#my answer is massive attack - teardrop

[lenok993]

I've just realised one thing or get insight wow i'm slowpoke Mikasa was crying during serumbowl scene right? That means her tears were falling on Levi maybe even on Levi's face. Isayama didn't draw it, WIT didn't animate this detail. But thanks to Newton's law of universal gravitation it's fact

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[iero]

🎵!!

Obstacle 2 by Interpol

Swallowing the Rabbit Whole by Code Orange

Nothing Compares by The Weeknd

The Run and Go by twenty one pilots

Teardrop by Massive Attack

Thank you very much!

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[bonesandthebees]

7 & 26 for the three song ask game?

7. three songs you didn’t expect to like but eventually loved

I know the end - phoebe bridgers

I have a bit of an embarrassing story with this one. a friend of mine sent me a playlist she made for my birthday one year, and that morning I listened to it while i drove to get coffee and it had this song come on. I felt like I was ascending. it was the best song I'd heard in ages. I had a religious experience waiting at the light listening to phoebe bridgers scream.

later I texted my other friend how obsessed I was with this song now and she told me she played it once for me in the car and I said I liked it but didn't seem that enthusiastic. I had no memory of hearing the song before. apparently it wasn't that memorable to me the first time I heard it 😭

teardrop - massive attack

I mentioned this in an earlier ask but didn't link it bc I was on my phone and didn't feel like going to all that trouble. anyway, my mom played this a ton when I was growing up and I was never a huge fan of it. then one day recently something switched and now I'm obsessed with it

poplar st - glass animals

I've been listening to glass animals for a long time (since 2017) and while how to be a human being has always been my fav album, for some reason I didn't vibe with this song for the longest time. then one time I was at a photoshoot and someone had a pandora radio station going, and this song came on and I was like "wait that's glass animals" and idk what it was but suddenly I was like wait this song fucks. now there isn't a single song on how to be a human being that I don't like

26. three favourite non-English songs

OOOO A REALLY FUN ONE. ngl I could fill this entire one with japanese songs because I listen to a lot of japanese music (I know what you're thinking and no they're not all from anime I've seen) but I'm trying to have variety with my answers so I will limit it to one song per language

let me hear - fear, and loathing in las vegas (japanese)

while this isn't my absolute favorite japanese song these days, it's a long time favorite and a bit of variety genre wise. I didn't know this song was an anime opening, I only heard it because spotify recommended it to me one time and I was like damn this slaps. I love j-metal so much guys

decídete - sofia thompson (spanish)

just love the vibes of this song it's so fun and boppy

khan blues - otyken (chulym)

this song goes HARD guys. I love this band, their stuff is so distinctive and they make such fun dance music. they're a siberian indigenous group who incorporate a lot of traditional instruments and throat singing into their songs and it creates SUCH a cool sound. I rock out in the car so much to this one while I'm driving (I won't link it but genesis is another good one by them)

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[geralts-yenn]

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I got tagged by the lovely @littlefreya - thank you dear! Loved your answers ❤

📷 What’s set as your phone’s lockscreen? A winter landscape in pastel colors

🍫 Cheese or chocolate? I can't eat either of them, but if I could, I think I'd choose cheese over chocolate

✨ Do you have any nicknames? No, in high school some friends tried to make "Nini" a thing but I was not a fan

🎵 Last song you listened to? Teardrop - Massive Attack

✏️ Have you ever written fanfiction? Started writing 18 months ago - changed my life

😏 Are you on discord? 24/7

 💛 Do you have any piercings? Had ear piercings, would love to have more, but I'm allergic

🐰 What do you think says the most about a person? I always watch out how people treat animals. Also, if someone is rude to retail workers or staff, it's a red flag.

🍪 If you were a cookie, what kind would you be? lol, idk, an oreo? dark and hard on the outside with a soft core

🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person? Both! I always had cats and thought I'd always be a cat person. But then we got the most precious little baby puppy and I absolutely adore her. She's not a puppy anymore but never stopped being the cutest little baby 😍

🎧 Headphones or earbuds? Both 😁 Headphones for sports and when the family is too loud, earbuds for at work when I still need to pay attention to others

🌼 What’s the last thing you said out loud? "Damn, dog, it's just a vacuum cleaner, it won't eat you!"

🙃 What’s a weird fact that you know? lol, that chickens DO have a navel. Had a heated argument with my Dad about that. Sweet memory ❤

🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl? Is 3am morning or night?

🧸 Favorite place to nap? The hammock in my garden

🏳️‍🌈 Are you a member of the LGBTQIA+ community? I identify as pansexual heteroromantic

🦋 Describe yourself in three words. enthusiastic, awkward, introvert

👖 Jeans or sweatpants? Jeans

🥤 What’s your go-to Starbucks order? Believe it or not, I've never been to a Starbucks. But I drink my coffee black

🧡 A color you can’t stand? Every color has its own beauty

💎 What’s your most prized possession? My house?

☕ Coffee or tea? Both - lol, I'm really good at making decisions 😁

🦖 Favorite extinct animal? Ichthyosaurs - First fossil I've ever seen and combines my love for the ocean and dinosaurs

🌙 How long have you been on tumblr? A year and a month - yes, I'm a tumblr baby

🌴 Desert island item? A lighter

🐸 Describe your aesthetic. Ugh, these are really difficult! Industrial pastel?

🔮 What’s your dream job? Photographer!

💙 Relationship status? So very much in love - for almost 20 years now 😍

🌿 Describe your favorite outfit. Wide black shorts, sage green top, gray cardigan, barefoot (I need summer!)

🎤 Is there a song you know all the lyrics to? lol, is there a song I DON'T know the lyrics to?

