#nick valentine x conrad kellogg

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**Does a spoof of the wheel-throwing scene from the movie Ghost but it's Nick getting help re-rolling the last of Kellogg’s signature cigars so it can be smoked as makeshift incense during the autopsy.**

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Chapters: 12/38 Fandom: Fallout 4 Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death Relationships: Female Sole Survivor & Nick Valentine, John Hancock/Female Sole Survivor, Deacon & Female Sole Survivor (Fallout) Characters: Female Sole Survivor (Fallout), Codsworth (Fallout), Dogmeat (Fallout), Preston Garvey, Mama Murphy (Fallout), Piper Wright, Finn (Fallout), John Hancock (Fallout), Fahrenheit (Fallout), Daisy (Fallout), Robert Joseph MacCready, Nick Valentine, Doctor Amari (Fallout), Pickman (Fallout), Wiseman (Fallout), Ronnie Shaw, Mayor McDonough (Fallout), Desdemona (Fallout), Deacon (Fallout), Whitechapel Charlie (Fallout), Sturges (Fallout), Father | Shaun (Fallout), Synth Shaun (Fallout), Lorenzo Cabot, Doctor Carrington (Fallout) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Modern Girl in The Commonwealth, Crack Treated Seriously, Game Mechanics As A Plot Device, Canon-Typical Everything, Game Dialogue, Respawning, Existential Crisis, Minor Lovecraftian Horror, Dissociation, Depression, Suicidal Thoughts, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Flirting, Explicit Sexual Content, Canon Shall Be Yeeted, Angst with a Happy Ending, Additional Warnings In Author's Note, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat Summary:

Jack Nunn was just a normal, everyday woman who loved Fallout 4. Until she woke up in it. The only way out is through. And through, and through again.

Same as it ever was…

(The MCD warning is due to the nature of the respawning mechanic.)

 Beta'd by Iron_Angel. Updates twice a week. NSFW will be marked **.

Chapter 12 - Time, and Time Again

Jack pulled herself to her feet and staggered out of the basement.  She could see Nick sitting perfectly still and composed near the door leading back outside.  She stopped in front of him and waited for Kellogg’s final message.

“Hope you got what you were looking for inside my head.  Heh.  I was right. You got fire in you, whoever you are.  They won’t know what hit’em.”

“No, they won’t,” she murmured.

“What?” Nick said.

“Mnemonic impressions, Nick.  You sounded like Kellogg.”

“Did I?  Well, Amari did warn me…”  He paused and looked at her again. “You knew I would.”

“Yeah.”

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Nora runs out of time.

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Something Evil (At The Precipice Of Something New Chapter XX)

Nora, Cait, and Nick find and confront Kellogg, Dogmeat beside them? The Brotherhood's first attempt at re-recruiting former members doesn't go their way? The Institute Directorate are informed of Kellogg's death and discuss the new position the Institute is in as a result of it and the Brotherhood's arrival in full force in the Commonwealth?

A mother's love spurring on rage, a powerful military force unused to being refuted, and a technocratic society facing the largest threat to them for the first time in over a century – read it on AO3, ff.net, and/or wattpad!!!

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Based off this post by @incorrectfallout-4quotes

Thought it described River and Nick's relationship perfectly for the more recent chapters of A Spark By The River. (Yeah I know it doesn't make sense before Kellogg but oh well.)

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Fallout Master List

Picture from Fallout Wiki 

This is a master list off all of my Fallout Fics, Its very likely I will start taking request soon for this fandom and I think its safe to say it will be my main fandom I write for from now on. 

* = a separate master list 

Sat in the ashes *

1. Lost and Bloody Hands

2.  A New Chapter

3. The Long Road and the Flower

4. Stairs and Bloody Boots

5. Dog Bites

6. Start of a Fire

7. Caught to a Flame

8. Into the Fire

9. A dead end?

10. Days of Repair

11. Things left unspoken

12. Set a Blaze

13. Escape

14. Sanctuary 

Fallout February *

February 2nd ~ Radiation

February 5th ~ Delirium 

February 9th ~ Aftermath

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Author Note: This happens where the solesu doesn’t kill Kellogg but instead ends up taking him to Amari to take information from him, to find where Shawn is and where the Institute is. Thanks to @gayecowboy for letting me take their sole survivor self insert! Also this has Nick x Olliver. 

