#my current hyperfixation mixed with my hyperfixation from 2020 to 2023

[the-cat-collective]

🍏 - what’s one experience u look back on from before u knew u were a system and go “oh my god, it’s so obvious i was plural!”

Also 🍃

From a singlet doing research for a character

the fact that we NEVER had a stable identity or personality...

2019: [deadname], cis girl (she/her), queer alley, and alpaca + llama hyperfixation

2020: "Bee", non-binary (they/them), pansexual, and for some reason a pineapple hyperfixation

2021: "Ash" / "Kai" / [deadname], genderfluid, sexuality questioning, and developed a dragon + dinosaur special interest

2022: "Sammy" / "Greyson", boyflux (he/they/it), bisexual, demisexual, ambiamorous, and major interest in dinosaurs specifically. questioned DID for like a week before fakeclaiming ourselves

2023: "Greyson" (irls only called me Grey), demiboy (he/they), gay, asexual, and mild hyperfixation on wolves. started to heavily question DID again during late 2023

2024: "Ethan", transmasc, gay / sexuality questioning, polyamorous, reluctantly accepts plurality, and major interest in dinosaurs, cats, and mental disorders

2025: "Ethan" / "Cat" / "Sanity" / "Insanity" (collectively), fully aware of plurality, transmasc, omnigay, demiaroace, polyamorous, and a mix of all interests from 2021 to current date.

also the mood swings, anger issues, personality shifts, the fact that the names we used only "felt like me" sometimes, memory issues, etc. some of it is also BPD cause we developed that around 14 I thinks? (symptoms started around 2021-2022???)

bad memory so the timeline might be a little jumbled lol

for the second question. Tommy would probably survive the longest out of all of us. he functions as a survivalist when needed so he'd probably be the one to survive if we were stranded on an island.

[knots-hearing]

every time i try to put my (real) thoughts on omori on paper it feels like im ripping my fingernails off, to make another melodramatic physical pain comparison.

maybe i should disclose the current thing(s) i read eating away at me, and any other necessary details since i have nothing to really lose here. (no one whom this is about will see this post unless they do some next level obsessive shit; I’ve made sure of that.)

summary for anyone that doesn’t know the full siri lore: i played omori back in may 2023 (at the age of 16) because my friend was into it and it almost instantly infested my brain, heart, and soul. i thought it was absolute peak fiction, and also the only time i’d seen a representation of my personal struggles (in sunny). i threw myself into the fandom out of hyperfixation and thus saw a lot of according bullshit. i’ve never taken strong criticism of the media i love emotionally well, and a combination of a few certain crit posts i stumbled upon and increasingly tense drama regarding the creator gave me some deeply uncomfortable half-repressed mixed feelings about the game. my hyperfixation largely came to a stop in earlymid 2024, but these feelings remain. it’s not until the past week or so that i’ve really seen any writing-based flaws in this source material.

there’s a certain person in the omori community that’s infamous for posting lengthy, harshly worded, thoroughly maintagged essays criticizing it. their username rhymes with goodhipp. i’ve complained about their posts before, and while i usually aggressively scroll past between moving blogs, tumblr’s flawed blocking system, and not always immediately noting their username on posts i’ve been subjected to quite a few inflammatory and personally hurtful takes.

in particular, they once made a post* comparing sunny from omori (manslaughtered his beloved older sister when he was 12 in the heat of an argument; strongly intended to be sympathetic; 2020 psychological horror game in which he (and you) slowly realize this after years of repression, dissociation, and total isolation; hopefully i don’t need to elaborate on how imagery throughout the game blatantly symbolizes his remorse) to jimmy from mouthwashing (adult that raped his coworker; strongly intended to be unsympathetic; 2024 psychological horror game where you (not him) slowly realize this). they introduced the post by saying the comparison wasn’t uncalled for when one ingame image showed that sunny briefly smiled upon inspecting his rapidly dying sister (said image). the rest of the post was under a readmore and most likely a narrative comparison/critique, but obviously i didn’t read it.

i had the displeasure of reading this months and months ago, and i was mostly able to shut it out/shrug it off as a weird visual thing or shock/denial (especially since someone had previously brought it up in a somewhat less damning and accusatory context on reddit and it got responses like that). however, tonight i beat omori and seeing that particular image gave me a unique sense of misery and defeat in between an intentionally horrifying sequence. the goodhipp-invoked implication thát sunny actually wanted his sister to get hurt and just felt bad for himself after experiencing the psychological and social consequences festered in my head throughout the small remainder of the game, lowkey ruining it for me. while there’s simply no way in hell that’s even a fraction of the intended reading (and seeing the clearly unhappy unused caption for that image while pasting that link on this post reassured me of that), the image still remains and i can’t fully reassure myself of anything.

of course, it didn’t completely numb me. i winced when omori (sunny’s greyscale osdd-coded alter ego that he assumes in his dreams, and a representation of his suicidal ideation) called him a useless sicko murderer that should kill himself. i sobbed a bit when i read the lyrics to “good morning”. but it was in fact weighed down by the idea that it was all disgustingly undeserved. do you understand

*like everything else on this post, this is from a combination of vague memory and surrounding context. it’s plausible that goodhipp didn’t actually make that post, but it really checks out. this is also purely a vent post

[i-annoy-transphobes]

About me!

last updated: January 31, 2025

(revised personal info)

[changed url from corra-universe]

(she/her)

My name is Corra, welcome to my main blog.

For context about my posts, here are some things about me.

I'm a 21 yo sapphic-leaning bisexual and demisexual trans woman with autism, ADHD, anxiety, and depression. I'm from and live in the northeastern US, and I'm mixed-race with ancestry from India, Portugal, Scotland, and random parts of Western Europe.

DMs are open. I would love the attention unless you are on my DNI list.

If you know me IRL, please leave unless we've talked about it or you're ready to have your perception of me changed. (for better or for worse)

I'm currently in college, majoring in art education. I plan to become an art teacher in hopefully the school district I grew up in. One of my motivations for this is that I want to create a safe classroom environment where any student can feel welcome especially students who feel less welcome everywhere else.

I will run my blog similarly to this in that anyone who interacts in good faith is welcome. People who disrespect others' emotional, physical, or psychological safety are not allowed.

This includes but is not limited to homophobes, transphobes, TERFs, racists, ableists, pedophiles, zoophiles, and supporters of the genocide.

This is my main blog where I post/reblog whatever I want with no real pattern.

This includes things I relate to (LGBTQIA+, neurodivergence, and mental health), things I support (trans rights, #free Palestine, etc.), special interests and hyperfixations (trains, geology, various fandoms, etc.), and anything else I find interesting/enjoyable.

I will also talk about NSFW content here. Nothing visually explicit, but if you're averse to that kind of content, I suggest you go elsewhere.

If you want a more curated selection of posts, try my other blogs:

@corra-creates: random things I make, often from art classes

@corras-camera: photos and selfies

@ TBD: 18+, sexually explicit content

Other random things about me:

My favorite colors are pink and red.

I've been on E since Feb 27, 2023.

I've known I was queer since late 2020 (age 17).

I'm the oldest of 4 gay sisters

I've been playing tuba since 2021 and baritone/euphonium since 2013.

I'm currently in my college's marching, pep, and concert bands.

I was in my high school's marching band for 5 years (8th-12th grade).

I'm scared of the dark, especially in open spaces.

The farthest from home I've gone was to India to visit my dad's parents. (over 7800 miles / 12600 km)

I knew both of my maternal great-grandmothers.

My favorite type of animals is cats

I think you're really cool for reading this far!

Here are some pictures of me: