#no im not projecting here wdym. i would never

[starstruckodysseys]

can you imagine being thirteen and having the world at your fingertips. everyone loves you - why shouldn’t they? you’re the epitome of a good girl, the ideal, the popular cheerleader type who gets The Guy. you giggle and you flirt with the football players and you have sleepovers with your friends (who don’t really feel like your friends but you’re all popular so you have to like each other, right?). you do your makeup and you bat your eyelashes and everything is perfect.

and then you start growing horns. you start looking like the devil - and you might as well be, the way everyone turns on you, starts looking at you as if you’re a freak, a monster. and, well, if everyone’s going to treat you as such, you might as well play the part, right?

so you rebel against your parents (if they’re not lying about that, too). you go out and you buy a bass guitar and you pluck at the strings until your fingers bleed. it’s better than listening to the arguments downstairs. you transform into people you’re not to pretend you could really be someone instead of the shell you are now. you flirt with guys twice your age to pretend you still have it in you, even if it feels hollow. you grin and you bear it but it’s hollow, in the end.

if you can’t be perfection anymore, why bother being anything?

(and then you meet the most wonderful people in your life. and they accept you as you are and don’t ask you to change. but you find yourself changing anyway, because they make you feel like you can be something. like maybe it’s worth it again. and you finally get The Girl. and maybe life isn’t perfection anymore, but maybe perfection is overrated, anyway.)

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

I'm ill again because I have the immune system of a sickly victorian child. Therefore I must project onto the harry potter next gen kids

What i think (some) of the next gen kids are like when they're sick:

Scorpius: I've already done a whole post on this but I have no idea how to link posts despite being on this site for years. the short version is, he was a sick child and constantly in and out of hospital so now he cannot gauge when he's actually really sick and needs to just rest, so albus has to forcibly keep him in the dorm or hospital wing otherwise he will still try and go to class even if actively dying

Albus: he's lowkey so dramatic. if he has a small cold you WILL be hearing about it, BUT he's super subtle. he will casually tie it into conversation to make you feel sorry for him and just keep bringing it up until youre like aw no, im so sorry man. he doesnt try with rose anymore, because she will just mock him, she knows what hes doing. he's most obvious about it to Scorpius, he'll start pouting and be like I feel sick 🥺🥺 and Scorpius is immediately like oh poor baby 🥺🥺/gen and does in fact baby him until he feels better

Rose: does not get sick and its infuriating. when there's some kind of bug going around the school, you can guarantee this girl will not get it. she thinks everyone is just being dramatic and trying to get out of class. don't come to her for sympathy unless you actually look like you're on deaths door. the most sympathy surprisingly goes to Scorpius because she has seen this idiot try to attend class whilst not being able to function properly and be escorted out

Hugo: he doesnt get sick often, like a slightly below average getting sick, but my version of hugo is so unbothered by everything, he would end up in hospital or whatever but wont tell anyone, not on purpose, he just never goes out of his way to mention anything until it specifically comes up in conversation. Hes the random kid that pops up, says he has a relevant anecdote, tells you the wildest story youve ever heard so casually, youre left like???? what the fuck?? and how has that never come up before????, then he just dissapears again

James: gets so mopey, he gets so restless and hates having to sit and wait to get better. he'll enjoy not having to go to class for like one day but when you tell him he can't go anywhere or play quidditch or anything he's immediately over it like, 😟😟 wdym??? wdym I have to just lie here until I'm better??? lemme out!!!! LEMME OUT!!!!

Lily: lowkey whiny. she's not usually super whiny but she acts like a little kid when she's sick and will constantly frown and pout and cross her arms and kick her legs. collateral of being the youngest sibling lmao. she wants people to do everything for her and will shout for people to come get the TV remote or something that's only like 2 feet away from her and just shake her arm at it until you pass it. Ginny and Harry do it for her, her brothers do not lmao

Victorie: doesn't usually get sick-sick often, but I headcanon her as being a general athlete, she likes to do triathlons in her spare time, and if she gets injured she literally has to not be able to walk before she stops. she will just keep going. have you seen female footballers? the way they will be wacked in the head and start bleeding everywhere but then be like meh I can keep going. so her.

Louis: cannot stand the wanting to throw up kind of sick. he can deal with anything else, he has a pretty good immune system, he can pretty much carry on with normal stuff, and you won't even realise he's sick, but the second he feels stomach sickness, he is pale as a ghost and out for business. lowkey has emetaphobia, he will just sit so still until he doesn't feel like that anymore trying to make it go away by just 🧍🏻‍♂️if I don't move it won't know I'm here, yk lmao. hates throwing up so fucking bad

Roxanne: takes the sickness as some kind of personal test. is dramatic in the sense that she will go full warrior mode and be like 😈 i will survive 😈 I will not be beaten by these pitiful germs 😈 and will absolutely just rock her way through it, she talks like she's on some kind of quest, and that this is some kind of evaluation of her perseverance

Fred: just lies there. will not move until he's better. doesn't get really dramatic or complain but god forbid you try and make him do something, he'll start going off about how normalised it is for people to push themselves when sick because society wants people to work themselves to death, and doesn't actually care about anyone's health, and everyone just gets so sick of hearing him, they leave him alone

Karl Jenkins: will purposefully cough on people to get them sick too "as a joke"

[shakirawastaken]

dsmp if...they were teachers part 2

ANON I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED UR REQUEST IM SO SORRY IM GONNA CRY BUT here it is :D with techno too :) please people send in some requests for meee check out part 1 here!

techno: english (with 1 mythology class for seniors): - hates his english classes wishes he could just teach mythology - would make all the students do a little project on a greek mythology story - rivalry with mr soot  - “ill give u each 10 dollars if u go to mr soots class tmrw talkin about how im a better teacher” - supports each and every kid no matter WHAT even if its not english related - holds detention in his room cause no one wants to fuck with him - like dream he doesnt anyone to get fucked over his english class so he hosts after school office hours like its college - has read all the classic novels and makes his classes read them. he wont move to something else unless some kid IS REALLY passionate about it - “ranboo we will not be reading the diary of a wimpy kid series even if you resonate with greg heffley on an emotional level” - BUT for his english classes he makes them do a general book report project so he can see and appreciate his student’s taste in books  - albeit not the biggest fan of romance novels but knows it ends with us for some reason - brings all the projects home and keeps them in a big storage bin. he loves showing them off to future classes and even you - light. acadmeia. dresses formal, long sleeves, hair tamed, glasses on the bridge of his nose - “tommy please stop swearing. tubbo calm down?” - hold detention with him cause no one fucks with mr blade

phil: principal - best principal ever - has a great relationship with all the staff tbh  - wilbur and techno and tommy arent his sons wdym - no ones rlly scared of getting sent to the principals cause like yk theyre like “oh phil??? hes nice”  - everyone calls him phil - ok i lied everyone BUT tommy isnt scared of going to phils - “I DONT WANT TO GO TO PHILS” “tommy calm down-” - hates the school board, lets the teachers teach what they believe is best for the students - can deal with the consequences - once wilbur got him to play a role in on of the school’s productions - big year for the dsmp high thespians tbh - is married to the guidance counselor kristin - who by the way is a GOOD COUNSELOR - actually does guidance - phils whole office is green - always wears his bucket hat tbh - besties with the other school’s principals

foolish: architecture/woodworking - i think this one was another “duhhh” one - builder man teaches builder children - starts the year with teaching them the basics of everything and then sort of lets them go wild  - is so scared some kid is gonna get hurt - has goggles in every corner of his room, gloves, whatever safety stuff  - loves it when kids work together to make some big project - IN YOUR GUYS’ HOME YOU HAVE A SHELF full of little sharks all the kids made for him its so cute - he makes stuff for you in class and uses it as an excuse to teach  - wears muscle t-s or normal t-shirts never dresses formal  - “it would get in the way of the wood?? duh” - id want to be in his class - is besties with mr jacobs and mr punz the random coach who shows up just to coach basketball in the winter - another teacher everyone simps over - once refused to teach tommy cause he didnt want to “catch a case”

i kinda want to write for the bench trio so here’s STUDENT EDITION

tommy: junior in high school, ta to mr wastakens math class  - tommy signed up to TA for wilbur but then wilbur said “absolutely not” so he got put into dream’s introduction to stats class  - but he also has dream for the period after that for his ap stats class - so hes stuck there for like 2 and a half hours  - dream groaned when he saw who his TA was - makes tommy grade papers and stuff but never tests  - he doesnt trust him with that - tommy is a good kid and usually doesnt disrupt class but when he does its hilarious - expect mr blade doesnt give a second shit about tommy in his class  - tommy is rlly good at drama and math (even though hed never admit hes good at math)  - his locker is a mess  - besties with tubs and ranboo ofc - phil is his father dont tell anyone - he is so adamant on walking home bc he doesnt want people to know that his family works there - always has his red jacket on  - never gets school lunches says they are cursed

