#non binary struggles ig ...

[aman-duuh]

lesbianklok save me .. save me lesbianklok.....

[queengmine2crayon]

Ok guys I kinda wanna cry lol-

I talked to my mother about getting a binder for Christmas bc if we split the price I guess it’ll be easier to get a good one and stuff? Idk I’m new to that shit I don’t even know what I’m doing lol

Anyways, she was kinda pissed about it? Like more for my well-being bc the only thing I know about binders is that you can’t wear them for a long time bc it’s not healthy (again, maybe that’s bullshit, idk). She said she would think about it w/ my father and stuff, and I added that if they didn’t like the idea and didn’t want to pay for it that was fine, I would just buy it by myself… but that hurt somehow. I know my parents are supportive but sometimes i feel like they’re just tired of me being trans and queer and vegetarian and having anxiety and trauma and a whole bunch of stuff I can’t control. And I get it, that’s exhausting, and maybe I’m just a jerk for being mad about it. But that doesn’t hurt any less, it feels like they aren’t validating my pain and my dysphoria and my trans identity and I guess it’s exhausting for me too.

Anyways, sorry for venting so much tonight like wtff is going on, I disappear for two weeks and now I post five things randomly? Wtf

Also, if you have any tips or answers or recs about binders I would love to hear them bc I am struggling to ask my trans friends about it (I am scared and I don’t want them to make them uncomfortable and I think my anxiety is also a factor-)

Gn or gd everyone, ly 💚💫

[reverie-starlight]

online dating is wild i have a whole album in my photos called “unhinged on hinge” now i’m not kidding. it has over 50 screenshots now.

[leaving-fragments]

surely having a dream where i'm surrounded by beautiful trans people and i myself am a genderless being who can fly is not a sign, right

[msmk11]

My T**s Ruin the Outfit

Poly!Marauders x non-binary!reader (short fic)

CW: Gender dysphoria; angst: fluff; hurt/comfort

Summary: Your boyfriends find you having a melt down about clothes. But really, it’s not about clothes at all.

Author’s Note: I’m not sure how this idea came to mind, but once I thought it, I had to write it. Since I go by she/they the struggle to find gender affirming clothes is really hard sometimes 😭 especially with tits. So ig this is really self-insert heavy, but I also hopes it brings comfort to those who feel similarly.

Remus was less than pleased to find you sprawled out on the bed, face down in the pillows.

“Dove, what are you doing?” he sighed, “You know we need to leave in ten minutes.”

“I’m not going,” you mumbled.

Remus assumed today of all days was when you decided to be a brat, and he was not going to have it. Tonight was supposed to be the first time in months that your entire friend group was going to be able to get together. Between Mary and Lily, Marlene and Dorcas, Regulus and Barty, and you four, it was nearly impossible to make plans. But, by some miracle, tonight was the night, and Remus was not about to miss out because of your attitude.

“Dove,” Remus said with a low, warning tone, “I’m not gonna say it again.”

You only grumbled out another no, and Remus felt his patience wearing thin. Just as he was about to force you up and moving, James wondered into the room, looking particularly delectable in one of his faded rugby shirts that hugged his biceps, and blue jeans.

Though James was occasionally oblivious, he immediately noticed Remus’ tense jaw and your distressed body language.

“What’s going on here?” James asked carefully.

“Dovey here insists that they’re no longer going with us,” Remus said gruffly.

James looked at Remus confused. Out of everyone, you had been the most excited for this night. While you loved your boys, you also dearly missed your best friends- Lily, Mary, Marlene, and Dorcas. You had been chattering excitedly for days about all that you four needed to catch up on- old gossip, haircut advice, and some of your shared favorite musicians.

Though Remus’ temper sometimes prevented him from seeing it, James’ cool demeanor allowed him to quickly realize that something was obviously wrong. James gently sat down on the bed beside you and started to rub small, soothing circles on your back.

“Angel,” he asked quietly, “why don’t you want to go anymore? You’ve been looking forward to it for days.”

You didn’t respond verbally, but James noticed a slight shaking in your shoulders. Ever so carefully, James grabbed your hips and shifted you onto your side to face him. Before you could hide away again, James noticed your red, teary eyes.

“Angel,” he cooed sadly.

Remus looked to James with a perplexed expression and mouthed, “what is it?”

“They’re crying,” James mouthed quietly.

All of the tension left Remus quickly and was replaced by worry. He immediately felt guilty for assuming the worst and shuffled over to the bed, assuming a seat on your other side. While rubbing small circles on your hip Remus asked, “Can you sit up for us dove and tell us what’s wrong?”

You begrudgingly obliged, though you remained attached to James as you did so.

“Guys? Are you ready? We need to be leaving no-“

Sirius stood in the doorway, slack-jawed, “DOLLY? What’s wrong?” He immediately rushed to crouch at your feet beside the bed.

All three pairs of eyes looked at you with so much care, each of them comforting you with gentle pets and rubs.

“I- I” you blubbered, “I have nothing to wear.”

That was the last thing any of them expected you to say because 1) you didn’t usually put so much care into your outfits 2) even if you did you didn’t usually get emotional over it and 3) you had more than plenty of clothes to wear- not just of your own but of your three boyfriends’.

“Angel, you have tons of clothes in the closet to choose from. And ours too,” James said gently.

“And if you’re having trouble picking something, doll, you know I can help you pick something out,” Sirius added

This only made you start to cry harder and your three boyfriends shared looks of mixed concern and confusion.

“You just- you don’t understand,” you said through hiccups.

“Then help us to, dove,” Remus told you, “we can’t help if you don’t talk to us.”

