#my last exam is the 27th

[tickletastic]

WAKE UP WAKE UP BUCK IS BISEXUAL SHAYNE AND COURTNEY ARE MARRIED EVERYTHING IS HAPPENING TO EVERYTHING

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW

I'M LITERALLY IN THE MIDST OF EXAMS BUT EVERYTHING IS POPPING OFF RN, I literally spent all of april fool's trying to figure out if shayne and courtney ACTUALLY got married

[nutelly]

this is gonna feel like the longest month of my LIFE im going insane preemptively

[stargazerbibi]

[ 27th november, 2023 • 78/145 days of uni ]

had my last lesson before the driving exam and i have like zero faith in my ability to do roundabouts :D

went to class, read my book (i'm on chapter 20 now! two thirds of the way through!) and studied AMS for the test tomorrow. after that, worked on the AMS project some more (most of the 3rd exercise should be correctly modelled 💪)

[devilishchaos]

Shower | Jack Harlow imagine

Rating / genre: M (18+); smut, fluff

Pairings: Reader x Jack Harlow; Reader x PG

Summary: You pay a visit to Jack and the boys on tour

Warnings: Explicit smut, oral sex (m receiving), shower sex, protected vaginal penetration, Jack tries to be dominant 🤭, hair grabbing, use of pet names "baby girl", "babe", "baby", explicit talk

Word Count: 4 823 words

This is a work of fiction. The story, names, characters and incidents either are product or the author's imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events or locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

Ugh..sixty days should not have felt so long. Especially with all the exams and volleyball matches happening. Even with the busyness, you texted the group chat all the time, your boys sharing stories that had happened to them while on tour. 

It was the night after you and your team had won the cup, that you got a text from Jack, one that was in a direct message just to you.

You felt a wave of relief at the exchange. He seemed okay. He had even typed a smiley face. Cute. Maybe both of you were really going to be more at ease when you reunite. 

The groupchat went crazy the following days. You texted every day until it was the 27th already and you were getting all your stuff packed for your very early flight. 

-

You lugged yourself back to the airport, only really realizing once you were there that Jack had upgraded you when he was booking the flight – something you'd scold him for later. But in the meantime, you figured you may as well enjoy the flight, maybe even try to get some sleep. He’d arranged for a driver to pick you up at the airport and bring you straight to the apartment he shared with his team members. It made most sense for you to stay there since there was always a free bed with the boys constantly coming and going.

It was late in the day when you got in, shuffling around the massive airport to find your way through customs and baggage. And you allowed yourself to feel a little special at least, when you walked down the ramp and searched through the sea of drivers holding up name cards, finding the one with yours on it and approaching him with a smile.

He took your luggage and carry-on bag and directed you out, politely asking how your flight was.

When you slid in, you felt a presence next to you indicating you were not alone in the back of the black SUV, you startled to a halt before closing the door, slightly turning and blinking at a very excited Jack that was seated in the seat next to yours. You smiled widely.

“Hi! Oh my god! Come here.” you yelped as you slid across the seats and snuggled up into his chest, his adorable laugh becoming music to your ears.

“Good surprise?”

“Oh my god, great surprise. Ahh, I’m so happy to see you.” you told him quickly before taking his cheeks in your hands and kissing him right on the mouth.

He laughed when you pulled back but that didn’t last long, you meeting his lips again, this time a bit more sensually unable to help yourself. You’d missed this closeness. Damn, you wanted him already and it had been less than a minute.

Snuggling up close to him, you allowed your mouths to move against each other for a bit, delicately tasting your tongue with his, before he pulled back, eyes looking down at the rest of you.

“Buckle up. But stay here.” he told you, his hand on your hips stopping you from sliding back to the side you’d gotten in.

You did so, smirking up at him, then let your hands wander over him, thumbs tracing over his gorgeous face and fingers getting lost in his wild hair. A little short on the sides and messy curls at the top of his head, slightly longer than the last time you'd seen him in person. 

He could tell you were eyeing him for a hot second, an eyebrow quirking up at you smugly.

“You look good. Too good.” You eyed him suspiciously. “How did you get sexier in a matter of two months?”

He let out a deep laugh, his arm coming around your shoulder, prompting you to cuddle up next to him, your hand finding its place on his thigh.

“So, you approve of the hair?”

“Very much so. You look gorgeous.” The breath that came out with the compliment was borderline embarrassing.

He wore black new balance sweats and a matching hoodie. Damn, he looked fucking good in all-black. What a snack.

“You just got off a 19-hour flight and still look this good so..I think I’m the lucky one.” he replied, his lips curling up as he eyed you sideways.