tubbo: junior in high school, ta for mr quackity’s spanish class - tubbo likes quackity so he signed up to ta for his class - he isnt good at spanish tho- - quackity knows that but likes tubbo so he lets him be  - sapnap ADORES tubbo for some reason - “TOBY!!! WHATS UP!” “hi mr sapnap” - sapnap thinks tubbo is such a good kid - but  - mr notfound knows tubbo is a menace - “good morning toby” “good morning mr notfound *innocent*” “sit down and get started please” - SO FUNNY LMAO  - tubbo is a menace - pulls a bunch of pranks on the teachers but then the blame always ends on tommy somehow “wHAT- TUBBO DID IT” “no he didnt” - besties with tommy and ranboo ofc - tubbo is rlly good at science but isnt so hot at english - but mr blade is rlly nice and takes him time to help tubbo  - tubbo appreciates it so he gets mr blade a gift at christmas - mr blade teared up - runs thru the hall dragging tom and ranboo behind him no regrets - “STOP RUNNING THROUGH THE HALLS” “no” ranboo: junior in high school, ta for mr blades mythology class - lOVES ta-ing for mr blades class - mr blade kinda lets him chill in the back, stapling papers - no interaction whatsoever - he also now cant wait to take that class next year - mr blade refers to him as my protege a lot  - i hope i used that word right - besties with tommy and tubbo - all the teachers are nice to ranboo and kinda sorry that hes friends with tommy and tubbo LMFAO  - “hi ranboo u doing ok” “yes thank u mr jacobs” “RANBOO! LETS GO! PUDDING DAY IN THE CAFETERIA” “thats my cue mr jacobs” - ranboo usually doesnt get into trouble when he does oh boy its good - not pranks on teachers but school wide pranks - is shy but when someone picks on tommy and tubbo he GOES OFF - attacks them through words - when he gets comfortable in a class he lets out these small comments that get the whole room laughing - so not the class clown but people know hes funny and people respects him 

[rockintapper]

hi again!!!!!1

the 1first one, the 2second one

heres me saying stuff about rhythm heaven fever charactersss yaaaayyyy

title girl - pres A and B to start!; what have they done to you

marshal, cam, and miss ribbon: the sillies ever hellooo hiii yayyy,,

monkey and mandrill (hole in one): someone in a yt comment section headcanoned that these two were gods. uh

golfer - is your foot okay

robot (gray/grey): oh, yeah!

robot (white): let's go! (screwbot factory 2 is so fun to play ^_^)

see and saw: YAOIIIIIIIIIIIIII

a boy/kouhai: autism be damned my guy can KICK /silly

his crush/senpai: ngl if i were kouhai i'd be blushing too

weasel couple: why is the girl weasel pink. why. why. why. w

fork: fork

monkey (tambourine): YOURE SO CUTE I WANNA SQIUSH YOU RHAUHURHUAHRAUHHRAHRAHARHU

frogs (tambourine): guh

the executives: they make good points. [spinning in a chair]

assistant: woouohwouuouwowuuowuuH

small monkeys: GOD I LOVE MONKEY WATCH /ref

monkey (remix 2): why is the girl monkey pink. why. why. why. w (shes serving though)

dough dudes: thats what theyre called???

mr. game and watch: what's a guy like you doin in a game like this? /silly

widget: hi widgets (i love built to scale 2 rhf)

baxter and forthington: YAOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

muscle doll: [heavy sigh]

reporter: wubadubaduba, 'zat true?

wrestler: e.

employee #333-4-591032: is munchy momnk your cousin or something /pos

microbe: THEYRE COLORED LIKE IKIGUSARE /VVVVPOS

demons: STOP STEALING FROM PEOPLE

pinwheel girl: gender? i barely know her

another child: wait i thought that was the pinwheel girls mom. wdym shes Another Child /gen

ann glerr: she has muscles. Muscles. character made specifically for lesbians /j

quicknibble: tniy snalll lmaoooo

pausegill: pausegill what the fuck /ref

threefish: once you get the hang of threefish, catch of the day is gg ez no re (<- got it immediately)

captain tuck: he'd be a polar bear. prove me wrong /j; him in the superd screen AHHH /VPOS

flippers: the cuties wauuwiuawuaiwa <333

pitcher: fuckin idiot hats what you get for cheating /lh

slugger:SLUGGER??? S;UGG??ER/ SLIUGG??? SWLUD?? SLGU..?? SLUG??? Watashime S

the huebirds of nah im skipping this one

rhythm rockets: no way its rocket rhythmrocket on tumbler!!! i didnt know they were in this game!! /silly

uh… those guys?: donk DWONK!; man. donk-donk gives me so much joy forever. i love donk-donk.

bossa and nova: they would do so many arts and crafts projects together <3

love posse ft. mc adore: into you! (into you!) (love rap is kinda hard for because i keep tapping too early :( )

the tall TAPPPEOPFWHOULWRIBUILRBVBWEFYBNOIQDWR3YW808u(&^^^^#$q@#%^THE TAPT T AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

the shrimp scamperers: you will never be them /j

school library pep squad: let's everybody go! yay!

bunny man: bunny man 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀

girl from samurai slice 2: YAAAAY SHES SO HAPPY AAUHIGHLFVHUBFW THE CUTIE YAYYY

the dough person from working dough 2: what's in that cup. what does that Liquid taste like. is it tea

lady golfer: so proud of her transition <3 /j

cat: Cat. C (hi kasper)

pigeon (hato-kun): boy why you so eepy

clock (mezamashi-kun):if i was that pigeon id have such a negative reaction to that ringing (i hate alarms

beans (omame-chan): i almost didnt notice you hello hi

lady cupid: her and love-san HATE each other /silly

kasuke and kosuke: YURIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

girl's basketball team: why is the hoop alive

frog and frog princess: what if people mistake them for a roach and

chameleon: a precursor to that chameleon minigame in megamix

flies: whats the point of this one

clap trap doll: people Despise you and im curious as to why

driver: tHE FUCKING CHICKNE??? FROM

lieutenant: it's you!

police call guy MY SON HE HAS EVERY DIEASE THE CUTIE THE SILLY MY BABY MY BOY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I WANNA CRUSH HIM LIKE A BUG /VAFF

mr. hi-hat: if you were used in a normal drum set you would not survive

springs (hi-hat): MR UPBEAT??

rhythm fighters: i dont really care about these guys. uh yaoi

okay thas it.

WOWWOWWOW. OTOKO WA

MISSING YOU SABISHII

OH IT'S BLUE…

CRYING /LY

copy and pasted from notepad in case something happened while i edited this post!

[haovcrse-a]

🦇 : how did they meet?

🕸️ : any song that reminds you of your ship?

🩸 : what does your oc think of canon character?

🫀 : is there anything your oc and canon character don’t like about each other?

FOR YIZOU AND THOMAYAHAO

- tired

so whipped for these pixels 😞😞

🦇 : how did they meet?

yizou — in the genshin (mostly) canon, heizou first knew abt zhao through an anonymous tip. someone had sent a letter saying that zhao was the main culprit in a string of large scale robberies, and that they possibly had a connection to the recent murder case heizou had taken on. long story short: heizou tracks down zhaoyi, they team up, end up spending so much time together that they end up falling (heizou first, zhaoyi later and harder), and wham !! zootopia type of plot TwT

in a high school or uni au (bc both work with the plot), they sit next to each other in one of their shared classes! they never talked much, but became somewhat friends after a partner project, and even closer when he found out zhao helps out / works at the school's library!

thomayahao — for genshin (mostly) canon, zhaoyi and thoma meet first! it's nothing much, they bumped into each other on the streets, but that was the start of the interactions! zhao later meets ayato after he's hired to be the young lord's bodyguard heh.

modern / uni au, ayato and zhao know each other by name bc they're always fighting to be the number one placement in terms of grades! thoma knows about zhao through ayato's retellings and wants to get to know him personally, but also stay wary of him bc ayato is dramatic when giving a description. thomahao meeting happens when it turns out, the two of them are in the same dorm building! they run into each other during a late night snack run.

