#narcissus speaks

[npd-headcanons]

it is my birthday >:D

[spocks-kaathyra]

going from my cool transgender college dorm to the Weird Old White Men Convention is soooo freaky like why am I experiencing misogyny for the first time

[lacan-psychoananalysisaspraxis]

The materiality of the unconscious is made, not of learning, but of things said to the subject, that have hurt him, and of things, impossible to say, that make him suffer…Unconscious memory parasites the living [being] and alters its potency.

The materiality of the unconscious is made, not of learning, but of things said to the subject, that have hurt him, and of things, impossible to say, that make him suffer.

As soon as man speaks, he is submitted to the question of his truth and his most intimate identifications come to respond to the paradoxes of his link to what he says and to what has been said to him. The materiality of the unconscious is made, not of learning, but of things said to the subject, that have hurt him, and of things, impossible to say, that make him suffer. The opposition between the principles of the nervous system’s functioning, arising directly from the laws of biology and physics, and the register of another causality for founding psychology, is thus posed. Unconscious memory parasites the living [being] and alters its potency.

Éric Laurent. Uses Of The Neurosciences For Psychoanalysis. La Cause Freudienne no. 70, December 2008.

[tethered-heartstrings]

Narcissus by Caravaggio x My cat, Midna

[shyhandart]

I want to post timelapses but i cant glaze them and i dont want them scraped for ai ughhh

[fang-revives]

Truly seated if there's ever good Kaito/Okada written -- like my favourite flavor of Okada other than the one I write is just a vicious preening untouchable thing. There's something about Kiyomiya being a bit of an inadequate mirror to him, like he has similar presentation and is also the young ace of his promotion, but he's so much less and that upsets Okada, upsets him to be placed in comparison to someone who seems so like him and yet so much lesser...

[longagoitwastuesday]

I love the Goncharov meme conceptually. It feels like classic academia perhaps, definitely like studying ancient philosophy at times. You get a fragment (knockoff boots), a general context (Martin Scorsese films existing), and then a very long discussion about nothing starts. But the nothingness isn't entirely nothing, and there are still limits to what can and cannot be said framed by both the existence and non-existence of that which is being discussed. Hilarious, truly, and the fact itself so very interesting to analyse in so many ways.

[hexplaything]

spending my break taking selfies cause i dont feel like doing anything else

[magpieddd]

I either think I'm the hottest bitch to walk on earth or the ugliest motherfucker that ever existed. No in-between. What is wrong with me.

[mars-ipan]

i’m actually really loving my new icon. such an upgrade lmao

[sweetiebriar]

I’ve been rewatching the show, and it’s just been lying there to everyone's eyes and no one is seeing it.

I find the Narcissus Complex in Moon Knight so fascinating!

Marc: The original avatar, is a little boy whose traumatised subconscious created an alternate identity based on an adventurer character from an old film to deal with his troubles in life and especially his abusive mother. This personality/identity, Steven, is passionate about Egypt and knows hieroglyphs, speaks French and ancient Egyptian, loves French poetry, and dreams of adventures.

Growing up, Marc commits crimes that lead him to meet and fall in love with a woman, Layla, daughter of an Egyptian archaeologist, who also happens to be passionate about Egypt and knows hieroglyphs, speaks French and ancient Egyptian, loves French poetry, and is an adventurer of her own.

Can you see it now? Do you finally realise what’s really going on? Steven and Layla are exactly the same! So, Marc, conscientiously or not, is in love with and married a woman who is literally the female counterpart of his other identity. Do you understand that this means Marc is in love with and married to Steven? That is so hilarious and exciting at the same time!

Oh, and make no mistake. The feeling is mutual. Steven fell also in love, with Layla’s adventurous and badass style. Thus, everything Marc is. Conclusion? Marc and Steven are in love with each other. Narcissus Complex, here you are!

Narcissism & The Narcissus Complex differences: Narcissism the fact of having an excessive interest in our own physical appearance and/or image and an excessive preoccupation with our own needs. But the Narcissus Complex is different in that it involves being self-absorbed in one certain form.

It’s categorised by the reflection Narcissus’ image is taking in the water of the pond. An image of purity and innocence. But Narcissus himself is neither of that. So he falls in love with his reflection which represents perfection. This describes exactly the relationship between Marc and Steven.

Marc is self-absorbed by the form of Steven who is perfection through his happy life. He is innocence because he has never committed a crime. He refuses violence and always tries to resolve conflict with words rather than fists. That’s how the alters work together, they seek in each other what they always have sought in themselves. In the same way that Narcissus has always sought perfection in himself.

[spocks-kaathyra]

t'pol and hoshi....... something lgbt just happened on my screen. what is it with star trek and inserting as much homoerotic vulcan hand touching as possible........

[lacan-psychoananalysisaspraxis]

Speech goes via the body and, in return, it affects the body that emits it… It affects it in the form of phenomena of resonance and echo. The resonance and echo of speech in the body are the real, both of what Freud called the ‘unconscious’ and the ‘drive’. In this sense, the unconscious and the speaking body are one and the same real.

Speech goes via the body and, in return, it affects the body that emits it. In what way and in what form does speech affect the body that is its emitter? It affects it in the form of phenomena of resonance and echo. The resonance and echo of speech in the body are the real, both of what Freud called the ‘unconscious’ and the ‘drive’. In this sense, the unconscious and the speaking body are one and the same real. I’m going to say it again so that this essential punctuation doesn’t elude us. There is equivalence between the unconscious and the drive insofar as both terms have a common origin which is the effect of speech in the body, the somatic affects of language, of lalingua.

Henceforth, the unconscious at issue is not an unconscious of pure logic but, so to speak, an unconscious of pure jouissance. To designate this new unconscious, Lacan forged a new word, a neologism that is starting to repeat, the parlêtre, which is altogether distinct from the Freudian unconscious that belongs to the ontological and ethical order, as we have seen. On the contrary, the parlêtre is an ontic entity, because this entity necessarily has a body, since there is no jouissance without a body. The concept of parlêtre hinges – this is what I am putting forward – on the originary equivalence between unconscious and drive.

Jacques-Alain Miller - Habeas Corpus. World Association of Psychoanalysis Congress 2018. Translated by A. R. Price.

[the-rxven-king]

Ttrpg questions 19 and 23 for all of the lads! I want to know about them all!!!

anon i love you i didnt think anyone would actually ask me about them

the questions post is here for context since i reblogged it a while ago and ive been chipping away when i have time!! and ill put under a read more so that the post isnt super long cause i Did Ramble since i love my characters

any of my friends who play in the games with them if you do look under the read more try not to read anything from the characters you play with unless you know you know you know all of the lore associated please and thank you <33

therell be very vague mentions of abuse and suicidal ideaology, so just be aware of that!

very quick summary of who each character is!

donte “requiem” von strega | he/they | vampire spawn winged tiefling/shadow genasi | spirits bard/phantom rogue

lumaris “desolation” arivine | it/its mainly now cause of bullshit, but he/they also works! | drow/tiefling | bloodhunter of the ghostslayer order/(soon to be)phantom rogue

ruvyn “narcissus velarastra” ares naizora | eladrin | shadow sorcerer

nowell samson | demon | undying warlock

aaand side note about nowell! hes based in a modern setting that uses d&d stats still!

and now i go ahead and answer

19. have they ever been in love? 

the quickest way to answer this for all of them is to say 3/4 is yes! nowell is the only one who has not

requiem has been in love, deeply and unconditionally so. he had (or i guess has? that whole situation is incredibly complicated and hes not even sure how to go about it anymore) a fiance named castor who was his everything. the stars to his moon, the light to his dark, the day to his night, the warmth to his cold, just everything. he was perfect to requiem, and quite frankly he still is. he believed that he had killed castor, as his vampire sire chandra briarwood has ordered him to kill his loved ones and bring her their hearts as proof of her “undying love and devotion” to her and her alone, as shes completely and utterly obsessed with him and wants him to love her despite him already telling her he only likes men. he was able to snap out of her control just last second as castor lay dying in his arms, but its recently been discovered in game that castor is alive as a champion of the raven queen! so requiem wants to see him again extremely badly, but he fears what he would think of him now or if he would even still love him at all. he just wants to know his mans is safe and hopes that he can be happy some day :(

desolation was completely and utterly enamored with his best friend, sasira. it took him a good long while to realize that what he felt so strong in his chest every time he saw him was romantic love, but he loved him for a long time. he was, however, scared to lose the friendship they had between them, and thus he never said anything to him about how he truly felt. not even after they began a friends with benefits relationship, not even after they found themselves in situations that most would look at and know are romantic, neither said a thing. sasira loved him too, but held the same fear in their chest that lumaris did. desolation is a completely different man than he was before, no longer going by lumaris for it no longer feels a man at all, much less that sweet, gentle, happy, kind soul that lumaris had been, and sasira is a ghost who trails along behind it just trying to make sure its alive, but this has not changed their feelings for each other in the slightest. everything desolation does is to avenge sasira (as well as his family, but his love for sira is definitely a strong fuel for fire in a lot of regards).

narcissus has, technically, been in love before, but whenever they think back on it, they feel such a fool. in the past, he was openly and deeply a hopeless romantic. he wanted to be whisked away for a whirlwind romance and truly, deeply cared for for the first time in his life by some handsome man (or hell, hed take a woman too, but he has a strong preference for men) and he thought at one point he had that. a noble gentleman showed up and swept him off his feet, and they had a secret relationship for a short handful of months before said nobleman realized that narcissus was the last in line for his high ranking family name. of 5 siblings, hes the baby, and that meant very little to the nobleman, as narcissus was set to inherit the least just because of his place in the bloodline (and also because his parents never wanted him, and thus, they never cared enough to give him much of anything in their wills). because of this, the man went and cheated on narcissus with his eldest sister, allegra, and once he had secured a place in her heart, he broke it off with narcissus suddenly and brutally. narcissus has been hurt and wary ever since. hes been lead to believe he is not someone who can be loved - hes nothing more than an object who must look perfect, be perfect, and will be used to someone elses desires and thrown away when theyre done/bored with him.