Doctor Amari restrained Kellogg as he trashed and yelled at them to stop and that once he would break free, he would kill every single one of them. Finally, she put him out of the cold, and asked Nick Valentine, the famous synth detective, to go lay down in a pod. Then, she turned to Olliver, the sole survivor of Vault 111, the one who had lost everything, to do the same. The person laid down in another pod and started to awake in Kellogg’s memory. He wasn’t resisting, which was good. 

They went through several memories, seeing the man’s harsh past: abused by his father, running away from home and turning himself into a mercenary, losing his wife and daughter… He turned out pretty badly when they thought about it. They found an interesting memory: it was him helping a young woman out of a cryogenic pod, just like in Vault 111, except it was another vault, Vault 0100, which was located near Far Harbor. He was extremely gentle, which was odd from a mercenary. They watched as he nursed her back to life and health, how the institute turned her into a wretched mercenary and killer just like him… They could sense the regret of the man when she turned out like him.

Finally, they reached the memory of Vault 111, the day Shawn was taken away and Nora was killed. Olliver gulped, remembering the difficult day. The girl, they learnt her name was Naomie, stood uneasy near the pods, looking at them.

“Doll, don’t worry about them. Let’s focus on the mission.” Kellogg said, glancing at her.

“I know I know… It’s just… I hope the director will wake them up too.” She whispered, regret and worry in her voice. 

He hummed, not wanting to reveal the truth to her. The man was sure that he would have to kill the mother of the child and he knew that Naomie might hate that. The pod opened, one of the scientists of the institute extending her arms to get the crying baby.

“Is it over?” The woman asked softly, coughing in between. “Yes, it is.” The scientist from the Institute said, trying to reassure the woman. “Come here it’s okay.”

“No! I am taking care of him!”

“Let go of the child now.” Kellogg spoke, pointing his gun. “I won’t ask one more time.” 

“Conrad!” The girl protested. 

“No! I won’t give you Shawn!” The woman screamed.

Kellogg pressed on the trigger, the gunshot was single, he needed only one bullet. Naomie next to him gasped, and put her hands on her mouth, visibly sick and shocked from the man’s evil act. The scientist took the crying baby. 

“Let’s go.” Kellogg said, taking the younger mercenary by the arm rather roughly. “At least we have the backups.” He mumbled, smirking as Olliver went back to the original state. 

The Sole Survivor was breathing heavily, tears pearling in his eyes: what happened that day to Nora was still fresh to him. He shook his head, and decided to go explore another memory of Kellogg. There he was, with the girl and little Shawn, in the house in Diamond City. Shawn had Nora’s color of hair, and he almost teared up. He watched as the boy was reading to Naomie, the other mercenary and she smiled at him, ruffling his hair while Kellogg was sitting back on his couch, smoking. 

Then the young woman stood up and sat next to Kellogg, a smile on her scarred face. He blew out some smoke and laughed when he saw her frowning.

“What is it doll?” 

“Smoking inside the house is bad. And it is also bad for your health Conrad. You are giving a bad example to the kid.” 

“Okay, okay.” He put his half smoked cigar in an ashtray with a chuckle. “Mum.”

“I am no mother!” She argued, crossing her arms.

“Aw, look at you. I am not gonna lie, you are good with the kid. That is making me think of something…” 

“Well what is it?” She asked softly, watching as he leant toward her. 

“You will make a good mother. We could start a family or something.” 

She sighed and leant back into the couch, her eyes glancing from time to time to Shawn. Olliver was more interested in observing his child than to listen to what the murderer of his wife was saying to that other killer.

“We had this discussion before. There are too many risks.” 

“I wasn’t prepared for the death of Sarah and Mary but… I recovered. I promise you if we ever have a child together… I will protect you both. I will be a good father.” He whispered, his fingers rubbing her arm in a soft and delicate way. 

She sighed and didn’t have the time to reply. Indeed, a hunter appeared out of blue. Immediately, Kellogg and Naomie shot up to their feet, hands on their weapons. Olliver was now interested with what was going on, understanding that the only way to go to the Institue was through teleportation and that the two mercenaries had both a new mission: kill Virgile, the man who escaped the Institute for Conrad and infiltrating the Brotherhood for Naomie, so that she could get secret informations. 

Olliver woke up slowly with a groan after that, having scavenged the memories of Kellogg was very tiresome. Nick was above him, smiling at him and rubbed his hand. 

“You took a lot of time to awaken. I thought you might be lost in his head.”

“Don’t worry about me.” Ollie smiled. “What do we do now?” 

