#not only do i have to have like a curvy feminine body or whatever

[up-in-flames-writing]

This is an old Twitter thread I'm posting here as an archive, when I eventually get banned on there for not tolerating transphobic abuse against me.

Still pretty relevant tho, even tho it was written almost a year & a half ago.

I'm sorry, I don't know how to do alt text, so here is the image ID under the cut:

[Image ID: A Twitter thread made by user Booker-Garet Feniks @abookandabun. The thread reads:

So, lately, I've been seeing some Takes™ on transition on here, & as a transman who looks like a baby butch lesbian, I have some Thoughts™, so here's a thread

First thing's first: I am short. I am skinny (read: underweight), & curvy. I have a more or less conventional hourglass figure. I also have a soft face, big lips & big eyes with long lashes. I keep my nails long & my hair long & when I cut them, they grow back fast

By all means, if I were a woman, I would be, if not conventionally attractive, at least conventionally feminine, with my small waist, wide hips, my long legs, & even my tiny tits. Despite this, I dress masculine. I hold myself like a man, I deepen my voice

My voice is naturally a bit deep, but not deep enough for there to be any ambiguity about what's in my pants. I still speak in a fake, deep voice, & when I introduce myself, I do it with a grin & tell everyone very openly 'my name is Booker-Garet'

Despite this, I do not pass. I am constantly Miss'ed & Ma'am'ed when I'm out & about. People who know me need to be told that I'm a man & go by he/him pronouns. Imagine that, imagine calling a teenage boy with an unambiguous male name 'she'. Imagine how I feel

How I feel when none of my efforts matter. How, when I'm at my most masculine while pre-op & pre-T, people see meas nothing more than a girl. It's distressing. I know what they're thinking, that I'm a tomboy or a lesbian. If they recognise that I'm trans, they don't show it

And, I feel like it's easy to get mad at GNC women. It's easy to get mad at the tomboys & the butches & the studs. 'They think I'm you' you might think. 'You're too visible & I'm not, & they think I'm you.'

I find it easy to blame a lot of ciswomen for this. The ones who tell me I should've just stayed a lesbian (which I never was), that I should've just been a tomboy (which I was), that I'm a traitor to womanhood (so be it). It is easy to get mad at them

It's hard being a trans guy, when the only pieces of masculinity coming from a female person people are aware of are the ones who are women, who stay women & who love being women. I didn't love being a woman. I love women, I love my cis & trans sisters

But I can't help feeling bitter when they perform masculinity & no one denies their womanhood, no one on the right side of history. But I can be my most manly self & even my allies feel that I'd just be better off as a lesbian, as a masculine woman.

As if masculinity is alright, is safe, as long as you're a woman who performs it, but the moment you're a man performing masculinity, you're not worth the time, the effort, the brain power.

Almost as I'd it's easier for people to accept me as a masculine woman, with my deep voice & my masculine name, than admit to the fact that I am a man

It's hard to admit that you don't pass. It's hard to admit that I'm not a 'real man', whatever that means. It's not, however, hard to admit that I don't have privilege. It's not hard to admit that I face misogyny.

It's not hard to admit that if you're AFAB & masc presenting, nothing short of a Thor voice & a Gandalf beard, & body hair like a gorilla will make people see you as anything but a woman. Because if I don't say this, who else will? I can't let people live a lie

I can't let people keep on believing that 'transmascs have it easier', that it's easier for us to pass. I can't let people keep believing that we 'run away from womanhood to have male privilege'. Where's my male privilege, Joanne? Did it get lost in the Owl Mail?

People will keep on believing that we have it easier, that we don't face discrimination, that we don't get misgendered & assaulted & killed. They will keep believing that, & they will keep ignoring us & our oppression, unless someone finally says 'Enough!' & tells their story

& I'm a good story teller, so I'm telling you. I don't pass, I wish I did, but I don't. Many of my brothers do not pass. Stop ignoring us just because you think we have it 'easier'. We don't, & your inaction is allowing us to get killed. Do better

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[notabeanie]

You know. There are a lot of things you could say about the original scott pilgrim comics, and I find myself profoundly uninterested in saying most of those things. But there is one thing I will say and that is that for all the whatever you wanna say about it I still find the way Brian Lee O'Malley writes women pretty compelling and I think it genuinely changed my life for the better.

Like ok this doesn't mean that much in 2023 because the world is different now. But like imagine it's 2008 and you're 15 years old and you still think you're a girl because you won't figure out that you can be trans for like another decade and a half and up to this point your entire context for gender roles has been the cast of fucking Friends, and someone has given these comics to your brother who is Not A Reader in a desperate bid to get him to Read Something and he remains Not A Reader but you are a voracious little bottomless pit for words and for neat pictures and so you're like ok maybe this mine now.

And you open it up and here are all these girls that are WEIRD. Girls with spiky hair and punky boots. Girls who wear tracksuits almost exclusively. Girls who are surly and don't care if you like them. Girls who have ex girlfriends. Girls who disconsent to sex. This seems normal now, but in 2008??? This was RADICAL.

And not only are there all these weird girls, but the weird girls are DESIRABLE. They're the dream girl. They're the competing love interests. They have exes who are billionaires and movie stars. The main character is melting into a puddle of pathetic goo left and right for all these women who are so decidedly not traditionally feminine. Like these are not Zooey Deschanel "look I have big eyes and brown hair haha aren't I quirky" women these are "we defy the bounds of traditional womanhood and we don't care what you think about it but we will still kick your ass" women.

And like do you know what that can do to to the psyche of a 15 year old whose main gender role model up to this point had been the Totally fucking Spies?? Huge. Enormous. The blasted landscape of gender is unrecognizable as any semblance of what it once was.

Not to mention that thanks to BLOM's art style, people of all genders are drawn basically androgynous and squarish. Sure there's a little tiddy but nobody is stick thin or hourglass curvy or with huge breasts busting out of blouses. It's not exactly body diversity sure, but these are normal ass looking women with completely rectangular legs and they still get to be sexy and wear leather and lingerie and fishnet stockings and be rockstars and dream girls and that was really fucking cool, to me, in 2008.

When I was a senior in high school I got a pair of big fuckin boots and some tights. In first year university I cut my hair like Ramona Flowers' with safety scissors in my dorm room in Toronto. I clomped down Bloor Street past the old Honest Eds and all these hyper local references directly from the books (it was Canadian! Nothing was ever Canadian!) and it felt like I could do this. This was a kind of girl I could be. Scott Pilgrim had opened up whole new vistas for gender expression that I had not previously even known were possible.

Like maybe there was a little roughness around the edges. But there was goodness there. It did good. It helped. It changed me. For a new generation who are looking at those books and can't imagine why they meant so much to someone I just wanted to explain.

[hotluncheddie]

I absolutely love your chubby!Steve series!

I think partly because it challenges the fckng fatphobia my family has raised me with, acting like anyone who doesn't "fit" into their clothes anymore is fat and that's bad. Which *i* think is fckng stupid. I'm personally more at ease with my body. While being skinny (always was) ... ever since puberty or hitting my 20s I'm not a stick figure. I have some curves and while that's really nice if you feel comfortable in a woman's body - i've been struggling with gender and my little tummy fat, my thighs, my ass and always felt too feminine. I know I have a nice body (I feel strange about saying that) but in my eyes it's a lot of femme sexy not masc sexy. If it makes sense. But to get to the point 😂 I think your series has helped me too with reevaluating my depiction of whats masc and what's femme. And also how curves on men are hot and good and beautiful.

I'm obviouely not 100% there and probably won't ever be. But it helped a tiny bit! So pleaaaaaase never stop!! It's so good!

I really hope this all makes sense

(at first I wanted to make this anon but I'm gonna be brave about it! And yes it would be okay posting this publicly. But you can also answer if you want, privately)

hello friend!! ty for being brave and sending this! im so so so glad you’re enjoying them!!!

sorry i’m only just answering this too i kept thinking about what i wanted to say bc i never expected these stories to cause these kinds of thoughts. but it’s so cool!!

there is something so interesting about the way androgyny is so connected to thinness. and curves with femininity. like i saw an insta reel and this girl was doing butch outfit inso but she was a bigger, curvy woman and it kinda blew my mind like id never seen it before! they looked great!!

like masculinity and femininity is performance but i totally get the frustration of like having to counteract your ‘base’ in order to perform the way you feel most comfortable. if that makes sense. like i so often want a t-shirt to fit me like it would a skinny skater boy but i also think i look pretty hot naked haha and i know that’s me with my traditionally ‘feminine’ body shape. so i feel like i get what ur saying? sorry if i’m way off

but yeah i’m also sorry you’ve been struggling with your gender i hope it hasn’t been too dysphoric for you!

its just really interesting that you’ve sent me this tho. when thinking about like, how everyone interprets art differently. like, i honestly just started writing them bc i find bigger people really attractive. i wasn’t really trying to say anything about fat phobia but i totally see how it’s all connected. like i just think bellies are hot and i find peoples chests hot, like, boobs or pecs, whatever, its just a really nice, beautiful area. so i kinda wanted to just get that attraction out in writing because im trying to be less embarrassed about what turns me on. maybe that's why i write eddie so goofy, thats me still being a little embarrassed but also just maybe makes it all more accessible to people. idk.

but yeah i guess it’s just nice to talk about different body types, especially with such a traditional american male character like steve. i’ve just never found like a six pack very attractive, personally. i find strength and curves and softness and bigness really nice so idk i hope i’m giving a little more representation to that.

[cairi-fruit]

Nadine Ross is often characterized as butch/a stud, especially when compared to Chloe in their relationship… because she’s a black, muscular dark skinned woman. Am I gonna talk about this???

I guess I chose violence today, especially since I rarely text post on here, mostly jokes and ideas when I do, but this is has been on my mind for years tbh. I know people often talk about persons trying to fit queer relationships in a heteronormative lens, making one partner seem more masc and one seem more fem, when that may be the case sometimes, but sometimes partners are also equally fem, equally masc, equally stem etc. Its also the case that black/dark skinned characters are often painted with the masc brush more.

I’m a black dark skinned sapphic. Hi. Maybe I’m projecting? (I mean I project autism onto Nadine too as an autist myself, heyo.) Personally, I don’t see much of a reason in canon to assume Nadine is butch or a stud, she’s not dressed super fem whenever we see her, but we literally only see her when she’s working. It’s in her character to dress practically while Chloe is more chill about that sort of thing. Sure she wears a pantsuit instead of a dress in Italy (uncharted 4) but she was still working and expected worse than Rafe did. Pantsuit is still practical there. She still did her make up and wore cute rings tho. I just don’t see why some people characterize her as allergic to make up, or dresses, or feminine underwear or anything of a similar sort.

Don’t take this as me having an issue with studs or more masc presenting black women, I love them I’m friends with many irl. But as a black woman I can speak to the way black and dark skinned women are often kept from femininity, that femininity is more closely tied to pale skin, “neat” (ie long flowing straight) hair, daintier fames and Eurocentric facial features which Nadine has none of, neither do I. I don’t expect the people who this post will reach to be the ones who still to this day call Nadine trans slurs even because she dares to be muscular (something I have also dealt with irl and showing my face online in the past), but I can’t help but wonder how her race affects this when those people often use racialised language as well.