🕸️ : any song that reminds you of your ship?

yizou — question is for one, but im giving two! punk tactics ( joey valence & brae ) & hot to go ( chappell roan ) !!

thomayahao — absence ( rio romeo )

🩸 : what does your oc think of canon character?

decided to show the general train of thought to now !

yizou — "... he's... annoying. why does he keep looking at me like that? oh. he's caught on to my stuff. and now also accusing me of murder. great. lovely." // "wdym he's going to be watching me until his case is solved???? ... stop looking at me like that." // "maybe... it isn't so bad working with someone- wait wait what am i saying?" // "... he's in danger bc of me now... usually i would'nt care but... why do i now?" // "shit shit shit shit he's going to get hurt bc of me fuck i knew this would happen if he got close." // "... i love you, idiot. please, don't do that again."

thomayahao — "oh, my bad. i should've watched where i was going... he was nice though." // "a new charge? ... haven't guarded someone in a long while... seems like a stuck up rich dude." // "... and he's someone that's actually extremely important lovely- oh. blond puppy from the market is here. mhm... maybe this won't be so bad?" // "why do people want this guy's head on a pole arm so bad holy-" // "alright this snarky mother fuck-" // "shit this is going to hurt in the morning. at least they're both safe? ... now how do i get out of here..." // "these worrywarts... i'm fine... as long as you both are." // "maybe... yeah. maybe it wouldn't be too bad if i stuck around."

🫀 : is there anything your oc and canon character don’t like about each other?

yizou — heizou hates how zhaoyi refuses help when he actually needs it or closes himself off to go through things alone. he understands zhao has faced the world alone up until now, but he really wishes he would just let him in. but heizou isn't pushy unless he needs to be and will stand there with open arms for when zhao finally caves. zhao doesn't like how heizou is so perceptive and analyzing when it comes down to his body language. it isn't a bad thing, zhao just isn't used to being so... understood or seen.

thomayahao — both of them hate how self-sacrificing zhaoyi is for them. "please have some self preservation for once" — thomayato at some point. ayato understands that it's his job to protect, but does he really have to jump in front of a knife for the third time this week please he's begging to just- thoma is the one who usually patches zhao up and has this mix of a frown and pout whenever he does. zhao doesn't really have anything he dislikes about the two. maybe just when they team up against him to get him to relax or flirt...

[tojisun]

(simon ask anon again hope it doesn't bother u)

okay im going to try to make this one not so long: THE DAD JOKES you can't imagine how hard those dumb jokes made me laugh bc it was the last thing i thought would come out of him but that made them even better n the rest of interactions in that mission are just as magnificent i love his dynamic w johnny <3

"his size makes me feel small but in a safe and tender way" YES YES YES YOU COULDN'T HAVE SAID IT BETTER "he's your safety but you r his home" how does it feel to KILL MD OMG GIRL IT MAKES PERFECT SENSE DW

my friend you truly understand me (⁠´⁠;⁠︵⁠;⁠`⁠) it makes me happy to see im not alone on this insanity n im here to warn you that it can get worse,,, saw you talking of price N DONT LET ME GET STARTED I LOVE HIM TOO RRRR 🐺 rmbr how i said that simon would understand me? well price would FIX me. and i don't doubt it for a even second. he's literally the perfect man: big, older, hairy.... just imagine being his good girl ㅠㅠ

IT DOESNT BOTHER ME AT ALL SWEETHEART!! tbh im loving this correspondence sm 🥹🫶🏼 love u

NO FR I DIDNT EXPECT IT! WHEN I FIRST HEARD IT, I THOUGHT IT WAS THOSE INCORRECT QUOTES AND THEY (OPs) HAVE HCs THAT THESE COD CHARACTERS ARE SAYIN IT BUT NOPE ITS LEGIT HIM 😭

the one about the dog killed me fr omg i was on the floor giggling bc wtf actually. AND YEA his dynamic w soap is so RAHHHH my fave gotta be that time when johnny said “fuckin brits” after ghost asked him to make a cup of tea HXJSIDOS theyre so funny oh my god i need them

AHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! tbh im speaking amidst all my projections so im super glad that it makes a whole lot of sense <333

NO BECAUSE :((( ghost never had anyone to call family – no place to call home – until he met you. he thought that yk he’s just gon live his life in war because thats what hes damn good at AND THEN HE MET YOU AND NOW HE HAS REASONS TO LIVE. REASONS TO LOVE :((( i need him happy. i need him to be loved tenderly and carefully and gently, but also passionately and encompassing-ly. HE DESERVES IT!!!!

wdym it can get worse- ANON WDYM

OMG THE THING ABOUT PRICE?? YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY RIGHT. big burly man whose voice rolls off his tongue with the viscosity of molasses, his warm hands wide as it holds you and presses you to him, his lips always pressed onto your skin because he loves kissin you?? THE WAY god the way he murmurs his praises on your skin or swipes at the apple of your cheeks or the way he pulls you to his lap??

RAHHHHHHHHHHH stop anon (dont stop) I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE

[sehunniepotwrites]

HAAAAAAAI i'm so glad i could bring a smile to your face in your day through my messages heheheheh ☺️ how was your day today!!!

omg is this telepathy or what! i was just considering and thinking of whether i wanted to pursue a masters after finishing up my undergrad degree studies!! hehe what's your masters in if it's not too private to ask 🫢 i was just thinking of doing masters because of my current timeline!! it's rly rly tuff to find a job here after graduating because the mkt is currently just kinda meh :/ so i was just wondering if perhaps going for masters would put me in a better spot!! but then again masters is something i can decide at a later time so rn im just gathering opinions from ppl who have taken it! wbu!! do u have any thoughts or opinions? :")

OMGGGGGG have i mentioned im a SUCKER for childhood besties concepts cuz that's just so so so cute 🥹🥹 I LOVE IT I CANT WAIT!!!! 😍 and my goodness how r u alw so creative w your ideas??? iM so unimaginative that like stories alw amaze me 🫢 hehehehe and HELLO wdym u have a life like a fic odnfoenfoke THATS SO COOL AND SWEET N LOVELY gosh i'd WISH i had like one thing from a fic ever happen to me 🥰🥰🥰🥰

AHHHH im so glad u could meet your friends and hang out together!! wish u had as much fun as u possibly could!! hehehehe how nice would it be if we could always be hanging out w our besties and just spending time together 🥺 hope you guys r meeting again soon!!! sounds rly rly fun to karaoke together it's been so so long for me to both karaoke and meet my friends cuz literally everyone im close to or care about is on exchange this semester :/

which brings me to my never ending rant of how despresso espresso i am this semester >< it's a rly tuff time in my life rn cuz im trying to navigate and find an internship that matches both my interest and my degree cuz it is a graduation requirement for me 🤡 i guess im at least getting somewhere w the search cuz i did have a pretti good offer lately! and im currently just pending the outcome of another role i interviewed for under the same company before making a decision (if i do get offered by the other role too heh) 😊 but then im just rly rly LONELY this semester and im just sad cuz im attending classes and doing everything by myself :/ and i dont have friends arnd locally rn that i could meet and just unwind after a period of stress so its rly draining me a lot on top of my never ending assignments projects and exams 🥲🥲 and yea ldr is so so tough and its so hard to keep my emotions in check because of how big of an overthinker i am so im always just having sleepless nights, constant nightmares and sometimes even sleep paralysis 🥲 i guess im becoming more independent from this whole experience though! forces me to become a whole even without everyone by my side and to continue living and functioning, doing what i should be doing!

i love coming to talk to u and reading all your responses too!! 🩵 m alw looking forward to your replies and your kind words to me hehehehe keeps me going!!!

love, 🍑

i've spent the weekend in bed becuase i'm sick again! i binged s2 of the summer i turned pretty and i cried a whole bunch. i love how they really took the angsty route this season--really showed how diff people deal with grief! probs gonna call out tomorrow because i've been sneezing like crazy and my voice is lowkey gone ;; i think i'm gonna try to get some writing done and post a teaser for a story that may never be completed but it's too good to just stay in my drafts!!

oh sure, i have my masters in education. i went thru a one year ma program with a teacher's cred tied into it too. my program was unique in that they condensed a two year prog into one accelerated and it was the toughest year of my life tbh. working full time as a teacher and going to school full time for basically two degrees was tough.

i love all my ideas but i haven't been able to finish them!!! i really want to get them out to the world bc theyre too good to sit in my drafts but it's so incomplete!! the one i am thinking about posting can be a standalone because its such an open-ended ending but there's still WAY more planned for it.

if you have time, playing games together online is a good way to keep in contact. we played pictionary on a website and it was super fun during the pandemic a lot!

it looks like youre slowly getting your ducks in a row for the internship despite the stress! but i see how missing your so and friends can affect your mood. feeling alone is never the best feeling and i totally see where you are coming from. but look at you, you're already looking at the positives out of your stressful situation! that's so great! you can only go up from here, you know? and listen, this is something i always tell my students, each person has their own timeline--their own time to make mistakes, to figure out what they want or need, etc. you may take longer than others but you don't need to worry about others. worry about you and focus on the things you can do for yourself to make you better. and if you make a mistake, that's just a lesson you can take. it's all about your growth mindset!

love u lots!!!

