#now the ones that didnt work in 2019

[malkaviian]

i dont mind having a "cute" art style at all, its flattering when people tell me so, i just wonder why my current style + the different ones i had since 2020 end up being cutesy dsjnfjdsnf

[yonpote]

ok heres how i split up the dnp eras (loosely based on dan's timeline in his interview w anthony)

2009-2011: the Sillies era :3 dan refered to it as being a dumb teen just posting cuz he was bored, which is like, thats what all of youtube culture was at this time. they met and like fell in love or whatever you know the lore dont you. phil moved from his parents home to his first apartment in manchester, and dan technically moved to uni but really he moved into phil's apartment to take advantage of his washing machine and ps1 and. yknow. other stuff. they officially moved in together in 2011 yippee hooray, the phanchester apartment holds a special place in my heart

2012-2013: THE SHIFT. they started getting Serious about youtube as a career, doing more stuff w the radio, superamazingproject started in 2011 but THE SHIFT is very easy to observe when you compare the first season of sap to the last season. ALSO. they were NOT A DOUBLE ACT AND NOT GAY 🙄. it could also be called the No Homo era lmao idk this is when a lot of shitty things were happening wrt leaked information, harassment of their families, and just generally becoming more in the spotlight especially while still in the closet being a horrible experience. but also, they moved to london and got cool opportunities with radio stuff and were starting to actually make a living on this shit.

2014-2016: Peak Dan And Phil™ Era. at the height of their popularity. they realized oh shit, we ARE a double act and not only does everyone enjoy us best as a double act, WE enjoy working together. tabinof, tatinof, dapgo, still doing the radio every month up until they start touring, 7 second challenge app, gamingmas, what the hell DIDNT they do during this time period (what they didnt do was uhh take care of themselves and not overwork and not blur their work and personal lives so much to the point where they felt like the whole apartment was a film set.)

2017-2018: Gay Softlaunch Era (aka post-baking aka glass closet) the baby steps toward authenticity, moved to the double apartment to separate work and life, ii's whole theme, dan talking abt depression, phil getting the quiff, both of them being gay as hell in every way other than saying it explicitly. important things of note: TRUTH BOMBS dropped, Interactive Introverts happened, still uploading gaming vids and honestly by the end you could feel their fatigue. and then they hiatused dapg.

2019-2022: ok these four years each feel like whole eras in themselves, but also theres an overarching theme. THE GAY ERA.

2019: im gonna futher split this year in half. first half- dad left to buy milk so other dad is taking care of us. rough six months for dannies im sure. important phil thing of note- he changed his film set from his "bedroom" to a fairly basic but cute shelf backdrop. honestly prob didnt wanna keep pretending that was his bedroom considering.... second half- DAN AND PHIL GAY. dan uploads his magnum opus. phil comes out via tweet. they go to japan and its really gay and it's The Trip to japan for them like yes they first went in 2015 and again in 2023, but Japhan 2.0 Was The One. what does this mean? proposal? anniversary? idk exactly but it was gay as hell dude and theyve talked about that trip with such love in their hearts.

2020: Phandemic (sorry that was bad) but also where tf is dan again? even with the big C-word happening, it was business as usual for phil, regular vids but make em gayer, caught a pigeon nbd, and end of the year introduces the Stereo app show Phil and Phriends where he's had chats with pj, louise, his brother, seth everman?????, and finally. dan reappears. they reveal that they bought and FULLY PLANNED a house together and are ready to move!

2021: they don't move house for another like six months! basically their house was (and is??) still being worked on AND they were in lockdown AND turns out at the end of last year, they were kicked from their Life apartment and were now living in the Work apartment so you can imagine what all of this can do to their psyche and lowkey they were getting sick of each other like it wasnt just bordering on phivorce it was nearly Phurder. Phidow. but to fill the time so that DOESNT happen, my favorite fucking thing ever happens: Lockdown Lads (and all the other names). the first taste of what a dnp podcast would sound like, with the added bonus of chaotic listener interaction. oh yeah also dan wrote a mental health guide book whatever (IM KIDDING I REALLY LIKE YWGTTN I WROTE LIKE TWO REVIEWS ON IT NOW) and they finally become Homosexual Homeowners. theres quite a bit more dnp content this year, dan being on phils channel a bit more, the phodcasts, dan's gay and not proud special.... oh yeah and hometown showdown i guess AND TEXT VIDEO 2!!! my favorite and my namesake!!!!!!!

2022: Prophecy Year..... but they didnt get married. dan returns with another longass video to say: hey i hate being a youtuber and also youtube majorly fucked me over. but also fuck that im gonna do a weird talk show and ALSO GO ON TOUR WITH THIS APOCALYPSE THEME! phil actually... slows down this year. more dan uploads than phil somehow??? but also Dan Is Leaving me is posted and i go completely insane and become the deranged individual you see today. WHICH FINALLY LEADS US TOOOOOO

2023-present: The Unhinged Era. dan's tour was a huge Emotional success for him but uh not without its hiccups due to management and all that and i think he and phil finally realize. Fuck It Who Cares. dan flies back to england FROM AUSTRALIA to make sure he can be with his future ex-husband on his birthday. CAKE HEART EMOJI. YELLOW PLAID SHACKET. they go on a gamer date and post a picture of playing footsies in a cab. THE PHUDE HAPPENS. they go to japan again and while this one will never be The One it was still a well earned holiday this time with bryony! and they took a bunch of very cute film camera pictures.... THIS IS ALL JUST THE FIRST HALF OF 2023 BTW. in phil news, he talks about going to therapy and figuring out how to manage his anxiety!!!! he changes his hair again!! he hires an editor, phan is his otp, he teases about the gaming channel a couple of times but so many of us already dropped any hope of that returning- OH WAIT WHAT THE FUCK?!!!? HUH!??!? they returned, and more chaotic than ever before. the gayness upped to the max, the Weirdness on full speed, the Horniness at Very Scary Levels Oh God Stop Talking About Dogging, phil can swear uncensored now???? and this energy has continued into today...

