#ok i’m done *will cry myself to sleep later*

[kattitude130]

I LOVE TESTAMENT AND THEIR CHARACTER ARC SO MUCH IT GIVES ME THE STRENGTH TO BITE THROUGH METAL RAAAAAAAAAUAUUUUUUGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[peachesyeo]

8/9... 8/8 - ATEEZ OT8 part one

THIS IMAGINE IS MATURE! MINORS DO NOT INTERACT!

⊹ 2k words ⊹ friends!ateez x fem!reader (ft. straykids) ᭡ angst, mature.

✧ a/n: hi. erm. yeah. i guess. in a rainy and depressive mood these days, but i'll be fine. might take a while to update, please be understanding. thank you.

thank you @sousydive for beta reading.

⊂ content: shitty ateez (esp jongho & wooyoung) warning. name-calling, slapping, crying, stray kids being absolute angels. friendship problems, both sides are in the wrong. strong language. please don't hate jongho i love my baby bear pls, a little self-harming.

✦ network: @newworldnet

:̗̀➛ 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭? :̗̀➛ 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐩𝐚𝐠𝐞? :̗̀➛ 𝐣𝐨𝐢𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭? (for all works)

You sat on your bed, staring at your phone. 

Zero notifications. 

No calls, no texts. No one asked for you. 

Your fingers swiped open the group chat. The last message was sent by you, asking if anyone wanted to grab lunch together. 

Nine members, eight reads, zero replies. 

You put your phone down, thinking about your recent behaviour. Have you done anything wrong? Did you accidentally offend them? Or perhaps, say the wrong thing?

You sighed, throwing your phone to the side and looking at the frame photo by your bed. You and the boys were huddled together, laughing at the camera. It was San’s birthday, and all of you had come up with a surprise party. The nine of you, all together, celebrating, smiling.

When was the last time you hung out with them?

Was it… three months ago? Four?

“They’re probably busy, Y/n…” You muttered to yourself, blinking rapidly so the sudden tears that gathered in your eyes wouldn’t fall. You sniffed, shaking your head. “Stop over thinking, Y/n.” You looked at your reflection in the mirror, your fingers curling into a fist. “You’re fine. Stop behaving so childishly.”

You let yourself fall onto the pillows, staring up at the ceiling above you. Every single time you send a message to them, they would reply dryly. 

Maybe they’re sick of you, Y/n. 

You closed your eyes, wrapping yourself up in a foetal position. 

Everything will be fine. 

You know something is wrong, Y/n.

No, everything is fine. Nothing is wrong. 

Stop lying to yourself. 

I’m not lying to myself. 

Are you?

“I’m not.” You whispered, your voice shaky and unconfident. Tears gathered up at your eyes as you tried to get yourself to sleep.

You woke up with a gasp, breathing heavily as you bent over to the side of the bed, retching dryly. You were covered in cold sweat, shaking as you recovered your breathing. 

The annoyed expression on your friends faces seemed so real, to the point that you cannot differentiate between your dream and reality. You raised your knees to your chest, hugging them as you tried to calm yourself down.

It’s not real it’s not real it’s not real

“A nightmare. It’s a nightmare.” You told yourself, covering your face with your hands. “Y/n, stop it. Stop overthinking, you idiot.”

You reached for your phone, tapping on Seonghwa’s chat.

You: Oppa, are you busy? | You: Oppa, are y| You: Oppa, a| You: Oppa, I had a nightmare.| You: Oppa, I ha| You: Oppa,|

You stared at the screen, your fingers pausing in mid air. 

You: Oppa| You: Op| You: |

You scrolled upwards, reading your previous chats. It was mostly you talking about your problems, and Seonghwa advising you on what to do. You swallowed your saliva, reading his replies, which were getting drier and drier as you scrolled down.

Hwa Oppa: Y/n-ah, sorry, I’m busy. Hwa Oppa: Ok. Hwa Oppa: Ttyl. Hwa Oppa: Mhm.  Hwa Oppa: K. Hwa Oppa: Can you text me later? Hwa Oppa: Kinda busy now.

You tapped on his profile. Online 3 hours ago. The time now is 2am.

A sense of helplessness swallowed you as you let the phone drop onto your bed. You looked outside of the window, letting out another sigh.

You can't sleep anymore.

Maybe you should try one more time?

Y/n: Oppa, can we talk?

Seonghwa frowned at the notification. In front of him, Mingi was hollering with the mic, along with San, who was shrieking at the top of his voice, abusing poor Yunho's ears, who was sitting nearest to the speaker.

"Who is that?" Jongho asked, peering at the screen over his shoulder. "Oh." He looked away uninterestedly, taking a mouthful of his alcohol.

"Y/n?" Wooyoung grabbed Seonghwa's phone, scowling. "Does she want to complain about her boring work problems again? I have enough of listening to her shit-"

"Wooyoung. Stop it." Hongjoong warned. The latter rolled his eyes, giving Seonghwa his phone back before going over to San to snatch his microphone. As they scuffle over it, Yeosang sighed, frowning.

"I still don't think it's a good idea leaving her out and ignoring her like that, hyung." He watched the two fight while Mingi continued to sing his heart out. "We should sit down at talk it out-"

"Listen, I've tried. But every single time she would talk about her stupid work problems, I just needed a break from her, okay?" Seonghwa shot back, irritated. Yeosang put his hands up in defeat, shutting up. Seonghwa turned his phone off, shaking his head. “I’ll just… text her later.”

Jongho snorted, turning his attention back to the singing trio. Yeosang bit his lip nervously, but Hongjoong clapped his back. “Hey, just chill. Y/n would be fine without us anyway, she has so many friends.” He stuffed a glass of beer into Yeosang’s empty hands. “Here, take a drink and just forget about her, okay? It's been some time since all eight of us can come out together.”

Yeosang’s fingers grip the glass nervously. Yunho, who had crawled over to their seat to get away from the speaker, saw his hesitancy and rolled his eyes. “Hyung is right, Yeosang-ah. Y/n wouldn’t die without us. We should have our Boys Night anyways. Just drink.” He pushed the glass to Yeosang’s lips, the younger finally taking a sip reluctantly. 

“Yeah.” He watched Jongho, who had joined in with the three at the front. “You’re right.”

It's not much of a problem.

Right?

Your phone buzzed. Your eyes lit up, grabbing it and scanning at it.

Felix (Baking Class): Hey, this is Y/n right?

You slumped in disappointment, but soon it turned to confusion. What's Felix texting you at 2am for?

Felix Lee, a sweet Australian you've met through your baking class. You have enjoyed talking to him, the both of you exchanging tales of your baking mishaps. None of the boys, not even Wooyoung, likes to bake. So only Felix understood your problems with baking.

You: Hey Felix. You: What can I do for you?

Felix (Baking Class): I don't think I'm supposed to tell you this but Felix (Baking Class): You're friends with Hongjoong hyung right?

You: Yeah Felix (Baking Class): Erm, so my friends and I were at the nuraebang Felix (Baking Class): Changbin hyung was recording er, Jeonginnie just now

Felix (Baking Class): It's not like we're eavesdropping or anything, but erm I think you should, listen to this

Felix (Baking Class): *video.mp4*

Something is wrong.

Yeosang forced a laugh as he sipped on his coffee. They were in San's house, eating breakfast. Wooyoung busied himself over the stove, while Hongjoong was muttering to himself, his hands furiously typing away on his laptop. Mingi continued to talk after getting a reaction from Yeosang, but the man's attention had drifted elsewhere.

"...and then that's it. My manager just let me off." Mingi smirked proudly, earning a thumbsup from Yunho and San. Seonghwa rolled his eyes. "You were lucky this time, Mingi-ah. Yeosang, eggs?"

Yeosang gave him a small shake of his head. "No thank you. Hyung, did you text Y/n?"

The kitchen went silent at the name. Even Hongjoong looked up from his screen. "Y/n?"

"Yeah. She erm, hasn't contacted us in a week?" Yeosang reminded, shaking his phone in their face. "She usually texts us in the morning in the groupchat-"

"C'mon Yeo, that's a good thing." Wooyoung came out of the kitchen, untying his apron and frowning at Yeosang. "Don't spoil the mood early in the morning."

"Maybe she's busy, Yeo." Yunho suggested, wolfing down his pancake. "She did say that her boss sent her for some field checks. And don't be so mean, Woo."

Wooyoung pouted. "I'm just annoyed at her. And why isn't Jongho back?"

Jongho felt guilty.

He sipped on his cup of americano nervously, glancing at you. You sat with your gaze lowered, fixated on your own cup, your eyes cast downward.

He had bumped into you at the supermarket while getting syrup for Wooyoung. He didn't know why, but when he saw you, he had this sudden desire to run away.

Like a little boy after making a mistake.

"Erm, Y/n, how are you?" He decided, speaking carefully. You looked up from your cup at him, before tugging the corner of your lips upwards.

"Jongho-ah. Please, be honest with me." You pressed the nail of your thumb into your skin, the piercing pain kept your tears in. “Do I… really annoy you guys? When I’m telling… No, when I'm complaining about…” You bit your lower lip, suddenly feeling pathetic. Then you breathed in, before speaking again. “You know what, nevermind. I heard that you guys needed a break from me- Don’t need to explain, I heard it for myself.” You stopped Jongho as he opened his mouth to explain. “I totally understand that. But I’m just here to tell you that leaving me out is not cool. We’re adults, Jongho-ah. You and the boys should have just told me.”

“W-we’re just afraid that you’ll be upset-” “So you guys started leaving me out? Ignoring my texts? Talking behind my back?” You pressed your thumb harder into your skin, angry tears welling up in your eyes. “Like a teenager in highschool? Choi Jongho, you know that’s not… that’s not…” You glared at him, your brain searching for the right word. 

“Not how you should behave as a friend.” Someone placed their hand behind your back, patting them. The both of you looked up to see Felix, who was holding up a cup of coffee. Behind him, Bang Chan and Jisung waved at you. You blinked quickly, forcing the tears to go back in and waved back at them, before turning your attention to him. “Lixie? What are you doing here?”

“Breakfast with my hyung and Han Jisung.” He jabbed his thumb back at the two of them. Felix then turned to Jongho, offering him a simple smile that did not reach his eyes. “Hi, I’m Felix. I heard a lot from Y/nnie about you.” He introduced himself, his hand never leaving your back. Jongho frowned, glancing from his hand and back to his face. 

“I’m Jongho.” His voice was unwelcoming. Your brows furrowed. “Jongho, that was ru-” “It’s okay. Sorry if I interrupted you guys, but hyung’s asking whether you wanna join us later for lunch. Minho hyung cooked the dish you said you’d like to try.”

Your eyes lit up at his words. “Really?” You exclaimed. Jongho observed your exchange with a stoic expression on his face. Felix nodded. “Yeah, I’ll call you later?”

You nodded. Felix patted your hair, gave a friendly nod to Jongho and returned back to his hyungs. As soon as he left, Jongho sneered. “So, you’ve been hanging out with those kind of people?” 

Your smile froze. “What did you say?” 

Jongho shook his head mockingly. “Them, Y/n L/n. Hanging out with Felix Lee and his stupid little gang?” He hissed. “What did they offer you? Money? Are you fucking with them?” 

You stared at him in disbelievement. “What? Did I say something wrong?” Jongho scoffed, sending a glare over to Felix. “You know they are rivals with Seonghwa hyung, right? They play around, Y/n. Are you being a whore for them-”

A loud, resounding slap echoed through the cafe, capturing the attention of everyone dining inside. Jongho touched his burning left cheek, slowly turning to face you. You were standing up, your chest heaving in anger and humiliation at Jongho’s words. Regret instantly flooded his eyes, as Jongho realized what he had said. “Sorry, I didn’t mean to-”

“Say that I’m a slut? For hanging out with a group of men?” You finished the sentence for him, your voice filled with anger and sadness. “Choi Jongho, you’re an asshole. Fuck you. You all are assholes!” You cursed as you grabbed your bag and headed out towards the exit. 

As you ran out, Jongho saw Felix and his friends hurried to follow you too. When his eyes met Felix’s, the latter smirked at him, and Jongho gritted his teeth. 

He fucked up.

➳ permanent taglist: @sousydive @oddracha @yeodeulz @jaerisdiction

[funnyjb]

Mama

………………………………….

It’s Friday night and instead of going out with friends like you usually do on Friday nights, you were at home taking care of your new bundle of joy. Emma came into yours and Joes lives just about last week. April 8 at 6:21pm was when Emma was born. Joe and yourself couldn’t be more happier to have her in your lives.

Joe is such an amazing father. You would walk into her nursery and see him leaning over her baby basket.

You were in the bathroom getting ready for bed. You were exhausted. Getting up in the middle of the night every single night, feeding her 24/7, taking care of her when she cries, and not getting any sleep wasn’t helping. You were in your pjs putting on your moisturizer when Joe walked in. He looked tired too. He just put down emma for the second time and was ready to get to bed. He could tell you were a little off because you didn’t get any sleep.

“Hey.”- joe

You looked up at him through the mirror

“Hey, is she asleep?”- you

“Yeah, finally.”- joe

He walked over to the sink next to you and started turning on the sink.

