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trashworldblog · 2 years

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HEY YOU! YEAH, YOU! do you have something to talk about that youre super excited for? NOWS YOUR CHANCE!!

aka i want to listen to something and youtube isnt giving me any video essays so i would like to hear about friendsdays :D

ur free to save this ask for another day OR answer it with whatevers on your mind! :D

hellll yeahhhh

i love talking about the thoughts bumpin around my noggin

i just had my first week of classes so im mostly thinkin of those and the 2 im excited about are my rethinking meuseums class and a film class on chinese culture and history.

so i took this museum class cus 1) i had to fulfill credits, and 2) i LOVE meuseums. ive traveled a lot, and ive visited a ton of meusums, from the acropolis meuseum in athens, greece, to the jolly green giant museum next to the jolly green giant statue in minnesota. i love reading little plauqes and learning about stuff, especially if its hands on or art.

but this class is super cool because 1) we get field trips!!! i thought my field trip days were over, but now i get to go to museums for free durring class!! 2) we get to talk about colonialism and how that influences how our museums currently operate. from their layout, lighting, showcases, accessibility, intractivity, and other ways the art, artififacts, knowledge, and creators are presented (or not presented).

ive always been intrested in history and shown how events have caused domino effects and colonialism has a huge effect on the world we live in, and meuseums is a specific instance of that that ive been exposed to, and i really want to learn how to unlearn the ideas that has imposed on me, and show me the choices they are making that influence my opinions without me even knowing. (for example my home art meuseum, the art institute, has all the european classic art and modern art on the top floor, while the asian, african, and photography (which has a large collection showcasing black, queer, and womans issues) are on the first floor and basement. and how the work on the top floor is very well light, while the other floors have dimmer lighting.) didn't even think about that, and I've been in the art institute over half a dozen times the past 2 years!

also a ton of other people in my class are also passionate about this stuff so its nice to know im not gonna be the only one who cares about this class :D

also!!! ive met someone who likes the ghoul boys! i was reading my unsolved book during break and they struck up a conversation about them with me! so thats super fun :)

my exploring chinese culture via film class is gonna be amazing too becuase i know thats a huge blindspot i have in knowing about the world and i really want to change that. so i get to explore and learn about that while also watching films. im hoping this class isnt too hard work wise (watching documentaries takes up alot of time i dont exactly have) but the professor seems to be understanding that we have our major classes to worry about. (also! she gave us snacks for chinese new year :D)

the class is discussion based (the class time, luckily i dont really have to do discussions online). and the people in my class have really good thoughts and ideas! we have some film majors so they give insight on how some stuff is shot, and some literature majors are really good at unpacking what was said and have a ton of interesting angles about the inner complexities between the family in the documentary.

i honestly was nervous i was gonna dominate the conversation becuase i had alot of ideas and thoughts to share, but a ton of other people spoke up so it was nice to have all of us sharing opinions and takeaways.

so that was my two classes im taking for my liberal arts education. they arent for my major or minor but i appreciate them so much becuase i love learning about a ton of different topics, and i probably wont be able to be in an environment like this again so im making the most of it!! im hoping to get into learning about queer history soon, but because this is an arts school, that class fills up super quickly. picking my history class after that is gonna be stressful because theres so many good options 😰 womans history? the development of cities?? us history?? if i didn't have my ux minor, id think about minoring in history. There's so much to learn, lmao

#beth likes to talk #exposing myself as a huge fucking nerrrrdddd #im on this webbed site to be fair what else did you expect?

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ignorancelive · 3 years

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FINALLY DOING ALL MY TAG GAMES AAAA IM SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG TO DO THESE

@whitedeadflower | pick my favourite albums for bill clinton to enjoy

not necessarily my favorites but i always pick the same 5 albums for these so i just put 4 albums i like a lot and have been listening to more recently <3

@opossuwu | 15 questions

1. What is the first song you remember hearing?

english songs: either learn to fly by foo fighters or human by the killers, i really cannot remember which one but it was around the same time im pretty sure

spanish songs: ALL the songs on/by rebelde, my sister was super into it when i was a baby so i heard so many of their songs right as i was learning to become a human

2. What is the first band you got into?

mmmmmmm probably one direction? if we’re not counting rebelde lol

3. Do you collect music on any physical format?

i collect almost all cds i know and like on CD and have recently started buying vinyl but i think im only going to get albums i really like on it since its more expensive

4. What is your favourite piece of music-related memorabilia/merchandise?

SO many things. i really like my nirvana and red hot chili peppers shirts because they make me feel cute! im also IN LOVE with the in utero angel sticker i bought on redbubble that has a transparent border so its JUST the angel, i stuck it on my record player and i love it so so much

5. What is your favourite concert you've been to?

i have not been to a concert yet :/ i went to a little student festival thing my university hosted for us and saw hunny + hayley kiyoko which was pretty neat

6. If you could see one artist (or band) who is no longer alive in concert, who would it be?

nirvana :(

7. Have you met any musicians?

i went to a cd signing for little mix when i was like 12-13 ish but thats the closest ive gotten lol

8. What is your go-to song/album when feeling sad?

i actually have a playlist of comfort songs to listen to when im sad, but i think the song i most consistently go to is encore by red hot chili peppers

9. What is your go-to song/album when feeling happy?

this one depends. probably hump de bump also by rhcp cause it SLAPS and always puts me in a better mood than when i started

10. What is one music-related documentary you love?

EYE only watched a few minutes of funky monks but im sure if i sat down to watch it now id love it. this is the worst question to ask me because i watch a ton of interviews on youtube so i cant even remember which ones were legit docus as opposed to just youtube vids so this question is gonna be basically unanswered. i do want to watch bob and the monster though

11. What is one concert DVD that you love?

i listen to it more as an album on spotify than watch it but Nirvana’s MTV Unplugged is so good

12. Do you prefer listening to playlists or full albums?

usually playlists! but occasionally ill play the albums i have on my player

13. Do you tend to listen to albums in order or on shuffle?

in order, shuffling them is rare

14. What is your favourite deep cut song by your favourite artist?

favorite artist is rhcp and honestly im? not fully sure. quixoticelixer slaps. and i like almost every song on im with you. but i think im gonna have to go with storm in a teacup cause i checked its streams and its not that popular </3

15. What is your favorite CD/vinyl/cassette that you own in terms of packaging?

THIS ONES SO HARD I LOVE PACKAGING DESIGNS. i love how rhcp’s im with you disc looks like because it has the track list on it but it doesnt look bad like other discs who do that do. booklet design i love vices and virtues by panic at the disco and american idiot by green day. idk what this would fall under but i also love how stadium arcadium’s booklet is held in the case and how when you take it out you see a picture of the band. and there are too many albums whose art i love so i cannot elaborate on that without making this 5xs longer lmao

@garbanz0 & @dailywilliams | top 5 songs ive had on repeat recently

according to spotify’s on repeat playlist:

but also according to my last.fm:

so basically red hot chili peppers own my ass

@badhe4d , @garbanz0 , & @catts-world | 10 songs you like, each by a different artist

uhhhhhhhhhhh

1. Monarchy of Roses - RHCP

2. Back and Forth - Foo Fighters

3. Heart of Glass - Blondie

4. Omission - John Frusciante and Josh Klinghoffer

5. Dance with Me - Sir, Please

6. Henrietta - The Fratellis

7. Breed - Nirvana

8. Mary - The Happy Fits

9. Girls and Boys - Blur

10. It’s All So Incredibly Loud - Glass Animals

@psychoticbreak | suppose you’re being sent to a deserted island for the rest of your life, and you can only choose 10 records to bring with you and those are the only albums you can listen to for the remainder of your life; what albums are they

oh GOD ok

1. in utero - nirvana

2. stadium arcadium - RHCP

3. nothing personal - all time low

4. red - taylor swift

5. after laughter - paramore

6. wasting light - foo fighters

7. im with you + im beside you if you count them as the same album - RHCP

8. so wrong its right - all time low

9. american idiot - green day

10. inside of emptiness - john frusciante

@mark-hoppuss | shuffle my playlist and list the first ten songs that come up

1. New Invention - I Don’t Know How But They Found Me

2. Thanks to You - All Time Low

3. Por Que Me Haces Llorar? - Juan Gabriel

4. Torture Me - Red Hot Chili Peppers

5. Speak Now - Taylor Swift

6. Prayer of the Refugee - Rise Against

7. Going Away to College - blink-182

8. Time-Bomb - All Time Low

9. DNA. - Kendrick Lamar

10. Heaven is a Place on Earth - Belinda Carlisle

@frafru1 , @whitedeadflower , & @psychoticbreak | make a playlist with the letters of my name