[eldesperadont]

@ AEW GIRLIES (gn) who are interested in NJPW lore

with All In coming up, I need fans that only know Kota as Kennys insane boyfriend and Jay as the silly Bullet Club bastard to know about their history with each other (and Kenny/Hangman) which spans 5 years at this point, even more if you count in Jays time as a trainee in njpw (2015/16), so he like.. watched and learned from them all – anyways lets go with the rambling recap

Starting with Jays first title win and how it came to that: early 2018, Kenny was in the midst of a power struggle in Bullet Club, his relationship with Cody was getting more strenuous by the day and the non Elite BC members were getting tired of their BS.

Kenny, trying to legitimise his position as a leader, thought recruiting new promising talent to his side would help, so he offered a young Switchblade Jay White “the opportunity of a lifetime”.

Jay accepted, only to attack him right after, and with that nothing could stop the threads holding Kennys BC together from rapidly unravelling.

Kenny would lose his US Heavyweight Championship to White soon after, and in the aftermath of the match even more. Hangman, finally taking a step out of his friend's shadow, got all up in Jays space, snatched the belt and obviously implied a challenge, but Kenny wouldnt have any of that. He pushed Adam aside and gave Jay his price back. (to the surprise of the crowd who expected Kenny to be more bitter apparently lol)

Enter Cody. Opportunistic and sinister as he was at the time he immediately stoked the flames, snapping at Kenny why he wouldnt let Hangman have that moment.

They seem to talk it out but whoops, Cody attacks Kenny after all, Adam helping him.

They are about to lay him out as Ibushi runs to Kennys aid, finally giving us the reunion people have been waiting for years.

In the following months a lot happens, Adam gets his match with Jay (and is read to filth by him - it’s essential to watch that promo, here) but doesnt succeed, the Golden Lovers and Young Bucks have an emotional feud, Cody continues being a menace with Hangman at his side, Kenny finally wins the IWGP Heavyweight belt, the Golden Elite was formed, Cody is a sad lil bitch now, they were all kinda friends again, oh and Bullet Club split fr*.

[*On one side you had Kenny and his friends, on the other BC originals Bad Luck Fale, Tama Tonga plus his younger brothers and technically their dad? Things were kinda messy but thats technically the BC that stayed in Japan and made Jay White their leader. The last real appearance of the Elite as BC was at the inaugural All In, their indie PPV.]

Alright end of 2018/beginning of 2019 - Kenny loses his IWGP belt at Wrestle Kingdom (njpws wrestlemania) and quietly leaves NJPW with the Bucks, Cody and Hangman, starting AEW (things behind the scenes didnt work out as expected and nooj didn’t wanna cooperate with them at first)

So yeah. Ibushi. He was all alone again, but in the summer of 2019 finally manages what he was so close to in the previous year: winning the G1 tournament.

He faced Jay White in the finals, who at that point firmly held Kennys position as Bullet Club leader and is the top gaijin of the company.

Both him and Ibushi were together with Kazuchika Okada and Tetsuya Naito the top of NJPW. And all four would be involved in the main events of the following Wrestle Kingdom. Jay and Okada as titleholders, Naito and Ibushi as challengers.

Well neither Jay or Kota came out victorious on the first WK night, but the following day, in a match for third place, Jay defeated Ibushi, making the latter the biggest loser of the event,,

Covid caused quite a mess in the following months - their next singles meeting wouldn't be till late 2020, during that years G1, where Jay gets another win over the Golden Star

but is unable to reach the finals, in contrast to Ibushi, who wins the whole tournament for a second time.

Jay doesn't wait and immediately brings up Kotas loss to him, demanding a match for the WK contract he's just won.

Alright bada bing bada boom Ibushi-

LOSES??

Yeah to the shock of everyone Jay actually managed to put himself in the main event for the following WK, thinking he'll face double champ Naito to dethrone him .. but Naito still wanted to face the G1 winner so Kota got his title shot regardless lol

so yeah we got Ibushi vs Naito on night one, and whoever wins that on day two against Jay

In complete contrast to the previous WK Ibushi would not only be victorious on the first night, but also finally beat Jay for good, becoming the undisputed double champ, and God. (their words not mine)

Which absolutely broke White, giving us a glimpse at whats really going on in the "Switchblade". He's so obsessed with success, finally wanting HIS moment, his era, and despite everything he's sacrificed it doesn't seem to happen..

(pls watch the whole promo, its an insane performance)

He'd show up for one last "contractually obligated" match, battered and bruised, taking the pin in a multiman tag match between Bullet Club and Chaos, before leaving everyone in the dark for month about whats next for him.

He'd stick with NJPW for two more years, returning even more unhinged than he already was.

Kota would go on with his reign as double champ, till NJPW unified the titles to create the IWGP World Championship (a highly unpopular move with the fans), which he's the inaugural champion for.

Jay would try his best in the New Japan Cup in hopes of getting another shot at Ibushi, but fall short in the quarterfinals - new focus new goal, he goes for the NEVER Openweight title, and becomes the first ever NJPW "Quadruple Crown" champ, having already held the IWGP US, Heavyweight and Intercontinental Championship at that point.

Ibushi, now with the IWGP World Championship, has his first proper defense with the new singles belt .. and loses to 2021 NJ Cup winner Will Ospreay, cutting his reign shorter than anyone expected.

His bad luck doesnt end there tho, despite making it to the G1 finals for the fourth time in a row, he breaks his arm in said match and is unable to continue. He'll not appear in a NJPW ring again. Mistreatment by staff which caused serious trouble in his private life has him decide against re-signing with the company.

Jay in the meantime would shake things up overseas, defending his NEVER title, debut in IMPACT, be on weird terms with the Elite, lose the NEVER title, debut in AEW, oh and not return to Japan. For a full year, missing out on key events, which had even his BC mates start asking questions.

After some rearranging within the club (kicking out old and recruiting new members) he’d finally return to Japan in the summer of 2022, swiftly dethroning IWGP World champ Okada, Jays last title reign in NJPW (youve might seen his first defence, at Forbidden door against Hangman, Cole and Okada).

He’d hold the title till early 2023 and in good old switchblade fashion be this 👌 close to realising his errors, only to blame everyone else and lose his mind over it, getting involved in a “loser leaves Japan” match against Hikuleo (who had turned his back on Jay) and afterwards, cause that somehow wasnt enough, a “loser leaves NJPW” match against Eddie Kingston. And thats how we got Jay White in AEW, mf is in exile and acts like nothing ever happened lmao

Ibushi, whos last match had been in October 2021, would finally return to the ring in March 2023, at Josh Barnetts 9th Bloodsport event, and make his AEW debut at Blood and Guts, reuniting with Kenny, the Bucks and Hangman as the Golden Elite :)

So yeah both Kota and Jay had quite different paths (that crossed a lot) towards AEW, and as someone who's been watching them for so long now I'm absolutely giddy to see them face one another again - if youd have told me a year ago that I'd get to see Kota and Jay in the same ring again, cause of KENNY of all things, I'd have imploded on the spot (positive)

📷 picture credit: NJPW World, one pic from Jays Instagram, one impact thumbnail and one aew thumbnail

‼️ feel free to ask about anything / correct me on info or spelling mistakes, english is not my mother tongue and im disabled so sometimes i mess things up

[pixiecaps]

hi. im sorry if this is a weird question but. what makes you keep watching smps?? just, what motivates you if everytime things and characters and plotlines captivate you and they almost never end in a satisfactory way. it might be because im a newbie in myct but every server i learned about seems to just last very little or burn in a horible death. what makes you want to go again and again to new servers.

okay to start off here there’s two layers and one is more of a personal thing and another basically advice.

first i dont talk about this much but my brain just latches onto things and one of my longest lasting interests is on minecraft. probably since the game was released. i think ive probably watched more minecraft content than tv shows & movies in my entire life. because my brain just works that way

now second. i need to this to be clarified everyone has a different reason for sticking along and i think this is a wonderful question that so many mcyt bloggers would have different answers to that would provide a lot of cool insight and perspective. dont think the question is weird at all.

BUT for me i think it was around smplive which was 2019 that was rough that was really the first and only time that i wanted to stop watching minecraft completely. for a lot for a reasons rlly. and yet i didnt!!! and thats because i realized that i didnt want to let something i cherished and enjoyed be tarnished by the bad. its so important to allow yourself grace whenever something bad happens with mcyt content or creators themselves because you arent the one to blame for something turning sour. too much good and incredible content and communities come from these unfortunately ended smps and whatnot to just to be seen as that one thing. i think sometimes, out of spite even, i feel like I NEED TO NOT LET THESE THINGS BE OVERSHADOWED BY THE BAD. because so many smps are fucking wonderful experiences with amazing creators who dedicate so much time to them and who are so funny and talented and for them to not be recognized for that at all is a shame. i loved every smp ive watched and i dont regret watching any of them. theyve all given me so much joy and laughter and its important to remember that. so ig another part of it all is allowing yourself to appreciate the good and not let the bad stop you from experiencing all the future content thats made from mcyt that will be incredible. because there will be more smps and there will so many mcyt creators and the ball isnt gonna stop rolling. sometimes it just boils down to something as simple as not letting the bad experiences stop you from seeing the good the community has to offer. as well as for me outside of the content itself with smps the fanbases have singlehandedly taken a part of my heart. theres just so many wonderful people in these communities who have put out so much positivity that i cant possibly find myself regretting it or not going back in whenever the next smp drops.

much love anon hope that makes a little bit of sense

[victoriartdrawings]

for the new zonami (and old) shippers because you've seen the live action and zonami still havent a lot of fics (compared to other pairing in the fandom)

Live action Zonami has me in a chokehold again. so here a few fic/writers rec i found when i was literally on the hunt for some Zona goodness.youre welcome. (also my reads are not centered anymore on the number of kudos or favorite so it may not be the most 'popular fic' based on the filter on the site but for me, it's still the most enjoyable to read and re-read in term of writing, characterization, dscription, prose...and so on)

all of their Zona fic is good. more than good, gone re-read this masterpiece of The Bounty cause now i have real sexy people to better imagine in the fic --> by dreamsinwords001

a part of their works is in italian (but almost all of their fic is translated by the author themselves) very good and smutty one shot (very well written, in a way that it doesnt focus on the act himself - and you dont feel like a voyeur- but you still feels the sensuality of the scene ). also dont care if its in italian, there're two long fic that hadnt been traanslated - yet - and i use google translate to read it.yep.

every one-shots again by Itsthemooface- (they also have nice sanami fic if youre into that) and shoot-out to Delayed (modern au where luffy is the matchmaker, kind of, in his own silly way) and Patience is a virtue, the mechanic AU you didnt know you wanted.

Zonami filthy smut by a Zo*an author, quite good. (not a one shot where you have any build-up before emotional angst or sentimental grumpy people who dont know how to communicate their feelings, so yeah, a PWP, be warned)

i'd do another post maybe tomorrow

i have to scroll and click through 6000 downloaded fics on my drive to find all the Zonami works i've downloaded since 2019 so its a slow process because i dont remember when i did it each time, it goes like, 13/08/ 2022??! or 18/02/ 2021 ??!! ....damn.

[flodaya]

those Instagram and tiktok Stans are annoying bc a key part of tomlore is he is soooo messy about Zendaya. It’s not my business bc she’s a private citizen, but I’d like to know his lore from the end of his long term high school relationship. How much did it have to do w distance vs. his impending celebrity vs. Zendaya 1. Like dating his coworker when he’s the lead of the movie and he knows he has to make 2 more and don’t live in the same country is CRAZY.

2. Dumping her bc they couldn’t find a career balance then immediately being spotted with a childhood family friend is CRAZY (why did it have to be his moms best friends daughter???). 3. He’s also rumored to be flying in an incredibly beautiful professional golfer (that’s now in the best f1 relationship); this one is not crazy I just believe the rumor.

4. What I would’ve done to be in the city of Cleveland in fall of 2019. CLEVELAND. He also followed his next gf during this time. 5. his ex - from the big movie franchise, is spotted with her new man going on the same dates the two of them went on together, so he freaks out and panic commits to his next gf

6. Less than 3 weeks into the new relationship he’s LIVING with his new gf

7. Posts new girlfriend hard launching. ONE day later his ex gets nominated for a big award. He reaches out. She likes his next Instagram post. He posts the new girlfriend again (as reassurance??). Less than a week later his new girlfriends mom unfollows him. The upcoming weeks his new girlfriend posts on Instagram like she’s single.

i thought i was going to be annoyed by this long "let me explain the history" ask but you had me laughing tears, tom was so messy, like you cannot tell me that man didn't see Zendaya at the audtion and was like "whelp it's her or no one i guess", that man has been in love with her for 8 years and i'm glad it's worked out for them for both their sanities

(dumping Z sounds so harsh lol as if it didnt take months for them to disentangle smh)

[the-empress-7]

Netflix cant just go "oh my God the Sussexes are awful, fuck them right now, bleah" because then they would have to acknowledge the fact they gave 100 million dollars to two people JUST BECAUSE they claimed their family was bad ,and to their mind that somehow implied they were capable of producing quality television. I mean, this is fundamentally a story of stupidity. You would have to be properly stupid to think:

that a scenario that happens in every family - child marries twat and becomes a twat- can get you 100 mil worth of interest.

that being a victim (even if 100% true) in any way shape or form translates into content-producing talent.

that two people that have screwed ALL THEIR RELATIONSHIPS will magically make it work with you.

that there can actually be a monarchy-government-establishment-press-population plot to bring down a POC woman all because the Australian press liked her and that somehow sent people - whose positions are constitutionally entrenched and permanently safe- into a tailspin.

that two years of life within the royal family is enough time to have stories to fill multiple tv programmes.

that giving this kind of money to people who have zero experience, zero original ideas zero connections zero access is a good idea.

In a story of ABSOLUTE IDIOTS, Netflix are most definitely the biggest ones. They didnt even have it in them to force the Sussexes to sign an exclusivity contract for their first interview.

👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

PS: Two years? May 2018 - November 2019, minus 6 months of maternity leave. Try one year. Try 72 working days. 😉

[bright-and-burning]

No bc I love women and football tell me all the gossip with mccabe and foord and the ex (who is she) ☕️

alright this is going to be long im sorry but get me started on woso and i just blabber. uhh most of my sources cited but this is mostly me going back thru texts from during the world cup and grabbing facts/pictures from then so a few of these claims are a little

BUT i promise i didnt make this up LOL i was Deep in google for the entirety of the world cup so i Know i got my info from somewhere

everything else under the cut bc this got SO long im actually so sorry

there's three primary people involved here:

katie mccabe: left back (but honestly left everything wonder woman). captains the irish national team. plays for WSL's arsenal, has been since 2015 (minus a lil bit loaned to glasgow in 2017). those are the two important facts here really but the below is ~flavor~.

she's 28 and 5'5 and she's a DREAM. scored an olimpico at the world cup (FIRST IN WOMENS WORLD CUP HISTORY!!!!) (THATS WHERE YOU SCORE A GOAL DIRECTLY FROM A CORNER. FIRST ONE SINCE THE 60S IN A WORLD CUP IN GENERAL!! LITERALLY INSANITY!!!)

also for context this world cup was ireland's wnt's first ever major tournament appearance. she's the first ever irish goal-scorer (of men and women!). she's amazing. here's her for arsenal:

ruesha littlejohn: striker/midfielder. scottish-irish, but represents ireland at the senior level. 33 years old. has played for a lot of teams club-wise. currently plays for london city lionesses, a second tier team, but that wasnt announced til after the world cup. her most recent wsl team was aston villa (but i mean it, she's played like everywhere lol). 5'6 if you're curious.

here's her in ireland's kit:

caitlin foord: forward! plays for australia internationally, and arsenal (so teammates with katie. this is important.) she's played for arsenal since 2020! used to play for the thorns in the nwsl once upon a time. 5'7, if, again, you're curious. she used to date a swiss footballer (lia walti, who's played for arsenal since 2018) but they broke up like six months before the world cup. walti unfollows the australian team on instragram right after they post a video of foord, it's all very dramatic (THEYRE STILL TEAMMATES AT ARSENAL THIS WHOLE TIME BTW). arsenal man, always at the scene of the crime.

ok so now you've met our main players!!

world cup happened this past summer (2023), btw. to give you an idea of timing.

katie mccabe and ruesha littlejohn dated for 6-7 years (some articles say 6, some say 7). they came out in june 2019 and said they'd been dating for three years already. their breakup was confirmed right before the world cup (like THE SAME WEEK??), in an article where mccabe was like "yeah, ruesha, my partner at the time..." very casual.

and then. in JUNE. (world cup starts july 20th!!)

foord and mccabe go to ibiza w an ex-arsenal player (jordan nobbs). who (in june 2023, not anymore) played at aston villa with. you guessed it. littlejohn. so yeah your ex gf goes on a trip to ibiza w a new girl and your current teammate, you might be a lil pissed off. maybe.

the sun's (i know, BOOOO but this made me laugh so hard) caption on a pic from the trip had me cackling:

(the title of the article was "inside the glam lifestyle of pals caitlin foord and katie mccabe after ireland’s star’s ex snubs world cup handshake." borderline galpals commentary like have writers there never heard of regular synonyms for friends?? there was also a line that just screamed please don't sue us: "However, The Sun does not suggest the Aussie forward had anything to do with McCabe and Littlejohn's break-up.")

so now we've got two exes on the irish national team going into their first world cup appearance, the captain of the swiss national team and an australian player having broken up like six months ago, and much more, but that isn't directly related to This Specifically.

while you, anon, presumably know how the world cup works, ill give a mini explainer for anyone lost: there's the group stage, where the teams get divided into groups (in this case, of four), and your team plays every other team in the group. you get three points for winning a game, one for a draw, and none for a loss. those points add up and top two teams move on. and then you go into the knockout stage, where you have to win to advance, and if you keep winning you make it to the final yay!!

but for this we only care about the group stage. and more specifically, about group B.

group B is made up of nigeria, canada, australia, and (drumroll please) ireland!!! it is the stuff reality tv shows WISH they could make happen.

ireland and australia play. it is (almost*) the very first game of the tournament (but it's still on july 20th). it is at 5am my time. you would not believe the timezone fuckery i went through that month.

(*ok new zealand played norway starting a bit earlier on the same day but that's not as dramatic sounding)

and you know how they shake hands with the other team before a game? yeah well here's littlejohn apparently refusing to shake foord's hand:

here's a lovely photo of a Look from littlejohn to mccabe:

here's a diff irish player (sullivan) separating littlejohn and foord after the game (australia wins 1-0, btw.):

and i already shared this on @powerful-owl's post BUT. here's mccabe's little sister, supporting mccabe. please note the date (july 20th) and the comment from foord (from after the game, im like 99.99% sure) asking if she wants her jersey now. me personally if i just beat my totally platonic friend/teammate on the world's stage i wouldnt be pulling up in their sister's comments asking if she wants a jersey now (also implication of the word now as in previously discussed, etc etc. this was the thing that pushed me over the edge into insanity at like 9am after no sleep)

i admittedly have not kept up to date on anything that's gone down since the world cup so it's entirely possible more has happened! in fact i would say that it is downright likely lol. i love soccer lesbians n the insane charts necessary to keep track of their relationships <3

[spikeinthepunch]

here it is boys.... 2023 summary

view all of my art summaries here!

this sure was the year of humans...! which i predicted after last year. so, time to talk about it. below the cut

as mentioned in last year's summary, 2022 was a weird year that started off pretty awful and left me so mentally drained and upset. i kind of talked about it, but it doesnt matter at this point. it felt like more of an escape to draw humans at first, as i was trying to pull myself away from what i had been drawing before.

towards the end of 2022 i felt myself drawing humans easier as i got into it. march 2022 versus december 2022 was a huge improvement. and now.... well, i draw humans with ease at this point, and i like how my art turns out with them.

i have been slowly trying to change how i go about drawing though. since 2022 i was hanging on to how i used to draw with warrior cats-- thinner lines, smaller details, trying to be "realistic" in many way when it came to anatomy or color (tending to default to simple images that didnt have reason for wacky colors). some of the non human art i have here, the stuff w my sona esp, was me trying to loosen up a bit. i felt like i couldnt do it w the art i was doing already? like id 'mess up' what i was already doing well.

but during those few months i managed to apply it to the Lisa fan art i was doing, and from then i have felt like i was starting to acheive this new flow. im hoping to get deeper into the stylized habits-- ways that i used to draw. sharp lines with cut edges, or exaggerated wobbly ones. neon colors. anatomy that isnt always realistic. being loose again.

ive particularly been looking back at 2019. that is a.... complicated feeling year now. obviously, right before the pandemic. i do often wonder where my art would have gone if things hadnt gone south-- i think my art that year was especially "weird" bc i was going to college, chasing my art career dreams, etc. i was at my internship at a studio, i was seeing all kinds of ppl in the industry with intents to go and work there. i dont wanna mourn too much here, but the point is that certain environments definitely breed these changes. and right now- since 2020- i havent had any different kind of environment...!

things feel at a standstill since 2020 and im not sure when that will change. i would like it to change bc i think i may be going insane tbh. heres to hoping i can find more creative outlets, and some new environments to enjoy next year.

[theneighborhoodwatch]

i see a lot of speculation on this blog but its kinda hard to see where you're coming from when there's so little out, is there somewhere specific you look for secrets? a lot of the spooky images on the artist's main website are beta designs that will be changed (perfect example is the baphomet image of wally where he has 5 fingers instead of 4 and poppy's neck is still bent down-ward, also we know images with wally's cross cuff is beta and not up to date).

i'm liking your theories btw, this is not me critizing you, i think what you're saying is genuinely interesting but it feels,,, too easy? we know that the story itself will have something to do with the idea of "home", what it means, etc, etc. if you wanna talk more in dms i'd love to chat, im just very confused and feel like something is missing from the source. if you want we can work together to compile evidence about the story and stuff. it might help a ton in laying out the story as it progresses.

[2nd ask] omg i totally didnt see the resource doc, that's so embarrassing. dms are still open tho

no worries! although i will admit i was VERY confused for a second there lol (and quite frankly, a bit wounded that you'd think i'd forget the importance of The Home in the grand scheme of things!)

you do bring up a good point about it being a risky move to cite concept art as evidence, since there's always a chance of Something getting shuffled around or outright scrapped in development. even now, i don't really like looking at WH's concept art from a literal/Plot-Heavy perspective just yet; i tend to look more for recurring visual motifs, possible symbolism, that kinda thing. to help myself out, i have a very basic sorting system when it comes to combing through concept art, which looks something like this:

concept art from around 2018-2019: pertains to a now scrapped version of welcome home. harder to find since it was all on clown's old blog before partycoffin. you likely won't find much here that applies to welcome home as we know it today but it's fun to track those little Evolutionary Changes through it.

concept art from around 2020-2022: home is introduced! the cast lineup is finalized! the Themes begin to take shape! i keep an eye out for Motifs here, but it's important to keep in mind that if there's any era of concept art where shit gets shuffled around the most, it's Probably this one.

concept art from site launch (feb. 14th 2022-onward): the most dependable era. concrete plot details that can be gleaned from concept art alone are still scarce, and to be honest, i don't mind that at all - but the visual design, and any recurring motifs by proxy, seem to be set firmly in place. it's like a chew toy for my brain.

as for your offer - i have plenty of folks in the discord and friends from elsewhere trawling through the site with me, but if you have any findings that haven't been recorded in the observation document or any theories that you'd like to discuss, then yeah i'd be happy to dm!

[afuckingsystemsthoughts]

we've seen a lot of people with DID and OSDD hate being a system. most of us dont hate it per se, its more of the bad parts we hate. i, host, suffer much more mental pain from other disorders we have, not just DID- thats probably the smallest part. for us, our biggest cause of mental pain is bpd and denial of trauma/our posttraumatic disorders- so what were about to say will probably sound biased.

also a note, i only suffer the really dramatic drastic disorienting dissociation everyone with DID online complains about (and claims they have 24/7) only half the time or less. most of the dissociation i experience as host is dissociative amnesia, theres not a day i dont experience that but its usually of the past ill never remember or milder forms like "oh i did that? hm dont remember" "oh they said that? i only remember the interesting parts of the conversation and i cant even remember it verbatim", or emotional/mental detachment and emotional numbing (especially if my mood is too unstable), and staring off forgetting what to do or not knowing how to do it and having to mentally yell at myself

now, for the parts of having DID id absolutely get rid of right now and never want back.

i hate when im trying to do something, i wanna do it alone, i wanna have privacy, wtv. and boom, an alter suddenly appears out of nowhere invading the front. i dont wanna be rude to them because theyre a part of me and more than likely a trauma holder or protector i wouldnt be here without, but i want to have some privacy in my own head. have some things just to me. i am annoyed, i know they feel that. and for that, i feel guilt. for being annoyed by the presence of someone else inside my head, and the guilt gets even worse if its a little, understandably, or a trauma holder whos been through enough rejection already, or a protector who i wouldnt be alive without. i have to show common courtesy to a large group of selves inside my own brain, every second im awake. and that gets tiring. no wonder im always so mentally drained.

having to work around what alters want. this often goes hand in hand with them randomly intruding the front. ill be in the clothing aisle, just to get a simple grey shirt- and an alter will come out when they see a shirt they like. if i refuse to get it, they might feel hurt, and ill feel guilty. and if i look through a whole clothing aisle, more than one part will come out and make me feel drawn to the different clothing they like (sometimes a few alters making me feel drawn to a few different clothing styles at once) i get a headache from that and dont like how i feel pulled into many different directions by my own brain. (id experience that before i even knew what plurality was or really knew my alters or even remotely felt plural and it caused me a lot of mental pain and headaches)

feeling like a stranger to myself now because i realize how much i was a stranger to myself, i didnt even know i was abused, and i didnt even know a lot of things i did. and feeling guilt for not knowing i was a stranger to myself for most of my life. i should have known but i didnt. i was too dumb to pick up on the clues that someone inside me ran away with my body and my life. theres even small things i didnt know about myself i discovered years later. example, i didnt know i asked for a get-well card for a doll when i pretended it was sick until i discovered it about 8-10 years later. and theres big things i never knew. some of these things were people. when i was little, i was around people i should remember, i was around them enough. but when i see them again in 2019, i think its the first time even stepping foot in the place, and seeing the people. i only knew that i knew them when i was little because i was told that in 2019. i also dont remember an entire year, minus a small snapshot memory. i cant be sure if the memories i think i have of it are real. which leads me to the other part about DID i hate and if i could get rid of only one part of it, this would be it.

the dissociative amnesia (mostly of trauma) and its effects. i dont remember majority of my early childhood, and i only remember about half of my mid childhood, maybe a tad more than half. the memories i have, its like im watching an eerie, dark tinted movie of myself. i dont remember being abused in any of the memories before around 8, and very few are of me being unhappy. i think to myself, "if i was abused, id have memories of it or be unhappy." i didnt feel anything. i just... existed. no feelings, maybe an artificial happiness, but no feelings outside of that. its like i was a robot in control of my own actions. i tell myself i dont have trauma and im just holding onto the "impossible possibility" i was abused as a small child as an excuse for being this way "because i cant accept i was born broken, i dont have an excuse to be this way." then, someone comes along who explains to me what i did in the memories when i was little and throughout my entire childhood was a sign of abuse, and i feel valid and confident about myself because im reassured im not born broken scum, but then i realize that means someone violated my body and ill never know who did first, how old i was, where it first happened. and ill never know what all my body has been used for either. then ill feel disgusted with my body and want to escape it or self harm. and i live with a person who flip flops between being emotionally abusive/manipulative and being nice and shes used my dissociative amnesia against me before, used it to say things didnt happen and the memories were planted, and to say i did things i didnt do. other people used my dissociative amnesia against me before too. but the most painful part for me, is im stuck in a vicious, mentally draining cycle- feeling like my trauma isnt real and hating myself because i feel like i was born broken, just wanting to know i was abused, then i find out and i feel uncomfortable in my body, i cry, i feel alone because the only people id allow myself to seek comfort from arent around, and sometimes self harm.

for me, im fine with being a system. i wouldnt trade most of my alters or the memories weve made together since i found out i had a system and met them. they taught me what family really is. they taught me what community means. its the parts that make it disordered id gladly get rid of. sure, we want our own bodies, id like them to have their own bodies too, but im fine with them just being in my head when theyre not intrusive.

DID isnt fun, but it isnt always living hell 24/7. not for every DID system. not for us. but its still not "friends in your head" and even when you are friends with some of your alters they can still intrude on you when you want to be alone and you'll still have the distress from having DID. its not always fun but its not always hell.

[aziraphales-library]

Lost Fic #140

1. Hi dudeeeee, your blog is sick! Helped me find good stuff and have a nice time! I'm totally a sucker for bottom Aziraphale but that's another thing.I'm looking for a fic, I found it once and never found it again. It's one where Aziraphale possess a bookshelf by mistake and  when he tries turn normal, Crowley sees his true form...which he finds amazing. (Even with an scar) - anon

2. Hello! First, allow me to thank you for the wonderful work you're doing. You guys rock! Now, the question. I remember reading a fic where I think Crowley hears someone mention that Aziraphale looks positively cherubic or something like that and he suddenly adds two and two together and realises that it was cherubs who were guarding the Garden of Eden, and it was them who were operating as single special-ops angels with fiery swords as opposed to principalities who usually led angelic units which would mean Aziraphale was lying about being a principality. I think there might have been a scene after where Crowley was genuinely terrified of Aziraphale before realising that he was the same angel he had always known. Any idea what fic that is? because I'd like to read it again and can't find it. - anon

3. hello! may i request for help in finding a fic? it was one of the first good omens fic i've read and it was centered with warlock and nanny ashtoreth. each chapter being a specific lesson that warlock was told, the most memorable thing about the fic was in a chapter, a glass baking pan exploded and crowley shielded warlock and he had to get aziraphale to help crowley get glass out of his eyes, and warlock didnt buy glass bakingware due to that incident and i think it was a adam/warlock fic as well. i keep forgetting to bookmark that fic :'( it would be wonderful if the fic is found it was a good fic - anon

4. I'm gonna ask, hopefully no one else has asked about this yet, if they have I apologize. It's been a while, it's probably from like 2019 or 2020? I read a fic, I don't remember much else about it except that I think they, (Crowley and Aziraphale), have their first kiss but in the back of Crowley's mind he's thinking he's still going too fast and then (involuntarily?) turns into a snake and hides in the bookshop. If you're able to find it for me that'd be great. I admit, I don't remember if it's very well written but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I think about it from time to time so.... - anon

5. Hello! I love this blog, so many wonderful recommendations to read! I've been searching for a fic for weeks and coming up empty handed. Crowley is snatched by a random angel, held naked in a church and whipped. He gets into it much to the disgust of the angel who leaves him there. He's rescued by Aziraphale who figures out that he's into that stuff and offers to be the one who does it. There was a riding crop involved - anon

If you know any of these fics please include the number in your reply! Thank you :)

- Mod D

[fipindustries]

first course completed!

that was arc 1 of introduction to magic.

and this is the first drawing i made of the main characters all the way back in 2019

what is this

now that the first arc is done i would like to take a chance to actually stop and properly self promote a little here. it was about time.

i am currently writing a novel called Introduction to magic, an examination of a magic system i came up with by way of following the lessons of magical apprentice Katerina Dolcevita under the aprenticeship of Maria Bellanova. the best way i have to summarize the feel and tone of it all is Fantasy AU-R63! Rick and Morty. imagine if rick and morty were both women and they were exploring magic rather than sci fi.

the first arc is intended to be a prologue of sorts, to get you up to speed with the nature of this world and the nature of the two main characters.

where this came from

i came up with the story and the concept around this world proper in 2021, while reading pale. i was looking at all the extra material that wildbow had written for its magical world and i found myself really wishing that we didnt have to just see excerpts from the magical books like famulus or 100 years lost. and it came to me that if i really want a book about magic to exist then i can just write one myself.

the magic system in this story follows a bunch of my own deeply held beliefs about life and magic. mainly that is kind of silly how we insists magic doesnt exist when we have things like computers and planes and psychodelics. it occured that if we were to live in a world where magic was real we wouldnt call it magic either, we would just think of it as the normal state of affairs. there is a post i read here, which i cant find right now, which said something about how weird conciousness is, how strange the fact that conciousness arises from the specific configuration of a brain. about how conciousness is the last, mysterious, seemingly ineffable property of reality. they concluded that we live in a fantasy world where our magic system has only one spell "summon daemon". obviously a lot of it was merely poetic and rethorical devices to see with fresh eyes of wonder something we take for granted.

and a lot of this book stems from a similar wish to want to see the mundane with eyes of wonder once again, which is why i insist that low level magic in this world is things as basic as writing and lighting a fire. is also the reason why a lot of the titles that i use for the magic specializations are normal every day professions.

the second, stronger impulse was to try to come up with a system of magic that could be broad enough to grasp all possible forms of magic humans have come up with and yet simple enough that could be understood in a few pages. the classification system i use on this book is based on all the broadest, most basic forms of magic practisce that i have seen in history and fiction. manipulating signs as drawings and writing, manipulating sound as voice and song, using tools and props, moving the body, combining and refining substances and materials, handling living creatures.

what's next

as we move forward on this story the format will switch to a more traditional narrative where we will properly follow the adventures of these two ladies. ocassionally i will dip back into textbook-like sections where i infodump about another interesting concept i thought of, but even in the narrative sections most of the chapters will be an excuse to explore some concept or idea. i gather by sheer quantity 80% of the content of this story is going to be maria explaining things to Katerina.

so yeah, if that sounds at all interesting please do read this, and please do leave a comment, i really want to see what people think of this work. i dont need money or donations or to be engaged in any algorithm, all i need to stay motivated and energized and thus continuing the story is to know that people are invested in it.

thank you so much for reading.

[souryogurt64]

Love your papers on panic really great work i am majoring in comparative literature as well and they were such good reads.. also its such a weird feeling i thought i was neck deep in panic lore 10 years ago when i was obsessed with them coming back now after years of not really listening to them much and periodically checking if ryan ross is still alive to now see there is So Much i didnt know or had the wrong impression of i hope all these people write tell-all style memoirs one day and that they all contradict each other

Tbh I learned a lot that I didnt know while writing these papers lol

Also literally I wonder how Ryan is doing too. I was always under the impression he took his money and fucked off after going to rehab or whatever. Which I respect. But in that one interview he did in 2019 he was talking about how he has so many things he's doing and wants to do that he can't have kids and it just kind of seemed like he was in denial of the fact that he's been essentially unemployed for 15 years which seems like it's not good to me IDK. And it just made me sad because I think he has just suffered a lot

I wish they'd all write memoirs too but they'll all be bad unless they wait at least 20 years and/or James is involved

[libraford]

I do this show every year because it was the first time I really stuck my toe into action photography.

Same dancer, same venue, mostly same lighting, similar poses, in 2019, 2021, and 2022, respectively.

A lot of people think of photography as something very static. You snap a photo. It's the same every time you do it. Anyone can do this.

But these three photos do show how much you can improve in just a few years with practice. (And also how Raven Rya has improved as a performer).

What you need to know about the lighting here is that it sucks. It's a horse show area at the fairgrounds. The 'stage' is meant for animals. They covered the fluorescents AND the skylights with green film for sensory reasons. There is zero lighting design involved.

In the first shot (2019), I had no idea how to use the camera. I think I had it in the AV setting. I didnt know how to adjust white balance. I didnt know shutter speed. I didnt know anything about aperature.

Result- it's an acceptable photo. I was a good shot to get, but you can see all the people in the background. 2022 me would have picked a different angle to shoot from. They would also have used manual settings, turned down the aperature (which would blur out the people in the background) and increased the shutter speed (which would reduce blurriness of the dancer). Everything is kind of green, and I remember editing this one a LOT to get the colors even a little close.

In the 2021 photo, I'm at a higher angle, closer in, and I've made an attempt to customize the white balance. I remember I did switch to manual, but I kind of... guessed? Didnt have a grasp of the exposure triangle yet. I had JUST started at the photography job and we hadn't really gotten into candids yet. She's really red in this photo, I think I did my white balance too far back from the stage. But it's a much better still shot, no people in the background. 2022 me would have gone with lower aperature and bumped the ISO up a tad so we could see the details on her all-black costume. I definitely had a like... editing style that I've been coaching myself out of now that I have like... clients. With expectations.

So that's an improvement, just in two years.

Now its 2022. I'm sitting center. Shutter speed up, aperature down, ISO wherever it needs to be to get that detail. She's a foot ahead of the main light, so she's got harsh shadows, but that doesnt detract from the image. She's framed perfectly. That diagonal SLAPS.

My only problem is that in this instance the light is too cool. Next time, I should do the white balance closer to the stage.

Something that you dont see in this is that I'm keeping more and more photos from events. 2019, I kept about five from this routine. 2021, maybe ten. This year theres a good thirty. Knowing the science of photography has helped me be more confident in getting more shots.

I feel very good about my work now. And its important to know that I felt very good about my work then, too. But it's nice to look back and say 'yes, I'm getting better.'

[vetteldixon]

honestly i didnt say it in the ask but I was just thinking about how Seb would not come back if it meant he would be fighting for points again, as much as he loves racing in general, he loves to win even more. he said multiple times he was there to win and I think he would only come back if all those stuff you talk about happened but also if the team was good, the car was good etc etc

honestly, cause why the fuck would he comeback just to fight for points again? and I think knowing what he knows now about everything, he would make his requests be known and I doubt he would want to deal with certain times of bullshit (ferrari 2019-2020).

in my little dream world he comes back to win championship 5 for car number 5.

(there is also the matter that he saw his idol come back to the sport just to be fighting for points or not even that sometimes and I highly doubt schumi was having fun and not a bit angry.... once you win, you want to keep winning)

I also would LOVEEEEEEE for seb to do a wec and have a triple crown (since he's a NERD he would love to know he did that and be smug af about it cause that's how he is - even if he tries to be humble about it). wec is very sustainable and the calendar is very short, besides, since he's enjoying his little side quests I think he would definitely enjoy this one. (also how he didn't rule out the possibility and said he was thinking about.... maybe in 2025?) but one thing is for sure Seb is not the time to just sit idly

these are all lovely dreams anon! and good points! i'm not too hot on wec (partly because for a variety of reasons including time zones and tv rights the viewing experience for americans is basically actively hostile) but i won't deny that yes he knows people, it's got a lot of things going for it, and like you said that triple crown.

which i have to say the indy 500 leg of it takes much, much more commitment than you might realize and much of the f1 world likes to pretend. fernando proved this especially when he got bumped, and the training for it will be easier if he's younger—so i'd suggest fixing your hopeful eyes on his landing a good indycar seat so he can get busy before worrying about wec!

but yes he will not sit idly, he hasn't been altho it's been small adventures and not exactly anything full time. but yeah his work ethic is insanely high and he takes to travel like a fish to water so i'm sure he'll get busy doing SOMEthing surprising and delightful!

pics of junior series seb from his archived website: