i feel like planet of the bass really needed a windows movie maker lyric video. so i did this instead of sleeping. (i literally did this in a windows xp virtual machine because LEVELS of insanity)
most of the time i really don't care but. today i'm feeling a bit sad that i don't think i'll ever be able to tell my dad i'm queer. and i know it's literally so stupid to think about and its not that bad or anything but just. gahhh idk. i'm just a bit angry and sad bc i feel like it would change everything + i'd just let him down. GAHHHHH :) okay anyways back to the main program....
Hi! So sorry if you’ve answered this already, but I came across your weird vibes Max’s bday party post and in it you mentioned Christian had been calling Daniel stupid and a girl for some time… please tell me more? My critical brain says that’s workplace harassment but my bird brain says brrrr feminization kink!
why do i love walter white so much. it gives me such joy to see his bald ass on my screen like. its him!!! its the guy!!!!! its heisenburg!!!!!!!! he has a hat sometimes!!! and sometimes he doesnt!!! my entire world, my babygirl, my heart my soul my light. running my walter white thought program as we speak
Today was a supremely crappy day, so I ordered myself an early birthday present (by like two weeks but still) and it should come right around my actual birthday, and I was going to do it anyways after I got birthday money but you know
Kind of just been a crappy little while, I’ve been working on my gender playlist to help and since I have a feeling I’ll be under my weighted blanket most of tomorrow maybe I’ll post the current version of it. Might even explain some of the songs if I feel up to it.
Anyways doctors fucking suck and I already knew this but being told over and over there’s nothing actually wrong really fucking wears on me. Maybe if we just stopped trying to diagnose me for something I don’t fit and look at the whole picture… but that would make sense wouldn’t it?
OH WOW I JUST GOT AROUND TO READING THAT LONG POST OF YOURS AND I'M GONNA CRY
Chapter 88 vibes 😭💔 Akutagawa is cannonically in love with Atsushi and that's it I don't care if asagiri himself comes and says otherwise HE IS IN LOVE AND THAT'S IT
Oooooooowwww aaaaaaawwwwwww you're so sweet thank you so much 😭😭😭 Is this the post you're talking about? It's a nice one, thank you for giving it your time!!!!!
I really like the ship because honestly,,,,, they make so much sense together despite being written to hate each other!! I'll do you a better one for funzies: their relationship is so beautiful exactly because they were written to hate each
It's like they were perfect together in ways that became independent and got out of the author's control; it's like their love was strongest than the narrative that wanted to keep them apart and it's just. SO BEAUTIFUL. Shipping them feels like recognizing they were written like it was their destiny to hate each other yet they defeated their destiny! Their love defeated their destiny, their love was strongest than a narrative that trapped them in a world of hate where they were fated to suffer for eternity. And I think that's beautiful, they make me happy 💕💕
Idk, in a world where they were meticulously created to hate each other, raised with opposite modalities, given real reasons of resentment and loathing towards each other etc., for them to love each other has the beauty of miracles in it. Like, isn't it beautiful? To be able to say “wow, love is real” even if it's just within a little fic where they get to kiss. They make me happy!!!
Also c'mon them being in love adds so many layers to both Atsushi and Akutagawa's personalities and honestly makes the characters so much more interesting. The fight against Fukuchi is much more beautiful when you interpret them as sskk being in love. It's literally the post that goes:
the love was there. it didnt change anything. it didnt save anyone. there were just too many forces against it. but it still matters that the love was there.
(via starpeace)
I wasn't kidding about the sskk / Hadestown parallels although honestly,, Hadestown is a masterpiece bsd has nothing to do with; it's literally about rereading chapter 84 and thinking look at them there! They're there standing, breathing, alive. Ready to fight for their lives and ideals. Bust most importantly, they're together. They're together, and that makes them stronger than they could ever be. Because their bond, their love, is the strongest force, and it's able to defeat anything! And you've read those chapters a few times already, you know how it ends, but you see them stand together and you're really like. Maybe they'll do it this time! Maybe this time they'll defeat their own story. And they don't in the end, and everything plays out as for the script, but love was still there!!! I knowww it's not how the story is meant to be interpreted, but c'mon, doesn't it make way more beautiful? I wouldn't want to read it any other way. They make me happy :)
went to a ballet show tonight and was sat next to this group of girls from middle school who study dance at their school and i only wish for those girls one thing: i hope that one day they'll be on a stage like that, performing their hearts out, and then they'll have a group of people just not shutting the fuck up and laughing as they dance and then the for the other half they're gonna scroll on instagram the whole time <3
except that one girl from their class that told them to be quiet multiple times during it, for her i only wish the best <3
Ah yes, it's so funny how my dog, a rescue who'd been at a shelter for 8 months, gets activated by other dogs right now and gets an anxiety attack whenever there's another dog around. 🙄