Lithium by Nirvana

Universally Speaking by RHCP

Pool by Paramore

Eye Opener by Dot Hacker

@badhe4d | post my lock screen, the last song I listened to and the last picture I saved on my phone

friends name blocked out but. an interesting screenshot. yes i have flea’s tweet notifs on and use twitter for absolutely nothing else. yes i have email notifs on

if screenshots count:

if they DONT count and you mean purely just saving:

my icon and boyfriend <3

@badhe4d | 7 questions to get to know me better

three ships: not romantically because i dont believe in shipping irl people but i love everyone in rhcp’s gay polycule energy. specifically john and anthony in the 80s. romantically tho mickey and ian in shameless. i dont think i have a third one? me and my bisexual mutuals <3

last song: i shuffled a ton of songs and skipped for some of these tags but before those i was listening to the album weird kids by we are the in crowd as a tbt, specifically the song manners

last movie: inside by bo burnham but if you dont count that, hereditary

currently watching: it is very difficult for me to watch shows so im currently just watching youtube lol

currently reading: nothing. i cannot read :( bc of attention issues not bc im illiterate

currently consuming: banana bread :3

currently craving: RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS RELEASE YOUR FUCKING ALBUM CHALLENGE

@the-replacemints | top 10 favorite debut albums

NOT in order. also it took way too long to come up with this list lol

1. Concentrate - The Happy Fits

2. So Wrong It’s Right - All Time Low

3. SOUR - Olivia Rodrigo

4. Strange Desire - Bleachers

5. RAZZMATAZZ - I Dont Know How But They Found Me

6. Hot Fuss - The Killers

7. Vampire Weekend - Vampire Weekend

8. Bleach - Nirvana

9. Costello Music - The Fratellis

10. WALK THE MOON - Walk The Moon

because theres so many of these im not gonna tag people for each individual prompt but if you tagged me in one of these i tag you in whichever ones you wanna do <3

#IT TOOK ME TWO HOURS TO FINISH THESE #tag games

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brelione · 4 years

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Endgame(Kiara Carrera X Reader)

Request:with kie with a like super rich kook SO and bringing them to meet the rest of the pogues and they all expect to hate them but then not

Kiara had never liked you.Well, she had never reallly met you.She kind of just assumed you were a bitch.You were what Sarah Cameron thought she was, you came from a ridiculously rich family.

Your mother was a brain surgeon and your father was a famous actor so that obviously meant that you were ridiculously rich.Kie had done a lot of research on you, finding your name on your fathers wikipedia page and from there finding your blog where you posted videos of him behind the scenes and personal interviews with him on your youtube channel.

She was up for 16 hours straight watching all of your videos, memorising your intro song.You had a good one million subscribers, posting a lot of blogs and videos showing things that you had found on the beach.She would blush and giggle at your little comments.

“Hey, beautiful people!Its your bitch and today im gonna show you guys my new surf board because my old one got broke on an accident.I mean, my wrist also broke so if you were gonna comment on it, trust me.I definitely noticed.So before I get into this video I just want to talk about mental health really quickly.”You paused to take in a quick breath, speaking a bit too fast.

Theres a new suicide game and its getting across social media really quick so please do me a favor and stay safe.It doesnt matter what the problem is now, its only temporary and suicide is a permanent solution.I linked some suicide hotlines and free therapy sources in the description so please just keep yourselves healthy and happy for me, okay?Okay, cool.”You licked your lips, calming down from the quick rant.

“Also drink some fucking water!Its hot out and I almost passed out the other day and make sure you get a snack because this video is already fifteen minutes long and im probably gonna be ranting for another hour.”You grinned at the camera.

Kiara bit into a carrot stick, her knees on her chest as she sat in the recliner of her living room. “Watching another documentary?”Her mother asked, noticing that her daughter hadnt moved in hours.Kie shrugged, focusing on you as you dropped your surfboard. “This is exactly how I broke the first one-fuck!”You laughed, picking it back up.

Eventually the boys started to spam her phone, interrupting her binge watching.She left her house with a sigh, walking out to the dock and waiting for the pogues.Thats when she heard your voice.It was quiet as you walked, wearing white jeans and a light blue button up shirt.

“So you guys always ask me to show you the beach that I find all of my seashells at so thats what we’re-”You paused, looking over to Kiara.She quickly looked away, pretending to be busy on your phone. “Sorry guys, I just saw a really pretty girl.”You whispered to your phone, continuing your walk.

From there she finally worked up the courage to talk to you.She couldnt simply message you on instagram, you had hundreds of thousands of followers so her dm would get lost with all the others.

So she found her prettiest outfit and walked to your house, knocking on the door.You looked at her through the camera of your doorbell, knowing that you had seen her before.You set down your lap top as you were editing, going to answer the door.

“Hi...um...hi.”She laughed, not planning on getting this far. “Hi, um...what’s up?”You cringed at your words. “Nothing much.I just live a block away and I just thought id say hi...im sorry.”She laughed again, becoming more anxious.

“Its fine!So um...I dont know, do you wanna maybe hang out sometime?”You asked, leaning against your doorway.She licked her lips, trying her best not to blush. “Yeah, yeah ok.Um...could I get your number?”She asked, holding her phone.

You nodded, giving her your phone number and telling her to text you whenever.Once the door was closed and she had left you were a squealing mess on your couch, recording.

“So you guys know that pretty girl I was talking about that I saw?Yeah so I just got her number and im low key freaking out-oh god lets just hope she doesnt watch my channel!”You laughed before finishing the editing process, uploading it to youtube.

Kiara got the notification while she was washing her face, watching the video and absolutely losing her mind.She buried her face in her pillow, squealing before deciding to text you.

Unknown number:hey!Its Kiara.Do you wanna hang out tomorrow?

You smiled, letting out a sigh.You screenshotted it, knowing that it would be fun to look back at in the future.

You:Sounds good!Do you want to come over and we can get coffee or lunch or something?

Kie:Okay!!12?

You:Works for me :)

Kie:Okay!

You were anxious the whole night, trying to figure out what to wear.You couldnt decide, posting a poll on your instagram.They decided that you’d be wearing a dark green romper and sandals.You went to bed early since you’d have to wake up before afternoon, heart pounding.

When you woke up it was eleven and you were already behind, hopping in the shower quickly, drying your hair and brushing it, trying to get it to a soft texture.You didnt want to look like you were trying too hard, deciding not to use all of the hair products you’d usually put in your hair before a meeting or a date.

You got into your outfit quickly, pinning your pin back with bobby pins so you could moisturize your face, grabbing your box of beads and parting your hair.You braided the two groups of hair that framed your face, intertwining the beads along the way, securing it with an elastic.

You sighed, twisting a golden flower ring onto your pinkie before going down stairs to sit in your large living room, waiting for Kiara.Your doorbell alerted you to motion outside, getting excited when you saw Kiara walking up to your front door.

She was wearing a pink tube top, light washed jeans with her hair half up and half down, bracelets hugging her wrists.You got up, answering the door the second she rung the bell. “Hi.”You smiled, phone in your pocket.

“Hi.”She smiled back, looking up and down at you.The two of you got into your car, you driving as you started your drive to a cafe. “So how are you?”You asked, realising you knew nothing about her. “Im good, what about you?”She asked, hands in her lap. “I was up all night editing which obviously sucked but you know, it is what it is.”You replied, biting your lip.

