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[meeeemilfyway]

ULTIMATE GET YOUR LIFE TOGETHER THREAD

So this is a tribute // fanfic?? Of an old thread “life hacks to adult effectively” by i believe deadly little Kate

Anyways i could only find screenshots of this thread so lets make a updated list and start f*cking life for once!!

Key:

() who its by

[🛸] my update , purple writing

I think numbered makes it easier to keep track of list

Resources:

1- 32 is deadly little Kate

1. Even if you get along with family you’ll be even better after moving out

2. Generic is almost = to name brand

Exception :

- peanut butter [🛸] you can make

-ketchup [🛸] you can make

-Liquid NyQuil

-chips a hoy chewy

-spaghetti sauce [🛸] you can also make this

3. At least once your card will decline for something as little as 20$. No one will judge its okay to have 3$ in your bank we’ve all been there

4.thrift stores

[🛸]esp for books

5. Everyone also is anxious, too anxious to worry about you boo

6. You will screw up a lot. Live & learn . What’s done is done move on

7.do dishes before an ecosystem grows

[🛸]even if you soak in hot soapy water walk away, you did something

8.dawn cant go in dishwasher

9.cart surfing is cool anywhere anytime

10.15% tip

11.easy way you might be able to get food is by parents or grandparents

12. endure the sucky days of life

[🛸]i write a vent diary , then write either

-> positive from it

->transmute (transform) that energy

13.in lightbulbs 60w is not interchangeable w/ 40w

14. $ store batteries = any brand

15. Reward yourself

Pay a bill? -> go to coffee bean [🛸]its way better than Starbucks, trust

16.buy bulk food:

- rice

-flour

[🛸] get wheat berries, and buy a cheap mill so the flour wont rot

-sugar

[🛸]brown sugar is white sugar + molasses , store with a piece of bread to keep from hardening

-cheese

-eggs

[🛸]get quail!! Eggs are more nutritious and they are small enough to keep in a laundry bin also apartment friendly super quiet

-frozen fruit & veggies

17. Rice can be cooked on stove 2:1 water to rice

18. Keep a PHYSICAL calendar of bill due dates

19.take time to eat even when you feel like not eating

[🛸]also chew food till smashed to prevent bloating & indigestion

20. Scrub & rinse dishes before dishwasher

21.the works is an excellent toilet cleaner

22.magic eraser work

[🛸]pls buy the 100 pk on amazon off brand instead of the 2 sponges for 3$

23.keep bleach around bu if you clean dilute it

[🛸]never clean dog pee , its mustard gas

24.DO NOT MIX CLEANERS

List of no no

-

25.if you drink don’t take meds

[🛸]also don’t sun bathe

26.check dosages on bottles

[🛸]when disposing prescription, peel off tag it has numbers that trace to ur medical ID

27.uterus humans, heating pad is a life saver and ginger tea for nausea

[🛸]

- diy heating pad: rice in a sock microwave 30 sec

- cinnamon tea helps w/ cramps

28.buy a first aid kit

29.turbo tax is a good tax online

[🛸]idk about anyone else but my highschool accounting class offered free services to the public so students can get extra credit

30.yeast infection info:

[🛸]

-cranberry pills for when you feel even the slightest of discomfort

-Cranberry juice at least weekly to prevent

-chamomile tea cooled to rinse, and ease any pain

-BORIC ACID

31.petroleum jelly replaces chapstick

32.antibiotic ointment should be kept in first aid

Hilarious side note i took a break and lost the thingy but wrote 9 as a note to not waste any further time and stress ill continue with others

33.mewing - a technique for a better jawline

Tongue posture

34.warm water and cold exit in shower

35.read 5 pages a day

36.75 day hard challenge

Or soft ?

37. Journaling everything

~dreams

~venting

~manifestation

~shopping list

38.set sort term and long term goals

39 gym

YMCA is super cheap

I saw on a website that the YMCA is offered free on EBT

Or try the family plan

40.for low confidence keep promises to ur self even small ones

41.don’t write off short workouts

20 min consistently is better than 60 min and burning out

42. Buy a liter water bottle

Goal:once a day then

2x a day

43.try to clean your bedding weekly as a habit

~invest in bedding you that sparks joy

44.organize room in a junebugging way to avoid burnout

45.invest in self care especially shower time

46.rosemary oil in roots & hair nightly massage

~so many benefits

47.push yourself to walk daily then 2x morning & night

48.YOLO srsly be cringey if its you <3

49.message old friends personal jokes and try to catch up

50.become your dream person

Compliment people

Share

Talk sweetly

51.sunshine exposure in the am regulates ur sleep schedule

52.vitamin c in the morning and make sure you wear sunscreen after also, avoid ur eye area

~for acne scars

~dark pigmentation

53.Korean sunscreen > us sunscreen your eyes wont burn

54.sunscreen your chest!!!

55.witch hazel > tea tree oil , coming from sensitive skin gorly

56.those back braces for posture don’t work , strengthen back muscles

57.some people say coconut oil is clogging but for me my skin was glowing plump and hydrated

If acne prone ~castor oil or almond oil

58.shea butter raw is really thick and putting on ur skin kinda pulls it

-use a mixer

-hand mix with a lotion till softened

59.castor oil your lashes nightly

60.don’t be afraid to thrift

-but maybe wear some gloves cause I saw that you can get hand foot mouth disease from searching bins

61.don’t be afraid to dumpster dive

ESP Best Buy , Ulta , Sephora ,tech places

62.DONT DRINK ALCOHOL , that ages you and dries you up if you do wine is good for your heart everything else kinda makes ur body shutdown

-alcohol addiction is deadlier than meth esp getting trying to quit kills you

there’s psychedelic fizzy drinks

63.if you get a traffic ticket , go to court dispute it

-> ask when last calibrated, with evidence

Most of the time cops neglect to re calibrate as often as supposed to so it’ll get dropped

64.HR is only good for a paper trail sending 2-3 complaints with no resolution & unanswered is enough to send to OSHA / EEOC

speaking of email every conflict to urself as a paper trail

65.got a mole you don’t like ? Tell ur doctor it itches (sign of cancer ) could possibly get paid off , max 3 times

66.ever recorded without consent ? Play Disney music its copyrighted

67.open a high yield savings acct ASAP , that interest builds up

-> as of 2023 , discover has the highest

68.follow at least 1 finance YouTuber and watch their uploads every update

69.quit p0rn.. srsly life is too short & makes you tired on top of the other downsides such as body image (any and all genders )

70.bad people can try to sue you, even if they hit your car

-> make sure you call the cops & find a witness

Record exactly front back their vehicle & yours ,, best if you have a camera both sides of vehicle

Record the conversation & ask if they are ok ,,,make recording of them admitting !!!! , even if they are “nice”

71.so when renting a car & you need 3rd party insurance ; for progressive it covers rental

Check if your big insurance also covers & don’t only go with first pressure

don’t be pressured & advocate by doing research ~TikTok ,, divolvere (I tried to simplify her story to like what the advise part was )

72. Casino vist

A. Pick loudest machine in most populated area

B. Find a machine with smallest max bet & bet the max

C. Don’t hit feature within 5 spins move

~averybrynn1

I don’t recommend gambling but to each their own

73. If theres gonna be a draft get “fuck you “ or etc on ur right pinky outside hand ,, itll disrespect ur officer

i want “faggy” in cursive super y2k thick bold (im bi & fae )

74. (By a financial advisor on reddit )

- save 10% of every paycheck into reitrement account

~dont touch this account until retirement , or able to live off 4% the rest of your life

~invest majority into lowrisk and some into higher risk stocks or upcoming businesses

- FDIC insured savings account

~after taxes emergency fund with 3 months of savings

include : car , car emergency , home , home emergency

75. Never consent a police officer searching your vechile or house vecause a search warrant provides a lot less area where they are allowed to look

- your consent is to only hurt you, politely ask for a search warrant

76. Never do more than one illegal thing at a time

77. Always surround yourself with people who believe in you

78.

[that-respiratory-student]

8/19/23 Update

Hi tumblr,

I haven't started school yet, so there hasn't been much to update on. I'm not sure if I talked about my classes for the fall, but I registered for Chem-100 and Biol-107. These are both online courses. I initially was gonna take Chem in-person, but after remembering what it was like going to school last semester, I decided to try to get an online class. My school is a 45 minute drive from my house... I can't drive yet so I have to take the bus which just makes this even longer. They often DID NOT follow their schedule and drivers would just take off if no one was there. Like bro...you're 10 mins early...YEAH NO ONE IS THERE YET. People would complain, nut the drivers suck and would still just take off. Also...LOTS of weirdos on the bus. So, I've opted out.

It was hard to get this Chem class though. It said they had openings, but that it was also waitlisted. Waitlisted usually means that it is full, which this class was not. I really wanted this class, so I could be more flexible so I asked a few people. I asked the professor of the class who never got back to me. I asked admissions who at first told me it's waitlisted and I have to wait... like girl I know you didn't read my email because I said it's waitlisted but also shows open seats... so I emailed admissions again saying something along those lines and then they got me connected with someone who works on the STEM courses. She was able to help me and I finally got in! All the people I asked and they either didn't give a shit or just completely ignored me.

The lesson I learned from this is that if you want something you need to go for it and that people really don't care, so again if you want it you need to put that effort in because no one will do it for you. No one cares as much as you do.

I can't wait for when I'm an RT in a couple years. Time are so tough right now, and I won't even lie those checks would be life changing. I know school will be tough, but I have to get out of this. I hate living like this. We're not even check to check. We're hoping for a miracle every time.

Some more related to RT would be that I finished my general ed more the degree! 7 classes were required and I got 3 A's, 2 B's, and 2 C's. The C's were from when I first started school during the pandemic and I had also just graduated and was dealing with some health issues. I've grown, persevered, and learnt from my mistakes while in school. My grades have been better and I'm proud of myself :)

Now I'm working on the prerequisites for the program. There are 3 and I got one done so far: algebra with a B. I need Biol 107 and Chem 100. I'm so excited to see this all filled out and feel the pride in my chest of knowing that there were tough and sleepless night but I pushed through and will be closer to having a fulfilling career which allows me to live my life the way I want to live it.

That's actually one of the things that drew me to RT was the flexibility and pay. I want to be able to spend half to more than half of my time not working. I want that work life balance that RT can provide. I've had my fair share of health issues. Lots of testing and procedures. I know it can be scary and you're very vulnerable at those moments. I was lucky to have staff that cared for me and helped make those moments less scary. I would like to be able to give the same experience to others. I also have family with COPD and asthma. I have asthma as well. I've had some really bad attacks. I'll work hard to give my patients the best care that I would have wanted for my family or myself.

I know I'll make an excellent RT. I've also considered pediatrics since I have a background with kids and honestly love working with children.

Well that's it for now. Not huge updates, but still some new thing in my life and on my mind.

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[en-hale-archives]

Me with You ~~

pairing ⑅ bestfriend!Jake x fem!reader

genre ⑅ friends to lovers, fluff, slow dancing, suggestive/smut

words/read time ⑅ 3.9k/12-19 mins

warnings ⑅ 18+ content, light cussing

synopsis ⑅ Jake is back in his hometown to spend time with his closest friend. During some fun and frivolous dancing, things start to heat up...

author's note ⑅ I’m really proud of how this story turned out. I'm not a huge fan of second person, so I wrote in first, but if anyone asks, I can copy and post again in second person. It's more fluff than anything, but it does get a bit steamier towards the end, so I’m just going to go ahead and put a warning.

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When the back door finally slammed shut and the cacophony of barks faded down the street, I could finally let out my sigh of relief that I had been holding in since this morning. I tapped on my phone. How many days had we been watching Mrs. Chen’s pets? And just how was I able to put up with hours of barking, the smell of fresh turd lying across the lawn, and dog walks till dark? Including their rigorous feeding times and bathroom breaks -- I’m surprised I haven’t exploded yet.

I had so much planned the minute they left my house, but instead, the sudden silence felt all too relaxing and I laid my head against the cold countertop. I could finally stop stressing, stop thinking, and stop worrying about reprimanding for chewing on my shoes or peeing in the house or the continued barking that never ended. I was free. I felt like I could’ve stayed laid on the countertop forever, drowning in the evening sun. Who knew watching five dogs would take such a burden out of a person. Jake and I had taken on the job of dog sitting for Mrs. Chen while she visited some family in Tokyo. We both switched off every other day; some of the dogs at my house and the others at his; until we realized it would be easier if he just spent the few days at my house as we co-doggy sat. He got up bright and early to take them on their walks while I prepared their highly detailed and specific meals. Then from there, we spent the rest of the day making sure they didn’t run off somewhere or cause too much destruction in the house. But alas, Mrs. Chen came back early from her getaway and picked up Toby, Caleb, Khao, Sofia, and Pickle on her way home. Although I was exhausted from watching 3-foot dogs all day, the pay was amazing for me, and it would help tremendously for all the online classes I was going to be taking next semester.

The warmth of the sun cast a comforting trance over my heavy eyelids, and soon enough I was fast asleep, standing in the middle of the kitchen with the soft sound of nothing surrounding me.

By the time I had fluttered my eyes open, I had realized I was now seated in my dining chair and a large black jacket was placed over my shoulders. I sat up and let out a yawn, wincing at the bright light coming from the tv and shaking my now numb arm awake. I must have been sleeping for a while because the evening sun had turned to pitch of black. The moonlight beamed through the window and danced along with the sways of the large oak tree out front. I stood up and walked over to the refrigerator in which I grabbed two water bottles and some leftover pasta.

I was sure that Jake hadn’t eaten since lunch, seeing as he only ate if someone sat food in front of his face. I dragged my feet up the stairs until I heard the slamming of a book and the fast typing of a keyboard come from the living room. I turned and looked behind me. Jake had settled his things on the coffee table and floor, large books, folders, and several amounts of crumpled up pieces of paper found their way around Jake, himself slouched up against the edge of the couch. He had changed clothes since the last time I had seen him, he now wore a plain blue shirt with grey sweats, his eyebrows furrowed as he worked hard on whatever he was getting at.

“Oh yes, I was starving!” Propping himself up on the couch, he took the plate of pasta. I placed the waters on the coffee table and settled comfortably on the couch beside him.

“I can’t say that I’ve ever seen anybody sleep standing up before. Look,” Jake took his phone off the charger. “I got a picture.” He pushed the screen in my face, and of course, there was my unconscious body laying on the counter, mouth open and all. I playfully pushed it back his way as his face lit up with a smile I was all too familiar with.

“What are you doing down here so late, it’s almost 12 in the morning,” I asked. Jake’s smile disappeared when he was reminded of the work he had been doing seconds before.

He let out a large huff of air. “Trying to get some words on paper but instead it turned into a paper massacre,” he jokingly replied, “sorry for the mess.”

“Don’t worry about it,” I replied, taking a swig of water. I was going to ask if he wanted to watch a late-night movie, or pull an all-nighter and talk endlessly until the sun rose, but I could tell by each passing second that Jake was worried about this, and he wanted the time he had now over the summer to work on his music. I wished I was motivated to work on my own music, but unlike Jake, I wasn’t in a globally popular boy band. My complicated best friend for over 10 years had been working his butt off since middle school. It was his annual time to sit back and relax while he had the time to, but instead, he chose to use that time to help watch a bunch of dogs with his hometown bestie. God, I loved him.

Jake pulled himself off the couch and right back onto the floor, leaving the rest of the pasta to me. He picked up his pen again and started scribbling down words as quickly as he could, trying hard not to forget the lyrics that had floated into his head. Until he stopped, closing his eyes for just a split second, and let out a powerful sigh. Crumpling up the sheet, he stacks it on top of the others in frustration and started frantically tapping his pencil against the table.

“Maybe it’s best to just try again in the morning,” I advised, taking a small bite of the pasta that was left by my side.

“How come I’m having such a hard time with this?” He gazed up at me frantically for a clue, as if I had the answer to fix a problem as big and as important as his was. I looked at his doleful eyes and the bags that were starting to grow underneath them. I couldn’t help but think, because I made you sit up and watch a bunch of dogs with me.

“Do you want me to see if I could come up with something?”

“If you want. But, hold on, I think my thoughts are coming back up.” He quickly grabbed another piece of paper, his eyes narrowed in concentration.

I tried my best to keep occupied by watching videos on my phone, but I found myself suddenly bored out of my mind. I laid out on my back and picked up one of Jake’s folders. Briefly looking through it, I couldn’t help but feel a bit jealous at the amount of fan art and letters, praising him and the other members. Followed with that were just more and more engene stuff, full of nothing but kind words and heartfelt messages. Part of me wished that I was able to travel with Jake and see the world like he was. How fun would it be to meet people that praised you? And how cool would it be to see that you had fans? I couldn’t help but plaster on a huge smile as I skimmed through some of the notes until I finally came to one with familiar handwriting.

Remember Me were the words written on the top of the paper in bold and bright colors. But the message written underneath is what caught my attention:

To the person that makes me the luckiest guy in the world, this song is for you. It’s okay if you don’t feel the same, but please just remember me -- it was Jake’s handwriting.

I didn’t feel like I was breaking any crime reading his stuff until this moment, but curiosity killed the cat, and right now I didn’t mind being a feline. I checked to make sure Jake was still busy, and he was, almost like he had teleported into his own world. I quietly turned back to the sheet and started reading. It was about a girl, presumably his crush I’m sure. She was someone important to him, someone who made him love so much that it hurt. But this was far from a happy song, in fact, it was terribly heartbreaking. She didn’t understand his love, she wasn’t able to interpret it like he wanted her to. But he confesses that he was scared of what telling her would do, worried that she wouldn’t feel the same. So instead, it was like he was apologizing, and asking that she forgive him for not being brave enough to tell her, and if he did ever get the courage to, for her to remember him even if she wasn’t able to love him like he wanted her to.

The song ends like how the title began, and I find myself flabbergasted at the beautiful mixes of rhymes and metaphors that read like a poem. This was the first of Jake’s songs that made me feel this way, like I had just finished watching a tragedy movie with Ryan Renolds starring. I blink back the tears that I didn’t realize were forming. How come he never told me this? We never kept secrets from each other, like ever. It never mattered the subject or the severity, we had always promised that we would be open and honest with each other. I wish I would’ve known this sooner, maybe I could’ve saved him from feeling this way. And what girl could it possibly be? I knew for sure I was the only girl he was presumably close to; but was there someone else?

I glanced down at Jake, who was still in a focused state of mind with the pencil in his mouth and mumbling lyrics softly under his breath. I tried picturing my bubbly Jake writing these agonizing words and miserably failed.

Jake looked up at me as if he could feel my gaze on the back of his head. “I think I’ve found the chorus, but it’s the rest of the song I’m not able to get, and how come it’s so hard to find another word that rhymes with severe? Beer? Sphere? Revere? Appear? Gosh, rhyming sucks some serious ass!”

“This song is beautiful.”

Jake furrowed his eyebrows in confusion. “Huh?”

“This song I found in your folder.” I glanced back at it in my hand. “Remember Me.”

Jake’s gaze leaped from my eyes to the sheet, and I felt his body tense. “Where’d you get that from?”

“I was just going through one of your folders. Did you accidentally get it mixed up in your fan folder? Cause this is -”

“Did you read it?” He interrupted.

“Yeah, and it’s perfect.”

Jake glanced at me for a split second before turning back around, obviously uncomfortable. “I was watching one of those Kdramas you love so much and it inspired me. Could you help me rhyme with severe now?”

I knew Jake like the back of my hand, so I knew continuing on with this conversation would get him upset if he’s clearly avoiding it. But, I wasn’t going to just let him off that quickly. “Jake, come on, you can tell me anything. Who is this about?”

Jake looked back at me with a hint of something in his eyes, something I’ve never seen before, and something I wasn't able to decipher. “Nobody, I was just feeling really inspired, that's it.” His tone had switched from calm to agitated.

I give him my I’m-not-stupid look and he comes back with his own you’re-being-delusional stare. “It’s seriously nobody, truthfully and honestly.”

“Okay, okay I’ll back off.” I could tell he was starting to get defensive, and when he got like that, it took him at least a few hours before returning to normal. I watched Jake's Adam's apple move up and down, a way in which I could tell he knew I was not convinced in the slightest. “Well, sometimes we go through things that can remind us of situations like that, but not necessarily in that same exact context, you know? It has to be amplified for that audience appeal.”

“Okay...but have you ever felt this way before? Not exactly like how it’s written, but maybe somewhere along these lines?”

I thought I was going to get another vague answer, or worse, an aggravated one. But instead Jake looked down at his pencil as he tapped it along his wrist. “...maybe, but I think everyone can connect to the words in some way. I mean, everyone feels some kind of heartbreak in their life, right?” Jake's answer was still pretty vague, but at least I was able to get something out of him.

“Okay, but you know you can tell me anything, like, anything ever because you know that you’ll never actually have to feel this way, right?” I said, maybe too much in a hurry.

“Of course I know that.” He replied, giving one of his awkward grins.

“And if anyone has made you feel this way, then you know you can tell me that too cause there a sucker to lose out on a perfect person like you.” I teased in a sing-song way, poking his shoulder hard. Jake chuckled and poked me back.

A weird silence grew in the room, and Jake went back to trying to find rhyming words. I tried getting back on my phone, but I knew I needed to say something to let go of the tenseness in the air.

“Hey, crystal clear rhymes!”

He leaned his head back and looked up at me. “Nevermind, I give up for tonight.”

I could see the stress that played on his face. “Don’t worry, you’ll figure it out.”

“Yeah, but by the time I do, it’ll be too late.”

“What do you mean?”

Jake pulled his knees up to his chest and spoke. “This was going to go on our album comeback that needs to be finished in the next four months. By the time I think of something, it'll be too late and I’ll have to wait until the next four months. But by then, I'll have forgotten. This always happens and I have no idea how the hell to fix it.” I couldn’t tell if he wanted my help or just a bit of comfort.

“Did you try asking the other guys to see if they had any ideas?”

“Yeah, but they’re working on their own parts, I can’t ask them to do this too.”

“I’m sure they’d be willing to help if you asked,” I assured him.

“I know they would, but I just don’t want to. I always ask them for help, I thought being away from the studio and being back home would help my brainstorming abilities.” He gave a weary chuckle that almost sounded like a groan.

“Well, maybe tomorrow will come with better results.” I did my best to give him some motivation, but I could tell I was failing miserably at that too.

Jake watched as a car zoomed past the window, a low bass sounding off as it zoomed away. “I bet it’s easier to just listen to music than to try and come up with it. I remember when I would just blare NCT all day long and jam out in my room. It seemed so much easier back then to come up with stuff than it does now. I miss it.” He took a slight pause before continuing. “ Did you know that song you read was the easiest thing I have written in my life? I remember writing too. I just had this super weird feeling in my chest one day so I basically locked myself in my room and took maybe two hours and just wrote a bunch of words down and connected them to sound like a song. For once my mind had just gone blank and I couldn’t stop thinking and feeling that song, like I knew what it was supposed to sound like, I knew what the lyrics were supposed to mean. I just knew everything. And I miss that feeling, that feeling of like- '' He broke off his sentence when he looked back up to my eyes. It seemed like he was talking more to himself than to me. He swallowed hard and looked back at the pencil still in hand.

“Well, I'm sorry you don’t feel free anymore. I wish there was something I could do to make you feel like that again-”

“No, please don’t feel like that. It’s just something that had just recently started happening, something I really just can’t fix…” His voice gets softer and softer the more he spoke.

“Have you spoken to your manager about it?” I asked. “He’s super nice from what I understand. And he’ll probably have better answers than your friend who can barely play the piano, let alone produce an entire song.”

Jake laughed before I had the chance to. “ See, now you're underestimating yourself. Remember that song from freshman year? The one about-- what was his name, Josh?” Jake teased. I grabbed a pillow and slammed it into the back of his head. “Oh my gosh, I thought we promised we’d never bring it up again!”

Jake chuckled and laid his arm on the couch completely turning towards me. “How about we sneak out and go get ice cream and try to not wake up your mom in the process?”

I suddenly jumped to my feet when I have the perfect idea on how to cheer up the gloomy Mr. Shim. “Or, we could do something even better!”

“Urgh!” Jake groaned.

I grabbed my phone and hooked it up to the speaker. I was going to turn on his hit song Drunk-Dazed as a joke, but Jake needed this break from his career, so instead, I crunk up Beyonce as loud as it could go without disturbing my mom who slept upstairs. I turn back to Jake and reach out for his hands, already moving my hips to the music.

He shook his head and threw it back onto the couch as if throwing a temper tantrum. “I literally dance for a living.”

“Okay but this will be different, I promise.” I grabbed the piles of papers on the ground and threw them in the trash, I then pushed the coffee table near the wall and piled his folders and books neatly on top.

“Come on, cowboy!” I grabbed his hands and helped him up. He was reluctant to get up, but he threw one last groan before standing on his feet.

“This will get the brain juices flowing again!” I told him. I go back to my phone and switch it to one of my favorite Beyonce songs that she covered, At Last.

I sang dramatically to get Jake to smile, and luckily, it worked. I placed both my hands over his shoulders and swayed us back and forth, still miming the song as overly exaggerated as I could. Jake still couldn’t help but smile, and it didn’t take him long to join me in the rhythm and sway naturally with me. I learned at our middle school dance that Jake had perfect rhythm. He was able to impress the rest of the crowd when he busted out moves from BTS. Everyone was impressed, including me.

Now we were on a steady roll. I accidentally stepped on his feet a few times, but it was fine seeing as I was wearing foam flip-flops and he was barefooted. After a while, the song switched and played another of my favorites that didn’t match our style of dance, but we still moved slowly to the beat. Jake tried twirling me, but since I have two left feet, I almost ended up hitting the wall each time and Jake laughed loud at my clumsiness. The moonlight from the kitchen had now switched to the window in the living room. It gleamed through and glistened on Jake like a spotlight, just like the ones on the stage did for him. In a split second, I was reminded that he wouldn’t be here forever, just like he wasn’t here for the past year. I tried to not let it settle on my face that I was scared to see him go again, so I played up on the fun we were having now. Jake looked like he was at ease; finally, since he’d been here, he looked genuinely happy and I wasn’t going to ruin that.

After another handful of songs full of laughs and giggles, we were soon sweating and taking deeper breaths than normal. Each song was different from the one before, but it didn’t stop us from sticking to our style of dance. Even with the simplicity of the moves and the slowness of the steps, I had to take a minute to relax. I hooked my arms around his neck and rested my entire body on his. I could feel Jake’s own sweat seeping through his shirt, But I didn’t mind the wetness that was now attached to my cheek. I thought he would act awkward and ask for me to pull away, but instead, he gripped tighter on my hips and started slowly moving me side to side. I let out a long overdue sigh, trying my best to match the steady breathing of Jake’s with my own. It was actually therapeutic: hearing his heartbeat in one ear and the softness of the music in the other.

I tried to continue our steady breathing together, but his had picked up a bit, almost out of nowhere. I felt the heat of his breath on the nape of my neck, and it made my entire body tingle in a way it never had before. After this sudden feeling, I realized just how close we really were. His leg hair tickled my legs, I could feel the bone of his foot connecting to mine, I could feel his thin waist against mine as well. I felt like I needed to back up, but instead, I couldn’t and continued to sway softly against him. A few seconds later, Jake’s hands rose a little higher, planting themselves on my waist and tightening their grip as if they were trying to pull me closer than we already were.

The sensation hadn’t stopped though, it clung to my body like my damp shorts did on my thighs. Sooner or later I felt pressure on the lower part of my stomach and thought for sure that Jake was messing around and wasn’t feeling what I was, which indicated that I needed to pull back before this feeling became too much.

This is so embarrassing. I thought. How could I let myself feel like this? How was this in any way okay? I finally pulled back, the sensation becoming too unbearable, and glanced up at his face. His pupils were large in a way I hadn’t seen before. His mouth was slightly open and a drop of sweat slowly traced down his forehead, onto his nose. That pressure I was feeling on my stomach had now doubled in force, and Jake's face had switched from calm and subtle, to alarmed and panicked...

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(part 2 possibly...?)

Thank you guys so much for reading! I hope you enjoyed it! Please, leave any constructive criticism you have on helping improve my writing!

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[weirdmageddon]

good lord what a fucking stressful day

driving up to class there was a truck in front of me for like ten straight minutes that was going 19 mph on a 35 mph road and there was a car behind me and i could just feel his pain too. it was taking all my mental effort to not blare my horn. soon as that fucking truck turned onto another road i pressed down so fucking hard on the gas pedal to get across the message to the cars behind me that i was pissed off we had to go that slow and that it was not my decision like sort of an apology to them like “you saw that fucking guy?? im not gonna keep putting you through that”

then when i got out of class i drove to the bookstore and was told i have no funds in my account to buy books and that i need to go to financial aid office. then i got anxious because nobody there knew where it was (i dont live on-campus so idk either) and i couldnt find any answers online because the map wasnt loading.

so then i looked at one of those “you are here” maps around campus and saw that financial aid was on the other side of route 41/tamiami trail (left side of campus). so i waited at that stupid light for 5 minutes and once i got to the other side i had to find a place to park which was annoying, and i still couldnt find the stupid office. i asked inside the first building i saw and the lady said it was across the road (pointing to the OTHER road, not route 41) so i walked over there. didnt look like the financial office but i checked anyway and it was locked, (and it wasnt the financial aid office). btw i’m in florida if it’s not obvious by “tamiami trail” and i have a heat intolerance (im 99.99% certain i have POTS, all i need is an official diagnosis but i havent had the appointment yet) and i started getting really fatigued and i was sweating my ass off and couldnt think straight and i felt that i was starting to get teary.

so im trying to find this stupid office in this oppressive heat. with a heat intolerance. and wearing a mask which made it feel a lot harder to get in air. i tried to ask this random kid but i broke down in front of him because i couldnt hold my shit together over something so minor as being unable to find this fucking office and i bet he thought i was insane or mentally unstable and i realized this so i was apologizing to him. when i inhaled it was so loud they were like gasps and i couldnt do anything about it and it made me so embarrassed...like the kinda gasps people do after running for their life. not quite hyperventilation because it wasnt fast but whenever i took in air it was like a sharp wheeze 😭 like my throat was so tight the air getting squeezed through it made a loud noise

so idk i think i maybe had a panic attack outside because i couldnt find this motherfucking financial aid office in this 90°F 70% humidity weather where it feels like 104°F so i could barely breathe to begin with and no one had given me good directions. then i involuntarily began holding my breath because it was embarrassing to be making loud sobbing gasps while walking.. which made it even harder to breathe but at least i wasnt drawing attention to myself.

i walked over to the student recreation center to get into the air conditioning and get some water. i sat down and i noticed i was STILL involuntarily holding my breath. they’re not breath-holding spells like babies do, like i dont do it until i get blue in the face but it’s sort of an automatic response as though to not make any noise? but it’s really involuntary it kinda becomes my default mode of breathing instead of normal respiration (anyone else do this when crying btw?? i tried looking it up but all i got was breath-holding spells in babies)

so taking few minutes while trying to calm down i took my phone out and searched for the financial aid center’s location on google and i still got nothing descriptive. i asked a more students around if they know where it is, one said he didnt know, and i was about to leave but near the exit there were like 4 students playing billiards and i asked them if they knew where it was. and i think one of the kids knew me from middle or high school because he remembered me and looked sort of familiar and said “sara are you okay” and i broke Again and i felt absolutely pathetic, but they ended up actually helping me this time find it and were really nice. turns out it WAS on the online campus map the whole time but i overlooked it because it was labeled “Palmer D / Financial Aid” and my tunnel vision ass just did not even recognize it because i was looking at the first letters going down the key list. and i felt so stupid. all of that for nothing. i couldve just stayed parked where i was for class earlier on the other side of tamiami trail. then i trudged back through the heat to my car and thats when i turned from feeling lost and panicky into frustrated and irritable because i KNEW where i needed to go but it felt like everything around me was so goddamn slow. i had to wait at that light for the full 5 minutes again because it turned from green to yellow just as i was driving up to it.

once it was green, i pulled back into that parking lot i was in at the beginning of the day and walked into the financial aid office and actually got something accomplished. i filled out a form (that they never made clear last year due to covid 🙄) which makes my bookstore funds automatically deposited and i helped walk a freshman who came in through the exact same steps after i finished mine. so that made me feel a little better.

at this point i was so full of adrenaline and cortisol and i acutely noticed how fucking DISGUSTING it was outside, the air was so muggy and it was overcast and like 90°F just an absolute swamp ass jungle. and i got back into my car and waited at that fucking tamiami light AGAIN and some stupid lady was like one whole ass car space behind the light so i couldnt turn into the right lane until it turned green and i was sittingthere for 5 mins just WAITING for this idiot to pull forward. then i waited at ANOTHER 5 minute light immediately after that before being able to actually drive home. just so many minor inconveniences all throughout my day that made everything feel so much worse.

i’ve been home for 4 hours at this point, i already showered but my body still feels like it’s full of stress hormones. my body is actually still has very minute tremors from all the stress. great start to the semester already.