Think of how women are often slut shamed for what they wear, based on their unchangeable body more than the clothing itself. A thin white woman in a camisole and shorts is comfortable, and a curvy large chested, big booty black woman in the same outfit is a thot. It’s kinda similar in that way, that a small framed white (or lighter skinned, straight haired) woman in a simple shirt and pants is just wearing basic clothes, but a black woman in the same outfit is butch. The way black women who are anything other than HYPER fem with long acrylics, wigs/weaves/braids, complex pretty dresses (which are ALL lovely don’t get it twisted) are immediately coined a masc is just… weird to me. It’s like we have to put more effort into proving we are women and can be feminine too.

If you ask me Chloe and Nadine come across equally stem, I don’t see either of them more or less likely to engage in traditional femininity than the other. Even simple things like the fact that many people write/draw Nadine as taller than Chloe, when being taller is associated with masculinity when Chloe is canonically 5’8 and Nadine is only 5’5. So I begin to wonder why no one portrays Chloe as possibly being more masc in turn. Or even Elena, who we only see look pretty “fem” or whatever, opposed to practical, in her wedding photos.

TLDR: Ask yourself why you might picture Nadine as being more masc than Chloe. Is it just a fun headcanon? Is it seeing yourself in her character? Is there reason you believe that cause of things she actually says and does in Uncharted? Or if it was reversed, that Chloe, or he’ll even a white woman acted the same way as Nadine, dressed the same way as Nadine, would you still assume that she was butch? Or does her hair, build and skin tone add to why she comes across more masculine, because this is a thing many black women, especially sapphics, who don’t present as hyperfem have to deal with irl, myself included. We are often perceived as more masculine, trying/wanting to be men, being called trans slurs or being seen as too masculine in our bodies to be AFAB/being “transvestigated” (which people do do to Nadine), all these things that try to keep us at an arms length from womanhood and femininity. So keep those things in mind when you portray a character (particularly in transformative work, your own OC is a little different).

[horrorsequel]

dolls help me cos i can express a sort of feminine and fashionable side of myself that i dont feel comfortable expressing with MY body and also honestly can't. like I don't really want to dress very femininely but also since I'm fat, it's not fun or easy to try and get fashionable clothes for myself (and i can't afford to anyway). dolls have always let me express and explore things that i don't have the privilege of being able to in real life (fashion, dating, ect) and I've never really seen anyone talk about this. what dolls sometimes are to fat little kids and even fat teens and adults. so i think with that in mind, it's even more important to ask for fat dolls. We finally have more curvy dolls but none of them are fat, none of them are genuinely "plus size" lol. I think fat dolls could not only help with self esteem but they could also help kids who aren't fat just see fat people as normal and able to have normal lives and relationships.... idk i think dolls do have a lot of impact on how little kids see themselves and even other ppl. Barbie as a brand is willing to admit that but only to call it a positive, to say "Barbie tells little girls they cam be whatever they want!" except fat. Never fat.

[beatrixstonehill2]

"Are you excited?" Shannon's mom asked her.

Shannon rolled her eyes. "No.... Of course not."

"Don't lie now, let me see that cock, darling."

"Mom.... Come on."

"Don't whine, let me see what a little liar you're being."

"I can't help it...." she complained, spreading her legs. Her previously tiny, two-inch cock was now eight inches, rock hard, super swollen, pushing out her panties. "There. Happy?"

"Oh it's so gorgeous! Look at how big that thing's gotten. Have they started you on testosterone yet?"

"Mom! I'm not going on T....."

"Of course you will, darling. Trust me, you can't avoid it forever."

"You're probably right..... Fuckkkk..... I'm so hard....."

"So masturbate, darling. Your next shoot isn't for another hour, you'll be hard as can be by then. Trust me! I'm so happy you actually decided to do this! You look like you're having so much fun doing these shoots and videos. I've never seen you smile so much!"

"It's called acting, mom. Well, OK, it is fun doing porn. I'm really happy you and dad talked me into giving it a try, but all these expectations are such a hassle."

"Well, we saw those huge udders you started growing and thought you weren't really into the whole school thing anyway. Porn is a much better fit for a girl like you. And the market is soooo hot for trans girls right now!"

Shannon rubbed her uncomfortably big bulge, biting her lip. It felt divine to touch. "I'm lucky I started transitioning when I did. But.... it feels weird that I'm being asked to undo all of that. Like I'm sooo happy you guys got me into this industry, and I'm having a ton of fun, but going through guy puberty is really awkward. I'm already shaving like twice a day, and my voice is cracking during shoots."

"That's what consumers want, darling! Your agent said it, and all the directors and actresses, well, mostly now 'actors', I talked to said the same thing. Guys love seeing trans girls go through male puberty or completely detrans. I dunno, something about seeing a pretty girl with big tits having to become a guy, all the while trying and slowly failing to look like a girl, it gets them off."

"Ew, when you say it that way it sounds gross. But I guess it makes sense. I've only been off estrogen four months and my body is totally sprinting through male puberty like crazy! I feel so fucking horny all the time; I'm cumming insanely hard, too! I'm getting thick body hair already, even my boobs are getting hair on them..... It's so embarrassing, I can't believe guys like seeing this. Keeping up with shaving is almost impossible."

"So you should stop. Like you said, guys love seeing you girls having to go through this and lose all your feminine qualities. It is fun seeing you go from a confident, sexy, curvy girl to a weak, submissive, feminine boy."

"Mom!" Shannon coughed, her voice cracked. She subtly rolled her eyes and played with her cock through her panties. "I'm not becoming a boy...."

"You say that, but you sure are going to town on that thing."

Shannon blushed, giving up trying to hide it. She took out her cock, jerking off, her oversized breasts bouncing and jiggling with each pump. "OK, whatever. So I am going through male puberty. No more estrogen for me. But I'm not, like, going on T and steroids. Or getting my boobs removed. ..... Right?"

"Well, your agent and I have been discussing it, since your detransition is going so well."

Shannon pumped her cock harder. "B-But I'm not detransitioning, mom! I'm just going off my hrt to do porn cause that's what guys want out of trans girls. A bigger cock, the deeper voice, maybe some facial hair peeking through our concealer.... just cute stuff like that!"

"Boy, you sure are in denial, sweetie. You're already going through male puberty. Of course you're gonna go all the way for your porno career. Why wouldn't you?"

"All the way? What have you guys been talking about?"

"Well, see, your next scene is gonna start with you trying to work out in a gym. Some guys will see your bulge through your shorts and..... I wanted it to be a surprise, but you'll be getting your first shot of T! The actors are going to give you a big dose, possibly right into that growing cock of yours..... Then maybe a steroid shot....."

Shannon wanted to fake outrage, but instead found herself pumping way harder. "Mom....! I--I.....! FUCK! Oh! Mmmmmm......!" Shannon came, shooting ten loads of thick cum across the floor, trembling as she held her cock, which stiffened up again in seconds.

"My, my, look at all that stamina! Such a stud, my son is starting to become! Aren't you excited to finally be a boy?"

Shannon bit her lips, nodding, pumping her cock slowly.

"Good boy. You keep playing with yourself and take extra big shots of T, and all the steroids your agent wants, OK?"

"I will.... mom. I'll miss being a girl."

"I know you will, you were having so much fun being beautiful and having huge fat tits like that. But those will have to go, too, in good time. Such a pity, so many girls would kill to have breasts that big and sexy. But you're a boy, darling.... so they've got to go."

Shannon blushed again. "Mmmmm, please let me keep them a while longer? Men can make fun of them.... abuse them, I can do bdsm vids centered around my boy tits! Humiliating me for having ever grown such silly, girly things....."

"Oooo, I like that. OK, you get to keep them a little while longer. But don't get too cozy, dear. Lord knows I spoil you enough, just look at you! Trans girls are such little princesses..... It's about time I see how well you take a little punishment. And when I say those boobs are done getting pulverized, I'll finally pay to have them done away with, the silly things that they are....."

"Thank you, mom..... You know just how to make a boy like me happy...."

[ekebolou]

Last post again had me thinkin'. And now I'm thinkin' you will be upset with me:

Are there tattoos or other body modifications prevalent in the cultures of Kostas?

There USED to be.

So remember when Aunt Gráinne stopped by to make sure her favorite (only) nephew wasn't fucking up his life by vetting his Midraeic boyfriend and ended up taking him through a dry run of a traditional marriage feast dish by having him draw intricate designs on a duck in berry sauce?

[Wait, did you know Aunt Gráinne has kids? Cole has cousins! They don't talk. He is not in the line to inherit anything on his mom's side and his Dad doesn't have anything, including a side.]

(Surely by now you have suspicions that Cole's family on his mother's side might not have totally abandoned the Old Ways)

So this designs on the duck thing is incredibly difficult to do with edible foodstuffs, like a plain berry sauce, even reduced to its utmost limits, especially if you like to eat your roast duck hot (which is not necessarily all that common - roasts fresh from the oven happen but depending on things like politesse and just practical matters you might be waiting, not to mention unless you're stewing your leftovers you might as well just eat the duck as-is - you're not going to bother getting the oven up to reheat it, and really, even if your oven is already hot because it's winter or whatever why are you going to turn eating leftovers into a production to heat it up again when you can just plop down and eat).

ANYWAY. There are plenty of ways to make it happen, sure, but it's really the last (barely) surviving vestige of the old Ainjir custom of tattooing. This was going out of style when the first King really united the place, never mind many centuries later when Keadar-Ainjir came along and rousted out a lot of the old ways.

While the idea for Old Ainjir's tattooing culture was based in the Pictish body-painting tradition (like big whorls, the whole Celtic knot idea, whole-body), these days I more imagine it more like dot and line than full black bars, like the Samoan traditional tattooing style, but more curvy and whorl-y, on the body like Samoan tattoos but in appearance more like Maori tattoos - not copying or based on or infused with the same meanings as those traditions, of course, but in terms of scoping out what was possible with the kind of tools the Ainjir would have had and what kind of tattooing they would be focused on. (I didn't see them as figurative tattoo-ers, which robs me of the chance to slap my favorite designs, the curvy animals of Scythians and the Altai Princess, on them)

I imagine, given their combative history, ritual scarification was less prevalent than just havin' scars. If anyone's got ritual scarification it's probably the Adineh, but I haven't really worked out the other cultures' relationships to body modification.

I would imagine the Midraeic people were big on tattoos, though I see them as kind of minimalists, and mostly see their tattooing as a feminine tradition. Like I could easily imagine the girls of the Galen family with stripes and dots and little designs around feet, ankles, and hands - maybe collar bones or necks and faces, though probably not very markedly tattooed. Maybe not as complicated as Mehndi, but in line with the Bedouin tattoo tradition, and for some of the same kinds of purposes - life stages, affiliations, luck and/or blessings and wards, but probably also just for fun. I would imagine its tendency to become less marked would date to the height of the Midraeic Empire, when jewelry and precious medals in place of prominent or striking tattoos would have been peak fashion (because they can be changed, and are a sign of your prosperity and place in society, unlike tattoos which are permanent - these prominent folks would still would have tattoos, but they would mostly be tattoos indicative of devotion, and thus more striking and simpler in visible places and larger and more complex in less visible places).

But, of course, that empire falls, and becomes a sign of the Midraeic people's loss of connection with their faith and condemnation by their god. So a lot of those cultural practices are pretty darn faded. And, of course, the Galen family is half Ainjir-Midraeic (different from Nika's dad's Geronese-Midraeic culture), which means tattooing in general would be out of favor because just like in Ainjir, it would signal that one is different, out of step, or passe. (Ainjir-Midraeic are much more assimilated compared to Geronese-Midraeic people, and well... breaking down that whole difference leads to a discussion of why the war the broke out the way it did, which is kind of beyond the scope of this post).

I bet the Wulsh just pierce the shit out of everything. They're Like That. But with minimal dangley bits because they're also big sailors, and that shit can get caught and make one's day worse than it already was.

Anywho, all of this to say, I have denied us the pleasure of a tattooed Cole and Nika, and thus stories of them getting tattoed, or maybe getting tattoos together, or maybe discovering each others' tattoos, and it's a sin.

[guarmommy]

NSFW Alphabet with Zalyn

Author: @guarmommy

Character: Zalyn Dres

Warning: This is NSFW stuff...meaning, this post has sexual content and language. This is not suitable for anyone under 18.

A: Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

While he does not consider himself soft, he will spoil you rotten after sex. If you want to cuddle, he'll smother you in a heartbeat. If you want a kiss, he'll give you a makeout session. If you are hungry or thirsty, he'll go fetch you something nice to eat and drink. He does whatever he can to make sure his partner is satisfied and properly taken care of.

B: Body Part (Their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

In his youth, Zalyn loved his body to a point of selfish vanity. So confident that his favorite part was his entire body (yes, including his penis).

Now that he is older, however, he is rather indifferent when it comes to his own body. He isn't the handsome, athletically fit elf that he used to be. He doesn’t put enough effort to have a favorite part of himself anymore. Living in a slum for gods' know how long can take a toll on a person.

On his partner, he admires a feminine, curvy body. A good set of tits, a round ass, and a pretty face have always been able to catch his eye. 

C: Cum (Anything to do with cum)

When he cums, he pulls out and makes a mess all over your body as a way of marking you, letting you know that you are his favorite.

D: Dirty Secret

He accidentally got a daughter of a rival house pregnant. His family found out about it and banished him. She was his first time too.

E: Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

Most dunmer are no strangers to sexuality and partaking in polyamory. Zalyn is no exception. Being an elf, Zalyn can live a very long time. With his naturally long life expectancy, he had the privilege to explore and experiment with multiple people. In his early adult years, he had many lovers, most of whom were older and far more experienced than he was. He used to frequent local brothels and spend a night or two with a different whore to figure out what he liked and didn't like.

He prefers females/femmes but he is not shy about sleeping with males/masc people sometimes.

F: Favorite Position

He fancies any position where he's on top and his cock is thrusting into any of your warm, wet holes.

G: Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc.)  

When comes to pleasing his partner, he is very serious about what he's doing and how you are feeling. There may be moments of silliness during the act, but Zalyn makes sure everything is perfect for both him and you.

H: Hair (How well-groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

Keeping up your personal hygiene while living in a wintery slum is a challenge in itself. Everything is in hard mode. Bathing is rare so Zalyn would go a couple of days, even weeks without a full body cleaning. When he does wash, he does it thoroughly, from top to bottom. He tries hard to not get too filthy, though.

I: Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect)

He savors every moment and truly takes his time savoring all that your body has to offer.

J: Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

Being a refugee, it's hard to find a suitable partner. All the dunmeri women in the Windhelm slum are either married or older widows who are not interested in settling down with him. Alone and unable to betroth a partner, his only resort is pleasuring himself. It's safe to say that this guy jerks off rather frequently.

K: Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Dominance

Biting/leaving marks

Bondage

Edging

Body worship

L: Location (Favorite places to do the do)

The bedroom, obviously, or a brothel if there's one nearby. Anyplace that he and his partner are most comfortable with.

M: Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

If you have a curvy body, he'll want to explore every part of you. Be prepared to be worshiped and complimented a lot.

He is a sucker for submissiveness. He makes sure he's the dominant one in bed and provides his partner pleasure.

Screaming his name during sex is like teasing a dog with a squicky toy. It excites him the more you do it.

Teasing his cock drives him absolutely wild. It's important to tell him how much you love his cock while you’re giving him a blowjob or riding on top of him. Play with his balls and cock ring too.

N: No (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

He lets you have some control over him, like being on top, sucking him off, tieing him to a bed, etc. But if you overdo it, he will not hesitate to remind you of your place in this relationship, and the boundaries that are set in place. He usually gets his way.

Anything that involves fluids and waste grosses him out.

O: Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

He prefers to receive oral. The warmth and wetness of your mouth while you suck him off send shivers down his spine.

P: Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual?)  

Zalyn will go as long as he can during whatever sexual act he's performing. He starts off easy and slow, meticulously inching his cock into you until you are begging for him to hurry up and fuck you senseless. When he goes fast and rough, woo boy, he goes fast and rough! He will fuck you to a point of insanity if you beg him to.

Q: Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)  

Not a fan of quickies. When he's having sex, he wants to do it right.

R: Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)  

Oh gods yes! He loves trying new things and taking risks. Whatever kinky shit you're into, he will gladly try it with you.