“Mm, I feel a little gross. I need a shower when we get to your place. Feel free to join if you’d like.” you added, letting your voice drop a little. The driver probably didn’t need to hear all of this.

He looked at you with a tilt to his head, a darkness falling over his eyes. “Fuck yes.” He started to smile. “Are you kidding me? As if I’m going to say no to that?” he played, his hand dipping inside your jacket to dig at your ribs softly, earning a laugh from you.

You pulled him into you again, taking whatever you could for now even though it wasn’t nearly enough.

His hand gripped onto your hoodie at your side and it wasn’t long before his fingers were slipping underneath all your layers to find your skin. His touch felt amazing against your skin, fingers lightly scratching down towards your hip, fiddling with the waistband of your sweats. 

“Can't wait to have you all to myself.” he whispered against your lips and you pulled back a bit to meet his eyes.

“Yeah?” you asked, letting the back of your knuckles caress his cheek, then down along his jaw, his trimmed beard slightly scratching against you.

“Yeah. But the boys can't wait to see you also so I might have to wait a little.” he said with a chuckle before planting another kiss on your lips. 

Surely, he was able to hear the shaky sigh you let out in his ear as you practically shuddered against him. Then you were moving to his neck, nipping at whatever skin you could see, trying to pull the top of his hoodie a little bit down and get more of his neck.

“God, how far away are we?” you complained pathetically and he laughed, turning his head to look out the window.

“Like another 15 minutes.”

You groaned, sitting back in your seat, his arm still around you, as he played lazily with your hair.

As the two of you sat in a comfortable silence, looking forward as the buildings flew past, your hand stayed on his thigh, squeezing it every once in a while as if to check if he was actually real.

When the car finally started to slow down, you looked out through the tinted windows, taking in the building that you assumed were staying in, as you got closer.

“So, who’s here right now?” you asked as you two stepped in the elevator.

“Just Urb and Cope but the others are coming over soon I think. We loaded up the fridge with food so we’ll probably all have a late dinner together.” he said as you stepped out on their floor, coming face to face with a large door, which he unlocked. “Are you hungry now? We can get you a snack.”

“Y/N?” you heard an echo through the space then the two men were coming into view from around the corner and rushing to you. Jack brought your carry-on in as Urban pulled you into a cozy hug.

“Urbyyy! I’m here.” you told him excitedly, the words getting lost in his shoulder. He slightly rocked you left to right before pulling back with a goofy grin.

“Come in, come in. Welcome to the PG cave.”

“Cave?” you said with a laugh, taking in the huge windows and super clean, modern style of the place. “Yeah, okay, sure.”

They showed you around the main floor consisting of the kitchen, living area, two bedrooms and bathrooms on either side.

“So, apparently I’ve been kicked out of my room so you’ll be in here.” Urban explained with a tap on the door frame of the bedroom at the end of the hall.

“Ooh, I get my own room? Fancy.” you said playfully, looking inside to see the king bed with your bag already on it. The room was really nice with its clean neutral colors and large windows on one side. 

"Ha ha. Bold of you to assume that you would get rid of us that easily. But no. Jack and I shared this room but now that you are here I am no longer wanted." 

“Where are you sleeping?” 

“I’ll go and do my thing. We’re never usually all here anyway.”

“Probably gonna go and hit the clubs so we will see what comes in our direction ” Cope added, hands in his pockets.

You flung yourself at him, realizing you hadn’t given him a proper hello. “Hi.” you squealed as you wrapped your arms around him, a smile plastered on your face.

He laughed at the force of your embrace, leaning back against the hallway wall as he hugged you. “Hi, Y/N. How was your flight?” 

“It was good.” At the memory of your flight, your voice changed slightly. “Too good. You mister were supposed to book me in economy!” you turned around and looked at Jack who was leaning against the kitchen counter watching you, scolding him. 

He just smirked at you, giving you a cheeky little head tilt. So damn cute, that you couldn’t actually be annoyed.

“I’m still paying you back.”

“Sure you are.”

“I am!”

He raised his eyebrows, shrugging, voice all low and confident as he said “You can try all you want.”

“She’ll find a way.” Urban added in cheekily before laughing.

A little flustered at the insinuation, you stepped away from Cope to push against Urban's chest playfully but you were laughing too.

He just pushed back, immediately becoming a kid before your very eyes, face lighting up at you initiating the rough-housing. “Be nice.” he teased.

“You be nice.”

“No, you!”

“Okay, children, that’s enough.” Jack came in between you two, touching Urban on the shoulder and directing him back towards the kitchen.

He sent you a provoking look over your shoulder as he moved away, ready to fight; it just made you laugh and roll your eyes. Silly boy.

