#notes to self for next time

[eekamakes]

Yay! I've finished my first repeat! This is the 'Weave long and prosper' scarf kit from the Woolery. It is kinda complicated, but I'm having fun!

It looks mostly like the pattern which I count as a win. There is some wonky stuff happening where I've tied on which I am ignoring. I was too excited after sleighing the reed and just wanted to get started

I also believe that I made a threading error as evidenced by the bunch of threads here in the middle. And I was also a few ends short at the end. I'm guessing that I somehow threaded the same section three times. This draft was very complex and there was no obvious repeat so I probably just read it wrong.

The final issue here is that I skipped a dent in the reed which is causing a spacing issue. I'm hoping that this will be less noticable when I block

But all of this is fine! I'm learning! I'm having fun! Mistakes are part of the process! And it's still gonna be a scarf at the end!

[xnyu09]

have been feeling burnout from art … im not sure if i can finish this piece 🥲( im sorry kon el )

[stervrucht]

I dusted off the ol' wacom.

[pinksilvace]

He needs some sleep

[kyouka-supremacy]

ATSUSHI NAKAJIMA | Bungo Stray Dogs Anime Novel

[crookedghosts]

leo valdez calling jason grace darlin' ..... yes

[dekusleftsock]

I think that there’s a fundamental misunderstanding of what exactly is…happening with Izuku’s character. Specifically in regards to chapter 425.

I’m glad that a lot more people generally recognize that Izuku is not a character that can be read at a surface level, given that he’s both a repressed person with built up emotion of basically everything and also a very glaringly HUGELY unreliable narrator, but that doesn’t necessarily mean I agree with the ways I’ve seen this most recent chapter spoken about.

I see posts, comments, etc with ideas like “Izuku don’t suppress your emotions! Open up with people! It’ll be okay I promise!” When that’s fundamentally not what is happening here.

There’s always always ALWAYS been a distinct difference in character throughout horikoshi’s writing when he is showing that a character is:

A—Avoiding emotions, thoughts, ideas less than ideal for them. Not opening up when they probably should about their problems given that they’ve been handed the space to do so. Just genuinely not acknowledging, feeling, or expressing emotions that they don’t want.

B—Reflecting on the ways they feel about the world, themselves, or other people given their new perspective on a situation. Not outright reaching out to others to talk about these problems/feelings, but instead waiting until the moment they feel they have the most confidence to do so with their new outlook on their own life.

And genuinely, guys, to grab your BkDk attention rn, this is the exact reason why Ochako’s reflection on her feelings for Izuku and thereafter decision to pull away from them WAS NEVER GOING TO END IN OCHAKO EXPLODING WITH HER LOVE FOR HIM.

This was another common interpretation I saw of Ochako and Izuocha for a long time. That because she pushed these feelings away, they were somehow going to explode in this unbelievable way and she would “get the boy” because of it. That her arc would surround accepting her romantic feelings and that she can’t just push away how she feels for a career.

But yk. That didn’t happen. At all. Nowhere close even.

The same kind of goes for Katsuki, allmight, etc. They all had moments in their arc where it was spent genuinely reflecting, and the only reason we as the audience never connected it in the same ways we do ochako or Izuku was ALWAYS BECAUSE the narrative showed their inner thoughts while doing so (mostly because Allmight’s arc after losing OFA and Katsuki’s arc on what it means to be a hero were so intrinsically tied, both starting at the same time and ending at the same time during the final war. And because they were so tied this caused their own reflections, development, and thought process to be broadcasted to us frequently throughout their arcs… to each other. They also somewhat shared aspects with Izuku, but these were cherry picked more often than not, like dvk2 for example).

To us Katsuki never seemed to be.. idk, suppressing his anger in any way because we were always told what he was doing and why (side note: this is why I’ve always thought arguments against Katsuki were so weird, bc unlike characters like endeavor or Ochako he wasn’t like… hiding who he was and how he was changing. Ever. Like the audience knows at all times past basically season 3 what Katsuki is thinking and doing. Like how do you watch this happen, stare me dead in the eye, and tell me how much of a terrible and awful teenage boy he is. Like damn I didn’t think we were this dumb. This is also my theory as to why he’s most popular, his arc is very… in your face if that makes sense). Katsuki’s entire mini arc on reflecting his mistakes and his childhood and his future is spent TELLING YOU that it’s what he’s doing. (I’m referring mostly to the endeavor internship arc, the provisional license exam makeup, and basically everything in the war arc related to him leading up to bakugou Katsuki rising here)

And see, Horikoshi will stare you dead in the eye, tell you “this girl has taken into consideration that she doesn’t want to waste her time training her career focusing on a boy because he kinda caught her fancy”, and y’all will still say that this will explode in her face.

