#oh and i by no one cares i mean like the ppl closest to me dont not just like. everybody yk

[thekidsarentalright]

i rly need to stop not taking care of myself all day (aka not eating drinking water etc) and then feel like shit and be like taken aback that i feel like shit -_-

[zemnarihah]

i mentioned this on here before but i have a friend who is abt to get married and like i just realized thats probably the death knell for our friendship

[dazednmatthews]

sick!matt headcanons

based on this ask n answer i saw on my feed!! all credits to both of these amazing ppl for the idea!!!

-matt is definitely the type to be a whiny mess when he’s sick

-we alr know his ass is in his room and sleep 24/7 but the second he starts to feel even a little bit ill he’s in there with blinds drawn and bundled in his blankets so tight

-he’d be texting you every second he is awake though, begging to see you

-“please baby. i just want to be next to you.”

-and ofc course you don’t give a damn about getting sick because that’s your man and you’re gonna stick beside him!

-“i know, honey, i’m coming. gotta stop at the store to get you some things.”

-matt always likes to find new shows to watch. it’s like his thing, but when he’s sick it’s a constant marathon of all his comfort shows and movies.

-“can we watch taken?”

-“again?”

- “it’s such a good movie, babe. liam neeson is just too good not to be a real spy.”

-“whatever you want, baby.”

-you love taking care of him, but getting him to take medicine is the most annoyed you feel

-“that shit tastes so bad, i’m not drinking that.”

-“do you want to feel better or not?”

- you’d argue back and forth for a little while but you get your way regardless

-“matt if you don’t take this fucking cough syrup, i’m going home.”

-“…fine. where is it?”

-a lot of naps. constant napping.

-you’re both cocooned underneath several blankets, legs intertwined, matt’s head on your chest. he’s been in and out of sleep all day while you’ve been watching the movie playing softly on the t.v. your hands are running through his hair affectionately. his hands are wrapped around your waist tightly. you think this is the closest to heaven you’ve ever been.

-when you eventually have to get up, you do your best to unwrap yourself from his hold, but his ass will not let go.

-“where are you going?” his voice is thick with sleep and a little nasally cause of his congestion.

-“babe, i have to pee.” you pat his head affectionately. “you’re gonna have to let me up.”

-“nooooooo,” here comes the whining again. “stay.”

-“the quicker you let me up, the quicker i’ll be back, matt.”

-chris and nick make fun of him so bad for it.

-“he’s fucking insufferable when he’s sick. i don’t know how you’re doing it right now.” nick says.

-“he’s not that bad,” you roll your eyes while heating up some soup for the two of you.

-chris laughs, “this is hilarious. big, bad, tough guy matt getting his ass kicked by a cold.” he’s much more happy than he should be at that. “mr. tough guy getting spoon fed soup by his girlfriend.”

-you let them have their fun for a while before you light heartedly shut them up. “lets not forget that mr. tough guys girlfriend has cleaned up your-” you point at nick, “vomit, and has also babied you when you got your ass kicked by a sunburn.”

-they shut up after that

-sleepy matt is one of your favorite versions of him

-when you come back into the room he’s sat up against the headboard shirtless, doing that cute thing where he rubs his eyes incessantly, blankets pooled at his waist

-his hair is strewn about, fluffy and wispy. he stretches, enough for you to see the top of his pj pants

-he looks at you as you enter, gatorade and soup balanced in your hands

-you put the dishes and drinks on the bed side table and he smiles at you oh so warmly

-he moves from his spot to the side of the bed where you stand, opening his legs for your to go in between them. he looks up at you, pulling you towards him. your hands find his shoulders, kneading softly.

-“thank you, baby.”

-“of course, matty. you’ve gotta stay hydrated if you’re gonna get better.”

-“no, not for the soup. well, yes for the soup, but i mean for everything. for staying with me. for taking care of me. i know i’m a lot right now.”

-he looks sheepish, so you bend down to kiss his cheek.

-“you’d do the same for me.”

-you stay there for a couple sweet moments, his face pressed into your stomach and your hands playing with the hair at the nape of his neck

-eventually you both lay back in bed, ending the day doing your favorite thing, just holding each other

-of course you end up sick

-you’re a lot better at being sick than matt but it never matters

-he’s babying you just the same

-“can’t believe being a good girlfriend got me sick. i hate you.”

-he rubs your back while your head is in his lap

-“i’m sorry sweetheart. don’t worry, though. i’ll take good care of you. just rest.”

-you’re not worried in the slightest. he always does.

[kirby-the-gorb]

reply roundup!

had to put these on hold for a while for personal reasons </3 they're likely to still be infrequent, but in honor of kirb2k!

(my notes would only load back to mid september so I missed a couple weeks sorry :c but be warned that this is a long one! it's 3 entire months' worth!)

also, reminder that kirb2k ends tomorrow!!! preorders, commissions, and auctions will all close at noon pst on sunday december 17th! everything is linked in the pinned post or filed under the tag kirb2k!

first is one more birthday kirb from my friend @sleepy-sheep-wizard:

Realized halfway thru that I don’t know what Kirby looks like off the top of my head, so I got funky with it. Happy birthday, thank you for being a good friend

thank you again friend <3 getting funky with it is truly in the spirit of just drawing a little guy for fun, I love his little hat in particular.

on [mirror] @shapeshifterwithafez said: uuuh is Scherben bringen Glück/ Shards bring luck a universal saying? sounfs clinky as a direct translation. anyways in germany we say that shards of stuff you broke brings luck so I hope the luck finds you or smth sorry for rambling ^^

I'd never heard this saying before, but I think it's very sweet! thank you for sharing it with me :)

on [pipefight] @hauntedppgpaints said: goalies with a skate blade and their stick in hand

big hockey vibes for real yeah lol

on [pink] @gaydiation-poisoning said: ...I wanna eat that pink

honestly same, it's sooo pleasing

on [rain] @hive-heart said: Everything alright, daily kirby guy?

not really but sitting by the window in the rain is a good thing lol thanks for asking <3

(also the person who tagged that same post myhouse.wad made me laugh)

on [photo] @ceylonsilvergirl [added] a picture of their cat and said: get adored idiot!! see the hate in her eyes? I’ll make her love me yet!!

me @ my partner's cat

@violet-dragongirl said: oh! I have been meaning to ask! Have you played Kirby and The Forgotten Lands? I assume you did but just wanted to say that I did about a week ago and I loved it and thought of your art! ^.^ And if you haven't, yes, Carby is super adorable and amazing :3

I have! I got it very shortly after it came out, I had a really good time with it. I've been slowly replaying it recently with my partner, they were kind of fond of kirby just by proxy but since we started playing they adore bandee now and say he never gets enough screen time XD I'm glad you also had fun!

on [mice] @ceylonsilvergirl said: girls like swarms of things, right?

idk bro my wife wasn't so big on it when I got a gig housing 30 mice, but maybe she's weird. I liked them. (sadly one of the best paying jobs I've ever had up until the owner lost it and abandoned them with me, yes I still took care of them for the rest of their little lives) (and yes I also got my wife's okay before I took them on in the first place)

on [covid] @mordantivore said: reading posts from when the era of covid safety was declared anathema and ended is haunting. we were so desperate to find ppl willing to help us stay alive. there are fewer of us now bc “allies” are worthless & more of us have died

yeah. fuck. I'm lucky that the people in closest proximity to me are at least moderately careful, but me and my wife and partner are usually the only ones wearing masks anywhere we go except sometimes the employees and I know they don't always wear them when they're out without me.

on [swim] @northeasternwind said: Jdjdjfkg imagining Kirby being way more bouyant than your average human so them gotta exhale REAL HARD or attach nega-floaties (sinkies?) like weights to dive

lol yeah they probably gotta try So Hard to actually get under the water. (I think diving weights/ballast is a thing that humans use too? I've never gone diving, having my face underwater stresses me out -n- )

on [float] @nickiemoot said: he has to go now. his planet needs him. *slide whistle*

I can only hear this as that one similar part from one of the asdfmovies, it delights me

@vampiricarus said: if you see this just know i love your art so much

aww thank you! <3

anonymous said: just wanted to say I love Kirby and I love your art! I’m always excited to see it on my dash. thank you for bringing a little joy to my life :) I need it once in a while like I’m sure a lot of others do too! Keep up the good work :))

thank you! drawing a little guy brings me a little joy too, I'm glad it can do the same for others <3

on [drain] @ceylonsilvergirl said: I’m sorry you’re having a rough time. Existing is hard work sometimes. A lot of the time

fuck dude it sure is <3 especially when my body keeps trying to shut down lol

on [mud] @why-are-all-the-fun-urls-taken said: Hey man are u doing ok

I am not, thanks for asking <3

on [tummyache] @hobgirl said: :o kirby the gorb why would you do that!!!!! why!!!!!

I didn't want it to go to waste!!! everyone is dumb sometimes!!!

on [wizard] @eau-the-agony said: not enough appreciation in the wizarding world for garlic salt spell. its all kung pow penis tgis and ketamine ape that. not enough of the small joys which carry us through the horrors like a dinky garbage raft

you are so right. the small joys are the most powerful of all.

on [wizard] @beepbeepdespair said: somehow didnt know garlic salt was a thing until this moment. now i really want some. i think i just found a kg of it online for 12 quid??

I am so pleased that you now have the knowledge of Garlic Salt Spell, I hope you got to try it out for yourself :D

on [zelda] @chaos-squared said: Good job!! I’ve had it for longer yet still haven’t completed it ;w;

nothing wrong with that! I only finished it as quickly and thoroughly as I did because I was basically bedridden for all of october, as long as you enjoy the time you do spend with a game it doesn't really matter how much time you spend or how far you get.

on [brave] @gudetamalover said: me tomorrow afternoon when I get all four wisdom teeth out

I'd already had several other oral surgeries on account of Weird Teeth before I got my wisdom teeth out but it still knocked me on my ass for a couple days, I hope your recovery went as smooth as possible! (altho that was also like. 15 years ago. and general anesthesia has gotten a lot better since then.)

on [shiny] @angst-and-fajitas said: Like to slap his bald head reblog to slap his bald head

bald! bald! bald! bald!

on [powerwash] @chronicdilf said: decemberb 16 im goign to walk across the damn stage get my damn diploma folder im going to go home and POWERWASHER SIMULATOR JUST LIKE KIRBY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah!!! you're gonna do it!!! you might be doing it right now even!!!

on [cooked] @hobgirl said: oh mood kirby..... struggling with the very last paper i need to write before i can graduate and its got me feeling this way fr

ough, I hope you made it through your paper! lots of people graduating tho that's so cool, congrats to both of you!

on [bears] @jupiterlandings said: I get so happy every time I see Cake and the name Cake being tagged :)

it's such a good name for a bear, I'm grateful you thought of it!! especially given the best I could do for the other one was "kirbear" lol

@violet-dragongirl said: omg seeing that Fav Grobs Post you recently put up makes me so happy! over a thousand (and then some!) GORBS?! :D I'm not only impressed but so proud ya made it this far and I'm so glad you got possibly more to go of Kirby!! :D!! Really great job 🥰🥰

thank you! I'm gonna hit 2000 days of drawing kirby tomorrow, that's so wild!

on [popular] @timeturner-jay said: Op your Kirby art brings so much utter joy you have no idea <3

yay I'm glad <3 I love to draw a little guy, it's good I'm not the only one having fun lol

I got a lot of "good blaze op" on the [macarena], and you're all correct, thank you for recognizing my great decision making B) (I'd been meaning to add the music and blaze it from basically the moment I drew it, I've just been really sick so it took a while.)

(also even if I don't always gather them in the roundup there are names I recognize showing up repeatedly in the tags, some of whom have been here for years, and I'm always glad to see you're still around!)

[moving-to-dreamwinged]

cw / ed

it’s just hard for me to genuinely believe u care as much as u say when u keep making “jokes” even after ive explained to u so many times how much it hurts me OVER and OVER when i HATE opening up to ppl so even setting tht boundary was hard asf!!!😭😭😭 u know how hard i worked to get in recovery and how it’s been even harder to actually STAY there. u know all the stories abt how my disorder tore my relationship w my family and my old friends about. yet u constantly say triggering shit ON A LOOP EVERY DAY with no fucking warning. bc i had the audacity to be vulnerable for once in my fucking life and open up to u abt my insecurities? then u say my trust issues in general are unfounded and “crazy” when U PERPETUATE THEM. just say u liked me better when i was sicker at this point instead of beating around the bush. for fucks sake

and these r supposed to be my ppl, the closest friends i’ve ever had in my life yet they constantly make me so uncomfortable with the things they say abt my habits and the tidbits they know abt my struggles w mental health. they’re so so great otherwise but then there’s this and no matter how much i explain it they never stop? it hurts so much. and it comes in sprees too; where they just basically bully me constantly for a week and i hav no idea where it came from or how to stop it. i don’t want to let a few idiotic comments interfere wifh all the progress i’ve made but fuck. i decide to treat myself w a lil dessert and there’s a comment. i walk outside in literally any outfit and it’s “oh u better lay off the [whatever food they saw me eating recently] or that’s not gonna fit anymore lol!” i genuinely. don’t understand. iv explained to them hey im in recovery from anorexia after multiple years of struggling w it, ik it’s just jokes to u guys but it really hurts me. nope nothing. the running gag in the friend group is basically that im fat and ugly. that’s their favorite bit nd when they remember how funny it is Oh am i in for a long couple of weeks.

and idk maybe they dont mean it. maybe they rly just think it’s funny; maybe they think there’s nothing wrong w my body so commenting on it is a funny joke bc of the contrast but idrc honestly. one of them even HAS body dysmorphia (and knows i do too!) and STILL does it. like shouldn’t you understand how fucking DAMAGING tht is? its all so hurtful to me in so many ways nd i can’t stop thinking about it. they know i struggle w sh and suicidal thoughts too yet keep this up. like shouldn’t u know that’s gonna make it worse??? i don’t rly have any interest in seeing them if this keeps up. i don’t wanna eat around them or even exist around them if they keep doing this. i feel rly sick. i don’t want to think this is genuinely how my best friends feel abt me and they think it’s ok but. :( i can’t help it. i rly don’t know what to think

[todayisawthewhxlewxrld]

look normally I wouldn’t even put anything on these anonymous things guys but I NEED to speak abt my situation to even more ppl, so in summary my crush of like 2-3 yrs HATES me instead of loving me💔💔

so in detailed I liked him a while ago but then the next year I didn’t like him like if he like was there, left, and then came back to me.

thsi year is when we actually started talking or last year around august, we talked m became the closest even if we didn’t talk that much during school but we would be calling and texting 24/7 both of us staying awake more time even if we are sleepy, just for eachother, and that’s how it was for like until January??

so o my gosh what happened is that both of us are EXACTLY the same, so we are both a bit to much for each other, we are both a bit yeaa.

N what being going is that he texts so dry, doenst repsond, doesn’t care like he used to but taht ok wtv

n on my notes TODAY like less than 4 hrs ago I put as a joke on my insta note “I hope u suffer alone w no one to help u” well not rlly as a joke but I’m a person whose mode is always switching and I’m telling u not one min later after I put that he put on his notes “yea nah” n well I was like oh this a coincidence right right but I was texting his friend whom is my friend as well and I was like “STOP DO U THINK HE THINKS ITS ABT HIM” w the ss of our notes side to side n he replies w this weird worded message “he knows he has me” n I was like “HUH WYM BY THIS??” N he was like “dw abt it “ n I was like “BRO TELL ME WHAT U MEAN OR UR GETYING BLOCKED” n he puts “it’s Nun of ur business” so simple as that I blocked him but I AHVENT blocked my honeybunch which is K MY GOSH I FOROGOT TO TELL U HOW IN SCHOOL BEFORE ALL THIS UHHH well I was WLAKING to my next period m he wa slike TRYNAN pass across the hallway to go to his class n I didn’t look at him obvi n like I moved my shoulder sideways so we wouldn’t bump but he had the audacity to bump into me but not a soft shoulder bump but a hard one when I’m telling u like if it was filled w anger n he wanted to punch me or sum cuz Nuh uhhh

but well a win is a win guys I’ll be in his head even if he hates me🥰🥰

but on a serious note fuck him

i think i went through the five stages of grief reading this dear god

lowkey reminds me of smth that happened to me in middle school minus the hatred … ermm anyway yeah fuck him!!!

[violentviolette]

Jack I have a question. Is this healthy or no?

So i am a very conflict avoidant person, but also an emotional bitch about everything all the time. I have over time learned to separate my emotions from logic though, and give space to both of them. The way I do this is that if someone upsets me but it’s not a genuine issue that needs communication on, I will tell them they’re okay/i’m okay, and then will vent the emotions elsewhere where they can’t see.

What I tell them is not a lie. I usually am not actually angry or whatever, but I have to give voice to my irrational emotions somewhere or it sticks in the back of my throat for the rest of the day/night/week/month (that’s not an exaggeration)

I only ask because people don’t seem to like or understand it so i don’t know. Am I insane? Am I being toxic? Or am I just being complicated™️? I dont know anymore.

My gf recently broke up with me over it so (someone sent her screenshots of my vents) :/

oh that sucks, im sorry someone did that because that is genuinely a normal and healthy thing like, we are going to sometimes think negative things about the people we love and care about. thats SUCH a normal human thing. ppl are going to get on our nerves or do things that bug us or any number of things and it is very much perfectly healthy to recognize when those feelings are either irrational or dissproportionate to the situation or just unhelpful or even mean and unfair, and instead of bringing any of that to the other person or putting that on them, to deal with those feelings privately away from them and then move on. like that is so incredibly normal and healthy a lot of people dont like that because a lot of people have issues with boundaries and control, and think that dating or being close friends with someone means ur entitled to their every thought and that anything u dont share with them is lying or hiding things from them. this is very unhealthy and can lead to lots of different kinds of abusive and negative behavior. we are all entitled to privacy, even from the people closest to us it sucks that someone showed her what should have been private conversations and its a p big breech of trust and boundaries on the part of that person. i'd be pissed af honestly. and it's understandable that ur gf was hurt by them, but since thats exactly the reason u didnt express any of that to her, it sucks that she saw them despite ur best efforts just to be very fair i will say that it's also understandable on her end that seeing them made her change her feelings and decide to break up, depending on the exact content of the vents it might have been hard to know u ever think of her that way or upsetting to know u speak about her that way to others. not saying the things u were saying were fucked up but ive known ppl who will vent about their partners with zero consideration for them as people and say things like "fuck that stupid bitch i hope she dies" or "she's just being a dumb whore" or other like deeply desparaging statements that go beyond expressing ur feelings and into value judgement of the other person and its understandable why someone would then immediately breakup with someone who speaks about them like that, even if its not to their face. so i feel like its an important contextual footnote that depending on the content of the vents it might make the situation less u healthily expressing ur feelings elsewhere and more its just not acceptable or okay to speak about a partner this way ever, even if its not to their face but again im not accusing u of that and am giving u the good faith benifit of the doubt that u were just having normal vents, which is not only absolutely a healthy thing, but is very much needed in relationships. u and ur partner should both of have spaces and circles outside of one another where u can speak and vent freely about eachother and get support and reassurance from other people without the involvment of ur partner at all. u both have a right to privacy from one another and u dont have to tell eachother ur every thought and ur allowed to have private feelings that u dont share with ur partner, even if those feelings are negative. those are basic and core parts of a healthy relationship so ur not just being toxic or insane.

[bonesandthebees]

on the topic of names, this is a random thing but idk just thinking about the meaning of names n stuff brought this up but i actually changed my last name legally !! (just this year, after my 19th bday pog)

i obvi won't say what but i will say i changed it to like . a word. not a name. i have an obsession w words with obscure meanings (like petrichor <3) and i've never felt connected to my last name... like i actually disliked it LMAO idk i just never liked how it sounded and whenever i looked at my full name i thought it just kinda . idk i never liked it

but ever since changing it to a name i chose, i just... i love it. i look at my name fully written out and it makes me so happy waefjwael I was a little nervous that it would just look weird and my entireee family was like "omg what if u change ur mind tho and hate it?!?!" even though i was pretty certain i wouldnt care, but yeah ever since i actually got the document back, there's been no regrets. it's one of the best decisions i've ever made. it's really helped me feel more comfortable in my identity n stuff.

i've had so many ppl question why i did it though lmaooo, theyre all just like "u can do that..." like yep! u can just change ur name for no reason lol. i mean . it gets annoying with having to tell all the gov places n stuff, but otherwise it's pretty simple lmaooo. def better to do it when ur young though bc then u have less places to tell

but yeah sometimes when im explaining to ppl why i did it, i get flashbacks to u talking about why you love writing stuff about names lmaooo /pos but yeah:)) just to say that i also really resonate with names having meaning n stuff hehehe

(yes I combined these two asks since they seemed pretty similar, the screenshot is technically the first one)

oh that sounds like such an interesting class!! it's always fascinating to learn different cultures history behind names. I love the idea of earning a name that's the same as a family member representing that you're sharing an identity, and also the fact that you can lose a name depending on your actions

also that's so cool that you changed your name!! I think changing your last name to a word is a REALLY cool idea. also, while I've heard plenty about people wanting to change their first names, you don't really hear about people wanting to change their last names that often? but like, I get it. I actually don't go by my legal last name that often unless I have to, or at least not my full one. I have two last names but I only ever use one of them in my daily life, and whenever I hear the other one used it really bothers me. there's a whole lot of reasoning for this I won't get into because it's personal but the gist is that my mom added my second last name legally for me when I was 11, and so up until that point I only had ever gone by one last name. and the timing of when that legal paperwork happened coincided with a lot of major things happening in my life, so I associate the person I was with that original last name as being a lot different than who I am now. now I only go by the second last name my mom added on for me and I hate when people use my original last name.

long winded way to say I get it, and I'm so glad you're happy with your name now!! you gotta love that you can literally just change your name if you want. one of my closest friends from college did that. I don't think she's gone through the legal hassle, but she uses a different first name than her birth one now which she started doing during covid. there's no reason for it. she's cis and she doesn't have any trauma attached to her old name or anything. she just didn't like it. who cares y'know? make yourself happy.

[amaurotine]

i think that your average amaurotine usually has 2 names; either a title to reflect their position if they’re on the convocation, or a moniker that reflects their habits, personality, or abilities, which they share with the public; and then a birth-name that some choose to keep and share with those closest to them, and some choose to shed it entirely; it varies depending on the individual; and some ppl choose their own, and others have it given to them. the existence of these outer/secondary names are like the ones you use in public and for professional stuff, and they’re also meant to help communicate to people what kind of person you might be, what your talents are, how you can help others, etc. hyth’s name is a good example of this to some extent, because it reflects that he’s generally a very lighthearted and silly person who sometimes uses a lot of words to convey relatively simple concepts. his penchant for flowery, polite language is reflected by his name, and by knowing his name, you immediately have a bit of insight as to what kind of person he is; just like how ppl see the red masks of convocation members and immediately know that they serve the convocation. it makes communications and interactions between amaurotines more accessible, at the cost of sacrificing individuality, which i feel is consistent with societal values. additionally, i think the amaurotine language uses gender-neutral pronouns as a default for everyone and gendered pronouns are really only used in one-on-one conversations and/or by request, the issue of names being inherently gendered isn’t necessarily a thing. there are some names that might be gendered; especially older names that are left over from the days before amaurot’s founding, and hyth’s birth-name is one of them.

because hythlodaeus just kind of. went along with everything macarenses did and was when they were young (with them being your stereotypical inseparable identical twins), he passively identitifed by she/they pronouns up until he was a teenager and began to explore gender and find his own identity/voice. his birth-name also isn’t hythlodaeus; hythlodaeus was his nickname given to him by his parents due to his habit of rattling off random tidbits of lore or poetry as he remembered them, often resulting in what was essentially nonsensical psychobabble dressed up as prose (because the flavour text on the hyth minon suggests that his name does, in fact, mean the same thing as it does irl, that being “speaker/purveyor of nonsense”, which is a direct reference to more’s utopia, and as a humanities masters degree holder, you will pry my old philosophical literature references from my cold dead hands) his birth-name was actually kore, which was a reference to persephone, one of etheirys’s first soulseers (who was, unbeknownst to everybody, actually hyth’s first incarnation upon etheirys!)

i think hyth didn’t really care or give much though to his own gender/identity at that time because he was a child, and bc at that time, whatever macarenses’s gender identity was, he just looked at that and went “oh well we’re twins, so that must be my gender identity too :o)” and i also don’t think the ancients were as weird about gender as we are today, so nobody was hung up about it the way parents get irl when their kids come out to them as trans when hyth suddenly said “yeah i think i’m kind of a guy ish and he/him pronouns suit me better actually” bc that’s literally part of growing up in amaurot; see also: sidequest dialogue suggesting that children are encouraged to experiment with individuality and identity and getting all that shit figured out are key defininga spects of your average amaurotine’s understand of temporary, whimsical phase known as childhood. this was also a time in hyth’s life where he clung to macarenses incessantly and the twins had minimal identity outside of each other and their parents. as hyth and macarenses grew up, both of them sort of branched out and become their own individual selves with expressions of identity unique to themselves, rather than two units who function as a singular individual whole, if that makes sense.

he is also in.tersex, and many in.tersex ppl (although not all; again, i’m mostly speaking for myself here) have ???? relationships with gender that shift over the course of our lives, and again, the ancients would 100% make allowances for this on a societal level due to their superior understanding of biology, identity, and gender, and how these things overlap. basically, ppl experimenting with gender and identity was 100% normalized and expected.

generally speaking, hyth uses hythlodaeus largely because he was called hythlodaeus by his parents more often than they called him kore, and he liked the sound and length of it better (as per his low-self esteem and extremely humble nature, i think it’s especially in-character for him to embrace a name that “makes light of himself” as the minion flavour text says), but he also wouldn’t have the same reaction to a loved one calling him kore as we would about being deadnamed irl, simply because the surrounding circumstances are very different, if that makes sense? the name doesn’t invoke dysphoria for him. kore is just… really personal to him too, like. if you aren’t someone he considers family or his primary partner, you would get side-eyed if u called him kore tbh (and yes i know that in rl greek it means smth like ‘maiden’ but, see above.)

so, yeah. essentially what i mean when i say he’s both trans and in.tersex, in his case, is just a shift from 'vaguely feminine-identifying’ to 'vaguely masculine-identifying.’

[buckleydiazmp4]

I'm not the original anon who asked about 911 but I am also curious about the Buddie situation? can you tell me abt them?

oh hi!

well here goes my attempt to explain.. them?? i guess?

(decided to put it under the cut bc it's long and i don't wanna disrupt anybody's dash)

i don't know where you stand in terms of supernatural/destiel, but since the last anon asked me abt buddie v destiel in terms of queerbait then i'll take that as a point of comparison

destiel was indeed the main queerbaiting method used by the cw to promote spn. they knew that most of the audience had been watching the show thanks to cas and dean's chemistry and wanted them to be together. however, for many reasons, mainly homophobia or probably chain of command etc etc, they were never gonna make them explicitly canon. so instead they kept.. "amping up"??? the chemistry and the romantic subtext between them enough to keep the audience engaged but keeping plausible deniability. obviously after the last season and the whole bury your gays where they killed off cas, ppl were angry. it was and still is a whole thing bc honestly the cw sucks.

tl:dr #1, destiel was queerbait and ppl who watched spn are now in fear of living through it again when watching other shows

anyways, onto buddie.

ppl who haven't watched 911 but see a lot of buddie content fear that the show is basically doing the same thing, adding little details and subtext between buck and eddie to engage queer viewers or buddie shippers in general and thus have a bigger audience.

what i don't know, but i think is pretty subjective, is if the previous anon would have 911 ruined for them if they started watching, shipping buddie, and then they never got together explicitly in the show.

911 is currently still running and imo there is definitely some amazing chemistry between buck and eddie, not to mention a romantic relationship between them would make total sense.

SPOILERS AHEAD! SKIP THIS PART IF YOU WANT

buck and eddie are pretty much the closest friendship in the show, veering strongly into romantic territory. buck has had a string of catastrophic relationships with women throughout the show, and it's always implied that they don't work because buck needs someone who really knows him, loves him and wants to commit to a serious relationship with him. (eg, a best friend or someone to form a family with).

this particular struggle of buck's is easy to parallel with his relationship with eddie, who has his own relationship problems (including a wife who he separated from, tried to get back together with, and then she died), since he hasn't had any stable love interests.

a crucial part in all of this is christopher, who is of course the person who eddie loves and cares for above all else. chris has had a big say on the way eddie's relationships turn out, because loving eddie means loving chris.

guess who loves chris with his whole heart and is pretty much a second parental figure to him? buck.

between that and the outrageous life-or-death (or psychological distress) situations they have lived through together, there's an unbreakable bond between them. they confide and rely on each other in nearly every aspect of their lives, both during good and bad times.

SPOILERS OVER!

i personally have fun and adore buck and eddie's relationship as it is currently, and yeah, i'd love for them to be canon as much as the next person. but i'd also be okay if they continued to give us the same buddie dynamic we have right now.

there are a lot of meaningful moments and scenes that basically reaffirm how truly close they are even outside the plot they show us on screen. i love that because it's like they're giving us little blank spaces to fill up with headcanons and fics and gifsets and that is so fun!!

but certain ppl are more adamant in their desire to see their relationship develop romantically on-screen. despite not being one of those people, i get why they want that and i sincerely hope they get it!!

but if it doesn't happen, i'll still happily watch the buck and eddie we've been given and cherish all of their interactions. that and of course as i said in the previous ask, i love 911 for a LOT more reasons than just buddie.

tl;dr #2, buddie isn't canon, whether or not it's queerbait depends on who's watching and how they're watching, but 911 is still worth it as a whole.

[blood-starved-beast]

im soo glad i found u because i rly do love acxa, zethrid and ezor and their dynamic and speaking of which....zethrid being too rageful to the point she pushed ezor away kinda threw me off considering that ezor had shown multiple times that shes very okay with being sadistic/torturing ppl and stuff? idk maybe near death situation messed with her head oh well 😭zethacxa dynamic is so silly zethrid is a bottom fr and acxa doesnt know how to deal with wanting to be someones meow meow she rly puts her all into correcting zethrid and ordering her around i love her for that <3 anyways imagine ezor witnessing acxa hitting on zethrid i wonder how she'd react lmao. personally i never rly felt any chemistry in the little screentime ezor n acxa had together but hey im open to it. anyways i guess this is it for now 😭🙏 have a nice day captain

Ezor has always been survival focused and anxious, this is something we've seen since the Lotor days. Even in s7ep3 she needed reassurance from Zethrid with what they're doing, which is something she and Zethrid have been doing for years at that point. The whole conquering territories for their own gain has been and was Zethrid's original plan, and Ezor went along with it cause Zethrid is her wife and Ezor does get a kick out of hurting others.

That kick I always suspected, is something akin to how bullies with bad pasts bully other kids cause they need to feel something and cope (poorly) with their own experiences. Ezor likes hurting people cause it makes her feel she's got power and it's a way of sublimating her anxiety - see how both her "date" with Zethrid in s5ep6(? bear with me it's been a while) and in s7ep3 she jumps to hurt people after she's been through these moments of deep stuff.

So when that backfired on them - Ezor nearly dying, Zethrid being grievously injured, Ezor likely recoiled from it, and left. Remember she already lost a leg independently to what happened in s7ep3. So the whole voltron thing is likely more of a "straw that broke the camel's back" situtation. Zethrid, in typical Zethrid fashion, likely was pushing for more attack against Voltron, Ezor had enough, leads to an argument - probably not the first they've had on similar topics - Ezor leaves.

Zethrid looses her mind and blames Keith (cause of course it's his fault, cause he's already roped Acxa who's very much like Zethrid herself in that regard: if she's got a goal in mind, the ends justify the means. Either way she can drag Acxa out if she gets him, cause it's always been her vs. Acxa. from the beginning).

I don't think Acxa hits on people. Acxa is so cognitively unemphathetic that I doubt flirting is something that crosses her mind. What I think happened was that since she and Zethrid are so similar in the regards that their goals aligned that they hit it off - but of course a relationship built without love like that between people who're filled with rage the way they were wasn't a sustainable one so it collapses. Acxa definitely commanded Zethrid the way she did cause she knew no other way to do things. She's not used to people genuinely caring for her - hence her initial hostility towards Veronica in the Grudge and why it touched her so deeply. Keith being distant and business-like is likely the nicest she's ever dealt with without it being underhanded in some way - case in point, Lotor. So Ezor seeing Acxa like That is likely just the norm and imho, Ezor's the most emotionally intelligent of the generals so she likely knows when Acxa is having a Genuine Feeling so she probably picked up on that but I think it's a matter of them all having messy af feelings from not growing up in a proper setting.

Imho I never got that Ezor and Acxa had a thing either. I think they were at best friends (or more accurately, Ezor made herself a friend, or the closest approximation of one given their pasts since having friends is foreign to both), who annoyed each other. Or more accurately, Ezor annoyed Acxa with her flippant disregard for science, and Acxa has zero sense of humor or ability to pick up on nuance. And Acxa exasperates Ezor cause of that. Acxa having a crush on Zethrid specifically comes from those Freudian slips in the Grudge like I'm 🤨 at her for that. Acxa likely doesn't know she still feels that way for Zethrid, if she ever knew to begin with.

I love the generals. They're such a fun and messy and chaotic dynamic that despite how vld is horrible at writing group dynamics they managed to trip up the stairs and write something interesting and good with them. The fact Acxa, Ezor, and Zethrid still hang out despite it all speaks volumes ngl. I want a friendship who sticks together despite all that. Messy, complicated dynamics between female characters. My absolute favorite thing in the world.

[artis-lined]

Tw: vent, religion(?)

Alr so I'm getting confirmed tmrw and one of the parts is to respond 'yes' to do you believe in Jesus christ. And I do, but not in the way my religion wants me to? I identify as agnostic but I don't know if that's the right term exactly. It's just the closest to explaining my beliefs. My mom doesn't rlly accept it? She just kind of brushes it off and says: oh that's how you feel right now.

Today at dinner I said tomorrow will be stressful, and when she asked why I told her the situation. You know what she fucking responded with??: "oh. You'll thank me later. Actually, no you won't because you're too stuborn to thank me for anything." Idfk if she was fucking kidding or not but I dont care. She then added: I mean you're telling me youd want to go through all that ccd work-- and before she said more I just interrupted with "no". Because I never fucking wanted to go to ccd. I never wanted to go to church either. There's a reason I roll my eyes whenever she mentions it. There's a reason I groan and whine. And I really wanted this to be the last place I vent but it's gotten to a point where I just needed to say it. There's has been one person who actually has listened to me. And let's just say it isn't my ex, bc she has been no better than my mom w/ her little: "oof sorry bro 😓 *tells own story to make me feel worse like my problems dont fucking matter*" like jesus fucking christ I don't fucking care if ur good at comforting ppl or not just please, please listen to me! I feel like no one fucking listens when I need them to.

Anygays srry this was awkward 😓

[061801]

#randomcomplaining I gotta have the most fucked up group of friends ever. I need to classify each group because if I go back and read these for myself I wanna know who I’m talking about.

Ok so we’ll do:

Exhibit A- will just be my closest guy friend cuz I hangout with him a lot

Exhibit B- my brother, his bf, and our best friend (I don’t think I ever really complain about them besides when I argue with my brother but i will probs write about good things too)

Exhibit C- old workers from my first job (2 girls)

Exhibit D- old coworkers from my recent job (4 girls)

I wanna explain each group and why I feel like idrk if I want these ppl in my life except for a small exception of exhibit B because they’re basically family. Only thing is they all use substances that really influence my decisions on whether I use or not which is not their fault but it’s toxic for me to be around that environment. Otherwise

exhibit A- started off as just a friendship, we both told each other about guys and girls we liked or wanted to be with. Then he developed a crush on me which was fine for me at first cuz it’s not rly my problem (respectfully) now he’s overly touchy like even being in public he’ll try and grab my leg and make it seem like we’re dating or something and I feel like he just wanted to assert dominance to other men in the room like “don’t touch her she’s mine” WHEN IM NOT LOL. At first I felt bad but I’m so fucking sick of people feeling so bad for him because he’s so nice and he loves me so much. He’s a great person, but not for me. And idk why people can’t just respect that and stop making me out to be a villain because I don’t have feelings for someone. This is kinda my fault I guess but I used to change in front of him and I didn’t rly care cuz I thought we had established that we’re just friends. Well now when I ask him to look away he really thinks he has the right to go “no I’ve seen it before idc.” Or most the time he does look away but gives me a hard time. There’s even been times where he looked back and was like OH MY BAD I thought u were done like no u didn’t lol u just wanted to be a fucking perv. So obviously I’ve established new boundaries, I go to my bathroom to change, I literally scream at him when he touches me, I always talk about guys. That’s the funny thing too he calls me such a whore and I’m fake just cuz I don’t wanna be with him.

Exhibit C: I actually really love these girls. I’ve never had any issues with them. Tbh the only reason I ever debate if I should let them go is because I feel like I’ve been a bad friend. We all started to be friends because we worked at the same job and we all liked to party and we were all lowkey a little weird. We moved on in life and they both have full time jobs, both in relationships, and I’m still partying like a maniac so I think they just don’t want to be around that which I totally understand. I started to feel sad because they never invite me to places they go but that’s cuz they don’t always wanna be all drunk and fucked up and tbh I never ask them to do shit either so in the middle of this post I acc asked if they all wanted to hangout and play video games

Exhibit D: ok this group of ppl confuses the fuck out of me. Everybody talks about each other like someone’s always mad at one particular person in the group I feel like, or worried about someone. I’ve had one person in this group steal from me. She’s jealous of all of us. One of the girls in the friend group only talks to me when nobody else is really there otherwise I get ignored I feel like. Sometimes I feel like they’re just trolling me too but that could be my insecurities. These people never ask me to hangout anymore and tbh I don’t rly care lol I hung out with them when I was in a really bad spot in my life and although they’re not the reason for it I just associate them with that time unfortunately. I don’t mean to but yeah

[tweedstoat]

i fink it's funny when people define the problem with elia as her being fridged for her brothers' grief when that's one of the lightening things about her character and death to me. she's such a sparse character, i doubt grrm gave much thought about her, and i'll grab at any sign of ppl actually mourning/caring for her. i'd rather her fridged for her family over her & her kids getting set aside for an epic ice/fire pairing that requires their absence.

Honestly I agree. I find Elias "fridging" for her brother to be far less problematic than everything else that happens to her for 3 reasons:

1. Because Lyanna is also fridged for Ned and to provide mystery in the story. So we don't see the disparity of treatment between the way the narrative treats Lyanna and the way it treats Elia in this particular case. Both women are killed to provide development to their brothers. Which still isn't great but welp.

2. I believe I've discussed before how unrealistic it was that most noble people were seemingly not very disturbed by Elia's rape and murder but I want to hammer home again that this level of apathy towards the Crown Princess of a country not only being brutally killed but also raped is not normal.

This is probably a vast oversimplification but in feudal societies the person of the monarch was extremely sacred. Punishments for regicide were almost always gory and very disproportionate compared to ‘normal’ murders. In some cases would be regicides were also charged with patricide as though they had attempted to kill their own fathers, because kings were the ‘father of the country’.

Now its debateable how much of this protection extended to the rest of royal family but at the very least in a heirarchical society where the crown princess is the 2nd most important woman in the realm after the Queen, there should have been an uproar at her rape and murder. Instead theres....nothing. Literally only 1 non-dornish character is ever stated to be disturbed at what happened to Elia (shout out to Mathis Rowan).

I've gone back in history to try to find a "princess figure" who died in a similar way to Elia. The closest I could come was Milonia Caesonia the fourth wife of the Roman Emperor Caligula. After Caligula was assassinated Milonia Caesonia was also murdered, and their daughter Julia Drusilla was killed by "having her brains knocked out against a wall." Ancient Roman attitudes towards regicide and the deaths of the ruling family were vastly different to Feudal Europe and I think it speaks volumes that I had to go so far back in history to find any comparable fate for the consort of a ruler.

Furthermore Elia's death in the story is actually worse than Milonia Caesonia, as Elia was also raped by Gregor Clegane while Milonia seems to have been beheaded by the Praetorian Guard. So once again we see GRRM take historical events and make them worse by adding a further layer of sexual violence to them (see Cerseis penance walk vs Jane Shore's penance walk). Unlike Cersei's case where you could argue that the higher level of sexual violence served a purpose in the story there's no such claim to be made in Elia's case. Literally nothing would have been different if Gregor Clegane simply murdered Elia and Aegon. It's not like Oberyn or Dorne would hate him and the Lannisters any less.

3. So considering the way she is either mocked (Jon Con, Cersei, Barristan), victim blamed (Jon Con, Cersei and Kevan if I'm remembering correctly), or outright dismissed in the rest of the text (see point 2) it's actually refreshing  to see the level of grief and pain her death causes Oberyn. It's very much a case of "oh my god! FINALLY someone who cares about this woman who was horribly raped and murdered!"

Additionally the fact that Elia has an uncharacteristic level of sexual violence visited upon her for pure shock value that doesn't actually serve the narrative in a meaningful way somehow means that using Elias death to give Oberyn purpose in ASOIAF is the least problematic part of her story.

[hools]

Oh! Well if you're looking for suggestions here's my headcanons:

I think Girlcat has the highest voice out of all of them but none of them really have "feminine" sounding voices (and I get the vibe that none of them would be the type to care all that much either). She's just naturally a bit squeaky and high pitched though so she probably comes the closest.

I think C-J is like, super mid-range. Like, Billie Joe Armstrong vocal range, both in terms of singing and speaking. Not Low but also not High either, just straight down the middle.

And Oasis I think has a super cool voice. Since it has so much goop for its voice to vibrate through, I think it would be super deep, and kinda bubbly, like it's speaking underwater all the time. That can lead to people who haven't spent much time around it having trouble understanding it sometimes, but they usually catch on after a bit. Maybe that leads Oasis to be the Actions Over Words type at first, but opening up more vocally once it builds more of a sense of trust. No idea if that last bit fits their canon personality, but it makes sense in my head you know?

I don't mean to tell you who your characters are, feel free to veto any and all of this in a reply if you want, these are just some things that make sense to me based on the content I've seen of them. Thanks for reading, I love your work, baiiiiii <3

HOUGH anon i agree with pretty much everyhting here!!!!!! youve honestly thought this out more than i did JKFDSFS

subconsciously yeah girlcat's always had the highest voice out of the three of them! another anon came and proposed penny snapcube and it clicked in my head like yeah yes you're So right

a mid-range voice fr c-j definitely fits what been in my head too!!! will say though that i did Not expect some one like billie joe armstrong to be a point of reference to any of my ocs in any way but youre right his range does feel fitting LOL

& i LOVE that idea for oasis 🥺🥺 especially the using her voice more twards the ppl that they trust (that DEF fits her character). only thing id say is that i dont think it'd have too deep of a voice though! probably the same sorta range as c-j or maybe just a smidge lower

BUT YA thank u sweet anon for helpign me mold these cats better in my brain [: this is rly making me want to actually set more things in stone for them all

[redxblueihateloveyou]

Hey i really love your blog!!! I just plucked the courage to actually send u an ask fhdjhd but GOSH i love your video edits and your gifs and your meta article posts, you're so articulate and you can explain/describe moments in a way that makes me go "oh wow, i cant believe i haven't seen it that way before!!" Haha ANYWAYS i'm just here to say that i completely agree with what all u said, Free creators might do a lil fanservice here and there for the 25 ships that exists within the fandom's circle, but rinharu's storyline is clearly the most romantic one! And i'd argue it's the one closest to being canon esp after part 1, i mean the fact that they put such an explosive emotional outburst right at the end of the second to the last movie means a lot. It's like reinforcing the fact that this series has always been about them, and everything that has happened only happened either because they met or they grew appart and miss eachother. I kinda feel like maybe.. juust maayyybe there's a chance KA wants to make the ship canon, since it's the last movie and they want to end it on a highnote maybe (bcs honestly i think the only reason they've been holding back is purely bcs of the merch sales, since they don't have a problem showing a wholesome lesbian love story in kobayashi maid dragon) butt i could be wrong, maybe i'm just overly optimistic and delusional, they could somehow ruin it and give an ending that panders to all the ships again 😅🥲, but at least there's a clear-cut guarantee that part 2 would dedicate a large portion of it fixing rin and haru's fight!!! Oohh how can i wait another 6 months now!!😭😭 (sorry for the long ask btw!! 🙏🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️)

OMG thank you so so much!! For watching my vids too! ❤️❤️❤️ It really means a lot to me! Ahhhh wow, thats the longest ask I've ever recieved! 😍 I'm trying to explain myself so hard lol I'm glad its appreciated, bc sometimes I'm like "I don't fucking know how to say this" xD

Well, you know me, I only care for one ship, which is the only one with confirmed info that they're both actually gay and have mutual feelings for each other. There are some other ships in free! I'm fine with (those do not include Rin or Haru in them xD), but I just mostly don't care, bc after reading all the stuff, you can see that in some of those to one the other one is actually like his second option, which I just do not like. Others I just don't even see, bc again to me who witnessed great close male friendships and having two sisters who I'm very close to, I just do not see anything romantic in that.

It's not just Free! tbh, it's like any sports anime these days. They see two guys walking together, it's a ship. And like no one cares if they're just bros. Like I'd get i they did some fanservice fanservice, but like I never saw anyone in Free! crossing the line the way rinharu do. I can without thinking much name you 10 rh moments that no matter how hard you think can't be explain as being bros, but can't name one when it comes to others. I just find some ppl shipping everyone with everyone weird sometimes. It's like western fans see like some eastern actors or singers slap each other ass lovingly and they're like "oh they're fucking" I'm like "yeah, ofc all 500 of them, you're absolutely right". And Free! doesn't do anything even like that, I just do not get sometimes like what moment even brought on some ships. I'm genuinely confused. Albert and Haru? You fucking fell from a sakura tree or smth? I'm...

I'm especially confused when it comes to guys, whose character type is who I call "I only want this one and if I can't have it, then I'm ok" xD. It just always surprised me, when they try to pair up them with someone else, it's like a complete ooc.

I'm also not into this whole "well, if there are gays in this anime, than everyone there is gay". I'm like... huh. It's like with KNB and MDZS I had same feeling. It's like you have already couples there who are canon/borderline canon, why do you need another 10 who don't even interact or just don't even go there? I'm always so confused in those situations. Or like wangxian is married and some are like "no, I actually don't like it, let me write a fic when they're with other ppl". Lan Zhan... being in love or having sex with someone else? Yeah, that's not Lan Zhan, dude, you're writing about someone else. Might as well change the name at this point.

But last time I went to twitter someone had a thread about how if they make s4 of Free! they should mainly explore there Momo's angst (and no, it wasn't a joke), so I'm already like, I'm just.. nothing will surprise me no more. But I'm forever gonna be confused.

Yeah, I eel you about "going there". I mean seeing part of it, it just kinda cemented my confusion, bc I do not get how it can be considered platonic. We were just discussing since yesterday with @freeseafirefly how I now even more perplexed and do not understand how they will resolve it without going into relationship territory. It's just our point here is that like... no one forced them to go there (I mean its not like this whole fandom has some wild expectations or anything already), we were waiting or our usual friendship and swimming and maybe tiny conflict about struggles of pro-careers and some usual rh implications (maybe all the rh gay in dramas as always). Not some pure fanfiction coming to life here haha.

Like why I'm laughing is bc I twice used in my "fics" bringing up him leaving Haru as a force to push the confession, bc there's no way if he adresses this it won't lead to this. And now we not only have this (bc Haru just basically layed it out there), but an actual scene of him playing on their feelings for each other and a literal image of Rin leaving and "taking Haru's heart with him" to the point when he's for the first time in his life openly crying on the ground. And it's not like this scene can be interpreted as anything else, the whole fandom talks same, bc the whole fight was just about them, what Haru said was just about them, there's a literal boom of his heart getting out of his chest, before he falls and now he's heartless.

So our question is like... why go there?

It's like some say that they might still resolve it with "they're special to each other" and swimming, but still like we already knew that, there was no reason to go that far is what I'm saying. And to think that it was planned since forever giving the clues is like... ???

The whole spoon theme also throw me on the loop because like, lets be honest, it's wedding themed. And that part of the interview about part 2 there also made me go...?????? Because I mean, huh?

This is just all in all very interesting turn of events to say the least. I do not see the point of all of this if its not what I think it is, esp after seeing tweets like "even I see a rh wedding and I'm mh T_T". It's just all very unsubtle, that's why we're confused.

Like who knows, maybe we'll really by some magic turn of events get lucky and they really decided that since its the ending, it's okay to go for it. But I also don't wanna to hype myself much, I'm already really happy with it, just bc again, this scene already proves all of my points.

And yeah, I'm sure they'll pander to everyone, bc it's the end and etc and we have to handle everything on the good note and there's a whole line of ppl who's obsessed with us, esp with Haru xD, but like bromance pandering and romance pandering are different things, you know *wiggles eyebrows* and u know who always gets the second one.