“We’re going to get started on some food. The others should be here soon. Wanna help?” he asked Jack as he passed him but he quickly shook his head.

“We both need a shower..I think.” He managed to get it out straight-faced but once the other two reacted, Urban smirking and Cope letting out a loud “Ha!", he quickly broke into his wide smile, ears turning pink. Wrapping himself around you, he hid his head in your neck as he walked you backwards into the room, letting go only once the two of you were hidden in his- your room.

By the time you’d set down your stuff and started to undress, Jack already had the hot water running, beginning to steam up the bathroom. And then his hands were on you, exploring your body from behind as he lifted your t-shirt straight off you.

You watched in the mirror as his neck craned down to be able to kiss along the top of your shoulder, fingers finding the waistband of your sweats and pulling them down without paying them any mind, his eyes closed, focused on leaving warm kisses on your skin.

Breath picking up, you angled your head away allowing him access to your neck as you shimmied your pants down your hips, not wanting to lose the contact even for a second. Then his hands were trailing up your sides onto your back to unhook your bra, dropping it onto the pile as well.

He barely had to do anything to turn you on – just looking at him in the car had been enough. But now, here, watching his tall figure standing behind you as he took you in, completely enraptured by kissing every inch that he could get to, you were so done for.

You stepped back to bring your bodies against each other, needing to feel more of him. 

“Jack..” you breathed out as you tilted your head back onto him. Letting your hips move in tiny circles against him, your hands wandering back and resting on his hips, holding him there to become the pole you were dancing against. “Baby..” Though quiet, there was a bit more of a whine in the word this time, telling him you needed more than just his lips.

“Mhm?” he sounded, pulling your hair up into a ponytail and holding it in one hand out of his way as he came up your neck and kissed along your jaw, using his grip to turn your head back towards him.

“Was sixty days not long enough for you?” You had meant it to tease him but it just came out desperate.

He chuckled as he let his other hand glide down the front of your body then let it dip between your legs with the lightest touch.

Immediately you opened them a little wider, hips pushing forward in need of his touch. You let out the quietest pained moan before you decided you needed to take matters into your own hands, turning around as he held onto your hair, trying not to tug too hard.

Right away, you were pulling his sweats down, pleased at the sight of a tent in his boxers and even more pleased once they were off as well, his perfectly thick cock hard and ready for you.

He may have been keeping his composure in the moment but he’d let it slip in the car how desperate he was for you. You could understand; you somehow still hadn’t had him inside of you to this point and you were dying for it.

But seeing him in this position..he was practically begging for your mouth.

You knelt in front of him, your hands on the front of his thighs. “Take your shirt off.” you ordered, not even looking up at him as you began kissing below his belly button on his happy trail, inching lower and lower with each wet kiss. Only once he was good and naked did you let your tongue slide over the side of his cock from base to tip, repeating it slowly on the other side, then underneath. The weight of him on your tongue, in your mouth..was so good, the way he twitched with each motion you made, restrained groans and sighs attempting to come out, only making you more wet by the second.

Finally, you took him in, allowing the saliva to accumulate to form a warm wet suction around him as you sunk down. The guttural groan he released made you smirk around him.

“Fuck, I love the sounds that you make.” you told him as you pulled off him for a moment before repeating the motion, this time taking him farther in and sucking a little harder as you pulled back up, twisting slightly around his cock and allowing your tongue to flick against the underside as you moved.

“Y/N.” he groaned, his hand gripping your hair tighter. “Stop. You’re gonna make me come too fast.”

Fuck, he sounded so goddamn hot. There was not a chance you were going to listen, bobbing up and down a few more times, making sure to do exactly what you knew got that reaction out of him before he was pulling your head back forcefully, pulling you up and aiming your face up at his stern one.

“What did I say?”

“You said to stop.” you told him keeping eye contact, not an ounce of timidness present.

“Why didn’t you?” He leant forward slightly, coming closer to you.

“Because I didn’t want to.”

“That’s not a very good answer.” He gave you a disapproving look though you didn’t believe it for a second.

You just bit your lip, smirking up at him.

“Get in the shower.” He released your hair with a touch of roughness before he helped you up, directing you to the shower door with a hand on your ass.

You did as he asked, wetting your body, as he fumbled around opening cabinets, you assumed in search of a condom.

“Now, are we being bratty? Or are we being good today?” he asked you when he returned, stepping inside the shower to join you.

Mmm, the eternal question. There really was no wrong answer.

“I like sucking your dick and I like making you come in my mouth. Does that make me good or bad?” you challenged with a smirk, stepping closer to him in the shower so that your breasts were pressed up against his chest and his cock was against your lower tummy.

He swallowed thickly. Then he was sliding his arms around your sides, down to cup your ass, pulling you harder against him. “I want to fuck you. And I can’t do that if you’re being greedy and taking only what you want.”

“You want to be inside me? Fill me up with your cock?” you taunted him, letting your voice become a little lower. Then, leaning closer, you whispered “Take whatever you want.”

With a low moan, he sunk his fingertips into the roundness of your ass, his nails digging in slightly, lips coming to the side of your neck to leave kisses, only for them to be immediately washed away by the water. 

“God, I want you so bad.” he muttered against your skin, the words sounding like curses, just loud enough for you to hear above the sounds of the shower. “Fucking missed you.” He kissed again before adding “We all did.”

You smirked at the correction, pulling back to see his face as you let your fingers slide through his wet locks. “Oh, really?”

“Mhm.” he hummed, looking you up and down as he slid his bottom lip through his teeth.

“Good to know I left a lasting impression.” You smirked at him, allowing your eyes to take him in similarly. He was so fucking handsome just standing there, pressed up against you, water dripping from his hair, down over his collar bones and strong shoulders. 

He chuckled as his hands adjusted their grip on you, moving you slightly so he was able to maneuver his length between your legs and slip his tip teasingly over your wetness, eyes cast down to watch his own motions. “You don’t have to worry about that. I don’t think I went a day without thinking about you.”

You were finding it difficult to focus on his words with the way the head of his dick was now rubbing way too lightly through your wet folds and making you ache for him.

“Jack..” you breathed in close to his ear, already begging, your cheeks warming at how easy it was for him to turn you to putty in his hands.

“Yes, baby?” he asked so sweetly, his cock suddenly pushing up against your sensitive bud harder, brushing side to side, causing tiny shocks of pleasure to run through you.

“I need you so bad.”

“Ah, my needy girl.” he admired and your heart skipped a little at the affectionate possessiveness of it.

You nodded into his neck, your leg lifting without much thought, toes perching onto the thin ledge at the side of the shower.

“I would drag this out more. But just this once..” he trailed off as he slowly pushed into you, one hand gripping firmly at your thigh to help lock you into place.

Together, you let out matching groans at the feeling of him stretching you open in the best way possible, your walls so tight around him despite how wet and ready you were for him. Yes, fuck. Finally.

You found his lips, simultaneously grabbing him tight around the hips to pull him closer, letting his cock bottom out inside you. It was a lot, maybe a touch too much, but fuck, did it feel amazing to have his perfect dick filling up every inch of you, any pain from him being too deep just adding to the sensation.

He let out a moan in your mouth before pulling back to look into your eyes. For a moment, he almost appeared concerned, his eyes big, brows slightly creased together, but that was quickly dashed, once he saw the lustful look in your eyes telling him he didn’t need to be too delicate.

“Shit..” he said shakily, letting the word draw out a bit, his gaze dropping down between you two to watch as he slowly withdrew before pushing again into the tight warmth between your legs. “Y/N you feel fucking amazing.” He clung onto you, using the hand not holding onto your thigh to hook over your shoulder, hand on the back of your neck, directing your foreheads to meet.

“Fuck, J..” you moaned in agreement with him. You knew he’d feel good but, good God. As he slowly began to pick up his pace, the delicious drag of him as he drove in and out making you wince in pleasure, you found yourself thinking that you never want to leave. The "cave", the shower, him.

Despite his broad shoulders blocking the direct path of the water, the steam that had filled the bathroom matched with the heat emanating from him and kept you perfectly warm. You couldn’t stop the moans from spilling out of you against his cheek and along the line of his jaw, against his lips and into his mouth when he’d open them to let out a groan at your tightening around him.

If you’d been thinking about the fact that Cope and Urban could possibly hear you, the thought went away quickly when he turned both of you, pressing your back flat up against the wall of the shower and taking the weight of your leg onto his arm so he could fuck into you harder, a deep grunt coming out each time he bottomed out inside.

“Mmh– Fucking me so good.” you praised, head falling back against the wall, exposing your throat to his hot kisses.

The words ‘oh my god’ probably fell from your mouth countless times, him feeling somehow bigger and harder as you continued. Holding tightly onto him with one hand, you let the other find your clit between your wet bodies to begin rubbing over it, your fingers getting smashed between your pelvises with each thrust. From the pace he was keeping now and his focused face, you could tell he was as close as you were.

“Jack..” you let out in a rushed breath “I’m close.”

“Baby, want you to come on my dick.” he gritted out into your neck.

“I’m gonna come on your dick.” you echoed, the husky quality of his voice working to edge you closer. “You gonna come for me too? Ahh– fuck.” Your eyes flew shut as he hit you just right. “Come for me, please, baby.” you mumbled, once, twice, three times. You could barely focus on what you were saying as he picked up his speed even more, fucking into you so good that you could hardly speak without a moan coming out between each word. 

“Gonna come for you.” He could barely get the words out either, his breathing laboured.

“Yes, please–” you squeaked out, your fingers rubbing so fast at your clit as you dangled on the edge of bliss. “Fuck, Jack.” you cursed as you felt your whole body clench.

“Fuck– fuck!” he swore, feeling you squeezing him and then he was coming, and you were coming, and nothing could’ve stopped the sounds that poured out, holding each other so tightly. It was a damn good thing that their "cave" was pretty big.

“Oh my goood.” you breathed out as you finally started to come down, your voice beginning to tremble along with your limbs.

With a few more curse words being uttered, he was still coming, his pelvis pushed so tightly to you that you felt like he was pressed right up against your cervix.

You tilted your head back against the shower wall, only now becoming aware of the hot water hitting your shoulder and how the tiles felt slightly cool against your arm as you moved it to the wall to stabilize yourself.

“Babe..” he hummed, a desperate wonder in his voice. His eyes were still closed when he lifted his head from your shoulder, chest still heaving. Finally, they fluttered open, letting you take in his fully lust-drunken state. Being responsible for him looking that fucked out was highly satisfying.

He quickly released your thigh as you began to move, slipping out of you as you placed your foot back to the ground. Still he kept you pinned to the wall, his lips finding yours in a slow yet intoxicating kiss. His hot tongue traced against yours lazily, much like how his hands were now slowly grazing up your sides, gentle and soft.

“Shit. I fucking love your body.” he told you once he’d disconnected your lips, fingers still caressing at the skin just below your breast.

“I fucking love yours.” you teased back, allowing your hands to drift over the ripples of his form. “I’ll wash yours, if you wash mine?” you suggested, moving the two of you slightly so that you could actually make use of the water, wetting the rest of your body to get rid of the grime left from your travels.

“I guess I can do that.” He gave you a cute smile before looking down to remove the condom, tying it tight and stepping out onto the mat momentarily to drop it in the bin.

Meanwhile, you soaped up your hands so you could begin to lather him once he was back inside, fully enjoying running your hands over every inch of his sculpted body.

-

Jack had left the room before you. After a few minutes of trying to make yourself look presentable, you made your appearance, quietly slipping out of the door and walking towards the kitchen. As soon as you heard Sunni’s voice, you moved a little faster through the archway, a wide smile pulling onto your face as you took him in, lounged sideways in an armchair with his legs thrown over one side.

“There she is.” Urban said brightly upon seeing you, pulling the attention of all the others as you approached. Cope and 2fo were in the kitchen while Jack sat the table in the middle and the others were scattered across the couches.

“Hi!” You were unsure where to go first but thankfully you didn’t have to decide as Sunni, Shloob and Ace Pro all got up to welcome you, coming at the same time to battle for an embrace between the three of them.

Sunni won his place first, pulling you to him and using his strength to lift and twirl you in a hug. “So happy you’re here!” he said as he placed you back down, only for you to be swallowed up by Shloob and Ace Pro at the same time before you could even respond.

Pulling them in close, you let yourself suffocate in their hold, your smile so wide it was practically painful. “God, I missed you guys so much.” you told them with a sigh as you all slowly loosened your grips but kept your arms around each other. “This feels so good.” With another squeeze, you leaned your head onto Shloob’s shoulder, making it clear that their affections were very much a big part of what you’d been missing.

“So good.” he agreed happily as he turned his head and kissed the top of your damp hair.

After a moment, you wriggled out of their grasp to move to the kitchen, approaching 2fo as he was fixing himself a plate. 

“Fooooo.” you whispered with a hint of a smirk on your lips and he gave you a tiny smile as he turned to you, putting down the dish and wiping his hand quickly on a towel on the counter.

His arms immediately wrapped around you as you pressed your face to his shoulder. Warm hands traced comfortingly across your back. 

“Your flight was ok?” Sunni asked, pulling your attention though 2fo didn’t move an inch. 

“It was good, yeah.” you told him from where you were locked in place.

“Had a nice shower too?” Ace Pro asked and you could already hear the smile in his voice before you even lifted your head to look towards the guys, finding him leant against the dining table, a mischievous grin on his lips.

Jack leaned over to smack him lightly on the shoulder, making his smile go wider as all of you chuckled.

“It was such a nice shower.” you exaggerated with a cocky nod.

[acoraxia]

I told my professor I wasn’t going to be able to take my Bio final exam due to being out of the country for a funeral… and she proceeded to tell me to either “find time or take it during the Summer”.

That was last week. Awesome.

My college sent me some financial notice today at 12am that I didn’t complete my term (because I failed the class. Because of the exam. Because i was at the funeral.) So they’re withholding the money… and I’m like… cool… so I have to fill out an appeal form for them explaining why I was unable to finish my term and meet up with my advisor for a complete course plan except I can’t book an appointment with my advisor until MAY 27TH.

So I emailed him asking for some help but oh my god just let me take my EXAM SO I CAN PASS MY CLASS AND KEEP GOING TO CLASS!!!

[ckmstudies]

September 27th:

20 minuets under five hours. I think this is a really poor showing of how much I could've gotten done considering studying is the only thing I've been doing. I woke up late and then studied for three hours straight and then took the worlds longest break to sit on the couch and stress while watching youtube and then got back to work. This isn't going to cut it and I know that but I can't seem to make myself do anything. I'm giving myself time to do other things like read and watch youtube too but in the long run I should be able to do more studying than this. Anyways, I've completed another module of the final review and I've started the next one but I'm lagging behind so much. I really like the index cards but I'm thinking of giving up on them and just rereading the book over and over in the hopes it sinks in. Idk anymore. And the next grouping of modules is all formulas based and I know I don't know them. I think at this point I'm just going to accept that I'm going to have to take this exam again. That is if there's enough time since they're discontinuing it at the end of the year. As one of my friends put it: its not a matter if I'll get my license but when.

Today's accounting topic: A horizontal business combination is when companies in the same industry join under single management while a vertical business combination is a combination of companies at different stages of a production cycle combining together.

Other activity: I'm really really enjoying the book I'm reading. Its over 600 pages long and I'm with in the last 100 pages and its really picking up and I can't wait to go read it for about an hour before bed!

[bread-lemons-and-shame]

I’m sorry about the fic

I said how I would post a nutcracker Wally x reader fic but I have been so swamped with work and stressed about school. I failed writing and I don’t know if my mom will kill me. I have to write an essay to a collage because the one I was planning as would go to closed. My Latin Exam is due on the 27th.

I feel like my world is falling apart and that something will happen that will be my last straw. I feel so guilty that I didn’t finish the fic before Christmas. I know exactly what to write for the fic but I don’t know if anyone would care since it will be after Christmas. So y’all can vote can vote if you want the finished fic this and the next month or next Christmas.

[spikeisawesome456]

Oh!! I forgot to mention, but those of you who read my tags (sorry, not sorry for the length of them) might have seen me talking about not writing my thesis, or needing to finish my thesis, etc. etc.

WELL!!! I thought I'd let y'all know that not only have I finished writing it, but my professor didn't think it needed any revision and thought I did a great job, so I have officially finished my last core class of graduate school!!

Now, I still have to finish my second internship, as well as take my Praxis exam (the required exam I need to take to get my school counseling credential), but other than that I'm finished with my Master's degree! I even applied for graduation today, but I don't know if I can graduate without the credential, so we'll see. But I'm scheduled to take the Praxis exam on the 27th, and I should be done with my internship by mid-March at the latest. So... I'm almost there!!! :-D

[sadviko-off]

I realized late that I didn’t take the best canvas size, but there was already something to do....

At night it’s not convenient to draw in the dark on your phone.... I decided to draw something + - festive)...

at the same time info:

- I failed one of two exams, and therefore I will have almost no vacation

- On the 27th I have my second and last exam, so I might be completely lost for a couple of days

- I plan to create a separate account for the project, as soon as I have time and the account itself I will publish a post about it

- I have a lot of plans, but I don’t know what I’ll have time...

So, with the important information out of the way, Merry Christmas everyone! 🎁🎉🎄

[justmywriting1313]

i am so sorry like i am not trying to rush u or anything at all 😭😭 but are u ever gonna do a part 2 for the 'taken for granted' msby fic? i am just genuinely asking cuz i love the angst so much

Helluuuu anon!!

First of you aren’t rushing and thank you for being polite (unlike some other messages I have gotten) and apparently to the relief of many of you I do plan on posting it!! Just not anytime soon because…well life…

I had like the general start of the fix done and was planning on moving onto the actual like grovelling and for lack of better word reconciliation before Uni started kicking my ass. Especially this last term cause I have 5 courses one which is a stats course and if I could pay someone to do it for me I would… like that’s how bad I am at it and so all my writing has taken a back burner… 😭😭

Long story short: I do plan to post it just not anytime soon! Most probably in may ish cause my exams end 27th and then I need to sleep (since I haven’t in like days/ months)

I am really greatful for everyone’s patience and hopefully I will live up to everyone’s expectations for it!! ❤️❤️🥹

[learningsanctum]

April 27th, 2024

Do you remember when OG "it girl" François de La Rochefoucauld went "perfect valor is to do, without a witness, all that we could do before the whole world" and it changed planet Earth's very core for generations to come? Me too.

Lately I have been trying to up my game on the company I work. Currently I have temporary contract but it does have a promise of promotion depending on my performance and, as most people would, I thrive on this promise. Which is why I'm so far away from my comfort zone - that would be law books, hiiiii law! - researching for books such as "How to Become a Successful and Valuable Executive for Companies" in the administration hub.

Although I think I look a little ridiculous reading those books - because they honestly look fake or one of those authors who just throws shitty advices on a book to earn an extra with the publication - I'm honestly giving those a chance. Maybe they can teach me something! I'm all for learning more so if it's learning something you shouldn't be doing! What if the book is just shitty in essence? Then I will have backhand experience to identify a shitty book when I first star reading it and see it's essence is similar to the last "bad" book I read.

I like to think that everything we do is constructive. "For better or for worse" is something I apply but with motivational undertones so i can channel it into something positive!

I'll soon complete three months working at this company and it's a "big girl job" per say. It's an international company that has a gamma of possibilities for growth and literally can take me to unexpected places if I manage a promotion, which, for someone like me who dreams of seeing the world would be a nice bonus not to mention a dream come true.

However, my dreams aren't merely limited to company growth but if I manage it will be something that will make me feel good and what are we on this Earth for if not to appreciate little pleasures in life?

Since I can remember I have this will to work on an office and be part of something bigger than me. This company aligning with my principles, such as it being environmental conscious and caring for it's workers - I work at HR so I have first hand experience - is the most awesome part of going to work everyday.

In my life plan - which I believe haven't changed much since I was a teen - all of it's goals are constructive, long term and take time to complement each other. When I say I intend to do five years of law only to enroll on temporary (eight years) navy service people tend to say I want very different extremes and I simply can't see it this way.

Corporative life is part of my life but I don't necessarily want it to be all my life! I believe new experiences and a change of scenario can always do good. Also that people make decisions based on the options they have at hand at the time they are picking. Sometimes what you want is not on the table thus why you have to come up with a plan to make it an option. That can take years. That's when we start outlining long and short term goals for ourselves.

I, for an example, had a dream of coming out of high school and doing medicine, with a specialization in psychiatrics later on in mind. The human mind always fascinated me! But as all of us know it isn't that easy to get into law and because of a ton of life-changing problems I had in high school I couldn't really focus on passing the exams to get into public universities. So I applied for law which was my second option and am rolling with it since then. It doesn't mean I gave up medicine. Of course it doesn't!

Carefully I analyzed my options and build a plan from there, always taking into consideration the areas which I have more affinity and seeing how and why they could complement each other. That's the conclusion of months of research and pondering: I would finish law so I could apply to the temporary navy service (TNS) as an Official rather than the lower rank, which will give me a bigger monetary return, allowing me to live with easy and simultaneously saving a good amount so when I finish the TNS I can enroll on an international medicine university and sustain myself while living there.

Of course those are the main goals connecting with each other and people often fail to see the process. What I mean is that in the five years it takes me to graduate I will be studying and training to pass on the military exam and while I'm at navy I will be studying Spanish so I can enroll on my dream med university.

Once, upon telling a colleague about my plans, she said, and I quote, "it is okay for you to want to be the Barbie: a thousand and one jobs" but she also added "you just gotta make sure to have your goals set on stone so when difficult comes you can keep yourself on your toes and focused on the goal" and that's the best advice I have gotten so far.

When people tell for you to work in silence they mean it most sincerely because most of those around you won't understand your plans and, even unknowingly, will demotivate you. Sometimes it seems crazy and most of times it really is but its not impossible and it's exclusively on you how far you will go to achieve your dreams by transforming them in plans and following through and through.

"Work in silence" isn't supposed to be bitter or trendy but is simply stating people don't have the same world view as you, so you won't make sense to them most of times and - good news - you don't need to! They aren't bad for not understanding though. They just have a different color pallet of lens to see the world and it's fine.

Don't give up on something because it doesn't makes sense. Make sense out of your nonsense if it's the true call of your heart.

[sunmiyane]

My grandma, who has literally never used Google in her life, finds me XXL pajamas in store, and all of them have pockets!! Pajamas with pockets, I can't even find jeans my size in stores so pockets I don't even think of...

I told her that the pan and casserole she got me for Christmas are the best I've ever used and that I still haven't burned anything despite adhd sometimes taking over and that I mainly adore them bc they go on the stove as well as in the oven... and so last Saturday, when we went to the Netherlands, she had some more because "what if you get manic and cook like you do in those moments but you only have 2 favorite pans?"... and I was floored bc she mentioned one of my coping mechanisms without any judgment apart from me not having enough utensils to make it through that moment....

