#nervous about this one ngl

[frostbitepandaaaaa]

It's You That I Hold On To - a rebelcaptain secret santa fic

hello @rebelrainfall! it is i, your rebelcaptain secret santa! i hope you are having a lovely, restful holiday, and that you enjoy this silly little fic i wrote for you! <3 also tagging @therebelcaptainnetwork

PREVIEW

“Hey,” Cassian greets a bit breathlessly as he breezes past her to deposit his shopping on the little tiled counter. Normally, Jyn might tease him, because she can tell he came home with more than just the groceries— one of the bags is topped with what looks like assorted droid parts of some kind and this is certainly not the first time this has happened (turns out Cassian Andor, hero of Scarif and ruthless intelligence officer, is something of a pack-womprat). But she can’t seem to bring herself to open her mouth, to even greet him back, to do much at all except stand in the middle of the kitchen and try to take it all in.

“Cassian, you’re dripping all over the floor,” Kay scolds, placing his own packages and parcels on the living room table.

“I know, I know,” Cassian sighs, “and so are you, I might point out.” He turns to her, leaning in to give her a kiss on the cheek before stopping short. His dark eyes narrow, look her over in concern. “Jyn?”

She shakes her head, dismissive, and she feels maybe just a bit foolish that her eyes are burning. That such a normal scene should affect her so much. But Cassian knows, doesn’t need her to spell it out, thank Force, because he understands. She knows he does— she’s caught the way he looks at her sometimes— like she is a mirage that he cannot bear to lose sight of.

So he simply steps forward and hugs her and even damp and chilled with rain, he feels so warm. Safe.

She relaxes into his arms, everything melting into a warm slag at the bottom of her belly as she breathes him in— smelling of silt and stormcloud.

“It’s okay,” he murmurs.

“It’s okay,” she repeats, muffled against his neck.

read it on ao3!

[needle-noggins]

(CW for SA, suicidal ideation) Here we go. My favorite and simultaneously least favorite panel of Vash and Knives.

I've seen a few interpretations of this scene and before we dive into the one that really struck me, let's start with the more... chill one. We're finally introduced to the third gun of Trigun, Vash's angel arm. And the way we're introduced to it involves Knives forcing him to pull the trigger. Of course, since no one knows anything about Knives, the people of Noman's Land blame Vash for Fifth Moon, and Vash likewise blames himself (this is kinda a spoiler but if you've been paying attention, it's just par for the course). However, he's not the one who pulled the trigger, Knives is. It brings up an interesting moral question of blame - do we blame the gun (and Vash, who is being used/objectified as a weapon here), or the person who wanted it to happen? Guns don't kill people, genocidal twins do!

Now for the awful interpretation, the one that makes me cry and wish Vash was real so I could hug him and pay for his therapy. And really highlights how awful Knives is and how far he'd go for his brother in his own, fucked-up way. I touched on this in a previous post about Legato and the Murder Cafe, and the whole time I was thinking about Fifth Moon but didn't want to say anything for the sake of spoilers.

So. Pay attention to the way Vash and Knives are standing. Knives, when he first grabbed Vash's head, was standing in front of him. He moves behind him to better control him and yeah, he's still controlling him via hand on head, and now he's got his other hand gripping Vash's chest, where feathers/wings are manifesting. Knives is assaulting him. If you wanna get crazy with it and say that the angel arm is kinda phallic, you could say... yeah. This is rape. I heard that specific interpretation once and while I accepted it I also don't know if that would be generally accepted or if I'd be called out for it, so I'm trying to tread lightly here.

It also doesn't escape me that of course the angel arm has feminine features like the plants - the plants that, again, humans are exploiting for their ability to create. There's a lot of feminist commentary to be made here but many people have said it better than me. Specifically I'm thinking of this one post I saw about gender fuckery and Tristamp Vash. Anyway.

Also, the atomic bomb/black hole/sun/whatever that is in the middle... It's just so powerful. It's terrifying. The eldritch body horror here is a punch to the gut. What the fuck, Trigun? I thought this was a funky space western!!!

Oh, and here's more commentary on the following few panels:

Vashussy shot, Knives is still right behind him. Yeah, I wasn't kidding about how bad this pose is for them. Knives, you sick fuck.

Vash shoots himself in the leg (a key difference from '98 trigun, lol), because of course he does, but it doesn't free him from the arm.

The arm's getting darker/the light inside is getting lighter! Stampede did an awesome job with their interpretation of the angel arm and I don't think I would have understood it without that. Also, on my first read I didn't notice that Vash is literally levitating, which is cool, but also terrifying because ?? he's not in control of that either??

Finally. A super painful, minimalist, double-page spread. Nightow loves 'em. Vash thinks he's dying (maybe?) and he wishes he had never existed. It's not suicidal ideation per se, but he wishes he didn't exist at all because he's already caused enough suffering. This is a low for him, because he believes so strongly in the concept of the Blank Ticket. (Come on, soupy brain bitch boy, get it together!) He's a monster, it's just how he was born, and he's not in control. Very specifically too, he says "we", and then changes it to "I"... he doesn't blame Knives at all, and that's very him. I want to shake him! Stop playing the martyr, Vash!

[ganondoodle]

(totk rewritten)

finally, all the arm and spirit abilities- for the first half of the game (rauru) and for the second half with the shiekah arm replacing links arms instead and the spirit abilities gained through ganondorf

(please excuse my handwriting and sometimes repeated info on the first two, i lost motivation/patience at the end and couldnt get myself to basically redo it all from scratch just to make it a bit more cleaner)

note, the camera rune is unconnected to the arm, its the shiekah stone copy link has (zelda carries the one from botw, a copy was attempted to be made for link but it lacks all runes except the camera, the map and its teleportation, and journal/archive)

note for the heal effects of some spirit abilities- im also reworking the healing system, making it more like the older games, so healing isnt as easy and much more restricted, thus making those effects of spirit abilities more valuable ( lil potion icon on the d pad will act a little bit like in skyward sword, opens your limited selection of healing items and if chosen link switches to holding it and letting you consume it with -a- while walking around in real time- to avoid more pausing and mass healing on regular items while in menu)

additional note, the automatic recharging of the magic meter depending on the environment gives you a reliable but less abusable way of using abilities and allows for even more creative dungeon/challenge design by using it effectively- it works by absorbing magic from its surroundings, so if its an area with little magic it recharges slower, if its a very spiritual or healthy place it will recharge faster, it can be used to make things more challenging and also as subtle storytelling (example, theres a graveyard with the magic energy around being off the charts, even if there are no spirits to see, it could hint at the people buried not having died peacefully, no matter what their gravestone says...)

the usage of magic and how much the different abilities cost also allows for a much more dynamic fighting style for players to choose and try out, balancing them all out with their cost instead of a fixed timer, and the recharging beign affected by the environment perhaps forcing players that favor high cost magic abilities to use the lower cost ones for example, or not being able to charge one up bc the enemy is too fast and doesnt give you enough time to charge it

about half of the small overworld dungeons (not shrines) are also locked/inaccessible for the first half and new quests appear as the second half commences- together with the additional changes raurus return brings with it (sonau buildings, enemies being mostly cosntructs that he summoned etc) and whole set of new abilities giving you a fresh new way to play while (hopefully) not making you feel too restricted for the first half

... making these detailed concepts took me longer than id like to admit q-q

[johnslittlespoon]

what if. i said tough and sweet ch7 is done. and accidentally ended up being 20k words with two Large nsfw scenes

[cool-frog-hours]

40 days and counting ✂️

[starry-miki]

Well when I said I might post something in March I didn’t actually think I’ll have something done and posted the first day on March, put it’s also an appreciation post to a small handful of people I see (semi) often for a while, I don’t know where this is coming from but I just decided to do it, like every other major “project” I do.

During my time when I was in my art slump I have missed valentines and I’m still upset by it cause I absolutely love valentines and it’s beautiful aesthetic, so this is kinda my “redemption” for it, technically white day is coming up in March but I just feel like it doesn’t feel just as special. 🥲

But I drew old man and barbs as markable plushies, and honestly turning them to markable plushies is oddly therapeutic, since it was so simple and fast. Still debating if I should do the entire side characters plus the additional trio, so I’ll see if people would like for me to do it. 🤔

Aside from that i just wish to to give my wonderful gratitude and appreciation w/ little note for those specific people, but to everyone else in general, I would like to thank you all for your patience’s and interactions, while I haven’t been that active until the last few months of last year, and once again haven’t been that active the last month, I do see people’s comments and replies and fully enjoy reading them, even if I don’t always reply back, I truly enjoy interacting with the OM community, and everyone who I’ve met thus far, and hope to continue being in the community for a while. ☺️💕

To my cutie patooties: 

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💕 @nevvn 💕

Frankly I think I might be a person of few words when it comes to expressing my feelings and really try my best to come up with something to say in the last hour but nothing comes up, all I have to say is: “you cutie patootie” and the saying: an artist will draw if they like you. 🥰💕

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💕 @blithesharem 💕

I really enjoy reading and seeing your post and your OCs and your occasional fanfics, expect that one time, I’m think I’m still in shock about it. 😀

A few days ago I did ask if you had a persona so I could draw them into a markable plushie, but if you would prefer one of your kids (OCs) into a markable plushies that’s cool too, but would love to draw out your persona if you were to create one. 🥰💕

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💕 @yurihisachi 💕

I do see you occasionally pop up time to time in my nonfictions, but I still would like to appreciate your presence, thought it would be pretty funny if I’ve already mentioned you in post in a different username and this is a side account of some sort. But if it isn’t, feel free to contact me so I can draw you up a markable plushie of an OC you have or a persona. ^^ 💕

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💕 @impish-ivy 💕

Another face I occasionally see pop up on my nonfictions, thank you so much for interacting with my posts! I’m not sure if you would like Minnie to be turned into a markable plushie or if you perhaps have a persona, but do let me know. ☺️💕

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💕 @undertalefanzz-blog 💕

I honestly got no comment to you, if you know you know. 😘

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💕 @venusdaplanet 💕

I don’t see you too often but when I do, I absolutely love seeing your comments, very interesting to read and makes you stand out in the crowd. If you got a persona or an OC I can draw up into a markable plushie let me know, I’ll be happy to draw one up for my application to you! 🥰💕

[hiraethwrote]

leaving you guys with a little teaser since this has taken a lot longer than expected lol

[tea-time-terrier]

I just think she's neat!!!

One of my unofficial goals with a dog was to get some nice position changes at a distance. As with anything, I have not broken it down and my criteria is loose (there's still lots of little tippy tappy paw movements <3) but I am really happy with have far we've gotten so far!

[sealrock]

Smash or Pass: Paris Wormwood

I was tagged by @mythandral for this meme, tysm for the tag! not gonna tag anyone else since it's made its rounds by now, so this is an open tag :)

Rules: pretty self explanatory. include physical descriptions or pics, and propaganda. the “other” label can be used for “sexuality misalignment” (ie: oc is femme and you’re gay, vice versa or you aren’t into smashing but a specific thing you wanna do with them like perhaps hug or study them under a microscope idc)

QUICK FACTS:

height: 5'9" / 175 cm

age: mid 20s

gender: genderqueer

pronouns: they/them (preferred), she/her (situational), he/him (rare)

sexuality: lesbian

PROS:

loyal to a fault

enjoys late-night conversations, sometimes with a drink or two

can be a jokester when they want to

usually laidback and casual once you get to know them

will send you trinkets they think you would like

CONS:

mother and father issues out the wazoo

crippling inferiority complex and low self-worth

doesn't know how to express themselves so they bottle up their emotions, later explodes in fits of rage. commonly destroys things as a result

uses alcohol and recreational drugs as unhealthy coping mechanisms

has commitment and abandonment issues, will sabotage relationships first to avoid being hurt by the other party

DETAILS:

paris, at first glance, appears aloof, intimidating, and incredibly crass to those who don't know them. this is a front they put up to hide their vulnerability

beneath the hardened exterior, paris is a lonely individual who has trauma over being abandoned by their loved ones. once you break through the protective shell, paris is awkward and somewhat shy

paris has a fondness for bugs, they will release a bug safely outside instead of killing it

despite their reputation, paris despises being the savior of eorzea. they would rather spend time tucked away in a quiet corner with a cup of coffee and a nice book to read

somewhat of a chain-smoker, their voice is hoarse and low. this is partly the reason why people confuse paris for a man, the most common reason is their masculine name

secretly enjoys being hugged but doesn't know how to ask for one, something they consider embarrassing and childish

used to be self-conscious about their nose scar as their peers would mock their appearance

forgets to take care of themselves, is known to skip meals and refuse sleep

[spellmage]

He would simply have to kill anything that was not him, to carefully carve around the edges of himself until he was just free enough to slip through. It would have been easier to give up, but he needed to live to prove that he could.

A reflection on a life spent under the thumb of other people; Of killings, ghosts, houses that are not homes, and the driftwood that piles up in the absence of feeling.

[girderednerve]

i have received a Job Offer [pending background check]!

[riftwalker-limbro]

warframe getting-to-know-you ask game

rules & recommendations

(like any other regular old ask game but since i haven't seen any for this fandom yet it can't hurt to recap rq)

if you reblog this, your ask box is fair game - make sure it's open

if you want to participate, make sure people can easily find the list of characters you want questions about - either by tagging them on your reblog of this post or having a character post easily findable on your blog

send an ask to a participating blog by referencing this ask game & the number(s) of the questions and which character(s) you want to know things about. people also sometimes just repeat the whole sentence for ease of reference or if they want to change/clarify a word about the question

if you reblog this from someone else it is polite to send them an ask from the game but not mandatory

be nice :))))

if someone asks you about your blorbos you have full rights to go ham blorbo-longposting

if you are getting less asks than you wanted, you have full permission to use this list as solo blorbo posting inspiration material

actual questions

(i'm gonna use numbers because i'm good with the windows emoji keyboard but Not That Good)

general questions

What is your character's pre-bullshit backstory? (if they're a warframe: before they became a warframe; operator/drifter: before the void jump)

What is your character's favourite weapon/way to fight?

What is this character's favourite colour?

Does this character have any pets?

What are their likes/dislikes?

What is their personality like? Are they different with friends or strangers? How?

What is your favourite thing about this character?

Do they have any hobbies?

for operators/drifters

9. Do they keep in contact with old classmates/friends/other Tenno? What is their connection? 10. What is their specific style of Transference like? 11. Are they comfortable jumping out of their Warframe and showing their own bodies to others? Why (not)? 12. What focus school are they in, if any? For any specific reason?

for warframes

13. Why/under which circumstances did they get turned into a Warframe? 14. How (not) okay are they with being a Warframe? 15. Do they have anything that still ties them back to their days as human?

[kirythestitchwitch]

Klaroline WIP Wed - waffle house au - Homoerotic Frenemies™️

There was nowhere to gracefully end this scene so y'all are getting a huge chunk today, please enjoy.

Part One here

Part Two here

Part Three here

“Especially me. But not about this.” The sound of a toilet flushing and then hands washing came faintly through the walls, and Caroline’s hearing focused on the back hallway until Rebekah’s voice was clear. “Now pay attention.” 

Oh, Caroline was.

A door opened, and a girl made a startled noise. “Oh, excuse me, I—”

“You will be silent.” Rebekah’s voice was strong, confident. “You will not fight. Stay calm.” There was a small shuffle, and then the door shut.

“Now listen to her heart,” Rebekah said, voice slightly muffled through the door but still so distinct to Caroline’s vampire hearing. “Can you hear it?”

It was like being caught in a spell, the horrible curiosity that rose in Caroline’s gut. Her first real meal of the nurse had gone so well, and then her second of the carnival man had gone so, so wrong. No one had been willing to train her on how to eat like a real vampire—Stefan’s squirrel hunting lessons definitely didn’t count—and so it was blood bags or risk killing again by accident in her own attempts at trial and error. She didn’t want more Mrs. Johnsons. She didn’t want her mother to look at her like that ever again.

But oh, Caroline was hungry for something real.

Staring unfocused at her biology book only seemed to help sharpen the sounds from the bathroom—the rustle of clothes; the soft breath from two mouths; one singular heartbeat, slow and steady. “Yes,” she answered hoarsely.

Ba-bum. Ba-bum. Ba-bum.

“Good,” Rebekah practically purred. “When it gets noticeably faster, stop. The more you take, the more their little heart rushes about. Now, listen.” There was the wet pop of teeth breaking skin, a choked gasp, and then the steady swallows of Rebekah drinking her down, down, down.

Ba-bum. Ba-bum. Ba-bum.

Rebekah made a soft noise of enjoyment and Caroline ducked her head as the veins shifted under her eyes in hunger, in want, in some sick jealous need that clawed up her throat and burned to be fed. She could, if she would just get up, join Rebekah. The other girl would let her have a bite, she was sure, would encourage her slouching into depravity one reasonable step at a time. She could practically taste the warm blood in her mouth, the faint prickle of her fangs against her tongue a warning sign.

Ba-bum ba-bum ba-bum.

‘No,’ she thought, gripping the edge of the table with one hand. Shutting her eyes and letting her hair fall across her face, she pushed down the monster, pulled on the control she relied on daily. She would do this on her own terms and not because she’d been goaded into it by some bored brat.

Ba-bum ba-bum ba-bum!

As she opened her eyes, Rebekah hummed. “Hear that? Any more and she’ll get wobbly. Best to let her go after healing her, if you’re trying to cover your tracks.” There was a bite, a slight struggle. “Come on, drink up. You know, I’m being very generous tonight, you should thank me.”

A sputtering sound. “Thank you?” It was clearly a question.

“Mm, you’re welcome.” One that was lost on Rebekah. “Now,” her tone turned commanding, “I release you. You won’t remember anything after I bumped into you.” The door squeaked open quickly.

“Oh! I’m sorry!” the girl said, voice apologetic, normal. As if the last several minutes hadn’t happened at all. Compulsion was such a weighty tool in a vampire’s hands.

“It happens,” Rebekah said, a sly smile in her voice. After a second, the door closed again and the girl appeared in the hall archway, clothes slightly rumpled but otherwise unmarred. She happily sat down with her companion and resumed their conversation.

With that it was like the sound rushed back in from the diner, Marcy mid-story in the corner with June and Frank’s continued humming while he cleaned the grill. No one seemed to have noticed her momentary lapse; it had lasted only seconds, really. She set her phone down on the table and picked up her coffee mug, drained it, even though it was lukewarm at best. The funky taste helped clear her mouth of any blood, real or imagined—had she bitten her tongue? She didn’t think so—and by the time Rebekah slid into the seat across from her, she felt like she had put a lid on things.

[blkkizzat]

yoooooo do you know what happened to callm3senpaii ?!?!?!???? i was a huge fan of their banger works and when i try to find them now their account is deactivated I am devastated 😭

chiiileee 😭 long story short they got mad they traded away gojo on mudae, blocked everyone and deleted their blog.

i wish i was lyin'.

[reginrokkr]

Late as hecky night post to announce that the countdown of weeks left for the training to be over is starting at 3 and that I got a job interview at a pharmacy this Wednesday. If that goes well and I have the luck to be employed as soon as the training ends at the end of this month, that would be the best news I could get besides the coming of Dain looming even closer.

[huiracha]

lollapalooza paris is stressing me the fuck out 👍