#my final project for my undergrad

[nebulousbren]

Liminal spaces

[astriiformes]

Starting to fully sink in that I have approximately three months to put together my grad school applications (closer to four at a couple schools, but still, not a ton of time). That's... closer than I thought.

Anyway, guess who's been combing back over faculty profiles at various schools to try to find folks whose interests align with mine and getting a little stressed out. I don't know how close a match someone's research interests need to be, nor do I feel entirely ready to be reaching out to grad students to ask them about their experiences so I don't end up regretting my choice.

(And of course I'm back to having doubts I can get in anywhere, but I'm still committed to trying. Just. Getting kind of stressed about it.)

Sorry in advance for how much you all will be hearing about this over the next few months. I'm kind of scared and there's a lot riding on this hopefully working out. Which I am realizing I am maybe not as collected about as I thought now that it's starting to feel real.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[femmeidiot]

earlier when I was saying bye to my favorite teacher she was so nice to me and she gave me a hug and told me to keep in touch and said she was also sad I didn't get to take more classes with her and anyway I love her so much she's been such a good teacher and I will keep in touch even if I'm a scaredy cat about it

[chromoluminary]

<- doesnt want to go to class but is being so brave abt it

[lexa-griffins]

Good luck with your thesis future Dr Bones 💕

:D thank you ☺️☺️☺️🩷🩷🩷!!!!!!!

[foyernormanchapel]

i had a friend talk about a convo she had with another white student about how young poc faculty members tend to be harsh or how they had bad experiences with young poc faculty members and this is in the context of her having a truly objectively terrible experience with an asian faculty member (intentional grade sabotage) but it was.. really awkward. like a lot of complicated issues tangled up into one..

i get it because there is the sense that young poc faculty members tend to be.. not harsh but strict? precisely because they can’t afford to be chummy since they know the students will walk over them otherwise. white tenured faculty members have the luxury of being able to be chummy and informal and still command respect, but imagine being a young untenured poc faculty-- think about all the bullshit they’ve had to go through to arrive at to this place and the extra effort they have to put in to command minimal respect. so i’ve seen young poc faculty being more formal and I totally get why they are like that.

but it still felt so weird for a white student to relay to me how another white student told them “i’ve had similar bad experiences with young poc faculty members” like... what warrants that kind of generalization? also do you not feel weird telling me a poc person in academia that? even i (an asian) would never talk that way about other poc faculty or just people in general..

she’s a good friend who bc of her queerness suffered/suffers a lot, and she is well meaning and all, but idk i guess this is where the insurmountable whiteness comes in. lowkey sad and weird

[autogeneity]

the thing about psychology studies having wack methodologies is fully true and I see it all the time but at the same time it's so fucking weird to me because like...even at like, 2nd year level at my uni if I'd submitted some shit like that in a research proposal they'd probably like call me in for a discussion lol. my psych department's standards and scrutiny was actually way higher than a lot of other departments'.

[cookinguptales]

sketchysketchin said: You’re so fucking smart for these, they’ve been so so so cool

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Thank you, that's really sweet. ;;

Honestly, I'm just happy that people are indulging me haha. I get to ramble about two subjects I really enjoy, tarot and idiotic vampires.

One of my final projects for my major was about the history and material culture of tarot, so I finally get to shake out my nerd credentials lmao. There have been a few times where I almost went on a rant about some historical/occult tidbit but I reined it in.

(You're welcome.)

That said, tarot is also a lot of fun because there is no one "right" interpretation. There are some that are more common than others, especially when working with the Rider-Smith-Waite* tarot like I currently am, but you get a lot of leeway. If I want to bend things a bit for my blorbos, it is my right. lmao

And then, I mean. You all know what I'm like with wwdits and meta. lmao. Getting me to shut up is the hard part.

So combining them both has been a really fun project. I get to draw on my academic background, I get to be creative, and -- honestly, it's a little like a puzzle? You have to move around all the pieces until they fit just right. Like you have some characters that could work for multiple arcana, depending on how you look at things, and you have to just keep moving everything around until everything is in the best place it can be with no unassigned cards or missing people.

I know these may not be quite as popular as my usual meta posts, but I'm having fun. And the people who are reading them seem to enjoy them so much that I'm having even more fun.

I had a chance to talk to Harvey a little bit at NYCC last year, and we talked about how fun it is to be in a cycle of creativity, where you make one thing and that inspires someone to make something else and that inspires someone to make something else, and so on. It's something that I believe in strongly, so I've been really happy to see the way my creative interpretations of WWDITS characters as tarot archetypes has inspired visual artists to make some really lovely and interesting art. ;;

The only other fandom I could see myself doing something like this for is Sleep No More, so like. I guess the incredibly tiny SNM fandom better watch out. I'm an academic on the edge. haha

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*I CALLED IT WHAT I CALLED IT, fight me. I have a whole rant locked and loaded about this.

[theagentoftheworld]

I was in a random twitter thread and I found my fucking boss

Like I entered a twitter thread arguing about grammar rules (as is tradition) and I was checking out what insightful discussion was happening and I saw my boss drop a random one liner on one of them

The craziest part of this is I thought to myself "oh this is 100% her kind of discussion" and I had to do a double take to make sure I wasn't on the lab chat room and I'm still processing how insane it is to find someone you know while on your online-exclusive account (second time to happen to me btw, although the first time is actually potentially indicative of a serious issue regarding privacy online) Actually, let's segue into talk about the first time. I long while ago, I made a twitter account, and as is normal, filled all my personal particulars wrong. The only irl person I ever interacted with was my friend and his account was also completely disconnected and he didn't even follow anyone. Guess who I was recommended to follow in a few days? That's right, who else but my schoolmate-slash-neighbour-slash-busmate from a few roads over!!! Until this day, I have no sweet clue how that happened-there was no location info given, and I had not interacted with any school people AT ALL. Even if location data was forcibly taken somehow, that wouldn't be enough since she was technically far enough to not be considered "in my locality". Absolutely bonkers how they found it and even assuming them as having all my information some other way isn't enough to explain it. (By the way, my only other recommends till then were various content creators)

[uwooyoungs]

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[usetheforce]

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[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[potatopersonal]

i'm about 90% done with piece one of eight for my senior portfolio 💪💪💪

[yessoupy]

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[theresa-of-liechtenstein]

saw one of my honors professors by chance while hiding from my DJ classmate and she's going to watch don giovanni at the LA opera because she knows people in the pit and she's trying to get tickets to barbiere because she knows the guy singing don basilio 😳 this woman is way too cool fr…