I told her that I always felt nasty in my back bc I can't reach all the way since my shoulder injury so I feel like one side is always bad but that I can't find the same one she used to wash us with when we were kids and that using hers is a bit "🥴" and that others just aren't for sensitive skin and she just said "oh it's bc they come from that specific shop in the Ardennes, I'll buy you a few when I go" and in the meantime she gave me her spare one!?

Meanwhile, my mom, who never got along with her, will get mad every year bc she does always misses my birthday by one day (I honestly think that she really believes I was born on the 27th bc that's when she got the call since I arrived so late on the 26th)... now my birthday isn't near, I still have like 11 weeks to go, but I was reminded of all those not so little things my grandma remembers bc my mom has said that we weren't going to her house this year to celebrate her birthday bc my sister who left the house last December and hasn't contacted anyone since so she could be in her relationship "happily" (which led my mom in a deep depression) has decided to contact her today and told her she would be in town that weekend... so all of the nuclear family "has" to welcome her and "be nice" bc she'll bring her bf and they're staying 4 days... 2 of which are exams day for my little brother as if he wasn't stressed enough already and 1 of which is as y'all probably understood my grandma's birthday...

I didn't want to express the rage I'm currently feeling toward my mom bc it's intense and it could trigger most so I chose to mention 3 things my grandma has done for me over the course of the last few months and now I feel better...

To anyone who read through all that... sorry, but it had to come out one way or the other, and this is the nice one.

[stargazerbibi]

[ 27th march, 2024 • DAY 45/145 ]

turned in the projects and mostly chilled/slept

-> classes (total: 3h00)

-> volleyball practice (total: 1h30 - went well)

[ 28th march, 2024 • DAY 46/145 ]

took today off cause my brain is still mush :3

-> had lunch with my brother and my aunt

-> went shopping (got a really cute summer dress and a nice jumper)

-> watched one piece ep 86-89 with a friend

-> called a friend i hadn't talked to in a while

[ 29th march, 2024 • DAY 47/145 ]

last day where i'll be taking a break. going to start studying for my exams tomorrow! not feeling too bad about them cause i did understand everything during class and the projects are behind my back so all good!! (hopefully)

-> had lunch with my brother, my aunt and my grandma again (didn't like what i ordered ;-; but could tell it was really good ;-;)

-> played a bit more of 13 Sentinels: Aegis Rim (it's so much fun cause every character is just as confused as i am about what's happening)

-> cleaned my room

[calculatedliterature]

Sunday, November 27th

The last day of Thanksgiving break. This lovely little break has been so good for me. It has allowed me to work ahead on some homework (wrote a 9 page paper, hope to finish a 20 page paper today, and potentially submit another grad school application) as well as rest in anticipation of finals.

There are 11 school days left of the semester before exams. So much left to do! On top of the remaining problem sets that will be assigned this week and next week, I have to submit the last of my grad school applications that are due in December (some will wait for January), finish my portfolio for this one class that doesn’t have exams but instead has us submit our work at the end of the year with a self-evaluation, and practically learn all of Probability, because I’m totally lost in that class. And, of course, I still have some readings to do for my English lit course.

The end is near, though. I’m looking forward to seeing this to-do list completed.

[natsarrownecklacx]

My exams start tomorrow. They last until the 27th and I really just don’t wanna. Because no and yuck and just no thank you.

[stillreeloading]

90 days of productivity - 58, 59, 60, 61, /90

26th november 2023, Sunday

58/90

It was an okayish day. I did some biology notes

i didn't do my laundry or anything though. Also, i stayed up late (despite hoping to go to sleep by 11).

27th november 2023, Monday

59/90 did more of bio notes and some revision. was kinda an unproductive day, honestly. I woke up late and also slept late. also, i did my laundry! Also checked out some examples related to personal statement for technical report writing.

28th nov tuesday

60/90 okayish day. I spent some time in the library and watched engineering graphics videos. I figured out that personal statement (the topic i checked out yesterday) isn't there for the endsem exam :/ I also did a little bit of biology today. AND oh my god! I bought this notepad kinda thing and i just, really like it. I'll post a picture of it sometime.

29th nov wednesday

61/90 woke up late and missed my first class on my own will. I just didn't feel the energy to go. I also skipped breakfast. I had to go to the lab though. It was the last computer lab and no matter how bad it makes me feel about myself, I have to go. It's inevitable. As usual, I felt shitty about myself during the lab. However, one of my lab partners sort of helped me out and explained things to me so that was good. I came back and ranted to my friends about lab.