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[folkwhoredoll]

library affections - rafe cameron x fem!reader

pairing: rafe cameron x fem!reader

synopsis: there are two things that you love in this world; rafe and books

word count: 0.9k

warnings/tags: none, just fluff with sweet boyfriend!rafe

a/n: hi everyone! i don't think i can ever thank you all enough for your support in all of my works :< tbh i did not expect to gain so much interaction because this blog is still relatively new but here you all are and i appreciate each and every one of you <3 this fic is another fluff boyfriend!rafe fic (is it obvious that i like fluff so much lmao) and i've written this a while ago. i hope you'll like this one! if you have a request or prompt in mind, feel free to send me a message. happy reading!

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Being a regular visitor at the Camerons' estate has familiarized you with every corner of the house. Now, you have memorized every room and decoration, immediately spotting whatever is newly added. The Camerons didn't mind your presence, with your family being a close friend of theirs. Thus, it was no surprise that you ended up dating the one and only son of Ward Cameron.

With his father and stepmother often occupied and his sisters frequently out with friends, you and Rafe usually find yourselves with the house to yourselves, save for the occasional presence of the household staff. Yet, you've never minded.

Today follows a similar pattern. Ward left for a morning meeting, Wheezie went to school, and Sarah departed at noon to join John B's group. Surprisingly, even Rafe isn't home, having agreed to a golf outing with Topper and Kelce. Although he initially invited you to join, you declined, preferring to avoid the "boy talk" and the scorching sun. Thus, you find yourself waiting for Rafe in the living room, idly scrolling through your phone.

It's been around two in the afternoon when you got bored, sighing and deciding to stand up to walk around the house. Your feet already know where you're going when you face the familiar entrance to the Camerons' Library.

This room is your most loved spot in the whole estate, apart from Rafe's room. The vast shelves of bright book covers from different times always amaze you. If you could, you'd live in this room. Rafe has found you exploring this library countless times; even his sisters know it's the first place to check when you're not around the house.

Quickly scanning the shelves for a book, you settled upon a fantasy fiction novel, clutching the book as you made your way to a couch by the window. The first few chapters had you hooked immediately, eyes rapidly passing through every word as you moved chapter by chapter. The book was so good that it blanked your other senses, making you jump when you suddenly heard Rafe's voice.

"I knew you'd be here." He smirked, still in his golfing outfit, as he stood over you.

"Hi, Rafe." You smiled up at him, putting the book down on your lap. "How's golfing?"

Rafe plopped beside you, stretching his legs and putting an arm around your shoulder. "It was good. I got bored with Top's whining about his break-up with Sarah, so I left."

You chuckled when you saw his eyes roll, a dramatic sigh escaping his lips. "They were together for a long time. You can't blame him."

"I guess." He shrugged before flashing you a flirty grin. "But I also want to spend time with my girl."

You snorted. "Yeah, okay."

"What? I do! I feel guilty about leaving you here alone." He defended.

"I don't mind, Rafe." You spoke.

"Hm. I bet you don't. But still."

You raised your brows, silently urging him to explain what he meant.

"I just mean that you were too distracted by that book, baby. I could've been an intruder, but you wouldn't even know. What is that about anyway?"

Your eyes lit up at his question; you've always loved speaking about the books you've read. And Rafe loved hearing you talk, even if he's mostly confused.

"I just started reading it, so I don't really know what it's about yet, but there's this girl, and she has electricity powers!" You started excitedly.

Rafe listened intently. He couldn't help but feel affection for you, marveling at how your eyes sparkled with passion for the story. Despite the chaotic world outside, at this moment, it was just the two of you, surrounded by the tranquility of the library.

As you continued to talk, Rafe's mind wandered, reflecting on how much you meant to him. You were the one person who could effortlessly penetrate his tough exterior, revealing the softer, more vulnerable side of him that he often kept hidden from the world. He felt at ease with you, free to be himself without fear of judgment or ridicule.

Lost in his thoughts, Rafe reached out, gently tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear. You paused mid-sentence, startled by the sudden touch, before leaning into his hand, relishing the warmth of his touch.

"Hey, what's wrong?" you asked, concern lacing your voice as you noticed the distant look in his eyes.

Rafe shook his head, a small smile playing on his lips. "Nothing, I'm just... happy. Happy to be here with you."

A soft blush colored your cheeks as you met his gaze, feeling the warmth spread through your chest. At that moment, surrounded by the scent of old books and the soft glow of sunlight filtering through the window, you couldn't imagine being anywhere else.

Leaning in, Rafe pressed a tender kiss to your forehead, his lips lingering for a moment before pulling away. "I love you," he whispered, his voice barely above a whisper but filled with sincerity.

"I love you too," you replied, your heart swelling with emotion as you returned his affectionate gaze.

With a contented sigh, Rafe settled back against the couch, pulling you closer until you were nestled against his side. Together, you sat in comfortable silence, basking in the simple pleasure of each other's company.

At that moment, surrounded by the familiar comforts of the library, you knew that no matter what the future held, as long as you had each other, everything would be okay.

[marigoos]

I’ve been so ill this past few weeks and been hospitalized because of medical concerns. Found out that I have a tumor and it was already malignant. I have a Stage 2A Cervical Cancer and needs help ASAP. 🥺

GOAL: $1800

Oh this is gonna be so fun. Buckle up, children, time for

✨SCAM EDUCATION✨

1:

Someone you don't know sends you an ask and asks for money

This in itself is an alarm bell. Maybe you're used to it if you're a big account, but if you're a smaller one that alone should make you suspicious af. This user does not follow me nor do I follow them. The only case in which this is acceptable is if you're running a donations blog (you know, the ones who collect people in need and make periodic posts to boost them? Which are way more expert in checking for possible frauds, or so one hopes)

2:

If you scroll down their blog, they're very recent

This is their first ever post, notice the time stamp. If it's still active when you're reading this, you can check yourself.

It's even worse because, while it makes sense for someone very desperate to open accounts on any social media that comes to mind and start begging, you scroll down their blog and their posts are mostly untagged gifs of popular shows and scantily clothed women. Which in itself is not a crime, I often do it too (though I don't go around asking money to strangers) but when you've known for weeks (see pinned post) that you were sick, and your blog is only 5 days old, I would expect at least one post about it other than the pinned one, no? Or even just one single original posts instead of only reblogs and one answered ask to another 6-days-old account

Also I'm not one to judge others' sexual preferences but if you're a mom I would expect at least one of the thirsty posts to be about a man, but oh well. Definitely not enough

3.

Check for others' warnings

There's a whole blog dedicated to listing all the scammers here in Tumblr, but I can't fucking member I should follow them if and when I remember

The fastest way is to search for their PayPal account name. First, though, you have to be CAREFUL about clicking suspicious links - always copy the link and paste it in the url bar to quickly check where it redirects you. In this case I saw It did redirect me to PayPal, and I did load it only because I don't have any PayPal app or credentials saved on my phone, so I don't risk payments or credentials getting sent automatically.

Unfortunately this must be quite recent, because searching for Christine Owaga (this guy^'s PayPal) only got me some Facebook accounts, and I don't remember my password so I'm not gonna check those.

However, since this is an ask on Tumblr, I looked on Tumblr for terms like "scam alert", "scam warning", "donation scam" and so on, and I did find something interesting:

Same exact message several times, more than one account, only one of which is still active.

Then I scrolled a bit more and found this one with a sliiiightly modified text, gonna bet that it's because that was when the victim brought a link to someone with a much bigger collection of receipts lmao just gonna link it here

The PayPal account name is different tbh, which means this dude is at least a bit smarter than an actual bot and knows how to spam semi-efficiently. Kudos!

This is not how a legit ill person should behave. Not even trying to bring some evidence, just leaving a trail of deleted accounts.

Gonna tag everyone I saw reblogging the scammer's pinned post so that they can delete it and maybe warn their followers (assuming they're not bots themselves)

@thecherry95 @back-in-19something @underthewingsofthblackeagle @fantasticcollectorkitten @takineko @razzgamer5 @jacks-ace @windywillows-world @aurelia-which-means-sunrise @comradesmooches @loch-tess-monster @urazayt @boodubious07 @satinfables @rateater69 @irontyphoonobject @blackfairyemoji @dannyfoggings @helloparzival13 @rusalkascave

[raes-writing-space]

The TWST Boys Find Out You’re a SW

Written in collaboration with @iambutadepress again!