and as i said nowell has never been in love. the man has never been good at socializing after a supernatural incident left him deeply traumatized and orphaned by the age of 6 - the only creatures he feels at ease speaking with are the dead, of which he is deeply connected. he can see and hear ghosts, and one ghost - the spirit of a demon named varthron - is his “guardian”. i put air quotes cause in reality, varthron is just his dad, but nowell keeps not admitting it aloud even if he feels that connection with him. when he left england, where he originally lived, and ended up in america, he ended up being severely bullied for his strange mannerisms. he would speak in fluent ancient latin to “himself” (it was actually varthron, who has yet to learn english and taught nowell latin at a young age), speak with “himself” in english as well (to various ghosts hed encounter), and would draw strange runes, pentagrams, and spells in his notebook during classes. he was also very socially awkward and hadnt grasped social queues, so the way he spoke with others and interacted with them (the few times he did) was made fun of and used as the punchline of a joke often. because of the intense abuse he suffered at the hands of his peers, he never really made any bonds and now finds it incredibly difficult to bond with people or find it in himself to trust them. group situations make him anxious, especially if he is the focus of attention, but speaking on an individual basis also makes him anxious because he cant trust a stranger easily, and he lacks good social skills after years of his only company being ghosts and little else. thus, nowell has yet to find someone he could trust enough to even fully, with confidence, call a best friend. he has a friend, found in a man named santana hes got a friends with benefits relationship with as of current, but there has been no one he loves romantically quite yet

23. when do they feel the most beautiful?

requiem hasnt felt truly beautiful in a while. ever since his turning, hes felt like nothing but a monster. he does, however, find some joy and a bit of ease in that mental pain when he gets to wear a really nice outfit and he knows hes accessorized well with silver-colored jewelry. sometimes all it truly takes is light, flowy clothes and pretty jewelry in his signature gothic style to make himself feel like he used to, and that makes him feel a bit prettier than he normally feels he is.

desolation doesnt put any stock in any emotion other than anger anymore, not truly. it has no need to feel beautiful, or even happy? it simply wants revenge and it wants that feeling of peace before it can finally die as its been waiting to do, to put it bluntly. the last time it felt beautiful was the last time that sasira braided his hair, and even then, that was lumaris, not desolation. the only time hes felt beautiful in the past 4 years and some change was when he had a moment together with his newly committed partner, sandro. it hadnt even felt human in some time, but the way that sandro cared about him and loved him made it feel something more than just a deeply repressed grief and anger. the way sandro loves him makes him feel not only human, but it makes him feel pretty. he wouldnt say it, i dont think they even realize they feel it, but he does. when sandro loves him and shows him he has humanity left somewhere deep in this hollowed husk of a soul, he feels pretty

narcissus is full of fake confidence. he will claim up and down and all around that hes the hottest bitch in this room. he is the sexiest bastard youll ever meet, i mean look at him, of course hes beautiful! but he doesnt really believe it. sometimes he takes a quick glance in the mirror, preens a bit, and hell think he looks sexy and beautiful, but dont let him look too long. hell pick himself apart. he isnt absolute perfection and he will destroy himself internally for that. his freckles arent pretty, his hair isnt nice enough, not soft enough or shiny enough, his eyes arent a nice shape, his cheekbones arent sharp enough, his jaw isnt sharp enough, his features arent delicate enough, his skin isnt clear enough, his scars are disgusting and improper, and not only that, but its all a mask anyway. he wears a summer mask when he is so so deeply in winter at all times. he refuses to let anyone see him sleep because he cannot physically hold his summer mask up anymore when he falls asleep and he finds himself so disgusting and shameful and ugly that he cant let anyone see it. he hates how he looks. especially in winter, his most natural season at this point in his life. the only beautiful season is summer, such is the way he was taught, so he clings to it best he can to make sure everyone thinks his mask is pretty and dont know the ugly underneath.

nowell has never found himself pretty. at most he thinks hes Fine on a good day. hes kind of accepted that he believed hes an unattractive man. he barely looks in the mirror cause he looks at his own face and is like guh but truly he just feels kinda numb to those feelings a lot of the time. it doesnt fully bother him. on his worse depression days it is something that bothers him but most of the time its just like yea i know i know but dont talk to him about his own appearance too much in a negative way or hell kinda spiral a little due to previous experiences kinda giving him much more intense reactions to insults directed at him, playful or no. he gets genuinely surprised when people find him attractive, and he has to take a moment and bite his tongue not to fully disagree on the spot. he just says “thanks?” in a really confused tone and moves on with his life.

[lovinggreeniehours]

i forgot how much i hate looking at myself in the camera

[onlyghosting]

getting stunlocked by my own reflection like a stupid bird trying to get the prettiest girl i've seen out of the invisible wall