[mulletmitsuya]

Bonten texts

Warnings: swearing, rinsanzu (idk if that's what their ship name is called), mentions of cheating, suggestive themes, mentions of drugs, mentions of toxicity?? idk but yeah

Dm between Sanzu and Rindou

Sanzu: hey um I need to tell you something

Rindou: oh okay. what's up

Sanzu: it's pretty bad

Rindou: what did you do

Sanzu: .....I cheated on you

Sanzu: with your brother...

Rindou: hold up

Rindou: cheated on me???????

Sanzu: yes I know I'm sorry I'll never do it again give me another chance Ran isn't even that attractive I swear you're the only one for me

Sanzu: with the exception of Mikey of course

Rindou: Sanzu are you serious?

Sanzu: I'm sorry man shit happens ig like I really didn't mean to I was trippin sack and he kind of looks like you

Rindou: No like are you fr, this isn't some kind of joke? Like are you high rn??

Sanzu: Yes but I swear I'm not making this up I'm sorry

Rindou: WHEN DID WE START DATING??? LIKE WDYM YOU CHEATED ON ME THAT WOULD REQUIRE ME TO BE YOU'RE BOYFRIEND WHAT ARE YOU ACTUALLY TALKING ABOUT RN

Sanzu: ok so I cheat on you once and you deny we were ever in love. that's low rin

Rindou: IN LOVE????

Rindou: I'M SO CONFUSED I DONT UNDERSTAND

Rindou: ALSO IM NOT GAY??????

Sanzu: yes you are

Sanzu: if you aren't gay then why are we a couple

Rindou: ???????????

Rindou: WHEN

Sanzu: this isn't funny rin🙁

Sanzu: ok so now you're gonna leave me on read okay

Bonten Groupchat

Rindou: Does anyone think me and Sanzu are a couple??????

Takeomi: 🤨

Koko: this is a fucking work related groupchat

Koko: also ???????

Kaku: omg I'm so happy for you guys 😍🤗☺️

Ran: why do you text like that

Ran: and you and Sanzu are a couple? 😟

Sanzu: Yeah and what happened between me and Ran didn't mean anything Rindou please

Ran: 💀

Rindou: WE AREN'T TOGETHER THO???? IM NOT GAY HARUCHIYO

Koko: this is embarrassing😟

Rindou: no fr I don't understand what's going on is this a joke

Sanzu: you're literally breaking my heart rn

Rindou: WHA-

Mikey: shut the fuck up. if you guys wanna talk about this shit make another groupchat or smth, idc

Sanzu: sorry Mikey

Ran: ok so Sanzu thinks him and Rindou are dating, why is that exactly?

Sanzu: when we are sitting together in the hotsprings he looked at me and told me my mullet was nice

Rindou: I WAS FILLING IN THE AWKWARD SILENCE

Rindou: AND WHY WOULD THAT MEAN WE'RE IN A RELATIONSHIP

Sanzu: you're also a lot nicer to me than the others

Takeomi: you really need to lay off the drugs man

Sanzu: why do you always feel the need to include yourself in conversations that have nothing to do with you

Sanzu: go smoke another pack of cigarettes or smth

Takeomi: 😐

Koko: Mikey please just kill him, we don't need him here

Sanzu: you're a homophobe

Sanzu: nvm you're the gayest mf I've ever seen actually

Sanzu: the embodiment of homosexuality

Sanzu: what's that internalized homophobia doing for you

Sanzu: stfu and go project akane on to another blonde or smth it's obvious you're bored and lonely ever since inupi left your toxic ass

Ran: STOP 😭

Kaku: 😰

Koko: what the actual fuck is wrong with you

Rindou: ok so this conversation took a turn for the worst

Takeomi: no infighting

Sanzu: you're literally so old please just leave the texting to us

Sanzu: you're lungs will collapse soon, go rest

Sanzu: and idk Koko, maybe ask yourself the same question and do some self evaluation?🧐

Mikey: I'm so fucking tired of all of you

Sanzu: and ok rindou I never liked you anyway, you're mullet's musty and it just looks like you put a jellyfish on your head

Sanzu: also who the fuck does the splits while in a gang fight

Sanzu: I've seen you do it more than once and it's weird

Sanzu: bye

*sanzu has left the chat*

Rindou: no because what's wrong with him

Koko: I'll kill him istg

Kaku: but why did him and ran sleep together tho

Ran: he gives good head

Rindou: we didn't need to know that

Mikey: 3

Takeomi: ???

Mikey: 2

Ran: ok I'm out

Takeomi: sorry Mikey we'll go

Rindou: sorry

Kaku: sorry 😞

Koko: even tho this isn't my fault sorry ig

Mikey: just leave

[thebigqueer]

just remembered i wanted to make a post about will solace's sexuality headcanons so nevermind i have content.

also actually this is just me projecting mostly lmao

okay his queer awakening is honestly because of naomi solace. i think she has a lot of queer artist friends around her, but also it's just a lot of hot people and will meets them every once in a while. i think that since they're older he probably feels the most attraction to them.

this kind of happens around 5th grade

he has no idea why he's feeling this way and like. quite honestly he's probably even scared by it cuz internalized homphobia yk. so he gets scared off easily by these new feelings and honestly represses them down and kinda forgets about any of it for a while because like??? honestly finding out you may be attracted to someone of your same gender is such a terrifying concept???? you've grown up in a society where it's weird to do that so like it probably has such a huge impact on him and how he feels about queerness. so in the end, he probably just tries to forget about it and move on with his life. hhahahahah no im not projecting wdym :eyes:

when he gets to camp a little bit later, he actually meets a lot more queer people and doesn't even know that!!! wow!!! here are people who have similar experiences!!! and i think after he forgot about his sexuality crisis just a year or two ago, it kind of comes back but this time he's in a much better place to consider & actually think about his sexuality cuz he has better people to be around.

then he grows a little bit and like honestly he probably had a crush on beckendorf. yes i'll give into that headcanon. this is around the time he's in 6th/7th grade and cuz he's in a better environment he probably feels a bit safer to actually start. feeling idk??

but again he's not entirely sure where this is going cuz like he's technically been attracted to guys before but like. he's never quite accepted his attraction until now, while he's truly trying to accept & learn about who he is.

he doesn't really know how he identifies at all but he knows that he's actually maybe into guys???

in 7th/8th grade, he mostly identifies as pan because i think he mostly finds everyone attractive & experiences romantic attraction to lots of people. but he's still nervous to truly admit that he's still into guys so he shies away from doing anything too Promiscuous TM unless he's with friends

i also do believe that nico was one of his crushes at an early age (but they become friends first and foremost and after BoO will only pursues him as a friend. their romantic feelings for each other develop as they know each other more but that's later)

but then!! THEN!!! i think he reaches a point in his Sexuality Crisis TM where he just. fully accepts that. omg he's into guys!! GUYS!!! HE LIKES GUYS!!! like he still likes girls but he just suddenly accepts fully that he does like guys and he's super proud of it!!!

i think it also has a lot to do with his friends and a lot of htem coming out around the same time that will is

i fully believe that he has some kinda flings as a 13/14yo (yes ik i talk a lot about keeping 13/14yos single but you see. i feel like he would date for the fun of it and not so much for the actual romance because he's already got so much in his life going on along w/ his identity crisis so he's looking for something to entertain his self-discovery, basically). but i feel like he goes to visit his mom every once in a while, so he really only has flings when he's back at his mom's house. so he gets his first partner like?? i guess summer before 9th grade?? and honestly it's not that epic it's just 3 weeks but like!! first boyfriend yoo!!

then he gets back to camp after the summer and doesn't really date?? i feel like he just. kinda cools down. and this is when he also starts to make friends with nico and he's probably looking for a break for himself

in this time where things are kinda calm now after the battle w/ Gaea, i think he kinda reflects on himself a lot and like realizes that "hmm idk i feel like i'm?? a little more into guys?? i think?? like physically & romantically & aesthetically they seem better for me?? and i feel like i see myself with a guy more than a girl?? but i wouldn't mind dating a girl??"

and i think at this point he probably just starts to identify as queer because honestly he has no idea what the fuck is going on because literally who does when it comes to identity

but after some time, even after he's started to date nico, i think he realizes that honestly?? he's probably homoflexible. like he doesn't mind dating girls but he's not as attracted to them as he is towards guys. and it's not just nico who sways his thinking - he kind of reflects on his life and thinks about how he'd much rather kiss/date/crush on guys and like girls are cool but they're not always what he's attracted to

he's still confused to this day and he usually just says he's queer but like internally he's probably thinking he's more homoflexible. he uses queer as his label though

[khaleesiofalicante]

give me a sec...

I haven't cried yet

it's mostly me being in complete denial of all the events which have occurred.

wdym? they are all alive and happy :D

ok anyway

CHAPTER 9 THE ANGSTIEST OF THEM ALL

im currently laughing so-

oh fuck he bouta tell them

BYE IM FUCKING WHEEZING LITERALLY NOTHING IS FUNNY WHY AM I LAUGHING

“So, you broke the law?” Alec demanded. “And you kept that from us all this time?”

“I didn’t want you to get involved!” Rafael explained. “If you knew about it, you would be guilty by association and-”

“Guilty by association!” Alec said incredulously. “Rafael, do you think we care? If you are going down, we are going down with you.”

“I don’t want that,” Rafael shook his head. “I don’t want you to be punished for what I did.”

he's so

idk how to describe it

he's just so

yes

“Are you going to walk into the Inquisitor’s house and kidnap their daughter?”

I FUCKING SNORTED MAYBE IM NOT READY FOR THIS CHAPTER I KEEP ON LAUGHING

look I know I should be sad but it keeps on getting funnier

Rafael what did you do

oh god

WHY AM I STILL LAUGHING

I think im gonna do my project on the effects LBAF has had on my mental health

“So many people forced to leave their families. They were forced to endure the stripping of their marks. All because they fell in love with a mundane or dared to dream of a different life. Is this the Covenant you want me to respect?”

but can Anjali survive the stripping? she's already so weak

GASP

YOU MENTIONED MAX TRUEBLOOD

“Will you be okay?” Rafael asked then. “If dad dies tomorrow, will you be okay?”

RAFAEL SHUT UP

it's foreshadowing I can see 😄

No, Magnus wanted to say.

That’s not true.

He will move on. He will live. He might even find love again.

But will never be okay again.

Not after losing his Alexander.

My heart-

“The younger generation is not responsible for fixing centuries of ignorance and bigotry.”

STOP EXPECTING US TO FIX YOUR SHIT

RAFAEL TOO FAR NOT THE COHORT

“Straight people are weird,” Max mumbled.

so true

“You actually have to work to get paid. Like killing demons is not enough.”

yes, that is how it works...shadowhunters don't know that...?

ok here come the waterworks

“It hasn’t stopped hurting,” Max whispered. “I wake every day and think it’s gonna stop hurting, but it hasn’t stopped.”

it doesn't. you think it will but it just seems to hurt more and more until you learn to live with it. fucking sucks

When they were kids, their parents would take them to the rooftop and teach them about the constellations.

Dad would hold their little hand in his and point at the stars and tell them stories. Then, Bapak would magic little stars to appear all around them.

Max wished they could go back to that time. A time when it had been just them and the stars and nothing in between.

No broken hearts. No crazy assassins. No dead boyfriends. No dying girlfriends.

Just the stars.

that sounds beautiful

“The law doesn’t matter,” Max shrugged. “You know the Lightwood-Bane motto.”

“Fuck the Clave is not our family motto!” Rafael said.

“Bapak said it was!” Max argued. "Although now I feel like he probably meant it differently. But the sentiment still stands!”

oh yeah he definitely meant it differently

“It’s gonna be fine,” Max promised. “Once you leave, I’ll just annoy the fuck out of them. Then they will have to bring you back cause they can’t deal with my shit anymore.”

“That might work,” Rafael smiled.

I...

“I don’t want to hold her hand!” Rafael yelled.

I want to take her to Bulgaria.

I want to make her upma.

I want to walk down the aisle with her.

DUDE-

OH MY GOD NO

THAT HEART LINE COULD BE SOMETHING RAFAEL SAID AFTER ANJALI DIES

DON'T

Not everyone can change the world for the person they love. Some people had to give it up.

Fucking sucks

There will be no shadowhunters without mundanes.

YES EXACTLY

Rafael what what what

“Raziel,” Rafael whispered to himself. “Something is wrong with Raziel.”

You just realized?

checks the theory list I made during class yup it's there

probably got himself into trouble again smh

They had to find Raziel.

well, good luck...?

“You alright, son?” an old man jogging past him asked.

“I found a way to save my girl. Now we can both keep hunting demons and change the world together!”

“Good for you, son!” the man cheered and kept running.

the man's like "well ok that's not the weirdest thing"

“What’s with shadowhunters and leaving?” Magnus rolled his eyes.

“It’s our thing,” Alec chuckled. “But we always come back though.”

“Needy,” Magnus pointed out.

“Madly in love,” Alec corrected.

THEM

ALEC YOU BETTER BE RIGHT ABOUT FIGURING SOMETHING OUT PLEASE

and if something is truly wrong with Raziel then he better get his shit together smh

“God, do I really have to wake up to this every morning?” Max groaned, pulling the blanket around him as he walked past them to the kitchen. “I’m gonna moving out too.”

max is so done

DANI WHAT

RAFAEL

NO NO NO NO NO

ABSOLUTELY NOT

idc idc he's happy and alive in my head wdym he's not?

I have already blocked it from my memory

is it because he figured it out?????

That heart line is Anjali isn't it

Im fine it's fine gonna try to work on my computer project and block these events from memory have a good night knowing our poor mental heath collapsed

Me trying to justify my hatred towards random people I don't know:

I loved this Evie! Hope the programming classes are going well :P

[aroacenita]

Nobody asked but...

Here, have some of my opinions on ships

Ramble about some of them and template under the cut :3

Tbh idk if Mortis X Byron should go there, cuz I like a very specific dynamic with that ship

As you guys know cuz Ive been screaming about it since I started this account, I headcanon Byron as Aromantic.

And I mean very very aromantic. The kind of that comes off as flirty when hes just trying to scam you, and doesnt realize that he sounds like he is flirting.

The "Why dont you just break up?" or "Why dont you just talk to them?", maybe even "Wdym people get married not beacause of the financial benefits, but because they feel like they need to to complete their relationships?" kind of aro

The kind of aro that can be flirted at and never realizes that he was being flirted with. And thats exactly how I like to imagine their dynamic

Mortis having this huuuge crush on him, and trying like a good gay disaster to seduce him with hyper dramatic acts, and Byron just... Not understanding wtf hes doing. Mortis would do stuff like hiring Poco to serenade him, buying him flowers (I can't come up with anything else romantic im sorry)

And Byron being like : It's 3 in the morning what the fuck are you doing?

Bonus if Belle and Emz are constantly trying to sabotage Morti's plans because "Holy Hell I do not want that to be my Uncle/Brother in law"

Extra Bonus if Piper and Barley are having the time of their life watching it all go down while pretending to be just as confused as Byron is

(Man I really need to write a fic or smth)

Also I don't have Byron and Crow as a brotp in the present time. Just when they worked together. I think they would have a very nice "Yeah yeah, destruction, poison and death, all of that, but could you help me get these bodies off your carpet?" mixed with "Oh shit I guess I care about him" kinda thing

The Oc I ship Max with isnt even a Brawl stars one. I just thought "Yeah, she would have a crush on her", and everything went downhill

Btw, please Ignore the "Me" thing with Tara, thank you...

This made me realize I ship Bibi with half of the female cast, nice.

Im also determined to give her as many big brother figures as I can, even if Brock is terrified of the other 2.

Anddd I think she has the largest friend group in the park. Jacky, Brock, Edgar, Colette, the other members of her duo...

Perhaps im projecting

Please dont put any of my Notps on my dash, thank you very much <33333

[fueledbysprite]

abandoned wips masterlist

so not too long ago i did an insta poll asking if i should expose all my abandoned fic drafts cause i mean it’s not like theyre ever gonna see the light of day otherwise. i was going to do it when i hit 3k kudos on ao3 and i did so i suppose it has come time for me to expose my mistakes

for obvious reasons, don’t repost these (idk why anyone would lol) but if you really like one of these and want to see it continued, just hit up my ask box and i may or may not consider~

Miscellaneous Fandoms:

Ninjago: Zephyr - a Morro backstory fic bc the hageman bros refuse to feed me more content of my son. barely started it but yknow its there

Miraculous Ladybug/BoBoiBoy: this failed attempt at a fanginette fic bc @secretagentspydetectiveninja got me invested even tho writers block is a binch hahshs

BoBoiBoy:

kokotiam gang angst that reminded me i cannot for the life of me write emotional angst (or any angst for that matter oop)

ramenzo (and kaifang) angst that i churned out on a saturday afternoon on a writing spike instead of doing homework bc I Do Not Control the Writing Juice

au where bbb is a forest guardian(?) and fang just wants away from Society (same fang same) i will probably be yearning for woodland aus till the day i die bc who *doesnt* wanna ditch everything and go live in the middle of the woods amirite?

ramenzo n boifang water fight bc you cant convince me these idiots dont get up to ridiculous shenanigans on their downtime

abandoned draft for the sequel to the og ramenzo fic (dont bother reading it literally nothing happens i swear)

i literally don’t remember where i was going with this i think it was supposed to be fang introspection but idk??

uhh kaifang with ramenzo vibes i think this was gonna be? i genuinely don’t remember anymore oop-

RAMENZO IN QUARANTINE yes this one was regular au (i mean duh) and it’s a shame i never ended up finishing it-

i am actually goboifang t r a s h...until i realized im going to have to make all the food by myself and i never learned to make food :’)) (fr if anyone provides me with any kind of fanon gbf content i will love you forever pls)

this...exists even tho i honestly prefer it didnt but ramenzo is ramenzo n ramen has freckles i will fite u on this (dont read it pls)

if anyone wants ramenzo crumbs (and i mean that quite practically) then feel free to consume the Specks

dont read this pls im begging just dont lets yeet it into the void it doesnt exist~ I Do Not See It

update: i discovered this uhh kaifang post-bora ra incident thing in my other drive

Miraculous Ladybug:

okay forewarning there are wayyyy too many of these so im skipping the ones that are sequels/dependent on other fics for context just to spare myself from having to sort through this mountain

i was planning to participate in chlonath week 2k19 (unfortunately for chlonath nation I Do Not Control the Hyperfixation oop) if you want context then ask

marcnath crumbs thats it thats the doc

oh look allya is self projecting again (writing is still pain) (marcnath)

for the one who requested chloenette with the dialogue prompt i am so sorry

idk why this feels like something ive posted before but then again all lovesquare is the same to me (dead) so who knows im not gonna bother checking hshsh (marichat)

chlonath go to comic con or sth idk chloe is tsundere as always (or would have been anyway if i ever ended up Finishing this)

i *think* this was based on a @terrible-miraculous-ladybug-aus post but heck if i remember now- (lukanette??)

i have absolutely no recollection as to where i was going with this but if anyone finds the concept interesting then by all means go ahead n snatch it- (manon finds the miraculous i guess?)

this is a great. opening. to a chloe fic. that doesnt exist. oof :,)

caline bustier’s home for orphans amirite (i mean she basically already adopted the whole class so)

im genuinely not a fan of the jealous!lover trope but someone in the marcnath server wanted some at one point so i. attempted. and failed but you know thats to be expected at this point :’3

oh look allya is projecting her writing struggles onto marc again is anyone surprised?

theres probably a museum brotp story in here but it doesnt exist and at this point it never will rip

oh good lord not this again i genuinely managed to forget about it for a while until now-

i just read the first line and im already reeling what the heck is this nathanette(??)

WHY IS THERE MARICHAT IN MY WIP FOLDER WHAT

allya stop projecting onto emo weebs challenge failed

i really wanna know where the context for chlonath skiing trip came from i literally have 0 recollection of this at all??

YO I ACTUALLY REMEMBER THE CONTEXT FOR THIS ONE anyway nath n aroace!alix arranged marriage au anyone?? well too bad cause i abandoned it oop-

ahahahahahahaha wdym i wrote 7k of chlonath and then ditched it i would never do that lmao-

i think this was a hunger games au uh

something something marcnath

marcnath angst i guess? *allya pls stop trying to write angst we’ve already established that is not a thing you can do*

something something chlonath

im never gonna forgive @powerdragonmoon for the fact that i thought “beecock” while glancing over this to figure out wth was going on. cholaon works here too tho so that is what i shall call it //sideways glare at moon

take your otp. now put them on a trampoline. but heaven forbid you ever finish the fic- (chlonath if it wasnt obvious)

nathanette doll au from forever ago with @lotus-duckies that was a real concept its a shame i have 0 commitment

i wanna call this lukanathanette but i honestly don’t remember where i was going with it so idk

hi uhm what is this and why is it so depressing allya fr quit self projecting on emo tomatoes oml

chlonath established relationship i guess??

museum brotp go skating?? is that what this is?

how much chlonath do i hAVE also chloe u tsundere

nathaniel is Yearning n tbh i dont blame him cause same (ft. marc)

i could swear this was gonna be luklonath (chlolukanath??) but i wouldnt be able to remember-

if anyone can figure out what’s going on with marc pls tell me bc i dont-

cholaon but theres no context

Oh god im finally done good lord that’s all of em i hope i never have to look at a mlb doc again in my life anyway pls be grateful n enjoy the crumbs n stuff thanks i sacrificed my sanity for this-

[sevngmin]

college!seungmin

ok so

my friend made a thread(im not able to link it as her account is private) of skz as students at my college

and then i saw another thread of skz as college students

so here i am

major: law

club: photography

used to shoot his pictures on his dslr in auto mode until he joined the photography club,,, which fellow member hyunjin scolded him for

let’s be honest,, seungmin is that one boy in your major that everyone has a crush on

(you’d better be lying if you said you never have had an eye candy/crush on him before)

he came to school once with his hair up and every girl in his class wanted to set the school on fire bc that’s not the content they signed up for

and has his hair up more often,,,

not in a bad way tho bc he takes pride in dressing up for school sometimes and when people praise him for it he gets a lil blushy and goes (*^▽^*) thankuuu!!!!

if you’re in a project group w him you’re in luck bc seungmin always is super nice to his teammates and offers to lunch over work

(and also has his hair up for presentations,,, double oof)

sPeaking about presentations there was once he was looking especially fine while presenting about criminal law

and people were sneakily snapping pics of him

poor boy got so blushy he stuttered so much :(

honestly too nice to mark people down for peer evaluation but when they’re blatantly not doing work he’d not hesitate to give them a zero

you’d wouldn’t want to see him angry too esp when he hardly gets mad

meanwhile, you on the other hand,,, not so much

you have had your fair share of shitty teammates and you couldn't take it anymore

like,, have you been too nice to people for them to tell you to “just chill” when you get mad???? for legitimate reasons???

you just don’t get it

anyway

you and seungmin are friends bc he was your classmate since freshman year

and is the only one who you are somewhat familiar with in this year’s class

tbh you never really saw seungmin as someone more bc you two are kinda close and after you know him he gets kinda dorky its cute

like yeeeeeaaaaa sometimes you inevitably have the teeny tiny crush on seungmin but its no biggie

you guys are like close?? but not rlly bc seungmin has his own group of friends and you have your own

you are close with hyunjin but that's only bc y’all are on the dance team and besides, he’s in another major

seungmin always sits beside you in classes people think you’re his gf or sumn

but the people in the same class knows y’all are not bc you were the only one who snorted(too loudly) when seungmin knocked his head on the table while falling asleep in a tutorial

all the girls wanted to murder your ass for it tbh

seungmin is kind of your therapist in a way in which he lunches with you often and listens to your rants

be it about the iced chocolate in the cafeteria being watered down too much or standing on the crowded morning bus

seungmin is always that listening ear no matter what

quote hyunjin; “you should start charging her for listening to her rant about the school’s budget for the tenth time this semester”

also you; “i should start charging you for constantly making me stay back to watch you go over that same routine and song over and over again after practice.”

touché

moving on

honestly you weren’t looking forward to this year’s class bc the people in class r rlly gossipy and known for talking shit about others

but i mean,, you’re in school to get that degree,,, and not deal w shitty people right

WRONG

when the tutor assigned groups for a group project you were thanking the high heavens that seungmin was in your team

and as the team leader

so that no free-riders go to your team

it’s the week of submissions and there’s this member that kept giving excuses for not doing her part in the group report

and hence you had to do it because her parts were closely linked to yours and without her parts, you couldn't start on yours

seungmin had to help out too bc he feels obligated to as the team leader

and also feels bad??? bc he knows how you’ve been dealing w shitty people and now its another one

you honestly just want better people tbh

so like you just really couldn’t take it and went up to her face during lesson and said,

“hey if you’re not doing work i’m asking seungmin to boot you out bc you’re not doing your work”

nd she had the audacity to say,

“i did my work???? wdym”

aka write her name on the cover page

(and even spelt it wrong smh)

you rolled your eyes and huffed,

“i’m telling seungmin to boot you out, find another team.”

she just laughs maniacally which scares you, until she regains her composure and goes

“what? has sucking seungmin’s dick gotten to your pea brain?”

