundt [ongoing - every Friday]

On her 21st birthday, Camille fails the ritual to become a full-fledged witch and is isolated from what remains of her old and successful family. This leads to her discovering truths about herself and her powers that will change her and those around her.

By the same author as Love Bot. I haven’t read the whole thing yet but the designs are good, the plot is interesting, the characters have depth and personnality, it has witches, magic, romance [I guess, still unsure of the details though], a bit of angst, and it’s set in Louisianna. All good points.

plant magic/10

Cursed Princess Club by LambCat [ongoing - every Monday]

Gwendolyn and her sisters, each a princess in their own right, are set to be betrothed to three princes of a neighbouring country after living all their lives happy and sheltered with their father and brother. Unfortunately, Gwendolyn is not like her sisters - and brother, for that matter - in that her beauty is... less than conventionnal. Devastated by what outsiders think of her she escapes into the forest and meets kindred spirits in the form of the Cursed Princess Club - non-gendered, they also have that one prince there! - and it might just help her grow into the confident woman she is destined to become.

I clicked for the funny hahas ‘because she’s ugly’ and cursed princess trope, I stayed for the genuine laughs and smiles and the heartwarming good nature of most of te characters. Also, haha, funny characters are funny. So, yeah, I started this with a bias - still haven’t caught up yet - and have been seduced by this lesser known webtoon. Don’t let the visuals fool you, it’s really good!

respect wahmen/10

Andy Bass by KenneDuck / Gia [ongoing - every Friday]

Andy Bass is our average highschool girl. Litterally. She’s half human, half fish, a real mermaid but vertically. That leads to less-than-friendly looks and reactions from others. However, the arrival of a new, and frankly very cute, transfer student might change all that.

Haven’t read it all yet, not that there are many chapters out, but it feel fun and promising. Also, physically imperfect characters are best characters. Down with the reign of beauty and up with 𝔠𝔬𝔪𝔪𝔲𝔫𝔦𝔰𝔪!

Chin Hansum 2.0/10

For the Sake of Sita by Haga [completed]

A medical student passionately falls in love with a fallen goddess during his volunteer abroad in Nepal, and he desperately tries to fight off destiny to save his love. [the actual summary]

Okay, I’ll be honest: I haven’t quite read that one yet. I’m guilty of only having looked at the beginning and the end to see if it seemed worth it and, oh my gorsh! it does. The art is beautiful, the story seems sad yet beautiful too (I had tears reading the last chapters without knowing much of the rest) and it’s short, so jump on it!

[I’ll probably come back to that later when I’ve actually read it completely]/10

Us Right Now by yurineseventeen [ongoing]

Rina's long-term girlfriend, Noa, decides to run away from home. Rina has limited time to find her.

Not much more to say other than it’s sweet and it feels real. I like the beginning, haven’t read the rest yet, but will definitely soon.

keep going/10

New Normal: Class 8 by Youngpaka [ongoing - every Sunday]

Dongwoon has a big head. It does not make life easy. But what if he wasn’t alone being so... different? He discovers it is the case when he joins his new school a special class full of people who are different. Things get weird fast but also better and fun.

I haven’t read this in a long time, it’s on my list though. But until the moment I stopped at least, it was fun, funny, and interesting. It’s slice-of-life comedy, often ligthearted and stupid, sometimes more serious, but globally a pleasure to read.

sensei/10

The Witch and The Bull by Moonsia [ongoing - every Thursday]

Tan's job as the King's royal advisor has nothing to do with his hatred for witches, but it does make him a prime target for a curse that turns him into a BULL! The only way to undo this hex is to rely on the beautiful witch, Aro. Can her kindness turn his feelings around, and break this spell? [the actual summary]

There are two bulls and they have to ask it questions to know which is the real bull? I dunno, I haven’t read this one... But it’s been recommnded by @berigolote​ so it’s worth a try I guess? She did recommend Lore Olympus to me, so it’s on my list anyway.

to try/10

The Right Knight and Our Days in Lumain by buttersphere [completed & ongoing]

A fun short comic about a play on the ‘knight comes to fight dragon to save princess in her tower’ trope and it’s sequel. The sequel is not finished yet (seems on hiatus) but they are worth the read for cute, funny, fluffy knight and dragon/witch romance and grumpy princesses.

need more/10

NetOL by Forever9Nine [completed]

A slice of life comic about a veeery shy cat-girl (not literally) falling in love with a warm-tempered bookshop employee ( and NOT her colleague), and all the shenanigans that ensue. It’s short, it’s fun, and it’s cute. What more to ask?

oh wow sports/10

Susuhara is a Demon by Soya S. Holm [ongoing]

The usual romance storyof perfectly perfect girl meets absolutely bazongers delinquent and reluctantly carries her unconscious ass to her appartment to help her after witnessing a gang fight between multiple idiots and her (future) idiot and saving her from a knife attack by bashing the last standing dude with a wooden shop sign. Legend says there’s a demon in K-city, I still am unsure of whom it might be.

fun/10

It Stems From Love by Soya S. Holm [competed]

A short story about a girl who loves flowers and finds herself unexpectedly coughing them up dramatically whenever she’s jealous of those around her crush. It’s short, it’s cute, a bit dark at times, but definitely worth a read!

bouquet final/10

Lesbiampires by fabarts [ongoing]

So, yeah, lesbian vampires. Nuffin’ ta add.

Well, anyway, it’s cute, it’s funny, it’s serious too, it makes me root for antihero type characters who actually murder people for fun (but in a fun and respectful way, I swear!) because, well, love./10

Perfect Harmony by bluebloodtanuki [ongoing]

An Overwatch fan-comic about Symmetra and her disaster roommates.

I don’t play Overatch but I like the lore and got dragged into fanfiction and shipping (by myself, mind you), so a fan-comic about similar dynamics AND it’s funny? Gimme.

Roadhog & Junkrat best duo/10

Love Doesn’t Talk by Ann [completed?]

A misunderstanding is fine. Two? Hmmm. Three? Surely that’s fate, no?

A cute love story unfolding before your eyes with no dialogue, only pretty pictures. I’m not actually sure it’s completed but even if it isn’t, the ending doesn’t feel disappointing in the least.

no words/10

AntiSTALKER by VOKIVORMOK [ongoing - every Thursday]

Humans, vampires and werewolves all cohabitate in this freaky highschool, despite tensions between the three races. A bittersweet yet fun love story between a fake stalker and his amnesiac prey...

Eugene wants Kira’s heart, she wants his head.

who?/10

Kiss It Goodbye by Ticcytx [ongoing]

Two lesbians in love recount to their drunk friends the story of how they met. It’s fun and cute, both in story and in art.

delinquent x prim&proper/10

Avril and the Divine Being by Charlie Genmor [ongoing]

Avril is a waitress, Cat is a reccuring client. Feeling blossom before they even exchange words and when they finally do, embarassment ensues.

I got hooked by the art style for this one and I have yet to be disappointed. Not many chapters but keep it close.

sunny/10

Sunflower by EtoileKonijn [ongoing]

Wednesday, an art student, meets Sophie, a friend of a friend. Feelings ensue. It’s beginning to have a good number of chapters (even if they are short) and it feels like it’s actually the slowest burn of them all. Very much worth a read though, for the art style especially.

cute/10

It Takes Two by love_of_pi [ongoing]

Common art style: imperfect but improving. Classic story: normal girl meets famous girl by accident and leave a great first impression. Shenanigans and romance ensue. However the tints of drama, the fun interaction between characters, and the smooth plot make it worth it.

Honolulu latte/10

A Mild Flavor by Ru-rin [ongoing]

A slice of life of different couples. One with a compromised relationship and bittersweet reflections of the past, and the other which is hidden from plain sight, at different times if life. It is not perfect but it managed to worm its way into my heart nonetheless.

tasty/10

The Greenhouse by Viesallon [ongoing]

Another one I haven’t read, but from the extracts I’ve seen the art is compelling, the story seems worth it - definitely deserves the drama tag it seems - and I keep it on my shortlist until I have time to read it.

supernatural/10

My Masochistic Boss by Arisas_Art [ongoing]

Debuting goth writer meets hellish boss of editing company about her new book. Disagreement and tensions ensue. It starts with a slap and might very well end in bed, stay tuned!