Summary: A complete roster of all the main NRC boys finding out you’re a sex worker (mentions of stripping, camming, onlyfans etc.) Everyone is aged up. (But also we didn’t want to write for Ortho, because we could not think of anything for him.) Warnings: 18+, mentions of sexual themes, crack headcanons, potential non-con, cursing. Not beta read. Minors/Ageless Blogs DNI Words: ~ 3181

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Riddle

Flabbergasted

Absolutely horrified 

Slams laptop closed out of fear

Doubts it was you on his screen and goes in for another look

Turns a crimson red 

Avoids you for weeks and is afraid to look you in the eye (may or may not use his signature spell on you on sight)

Finally addresses it and you have to explain what you do and why

Understands your decision but still avoids the topic 

Probably has PTSD about it tbh

Ace

Wide eyed but honestly not as surprised as you’d think.

More proud that you are even brave enough to do this.

Will immediately text you about it and tease the fuck outta you for it.

But then when you slap him with that “If you’re gonna watch you gotta tip” he immediately shuts up and leaves.

Will legit just probably jokingly ask if he can come over and watch for free.

Doesn’t tell anybody, but will absolutely make innuendos and tease you during class to see your reaction.

Honestly isn’t as embarrassed about the situation as much as you’d think, and would be pretty supportive, despite the teasing.

Will accidentally leave his volume up while watching you and your moans can be heard throughout the dorm (cue Riddle and his signature spell)

Deuce

So slow on the uptake, probably watches your stream for thirty minutes before he realizes it’s you.

Completely speechless but also won’t avoid you in the halls.

But he will not say a damn word, just stares at you while you talk about class.

Poor boy does not know how to bring it up or even if he should.

Honestly dude doesn’t even go to watch porn or cams often, that was his first time, and now he’s scared to try again.

Honestly, I couldn't imagine him in a strip club because I think he would be confused for a minute about what the point was.

God forbid you try to offer him a lap dance, because you’re going to have to walk him through it, and encourage him that it’s okay to look because he will literally keep his eyes shut the entire time.

Thought it would be rude if he turned you down (and also didn’t know what a lap dance was, literally thought it was similar to belly dancing.)

Cater

Its canon that he has an onlyfans because I say so

He was looking for people to follow and he found yours

Curious and surprised that you have one

He subscribes and scrolls through your content and leaves comments

May or may not buy your videos for his own pleasure

Will definitely bring it up to you the next day and asks for a collab

Would also buy you lingerie to post on your page (be sure to tag him though <3)

Congrats, you’re now onlyfans buddies

If you’re a stripper, will be really jealous and want to try and strip too. He wants money thrown at him too :(

Highkey always wants to gift you cool af looking heels and takes pics of them to post on his blog.

Trey

 Would want to stop watching, he really does, but he can’t pull his eyes from the screen.

He probably convinces himself he’d only do it this one time, and tip REALLY WELL before never doing it again.

He probably thinks about it for at least a month though before he gets over the fact that he has masturbated to you.

If you’re a stripper though he’d honestly be a bit embarrassed and shy at first, but then makes sure you’re taking care of yourself.

Honestly probably gets protective if you have some really handsy and uncomfortable clients too.

He just wants to make sure you’re okay <3

Savanaclaw

I believe all of Savanaclaw really be drinking that Respect Women Juice so much that if anyone tried to unconsensually out you as a sex worker, any of the boys would throw fucking hands with the person trying to out you.

Like yeah, they might tease you about it, or talk to you about it, but they’d never try to out you or tell you how to live your life or get money.

Leona 

Was bored one day and was scrolling a site that the dorm was raving about

Comes across a familiar face on one of the cam thumbnails and sees that it's you

Is intrigued and will watch for the fun of it (he also has some new dirt on you)

WILL tease you in the chat and in class

Will ask you to demonstrate some of your “moves”

If he walks in on you during a stream he will lean on the doorway and watch until you notice

If you were a stripper, he would eye you and ask for a dance or two

He is definitely one to tease you during the dance by whispering in your ear or holding you down at your waist 

Still supportive though because it's your life and he can’t tell you how to live it

Please be careful if you do any kind of “bunny” look or “innocent” look, that predator/prey thing is very real.

You’ve never seen the motherfucker move so fast until he heard someone mention “bunny costume”

Ruggie

Was the person to recommend your streaming site to Leona

Guilty Pleasure Regular, and doesn’t think to be anonymous.

You find out pretty quickly it’s him and ask him about it.

Immediately panics and starts gaslighting you, goes so far to even be like “I don’t even know what porn means. Is that an acronym?”

After he gets over himself, he confesses and asks if it’s okay to still keep watching.

The answer is up to you.

Boy cannot tip you tho, but you suddenly start getting random meals placed outside your door instead. <3

Also tries to figure out how to bend the same way you do. Catch this boy trying to throw his damn legs in the air mid stream to see if he could actually do it, and then pulls a damn muscle.

If you’re a stripper, has the confidence of a god that he could do the moves you do, and then absolutely eats shit trying to pull himself up onto the pole.

Jack

Another one that slams his laptop shut SO FAST.

Storms to the Ramshackle to give you a piece of his mind

Little did he know you were in the middle of a stream

Bursts in on you booty butt naked and immediately gets flustered

Slams the door just as fast as that laptop

As soon as you’re done you walk out in a robe to a very disgruntled wolf boy

Lectures you for hours on why sex work is terrible and you should respect yourself (hes one of those yall)

You have to explain in depth why you do what you do

It will take him a while to understand but once he does he becomes very protective of you and does regular check ins (such a good boy)

Octavinelle

Azul

Another guilty pleasure regular but anon

As much as this man hates losing money he can’t help but get hard watching you

Is very shy about it and if he does pull you for a private it will be dead silent 

If you figure out it’s him, he will be another to try and gaslight you (stutters)

“I am a man of class y/n I would never consider partaking in such a scandalous act” (liar)

If he does come clean he will for sure want to profit and become your manager (hard pass)

At least he can give you marketing advice right? ( you gotta pay up though slut)

Refuses to go to a strip club because it's “degrading”

Will for sure be subscribed to your onlyfans but will deny it until he croaks 

Another one to try and ask if he can come over and watch for free though.

Jade

Straight up finds the whole thing amusing at first, not even in a sexual way, just in a “Oh?~ What do we have here?~” Kind of way.

If you had an onlyfans would totally buy all your shit and keep it, may even be brave enough to be like “Oh look at this-” On his phone and literally show you a picture of yourself naked af that you posted literal hours ago.

And then probably use it against you ngl.

Will use it to fluster you and get a reaction

Another person to straight up whisper in your ear and grab your waist if you’re giving them a lap dance (shameless)

Will antagonize you in chat and gets you to do crazy things

With tips of course 

If he gives you a lollipop to save for your next session just to try and make you go “Ah” RUN.

If you’re a stripper, he's one of the HANDSY clients 

Hands all over the place, in and out, up and down, on your hips and thighs

Probably doesn’t even masturbate to you often, if at all, would rather wait for the “real thing”

Floyd 

Is a regular, don’t deny it

Constantly buys your custom videos and pulls you for one on one sessions

Talks about it all the time and you have to shut him up

Uses earnings from the monstro lounge to fuel his addiction 

Is hot and cold about tipping (can either be super generous or stingy as fuuuuuck)

If you’re a dancer he doesn't even ask for dances he just takes you himself (its a good way to squeeze his shrimpy)

Refuses to let you go back to work and says it’s “boring” so he takes you back to the lounge for a more “private” session (Run now it's your only chance)

Would also leave his volume up but on purpose so everyone knows who and what he’s watching (cue a disappointed and flustered Azul and an amused Jade)

If you block him one of two things can happen

He makes another account

He hunts you down and forces you to unblock him

Unlike his brother, could pop off multiple orgasms to your streams, or not at all. (Still would want the “real thing” tho)

Scarabia

Kalim

Anonymous, but tips really fucking well of course.

Honestly doesn’t mind that you’re doing it, super supportive, wants to spoil you without letting you know it’s him.

Even as a stripper, no shame, thinks what you do is really impressive, tips again, really well.

Just generally a sweet supportive sunshine boy, and tries to make you feel as comfortable as possible about it and not shame you at all for it.

You will have to try and keep him quiet about it because our sunshine boy is loud lowkey

Lowkey seems like the type to worship the hella outta you regardless if you're a stripper or what.

Jamil finds out you're a sex worker though through him because he was wondering what he keeps spending so much money on, so there’s that.

Jamil

Again, finds out through Kalim, and immediately had no idea whether to lecture you or Kalim about it.

Can’t look at you straight for at least a day, but by the end of that day he’s thinking of ways to bring it up.

In the midst of his own lecture to you about it, realizes where he might be in the wrong about it, and then apologizes. Leaves you really confused on whether he’s upset with you or not.

So protective of you, and not gonna lie a little upset that he feels like he isn’t allowed to watch you or partake, but would take it to his grave before confessing that.

Would literally try and pay you for a private session in person and honestly he’s flustered and huffy the entire time you do your thing even though you know he’s got a damn boner.

Smug enough to tease you after and will definitely ask for more as long as its private

Pomefiore

Vil

Found out through social media hype

Decided to visit your profile and was surprised but also not

One of the more supportive types and doesn’t care what you do with your body as long as you’re safe about it

Addresses it in a calm manner and admits that he has an onlyfans too (boudoir and sensual yall this is a man of elegance and clASS )

Critiques your profile and gives you advice on how to improve it

If you ask nicely maybe he’ll help manage you, potato

Will for sure help you pick out your outfits, do your makeup and hair

If you help promote some of his products he’ll promote your SFW page  

If you’re a stripper, you two can share pole moves and floor work

Rook

Studies the fuck out of your streams

How many ass claps per min, breast size, moan frequency, etc

Is more captivated by the beauty of your work and not the sexual aspect

You don’t know he watches your streams

Will compliment you on your onlyfans

Will also give you advice on how to run your page and be aesthetically pleasing

If he does tip, it’s for goddess appreciation or body worship

Doesn't really get off on your streams but does want to see it in real life

If you strip, he’s absolutely amazed by your grace on the pole and will tip just to see you do more tricks 

Literally just wants to admire you

Epel

Shocked as hell at first, wasn’t even trying to get to the site, somehow just ended up there and was in complete disbelief to see you on it.

Also doubles checks to make sure it was you, and not someone who looked like you.

Stays a little too long trying to absolutely make sure, and then when he does he shuts his laptop off for the night. (That’s enough internet for the day)

Eventually gets over it, doesn’t go to your shows, but will pay for a private session with you just to tell you that you’re missing class and he’s sick and tired of copying notes for you. You didn’t even know he knew about your account.

If you’re a stripper, would also be shocked, and not look at you at all the entire time he has to be there (someone probably convinced him this was the manly thing to do and he regrets it.)

Downplays your strength a bit, doesn’t think it looks that hard. It’s all just momentum, right? You tell him to give it a try, and again, eats shit like Ruggie did.

Also stubborn as hell though and refuses to give up until he’s figured it out. And at the end of it all, understands why you gotta be butt-ass  naked for those damn pole.

Ignihyde

Idia

Again, wants to look away, he does… but also not really.

When else is this opportunity really going to come up again?? (Next time he shows up to your stream, duh. But don’t tell him that.)

Dude fucking whimpers and pavlov’s himself into every time he sees you, even around campus, he gets so damn hard.

If you thought he was a recluse before, it gets WORSE after this because he’s constantly needing to readjust his pants now.

Anonymous private show watcher, is not brave enough to try and speak through the mic what he wants, or turn on his camera. (Honestly kinda dead quiet on his end a lot)

If you had an onlyfans he definitely pays for everything you got.

Also subscribed to Lilia’s onlyfans

Good luck trying to look this man in the eye, he’s never going to recover for a normal conversation.

He would not go into a strip club and we all have to accept that. If it’s not from the internet, it’s not happening.

No Ortho for yall

Diasomnia

Malleus

Would literally not understand onlyfans or camming. He’s already awful at technology already and dislikes it, there’s no way you could try and get him on there.

Ngl someone probably like Ruggie or Kalim accidentally leaves it up on their screen or something and that’s how he finds out and gets REALLY CONCERNED.

Or if you’re in the middle of a stream, he just pops in randomly to say hi when you’re BUTT-ASS NAKED.

You could be screaming and trying to cover yourself and he just watches confused 

“Why are you screaming, it’s me. Why are you naked?”

Would be so butt-hurt when you kick him out (thinking it’s because you are scared of him and not the fact that he popped in when you’re BUTT NAKED)

Takes him a hot minute to process what happened

Poor Lilia has many awkward questions to answer

Hits him with the “Lilia, what’s a thrusting dildo?”

Once everything is explained (in extreme detail sadly) he will fully support what you do and is also protective, if you were a stripper though, would be confused by has the spirit.

Probably doesn’t throw bills tho, throws jewels and shit, which makes it straight up hard to dance and dodge.

Lilia

Another onlyfans?!

This one is RAUNCHY 

A shit-ton of subscribers

Supportive sex dad (boogie woogie woogie)

Unknown rivalry with Cater

Will also ask for collab but in a porno way

Will absolutely tease you about the things he saw on your stream

Another to ask you to demonstrate your “moves” on him

Probably gifts you sex toys you don’t have, and only he knows where to get them. (Good luck.)

Gives tips and tricks for your streams and lowkey wants to join your streaming site

If you’re a stripper he wants to know how you do all of your pole tricks and executes them flawlessly

Instigates the weirdest shit

Has you take 12” just to prove you can

Silver

Very nonchalant 

Probs asleep on your stream lowkey

Def the person to just sit and talk with you about random shit (tits out and all)

New form of therapy?

Not gonna lie probably will tell you you’re too loud while you do your thing (RIP)

Another one that also kinda questions the physics of how you be bending your body like that tho. (Thinks maybe it’ll be good to do for training??)

If you’re a stripper then he admires your hard work and dedication

Lowkey wants the muscle and flexibility you have

Sebek

SCREAM FEST

HOW DARE YOU POISON HIS EYES WITH THIS MONSTROSITY

STAY AWAY FROM WAKA-SAMA OR PERISH

Will burn his laptop and start a riot

Lilia and Silver have to calm him down before he burns the entire dorm down

Goes into a crying fit because what if Malleus saw you popping pussy online (please don’t mention the Malleus incident of 2023)

Refuses to acknowledge you or your existence.

If you were a stripper, gets hella jealous that you’re more ripped than him and INSISTS on you teaching him pole fitness (to be stronger, duh.)

Literally will be so fucking loud about it though that he almost outs you as a sex worker.

[revclver-jesus]

How do you feel when people say that Takaya is just using Jin and Chidori?

{{ You mean like that one hot take that drove me up the wall? lmao I am going to give you the full blown dissertation here i go-- let's call this essay

The Most Commonly Misunderstood Thing About Takaya's Character: or Why Team Strega Is Not Literally A Cult lol

When people say that Takaya is just 'using" Jin and Chidori, what they're implying in most contexts is that Takaya is incapable of forming attachments and his motivations are fairly shallow-- essentially Takaya is not a complex villain and should be dismissed as purely selfishly motivated and malicious. He's a "simple" villain.

Now I realize....... that I might be biased as that girly that's written him on a dedicated blog for multiple years now, but purely objectively speaking, removing all my own headcanons, using only the information provided to use in canon? It's just thoroughly false, tbh!

First I'll go into why he isn't purely selfishly motivated and then I'll explain his relationship with Strega because I can prove the motivation with just Reload as an example, let alone the novel. Takaya, in Reload especially but even in the original game, I would argue has a full blown character arc off screen. At the start of the game he does appear to be more selfish, he has no real motivation and is just living out the last of his life doing underhanded assassin work-- nothing's really challenging him. But as the story progresses, Takaya begins to express a meaningful ideology-- he develops a greater concern for the world around him and expresses a full blown motivation. He says, in protest to the choices of the protagonist in one of his social events, and I quote: " Choosing to turn a blind eye towards your own power, to the grief of the fallen, to the unchosen and the unloved." Its clear he is not talking about himself here, as he mentions grief for the fallen. Takaya is expressing that he feels grief for something-- he is sorry about something that has happened to someone else, and it bothers him enough to nearly scream about it.

I think, often times, people dismiss what Takaya says as insincere almost automatically without any indication that he doesn't mean the words he's saying besides perhaps being vain and dishonest in other scenes, but these social event scenes are clearly meant to be interpreted as him being unusually earnest. By the end, Takaya is not just trying to keep his own power, but, as he says " this is not just my will but the will of all people. " which all culminates into Takaya's final character arc moment, where, in his final boss, he says the line " I will throw away my pride! " before using an evoker instead of trying to summon without help, implying that he is finally sacrificing his ego to better fight for what he believes in. If he was fighting for a positive cause, this would be a heroic moment, but it is still concrete evidence that his motivation is no longer meant to be seen as purely selfish. He is now fighting for " the will of all people ". He cares about the " the fallen, the unchosen and the unloved."

So what about Jin and Chidori? To put it simply, Takaya is not some puppet master that breaks them down emotionally and treats them like tools. They're his friends, and he happens to have a leader's personality, so they follow him, much like the protagonist he is designed to mirror. Its a lot easier to guess how he feels about them when you don't assume the worst and look at all his canon interactions with them. And even easier to tell if you can manage to read any english translated pages of their strega-focused novel ( which we can assume is fairly canon since Reload references it with the child turned into a large shadow ).

In the novel, as far as I've seen ( its only partially translated ), team Strega is extremely informal and lighthearted around each other. There is no sign that they fear Takaya, as they are willing to tease each other and disagree. The opening scenes of the book quickly establish a sort of family-like dynamic, with Takaya having an older brother-like role. He teases Chidori ( in a bit of heavy handed foreshadowing ) that she will understand why people fall in love when she's older-- of which Chidori sort of says gross and "as if" and rolls her eyes at him. Jin, being the narrator perspective, shows no sign of intimidation when around Takaya, something that would bleed through into their every interaction-- especially the establishing scene introducing the cast-- if that were the case. I feel, even if the novel is not canon, the writer would be instructed not to write Takaya so friendly if he was meant to be a heartless manipulator regardless.

In the game, the most manipulative thing he ever does to either is when Chidori is pulled back into Strega. Takaya tells her that there is nowhere else she can go and reminds her that death is not to be feared in a way that sounds like he's repeated this mantra often enough he knows she can guess it. This seems spooky, but the tension is immediately alleviated by the flippant and kind of sassy way that Chidori assures them she remembers Takaya's advice. This is not how you talk to your cult leader and this is not a cult, this is something closer to a gang or a club-- at worst, a coven of witches ( considering their team name is "witch" in italian.). They simply have an in-group and out-group sort of mentality, a shared since of identity, and a shared view of the world to go with it, which is to be expected when you've been openly shunned and mocked by the average person ( as seen at the start of the first scene with Shinji ) But this scene, when compared to all their mundane and lighthearted interactions, doesn't imply anything more severe than the leader of your misfit club reminding you why we don't hang out with the normies. You're "one of us" and a level of loyalty and commitment is expected when you otherwise always act as a group.

Yes, he is very cold and indifferent to the sight of his team members getting hurt-- or hurting themselves, for that matter, but the reason for this is obvious. In Reload, Takaya plainly expresses that he is feeling attachment ( for the protag at the moment ) but is avoiding his own capability for attachment intentionally. That scene was meant to establish that he can feel attachment, that he isn't as cold as he pretends to be, to encourage the viewer to see him with a little more nuance. What causes a man to force himself to be colder than he really is? What can cause an avoidance toward emotional attachment? Maybe...... watching 100 children die after being orphaned and stolen away to live underground for years? lmao

And so, when Takaya watches Chidori do self harm or literally sacrifice her life, for one-- he's not going to parent her, they don't have that kind of relationship, and he would be a hypocrite if he tried to encourage her not to do what she wants to to her dying body-- and two, of course he doesn't mind if Chidori dies, he's expecting that to happen anyways. His one greatest gift is his uncanny ability to accept death and the death of others. Mourning you openly is not how he expresses emotion. Especially when he sincerely believes death is a blessing. Its just the way she died that he's a little annoyed by. ( And why shouldn't he be honestly-- the girl threw her life away on the first nice guy she met at the mall just to make his work harder from his perspective, lmao ) BUT. In the comic version of that scene, Takaya does let himself be cut across the chest purely because he hesitated to shoot when he saw Chidori's spirit protecting Junpei. So... that might imply something.

However, if there is any greater evidence against any who claim that Takaya does not care about Jin especially... Takaya's final words, in multiple renditions of the story including the movies and Reload, are to say that he wishes Jin was with him as he died. If there is anyone that Takaya cared for, at least one single character in the entire game, it is above all Jin Shirato.

In the movies its very obvious, with the sad closeup shot of him looking beaten and washed up as he wishes Jin could be here to see it all end with him. I have the scene as an icon ! Look at how emotional the framing is !

So yeah, that's how I feel, it just drives me crazy when people remember Takaya as just Some Asshole lmao-- he IS an asshole! But he's no Chairman Ikutsuki, he has a lot of complexity to him beyond being the guy who killed Shinji, and not everything he does is black and white. There is highly plausible reason to believe Takaya cared for both of them in his own way, but the ever loyal, best friend, Jin Shirato, especially so. }}

[halfmoth-halfman]

You should respond to reblog comments more tbh. People are taking the time to reblog your stuff, and tell you how much they enjoyed it and not answering is kinda rude. I love your fics, and you seem nice and all, but I’ve seen your notes recently— they’re nowhere near what they used to be and you don’t get anywhere near as much interaction as other CoD writers. It’d probably help your blog a lot! Just some advice, but maybe think about it! 😘💖

this has been sitting in my inbox for a few days cause i've been debating about whether or not i want to answer this, but i'm 98% sure you're the same anon who's sent me a few other messages since they all use the same kiss emoji and are riddled with the same backhanded bullshit you're spewing here, and you've succeeded in annoying me so here's your answer before you get blocked. 😘

i do this for fun. writing is not my bread and butter, it's not how i make my money, it's not how i support myself. it is a hobby. i use some of my free time to write and post fics for my own enjoyment above all else. i don't give a fuck about how many notes, or likes, or reblogs i do or don't get. is it nice to see them and see comments from people who enjoy my stuff? absolutely. i'm incredibly thankful for anyone who takes time out of their day to read one of my fics and even more so for people who go out of their way to interact with me and my work, but i'm not going to worry myself over numbers, because that's not why i write.

also, i've been in fandom spaces for a long time and, i hate to break it to you, but more often than not fandoms tend to slow down and die after the initial hype. i posted my first CoD fic like a week or two after the game came out when it was blowing up all over social media, of course it got an unusually high amount of notes that were, honestly, a little bit overwhelming at the time. now it's been some time, and the hype for the game has died down, so people are moving on to different shows/games/etc. which means interaction is gonna slow down. it happens, and i don't intend to sit and worry over how many asks or reblogs or whatever i get compared to other blogs. that's not fair to me, the other authors, or the people interacting. i'm happy with where my blog is at, and the amount of interaction i get.

i've said this a few times already, but i work a full-time job and have other obligations outside of tumblr. i don't have a lot of free time, and have to plan ahead how i want to spend it. i try my best to respond to replies, to answer asks, and everything else when i can, but i am an adult with adult responsibilities and just don't have time to keep up with every single like and reblog i get. that doesn't mean i'm purposely ignoring anyone, or that i'm ungrateful, i just simply don't have the time to keep up with every single notification i get. if i had more time in the day, then i'd probably respond more and be more active here in general, but i don't.

i greatly appreciate every single follower i have, every person who likes, reblogs, comments, replies, sends asks, etc. while i write for myself, it's always nice seeing other people enjoying my work, i won't pretend that it isn't. it absolutely blows me away the amount of people who like my writing enough to tell me. i'm always open to people sending me stuff, and try to respond as best i can, but i feel it's unfair (and not just to me, but to other writers and creators in general) to call me rude for not responding how you think i should. and i think it's even more rude for you to come into my inbox (on anon of all things) to spam me with messages about how you think i should run my blog with condescending and backhanded asks that you want to pretend is friendly advice.

i think it would be good for you to take some time and step away from tumblr and go outside, touch some grass, climb a tree, eat some dirt, or interact with real people, and maybe try to realize that, outside of this blog, i am a person too and one who really doesn't need to deal with this shit.

Just some advice, but maybe think about it! 😘💖

[random0lover]

Requests Are Open!!

For the love of god please put your age in your bio or in a pinned post. YOU WILL BE BLOCKED IF I CANT TELL HOW OLD YOU ARE. Also in the end of it all, you are responsible for your own media consumption. If you decide to go around warnings that is your own choice. Thank you.💞 Also, my blog is a safe space! If anyone need’s to vent or just wants someone to talk to my dm’s are always open. <3

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Key for works

Fluff = ✨

Light Smut = ☀️

Smut = 🔥

Smut with hard kinks = 🔥💥

This includes CNC (CONSENSUAL non-consent), intense bondage, knife play, gun play, pet play, intense impact play, fear play. I think that’s it but more may be added.

Angst = 🌪️

No Comfort = 🥀

Fem!reader = 🌩️

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• Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley

🌩️☀️✨] A Day for First’s and Adding A Second

- Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley x wife fem!reader, slight NSFW, established relationship, pregnancy mentioned, you and Simon have a son, fluff

🌨️🌪️✨] TF141 x gn!reader That Was a Military Kid

-Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley x GN!reader, SFW, angst, fluff, reader is mean and dealing with a lot emotionally, talk of parental death, established relationship, Simon is understanding and caring

-mini series-🌪️🥀🌨️] Open Wounds and War Paint

- Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley x GN!reader, SFW, Angst/No Comfort, blood, reader death(?)

-part 2- 🌪️🥀🌨️] Her Past is Their torture

- Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley x GN!reader, SFW, Angst/No Comfort (yet), nothing to serious for this part but make sure to read warnings

• Johnny ‘Soap’ Mactavish

❄️✨] Johnny Mactavish Head Canon’s - dad edition (kinda)

- John ‘soap’ Mactavish x afab!reader, SFW, marriage, pregnancy, fluff

🌨️✨] Hot Chocolate & Hoodies

- John ‘Soap’ Mactavish x GN!reader, SFW, Fluff

•Captain John Price

❄️✨]John Price Head Canon’s - dad edition (kinda)

-John Price x afab!reader, SFW, marriage, pregnancy, fluff

🌨️✨]Captain John Price Head Canon’s- SO that has Tourette’s Syndrome

-John Price x GN!reader, SFW, reader has Tourette’s Syndrome, John is supportive, fluff

🌨️🌪️✨]TF141 x gn!reader That Was a Military Kid

-John Price x GN!reader, SFW, angst, comfort, reader is emotionally dealing with a lot, established relationship, John’s a sweetheart, talk of parental death

• Kyle ‘Gaz’ Garrick

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🍄✨]Bar/pub owners!141, Los Vaqueros, König, and Kate Laswell Head Canon’s

-SFW, fluff, alcohol mentioned, drunk people mentioned, harassment mentioned, ghostsoap mentioned one time, blood mentioned once

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These will be anywhere between 1,000 to 1,500 words

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-Male!dom x GN!reader, Smut, NSFW

} Things I absolutely refuse to write

Be aware of clicking the words in purple. The links lead to possibly NSFW things or topics that may be triggering for some.

- Watersports (what is this?) (not judging just not my thing)

- Pedophilia 😡

- Scatophilia (what is this?) (not judging just not my thing)

-Cannibalism (only time you would probably ever see this is if I’m writing an apocalypse fic but it would not be an important part of it)

-anything involving dead bodies or animals (I mean this in a sexual manner (like kinks people have) as this is absolutely disgusting and horrible)

} Things I’m not exactly comfortable writing

This is not to offend anyone as I would never judge anyone for their kinks! This is me just trying to set some personal boundaries <3

- age play

I have nothing against age play (as long as everyone is playing a legal age). I went through some childhood trauma that makes writing it hard and I would prefer not to write it for my own mental health <3

-CBT (what is this?)

Once again nothing against anyone that enjoys this! It’s just really not my cup of tea and I don’t want to offend anyone or spread any misinformation by writing it incorrectly!

-Tentacles

I myself have read a few fics like this but I don’t ever really see myself writing it. I don’t frequent in erotica like that so I really wouldn’t know what the hell I would be doing 😅

-Electro stimulation (what is this?)

Honestly never heard of it until I started looking into different kind of kinks. It’s definitely an interesting one but not something I could see myself writing.

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I reblog and not very often but sometimes vent about sensitive topics. This can range from SA (what is this?), Abuse may come up at times (mainly mental and emotional), Childhood Trauma can often come up even if I do not go into detail, and things that probably piss me off or make me angry.

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[more-than-a-princess]

2, 4, 6 and 8

OOC RP topics meme - Accepting!

2. drabbles

I like drabbles when they serve a function, mainly. Considering how much I tend to write in threads, some of those replies could be drabbles on their own! But I like drabbles that move the plot forward. Maybe it's covering a time when the muses are apart when I've plotted with the mun about their reunion later and we want to show what happened to them in the meantime (I can think of at least two ships where this has happened or will happen in the near future. RIP my other writing partners but that drabble series will take some time to do!). Or maybe it's a fully-realized scene from an ask that will play into a future thread.

But yeah, drabbles take time so I want to write them for a reason. But I love reading them! Fill my dash with your drabbles, especially if they accompany interactions my muse has with yours!

4. multiple people threads

If it's multiple muns in one thread, that's not my thing. It's too confusing to keep track of turns and replying to everyone.

Now, if it's multiple muses in a thread, such as my muse and multiple side characters/NPCs, I don't mind writing this. However, these replies tend to take much more time to write instead of an average thread reply. For me, these feel much more like writing fanfiction or original fiction work instead of roleplaying: multiple voices, actions, and personalities to play off each other while keeping in mind who the main character (presumably my muse) is, and sticking with their vantage point.

(I may be taking a break from one of these threads right now to do this meme! Shh...)

6. excessive ooc

No. I don't like seeing it, I don't want to see it, and I do take this into consideration when deciding to follow a blog.

Now, what counts as 'excessive?'

To me, it's the difference between sharing some Munday content (a meme, what you're up to, your reports from anime conventions where you may or may not have cosplayed because I love seeing other cosplayers who roleplay. I'm sitting on so much cosplay content I've never shared over here tbh!) and 'I just got back from work and this is what I'm having for dinner' every day.

I do like getting to know the muns behind RP blogs, especially if they're someone I write with often, but there's a limit. Personally, I'm not a fan of seeing OOC content every day that has nothing to do with your muse(s), fandom(s), or RP.

That said, the OOC content I'm least fond of isn't even necessarily excessive: it's when muns project all of their interests onto their muse and make them their muse's interests as well. It's the difference between the muse commenting on something the mun is engaging with OOC and the mun insisting that because they like this hobby, it's now the muse's hobby too. The latter just feels a bit too self-insert for me for comfort, but that's me.

For example: Sonia would never be a Bridgerton stan, despite it being a big love and fandom of mine. She would not be into all of these Rich People Problems when that's literally her life (also see: Downton Abbey, The Gilded Age, The Crown, etc.).

She would, however, be a fan of ACOTAR because of the heroines and morally gray love interests. Sonia would probably call Tamlin out on being a terrible partner in the first book, like Lucien save for the 'You're my mate' scene, and immediately decide Azriel is the Best Bat Boy for being the token Shadow Daddy.

(She is wrong about this because the least problematic of the Bat Boys is Cassian, and I still have some beef with him after recent book events)

tl:dr - Romantasy is goth and romance enough for Sonia to be a fan. She likes horror, anime, and romantic J-dramas, it's not too much of a stretch!

8. reblog karma

My take on this is a little complicated, please bear with me:

I feel like mutuals should engage in reblog karma with OOC/non-thread starter memes if they are questions they haven't asked a mun before and those questions aren't already being answered. They aren't creating anything new on your writing pile if it's already too high/intimidating and you're showing interest in your mutuals, that's a win-win! For long-time mutuals though, it can feel repetitive not to send in the same OOC questions about RP and/or their lives, so I understand if they don't want to send in something every time because they'll get the same response.

For IC memes, especially thread starters, I'm okay with people reblogging the post from source and not sending me anything. If a mun doesn't really know how any of the meme options would work with their muse or just doesn't have an interest in that particular meme with my muse, I would much rather have them reblog the meme without sending me anything than to send an ask for a thread they don't have any interest writing, just to fulfill reblog karma.

Dropping threads after one turn or not even replying to a starter? This annoys me much more than not fulfilling reblog karma ever could. Major pet peeve of mine, for the most part (uncomfortable content aside. This is a good reason to drop a thread!). Please don't do it.