(that was so crude im sorry)

and she said it so loud the rest of your classmates could hear and started murmuring amongst themselves

you were appalled at her words, speechless as you could feel your blood boiling

“i must be right huh,” she scoffs, turning her attention back to her phone, “sucking up to the pretty boy to get good grades, how low.”

you really wanted to slap the living life out of her

before you could do so, seungmin slammed his hand on the table, shocking everyone

“you’re the one to speak, who did nothing but to put her name on the cover page of the report, and to the point of spelling it wrong,” seungmin seethed, which made you honestly scared of him

he stood up with his laptop and cancelled her name in front of her eyes, then pushing you behind him, “as of now, you are not part of our group. if i ever hear you bothering any of my groupmates, i will not hesitate to report this to the course head. i hope i made myself clear enough.”

you could see the fear in everyone’s eyes, as it was the first time that they saw him genuinely get really really mad at someone

the girl ran out of class crying, as you slumped in your seat, mind still unable to wrap around how she was so rude to you, hands visibly shaking

“are you okay?” seungmin asked, eyes now dripped with worry, contrary to his anger-filled eyes just moments ago

“yeah, i guess.” you bit your lip, opening up your laptop, “thanks, for standing up for me.”

“a frown doesn’t look good on you,” seungmin commented, “just smile now, hmm? it’s all over, and you don’t have to deal with her again.”

you look over at seungmin, whose brown eyes were still staring at you

you gulped, crimson tinting your cheeks as you looked away and faked a smile,

“yeah yeah, thank you for saving me, prince seungmin.” you teased to hide the blush on your cheeks

and weirdly after this incident seungmin has been kinda protective over you???

like offering to drive you to school

eating lunch with you more often

offering to drive you back home

basically sticking to you the whole time in school

not that you were complaining, seungmin has even been more affectionate?? kinda

sending you good morning and goodnight texts

smiling more often around you and laughing at your lame jokes,,, when normally he would just stone at them

to the point when your friends started asking if you and seungmin were dating,,, bc he just stuck by you almost every breathing second you’re out of your house

you had to keep telling them no until one day,,,,,, you confronted seungmin

as soon as you got into seungmin’s car, you asked,

“why are you doing this?”

“doing what?” seungmin laughs, stopping at a red light

“this.” you deadpanned, “driving me to school, driving me back, being so close to me, everything. we’re not dating or in a relationship either, so why?”

seungmin turned to you, looks at you dead in the eye and presses a kiss to your forehead, which brings heat to your cheeks

“you’re awfully dense for a law student, aren’t you?” he smiles, diverting his attention back on the road, “if that didn’t make it obvious already, that i like you.”

“h-how can you say that so casually?” you stuttered, burying your cheeks in your hands, “that’s not sincere enough.”

seungmin stops at another red light, then presses a kiss to your lips, and you were pretty sure your cheeks were hot enough to cook eggs on them

“is that better?” seungmin bit his lip, obviously shy at what he just did skskskskskskks

and you do say yes

cute

when he tries to be smooth and all but his face just gives his inner emotions away

you turn up in school holding seungmin’s hands from then on

and all the girls cried for a week straight

[ivebeensunburnt]

Planets as Boys

The sun (let's name him Elio, its a name derived from the name Helios who is a sun titan in Greek myths)

You met him in winter

While sledding

You crashed into him while he was walking up the hill and he ended up sitting on your lap for the rest of the ride down

'Usually, I like to take a girl out to dinner before sitting on her lap but this is fine I guess. Can I at least get your number'

'I don't even know your name'

'It's Elio, and I don't know yours either but you're the one who got me to sit on your lap'

'You were in the way!'

'I was walking on the path, you were not sledding in the right place'

'Yes, I was!'

'Stop getting so riled up sunshine, I'm just messing with you'

'Fine. You can have my number. But I expect you not to be in the way of my sled next time.'

'Maybe next time you can sit on my lap ;)'

'Omg, I think I want my number back'

'Don't lie sunshine, you think I'm hot'

'I think you're a little warm'

'I can't tell if that's a compliment or not'

'It's not'

'Bummer. I think you're pretty cute sunshine'

His flirting never fails to make you blush 

Of course, you end up excepting his offer to go on a date

And before long you're dating

As you start to spend a lot of time with him you start to tan a bit

It's not very noticeable at first

But after hanging out with him for a couple weeks you have a light tan

'Wtf? I don't even go outside'

You'd ask him about it and he'd just laugh

'Oops'

Wherever he kisses you freckles show up (haha get it? Sunkissed)

It's how your friends find out you guys are dating

'So... You and Elio?'

'Wdym'

'Sis you have freckles everywhere'

'I-' *blush*

At least they can't see where else he leaves freckles

His hair is bleach white blonde

Not even because he dyes it

Just naturally

Very tan

Golden skin that is so, so pretty

CLEAR SKIN

Like how tf does he keep it that clear

So many freckles on this boy

Mostly on his face and arms but a few everywhere else

Would refuse to leave the house if it was raining at all

Even just sprinkling

He hates it.

Amber eyes that are so warm and inviting

They're just so pretty

Heat machine

You know how boys always manage to be warm

Like that but x50

You're always asking if he feels like he has a fever

'No I'm just that hot ;)'

'Omg pls shut up'

You would try to steal his hoodies but he doesn't have any

And you're like

'Elio... Where tf are your hoodies?'

'.... I don't have any'

'I can't believe you'

Gives the best fucking hugs anyone could ask for

Like 100/10

And is always open to giving them too

'Elio i want a hug'

'OMG YASSS COME HERE BABY'

Snuggles are the best with him

An absolute extrovert

Willing to go out whenever it's not raining

If he does gave to go out while its raining you know he'll have bright yellow rain boots

And a yellow poncho

With a Pikachu umbrella

Is he 5?

Probably.

A bit full of himself

'I'm so hot babe'

'Ooo my hair looks fabbb today'

'I look like a GoDdeSs'

Like the world revolves around him

Great leader (when he's not being immature)

Takes charge

Being in a group project with him would be so great

Especially if he's interested in the topic

A perfectionist when it comes to work or grades

Acts like he doesn't care about it but you can tell he does

As a boyfriend he would always want to be with you

Touching you

And kissing you

Skinship is the shit for him

Beach days are a must

Sandcastle KING

Would drag you outside just to sit in the sun when its nice outside

Which leads to you never taking your shoes off during the summer and fall months because you never know when he's gonna want to take you outside

And always having a book with you to read outside

He's always happy

Except when it's raining

Scared of thunderstorms but will hold a giant ass spider and talk to it like its a cute baby

Will also be 100% down to go bungee jumping or anything crazy like that

Never gets sunburned

One time he actually tried to but was unsuccessful

'Ok I'm gonna lay here for 3 hours and by then i better have a sunburn!'

*unconcerned* ' u do u boo'

His favorite color is yellow

He has at least 10 plain yellow shirts that he wears with everything

Converse are the only shoes he's willing to wear

With the occasional pair of vans

Is always saying he wants sunflower vans but never does

Sleeps with the lights on

Which annoys the crap out of anyone who has had to sleep in the same room as him

They just end up turning off the lights once he's asleep

Does 5ks and other runs for fun?? Like every weekend

Basically a jock

Will try every sport once

Especially likes soccer

And volley ball

And don't even get him started on sharks and minnows that is his game

Will never tell you when he's sad

If he tells you when he's sad he has got to be in love with you

Or trust you A LOT

Will make up stupid excuses like he has to go walk his turtle to escape situations that make him sad, so you won't see

When did he get a turtle?

One time you saw him crying and were shocked for a week

He still won't tell you why he was crying that day

He's one of those people who will laugh at the absolute worst times

Somebody's crying or screaming and yelling and he'll be in the corner laughing his ass off

Basically a little shit

Dumb dad jokes one minute

And dirty jokes the next

Laughs at his own jokes

His favorite nickname for you would definitely be sunshine

And you would be like????

'Babe. You👏 Are👏 Literally👏 The embodiment👏 Of the👏 Fucking sun👏'

When you first start dating he'll be so fucking sweet

Like a bag of fucking sugar

After a couple months tho?

That boy is nasty

Try to make him blush

Just try

This boy is shameless. Nothing will make him blush

He will dirty talk up a STORM

Don't even try wearing a short skirt around him because within 10 min. He'll be whispering in you ear

'Did you wear that for me?'