You tried to take a few deep breaths, so that you could actually express what you were feeling, “It’s just. None of my clothes fit right on me. At least, not the way I want them too. My tits just, ruin the outfit.”

Realization passed through all of them then. This wasn’t about clothes at all- not really, at least. Almost a year ago, you had come out to your boyfriends as nonbinary. They, of course, were so loving and supportive and tried to help you feel comfortable in your body in any way possible. You’d gotten a binder, bought some new clothes, and changed your hair, but when gender dysphoria hit, there was not much they could do to comfort you.

“Oh sweetheart,” Sirius said with a sigh, “I’m sorry. Did you try your binder?”

You shook your head with a frown, “no. But I don’t wanna wear it. It hurts after awhile.”

James pulled you more tightly into his side and kissesdyour head, “what can we do, angel?”

You only shrugged your shoulders and sighed.

“Why don’t you let Sirius and I choose something for you dove, while Jamie cuddles you. That sound good?” Remus asked you kindly.

“Okay.”

Sirius and Remus got up and disappeared into your shared closet. James, in the mean time, pulled you onto his lap and wrapped his arms around you tightly. He peppered kisses across your face and whispered sweet nothings into your ear, which made you giggle in spite of yourself. After a few minutes, Remus and Sirius emerged, clothes in hand.

“Alright doll, why don’t you try this on?”

Sirius handed you one of your favorite sports bras and the biggest of Remus’ sweaters- in your favorite color too. You weren’t sure why you hadn’t thought to try a sports bra earlier- the next best thing to a binder- but you supposed your emotions prevented you from clear thinking. You stayed in James’ lap while you quickly peeled off the t-shirt you were wearing and wrestled on the sports bra. While it didn’t entirely hide your tits, it certainly flattened your chest a little. Paired with Remus’ sweater, that was much baggier on you, your tits almost disappeared. As you looked down at your fairly flat chest you felt much more at ease. You shuffled over to the mirror and look at your appearance. Though the gender dysphoria was not entirely gone, you felt a lot better than before. And with your supportive, loving boyfriends by your side all night, you knew everything would be alright.

[erosjournal]

*checks the date* oh oct 11 already passed. in honor of national coming out day, we now have my argos 2 queer headcanons (in my au-ish)! i already posted something similar but here u go!

percy jackson

cisgender guy, but breaks gender norms/hj 💪

he/him (they/them r fine but he answers he/him when asked)

bi with a fem leaning. (i believe luke was his gay awakening. like nico and percy, yk?)

dating annabeth :)

annabeth chase

cisgender girl, but also breaks gender norms

she/her (also okay w/ they/them)

pan ! (i believe she likes people purely based on their personality and their intelligence, not on gender)

demiromantic (like how her crush on percy developed, and sorta w/ luke)

dating percy

jason grace

cis guy (he has slight internal “toxic/fragile” masculinity bc hes struggled to be the male leader people expect him to to be tho :/)

he/him

bi with a fem leaning (takes him a while to realize bc be thought he had to like girls… until percy/leo came along 👀)

either dating or crushing on leo (i say either bc u can interpret it as you please. personally, i ship valgrace so yea)

piper mclean

gender non-conforming / demigirl ! (she feels relatively feminine, genderwise not expression, but not fully)

she/they (he/him is eh, they prefer not to use he/him)

queer (mostly attracted to females, but some men slip in. she prefers queer and to not label their sexuality)

expresses their gender fluidly (some days masc, some days fem, some androgynous. she also enjoys shorter hair)

dating or crushing on reyna :)

leo valdez

masculinely gender non-conforming as well (he is mostly masculine, but doesnt think cis male is the best label for his gender. he’s not gender queer though)

he/him (they/them is fine as well, but NO she/her)

poly ! (not polyamorous 😭 basically, he’s attracted to mainly guys and girls with no preference in there)

dating or crushing on jason

hazel levesque

cis girl (even though shes cis, she is now the biggest ally in the 21st century. after learning abt it from nico, she wanted others to feel safe as she did now that there wasn’t as physical racism, idk if that makes sense but whatever)

she/her (i mean, technically they/them is fine but like, she doesn’t introduce herself with them… yk?)

straight and ace (no, shes not ace just bc shes 13-14 yall, people stay ace)

dating frank !

frank zhang

cis guy (same as jason, has a lot of internal “toxic/fragile” masculinity since he was never a super buff and leader typa guy)

he/him

straight and ace as well :)

(btw, his body never physically changes !! )

dating hazel :)

bonus !

nico di angelo

demiboy (or trans masc, or cis. there is no in between)

he/him (they/them r fine as well)

gay (idk what else to say man)

dating will

reyna avila ramirez-arellano

non-binary / gnc / gender queer (their genders more like: im not a girl, im not a guy, but other than that idgaf)

all pronouns (they/them is prefered, but they’re fine with she/her and he/him)

lesbian (into any non-men. idk wtf was going on w/ jason and… ig percy)

dresses very androgynously (lowkey always in armor anyways)

crushing doesnt feel like something reyna would do… but dating / ROMANTICALLY ADMIRING piper

(ALSO! I USE SHE/HER PRONOUNS ON MY OLD FICS FOR THEM, I WILL START USING SHE AND THEY :DD)

also guys, im not using this as an excuse to make all the pjo characters queer. this is just how i interpret and hc them in honor of coming out fay (oct 11) !!