[southeastasianists]

Public hospitals are deserted. Government offices left dark. And the trains don’t leave the stations.

Despite risks to their lives and livelihoods, many Myanmar civil servants are refusing to work for the junta, as a growing civil disobedience movement seeks to thwart the generals by paralysing the bureaucracy.

“The military needs to prove that they can manage the country well as a government. But if we… the civil servants don’t work, their plan to take power will fail,” Thida, a public university lecturer who asked to use a pseudonym, told AFP Monday as cities were brought to a standstill by the largest strike yet.

In the three weeks since the coup, Thida has refused to teach her online classes. She joined the nationwide walkouts kicked off by medical workers, many of whom are now in hiding to evade arrest.

From the capital to seaside ports, work stoppages in the private sector have hollowed out offices and factories and forced many bank branches shut.

But it is the civil servants’ swelling ranks within the resistance that has the junta particularly rattled.

Without them, it is unable to collect taxes, send out electricity bills, test the population for Covid-19 or simply keep the country running.

The spectre of a financial crisis — already brewing because of the pandemic downturn and a decline in foreign investment — looms large.

Cracks starting to show

It remains unclear how many of the roughly one million public sector workers are participating.

One crowdsourced survey found members of all 24 government ministries are now involved, while the UN special rapporteur on Myanmar has estimated three-quarters of the civil servants are on strike.

Their absence is beginning to bite.

Nearly one-third of the nation’s hospitals are no longer functioning, coup leader Min Aung Hlaing said this week.

Decrying medical professionals’ failure to fulfil their duties, he hinted that working doctors and teachers would soon receive cash rewards, according to remarks reported by state media Tuesday.

One doctor told AFP that staff shortages meant his hospital has had to turn away new patients. Medical “cover teams” have formed to provide emergency treatment to protesters under fire from rubber bullets and live ammunition.

Paper pushing in government departments has all but halted, according to local media reports, and around the country clerks, drivers and administrators have been dismissed over their absence.

“The military didn’t anticipate that a large part of the civil service would walk out and leave them without a state apparatus,” said an analyst who asked to remain anonymous as the junta has detained more than 700 of its critics.

“The impact of the movement doesn’t necessarily depend on all of the bureaucracy participating, but on key parts paralysing the military’s ability to collect revenue and distribute it across the state machinery.”

The extent of this incapacitation could become clearer on Friday, when Myanmar’s State Administration Council — as the coup leaders have dubbed themselves — confronts payday for the entire public sector.

The Myanmar Economic Bank (MEB), which distributes government salaries and pensions, has been hobbled by walkouts, but state media said it was a “baseless rumour” that compensation would not be forthcoming.

Pressure campaign

In a sign of the generals’ growing uneasiness, official media outlets have printed near-daily summonses for civil servants to return or face legal action, while overnight arrests have targeted civil disobedience movement participants.

Hotlines allow members of the public to report anyone encouraging such action.

“All civil servants from ministries who are participating in the civil disobedience movement are getting pressure,” the MEB staffer said.

Min Ko Naing, a leader of the 1988 pro-democracy uprising, urged government workers to continue their strike, saying on Facebook that it was the most important factor in the bid to bring down the regime.

But the strategy comes at personal cost.

Thida, the university lecture, is not expecting to collect a salary for the foreseeable future.

“I have saved some income and I will use that,” she said. “I understand we need to make some sacrifices to fight the military junta.”

Groups have sprung up to assist public employees with food and housing, while members of the ousted civilian government have pledged to compensate lost wages should they reclaim power, fuelling the hopes of workers like Thida.

“I am not worried at all about losing my job as I believe that democracy will be restored.”

[hardcore-homemaker]

Resources For Quarantine/Self-Isolation:

EDIT: This link will take you to the master list that I'm updating almost daily!

Unemployment Insurance (Start here if your employment has been affected by COVID-19)

2 Free Months of Skillshare (learn something new)

Lynda.com (One free trial month too all sorts of tech related classes. Web design, photography, marketing, animation, audio + music, business, etc. $30/month after the free trial.)

Groupon: Online Courses (Cheap access to all sorts of interesting courses: bartending, herbalist, concealed carry, etc.)

30 Days Of Yoga (On YouTube. Good for beginners to keep moving but not overdo it.)

Planet Fitness Live Work Out (Guided at home workouts streamed daily starting 3/16 on their Facebook page)

CARROT Fit (A snarky 7 minute at-home workout app made free to download for two weeks! Only available for iPhone, iPad and Apple Watch.)

Yoga, HIIT, Barre, and 7 min Workout Apps (Yoga Buddhi Co. has made all 5 of their apps free until April 1st. Android and iOS )

List Of YouTube Workout Channels For Kids 

Camp NaNoWriMo (challenge yourself to write a novel in a month)

This Crazy Life (My favorite clean-with-me channel on YouTube. Watch 5 minutes and see if you don't want to clean!)

Mental Health Quarantine Tips (from me!)

This Spring Cleaning Checklist (There's a million, but here's a thorough one)

Marco Polo (A great way to stay connected)

The Happy Broadcast (Follow them on Facebook and Instagram for positive news only)

Audit College Classes For Free

The Met Opera Stream (The Met will be streaming a new opera performace every night starting at 7:30pm ET. Streams will be available for 20 hours and are prerecorded. More info.) 

OverDrive (An app to borrow eBooks from your library. Your local library may use a different app.)

Mental Health Quarantine Tips (from another tumblr user)

Tips For Studying In Quarantine

EveryPlate (Get meal supplies delivered to your door and practice your cooking skills)

Good and Clean Cookbook ($4/meal plans! Take the time to cook your own meals and save some $$ while you're at it. Download the free pdf here.)

Cincinnati Zoo Live Stream (Every weekday they'll livestream a different animal and an at-home activity at 3PM EDT)

Twelve Famous Virtual Museum Tours (pretty self explanatory)

Free Wifi And BroadBand From Spectrum (I'm not sure if this is for everyone or just students, but check it out if you don't already have wifi. 60 days free!)

ABC Mouse (Offering free membership with code : SCHOOL7771 or AOFLUNICEF. Enter codes here.)

Adventure Academy (Owned by the same company as ABC Mouse, for ages 8-13. The same codes may work? 30 day free trial for sure.)

MysteryScience Most Popular Lessons (Completely digital with an activity for K-5th. More lessons available for access.)

Scholastic Daily Learn-From-Home (Daily lessons and activities for Pre-K through 6th grade. More info here.)

"Have Fun Teaching" Relief Packs (Free Coronavirus Relief Packs for Preschool through 5th Grade. Each download includes worksheets, activities, songs, and videos for all subjects.

HUGE List of Homeschool Resources (I don't believe they're all free, but there's enough to go on for months!)

Outschool (Live online classes for ages 5-18. Also could be a good resource for teachers who don’t have anything to do)

Another List Of Home Education Resources (Some may be repeated from this list, but it looks like most of these are geared towards middle school up to adults. Most are free)

Kids Discover Free Articles (Covering a huge range of topics. Must sign up for a free account for access.)

Free Art Lessons On YouTube List (Looks like these is appropriate for Kindergarten through High School/Adults)

Free YouTube Channels For Homeschooling List 

NearPod For Parents (May not be entirely free, or temporarily free, but it looks like it’s worth checking out!)

35 Activities For Kids At Home (For when it’s time to be done with school and have some fun! Good for toddler/younger kids)

Hopefully some of these help! Let me know if there’s anything I can add to it!

[magicmoontea]

Illuminated Fantasies (1/2)

Characters: Beckett Harrington x f!MC (Iris Atwood), Pend Pals

Rating: M, Language and sexual themes, topics of mental health

Word Count: 5760 ~Less than 20 min read (A bit longer, I couldn’t help myself!)

Summary: It’s the Summer Solstice and Iris and the Pend Pals are celebrating! Feeling her Sun magick growing on this day, Iris struggles within herself to keep a balance between her unchecked fears and fantasies from bursting out.

Notes: This takes place after book 2, and ignores Winter’s past. Beckett and Iris (f!MC) remained friends throughout their time at Penderghast and never pushed it further than harmless flirting. I wanted to make Iris feel more relatable as I felt like they gave her too much power, so I ran with it. If angsty reads aren’t your thing, this might not be for you. This is my very first fic posted online, so I’d love to hear what you thought  <3

Part two coming soon!

Created for @choicesaprilchallenge​ - Fantasy day 28

Everything inside of the brilliant Sun-Att hummed beautifully and yet unmistakably powerful and intense at the same time. She could sense the strength of her Sun magick growing stronger and radiating powerfully as it was the early morning of the Summer Solstice. Iris felt the weight of her immense pure Sun magick.

She had woken up before the sunrise, drenched in sweat, even with her air magick spells flowing around her bedroom, and could feel her heart racing against her chest. To Iris’ surprise, she was also glowing a warm golden hue without any effort making light rays dance across the walls. She sat up and wiped the wild platinum blonde strands that clung to her forehead and clutched her heart and tried to slow her breath. The glow eventually faded and ultimately the pressure in her chest went along with it. If she was being honest with herself, it was all starting to wear her thin.

Iris had been spending her time nurturing her newfound relationship with her mom/not intimidating at all Sun Source. There was so much to unpack with all information she was given the last few weeks of her second year at Penderghast. It was overwhelming at times to remember that not that long ago she had no idea magick truly existed, and she built her reality, thought patterns, and idea of herself around the idea that she was unordinary, powerless to change her situation and truly doesn’t belong.

She’d be lying if she said all those feelings disappeared when she found her magick within her, practiced and came to the powerful place she is today. It was incredibly hard for Iris to shake certain thoughts she had about herself since childhood and what her role to other people was supposed to be.

Being half Sun source didn’t change the fact that for a long time she struggled with dark thoughts about herself that shadowed her mind. Sun will bring shade, and her heart definitely carried that darkness that she buried with positivity and hope for a safe place for her to truly belong one day. Her caretakers were good people but she had spent many nights alone in her room in a whole other world in her mind.

Iris grew up a lonely only child, and she couldn’t talk to anyone about how she just felt different and that it kept her up at night. That her emotions were so strong at times that she felt she was going to burst, and that she went through such high and lows with them. She was told consistently that it was part of growing up, and she learned to accept that true happiness and belonging happened to other people, not her. It was just the cards she was dealt in life.

After meeting and finding out about Atlas and developing a quick bond with her to fill the years they were apart made Iris feel truly happy for a while. However, after a while, she clung to the idea that this was her family and so this must be who she really is, and it fed into Iris' terrible habit of codependency. It was so much easier in her head to have people tell you who you are and how to respond because you were never allowed to explore those options on your own.

So needless to say, she was freaking the hell out with the information that she and Atlas were half Source. What did that mean for her future? How did being half Source change the paths she took in life and how her magick looks like in the future? When Iris allowed herself to be truly honest with herself, there were times she felt terrified of the power she possessed.

For a while, she didn’t feel worthy of her magick after finding out she was Attuned to an extremely rare attunement as people have gone their whole lives knowing and practicing magick and not having half the power she does. She didn't feel like she deserved the praises from teachers that either taught her or didn't as she easily combined her natural talent and years of being a tuneless scholar, let alone deserving of or being even capable of being a half Source.

She knew she had no choice but to accept who she was, but it was a difficult journey that caused so much doubt and fear. Iris was still just getting a good grip and control on her refractionary magick’s effect on her body let alone have enough energy to deal with the heavy fact that she was half Source, the responsibility of having Kane's tether, and having every single person looking at your every move wondering what the great Sun-Att will do next when in reality she has no fucking idea what she's doing.

Tonight, she guessed she was only getting 3 hours of sleep as her body was full of adrenaline from it being the most powerful day to be a Sun-Att. Annoyed that she wasn’t able to enjoy the comfort of her own bed as long as she’d like, Iris decided to make the most of her extra Sun magick energy and practice her prescience. She hoped she’d be able to burn some energy off as she wouldn’t be able to sit still with that much magick that wanted to pour out.

Sitting up and crossing her legs in the lotus position, Iris took calming breaths. It didn’t take long to feel the connection to the sun, even as the sun was just starting the early stages of sunrise. Her magick was powerful and strong and she knew from previous prescience practices, that it really isn’t practice at all, prescience will do what it wants when it wants. The more you work with it, the more it becomes more than a gut feeling, but you can’t just pull it whenever you please.

That’s why she was trying to use her prescience this morning of the Summer Solstice to invite that heightened connection and welcome prescience to happen freely to continue a vision she has earlier that week. She had been minding her own business a few days ago prior and felt her entire body flush with goosebumps like she was just exiting a cold movie theater into a warm summer day. With all the advanced practices with her mom, Theia, and Dean Swan, she knew that she was getting a vision.

It wasn’t a long vision, but she was floored with how genuinely happy she felt in it, and how that effect lasted throughout the waking hours. She spent the rest of the day fantasizing about it and being terrified to dissect it further because that would mean thinking about something, she pushed down first year: how she truly felt about her best friend Beckett. And she wasn't sure if she could handle that.

In her vision was Beckett, illuminated by the glow of a magical fire, beamed at her with such tenderness he reserves just for her and brushed her hair behind her ears. Then it faded away no matter how hard she tried to stay with it and focus.

With each thought that took over Iris’ mind over those next days, one thing was becoming more and more clear to her: that she was lying to herself about how she felt about him. She never took the time to challenge the butterflies in her stomach when her fingers grazed his when he handed her an ingredient for a potion or how his freckles dancing on his cheeks when he smiled at her made behind her knees sweaty, or that she felt like he was one of the only people who truly listened to her, and didn’t put any expectation of what she should be regardless of magick potential.

There was a time early in her time at Penderghast that she knew that she was attracted to him and spent many nights allowing herself to fantasize about him and what it would be like to hear him moan and make him feel like he can lose control for one night of ecstasy with her. She always came quickly on her soaking fingers then, biting her lip from crying out his name and as if that would make the situation less awkward tomorrow when she saw him in class. As she learned that she needed him to be there for her emotionally and in her life more than she could have ever guessed, she stopped any thoughts or impulse based on pure lust that would risk losing him.

She knew part of the reason they had such a good bond was that they both had similar struggles. No, Harrington’s wealthy upscale lifestyle and his ability to be such a prick in the beginning definitely didn’t help, but as time went on it became more obvious that he was running from something in himself, too: constant perfection.

If Iris traced back to when she no longer could deny the surge of pure emotion she got when she was by Beckett, it was when he ended up in the hospital creating a ward to save her from Kane. She would have without a doubt died without him. She was beyond grateful. The look he gave her when he asked her if she was okay made her realize that this amazing man truly cared about her.

Even after she put him through a fight with a psychopath killer Raife, cried on his shoulders numerous times and suffered massive panic attacks in front of him before fighting for her life at 19, beat him in magickal competitions revolving topics she just heard about, or after he saw the dustiest parts of her soul and stared back unflinchingly, he still cared.

Iris never thought that Beckett could actually care about her in that way though. She never saw any signs besides his blushing inexperienced geek self-antics whenever she teased him, but always pushed that away so she wouldn’t get hurt. Deep down she had a terrible fear that she would never be good enough for someone as smart and well established as him as she still viewed herself as someone who ungracefully barged herself into a world she knew nothing about and was given a substantial amount of the magickal powers without deserving them.

Pulling herself back into the present moment, Iris took another breath feeling the connection to the sun growing stronger as the sun started to rise more. She desperately wanted to see more of a vision of tonight, as she deduced that the magickal fire she saw in the earlier vision was going to be the ritual Summer Solstice fire from the get together Shreya was having later.

She then focused her attention on thoughts of the party this afternoon, Beckett, and herself. Having a good feeling plus the power of the sun on Summer Solstice sparked that extra confidence Iris needed to make it work.

Then it started to happen. Feeling like she just received amazing news, she felt her whole-body spark with energy. Her body began to hum and tingle as goosebumps danced their way across her freckles and skin. White lights appeared at the corners of her eyes as a vision was starting to come through.

When the vision played out in Iris’ head, her toes curled underneath her legs on the bed and she audibly gasped. Her body temperature rose greatly at what she just saw, and she felt her body become flushed. She has no idea what she has to do to make that vision come true, but she will do whatever it takes.

For starters, she figured it wouldn’t hurt to change her outfit tonight to the black sundress with the mini golden suns, and flowers that she saw laying on the floor of the vision.

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“Okay, so now who is going to clean this up?” Shreya asked jokingly as she looked around her large kitchen and the mess the Pend Pals had made while baking traditional ginger and cinnamon Summer Solstice cookies. There was more flour on the ground than in the cookies themself, but they couldn’t help but throwing some flour in the air and having each one take turns running their magick through it to create different effects. All for healthy competition of course.

“Oh, I know of an excellent cleaning spell that can clean this mess easily.” Beckett offered to help as he looked around at their mess as well as Atlas currently making a snow flour angel on the ground. Not being in the best mood today since it was the hardest day to be a Moon-Att, Iris smiled at her sister enjoying herself.

“Don’t be silly. My parents said not to worry about cleanup at all after my party. They just wanted me to have fun celebrating with my BFF Sun-Att’s favorite day!” Shreya said happily, feeling the many toasts to the sun, she made the group do earlier.

Iris smiled sheepishly. “I’m glad you’re fine with sharing the day. I know being a Fire-Att gets your magick all pumped up today as well, so it’s about you, too. Besides, I had plenty of time practicing my sun Magick with my Sun Source mom earlier. Which is still so weird to say by the way.”

“She’s the best!!!” Atlas sang from the ground, and everyone gave each other a knowing look and smirk, Atlas was quickly feeling her drinks as well as all ofer energy was used to muster any magick. She got up and waited for Iris to cast an Air spell to clean her off like she had earlier since “Atlas’ energy needed to be saved at all costs”.

Her energy is saved for more drinking, Iris thought. Plus, she was sure she loved having her to boss around.

“I still can’t believe you can hang out with Sources all day!” Zeph proclaimed and Griffin agreed in and expressed their well-known feelings again making Iris’ stomach do flip flops. She didn’t like the kind of attention it brought.

“It’s not all that great, really. Nome and my mom are the ones I see the most and they barely can remember what it’s like to be in a human form half the time. It’s bizarre. But, I appreciate it. I do say though, they are working me to death with training and skill enhancing.” Iris rolled her eyes and welcomed the fresh air as they made their way back outside into the now summer night.

Shreya had really outdone herself with decorating her large, luscious backyard for just her friends to come over. Shreya never did anything half-assed, and of course had magickal snacks, foods, and drinks that cost more than Iris wanted to think about. She had asked for Iris’ help, however, on the finishing decorating touches: hundreds of warm orbs flowing and glowing throughout the air to create the mood.

“You’re planning on sharing that knowledge with me, correct?” Beckett asked with terror clear on his features. Iris couldn’t help but smile at him and for the hundredth time that night already, get flustered by the things she never allowed herself to before. Blaming the extra Sun Magick, her prescience vision, or just her unchecked desires, Iris decided to go with it.

“Of course. Atlas is way too good at the Moon spells already obviously, so I’m going to need someone to compete with. And win against of course.” She bumped her shoulder into his playfully, and she could see the tips of his ears turning pink. Just like the good ole days.

Her vision from this morning came crashing back to her: Beckett kissing in her underwear like his life depended on it, with her sundress on the ground. She knew that not every vision comes true, and that not every vision necessarily is what the future holds. She could have very well thrown off her prescience with her evolving attraction to Beckett that was at the forefront of her mind for the past couple days. But she was going to try to look for any sign that it may happen, and more importantly that he wanted it to happen.

“I actually have a really fun spell for us to try with the fire we make tonight?” Iris spoke and looked at Atlas knowing that she would be for it.

“Are you talking about the spell we were just taught?” Atlas actually looked excited. “I think I should have enough energy for that. But I don’t know, Iris, you might have to be my personal magickal assistant for a bit longer though.”

Iris stuck out her tongue as a response to her twin and continued to the others, “It’s a really fun spell that uses the emotional nature of the Moon and the affirmative nature of the Sun and it actually shows what you fantasize most. So you cast intention onto something gets thrown into water, fire, over a cliff or whatever as long as it disappears and so it can come back to you with what your heart fantasizes.”

“Or you don’t cast intention and the spell only shows you that you fantasize a really good sandwich.” Atlas retorts back laughing on her past experiences.

“That is true.” Iris smiled remembering her first experience. “I didn’t really want to think about anything major the first time, and focused on just practicing the spell, too. It showed me a nice bed with the window open for a slight breeze. I guess my body just needed sleep.” Iris shrugged and continued a bit softer as she spoke, “Then I tried it when I was in a shitty mood, and I fantasized a day where no one knew my name or who I’ve fought and had any expectations of me.”

The group got a little quiet after Iris’ statement and she could feel a pair of grey eyes on her as she sat next to him. She smiled to lighten up the mood scolding herself for being a damper. “So let’s make sure we have a lot of fun before hand, and knowing us that won’t be a problem.”

Shreya’s mouth dropped open in shock and spoke, “A spell that plays out your fantasy in front of you? Um yes! Sign me up. I’ve been thinking about this eye candy that shops near one of my favorite boutiques a lot lately.”

She wiggled her eyes up and down, and Beckett and Zeph sighed poking fun at their friend at the same time, looked at each other and high fived each other laughing.

“I’m SO happy that I won’t be able to see that play before me. I’m already weak as is tonight.” Atlas retorted taking her seat around the bonfire area as well.

Everyone did their part to contribute to the bonfire, and they could feel the warm magickal effect flowing through each of them as it began to blaze brightly.  Shreya used her Fire magick to make the fire have beautiful color changing effects, casting a vibrant glow on everyone’s faces.

The group began to bond quickly over the time they hadn’t seen each other and laughed over stupid things each other has done and drank plenty of drinks mixed magickal mood enhancers as the night wore on. They were playing a game of blind enhancements: where basically you take a magickal drink not knowing the magickal effects. Shreya ensured the frantic Beckett multiple times that she wouldn’t put an enhancement in there that ‘wasn’t fun’. Not feeling super comforted with that answer, Beckett still played and even found himself sitting there blazer off, sleeves rolled up and laughing until his stomach hurt at the different situations that arose.  

Aster began to speak a different language for a whole turn, Zeph’s skin turned green for 20 minutes, Griffin felt a strong urge to sing loudly and Shreya went through a fit of hysterical laughter. Atlas was even a good sport when her drink made her want to dance wildly and hiccup every other word.

There was one particular drink that Beckett had taken and remained suspiciously quiet for a while after. Iris couldn’t help but notice the fidgeting Attuned next to her and his blushing ear tips when she had pressed her thigh against his for a brief moment. She wouldn’t call him on it until later when they were alone, but she knew that he didn’t get a “bashful” one.

They switched over to playing ‘Never Have I Ever’ and enjoyed embarrassing one another. They had started with easy questions, but leave it to Atlas to break the seal with, “Never have I had sex with the lights on. Having sex in the day doesn’t count”.

Zeph laughed and said, “It’s never been better to be asexual”.  

Aster blushed furiously at the topic but didn’t take a drink. Shreya and Griffin took a drink quickly.  Iris snuck a quick drink to avoid attention to her and conversations about her sex life, but noticed that Beckett didn’t take a drink.

Iris mind began to wonder again to Beckett’s sex life. A topic they never talked about. Was he a virgin and if not how experienced was he? How many people has he been with? What does he enjoy in bed?

Beckett cleared his throat indicating he has asked a question, and she noticed that everyone stopped talking. Blushing furiously, she realized she hadn’t been paying attention to what was going on.

“I’m sorry, I missed what you said.” She blushed harder even though she tried not to as Beckett looked at her in the eyes.

Then it happened. Her vision came to life. He smiled so wide that his eyes were smiling, too. He showed her such tenderness in his smile that it felt so much better than her vision to be on the receiving end. He leaned forward and tucked the wild strand behind her hair.

“That’s okay. You obviously were having a very important thought. I tend to know a thing or two about those.” His eyes held a little mischief like he knew, and she was worried that he could somehow read her mind. “What I had asked before was, do you think it’s the right time to successfully implement the fantasy spell?”

“Yeah, no time like the present.” Iris felt herself beaming at him and looking at him with her heart on her sleeve, not caring that her intuitive twin would definitely be asking about why she was looking at him like that later. Beckett’s blush reached his cheek at the same time the magickal fire glowed a beautiful magenta hue, illuminating his face  and highlighting his blush in a stunning way. She felt her heart skip a beat.

Shreya who was getting more drunk by the minute, spoke loudly interrupting their moment. “I’M SO READY!”  

Iris smiled at her best friend enjoying the night and complimenting herself on how great the party she threw was going. Iris wasn’t feeling anything more than buzzed as her Sun Magick was working her energy and metabolism quickly, but she didn’t mind. If she was going to have any part of her vision come true tonight, she wanted to be clear headed.

“Okay, everyone have their stick they’re going to cast their intentions with?” Everyone nodded and grabbed their twig they picked out earlier. “Okay, now take a moment to take a couple deep breaths before I cast the spell to ground yourself.” As everyone closed their eyes, Iris couldn’t help but peek at Beckett before taking her own grounding breaths.

Standing up with Atlas who stood on the other end of the fire, they began to recite the powerful spell.  Everyone’s stick began to illuminate a bright magickal golden hue and rise by the energy of the spell. Then each stick flew into the fire one by one, casting a puff of colorful smoke.

Iris felt the corners of her eyes grow blindingly bright as she was pulled into her spell’s fantasy. The vision began to unfold. She found herself sleeping in bed, breeze blowing through a quiet bedroom. The peace and quiet was soon challenged as vision Iris sat straight up in bed gasping, waking from a night terror.

Stirring next to her was another body and to her heart’s pleasure sat up Beckett, tousled hair from sleep, rubbing her shoulders kissing them lazily and softly.

“Bad dream, baby?” His voice thick with sleep asked vision Iris as she leaned into his touch and nodded. He enveloped her into a large hug and slowly brought her back to lay down in bed. She rested her head on his heart, and he stroked her hair.

“I’m here. No one will hurt you as long as I’m here. You’re safe. I’m not going anywhere. Ever.” His gentle voice and soft kisses to her head pulled her back to sleep.

Iris was pulled back to reality gasping trying to get a bearings of her surroundings again. She looked around to her friends who were wearing excited faces and started to chatter about what they saw in their own fantasties. Aster was giddy with delight seeing her excel in Attuned Magick and Zeph had fantasies about being the new Thief captain.

Shreya then began to talk about the love story that folded into her fantasy and that racy novelists should just contact her now, she has a best seller. Iris felt herself fading away more and more from the group as her mind began to unravel.

She felt the ringing in her ears getting louder as a toxic thought kept repeating over and over: “you’ll never be good enough for that fantasy to be real. That happens to other people. Not you. He could never care about someone like you. Someone who doesn’t even deserve to have this immense power circulating through you right now. Someone who can’t even control it properly. Who has no idea what they are doing. You can’t do this.”

Iris stood up abruptly then Sun magick bursting through her as her magick and mind threatened to spiral, shocking her friends slightly at the sudden movement and bright light that briefly casted them.

“I….I...I don’t feel well.” Was the best Iris could make out. Her breaths were becoming staggered and shallow, and she felt the continuous intense rolling pressure in her chest and body that her anxiety brought. “Bathroom.” She bolted her way away from her friends, and could faintly hear Griffin laugh and say, “TMI” as she made her way into Shreya’s house.

She didn’t want anyone to follow her, and she wasn’t particularly sure where anything was in Shreya’s large house. So she just continued to walk down the gorgeous marble hallway down to the other end of the house hoping that the walk will calm her and her mind.

She rounded the corner and made her way down a second hallway to the back of the house. Stopping by the luxurious sunroom, Iris decided that this was a good place to hide and recoup. She admired the bright furniture and enchanted ceiling to have vines and other beautiful floral hanging below gracefully. Her Water magick hummed with delight when she saw the fountain and magickal rain that occurred for the plants every so often. Running her fingers in the fountain and casting little light orbs to follow her magickally started to make her feel at ease already.

Feeling foolish for how she left and having the fantasy affect her this much, Iris chastised herself again. She just wanted to be normal. Funny, she long hated her life before magick, but she envied the simplicity of just wanting to belong. She still didn’t feel like she belonged and now had a world of responsibility and power and everyone telling her where they think she belongs and watching her every move. Maybe she wasn’t able to handle this, and she didn’t know if she could let everyone down. She began to cry softly.

“I’m sorry.” Iris stated out loud to no one in particular feeling pathetic.

“Hey, no need for that.” Beckett spoke softly startling Iris at his entrance to the room. “Sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you. You had been gone for a bit, and I could tell something was wrong, so I wanted to find you. Don’t worry, the others think I’m admiring the flora in the front garden.”

“How did you find me?” Iris said sniffling and wiping her eyes to compose herself in front of someone who always looked so well kempt.

“It’s funny how you don’t even have to try, but it’s as if you are my magnet. I find myself being able to feel your energy and magick quite easily.” Beckett explained and made his way to sit next to her on the large couch.

“You’re being too sweet because I freaked out back there. You don’t have to baby me. I know I’m crazy.” Iris spoke and hated how self deprecating she sounded. He shifted his body to look at her face forcing her to meet him in the eyes.

“Don’t ever say that about yourself. You’re not crazy. You just spend so much time taking care of others, that when you take care of yourself it feels strange.” He said matter of factly, and she cursed his brilliant brain for being right all the time.

“I hate the attention being on me. I can’t stand the pressure anymore, Beck. It’s all getting to me. I have no idea what I’m doing with my life. Atlas wants to go head first into the whole half-Source life, and I’m sitting here fucking terrified! I don’t deserve this, I don’t deserve all this power.” Iris broke her facade that she was strong and doing well and began to sob into Beckett’s arms.

He took her into his arms and tightened the hug holding her like he was the glue keeping her together. He stroked her hair and let her cry and let out her emotions she desperately needed to release. He gave comforting noises but didn’t try to stop her from feeling. He made her feel validated for being upset.

After she her crying slowed down, she stayed for a while breathing in Beckett’s scent and just feeling his warm strong hand caressing her back soothingly. She reluctantly pulled back after a while, and she was so close to him that she could count all his freckles.

“I’m so-” Iris began to apologize and Beckett gently put his finger to her mouth to silence her. She couldn’t help but feel the electricity that sparked through her as he touched her lips.

“Don’t apologize. You have nothing to be sorry for. I want to be here for you, through thick and thin.” He stared at her face as if he was having a long conversation with himself before he continued speaking.

“You deserve everything that makes you happy. It pains me greatly to see you like this. To think that you don’t feel the way you brighten everyone’s lives. That you can’t see that your warmth stays with people for hours and how no one forgets all the times you’ve been there for them. You take on every challenge with everything you have, Iris. You’ve been through terrible situations no one should ever be in, but yet you’re in them again and again with people asking too much of you. And you give to them! You give everything you have to every person, and you’re still able to find the spark in the darkest room because that’s how incredible you are! You’re there for Atlas but she can’t be there for you emotionally. You’re there for Shreya but there is always going to be that distance between you guys because you can’t relate. Iris, when the hell are you there for yourself?”

Knowing that Iris wasn’t actually going to answer that question, Beckett’s cheeks blushed as he spoke, “No matter. I will be there for you whenever you aren’t there for yourself to remind you how amazing you are.”

Iris just stared at her friend in shock that not only did someone think of her that way, but that Beckett thought of her that way. Her lip started to quiver as she was overcome with intense emotion and Beckett cupped her face. They had never shared such an intimate and raw moment, and Iris felt her heart and soul fall even more head over heels in love with the man in front of her. The man who wanted to be her light for her when she couldn’t find her own.

“Thank you.” Was all she could croak out as she took an audible gulp.  After a moment of comfortable silence and steadying her breath she continued, “You know, Beck. I couldn’t have made it this far without you. I’m so grateful to have you in my life. You make me feel like I can figure out who I am and be allowed to fail, and I can’t even begin to tell you how amazing that feels.”

She smiled at him and allowed herself to show the person she cared for most just how much she cared in her eyes. She rested her hands against his thigh, and she could hear his breath hitch. She didn’t want to be afraid of rejection and losing him anymore. His thumb brushed against her cheek lightly, and he didn’t make any moves to move apart. She could feel his breath hitting her lips and she enjoyed the way his aroma began to engulf her as well.

“I would do it all over again in a heartbeat. It’s crazy but I’d do just about anything to keep you safe. I can’t pull myself away from you, and I don't think I want to try anymore” Beckett spoke softly blushing lightly at his confession. She felt her chest tighten and her mind wanted to tell her that is was a lie, but a part of her that she was so tired of fighting, wanted it to be true.

“Beckett…” Iris breathed and found herself lost at words, feeling her magick drawing herself even closer to him. He was intoxicating.

“Can you tell me something, Iris?” Beckett asked her and she would just about give him anything he wanted now.

“Of course.”

“Obviously something you saw in the fantasy made you a bit upset. Do you mind telling me what it was?” He sheepishly asked and she could tell this flustered him a bit instantly making her wonder what his was. She tried to control her body temperature, so she didn’t give anything anyway.

