#nothing worse than someone who apologizes and then doesn't change their behavior

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I don't need to, but I'll explain my Bakugou hate because I want to.

Long post. Beware

When I started reading the series I was the same age as the characters. Looking at my interests you can probably guess that I was bullied, but instead of getting all sad, I got angry at the people treating me poorly.

So as soon as Bakugou was introduced, I didn't like him. Seeing someone my age verbally threaten and physically attacking people without being punished just really put me in a bad mood whenever he showed up.

Then certain parts of the fandom got incredibly toxic, and suddenly the author is pandering to the worst of them

But the problem keeps getting worse. The entire world warps to kiss his ass. He got everything he wanted at every turn. He deserved nothing and got everything.

Immediately established as a long-term bully. His bullying is then retroactively justified by the world itself saying that Midoriya is worth less than Bakugou as a person.

Why did Aizawa, who was famous for expelling students, not so much as give Bakugou detention for trying to attack Midoriya on the first day of school?

Why didn't All Might punish him for using that gauntlet in the Battle Trials?

Despite all of his actions so far, just since being accepted into UA, the other students still want to be friends with him. They actively choose to spend time near him.

Why is it never mentioned how him(and Kirishima) attacking Kurogiri and getting in Thirteen's way is a large part of why the USJ played out how it did?

His speech at the Sports Festival

Everyone wanting to be on his team, but he doesn't know any of their names or quirks.

Trying to make an unconscious Todoroki fight back in the finals

Aizawa constantly excusing all of his behavior, circling back to my point about the world itself justifying Bakugou's shitty behavior

Attacking Midoriya in the Final Exam.

How did Sero fail his exam by being carried out but Bakugou passed?

At the Training Camp, he actively tried to go fight the villains that have openly stated were trying to capture him. Making himself an easy target and hindering the people trying to protect him

During the Rescue Operation he somehow managed to hold his own against the majority of the League of Villains on his own? Really?

He forced Midoriya to break curfew and just starts attacking him until Midoriya fights back. It's caught on camera and Midoriya somehow gets in the same amount of trouble?

And for some reason he gets let in on the secret of One for All after being such a monumental asshole since forever, despite the fact that even Inko doesn't know? Or literally anyone who would be, like, supportive of Midoriya?

He failed the Provisional License Exam, but don't worry there's a special make-up class just for the people that made it into the second half. Everyone who failed in the first half will have to wait for the next exam.

Oh wow, flawless victory in the Joint Training Arc by displaying teamwork out of thin fucking air that was really just him barking orders at the others.

For a while we just get his usual brand of egotistical asshole-ery and now being needlessly shoved into places where Midoriya's actual friends should be. Or even any of the other side characters. Horikoshi, give them some screen time

But then the war arc and the vigilante Deku arc all just get down on their knees to suck his dick so hard that his quirk evolves and his heart explodes. And I finally get a glimmer of hope for the series to finally stop shoving him down our throats, but no.

Edgeshot decides that this one kid is so important that he will sacrifice his own life to save Bakugou specifically and no one else is on his level of importance.

Going back a step; That apology was pure fucking lip service. Not a single goddamn thing changed in the way he acted afterward. He had a couple of "soft" moments when he wasn't actively screaming and cursing, but that's it.

And Horikoshi keeps fucking doing it.

Somehow each and every thing has to include Bakugou or be about how it's effecting Bakugou or has to mention Bakugou.

The majority of the (much more interesting) cast has been completely forgotten, and Midoriya's characterization got taken out back, given three rounds to the head, skinned, washed in bleach, and hung out to dry, but Oh Wow! BAKUGOU'S HERE!

I said it before and I'll say it again, I'd throw a brick at him.

These are only the broadest strokes of what happened too. If I reread the entire series I could write a massive in-depth character analysis, but that's too much even for me.

[spocks-kaathyra]

really nothing more detestable than a coward

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A moment forever ago

Pairing: Leon Kennedy x GN!Reader

Summary: In an elevator, a moment forever ago, Leon might have found the love of his life. But it was over forever ago.

Warning tags: SONGFIC, PAIN PAIN, ANGST, hurt/some/no comfort, in italics are the song lyrics, happens during an elevator ride, love in first sight

Author's Notes: song fic 100% based on A Moment Forever Ago from the show called Central Park. my recommendation? you should read this fic as you listen to the music that inspired! every time i write angst fanfic i wonder if im going to outdo myself (creep, emptiness, ghost of you, the tragedy of leon s. kennedy) and honestly, i always try to break everyone's heart. you be the judge if i did it worse (or better)!

my leon's masterlist

It is hard to say if love at first sight exists. Some say it is pure bull, a stupid idea, whereas romantics try to find theirs on every street corner of a supermarket aisle. Leon Kennedy is neither of those. He doesn't have time for the whole arrangement of being a couple and ardently in love with someone.

He was probably destined to end it alone, which was a better deal for everyone, especially himself. But life happens to everyone, and even Agent Kennedy isn't immune to that.

"There was a moment forever ago

That keeps me up on quiet nights

And flickers like a pilot light"

It happens during a stupid elevator ride, during which nothing important ever happens. Leon is on the 28th floor of a hotel, returning from another exhausting mission, thinking when it is finally time to give up, change his name, and run away to some forgotten island in the middle of nowhere where no one would ever find him. He could change his name to Lucius Kelly. He would let his hair and beard grow, live peacefully with a farm and tons of chickens and pigs, and never return to the city, instead drinking coconut water and getting tanned the whole day.

The elevator door opens, and Leon finds himself face-to-face with you. You stand in the middle of the elevator, more to the left, not lifting your eyes as he enters. You are too focused on your thoughts, in a distant point of this reality. Leon stands on your other side, trying to give you the privacy not to stare, but he looks at you again with a sudden interest.

Staring at a fixated point in the elevator's doors, not acknowledging his presence. You don't seem the kind who will strike up a conversation or ask about the weather, nothing like that, which generally Leon didn't like. With a blank expression, you stare at the doors, which shouldn't intrigue Leon as much, but it does.

There is just something about you, and he can't quite place it.

The elevator bell dings and Leon's attention is momentarily drawn to a businessman walking in, ignoring both of you and standing near the door, too busy on his phone closing deals. When Leon quickly gives you a look, he glimpses your head, quickly turning to the wall on your side. As if you are caught staring back at him, too.

"A moment forever ago

That makes me wait through memories"

You are probably thinking he is a creep, Leon thinks. Exemplar behavior from a US agent, Mr. Kennedy, goggling at someone like that. But he can't help himself to look again, noticing you playing with the sleeve of your hoodie, a slight movement to someone who isn't paying enough attention. But Leon is. He figures it is a tiny nervous tick you develop to cope with stressful situations. You are enigmatic, ordinary to common eyes, but not to him. Beautiful in your own way. The elevator's door opens again, and a couple walks in, smiling and occupying the space in front of Leon. Leon gives them extra space, bumping his arm against yours. He quickly apologizes, but you don't seem to care, simply looking at your shoes. 

"But when I look back, all that I can find

Is that moment forever ago

Was it over forever ago?"

Elevator rides shouldn't take more than two or three minutes, but this one is surely taking longer than it should. More people enter the elevator (was there a convention of some sort in this place?), causing Leon's body to get closer to yours, his arm touching yours. He no longer apologizes, maintaining his eye on the door, hoping it can open. That's when he feels the light brush on the palm of his hand.

"Now that moment forever ago

Is home to more than one regret

A recurring sad vignette"

Or was it all his imagination? Maybe just a phantom feeling of a warm touch, a deep desire from his chest. It had to be your touch; it had to be because no one else was so close to him right now. Feeling his face burn and acting like his young self, Leon is ready to listen to your apology that never comes. He looks at you sideways, but still no reaction. He can't figure out your expression. It could have been just a figment of his imagination, desperate for human comfort. Jesus, Leon is miserable. Pitiful, an idiot.

It is the 10th floor now, and Leon suddenly sees himself asking for your name. Your phone number. He imagines your voice, the sound of your laugh. What are your hobbies, your passions, your favorite songs? The one you scream so loud from the bottom of your heart, the one who makes you cry like a baby. Leon sees him wanting something for the first time in his miserable life since Raccoon City, something that could change his life, something that only he, Leon Kennedy, could have. Something that could be his and only his.

"And that moment has taught me to know

That I can't let this one slip by me"

The elevator door suddenly dings again, and everyone starts leaving, you and Leon are the last ones. You give him a quick look as he stands his arm, letting you pass, and you exit as he follows right behind you. As Leon directs to the reception, you walk toward the exit, side by side arms brushing each other, a way to prolong this moment as long as you can. When it's finally time to depart, you look at him straight into his eyes. 

"I—" His "I" comes out so soft, so low you could pretend not to hear it.

Silence. No word comes out of your mouth, and no word comes out of his mouth. There is no one around you two. The world stops spinning, just you and him, and he can't bring himself to speak, as do you. A long moment passes, during which Leon waits for you to say something, anything, and you wait for the same. Leon wonders if you are imagining your future with him, as he imagines his with you. And Leon knows you do the same because your eyes are getting wet, and you finally stop playing with your shirt sleeve.

The moment passes, and you turn around, leaving the hotel, not looking back.

Leon doesn't follow you. He watches as you leave; probably the last time he will see you. He knows he shouldn't drag anyone into his life, his mess. Leon sighs. Maybe the romantic idiots aren't such idiots, and love at first sight could exist, who knows? Perhaps he isn't so cursed at all, he realizes with a tiny hint of a smile, walking towards the reception to check out. Because if it happens once, it could happen again, right?

"Or else it's sure to also be

A moment forever ago"

[the-real-eminem]

Could you please write more about Midousuji Akira😭😭?? I love him so much and it hurts so much that there is NO content with him😭

HI!!! so I actually saw this ask a few days ago and went "omg!! good idea!!" then completely forgot 🩷

BUT THEYRE HERE NOW!!!

these might be a little basic, I rlly need to start writing the more interesting ones down when I get them AND IF I REMEMBER I WILL SHARE THOSE ASWELL!! but here tú go 🩷🩷

- If you happen to catch Midousuji's attention, one of two things will happen:

-one, he's not gonna be happy about it. He's cut away anything and everything unnecessary for his one goal: Victory... and now here you are, here to ruin what he's worked so hard to build. He wishes he was more upset. he wishes that he felt nothing but disgust when he looked at you, instead of the nervous butterflies of his stomach.

-two, obsessed. He would 100% percent be a yandere in the right condition. But like in the first scenario, he still hates you and blames you for the fact he likes you. That being said. He'll give you preferential treatment, and lots of it. He wants you close, unsure of why, but he knows he wants it. Every conversation you have with someone else is cut short by snippy passive aggressive interruptions— and you can only apologize for his behavior so much before the other person gets sick of him.

- would not be a yandere that kills ppl (duh). But you know what he's VERY good at? blackmail and tailing. Anyone who shows a sliver of interest in you WILL be extensively researched, all just so he knows the best way to keep them out of your life, and his in yours. He runs a club of first years who will do anything to gain his approval, why not have one tail the person and tell him their every action? (he did it for each inter high, and your no less important to him)

-once he has you... he has zero idea what to do. He's still nervous, now more than ever. he's confused— what changed? he has you now... why haven't these feelings stopped? He's used to the empty feeling he gets after he wins a race, he's used to a high that dies down— but... you're not going anywhere, he feels the same twist in his stomach when he looks at you.

-It all comes to a head when you first show him your affection. Whether it be a kiss, a hug, or just saying "I love you". When it happens he feels it again. A rush of yellow warmth in his chest that he hasn't felt since the hospital. the feeling that only comes it faint doses when he's first at the finish line. But it's back, and it's strong.

- His response is slow, but intense. Now whenever he does somthing nice for you (which you've noticed- he's been doing A LOT lately) he waits for praise, another "I love you" , another kiss another hug. The feelings of yellow don't come in short lived doses like they used to anymore– its constant when he's around you, overbearing.

-Its worth mentioning: he's still an asshole to you, but this time with good intentions. The name calling and picking on you gets worse, but actually, his interaction with you OVERALL is changing. He talks to you most out of anyone he has in his life. He's mean to you- but he'd tell you things he'd never tell anyone else. He doesn't even realize how open he is around you, he talks to you without thinking about what he's even saying. Whether it be offensive (usually is, it's him) or somthing floating around in the back of his head.

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Thoughts about Porky?

my thoughts on porky are such a vast tangled web of forever spaghetti that i'm not even sure where to begin or what to pin down. the premise of a tormented child ascending to near-godhood out of sheer misanthropic spite towards the whole wide world makes my brain do backflips like a sea world dolphin. i'll ramble a bit about him.

he's ness' foil. just two chubby kids who probably grew up with their (un)fair share of bullying. the only thing distinguishing them was the familial abuse porky suffered, which he inevitably regurgitated. then destiny comes along, choosing ness over porky, and the jealousy just eats porky alive. watching his bestie accumulate friends and accolades, unable to accept it's his own rotten behavior that's driven a wedge between them. gotta imagine the burden of cutting porky off was almost unbearable for ness. somethin' that keeps him up at night, wondering if he'd just been a little kinder, or sterner, or more understanding - maybe he could've saved his old friend? not quite yet realizing it was Not At All his responsibility to "fix" someone who'd dug his grave and laid in it. porky's the kinda bad guy you love to hate, but considering his upbringing, you hesitate to blame the poor schmuck. all he knows is authority and manipulation. if you gave any ornery ostracized thirteen year old unlimited power - instead of empathy and guidance - they'd probably go down the path of vengeance, too.

he's lucas' foil. both of 'em were given plenty of reasons to hate the world. when faced with an unhappy childhood, do you choose love anyways, and move forward? or do you let it become your villain origin story? porky refuses to grow up, to such an extreme degree, that he's gotta drag everybody down into neverland with him. thinks he's got human nature all figured out, when really - kid dropped out in eighth grade - his expertise starts at the middle school lunch table and ends at Lord of the Flies. where lucas seeks to bring about a brighter future, porky's terminally obsessed with the past. barfs up the same old hierarchical capitalist bullshit he grew up with. hoards memorabilia. makes monuments to his warped nostalgia, as if anyone on the nowhere islands knows or cares. even tries to mold lucas into a makeshift ness - one last final battle, one last chance for destiny to stop me, here, take this baseball bat, come get me, let's play. but it doesn't worrrrk, because the gilded past he aches for is long buried, and these people aren't actors in his self-aggrandizing biopic. where lucas wakes up and says, "i don't have to be the same coward i was yesterday," porky says, "me? change? not a chance in hell." even if it costs him everything. porky's real worst nightmare is a world that moves on without him. once he's trapped in his time capsule, that's exactly what he's got in store.

i think he's the sunk cost fallacy incarnate. the sheer momentum of a thousand horrible decisions he can never turn back on. earthbound porky might get a little bit of slack, sure. but given a bazillion years worth of opportunities to change, mother 3 porky actively chose to get worse. what fucks me up most is how real he is. can't call a villain like this "insane", or even terribly exaggerated, when i'm lookin' out the window these days at billionaires, covid deniers, fuckin' terfs and maga hats. some people really would sooner die, or become all-consuming monsters, than admit they were wrong. it's all or nothing. in his eyes, either he's a visionary hero, or everything he's ever done was irredeemably reprehensible - and all the torment and criticism and loneliness he endured was therefore deserved. he can't bear the weight of it, so he simply doesn't. that's what underpins his character, to me. like. the moment he'd admit fault, or apologize, or express an ounce of regret? he'd cease to be porky. denying himself the human capacity to grow, forever, just to spare his fragile ego. could almost pity him. almost.

a perfect villain for both of the stories he terrorizes, and my favorite villain in anything ever. when itoi said "porky is truly a poem in himself" he wasn't kidding.

[idiotwhowritesshipstuff]

hi! I have a request can I request for Yan! Akane (dra) & Kanade (sdra2) with a childhood best friend? Like would they be more iffy over their behaviors if reader was their childhood friend? Or would they not care? Anyways that’s all!^^

OOOOO I like this request there's a lot of potential with these two and a childhood friend.

Note: The banner for Akane Taira is different depending on if she's yandere or normal Akane, Kanade's banner never changes as she's always yandere also I just wanna say making a banner for Kanade was a doozy as I originally gave her a more vibrant background like her illustration but then I remembered she much prefers rock and metal music so I went through 3 different variations of rock and metal backgrounds before settling on the current one. Also debated on going for her default sprite or a more smug one but I thought the blank smile was the best one to use

Doing these two in one request is interesting as they're very different yanderes.

Due to how long these are they are being put under cut, I'm a bit out of practice with yanderes but I think these turned out pretty good and I hope you like them

Mod Monaca

TWs: Child abuse, allusions to suicide, murder (I mention the murder of a pet in Kanade's portion) and Kanade Otonokoji (That's a trigger right?)

Yandere! Akane Taira and Kanade Otonokoji x Childhood friend reader

For you to be a childhood friend of hers you had to be one of the children at the orphanage she was raised in. You were probably someone who took care of children there after being beaten and abused by the caretakers.

Akane's feelings for you started after you tried to treat her wounds after she got a beating from the matron for accidentally slipping in front of her. Your treatment wasn't perfect, you had no medical expertise and you had nothing but a first aid kit you snuck from the adults in the orphanage but it meant the world to her that someone cared about her enough to try and heal her despite lacking the proper means to do so. From that day onward, you were the person most dear to her in the entire world.

She would follow you around as much as she could, often doing chores for you even if she was injured in an effort to get close to you. It's easy to dismiss her clinginess as her simply being attached to the one kind person in the hellhole you two had to call home.

When Utsuro saved you two from the orphanage, despite her immense gratitude to Utsuro, you were the first one in her life to do anything to save her so she stuck with you and simply remembered Utsuro like the Voids did, a savior who appeared one day then never came back.

Akane is an obsessive and possessive type of yandere, she puts you on a pedestal above all people and she believes as the Ultimate Maid and your oldest friend, only she can be by your side and serve you. She scoffs at the idea of someone trying to take her place by your side as she's a master of household chores and she has been working for you ever since you two were small children, even if you didn't realize it.

Whether or not she hides her true self from you depends on how you respond to her possessiveness, if it disturbs you she will completely hide it from you after getting on her hands and knees to apologize over disturbing you. She is deathly terrified at the idea of you rejecting her, she believes it's worse than death if you reject her so she may go on an "I'm sorry" tirade depending on how poorly you react to her being possessive and calling you "Y/N-sama".

If you're neutral or even accepting of her possessiveness she wouldn't hide it, this is her ideal scenario as she can be by your side and show how much she loves you and protect you from people she deems are out to hurt you or you two's relationship.

Honestly, Akane doesn't necessarily need you to feel romantic love for her, so long as you stay by her side forever, she won't mind if it's as a friend even if that part is a bit disappointing.

If you find a romantic partner or best friend who isn't her, she'll be filled with rage, she has enough control to not be overwhelmed by it and act blindly but she'll make it clear from day one that she doesn't like them. She would sabotage your relationship with this new person by doings things like outshining them with her household talents and athletic abilities in subtle ways to show to you that she is better than them, sabotaging get togethers and dates to ruin your image of them and digging up dirt that'll make her hatred of them appear justified, she is willing to blow information out of proportion to justify it to you, she'll take the knowledge you delighted in teasing someone in grade school and say you were a cruel bully who delighted in the pain of your peer caused by verbal abuse. To be clear, she doesn't believe that but she wants you to believe that so she'll pretend as though she does and may even have the information hit a little close to home just to make it clear she's on your side here though she would never be completely on the nose as the orphanage hurt her as much as it hurt you.

She would resort to murder if you still stayed with them through all her sabotage efforts. She'll use her expert cleaning abilities to either make it look like an accident or like they mysteriously disappeared. She would hate seeing you in pain over what happened to them but she'd simply make it up to you by treating you like royalty to make you feel better.

Her ideal world with you has you being successful in whatever endeavor you choose and you have her by your side as your partner and maid. Akane's low opinion of herself makes it so she wouldn't be able to see herself as anything higher than your romantic partner and personal maid but just because she thinks lowly herself doesn't mean she will allow anyone else to be higher than her in your personal relationships. She'll let you have friends outside of her but don't try to replace her, she will never let that happen.

You never stood a chance in life the day Kanade Otonokoji decided you were not under the category of "Irrelevant person". She probably met you in school when she wanted nothing more than Hibiki's love but you made her crave the love of not just her sister but your love too.

There's no clear event that sparked her feelings for you, she simply decided over time that she didn't just want her sister's love and attention but your love and attention too, she didn't think that was possible but love is a strange thing so she would welcome the change, with her talents and abilities, adjusting her plans to include another person is no issue whatsoever.

If you somehow weren't, she would make you become friends with Hibiki. It's non-negotiable, she'll figure out every single of your interests and use it to make you and Hibiki bond, she'll even lock you two in a room with no one but each other if she has to, all in order to make you two get along and allow you to join their duo.

She'd love watching you and her older twin sister interact. She's not particularly picky over what you two do together but she does find it extremely amusing if you try to "defend her" from Hibiki's bullying. Much like she does with Sora, she'll assure you that the teasing and bullying really doesn't bother her (as it really doesn't), but she'll definitely love the fact you care about her enough that you'll argue with a close friend to defend her honor.

Much like she did with Hibiki, she'll cater which talent of hers she uses most to what your interests are. If your love is music and your love is pop music, she'll have you join her and Hibiki's band, Melody Rhythm, if you love music but not pop music then she'll still be by your side as a guitarist in your endeavors and encourage Hibiki to be a good friend and help out too despite the different genre. If you love art, she'll join you whether it be digital art, oil painting or sculpting. To not exclude Hibiki, she'll encourage you to help make promotional art and album covers for Melody Rhythm. If your passion is in athletic activity, she and Hibiki will be your personal cheerleaders through games and competitions.

Canon makes it clear what she wants with the person of her affections, much like with Hibiki, she'll kill everyone closest to you all in the name of having you dependent on her. She would love to have you in a puppet state like her dear sister and nothing in the world will beat having you and Hibiki by her side in a puppet state, waiting for her to have them do something with that adorable blank face.

She would hide her true self from you very thoroughly in order to maintain her image as a cute and caring girl who despite her shyness is always willing to help you through all the mysterious tragedies happening in your life. The only thing that would ever get her to break character is if someone actually managed to seriously see through her true intentions with the two closest people in her life or if you somehow got the idea you could question her or even accuse her of any of the bad things happening in your life. Kanade can easily repair her mask the second the issue that caused her to break character is gone and dealt with.

Your future is bleak, you will never escape Kanade for the rest of your life no matter how hard you try. She is a highly talented and well connected serial killer who has no limit to what she'll do. Whether it be a beloved pet, your parents or even your favorite teacher from 2nd grade, she'll kill anyone who gets in her way of having you all to herself.

[glacierruler]

Patton Sanders

Just felt like sharing my very nuanced opinions about a certain side. He's not my favorite, but I see a lot of myself in him. Which is both a good and bad thing. Be very warned this is heavily based off of how I act vs. how I've seen him act in canon, but I'm not going to bring up specific in canon moments. It's just how I remember him.

First things first, I adore Patton, but he's trying to juggle too much. He's trying to control his emotions, be the example Thomas is to lead by, be the 'dad' persona, and keep everything in check. Because of this, Patton is manipulative, but I don't think he means to be. I think, most of his manipulation, honestly comes from a place of, things need to be this way morally, if they aren't then Thomas might be a bad person, and if that's the case I've failed him. What am I supposed to do them? Which is a huge weight for any of the sides to carry. Feeling as if though they failed him because they couldn't lead him down the correct path. But what Patton doesn't seem to get, is that he's not the only one making those judgements on morals. All of the sides have their own views on what's a priority and what's moral or immoral. I think in the redux, Patton finally realized that(to an extent, idk if it's an in depth revelation yet), because he saw that he was hurting Thomas. But in seeing that, he and the others ended up hurting Roman, who had looked to Patton for the more moral side of things, because he had thought that only Patton could make the call on that. Because of the sway morality has on the princely side, who's supposed to be doing his best to always do the moral thing, Roman ended up getting really hurt because of this. Also Patton's silence in the end was telling for how his views had changed and he wasn't sure of his stance on anything or anyone anymore, including Roman. Everything was just flipped upside down and shattered for him. Because he had been basing his morality off of his feelings. The feelings he had been trying to juggle, repress, and hide from the others. Yes he had talked to the others about his feelings and repressing and hiding them. But that doesn't mean he's stopped, it's hard to stop a habit that's been so ingrained into your head that no one knew about until recently. And this repression is because he has been raised to view these negative emotions as 'bad' and 'evil' so how could the others like anything about him that isn't perfect and good? And in turn, if Thomas isn't perfect and good, then that's Patton's fault. And on top of that, he's trying to be the dad persona to all of us, someone who's happy and loving. Someone you can always look up to and rely on. He's trying to be all of that, do all of that, and he can't. He's putting too much on his plate, and hurting those closest to him because of that, and he's only just grasped that he's been hurting Thomas because of Janus.

And because of all this, I can't hate him. As someone who was raised in a Christian household, there's a lot of expectations to be perfect. Because I was always 'happy' at school, I was known as the happy friend, where nothing could go wrong with me. I didn't have emotions other than happy. Teachers always looked at me for my good behavior, which only made my need to be seen as perfect worse. Because if I wasn't perfect, who was I? And it ended up with me hurting others, and I never meant to, it just sort of happened. It took my whole world being shattered in middle school for me to start seeing that maybe that wasn't the way to live. That much pressure isn't good for anyone. And it's still a struggle for me, and I'm seeing Patton, someone who is so much like the old me, struggling to learn that for himself. And I can't help but try and cheer him on his journey. Yes he's messed up, and owes a lot of sides a lot of apologies, I am not denying that. But in order for him to try his best to not repeat the behavior, he has to figure out the best way to stop doing it. Which is hard, it's one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. And I wish I had had someone who was going through the same thing as me when I was younger, to be able to help me pick up the pieces. So because of all this, I can't hate him. And I hope he's able to figure out how to love himself, flaws and all, so he can start loving others for their flaws too.

[matenrou-fan]

Yandere!Rio with fem!s/o

I just have something like addiction or a bad habit of trying to image every character as a Yandere, am I?

yandere themes, overprotective behavior, kidnapping, mentions of being feed, tied up, falling into traps;; 1760 words;;

It's actually pretty hard to imagine Rio going to Yandere mod. He's pretty chill guy who respect your boundaries, he don't mind if you talk with other guys or even hang out with them sometimes - he's sure in your royalty.

(well of course if it's something more, when he clearly can tell that one of your friends is trying to win you over, he would be pretty worried. Definitely will talk with you first so you will do something with your friend - Rio just doesn't want you to feel bad after when it's gonna be too late. But if he will see that this particular guy keep flirting with you even after that he will talk with him myself. in a little bit more threatening way. Well but this one about normal Rio)

One of the things that probably will push him is difference between yours and his height. Doesn't matter if you're 150, 160 or 170 cm, you're still much more shorter than him. Even if you're 180 cm or taller you're still probably not that strong and buff as former soldier so he will see you as something small and adorable.

If you're clumsy it's makes things even worse. How did you just trip over nothing? Are you okay?! Despite Rio's calm personality he's much more emotional around you so it's always makes him worried.

You're shorther and weaker than him, and just so adorable. As a soldier, Rio always feel a need to protect the weak, but with you that thought got on another level and he can't help it but always double check up everything when you're around.

At the beginning he just notice that he's start to be more attentive to you and your needs but it's didn't bother him. Well, of course, you're two in love, maybe he's start changing because his love and affection for you grows even more.. he just didn't realise yet HOW much he start changing.

It's all started with little things - he never rejects some pda but now he always hold you hands when you two hanging out in the town; when you're in his camp he start to move your chair a little bit more afar from campfire, offering you one of his sweatshirts in case it's will be more colder like that; always carefully examine all wounds you have - even if it's paper cut;; he's not a doctor, but as soldier he know how to treat them so he will definitely do that.

After a while he starts to get a little more paranoid, like it's not enough. He needs you around himself almost every day - who know what can happen to you when you are all alone in town? Definitely will call you to his camp much more often. At one moment he will just remove your chair, asking you to sit on his laps. It's not that strange - well, you're couple, why not? But while you nuzzles to his chest, thinking how romantic and soft he can be, he can't stop thinking just how much he wants you to sit on his laps forever. Or he can carry you on his arms, he doesn't mind that too, the main thing is you being always near him, under his control and protection.

Will feed you from spoon, even if you will be too much embarrassed and laugh nervously that it's too childish, he will just simply smile, assuring to you that it's kinda cute from his vision. Besides, when he feeds you he feel so much joy. You being so dependent on him make his heart ache, he definitely start to be more and more controlling.

Even if you point it out that he's start to be a little bit too much overprotective he will admit that with absolutely calm face. Is it bad? He just wants to protect you..! After all, you so clumsy and weak, you just need someone who will always be next to your side, silently defend you and always makes sure you're alright.

After you scolds him he will apologize, looking away a little bit ashamed. Well, at least he looks ashamed, when actually he just thinking about one last thing, last step.. can he actually cross this line? Absolutely yes. Yes, he can kidnaps you

He was worried a little bit at the start - will you be alright with living with him in the woods? But then he realized that it's probably even better - no one will try to find you here, in his quite and peaceful camp. Also there's no mobile communication, let alone the Internet connection, you can't ask for help.

Will think through a plan for several months, paying attention to any smalls details. As your boyfriend, he's already know your preferences in food, your hobbies and schedule, so he start to plan how he can capture you and change your life so you can be always together and you will not get bored without your work and friends. Yes, he's kinda delusional with his protections, absolutely sure that you need to be around him for your own safety, but he's still understand that it will be a shock for you.

Probably he will start a conversation about you living with him one days, when he's still unsure that abduction is mandatory. Maybe you will just agree..? But when you start think out loud about how hard it will be to getting to your work and that your friends will be probably disappointed, that it. He will kidnaps you.

He doesn't want to scare you so there's no point to use some drugs or his hypmic to lure you with him. He just simply will call you to his camp for a nightover. Everything would be as usual, maybe you just notice that Rio, once again, start getting a little bit more clingy and caring, but you didn't mind. It was such a good soft night together.

But when you wake up next day and soon after breakfast start to pack you things to you bag, while sitting in the floor of his tent. Rio notice that and slowly stop you, squatting down and smiling a little.

"What's the point in such rush? I thought you will stay for a lunch too.." - he asks and you smiles at him and shake your head.

"No, Rio, sorry, but I can't. Need to do some others pretty important stuff" - you kiss him on cheek - "But it was nice, I love staying in your place.."

"Then why you don't stay for a while..?" - He feel as his heart ache. Despite his needs to be able to see you always around him, he still don't want to push you, so he gives you one last chance, looking at you with small hope in his eyes.

But uh oh, you didn't know anything about his plans.

"I wish I could, but no.." - you furrow your brows a little, thinking that he definitely start to be more clingy, he's never ask you too stay for a little longer, especially when he knows that you're busy.

Then he stands up, searching for something. He open one of his chest that he uses for his personal things and reveal a whole collection of different stuff you like - items for your hobby, books of your favorite authors that you didn't read yet, some of the clothes that you was planning to buy or even just slightly mention in front of Rio.

"Here" - he smiles with hope, still looking at you with almost begging gaze - "You can do anything you want, just please.. You can't go, what if something happens with you?"

You keep looking at him, then at the chest, then at him again. You really want to turn everything into a joke or just try to convince myself that it's not creepy, but it is. Just when he have time to prepare that all..?

"Rio, I don't know what you talking about- I will be fine.." - you laugh nervously, looking away.

He just sighs "I'm sorry" and close his eyes for a moment, feeling, that it's the end. When he open his eyes again you shuddered a little, notice how his bright blue eyes now more darker, and his face is more emotionless now, as he's on a mission.

"Then I simply will not let you go" - he stands up and zipped up his tent, like showing that there's no escape. He than slowly approaches you again, getting a rope from the same chest - of course he prepare things like that too.

It will break his heart a little if you will fight back but honestly he can understand why and don't mad at you. But you can't win over former soldier anyways.

(I prefer to think that he have a whole bed or at least cot in his tent, not just a sleeping bag). So he will tie up one of yours leg to the bedpost. He will try to comfort you and calms you down.

"Sh... You know that I'm doing this for your own sake.. for your own good" - he will embrace you slowly, ignoring yours attempts to push him away.

"Just don't fight, I will never hurt you... " - he looks at your face with small, but sick smile - "I will protect you for your entire life ♡"

[END]

But if you still try to run away he don't mind to tie you up even more. Normally he wants you to walk around his camp, he knows how much does physical activity mean in health, but if you're so stubborn he will tie you more tightly to the bed every time he need to get his business done. Of course with kisses on forehead and promises that he will get back soon.

little bonus/random thought: of course he's still need to go out sometimes to meet up with Samatoki and Jyuto so if you try to run away in this times be prepared to find a whole forest near his camp being covered and stuffed with different kinds of traps. Only Rio himself know the right way to city so you 1000% will be fall into one of this things. He will find you very soon, carry you back to the tent. Didn't even try to scold you, only checking your body for any wounds. First two or three times he will even apologize, asking that maybe you want something new, like maybe a new book, cardboard game (there's no point in asking about videogames when you living in tent), just a trinket..?

[manofmanymons]

Suggestion for Harmony route:

Kaito dies first and then Miu gets really upset and starts isolating herself from the group and focusing on her bond with Syakomon, "my only sibling left". She pretends to be okay, but does break down around Takuma, who seems to have become a second brother to her, and Saki, who she sees as understanding her the most (but not enough, they aren't Kaito...). The group gets to the end, and actually save Miyuki, and while Haru and Miyuki have their tearful reunion, Miu can only manage a fragile smile (she wants to be happy but where is *Kaito*).

It actually progresses near to the end, but when they think the final boss is defeated, and the group are cheering that they can go home, Professor or some of the Digimon note they can't join their partners just yet; the human world isn't quite ready for them. Miu shakes her head and begs Syakomon to stay, that she is the only family left that believes in her. But Syakomon just shakes sadly and repeats what was said, apologizing to Miu and mentioning wanting to stay with Miu as well. While Miu's heart lie shattered before her, the Master calls out to Miu personally (maybe has been for a while, just so there can be some foreshadowing) "Miu, this world has taken your brother, and now threatens to keep the only family you have left." In Miu's POV she can only hear Master, while the group just see Miu seemingly having an anxiety attack. "Miu, don't you want to stay with Syakomon? Can you truly bear you're parents doubt without someone to support you?" Feelings unresolved with Kaito and left alone with the thoughts of going home to parents who would never believe her about what happened to her brother, never believed her about her stalker, she shakes more. She wants to stay with Syakomon. "Takuma has been kind. Kind to your brother and seen past his hot-headed behavior to the person you know he is. Kind to you, playing along and comforting you, never doubting you. Can you bear such a dear friend leaving you behind, leaving Kaito?" She starts to tear up. She wants to stay with Takuma. "Why does this adventure have to end? The schoolhouse, your home, is here." She wants to stay home. She wants her family to stay with her, home. She doesn't want this to end. Not like...

Syakomon and perhaps Miyuki notice the change a bit to quick, Miu with Syakomon in-hand running to the Master. She doesn't want this adventure to end. Doesn't want to risk losing her friends, Syakomon. Doesn't want to go back to a house full of doubt, to an empty room, to a fire that will have nothing in it... So she runs home. And the Master welcomes her, not as someone to control but as someone to inherit his power as his consciousness is too weak to continue his plan. But Miu's wishes can destroy the world without realizing.

And maybe there is a special section that's about trickery, 'lying', which of course the team navigate through and reach Miu's heart, find out more of her backstory with Kaito and all the feelings she repressed since the stalker incident. I'd probably have Miu live in this ending, and she stays in the other world until it's safely merged with the Human one, then lives with Professor and co.

I will note I haven't played Harmony or Moral because I got happy end and have no want to hurt the children again, but this might fix some things (or make It worse)

Better ending than what actually happened ksjskdn

I love this tbh

I've also considered like

If I were to follow the harmony/wrathful route formula

You'd have your part where she's just distant from everyone else and struggling to process what happened

You'd get your obligatory library scene

Where Aoi became convinced that she had to make everyone get along and Kaito became convinced he had to get revenge on the world, I think Miu would be convinced that she was alone

After all, none of her so-called friends even tried to save her brother. Even the one she trusted the most, who she thought cared about Kaito the most, was the one who stopped her from trying to save him and dragged her away.

She thinks she might hate them, but she doesn't have it in her to turn on them completely. She does, however, (like you said) grow to fully believe that she has no one left in the world but her partner.

She and Syakomon wander around aimlessly for a long time. She doesn't want to go back to the others, because she knows they don't care about her. Hell, they probably wished she was dead, too. At least, that's the only thing that makes sense to her. Everyone always hated her and her brother, and the fact that the others let him die is proof that they're no different after all.

You eventually run into your obligatory Piedmon scene. She doesn't heal him, doesn't agree to work with him. She almost does: if they can save this world together, then maybe she can stay here with Syakomon forever. But...if she had to lose Syakomon to save the world, then what was the point? What did she care about the rest of the world that left her and the only person who ever loved her behind?

The more frustrated Piedmon gets, the more obvious it is that he's only after revenge, and the two of them end up fighting.

Since he wouldn't be healed in this version, Miu would win without needing help. The fog would show up to collect what's left of him, though.

All their conversation managed to do was convince Miu that saving the world is ridiculous pipe dream, and, not unlike Ryo all those days ago, she just can't bring herself to run away.

Obligatory "suddenly everyone arrives" scene except this time instead of having to fight one of their friends, they're fighting life and limb against the fog to save Miu.

Somehow they get her out. They ask a million questions: where has she been, why did she leave, what even happened to her, is she okay?

Renamon, in particular, is freaking out apologizing for doing this to her.

For the first time, Miu snaps back to her senses. Really remembers what happened the day that Kaito died, and how she felt about it when she stepped into that stupid library.

Being here, seeing her friends all beat up, half dead, and exhausted from saving her, she realizes how stupid it was to ever think they didn't love her. Takuma didn't betray her brother, only carried out his dying wish. The others weren't absent because they didn't care, but because they literally couldn't be there.

Knowing that she's not alone and remembering that there was nothing Kaito wanted more than for her to survive and be happy, she'd pull herself together and be more ready than ever to kick the master's ass.

Still, rather than killing the master being the end goal fueled only by rage and a desire for vengeance, it would just be a stepping stone to the real goal.

Rescue Miyuki, save the world, get everyone home.

From there I think it would proceed the same way as the Moral Route, just...without Kaito. Although, I do really like the idea of Miu opting to stay in the Other World with Syakomon until the time is right.

I mean, the fog is gone, and the little ones they rescued from the amusement park might need their queen, right?

As long as she does what makes her happy.

[thekatebridgerton]

I hope philoise shippers are chill, because overall? The Bridgerton fandom is. Not. Chill.

There's a goddamn meltdown every month, every week, every day over the most stupid thing. Look I know there are things that are concerning but sometimes what a person say or write or not say or write or when nothing is said, it's not because they want to hurt you or there's some malicious plot at play.

People have lives. Jobs. Other jobs.

Just chill.

For at least a month or when they say something momentously fucking stupid. Okay?

Sorry for the rant.

I don't know what you are talking about, honestly to me the fandom looks so chill nowdays. But then again, it may be because I use the block button liberally and don't tolerate posts in my dash that spread negativity. So perhaps, my fandom experience is a little more...curated because of the amount of people I've blocked? Or the amount of people that have blocked me for the matter.

I'm a big believer of the philosophy of if you want to see change in the world start with making a change in you. So I can't speak for others in this fandom but I can speak for me.

Maybe it's the neurotypical in me, but I can't stress how important clear communication is in fandom. for example when I am trying to befriend someone I like to start with telling them that if I do something to offend them, they can calmly tell me to my face and I won't get mad. Because I'm human, I can say thoughtless things, or accidentally hurt someone because I'm taking too long to reply to their message. But here's the thing, I won't know I've hurt them unless they tell me, and I won't be able to apologize or correct my thoughtless behavior if the person I hurt doesn't tell me. I like to extend the same privilege to people who have hurt me. a fun phrase I use with my family is "Use words Jenny, I don't talk in punctuation ellipses (...) and I don't talk in passive aggressive silence either"

I expect the same courtesy to be extended to me. But sadly I live in a world where it's easier to hold on to resentment than to accept an apology. (Because they are so rarely given and they don't really erase the past). So not many people apologize to me when they hurt me and worse, not many people I've hurt, actually believe me when I apologize to them.

Still, when I apologize and work to correct my behavior. I expect that to be the end of it. In my mind, problems can be solved with heartfelt apologies and corrective measures after damage has been done. In fandom and specially with cancel culture being so rampant, people seem to act like it's okay to hold people's past actions against them when they have clearly learned from their mistakes and moved on. Forgiveness does seem to look like a dirty word in the internet doesn't it?. Nobody gives it, and it's sad, because that just means people who need it don't really receive it anymore.

I may be one of the few, but I still believe that if a person is working to get better at their problematic behavior, then they should be allowed to do so without the rest of the fandom being in their face about it.

And if a person isn't getting better at correcting their problematic behavior after they hurt me, then I don't have to stay and put up with it, not in real life, and definitely not in fandom.

that's why I like the block button.

[agirldying]

Tw: mentions of sexual abuse/domestic violence (not detailed) just wanted to warn

Hey Bun,

So I had what you might call a breakthrough on Saturday. He went through my Tumblr and was reading my messages and posts and I guess it made him like really upset because I was talking about how the domestic violence affects me. He got really mad and started yelling at me at first like telling me I make everything sound worse than it really was and it wasn't like he beat me and that I can't use words like that etc. And he left.

Like this has happened before so I just thought he would drop it when he got drunk so I was just going to leave him alone and give him his space until he moved on to something else but when he came back he did something different. At first he was still mad and was telling me that "why does he always have to be the bad person" and that I have done things too to bring it on and that I need to "tell people how much of a bitch I am" so they understand why he reacted the way he did. He went on with this for a few minutes more then went outside for a while. Like I'm used to that so I thought he would just stay outside for a few hours and be away from me while he was cooling down but again he did something different.

He came back inside completely calm and apologized to me for being angry. Then he started to apologize for more things. He apologized for the abuse, the DV. He apologized for the way he talks to me and treats me. He tells me that the reason he drinks is because he regrets everything that happened between us. Meanwhile he's doing all of this in front of his family that we live with. He told me it wasn't to make a scene or embarrass me but it was to have a witness to make himself accountable for his actions.

He told me that his family knew the whole time what was going on and had been saying things to him about his behavior but that nothing can really be done about it without ruining our lives. Like if he went to jail it would ruin his life and my life and would have just ruined everything. He also told me though that he knows the only true way for me to get justification would be for him to go to jail but I don't want him to go.

I really couldn't say anything like I was just shocked because he's never like actually apologized for anything like this before and I thought that was it but then he admitted to the sexual abuse like in front of everyone. He called it "swinging" but he knows that it wasn't consensual for me. He told me that when the baby is born he wants us to go to therapy and for me to go and get the help that I need.

Honestly I was just so shocked like I had so many emotions at once I just couldn't say anything I just cried the whole time. Like hearing all those horrible things he did come out of his mouth just made everything come back to me and I was relieved to be heard and validated but at the same time it's like not what I wanted.

It doesn't make anything go away and he didn't really fully admit that the "swinging" wasn't swinging at all. I had no part and no choice in the situations and he knows that. Idk it was just so embarrassing for everyone to hear that and it was even worse to know that they knew the whole year I was being abused.

Idk I guess I'm just venting about this because while it helped for like two days, like just feeling heard and him taking responsibility for what he knows he did and like him admitting that he knows it affected me badly, it doesn't change anything. It doesn't make anything go away. All this does is let me know that it won't ever happen again but it already happened so what's the point?

DW 🍂

Hi dying weeds,

I think it's a step in a positive direction that he has apologized, but as someone who has also been in a DV situation, it's not uncommon for abusers to use seemingly sincere apologies to rope you back in. If his apology is truly sincere, he will make an active effort to act differently, so just keep an eye out for that.

Overall it sounds like your partner has several issues with communication, which is a critical problem, especially for a committed relationship. For example, how he apparently drinks out of regret for things he's done to you, instead of having a conversation with you about it and listening to your side. He resorts to drinking which creates a dangerous habit that only perpetuates his abusive behavior. He sounds scared of communicating with you (which I don't think has actually anything to do with you), though the apology may be a sign that he's trying to confront that fear.

Please know that apologies do not erase or reverse damage already done and it shouldn't be used that way. You are absolutely allowed to still hurt. You don't need to feel like his apology voids your pain or any of the complicated feelings you have. You're allowed to decline his apology if that feels appropriate to you. He's done a lot to you, you're hurting, and that is valid regardless of whether or not he apologizes for it.

I know you're not asking for my opinion necessarily but I don't think it was right for him to air out your dirty laundry in front of everyone. I think that was a discussion meant to have in private because it's heavy and you didn't really consent to them being present for that. I think he should've been more considerate about how you'd feel about it. I also don't understand his excuse of needing witnesses to hold him accountable because you're an adequate witness yourself.

I also want to speak to the whole jail thing - it's a false dilemma for him to say that the only true way for you to get justice is for him to be arrested or what have you. I think about this in terms of myself; my abuser walks free, but my expose brings me justice and holds him accountable without necessarily sending him to jail. There are options beyond that as well. You may find it personally that getting him arrested and sent to jail is how you want this to go, and while it may be complicated, it's okay to want that. That's what many survivors want. It's okay to not want that either.

I also just want to say that while I don't exactly know the logistics in your situation, it comes across slightly that he is instilling an unhealthy level of dependency in your relationship by insinuating that seeking legal retribution for what he's done would "ruin everything".

I don't understand why you should have to wait for your baby to be born to get therapy. If anything it might make more sense to start it beforehand because you're going to need some time with your baby, maternity leave and everything. So in essence you might end up waiting even longer to get therapy after your baby is born, and I think you deserve the help you need ASAP. But I understand if there may be some other conflicts getting in the way of that.

I agree that "swinging" is an incredibly insensitive way to describe what happened, especially considering the fact that you weren't consenting. Swinging is consensual. That was not.

I hope your fiancé realizes the extent of the damage he's done to you. I think that's integral for the longevity and health of your relationship. I also hope he commits to changing his behavior, not only for you but for your child, because that is no environment for anyone to be in, especially a child. He needs to do better as a husband and a father.

I hope I could help. I wish the absolute best for you. Please feel free to comment on this or add onto this, and otherwise of course you know I'm here for you anytime.

[secondfuckingguessing]

Happy fucking birthday

Happy fucking belated birthday.

Contrary to popular belief, I did not forget it. I'm just nice enough to avoid bringing up any tough emotion on purpose on your birthday.

I just wanted to clear the air on something that's quite bothersome to me, considering I was never given any explanation (despite my inquiry) or even the chance to understand anything. I have assumed you turned up (partially) weird after I brought up ambev's slavery claim. Of course that does not explain the weird behavior before that, but I feel things went south from there.

If I am correct in my assumption (which I don't really know since you refuse to say anything for years) , I must say I struggle to even understand this kind of vanity (and I don't see it as a reason to feel personally attacked). If only you were the owner of the company, (but even if that was the case, one thing doesn't necessarily imply anything about you as person). Anyways, if that was the case, i sincerely apologize for hurting your sense of integrity or importance, or vanity. That was not my intention and I didn't think thar was even a possibility. Now, to the part that really affects me. I struggle to understand this wxactly because I thought, after all these years, I knew you well enough, could trust you and so on. Appearances always seemed to play a important role for you, and this is not something I particularly admired, but people are meant to be different and we don't have to be the same to be friends, right? I just never expected you to act the way you did (as in I don't have time for you and WORSE than that, not bothering for a hot minute about my feelings after I brought them up. We are sure to run into conflict in our relationships, but it's also our nature to try to make amends IF we care). Your lack of action (after years!) made me feel the case was that you really didn't care, which of course, as stated before HURTS. I trusted you and I'm bringing this up one last time because we're not the same, and I cared all along. I felt even weirder (and kinda disrespect quite honestly) when you supposedly felt about the situation and wanted to talk, but invited julia who had nothing to do with it, and all that happened (and was bound to in her presence) was chitchat. If you chickened out or didn't care I'll never know, but it didn't feel good.

Don't worry, I do not intend to bring this up ever again. Please do not say anything that sounds reahearsed and out of a nonviolent communication book, cause these things are only cool when genuine. I'm not interested in whatever you might want to portray, I'm more interested in real things and people. All that being said, I do understand you have every right to decide who and what are important to you, and I'm sure you're surrounded by people who are way more important or glamorous than I am, that's not my point here to try to change your mind. It's just sad not recognizing someone but also, C'EST LA VIE.

Hope you had a good one, full of love.

Whatever.

[livingproofoftbd]

My feelings seem to be along the lines of 'he messed up because he was drunk and she didn't make obvious signs of discomfort.'

People do stupid things. We can be glad it was no worse than undertheshirt waist touching and he has had a really big wake up call that he has a lot of power and needs to be much more mindful of his actions.

But it isn't rape, like people are making it out to be. It doesn't appear to be a pattern of predatory behavior, and when she didn't go in the elevator wjth him, he left.

People are stupid. He needs to change his behavior from here on. She needs better friends who will not leave her while drunk. She also needs a good apology from him.

yeah they both definitely owe apologies

george said she was smiling and laughing, but caiti said she was doing so because she was nervous. i was talking with a mutual from another platform about this, and she said that you can tell when laughter is forced. body language gives you away, you'd tense and inch away from them if you were uncomfortable, even if you didnt mean to. he'd notice that, but he said she did nothing of the sort.

but also he really shouldve asked consent for everything he did. if she is telling the truth, and she only stayed because he's rich and famous and she's not, he does need to think about that more. but idk i think if you go back to someone actively making you uncomfortable just because theyre famous, then thats something you should think about. in my opinion.

[phoenixmosheh]

6/6/23

Stop Trying to Conjure Me To Apologise...

I can hear you I just don't give a f*ck...

The "I'm sorry, I didn't know who you were" apology. "Why do you have to know who someone is in order to treat them right? OR before you decide to f*ck up their lives, especially when they have done nothing to you?!

(Why not just greet everyone like they might have the potential to f*ck you up).

I can hear this basic betch apologizing and trying to pin her behavior on all the sh*t she's been through in her life (i.e I was molested as a child, my parents abused me, my pimps beat me boo hoo hoo...)

Just so we are clear...

I am not writing this for the basic betch at this point because she can't comprehend reality anymore...but she is a great example of someone that thinks shes entitled and that people owe her something because of the dysfunctional abuse she's been through in her life. If she has anyone left to visit her in that mental hospital ( a nurse) read this post to her very slowly okay? (Very slowly but don't offend the sloths).

I could honestly give two f*cks if a cat molested you growing up...you are not the only one that has been through abuse ( bullsh*t) in your life...it might not be the same bullsh*t and it may not be as bad in comparison to your bullsh*t...but it doesn't take away from the fact that everyone has some type of bullsh*t and just because it's not your bullsh*t doesn't make it not bullsh*t.

For example: Have you ever had a conversation with someone where you had to downplay your own pain because they made their pain seem like it was worse than yours. So, you felt the need to not talk about your pain anymore. (No? then you're probably why this scenario exist)

Ex 1: A bomb goes off

Person 1: I lost a leg

Person 2: Well, I lost both legs so shut up...

Person 1: (silently says to self " well damn I still miss my fkn leg and am having thoughts of suicide just thinking about it but...") you're right man, I should be grateful I still have a leg.

Person 1 downplaying his loss is not going to make the pain and experience of that loss any less painful of an experience just because Person 2 lost "more."

Person 1 still has to choose to go to physical therapy just like Person 2 in order to rehabilitate themselves or remain wheelchair bound and bitter adopting a mentality to become a wheelchair terrorist. Either way...both have pain to deal with and just because one may seem to be experiencing pain or a situation that is worse than the other doesn't mean it's not still painful or traumatic.

(Matthew 9:6 Pick up your bed and walk metaphorically meaning do something about what you can change, don't just sit and wallow in your pity and become hateful to others due to your situation)...nobody was trying to get a man in a wheelchair to walk you dumb betches...HE COULDNT WALK HIS A$$ WAS PARALYZED!

My face when people can change their situation and have the resources to do so... but decide to remain stagnate...

So, for anyone that feels like they would like to use the pain, abuse and dysfunction they have been through in life as an excuse for their bad choices, bad judgement, unwillingness to evolve and reason for wreaking other people's lives... I have no pity for you (I am stoic as ever, listening to your cries, as I stir my tea in the morning)

The Basic Betches Lifestyle Before The Steal

Last year, this Mexican family took me in off the streets and their house looked just like this. Now I know what this scenario was channeling. They were a nice family though, so I cleaned their whole house and would watch and cook for their kids after school. I remember I had cleaned off the dining room table and put food on it...and they were looking at it like it was an alien. And when their 8 neighborhood friends came over they were like "oh my God..your house is clean" as they did backflips on the floor and I yelled at them to "get off my clean floors and go outside!" I know my man is not dirty hoe...he used to walk past my desk at work and tell me there was dust on my computer screen...

The Basic Betch When She Found Out Elias had Good Taste in Women and we were NOTHING alike...you Trash Fetish Queen

This basic betch saw me living in a luxury apartment, paying my own rent and bills, investing in my own goals and minding my own fkn business. MY OWN Fukin BUSINESS. It's never hard to do that, it's actually pretty therapeutic. (i didn't even know she was breathing oxygen...I didn't know any of you silent a$$ followers were breathing oxygen nor did I care). Honestly, if Elias had mentioned that he was still talking to his ex...I still believe I would have resorted to my default persona which is minding my own business.

But somehow this basic betch with low IQ was able to rally followers together who must also have low IQ because they also did not know me and decided to help her dreams come true:

Her Dream:

"I think I want to live this person's life without doing the work to obtain it. let me just steal her energy...let me just be psychotic and copy it. Who's with me?" Who wants to be a bad betch because I watch TV and it's fun being a mean girl" lololol jajajaja

(Smh. Not realizing she had stumbled across someone more psychotic than herself...I'm just more intelligent with my psychotic).

Has anyone ever lived in a luxury apartment and their lights start going out after 2 years of never missing a payment because they had to quit their job because someone was making them physically sick with black magic. (RAISES HAND)

Next thing you know you're bathing in cold water. You're buying bread from the dollar store (honestly, it's probably safer than high end grocery stores) with coins from your piggybank and using an extension cord and taking it outside of your luxury apartment door and plugging it into your neighbor's outdoor outlet to use their electricity so that you can boil water. So that you can eat ...cornstarch and condiments. (Lol. Sigh) When I tell you I do not feel bad for this betch or anyone connected to her... I am not bluffing. (And it's OK to laugh... I laugh at that sh*t all the time when I look back at it).

So, when your apology is based on "Sorry I didn't know who you were" it's really insulting. It's basically saying... I thought you were a normal everyday person that couldn't fend for themselves or fight back...I thought I could bully you, like I bully other people... I thought I could take and steal from you because in my eyes you seemed weak, naive and like every other human being that just doesn't know they are being taken advantage of... and so you won't find out that I tried to play you...

I am trying to reprogram my mind to stop saying " Be careful who you f*ck with" because as I play around with its meaning, it insinuates that others who are not you are meant to be f*ckd over.

When the mentality should be more like this:

If I choose to f*ck with this person is there a chance they may f*ck me harder? Do I have the stamina to last more than 2 seconds or will I become flaccid d*ck? And need medical intervention.

What this basic betch didn't know while she was desiring my whole luxurious life is that although to my knowledge I have never been molested.

I grew up watching women in my family get there a$$ beat (which is why I am a goddamn professional at watching basic betch get her a$$ beat)

I grew up having to call the police all the time because my male guardian, protector of the household would beat his wife and threaten to blow our brains out (with guns to our face) while we sat at the kitchen table. Once it was a bow and arrow...crazy right? Even though the female protector of the household worked...he would degrade her and tell her she couldn't go anywhere because she had children to take care of and he made more money than her. I've seen women get pulled down staircases by their hair and choked out in bedrooms... I've been abandoned by my biological parents and the relatives who took me in after etc. etc.

Most likely why I can switch up when I need and lack fear when it comes to that kind of stuff. This guy I'm staying with helped me to notice that I apparently have a high pain tolerance as well...on one altercation he slammed my fingers in the front door by accident and he started freaking out because I was just standing there looking at it telling him to calmly open the door. I had to ask him if it was his hand at one point to get him to snap out of it. Another altercation, we were play fighting (he can actually fight tho) and he threw me up against a door outside with his hands around my throat and started yelling "how are you going to get out of a chokehold." And my back got scraped and started bleeding and he started freaking out and so we stopped ... me in my head ( you p*ssy should have choked me harder).

The Basic Betches reaction:

So f*cking what betch? Right? All I see right now is that you are living in a luxury apartment and texting a man supplying me money. I'm in pain, so I want to switch energies) boo hoo hoo.

Never in my sad lifetime have I ever decided anyone owed me anything because of what I went through in life. Nor have I wanted bad shit to happen to other people just because I experienced bad sh*t...I worked for that luxury lifestyle it wasn't handed to me... (you delusional sad can't survive without paper money leeches).

Speaking of Leeches ... Elias is not gay.

I know you don't naturally like men...Remember when your energy was being stolen by a in the closet gay man (your stepbrother) ? This was being stolen to mask himself in your energy to attract me and what belongs to you (your fortune)...this would have caused an imbalance in your energy..meaning you were most likely showing signs of being gay because your stepbrother was stealing energy and he was actually gay. I experienced a lot of environments (meeting prostitutes, dirty houses, abusive men, resorting to promiscuity or sex appeal to get my way etc.) this is because the basic betch experienced and attracted a lot these things before stealing my energy. Its like an energy swap, they become you and you become them.

(Also, they have nothing on you, not even a sex tape if they did I would have offered to watch it with you for scientific and spiritual trial purposes... "like hmm ...energy swaping is a thing afterall...")

But now that they can't steal your energy anymore, you are obviously noticing your energy is balancing out and you operate more in your mascaline energy; being gay is just an imbalance in masculine and feminine energy, but people can believe what they want.

Elias, just know that I know your energy; whether it's low, sick, in turmoil, imbalanced etc. So if someone were to threaten you with evidence of any kind it's not going to change how I feel about you because I understand the reason behind it.

So if you listen to tarot readings and they say something about you being gay or doing something a gay person would do...do not let it get to you. I am sure you have noticed the tarot readers helped to reveal certain truths, but at the end I revealed truths that they couldn't based on the bits and pieces they revealed in their readings such as "your adoptve step mother."

Another fact you should know is that we do our best to influence and not manipulate the minds of others. Meaning they have free will to choose what to believe...this mean God can only build off of the knowledge they have about Him, this includes knowledge they have outside of their spiritual beliefs.

For example a reader might have never been to China, but they know it exist, they know what the word looks like, they know what the people look like because they have seen it on TV and studied about it in books, met people from China etc. So their subconcious can bring it to their consciousness. But if they had never seen or heard about China they may be able to say the word China, but it would be foreign to them and they might say something like "I hear Spirit saying "China" but i dont know what that means." So they might look up the word China and read up on it and find out there is a place in China that God wants them to go to and once they do that God is able to reveal even more to them about China etc. The more true knowledge people are introduced to the more God can use it to communicate with them spiritually.

One last thing, in tarot readings I noticed they get how they would react personally to someone doing them wrong with how the actual person the reading belongs to would react. So even though I have already told you " I want you" the tarot reader might say this person doesn't want you...why would they? And they often don't understand the male or female they may be talking about can be a female operating in masculine energy... for instance your adoptive stepmother operates out of masculine energy ... not only because she was stealing your energy but because masculine energy has more traits of being possessive, controlling etc, over what it believes is theirs. I hope this helps you.

❤️❤️❤️Wild Card ❤️❤️♥

Build Me A Shower Contraption ( I Want You to do What No One Else Has Been Able to do... Trap Me)

I woke up so wet this morning thinking of you... I usually wake up wet honestly but for the past few days...I can't just wake up and eat the breakfast this guy serves in the morning at the kitchen table. I have to replace my pants because I don't wear panties and then hop in the shower. Can you please place a bar I can hang upside down from inside the shower? Like a towel rack only sturdier. I don't know how you would be able to enter me from that position yet, but I'm working on it in my mind. I know my mouth can reach your penis from this position and you can lap up water from my waterfall p*ssy like the wolf you are from this position but ... what do you think? How flexible do you think I have to be to change positions so you can hit the target? God told me youre better at measuring angles than I am. ( Gabriel said shoot up the club drown the pussy spin that a$$ in a circle sprinkle some Starburst on it and taste the rainbow betch).

So not only did you not know who I was...you didn't think about where I came from. Which is something I have observed is an ignorant human tendency.

(And for those who think "oh well she's fine...she gets favor to stay with random people and shelters she has a roof over her head...if you guys knew (experienced) what goes on in these shelters, you would stop paying taxes and stop respecting people with fancy titles and no follow through.

And as for staying with random people (mostly men) and not paying rent while avoiding rape. It could just be me being an introvert, but this experience is like going to a family friends house that your parents are forcing you to go to, only to pretend to like them, while using your healing energy to have conversations (free therapy) to soothe their crazy (numerous mental illnesses...people end up thinking they are helping me, and I end up somehow healing them).

But deep down, you are waiting for your parent to make eye contact with you and telepathically tell you "it's time to go because this betch is fukin crazy" just like the last one. Only the scenario just keeps repeating, so you never get to go back to your house and rejuvenate). For those who are religious...have you ever been to a church sermon that is over 3 hours long and you can't wait until it's over so you can go home but you don't want to say what you're thinking because God might strike you down...I bet you can?

Anyway...you silent watching basic betches, should have left me in solitude minding my own business in that luxury apartment because now I can adapt and survive in a variety of lifestyles environments (rich or poor). Can you?

We're about to find out...

😘

That time Elias mentioned to his Wife that he wanted to own an Island at work ...and all she heard was Earth...(this project is taking longer than originally anticipated)

A Baptism symbolic of a marriage proposal signifying rebirth ...

This guy just told me I'm his dream girl because I told him I don't believe in God. He said he would believe in a god from the Avengers before he believed in Jesus Christ...you all make me sick and I think you're dumb asf. Still going to help your dumb asses though.