[kirkwallguy]

verilybitchie's comment on taash's non-binary identity within the narrative spoke to me so bad. so i will say that plain representation is just "here you have your cake too" when it's giving... no context. like what kind of gender confusion a rivaini-qunari can have? this is a question that can only be answered if we can get an answer for what rivaini see gender as. is gender nonexistent and only thing that matters is the genitalia, functionally? is being a man or a woman just about who's giving birth and nothing else, not even clothing? like what are they giving. you cannot connect any dots because there's no dot to connect with.

not only there's cultural context to such things there's also the way of experiencing confusion/questioning depending on that IS so interesting to write, read and think about.

so i feel similar to sexuality representation. like what affect does it have for them and to their life. through dorian (and krem, in gender topic) we could even learn about tevinter culturally and politically that ties to class, poverty, money, and how did they effect them. it's not even about "struggle" it can be a culture that is totally fine with LGBTQ+ but like experience-effect is still experience-effect, negative or positive, and where does a character's own personal takes lie in them. it makes it feel real and fleshed out.

god ykw i STILL haven't watched that video despite meaning to for ages. when i do you'll probably know because i'll go into annoying essay mode lol

but yeah i completely agree. it's really weird because rivain's main narrative function is to contrast the negative points of qunari society. if rivain and the lords of fortune are majorly queer friendly, then why has taash never considered that they might be non-binary before? why do they need to go to tevinter to find trans people to speak to? (even having that initial conversation about not liking being a woman be with isabela might have felt slightly more cohesive lol.) then again, if it ISN'T a society that's welcoming of trans people, then why is the qun the only one whose issues are explored? obviously this is mostly due to the writers' (ie: weekes') weird hangups about qunari society and insistence on demonising them as a regressive "other", but it also feels like it flattens rivaini society in a way that does them a massive disservice imo.

honestly i wrote out a long thing on how dav feels less interested in exploring transness than it does representing transness but it got long and i was rambling. but anyway, i really agree that it's about portraying culture more than struggling, though. as much as i don't like the way bigotry is pushed aside in dav because a lot of queer culture COMES from struggling, there are so many ways to explore how queerness can exist in a society beyond having characters be called slurs. language is one but that's off the table ig. it's nice that they wanted to go with more casual trans characters and did "person who just happens to be trans if you dig into their backstory", but it's also weird and unnatural what these trans characters choose to tell and what they choose to withhold when prompted. i mean, tarquin gives us his entire coming out story but wont give us the name of the healer who prescribed him fantasy minoxidil for his beard? that's just kind of rude. (and indicative of how transness in vg is paper thin. we aren't supposed to think about it deeply enough to consider how a character could transition despite that being kind of an important thing for lots of trans people to do)

obviously this isn't just a dav problem. i feel like I'd give the first three da games slightly more slack given that queer rights (especially in gaming) was a different landscape 10 years ago, but if we look at bg3 we can see pretty much the same issues. i don't really think aaa games are capable of tackling these issues anymore, even if it feels like they were once able to at least try to.

[youremyheaven]

Do you think those influencers who dramatically switch from very left wing Marxist alternative etc to very trad Christians (specifically in homophobic/transphobic way) have ketu influence?

You were talking about ketuvians and their struggle to find a sense of self and it made me think of these types of people. I know someone with ketu 1H and magha moon who did this to an extent. She used to identify as non binary and was constantly shifting through different names and pronouns but then one day she just kind of stopped and started saying how she thinks pride is pointless and a waste of time or whatever😭 it wasn’t *that* extreme but I still thought it was a significant shift in belief in such a short time.

I think a lot of people have this dramatic shifts not only out of a need to identify with something due to a lack of sense of self, but also because they like going back to what their parents believe for comfort. I guess those two are interlinked but it’s interesting how my friend is a magha moon and magha is associated with ancestors and whatnot.

I guess mula is somewhat similar as “the root”? Idk about ashwini though

Sorry I haven’t actually had the chance to look into examples since it’s hard to find birth data for influencers and I don’t know that many examples irl 😶‍🌫️ so this is me just going on a tangent and hoping you get what I’m trying to say LMAO

I’m also not sure if anyone else is familiar with this phenomena or if I’m just too engrossed in niche internet drama.

In terms of influencers I guess a somewhat prominent example is Freckle Zelda on tiktok? I never followed her but she went from making cutesy safe space liberal type content in like 2021 and now she’s a Christian and is using it be to super controversial. But like I said I’ve never followed her so idk if this is dramatic enough of a switch to count as what I’m saying.

I also feel like this a rahu trait to switch between extremes🤔 idk lmk what you think

I feel like the capitalist commodification of identity has most adversely affected Nodal people.

If you think about it, spirituality's aim is to transcend the "self" entirely, you stop identifying with labels and attaching yourself to this or that thing. I'm not saying you cease to be a person but you stop trying to "accumulate" identities to hold on to.

9/10 times the reason we identify with something is to feel a sense of belonging but searching outwards for it will only lead to disappointment, when we search within and feel at home within ourselves, we lose the need to externally confined ourselves to rigid "identities"

Yk how people dye their hair, get piercings/tattoos etc to mark a new chapter or the end of an old one or whatever??? It is an attempt to claim something as "yourself" and "solidify yourself". Everything changes all the time, everybody changes yet there are many people who will never dye their hair or change their name or join a cult or whatever (not that all these things are the same) its just that if you're at peace with yourself and truly grounded, you will no longer be shopping for different identities or things to associate with.