“Kellogg is pretty much unconscious right now. But I know a good way to get us to the Institute. We will use him as a leverage and his… girlfriend will come with synths to save him. Then we get one alive and we go into the Institute. How does that sound?”

“Pretty good.” The young man turned his head toward Kellogg’s body. “I will finally find Shawn.” 

They heard a groan and looked at the older man, trying to stand up. Doctor Amari was watching him closely, but glanced at Nick and Ollie from time to time. She seemed to be very wary of the man and that was understandable: he was a very good fighter and if given a weapon, he would actually kill all of them. 

“You will never find Naomie. She won’t even come to you. She knows, she has those magic guts feelings. She won’t come if you set up something like this…” He growled at them then he paused. “You guys are so fucked now.” He laughed. 

“What do you mean?” Nick asked, suddenly growing worried. “Listen up, pal, I hate your guts and will immediately kill you if you even dare to hurt any of us.”

Kellogg grinned in a sadic way. It was a dirty grin. Their stomachs turned, well at least for Amari and Olliver. Nick just understood and grimaced. They just knew something happened, something terrible.

“What did you do?” Amari asked in a shaken voice.

“Oh I didn’t do anything.” He smirked. “But she did.” 

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The Silver Bullet

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2W5yEK7

by angeliquedevive

It was October 23, 2077 when world everyone knew ended… no, changed. Great War. A nuclear war between nations. A war that no one won. It showed how much power mankind had and how they dared to use it. Those who survived told stories about deep darkness of nuclear holocaust. A world which Andrea loved turned into Wasteland. To her it was world which she did not want to know. But it was place where she found herself after surviving from Fort Marleen, Sino-American war, Great War and Vault 111.

Wanted to find her missing godson. Wanted to leave her past behind but it haunted her nonetheless.

Words: 8742, Chapters: 2/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Fallout 4, Fallout (Video Games)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Major Character Death

Categories: F/M

Characters: Nick Valentine, Piper Wright, Robert Joseph MacCready, Paladin Danse (Fallout), Preston Garvey, Nate (Fallout), Nora (Fallout), Father | Shaun (Fallout), X6-88, Knight Rhys (Fallout), Scribe Haylen (Fallout), Knight-Captain Cade (Fallout), Proctor Ingram (Fallout), Deacon (Fallout), Desdemona (Fallout), John Hancock (Fallout), Conrad Kellogg, Duncan MacCready, Paladin Brandis (Fallout), Stefanie Prince (OC), Fox Jenkins (OC), B.J. Ortiz (OC), Unknown Soldier (OC), Male Lone Wanderer, Dogmeat (Fallout), Curie (Fallout), Gillian Elenora Pierret (OC), Female Sole Survivor, Arthur Maxson, Roger Maxson

Relationships: Arthur Maxson/Female Sole Survivor, Paladin Danse & Female Sole Survivor, Roger Maxson/Female Sole Survivor, Robert Joseph MacCready & Female Sole Survivor

Additional Tags: Angst, Action/Adventure, Deviates From Canon, Slightly - Freeform, Dreams and Nightmares, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Fluff and Angst, Past Relationship(s), Relationship(s), Language, Not Beta Read, Mental Health Issues, Kinda, Original Character(s), Romance, Slow Build, Suicidal Thoughts, Bonding, Humor, LGBTQ Character, Violence, Canonical Character Death, Military, Betrayal, Assassination Attempt(s), Brotherhood of Steel (Fallout), No Blind Betrayal, because I can do what ever I want, Tags May Change, Tags Contain Spoilers, Bad Writing, English is my second language, Bad Spelling & Grammar, I'm Sorry, multi-chapter, Based on 80s -90s, Cuz you can suck it 50s, I was heavily influenced by The X-Files while planning the plot, ALIEENS, Not, Or who knows what my LW has done all these years with Zetas, I regret killing certain characters, Tried to keep this kinda anti-BoS, Though I love them, Conspiracy Theories

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2W5yEK7

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In most iterations of the "Nick and Kellogg cohabiting in Nick’s mind" stories I've had over the years they become friends. Or lovers. Not so here.

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MY ENTIRE NICKELLOGG SAGA IS SPANNING MORE THAN 72K WORDS SO FAR AND I'M NOT EVEN DONE W IT YET I'M PROUD OF MYSELF AND MY TRASH SHIP

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MAJOR Trigger Warning for the following:

Suicide, depression, hopelessness, intense guilt and shame, self-hatred / self-pity / self-punishment, invasive thoughts, extreme black-and-white thinking, and some NSFT text.

Most of these things are taking big, complicated emotions and making them bigger, pushing them to the extreme. Sometimes these characters are direct stand-ins for a specific emotion / thought and sometimes they're more metaphorical.

Nick: Typically tells himself what he IS makes him sick and wrong verses Kellogg: Typically tells himself what he DOES makes him sick and wrong. Or what's been done to him.

Nick: He can become good enough to earn the right to exist versus Kellogg: Typically thinks he can't, but he's not gonna kill himself, so he may as well suffer OR No-one needs to earn it, they have it simply by virtue of being born.

Kellogg being jolted out of apathy by the first death and vomiting his guts out in the simulation, spilling a lifetime of rage and grief and wallowing in self-pity, so Sole can see it, understand it, and swear to never be like him. She feels similarly in some areas but the problem is still him: He made the wrong choice too many times. His emotions were just too big. Self-control was never truly an option. How could it be for someone who was hurt so badly?

All these things he's thought of as his death being someone else's silver lining: A no holds barred heart-to-heart and a cautionary tale for Sole. Advice and a secret companion and maybe some orgasms for Nick. A final rousing speech for Father to visit the surface before the illness takes him. A fun time on the surface for Synth Shaun. A night of passion with his Gen Three copy before one of them is put down at random, carrying the other's bitemark, scarring it over.

I usually write him as a doomed figure to riff on the lack of choices. Both him as a character and as an NPC driving the plot "know it has to be this way." He is "fated" to die when he's ambivalent about living, or be forced back to life when he wants to die, or shoved into a new place / time / body / state of being. He wished he'd stop existing, got exactly that, started fearing nothingness when he had to go back, but he had no other choice. He had to leave the Lounger eventually. He'd already let them kill him once. Suicide cannot be undone.

While hiding in Nick's mind he's torn between hating and loving death. He begs to be allowed to stay while he pours over the question: Did he truly want to die? Or did he just want a new life, a break from all this? He feels once he's answered it he'll be ready to take another plunge into the void. See where the fuck he ends up this time.

The fic These Telltale Parts can essentially be boiled all the way down to his free-roaming spirit trying to find something funny to say about death, and therefore, life, slowly coming to realize he does in fact regret suicide by cop. Nick also expresses regret for helping Sole, it was clear to him what was happening, but he can't take it back either. All that's left is the aftermath of the choices made then, the autopsy, the cleanup. The reason Kellogg goes insane this time is he NEEDS a reason why his grim reaper is late and convinces himself the Institute components need to be removed from his corpse so his soul may move to the next step in the process, whatever that may be.

((A big thing Nick’s torn between loving and hating is the idea of becoming human again. His Megacross iteration, at the very least, is extremely jealous of Conrad for popping into R///oger R///abbit's world as a regular old human instead of a humanoid T///oon.))

The narrative and Nick implicitly agreeing with the idea that Kellogg’s mere presence is disgusting and poisonous to others- Not like battery acid, but vinegar, still enough to sting and corrode. It's okay because he knows his place.

Unable to take a physical form, unable to affect the world around him, he exists as a collection of thoughts rather than a person. It's better this way: Obviously he ruins everything he touches. He can never make the right choice. Obviously anyone finding out Nick’s haboring Kellogg's ghost puts them both in danger. The Illness needs to be cut out, and if Nick disagees, says he has it under control- He's learned to live with it, same as many other drawbacks to his fraught mental state / Synthetic form- It's clear The Rot Has Spread Too Far.

Kellogg's argument for why he should be spared is look how small he's made himself to avoid inconveniencing Nick. He didn't even want Nick to find him. He knows he shouldn't still be here. He knows, he knows, he knows he should just disappear. He respects Nick as the master, he only wants the barest hints of his personality to stain Nick.

A little more selfish. A little more quick to anger, a little more honest when he shouldn't be. A little more "spontaneous"... By which he means lustful, indulgent. One of the first manifestations of Kellogg is sharper hunger pangs and a craving for sensations he used to love: The taste of a cigar. The kick of a high-caliber pistol rocking back into his palm. The snug fit of a leather jacket.

Nick doesn't think too much of these things and feeding them doesn't give Kellogg more power over him. Even if it did, Kellogg knows better than to disrupt the natural order. Nobody notices him indulging and puts it together the merc's instincts are bleeding into him. It's vital to remember that the cravings were already inside him, they just changed, got more frequent. ((Again the problem is Kellogg Specifically: It could be argued the text says those cravings are fine when they belong to Nick. Nick is the only one who's soothed and told his hungers are natural / good.))

Kellogg sees all the embarrassing, shameful ways in which Nick is Only Human. Those cravings. Anger. Jealousy. Loneliness. He holds no judgment. Seen too much to be shocked or disgusted.

He gently coaxes Nick to admit he wants more / weirder sex. He's fascinated by how Nick works and feels no shame for it, personally, his care and hesitation breeching the subject are for Nick’s sake. They agree Nick can't have a partner while Kellogg's here... The sooner they get comfortable with open, honest conversation, the less friction there'll be in their shared space. Often it stops at a little reminiscing on the past. Cracking a couple jokes.

Sometimes, when they're feeling especially nostalgic, Kellogg offers the still-fresh memories of a flesh-and-blood body, Nick hops in and takes a joyride through the highlight reel. Sometimes the fantasy they create together is all their own.

Kellogg is the soft, encouraging voice murmuring in his ear, c'mon, Nicki, show me the weird shit. Show me how you tick. He's fine with not feeling the same sparks: Working together is half the fun. He loves making Nick feel good. Relaxed. Safe. "I promise you're safe with me."

Again, Kellogg sees everything inside his head, but Nick is in control of what they do or don't engage with. What they feed. It cannot hurt them or take over them if they look it in the eye and speak it's name, acknowledging it, then moving on.

T///oon!Nick’s downfall is in hating his humanity for its needs and wants. Insisting that he is completely in control of himself, he has to be or Bad Things will happen. It's in refusing to believe that others can understand and sympathize, or getting angry because they relate too much. Enraged, even. Mob Boss Nick made the mistake of fixating on one thing that could Save Him and give him all the answers. Nick's version was killing Winter, Val's was single-handedly saving the entire Wasteland from itself, which then snowballed into other issues.

Kellogg often submits to Nick's point of view if they disagree. He doesn't want to seem too argumentative. In Megacross I decided to dramatize Kellogg's / Conrad's positive feelings and that submission to the point he loses himself. I ballooned the belief that Nick Is Always Right and Just, he is Always Bad, further and further until the only way Conrad thinks he can Be Good And Worthy is through the power of their love.

Since 98% of the time Kellogg is acting either to help Nick or in self defense, what if we flipped the dynamic- Nick not acting like himself like in Possessed!Nick stories- By making T///oon!Nick an active, persistent aggressor against Conrad? Again, we come back to black-and-white, extreme thought patterns: He cannot truly kill the parts of him that are needy, or horny, embarrassing, aching, bleeding, anything he wishes he could be Better Than. It's actively harmful to his well-being to try.

Both of them believe they're acting in self defense, and each is at least partially right, but Conrad snaps out of plotting murder FIRST. NICK is the one to continue taking it too far, his paranoia running wild. It's understandable to be a little freaked out by someone you don't know knowing that much about you. It makes sense he'd be concerned about associating with Conrad, or his public image in general. Same with recoiling from what, for all intents and purposes, looks like a stalker's love confession. But murder is not the appropriate response.

Conrad's struggle will be forming his own opinions, divorcing his perception of himself from Nick as much as possible. Avoiding spirals into hopelessness. No, he is not a lost cause. Yes, he's been hurt, badly, but he's not broken down to ground glass, doomed to be sealed in a jar and locked away forever or cutting into everything he touches.

Both of them need to be able to recognize when their pursuit of personal growth is in danger of going off the rails. Or if it's something else they want to *believe* is good for them. Are they actually thinking about a mistake all the time to avoid it in the future? Or is it self-flagration?

You gotta learn to truly live with being the problem and hurting others sometimes. You have a right to feel / vent but it cannot fall to the one you hurt to support you. Sometimes you really do drive yourself crazy. Everyone is not out to get you and wishing for your death / your reputation being ruined. It feels terrible to be afraid / ashamed of what's in your head for any reason. You have to exist as a full person who makes choices and takes up space / time / oxygen, not just thoughts, not just how you can serve someone else. Refusing to change anything about your life is a passive choice, but it's a choice nonetheless, even if you want to pretend it's a purely neutral non-action. You cannot saddle someone else with being your moral compass.

[gaqalesqua]

Some unexpected changes take over Nora’s companion. 

TW: noncon

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Kellogg’s teaching Nora some hand to hand. Nick walks in.

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