[blackfilmmakers]

Abuela Alma put pressure on her family, but I honestly thought she’d be way worse. Rewatching the movie, I noticed several things: a) she never does anything to Bruno? Like ever? B) she only tells Pepa to calm down when Pepa is about to rain on herself. She doesn’t care when Pepa causes big storms or a whole ass tornado in their house that could kill people. She DOES care when Pepa's cloud is directly over Pepa, potentially raining on herself. C) hee daughters and in-laws aren’t scared 1.

2. to stand up to her? And all her grandkids seem close with her aside from Mirabel? D)she genuinely thinks Isabela wants to get married, and doesn’t know how Isabela actually feels? In fact, NO ONE tells abuela how stressed they feel? E) the worst things he does is yell at Mirabel one time, before Mirabel says she's wrong. Then Abuela immediately accepts what Mirabel says, apologizes, and changes. Like, compare her to Kylo Ren. Who’s the irredeemable one again? And no, her toxicity should not

3. toxicity shouldn’t be called out. But Abuela UNINTENTIONALLY hurting her family, all of which came from a genuine place of love and not wanting the miracle to go away and leave her family vulnerable and exposed, is leagues different than the average white supervillain, and it bugs me how she’s seen as way less sympathetic. Not to mention she wasn’t the only one being toxic in the family, but I digress.

Like Ming, these characters do demonstrate they care for their families' well-being.

Unfortunately not all their methods of parenting were the healthiest. They were more like survival tactics as a byproduct of their trauma. And they did not see how that kind of pressure negatively impacted their loved ones.

These aren't excuses as to why someone should inflict this kind of damage onto others. Nothing about this should be excused. These moments do, however, give us insight as to what these characters are so scared of, and why they don't recognize what they are doing is harmful.

This is almost the complete opposite reaction when seeing how a lot of White characters are treated in fandoms. The Kylo Rens, the Lokis, the Gone Girls; all of a sudden its okay to use someone's trauma as excuses for their behaviors. These excuses tend to turn these characters 100% into the victim.

I have my problematic favs too. I just don't pretend they are these innocent beans, because that defeats the purpose of why I enjoy them. I'm sympathetic with what happened to them, still doesn't excuse all the war crimes they've committed.

So a lot of (mainly White)people need to reevaluate how they treat these sort of characters. Because a lot of it is racism

If you truly think guys like Kylo are the main victims, then I know you better have that same mindset for characters like Abuela

[loki-darkprince-odinson]

King Loki, I apologize for the rant but I would like some advice.

My father always makes me feel like complete garbage. He is always putting me down, never appreciates me, and makes my depression so much worse. I'm fixing up a house to move in with my friends but I'm still stuck at the house since my parents won't help me get my license or a car, much less a job. I cook, do dishes, take care of the pets, take out the trash, get the mail, do my laundry, wash towels, and help with their laundry. I also take care of my sick mother and while I'm currently on summer break, I'm going to college to become a clinical psychologist. Even then, my father will point out other things that I don't do, and expects me to clean the entire house every day. He always talks about how he needs to do everything around the house yet all he does is sleep, play video games, and watch television. He also says he works hard yet on many occasions he says he sits on his ass all day on his tablet. He also yells so much. I get scared every day when he starts yelling because I worry he may leave us, which he has threatened before, or he may actually hit us. He never has hit either my mother or I yet, and says he never would but he slams and throws things when angry at us so it's his way of showing us how much he wants to hit us, even if he doesn't realize it. However, not only do I have many responsibilities, My depression makes it difficult for me to do much, and he makes it worse. Even when I do try to clean the house he always makes comments such as: "About time." or "How long until it gets cleaned next time?" or "This was half assed, you didn't do it right." I have tried so hard to have a connection with him but I'm so tired of fighting for a relationship that he doesn't care about. I can't address my concerns with him because he will threaten to not take me to college and pay the bills. Do you have any advice to help me deal with my father until I can escape?

Best regards, Catrina.

“Catrina,” Loki drawls, in his smooth resonate voice. “I firstly must commend your good work. For caring for your ill mother, minding the household needs, and that you get up in the morning even if your soul is weary and your bones ache for a rest; that you keep on living even if you do not know how to anymore. Secondly, you have my deepest sympathies for your grievances. I am all too familiar with what it is like to seek the approval of a parent; only for there to be none in return.” His eyes were completely unfocused, yet his pallid features bore the most intense concentration as memories flowed unbidden.

He says nothing for a moment. Then, something in the edge of his mouth—and the corner of his eyes—resembled the ghost of a sad smile.

“Those whom I knew and called my mother and father are dead. That much is beyond dispute. They were not my real parents, but they raised me as their own. I daresay they loved me. That had been in dispute, at least in my own mind for awhile. I found out very late that my identity was a lie. Not Asgardian, not a son of Odin, I was completely unmade. That was how I felt when I learned of my true parentage. I was a fraud, a monster; it explained so much. It explained why I never felt like I fit in, why I would never be my brother's equal, why I would never get what I'd been promised my whole life.” His voice was soft, hoarse. Intent.

Loki raises his left hand and rests his forefinger against his lips as a line forms between his own eyebrows in thought.

“I have lingered around Midgard long enough to come to an understanding of how your minds tick. I shall do my best to give advice where I can.

Try, if you will, to put things into perspective. The most loving parents commit murder with smiles on their faces. They force one to destroy the person they really are: a subtle kind of murder. Even the most loving parents damage their children with the best intentions—to protect them, to guide them, to better them. In most cases, it would appear they do it by imprinting their own fears and prejudices on them.

The point is, parents are mere, imperfect people.

They have flaws, struggles and impaired judgement. They have both emotional and intellectual handicaps. Regardless of their parental role, they are afflicted by personal blockages and limitations.

But most of all, they are people who make mistakes, and who are terrified of being judged by their children.

Learn to see your difficult parent as just that; human. Learn to see their emotional immaturity as a type of disability.

With that in mind, you would do well to keep your expectations of them low.

In many ways the effect a difficult parent has on ones self is fueled by their feelings of injustice and the belief that things could be different, or ought to be different.

In other words, your expectations dictate how you feel.

You need to let go of your expectations and accept your parent for who they are.

You cannot expect someone with, say, a narcissistic personality, to act with empathy and kindness. No more than you can expect a scorpion not to sting.

Difficult parents are much easier to deal with when you accept that they will not change. So do not expect of them more than they are capable of, and you will not be disappointed or hurt.

Do not fall into the illusion of guilt, Catrina.” He warns. “A difficult parent loves nothing more than to make you feel like you’ve hurt them. Or, in a different scenario, like you’re a bad person if you do not do something they ask.

Do not fall for it. If they’re setting a guilt trap, calmly tell them that you do not appreciate being emotionally manipulated, and you will not tolerate it anymore.

Manipulators, and I should know, detest being called out on their dirty tricks.

If they continue to harass you, reiterate that you cannot do what they’re asking you to do this time, and you need them to respect that.

The trick is agreeing with everything they’re saying (how can they argue when you agree with them?) and re-stating your decision over and over again.

Now this part I find to be… far more easier said than done. You must let go of the need for your father's approval, Catrina. It goes without saying that every child needs and wants their parents’ approval. It is normal to want it, and it is normal to receive it.

Yet so many have to accept the fact that this is not going to happen. For whatever reason, their parent has chosen to withhold their approval. Some difficult parents do it as a form of punishment. While others hope to influence their child in the “right” direction.

Most likely, your father loves you, but they have a very warped idea of what parental love is.

In their misguided quest to make you into a version of themselves, they missed the chance to get to know you. And so they cannot appreciate you for the wonderful being that you are.”

He shrugs elegantly. “It is their loss. When you realize this and let go of the need for their approval, you will be able to start living your life in a whole new way.

When confronting your father, be direct and calm without expecting a specific response. That is the part you cannot control. The part that is within your control is letting your thoughts and feelings known, which is empowering.

Stick to the facts and use “I” statements such as, “I feel like my words do not matter to you when you constantly interrupt me” or “I feel scared and misunderstood when you yell at me”

Remember that manipulative parents are not known for their empathy. They will try to confuse you, go on the offensive, or assume the role of a victim.

Do not allow them to bully you into submission by invoking guilt or pity. State your case in a calm and polite manner, and stay cool regardless of their response.

Your goal is to be honest about your feelings, and to make it clear that you will not tolerate certain behaviors.” He softly clears his throat.

“Last but not least, an unhappy alternative is forgoing the relationship that is too harmful. I know, a parent is not someone you can so easily cut out of your life. But if all else fails and your father continues to cause you psychological harm, then this may very well need to be taken into considerable consideration; at least for the foreseeable future. Sometimes it is the only logical recourse.

A parent that is fundamentally incapable of showing love and support, unable to see the error of their ways after numerous attempts to communicate how their behavior or words affect you, consistently dismissive, demeaning or critical, manipulative in a habitual manner, punishing and cruel whenever you disobey, are disrespectful of your boundaries and using threats and intimidation to get what they want is a destructive force that will continue to tear you down until you put a stop to it.

It is not an easy feat, my dear. The parent-child bond is hardwired into the brain, which means children get attached to even the most awful of parents.

But consider the cost of having that toxic relationship in your life—stress breeds anxiety, depression, internalized feelings of inadequacy, and failed personal relationships.

I wish you all the best, Catrina. I truly do.”