Yk those people who have IG bios that read like "Mother, Pluviophile, ESFJ, Petrolhead, UJC'22, Missourian, Ancient Spirit, 1/4th Cherokee, Bitcoin Enthusiast, EDM Lover"

like what do any of those terms say about them?? how on earth is any of this central to your identity? all of these are external ??? is loving rain and being a petrolhead central to your sense of self?? im not trying to demean anybody's interests, im only trying to point out that what we choose to make the focal point of ourselves is up to us and its possible to not be defined by anything?? i think a truly ugly consequence of capitalism is how people try to define themselves by things outside them (their interests, hobbies, job, income level, marital status etc etc) because there is more to a person than all that.

when we retreat within, we base our sense of self on our qualities like kindness, compassion, creativity (this becomes the essence of who we are) so we don't feel the need to claim 87373 other things to describe ourselves

some people overly identify with others like their partners, friends or even strangers and kind of become them. this is also the root of stan culture, by being obsessed with someone to that extent and giving them all your time and energy, you are losing your own qi and harming your Sun (the same way criticizing the appearance of others ruins your Venus)

Rahu is prone to taking things to extremes and Ketu is prone to trying on different identities and losing interest in all of them one after the other. so your observations are right.

i dont really use social media so i dont know any influencers that i can quote as examples ;-; but im thinking of certain celebrities who have had drastic style changes in the past and all of them have nodal influence lol

in the 2000s, the Olsen twins were known for their boho chic hippie style and over the last decade or so they have become known for their "quiet luxury" style. They are Magha Moon

Julia Fox is Ardra Rising and she went from basic to avant garde

Jared Leto, Mula Sun, Ashwini Moon & Rising , he's also the leader of a cult allegedly so👀i guess it all adds up

Adele, Mula Moon & Ardra Rising

im not just talking about her weight loss, just her overall change in style. she got married young and had a baby and in a couple of years she got a divorce and revamped her look to that of an ig baddie

Kylie Jenner, Swati Moon she's changed her style/demeanour every other year since the early 2010s lol

Taylor Swift, Ardra Moon has also had many diff lewkzz throughout the years

before anybody says dont celebs change their styles often?? no they dont, not everybody for sure. look at Jennifer Lopez or Sarah Jessica Parker, theyve been dressing the same since the 90s. constantly evolving style/looks/personality is a Nodal thing. its also a big part of the reason why Nodal people succeed in the entertainment industry and in the material realm (a lot of rich people including Bezos have Nodal placements) because entertainment = illusion, pretending to be someone you're not and for Nodal people, this is pretty much second nature.

im sorry that my response is kind of all over the place. your question provoked some thoughts within me lol and i just had to shareee

i cant think of celebs who have drastically changed their life paths like the example u cited ;-; EXCEPT Bridget Mendler who is an actor, singer, and entrepreneur, has a PhD and went to Harvard Law and now runs a satellite company?? she also adopted a kid during all this? She has Mula Sun

anywayyys thats it for now

tysm for sending this ask!!! its a very thought provoking and interesting question<33hope u have a good day<33

[pastelpousay]

⭐️Rina Headcanons that are actually just canon⭐️

I mostly made this for fun and so that people can understand me and my character a bit better since she is my first actual self insert ever. Also because I was too lazy to make a whole new reference sheet lmao. Also sorry I haven’t really been active 😭 I’m trying to appreciate my own creations and such by posting it less since I usually only made it just to post 💀😭 which is sad asf.

General:

⭐️Rina has two younger sibilings, a younger girl who is currently 16-17 and the youngest boy who’s 8. She does have a few half siblings, however she doesn’t know them.

⭐️Rina’s mom, is actually her aunt, they’re pretty similar looking but she’s always felt a bit different from them. This also explains as to why her mom so distant from her father (she doesn’t like him for many reasons). Her biological mother ran off and left Rina behind, she now regrets it and wants to see her, but her mom won’t allow her to (Rina is aware of this, while she would like to meet her mother she is a bit stubborn to since she did just leave her behind like that with the man who barely even speaks to her)

⭐️speaking of stubborn, Rina is really really really stubborn 💀 if you tell her to do something she doesn’t like she either won’t do it or she’ll do just what you asked and only that and nothing else purely out of spite (me core but I’m also like really tired💀😭)

⭐️Rina is 25-26 as of right now (I like to keep her 10 years around my age from now.)

⭐️her family does pottery for a living, they don’t make much money off it but they do what they can.

⭐️she’s always gone to bed pretty early, she had to as a kid, but she’s actually a night owl so she stays up pretty late often

⭐️she currently only has one friend, Andromeda, they’ve been friends since they were in high school

⭐️while Rina is a very shy and sweet person at heart she can still be very out of pocket. Her main goal is to make people laugh however sometimes it tends to backfire 😭

⭐️she can also be very mean 💀 especially if you piss her off she doesn’t play 💀😭 and she’s not as easy of a target as most people think she is

Warning for the next part ig it’s nothing too bad but still

⭐️She does show some signs of bpd (Borderline personality disorder) such as being obsessive and having abandonment issues. She is also very clingy so she finds it hard to let go of people she likes. She’s also really dependent on certain people (thus being Hades.)

⭐️her obsessive behavior dies down a bit, she is very impulsive during these times, when she’s finally developing feelings so she’ll do all that she can to get their attention (such as the way she goes after hades)

⭐️MOVING ON FROM THAT DARK ASS SHIT, Rina is pretty iffy with touch if it’s not coming from someone she trusts, even with people she does trust she’s pretty iffy with it, hugs are normal and it’s not like she never or rarely got one it just feels foreign to her, so she opts to giving gifts and letters, she struggles with talking aloud so most words of affirmations fr written unless she actually wants you to know this then she’ll push her issues aside and say it straight.

⭐️she’s an artist, she likes to paint, but her family does pottery for a living so she’s also learned how to sculpt

⭐️ now Rina is Ultra femme, but she’s still non-binary, although she doesn’t care too much about what label people give her, which is mostly fem aligning

⭐️I like to think she comes out to hades about this during one of their deeper conversations just cuz yea 😭😭

“Hades?”

“Hm?”

“Do you ever feel like…you’re unsatisfied with what you are?— not like your job or like your personality I mean just like…being,!I dunno…I dunno how to explain it.”

“Uhh, I mean kinda but I’m not really getting what you’re trying to get at hon.”

“I mean like, say you’re like a woman and you’re fine with people seeing you as that but…just being that feels— like…, I don’t think about it too much y’know. Y’know man or woman things like that. I’m just me, I’m not a girl or a boy I’m just Rina, Cat,…Catarina. Just me.”

“…that’s a beautiful way of putting it, my little supernova .”

“Oh, stop you—“

[nomx33]

22. Rant on.

oh hehehehe

I just read the marimashita iruma kun mafia au manga and there are changes to characters that I think are very silly (I'm also just obsessed with this mangakas art) the story is basically like the original story but it's a mafia setting rather than the demon school.

The mangaka keeps Iruma being a very nice person who struggles to say no because of how he was raised a thing. They do the same with Sullivan who is still a dangerous but doting grandfather who just kinda picks up Iruma some how some way.

Somethings that I do find very interesting that aren't bad things are that (1) Iruma got adopted by Sullivan when he was 5 rather than 14, I think this change is because the mafia setting would be a harder one for someone to adjust to necessarily while still keeping the main story happening while Iruma is 14. It also allows him to not be completely clueless on the situation he's in during the manga.

(2) Opera was kinda a jerk in the og manga (kinda just cuz they likes messing with Kalego) but they're much more of a jerk in this one. The fact that they made Opera become part of the mafia when Iruma did is a cool change compared to how obedient they are in the og manga. (They did keep them being non-binary which I'm not surprised by but I'm happy about it) Though Opera is still obedient they're less composed and definitely weren't in the beginning of the manga.

(3) the love trio themselves (Iruma, Clara, and Alice) they have a much different starting relationship than the original manga. To start Alice is an undercover cop who is investigating the mafia. If og Alice knew he would be working against Iruma he'd go insane. The fact that the mangaka made such a difference in their relationship this time around is really silly. I like it, Alice in the og manga respects and idolizes Iruma while this time Alice is simply doing this out of the fact he wants justice and it's his job. Iruma still respects Alice and thinks highly of him in a way but the feeling isn't mutual this time around.

Then Clara, they made her a clown and I adore clowns!! I also love her she's so silly. Something that is very different about this au though is that Clara has been separated from her family. In the manga it's obvious how loving and family oriented she is, and she still is. Just said family is not there and it makes me very sad. I do love clowns but I hate hate hateee circuses.

they put the silly in a cageee :((

Clara is still Clara but she's a lot more violent ig. Perfect change for a mafia au and I wouldn't really know how this change will change her relationship with Alice or Iruma this time around but I really want to see!!!!!!

They all look super cool this time around

the sillies I love them. I'ma take less time being a nerd about the art in this manga but I am obsessed with it fyi

the mangaka uses perspective so well and this au is done so beautifully it makes me go insane.

Even is marimashita iruma kun they still have great poses and beautifully done linework/shading it helps show off emotion so much in the og manga and I'm going silly for it <3

LIKE LOOK AT HOW DYNAMIC THIS IS!!! Everything is so flowy and the lighting gives it such a good feel, the perspective is amazing!!!!! AAAAAAAAAHHVISBVIAS I love clara so much ofvaskbvak

This au only has like 5 chapters that I know of so I wouldn't classify any of this as spoilers necessarily. At least it's not as bad as where I am in the og manga. :3

[harperfrost]

Notes about me

https://www.tumblr.com/harperfrost/764088579272163328?source=share

NOT ACCEPTING DONATION ASKS, I APOLOGIZE FOR THIS.

My preferred name is Harper, my pronouns are she/her/it/its (preferably it/its)

CEO OF KILLIKS, BLAZE X GLACIER, AND QIBLI

I am trans, pansexual, polyamorous, non-binary, and maaaaaybe genderfluid, maybe not Idfk how anything works but I am a gay (pan lesbian now apparently..) and I.. might be okay? Maybe. I’m a furry. I.. might be a therian..? I don’t know. I’m literally princess blaze. I’m her. Literally her. I’m the prettiest princess. Thas me. Also asexual now I think.

art by @thunder-opossum

I’m tired. I struggle with impulsive.. or intrusive.. thoughts, whatever they’re called. I try to block them from getting into the things I say. It’s a struggle. MY GENDER IS BEYOND YOUR COMPREHENSION.

I have autism, ADD, and have difficulty expressing my emotions and putting my thoughts into words.

I get angry, confused, or stressed out very easily.

Please be patient with me.

Also I get a bit silly sometimes :3

I reblog shit randomly and make stupid shitposts for my own entertainment

I am the local cryptid of my friendgroups

tags ig (probably will forget about this)

#harpertalk - text posts

#harperphotos - photos I post (irl pics)

#harperreblogs - reblogs

#guegerposting - gueger

#wawaposting - wawa

#harperimages - images

#harpervent - venting

#harperocs - oc stuff

#harpervideos - videos I think are cool

#harperthoughts - Thoughts.

#rw wolf - My oc, Wolf.

#cryptid query - asks

#cryptid snacks - food pics

#lesblazian - princess blaze posts

Harper “noises” explanation

these will probably not be used properly whatsoever

hhhh - sorta like a sad sigh or whatever

ghhh/grhhh - tired (physically/emotionally/mentally, switches or whatever)

wuh - what/wow (depends on context)

Wawa - wawa

guh - generic reaction/message, like wow/cool/nice/hi/sup

kskkskskckckskckscksk - killikssssssssssss

blblblblbl - blblblblblbllbbl

current hyperfixations:

Wings of fire

Star Wars

Dungeons and Dragons

lethal company

i have like, a insta and reddit and shit ig

that i use sometimes

https://www.reddit.com/user/SkyfallRainwing

https://www.instagram.com/harper_the_fool/

https://archiveofourown.org/users/Qibsi

i also have like, an ao3 or whatever, i write stuff sometimes

[just-an-ari]

Hey, I just wanted to drop by and tell you how much Harlow Addams/future Wenclair family AU means to me.

Not to vent too much about it but I also struggle with gender dysphoria and up until a couple months ago I didn't think it was something that people struggled with til I started doing research on it and looking at your Harlow Addams artworks.

But yeah, I did some more research on it and discovered that I was non-binary/transmasculine. And so curtesy of that I thought a name change was fitting (since my deadname was really feminine), and yeah I changed it to Harlow since I love those works so much.

Lastly, I don't know if you know much about shifting, but I made a Future Wednesday Series DR (desired reality) based on your future Wenclair family, and added my own OC (myself ig) to it and I love it with alllllllll my heart.

So yeah, I just wanted to thank you for giving us Harlow Addams and let you know how much it changed me as a person.

- Harlow /🐝 xxx

After much debate and many emotions, i wanted to reply to this because while i would've loved to send a private message to you Harlow, i cant! But what i can do is hope you see this, and express my absolute joy for you!

Figuring out your gender is annoyingly hard and im really glad i was able to help!! So many of my trans friends struggled with figuring themselves out, accepting it, and going through gender dysphoria- so i really wanted to make a character who could be relatable and give others who were going through something like that a little bit of comfort! I'm really glad he helped :)

And not gonna lie, i always jokingly say that "i've made it!" or "ive peaked!" whenever i see my art reposted on pinterest n' such, but knowing that i can not only make people happy, but help them? Is always the best feeling and I'm so incredibly happy for you!!! Really made my day❤❤

[not-goldy]

can I ask you a question, now this is 4th time this week I'm seeing someone on ig claiming it was Tae who made BTS famous. But is it really? From what I'm seeing it's their songs and contents different from other kpop groups, amazing rapline which most kpop groups lack, JK being a terrific vocalist, JM being the best performer and being naked IT BOY, Joon speaking English to navigate through western interviews made them famous. So I don't see where Tae comes in this equation 🤔 If I have to choose 3 main members bts can't do without it will be Jimin, JK and Joon. Because imagine a concert one of them is not performing.. it will be disaster compared to Yoongi or Tae or Jin not performing.

This is both heartbreaking and intellectually stimulating. Let's get into it🤣

Performance wise, i don't think you can do without Hobi, JM, JK and Tae in my humble opinion. Especially in that particular order😩

To that end I'll distinguish between dancers and dance influencers. Hobi JM JK Tae are dancers but Hobi JM are the dance influencers. Their unique dance background influences and inspires the performances bts put out.

We can't compare mere dancers with dance artists I'm sorry. Tae Kook are great dancers but Hopemin are the dance artists of the group and without their input and vision and artistry BTS would be STB.

Vocal wise, you can't do without Jin, Hobi, Jimin and Tae💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀(in no particular order. I'll expatiate further on this hold on)

Visual wise, you can't do without all of them these days🥴

I mean exhibit A

Its embarrassing to say but- daddy pappito🥵🥵🥵🥵

Makes me want to crawl under his desk obediently🥴

But back in the day??????? Back in the day visuals was jx Jin, JM and may be Tae I'm sorry. Jm was half way in between boy, non-binary, and stud- thank God for their glow ups🤣🤣🤣🤣

I say JM was a visual because he looked more cut chiseled and met the ideal male body beauty standards which is why hybe constantly over sexualized him.

I recall Joon saying they all worked out thinking they were going to flaunt their bodies only to be told by the company JM was the only one who was going to display his body- even though he didn't want to and felt some way about it. Jin had the face, and broad shoulders, JM had the abs🥴

These days they are all visuals in their own right.

Jk is the vocal lead yes and carry most of their songs true.. but sometimes I feel Jin Hobi and Tae could easily replace him on most songs and they would be just fine😩😩😩😩😩😩😩

This is not to belittle his efforts contribution and talents at all. It's just sometimes I feel they share certain lines to certain members just so no one is left out but honestly sometimes they are just vocally redundant 🥴

Especially considering the genre of music they choose to make which really doesn't require diverse vocal ranges.

Tae does so well with low notes, Jimin and Jin do so well with higher notes. Jk cannot replace Tae or Jimin- he can do what they do, but sometimes even he complains he struggles with certain notes because if Jimin and Jin.

Tae has equally ever complained its hard to harmonize with Jm's high note.

I'm not playing favorites when I say, JM has one of the most unique voices in BTS. He and Tae to me have very different very unique vocal ranges so really they are core pillars of the group too. By that I mean we can't do without them. If this was a game, I wouldn't eliminate either one of them.

But of course, back in the day none of these members had developed their voices and talents. Jimin was but a rapper and hadn't spent much time training his voice to sing.

So within the context of their early days, JK was the vocal king of BTS which earned him lead.

Then there's Hobi and all rounder. Super underrated that one. He can sing sing, rap and dance and these days he's a visual- stage presence is impeccable, he's unproblematic, kind, generous- BTS 2.0 is going to be chaotic cos some of us are getting bias wrecked already🤣

Jk is an all rounder much like Hobi. Which means you either save him and eliminate all the others off the board or you can eliminate him and the others much like pawns will fit right into his shoes- and depending on their individual limits they can either become bishops but never Queens 🥴

Most times I feel wow, Hobi could easily double as a vocalist because he sings well, and he has a beautiful singing voice too.

So I place him on the same scale as JK😩

If I had to rank characters on the board, Hobi would be my Queen for Sure- chess reference if you play chess.

When I hear BTS, really I can't think of them as anything but 7 member group.

They will struggle without Suga's musical genius, without Hobi's dance mentorship, without Namjoon's leadership. So to me these three, Suga, Hobi, RM are quite fundamental to the day to day functioning of the group. Let's call them the core pillars of BTS.

These three alone however may not necessarily make for a global boyband on their own

For Tae, he was the fan recruit executive who could easily turn fans. He was likeable relatable, funny and a joy to watch- personally I'm trauma bonded to him especially after his Naana passed and the while hybe hiding him before debut bit🤧

As he matured he mastered the art of pleasing fans also. He knew very much what the audience wanted and he gave it to them- he's still good at giving it to them- my Fan service King🤭 Remember he kissed Jin and said he knew fans would love that? He knows us, he understands us, he's one of us 🥴

He was very popular among fans, even to this day on IG he has the biggest following out of all the boys and BTS back then was of the view putting him on thumbnails would yield high clicks. Joon ever said that to JK if I recall- unless the translations were off then🥴

BTS have a view it's Army that has made them, they rarely talk about their hard work and talents and how that is what has opened so many doors for them.

So when Joon talks about JM and Tae he's talking about in different senses I feel. For him, his talent and efforts inspired BTS to broaden their scope, take on certain songs and performances that shaped and defined them and got them their breakthrough.

Tae also helped build their fanbase and attract rabid loyal fans.

I feel that this discussion ought to be viewed in context- in the context of 7 boys from different backgrounds with varying strengths and weaknesses being held to different beauty standards.

I mean imagine hybe signing Jin on because he's beautiful- remember Joon told Jin he wanted to hear he's handsome from him because he is the most handsome out of the group?

Jin is the ideal Kdrama lead Character in kpop frfr however that's not what attracts people to him🥴

These boys, young insecure being told daily this person or that person ought to be center cos they look better than yall or they dance better than yall- you should understand how that shapes their understanding of what made them successful. But truth is they all had a part to play in their journey to success and none of them was dispensable.

For JM he's there because he's a unique dancer, yet vocally they didn't know where to place him. He wasn't even signed on to sing from the beginning but imagine if he hadn't decided to switch and just remained a rapper- hybe would have had to toss him out at some point for sheer lack of passion for rap🥴

If suga had stayed in his comfort zone and not danced......... that that I like that 😭😭😭😭

They've pushed their own limits, refined themselves, found their places in the group and I think they each bring so much to the table severally and jointly that it's impossible to attribute the success of the group to just one individual.

That said, I think for some members, their role in the group should never be understated. The dance directors Hobi, Jimin, the song producers (Suga, RM), and the social engineers (Tae, JM) whose love, kindness, patience, understanding and humanity kept them together for so many years as a group. Left to the ghetto ninjas like Jin and JK they wouldn't talk to eachother let alone vibe cos who has time to nurture relationships when they could be playing video games all day of their lives🥴

[crisppclick]

My Oc's!!

Hello, my lovely people. It is coming to the end of my holidays, and I need to post as many things as I can.

And I'm gonna start with a few of my Oc's. (Specifically my favourite ones.)

One thing about me is that, I imagine alot about stuff, try to get it on paper, then struggle and or give up to actually show my work.

But this also changes now; if I'm gonna start getting any way, it's by expanding my branches (they said lying).

<This may include some sensitive topics, so just be careful as you read

So, yeah ! If you care at all, here they are:

Meet Noa

This is the pegasus that ppl have most and only heard about (and even at that, not a lot), and they are my favourite.

They're missing an eye and half an ear and has alot of burn marks of the left side of her body.

They're the twin sister of ubercorn, Ex- military (now works alsong side Ubercorn at GJA), and a very traumatised individual.

Them and Ubercorn got separated in an unforgettable civil war in their homeland at a young age, and that is all you need to know for now. (If you do want more rough context, I'm pretty sure you know my account on wattpad [crisppclick]. There is a four chapter book called World of tomorrow, which I'm not updating any more :P)

They are non binary and Aro/Ace.

Think of them as rainbow dash, just much more matured.

I have had this Oc for so long, but I still can not decide on the frickity fracking hair style. So if I do end up drawing them more in the future, expect to see some changes.

Meet Kee-Kee

Fuck yeah; tired masc lesbain coming thru.

She loves to rought it up. Which I don't blame her for since she was brought up in such a household ( something to note of the side: she was the oldest to about 7 other siblings). Unfortunately, I love to make my character's mentally unstable.

Her dad, knowing the dangers of the wider world, trained her physically (and mentally) to prepare for any challenge. Kee-Kee was born with a deficit, which made it very difficult to lose weight. Because it was the olden days, her dad didn't understand this, and he would beat her because she wasn't "hard enough." Her loving mother protested against her father's ways, which began to teat their marriage apart.

Her father left. And left them with very little. Soon, she and the siblings that were old enough had to take care of a sick mother and younger siblings who couldn't fend for themselves. A hard knock life indeed.

And Kee-Kee, started to blame it all on herself. She talked to her mother about it. And it took a little word in her ear that she could do anything, despite of what ever her father did to her. So with the support of her remaining family, she was about to start a business, a very small cute one, but still a business (TO THIS DAY, I have no clue what business, so like, use ur imaginations ig)

Her business got her family up and running and she was able to get medications for her mother to start recovering; happy days, happy ending.

Until the civil war (LMAOOO, MORE DESTRUCTION MUHHAHAA.)

Because she grew up a big house, she quite the strong big sis figure. Think of her like Apple Jack, but a drag king; a lot of my oc's are based on other TV shows, lol.

Meet Pip

He's quite recent oc actually! And crucial one in an au, (I'll talk about it in future).

He's just a small baby. Found infront of a river bank. They thought he's just a cute weird looking ram, hit there is much much more to him than that.... cue ominous music

Uhm— yeah, I think that's pretty much it to Pip at this moment, erm. Yeah 👍

And uhmm, that's also it for all the ocs I'll show at the moment !

Maybe I should talk about where all these guys come from in my next post.

:]

Ok bye.

[lordmushroomkat]

hi sorry to place a mild rant here i just cant do journaling to myself. So i got diagnosed with pcos and i just got birth control to take. And i dont know how to feel about it. Im genderqueer but not ready to come out and like E was the only option they gave me and since im a teen i didnt know, still dont know, how, if, when i can tell these people that i dont think this is what i want. Im writing this right before im supposed to take my first pill and im scared. Scared i will hate it and will have to live with that because i just cant come out. But im also scared it will make me feel better. Do as my mom says and make me less tired, less cranky. Im scared that when she says that she is doing this because its the best for my health, that she is scientfically right. And my dr even mentioned how i didnt seem to care about anything they were talkin about (pills-side effects, “benefits”) but like after the fact i realized that i could have said that i didnt care because all that she wasnt going to improve my life in any fucking meaningful way. Like body hair? Love it. Or well i would like to remove some not all of it, and not feel like in removing like stomach hair that i was agreeing that i was a women or that hair is disgusting. Because i would remove hair for myself ya know. Not for the preconcieved idea of who i am and how i should look. And acne? If i cared id actually put my acne cream on. Fertility? Dont want children, and they talked about unwanted random fertility but im ace and sex repulsed. Beyond the first visit they didnt even mention cancer. Ive been telling myself im going to take these pills to prevent cancer in uterine lining. And im scared to look up how true thag is. I mean on how e decreases these helath risks. Im scared theyre right. Im scared their wrong. I will fucking riot if they are lying because that means this is for nothing. Im scared it wont give me gender dysphoria, scared i will have dysphoria because it wull peel layers off the dissasosiation i face. and before all this i was planning on making my mom a presentation about intersex people and gender. Because shes supportive just a littl confused and not radical, im radical because grief has made me angry and i want to let her in on it ig. But i dont think i can do that anymore. Because i would have pointed myself out as intersex. Imply she could be too if she liked the label. But im scared that her being cis, and having struggled with weight and eating when she was a teen (and that pcos effects weight) would mean she would hate the idea. Would call me wrong or cite drs. She told me to shave under my arms once, for the convience when traveling light on vacation so that deodorant worked better?? And hours after she said it i realized if i existed for ease i would crase to exist. But im worried whats a good ease for her would be a killer for me. Idk anymore. i guess any advice? But that will probably be to come out and i dont think i can do that. any research or resources that proves im allowed to be angry? I think im just looking for people to tell me im normal for feeling this way. Having a bad day. Thanks for any.. help? Hope this wasnt triggering or anything, i just saw that you were nonbinary with pcos too- and yea. Okay bye

I really don't know if I'm the right person to answer this. I was already out as non-binary for years before I got my PCOS diagnosis. When they said "take these pills" I asked about the other options and they gave me none so I simply refused to take the pills. But I'm like,,, I don't super care about the negative affects of PCOS. I'm casually suicidal all the time and I'll keep living for my family but if something kills me I'm pretty alright with it. I don't really expect to live much longer than like, a handful of decades and like honestly the world is on fire so it'll probably be shorter. So like, my perspective on this is not necessarily a super healthy one? I'm fairly apathetic about my own existence.

But like, I understand your struggle here with wanting to explain the PCOS=intersex connection to your mom but knowing she'll respond poorly because she also has PCOS.

I really don't have any solid advice here. Just... I guess, consider really carefully how you want to feel in your body. If you've been enjoying the superficial changes the PCOS has done to your body with this weird little second puberty, maybe you should consider advocating for yourself a little more firmly about it. Your future health is important but so is your current comfort in your body.

[georgiesblurredbones]

there’s nothing wrong with detransition or with feeling like your identity or labels may have changed!! if you’re a lesbian that’s awesome! being gay is cool as hell <3 it’s not uncommon for transmascs to realize we resonate with wlw dynamics

This Is Actually Rlly Sweet 2 Be Seeing In My Inbox, Especially From Someone I(Probably) Don’t Know :3 Thank U Whoever U R For Sending This In 2 Me. I’ve Been Struggling With My Identity For As Long As I Can Remember And This Just Gave Me All of The Verbal Validation I’ve Needed For So Long. I Know I’ve Never Been Completely Male, Yeah I Relate To Male Characters Half The Time But I End Up Headcanoning/Designing Nearly All of Them As Transfem/Non-Binary. I’ve Never Been Fully Male Even Though I Wear a Binder Almost Every Day, I’ve Never Been Fully Non-Binary Even Though I Like Being Called ‘They/Them’, I’ve Never Been Fully Female Even Though I Like Stereotypically Female Things, But I Know I Will Only Ever Be Able To Like Women, Regardless of My Gender, Like Yeah Men Are Alright Ig But Women R Lowkey My Thing. I Don’t Know What I Am But I Hope I Figure Out Soon, But There’s Always Time 2 Figure That Stuff Out. Thank U Again Anon, Ur The Nicer Person Ever :3

Me 2 This Specific Anon /Pos: