#ofwilliamandwalter's mutuals

[reidsaurora]

OK I HAVE TO SHARE THESE BC I'M LOSING IT OVER HOW ACCURATE THEY ARE 💀

@nomajdetective - Ali, yours is just 😭 bc i'm literally the only person in my family that doesn't have curly hair 💔 the colorful is somewhat accurate tho bc i still have these pink strips in my hair from summer but i'm supposed to be going back natural again soon 🥲 i think quirky fashion is pretty accurate! i have these bright blue and green biker shorts from walmart that i wear literally everywhere so i think that's accurate!

@samuel-de-champagne-problems - Rosie, yours is so accurate that it's scary 💀 like i literally have 3 dark green sweaters in my closet and i never go anywhere without my converse. also i like to think my hair will be cool again once i get rid of this faded pink mess i have right now 😌

@danzalladaggers - Anshu, yours made me giggle bc i have a sweater i thrifted that i pretend is Spencer's every time i wear it and every time i have philosophy class, i always bring along my fav dark blue flannel and it lowkey gives off Sam vibes 💀

anyway, all that to say, i love my moots. y'all really know how to make me giggle when i'm having a hard time 🫶🏻

[foxy-eva]

Milestone Masterlist

Here it is, the official masterlist for my Milestone Writing Challenge! Thank you so much for participating and for your kind words. I had so much fun reading all your stories!

Fics marked with * contain smut, so minors please DNI!

Spencer Reid x Reader

and then talking leads to touching by @gettingrailedbyreid

Prompt: “What are you doing tonight?” - “You, hopefully.”

I am all here for the hospital AU! Those elevator scenes on Grey's Anatomy always made me blush and this story did just the same. The spice is wonderfully written and I love the way the prompt is used!

Here (In Your Arms) by @fortheloveofwonderland

Prompts: “I can’t stay in this darkness with you forever!” and “I feel like all my broken pieces stick back together again when you put your arms around me.”

The way those emotions are written feels so authentic, it's so easy to get lost in this story and experience those feelings myself. I really like the way the torments and fragility of post-prison Spencer are depicted through the eyes of his (ex) partner.

wishing on dandelions by @writer-in-theory

Prompt: “Are you trying to impress me?” “Is it working?"

What an incredibly sweet story!! It really warmed my heart. Trying to impress someone by learning more about their interests is something so adorable and I love how that is turned into a story here!

If We Were A Movie by @reidsbookclub

Prompt: “I would give up everything if it meant you would let me hold you for even just a second”

What a sweet little story! I loved the way Spencer showed confidence for once to let her know about his feelings. There's something about mutual pining that always warms my heart.

They Weren't Ridin' When We Both Fell by @samuel-de-champagne-problems

Prompt: “If you keep making those sounds, I’m not going to be able to stop myself”

I love seeing Spencer all flustered, it's the cutest thing ever. I think young Spencer is perfectly portrayed in this fic! This story is adorable and I really enjoy the way the the scenery is vividly painted!

Milburn by @aperrywilliams

Prompt: “We can make it through this. I’m not leaving your side.”

This story was so painful to read but still so beautiful. The way Spencer's inability to deal with his feelings is described is very accurate. I'm glad he got a hopeful ending, he deserves to find happiness at last.

Never by @ofwilliamandwalter

Prompt: “Aren’t you getting tired of taking care of me?” - “Never.”

I really appreciate stories where mental illnesses are shown from their messier side without romanticizing any of it. By the way Spencer taking care of his friend here, this story manages to provide comfort for the people reading it.

Emily Prentiss x Reader

Right Where You Left Me by @railingsofsorrow

Prompt: “who are we even kidding? we were always a losing game.”

I love that this story starts with the depiction of gaining the trust of a cat because it's a beautiful analogy to the way Emily loves. She's not one to easily trust someone but if you linger and show her softness, she will eventually. Knowing that makes it so much more painful to see her heart getting broken.

Worthwhile by @andiebeaword

Prompts: “Maybe you should listen to your heart?” - “How am I supposed to do  that when it already belongs to you?” and “Who are we even kidding? We were always a losing game.”

This story is so bittersweet and I really liked how both of them learned to accept the situation in the end. They still care for one another and that also means that they want to see the other one being happy - even with someone else.

Emily Prentiss x Aaron Hotchner

Wrapping Things Up* by @ofwilliamandwalter

Prompt: "You know I hate the beach.” - “But you don’t hate seeing me in a bathing suit, do you?”

I loved their banter, it really made me laugh (especially when she said she was marrying him for his paycheck). I really like reading light-hearted stories like this!

Aaron Hotchner x Spencer Reid

All I Have* (Ao3) by @chaotic-librarian

Prompt: “If you keep making those sounds, I’m not going to be able to stop myself”

Saying a lot without using too many words is something not many writers can pull off. Despite not giving much context, this story tells us a lot about their relationship by the way their dynamic is depicted.

Alex Blake x Erin Strauss

Self-Justification by @stupidsexycopshows

Prompt: "We can make it through this, I’m not leaving your side"

The relationship between those two women is something very interesting to dive into. The tension clearly is a relict of the passion they once shared. I think this energy between them is captured perfectly here.

Thank you all again for participating. Please send me a dm if you wrote a story I didn't include, I probably didn't get the notification!

[reidselle]

FINALLY REDOING THIS -> MUTUAL LIST !!

if you want to be added or re added please fill out this -> NEW mutual form!

mutuals on previous list: @buckleyhans @reidslibrarybook @meganskane @moreidsdaughter @heartofcaroline @orion-kenobi @andineverwould @elliottspond @ssavanessa22 @reidsacademia @writingquillsandpainpills @deadravenclaw @ellcsgreenaway @nomajdetective @spacecowboyhotch @reidsbookclub @lilacprentiss @sadgirlml @lil-stark @ssabelova @hotchandspencearedilfs @reidsmilf @leftoverenvy @milfprotector @reidingrainbow @mommymunson @lukeclvez @nervous-tic @fightingdragonswithwho @ssa-sapphic @ofwilliamandwalter @kodiakwhiskey @temilyrights @serenity-lattes @ssamorganhotchner @gettingrailedbyreid @jemilysprentiss

other mutuals: @boldlyvoid @samuel-de-champagne-problems @hotchs-bitch @5raysofsunshine @fortheloveofwonderland @spookydrreid @wheelsupkels @gubler-me-up @spencerreidat3am @foxy-eva @sinfulspencer @rookreadsreid @ropoto

[letarasstuff]

Wow

One thousand followers

This is-

So darn many of you 😭

And I’m super thankful for all of you. For everyone, that is here to stay on my writing path. On my path with countless shitposts, dumb writing ideas and sometimes cute concepts. On my path interacting with you, mutuals, followers, everyone willing to answer me.

Thank you ❤️

Just thank you for sticking by me, who joined Tumblr in September 2019 and started writing in October 2021. Thank you for motivating me through all the ups and downs of writing. Supporting me through the ups and downs of life. I can’t say more than thank you.

But I still wanna do the celebratory things. I never did this and hey, when is the best time if not for 1k followers?

Here are some little fun games I always wanted to try with you 🥺

For everyone:

🤔 - Ask my anything you want (to a reasonable setting)

😬 - FMK with Marvel, Criminal Minds, Bones, Star Wars or any other fandom I’m familiar with

🤫 - Something you wanna know about me?

📝 - Request a blurb/drabble of a platonic ship (ex. Spencer Reid x daughter!reader) with or without a prompt or other prompts

For Mutuals:

💭 - My first or favorite memory of you

🫣 - An embarrassing story of me, bc I got loads of them (how I once got lost at the airport fro example)

🌱 - Tell me a fun fact about you and fandom and I’ll give you a (platonic) ship

🎵 - Send me a song and I’ll give you my honest opinion about it (but pls no rickroll)

Tagging (a few) mutuals:

@rachaelswrites @im-in-love-with-pizza-bites @sweetandsunny @nano-noa @writer-in-theory @ofwilliamandwalter @madlencen @flintt @reidsconverse @romyr4 @ellyhotchner @alyswritings @dindjarinsspouse

[imagining-in-the-margins]

Roommate Challenge Fic Masterlist

Hey everyone! I want to start by saying thank you so much to everyone who participated - it was so much fun to write alongside you all, and I can’t wait to share everyone’s hard work.

So without further ado, here are the entries for the Roommates Challenge!

NSFW Spencer Reid 

Lavender Laundry by @/imagining-in-the-margins: Spencer realizes that his roommate left a piece of her laundry behind in the dryer.

Eyes Wide Shut by @ontheoddoccasioniwritestuff : AFAB!Reader. An agreement between roommates leads to delightful surprises at all hours. 

I Don’t Want to Set the World on Fire by @gettingrailedbyreid : There is a fire in Reader’s apartment, Reid kindly offers to let her stay with him. Only problem is that they have a crush on each other. 

I Should’ve Worshipped You Sooner by @gettingrailedbyreid: Spencer overhears his roommate confess her true feelings for him.

Multiply by @ofwilliamandwalter: Reader loves parties. Spencer hates them with a passion. Somehow or another, this difference leads to… a very odd love confession and some math jokes?

Best Night, Worst Fight by @writer-in-theory: When Spencer and Reader broke up, they were sure staying roommates was a good idea. That was, until Reader starts bringing partners home.

Mutual Exchange by @sinfulspencer : Spencer hears his roommate Reader having a self-love session.

Summer in the City by @foxy-eva: Having a roommate who decided it was too hot to wear clothes suddenly made the heatwave much more tolerable for Spencer.

SFW Spencer Reid 

Better As Your Man Than As a Memory by @fortheloveofwonderland: When Reader makes the decision to catapult into single parenthood, the only person who understands is your best friend and fellow single parent, Spencer Reid. 

You Could Be the One by @andiebeaword: Reader and Spencer have been best friends and platonic roommates for years. Reader develops romantic feelings as well as a desire to only communicate with post-it notes on their dry erase board.

These Are the Words I Held Back (As I Was Leaving Too Soon) by leahseclipse [AO3]: As Spencer Reid sets foot in quite an unknown place, such as Welton, a Catholic preparatory school, what will happen to his life? Will he happen to meet someone that might change it?

A Heartbreak in Mid-December by @reidsbookclub: Spencer and Reader are apartment roommates (song fic based on "December" by Neck Deep). 

Paper Thin Hearts by @reidsacademia: Falling in love with your best friend couldn’t be more inconvenient, especially if they also happen to be your roommate. 

The Sweetest Relief Imaginable by @safespacespencer: Being best friends and roommates brought its own challenges. Reader can’t help but be in love with him, so when they finally feel his touch, can they suppress their feelings any longer?

Best. Present. Ever. by @spencersprentiss: Reader has feelings for their coworker and roommate. So Jack decides to help them out a little.

Business and Pleasure by @jadecaitlynmua: Faking a relationship, turned into something you hadn’t expected.  

And They Were Roommates by @trans-reader-fics: Asexual!Reader and Spencer. The team surprise Reid with a visit to his apartment. Little do they know, he has a roommate. 

I Swear by @mrs-dr-reid: Reader decides to clean the apartment, but she finds something of Spencer’s that she was never supposed to see.  

With My Whole Heart by @kingdom-by-the-sea : Reader and Spencer have known each other long enough that admitting they have feelings for each other seems like too big of a risk to take — especially since they have been living together and raising Spencer’s daughter, Annabel, for the past seven years.

Other CM Ships 

Freedom-Seeking Hearts by @foxy-eva: [Emily/Reader, SFW] For how much longer will Emily Prentiss and Fem!Reader be able to contain their freedom-seeking hearts?

Catching Sparks by @masterwords: [Hotch/Morgan, SFW] Hotch accepts Morgan's invitation to live with him as he goes through his divorce. And then they fall in love, of course.

Dare to Know by @tobias-hankel: [Hotch/Reid, SFW] Hotch moves in with Spencer and finds out a lot about the young man, including who he has a crush on.

Something That Wasn't There Before by @andiebeaword: [Temily, NSFW] You know what they say about roommates? Can’t keep anything straight.

A Cell Divides by @fortheloveofwonderland: [Ralvez, NSFW] Luke has prison all figured out until he’s introduced to his new cellmate, Doctor Spencer Reid.

Roommate Agreement by @mercy-burning: [Ralvez/Reader, NSFW] After about a year of living with Spencer, Reader gets excited when he introduces her to a new potential roommate.

Other MGG Characters 

Mates by @imagining-in-the-margins: [Lesley, NSFW] (AFAB!Reader) Reader and their roommate Lesley didn’t really think through the timing of this hookup.

Flashed Junk Mind by @reidgraygubler: [Wes, SFW] (AFAB!Reader) Reader is jealous when Wes invites over an old friend.

[amazingmaeve]

SPENCER REID FIC RECS iv!

I know number 4 is a lot of fics, but I just keep finding amazing pieces of work. like and reblog all of these works because they deserve it!

archeology ➵ @spencersawkward

summary ➵ Reader is a forensic archaeology student working on a case when she meets Spencer and finds herself both confused and interested in him.

something gave you the nerve to touch my hand ➵ @samuel-de-champagne-problems

summary ➵ At his mother's funeral, Spencer sees an old, familiar face that he never thought he'd see again. But then again, he's always had a habit of being haunted by the living.

turning tables ➵ @spideygenius

summary ➵ based on 14x15, what will you do when JJ confesses her love to your husband.

clumsy ➵ @radiant-reid

summary ➵ Spencer tripping and tumbling leads him to fall for a nurse.

seventeen minutes ➵ @fortheloveofwonderland

summary ➵ seventeen minutes a day is all Spencer gets to spend with you but it’s enough for him to quickly fall head over heels for you. Until one day you seemingly disappear off the face off the earth, leaving Spencer questioning everything.

second times a charm ➵ @foxy-eva 

summary ➵ Back in college Spencer Reid and Fem!Reader left many things unsaid. Years later they give it another try.

fils vert et lignes rose ➵ @spencerreidat3am

summary ➵ Reader stumbles upon the perfect way to tell Spencer some good news

any other weigh ➵ @ofwilliamandwalter

summary ➵ A small collection of stories about the times Spencer told Y/N about how big their baby was getting every week.

impatient ➵ @imagining-in-the-margins

summary ➵ Reid’s been gone on a case and reader picks him up & after they have been driving, they pull over because they can’t wait & end up having sex in the back of the car and he finishes fast lol

found family ➵ @boldlyvoid

summary ➵ Henry's best friend, Taylor, is struggling to take care of her mother's schizophrenia, Spencer knows exactly how to help and it's by getting her out of that environment while her mother gets help.

mutual understanding ➵ @almostgenerallyalways

summary ➵ You and your reserved co-worker Dr Reid have a mutual understanding: Sometimes, when your job gets to be too much, it’s good not to be alone. 

only yours ➵ @foxy-eva

summary ➵ After getting jealous at work Spencer reminds you who you belong to

let you down ➵ @specialagentsergio

summary ➵ After kissing Cat, Spencer tries to salvage his relationship.

a dream come true ➵ @radiant-reid

summary ➵ After a long few years of trying to have a baby, the Reids give up, until nothing short of a miracle happens at an inconvenient time.

letting you go ➵ @ofwilliamandwalter

summary ➵ Spencer Reid spends his afternoon showing off magic tricks to his wife, Y/N. Unbeknownst to him, it may very well be the last afternoon they spend together.

just friends ➵ @reidsbrokenknee

summary ➵ Reader transferred from Quantico after a bad argument with Spencer, five years later she’s transferred back. Will things work out between her and him?

[ptrckjcne]

→ link to my previously pinned post!

→ link to full masterlist!

thank you all so, so much for 400 followers! to be honest, i'm kind of speechless when it comes to the fact that there's actually four hundred of you who choose to follow me, and i just wish i could have taken a few minutes with each and every one to tell you how much i appreciate you! <3

i've been able to make some great friends through this site and this fandom, all people whom i'm extremely grateful for, and i'm honestly just hoping i can continue to befriend you all – and in the process remind you how much i love you!

join the celebration for the 400 followers! → choose a dog breed, and leave your request!

rules: you can submit as many times as you wish, and multiple times for the same category if you'd like. please do keep in mind that i only write sfw, and i write fem!reader unless otherwise is specified in the request!

characters / ships you can request / i write for: luke alvez, derek morgan, aaron hotchner, emily prentiss / garvez, ralvez, hotchniss.

all one shots, blurbs and moodboards will be gathered in one large masterlist post at the end of the celebration!

inbox (anon is on!) → requests are closed!

→ the dog breeds:

groenendael → ask anything (no boundaries) about me or my fics

airdale terrier → fuck, marry, kill...

presa canario → character + situation, and i'll make a mini moodboard

dansk-svensk gårdshund → send me a character, i'll give a sneak peek to a wip

australian shepherd → give me character / ship + a trope, i'll write you a one shot

dachshund → give me a character / ship + a dialogue, and i'll write you a one shot

slovakian wirehaired pointer → send me an au, and i'll write you a blurb

→ mutuals only!

terveruen → i'll share one of my favorite poems with you

flatcoated retriever → i'll shuffle my playlist, and give you three song recommendations

dobermann → i'll give you a reaction meme saved in my cameraroll

tagging some of my wonderful mutuals:

@cal-pal01 @wheelsupkels @arsonhotchner @reidselle @m-mhotchner @deaddpoet @sequinsmile-x @great-hair-and-a-tie @hoe4hotchner @irisonthebus @loumifee @hotchnerxo @writingquillsandpainpills @hancydrewfan @ssamorganhotchner @hotched @reidsbookclub @leftoverenvy @sadgirlml @whitecrossgirl @ofwilliamandwalter

[reidsaurora]

@sadgirlml thank u for the tag, love 💌💗

❤ last song i listened to: landon by chloe ament

🧡 ideal pizza topping: chicken and bell peppers and white sauce instead of marinara 🫶🏻

💛 dream vacation: either disney world and universal or a tour of europe!!

💚 earth, wind, or fire: fire of course 🫶🏻

💙 cartoon i grew up with: spongebob and monster high if that counts lol

💜 favorite scent: vanilla or these sugar cookie wax melts i used to have

no pressure tags: @dungeons-are-too-cold @nomajdetective @rupsmorge @ssahotchnerr @lcvingprentjss and anyone else who wants to join in!!

[reidsaurora]

if any of my moots see this, comment your bday so i can add it to my calendar/planner and celebrate you!! 🥰❤️

[reidsaurora]

You Are Invited To:

OfWilliamAndWalter's 1K Cocktail Party ☆

𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐎𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬:

🍸 Spencer's Sauvignon Blanc - send me a character + prompt from this list and i'll write you a small blurb!

🍸 Penelope's Pink Whitney - send me a character + a scenario and i'll make a moodboard for it!

🍸 Ale for Aaron Hotchner - send me a character + a scenario/au and i'll tell you some headcanons i have!

🍸 Prentiss' Planter's Punch - send me a character and/or scenario and i will make you a short playlist for it!

🍸 Agent Rossi's Rum on the Rocks - send me a couple of your favorite things and i'll tell you who I'd pair you with! (please specify your gender preference if you have one!)

🍸 Greenaway's Grey Goose - send me a couple things about you and i'll tell you what character you remind me of! (one CM character and one non-CM character)

🍸 Morgan's Modern Gin - send me a character and i'll send you a fanfiction recommendation!

🍸 Jennifer 'Jack and Coke' Jareau - send me a series of things and i'll cast my mutuals as those things!

🍸 Aperol Spritz for SSA Alvez - send me an ask game! FMK, Would You Rather, Top Fives, anything you'd like!

𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐑𝐮𝐥𝐞𝐬:

🍸 This will be open to anyone! - despite being alcohol themed, you do not have to be 18+ to send a request! However, since this blog is generally 16+, I would appreciate no overly NSFW requests. Requests are always open on @hornyhornyhimbos if you do have any NSFW requests!!!

🍸 Please be respectful to the blogger and to others! - use your noggin when requesting things. if it sounds offensive, it probably is so just keep it to yourself. treat people with kindness!!!

🍸 Please be understanding when putting in requests! - writing blurbs and headcanons and such can be time-consuming so please be gracious when leaving requests! i will try to answer everyone's asks in as timely of a manner as possible!

𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐒𝐩𝐞𝐞𝐜𝐡:

🍸 As I always say in these types of posts, thank you. Whether you were my first follower or my latest follower, this wouldn't be possible without you. Whether you just arrived, or whether you stayed through my big mental breakdown during the summer, you are so very loved and I am so very grateful for you.

🍸 Of course this wouldn't be possible without my mutuals, who also function as my promo team!!!

🍸 @theghouligan You are my absolute favorite person on this earth, and that's saying a lot because you're a gemini 🤪 no but seriously, you are one of my people and I could never thank you enough for it. You help me through LITERALLY everything. In fact, you were the one who told me to start this blog and release my babies (fics) into the world to help me through a very hard time in my life. I could never thank you enough. I love you with every inch of my being. ❤️

🍸 @dungeons-are-too-cold GG. Georgia Georgia. Oh, the things I could thank you for. thank you for being my best friend, like ever. You fuel me with new writing ideas every day and you beta read things I send you at 3 am and you literally have pulled all nighters with me before, even from over 2,000 miles and a time zone away. Words could never express how happy I am that you've been a part of my tumblr journey and just this journey through life. I love you so damn much.

🍸 @reidsbookclub MY SWEET GRECY GIRL, MY CHICA, MY DEAR, AND EVERY OTHER TERM OF ENDEARMENT I COULD EVER POSSIBLY THINK OF!!! You are one of my favorite humans ever. You were one of the original inspirations for my blog actually!! Anyway, a huge shoutout to you for beta reading everything, no matter how big of an inconvenience I am ik i'm annoying ajsgsshshs and also just for being you!! You put up with me every day and you're just the sweetest person ever and I could never express how thankful I am for you.

🍸 @rupsmorge Rups, my darling!!! You were one of my first friends on tumblr and I will forever be grateful for it. You inspired me to start writing about mental illness and physical disabilities and I am so glad you did. Plus you're just really fucking cool yes, a hot air ref and i think that's enough of a reason to shout you out 😉

🍸 @writer-in-theory JAY!!! You. Oh, you. You are one of my favorite humans ever. You will scream with me about Steve Harrington or Spencer Reid or literally whatever at any given time of the day and I am so thankful for it. You have helped me out of writing slumps before and you have listened to me complain about being a bad writer and you're just... ugh, I love you. You were also one of the original inspirations for my blog and i think that's so cool! So thank you!! 🫶🏻

🍸 there are of course so many other people who have helped me through this and made this possible! @nomajdetective @reidselle @lunar-affection @lcvingprentjss @lukeclvez @writingquillsandpainpills @sadgirlml @will-on-the-internet @spookydrreid @gold-onthe-inside @ssahotchnerr @gay-prentiss @clarawatson @samuel-de-champagne-problems @foxy-eva and literally so many more!! you all mean the absolute world to me and i am so thankful for all of you!!!! ❤️

↳ icon in collage is by @lilacprentiss

↳ other pictures featured in the collage are from pinterest.

↳ dividers are by @anlian-aishang.

[reidsaurora]

ofwilliamandwalter -> reidsaurora

-> tagging mutuals to spread the word!

@reidsbookclub @dungeons-are-too-cold @samuel-de-champagne-problems @writer-in-theory @lcvingprentjss @serenity-lattes @rupsmorge @nomajdetective @letarasstuff @reidselle @broken-stardust

[reidsaurora]

hi i sent an ask about a blurb with 💌 📞 “ It feels so nice to hold you.” and 🌲

i’m sorry i forgot to put who i wanted it with but can you do it with spencer?

anon, i am so so sorry this took me so long to answer but i hope it was worth it!!

(gonna explain more after the imagine so stick around for a full explanation)

💌 - Colleagues to Lovers

📞 - Confessing Their Feelings

[F] 7. "It feels so nice to hold you."

🌲 - mutual pining

"To Hold You" ~ S. Reid

Summary: Y/N gets kidnapped, Spencer helps them cope, and that's the fic.

Pairing: Spencer Reid x GN!Reader (no pronouns used)

Word Count: 1,968

Content Warning: details of Y/N's kidnapping and torture, mentions of blood, mentions of knives, mentions of hospitals, two uses of "Oh, my God"

Genre: Angst and a whole lotta Hurt/Comfort

Extra Notes: none that i can think of

Takes Place: around a year after Maeve's death but not explicitly stated. it's not explicitly stated but it's supposed to be around January or February of 2014.

Originally Written: 05/18/2022

Criminal Minds masterlist can be found here!

come celebrate 300 followers with ofwilliamandwalter here!

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"Oh, thank God," Spencer let out as he ran over to me, wrapping me up in a tight hug.

One hand rested in the middle of my back while the other held my head. His palm felt like it was the size of my entire head.

I attempted to calm myself as I embraced the silence, something I hadn't heard in 24 hours.

I'd heard horror stories about getting kidnapped and tortured. Hell, I saw it every day I was on the field. But I never imagined it would ever happen to me.

"It feels so nice to hold you," I got out, sniffling as I leaned into Spencer's chest.

I could hear him swallow, most likely swallowing down the same tears I'd tried to swallow down throughout the past day.

His breathing became shallow as he let go of me. "I'm never leaving you again," he said. No, he promised. His words were a declaration, not an empty threat.

I stayed silent as helped me into the ambulance.

Just like he said, he didn't leave me that whole night. Through the ambulance ride, through every doctor's evaluation, through the x-ray, and through the process of the E.R. doctor putting my cast on.

"You don't have to do this, you know," I told him as he drove me home.

"Are you kidding, Y/N? It's almost three in the morning and I'm the reason you-" he stopped himself. I knew what he was trying to say, he didn't have to finish.

I guess he technically had been the reason the unsub took me, but neither of us assumed it would happen. After all, we'd split up before to cover more ground when investigating an unsub's house.

He interrupted my thoughts with a distracting breath. "Y/N, almost seven years ago, I was kidnapped in almost the exact same manner you were. JJ was with me that night. I told her we should split up to cover more ground… and I got kidnapped," he brought up, swallowing nervously. "And I said I would never make that same mistake again because I couldn't…" he paused, a couple tears falling from his eyes, "I couldn't bear the thought of the same thing happening to one of my coworkers. Much less someone I love."

"Spencer, this isn't-"

"Yes, it is, Y/N. You got kidnapped because of me."

I took a deep breath, though it felt as though no air actually entered my lungs. "I know this isn't the healthiest way to cope but can we please talk about this later? I really don't want him to be the last thing I talk about before I get home."

Spencer nodded, focused intently on the road in front of him. After a moment of silence, Spencer chuckled, "Green's a good color for your cast."

I suddenly had a flashback to that E.R. exam room. In the moment, I wasn't quite sure why I'd picked green. I'd originally chalked it up to picking a random color off the top of my head. But, when Spencer mentioned it, I remembered it was his favorite color. I remembered having a brief thought about that at the E.R. as well.

I pondered for a moment, wondering just how many things I'd done because they reminded me of Spencer.

I couldn't lie, I wasn't expecting Spencer to be the topic of my thoughts when I decided I needed to compartmentalize everything that had happened. I wasn't complaining, though. After all, I loved him and he loved me.

"Oh, my God. He said he loved me," I realized all the sudden.

"Did you hear me?" he asked, breaking me away from my inner monologue.

I shook off my thoughts by nodding my head. "Sorry, I was distracted," I answered. "Yeah, green's a good color," I confirmed, feeling rather awkward from the direction our small talk had headed.

As Spencer turned onto my block, I could see my apartment building in the distance.

"Are you sure you don't need anyone to stay with you tonight? JJ and Penelope are good at this kind of stuff. I could-"

"It's OK, Spence, really," I answered. "I think I need to be alone right now."

Soon enough, he'd walked me up to my apartment, making sure I was OK about five more times before finally leaving.

I closed the door after he left, blinking for a split second.

He was there, holding the same knife he'd stabbed me repeatedly with.

I opened my eyes as quickly as I could, not wanting to lock eyes with my captor any more than I had to.

I felt my breathing become heavy as I felt something like a presence behind me. I reached around for my gun, unholstering it as I quickly turned.

Nothing.

As I sat down on the couch, I buried my face in my hands, tears beginning to slip from my eyes.

The feeling of the rope around my hands, the pressure of the steel entering my side, the sound of his maniacal, egotistical laugh, all of it filled all of my senses.

My chest became heavy as I pulled out my phone, the sound of his laugh still filling my ears as I dialed Spencer's number.

"He can't save you, you know," his voice taunted, reverberating off of the four walls I called home.

"Hey, Spence-"

"I'm still here. Would you like me to come in for a little bit?" he asked, already knowing what I needed.

"Please," I managed to get out through my quiet cries.

Almost immediately, I heard knocking on my front door.

I knew it was overdramatic, but I hesitated to look through the peephole. Of course it was Spencer. Who else would be knocking on my door at three in the morning?

Yet somehow, I'd never felt more relief than when I saw Spencer on the other side of that peephole.

I barely got the door open before falling into his arms and letting everything out. "He's everywhere," I told him, water spewing from my eyes and onto his sweater.

"I know," he replied, rubbing circles on my back. He situated us so that we were both fully inside the apartment, closing the door behind us. "Is it OK if I lock the door?"

I couldn't form any other words, but I was able to manage a nod of the head. Despite Spencer being there to protect me, I still hadn't been able to close my eyes.

Spencer dropped his go bag from his hand and reached around to lock the door. His other arm was still wrapped around me, like he never wanted to stop touching me.

"How long will I see him?" I asked.

"A while," he answered. "Healing isn't linear. I'm not sure how long it will take you to cope," he said honestly.

Spencer always knew the right thing to say, whether he knew it or not. That was one of the things I loved most about him.

"Oh, my God. He loves me too," I thought again.

He broke away from me hesitantly, like he didn't want to break away from me. I couldn't tell if it was for his sake or mine, but either way, I didn't want him to break away either.

"I know it's going to be hard, but you should try and get some sleep. Your body needs plenty of melatonin so your circadian rhythm will be in balance, that way you can heal properly," he told me. "Not that you asked. I'm sorry I'm rambling."

I managed a giggle, the first one in what felt like a month. "It's alright. I like hearing your voice."

A small tint of red appeared on his cheeks as he scratched the nape of his neck awkwardly.

I took an apprehensive breath, unsure how to say my next question. "Spence, will you sleep in my room?" was somehow what I landed on.

He gulped nervously. "Are you sure?"

"I have a blow-up mattress if you'd rather take that, but I have a king-sized bed so there's plenty of room for both of us if you don't feel like blowing up the mattress."

He nodded as he picked his go-bag up from beside the door. "I'm just gonna go change. I'll be gone for a minute. I promise I won't leave you again."

I nodded quietly, following him to my bedroom.

As he closed the door, I decided to distract myself by changing my own clothes. After successfully changing, I stared at my dirty clothes on the floor. The dried blood stains from my stab wounds, the smell of sweat and tears soaked into the fabric, the memory of it clinging to my body when what I needed most was to be free.

"I'm coming back in," Spencer said from the other side of the bathroom door.

"Yeah," I whispered just loud enough for him to hear, quickly tossing my clothes into the hamper across the room.

The next thing I knew, we were in bed, lying as far from each other as possible. I was pretty sure Spencer was already asleep, I could've sworn I heard snoring at one point.

I, on the other hand, was only about fifteen seconds away from sleep when it happened again.

"You thought you could escape me in your sleep?" he taunted, holding up the knife and strutting toward me. "You poor thing. You'll never be able to escape me."

"No!" I screamed. "No, please, no!"

"Y/N!" I heard as he shook me awake.

My chest heaved up and down, up and down, as I tried to catch my breath again. I was convinced the room was closing in on me—the more I tried to take a breath, the less air actually entered my lungs. "I can't take this anymore!" I cried. "It's been 30 hours and I already wanna give up!"

"Hey, shh, it's OK. I've got you," Spencer attempted to calm me, wrapping his arms around me.

I leaned back against his chest, not wanting to soak any more of his clothes with my tears.

"He can't hurt you anymore. He's dead," he told me.

I suppose the statement tried to relieve me, even if it did only last for a split second. "Did that help?" I asked honestly, scooting away so I could face him.

"What?"

"Did that help? Telling yourself Tobias Hankel was dead?"

He stayed silent, like he was pondering how he should answer my question. After a moment, he shook his head, almost like he was disappointed that that was his answer.

"Can you hold me?" I blurted out. "Physical touch seems to be the only thing that's helped."

He nodded, wrapping his arms around me again. For the first time that whole night, his breathing was steady, and I couldn't help but wonder if I'd done that.

I thought about what he'd said, "Much less someone I love." I wondered if love was strong enough to help a person through what I'd been through. I wondered if love was what got him through his kidnapping, if it got him through Maeve's death.

"It feels nice to hold you," I said for the second time that night, taking in the feeling of his skin against mine.

"You too," he replied, resting his chin atop my head.

I took a deep breath, reveling in the feeling of air actually filling up my lungs. "Spence, I know that now is probably the worst time to bring this up, but I think-" I stopped myself, "No, I know. Spencer, I love you."

"I love you too."

"Please don't ever leave me again," I practically begged, "On duty or off."

He left a small kiss on my hairline, pulling me in even closer than we already were. "I promise."

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And now, for the explanation.

I started this like almost as soon as you put in the request (i honestly don't even know how long ago that was, i'm so sorry), but nothing ever felt right. I wrote and wrote and wrote and nothing ever felt good enough. So, I stopped working on it for a few days, erased what little bit I had, and then this happened. This is by far one of those moments where "good things come to those who wait" because it's genuinely my favorite Spencer imagine in a long time.

Anyway, the reason I'm just now posting it instead of posting it the day I wrote it like the others is because I needed a Spence imagine for this week since I didn't get a chance to finish anything else college prep has been so stressful i'm so sorry y'all

But yeah, I hope this clears everything up and I hope you enjoyed! I hope it was worth the wait!

also lil psa, y'all feel welcome to keep sending prompts and stuff from the 300 celebration! i just hit 400 so think of it as a lil celebration for that too! i don't think i'm gonna do anymore celebrations until my 6 month mark but if yall have any ideas for 500 since that's a pretty big deal, feel free to send me those ideas too!

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[reidsaurora]

EMMY AAAAA CONGRATS ON 1K IM SO PROUD OF YOU AND HAPPY FOR YOU

for rossi's rum and greenaway's grey goose: I love music and video games and cuddling and spending time with people I love (and I'm gay)

for jj's jack and coke: days of the week

BLAKE!!!!! HI DARLING!! 🫶🏻

🍸 Agent Rossi's Rum on the Rocks - send me a couple of your favorite things and i'll tell you who I'd pair you with! (please specify your gender preference if you have one!)

I would pair you with Derek!!! I feel like he's a big cuddle guy and he definitely loves a good "Choose Your Own Adventure" game so i feel like y'all would get along very well!!!

🍸 Greenaway's Grey Goose - send me a couple things about you and i'll tell you what character you remind me of! (one CM character and one non-CM character)

OK so the Criminal Minds character you remind me of is... Penelope! It's canon that she loves all the things you listed so it just makes sense! Plus you'd be the baby girl boy to Derek's chocolate thunder.

For the Non-CM character, I'm gonna do a bit of a throwback to my childhood but all those things remind me of Yugi from Yugioh!!! Idk, he obviously loves games, he's super sweet and loves his friends, he needs a good cuddle. Idk, he just seems like you!

🍸 Jennifer 'Jack and Coke' Jareau - send me a series of things and i'll cast my mutuals as those things!

this takes me back because i originally had a whole post about why i assigned each day of the week to which fictional character i wrote so this is very nostalgic in a way lol

Sunday - this one goes to @reidsbookclub. Grecy is the epitome of a relaxing, calm, chill Sunday. Like it just makes sense to me.

Monday - hmmm, maybe @will-on-the-internet. something about Will says Monday to me but idk what.

Tuesday - for some reason i wanna say both @writer-in-theory and @gold-onthe-inside but i'm afraid i can't explain either of these decisions 🧍🏻‍♀️

Wednesday - @dungeons-are-too-cold is a Wednesday. idk why but they scream Wednesday to me.

Thursday - @lcvingprentjss. tell me i'm wrong.

Friday - @writingquillsandpainpills simply because every day that Zahra is in my life, it's a party and a half.

Saturday - i think I'll say @sadgirlml because she just feels like a girl's night. like a night out on the town = Mely and i can't be convinced otherwise.

ofwilliamandwalter's 1K cocktail party

[reidselle]

should i start posting my video edits on here again?

tagging some mutuals: @boldlyvoid @ssavanessa22 @leftoverenvy @ssa-sapphic @ofwilliamandwalter @ropoto

[reidsaurora]

Tagging System:

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-> #emmy's djats rambles - ramblings related to daisy jones and the six

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Thank you for the tag @ofwilliamandwalter

slow burn or love at first sight // fake dating or secret dating // enemies to lovers or best friends to lovers // oh no there’s only one bed or long-distance correspondence // hurt-comfort or amnesia // fantasy au or modern au // mutual pining or domestic bliss // smut or fluff // canon-compliant or fix-it // reincarnation or character death // one-shot or multi-chapter // kid fic or road trip fic // arranged marriage or accidental marriage // high school romance or middle aged romance // time travel or isolated together // neighbours or roommates // sci-fi au or magic au // body swap or gender bend // angst or crack // apocalyptic or mundane

No pressure tags: @sinfulspencer , @writer-in-theory , @lcvingprentjss and anyone who wants to participate!