[dickbuttkorn]

the act of getting into a band/show/fandom(gross) is such an innate human experience and it needs to be more validated

going on pinterest and making boards and playlists and art and following people who share interest and changing your whole online persona to be about This Thing is so fucking fun and i feel like that process isn’t really discussed as often as it should be!

i’ve been “getting-into-bands” literally Professionally for years and i’ve got it down to a science! my step by step for truly the immersive fan experience and how i applied it to my most recent hyperfixation!

1. discovery! i heard korn was a cool band and tbh i literally started looking more into them because i watched that one south park episode and liked FAFM when they played it at the end. simple as.

2. expansion! look for a (and i cannot stress this enough) *FANMADE* BEST OF PLAYLIST (mine :3) and get the vibe/tone of it. add a couple songs to any of your other playlists and get used to hearing it normally

3. precision! from there, you can pick out certain themes/sounds/imagery that you like from certain eras and listen to more individual songs/albums INTENTIONALLY!

4. deep dive! (this part is the biggest for me but whatevs) watch interviews, read wikipedia articles, check out the member’s social media, immerse yourself in the intention and personality of the band until your eyes are dry! follow blogs and tags! talk to other people who feel how you do!

5. division! if you really like the band, search up the member’s names on spotify and see what they have solo-project-wise! i’m totally into Head’s solo work but JD and fieldy’s stuff aren’t what i’m into. look up if they have anything else going on! turns out Munky has done a lot of features with other bands and JD has a pet care brand! who knew?!

this method has worked for so many bands (mcr, boingo, misfits, the cure, etc) for so long that i think it’s the definitive One Way to truly absorb all that you can about bands :))

[lakesbian]

wrt what you said about worm opinions not being a fight; sometimes it reads like you and bloggers you're talking to have different aims in the fandom. people aren't always interested in being corrected (and feel extra defensive when it's in a reblog by someone with a large following like you have) and posts made about someone else without directly referring to them can occasionally come across as passive aggressive in a small fandom. directly stating if and when you don't want people to feel bad or offering to leave the topic be can help mitigate that if it comes up. you should blog how you want but it seems worthwhile to point out in case you find it helpful. you post a lot about reddit so if you were part of that big migration i wanted to note it since it can be easily confusing. feel free to disregard this if it's too much meddling

okay this is a lot of sentences about something that Isn't worm analysis so i'll be nice to everyone scrolling and put it under a cut

HASFDAKSFDSLS i don't post a lot about reddit no. i post a lot about alec, the only times i mention r/parahumans are when i'm 1. making everyone who doesnt have the stomach for one million posts about e88 in a row look at the rare good art that got posted there or 2. showing everyone a funny post title. i also feel like you might be misremembering that a Big reddit migration ever happened because while i havent been here long enough to remember everything i feel like the environment would b a lot more insufferable if it had? anyway

re "posts made about someone else without directly referring to them can occasionally come across as passive aggressive in a small fandom" - posts i make inspired by disagreeing w/ someones opinion with a direct tag to the person i saw have that opinion could be taken as aggressive/uncomfortable, because people leaving a random comment of a pretty generic opinion somewhere do not generally want to be dragged onto a stage for an impromptu debate! it's far more reasonable to just post my thoughts on a paraphrased version of the generic opinion without specifically shouting out whoever i most recently saw it from. (if i wanted to address precise phrasing or details of a point vs just bouncing off it, that's when i directly respond to the original text.) given that you also literally just said "people aren't always interested in being corrected (and feel extra defensive when it's in a reblog by someone with a large following like you have)," i feel like you should be able to understand this pov--it's extremely contradictory to imply that i often shouldn't directly correct people, but also that i should always explicitly shout out the person responsible for an opinion i disagree with

as for "people aren't always interested in being corrected (and feel extra defensive when it's in a reblog by someone with a large following like you have)," i have a couple notes:

i've been told i have a large following a few times but tbh i still genuinely do not see it--it was really only some of my first wormposts that got a notable amount of notes, at this point i feel like i've lost enough followers from having largely very specific posts (alec <3) & from being opinionated about hot-button topics that i do not think i count as a Large Blog. per se. i'd actually posit that No blog on wormblr is large enough to invoke the risks of disagreeing w someone publicly as a large blogger (i.e. unintentionally siccing harassment on someone), but maybe there's something i'm missing there

literally all of the people i've publicly corrected about amy were well-known fandom mainstays at the least and considered actively foundational (especially on the much much larger reddits and discords) at most, while also being extremely well-known on tumblr. i frankly find it hard to imagine any of them feeling threatened by the wormblr alec guy disagreeing with them when their opinions on her are those that have been shared by vast portions of the fandom for far longer than i've been in it. in fact, i would guess that any defensiveness there is actually far more liable to be a result of being extremely unused to having viewpoints they see as ubiquitous challenged

in both of the most recent cases that i'm sure inspired this ask, the people i was reblogging from made maintagged posts directly quoting things i've said without explicitly stating they were from me (<- "this can occasionally come across as passive aggressive in a small fandom") to express their disagreement w/ those opinions--if they didn't want me to try offering corrections, and fairly politely phrased ones at that, they could've just not made a post starting a dialogue about the topics, yeah?

[impossiblescissorspeachpaper]

I'm on my little mission to give some love and gratitude to my favorite fic writers because you're all amazing. You are authors who don't get paid for your great works. You are the reason I am still in this fandom. 💕💗🤍

You were one of the first blogs i followed and I think you were the first one I ever commented on haha. Even if it was a simply 'this was beautiful'

I love your smut. I love your fluff. I love drunk confessions where she boys are just in love with their ladies. I love your christmas fluff, the perfect mix between heartwarming and funny. I love you fics for Elriel month, Elain week, Azriel week. I love everything. You writing is great.

But one of my favourites is The Heart of a Wanderer. Espacially the latest part. Be it the teasing between Az and Elain or the end. Go Elain let him have it 🙌😆

Oh my goodness this is the nicest message I think I have ever received! 🥹 thank you so so much!

Sometimes writing can be so hard, the creativity is waning, sentences aren’t working, plots aren’t plotting and sometimes fanfic just doesn’t get love and we’re convinced no one is reading/enjoying our stuff. But wow this absolutely made my morning and my week and I cannot thank you enough for your show of gratitude. I appreciate it more than you know 🩵

And I am so pleased you’re enjoying the Heart of a Wanderer! It’s all my brain has been able to concentrate on lately, and tbh I’ve felt guilty about not being able to produce anything else. I’m so relieved to know there are still people looking forward to reading it, despite updates being chaotic and often super delayed.

Thank you, for taking the time to send me this. You have no idea how big of a smile you’ve put on my face 💕

[holdinbacksecrets]

"you always told him: you’re the kindest man i’ll ever know"

just want to say this line made me cry - i dont think i'll ever feel the patience of a lover

also i hope your nsfw pieces can come back to life bc i miss reading them 😿🌙

hi 🌙 thank you for sharing 🥺

i’m so glad that line touched you. it definitely goes into my little box of hope when i think about the kind of man i want to be with- hope to find. your words have pierced me too: “i don’t think i’ll ever feel the patience of a lover”. this is so valid. i honestly feel the same way. so much of my desires exist in my writing. i hope our future lover’s surprise us in the best way 🥺

😭 it makes me sad to not have them posted publicly right now. some of the pieces i’m most proud of are included in my nsfw works. i think about it often… tbh, i haven’t had the energy lately to police my blog. i wish my pinned post saying 18+, my guidelines saying 18+, my main svt masterlist saying the same along with every nsfw post would be good enough but it isn’t. one day i’ll probably gather enough energy to go through my followers and block everyone who’s not 18+ or failed to have their age stated. then check any new followers and do the same. i’ve thought about offering to share links with people who message me privately, but i’m not sure about that yet.

[sureuncertainty]

alright personal post time related to the last post i reblogged

soooo i’m a system! i’ve known this for quite some time now (since the beginning of the pandemic actually) but haven’t been able to be super open about it for a LOT of reasons. however we’ve become more comfortable talking about it and i’ve decided to open up about it on here bc this is something that is a (obviously) big part of our life and there are very few places where we can be open about it and this is one of those places where we can be a bit more vulnerable. 

i just reblogged a post that goes into more detail about plurality itself, aka multiplicity, being a system, etc. which essentially just means multiple people sharing a body. specifically we have a form of OSDD, which is a dissociative disorder, but not the only way to be plural (and tbh i think we might be plural even without the OSDD we’re not 100% sure) plurality is a HUGE range of experiences and no two systems are fully alike, i kinda see it like neurodivergence where it’s just like... a form of existence that’s relatively normal just not talked about much

unfortunately, there’s also a very high population of gross sysmeds on tumblr (a big reason why I kept this part of my identity hidden for awhile) so if you, my follower reading this, are one of them, pls just block and move on i’d rather not argue our existence with you thanks byeeee (sysmeds or system medicalists basically believe that systems have to exist in a certain way to be “valid” or real, like having a certain amount of Trauma(tm) or being diagnosed with a specific kind of disorder, or having X symptom, etc. which is not true)

BUT ANYWAY as for what that means for us and our blog, here are some things about our system we’d like you all to know:

- we don’t REALLY have a system name (we kinda go by Rain but that’s still a placeholder) but will answer to whatever. Win works for all of us as well. Percy, myself (the one writing this) am the person you probably already know, and am pretty much always fronting at any given time, so you can assume that i’m here most of the time.

- i use i/me pronouns a lot too bc it’s easier and more comfortable, especially since i’m basically always around. sometimes we mean it in a collective sense (which yes i know is not grammatically correct but whatever we can do what we want)

- most of our system members are, as you might have already guessed, introjects of my OCs. any OC that I’ve spent any amount of time rambling about on here most likely exists as a fully formed person in our system and are the main headmates who I interact with on a daily basis

- we also have some fictives (introjects of fictional characters) of characters that are not OCs but none of them are currently active in our system

- our frequent fronters (headmates that are around a lot or at least often enough that you’ve probably interacted with them at least a bit if we’re friends) include me, Percy, my bestie Avery (fronting a LOT of the time, we’re basically cohosts at this point), Nyx, Kat, Roma, Emma, and Angel! (and more of our characters, but those are the most actively involved in our day to day life)

- feel free to say hi to any of my headmates if you’d like! in fact, we’d all love that!! we’re not very out as plural so it’s nice to have more people see us as who we really are, instead of just as characters who don’t really exist. it also helps us with distinguishing between ourselves bc we get hella blurry sometimes. Just keep in mind that they are not just characters but real actual people with their own thoughts, feelings, likes, dislikes, personalities, etc, and even though you might “know” them from reading things I’ve posted here about them, they don’t necessarily know you (although they might know who you are if we’re friends, especially if i know you irl)

all that to say, this is NOT an open invitation to come into my inbox with invasive questions, in fact, we’ll probably be closing anonymous asks for a bit preemptively just in case (we should be opening them again later). if we are friends/mutuals, feel free to DM me if you’d like to talk about it more or have questions. if we are strangers please do not do that lol. okay i think that’s it byeeee

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Thank you so much for tagging me dear @dyed-red ヽ(〃ᵕ〃)ﾉ 💕 I’m late as always BUT HERE WE GOOO!

Name: Peachy

Sign: Cancer (Libra Ascendant)

Height: 5′5 (166cm)

Birthday: July 1st

Time: Never enough lol

Favorite band/artists: Yeah, no idea tbh. I mostly listen to Rock, so Metallica, AC/DC and all the classics I guess? I’m also particularly fond of Shinedown, Volbeat and tAKiDA but I usually have favorite songs, not really favorite bands

Last movie: I’m rewatching the Alien movies in chronological order atm, so Alien: Covenant :>

Last show: House of the Dragon

When I created this blog: I’ve been lurking for longer but I gave in and made a blog around 2011ish I think? And then I just didn’t use it for another couple years lol

What I post: Gifs, sometimes Art. Mostly Supernatural and other Horror adjacent shows, movies and games. What can I say, weirdly codependent people and f*cked up dynamics are my jam!

Last thing I googled: How to calculate ascendants so I can answer the second question properly, 'cause who the hell knows something like this

Other blogs: I have a couple sideblogs but I don’t really use any of them. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I’m a horrible multifandom-mess on main lmao

Do I get asks: I mean. Yeah, sometimes but not very often

Following: It used to be around 400, I think? But then I had a bug that kind of wiped a huge amount of blogs I’ve been following, so I’m currently at 260

Average hours of sleep: 4 - 6, if I’m lucky - Yes, I', well aware of the fact that I suck at basic human functions lmao

Instruments: I tried to learn to play the guitar during lockdown... Well, I still can’t play it but now I own a guitar, so yay?

What I’m wearing: Wouldn’t you like to know? ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) 

Dream job: idk I’ve heard there’s people who clean penguins with little brushes, that sounds pretty neat? Otherwise I’d probably rock as a Cicerone or a Private Island Caretaker - Please hire me if you have a Private Island that needs to be taken care of, I'm fun at parties and always bring beer

Dream trip: If it involves the ocean, I’m game wherever, whenever, always. Man, I miss New Zealand.

Nationality: German

Favorite songs: Oh great, here we go. I have... A lot. Like, really. So I’m just gonna go with the first three that pop into my mind: “Monsters” by Shinedown, “Highway to Hell” by AC/DC and “Viva La Victoria” by Eclipse

Last book I read: I did a reread of Fire and Blood before the show aired :>

3 fiction universes I’d live in: Oh wow. Uh... You know what, screw three options, just beam me into the Pokémon world lmao

Tagging: @aborddelimpala, @acklesforlife, @casa-neurotica, @dragonardhill, @ficforthought, @savages-weapons​, @ukenceto​, @wendibird​ and everyone who want's to do this! - As always, no pressure tho! 💕

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how to interact with my blog

BASICS !

name / alias: ro or roro

pronouns: they/them

blog type: single muse | multi-muse | non selective | semi selective | selective | mutuals only | private | other (specify)

type of muse(s): canon | OCs | both | other (specify)

GENERALITIES !

triggers people MUST tag: none

interest tracker / checker: i have it and it's mandatory | i have it, it's not mandatory but i'm more likely to follow back / interact with the people who fill it | i have one and i prefer it if people fill it in | i have it but it's to people whether to fill it or not | i don't have one | other (specify)

reblog karma: i practice it | i practice it sometimes | i don't practice it | i always reblog memes from the source | indifferent | other (specify)

rule passwords: i have one and it's mandatory | i have one and it's optional | i don't have one | i send passwords | don't send passwords | [space for eventual additions / explanations]

3-5 ESSENTIAL RULES PEOPLE HAVE TO RESPECT

be kind

be respectful

be over the age of 18

3-5 IMPORTANT PET PEEVES TO KEEP IN MIND

i can't really think of anything tbh

wait i lied i don't really like when replies are  formatted  like   this  because it's a bit hard for me and my adhd brain to read. i'll still write with people who style their posts that way but it may take me longer to respond to lol

2-5 THINGS THAT WILL LEAD TO INSTANT (SOFT)BLOCKING

making callouts/starting drama over petty things like copying graphics and shit JSKLGJSD i just. don't care. if you can't settle some things in private then i don't really trust you to come to me first if i'm doing something wrong

being bigoted, creepy or disrespectful. i consider myself a pretty chill person but i don't tolerate that

2-5 THINGS THAT LEAD ME TO UNFOLLOW / SOFTBLOCK A MUTUAL / SOMEONE I INTERACT WITH

honestly i don't do this that often unless you do one of the things i listed above or are inactive for months. i follow people with the expectation that i'll write with them at some point, but i don't like to put a deadline on when that happens

i have to put at least two here so uhhhhh

if you archive your blog. i will unfollow so i can follow the new one

2-5 REASON YOU DON'T FOLLOW (BACK) SOMEONE

nine times out of ten i don't follow someone back because their character(s) are from a fandom i'm unfamiliar with and can't see myself grasping the canon well enough to work sam into it (usually fantasy or supernatural) or if i can't imagine a scenario where sam would be interacting with their muse(s). i promise it rarely has anything to do with whether i think someone's blog or writing is "good" enough!

if i read someone's rules and just get absolutely rancid vibes from them. i've stumbled upon some rules pages that are so overly aggressive and unfriendly that i wonder why you're even writing with other people in the first place

if you whitewash a character i know is meant to be a poc. please don't do it

also if you post an excessive amount of ooc, like pages of it without any in-character interactions in sight. don't get me wrong, i love the social aspect of rp but i'm also here to write and develop my character, not just liveblog!

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hiiii <3

i played the demo just now, and i gotta say i loved it! i was so pleasantly surprised to see separate choices for gender and pronouns in character customisation - it's something I sadly don't see that often even in very inclusive IFs and it's also something that's making my whole experience a fair bit more comfortable. i identify as nb but i prefer she/her pronouns, even if pretty much any and every pronouns are ok for me - so i really wanted to say i appreciate that little detail!

i also liked the harbinger's oath - it's very cool how it stresses the importance of leadership and making a way when there is none, and not just, you know, staying faithful and loyal and stuff. the overall style, fashion and atmosphere are all very nice, the mix of ancient greek and victorian and original ideas is both familiar and new so it's hard to get bored!

oh, i loved the gods too. there isn't so many that either the author or the reader can get lost trying to untangle the threads of mythology, and you don't risk any of them being forgotten or becoming less prominent - it's nice! i loved the myths we've seen, the twins are charming! i thought I'd like to follow aurora since i usually go for sun aesthetic, but in this case i didn't really vibe with her. maybe it's because the 2 myths were mostly about euribia or at least her side of the story, so i just don't have enough info. so, here's hoping for some more mythology lessons in the future! ah, i also liked that fertility and love and marriage belong to different gods domains.

james and anna are dears, gotta tease them to marriage and (hopefully not) back :3

the ROs are... prominent, i guess? at this point i don't feel like the pc knows enough about them to see them for what they are, and i mostly used what i read from your blog to choose between them and orient myself. tbh I didn't quite like most of the flirting options (though it can be the case that I'm just picky lmao, don't take it to heart). i think i liked what you did with constantine - that some options aren't marked as flirting or anything but... they get a reaction from him, and in return the pc also reacts somehow. dialogues with him also feel less "cheap" - unlike some of the scenes where the so called flirting is just ogling or blushing and tripping over your words because of someone calling you lovely or something. constantine's scene also have this stuff but... to less extant? i think? i know it's some kind of imaginary world, but it's still hard for me to comprehend how a literal royal, a year before becoming the monarch, minutes after thinking "everyone is judging me i must be perfect" now goes around and makes a fool of themselves... but i still want to flirt! ugh! such dilemma! i loved margaret's first flirting option though - the one where pc asks anna to bring her another glass, now that was fun.

the "cold" options of dealing with f. were very nice too, i really enjoyed the balcony scene in the prologue!

anyway, sorry for ranting, and thank you for sharing the demo with us! wish you the smoothest progress and good inspiration and much free time to write! good luck 🍀💙

i was so pleasantly surprised to see separate choices for gender and pronouns in character customisation - it's something I sadly don't see that often even in very inclusive IFs and it's also something that's making my whole experience a fair bit more comfortable.

I'm so glad to hear this! I've found that it's really not much extra work on the coding side so I didn't think there was a reason not to add it.

the mix of ancient greek and victorian and original ideas is both familiar and new so it's hard to get bored!

yay! the last thing I want is for anyone to get bored playing my game aha I know it's a bit different and some people like things more traditional.

here's hoping for some more mythology lessons in the future!

there will definitely be additional myths.

the ROs are... prominent, i guess? at this point i don't feel like the pc knows enough about them to see them for what they are

The current demo is only a taste but the MC will be able to learn more as the story progresses and build friendship or romance as wanted. There are no straight "routes", as all characters have their own role to play in this story. I hope you will enjoy learning more about them. The rest of the chapters cover around a month of events each.

tbh I didn't quite like most of the flirting options (though it can be the case that I'm just picky lmao, don't take it to heart).

No worries, the flirting is something I added more shy options for because when I first released the demo, the feedback I received was that there weren't enough of those options. Also, flirting is the hardest for me to write about. But, my hope is that it will more natural and worthwhile in the rest of the game. :D

I may consider revamping the flirting that is available now but only after I get chapter 2 released.

Thanks for your feedback and thoughts! It sounds like you enjoyed it overall. I appreciate you giving it a go. I'm always open to feedback, whether I'm able to implement or change things depends but I'm eager to learn where I can improve.

Hope you have a great day!

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How good are my supports? I have trouble figuring out which memoria are the best to use as it’s hard to tell what the skills are without looking them up every time, and i have trouble remembering what symbol means what, so i usually go for whatever ones have the best stat increases. I’m working on getting better with choosing memoria though.

I’ll probably replace Felicia later, I’m working on training up Mikura since she’s really good but I don’t have her maxed out yet.

All of my girls have their Doppels unlocked, too.

(Forgot to add) please let me know if you have any tips on how to make my supports better, and what memorias you recommend using! I’m still working on leveling up my memorias, many of them aren’t at their max level yet. I’m trying my best, heh

Hopefully it’s alright for me to publish this publicly?

Anyways, I want to quickly plug my memoria review blog. I actually have a tag specifically for memoria that are good to use on Support-- a lot of them are limiteds, but some of them include free event reward memoria too!

When it comes to memoria, passives >> actives. Passives give passive ATK stats while active memoria don’t, and passives are always in play while actives need to be activated. So, your Alina should swap out those two active memoria for some good passive ones.

Next up, people tend to prefer blast characters over anything else. This is because it’s the easiest way to farm. I’d swap your Melissa and Yachiyo’s spots, so that Yachiyo is in the “All” spot and Melissa is in the “Aqua” one.

Speaking of which, since most people tend to default to the “All” spot, I’d make sure Yachiyo has the absolute best memoria you can give. That means everything is MLB at least and has good ATK stats. (Also: a LOT of players sort their support lists by who has the highest ATK stats. A really easy way to make sure you hit the top of the list is by boosting that character’s ATK!)

A really easy way to sort out your memoria is to give one passive Attack Up memoria and one passive Damage Up/Damage Increase/whatever else memoria. 

Here’s an example from my Star alt account (it’s not really a great example but bear with me). Each character starts out one Attack Up passive memoria, then their secondary memoria will be whatever compliments them best in my opinion; but you can easily just do generic things like Damage Increase/Damage Up or even another Attack Up. But imo, it’s important for each unit to have at least one passive Attack Up passive on them.

Here’s how you can tell what is good to equip:

Red Sword Icon= Attack Up

Yellow Sword with a little spiky wave around it= Damage Increase

Red Sword with a spiky wave around it = Damage Up

(Note that the icon is dependent on what effect is placed first, so some memoria might not show that it has attack up / damage increase even if it does have, just because a different effect is placed first).

So if you are completely confused by what to use, the one thing to keep in mind that will be helpful is look for memoria with swords in their icons and tbh, that should be good enough. You don’t need to memorize what is good or bad as long as you follow that simple rule.

Any other advice I’d give is kind of covered by that, haha. For example, you’ve given your Felicia a guardian memoria (meaning she’ll take hits) and a memoria that gives her increased mp regen... But Felicia is not a tank and she also isn’t going to be using magia often. But I imagine that’s because you’re trying to boost her stats in any way possible and also because you may not know what the memoria does. I really miss NA... Being able to read what memoria did without needing to look up shit was so helpful ;_;

Additionally, make sure you always complete the event story quests. The free event reward memoria you get is really helpful for accounts: a lot of them will come with a generic 15% attack up/damage up/damage increase and that coupled with their passive stats is CRUCIAL. 

As for actives, tbh I don’t think people even tend to use them that much. I know that I don’t-- I always turn actives off when I farm, and most of the time characters can easily kill things without needing to use them in the first place. But I’ll just say that you can follow the same principal outlined above and just use memoria with sword icons. Everyone likes to deal more damage.

Let’s see... characterwise, yeah I’d say that Mikura is good. She has Bind on her connect, making her useful for Bind Cheese.

The only other thing I’d say is that characters should have their Doppels and their Spirit Enhancement filled out. You don’t need to go fully 60/60 if you don’t have enough materials to do so, but you should at least grab their active SE.

Lastly, one of the most important things you can do is log on every day. You don’t even need to do anything, just log on, log off, and repeat. People will unfollow unactives because they want those tasty support points, and if you aren’t online then... you’re not doing much for them, you know? I’ve unfollowed a lot of people who had an amazing support lineup because they were offline for two weeks, and I’ve kept following people who only had uncapped support because they log on every day.

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You know, this makes me think I should write a guide on how to make a good support lineup... hm...

Anyways, I hope this helps! If you still have questions please let me know.