“Are you ok? I know it’s been a crazy week.”- joe

“I’m fine Joe. Everything is fine.”- you

The truth was everything isn’t really fine. You loved emma and Joe, but postpartum is hitting you hard. You are so tired, you don’t feel right in your own body, and as said before no sleep doesn’t help.

“No it isn’t y/n, I can tell.”- joe

“Joe, seriously I’m not in the mood right now.”- you

You closed your skincare bottles, wiped your hands on the towel and headed out the bathroom.

Joe was a little mad that you weren’t saying what you needed to say but he understood. He knows you don’t really like talking about your feelings and he knows to give you some space when you need some. After he was done in the bathroom which was a couple minutes later and he came out into the bedroom where you were. You were folding some clothes and putting them on the chair next to his side of the bed.

“Y/n, you need to tell me what’s going on. I know something is up. I know that you are tired, but I want to make sure you are ok. I love you and I want to know what is going on in my wife’s mind.”- Joe said calmly

“You what to know what is going one Joe?”- you said turning around with an unfolded onesie in your hands

“Yeah, I do.”- Joe

“Alright, here let me tell you. I am tired, Joe. So dang tired. I’ve been woken up probably four-hundred times this past week because emma is crying or she is hungry. And you have been such a big help and I am so, so, so grateful, but I am so dam tired. I don’t feel like myself. My body has changed for a good reason, but I don’t feel right. I’ve been feeding her 24/7 and my body hurts. And no sleep isn’t helping. So there you go, Joe. Is that what you were looking for?”- you

It stayed silent for a minute.

“I’m sorry baby. I’m sorry it’s been hard on you. I know taking care of a baby is a lot of work especially for a mother, but you are a great mama to our beautiful baby sleeping in the other room. You are so strong, y/n. You are beautiful. In my eyes you are beautiful. You are the only gorgeous, beautiful, strong, and amazing loving girl I know.”- joe

He walked up to you. Joe put his hands on the side of your face.

“I love you, y/n. I love you so much it hurts. And our baby is the luckiest baby in the world, you know why?”- joe

“Why?”- you laugh

“Because she gets to call you her mom.”- Joe

Your eyes started to get teary.

“Everything is going to be ok.”- joe

He pulled you into him and kissed your forehead then your lips. You wrapped your arms around his body and held him tight. Some tears rolling down your cheeks.

“Shh, it’s ok baby.”- Joe

You wiped your tears and smiled

“Thank you, Joe. You are the best husband a girl could ask for and an amazing father to our little girl. She is one lucky baby to be calling you her daddy.”- you smiled

Joe smiled and kissed you.

“Thank you, baby. Ready to go to bed?”- joe

“Yeah.”- you

Joe walked to his side as you walked over to yours. You turned off your lamp and got under the covers. The dark room was quiet. Joe pulled you into him and held you tight.

“I love you, y/n Burrow.”- Joe

“I love you too, Joe burrow.”- you

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(Next morning)

You woke up to the smell of pancakes. You turned over to see Joe, but was no where to be found. Then you turned over to your side table to check the time.

“11:00!”- you

You pulled the cover off you and put your Ugg’s on.

You walked down the stairs as carefully as you could because you were still recovering. As you walked off the last step of the stairs you saw your family and Joes family too.

“Oh, there she is!”- your mom

“Hi!”- you said crossing your arms against your chest

You walked over to your mom and gave her a kiss.

“Hey, sweetie!”- Robin

“Hi!”- you

“All of us just wanted to see how you and the rest of the family were doing!”- Robin

“Aww that’s very sweet, but we are doing good!”- you

“How are you doing though?”- Robin said in kind of a whisper

“I’m doing ok, thank you.”- you said giving her a sweet smile

You then said good morning to your dad and Jimmy. Then came over to Joe.

“Good morning!”- Joe

“Good morning.”- you smiled

He gave you a sweet kiss.

“How are you?”- joe

“I’m good, doing ok!”- you

“How are you?”- you

“I’m good! Just making breakfast for you!”- Joe

“Aww Joe, that’s so sweet, thank you.”- you

“Of course!”- joe

“Hey, where is em?”- you

“Oh, she just went down for her nap.” Should be up soon. - your mom

“Oh, ok.”- you

Just as you spoke the baby monitor turned on. Emma was crying. You could tell it was a hungry cry.

“I will get her.”- Joe

“”It’s ok Joe, I got her. I can tell she is hungry.”-you

“You sure?”- joe

“Yeah, it’s ok baby. I will be back in a few!”- you

“Ok.”- joe

You then stared walking up the stairs and into Emma’s nursery.

“Hey, baby!”- you

You picked her up.

“Shh, shh, it’s ok. It’s ok, baby girl.”- you

You the sat down on the rocking chair to feed her. You pulled done your sweater on one of your sides and started feeding her.

“You are so precious.”- you

A few moments pasted by and you were still admiring how pretty she is.

“I love you em. Your father and I love you so much.”- you

You the stared to feel teary

“I’m sorry em. I’m just tired. Even though I slept in very late today. Jeez, why am I so tired?”- you

You chuckle at the exhaustion that is hitting you. You don’t know why though. You slept in so why are you so tired you thought.

You wiped some of your tears so your family wouldn’t see you were crying when you got downstairs. Emma was done feeding so you put her back in her crib and switched off the lights to let her get some more sleep.

You walked down the stairs to find your family sitting in the same place. The monitor was a little more close to them. It looked like they were listening in.

“Hey.”- you

They all looked at you.

Your mom got up and hugged you tight. You were a little confused at first but the you caught on. They were listening in on you in Emma’s room.

“How about we take emma for the day? Give you and Joe some time to relax and rest. How does that sound?”- your mom

You looked at Joe then back at your mom.

“Um, yeah sure.”- you

“Ok, we can pack a bag when she wakes up.”- your mom

You nod your head.

You walked over to Joe

“I’m going to go um… wash up.”- you

“Okay. Your breakfast is done, so it’s here is you want it”- Joe

“Thanks.”- you

You kissed him on the lips and went up.

“Oh honey, how long has she been like that?”- Robin

“She has been off for a bit but she talked to me about everything last night. I just don’t want her feeling this way. It hurts to see her like this.”- joe

“I know sweetie, but that why maybe you need a day just the both of you to yourselves.”- Robin

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“Bye!”- you

You closed the door and went over to the kitchen. You already got dressed for the day. Which was the first time you weren’t in your pjs in over a week. You decided to clean some baby bottles and put them in the dishwasher.

Joe came walking in with his beautiful smile plastered on his face.

“Hey, burrow!” You smiled

“Hey, Mrs Burrow! What are you doing?”- Joe

He then sat down on one of three kitchen stools.

“Well, I’m cleaning. I wanted to get it out of the way.”- You

“Well how about you come relax. You need it, y/n.”- joe smiled

“When I’m finished. I’m almost done!”- you

“Okay.”- Joe

Joe stayed there talking to you about upcoming projects and practices he has going on. It was nice to talk to him that wasn’t all baby related. Even though you love your sweet emma. It has just been a lot this past week and you needed a break from it.

After cleaning you decided to watch a movie with Joe. Both of you decided on Mr and Mrs Smith.

“Want to order something to eat?”- Joe

“Sure!”-you

“How about..”- Joe

“Sushi!”- you

“That’s what I was thinking!”- Joe

“Well, great minds think alike!”- you

He then pulled you in for a sweet kiss.

“I love you.”- Joe

“Love you too.”- you

“Ok, let’s order.”- Joe

You laughed and told him what you wanted.

You were so grateful to have such an amazing husband. He is a great father to your beautiful daughter. A new chapter just opened for you and Joe and you couldn’t wait to explore it with the man you love.

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Authors note: HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! This goes out to all the mothers! It’s can be hard sometimes but always remember that people love and care about you!🩷

[larz-barz]

Taking risks, saving lives

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Warning(s)/info: Almost character death, gore, angst, angst to reverse comfort, pre-TanjMilo (cause like- they met when Nezuko and Tanjiro were on trial-)

Tagging: @risingscorchingsuns @knyinfinity @kimetsu-chan(don’t kill me pls;-;) @shycroissanti

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The battle is done right?

Enmu is dead now so it must be!

Wrong…

A malicious chuckle can be heard as a demon comes out of the forest.

Upper moon 3…

Kyojuro gets in a protective stance in front of the 3 teens and Nezuko and he blocks Milo from joining him.

“No, Milo… Stay back. Heal their wounds for me, okay?” He asks the younger hashira and she nods despite knowing she should help him.

Milo flinches as she, Tanjiro, Inosuke, Zenitsu, and Nezuko listen to the raging battle.

Milo finishes healing Tanjiro and her eyes widen in fear as she scrambles up to jump to protect Kyojuro.

Akaza has his arm back, about to punch through Kyojuro and he instead punches through Milo.

“SUZUKI-SAMA!!!” Tanjiro cries out and before he can run to her, she weakly holds her hand out to stop him.

Kyojuro’s eyes fill with tears as he gently holds the young girl in his arms after she’d stumbled back into him.

The sun starts to rise slowly so Akaza runs off into the shelter of the woods.

Tanjiro lets out a loud, raging growl as he throws his sword at Akaza in attempt to kill him.

Kyojuro gently props Milo up against a tree and she smiles weakly.

“I-I’m glad you’re okay K-Kyojuro-sama….” She murmurs weakly.

Tanjiro runs over, along with Zenitsu, and Inosuke.

Nezuko had already been carefully placed into her box.

Tanjiro slides across the muddy ground on his knees, tears are pouring down his cheeks.

“A-are you going to be okay S-Suzuki-sama…??” He croaks out through his tears.

She sighs sadly. “I…. I don’t know if I can heal myself from something like this…. I-I’m terribly sorry… I would’ve loved to have gotten to know the 4 of you better…. A-and you can just call me Milo….”

“N-no don’t say that!! You’re gonna survive and we can spar and fight together all day every day!!!” Inosuke yells through his own tears.

“I’ll see you guys soon…. If I don’t make it…. promise me you’ll defeat Muzan for me….?” She asks weakly and they all nod shakily.

“Milo, please don’t talk like this! You’re going to survive! I just know it!” Kyojuro exclaims through his tears.

Milo’s eyes flutter shut as she smiles weakly.

Kyojuro breathes a sigh of relief when he hears her still breathing.

He picks her up very gently.

There’s no time to wait for any kakushis.

They, very quickly, race Milo to the butterfly mansion.

Nearly 4 months later, Milo wakes up and feels a pair of arms around herself.

She looks to see who’s cuddling her and she blushes when she sees Tanjiro’s sleeping form hugging her close.

Tanjiro’s eyes flutter open and he starts crying again as he hugs Milo tightly.

Milo hugs him back, suppressing her own tears.

“M-Milo thank goodness you’re ok!!” He cries out as he cries into her shoulder.

Milo gently rubs his back, smiling softly since he remembered her request to be called by her first name. “Y-yes… How are you..? A-and everyone else..?”

“We’re all okay too!” He eventually calms down but he doesn’t let go of Milo, she doesn’t mind though.

“….M-Milo….?” He calls out, breaking the calm silence.

“Hm…?” The yokai responds and slightly tilts her head after pulling away just enough to look at him.

He has something very important he wants, no, he needs to tell her.

Something he needs to confess…

“N-nevermind. It’s not that important!”

~the end~

Hehe- I’m mean Ik- 😂

[its-time-to-write]

i hold it like a grudge - ch. 3

I don’t know why I’m awake and still editing 😭 I have to go to work tomorrow morning. It’s not even the weekend yet and I’m acting like it is but it’s ok, right? Right.

table of contents watch me fall

Five hours later, Keeley is scrolling through pictures of you and Jamie on your phone. 

“Oh my god, you’re both so tiny!” she crows. She can hold her alcohol much better than you would have expected, but by this point, she’s definitely far gone.

You can’t bring yourself to have more than two drinks. Everything leaves behind an acrid taste, so you switched to water a while ago. That means you’re completely fucking sober as Keeley swipes through your entire friendship with Jamie.

“Wow, you two were like, attached at the hip,” she comments. “Is this your mums?”

It’s a picture of two women about the same age, looking at the camera with strained smiles. You remember that day. Your mum had slipped you and Jamie money to get ice cream with the condition that you’d eat it at the shop and not bring it home. She’d looked right into your eyes as she said it, conveying a message beyond her words. You were maybe ten years old and not sure exactly what she meant, but you nodded seriously and ran to drag Jamie down the street.

You and Jamie had come back, hours later with ice cream drips on your shirts, none the wiser to what had transpired in your absence.

“I remember that picture,” you say aloud. “Jamie’s dad took it, the piece of shit. He dropped ‘round and was a happy drunk until he wasn’t. Mum threatened to call the police, but Georgie still came away with a black eye. They thought me and Jaim didn’t know, but,” you shrug. “You know how it is when you’re ten. You know fucking everything.”

Keeley nods, and you take it as an invitation to keep talking. “We used to share a brain, basically. Hardly ever seen without each other. You know we didn’t even date till I was in secondary? Mum was so surprised we weren’t already sneaking around behind her back. Guess she and Georgie used to talk about it a lot. Jamie was home four hours after she died. Not even sure how, really, he was out of town. I asked him about it once and he wouldn’t tell me, the little shit. That night… I couldn’t sleep. It was awful. I sneaked out of my room and down the hall to her bed, because it still smelled like her, you know? I had this dream that she was still there with me and when I woke up it felt like I had lost her all over again. I had to remember that she wasn’t just downstairs making breakfast.”

You pause. It’s all coming out so matter-of-factly, like it happened to someone else.

“Anyway, I just laid there and cried. The first tear had barely fallen when Jamie just came in and got in bed next to me. I think he had just woken up, but he… he held me so fucking tight and whispered, ‘I felt you crying. I can be here as long as you want,’ and then we just stayed there. We were there for fucking…hours. He just let me cry and didn’t say anything, just kissed the tears off my face and handed me tissues. The next couple days he moved all my things from the house to a room at Georgie’s. She had this like, office thing upstairs that was basically a closet, but it was the same layout for mine and theirs so it was familiar if that makes sense? Like they were mirrored, so her room was the same as mum’s and Jamie’s was the same as mine, then a third little bedroom that had room for a bed and that’s pretty much it. Jamie offered his room, but I didn’t want it. It felt wrong, somehow. And I couldn’t bring myself to get out of bed to do any of it but he did everything. I think Georgie probably helped, but when it was all done, he brought me over and he’d decorated it just how I would’ve. Except he made a copy of his Roy Kent poster and stuck it on my wall, right next to one of his dumb headshots he liked so much. He slept in that little bed with me every night until he went back. We were nineteen at the time, right before he got signed for City. We loved that team. Used to watch it every time it was on the telly, and he always told me he’d play for them some day and take me to every match, even the away games.”

You trail off. You’ve run out of steam, back in the present reality. This is the first time you’ve allowed yourself to look back fondly, to wonder how Georgie and Simon are.

Meanwhile, Keeley’s staring at you, openmouthed.

“Shit, babe,” she says.

“Shit,” you agree.

“How the fuck did he know you were crying?”

You wiggle your head back and forth. “Like I said, he said he felt it. I mean… sounds strange, but we used to be able to feel when things were wrong with each other. Even if we were in different places. We used to text and be like, ‘oi, you good?’ and every time, the answer was no. It’s like a nauseous feeling, you know?”

“No,” Keeley shakes her head. “I don’t fucking know.”

“Right,” you say, “I’m done being sober. Give me the fucking bottle.”

Keeley cheers and passes it your way. You take a swig and make a face. It still tastes like shit, but it’s better than trying to figure out the implications of Keeley’s five little words.

No. I don’t fucking know.

—

The next week, you’re slipping charms on a necklace for someone name Ashley, part of a set for a wedding party. You’ve had a steady stream of customers this weekend, many tourists from out of town passing through on their way to the heart of London. You check instagram in between sales and see that your location is getting tagged in stories and public posts, and you smile. 

The day passes by smoothly and by the time you lock up, it’s drizzling ever so slightly. You grin and step out the door, turning the lock then back around to head up the street. You run smack into someone and say, “Shit, sorry,” before realizing it’s fucking Jamie. You scoff and go to step around him but he puts himself in your path.

“I’m going back to Manchester,” he tells you without preamble.

“Gaffer sent me back. Thought you might want to know.”

“Okay,” you reply lightly, as if to a stranger, then duck past him again. You hurry away and risk a glance back. He’s still standing in the rain by your store, watching you walk away.

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[never-enough-novels]

🧚‍♀️ iM a FaiRy ✨🌟🌸💮

Do it Grayson

Prompt: Reader's parents are fighting and they don't wanna be there so they ask Grayson if they can stay over.

Take your time, love

It's finally done bbg

A/n: im sorry if there are any mistakes in this. This was my first time writing anything like this 😭. I tried my best. Really hope you like this. It's also mostly very shit so I'm sorry beforehand

World limit: about 700 words

Tw: argument between parents, blaming yourself about it

Coffee and comfort

They're fighting again

On the same topic again

God I only wish they would just not shout so much. Or if they want to just not infront of me. Each accusation, each word spat to one another felt like it was my fault. I don’t even know why I think its my fault. The air itself was so thick it was suffocating. I tried sleeping it off but the shouting just went on and on and an like it was in my brain. I wanted to cry but couldn’t and it felt like a barb wire in my throat. As I lay on my bed, with the comfort of my favourite playlist playing in the background, the weight of the situation pressed down on me. Hands trembling I decided to call the one person I thought could provide me comfort right now: Grayson.

I reached for my phone, my fingers hesitantly hovering over his contact before pressing call. The phone rang briefly before his warm, familiar voice filled the line.

“Hey, love, everything okay?” Grayson’s voice was tinged with immediate concern.

Hearing his voice again tipped my emotions over the edge. I tried to cover my mouth and not cry so I don’t worry him any further; which obviously turns futile.

“Hamnah what happened? Talk to me love” he asked worriedly

“Can I please come over to your place? Theyre fighting again” I ask as quietly as I can without breaking down after hearing his voice

There was no hesitation on his end, just the comforting certainty of his reply. “Of course, come over. The house feels empty without you anyway.”

Disconnecting the call, I packed a few necessities into a bag, throwing in a book and my journal, knowing well that Grayson’s place was the only place where I could find peace enough to write. The drive over was quick, the familiar streets bathed in the soft glow of the streetlights leading me to his penthouse which was his safe place too.

As soon as he opened the door I was enveloped in a comforting hug which was the best thing in the world. We stayed in that position which felt like hours but could only have been a few minutes.

Grayson, cupping my face up gave me the most gentle kiss on lips and then asked “Are you ok Hamna? Wanna talk about it?”

Shaking my head I said, “I'd really rather not right now”

Nodding his head with a small comforting smile on his face he went into the kitchen while I situated myself on his bed; finally taking a deep breath and letting myself relax.

He comes back and hands me a glass of water and says “You know you’re always welcome here, right? This is as much your home as it is mine,” he said, his voice earnest.

I nodded, my heart swelling with gratitude. “I know, Gray. Thank you. It means everything to me.”

We spent the evening tucked away in his bedroom, watching movies that made us laugh and making me forget the harshness of reality of my home. Grayson held me close, his presence a shield against the outside world. It was moments like these that I was reminded of how much he meant to me,and how we came to be together and him being my boyfriend and safe space.

Later, while cuddling with his arm around my back and my head on chest, listening to heartbeats I decided to speak about what happened.

“I hate that you have to see this side of my life, I never wanted to show you this ” I confessed quietly, the darkness of the room and his presence making it easier for me to express my fears and feelings.

Grayson’s arm tightened around me, pulling me closer. “Hamna, we all have our battles. But you’re not alone in this, okay? I’m here for you, no matter what.” His words, feeling sincere and reassuring, helped the tightening around my cheat and throat.

“I love you, Gray,” I whispered, feeling his kiss on my forehead in response.

“I love you more,” he said back, a line so simple yet profound, promising unspoken vows of support and everything I could wish for.

As I drifted off to sleep, the echo of my parents’ shouting seemed like miles away. Here, in Grayson’s arms, I found more than just a temporary escape; I found a promise of hope and a reminder of his love for me.

[fallrimxreader]

Ah good, hope this level of angst is ok then:

Can I please request the FO4 companions(and maybe the remaining faction leaders in this scenario pls)reacting to sole becoming self destructive in how much they try and help the wasteland, all because they feel guilty for Shaun dying?

Thank you, have a nice day ^-^

(Warnings: Injuries, lack of sleep and eating, mention of death.)

Cait: “Alright that’s enough. You need to stop, get some rest or I’ll have to knock you out myself.”

Cait was concerned, they’d been in the middle of a raider fight. This was the third one in a single day. Cait was tired herself, and she had only just joined Sole. Sole had been doing this for a few weeks. They kept saying one more, they had to help one more person. But that was about 5 people ago. And now they were getting sloppy. A raider came up close and Sole went to hit them but completely missed. The raider took his hit and caught Sole right in the gut. Sole buckled and Cait had to jump in. Cait drags Sole away from the fight and to a safe house, throwing them onto the bed. She held up three fingers and grumbled when Sole said there were six. Cait does not have the best bedside manners; she gets easily annoyed with Sole. But she grits her teeth and forcefully took care of Sole until they were in some sort of working order.

Curie: She made her opinion quite clear early on, Sole didn’t appreciate her telling them to stop so Sole left Curie behind at a settlement. A week later Sole finally comes back and Curie throws herself into Sole’s arms.

“Please, I’m begging you Monsieur/Madam. I need you to stop. I’m worried about you.” Curie cries uncontrollably, gripping tightly onto Sole. It’s at this point Sole realizes how bad it had gotten. Curie was usually concerned with Sole’s health anyway. But Sole had never seen her cry so hard before. Sole had been thinking only of Shaun, and how even though Sole did all they could to find him they were not quick enough. Sole wanted to get to everyone else and help them before it was too late. Shaun died, and they had to realize no matter how much they do to help others nothing would bring him back. Sole began to cry too, hugging Curie tighter. It was nice to have someone that cared.

Codsworth: “Sir/mum, will you please take a nap. Then we can stop at a settlement and I’ll make you a nice nutritious meal.”

Sole didn’t want to stop. There were people to help, people who needed Sole. They kept moving, muttering how he would want them to keep going. Codsworth was confused, but it didn’t take long to realize who Sole was talking about. Codsworth floated in front of Sole.

“Sir/mum, as much as I hate to say these words. But Shaun is gone. I know he wanted you to help people. But he would also want you to help yourself too. We need you, but only when you’re strong enough. And I know master Shaun would say the same thing.”

Codsworth’s words made Sole break. They knelt to the floor and cried. Codsworth guided them to a nearby settlement and let them sleep. When Sole woke up Codsworth made a large meal, and Sole ate the entire thing. Sole didn’t realize they had gotten so hungry.

Dogmeat: Dogmeat doesn’t notice anything different for a long time. One day Sole gets into a battle where they get shot. Sole had not been sleeping or eating so they were incredibly weak. The gunshot wound took out the last of their adrenaline and Sole could not get off the ground. Dogmeat whined and pawed at them, trying to get them to move. But Sole couldn’t.

“Go get help.” Sole says, finally admitting to themselves they were in a rough spot. Dogmeat ran as fast as he could. He would get them help.

Danse: “That’s it, soldier, you’re done. Time to go home.”

They had gotten into another fight trying to save a settlement and Sole had collapsed in the middle of the battlefield. Danse got under their arm and dragged them away.

“I have to help.”

“No, you need to rest. You’re about to drop dead. I can get my men to come in and help these people.” Danse dragged Sole to a safe house and dropped them onto the bed.

“They need me. If I’m not there, people die without me.” Sole began to cry.

“People do need you. But not all the time. There are plenty of people in this world who can help. You don’t have to be the one to do everything. We put our trust in you every day, for once put trust in us that we can save people too.”

Sole thought about his words. There was a slight relief hearing them. Sole nodded and lay in the bed. Danse got backup from the brotherhood, then focused on tending to Sole. He made sure they slept and ate, before he let them back into the wasteland.

Deacon: “Man I am pooped. How about we head back home, take some zee’s and refill our tanks. What’dya say?” Deacon stretched. They had just finished guiding someone to a new settlement.

“Nah, let’s do another one. I’m sure there’s someone around here that needs help.” Sole suggested.

“I really don’t think I can. I think you could do another, but I don’t think you should.” Deacon crossed his arms. “We’ve been going at it for days; we need a rest.”

“I can’t rest. By the time I get to them it will be too late! No more breaks I can’t risk getting sidetracked again.”

“What are you talking about?” Deacon asked. Sole was silent, staring off into the distance. “Look, you’re not the only one out here. You’ve got me, the railroad and a bunch of other people. It’s ok to take a break, take it from me when I say no one will judge you for it.”

Sole stood still thinking on it. Deacon stepped forward and grabbed their arm. Sole allowed themselves to be dragged away to a place they could rest and eat. Deacon also resting, though he kept a close eye on Sole to ensure they didn’t try to leave without him.

Hancock: “Alright buddy, I’ve got to tap you out. You’re not going to do anyone any good if you’re dead.” He had tricked Sole into going back to Goodneighbor with him, by saying someone needed help. “You’re the one that needs help, and that’s what I’m here for.”

He took Sole’s weapons. Then gave them a bedroom, and told them to sleep. Sole was reluctant, but soon enough they just passed out on the bed. When they woke up Hancock had arranged his townsfolk to cook some delicious meals for Sole. Which they ate, not realizing how hungry they were until they started eating. Afterwards Sole asked for their weapons back.

“Nope back to bed. Your mayor orders you.” Hancock ordered. Sole grumbled off. But after a few days Sole began to realize how much better they were feeling, and how horrible they had felt before Hancock made them stop. Sole was ashamed and bashfully said thank you to Hancock, who was just so happy his partner was back to normal again.

MacCready: He’s a loyal man, and being young and an experienced wasteland wanderer he was able to keep up with Sole. They would do job after job, day and night. Helping everybody they could find. But after 3 weeks he had enough. MacCready had been eating whenever they stopped in a town, but Sole would be ‘too busy’ to eat. They would sleep when MacCready would demand them to. Yet he could tell Sole wasn’t sleeping. Their face in the morning was evidence enough. They stop at a settlement and Sole collapses into a bed from exhaustion. MacCready stole all their weapons, hiding them. When Sole awoke, they ordered MacCready to give them back.

“Sorry but no can do. You’ve done enough. Now we are going to stay in this settlement for at least a few days. You’re going to sleep the whole time, and if you’re not sleeping, you’re eating. Proper food not garbage ‘nutrient bars’.” Sole wanted to fight, but MacCready just pushed them back onto the bed. Sole reluctantly got back into bed and ended up sleeping for 15 hours straight the first day. It took a while but finally Sole was feeling better, they didn’t think they had gotten so bad. But they were incredibly grateful MacCready was looking out for them.

Piper: The pair was sitting in an abandoned building, about to head out to another job. Sole was trying to reload their gun, but their hands were so shaky they couldn’t get the bullets in. Piper took the gun away and held Sole’s hand.

“I think it’s time to call it quits blue, just for a day or two.”

“I can’t. They need help.”

“And we’ll help them later.”

“No, it will be too late. I have to save them now; I can’t lose him. Them.” Sole corrected themselves, then paused. Tears stinging their eyes.

“Oh blue. I’m sorry. I don’t know how you feel, or know what you’re going through. But you’re just hurting yourself at this point. You can’t save everyone, no matter how hard you try. Life happens, and even if you do your best people can still die. It’s the worst, but it’s reality. What you need to do, is not push yourself to the point where you are useless to us. Now please, let’s take a break. We can ask someone else to go help those people out.” Sole hesitates, but Piper just squeezes their hand. Sole wants to squeeze back but they don’t have the strength to. It’s then that Sole realizes Piper is right. They are weak, and would be useless in a fight right now. Sole nods and Piper took them back to Diamond city so they can rest.

Preston: Sole ended up helping every single settlement Preston had. He had to start turning Sole away.

“Sorry boss, no one needs help right now. But I think you should take this as a chance to get some rest.” Sole ignored the suggestion and headed out looking for other jobs. They came back 2 weeks later, limping and with a big black eye.

“Any settlements need help yet?”

“Definitely not from you!” Preston was concerned.

“What?” Sole asked offended.

“You need to rest now.” Preston slings his gun on his back and tries to help Sole into their house.

“This is nothing, at least I’m alive. I need to help the settlements.”

“No boss. If you keep this up you won’t be helping anyone.” Preston gets Sole into the house and to a bed. “Everyone loves you; we are so grateful to have you. But if you want to be around to help us, you need to rest.” Sole grumbled but got into bed and did as they were told.

He asked another town member to take over patrolling. Then got some healthier food and sat by Sole. For the next few days Preston looked after Sole until they were back to normal condition.

Valentine: Nick had been around a long time; he’d seen many men and women fall to the abyss of trying to help everyone. He himself had once gone down that path and it was his assistant Ellie that actually made him slow down. Sole and Nick had just finished 3 jobs in a row.

“Alright boss, it’s time for a break.”

“Just one more.”

“Nope, we’ve done enough for now. Time to rest up and come back later.”

“There might not be a later. We have to help now.”

Valentine made Sole stop moving and stepped up close.

“Listen, I’ve been down this road. But there are too many people and you can’t help everyone. No matter how hard you try. Besides, who are you going to help in this state?” Sole was bruised, their clothes were torn and they hadn’t slept in days. “You need a rest. And I’m getting older, I need to rest too. So let us go back home, we’ll come back another day.”

“But he told me to help them.”

“I know he did. But he wouldn’t want you killing yourself in the process. Now come on.” Nick wrapped his arm around Sole and guided them home.

Strong: They travelled around for about a week, taking job after job helping everyone in their path. Even sometimes accepting two at the same time. They had just completed one job and Sole headed straight to the other. Night fell and Sole was exhausted. They were hit by a surprise raider attack. Sole struggled to hold their weapon, shaking as they aimed. They took too long to steady themselves and got shot in the arm. Sole tried to shoot with one hand but couldn’t make it work. After clearing the raiders himself, Strong headed back to Sole.

“Human weak. Human need rest.”

“No Strong, we need to get to the settlement that needs help.”

“Settlement help Sole.”

“I’m fine.” Sole tried to stand but their knees gave way. Strong picked Sole up and carried them the rest of the way.

“Human weak.” Once at the settlement Sole was bandaged up and told to rest. They tried to leave but Strong blocked their exit. There was no way Sole was going to win against Strong so reluctantly they stayed in bed and rested.

X6-88: He left the institute with Sole the day Shaun died. Sole didn’t say anything except they were going to take a job. X6 was quite willing to go as long as possible. He didn’t have the same restrictions as Sole. He was expecting to maybe go on a job a day or maybe 3 days. But was surprised when Sole had been going for a whole 2 weeks. They get to another settlement and X6 is expecting Sole to rest.

“Come on time to go, we’ve got another job.” Sole says wanting to leave after being there for only 10 minutes.

“Are you sure?”

“Yeah, lets go.” Sole answered, but X6 hesitated. He stood still and took a look at Sole. They had become skinny; their arms shook carrying the weight of their gun.

“I think you should rest.”

“No, I’m good. Come on, or maybe I’ll just go alone.” Sole replied. X6 stepped forward and placed a hand on Sole’s bony shoulder. “We’ve been through a lot together, and I’ll admit I have grown fond of you. I can’t feel what you felt when father died. But I know he wouldn’t want you to live like this. You need to rest and regain your strength.”

“But.” 

“We are not leaving until you rest.” X6 said in an authoritative voice Sole had not heard before. Sole had also not heard X6 so concerned for their health. They were touched, simply nodding and heading to a spare bed.  

Arthur Maxson: He watched Sole enter the brotherhood headquarters limping, skinny and pale. Though they smiled and asked for the next job.

“I’m taking you off the field soldier. You need to go see a doctor and rest for at least a week.”

“I can’t do that boss I have to help.”

“That’s an order, don’t make me handcuff you to a bed.” Maxson used his big voice. He could understand what Sole was doing, people needed help. But to put themselves through so much torture and not take care of their health? Well Maxson thought Sole was a little crazy, but he did appreciate them. “You’re a good worker and I can’t risk losing you from my team. So, take care of yourself and I’ll give you a job as soon as the doctor clears you.”

Sole grumbled but did as they were told.

Desdemona: She watched Sole stagger into the railroad hitting every surface as they walked. Sole had bags under their eyes and their skin was pale.

“What’s next?” Sole asked.

“What’s next is you go get some rest.”

“Nah I’m fine.”

“That wasn’t a suggestion.” Desdemona took Sole’s arm and guided them to a bed. “You’re going to stay here and we are going to watch you like hawks until you get better. I have plenty of manpower here, you are not the only one capable of taking a job.”

Sole wanted to resist, but the moment their head hit the pillow they passed out. Desdemona sighed, throwing a blanket over them. She then went to find someone to watch over Sole as they slept.

Gage: “Alright boss, enough now.” Sole had just told Gage they were going on another job. This was the 6th in 2 days. “You need to stop moving for one day. And I need to sleep.”

“We can just do one more then we’ll stop.”

“Ha, yeah you told me that before but we didn’t stop. I know you wanna help people, and that’s ok. But there’s no point if you’re just going to die on them. When was the last time you ate?”

“This morning?” Sole said in an untruthful tone.

“Ate something proper, not just snack. Or when was the last time you slept?” Sole couldn’t reply to that one. “Right. Now let’s go home, because I am not going to carry you if you collapse on me.” Gage said the threat but Sole know he would never leave them.

Sole followed Gage. He had a point. If Sole couldn’t remember the last time they slept, then there was a problem. Once in a safe location the both rested. Gage woke first and kept an eye on Sole, who slept for a lot longer.

[eashmo]

7 minutes in hell, or is it heaven? Part 23 Final

-bad boys bring heaven-

Warnings: none because i'm an asshole.

a/n: long chapter, sorry it took so long.

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*1 year later*

*Billy pov* 

It was my fault that she… she….. I should have driven to the diner a different way, or I should have fought harder. There were so many things I should have done so that y/n didn't…. The past couldn’t be changed. my sanity slowly slipped. It had only been a year. I couldn’t sleep at all. Every time I closed my eyes, I saw her. There was nothing I could do to stop it. 

“I love you forever, y/n,” I whispered as her casket was lowered into the ground. “And I’m sorry.” My eyes stayed trained on her grave for what seemed like an eternity until I felt a presence beside me. For a fraction of a second, I foolishly thought that she was standing there beside me with our baby. I fell to the ground, screaming at the sky.

“BILLY?, BILLY WAKE UP!” a voice shouted. Jolting awake, I looked around frantically, trying to catch my breath. 

“Billy, look at me.” 

“M-max?” I breathed stilling up from the couch.

“You were having a nightmare, I just woke up from one myself.” she breathes. I noticed she had been crying, sweaty, and breathing heavily as well.

“Wanna talk about it?” she asks.

“I-I watched them bury her.” I started to cry and pulled her into me. She gave a tight squeeze.  

“Do you think these nightmares will ever get easier?”  she asks. 

“I don't know kiddo” All of a sudden, a cry was heard from the bedroom and hush whispers.  

“Shh sweetheart, mamas got you.”  I heard as I moved to the door.

“I love you so much.” I sigh from the doorway, leaning on the door frame, taking in the beautiful scene, “I love you so much more. Did you have another nightmare?” y/n said with a smile which quickly dropped when she saw the redness in my eyes.

“Yeah, it was the same one, but I'm ok now.” I said as I wrapped my arms around her and Cora. y/n leans her head on my chest and sighs. 

“Are you ready for today?” y/n asks.

“Of course, I've been waiting for this since i met you”

*y/n pov*

I was going to marry Billy today. As I tried to calm my nerves, I heard the door creak open. It was Max.

”Hey sweetie,” I said.

“Hey,” she replied with a small smile. “What's wrong, sweetie?”

”Nothing is wrong, just a tad nervous, I don't know why because I'm sure you're just as nervous. i'm just happy that we are finally family, i wish you the best, and i love you…… and i'm rambling”

I smiled and chuckled. “Thank you, and I love you too, kiddo. I'm so happy that you're my maid of honor and sister in law because if you weren't, i would be going insane.”

She laughs. ”come on, let's get ready.'' I say I held on her hands. “I'm ready to be Mrs. Hargrove.” 

She had helped me into my dress, a long ivory skirt, beaded corset top with lace sleeves that fit my curves quite nicely, standing at the mirror for quite a long time admiring the way that she looked. It wasn’t anything extravagant it was simple but fairytale like,  i knew for sure that Billy would love the way it looked on her. He had once told me that I would still look beautiful down the alse dressed in sweats and an old tee. As much as that was tempting, it wasn’t appropriate attire for our wedding day.

We hadn’t seen each other since this morning. I wish I could be in his arms right now. I was anxious to see him dressed up in his nice tuxedo.imagining how handsome he would look at the end of the aisle, i wondered if he would get emotional during the ceremony or manage to keep it all bottled up. After all, I knew I would not be able to hold back my own tears the moment my eyes landed on him waiting for me at the altar.

“You look gorgeous,” Max said as she stood behind me “Billy won’t know how to act when he sees you.”

“Do you think he’s nervous?” i asked,

“Oh I know he is. He always has been when it ever came to you. ” she said with a small smile. 

I had never imagined that I would become a wife to someone, let alone be marrying hargrove. It seemed surreal, but I was happier than I had ever been in my entire life. He was the father of my child and now is going to be the perfect husband. 

“I’m just so happy that we’ve made it here, with all the shit we have been through”

“I’m willing to bet he’s thinking the same thing.”

“Do you think all of the guests have arrived yet?” I ask, switching the subject off of almost losing him and almost dying. 

“Mm, it’s getting close to the time the ceremony is supposed to start, so probably!” she said enthusiastically. 

I smiled and was about to say something else before we heard a knock at the door. Max decided that she would be the one to answer it, just in case. Billy came to ruin the tradition of not seeing me before I walked down the aisle.

“Steve” Max greeted him with a surprised tone in her voice before she moved to let him inside the room. “Is everything alright?”

“Oh, everything’s fine! I just came to make sure y/n wasn’t getting too nervous. Wow, you look so beautiful! Hargrobe is going to fall over when he sees you walking toward him. I couldn’t help but smile at the compliment. 

“Thank you, Stevie. How is he doing?” I asked him as he took a seat.

“Yeah, he’s nervous as hell. He even threatened to punch me like typical Hargrove. But he will be fine.” he laughed.

“So did you need something?” Max asked.

“Oh, no, I just wanted to come by and check on everything, and I wanted to brag to Billy that I got to see his future wife before he did.”

“Yep, you're asking for it.” I laughed. 

“Anyway, I think they’re almost ready for you. They were telling me to get down to the altar, but I told them I had to come to see you first. Your parents should be here any minute.” he says.

“You’d better get going, you’re supposed to be standing at the altar with Billy, and you’re gonna be late!” Max said he seemed to take notice of the urgency in her voice and left the room with a quick bye and wave wave. It wasn’t much longer before my father and mother arrived at the door. 

“Your absolutely beautiful, darling. Are you ready?” my father asked, a warm smile on his face.

“I don’t think I’ve ever been so ready for anything,” I answered, and we all left the room to make our way toward the ceremony.

“The ceremony is about to begin,” I heard the priest say as my bridesmaids and groomsmen formed a line with me in the back. everyone in my party gave me a thumbs up.

*Billy pov*

I  stood on a raised platform, his step mom sat in front pew, and a few of my family members scattered about. Adjusting my suit as I looked out to the carpeted path of the church.

“You’re lucky that you found someone that loves you enough to marry you.” Steve chuckles at my state of nervousness.

“Are you saying that you didn’t think anyone would ever love me?” I asked, and he burst out laughing. 

“No, I mean some people let things like that pass them by without a second thought. It’s good that you have y/n and held on to her, that’s all," Steve clarified his statement, and I couldn't help but think that he might have been referencing someone from his past…Nancy. 

“I feel lucky to still have her despite everything” I said in response. and the bridal party started to file out. Nancy, Dustin, Robin, Lucas, Joyce, Will, Mike, and El helped little Cora, who was the flower girl. And Max As she got closer, she whispered to me “she's gorgeous by the way” as she said that the doors open to reveal y/n. I could see y/n in her ivory dress, bouquet of y/f/f in her hands. She was looking straight at me, smiling that beautiful smile that lit up any room that she had ever entered. Her e/c eyes were sparkling with what I could only assume were tears, and I couldn't help but smile at her as she and her parents slowly made their way down the aisle. All I could see was her and how beautiful she looked, and the fact that she was about to become my wife. I tried to keep my emotions at bay.

“Who is it that allows this woman to be married to this man?” the priest asked. Her father smiled at both of us.

“Her parents” he said, she hugged her father and mother tightly and I shook his hand before her father made his way to sit down in one of the empty seats in the crowd, and then it was finally time.

Taking her hands in mine as she turned to face me, tears streaming down her cheeks as she smiled so lovingly at me. i reached up with one hand to wipe away her tears, and she laughed a little, seemingly embarrassed at the fact that she was crying, to begin with.

“Thank you all for being here today to witness the marriage of one of this lovely couple. I have the privilege to be the one performing this ceremony, joining two people who are in love as these two are. Anyone who has been in a room with the two of them for any amount of time can feel how much they love each other. I understand the two of you have prepared your own vows, so we’ll start with William”

“Me?” I asked quietly, and y/n giggled.

“Do you want me to go Hargrove?” she says with a teasing smirk.

“Oh shut up nerd” I sighed, which earned a chuckle from her and the crowd that had come to witness our marriage. reaching into my tuxedo with one hand pulling out the piece of paper that laid within the breast pocket. Clearing my throat.

"Not many people can say they truly married the love of their life, but I can. when we met in highschool —I used to fantasize about this exact moment—and now  I finally get to say, 'I do.' This journey, this adventure that we're on, has already challenged us as a couple, to work through hardships and obstacles, and to become stronger in our communication, in our commitment and to our love. It has been the biggest growth I have ever had for myself by far as a partner. Our relationship is full of more love and support than I could ever ask for. I have never been more adored or felt more safe, and the trust that we have built, that we have worked so hard to protect, is invaluable. So thank you. I've heard it said: 'It is better to not make a vow than to make one and not be able to keep it.' Therefore, I know what this commitment means. I promise… to help shoulder our challenges and celebrate all of our little wins. To tell you every day how much I love you and appreciate all that you do. To continue to learn from you and to follow the examples of patience and respect that you continuously share. To continue to build upon the trust that we have and to be by your side fully and faithfully. To put you and Cora first and above all, always. To try my hardest, to step away from my stubbornness, and accept that I make mistakes and that I am (to my dismay), not always right.  Most importantly, today, in front of our closest friends and family, I take you as my wife. Because this is a great love story and we're getting married and I love you." A tear fell from my eyes.

She wiped away my tear that had fallen as she still had a smile on her face as she cried. Max handed her a tissue, and she dabbed her tears away. She took a piece of paper of her own from Max. 

 "The night we played 7 minutes in heaven was the best decision in my life I had ever made in my life because now I'm so proud that today I become your wife. I love you. I love the way you make me laugh. I love the feeling of being protected in your arms. I love that you protect your family and friends. I love that you're open to trying new things. Today, I want to make promises to you that I will always keep. I promise never to stop holding your hand. I promise to give you all the love and support. I promise to share my food with you, never go to bed angry, and always honor your passions. I promise to stand by your side while you face the world. Listen to you when you speak. I promise that when you can't look on the bright side, I will sit with you in the dark. I promise to grow alongside you but also to never grow up. I promise to love, respect, protect, and trust you, and give you the best of myself, for I know that together we will build a life far better than either of us could imagine alone. I choose you. I'll choose you over and over and over, without pause, without doubt, I'll keep choosing you. Today seems like it's the start of a new journey, but I already belong to you. Falling for you wasn't falling at all—it was walking into a house and knowing you're home. I love you."

“El do you mind bringing little miss Cora with the rings.” the priest asked, and she lifted Cora from her lap into her arms, carrying her, and rings over. Cora let out a squeal when she saw us. 

“Mama! dada!” she said. Everyone in the church laughed at her cuteness.

“Hey pumpkin.” y/n says with a wide grin. As El handed the rings to me. Me and y/n gave Cora a quick kiss on her cubby rosey cheeks, which she erupted in laughter. El took her back to her seat. 

“William, go ahead and put the ring on y/n finger,” the priest instructed, and I slipped the shining silver ring embedded with tiny diamonds onto her finger. She did the same with my ring, which was also silver to match hers, and slipped it onto my finger.

“With the exchange of these rings, William and Y/N make a promise to one another to love and cherish each other for the rest of their lives. They promise to take care of one another and to keep the promises that they’ve stated in their vows. if anyone that’s gathered here today has any objections as to why they shouldn’t be married.”  There were no objections from our friends or family.

“you may now go forth and fulfill your vows with the same love and devotion which now blossoms between you. You are now Mr. and Mrs. Hargrove. And now for your first kiss as a married couple, you may now kiss”  the priest said with a smile before he backed away from the two of them. 

she pulled me down with eagerness into a passionate kiss as I smiled into the kiss as I melted against her lips. She wrapped her arms around my neck and leaned into his kiss, picking her up slightly before we pulled away for air. When we turned back to face our family and friends, they were all on their feet cheering and clapping loudly as we made our way out of the church hand in hand.

*y/n pov*

“Wow, Mr. and Mrs. Hargrove, that really is something.” dustin says as he hugged me

“It’s going to take some getting used to,” I said with a smile as I held tightly to Billy's hand.

“It suits you,” Billy says, placing a gentle kiss on my forehead.

“Ugh, yall are adorable. You two are so perfect together that it makes me sick. Max teased.

“We’re married,” I whispered with a smile as I looked up at him.

“I - I love you so much” he answered, unable to find any other words. He was happy, so happy that he couldn’t even think straight. The last two times I saw him this happy was when I woke up from my 3 week coma and the birth of Cora.

“Listen, I know we put a lot of planning into this whole reception thing, and there’s cake and dancing and...whatever, but, don’t you wanna just go home?”

“Home? Everyone is expecting us…what about Cora? "I laughed. 

“Sorry I can't help it, you're so gorgeous in that dress and all I can think about is getting you out of it,” his voice lowered a few octaves as he pulled me closer to him.

“Patience husband, we have a whole week to ourselves.” I say with a smirk, breaking free from his grasp, I start running off toward the reception. looking back at him, giggling as he just stared at me for a moment. 

“You coming daddy” I chuckled as I saw his eyes darken. “You're asking for it princess” He growled as he shook his head and jogged after me to join in the festivities. 

(let me know if you want a honeymoon chapter)

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2023

Taglist: @goth-cowgirl-03

[everchanging-cryptid]

Ok that took an embarrassingly long time to recover from but

from Party Rock Prison or wherever I was (trapped in an attic) and I’ve dealt with my feelings, probably?, about the S2 ending. So I’m gonna talk about that, and how I’m trying cope with that. This is mostly just so I can reassure myself later if I get sad about the ending again, but I figure no harm can come from trying to reassure anybody else in the same situation, right? (Knock on wood) so, while I speak pretty vaguely, I’ll still put a cut in the extreme case of spoilers. (Apologies if this is unintelligible, I’m running on like 3 hours of sleep and a baby carrot)

So, while the last 15 minutes of S2 are initially extremely painful and will most likely leave you crying or at least wishing you could cry, we have to remember that this is not the end. Far from it. S2 was just a bridge season, a collection of context for S3. In S3, we will most likely get the happy ending we want to see, or some variation of it anyway. It will be okay. Even if we don’t get a third season of the show, Neil Gaiman has talked about how he would still want to end the story properly in some way. So regardless of whatever happens, it will get better. Things may look bad now, but it’ll get better. Even though we would have to wait a little while for S3, I feel like it’ll all be worth it in the end. It’ll be worth the wait. We’ve got this.

(Just in case anyone needs them, I’ll list some wholesome fics here that I really like ^^[so sorry I can’t link them, I can’t seem to figure out how and it isn’t working right])

•The Parting Glass by equestrianstatue and omnishambles- the first fanfic I’ve ever read, and my all time favorite

•As At Eden by ChaosDuckWrites- this one’s short but sweet, I really like it

•Beyond The North Wind by Jackie_Thomas- this one is a bit longer but is very cool, the ending is amazing

•An Evening On A Porch by DandelionDrabbles- this one’s cute and very sweet

•hand in unlovable hand by gazing- this one’s super cute, I like this one a lot

•Scare me goodnight, my love by The_Rogue_Bard- this one isn’t done yet, but so far it’s super neat and it’s a neat concept

[bugbyte]

The past few days have been a total nightmare. I’ve barely slept even though I keep trying. I’ve had multiple panic attacks. I had to drag myself through a bunch of appointments.

It’s that thing where stress == pain flare, and then it’s just stuck in a feedback loop. My body is screaming and I can’t sleep and I’m so exhausted.

Check content warnings for the below stuff, I’m just awake and feeling awful and need to scream into the void or something. The following is me working through stuff in a disjointed way and is probably emotional and kinda irrational.

I don’t know anything yet and I cannot stop crying about my cat. I just have this awful sense of dread for tomorrow morning and I can’t make it stop. It might be ok. But it might not. I’ve done my best and I’m kind of furious at the entire situation because all the emergency vets priced us out at the start, our vet wouldn’t do an emergency visit, and the best we could do was wait. How is that fair or humane?

I understand they’re a business, ultimately, but we’ve been going there since Milo was a kitten, and now he’s 15 years old. If they had let me I could have put down some kind of payment and figured out the rest if I could have had a day or two to flex. Which I did with the gofundme, but they wouldn’t even give me that little bit of time. He’s gone there forever, they have records, obviously they know we’re good for it. Long story short, my family’s been taking our pets there since forever, but the vet who originally opened the business retired and sold it. That guy was amazing, and so kind no matter what you were going through. Years ago I had a cat whose kidneys had failed and there was nothing to be done, and he was so kind about the entire process. This is the kind of person I wish I could be dealing with now. The man loved cats, too, which helped. He got it. The new ownership is not so empathetic, but that’s a recent change.

They used to allow breaking up payments but I guess that changed for whatever reason and the only one suffering for it is my cat. And if it turns out that it’s some kind of “well if you came in 3 days ago…” situation I am just going to lose it. He is such a good boy and he does not deserve any of this.

I just feel desperate and afraid and angry and I’m sure this is all grief, but it’s just compounded so much with everything else that’s been happening in my life lately. It seems like grief is the only emotion I have anymore. Which, yes, I have a therapist and we are Working On It™️, but it just never ends.

I want to scream, endlessly. I am overwhelmed. I just want my cat to be ok. I know he’s old, especially for a cat, but by god if he isn’t trying to keep up with his usual antics. He takes a long, long rest and then follows it up with a bout of stealing my hair tie and tearing off with it before I can stop him (I let him take this one this time), or somehow suddenly having the energy to climb a stack of boxes so he can be The Tallest. So I don’t know what to make of it. He’s just very stubborn and persistent like that, in all things.

I am trying to make myself tired enough to sleep and he’s hanging out under the bed. I can hear him making little noises and it makes me feel better that at least he’s close by, and still wants to be around his people. He always wants to be with his people. I can’t picture us without him.

I even had a couple of really good things happen today despite the anxiety and stress of all this and just wanting to deal with this situation already, but it all feels worthless and hollow. I can write about it later or something. I hate being human and mortal and feeling so much grief as I watch my body and my life and the world and a tiny load-bearing cat crumble all around me.

[skyward-floored]

Hey Peggy, emotions are such a freaking pain, I understand. Especially when you think you’ve worked through something and then it comes back to revisit you. I’ll refer you to Warriors’ advice to Twilight (this is a big reason I wrote this fic because I needed to remind myself too!)

Anyway, you don’t have to explain anything or the like because I know you’ve gotten a million people asking/hugging and the like by now, so just have a comfort fic and know it’s ok not to be ok and sometimes you just gotta ride the wave. You’ll get to the upswing soon enough ;) ❤️

xxx

Link smiled softly as he rocked back and forth, shifting his weight from one foot to the other. The small bundle in his arms cooed gently, snuggling further into the blankets he’d swaddled her in.

He felt someone peer over his shoulder. “She has your nose.”

Link chuckled, nuzzling his daughter with said nose. Then he glanced at the person behind him. “You know you’ll eventually have to take the mask off, right?”

Fierce huffed. “I think not. The fool shouldn’t have been going through your things and put it on the first place.”

Link didn’t have an argument for that, and he’d be lying if he said he didn’t enjoy the deity’s company in person.

Though admittedly, getting parenting advice from a cursed deity who hadn’t seen the light of day outside of battle in millennia was not always the best idea.

Link, I think you’re supposed to tap their feet when they cry like that.

I distinctly remember your kind were able to feed infants from your breasts, what do you mean you can’t do that??

Link sighed, putting Navi in her crib. He stretched, exhausted from being woken constantly for his child’s needs. He’d never complain about it aloud, but he’d gone without a solid hour of sleep in so long it almost felt like Termina all over again.

Having Fierce hovering over him certainly helped with the nostalgia.

A warm hand settled on his shoulder. “Go to bed, little hero. I can watch her.”

Link eyed him dubiously. His ability to parent an infant was questionable at best.

Besides… Link would rather talk to Fierce than sleep when he has the opportunity to actually be with him.

The deity sensed his hesitancy and smiled gently. Sitting on the bed, he pat the spot beside him. Link settled at the invitation, and Fierce wrapped an arm around him, pulling him to his side.

“I’ll be here when you wake,” the cursed deity said softly. “I promise.”

The words sank into his core, warming him like a hot stew on a winter night. So many came and went in his life; having a solid promise from someone who would never lie to him gave him more peace than he could articulate. He let himself relax in the hold, and his eyes were closing before he could stop himself.

Malon later entered and found the pair leaning against each other and the backboard of the bed, Link sleeping peacefully while the deity hummed quietly.

**hugs from Skye and the Hero of Time and Fierce Dadity ❤️❤️❤️***

well I’d thought I was done crying for the day but you are proving me wrong here Skye

I don’t even have the words anymore I’m overwhelmed at this, you wrote fic??? Cute baby fic and fierce dadity???? For me???????

WAUGH SKYE I LOVE IT thank you for this and your kind words as well :’)

[aknileibo]

Levihan drabble week - Free spot

A small story with a bit of personal experience.

TW: Anxiety

They were hanging out in Levi’s apartment. Hange was ranting about some lazy people ruining the entire project they had been working on for weeks.

- …And then they told me they deleted the backups? Who would ever delete a backup? Then they told me they had “things to do'' so they couldn’t keep help me…

On the outside, everybody saw Hange as a lively person, always cheerful, hardworking and maybe a little too distracting. Levi was very aware of all this and more, he knew what her rants usually led to, especially if they had been happening for a while.

-Are you feeling ok? You look very agitated.

-Ugh… No… I’m not ok Levi, there’s too many things in my mind right now. It’s been over a year and I’m still not over my father. I know my therapist says it’ll take time, but I wish it would happen right now. I still hear my mother crying sometimes and I wish I could make it better for her. We actually went shopping yesterday so I guess she feels a bit better.

-That's good. But you can’t carry her grief for her while you’re still grieving. I’m sure she wouldn’t want to be a burden for you.

-Yeah, I guess. I’m just tired of this.

-I understand. You should eat something and sleep after you’re done.

-Wha- I have work to do! Didn’t you just hear me-

-Your project isn’t due until next month so you have time. You should be taking better care of yourself if you want to keep that genius brain working.

-Hehe, thanks Levi. What do you have for dinner?

-I made you some hamburgers.

-Yay!

______________________________________________________________

A week later, Levi was busy cleaning his room when he got a call from Hange.

-Hey.

-Levi, I need some help…

-What happened, are you ok?

-I can’t breathe…

-I’m on my way. Your mom was staying with you, right?

-She went to get us something for dinner…

-Ok. It’s ok. Do your breathing exercises. Cry if you need to. I’m here.

-I hate this so much... I haven’t felt like myself in so long… I just want to feel happy again… 

-It will get better. I promise. You’ll learn how to handle this.

-What if it doesn’t… I don’t want my mom to see me like this… I feel very dizzy right now…

-Don’t worry. I’m almost near.

____________________________________________________________

Hange lived just two blocks away form Levi, so he got there quickly.

-Here’s a couple of blankets. Are you feeling any better?

-A bit. Just tired… A little high-strung…

-It’s ok. You’ll feel better in a while.

-I feel like I failed. I was finally able to stop taking medicine… I went back to work… But now this again…I was not able to keep it under control…

-You did not fail. You actually handled this well, asking for help means you’re making the effort to get better.

-Maybe…

-It does. I’ll be with you through this. You’ve helped me a lot before, I’m not leaving you alone now.

-Thank you... I love you so much…

-I know… I love you too… You wanna go for a walk?

-Yes!

They heard big a stomach growl.

-Maybe after dinner…

@levihan-drabbles

[croissantbae]

August 1, 2022

1. Dani is such an utter terrorist. But I love and adore her sooooo much. I feel like Jason and I are the only ones that do though bc she’s such a menace when people are around lol.

2. We went to lake arrowhead w Jason’s fam. The drive there started out strong. Girls got McDonald’s. Then napped. It was going amazing. Then we get there and see the house and we were like good god. Because there were stairs and the frame of the banister had bars that were wide apart. It was big enough where the kids could totally fall through and fall to their demise. At first jason tied blankets around it and then later we pushed the couches against it and threaded a playmat between the bars. Once thst was done we felt a lot better.

We had some bomb food. Jason’s mom made gochujang jjigae which I had only just found out about 1.5 years ago when Julie came over and mentioned she made it for her fam. Man the jjigae was so good I had like 3 servings. It went so well w our gogi.

After dinner our woes began. We decided to have Dani sleep in the big bed w us because we didn’t want her crying and waking everyone up at 3 am if we put her in the pack and play because shes been doing thst recently. So Jason did the usual thing and carried her. Then when she fell asleep he put her in the bed. But then every time he put her down she’d wake up and be excited we were there and want to play. I told Jason to just go upstairs so he could at least be w his fam. But I basically put Dani back in the carrier then back in bed like 4x. Until finally I gave up bc I needed to send something out for work. I switched w jason but he couldn’t get her to sleep either. I think she didn’t sleep until like 11:30 or midnight.

Anyway long story short it was terrible and the next night was even worse. I was so mean to her the second night. I was like ok it’s time to sleep NOW. and she started crying and I was like blocking her crying by putting my hand on her mouth so she sound would be muffled. And I was like hissing STOP!! I was seriously so mean. I feel so bad. But she still loves me #1 and I’m making it up to her.

ThT second night destroyed me. I was like we can’t do a trip like this again unless either Dani has her own room or she can sleep in the bed like naya can.

But with that said I’ve already been thinking about where would be a good place to travel to. Why do I want to pay money to torture myself I don’t know.

In any event it was still a great trip despite the sleeping woes. Naya watched a bunch of tv to her hearts content but she was such a good girl. Listened so well, ate well, played well. Eileen was so sweet and bought them bubbles and cards. And naya brought a play do set NM bought her. She loves NM and doesn’t like OM. It’s kind of sad because OM still loves her so much…

When we came home we got Thai food for dinner. Then put the kids down. And jason freaking made moogook and japchae. So annoying. Going above and beyond.

McDonald’s

Falling asleep.

Pretty cabin. Will post more pics in the next post.

[crow-rodriguez]

Chapter Ten: Love and Loss

*trigger warning: implied r4p3, 4boose*

I had been at that camp for a month, being constantly beaten and humiliated as ways to ‘fix’ me. I was trying to endure as much as I could, luckily the pills I bought from Finneley had worked wonders to numb the pain I felt constantly. 

Danyol and I had become pretty good friends, alongside a lot of the kids who were there with us. We had all made a plan to meet after the counselors went to sleep every night. And this night was no different.

I climbed out the window of my cabin, walking to the meeting spot in the woods. I hugged Danyol and Saige as I arrived, smiling when I saw that they had booze and cigarettes, “both of you, marry me,” I told them.

“Thought you have an Ivy League Princess,” Saige joked as she handed me a bottle.

“How is Lynn by the way?”  Danyol said as he sipped his beer, leaning against a tree. 

“She’s doing good. She’s having so much fun, she says she might not come home when her two-month trip is over,” I said, smiling as I laughed a bit. 

The three of us drank and hung out until we saw flashlights coming, someone snitched on us. Danyol and Saige scattered, but as I was running, I was grabbed and dragged back to the camp by my hair. I was thrown into a solitary confinement type room and looked in there for hours until the camp director came in to talk to me.

“So, you’re still convinced that you’re a lesbian?” He asked me as he smirked, “alright, time to use a different method of fixing you,” he said as he approached me and grabbed me by the arm. He threw me towards the camp counselors, who blindfolded me then threw me back over to the director, “y’know, I should really thank my daughter for snitching on you and Danyol. She’s such a helper,” he told me as he tied my arms up before I heard what sounded like a belt being undone.

I realized what was about to happen, “d-don’t touch me, my parents will be pissed!!” I shouted, crying out when I was smacked. “Your parents signed a waiver, Sweetheart,” he told me.

The next day, I woke up in my cabin. I got up and felt pain all over. My head and body ached as I reached for my bag to grab my pills, the memories of last night filled my mind before I popped two of the pills. I then grabbed my phone and hid it in my bra, getting up and going to the shower rooms. I locked myself into the shower room and grabbed my phone from my bra, dialing Ethan’s number before I put it to my ear. I hoped he would answer and he did, thank fuck…

“Val? What’s wrong?” he asked me, seeming to sense my distress.

I started crying at the sound of his voice, I couldn't believe it but I had to admit it, “Ethan, please save me. I’m breaking…” I told him and he seemed to know what I needed.

“I’m on my way, does Dannii need a ride home too?” he asked.

“I-i think so,” I said, sniffling.

“Ok, go tell him to pack his bag and meet me by the road when I message you,” he told me before he hung up. I quickly pretended that I had been showering before I left the shower room to find Danyol.

I walked for a bit, finding Danyol who looked like he had as rough of a night as I did, he was also wearing a hoodie that hid all of his long black hair. I grabbed his hand gently and whispered to him, “pack your bags and meet me in the woods, we’re getting out of here,” I told him. He nodded and we parted ways until we met in the park. 

We walke for a while until we found Ethan’s car, getting into it before Ethan looked at us and saw how bad we looked,”our first stop in the fucking hospital,” he said before he started driving and took to the ER where Danyol and I were checked out. 

I was taken to a private room to have a rapekit done on me as well as Danyol, which made my blood boil to think that he also went through such a horrible experience. 

Later, he and I were put into a hospital room together. That was when I had seen why he was wearing a hoodie over his head, his hair was cut to his ears. I gasped, knowing that in his culture that hair was important, “they cut your hair!?” I asked, feeling horrible to see that something so important to him had been destroyed.

He nodded, avoiding contact but I could tell that his hair being cut had nearly broken him. I knew he took great pride in his culture and my heart broke entirely for him, “Saige snitched on us,” he said after a long moment of silence.

“I know,” I said as I got up and walked over to him, “I hate hospitals but at least I’m not alone this time,” I sighed as I hoped he and I could help each other heal.

Danyol looked at me and nodded, smiling a bit as he gave my hand a squeeze, “same,” he said as I rested my head on his shoulder, suddenly something about him made my heart race. 

A few hours later, two police officers came and I saw that one of them was Officer Lopez, he saw me and looked shocked. He looked at his partner and pointed towards me before he walked over to me, “Ms. Rodriguez, we meet again. I’m saddened that it’s under these circumstances” he said, “would you mind following me this way so I can get your statement?” he asked.

“Yes, Officer,” I said as I got up and looked at Danyol, “I’ll be right back,” I told him as I followed Lopez. 

Officer Lopez walked into the breakroom with me and had me sit down across from him, pulling out a voice recorder before he started recording and spoke again, “this is Officer Scot Lopez, badge number 2267. I am helping with the investigation of the Saint Samual’s Christian Summer camp. I am currently recording the statement from… please state your name for the records,” he looked at me. 

I nodded my head before I spoke, “V-valentina Julietta Rodriguez, most people call me Val though,” I started, watching as he gave me a thumbs up.

“Val, what was your first interaction with Mr. Prescott?” he asked me, “when was the first time you met him or his daughter, Saige Prescott?” he looked at me, “please do not leave out a single detail,” he added.

“My first interaction with Saige Prescott was on the bus from Rothwell, Texas to the woods of Rothwell which is very big. Very best as you likely know. She came up to me and presented herself as just another camper who was sent to the camp by her parents to be fixed,” I started, “she asked me what my name was and introduced herself as ‘Saige’. She then asked who I was texting when I was texting my girlfriend of a year, RaeLynn Ann Derickson,” I explained.

He nodded, “what was your first interaction with Mr. Prescott?” he asked as he gave me a comforting look. 

“The first day of camp, he called everybody into the mess hall and announced that from that day on, we would be taught how to be ‘good christian boys and girls’ and he made sure to emphasize that we were either girls or boys,” I explained, taking a deep breath, “he did not say anything about Saige being his daughter, in fact she was the first one to stand up. She stood on the table and talked about how this camp was shit and how we should riot but we’re kids and should be loved by our parents and families no matter what, and Mr. Prescott used her as an example, he burned her back with a hot rod right in front of everyone,” I told him.

Lopez nodded, looking horrified. He quickly took a deep breath and composed himself, “alright, may I ask about your relationship with the other victim, Danyol Malachi Williamson?” he asked, “how long have you known him?”

I nodded, “Dannii and I have known each other since we were in seventh grade, he was dating my girlfriend until a month before RaeLynn and I started dating,” I explained, “he and I weren’t exactly close until we started at camp though, that is when we started to bond,” I added.

“Now, can you recall last night? Any of the events?” Lopaz asked.

I nodded as I took a deep breath, “Danni, Saige and I snuck out of our cabins late last night, we met in a spot about a mile away from camp. We sat and started smoking and drinking. Dannii and I had a habit of doing this, it was the only way we thought we’d survive the summer. But yesterday, Dannii invited Saige to join us. Neither of us thought she’d backstab us,”  I explained, trying to keep my composure as I continued, “we soon saw flashlights in the distance and we tried to run but I am disabled so I can't run very easily. I was grabbed and dragged back to Mr. Prescott's cabin. Where he told me that he needed to try a new way of ‘breaking’ me,” I said.

Lopez nodded, “what way did he mean?” He asked me.

“He meant raping me. He blindfolded and tied me up which I stated that my parents would be pissed if he did anything to me, he then smacked me and told me that my parents signed a waiver, before I heard him take his belt and pants off… then he… assaulted me for a while before I passed out,” I explained, “and I woke up this morning in my cabin,” 

Lopez nodded, “how did you get away from the camp? Who picked you up?” He asked me.

“My older brother, Ethan Edmundo Valentino Rodriguez. I snuck my phone to the shower rooms and called him while I locked myself in the shower rooms. He answered after the second ring, he always answered my calls. He promised before I arrived at camp that he would come get me if I needed help,” I explained, “I didn't need to tell him what happened, I just told him that I needed help and then he told me to pack my bags, get any of my friends, and run. Which I did, I found Dannii and told him to pack my bags and be ready for my text message. Then earlier this afternoon, Ethan messaged me, so I messaged Dannii and we ran to the woods. We found Ethan and his car, we got into the car and he drove us directly to the hospital because he saw how badly we were bruised u[p,” I told him, being honest and forthcoming.

Lopez nodded, “thank you, Valentina. I will need to ask you to write all of that down for a written statement,” he told me, handing me a pen and a couple pages of notebook paper. He turned the recorder off then he got up and left me to write my statement while I wrote everything word for word what I told Lopez. 

When I finished, I got up and handed the papers to Lopez and went back to Danyol, sitting next to his bed again, “are you ok, Dannii?” I asked him.

“I want this to be over with…” Danyol mumbled to me as he looked at me, having such a broken look in his eyes, “I’m so tired…”

I nodded, “I know, let me go get someone to see if you’re able to get some rest,” I told him as I stood up and went to ask a doctor.

[natdeandar]

My niece broke up with her boyfriend about a month ago due infidelity, she called me crying that day and the following days she got really ill due depression, lost a lot of weight and got sick. Her mom (my sister) sent her over Mexico City (where I live, they live in a different town about 6 hours away from here), the past 3 weeks I’ve been spoiling her so bad and trying to make her feel better and to forget that bad experience, I also felt bad because I liked that guy, he was very nice but he’s a man nonetheless.

Today we were having Christmas dinner and watching Christmas movies when he called (I didn’t know that was him) so I stopped the movie and went to the kitchen to do some dishes while she took that call, a few moments later she gave me the phone and still didn’t know that was him and he wished me Happy Christmas, my blood went cold and of course my stomach squeezed due anger, to remember her crying and see ting her sick, I wished him a merry Christmas as well and passed back the phone, then she left to take her call in privacy.

Came back to finish the movie and she was already done, so she said “ok, you can reprehend me now”, I looked at her and said nothing, just kept watching the movie. Held myself from saying something that could hurt her but I just couldn’t stay, so went outside to have a smoke.

Then back to finish the movie but none of us said anything else. When we finished it, I asked her if she wanted to see something else and she said no, so I turned the tv off.

Finally decided to break the silence and said “It’s up to you if you want to get back together with him but don’t you ever do that thing to me, to pass me the phone without notice”, she said nothing, so I interpreted her silence and better turned to try to have some sleep… of course I can’t, it’s Christmas and we’re not talking and I’m sad and upset and she’s not talking to me…

Fucking great Christmas night…

[alba8688]

Chapter 17

Word count:5020

Eddies pov

I was laying down in bed with Dani. We both had fallen asleep after we arrived. We were both pretty tired and my poor Dani felt like shit after drinking the whole bottle of tequila last night. I honestly didn't know how she was able to wake up This morning like nothing ever happened. I mean I know I couldn't .Fuck I would have still be in bed now if I had drunk all of that .

Suddenly I had the sudden urge to piss but Dani was wrapped around me like a baby koala .

I gave her gentle kisses on her forehead to see if she would wake up but no that made her hug me even tighter squeezing my bladder.

Jesus Christ I was about to piss in the bed .

"Sweetheart ." I whisper sweetly in her ear.

"Hmmm." She hum sleepily

"As much as I love this, I really need to use the restroom." I tell her

She just turned the other way, setting me free .

I got up quietly so as not to make any noise in case she still wanted to sleep.

I tip toe to the restroom and glance back to see her sleeping face down her beautiful ass in view.

“Fuck.” I groaned maybe I should go back to bed I told myself .But no ny bladder had another idea..I glance once more at Dani seeing her naked in the bed ,We had fallen asleep naked since we had some fun before the nap .

If you know what I mean .

"What a beautiful view ." I heard Dani say in her sleepy getting me out of my dirty thoughts ,but her voice sounded so sexy.I glance once more to look at Dani who was now cover with the blanket .

I look out the window and Dani was right Indeed it was,we had a  beautiful view of New York.

I walked in the restroom and this was the fanciest shit I had ever seen.

There was no sink it was a fucking flat surface where the fuck did the water go?

I worried about that later now I really had to piss .

After I was done I started looking around in the restroom. It was bigger than mine back at home.I think it was higher than my own damn room probably my trailer fit inside this restroom.

I wonder if the apartment belonged to Dani or  did she just rent it ?

What the fuck did she do ?

I thought to myself .

Maybe she was in the mafia .

While I was in the restroom I got distracted with the sink so I started messing with it,But then I heard the doorbell ring .

I wonder who it was ?

I mean no one knew we were here.

I didn't pay much attention. So I kept playing with the sink .The water wouldn't spill anywhere it was actually going somewhere I spotted an opening hiding .

Once I was done messing With the sink I went back to the room the bathroom was connected to the room and I was glad for that because I was butt naked walking around.

Free balling and it felt good .I mean there was a huge window with the view of New York but I mean know one can see all the way up here unless the person that cleans the windows sees me but I don’t think anyone comes all the way up here ..

Ok now I got myself scared,because I’m in a tall building at the very top it was too high fuck I hate high places ..

I wish I was in the ground well technically iam but in a building that’s far high in the sky and the clouds can be seen through the window .

“Jesus Christ !!” I said to myself and sat down in the bed trying to calm myself .

After I calm down I got some clothes from the luggage to wear and opened the door slightly. I didn't know who was there .And knew Dani had gone to open the door because she wasn’t here .

So I walk out the door closing the door to the room slowly .as I was getting closer to the living room I heard whispering and some loud talking. It sounded like a male voice and Dani arguing .At least that’s what it sounded like to me .

I didn't want to be eavesdropping but Dani sounded upset. It sounded like she was crying .

I walked slowly towards the living room and I saw who the voice belonged to. It was Liam .

How the fuck did he know where we were ?

I stood by the kitchen waiting for the moment to walk over ..

"My dad is already coming up the elevator with Nathan ." He whisper to Dani and she started sobbing

Who the fuck was Nathan ?

"Are you being serious right now?? Nathan is here." She cried but she was smiling as well like she was happy .They were happy tears.Not sad tears .

Even Liam was crying.

"Yes ,hey is my first time seeing him too but I promise you I'm doing my best so we can get him back ." Liam told Dani then pull her for a hug .Who was Nathan? And why haven't they seen him?

What the fuck was going on here ?

What do they mean ?

Im so confused right now?

And without thinking I spoke .

"Who's Nathan ?" I ask both Liam and Dani,they both turn to look at me with shock expressions when they heard my voice .

Suddenly the doorbell rang

“Im sorry .” Dani told me and I went to open the door .Because Dani and Liam froze in place .

When I open the door An older man that looks like Liam im guessing his father was standing in The front door .

"Is Liam here ?" He ask me.

I just nod and move to the side to let him walk in a small boy around 5 or 6 walk shyly on back of him looking around the apartment .He was wearing a backpack .

Dani kept her eyes on me then her eyes went down to the small boy who ran up to Her and Liam .

"Mommy!!! Daddy !!" He shouted jumping into Dani's arm .

“Mommy?Daddy?” I whisper ..

I close the door behind me and lean against the door trying to process what the fuck was going on .

"Mommy?"

Dani's pov

I was feeling much better now after that nap the headache was gone .Eddie had gotten me some Tylenol and that help a lot.

But Now I need some food in my body .

I watch as Eddie walk butt naked to the restroom

"What a beautiful view ." I say looking at Eddie's ass .

He did have a nice ass.

I lay in bed smiling like a schoolgirl remembering how Eddie made love To me a few hours ago .

The way he touched me ,the way he kissed my lips ,my neck I smiled and bit my lip giggling softly , Eddie made me feel things I had never felt before, not even with Liam who was my first love .

I waited patiently for Eddie to get out of the restroom. But I kept hearing the sink water running. He must be playing or trying to figure out how it works because I know I was like that the first time I saw it .

Then the doorbell rang. I wonder who it was, I got up to get dressed that I was completely naked .I put on the same clothes I was  wearing  when I got here .I walk out the room still sleepy as fuck and hungry now .

I wonder what was taking Eddie so long ?

The doorbell rang once again "I'm going I'm going !!"I shouted, I opened the door and before I could see who it was They pushed the door open and Liam walked in he had tears on his eyes .

"Liam you can't just walk in like you own the place?" I whisper, I didn't want Eddie to hear he was here .I know how much he hates Liam.

"I'm sorry ." He whisper back

"What are you doing here ?"

"I got another lawyer, the other one was working for my mom ,my mother was paying him for us never to win custody of Nathan back ." He sob

"What do you mean ?"I felt the blood inside of me boil by this confession

Flashback

"Liam,Dani !!" Liam's mother walks in with a Manila envelope in her hand .

"Yes mother, what is it ?" Liam said annoyed

"I brought the paperwork for the apartment you guys were looking at ." She said excitedly holding the envelope up .

"Really !!" I ran out excitedly from

Nathan's room we were playing with his little drum set my mother had gotten for him for Christmas .

She wasn't talking about the apartment that night. She tricked us by making us sign the papers for what we thought it was the apartment Liam and I had been wanting so bad and it was so hard to get .

She didn't let us read the paperwork. She even had the audacity to say that we didn't trust her .

So Liam and I signed the papers and the next morning we had child protective services at our door taking Nathan away from us because we weren't  good parents and some other shit that didn't make sense .

What we had signed were papers to pass custody to Liam's mother.

That was a year ago .

Liam and I had Nathan when we were both 17 .

My mother was disappointed at first because she always wanted me to go to college but I prove to her wrong that even though having a kid I was able to go To college.

I remember taking Nathan with me to some of my classes. Whenever Liam didn't have classes he would stay with him at home and vice versa .

Liam's parents gave us both a job at the family company and I had no idea what the fuck they did and not knowing that they where behind all the things that happen in Hawkins .

But I wasn't gonna find out about this until I was 21 before Going back to Hawkins.

But still I never  did try to figure out what was happening because I was a teen in college trying to support her son .

Plus the pay was really ,really good .

So I never ask what they did and for me being just a secretary/assistant for Liam's mother and father the pay was damn good .

I was guessing the pay was good because they were Liam's parents because I don't think they would pay a secretary/assistant as much as they would pay me..

It started getting bad In the office ,Liam's mother was taking advantage of me especially because she had Nathan she never let us see him .

It got to the point where they wanted me to go undercover in Hawkins. The only reason I accepted was because she promised us she would let us see Nathan.

But I ended up not going because the job I needed to do was done by someone else .

Liams's mother ,she always lied. It got to a point where she wanted me to spy on my brother and his friend but I couldn't do that and that's when I found out who they were and what they did.

They were using Hawkins as a testing site for their weird experiments.

That's how they open the gates to the upside down.

That's when I decided to leave. I didn't want to be part of their weird shit.

That's how I was able to save enough money from that job. Then Liam and I came up with this crazy idea of an app to help students with their homework.And that's where I'm getting the money now from my second job .

Liam and I started this app thing before we even separated .It helps students with their homework. They could literally take a picture of the homework and it will give them the answers.

Liam and I came with that idea when we were both struggling with our math classes in college .

So we wanted to do something to help kids out who were struggling like us .

But we had stopped with our idea when we lost Nathan. We had no strength to do anything anymore. I don't know how we even graduated .

Liam's mother,She Only let us see Nathan by FaceTime.Liam became angry all the time it got to a point where Liam was always drunk every single day. It was the same thing with him fighting for stupid things ,him blaming me for what happened and then the cheating started .

And after I graduated and left him when I saw him with the girl in our bed I left without telling him anything.I didn't even look back and that's when I met Eddie at The hideout those chocolate brown eyes that mesmerized me the first time I saw them .And now here I am , having lied to him about Nathan.

Then Liam came back telling me that he had launched the app in the AppStore and it had gained a lot of popularity.

That's the reason we were seeing each other because he had me signing paperwork for my share of the money for the app.He also threatened me if I didn't go on these  stupid dates he would tell everyone about Eddie .

Well there you go, that's how I was able to afford this trip and this apartment.From the save money from my old job and the app that both Liam and I have.Which was a big success.

Now back to the present.

My eyes where on Eddie when Nathan jump

Into my arms .I hugged Nate so tightly, not being able to see him for a whole year had broken my heart .I missed my son so much he was always in my head every single day .I would FaceTime him sometimes when I was working but only for like 5 minutes and now I had him in my arms and I didn't know for how long .I didn’t want to let him go .

I couldn’t let him go now that we had him here .

"Mommy I miss you ."Nathan said with tears in his eyes ,I wiped his tears with my hand”I miss you too Daddy ."he hiccup ,it broke my heart seeing my son and not being able to hold him like this every single day .every time I saw a mom with her son it would bring me to tears .

My baby ,He had grown up so much since we last saw him ,my baby was already turning 6 next year and I wish I could Be there to celebrate with him. I already miss  one birthday. I wasn't gonna miss another one I was going to fight for him.No matter what it took.

Nate turned to look at Liam who was now crying as well.

"We can't be here for a long time ." Liam's dad said looking at his phone "we have to

Leave in a few minutes ." he said .

I hugged Nathan tightly. I didn't want to let go of him .

"Come on Nate we have to leave ." Liam's father told Nathan but he shook his head no "dad please let him stay ." Liam begged, "I'm sorry son ." He said looking at both of us and picking up Nathan who started crying and screaming for Liam

And me ,my heart broke into a million pieces .

“Mommy!!”

“Daddy!!”

Nate shouted,

“Nate ,I love you baby !”i choke on my words .

I watch my son and his grandfather walk out the apartment with Nathan screaming for us.It broke me so bad .

I sat on the couch with my hands on my face .

I started sobbing hysterically. I felt someone pull me in for a hug and I recognized that scent as soon as he hugged me .

"I'm sorry Baby I promise I was gonna tell you today ." I sob "it's ok sweetheart." He cooed he sat next to me picking me up to sit in his lap

He cup my face making me look at him.

“You don’t have to be sorry about anything ,you understand.” He peck my lips .

“I’m sorry .” I said once again”That’s my son Eddie .” I cried into his arms “they took my son away .”

“Shhh it’s ok baby .” Eddie whispered sweet nothings to me trying to calm me down .I could

Hear Liam crying in the couch close by .We shared the same pain and it suck so bad .

“Hey baby look at me .” Eddie cup my face

"I don't care what we have to do but you and Liam are getting your son back I promise you that baby ,I might know a really Good lawyer ." He tells me looking at me And then Liam

"You're not mad at me ?" I ask

Eddie .

"No sweetheart im not i-i just don't understand why you never told me im confused but im not mad i promised."

"I'm sorry Eddie ."I didn't deserve Eddie he didn't argue or gave me shit about Nathan he just sat next to me and hugged me telling everything was going to be fine.

Time skip

Eddie’s pov

Today was New Year's Eve Dani and I were going to a New Year's party at Liam's parents house .

The only reason I agreed was because Dani was gonna be able to spend time with Nathan .

Liam had gone to talk to his mother that same day when I met Nate Dani’s son and she agreed but only if they were being supervised .

Dani told me everything that had happened with Nathan and how she tricked them into signing the lease to the apartment they wanted but in reality it was custody papers to pass Nathan to Liam's mother.

I don’t know how That lady had the heart to do that to her own son .

I could never do that to anyone.

Dani has been asking me if I was upset about her not telling me she had a son .But actually I'm not. I'm just kind of sad that she never told me about him .I thought she would trust me with something like this but I understand her.I mean how could she know we where going to be something serious I understand not introducing me to Nate yet .But still it did hurt me a little but I wasn’t blaming her ..

But she did tell me that she wanted to wait until we were both serious about our relationship for him to meet me and that I understand I wouldn't want my son or daughter just to meet some random person I was dating .I would want to wait until we were both in a more serious relationship.And today was that day that I was meeting Nate ,and to be honest I was pretty nervous .I know he is just a 5yr old but I wanted to make a good impression .I mean I was meeting my girlfriend’s son.

Girlfriend I like that .

So Right now we were on our way to Liam's parents penthouse where they were having the party .Dani looked pretty nervous  as well and she kept bouncing her leg up and down .I placed my hand on her thigh and she turned to look at me and pecked my cheek .She looks beautiful. She always looks beautiful with whatever she wears .Dani had chosen  The clothes for me to wear today. I mean I liked it because it was black .

As we arrived at the penthouse I looked out the window of the car and saw the tall building ,Dani told me that they lived at the very top and holy shit was it tall .

I got down first holding the door open for Dani .

She took my hand and we both walked together inside and into the lobby where the elevators were.I saw her press floor 129th

"This building has 129 floors !!" I ask shockingly

"Yes and it is ridiculously expensive ." Dani tells me..

Now I was getting scared that the building was gonna fall or something .Dani told me it was called the Central Park Tower .

As the elevator door opens we walk out to a hall full of people ,we make our way through all of them to the front door and walk inside looking for Liam.

Yes Liam I was trying to  bear with him just For Dani even though I couldn't stand that dude .

We looked around for a few minutes until we found him on the balcony alone .

"Liam ." Dani call for him

He turn around his eyes glazed and he look like he was drinking

"My mom, she lied ." He said softly taking a sip of his drink

"What do you mean?" I ask looking at Dani who had a blank expression and she seem she was about to cry

"Where's Nathan ?" Dani asked looking around frantically and I could already see the tears forming in her eyes .And it hurt me to think that Liam's mother lied to them again and Nathan wasn't here tonight .

I wish I was able to do something ,no parent should be suffering like this. I know I hated Liam for other reasons but I could see his pain .

"He is not here ,I-I look in every room in this damn penthouse!!"he shouts and drinks the last of his drink and walks to the near table and pours  more of whatever he is drinking into his cup .

"A-are you sure ?" Dani stutters

"Yes ,Dani I'm sure my mother is a lying bitch !!!" He shouted again, drinking the whole contents of his drink, then sending the glass cup flying and shattering on the balcony floor.

Dani jumps a little and gets closer to me ,I hug her and pull her closer to me kissing her forehead and she starts crying. Her head is on my chest and I could feel her tears pouring and wetting my shirt but I don't care .

I really wish I could help her get

Her son  back and I don't understand what's wrong with that lady and why she had to take Nathan away from Liam and Dani .

The sliding door to the balcony suddenly opens and we all turn to see Liam's dad and Nathan who he ran fast to Dani's arms .

She pick him up and spin him around ..

"Hey baby ." She coos I move to the side to give Dani some alone time with Nathan .Liam rushes over to Dani and Hugs them both and I could hear him crying as well.The pain they must be feeling not being able to have their son with them.

Liam's father stands in the doorway looking everywhere.Probably making sure that the bitch of his wife wouldn’t see us or come over this way .

"Hey, I want you to meet someone." I hear Dani tell the boy in her arms.

Dani sets Nathan down and she points to me then Dani signals me to come over but i myself im nervous as fuck and don’t know what to do now .

How do I introduce myself to a 5yr old “like hey little dude I’m your mom’s boyfriend by the way she is my teacher .” Jesus Christ I’m nervous ..

I mean look at me I'm not a father material let alone kids don't like me for the way I dressed.

I get closer to Liam and Dani and kneel down infront of Nathan who smiles at me .

"Are you a rockstar?" He ask me making me smile .

"No,maybe one day ." I respond giving the big Munson smile ..

"This is Eddie ." Dani tells him

"Hi Eddie, I'm Nathan ." The little boy says extending his tiny hand,. I take it and shake it he looks at his hand then wipes it on his jeans..

Maybe my hand was sweaty?

"Nice to meet you ." I bowed down and I heard him giggle.

But I noticed he doesn't like looking me in the eye but I don't say anything .His eyes wander around looking at his surroundings.But never at me.

I also notice he doesn’t like to be touched and he wears some type of headphones that reduce noise ..

I don’t mention any of this to Dani nor Liam I just let them enjoy their time with their son who they haven’t seen in a year .

Liam's dad lets us stay with Nathan while he distracts his wife ,Nathan was supposed to be with his nanny .But his grandpa told her to take the day off and be with her family ..

I sit in the lawn chair looking at Liam and Dani take like a million pictures with Liam. They surprise when They wanted to included me.

I was glad they got to spend some time with their son .

Suddenly the fireworks show starts

Signaling the new year .

Dani and Liam Lean to kiss Nathan on his forehead.

"Daddy pick me up ." I hear Nathan say and Liam picks him Up and Nathan seems really excited looking at the fireworks.He is still wearing his noise reduction headphones ..I watch the little boy smiles looking up the fireworks display .

"Happy new years baby "Dani leans in and pecks my lips she looks at me and smiles "Thank you for being the one part of my year that wasn't bad .The part that never let me down .The part that made me keep going .The part that got me through these months i cant Thank you enough I Love You Eddie ." I already have tears in my eyes and I'm bawling. I hug her tightly. I can't believe I had such a wonderful woman by my side .

Right now in this moment I had totally forgotten she was my teacher .All I wanted was to spend the rest of my life with her and it was something that scared me because I never believed in marriage and With Dani I want to marry her and do all the romantic shit couples do when they are in love that really scares me .

I pull away and cup her face pecking her lips "I love you so much sweetheart thank you for coming into my life ,for actually making me smile and laugh ,for being so understanding and loving me and for caring so much for me and my uncle I love you so much Danielle Henderson and you make me the happiest man alive and now I don't know if I could live another day without you or wake up without you in bed ." I smile and peck her lips

"Are you proposing to me Munson?" She teases and I almost choked on my saliva and she laughs

"I'm just messing with you ." She says softly but I take a deep breath in and gulp "what I'm saying is that I promise you that one day I'll have enough money to Give you a ring and put it in this finger ." I grab her left hand and point to her ring finger "I-I never believe in marriage but with you Is different ." I reach into my jacket pocket and get out a matching ring like the one I have on my right hand, the mood ring .

Dani gasp and covers her mouth her eyes glazed

"With this ring I promise you that one day I'll make you my wife and make you the happiest girl. I promise you to be the best Husband ." I said it , I finally said What I promised myself I wasn't gonna do .And now here I was promising Dani that one day I was gonna marry her .

"Eddie ." She gasps, pulling me in a hug "I love you ."she whispers "I love you too Happy new years ." I whisper back before pecking her lips .

I know this year was going to be my year ,I was going to graduate and finally be able to be with Dani and we were going to fight to get her son back .

We stayed a little bit longer on the balcony away from everyone else spending time with Nathan .

To my surprise Liam wasn't that bad of a guy but still I had my eye on him .Around 1am Nathan had fallen asleep in Liam's arms.

But before going to sleep he made us promise him we won't take forever to see him again .

I couldn't have ask for a better New year I got to spend it with the love of my life and for the first time in months we got to go out together as a couple and I couldn't be happier.Dani and Liam was sad when it got time for Nate to leave it broke my heart watching Dani cry.I wish I could do something to stop the pain she was feeling now I understand why she would cry at nights why she didn’t want to be alone .every thing made sense now ,she missed her son.

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the last couple of days Dani and been in the apartment not wanting to go out even though we were in New York we We were stuck in the room .We would go out to eat and stuff like that but I didn’t want Dani too spend too much on me I mean come on she already paid for this trip .

Tonight will be the first night we go out to a party

And I was glad we did because Dani gets to spend time With Nathan .And I was gonna do everything in my power to help her get her son back .

I’m going to have to call Robin Tonight or later in the morning to ask to talk to her dad ,he was the really good layer I knew .He has help me so much with my legal stuff but I was nervous because I don’t know what I was going to tell them .As to why I’m helping Dani our history teacher

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