“It wasn’t a bad fantasy or vision. It just made me a bit sad because I desperately wanted it to be my future, but I have a terrible fear that it would never happen. It hurts too much to think about that.” Iris took a deep breath and looked down at her lap and thanked all the energy the Summer Solstice brought to give her the courage she needed to say what she wanted out loud.

“What was it, Iris?” The vulnerability in his voice made her tear her gaze from her lap and look into his grey eyes that were heavy with emotion.

“Beckett…” Iris felt her face getting warmer as she spoke, “My fantasy was that you loved me.”

[cometorub]

(SUB 09) Kayda answering: -> this survey ❤️

Next post - 02/05/2020 - 1am GMT - 8pm EDT

Delay of posts due to Christmas + family

1. What is your name?

Kayda

2. How old are you?

19

3. What’s your sexual orientation?

Pansexual

4. Your pubic hair?

Trimmed

5. Are you virgin?

Nope

6. How old were you when you first masturbated?

11

7. How did you discover masturbation?

Having sex with a girl

8. How old were you when you had your first orgasm?

11

9. Can you tell us more about your first orgasm? How did it happen?

Me and this girl were “scissoring” and all the sudden i felt this wave of i couldnt even describe i was gasping it felt so good

10. How often do you masturbate?

Everyday

11. When was the last time you masturbated?

2 hrs ago lol

12. Do you masturbate to any stimulus?

Yes my hitachi wand and some dildos

13. What do you think about?

Feeling so good or having someone eat me out

14. What’s the last thing you thought of or masturbated to?

This guy ive been talking to

15. Have you ever walked in on or caught someone masturbating? (If yes, please tell us a little more about it)

I walked in on my bestfriend masturbating she was rubbing her clit in the bed biting her lip so i climbed in and went underneath the covers and ate her out

16. Have someone ever walked in on or caught you masturbating? (If yes, please tell us a little more about it)

My best friend and her bf we all had a threesome

17. Have you ever had cyber sex?

Yes

18. Have you ever had phone sex?

Yeah

19. Have you ever had a wet dream?

Yepp

20. What’s your favorite method of masturbation? (i.e. Hands/Toys/Lotion/etc.)

My wand and anal vibe

21. Are you loud or quiet when you masturbate?

Loud

22. Do you ever masturbate in pjs? If so what type and how?

My pjs shorts

23. Do you ever touch any other part of your body whilst you masturbate?

My breasts

24. Has anyone ever watched you masturbate live online?

Yes

25. Has anyone ever watched you masturbate in person?

Yeah at sex parties

26. Have you ever watched someone masturbate live online?

Yepp

27. Have you ever watched someone masturbate in person?

My best friend and some guys

28. Have you ever masturbated with someone? (Mutual masturbation)

Yes my bestie and her bf and a few other girls

29. Do you enjoy watching others masturbate?

Yes, boys and girls

30. Do you enjoy being watched while masturbating?

Yeah

31. Who do you like to think about when you masturbate?

A few of my friends

32. Have you ever told them you think about them while you masturbate?

Yes definitely they seem okay with it

33. Does anyone know you masturbate? How did they find out?

I tell people why not, its a normal thing to do

34. Have you masturbated because your partner wasn’t around to help? Where were they?

Working

35. What’s your most embarrassing masturbation story?

When i was living with my mom shes walked in on my rubbing my clit

36. What’s your funniest masturbation story?

When my bestie walked in we had a laugh about it. Before she got on her knees and started eating me out

38. Have you ever masturbated in unique or strange places?

Usually in my bed but im a nympho so i do it in a bathroom at work. Bathroom at college. At my besties house while shes sleeping

39. Have you ever used something unique or strange to masturbate?

Hairbrush handle, kitchen untesils

40. Is it easy for you to orgasm or do you have to work for it?

Depends on how much im in the mood sometimes i can come under 1min others 10-15 min

41. What’s the easiest way for you to get off?

Wand with a dildo

42. Is there only one way you can get off? (i.e. Vaginal/Clitoral/Toy Use)

Extreme toy use sometimes but mostly clitoral stimulation

43. Are you able to achieve orgasm through only non-conventional or indirect methods? (Breast Play/Hands-Free/Anal)

definitely anal

44. Do you ever double penetrate while you masturbate?

Yes i love anal so i use both my holes

45. Do you ever suck on a dildo while you masturbate?

Yes or i have my gag ball in

46. Do you edge when you masturbate? (Get to the point of orgasm and stop repeatedly to enhance the experience)

Yes especially if im told to though id rather just cum

47. What position do you typically masturbate in?

On my back or doggy style

48. How do you react when you orgasm, arch your back, pull faces? Etc

My eyes roll back, my legs shake, body shakes

49. Describe how an orgasm feels to you when you cum? If possible

Its the most euphoric most desired thing in the world i cant describe how it makes me feel

50. Describe a typical masturbation session.

I start with my wand on my clit at level one as soon as i get really wet i take it off my clit and fuck myself a little with the dildo before add the wand back on before i know it i start squirting on the bed

51. How long do you usually last?

5mins

52. What’s the quickest you’ve ever been brought to orgasm?

I use the method above while there was an anal vibe in and i came maybe a 45sec into it

53. What’s the longest masturbation session you’ve had?

2-3 hours

54. What’s the most amount of times you’ve cum in a day?

14

55. How wet do you get? Do you leak fluids when you orgasm? (If yes, please describe)

Yes i can squirt but im also very wet like makes a mess on the bed without squirting

56. If you are older than 35, how has masturbation changed for you over the years?

N/A

57. Do you want to tell us something more about your masturbation experiences?

I have my vibe in at school and have orgasms in class, at the mall, in a library

58. Are you sexually aroused taking this survey?

Yes I am

59. Are you going to masturbate tonight after taking this survey?

Definitely

Thank you so much for your answers! ❤

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We want to know more about the way our female followers masturbate.

You can answer as many questions as you want. I’d love to hear from you!

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[trackgirltuesday]

a combination of things has me wanting to start opening up on this blog & while it may just be for me, I have this feeling in my chest that it may serve not just myself better, but maybe others too. I want something indicative of a blank slate and of who I am in this present moment. I guess this a journal for me, but if it connects me to more of you during this time that’d be pretty cool.

I left my apartment in New York City (wow I miss u) because of the COVID-19 quarantine to be safe and surrounded by family in my childhood home in PA. And ever since, I’ve watched my time spent on social media since this can be such a confusing and anxiety-provoking time. This has made me appreciate Tumblr more than ever-I feel like I can share in an open and authentic way without judgement that I just don’t feel the same about other platforms. I want to build and be a part of community, ESPECIALLY in this time in our lives.

With that, I have been really inspired lately by what I am learning and how I can share my knowledge and experiences to better shape health education. There are so many unhealthy and triggering myths that exist in the world that are perpetuated and circulated by social media. Or, maybe you’re a beginner and just don’t know where to start. Here’s the thing: I’m learning with you. I want to be a positive force, a liaison if you will, between what is clinically proven in research and practice and how we as normal, everyday, messy humans can live better, INDIVIDUALIZED, lifestyles for no one but our damn selves in our nutrition and exercise.

So to start off, my name is Olivia (no one calls me Liv anymore and I miss the hell out of it so please feel free to), I’m 22 years old, and I am currently a first year student (a 2nd year in 2 weeks!) in a Doctorate of Physical Therapy program. I am a certified personal trainer through the National Academy of Sports Medicine, and am studying currently to be a certified strength and conditioning specialist (CSCS through NSCA!). I studied biology in my undergrad years, and I am a former NCAA Division I athlete in cross country and track & field. I grew up playing soccer and tennis up until college, before switching to mid and long distance running. My current relationship with running is on the mend: I tore my hip labrum about a year ago, and after finally figuring out the diagnosis, I’m back to running 2-3 times a week. Right now I’m really into HIIT, strength circuits, and boxing. Outside of school, I worked at a yoga studio in the city and really started appreciating it! But, I am grateful for the fresh air of PA, my family, and a chance to grow.

My initial goals here are to get to know you guys and start sharing my ideas for exercises I’ve created that I’m really excited about (still gonna share chest/abs/shoulders for my distance runners out there-just gotta film)! Feel free to introduce yourself in the notes or my messages. Id love to hear what you’re up to, what you’re doing to stay active in quarantine, what type of fitness and wellness content you look forward to, and what you think is missing in YOUR daily lives that I can help provide. At the least, I’m excited to log my exercise ideas on this blog! I’m not a perfect athlete, I don’t look like a fitness model, and I won’t sell you the shortcut version of healthy habits. I’m a size 8 and content, I don’t have a killer tan 24/7, and I don’t look like a runner. But, I’m here to keep myself and hopefully you accountable, skeptical, vulnerable, gritty, and real.

These pictures are a day in my life of today. I’m taking classes online probably like most of you. Normally on Tuesday’s I have a 5 hr morning lecture and a 2 hr evening lecture. But today was for final presentations, so we were lucky enough to just have one long lecture for the day. After a morning lecture, the remaining 90 minutes were a yoga and meditations class. It felt really nice to practice outside in the sun and take things slowwwww. Running wasn’t on the agenda today but how! could! I! not! when the weather feels like that dream-like track meet? After being done with class for the day, I went on a lil 20 min slow jaunt for the day just to take everything in. Also, never thought I would enjoy running in a one-shoulder sports bra but this Fabletics top really is that! bitch!... Finished up this beautiful day with iced coffee, studying kinesiology & radiology on the deck in golden hour, and the most killer lasagna dinner with my parents. I hope today your 24 hours reflected everything your mind, body, emotions, and spirit wanted and needed them to be today :)

[adeity-studies]

I know there are probably a million posts out there already on how to survive online school because miss rona just won’t quit, but I always found those lists to be quite sparse and repetitive after a while. So here I am, with a whole new list of tips & tricks to help y’all out after not doing so hot last quarter but still scraping by.

I think one of the most important aspects to succeeding in online school/coursework is to have the correct study space/setup. Obviously, this is a very personal experience for everyone, but I’ve listed a couple of general tips that y’all can use and refine to suit your own tastes/aesthetics. Here they are:

1. TROUBLESHOOT TECH

This is one of the more important points, since school is online, making sure all your technology is up and running is paramount.

Most courses release syllabi before the course starts, read this THOROUGHLY and take note of any technical specifications they may have (e.x. requiring webcams, certain browser extensions, software, etc.)

Troubleshoot any wifi/bandwidth issues (ESPECIALLY if your professor requires you to have your camera on during class, that’ll eat up your internet speed)

Check your internet speed if you anticipate any issues will arise – just Google “Internet Speed Test”

Low-cost internet for students:

Guide to Internet Service During Covid-19

XFINITY Student Deals

Comcast Internet Essentials

2. CURATE YOUR STUDY SPACE

Find someplace quiet to study

If you’re someone who needs music to focus this is your time to SHINE – make any playlists, etc. in advance so you don’t waste 90% of your time trying to decide what song to play next

Again, read the syllabi so you know what you should have in terms of course materials (txtbooks, etc.) beforehand 

3. CREATE A SCHEDULE, BUT REMAIN FLEXIBLE

Now is a good time to focus on developing your time-management skills- start by creating a schedule and trying to stick to it. Try out whatever planning/time-management apps you’d like to your hearts content, and be sure to set time aside for self-care (this is an overused term, but I mean it, digital fatigue is real)

Planning/time management tools: 

Toggl - time management app

Pomodoro Timer - stay focused on 25 min. cycles

Forest, Stay Focused - app that forces you to stop checking your phone

Bullet Journals - planning tool

Planners - planning tool

Asana - project management software

Etc.