S: Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

Sex usually lasts for an hour, depending on how passionate the sex is. It will be drawn out too, where he edges himself nearly to the point of exhaustion before he finally lets himself cum.

T: Toys (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

Not a frequent toy user since he doesn't own any toys of his own, but he is more than willing to use toys on his partner if they have some present. He’s particularly fond of light bondage. Tieing you down in robes while fucking the hell out of you drives him absolutely feral. He also doesn’t mind toys being used on him. He's very open to experimentation.

U: Unfair (How much they like to tease)

He teases a lot during sex. He teases you so that you will beg for more.

V: Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

He is not too terribly loud overall. He generally lets out really breathy, drawn-out groans throughout the majority of the act, but he’s prone to letting out loud moans every once in a while, especially if he’s getting close to cumming.

W: Wild Card (Random headcanon)

Zalyn can be possessive to those he truly cares about. If he builds a strong bond with someone, letting them go is very difficult for him to do. After losing everything in Red Year, he fears losing anything or anyone he cares about.

X: X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants)

Circumcised, as most male dunmer are for cultural and personal reasons. Average girth, and has an above-average length of about 7 1/2 inches. He has Prince Albert piercing on his dick, which is great for simulation when he's penetrating you.

Y: Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

He has a high sex drive. He is ready to have sex whenever you are. 

Z: ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

If the sex is good enough, Zalyn will collapse from exhaustion and fall asleep like a baby.

[pyr0cue]

idk what i should be annoyed at my body most for rn: the shear amount of bloody noses i’ve had in the past 3 days, the allergic reactions to everything in sight, or just the things i normally hate about it

[tightsituationsblog]

Hi everyone. It’s a little while now since I began this blog so I just wanted to comment on some aspects. To those of you who have followed me, thank you kindly, I appreciate your taking the time and finding sufficient interest to take that step. Some of you have been in touch with me & it’s lovely to have your feedback & views. Others have visited, commented &, in some cases followed, however I’ve chosen to block further contact. This will be for one of the following reasons:

I have found an empty blog when returning your visit - I don’t trust empty blogs!

I have found material I personally find offensive to me, to LGBQT people, to women (CIS & Trans). Possibly your material is just plain gross - BLOCKED!

My personal image is that I, perhaps strangely, consider myself a straight guy, but with a very dominant feminine trait, which I attempt to satisfy by cross dressing in female clothes. My absolute preference sexually is for women of all persuasions & appearances, although it will be apparent from my blog, that I am attracted to an elegant, very feminine or girly stereotype. I consider myself & describe myself as a lipstick lesbian.

I suffer terribly from gender envy when it comes to women. I totally realise that being a woman is far far more than just a license to wear sensual, colourful attractive clothes, make-up, hairstyles, hosiery & high heels. Life as a woman in this world can can be pretty damned awful. Women are abused, (especially by men), women have periods & menstrual complications which men such as me can never fully comprehend. Many women are born into societies where they are subjected to horrific practices such as genital mutilation & starved of education & basic freedoms which I take for granted. I do not take any of these issues lightly. I believe in feminism. I believe that men, women & LGBQT people are all equals. Please RESPECT these views if you visit my blog or follow me.

My journey of self-discovery is one which has gone through many phases over the years. From a very early age I had an abnormal interest in women’s hosiery in particular. I put this down to growing up in a house with three women where I constantly saw, & was intrigued by the differences in the clothes we wore. As puberty arrived mail order catalogues, with their lingerie pages, became my study material. I became besotted by the curvy shapes of a woman’s body. I found myself reading more & more about what it meant to be a woman. Their access to fashions enthralled me. I wanted to try it for myself. The more relationships I had with women & female friends the more I became obsessed. Crossdressing began with trying a sister’s stocking on my leg - it felt good- I was hooked.

It never ends there however. I still can’t totally explain why I do what I do, however, I know now that it will not leave me. As I’ve read on other’s sites, we frequently decide that enough is enough, pledge to stop, & purge our collections of tights, skirts, dresses, lingerie, make-up, wigs & shoes only to begin again a few weeks, months or whatever down the line. The curiosity & desire to take one step further next time only becomes more prevalent.

For many, especially today, the journey will conclude with full transition from male to female (I recognise many women also wish to transition to male). I hope that all will find peace, comfort & health when they reach that goal. For me I possibly would have considered that option if there had been more general understanding & compassion for transgendered, dysphoric individuals when I was younger. I’m still not certain that’s what I truly desired. I’ve enjoyed my male life. I’ve had gloriously passionate relationships with lovely, lovely women. I’ve also been able to escape to being Linda - to striving to enjoy that small part of being part of the girls club. I wish it could be more.

I also wish I could show more than just below the waist shots, however I am not out, or indeed brave enough to do so. I greatly admire those of you who have felt sufficiently liberated & confident. You are all heroes to the cause. 💕

I follow many lesbian blogs where the owners allow. Whilst I appreciate many CIS women abhor what I do, as do many lesbians, who only fall for TRUE women, I am still mostly attracted to woman to woman relationships. Please if you’re a lesbian site out there understand I am in awe of you & you have my utmost respect - & ENVY! 💝

Many of the visits I have experienced on the blog relate to sissy behaviour and to sexual penetration by men. I would like to state here that I think of myself as a transvestite or cross dresser & don’t really like being described as a sissy, although ultimately I suppose in many people’s eyes that is indeed what I am. I’m not excited by extravagantly frothy, ultra-girly, satins and lace type clothes. Whilst I do not rule out that my feminine persona may one day wish to find a real penis to worship, or be penetrated by, in as close to a girl manner as is physically possible to me, that is not my immediate preoccupation at this time. Also I would be extraordinarily cautious in terms of I would undoubtedly choose another cross dresser, who I found attractive & suitably elegant & understanding. My point is DON’T SEND ME DISGUSTING MALE MEMBER IMAGES!