This one rebooted recently and the art is soooo beautiful, moreso than before is I may say.

sexy/10

Still Alive by Comic Kat19 [ongoing]

Half-zombie girl meets emo boy, baby ensues.

After the zombie apocalypse, they have to survive, and despite their differences, maybe together is better?

This I classify in the ‘Yuuutsu-kun to Succubus-san‘ category: a somewhat rough art style that I have come to love and enjoy greatly. Also the story is fun.

cat creature/10

The Biggest of Treasures by Aixn [ongoing]

That smile, that damn smile. It’s what got me to try and it got me to stay. The art style is beautiful and the chara designs is too. The plot? Not much to say yet, but cuteness is enough.

bright/10

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And there you go for now. These are my picks. I haven’t read everything on Webtoon, I haven’t even read everything I’ve subscribed to, but if I had to recommend anything I have tasted, here it is.

Sorry if I missed any you deem worthy; feel free to harass me and mock my lack of culture by flaunting your own.

Maybe more later, in the mean time: keep scrolling, scrub!

PART II

[funkymbtifiction]

My Daydreams Are Getting Out Of Hand

Hi! Thanks for being here and answering questions during this time! I’m an INFP 4w3, and quarantine has me losing myself further and further in my daydreams. I can’t get anything done anymore because I constantly seek to escape. Reality feels so far gone, and I don’t really have anything to look forward to. I wanted to be productive! I wanted to do yoga, read book, write, work on my photography, but I find myself unable to follow through on any of my goals. 

When my life is going well, and I’m feeling happy with who I am and where I’m at, my daydreams often involve aspects of reality only slightly heightened. My life is enough for me, and I want to present for it.

But right now that I feel like I’m getting older, and I’m not fulfilling any of the expectations of who I thought I’d be in my twenties, and to top it off, there’s this pandemic…my daydreams are crazy fantasies that will probably never come true. [...] Again, it’s not like I didn’t daydream before, but I feel like it’s becoming unhealthy because these things aren’t really in the scope of reality, not even close. Nothing feels enough and I wish I were “the best,” and yet, I’m unable to DO anything about it, or even use it as motivation to improve upon myself and who I am as a person. After my daydream highs, I sometimes feel a sharp hit of reality, and I almost want to just hide away forever and give up on everything because I’m never going to have a life that’s THAT good, and I’ll never reach the heights of my potential. 

How do I stop my toxic idealizing of others and the need to be “seen” in order to matter? Because that’s kind of what my daydreams revolve around. And just, how can I be more productive even with the thought that my work may never have an audience (tree falls in the forest…does it make a sound…)? 

This is a lot to deal with right now all at once. I’m sorry you’re going through this, but it’s understandable because right now, everyone’s life is on hold -- not just yours. Many people’s careers are on pause. Many people’s dreams have been postponed until life resumes normality and nobody knows when that will be or even what it might look like when it does. Uncertainty is part of life -- but as human beings, we are not used to thinking about how uncertain things are. We attempt to control our little corner of the world through “making plans.” And modern people are very reliant on plans; there’s an old saying, “God willing or the creek doesn’t rise” which implies -- this is what I’ll do if I’m allowed. It’s hard to develop that mindset, but you need to do it. Recognize that you can make plans and carry them out -- if circumstances allow. If they do not, you need to adapt and figure out work-arounds.

NFPs have unrealistic expectations of life. It’s a sad fact of being an idealist. And they/we tend to escape into fantasies rather than deal with life, when it gets hard. Mostly, however, what they lack is an understanding of how long things take, how it takes doing ‘mundane’ things to get there, and of how things can be ‘slow.’ I saw a meme yesterday that said “I want everything to change right now!” Followed by someone telling them “here are the boring daily things you can do to make that happen!” And the person dramatically saying, “No, that’s boring.” NFPs want instant transformation. To suddenly be where they saw themselves in the future or to overcome their negative trait instantly. But life does not work like that. To get what you want, you have to do the daily grind. Show up. Work on things a little at a time.

You mentioned wanting to dazzle people with your talents. Are you working on all those things every day? Right now, you have a luxury of being home with no external distractions. Instead of wasting your time in unrealistic daydreams, why not catch yourself doing it, tell yourself that’s not helping you reach your goals, and set new goals? New things you can work toward? Then do it. If you daydream of knowing other languages, start learning them. Work on them a little at a time every day. What else can you do, to prepare for your goals to kick into place once the quarantine lifts? Start using your Te. Read books that will strengthen it, help you learn to organize your time better. Write down what you want from life, and read up on how people got it (Si knowledge building). Decide what that would look like in your life.

Instead of daydreaming, why not write? Turn your daydream into a character-driven narrative in a series of self-motivating short stories. You’re depressed right now and seeking fantasy as an escape, but... your life is just on pause. It’s not over. You are 20-something. That’s still super young. Will you feel okay with not being famous until you are 35? Or 40? Do you love what you want to do, to do it even if it earns you no praise or attention?

I understand the need for attention, affirmation, and encouragement. I face that war every day in my various projects, whenever I realize no one cares that much. Then I have to ask myself, “Am I doing this for me, or for praise that may never come? Am I writing this book series because I love these characters and my creativity and am proud of what an excellent writer hard work has helped me become? Or am I just doing it for attention? Am I doing Funky because I want the likes and reblogs I am not getting? [They have become almost non-existant in the last year. Which is disheartening. I spend lots of time writing up profiles!] Or am I doing it because I enjoy analyzing characters and want people to find a character ‘like them’?” You have to learn to start talking yourself through things, and finding reasons to keep doing them that stem from... YOU. What YOU love to do. What YOU want. What YOU feel proud of.

If you do something from the heart, you will find those who appreciate you. If you do things only for praise, it won’t be authentic and it won’t draw people. But as a 4, you may always want more than you get. That’s also something to feel aware of and pay attention to -- to ask yourself often, “Am I being unsatisfied with what is right in front of me? With the people right here who love me and think what I do is wonderful? Am I ignoring them and chasing after shadows?” You can ignore 5 fans who would follow you to the end of the earth, who love what you do that much, in search of 3,000.

NFPs want to change the world through their ideas, so they/we crave a huge audience and to make an impact. And it is hard to keep doing things if no one seems to care. But... why are you doing it? Ask yourself that. Praise or changing the world?

Regarding things to look forward to -- are you connecting to people? Recruiting them to do fun things online with you? INFPs are poor at asking others to give them their time, but the truth is -- your friends are also lonely, bored, frustrated, and have nothing to look forward to. Set up online movie nights. Set up chats. Plan things together. Factor in when the quarantine will likely end, and start making plans for after that. Some things, you can already plan -- various movies are tentatively being scheduled for the rest of the year. Are there any of those you want to see / look forward to? Are there places you want to see? An event does not have to be ‘huge’ to be something to look forward to. Make little events in your life. I had to do my annual Titanic viewing alone, rather than with my usual guests, but I still made myself a special high tea and dressed up. I’ve been writing down shows I’m looking forward to watching and their release date on my event calendar, so I can anticipate them. Some of the local gift shops will be opening soon. I look forward to visiting them. Learn to love the little things.

It’s going to be all right. Life will resume itself. People will go back to work. Your dreams will get on track. This is just a pause. A time to breathe and dream. And you know what? It’s all right not to work all the time. It’s all right to rest. Use this time to get to know yourself. To observe yourself. And to make plans. ;)

- ENFP Mod

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OK, March 8

You can buy a copy of this issue for your very own at my eBay store: https://www.ebay.com/str/bradentonbooks

Cover: Bruce Springsteen

Page 1: Big Pic -- as part of Coach's latest campaign Jennifer Lopez posed with a supersized pink version of their new Pillow Tabby purse

Page 2: Contents

Page 3: Contents

Page 4: Chris Harrison gone for good? The Bachelor host's future with the show remains uncertain after his controversial interview with Rachel Lindsay

Page 6: Since the start of his career Justin Timberlake has endured his fair share of scandals but after welcoming his second son with wife Jessica Biel over the summer and celebrating his 40th birthday, he is confessing that he feels immense guilt about the past and he won't be making the same mistakes in the future -- Justin's done some soul-searching and accepts that he's wronged a lot of people over the years with his own terrible mistakes and he says he's still a work in progress, but step one has been to stand up and admit he's hurt too many women -- in addition to a boozy night out with his Palmer costar Alisha Wainwright in 2019 and his part in the now-infamous Nipplegate incident with Janet Jackson at the 2004 Super Bowl, Justin recently came under fire again due to the documentary Framing Britney Spears which showed him exploiting his breakup from Britney Spears to help his solo career -- Justin's learned from his mistakes and has a lot more sensitivity about the impact of his actions on other people and that's the big difference between the Justin of today and his old, immature self and that self-awareness was evident in an emotional statement that he posted apologizing to both Britney and Janet for the errors in his ways -- his words drew praise from his wife Jessica who says he's come a long way as a husband, a father and more importantly, a human being

Page 7: Wendy Williams is on the prowl for a new man and he's got to be husband material and she is ready for a serious commitment -- Wendy's been staying up until all hours of the night checking out guys online and on exclusive dating apps and she wants someone age-appropriate, fun, kind, independent and of course has no history of cheating -- she's feeling very optimistic and even buying new perfume and clothes and jewelry for all the dates she hopes to have once lockdown lifts

* Texas native Matthew McConaughey is seriously considering throwing his hat in the ring to become the state's next governor -- he's been putting out feelers to see if he's got sufficient support and if enough donors are willing to write checks, he'd mount an aggressive run in 2022 -- he's already gotten the thumbs-up from his wife Camila Alves and their three kids -- at this point, he needs to see an actual path to winning because he's not interested in just making a protest statement; don't be fooled by his aw-shucks attitude, Matthew means business

* Now that Keeping Up With the Kardashians is coming to an end, the hunt is on for a new family to replace the clan and one reality pro is poised to nab the prize: Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star Lisa Rinna -- there's already been talk about Lisa picking up the torch and her family is camera ready, consisting of husband Harry Hamlin, and their daughters Delilah Hamlin who's dating Love Island's Eyal Booker and Amelia Hamlin who's dating Scott Disick

Page 8: Things keep going from bad to worse for Armie Hammer -- he was forced to drop out of his upcoming movie Shotgun Wedding with Jennifer Lopez after direct messages he allegedly sent to women in which he described himself as a cannibal and detailed disturbing sexual fantasies were leaked online -- Armie was also fired by his talent agency WME and now the disgraced star may get cut from his new film Next Goal Wins which has already been shot -- he's radioactive and everybody knows it and his completed but unreleased work is getting a second look as studios want to do damage control, and that includes another of his finished projects Death on the Nile where his part could end up on the cutting room floor -- he's a pariah now and it's hard to see how he's ever going to come back from this

* Jennifer Aniston has always had a spiritual side but these days she is taking things to a whole new plane -- Jen has surrounded herself with psychics and has been doing Goddess Circles with the same group of close friends for 30 years, but now she's taking courses to learn to heal herself and be her own guru -- BFF Courteney Cox has been a big influence and Jen's learned a lot from Courteney, who's had a long-term interest in mediums, astrologists and horoscopes, and she's trying to fuse it all together into her own brand of spirituality -- Jen's had a lot of time alone, which has only deepened her questions about the universe and how she can make the most of her life and she's determined to find the answers

* Princess Eugenie is over the moon after welcoming her first child, a baby boy with businessman husband Jack Brooksbank but now the new mom is torn about taking time out from her royal responsibilities -- Eugenie would love to take a long break from everything and focus solely on raising her son however she knows deep down how much she's needed, especially since Prince Harry and Meghan Markle are showing no signs of coming back -- as she weighs her options, Eugenie is looking to her multi-tasking cousin-in-law Duchess Kate for some inspiration because she's impressed by how Kate is able to juggle her official duties while raising three young kids

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Page 11: Kaitlyn Dever, Lucy Boynton, Margaret Qualley

Page 12: Who Wore It Better? Hilary Swank vs. Madeline Brewer, Bella Hadid vs. Devon Windsor, Alison Brie vs. Dua Lipa

Page 14: News in Photos -- Tayshia Adams and her fiance Zac Clark felt on top of the world when the visited the Empire State Building together

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Page 17: Hailey Bieber starring in Beyonce's new Ivy Park x Adidas collection

Page 18: Brody Jenner had a blast snow tubing while shooting the second season of The Hills: New Beginnings in Lake Tahoe, Avril Lavigne stepped out with her new boyfriend Mod Sun for a romantic dinner in West Hollywood

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Page 24: For Galentine's Day Vanessa Lachey snacked on macarons and sipped on wine in L.A.

Page 25: Bella Hadid alongside models Mayowa Nicholas and Heejung Park in Michael Kors' new campaign for the Spring 2021 collection, Hugh Grant stepped out for some fresh hair in London, Sofia Vergara kept it casual during a visit to a pal's house in Beverly Hills

Page 26: Inside My Home -- Katherine Heigl and Josh Kelley's Rocky Mountain retreat

Page 28: Marriage isn't easy especially during a global health crisis but for Kristen Bell and Dax Shepard divorce is not an option -- Kristen said she and Dax at the start of the pandemic were at a point in their marriage where they definitely needed a little therapy brush-up and every couple of years they're being very antagonistic towards each other and they don't want that so they go back to therapy and figure out how they can serve their team goal better and it's been incredibly helpful and even in the toughest times they always have each other's back and they're committed to being each other's biggest support systems -- while their relationship may never be perfect, they're happy and love each other and that's what matters most

Page 29: Now that Tom Brady has won his seventh Super Bowl with the Tampa Bay Buccaneers, he has set his sights on the next prize: baby No. 3 with wife Gisele Bundchen -- they've been telling friends they hope to make an announcement by summer at the latest and Tom and Gisele have been super loved-up since leaving Boston and moving to Florida after the QB signed on with the Bucs and the change of scenery has worked wonders on their love life and put them in baby-making mode -- the duo, who recently bought a $17 million spread on Miami's exclusive Indian Creek Island, plan to build a luxury mansion there complete with a nursery and they hope to be all settled in when the new arrival comes -- they've never felt healthier or been happier

* Aaron Rodgers looked positively giddy when he revealed he had a fiancee, Shailene Woodley at the NFL Honors, but the QB is dreading the next step: bringing her home to meet his parents because it's no secret that Aaron's been estranged from them for years and the last thing he wants is for Shailene to get caught up in the drama -- Shailene wants Aaron to clear the air with his folks, but he's not ready to do that and he doesn't want to bring Shailene into a toxic environment

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[mydearestreaderfanfics]

There’s Love in the Air (Lotor x Reader)

Warnings: enemies to lovers, arguement

Word Count: 1,687

Prompt/Request: Third day of the October Special: Harry Potter.

Summary: Reader and Lotor are both Slytherins meaning they always have potions class together. But when Lotor shows up late to class when they are studying Amortentia, what, or rather who, will he smell?

Author: Mod Alex

Potions class was shared with the Gryffindors. Not that you cared that much, you only wish you didn't share it with one of your fellow Slytherin classmates. Namely, the Snake Prince Lotor. He was every bad Slytherin quality personified. He was machiavellian and more self-absorbed than anybody you'd ever met.

“He's the reason everybody thinks Slytherins are evil.” “So you've said.” “I'm serious, Pidge! It's not fair that there's plenty of us that are actually decent people, but then people like him waltz into the house, act like total jerks, and boom- suddenly we’re the house full of evil people!” You threw your hands up, a sound of frustration leaving your lips. Pidge shrugged nonchalantly. “Why do you care what people think anyway?” “That's not the point, the point is that Lotor is a-” “I’m a what? Thinking about my magnificence as always, (Y/N)?” “Like hell I am!” “Dear, there's no need to be so cold.” You narrowed your eyes, shoving your finger into his chest. “You know what your problem is, you think you're so much better than everyone else, that your mere existence grants you the ability to tower over the rest of us. But in reality, you are just a pretentious jerk who no one can stand.” Lotor’s lips curled into a cruel smirk as he grabbed your hand. “If you really think that, then tell me this: why is it that whenever you see me you've got that cute little blush along your face.” Your features reddened more so but it wasn't because you had a thing for him, it was because you were just that cross. “Look here, you insufferable, self-righteous bastard. I do not, and absolutely will never feel anything short of absolute loathing for you.” “Ah, but haven't you heard love and hate are two sides of the same coin.” You yanked your hand back. “Oh, piss off!” You stormed off, Pidge by your side.

Much to your relief, Potions was the only class you shared with Lotor. Either that or he doesn't bother to show up, you didn't care either way. However, despite Lotor’s presence, Potions remained your favorite class. It was also your best class, you absolutely never missed it, even that one time when you had come from your Transfiguration class with a pinky finger that had been accidentally turned into an earthworm. You were thrilled when your professor told the class that you would be learning the incredibly dangerous Amortentia in the next class. You'd always been a bit more interested in the more dangerous potions than you should've been. Who can blame you, though? The next day and a half felt like an eternity waiting for your next Potions class. You were so excited that you weren't even annoyed for your usual run-in with Lotor. So excited, in fact, that you didn't realize the run-in never came. That Lotor was in fact not even in Potions class today. Well, rather, he had yet to show up.

The class was already halfway through when Lotor burst into the room, looking less put together than you'd ever seen him. Again, it’s not like you cared. He wasn’t even five steps into the classroom when he crinkled up his nose, looking utterly disgusted. Whatever, it wasn’t your problem. You sprinkled in the powdered moonstone, smiling at the iconic pearlescent sheen the potion took on. Lotor, on the other hand, had finally taken his seat after getting chewed out by the professor, costing your house several points. He sniffed at the air, scoffing and shooting you a glare. You glared back. What was his problem? You were minding your own business, he should mind his. You turned back to your potion, trying to ignore the blue eyes burning a hole into the side of your head. It got significantly easier to ignore him when your Amortentia began to emit a soft pink smoke. Curiosity got the better of you and you sniffed. J. Pippin’s Potions, the earth after the first rain of the year, and… a warm, amber tobacco cologne? It was a very distinct smell that seemed familiar, but you just couldn’t quite place it. Regardless, the combination of the scents made you feel warm and at peace. You looked around, Pidge seemed wrapped up in deciphering the scents put out by her potion, and Lotor. Well, he was still glaring at you. You’d had it. “What is your problem?” “My problem? You’re the one that must’ve doused yourself in that ridiculous, cheap fragrance.” “What are you going on about?” “You, you’re reeking up the place. You must’ve poured at least half a bottle of-” “I don’t even use any ‘fragrance’.” You held up air quotes as a jab at his haughty vocabulary. “Then why does the room smell like you?!” Pidge began to cackle. “Hey, Mr. High-and-mighty. You know what potion we’re brewing today?” Before he had a chance to speak up, Pidge kept speaking. “Amortentia. And you know what Amortentia smells like?” “(Y/N)’s bargain cologne apparently.” His response only made Pidge cackle louder. “No, you dunce, Amortentia smells like whatever a person holds most dear. You like (Y/N) more than you let on. Is that why you’re always picking fights with them, isn’t it?” You were stunned into silence, there was no way he liked you, especially not like that. “Absolutely not, I- I don’t owe you an explanation.” He turned away, and- oh my Merlin, was that a blush, was Lotor, Snake Prince, blushing? The rest of class he refused to meet your eye, much less even look in your direction. You wondered if he really liked you; he had to if you were what he smelled from the Amortentia. You felt so confused, he was supposed to be your enemy. And then there was that weird smell that was coming from your own love potion. It was only getting stronger.

You left potions feeling confused and overwhelmed. You felt like everything you knew was wrong and the world you thought you knew was suddenly flipped upside down. You weren’t looking where you were going, so it was no surprise when you tripped, landing into a firm, pleasant smelling wall. Wait, no, that's no wall. “(L/N).” “Lotor! Erm, sorry. I was just going.” Wait a minute, there was that smell again. Amber. Tobacco. Warmth. Cologne. No, no, no, no. There was no way. It had to be a coincidence or some sort of sick joke. “(L/N). (L/N). (Y/N)!” “Wh-what?” He glared down at you. What the hell? He held his hand up to his forehead in a sanctimonious, dramatic pose. “Were you not listening to a word I said?” “Um, no?” “Alright, come on.” He took you by your wrist leading you away. “Where are you taking me? Lotor, let go!” “No, not until you hear me out.” Once you were a safe distance away he finally let go of you. “Listen, what happened in potions. Let’s just pretend none of that ever happened.” He waved his hand around dismissively. The scent came back full force being this close to him and it made you slightly dizzy. “No.” He frowned. “What?” “I said no.” “Just because that ridiculous potion says you are what I hold dear means nothing.” “I beg to differ. I think it’s actually quite telling.” You smirk up at him and he glares before averting his eyes, a light blush over his ridiculously sculpted cheekbones. “Lotor, tell me one thing.” He was fully prepared for you to ask him something that would make fun of him or something that had to do with why he found you so dear to him. “Why are you so cruel to others?” He hadn’t been expecting that. “I knew the feelings weren’t reciprocated, you needn’t rub salt in the wound.” “I’m being serious! You are a great student, so why? Why must you be so cruel?” “It’s in my nature suppose.” You took a step back, realizing how close you had moved towards him. “I see. I guess I was wrong.” “Wrong?” “Didn’t you wonder what I smelled in the Amortentia?” “I didn’t think about it, truthfully.” “J. Pippin’s Potions and the rain.” He looked annoyed and uncertain about what the scents were supposed to mean. “And one more thing.” “Oh?” “Your pompous cologne.” Lotor remained silent, you could practically see the gears turning in his mind. “My cologne?” “So it would seem.” “I- You hold me dear?” “So it would seem.” “Is that all you’re going to say?” “So it would- nevermind.” He nodded, still trying to get a grasp on the new information. “Can I try something?” “Depends…” “Can I kiss you?” You blushed. This was not how you saw this day playing out. Hesitantly you nodded. He cupped your jaw, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear. Your breath caught in your throat. He smiled warmly, it was the first time you’d ever seen him look so friendly. He was kind of stunning when he looked this soft and open. Your eyes fluttered shut as he leaned toward you, his warm breath ghosting over your lips. ANd then he was kissing you. His lips were soft and warm and tasted faintly of butterbeer much to your surprise. You could feel butterflies in your belly and sparks in your heart. He pulled away far too soon. When you opened your eyes Lotor was smiling that beautiful smile again. “Wow.” You giggled at his awestruck expression. “Do you want to accompany me to Hogsmeade?” You frowned causing him to do the same. “I do like you Lotor, but I don’t know... You’ve been a huge jerk to a lot of people, including my friends and I and-” “Then I can stop. Or at least I will try to.” You sighed, considering what he was saying for a moment. You tip-toed to press a peck to the edge of his mouth. “I’ll give it a try. But you have to prove that you’ll be kind.” “We have an agreement.” You smiled. Amortentia truly is a love potion.

[nonopiimagines]

Fandom: Fallout: New Vegas: New California Pairing: Ben Kurtz x f!Star Player/f!Courier Warnings: n/a Word Count: 2360 Author Notes: This mod makes replaying New Vegas almost a completely new experience.

part v.

Fort Daggerpoint. You would have easily dismissed the rumors about it being haunted, full of demons, or the epitome of all evil if your worldview hadn’t been so suddenly shattered just a few weeks prior. Talking about what existed outside of the vault felt like a dream, some fantasy made up by you and the other kids. You all knew you were born out there, but as you grew up, that might’ve all been a dream as well. Something unreal, unreachable. You were sure you were going to live and die in that metal tomb. It was almost unbelievable that you fell asleep in that dream and woke up in a burning hell hole, the bodies of your siblings scattered around you. And you had to crawl out of it into another hellish landscape that you never expected to have to fully realize and operate within.

So even though it would’ve have been easier to dismiss everyone’s claims about Fort Daggerpoint--including Ben’s-- you didn’t. It only took one earth shattering moment to teach you that everything was real at some point and though the words may have been twisted over time, their meanings still lay within.

---

It hurt like hell. You were afraid it was going to end just as it started: with your busted leg. It was just barely returning to normal and now you were paying the price without a full recovery. But you couldn’t let it end here. Your ears were ringing, your sweaty hair stuck to your face, tears pricked at your eyes, but your head felt clear in its objective: get the fuck out. Run. You have to tell someone.

Everyone was back in the Fort. You had to make it there. There were at least twenty super mutants standing between you and them. You didn’t even have your armor. You grabbed whatever weapon you could find and you just ran, ignoring the furious cries of your captors calling behind you.

It was the dam that made you the most nervous. You had to weave your way between the super mutants and dodge whatever weapons they were swinging or firing and you had to do it all with your hurt leg. You kept telling yourself that they needed you. If you didn't come back, they would fade into the dunes of The Pass and you could not allow that to happen, they deserved better. You deserved better.

So you were quiet. You gritted your teeth, held your breath, and hobbled along. It was easier than you had imagined, using the vehicles as cover, crawling underneath them when you felt too vulnerable.

You were clawing through the door of the fort, urging your legs to carry you farther and farther, just a little bit longer, up the vehicle ramp. You didn't realize how good it could feel to see the familiar faces of your friends and the relief of knowing that you had done so well. Coming back for them. They had been waiting for you.

It was easy to collapse into Jamie's arms, unable to speak as the stress finally caught up to you in the form of uncontrolled tears streaming down your face. They all looked at you, in your vault-issued underwear, your pistol still gripped tightly in your hand. You saw faces of confusion and concern but Jameson's face betrayed the horror he felt inside. He had sent you to your death but you survived. Maybe he thought he was seeing a ghost or the living dead, his guess wouldn't be that far off.

Ben followed your gaze and saw the same look you did before Jameson quickly regained his composure. It looked almost as though Ben was going to demand answers then and there, but after a moment of hesitation, he knelt beside you. In a moment of tenderness you didn't expect, especially in front of others, he pushed your sweat-soaked hair off your forehead and bore into you with his steely eyes. “y/n, what happened?”

You could not explain the rush of feelings overcame you when you heard his voice. It brought feelings of safety but also encouragement. This was not over. You still had to evacuate the Fort. You had to lead them to safety. So you took a deep breath and wiped away your tears with the back of your hand. “I was captured by super mutants but I managed to escape. We've got to get out of here though, they're looking for me and there's only one way I could've gone.” You spared a moment to glance at the ramp you were stumbling up just minutes before. “I need a stimpak--”

“Way ahead of ya.” Eric was bent over his backpack, rooting around for a moment before finding what he was looking for and tossing it to Ben. A super stimpak.

Before you could oppose, Ben ripped open the packaging and stabbed it into your naked leg, the audible release of the medicine signaling it was too late to protest. You stared at him as he discarded the used needle and tubing, his face more relaxed than it was a few moments ago.

“I grabbed this from an empty house in Union City,” Kira said quietly as she deposited a pre-war dress into your lap. “It's not much, but I want it back!” You gave her a brief smile, appreciating the way she always tried to lighten the mood, intentionally or not.

Already feeling the effects of the super stimpak, you sat up, shooing away Ben and Jamie. The dress fit you well enough, though you knew it would do a whole lot of nothing against bullets and grenades. But it was better than running around in your underwear. Grabbing your pistol, you turned to everyone and nodded. “I'm ready. We better get moving.”

---

“Are you going to tell me what really happened?”

You were sharing a bed again, up in the loft of Dr. Marius’ house. Kira's snores could be heard from a cot on the ground level. Jamie and Eric went into town for a drink. It was just the two of you.

Sleep had consumed you for a few days after you arrived back at Union City. You had dreams of returning to Fort Daggerpoint, wandering the large, cavernous rooms but this time it was empty. No super mutants, no ghouls, none of your companions. It was just you, walking in complete silence, following your footsteps until you reached the door to Father’s chambers. You would never enter, you weren’t ready to face what was behind that door.

As you dreamed, your leg had healed itself fully. You weren’t sure it it was just a combination of the stimpaks and rest or if the parasite inside you was restoring your leg to near perfect condition. When you awoke that morning, you were able to walk back into town without any pain or hobbling. Everyone told you it was a miraculous recovery, but you hesitated to call it a miracle.

You slowly rolled over to face Ben. He lay on his back, chest exposed, with one arm behind his head resting on the pillow. You saw the faint outline of his scar peak over his shoulder and you wondered if he even remembered when it happened. His memories seemed incomplete at times and though he wasn’t afraid to admit it, you knew what it felt like to have a part of you that was foreign. Something you knew nothing about, but was there to remind you every day that your brain was imperfect and you were part of something beyond yourself, whether you wanted to be or not.

You continue to study him, your eyes dragging over his angular features, cascading down his chest and out to his toned arms. He was becoming an extremely adept spear thrower for someone who was kicked off the vaultball team. It was becoming harder and harder to bring to mind Vault 18, trying to imagine yourself and Ben sitting a table in the diner in the atrium or remembering the faces of your siblings when they were playing card games or recalling the way you felt when you showed Dr. Rossman a terminal you hacked. That wasn’t your reality anymore. The dry San Bernardino dunes, the uncanny red ferns in Black Bear Forest, the war between the raiders, the Enclave, the super mutants, and the NCR--those were your reality now. This was your reality. Sharing your bed with this man who you trusted without a doubt, who believed in you when you didn’t, who was ready to follow you into the sunset without a word. You both had seen and lived though unspeakable horrors but to share a moment like this--vulnerable, exposed, uncertain--was comforting and human. It was something to keep you going.

Ben deserved the truth.

“The super mutants wanted me. That’s why we went to Fort Daggerpoint. The NCR knowingly hand-delivered me to them.”

“Jameson?”

You nodded.

He just closed his eyes, his breathing was slow and steady, but the clenched fist behind his head betrayed his anger.

“Why?”

This was your only uncertainty. Ben had expressed to you his feelings about super mutants or demons, as he called them. Repressing his memories for so long only made the pain of remembering his childhood escape from the super mutants that much more potent. They killed his friends and family, they took away his home, his freedom. He was lucky to escape with his life. You were afraid to tell him that you were a super mutant. This parasite made you one of them and it was something you couldn’t deny anymore.

You could feel it in your throat first. The burn of the tears as they welled up out of your eyes and silently slid down your face. It was difficult to go back there. You were already there every time you went to sleep, aimlessly wandering. But you didn’t want to remember how it felt when you woke up inside the glass chamber, how cold the metal was under feet as you were beckoned into the vat of FEV, the lidless stares of the super mutants as they watched you, so proud of what you were about to become. You wanted to throw up, to crumple to the ground and wail until you awoke from this nightmare. But you had to keep going. To tell dumb jokes with Kira again, to discuss alcoholic beverages of the Wasteland with Eric again, to shop for guns with Jamie again, to be near Ben again, to hear his voice, to be close to him, to share everything with him.

What scared you even more than remembering the Fissure of Sorrow, was upsetting Ben, losing his trust, becoming strangers.

“I…” You sniffled, your nose accommodating the wetness of your eyes.

Ben’s hand that wasn’t behind his head slid underneath the blankets until it found your hand, enclosing it within an iron grip. “Don’t cry.” It wasn’t an order. He never demanded anything from you. It was a reassurance. You didn’t need to cry because everything was okay. Everything will always be okay.

Relief rushed over you, forcing a small laugh out of your mouth. Even just small gestures like holding your hand eased your worries. You didn’t feel like everything was closing in on you. It grounded you to the present, the unyielding now. It gave you the strength and confidence to continue.

“The super mutants in Fort Daggerpoint, they’re in a cult. The Father wanted me because I have a parasite inside me. If I come into contact with FEV, I will become the perfect super mutant, capable of becoming the progenitor of new generation of super mutants. I escaped before their plans were fully realized.” You felt years pass, the words slowly coming out of your mouth, your whispers permeating the air. But you felt lighter.

The silence stretched on for a while, your hand clutching Ben’s as hard as he was clutching yours. “They will have to go through us if they want you.”

---

Continuing to support the NCR felt like the worst decision you had ever made. They tried to sell you out to prevent the super mutant uprising in the valley, but here you were and nobody could leave Union City without running into a patrol of super mutants and bellringers. They couldn’t ignore it anymore but above everyone else living in this valley, they were the only ones who could possibly stop the threat.

So you nodded in silence as General Silverman blabbered on about killing the raider king, wondering if he was really any better than that slave-loving bastard. Wondering if he would make the same mistake twice.

---

You all snuck in together with the help of Wilco Wilson. But you were the one who slipped into the mines, found Juan Maxon-Elsdragon, and let your plasma pistol do the talking. You didn’t let him say anything, you didn’t let anyone around him say anything. It was get in, get out. No heroic speeches about comeuppance, about getting what he deserved for all the people he tortured. As the life left his eyes, as you cradled a bullet wound on your arm from one of his bodyguards, you wondered briefly if it would really end here. His daughter would have something to say about her father’s death. But your thoughts stopped there. The NCR could deal with the fallout of their actions.

As you jumped back into Wilco’s wagon, you sat next to Jamie. You stared in front of you, letting her look at your wound, asking Eric for a bandage or a stimpak, Kira waving her hand in front of your face, asking how it went. You just nodded, a fake smile trying to work its way onto your face. “It went fine.”

Your eyes flashed over to Ben who stared openly at you, a mixture of concern and frustration flashing through his eyes.

[archivednimueries]

So, what's this all about?

In a dystopian future where everything is regulated by the government and there is no getting ahead in the world, it’s hard to find a reason to rise with each new day. The world is colorless, gray and unexciting – everything ran by a plan made well before you were born. When you’re told when to sleep, how to dress and what to do with your life, everything eventually loses its taste and you lose your will in the process.

The Rabbit Hole is for those who crave a little more.

In the dead of night, deep under the city, you may just find the entrance to the Rabbit Hole if you’re lucky. Lavish and decadent, this exclusive club is everything the real world ever sought to keep from you in glorious technicolor. Here you can be who you want and do exactly as you please. Watch the girls and boys dance or buy from the bar, grab at what life up above has denied you. After all, it doesn’t cost much – just a token, really.

Sign away your name on the dotted line.

All names are taken and collected by one of the enigmatic and elusive Queens. From the moment you leave one of their opulent throne rooms to venture into the other areas of their realm, your name is no longer your own. In its place, you are given a new name and a new identity in the form of a mask. Which, in reality, is better for you, isn’t it? If no one knows your name, and no one knows your face then you can go back to your mundane life when morning comes. What harm could come of signing an insignificant piece of paper?

Tell me, would you sell your soul to gain a life worth living?

So come inside, have a drink and lose yourself in the world that time forgot. Won’t you stay a while and eat our food? Now’s your chance to feel something, why not dive right in?

Who All Is In The Cast?

Red Queen - 

White Queen - @maidregalia

Queen of Hearts - @hcartless

Alice -  

Red King -

Jabberwock / Cheshire Cat - @fateweary

King of Hearts -

The Duchess -

Knave of Hearts - @hornblowcr

Red Knight -  

White Knight - @sixthofficer

White Rabbit -

Mad Hatter -

March Hare -

Dormouse -

Tweedle Dee -

Tweedle Dum -

Catterpillar -

{Please note that other Wonderland characters are also available, or even made up names. If you need help coming up with one, you can always message me. Examples of possible names: Red Rook, White Bishop, Ace of Hearts, etc.}

How To Apply

Character Name: Wonderland Name: FC: Aboveground Occupation: Age in Verse: Number of Years in Wonderland: Court Affiliation: (Red,White, One of the Suits) Bio: 3 + Paragraphs (Include any developed powers or the like.)

What Is It, Really?

This is a group verse set in a Dystopian Film Noir setting in the year 2584. Basically, the world is in shambles with something of a 1940’s twist. Warfare and complete obliteration forced the world to restart, and instead of flying cars and hoverboards, we have a handful of cities and a nation left barren and full of dust. Those cities have electricity, running water, high skyscrapers and even technology, but due to government regulations life carries on as it did when people could be controlled and Big Brother didn’t have to reach so far to keep his eye on the prize.

Bring in the forties and fifties, won’t you? The trolleys, the fashion, the cars and those quaint little one stop diners – this has them all. A person’s life is entirely and wholly organized from birth, marriage and to death by The Powers, those that were given the task of leading the world once it all fell apart.

While there might not be life outside of the cities, below in the Underground lies a realm that thrives just as it has since the dawn of time. It’s been known by many names, but now it’s just called Wonderland and one has to fall through the Rabbit Hole to find it. This is a land of bright color, music and everything the drab neutral world above has ever been denied. While most people who visit only ever get to see the Rabbit Hole itself or one of the Queen’s courts in the flesh – there’s an entire world just waiting to be explored.

The Underground is actually a fae realm, and all the members of royalty and some of the court are fae. Mortals can and will develop powers befitting their personality the more time they spend in Wonderland. Some have even been known to go mad.

But, What About Wonderland?

Yes, what about Wonderland? Despite being a utopia away from the Aboveground, Wonderland is a land riddled with political intrigue and strife. To better understand the world, one has to go back to the beginning.

Before Wonderland, the entire realm of the Underground was ruled by one man - a God of his own making - the JABBERWOCK. For many years he was a selfless man who all but broke his back in his attempts to keep his lands prosperous and plenty. When war threatened his lands for the first time, he allowed himself to be taken over by the spirit of something darker - something sinister enough to take on the oncoming peril. When the war was won and the day over, this spirit continued to cling. Eventually, the Jabberwock’s kingdom became a dark one riddled with the blood of its own people. Sacrifices were ordered and the land began to die.

THE RED QUEEN, THE QUEEN OF HEARTS, and THE WHITE QUEEN conspired to bring this reign of terror to an end. The youngest of them, The White Queen, was told by her two elders to infiltrate the court and ensnare the Jabberwock with a spell that would weaken him and lead to his downfall. The web they wove became further entangled when the Jabberwock, realizing their plan, married the White Queen in an ancient binding ceremony and played on her heartstrings to change her allegiance.

The day of the battle was an uncertain one. The Red Queen and The Queen of Hearts standing on one side of the field while the Jabberwock commanded the other. The tides were in his favor. It wasn’t until The White Queen joined her sisters that the dark fray was pushed back and his armies defeated. Together the Queens combined their power to destroy the Jabberwock.

Believing that they had eviscerated his body during the attack, the history of the Jabberwock was struck from the records and the Queens forbade the use of his true name. They and the remaining subjects all drank a potion to forget. From the ashes, WONDERLAND was born and each of the Queens claimed a piece of the realm for their own. Forsaking their true names in favor of their current titles and masks, their solution to keeping the land and themselves alive was the system of taking names that you now know.

Alright, so what else?

There are a few things to take note of both Aboveground and in the Underground.

Aboveground, everyone’s life and career have been given to them by THE POWERS. There is no choice or free will. You either do as you’re told, do as you’ve been taught or you face the punishment. There is a special task force called the NOBLE GUARDS who keep everything regulated and patrol the streets. The city has a curfew and when ten o’clock rolls around, everyone had better be tucked in their beds.