'I really like it on you'

'It would look a lot better on my floor tho'

Yes, he's that cheesy

Even tho he's nast af he'll still be super fucking cute with you

100% cutest couple you've ever seen

feeding each other

Sitting on his lap

PDA

Always holding hands in public

Dates at least once a week

He ways finds times for a date

Sometimes it's just coming over to snuggle

Or going to a super fancy restaurant in a suit and everything

He'll try to pay for the meal every time

But you'll be like sis no and give your credit card to the waiter before he can

He'll glare at you for a second but can't stay mad and will just end up kissing you

Oh boy,,,,,,

Kisses with him

They'd be so nice

First he would lick his lips while looking at yours

He would get really shy

'C-can I kiss you please'

'Of course'

At first he would be the sweetest softest kisser

He would put a hand on the back if your neck with his fingers tangled in the roots of you hair

He would put his other hand on your hip very softly so you would barely even be able to feel it

For the first 10-15 seconds it would be just lips, no toungue

He would like your bottom lip asking for entrance

And this is where he would lose it

When people say 'they're shoving their tongues down each other's throats' this is exactly what they mean

He would tighten his grip on your hair tugging a little

He would move his other hand from your hip to your back pulling you closer to him

He would literally not stop kissing you till you both were about suffocate and it takes you both minutes to catch you breath before you can talk again

'Jesus christ'

He would just smile at you and pull you im for a quick kiss before telling you that you are perfect

Then being a little shit like

'Almost as perfect as me'

Even tho he's your boyfriend he would also be your bestest friend

You could talk for hours with him and just goof off without trying to act perfect

for him (cuz he already thinks you are)

Since he's always warm he loves the snow

(But he doesn't like rain? Weirdo.)

Like, SO much

Especially the morning after its snowed when the snow is smooth and untouched and the morning sun makes it all sparkly and pretty

Of course he'll ruin it by throwing a snowball directly at your face

You'll fake crying like it really hurt you and he'll go from

:D to :0 in .2 seconds

'Omg sunshine. Are you ok? I'm so sorry. Omg.omg.omg. do we need to go to the hospital? I'm so sorry.'

He would almost be crying when youre like sike bitch

And throw one right back at his face

Which would lead to an all-out snowball fight that lasts for an hour before you're shivering your way back inside

Then you would snuggle up on the couch with him and watch movies till you fall asleep

[woozi]

dhdjdkdk but it's so cool tho, to witness the shift and change in trends of kpop through the years even if you weren't involved too much then.

honestly never thought tumblr would be a better medium to help me keep up with updates & stuff, at first it was just that jdkdkdjs i was just checking in occasionally too! never thought i'd be having more fun interacting here even if it's on anon djdjdjh and noooo why would i do that djdjjssk i love seeing your gifs be it svt or g7 <3 (speaking of which the fallin flower joshua set is SO PRETTY I LOVE IT 💖💗🥺) that has to be someone else because for now i only follow kpop blogs nothing else jdjdkdjd but i also like the vibe your main one has <3

naur <//3 my bias type really shows huh? i always end up choosing the ones who like to keep everything low and not post anything, not even a 'hi' jdjdkskdj (except for cheol <3 still not over those bf pics. svt insta era my beloved <3 as a 2019 carat it hits more differently 😭 and now we only have dino remaining <3 ) & i agree w/ you jinyoung is such a pain in ass and him being smug abt it is more annoying </3 it's even more funny when you know i can't stand virgos at all <//3 (but he makes up for it with his songs, i love songs which hurt me <3. thank you still remains 1st followed by 끝 & the day, then encore jdjdkd). for some reason i forget sometimes that mark is also a virgo, he's just too lovely in my eyes 😣 djjdjdks what abt your biases? ❤️.

spinning top album and 1° my forever beloveds <3 also tasteee lullaby era was amazing. and honestly 'you are' has won hearts so that's double win for me. every birdie i've talked to adores 'you are' the same amt so that's just <33 🥺 same for aju nice too djdhjdj always puts me in good mood tbh. ahhh the group which got me into kpop was bts :3 (might be predictable since 2017 was the year a lot of ppl got into them djdjk).

and he did <3 good for him and them. the love for jaebs has been a lot in my heart these past few months (not like it wasn't there before dhdjks just </3)

dhdjjdkd they're so 😭😭 g7 love playing with my heart sm. i am not believing any words youngjae is saying sorry boo djdjdk i have trust issues. but i'm excited abt yj and mk's projects. them talking about their projects is making me anticipate it even more djdjkdkd 😭

i'm always down for new music ( ignoring the comment i made about not being able to listen to music out of my known genres jdjddkkjsek), honestly pls do suggest the playlist i'll listen to them soon! <3

thank you for the novel, *rates 5/5 on goodreads.* djdjdkdk ( pls ignore i sometimes tend to make nonsensical jokes which only i get djjddjsk) - sending you good day wishes ~ 🪂 ( woozi's drone camera song has been stuck in my mind hdjdjsskks everytime i use skydiving emoji it starts playing 😭) - 🪂🪂🪂

indeed <3

I KNOW KJKFJFDKJFD IT'S SO SLOW HERE!!! but the community is so much better, there isn't any pressure to do anything and people just do things just because they enjoy it (not saying twt users don't but it kind of gets... performative there) and i'm so glad ur having fun here 🥺 caratblr has been such a good place to me too, it's honestly the best online community i've been in. JDSSDJKJDSKSJD AWW U FLATTER ME TOO MUCH </3 and yes indeed oh my god i love fallin flower so much. they really fuckin popped off with that one!! i find myself going back to it again and again!!

YES IT DOES FJKJFDKFDJKFDJ we love boys without social media presence <3 idk what went on in 2019 svtstagram but when i see photos/vids from then </3 y'all are BLESSED!!! AND U SAY THIS ON VIRGO SZN 😭😭😭😭 that is so funny though i also want to slander virgos sometimes <3 ALSO WAIT OH MY GOD YOURE SO RIGHT!!!! the songs he penned are very... jinyoung for lack of better word. they're Different. i love each of the seven's styles so much i feel like songs they made themselves turn out better ngl. ALSO YES ABSOLUTELY DFJJDFDKJF mark's also one of the members i am quite fond of (though i love all of them). his temper is Very Virgo though i love that so much about him JKSDKSDJ i personally don't have a type?? or at least i don't think i do JFJDKKFD i just.. like people when i like them ig 😭 look at my bias line... chan jeonghan jihoon.. and jus2 for got7... ALSO WAIT OH MY GOD......... SPEAKING OF JUS2............................................ what are ur thoughts on jus2 <3

1 DEGREE!!!!!!!!!!!1 every time i hear and think abt 1 degree i think of youngjae for some reason.. and ur so right abt that <3 iirc you are's the first title track from jaebeom so it was also a v significant era for them </3 AND YES AJU NICE!! free serotonin boost tbh. and the mv is still one of my favorites concept-wise!! the exploding hearts was really something else to me JDKJKJDJSDJ AND OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH honestly idk what happened in the kpop universe during then so idk 😭 but from what i've heard of from my friends who got into kpop during the last few years this is also their experience!! do you still follow bts?

i know!! </3 jaebeom looks very happy lately, i think his creative freedom now eased a lot of pressure from him. AND WE FINALLY GET TO HAVE OFFICIAL SONGS W JAEBEOM PRINT!!!!!!!!! his songs sounds like HIS now. have you been listening to yugyeom and jaebeom's albums? </3 they're SOOO good and they feel very organic if that makes sense

they really do love playing tricks on us 😭 and tbh you're right on that we cant believe shit these boys say.. ESPECIALLY WHEN BAMBAM'S THERE 😭 i guess they were also talking abt youngjae's album that time bc jaebeom apologized to him JDJSDDSKJ ALSO YES KJDJKDJSS IM SO EXCITED FOR MARK'S ESPECIALLY!!! we haven't seen much from him compared to other members. i loved one in a million sm </3 AND HE'S DOING AN OST NOW!!! AND PHOTOSHOOTS!! incredible </3

i'm making u playlist rn <3 maybe it'll be ready the next time we talk 👀

AND NOOOO KFJDFDKJFDKJ THE GOODREADS JOKE MADE ME LAUGH IRL WDYM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 u know at this point.. jihoon should release that on soundcloud as a cover LMAOOOO i keep hearing it on tiktok too DSDSJJDS HOPE UR HAVING A GREAT DAY AS WELL <3 THANK U FOR ALWAYS HANGING OUT W ME <3