She smiled, knowing she’d end up watching the video. “Editing what?Like an edits account on instagram?”She asked, cringing at how stupid it sounded.You shook your head, slowing down once you got to the main road, searching for a parking spot.

“No, I have a youtube channel.I kind of just post random shit and hope for the best.”You answered, pulling up next to the cafe.She nodded, turning to look at you. “That’s cool, what kind of stuff do you post?”She asked, resting her chain against her palm.

You bit your lip, glancing over at the cafe. “I post a lot of interviews and random videos of my dad and sometimes he’ll take me to a set with him and i’ll take videos with the cast.I got to meet Scarlet Johannson so thats cool.”You replied, unbuckling your seatbelt.She grinned.

“Thats fucking awesome-were they in a movie together?”She asked, wanting to hear you talk more. “A show thats coming to Netflix soon, its kind of like a murder mystery meets greek mythology and my dad plays Zeus.We should watch it together.”You answered.

The car was cool but you felt hot, probably because her eyes were focused on you.She nodded, liking the idea of hanging out with you more. “That’d be awesome.”The two of you went inside, the barista grinning at you.

She had always liked you and liked showing up in your vlogs when you came in to get your coffee with boba.She looked to the unknown girl beside you, a small pout on her face. “What can I get for you ladies?”She asked, already preparing your coffee.

“What do you want, Kie?”You asked, moving aside so she could see the menu. “Uhhh….whats a green frappe?”She asked, squinting at the menu. “Oh-its like a blended matcha latte with like mint and vanilla.It's really good.”You explained.

The two of you sat with your drinks, Kiara laughing as you stabbed the boba bubbles at the bottom of your cup. “You know whats cool?These straws are made of hemp plastic so its-”She cut you off before you could finish.

“Biodegradable?”She asked.You nodded, glad someone finally knew what you were talking about. “Yeah!And the company is awesome, they have like 10% of sales going to help the Amazon rain forests and another 10% going to help clean the ocean.”You smiled, taking a sip of coffee.

The afternoon had ended with the two of you on the beach, taking photos of eachother discretely while you finished your drinks, searching for sea glass and watching the sun set.Kiara was freaking out on the inside, knowing that she was pretty much dating a celebrity.

It didnt take long after that first day for her to start showing up in your videos.You held your camera as you two walked down the beach, her hand holding yours and twirling you every once in a while, flashing a smile to the camera.

“So we’re currently on our way to a place that Kie will not tell me about because shes rude.”You spoke, turning the camera to face you.Kiara simply laughed, placing her chin on your shoulder. “Uh...no its because im good at planning surprises.”She answered, grinning when you gasped.

Two surfboards were on the sand along with a blanket and a basket full of fruits, veggies and sandwiches.You cut the camera, giggling and pulling her into a kiss. “Love you.”She grinned, giggling.

“Love you too.”You replied, looking down at the boards.It didnt take long for the two of you to be in only your swimsuits, grabbing the boards and heading towards the water.You clipped the camera to your board, making sure it was secure before stating to film, catching a few good waves on camera before focusing more on Kie.

“There she is, showing off for you guys.”You zoomed in on Kiara as she rode the wave, twisting her body to get a beautiful spin on the dark blue wave.She disappeared under the water, resurfacing with a smile and hair on her face, swimming towards you.

“Did you see that?”She asked, a proud smirk tugging at her lips.You nodded. “How could I miss it?”You asked, earning an eye roll from your girlfriend. “Shut up.”She splashed you, letting out a loud laugh when you splashed back at her.

Turning off the camera, laying on your stomachs against your boards, holding hands so you wouldnt drift away from eachother.It was heaven. “So...ive been thinking lately.”She started, a nervous look on her face.

You raised an eyebrow, waiting for her to continue. “And I think I want you to meet my friends.”She tapped her fingernails against your surfboard, waiting anxiously for your answer.She had told the boys all about you.

About how you had a huge following on youtube, how your dad was an actor and how you lived in the biggest house on figure eight.She had tried her best to tell them that you werent like the others, that you were fantastic and humble.

But of course they didnt believer her and ‘would believe it when they saw it’.She knew that if she didnt end up introducing you to them sooner or later that she’d lost the chance to introduce you at all.

You nodded, considering it. “Yeah, okay.When?”You asked, hoping you’d at least have time to think about this. “Tomorrow.”She replied, wincing when you let out a small shout. “Tomorrow?Shit-Kie, im not ready!”You exclaimed, covering your mouth when you realised how loud you had been.

“Babe, chill.Let me pick out your outfit and it’ll be fine.”She insisted.You gave in, the two of you paddling back to the sand, wrapping up in your towels and sitting on the blanket, eating some cutie oranges.

She spent the night at your house, holding on tight to you even though the two of you were in a king sized bed and she had more than enough space to spread out like a starfish.

The morning came too fast, Kiara raiding your closet for something appropriate for the occasion, pleased when she came across a black bathing suit and a yellow shirt along with some jeans, tossing them at you.

“Babe, you gotta get up.”She told you, already dressed and ready to go.You groaned, finally getting up a few minutes later, slowly changing and not even bothering to pick up your pajamas.You were still sore from last night, stretching your limbs as you pulled the jeans up your body.The boys were spamming her phone, making her annoyed.

Dumb Blonde:Where are you guys

God:Are you bringing them with you

Trash Rat:Dont bring them with you

Trash Rat:The place is a mess

Trash Rat:Kie

Trash Rat:Kiara

Trash Rat:Kiara Madelyn Klark Carrera

God:Where are you guys

Dumb Blonde:Wait are they the one with the dad that was in that one movie

She ignored their texts, turning off her notifications and sending you a quick smile, promising to get you an iced coffee on the way.You were half asleep in the passengers seat until she handed you a french vanilla iced coffee, slowly becoming awake.

By the time you had finished your coffee she had pulled into John.B’s drive way, hand on your thigh in attempts to calm you down. “You’re gonna be fine, babe.Everyone likes you, they just havent met you yet.”She grinned, getting out of the car.

You squeezed her hand, following her into the house.The boys were all sitting on the couch, looking up once the two of you had entered.JJ immediately looked you up and down, raising an eyebrow.You felt a bit insecure, trying to figure out what he thought of you.

“This is (Y/N).(Y/N), these are the boys.Thats John.B, thats JJ and thats Pope.”She pointed to each of the boys.The tension in the room was ridiculous until Kiara pulled you into her lap, the boys looking between eachother. “So whats it like having a movie star as a dad?”JJ asked, the first one to speak up.

You bit your bottom lip, pulling at the skin on your hands. “umm...its really cool sometimes.Chris Hemsworth is a family friend so thats cool but like...I cant go anywhere with him when he’s home without getting followed around and there was this one teenage girl stalking him once and she was climbing our house and was watching me sleep.”You answered, relieved when you heard Pope chuckle.

“Wait, actually?Thats so scary.”He replied, the two of you beginning to calm down a bit.You, John.B and JJ were all conversating about Chris Hemsworth, all of them asking a lot of questions.

“Wait-who else have you met from the Avengers?”John.B asked. “I met Scarlet Johanson and Chris Evans.”You replied.Kiara smacked your leg. “You met Christ Evans and never told me?”She asked, outraged.

You rolled your eyes, pulling out your phone to show them the vlog that Chris had made an appearance in.Kiara was just confused as to why she had never seen it before you informed her that it was private.

“Ew-ignore my face.Just wait a few seconds.”You told them, the phone between the circle that had ended up forming. “Oh my god!Its Chris Evans!”JJ shouted, staring at the phone.Chris had leaned over your shoulder, saying a quick ‘hello’ to the camera before Scarlet stole it from you.

“This is Scarlet Johannson and I have decided to take over my new role as (Y/N)’s mom.Im sorry (Y/M/N) but they’re mine now.”She smiled.Her hair had been dyed a light blonde, red lipstick and light eyeshadow.