4. KEEP YOUR COMFORT IN MIND 

My classes are usually 3-4 hours long per day, with 2-3 hours of homework and staring at my screen/lecture recordings/online textbook on top of that. Meaning, I sit in the same spot for hours on end, in the same position. It’s super uncomfortable after a while, gets monotonous, and also makes me want to procrastinate because of the amount of discomfort I now associate w/studying. 

Here’s a list of tools/products that I’ve invested in this past quarter to make my workspace much more comfortable, inviting, and productive to both my mental and physical health. 

Blue light blocking glasses - to reduce eyestrain while using devices 

Adjustable bamboo book/laptop stand - (pictured below!) helps with neck/back posture, so you aren’t looking down at your screen and straining your neck all of the time

Tools/products (cont.): 

Universal stylus - I have a touchscreen laptop so I sometimes use this to annotate pdfs/draw in OneNote to show my work during university office hours

Soy candle - Life is stressful, having a candle makes me feel better for some reason 

Gratitude journal - It’s easy to feel helpless when you’re stuck inside, watching the world go through riots, protests, violence, all while facing a pandemic

That’s all I have for now! I hope everyone reading this has a good day, and take it easy!! 

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[angelostories]

Dearest Yogis! I hope all of you are well and healthy! The situation of Covid-19 as it unfolds day by day is challenging at all levels of our life. There is a lot of fear around us but maybe this situation teach us what is important in our life, how to live less insecure without trying control everything, less selfish and more loving and caring. We can choose to live in our fears, confusion and worries or to stay in the essence of our practice, center ourselves and be the beautiful ones that demonstrate patience, compassion, awareness, mindfulness, love and mutual care. These are challenging times but we have to accept the situation and the new conditions. I've taken the decision to start classes online in order to stay connected, to keep practicing together, and to support us as we deal with this Pandemic. It's a time to take good care of yourself, and each other, let's practice together. This is how it will work: Classes will take place on Zoom (you can take part on your phone or your desktop, I recommend downloading the Zoom app) Each week I will send an email with a link to the Zoom meetings - the first practice is tomorrow Monday 16/03 at 18.30CET, 19.30 Gr. Schedule Tuesday - Thursday 08.00 CET, 09.00 Gr Hatha flow Tuesday - Thursday 19.00 CET, 20.00 Gr Men only Monday - Wednesday 18.30 CET, 19.30 Gr Hatha Flow Please send me your mail in my inbox so you make sure you get the Zoom meeting links. Here is the link for the first one tomorrow at 18.30 CET - 60 mins Hatha flow https://us04web.zoom.us/j/5261690627 These will all be donation based classes, payment can be made before or after the class via PayPal. You can donate as much or as little as you like - this is about us practicing together - staying strong and healthy during this challenging time! This is the first time that I have done live online classes, and I imagine it's the first time for many of you! Give yourself enough time to set up Zoom and get your mat ready at home. There may be a few technical difficulties as we all get used to this new format - but that's all part of the adventure! See you online ! Take care, Angelos 🙏🏻 #instayoga #yogapractice #yoga #onlineclasses https://www.instagram.com/p/B9w3Q-sohmi/?igshid=1ph9e89b2q565

[bloggergirl-7]

Heyy beautiful people hope you are safe wherever you are. So let me tell you something about me. I am 17 years teen girl , and I am just an ordinary girl who is here to share some life experience & stuffs like that blah blah blah😅.....

Sorry back to the intro stuff.... I absolutely love travelling until now I have been to Singapore which was my very first international tour , then I have been to Thailand, Dubai. In India I have been to Hyderabad,Shimla kullu manali . And my tour to Amritsar was cancelled because of the outbreak of Covid -19 ,which was supposed to be my last tour I guess because I am planning to do engineering so you guys know why this was supposed to be my last tour. ☹

I also love listening music (who doesn't😅) and I absolutely love dancing although I am not that good but I try😁

How many of you are now used to this quarantine life like me? I know everyone. So have you many of you have kept check of the stuffs you do in this quiz days?

"Naah!!! Not me " used to be my answer to this question for past 2 months, but I actually very ssly thought what I do the whole day that's when I realised I should plan my day so this is how I planned my day:

*NOTE:- GET RID OF YOUR PHONE *

At the beginning of the quarantine due to lockdown all the classes started their online lecture so do my class. My class begins at 10 am and I being a lazy a** used to wake up before 5 mins of the lecture. I know I am lazy but then I decided to wake up 1 hour before the lecture so I started waking up at 9 am , I completed my morning routine by 9.30 am and the next half hour help me to get totally ready to start my lectures with a fresh mood. And it actually helped me alot😁

After lecture I used to use my phone till 1 pm like ssly!!! I used to waste 1 and half hour on my phone. So I decided to take shower as soon as the lecture ends so that I would feel more fresh. By 12 pm I used to feel very fresh & then after that I started reading books, I have 6 7 books in which 4 are twilight saga which I have already completed and now I am reading 13 Reasons Why because I don't have a Netflix I only have Prime videos but I also love reading. That actually helped me to keep my phone away from me.

By 1 pm I have my lunch and then I practice the basic of signing from online singing classes, or watch web series may be it depends on internet 😛. I started working out because I observed I that I was putting on weight day by day . So at the beginning I used to do workout for like half hour and only once but then I started doing it at night as well. I am getting good results.

I also started watching Mahabharat which airs on star plus , I also help my mom in making dinner. I have kept a fix time for my lunch and dinner and you also you should keep a fix time for your lunch and dinner it's a good thing. And dinner is my last meal I have at night ( strictly no snacking at night😂). By 11 pm I start doing my workout for night ( I know it's too late but...😅) till 11.30 I complete my workout session, take a quick shower and by 12 I am ready for bed. But 12 to 2 I surf through my social media and watch few tiktoks and YT videos. By 2 am I go to sleep.

So this is the timetable I started following from this month and I observed I actually started making my day more productive.

You guys tell me your quarantine routine and till then bye guys!!!

Please suggest me web series or movies to watch on Prime. Currently I am watching TVD S5 . I am a big fan of TVD though. Any TVD lover here?😀

[bugburn]

Okay so before we get to anything.

Intros/Cast:

Me [Nonbinary/18]

Friend [F/14/Bisexual]

Friends mom

Mentioned:

Friends Gf [Lesbian]

Friends mom's Bf

Friends brother [15]

Other tall friend [M/19]

Location: British Columba

~[☆}~

Last week I got to the bus stop and found my friend looking shaken and visibly upset.

I asked what was up she said that an older boy in my class had started working with her mom's bf recently.

This guy had noticed my friend had a gf and without asking her about it he told the mom's bf about it.

Then the bf told the mom about it.

Friends mom then started acting more aggressively towards my friend, yelling at her for the smallest things and go as far as trashing her room.

~{☆}~

Present:

My friend got kicked out of her house last night [Nov 15, 2019] after school.

My friend was supposed to be staying at my house for the night until her gf could pick her up the next morning.

We both got off the bus and went to her house so she could grab her duffle bag and a change of clothes, I waited outside while she did this.

She was inside for quite a while, didn't think much of it.

Next thing I know she's storming out of the house crying, she said she'd just got kicked out and that she's staying at my place to figure things out and hide from her mom and her mom's bf.

I agree'd, so we start walking away from her house and up the street.

We got about halfway up the street before her mom comes out and starts power walking towards us yelling and demanding she gets back inside the house.

An argument ensues.

Her mom grabs onto her backpack, finding out the laptop was in there (friend isn't supposed to have laptop.) [Context: she was getting cyber bullied online and tried to defend herself but her mom thought she had started the fight online] and begins yanking her towards the house saying she'd stolen the laptop, I tell her where the laptop is really from.

(I also say yanking because they're both the same 5'4" height and roughly the same 120lb weight)

(More laptop context: Her brother got the laptop from our other tall friend, her brother had this laptop until he got a new desktop set up and gave the laptop to his sister/my friend. Their mom found out about the laptop and asked about it. Friend said she got it from her brother who then turned around and said he didn't even have it in the first place. Mom took the laptop away.)

Her mom is kicking at her legs, then she tries hitting her head. My friend dodges and headbutts her mom, thus throwing her off rhythm giving her enough time to break free and run back to me.

I've been standing off to the side, ready to break up their squabble if it gets dicey.

Her mom starts demanding back the stuff she payed for (ie. The duffel bag)

My friend agrees to this even though she has nothing to carry the clothes in.

She dumps out the clothes and throws the bag at her mom. Who takes the bag and starts picking up the clothes (she didn't pay for the clothes, their grandpa, my friends gf and I payed for them) and starts heading towards the house.

We both figure she'd given up and we both haul ass up the street and begin the walk towards my house (I live across town from her)

We don't even make it around the corner before her mom comes ripping around the corner in her black Mercedes demanding she get in the car so she can be taken to the foster care administration office in another town.

My friend, still crying, stays on the grass and hauls ass up the road, they're both still yelling at eachother.

I'm walking not far behind them, still ready to break them up.

My friend says she's going to live with me

Her mom says I can't even live with me because I've been kicked out of my house a couple times (my sister kicks me out/has her friends kick me out when I do something she doesn't like) [ie. Trying to talk/vent about my mental health]

My friend runs ahead, and stands by the river bank, her mom had pulled over, she sees me walking by and starts saying I'll be charged for harboring a minor. I calmly explain that I hadn't done anything except allow her daughter to chill at my house for the night.

Mom repeats herself, saying she'll get the police to visit my house and arrest me before driving ahead, she pulls up to my friend still cussing her out, my friend, still stabdung by the river bank, says she'll jump if she isn't left alone [she's had suicidal thoughts and tendencies in the past.] Mom is yet again thrown off rythem, before driving ahead ans turning around.

I'd gotten into a call with the police and was explaining what was happening and what had happened.

Friends mom zips down the road towards the house, swerving a bit in an attempt to hit me. I jump over a haul ass towards my friend.

We're not telling the lady over the phone our information and where to send the officer to meet and talk to us.

Time skip 30 mins.

We got done telling the officer our information and we were heading towards my house, then my friend points out that her mom is actively hunting us both down, not in her own vehicle, but their grand fathers red vehicle, I look over and see her sitting at the cross lights, ready to turn into the parking lot were were just speaking to the cop in.

We haul ass down the street to another crosslight and I take the lead, leading us both down a back road that also leads to my house, my friend is constantly looking back ready to run if her mom finds us.

We take up refuge at a friends house for the night [they'd been previously informed//worked at the place we hid in first] since my house isn't a very safe place (her brother knows where I live) a and her mom WILL try to break in if she find out we're home (nobody is tho since my old man is in another couple towns over)

So no we're hiding out until Monday when we can tell the teacher who'd promised to help us if things got dicey.

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