🤎 What color is your hair? blonde

💌 Do you talk to yourself? I do right now 😁

💄 Do you wear makeup? If I feel like it, I love wearing makeup, but I'm also comfortable going out without makeup

🌸 Best compliment you ever received? "I wish there were more people like you"

💞 @ your favorite blog. @raccoon-eyed-rebel

No pressure tags: @ellethespaceunicorn @peyton-warren @gummydummy19 @mayloma @cardierreh15 @liveoncoffeeandflowersss @martha-oi @lostforparadise

[torso]

couragously 1 month late... a tag game... by @amakusashi

last song you listened to: teardrop by massive attack bc i am back in nostalgia farm...

last movie you watched: how to lose a guy in 10 days bc i am going through romcoms i never watched and reverse engineering the entire world of fluff/romantic fanfiction like this. anyway, to me, not that good, i wish it had a massive i love you speech in it because i think i really like those

currently watching: nothing... icarly reboot the tv show kinda

other things you’ve watched this year: im doing this at the beginning of the year so i actually can answer / Ahem. bend it like beckham (loved), saving face (loved), how to train your dragon 1 rewatch randomly, clueless which was just ok

currently reading: war and peace but really slowly and a collection of writings from walter benjamin which is kind of everything

currently listening to: aurora's cover of teardrop by massive attack bc i am on youtube

currently working on: sewing machine... and art... tossing coins into the air about 'job' . getting into one rank higher on league of legends .

current obsession: talking at my cats when im walking around the house

tagging . ummmm fuck @amakusashi again, my discord kitten @sideeffx, fellow londoner @immuno , my twitter mutual @kirihark, my othger twitter mutual @mauledbyabear, another twitter mutual @zxu um @the cat sitting on me right now

[pussyandpetrichor]

tagged by @necropsittacus ; thank you so much!

This is a chain question meme and I don't spread them, but if you'd like, feel free to answer, but I am not directing this at specific people.

last song: Massive Attack by Teardrop

I was trying to tell if the Amazon Prime distribution of House MD was the same as the theme song from the network distribution. Unfortunately, I have a bit of an earache and I can't tell for sure.

three ships: Doctor/Master(+River), Aelita/Sissi, Holmes/Watson (Including House/Wilson)

currently reading: I just finished "I'm Glad My Mom Died" by Jeannette McCurdy, and I juts started "Equal Rites" by Terry Pratchet and the Barron's AP Calculus Book

last movie: I don't currently remember, but I can probably check my Hulu when I get home.

craving: To go home, tbh. I have an ear ache and don't want to go to work but my step father was at home when I left and I don't want to be in the house with him.

[sewercentipede]

:* cig and dr. pepper sounds so good rn!! i’m just in bed wanting to be high a lil longer lol. today sucked -_- relationship issues. other than that i am very grateful for my bed and drugs lol! what are you listening to? :-)

that sounds so cozy im just on my couch cuz my husband is asleep in bed (also mood tryna stay high longer too lolol). but damn im sorry u had a bad day :( :( what happened if ur comfortable sharing? (also is it weird im answering ur asks publicly? cuz if so im down to DM instead). im just listening to my Spotify likes on shuffle, whilst typing this teardrop by massive attack n now Lilith by bjork

[oflostinfound]

2, 7 and 11 for munday <3

Munday Meme 2. Name a favorite sound to write to 7. If mun and muse could spend a day together, what would you do and why? 11. Explain the origins of your muse. Why did you choose them? What’s your focus with this character?

2. Currently? Music - I've been jamming to Teardrop by Massive Attack and Let it Be by Blackmill, though what i listen to changes every day

7. If I could spend the day with Eath? Honestly, I'd just let her lead me around the forest she lives in, look for creatures, go swimming, just let her have a fun day and enjoy nature. I need to get outside more anyway, and it would be nice to just see her having fun and funding cool rocks and wizard sticks together. (Saving Hax's answer to this for the other ask that has this question)

11. I believe I've shared Eath and Hax's origins before and put it under the lore tag. They're comfort ocs, essentially. As for my focus with them, outside their canon story in my brain, I really want to see them in different situations and see how they learn, grow, and change. Maybe round them out a little more, explore story lines that won't exist in their canon as well - This blog, despite being of my own ocs, is already pretty divergent from their actual canon story that I'm writing

[bloodycassian]

 Cauldron Damned. 

Reader x Cassian + Feyre BFF

Prompt -  bestie bestie bestie a cassian x reader fic where reader helps feyre with the cauldron - not rhys and she ya know  like rhys did and cassian basically breaks down and it’s super angsty but rhys lives so the reader gets to aswell ig tag @ bellefleurs and @ eerievixen