You had been freaking out the whole time. “Wait-will you ever see her again?”JJ asked.You hummed, sure that she’d be making an appearance for a Christmas Party. “Can you tell her I love her, please?”He asked, face red. “She reaches my vlogs-do you guys want to be in one?”You offered, remembering that you had your camera in your bag.

They all agreed, excited as you took out your camera, Kiara holding onto you. “So Kiara introduced me to her friends today and JJ has a special message for Scarlet.”You grinned, pointing the camera towards him. “Marry me, please.”He winked, giggling.

Pope flashed a peace sign at the camera, John.B sticking out his tongue and doing finger guns. “This is John.B and this is Pope, and then we have Kie as always.”You pointed the camera at her.She bit her lip, winking at the camera and making you laugh.

“Oh my god- what is this vlog.”You shook your head, turning off the camera.When you had posted the vlog that night you were spammed with comments demanding JJ’s instagram and of course you had to give the people what they wanted.

JJ was more than happy to have a ton of pretty girls hyping him up in his comments, Pope getting a lot of attention as well.Scarlet had made sure to let you know that she had watched it and to tell JJ that he was too young for her but she was flattered by the offer.But then your instagram was being spammed.You were being tagged in dozens of edits of you and Kie along with one of you and JJ.But the comments on that one were so funny.

Kieand(Y/N)4life:bruh no

(Y/N)officialfanpage:no <3

(Y/N)officialfanpage:Kiara and them are meant to be bb

Kiara(Y/L/N):Kiara and them are meant to be buddy

KIEANDYNAREENDGAME:uhhh isnt it confirmed that Kiara and (Y/N) are dating?

“They’re catching on.”You told Kie, sitting down on the bed and showing her all the things you were tagged in.She grinned, telling you to post and make it official. “You sure?”You asked.She nodded, fixing her hair as you got ready to take a photo, kissing her cheek. She bit her lip, watching you type.

We are endgame.

@poguestyleskye @jjtheangel @lovelyelinor @messuhp @outerbongs @copper-boom @httpstarkey @teenwaywardasgardian @drewswannabegirl @simonsbluee @jiaraendgame @khiaraaa-in-spacee @on-socks-off @abbiesthings @kindahavefeelingskindaheartless @i-love-scott-mccall

#kiara carrera #kiara x reader #obx kiara #kiara carrera x you #kiara carrera imagine #kiara

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seeyouinvalhalla · 3 years

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Cecil Hotel Documentary

So as a huge documentary buff, i love watching them. Anything from Serial Killer Documentarys to World War 2 documentarys, I love watching them. I just like history and there are things that intrigue me. Well the other night i did watch The netflix documentary on The Cecil Hotel and Elisa Lam dissapearence. Apologies for spelling just to begin with. Anyway I knew of The Cecil hotel from watching Ghost Adventures and I knew the history the said hotel has. From housing the night stalker, to the suicides and all the other dark history. I thought it was a good yet tragically sad documentary. As someone who struggles with depression and mental health it really broke my heart about this young girl. Granted her struggles were alot more far worse off than I. Just somethings about it bothered me. If this young girl struggled that badly and had history of being instiutionalized because of psychatric break downs, why would you as a parent allow your daughter to go? Better yet why would you let her go when she has had problems with taking her meds? I cant phatham that. I know one of the meds she was prescribed i was on it. But i was only one one medication as it was for anxiety and depression. Venaflaxine. I can tell from first hand if you even miss one day of this med it really really really makes you feel like your having massive withdraw symptoms. Dizzy spells, nausea, irritablility. But this is why i weened myself off this medication and I never have felt better. Anyway, other things that bothered me was some of these people who claimed to want to help find her these “youtube detectives” we will call them. They werent really helping anything. I mean maybe some of them had the greater good in heart and generally wanted to help but i think a lot of them were just there and on the documentary to get hits to there channel. I find that disgusting and just pathetic. Some of them just seemed to be nothing but conspiracy theorists who had no reason to be in this documentary and shouldt even be allowed near a computer. I dont know, maybe i am the only one who feels like that. But some of them i know for a fact where just there for the attention and not to help find this young lady. But its a great documentary if anyone thats into those types of things you should check it out..and pay attention to these youtubers who think they are gonna help solve this case. I am not saying they all were about the fame i generally think 1 or 2 might of had her best intrests at heart but it just is saddening to see some people in this day and age try to get famous off other peoples misfortune..

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tomsnovia · 5 years

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As Long As You’re Happy - G.D.

Y/N POV

It was my first flight back to LA after being with my family for just a little over three months. Spending the holidays back at home was always something that I looked forward to every year. Now that I live thousands of miles away from home I try to take times like these to my advantage to catch up with my family and finally just spend time with everyone. But at this point I was ready to go home. Back to the warm and sunny Los Angeles. Back to the little friends that I have made throughout my couple of years being there. Back to my tall, handsome, 200 pound beefy boyfriend, Grayson Dolan.

Today was Valentine’s Day. A day where everyone is supposed to celebrate their relationships with their significant others. I never really cared for this day. I mean I did spend a good portion of my life single but that is besides the point. Valentines Day was just another day for me up until last year. Last Valentines Day I finally got to experience what all the hype is about. And lucky for me it just so happened to be with someone like Grayson.

A couple of years ago I moved to LA to finally be able to pursue my dreams. Sure I was just barely getting started in the YouTube business but I felt like I was finally at a point in my career where I could potentially live off of the earnings that I made through the platform. My family supported me of course. My parents being more than willing to help aid me in anything financially if I needed (thank the lord). But I took this as an opportunity to finally live my life the way that I wanted. To finally be out in the world as a strong, independent woman (even though I am still technically a teenager).

The first few months of me being in LA went by pretty smooth. I finally met up with some fellow content creators who I have grown fairly close to in such a short amount of time. But this one day.. Whew! This one day is where everything changed for me.

*flashback*

I had gotten invited to a little celebration dinner by my friend Kyle Houck. He had been working on a project with a few of his friends for about a month or so. Kyle and I hadn’t really talked to each other for a while prior to this invitation just because he had been so busy with helping a couple of people film for their channel. So I had absolutely no idea what this celebration dinner was for or why he even invited me.

I of course accepted (mainly because I had absolutely no plans that night other than to lay in bed and watch Netflix or whatever) and found myself dressing semi formal for the occasion. Kyle kept the details very vague. He just told me to dress “kinda fancy but like not too fancy”.

As soon as Kyle picked me up we wasted no time catching up with each other. I asked him what he had been up to and what he had been working on for the past month and he very excitedly told me that it was a documentary for his friends’ father. His friends who just so happened to be The Dolan Twins.

When I heard about the big project I felt.. a lot of things. One: Stoked and proud of Kyle. Two: like an absolute idiot that I had no knowledge of his relationship with a couple of very successful creators. I mean Kyle was my best friend.. How long was it since we last talked?.. Was I really living under a rock? UGH.

Once we finally arrived we met up with everyone who took part of the documentary.

“Hi,” I said as Kyle and I approached the twins.

“Hey guys, this is Y/N. She’s my friend from back home who I’ve been talking about,” Kyle said.

“Oh right! We heard a lot about you! It’s nice to finally put a face to a name,” Ethan chuckled. “Im Ethan,” he said pulling me into a hug.

“I’m Y/N, it’s nice to meet you,” I smiled hugging him back. The moment I let go of the hug my eyes immediately laid on what I believed to be one of the most beautiful human beings I have ever seen in my entire life. You know- not to be dramatic or anything..

“I’m Grayson,” he said also pulling me into a hug.

“It’s nice to meet you both. Congratulations on the documentary!” I said as we all made our way to the table. I sat next to Kyle, Grayson immediately sitting to my left. Ethan walked over to the other side of the table and sat next to a really pretty girl.

“I’m sorry I couldn't make it to the premier.. I didn't know that was a thing,” I said fixing my vision on Kyle.

“Im sorry! I completely forgot to mention it, my mind went straight to dinner” Kyle chuckled. I smiled and shook my head.

“So how have you been? How do you like LA so far?” Kyle asked as he took a sip of his drink.

“Uh.. well you know, its going okay I guess,” I shrugged. I had only been in LA for a couple of months and this technically is my first outing. I hadn't had much time to get out there because of all the unpacking, and my new found responsibilities taking over my life.

“If Im being honest, this is my first time actually going out since I moved in,” I said as I looked at the menu.

“No kidding?” Kyle asked.

“Kyle, you’re my only friend out here and you’ve been busy this whole time,” I chuckled.

“Fair enough,” he smiled. I skimmed over the menu trying to decide what I wanted to eat. For some reason my appetite completely vanished the second Kyle and I stepped foot into the restaurant.

I’ve never really been good at the whole socializing aspect of life. Being antisocial is sorta my cup of tea.

I sat there in silence, using the menu as an excuse for me not to talk. I was actually pretty focused until Grayson spoke up.

“So where are you from?” He asked as he put his menu down looking at me. If I’m being honest, the moment I made eye contact with Grayson my heart started to beat so fucking fast. His face lit perfectly despite the dim lighting in the restaurant. The way his hair slowly fell down the sides of his face when he would run his fingers through it. Oh what I would do to run my fingers through-

“Washington State,” I said quickly snapping out of my thoughts. “I just moved here a couple of weeks ago.”

“Oh wow! So you’re pretty new to the area?” He asked.

“Yeah.. which is why I haven't really had a chance to go out until tonight. I don’t know anyone besides Kyle here,” I chuckled.

Grayson smiled and nodded. “Well now you know me!”

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The whole dinner went smoother than I thought it would. Grayson was very outgoing and easy to talk to and having Kyle there next to me helped ease the little tension I felt occasionally. The dinner was finally coming to an end and we were all getting ready to head home.

“Hey, what're you doing tomorrow?” Grayson asked looking down at me as we both stood up. I quickly took out my phone to check the date.

“Um.. nothing I guess?” I said looking up at him. “I’m most likely gonna end up unpacking some more stuff.”

“You want some help? We can go out to get some breakfast before or something?..”

YES ARE YOU KIDDING ME? PLEASE LETS-

“Sure!” I smiled up at him. “Is 9 o’clock okay? I need to sleep in at least a little bit,” I laughed.

“Sounds perfect,” Grayson smiled and bit his bottom lip. “Can I get your number?”

“Of course,” I said taking his phone. I added my name into his contact list as “Y/N :)” just a little something quirky. idk. I’m not good at this.

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1 New Message

Grayson: 9 AM it is! Can’t wait to bring you to THE BEST breakfast place in LA. Goodnight Y/N 😊

Me: Can’t wait! Goodnight Grayson.

Grayson: You can call me Gray

Grayson: Only if you want to

Grayson: It's not a big deal if you don’t want to. I don’t want to make you do anything you don't want to do..

Grayson: Even if it is just a little nickname..

Grayson: Okay I’m sorry for the spam

I laughed.

Me: It’s okay! 😂 See you tomorrow. Goodnight Gray ☺️

Gray: Goodnight Y/N :)

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[ a/n: AHHHHHH here it is! the first part to my first series ahhhhhhh. idk how I feel about it tbh lol like I feel like its bad but im going to really take my time with this series just so I dont rush things. I genuinely want it to be good. pls let me know what you guys think. I won't take anything too harsh. ily all I hope you enjoyed even the tiniest bit ♥️

#As Long As You're Happy #Grayson Dolan #Grayson Dolan series #Grayson Dolan imagine #Grayson Dolan concept #dolan twins #dt #Dolan Twins series #Dolan Twins imagine #Dolan Twins concept #ethan dolan #Ethan Dolan series #Ethan Dolan imagine #Ethan Dolan concept

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pbandjesse · 4 years

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I had a bit of a panic about work this afternoon. Alexi emailed us that they were almost ready to open back up and needed a bunch of paperwork and I was like. Okay chill. Except it wasnt chill!! There were forms and they needed like. So much information. And paperwork from others?? And transcripts?? From my highschool?? Excuse me?? So I sent some panicked emails.

But I think most of it will be fine? Mom sent me scans of my diplomas. I just had to pull out my masters degree. Which is ugly as sin and does not look like a diploma but what are you gonna do. And I have a phone meeting with Alexi tomorrow to try to sort everything else out.

But man it was stressful. I feel a little overwhelmed. I like being home, but it has been hard to be like chill, because I feel so much guilt. But also I know I needed the break. But also now I might be going back to work but I dont know when? So that makes me stressed. But it seems like thats just the way things are at this camp, we gotta just be ready and try our best?

The rest of the day was alright. I slept better last night. But I still felt kind of bad and off when I woke up. I took a dayquil and that helped shake off the feelings. James was getting home from his ride as I was getting dressed. He made us breakfast and we hung out for a little while. But soon we were off.

We went out to the county to go to a thrift store that wasnt savers. We went to a goodwill and a 2nd Ave. We had alright luck. We were specifically looking for shoes for him. And while we didnt find sneakers he did find some really nice restaurant shoes and some hiking type shoes. So he did good. I got a fleece that turned out to be super ugly on me and will now just be used for fabric. And I got a sports bra and some awesome snow pants. They arent like actually snow pants but they are like that wind breaker material on the outside and fuzzy on the inside. They are great and I like them a lot.

But being out was a little weird. James did a little better not projecting uncomfortability, but I knew he wasnt happy with all the people. So I didnt have as nice or as calm of a time when he was near, and I had to tell him to stop following me and to go look for his own things when we were at the first store. Also the toy aisle there was a nightmare because a sound toy was going off but wouldnt turn off?? Very scary.

The 2nd ave was a little more busy. And was farther in the county and had more people not wearing masks properly. Like this one guy had the skinniest mask that was just covering his nose?? Like what? And no one was really giving people space. Like I get having to go past someone but being 4 deep in a tight aisle isnt it. I may go back out there because they had so much stuff, but being there when it was busy wasnt super fun.

I am a little sad because there was an LL bean jacket I would have liked to try on but James was ready and I was feeling weird. So I will just be a little sad.

I signed up for their rewards program. And we headed out. We decided to get burger king for lunch and there was a long line. And James messed up and drove past the screen and then he didnt get something I wanted and I was just not happy with him. And he was upset because someone honked at him. But I think I was just tired and hungry and a little upset because of the emotions I was getting from James being uncomfortable out in the world. It was just a lot all at once.

But we are mature and a good couple and we talked about it when we got home. We had lunch and put things away. I went through the camping stuff to try to pack it a little better, a little tighter. I also pushed it all into the living room. So now the studio feels a lot more open. Maybe next week Ill reorganize the space. Well see.

James left for work and I decided to watch a documentary that was so sad. Its on youtube, its called My Brother Jordan and I highly recommend it. But prepare to cry.

I went to get up after that and I fell?? And I cut my elbow on the zipper of one of the duffle bags!! And I was upset and mad at myself. I went and played animal crossing and moved things around. And then I got the email from Alexi and had my panic about the forms.

But I spent about an hour filling them out best I could. But its a lot. I am hoping that its actually not as big a deal and it will all just be easy peasy but trying to get things from other people makes me so anxious.

Once I was done with those though I felt a little better. I made ramen. And I have been hanging out with sweetP and texting with Jess for a while. I am going to go wash my face and try to start winding down for sleep.

James has off tomorrow and we are going to get some stuff from his parents and then probably pack the car?? Im not sure about that. James told me we could check into our campsite on friday at 1 but I checked the website and its actually 3pm. So Im not sure exactly what the plan is. I kind of hope we still leave around noon and we can like. Enjoy some of the nature before we set up the camp site. But I dont exactly know the rules. So I guess well see what happens.

I hope you all have a good night tonight. Be safe and take care of eachother.

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machine-gun-casie · 4 years

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73 questions.

I was tagged by @wescoasts (just found out what ur url means lol also love you)

I tag @angrylizardjacket @enchantedamusedslightlyconfused @ticketstomydownfall @actinglikethat @machine-gun-colson @storiesforallfandoms @harringtonstudios (ik some of yall have been tagged i just dont have other friends)

On a scale of 1-10, how excited are you about life right now?

like a 2

Describe yourself in a hashtag?

#¯\_(ツ)_/¯

If you could do a love scene with anyone, who would it be?

kells is gonna be like half these answers #sorrynotsorry

If your life was a musical, what would the marquee say?

...what is that? google says its a tent?

What’s one thing people don’t know about you?

uh im not sure but maybe that my grandma almost killed me when i was 6? idk im not a private person

What’s your wakeup ritual?

wake up whenever (woke up at 9pm today? sleep schedule? i dont know her), check phone on the toilet, brush teeth, join family downstairs as they applaud my appearance because they never see me.

What’s your go to bed ritual?

skincare (when im not dying on the inside), watch an episode of something, watch some asmr (dont judge me it helps me sleep), and pass out for 12 hours.

What’s your favorite time of day?

witching hour

Your go to for having a good laugh?

tiktok or my fav youtubers currently cody ko kurtis conner drew gooden and danny gonzalez

Dream country to visit?

im grateful to be well travelled but i wish i stayed in bruges for longer it was so beautiful

What’s the biggest surprise you’ve had?

my last birthday was a surprise party, was pretty surprised

Heels or flats/sneakers?

either heels or adidas nmds literally no in between

Vintage or new?

new

Who do you want to write your obituary?

we dont do those where im from

Style icon?

no one in particular tbh but i do love the soft girl aesthetic

What are three things you can’t live without?

my friends and family, writing, and some sort of order in my life

What’s one ingredient you put in everything?

i dont cook but saffron is amazing with everything almost

What 3 people living or dead would you like to make dinner for?

make dinner? no one i would burn it all. have dinner with? kells. #sorrynotsorry

What’s your biggest fear in life?

Failure.

Window or aisle seat?

aisle, i need to pee man

What’s your current TV obsession?

roadies

Favorite app?

tumblr

Secret talent?

i sing sometimes

Most adventurous thing you’ve done in your life?

flew a plane

How would you define yourself in three words?

loyal, empathetic, and creative

Favourite piece of clothing you own?

i dont own it but i steal it all the time, my dad’s old jean jacket from niagara falls

Must have clothing item everyone should have?

over sized hoodies

Superpower you would want?

read peoples’ minds and be invisible

What’s inspiring you in life right now?

kells and his story

Best piece of advice you’ve received?

do whatever, literally no one cares.

Best advice you’d give your teenage self?

standing up for yourself is not selfish.

A book that everyone should read?

the whole series of unfortunate events. i aspire to be as crazy a writer as lemony snicket

What would you like to be remembered for?

my kindness?

How do you define beauty?

beauty is in the eye of the beholder. what i find beautiful changes everyday

What do you love most about your body?

my lips and my hair and the color of my skin (im like a soft caramel and i like it and im tired of people telling me that it isnt attractive)

Best way to take a rest/decompress?

sleep, sit out in the sun, cuddle if u can

Favourite place to view art?

museums

If your life were a song, what would the title be?

i have no clue

If you could master one instrument, what would it be?

piano

If you had a tattoo, where would it be?

on the side of my ribcage

Dolphins or koalas?

dolphins

What’s your spirit animal?

a phoenix

Best gift you’ve ever received?

my mom gave me a beautiful gold necklace with my initial in arabic i wear it every day

Best gift you’ve ever given?

i gave this girl a jar full of little slips of paper they were a hundred reasons why i loved her. also one day she was craving these gummies and ringpops and they dont sell those here and i ordered a huge box just for her. we ain’t friends anymore.

What’s your favourite board game?

game of life or battleship

What’s your favourite colour?

blue/pink/yellow

Least favourite colour?

orange

Diamonds or pearls?

diamonds

Drugstore makeup or designer?

both are nice

Blow-dry or air-dry?

air-dry!! love my curls

Pilates or yoga?

sleep

Coffee or tea?

tea

What’s the weirdest word in the English language?

moist.

Dark chocolate or milk chocolate?

dark mint chocolate

Stairs or elevator?

elevator

Summer or winter?

summer

You are stuck on an island, you can pick one food to eat forever without getting tired of it, what would you eat?

mangoes

A desert you don’t like?

cant think of any

A skill you’re working on mastering?

typing in arabic and writing angst

Best thing to happen to you today?

we’re living through a pandemic, nothing good happens now

Best compliment you’ve ever received?

that i have an angelic voice

Favorite smell?

orange blossom or rose

Hugs or kisses?

hugs!! i was voted best hugger

If you made a documentary, what would it be about?

misconceptions about muslims

Last piece of content you consumed that made you cry?

saw a vlog where two sisters went to gym and i cried cuz i miss my sister

Lipstick or lip gloss?

gloss!!

Sweet or savoury?

sweet

Girl crush?

alessia cara

How you know you’re in love?

idk ive never been

Song you can listen to on repeat?

the break up by kells

If you could switch lives with someone for a day who would it be?

id rather not

What are you most excited about at this time in your life?

becoming an aunt!!

#j talks #mutuals #tumblr games

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thelatesttea · 5 years

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Dolan Twin And Shane Dawson Collabing!!!

Aloha Everybody! So today I thought it would be a nice topic to talk about the Dolan twins. I am literally OBSESSED with the twins. They are my life, and I have been waiting for some tea to happen between them so I could post about them. But anyway let’s get into the story (again make sure to follow cuz once I reach ten followers I will be doing shoutouts!)

So I am personally not a Shane Dawson fan but, right now I am waiting for next weeks shane video. Wanna know why? Cuz the Dolan twins are in the video! I am so excited because they have confirmed that major tea is gonna be spilled. (In they I mean the Dolan twins AND Shane Dawson) which is weird cuz usually the fans have to assume that type of stuff. A lot of people think there is gonna be a lot of James Charles drama and all that because ever since Coachella James and the twins have not been friends. Idk why people are thinking they will talk about James but hey it is possible. I rlly do not like jefree star and I really don’t wanna mention him in my blogs cuz I don’t want to give him attention but, he sent a text to James Charles practically just saying James is a pervert and a phedophile. Which was wrong of jefree meaning that they both have a pretty big fan base. Anyway I am not really sure James’s response to that but I am sure he didn’t like it. Honestly I don’t like jefree star I think he is annoying and just ugly, and he is trying to be a girl but is failing deeply. Sorry but that is my opinion.

Next I want to talk about Ethma (I have a few Dolan twins subjects I want to talk about), so as you may know a lot of fans think that Emma and Ethan are or were dating. I honestly feel like they were to because the way they look at each other and the way they act when there together I mean it’s pretty dang obvious😂. But I watched a video of someone asking Ethan and Emma questions (they were at the gym together btw) and one of the questions were “can you confirm ethma) Ethan seemed pretty annoyed the whole interview and responded with “we are just friends” which I don’t blame them even if they want to keep there realationship a secret. But now fans are suspecting a breakup 😭 the reason why is because Ethan and Emma are not seen together as much anymore. And rarely talk about each other. Now here is some more Ethan tea. So Nikita Dragon showed up to the Dolan twins house. He was giving away palettes and all that makeup stuff to you tubers. When ethan opened the door he looked like he was annoyed that Nikita was there. Nikita tried her highlighter on his face and then left. But people think Nikita is going for Ethan after a picture was posted of Ethan with someone with blonde hair Just like Nikita’s. Now I am not sure if it was Nikita or if it was his ex but for all we know that’s the Ethan tea rn.

Now there is no Grayson tea but there is Ethan AND Grayson tea. So I know this happened a few months ago but it can still be shared the Dolan twins dad passed away a few months ago and everyone was heart broken. Obviously the twins. The twins took a few weeks away from YouTube. And we all thought a documentary would have been made about his life but NO the first video that comes out after WEEKS of waiting was with Jefree star🙄. Honestly the video was boring and I couldn’t watch the whole thing. What I can say is that they were happy and laughing in the first few minuites I watched. And they are just the most Positive boys I have ever seen. Hopefully one day I can say met. A lot of fans were SO rude to the twins posting on Twitter how they were gonna come to the funeral and blare music and have a party. No joke that is true. When I heard it I was like🤭 sister...a lot of people in there fan base is stalkers and weirdos which will be the next subject. But anyway people that do that stuff makes the normal fans look bad. I think I have mentioned this In a blog from a couple months ago and I am gonna say it again DONT DO THAT STUFF YALL GONNA MAKE THEM THINK WE R CRAZY. Anyway on to the final subject or topic idk.

So a lil bit ago around July or so. Fans were literally going TO THE TWINS HOUSE AND TAKING PICTURES!!!! WTH if fans were going to my house I would be like hunny no. I rlly do not feel like this is good considering this is after there fathers death. They were posting quit coming to our house we love you but the police will be involved. Sister...the two girls they broke in to there house or whatever literally was bragging about it on Tik tok. They literally were making a tik tok saying that they did it and they was being proud. Sorry not jelous that you guys are PSYCOS. But what is your guys opinion on the subjects comment down below what you would do if this happened to you Aloha!

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modernlcve · 6 years

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little info dump of lizzie’s la muses

ADELAIDE LINDHOLM : they still need a last name but . whatever. i was gonna make her like really boring n a lil mean but. i changed me mind. she’s still uninterested in fame but im pulling her out of management she did it for like 3 years and then realized it brought her nothing but stress and pain so she quit and is doing temp work for the time being she’s trying to figure some stuff of her own out but deflects it onto still trying to boss around her siblings all the time. this sounded more interesting in my head. know it all, bossy, putting on a front of being in control of her miserable life

plots for her include : former clients she completely abandoned when she snapped, im working on more but sometimes... being a big sister is a full time job am i right girls

ALISON COLLINS : a woman at a crossroads . wants to follow her big artistic ambition of [redacted] but it just hasnt worked out for her yet so she’s teaching elementary art classes at a Hippie School to pay the bills til something comes her way , but its hard to be the edgy artist type when u got the school breathing down ur back and checking 2 make sure ur on the straight and narrow.

plots for her include : another big sister im ltrying to think of plots for but . sometimes things arent easy you know. she could have art circle friends who make fun of her for Selling Out and making pipe cleaner crafts for a living now

BRUNO VARGAS : i’m copy pasting the fc meme. he bought a “capitalism is unsustainable” sticker off of amazon. prime example of that “little confused but he’s got the spirit” meme. he threw himself into the social activism scene after he dropped out of college and ran away to the city to really make something of himself. he really wants to do good things for good reasons his heart is in the right place he’s just a dumbass. grew up in a traditional catholic military family but hasn’t had contact w them for a minute. lives in the fold because he thinks its cool 2 force people 2 hang out with him. works for an indie underground news publication.

plots for him include : yeah maybe i am still stuck on the boyfriend/girlfriend plot. im not married to it being bf n gf if it just works 2 be 2 gfs or 2 bfs anyways. plot would be that one partner bruno has had longer and has openly been with for a minute now. second partner would be more recent and bc of that less of the whole official We’re Together :) kind of thing. both partners would know he’s seeing other people, but he hasnt gone out of his way to specifically out either of them, p2 just knows about p1 bc they were openly w bruno whereas they arent yet. if that makes literally any sense

COLE EDWARDS : bit of a weirdo. she does something behind the scenes i was thinking like set design because thats something that weirdly really interests me. anyways shes a doormat but in a different way than molly could be read that way she really just likes to be involved in things and help people. ~quirky~ but one day , she will snap. u can tell when u see her at craft night and she gets so much hot glue on her hand but doesnt even react. its like she cant feel it... feel better cole...

plots for her : cole could work for laguna beach or as the mystery novak stepsib im not married to her being on the show or not yet. i figured she could be fun there because she would be a light addition to all these Reality Tv Bastards u know. her bg and plots will fit whichever subplot i use her for so . tba

HOLLIS MESSINA : kill him NOW . hollis is a bad man. not to godmod michele but in my head their parents are also like weird arsty types not necessarily famous but always very into the arts all thru their childhood. they grew up eating a lot of kale and maybe thats why hollis is the way he is. he’s vapid and very insecure because he wants so bad to be cool and funny and talented and suffers from major impostor syndrome which contributes to his online shopping addiction. take a nap hollis...

plots for him : we know im always looking for a plot where my musician writes a song about how crusty their ex is and their ex doesn’t appreciate it, or in general just maybe someone who got past the Phony Fakeass Cool Hollis act but then he decided to be very mean to them because soemtimes it hurts to let people in

JAMES ZAMORA : instagram model and youtuber. new media thot. she makes beauty, fashion, lifestyle, and travel related content. her entire brand is being A Sexy Little Trollop for people to envy. came from humble beginnings believe it or not, but she will never tell anyone that. as far as they need to be concerned shes been toddling around in heels since day one. lives in the fold because it makes for quirky content but once a month she threatens to get the hell out of here.. no one knows why she stays..

plots for her : frankly between the Novak Boyz and the mean girl squad im happy w her plots for now but shes always around to *cheryl blossom voice* create a little chaos if needed...

MOLLY SEKULIC : for the first week he lived at the fold noah thought she was a ghost :0 jadede film school student who thought she would get to do real documentary work at a place like b*zzfeed news but got put on projects shes not as passionate about 2 put it kindly. constantly planning her escape from the fold and worth it and all of that but 2 depressed to actually put any of it into play so she just sticks around and hopes one day she’s tapped for something with Substance

plots for her : she just doesnt get out much. shes got her Horrible sons (alec and [redacted]) and the girlies she hangs out with at the fold so shes not a completely friendless loser. with muses also working in film i think it could be fun to have a plot where they went to school together/worked on a project earlyo n together but now shes doing this and is embarrassed to talk to them abt it not that its even that real of a plot..

NOAH FITZGERALD : i wrote an intro for him in fold and im just gonna link it here. tldr hes very shy,, be gentle,, he wants to be liked and validated which is a common theme for me becuase yeah maybe in my core i dont believe anyone pursuing art does it for any reason but validation i sure know i do

plots for him : he’s got a little going on but other fun stuff could be musicians he jams with that could catch onto his and bradys Scam, maybe some other dorks to commiserate with ive obvisosuly not got as many ideas as i let on huh,

WYATT SONG : gay writer bitch. came from money so he’s just casually pursuing writing full time minus the time he spends on the show (bit less than everyone else just because watching him sit in his home office and do nothing for hours just isnt interesting) but i kinda like the idea of him being a Villain within the show like idk what dynamics we were wanting to set up but i feel ike since he’s more reclusive than the others and when he is around hes Annoying he could be someone the show kinda frames as Not Likable which mostly doesnt bother him but . stings a little

plots : someone whos really nice 2 him off cam but plays to that villain thing on cam, which could work for a few muses on different levels like a friend whos just flighty to someone he’s ~ secretly dating ~ bc it would mess up the current plot of the show if they were fucking just yet

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creationsofagingergirl · 6 years

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Satanic Bathtub Epiphanies:

Thoughts on guilt

I want to put it out there that Im not a registered member of the church. I might join eventually, but I feel that in life in general and especially in a religion that values and demands study over worship, it's best to get your thoughts in order and be sure of yourself and your beliefs before making such a large step. Right now I'm content to study the books and essays on the subject and spend my free time watching videos by satanic youtubers.

I live in a small religious town of people who claim to be open minded, but who will "worry" about someone who comes out as a satanist and will eventually stop associating with them over it if the subject is at all (even inadvertently) pushed. I'm using my writing to go over things and work things out because I have few friends in real life that won't get angry when I bring it up.

With all that out of the way (and with my ass well covered) I can talk about what I want to talk about, and that's guilt. I only recently discovered satanism and it's been on the back of my mind pretty frequently lately. I was in the tub reading Ayn Rand's "Atlas Shrugged" and my mind was starting to wander. I started thinking about how I felt guilt for having previously succumbed to my depression for several days, before going on a drinking bender which made me feel so shitty that I wanted to try to get my shit back together.