Y’all this is a series about learning how to manage emotions, maturity in relationship to one’s emotions, how to feel an emotion, but in a way that is helpful. Horikoshi isn’t telling you “go buck wild, feel everything all the time and always express it”, in fact he explores why you DONT do that! Through Toga or Shigaraki, they show how grief and anger can genuinely consume you. But he also shows why you shouldn’t just put everything in a box to never look at or acknowledge, or why you shouldn’t just let your grief destroy the world around you, or pretending that some emotions simply don’t exist.

I can’t say this enough, so let me say it now, mha is about the extremes of your psyche. That you should control something, but not too much. Everything can be harmful. Everything can be good.

Izuku is not controlling too much, he’s expressing just enough.

I LOVE shaming this dickhead at all times in all my posts. I love saying he’s an ignorant dipshit with a weird amount of distaste for a girl who just confessed to him. I’ve joked that chapter 348 is basically an entire chapter spent on Izuku calling Himiko a mean dyke. And yet I also believe he’s doing nothing WRONG here.

In fact, I’ll even say that this moment right here?

ISNT EVEN IZUKU DOING THE SOCIALLY APPROPRIATE THING ABOUT IT! But he’s still TRYING to reach out to someone he thinks MIGHT be able to understand. (And frankly, this moment is far deeper than what it’s being made out to be, to me it reads more like an unrequited friendship that Izuku both desires and has thought of them to have, while simultaneously showing the distance Ochako has successfully wedged between them for her own sake. Maybe it was always there though, maybe in weird, miscommunicated Horikoshi fashion, this is a representation of how Ochako always read all those “fun friend hangouts” as a little more than that, and without those feelings the friendship never really held any substance to her in the first place. Where Izuku saw his first real friend at UA, she saw little more than acquaintance)

Simultaneously, Izuku is genuinely reflecting on what it means for the world to change, to be a hero, to live after loss—and trying and failing to gain the connection he desires from individuals who can not and will not afford him that.

Izuku is ready for the world to change, a few select characters are also ready for the world to change (mirio, for example), but not nearly enough are. So maybe I’ll have to take this back if I’m proven wrong and I accidentally looked into this far past what everyone else did for no reason, but I genuinely believe with moments like this

And this

Aand this

That Izuku has come forward with that aspect of his character development. He’s reflecting on his new beliefs, not repressing his emotions for them.

[knightkaito1412]

Don't expect much interaction from this, lol, but look what I did! A whole page of doodles dedicated to this silly man from Kaiju No.8!

I loved drawing Kafka's different expressions both in human and kaiju form. It was a fun challenge!

Kafka is definitely my favorite from the series. His personality, motivations, and interactions with the other characters are such a breath of fresh air compared to usual shonen protags. It's probably because he's older... And I love that! 🩵

[isjasz]

Happy birthday Jaz!!!!!

-🐀

GUYS. GUYS MY BDAY WAS YESTERDAY I JUST POSTED ABT IT WAY TOO LATE IN THE DAY LMAOFSAOJFAOS

TYSM FOR THE BDAY WISHES OUGEHUGHGUE I hope everyone is having an amazing day as well!!! explodes on impact

[cinamun]

It was my fault, I own it. My bad. Aight so boom....

During the backyard long lost sibling and cuzzo meet up or BYLLSACMU™, we got a great looking medium well steak, an excellent quality citrus salad and a strawberry pie that Hope baked the night before. She even made little gourmet sandwiches for the babies (and leveled up in gourmet cooking, too. love that for her).

But we decided on these bitches right here

as the cocktails for the BYLLSACMU™.... big mistake. These are drinks that actually have effects and my dumb ass didn't realize that these, chosen for the pretty flower because, duh, its spring, make the sim flirty. <- where I fucked up.

So now Eva is mad flirty like IMMEDIATELY after her first sip and is being very extra about it. Then Jayce gets flirty! Now Hope has the flirty buff, but she's more energized so that's the mood she's in (and she's energized because she's an overachiever and not only cooked all that yummy food but cleaned tf outta that kitchen).

And then it happened.....

I WAS LIKE WTF IS THIS HOPE?? But then I was like well damn, she's right.... like they haven't been intimate (except for that one time on the couch) since Jayce fell down the long lost sibling rabbit hole. He got so hyperfixated he forgot his wife's holes!

Now she wants to talk n shit

Now the reason I say its my fault is because technically, in game, Jay and Eva have no familial relationship (this is a story y'all..... fiction). I haven't gotten there yet. So Hope really just thinks her husband and this random ass woman who MCCCd to her house with a kid in tow are just conveniently flirty together..... (cardi voice) THAT'S SUSPICIOUS.

Whole time Jay....

mans just wants to have more babies and chat with his sister-in-law.... and conquer his fear of fire.

[hopelessbaddays]

just chilling in false hero form

[sicksweetcreamy]

COSMODE Wormlotte Hand Puppet prototype complete! Google Translate was a lifeline, not that that meant I hadn't run into steps I had trouble figuring out. But I'm glad I was able to finish it!

[friend-dogor]

banjo week two notes 🪕

GETTING FASTER ! getting sloppier also, so it needs refining, but im building up the muscle memory finally

had a conversation with my dad where he told me somebody'd told him about a study that showed most people learned instruments best when they spend a little bit of time hard focusing on something and a lotta bitta time just kind of fiddling around while not Really focusing. like, strumming the chords while watching tv or something. this is great news for me because i don't have it in me to have my nose to the banjo shaped grindstone all the time

still avoiding tuning my banjo out of open G and into C—so i'm playing petes songs for C in open G and just translating the chords.

went on a very brief 24 hour trip out of state and even kinda missed my banjo a little bit...... 🥺 made me all the more excited to play it when i got back.

on sunday i passed it to my dad and my brother and they are both so much more musically skilled than me that i felt like a Thrill of Competency that i could tell my dad where to find the basic chords on the banjo. already, i have some minuscule amount of expertise on this instrument.....

that said once they found out the chords they could jam on it and produce lovely music, while im still sounding plunky and cautious. I'LL GET THERE!!!!!!!!!!! lovely to see and hear other people play the banjo though.

i'm less concerned about the weight/feel of the banjo now. it bothers me a little less/havent had any chest pain using it this week. maybe just getting used to it?

CAN KINDA PLAY SKIP TO MY LOU ON THIS THING ALREADY....not Well and not Fast and not Fancy but i think it's recognizable.

have googled "how long does it take to learn banjo" several times and keep getting many beautiful wise banjo websites telling me not to compare myself to others and that its all about the journey not the destination. and this is so true but i also want to make sure im not fucking it up so a little self comparison is not unhealthy i think. so i asked my dad how long it took him to learn guitar and he said "how would you define 'having learned guitar'" and so i said "when you felt you knew at least a single song well enough that you'd be confident performing it in front of somebody else" and he said "about six months, maybe a year." and so using my dad's experience learning guitar as a highschool freshman, also self taught, i think i am doing okay.

he said he learned to play from a neil young booklet, and that he played a single song in there for those six months, and my grandma, sick of hearing it, got to calling it "that old song again" LMFAO. would be funny to learn whatever song that is.

tried to find a little more banjo to listen to on my regular music app just to hear it a little more, and for understandable reasons most of what turned up was bluegrass, but i dont think im deep into banjos enough to really get bluegrass, it feels like the genre which most wants to showcase complicated and fascinating picking styles, a little like metal is for guitars, and i still need thing that are pared down a bit that i can follow by ear.

plus, for better or for worse im a folkhead at heart

anyway here's some snippets from How to Play The 5 String Banjo that i was amused by

[lostxmelody]

uhh mikofuu but make it inuokko

[worstloki]

following the theory that loki intentionally banded the avengers together so he could sicc them on thanos later, after he took the throne in T:TDW, i think he'd be so angry at the events of civil war like:

loki as odin: hello heimdall, how do earth's mightiest heroes fare as of late?

heimdall: they have disagreed on many subjects and split up two days ago

loki:

heimdall:

loki: they haVE WHAT?

cue loki coming down to earth and bonking everyone's heads together until they all get along again

stark: how the heck are you alive???

loki: skills. listen here, i did not pour my blood, sweat and tears to form this team for you idiots to throw all my hard work out the window!

loki, grabbing rhodes and stark by the wrists: now, we are going to get your little friends out of prison, understood?

like an exasperated kindergarten teacher, y'know?

Loki, hitting Steve over the head with a newspaper: he's your friend, of course he's upset you lied to him about something like this

Tony: hah!

Loki, giving Tony a death glare: did you have to fight each other about it

[amelikos]

Tebrim learning Healing Wish as a move is so interesting in regards to Liko's duality as a character, especially when it comes to her empathy/kindness and ruthlessness in battles?

Healing Wish is a move that causes the user to faint and in return, the Pokemon taking its place will have its HP restored and cured of any status condition. In this episode, it was used to highlight Liko and Tebrim's desires to reach out to Rafflesia, not hurt the Pokemon anymore as it was clearly in pain due to the Rakurium to the point it hurt its own friends. The situation highlighted Liko and Tebrim's empathy and care for others' feelings, and this move illustrates their tendancy to put others above themselves, and their self-sacrificial nature.

The other side of the coin of Healing Wish is that it has a ruthless aspect to it. Going forward, if Liko and Tebrim are willing to use this move for any reason or situation that would call for it, Liko would know that it is a move that would cause Tebrim to faint so another Pokemon can regain full health. Which would highlight her willingness to make sacrifices to reach her desired ends.

Damaging yourself to heal someone else. Truly a compelling move in terms of implications.