If you’re one of the resourceful few that make it into WONDERLAND, you need to remember that taking off your mask or revealing your name are not permitted. Anonymity is one of the safeguards beyond the RABBIT HOLE and failure to comply will result in banishment or worse. There are some creatures that frequent the Rabbit Hole that actually live within Wonderland – creatures that are far older and more powerful than their nighttime visitors. The dancers, the Queens and various members of their court – All of them reside within Wonderland’s borders. Some of them have a fake life above, one to amuse them from time to time.

A few residents did start out as human, as funny as that may sound. Prolonged visits to Wonderland can result in certain changes. Latent powers can develop, features may change or grow more prominent and a sudden clarity of the senses can make the world a little maddening. Partaking in their wine, drinking their food and dancing within their halls are all something of a decadent drug that can become addicting. The more time you spend away from Wonderland, the greater your longing to return will become. Being banished has sometimes resulted in madness and death. The brief nightly visits of most will not result in changes, but the addiction is still there.

What Are The Rules?

While it is not necessary to follow all members of the group rp, please try to keep interaction and plotting going across the board.

You are allowed to have supernatural powers if you like. All fae born have glamour and thrall. How else could they have created their fake lives Aboveground?

Don’t God-mod. I mean, really.

Be kind and keep your drama ic instead of ooc.

TAG ALL OF YOUR THINGS AS GV : DYSTOPIAN WONDERLAND

If you have questions please ask me, don’t just fumble around in the dark.

[nimueriesa]

So, what's this all about?

In a dystopian future where everything is regulated by the government and there is no getting ahead in the world, it’s hard to find a reason to rise with each new day. The world is colorless, gray and unexciting – everything ran by a plan made well before you were born. When you’re told when to sleep, how to dress and what to do with your life, everything eventually loses its taste and you lose your will in the process.

The Rabbit Hole is for those who crave a little more.

In the dead of night, deep under the city, you may just find the entrance to the Rabbit Hole if you’re lucky. Lavish and decadent, this exclusive club is everything the real world ever sought to keep from you in glorious technicolor. Here you can be who you want and do exactly as you please. Watch the girls and boys dance or buy from the bar, grab at what life up above has denied you. After all, it doesn’t cost much – just a token, really.

Sign away your name on the dotted line.

All names are taken and collected by one of the enigmatic and elusive Queens. From the moment you leave one of their opulent throne rooms to venture into the other areas of their realm, your name is no longer your own. In its place you are given a new name and a new identity in the form of a mask. Which, in reality, is better for you, isn’t it? If no one knows your name, and no one knows your face then you can go back to your mundane life when morning comes. What harm could come of signing an insignificant piece of paper?

Tell me, would you sell your soul to gain a life worth living?

So come inside, have a drink and lose yourself in the world that time forgot. Won’t you stay a while and eat our food? Now’s your chance to feel something, why not dive right in?

Who All Is In The Cast?

Red Queen - morgxine

White Queen - nimueries

Queen of Hearts - chiiiaroscuro

Alice -  

Red King -

Jabberwock - 

King of Hearts -

The Duchess - 

Jack of Hearts -

Red Knight -  

White Knight - 

White Rabbit - 

Mad Hatter - 

Cheshire Cat - 

March Hare -

Dormouse -

Tweedle Dee -

Tweedle Dum -

Catterpillar -

{Please note that other Wonderland characters are also available, or even made up names. If you need help coming up with one, you can always message me. Examples of possible names: Red Rook, White Bishop, Ace of Hearts, etc.}

How To Apply

Character Name: Wonderland Name: FC: Aboveground Occupation: Age in Verse: Number of Years in Wonderland: Court Affiliation: (Red,White, One of the Suits) Bio: 3 + Paragraphs (Include any developed powers or the like.)

What Is It, Really?

This is a group verse set in a Dystopian Film Noir setting in the year 2584. Basically, the world is in shambles with something of a 1940’s twist. Warfare and complete obliteration forced the world to restart, and instead of flying cars and hover boards, we have a handful of cities and a nation left barren and full of dust. Those cities have electricity, running water, high skyscrapers and even technology, but due to government regulations life carries on as it did when people could be controlled and Big Brother didn’t have to reach so far to keep his eye on the prize.

Bring in the forties and fifties, won’t you? The trolleys, the fashion, the cars and those quaint little one stop diners – this has them all. A person’s life is entirely and wholly organized from birth, marriage and to death by The Powers, those that were given the task of leading the world once it all fell apart.

While there might not be life outside of the cities, below in the Underground lies a realm that thrives just as it has since the dawn of time. It’s been known by many names, but now it’s just called Wonderland and one has to fall through the Rabbit Hole to find it. This is a land of bright color, music and everything the drab neutral world above has ever been denied. While most people who visit only ever get to see the Rabbit Hole itself or one of the Queen’s courts in the flesh – there’s an entire world just waiting to be explored.

The Underground is actually a fae realm, and all the members of royalty and some of the court are fae. Mortals can and will develop powers befitting their personality the more time they spend in Wonderland. Some have even been known to go mad.

But, What About Wonderland?

Yes, what about Wonderland? Despite being a utopia away from the Aboveground, Wonderland is a land riddled with political intrigue and strife. To better understand the world, one has to go back to the beginning.

Before Wonderland, the entire realm of the Underground was ruled by one man - a God of his own making - the JABBERWOCK. For many years he was a selfless man who all but broke his back in his attempts to keep his lands prosperous and plenty. When war threatened his lands for the first time, he allowed himself to be taken over by the spirit of something darker - something sinister enough to take on the oncoming peril. When the war was won and the day over, this spirit continued to cling. Eventually the Jabberwock’s kingdom became a dark one riddled with the blood of its own people. Sacrifices were ordered and the land began to die.

THE RED QUEEN, THE QUEEN OF HEARTS, and THE WHITE QUEEN conspired to bring this reign of terror to an end. The youngest of them, The White Queen, was told by her two elders to infiltrate the court and ensnare the Jabberwock with a spell that would weaken him and lead to his downfall. The web they wove became further entangled when the Jabberwock, realizing their plan, married the White Queen in an ancient binding ceremony and played on her heart strings to change her allegiance.

The day of the battle was an uncertain one. The Red Queen and The Queen of Hearts standing on one side of the field while the Jabberwock commanded the other. The tides were in his favor. It wasn’t until The White Queen joined her sisters that the dark fray was pushed back and his armies defeated. Together the Queens combined their power to destroy the Jabberwock but only managed thrust him into a deep sleep.

Together they imprisoned him far under ground and forbade the use of his true name. They and the remaining subjects all drank a potion to forget. From the ashes, Wonderland was born and each of the Queens claimed a piece of the realm for their own. Forsaking their true names in favor of their current titles and masks, their solution to keeping the land and themselves alive was the system of taking names that you now know.

Alright, so what else?

There are a few things to take note of both Aboveground and in the Underground.

Aboveground, everyone’s life and career have been given to them by the Powers. There is no choice or free will. You either do as you’re told, do as you’ve been taught or you face the punishment. There is a special task force called the Noble Guards who keep everything regulated and patrol the streets. The city has a curfew and when ten o’clock rolls around, everyone had better be tucked in their beds.

If you’re one of the resourceful few that make it into Wonderland, you need to remember that taking off your mask or revealing your name are not permitted. Anonymity is one of the safeguards beyond the Rabbit Hole and failure to comply will result in banishment or worse. There are some creatures that frequent the Rabbit Hole that actually live within Wonderland – creatures that are far older and more powerful than their nighttime visitors. The dancers, the Queens and various members of their court – All of them reside within Wonderland’s borders. Some of them have a fake life above, one to amuse them from time to time.

A few residents did start out as human, as funny as that may sound. Prolonged visits to Wonderland can result in certain changes. Latent powers can develop, features may change or grow more prominent and a sudden clarity of the senses can make the world a little maddening. Partaking in their wine, drinking their food and dancing within their halls are all something of a decadent drug that can become addicting. The more time you spend away from Wonderland, the greater your longing to return will become. Being banished has sometimes resulted in madness and death. The brief nightly visits of most will not result in changes, but the addiction is still there.

What Are The Rules?

While it is not necessary to follow all members of the group rp, please try to keep interaction and plotting going across the board.

You are allowed to have supernatural powers if you like. All fae born have glamour and thrall. How else could they have created their fake lives Aboveground?

Don’t God-mod. I mean, really.

Be kind and keep your drama ic instead of ooc.

TAG ALL OF YOUR THINGS AS V : DYSTOPIAN WONDERLAND

If you have questions please ask me, don’t just fumble around in the dark.

[the-poltergeist-pony-blog]

((You know what's surreal? Returning to your high school a week after graduation to pick up some artwork and having to sign in as a guest.))

[funkymbtifiction]

Hi Charity, 

I’m pretty early on in my life journey (early twenties) but I’m renting a good house, have a job I like and I’ve got good ties with my family, so overall I’m pretty satisfied. However, a few months ago I thought I’d branch out a bit and read a book on theology and history, that unexpectedly was really - I can’t describe it as any way but confronting - and I felt almost ill afterward, reeling. I had hoped time would soothe and make me more acclimatised to the knowledge, but it still sits uncomfortably with me. More recently, I listened to a series that again for some reason didn’t merge organically with the rest of my worldview, despite me knowing it was all just facts, and me having no problem changing my opinion or mind to new information from a trusted source usually. I also have this weird nostalgia for before I read or listened to this harmless stuff, even though it made me less ignorant knowing it and has actually broadened my understanding of some things. 

Can this be explained by cognition or enneagram? I’m an INTJ 5w6, so/sp.

Without knowing more details, theoretically I’d say your Ni-dom is not very happy with its need to re-calibrate ‘everything I thought I knew’ and reshuffle / reform an entire worldview. Ni needs time to work, to mull over things, and to accept them or reject them, or otherwise shape their perception of reality.

Maybe you should ask yourself what it was, about this particular information, that struck you so ‘badly’ in comparison to how easily you shift your thinking based on facts in other cases? I assume it was something that hit you on a personal level, or that attacked a facet of your belief system, or your religious system, or your understanding of things? What triggers did it set off, and what might have caused those triggers? Did you feel threatened by the information? Did it expose some radically ‘wrong’ thinking / beliefs that you held? Or is your Ni telling you that it cannot entirely be trusted?

If you feel uncertain about your previous views, and torn between clinging to them and throwing them aside, it’s time to soul-search, and figure out what YOU believe, regardless of what the ‘facts’ may say. If you decide to move on from formerly held views, forgive yourself for any mistakes you made ‘in ignorance.’ Now you know better. You will evolve, your entire life, as a person, as things ‘come at you’ and force you to reconsider your former stances. That may be at the root of it. Something you did not expect ‘came at you,’ shook you up, and now you aren’t sure what to do with it, because you don’t want to have to re-think your perspective. You know what? It’s fine to rethink it and change your views; and it’s also fine to not rethink it and not change your views, or to rethink it but hold to your original views. Some things are not about facts, but about hunches, instincts, and your sense of ‘what seems right for me.’

Clearly, if this series had this much of an impact on you, it was not ‘harmless.’ I kicked you in the face for some reason.

N’s can want to have an idealistic view of reality and tend to crash hard when they find out the ‘real world’ is not as pleasant or idyllic as in their head. Reading history can make one despair for humanity, because for centuries, humans have been wrathful barbarians, even the ‘nicer’ ones. Finding out the truth about the people of the past can suck.

Wishing you could go back to ignorance is normal, but… you can’t go back, you can only move forward.

The question is, what are you going to DO with this information?

I asked my INTJ friend their opinion on being ‘disappointed’ by reality and she said this: to avoid being disappointed by reality, they should enter every interaction with another person with the intention of offering a win-win scenario. People are, for lack of a better description, greedy and lazy, but also predictable. If your goals align with theirs (i.e. they benefit directly from working WITH you rather than against you) most people will be happy to cooperate.

- ENFP Mod

[funkymbtifiction]

Can you give me some concrete differences between ENFP and ENTP?

(Gif: not related and you don’t care anyway.)

Concrete? Well, if you have read all the other times I have answered this question and not found the answer yet, probably no. ;)

Go watch Serendipity. He’s ENTP. She’s ENFP. Notice their focus.

TiFe: seeks to build a system of abstract understanding (Ti). This means the Ti user is trying to constantly categorize everything it encounters, in an effort to build an internal framework of knowledge. In an NTP, this means often bypassing reality for abstract theory.

Often, what I hear from my ENTP friend is: “PEOPLE ARE SO NONSENSICAL, WHY DO THEY HAVE TO BE SO NONSENSICAL?” He’s having trouble with their irrational emotional outbursts not correlating with his own Ti processing, which prefers logic, and finds human beings difficult to separate from the rest of reality, which operates on a sense of primal… logic. Animals kill to eat. Humans kill because they can. How is that logical? A girl likes you, but ignores you, so you will like her more, but instead you think she’s not interested and move on and she’s upset. HOW IS THAT LOGICAL?!?!? 

I suspect deep down ENTPs are searching for the magic bullet, one thing to help them explain the entirety of humanity in a way that satisfies themselves and ensures they can deal with human beings as an entire race and as individuals without going insane from their irrational collective thinking. My ENTP brother always has a hopeful look on his face when he comes up to ask me a question that basically “categorizes” a lot of people into a slot. This is his Ti “trying to figure people out.” I hate to bust his bubble but: you can’t.

This is why Stephen Hawking searched for “the theory of everything.” He wanted to find one theory to explain the vast nuances of the universe; he wanted to strip everything down to its basic logical central truth and expand from that… which is, in a nutshell, Ti.

Also being Fe they usually share their feelings, talk about what they are feeling as it is happening, seek others when they feel uncertain about themselves and feel uplifted when offered encouragement from others, because generally Fe goes “whew, okay, I’m fine,” when people go, “You did a great job!”

(Gif: if you do not recognize it, we can’t be friends)

FiTe: literally does not give a damn about a magic bullet. It does not really want to categorize, because that’s shoving people into boxes and high Fi (unless the person using it has not developed it very well) instinctively understands emotions, what drives people, what will resonate with them, and what things mean to them on an emotional level. They operate on terms of: fairness, right and wrong, what they believe is ethical or immoral, their strong feelings for or against people / places / events / theories / principles / everything. They make decisions based on emotions. Theirs. Other people’s. Cat’s feelings, even.

I pronounce immediate moral judgment, whereas ENTP pronounces immediate rational judgment. Take the new show Genius. It opens on an adulterous sex scene where the scientist goes on to justify his adultery by explaining to his secretary in detached Ti terms it’s illogical to be faithful. (He’s an INTP, btw.) I have not watched another episode. That opening scene triggered my Fi disgust, not only that he would cheat on his wife (my Fi says: NOPE, asshole) but then justify it with some BS theory.

Meanwhile, ENTP friend laughed and said, “Look how this Ti is rationalizing his adultery WITH Ti!”

“Yeah,” I said. “I noticed.”

ENTP shot back: “I can smell the judgment from here.”

Yeah, you can.

Does that mean I’ll never finish Genius? Maybe, maybe not. My immediate judgments tend to get less harsh when I get to know people better, and then I find more compassion for them or understand them better, even though I never agree with their behaviors that I believe are wrong.

Also, I have Te. I don’t care HOW that damn thing works, or the process that went into creating it, or what the dude thought about when he invented it, I just want it to do its job. If it doesn’t do its job, it’s junk and I have no time for it. I am here to GET THINGS DONE, all right?

Te is also real good at “state the obvious” and “WELL, NO SH!T, SHERLOCK.”

Like the other day, when I said, “The Weasley twins will be at Comic Con.”

Other person: “Are they still tall and thin?”

Me: “Well, it’s not like they’re gonna get shorter.” *

Sorry. That sort of tert-Te BLUNT comes out of my mouth all the time IRL. :P

- ENFP Mod