Her hair was a mess and painted to her neck with sweat but you still held her. Still gave and gave, until you were out of breath. Until you could feel yourself slipping. "Keep going.... You're doing so good." You panted out, trying to put a smile in your tone. She was the Mother herself, forging that cursed Cauldron back together.  Rhys was breathing heavily behind you after being knocked out by Lucien. You had given the Autumn court son a look and he had known what you needed him to do. Rhys would be snarling mad when he woke, but you knew what you had to do. To save your home, to save the entire world. Feyre was ready to risk it all, fearless and full of hope. You had to save that hope for your Court. Better you than her, better the high lady and lord survive than just an officer. You smiled at the thought of what you'd told Cassian before this final battle. Before you knew it would turn into saving the entire world from the Cauldron's vengeance.  "You better make damn sure my memorial statue looks fantastic. No priestess, though. Make sure it makes my wings stand out." You joked on the flight to the base camp. Cassian danced around death like he was it's balancing point. Like he was in tune with each and every death or life dealt. He laughed at your abruptness on the subject.  After months of skittering around each other, of trying not to stare too long or acknowledge that pull you felt towards him... It was nice to finally be alone. To let that tension ease out with a few jokes. It was too easy to be with him, like you'd known him much longer in the year of preparation for this battle.  "And you better make sure my wings are bigger than yours on that sculpture." He banked around a large cliffside and you followed, like a magnet. Like you could read his mind, you turned when he did. He rose with you, compensating for the cool mountain wind.  You rolled your eyes dramatically, flapping a bit higher than him for emphasis as you drawled out "Poor War General, his wing size matters so much to him." He shrugged, circling lower and lower with you until you were on the ground together amid a clearing. The grass was soft, covered in early morning dew. "Some say wing size dosen't matter, you know." You said with a wink, making him double over with laughter. It made you begin laughing too when he started running out of breath.  Once you had both collected yourselves, You began building a fire together. Rather, a massive bonfire that was to act as the signal to the army for where to move. His face was grim when he threw the last of the logs together. You understood why. "The Kings army will be here before us." You said, voice low. He only nodded. You kneeled in the wet grass, one knee down the other one supporting your wrist bracer. He followed you silently.  You spoke in unison, the ancient words from all the Illyrian warriors before you: "Name me God of Death today. Let us bring that name to those who do us wrong." + Feyre muttered something you couldn't hear. The darkness crept further in on you. You could see some light between your blurred vision. You could see how her hands lit up the cracks in the ancient stonework. You could feel her practically vibrating with the strain.  Your tears dribbled on to her shoulder, knowing these would be your final moments with her. Your final moments in this world. There was no better way you'd spend it than saving her. Spending those last few minutes being able to tell her how amazing she was. You felt her smile when you leaned your head against hers. Your heart ached. You whispered what you hoped were encouraging words in her ear. A rupture of sound- a crack fully mended -and your chest filled with blooming pride at your friend.  There was something crackling, ripping. You weren't sure if it was inside you or if it was the magic Feyre was performing. There was a gasp behind you and rustling, but you dared not take your concentration away from her. Away from how she leaned back into you. Dared not speak a word to distract her other than giving her those little jabs of confidence when she started to shake.  "You got it, Feyre. You can do this." You managed, before that caving feeling in your chest seemed to give in. You were breaking, you knew that much. But she wasn't done yet. Your breath leaked out from you, like you were being squeezed.  "Make it all worth it, Feyre." You managed to whisper out before you could no longer hold yourself up anymore. You laid back, your legs wrapped around her, mirroring her own. You hooked a foot on top of hers and gave her what you could from where you crumpled.  Death was easy, slow. Like a soft lullaby taking you away. You knew what lay before your body, and only hoped you were enough to get Feyre to where she could mend the rest on her own. You gave her all of your soul, all your being. She had to make it. You let the wave of that soft lullaby take you under.  + Cassian didnt think before shoving his way through the crowd into the tent. Didnt consider what he might find there, and how his heart may be ripped from him at the sight of it. The death that crept at that tent was a feeling he wouldnt forget in a thousand lifetimes.  His best friends lying unconscious on the floor before the cauldron. He went numb, still like a cold glacier. Lucien frantically shook Rhys, attempting to wake him. Cassian's head roared and he was falling to his knees at your side. He took your head in his lap, gently. As if he could still hurt you. He didn't notice he was crying until he saw the fat teardrops on your cheek. He wiped them away, leaving dirt smeared there. Another yell of anguish, and Rhys was coming to. From the sound of the yelling or from Lucien shaking him.  Azriel entered the tent then, solemn. Then his eyes widened. Those shadows darted around the room, taking each member of the court into account. The shadowmaster rushed to Feyre, checking her pulse and sighing. He noted the way your leg tangled around hers. His heart gave a painful squeeze. He saw both his brothers in agony. And he swore on his life there would be no place for the cauldron to be found again. Cassian cradled his mate's head in his lap, rocking gently. Rhys' dark power cracked the sky outside the tent once he was conscious.  Rhys rushed to Feyre, scooping her in his arms. He brushed her hair back from her face. Azriel could practically hear the mental screaming coming from both of them. The shadowmaster laid a hand on top of yours, closing his eyes and letting his tendrils of power, of those whispering shadows reach out. They circled your head, slowly like a snake.  He felt that song then, singing back with his own. The essence of your soul, dancing around your aura.  His eyes flashed open in surprise, then a manic laugh rumbled from his chest. "Rhys-" He breathed, pulling his attention away from a waking Feyre. Cassian looked up in a flash at his brothers, watching them exchange looks.  "Bring my mate back now." Cassian growled at Rhys. The tone was utterly deadly. Promises of death from the Lord of Bloodshed if his command was not answered. Azriel's eyes darted between his brothers. As if he was expecting Cassian to attack. The high lord would have been gaping at him if he hadn't experienced the same pain of almost losing a mate. He nodded, pulling himself together long enough to enter your vacant mind. Then the cauldron was humming, as he dipped a mental hand into it as well. +  Rhys' commanding voice rang out over your land of lavender and sunshine. "She will miss you." His voice was soft, but the attention it drew was still there. The meadow you laid in was softer than any silk in Velaris. More luxurious than any chair made to accompany your wings. You sighed, taking in the sweet scent before he spoke again.  "Too much, I believe. Especially when she hears about what you did to save her." He appeared at the edge of the soft meadow, the grass around him waving like the sea. You sat up, dazzled at the sight of him here. In such a bright, lovely place. His tanned face seemed to glow with the smile he held for you. "I'm tired." You said, voice groggy. You wanted to lay back down. You closed your eyes, for just a second and when you opened again he was in front of you, crouched. He held a tattooed hand out, giving you a nod. "Just come with me and you can nap all you want." His eyes sparkled. Not with that starlit power, but with tears ready to spill over.  You took that hand and closed your eyes.  + Feyre's warm hand in yours was the first thing you felt when you woke. Rhys held her in the corner atop a pelt rug beside you. The brothers leaned against each other. Rhys played with Feyre's hair as she rested. The sight of them together, him protecting her so well made your heart sing in approval. you knew she always deserved someone as good as Rhys. The fire where the Cauldron once was made the tent cozy. There were no sounds other than the soft breathing and the occasional pop of wood on the fire.   Azriel sat at the door, sword on his lap. Ready to kill if anyone dared enter. Then, you looked to the softness that cradled you. Cassian's face was covered in dirt, blood and more. He looked exhausted. Like he had been beaten, lost and beaten again. You tried a weak smile at him.  Clean rivers ran down from his eyes, revealing the dark skin underneath. "I couldn't let you get a statue without me." He said, voice trembling. You smiled the best you could and reached a hand to stroke his cheek.  "How-" You began, but he shushed you. "Just..rest for now. We can talk in the morning." He brushed a thumb over a silent tear that trickled from your eye. You nodded, and let him pull the blanket more firmly around you. Lulling you to sleep with soft humming.