Best Wishes,

Linda. 💕

#tightsituationsblog

#tightsituationsbloglinda for my personal images.

[softcallofdutyimagines]

Hello!! Can we have an couple of HCs of the safehouse bois (COD: Cold War) loving their curvy fem s/o? (and maybe trying to make her feel happy in her body if she's insecure of feels weird?)

Thankie and sorry for the oddly specific request 😅

Djsjsjsj ok ik you have like two other requests, and they'll be coming!!! But this struck such a mood I had to skip the line lol.

Honestly, like the way I tried to treat myself to some ✨ s p i c e y ✨ lingerie that just arrived and it fits literally everywhere else except that, ofc the cup size is an absolute JOKE, i-

Anyway, I digress lmao. Thank you for the request(s) btw, and enjoy!!!

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Adler

Personally, he doesn't strike me as the kind of guy to have a particularly strong preference for any one "type"

But in the era where the super tall, super slim, super models reign supreme, he understands that sometimes it's hard to feel pretty if you're built like anything else

After all, I don't think any of the guys know how it feels to see yourself as "unattractive" more then he does

I mean, if he'd been cut a little deeper or on a different angle, he could've needed whole skin grafts, or even physical therapy for his jaw

And who wants a guy as messed up and broken down as that, right?

But you... Oh, you're gorgeous

Adler is very soft and gentle when it comes to his appreciation for you and your body

While he does know how to express himself, he's not really the grand gesture type, like some of the others are

He is the biggest self love hypocrite, always quick to get down on himself and his facial scars, but absolutely cannot STAND to see you upset over you body

You chide him for this now and then, but he usually jokes it away

I know I said Adler doesn't really have a type, but don't think for a second that he'd pass up on a great thing when he gets it

I don't want to say "handsy" but he definitely likes to just... Touch you, when you're alone together

Not even necissarily in a sexual way, he just likes to appreciate the shape of you, you know?

Very into hugs from behind, or really at any angle, as long as he gets to feel his arms around your waist

Also, you can catch him absent mindedly caressing your hips with his knuckles or a lone finger whenever he's standing around with you

Hudson

Oh y'all ain't ready for this one lmao

I am 99% certain that behind that steely facade, is a man who loves nothing more then a THICC juicy Queen™

I'm so serious, like the curvier the better for this dirty dog lmao

The best part is, that the fun isn't in that he just goes feral when you two are alone (although he certainly could, in a rare mood)

He's actually really shy about it, and he doesn't want you to feel like that's the only reason he loves you

And while you do appreciate the respect he has for you, you'd be lying if you said you didn't like to tease him

A favorite of yours is to walk into his home office half or fully naked and watch him, very obviously, struggle to stay focused on his paper work

He knows he's weak, but damn it he can never last long before giving in and handing over whatever kind of attention you're seeking

You know, whatever that may be 😏

When you're feeling insecure however, he can sense it immediately and always seeks to get to the bottom of whatever is causing you to feel that way

Although he's rather direct, he's tactful and tries his best to know the right thing to say

He's a great listener, and will never hesitate to tell you how beautiful and special you are to him

Lazar

Lmao, I don't think there is any universe in which Lazar would not be in full support of being with a curvy woman

Especially as a big guy himself, you two are an absolute power couple

He is both literally and metaphorically your biggest hype man when it comes to your appearance

Also, 10/10 likes to give you gifts of clothes and the like that he thinks you might appreciate/look pretty darn good in

Honestly, it is rare to feel down about your body when in a relationship with him, but everyone gets insecure sometimes, and he gets that

Thankfully, he's a master comforter, and is always at the ready to give you the treatment you need to feel better

Typically you can expect snacks and cuddles if you're just feeling sad, and stuff like a massage or body kisses and so forth if you need a reminder that you're literally the most gorgeous woman on earth

Oh, and he's very protective of you and defensive of your looks

I kind of hate to use this terminology lmao, but Lazar is the Alpha™ everywhere he goes, and he has no problem reminding other guys of it

So if he sees someome else checking you out, he'll be sure to block their view and do something like make direct eye contact until they leave you be

Have you ever had a 6'4, powerlifter looking, tank of a man sneer directly at you before?

Not a good feeling, I assure you

Needless to say, you don't have to put up with much, if any harassment or other stupidity on Lazar's watch

Mason

Alex strikes me as the type who doesn't buy into the paper thin beauty standard that society like to push

Obviously that's great if you're just naturally thin and all! But mostly he's totally down for the curvy, "built like a brick house" type of woman

He appreciates the way that you can keep up with him when he has to do physical things around or outside the house

Alaska is a rather unforgiving place after all, so he finds great comfort in the support and companionship you have to offer him

You're like his little amazonian goddess, and he's always in awe of not only how unbelievably beautiful you are, but also how hardy and tough you can be

In fact, you and your body are so normalized and loved by him in his mind that it genuinely catches him off guard when you say you're feeling insecure about it

But in times like that, he loves to tell you how beautiful your body is, not just for the way it looks but for the things it can do

You're built so strong and tough, but also soft and feminine... he can't even think about being with anyone else

He's very into body worship, like Lazar is, but Alex is a lot more gentle and is extremely conscious of making sure you're alright as he goes along kissing and caressing

If he could only show you how beautiful you are to him, he would in a heartbeat, but for now he just hopes his words and actions are enough

Sims

Oh, you already know Sims loves a thicc, curvy snack of a woman lmao

Skinny guys always love the curvy ladies

He doesn't really go feral when you two are alone, but he's not exactly shy about having this hands all over you either

For sure he always greets you with a compliment, whether it be a look, a whistle, or words... he's prepared

Also, he's very vocal in having you understand that there is not a single outfit you look "bad" or "unflattering" in, even if it's just sweats and a t-shirt

In fact, he is so confident in you, that he loves to show you off when he can and if you're comfortable

Always introduces you as "his girl" and is never afraid to point out your new outfit, hair-do, nails, ect

I feel that Lawrence would be another case where it's quite rare indeed to feel insecure about your body, and so when such times do arise he takes it seriously

He's basically a gentler, more emotional version of Hudson

By that I mean, he's the type to want to talk it out (if you're up to it) and ask what's wrong or if someone said something to you

You'll always have a reliable listener and food advice giver in him, and somehow that seems to always do the trick

Woods

Honestly, Woods is Hudson part 2, except that he has all the vocalized pride of loving curvy women as Sims and Lazar

He's still careful to make sure he doesn't come off as a creep or something, mind you, but complimenting and loving on your body just comes naturally to him

Extremely handsy in private, and you've definitely swatted his hands away from your hips, waist, back, ect more then once

In public, I wouldn't exactly say "handsy" but he's determined to make sure everyone knows you're with him

He usually escorts you places with a hand gently placed either just above your tailbone or protectively wrapped around your waist

As independent as you may be, you must admit, it's nice to feel like a princess everywhere you go, escorted around by your knight in shining flannel

He'll even offer you his arm if he's feeling particularly gentlemanly, because yes, miracles can happen

Unfortunately, Frank is probably the worst wordsmith of all the gang, and is next to clueless on what to say if you're feeling down and insecure

At least to his credit he'll usually start off by admitting to that fact before giving it a try

"Well, you know I'm shit with words, but... I hope you also know that I love you the way you are"

Thankfully what he lacks in words, he makes up for in physical affection

Even if you're really only comfortable with some cuddling, he's gonna cuddle you so good!!! He's determined and will stop at nothing

After all, whatever it takes to make you feel every bit as amazing as he knows you are

[cuffed-jeans-and-anarchy]

quick fyi to the general (cisgender) public about portraying trans people

hi! i'm a trans man. and i'm a little tired of the way some cis people portray us. here's some things you might not have known, but should take into consideration.

PLEASE READ THE WHOLE THING BEFORE COMMENTING.

-trans people (nonbinary, transmasc, agender, transfem, ect) can look however they do and do whatever they want with their appearance, and you still have to respect them.

-a lot of trans masc people are curvy, testosterone or not. we cannot change how wide our hips are. it's okay for a trans masc person to have curves; in fact, a lot of us like seeing that representation. you don't have to draw every trans masc person as this thin, stick-straight, curly haired little twink who passes perfectly. transmasc people can look however they do and do whatever they want with their appearance, and you still have to respect them.

-CISGENDER people drawing transmasc people in dresses, having us appear super feminine (makeup, shaving, looking like fucking bambi) or making smut about a trans man showing off his chest is incredibly not cool.

-a lot of trans women can't change how deep their voices are. they might have a more stereo-typically masculine build. they might have body hair. they may have short hair or deep voices and wear jeans and not like makeup and whatever. transfem people can look however they do and do whatever they want with their appearance and you still have to respect them.

-CISGENDER people portraying TRANSFEM people in a way that fetishizes certain features of theirs is WRONG. i myself am not a transfem person, so i don't feel super qualified to talk about what transfem people are/are not okay with, but transfem people feel free to add on.

-TRANS PEOPLE CAN PORTRAY TRANS PEOPLE HOW THEY WANT. STRAIGHT PEOPLE CAN'T SAY THE F-SLUR, AND IN THE SAME RESPECT, CIS PEOPLE CANNOT PORTRAY TRANS PEOPLE IN SUCH A WAY THAT MIGHT MAKE TRANS PEOPLE UNCOMFORTABLE.

-TRANS PEOPLE ARE ALLOWED TO LOOK HOWEVER THE FUCK THEY WANT. THIS DOES NOT MAKE THEM ANY LESS VALID.

-however, cisgender people FETISHIZING trans people being feminine/masculine (calling attention to a transfem's persons masculine features, for example) is fucked up.

-trans people can portray trans people HOWEVER feels truest to them. cisgender people can't.

-CISGENDER PEOPLE, however, FETISHIZING TRANS WOMEN BEING MASCULINE (OR FETISHIZING TRANS PEOPLE IN GENERAL) IS WRONG. CIS PEOPLE AREN'T ALLOWED TO DO THIS. I DON'T CARE IF YOU HAVE A TRANS RELATIVE. YOU. AREN'T. ALLOWED.

-TRANS PEOPLE DO NOT HAVE TO CONFORM TO CISGENDER NORMS.

-but, again, if a trans man wants to draw a trans man in a sports bra, so be it. can it make other people uncomfortable? yes. should discretion when publishing such material be used? also yes.

-but what isn't cool is trans people trying to make other trans people be more okay with being feminized/being more masculine, or vice-versa. it also isn't okay to shove content (for example) like a trans man in a sports bra toward trans men who don't like that. just use common sense and respect other people.

-it also isn't cool for trans people to shame other trans people for making such content. it isn't okay to invalidate a trans person over such content. trans people can portray and enjoy their own bodies however they see fit. saying anything otherwise is transphobic.

i probably didn't say everything but feel free to add on, and i'll just delete stupid comments. constructive criticism is fine (i'm fifteen, and have only been out for four years, so if you want to respectfully tell me i got something wrong, feel free. i'm still learning.)