[jamie-the-ysalamir]

CATCH UP MEME

Rules: answer + tag 9 people you want to get to know better and/or catch up with!

Tagged by @ph0enixpers0n

Favourite Colour: purple, lilac specifically

Last Song/album: I surprisingly haven't listened to any music today but I think the last song I listened to was Teardrop by Massive Attack, very chill song

Last Movie: I watched Ant Man and the Wasp and Major Grom: Plague Doctor today

Currently Reading: I just finished Young Avengers, and Thor and Loki: Double Trouble. I'm currently waiting for Agent of Asgard to arrive as I cba to read books rn

Currently Watching: Just finished New Amsterdam, and watched the 1987 Devilman dub again today. Watching Loki, Casualty, and Holby City every week (casualty and holby are both on almost every week tho)

Currently craving: my books to arrive if that counts, or money, to buy more books

Coffee or tea: really depends on my mood

Tagging: @timatisblog @snubberdoodle @muffdash @eavon14 @saddsavagee @pandork178 @digimondestined @whenthemarshmallowmettheslayer @easiathearies and anyone else who wants to , also my friends I haven't tagged, I cannot remember your URL 😔

[szintalikedthat]

Hello! I saw your post about playlists and I have a request for a vibe!

🎵 + When you're feeling really disconnected from yourself but also sort of angry at everything and then your cat comes and loves up to you and you're still angry and sad but you're also filled with so much love for this teeny tiny animal

Hell yes!!!!

What makes this ask so awesome, is that not only it is a really interesting vibe that I just felt in my heart on 6 different cosmic levels, but it comes with a full blown 5 act structure, which I will be more than happy to indulge... especially because telling a narrative arc with strategically ordered songs is my favourite thing about building a playlist.

When I was thinking about where to begin, I felt like the only genre that can truly encompass the range of emotions contained herein AND even the cuteness of a cat, was none other than emo. Am I right or am I right? But I have to confess, I'm not super familiar with the emo scene, cause when it happened, I went through a phase of listening to very little to no music. And like I said, I cannot accurately pinpoint musical genres because I just sort them in my head completely differently, so... this playlist has maybe like one or two songs that are actually emo, I think(?) and is not so much emo overall as much as "Songs that made me feel like what I thought emo should feel like". However I do know that some emo bands like to have one foot in metal and the other in electronic music, so this is what created the backbone of this playlist that holds it all together - an electronic and/or industrial metal streak. Fingers crossed that this will be up your alley.

I made a spotify compilation of it all but I also linked the individual songs thru youtube in case someone doesn’t use it.

Enjoy! 🎵

1. Dissociation Every Day is Exactly The Same - Elektrik People

I consider this kind of a blatant choice in my neck of the musical woods but if there has ever been a better song written about that very emotion that you were talking about, I haven't heard it. I offer it to you now like a special gift directly from the playlist of a very personal OC who himself has some issues and dissociative tendencies. Yes, I'm talking about my OCs I'm projecting onto of whom nobody fucking asked, because I don't want to make this too personal, what about it. Don't we all? And yes, this IS the Nine Inch Nails song, but I chose this version - and tbh I like this one better than the original, with all due respect to Mr. Reznor - because the soft, slightly slurring vocals and reverberating instruments really make it sound as if I myself were hearing it through a disconcerted haze.

2. Realization X - Hatari

I put this song in as a kind of segway between the previous song and the next; it's like a moment of coming-to, a realization of one's true pain that was blocked before, and includes all the disillusionment, hatred, and grief that it entails, but is also still kind of... catchy, in a way? If you will. Song translation

3. Fragmentation Buried Alive - Otep

And there we are, the true, unfiltered cacophony of negative emotions, spoken in their full and direct brutality. What really gets me about Otep every time, is that besides some of her lyrics just being genuinely great poetry, she can speak the most simple, emo, generic words with such incredible cadence that you quake as you feel the emotion in your veins right there where she's at.

4. Spiral Victimized- KoRn

Look, I might be a little bit biased, but when you're asking me for trauma induced, frothing dissociative rage, I'm definitely thinking of Jonathan Davis, because let's be honest, no one brings it to the table like he does. That's just objectively true. There is no shortage of such musical numbers in KoRn's repertoire but as opposed to some of their maddening, blunt and grunge-like earlier sounds, I decided to bring something from their newer catalog, which encases the madness in a cleanly yet jagged, cutting-edge electronic shell, and thus will fit in with this playlist very nicely.

5. Contact Teardrop - Massive Attack

So I asked myself, "Is there a song that makes me feel the emotion of touching extremely soft fur and would fit into this playlist" and I immediately knew that this song would be THE perfect answer. I wanted the shift to be as sudden as possible, but at the same time still a little bit organic, which is a high expectation but this song has an almost KoRn-like chord progression just in major instead of minor. I couldn't have invented a better one if I tried.

6. Decision Neon Gravestones - Twenty One Pilots

Okay, I'm not even going to make any jokes about this or anything. I think this song is a really brutal confrontation about a very heavy topic, and the biggest takeaway that I want you to have from it is that, I think, there is a point at the bottom of your hopelessness where you HAVE to make a conscious decision to move upward even if you don't feel like you can do it or whether it's even possible, before the healing can start. And sometimes it really be like that.

7. Clarity Bring Me The Horizon - Can You Feel My Heart

Note that after the Soft Cat neither of the songs are really as unhinged as we started, and that is for a reason. I think that this song must have been insanely popular at a time, sorry about that. I swear, I'm trying to make choices that are not too obvious but it felt like it would just hit the right emotional beat. I think you can read a lot into these rhetorical questions, in the song I mean, but the cord progressions always make me feel a certain opening up to hope through teary eyes.

8. Power Suffering You - 16 Volt

At the end of it all, by any means I wanted to end this playlist on a positive note, so here we are. There's just something about this song that gets me every time. It leans into its own early 2000s proto-emo roots with such a sweeping, unapologetic confidence. This song be like "You're goddamn right I'm a fucking whiney little bitch with my depression and unprocessed negative emotions, you wanna fight about it? You wanna take it outside?" What else could I have for it than respect? The rhythm is mercilessly pumping, the riffs are almost bizarrely catchy. I wouldn't necessarily call this song positive on a surface level, but it always makes me feel weirdly upbeat. Once you read into it a bit metatextually, this song is the pinnacle of depressed but reclaimed power, an almost fashionably earworm-like rallying cry of healthily channeled righteous anger. I actually almost put it at the beginning because I think playlists should begin strong - I like to make playlists that either sweep you or slap you on the face with the very first chord lol - and I think this song, almost literally slaps. However I immediately realized that no, this cannot happen, not this time. This song cannot be at the start because this is exactly the goal where I want you to mentally arrive at.

Okay, enough of the playlist infused therapy session. I hope you had some kind of positive takeaway and maybe even some songs you didn't know before. Now go and stick it to the man!

[bowieandqueen11]

Best Friend / Queen Imagine

Request: The reader is a makeup artist for the boys and she's close with all of them. But then Paul comes in and gives her the idea that they don't really care about her. At first she ignores it but when she goes to talk to the guys and they act completely nervous, so she begins to think she's about to get fired and gets upset. But then the boys take her and it turns out they were trying to throw her a surprise party for the 1 yr. anniversary of her working with them. 

@mirkwoodshewolf sorry this took so long darling!! <3

It had been an absolutely manic, but joyous year. Here you were, on the set for the Bohemian Rhapsody video shoot, surrounded by the boys who had become your best friends, your stronger than blood family, who you had shared constant late night laughs and silly day trips out over the last few months, knowing deep within your heart that they meant the world to you, but not realising you meant even more than that to them.

A slight bump on the heavy beige door made you jump uncomfortably against Freddie’s legs slightly, your hand wavering and drawing a slight dipped line down the crease of his eye with black eyeliner as Roger’s elbows shuffle against the door. You can’t fully understand what they’re saying, but as you see Freddie’s eyes nervously shift over to Brian and Roger’s conversing form, you start to fear its nothing good. You hear Brian’s slight chuckles and snort from beside Roger, his clogs tapping slightly impatiently on the tiled floor with a rhythmic beat matching the slight hammering of your heart.

‘Hey John’, you shout, receiving a small grunt in reply from the man who’s lounging on the leather sofa, one foot scraping gently against the floor as the other hangs over the edge of the armrest. The slight sun rays that fall through the window above his head illuminate his glowing cheekbones in an ethereal light, despite the slumped frame that lies nearly asleep.

‘What are those two planning?’

‘Uh-um-I, uh, not a clue, y/n’, John stutters out, swinging his feet onto the floor before shoving Roger out of the way and walking out the door. ‘But the shoot’s about to start!’

Freddie turns back to you, a surprisingly shy smile on his face as he nods at Roger and Brian, letting them know it was nearly time to go. They both run over, pressing little fervent kisses against your forehead, attacking like swarming bees as you swat them away with your brush, laughter bubbling up your throat.

‘Thank you for the makeup, y/n’, Roger shouts as he walks out the door.

‘Yeah, we look very glam, as always’, Brian adds, following him.

As you sit there, a smile tugging at the corner of your lips as your gaze seems to be drawn to Freddie’s eyes by some uncontrollable urge, you swear he beams, his black curls bouncing happily around his face like the slight flitting wings of a cherub, so human and yet something so majestic and untouchable about him, which made the pit of your stomach flip in uneasy somersaults. Your hand accidentally swipes against a few precarious bottles littering Freddie’s dressing tables, the vibrant powders dancing like pockets of starlight against the fragile glass bottle as they shook in their place, your legs starting to tingle gently where they lay slouched upon Freddie’s bare thighs, his silver shorts tickling the tips of your toes where they brushed. You keep your eyes focused on dabbing the glitter eye-shadow you held in your hand, not noticing the concerned look he gives you as he bites the bottom of his lip.

‘I’ll see you soon, okay? Promise me, when the shoot’s over, we’ll all go out.’

‘Okay, Freddie’, you sigh lightly, ‘I promise.’

~

‘Hey there, y/n, how’s it going?’

‘Oh, alright, Paul’, you answer with a sigh, continuing to straighten out the little bottles you had sent spilling around the vanity table as Paul sticks his head through the doorway.

‘You don’t sound so alright to me’, he replies with a little nod of the head, sliding slowly over like a snake to rest his hip against the edge of the banged up sofa in the corner, brushing the dust off the striped shirt that covers his shoulders.

‘Is it those silly boys again. Tut tut, y/n, I didn’t take you for the lass to take their words to heart.’

Placing down your palette, you turn to him with your eyebrows furrowed, allowing the hair to fall lightly over your eyes and askew your vision.

‘What words are you talking about, Paul?’

‘Oh, haven’t you heard? There’s been some talk around here recently of... well, I suppose it’s not my place to say. Don’t you worry your silly little head about it, y/n, everything will work out the way it’s meant to in the end.’

Before he leaves, a smirk twitching on his lips, he stiffly places his hand on your shoulder.

‘Just watch out around them, alright y/n.’ His breath is warm and sour as it wafts against your face, and you can’t help but flinch away from his grasp as he winks at you, leaning away before sauntering off with a faint kick to the door.

It was too bright in here. Too bright, it made your head ache. You shut your eyes tightly, wincing slightly in pain as the bright vanity bulbs shine out aggressively, their white beams hitting the former shadows of your skin like hot bullets as sweat begins to lightly trickle down your forehead, curving down past your lips and landing like sick teardrops onto your cheek, your breathing becoming shallow and rough as it begins to constrict against your command. The dim rays of the lights above bathe the room in blue coldness as your arms begin to shiver, or rather shake, their grip on the oaken table becoming tighter until flashes of pain rip through your knuckles and you can feel the small droplets of blood ping easily onto the floor as the splinters break your skin.

Squeezing your eyes shut, you manage to tremble out, ‘oh god, am I about to be fired?’

‘Fired, what on earth do you mean darling. Why would we ever let you out of our tight grasp?’

You turn around, shocked to hear Freddie’s booming voice, as the rest of the boys fan out behind him, hands on their hips as anger flashes through their faces.

‘Fired, whoever gave you that idea?’

‘I swear, once I get my hands on whoever said that to you-’

‘Darlings, lets focus instead on what we’ve been planning, hm?’

Running over to grasp your hand, Freddie flashes you a bright smile before tugging you out past the boys, who hurry after.

When you finally manage to tug Freddie’s hands away from his eyes, your head bumps into a multitude of rainbow streamers that hang down from the ceiling like delicate fairy lights. A huge cake covered in thick white icing and decorated with tiny pink roses sits in the middle of the table surrounded by brightly coloured bowls that were filled with food. There was a delicious moment for Freddie where your face washed blank with confusion, like your brain cogs couldn't turn fast enough to take in the information from your wide eyes. Every muscle of your body just froze as Brian grabbed onto you, before a grin crept onto your face. All words left you as Roger leaned down and whispered, ‘happy one year anniversary love, we couldn’t be more proud of you. Here’s to a hundred years more!’

Wrapping you into a massive hug, pressing a wet kiss against your forehead before nestling your head against his chest, Brian blows his curls out of his face as he mumbles out a very squashed ‘enjoy this day, darling, because you’ve made every day extraordinary for all of us.’ 

You open your eyes again when you feel John’s hands connect with yours, ripping you away from Brian’s grasp, his curls bopping from side to side in shakes as his laughter lines his youthful features, his cotton t shirt ruffling against his chest as his shoulders sway from side to side. As the two of you swing around, you rush past Roger who’s trainers are busy bustling up the cushions that lie on the fabric sofa, his denim jeans whooshing past as he leaps up and down upon the sofa with such childish glee on his face, and you start to become dizzy when you fly past Brian and Freddie who are having a shimmy off by the door. It was the happiest you had felt in a long time, and you couldn’t be happier to be friends with such manic boys.

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Chromatica

The Album Chromatica is Lady Gaga’s newest album. It’s a new album not only in the sense that it marks her return to being an Enigma to the general public again. But this album also uncovers how the artist behind Lady Gaga has been feeling and hopes to reach out to people. She hopes to reach out to her fans. The album its self is almost a love letter to not only Stefani the woman behind the mask of Lady Gaga. But Chromatica is an album to let others join in on her own self-love affair. Chromatica has three string arrangments that are key to dividing up the album from Resentment and depression to Entrapment and PTSD and lastly ends in a blanket of upbeat pop rhythms where Stefani assures herself that she is making an everlasting impression on not only her fans but the music industry itself. 

 I didn't ask for a free ride

I only asked you to show me a real good time

I never asked for the rainfall

At least I showed up, you showed me nothing at all

The beginning lyrics of Rain on Me by Lady Gaga and Ariana Grande form a beautiful entry to the depressive side of Chromatica after Lady Gaga drops us into Chromatica with Alice and ensuring that Chromatica runs on everlasting Stupid Love. Rain on Me is different from its predecessor in which Stefani admits that the love-filled joy trip she had has finally come to halt and she is left yet again broken-hearted. She dissects the struggle she now faces being alone and admitted by herself in interviews “A fountain of misery for tears to pour out of”(Spotify). This everlasting presence continues with the lyrics.

It's coming down on me

Water like misery

It's coming down on me

I'm ready, rain on me

We are reminded that this is the mesmeric miserable state that Gaga and Ariana are in with the lyrics but the beat in the background of Rain on me is a heavy bass and beat to carry the singers on and be able to channel that miserable energy into fighting dance styles as displayed in the music video that they both appear in. Gaga leading the front of the pink tribe and Ariana with the purple tribe. Both singers are seen in Mad Max outfits which is the setting of Chromatica. A dystopian world where all ideas are challenged and the only way to survive is to dance away the pain or love you feel. Which carries us to Ariana’s lyrics 

Living in a world where no one's innocent

Oh, but at least we try

Gotta live my truth, not keep it bottled in

So I don't lose my mind

Baby, yeah

I can feel it on my skin

It's coming down on me

Teardrops on my face

Water like misery

Let it wash away my sins

It's coming down on me

Let it wash away

 Ariana comes in with massive vocals and is able to quickly catch up to Lady Gaga in terms of performance. In an hour-long interview with Zane Lowe this was one of the hardest parts of the song for both Ariana and Gaga. Ariana reportedly felt overwhelmed and felt like she couldn’t keep with Gaga until Lady Gaga pulled her out of the booth, determined Gaga said “you are gonna sing as you’ve never done before, while I dance in the corner”. That’s exactly what happened and Ariana outdid herself with many fans and critics saying that the high notes Ariana not only hit while in the studio were astounding but the high notes she hit on the VMA’s matched up to why the duo worked so well together on this record. This now brings us to some closing lyrics

I'd rather be dry, but at least I'm alive

Rain on me, rain, rain

Rain on me, rain, rain

I'd rather be dry, but at least I'm alive

Rain on me, rain, rain

Rain on me

I hear the thunder coming down, won't you rain on me?

Rain on me

I hear the thunder coming down, won't you rain on me?

Rain on me

The final lyrics of Rain On Me show how Ariana and Gaga are prepared for any more trials to come in the future. The duo is prepared for whatever comes their way and are ready for the misery that the tears of regret and broken love may give them. Love being a recurring theme is Chromatica so far in the first section means that it won’t be overplayed and overdone as you the reader will see which is really one of my only criticisms of this album.

The next song that we’ll cover on the Chromatica album is Replay. The song Replay has a lot to do with much of Lady Gaga’s PTSD and Trauma responses to the violent attacks she suffered at 17 and 19. The middle of Lady Gaga’s album is much more of her pained past and how she chooses to come through the other end is with music. Lady Gaga heals as reported is through music. Lady Gaga reported in a Spotify/genius interview. “I refused to not allow this song to be on the album. Sure, I’m the “boss. But really chromatica cannot exist without an abstract explanation of what it’s like to be triggered if you have PTSD.”. So with the explanation of the reason why the track exists at all, it’s now to dive into the lyrics of Replay. 

Am I still alive?

Where am I, I cry

Who was it that pulled the trigger, was it you or I?

I'm completely numb

Why you acting dumb

I won't blame myself 'cause we both know you were the one 

In the beginning Lady Gaga questions if she is still alive much like how she reports in her song 911 at the beginning of the second act of Chromatica is if she is still sane and can’t escape the voices in her head during a manic episode. She again feels trapped but an outer source forcing her to relive a traumatic experience that she feels undeserving of. The questions of why does my existence amount to this, why was I the chosen out of so many people, why can’t I escape this anguish and misery. Gaga takes all of these questions and puts them as a side focus to have the answer put in front of people. Lady Gaga believes she isn’t a savior but rather looking to take the pain she’s delt and expresses it through music cause in the same interview Gaga says “ And the very thing that plagued my mind for years, trauma, is precisely the thing that now powers my lifeforce to be braver. I.e. this voice I hear- continue to make music although your brain feels it’s breaking sometimes.”. This brings us to the next set of lyrics 

Every single day, yeah I dig a grave

Then I sit inside it, wondering if I'll behave

It's a game I play, and I hate to say

You're the worst thing and the best thing that's happened to me

What Lady Gaga is trying to submit here is with her vocals radiating up and down a registry key is that she is condemning herself for feeling the pain and relieving the trauma she is experience. She continues to feel this pain and she questions is it her or the monsters that have been created in her head that force her to feel this way. She questions if she even cares about the damage being done to her mentally and physically and if she is paying the price for a much higher power for being the way she is. 

Psychologically, it's something that I can't explain

Scratch my nails into the dirt to pull me out of pain

Does it matter, does it matter? Damage is done

Does it matter, does it matter? You had the gun

You had the gun

You had the gun

You had the gun 

In the last lyrics of Replay, we the audience get a full picture described to us of how Lady Gaga is fighting the monsters in her mind and how she is trying to break free from a fire zone. A red zone in which every step causes pain and misery but Lady Gaga fights this torture by dancing and singing against it. She uses her music to help balance herself once and remind herself that she is ready to keep going and fight these monsters every time they replay.

I need you to listen to me, please believe me

I'm completely lonely, please don't judge me

In the sing 1000 Doves we get a different side of Lady Gaga, the side she’s sheltered and kept away from the world, aside she is ready to nourish and feed love again. That side of Gaga is Stefani. Lady Gaga put an alter ego in the spotlight and hid away Stefani the person and mind behind Gaga away from the world. She kept Stefani away and in this song she tells Lady Gaga she finally gets to meet the person who had the hard path and tough road to ride to fame and fortune. Stefani the woman who stuck around whenever everyone left her. Stefani endured many hard times and never got to fully understand and put into motion how her Trauma and battles against those that deposed her especially at her time in NYU Tisch. The next set of lyrics describe the passion and love that Stefani has for Lady Gaga.

When your tears are falling, I'll catch them as they fall

I need you to listen to me, please don't leave me

I'm not perfect yet but I'll keep trying

When your tears are falling, I'll catch them as they fall

In these sets of lyrics, Stefani is the singer and at the reigns. You can tell that this is Stefani coming through because she is saying she is always ready to catch Gaga’s tears as she falls apart no matter where and or why. Stefani has healed and is always ready for the net challenge. She was born ready for fame because of the humiliation she faced growing up. Misunderstood and abused was Stefani and so she took all the pain and formed an alter ego to protect from the world which is Lady Gaga. which is complex because the song seems like a love ballad to another person she vows to protect but in reality, it is a love letter to Lady Gaga from Stefani and how she is ready to combine to the two and have them heal one another.

I've been hurting, stuck inside a cage

So hot my heart's been in a rage

If you love me, then just set me free

And if you don't, then baby leave

Set me free

In these final lyrics, we get a showcase of what it was like for Stefani to finally meet the creation she helped launch into stardom. A woman she doesn’t know almost because of how long it been since shes played a role in Gaga’s life. Not since the Artpop have the two been in hand deep of creating music as Stefani has had the reigns in the last couple of years with Cheek to Cheek, Joanne, and A Star is Born. But Stefani knows the woman who brought the stardom and first captured the world’s attention which is Lady Gaga. So at the end of this song, the two recollect and remember how hard it was for Lady Gaga and Stefani to receive the credit that they’ve held onto for over a decade now.  

A thousand do-o-o-o-o-o-ves

Oh-oh

Flying, flying, flying like a thousand doves

A thousand do-o-o-o-o-o-ves

Flying, flying, flying like a thousand doves

Flying, flying, flying like a thousand doves

Flying, flying, flying

With these lyrics I abid you a good morning, afternoon, or night on our journey of Chromatica. Overall the main takeaways of Chromatica as an album are that Lady Gaga wrote this album as a self-love note much like in the ways of Ariana Grande did with sweetener, Kesha did with Rainbow, and what many artists do with self-titled albums or more depending on how long they’ve been in the music industry. But the core points to take away from Chromatica is that hardships are expected and what you can expect for Stefani or even Lady gaga to do with those hardships is to write music and dance the pain away. Either is be a traumatizing experience in Replay, a broken heart in Rain on Me, or even a question of self-worth in 1000 Doves. Gaga will and forever make music for those who feel like an underdog and had many crazy experiences.

 Links:

https://genius.com/Lady-gaga-1000-doves-lyrics

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CZXBF9t32zA

https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-features/lady-gaga-chromatica-making-of-bloodpop-axwell-1007139/

https://genius.com/Lady-gaga-and-ariana-grande-rain-on-me-lyrics

https://genius.com/Lady-gaga-replay-lyrics

[chaotic-bells]

Nice once! @whatagreatproblemtohave tagged me for this one. Thanks Anni!

Favourite colour: indigo

Last song you listened to: This Love - Taylor Swift

Favourite musician: ...this is impossible to answer. I like too many people and bands of too many genres, and comparing different genres is just unfair. I guess a strong argument could be made for Tool, since they are always in my top 3 since I was 12.

Favourite song: Again, too many genres and moods. Teardrop - Massive Attack is one of them.

Last film I watched: Don't remember, to be honest. I think it was Princess Diaries, but that's like... two weeks ago or something. I just haven't been watching too many movies.

Favourite places I’ve been: Anywhere in the Netherlands, where I lived for 5 years. I just love that country so much.

Last book I’ve finished: uhh... physical book? I think it was Rosary Girls, by Richard Montanari. Super cool serial killer/detective book.

Sweet, savory or spicy? I tried Ben & Jerry Netflix and Chill'd flavor, which is peanut butter ice cream with salty pretzel and chocolate brownie, and it was perfection. Sweet and little bits of salt. I love the combo. Like, chicken with mango chutney. That's sweet, salty and spicy. *chef's kiss*. Good food is always balanced. (I usually like salty snacks over sweet, if you really want an answer).

Sparkling water, tea or coffee? Sparkling water...unless you're talking about Peppermint tea

First thing I’ll do after quarantine: have dinner with my friends. I miss going out with the girls and catching up. Other than that, honestly think my routine is not gonna change much.

One might say I like rambling.

They would be right.

Ill tag @iii-was-stumblin @i-am-not-okay--i-promise @larrylovely and @herefortommo 😊

[reign-beaux]

For the music questions, start on question 2 then go to each 3rd question please 💁🏼‍♀️ (baso multiples of 3 but +1 😂)

You're so polite 😅 sorry this took so long, some answers changed, and the year one was tricky for me to figure out 😅😅

2. three last songs you listened to

The Right Way Around - Daughter

2 Minutes To Midnight - Iron Maiden

Davidian - Machine Head

5. three songs you wish you could forget (because listening to them hurts)

I don't think I'd ever want to forget a song (unless it was so I could listen to it for the first time again), but 3 songs that make me... Feel:

The Promise - Emma Blackery

Head Above Water - Avril Lavigne

Coming Down - Five Finger Death Punch

7. three songs you didn’t expect to like but eventually loved

Meant To Be - Bebe Rexha

Hard Times - Paramore

Lady Gaga in general

10. three favourite Halloween/spooky songs

This Is Halloween - Marylin Manson

Counting Bodies Like Sheep - A Perfect Circle

Undead Ahead 2: The Tale of The Midnight Ride - Motionless In White

13. three songs you want at your funeral

Thx Fr Th Mmrs - Fall Out Boy

City Lights - Motionless In White

Airplanes - B.O.B ft. Hayley Williams

16. three favourite songs for sex

Only had music on the once and I think it was Red Hot Chilli Peppers? I wasn't really listening to it so we'll go for that 😅

19. three songs that are your guilty pleasure

Toss A Coin To Your Witcher

2002 - Anne Marie

Hips Don't Lie - Shakira

22. three songs you listen to when you’re sad

Our Demons - The Glitch Mob (ft Aja Volkman)

My Demons - Starset

Perfect - Emma Blackery

25. three favourite songs of 2017

Eternally Yours - Motionless In White

One More Light - Linkin Park

Dreamscape - Phase One

28. three best songs to get drunk or high to

Teardrop - Massive Attack

Out Of Space - The Prodigy

The Zephyr Song - Red Hot Chilli Peppers

[judas-had-a-crown]

Star, Moon, Mars, Ursa Major :)

Waaaaah, so many asks! And so many good ones at that, thank you!

Star- What song(s) do you feel describes you?

Oh hell and back. XD I’m by nature a person that has a hard time deciding things. So this took me some more time but here.

Poets of the Fall - Drama for Life

Poets Of The Fall - Sleep Sugar

Smith & Burrows - Wonderful Life

Hozier – Sedated

Kitchen Sink – Twenty One Pilots

Art Deco – Lana del Rey

Teardrop – Massive Attack

Buy the Stars – Marina and the Diamonds

And, of course, this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TXK03FHVsHk

Moon- Are you currently reading any books? If so, what book(s)?

Already answered this one here

Mars- If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change?

*Blows rasperry* well visually wise I think I’ve reached the point where I’m like „shoulder shrug“. What I’d maybe like to change is my apparent inability to speak as fluently and eloquently as I write these same sentences down. Would save me a lot of trouble and embarrassment I tell you.

Ursa Major- If you had to pick any job to have, what job would you want?

Travel journalist, professional Let’s Player, a position in the game industry