I really started thinking about it. My roommate had been bitching and making it seem like my existence was a pain in her ass. I thought that I felt guilty for my depression making her feel that way, but I had a epiphany.

I realized that I shouldnt and really didnt feel guilty to her. I had done nothing to hurt her or her kid or anyone but myself. I realized that what I felt wasnt guilt at all, but fear. I realized that I was buying into this small town herd mentality of fearing the judgment of others for no reason.

I was fearing the judgment of someone who has no real original hobbies and who spends her free time making cliche crafts and bingeing Netflix, while spending the rest of her life working and taking care of her kid. I don't have a problem with occasional Netflix binges. I think we all do it, but when someone wants to spend all of their free time doing herd activities and then get visibly frustrated when a documentary or anything intellectually stimulating gets turned on, I have an issue. I digress though, thats not what this article is about. What Im trying to say is that I was subconsciously buying into this fear of judgment without realizing it. I realize that her opinion and the double standards that she holds me to dont matter, and that the only guilt I should feel for succumbing to my depression is to myself.

I try to do two things every day. I guess you could say that I have two standards for myself. Every day I try to go to bed a little bit stronger, mentally or physically, than I was the day before, and everyday I try to do somethingfor one of my blogs, be that making an outline for something, working on a short story, working on a sketch, or editing photos. I cant hold up to those two standards when Im drinking from 6pm-6am and then sleeping the rest of the time.

I look forward to getting my own apartment so that I can focus on my own standards and spend my free time pursuing hobbies and indulging in play and drinking. I look forward to not living with someone who holds me to the double standards of a sheep.

I need to stay self-aware and I need to realize that I’m never gonna meet every Joe Randos standards. The only standards I need to focus on are my own. Hopefully I'll make it out of this town someday and I'll no longer have to spend my time appeasing Darwin award candidates and making them think that I belong. Right now, I'm gonna keep working on myself as a person. Whether I fall to depression or not, I need to focus on me and my standards, and I need to distance myself from the "Sky daddy worshipers" and the ingrates that are locked into the pursuit of one "Good Guy Badge" or another.

I need to focus on my own standards and goals and fuck anyone who tries to stop me. A former friend of mine has a thing on his instagram that I need to make a sort of motto in my judgement of people, "Either make yourself useful or get the fuck out of the way."

I can try and understand herd mentality and I can make a hobby of trying to understand how one could ever do something "because thats what you do and thats it" but I need to stay self-aware and make sure to keep an objective mindset.

Thats really all that I wanted to into on the subject. I dont want this to turn into forced ramblings. This is probably going to be a series, as writing it has helped me get my thoughts in order.

Hail Satan!

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moonchildlulu · 6 years

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1. Full name: First name is Terra. I go by Terra Lu, when writing or online. Not gonna give my real name lol >.>

2. Nicknames: Frenchie is my main nickname. My mom calls me her little Vamp because I’m super pale and get sunburned after a few minutes outside. *shrug* I have a few others, but most call me Frenchie when not using my first name.

3. Birthday: July 1990

4. Age: 27. ugh.

5. Zodiac star sign: Cancer

6. Moon sign: Pisces

7. Ascendant: Cancer

8. Venus: Gemini

9. Gender: Female

10. Pronouns: She/Her

11. Sexuality: Bi

12. Myer-Briggs type: INFJ-A

13. Relationship status: Single pringle

14. Best friend: They know who they are.

15. Religion: Agnostic.

16. Favorite color: Blues, Greens, Rose, and Black

17. Favorite music genre: Literally almost anything with a good beat or melody. I love Sam Cooke, Janis Joplin, Fleetwood Mac, BTS, Muse, Rihanna, Alicia Keys, Bruno Mars, Pharrell, Khalid, Paramore, Zedd, Ray Charles, BORNS, Led Zeppelin, Guns N Roses, The Platters, Aretha Franklin, Patsy Cline, Prince, Johnny Cash... I could go on and on so Imma stop. I just really love Music. Let’s leave it at that.

18. Favorite band/artist: Fleetwood Mac & BTS. I can listen to every single song at any time and love it.

19. Favorite song: First Love - BTS or Rhiannon - Fleetwood Mac or the acoustic version of Past Lives - BORNS or Old School the Reprise - Urban Cone. I could listen to them on repeat for days and not get sick of them.

20. Favorite holiday: Halloween. I was a theatre kid and costumes are fun. Just don’t scare me lol

21. Favorite tv show: I don’t watch much TV tbh. Just history documentaries. Oh! Does BTS Run count? Or Burn The Stage? Cause those are the only “shows” i really watch regularly and actually care about. lol

22. Favorite youtuber: uh... I just watch music vids... does uh... does Bangtan TV channel count? >.>

23. Favorite perfume/cologne: White Musk Smoky Rose from The Body Shop. (x) It’s amazing.

24. Favorite season: Autumn or Spring.

25. Favorite flower: Lavender or wildflowers.

26. Favorite gemstone: Moonstone, Lapis, or Labradorite

27. Favorite roller coaster: I don’t have a favorite. I love them all.

28. Favorite fruit: Apples, Honeydew, and Bananas

29. Favorite vegetable: Spinach, yam, and zucchini

30. Favorite icecream flavor: Caramel or coconut

31. Favorite candy: Dark chocolate

32. Favorite restaurant: Don’t really have one favorite. I like Korean, Japanese, and Mexican food, but I’m a vegan leaning vegetarian so finding places is kinda, well, lol

33. Favorite fast food restaurant: Jax Burgers. They have a Vegetarian Mushroom burger that’s so good I could cry.

34. Favorite starburst flavor: Ew.

35. Favorite pizza topping: Spinach & mushrooms

36. Favorite chip flavor: Gimme all the salt

37. Favorite non-alcoholic beverage: Green tea or an iced caramel americano

38. Favorite alcoholic beverage: Wine or something fruity. I also like whiskey, so there is that.

39. Favorite video game: Skyrim & Sims

40. Favorite board game: My family gets together and battles it out over Clue. lol

41. Favorite city: New Orleans

42. Favorite dog breed: I'm a sucker for tiny fluffy dogs. Mini Aussies are pretty too. I have a rescue Pit Mix and she is an angel. Idk, all of them. Gimme all the doggos.

43. Favorite animal: sdhflskh, why. Pet types- Horses, dogs, cats. Wild- Big cats, Pandas, Elephants, Foxes.... all of them. Just keep the snakes away, k thanks.

44. Favorite number: 3 & 13

45. Coffee or tea: Both, though I am trying to lessen my coffee intake. 24 cups (2 full pots) was kinda crazy. heh... I’m down to 2. Be proud, this is huge for me.

46. Vanilla or chocolate: Vanilla

47. Leather or denim: ....depends....

48. Short or long sleeves: long

49. Patterned or plain: Plain

50. Floral or plaid: both

51. Black or white: Black

52. Makeup or no makeup: whatever I feel like

53. Tumblr or Twitter: Tumblr

54. Facebook or Snapchat or Instagram: Instagram. I dont have the others.

55. Phone or tablet or computer: Phone because it is also a computer when I’m too lazy to use mine.

56. Liberal or conservative: Liberal

57. Sunrises or sunsets: Sunset

58. Are you vegetarian: Yes, but I lean vegan

59. Are you vegan: Majority of the time

60. Are you allergic to anything: Spearmint makes my throat close up. ...yay. Also, sometimes cat spit... which sucks cause I love cats...

61. Are you polyamorous: No

62. Have you been out of state: Yes

63. Have you been out of country: Yes

64. Have you kissed a boy: Yes

65. Have you kissed a girl: Yes

66. Have you kissed an enby: uh?

67. Have you broken a bone: yes

68. Have you been to the emergency room: Yes

69. Have you ever been high: morphine is a hell of a thing

70. Have you ever been drunk: ugh. Yes, once.

71. Have you ever been in a band or choir: no. too shy. Wait does like... grade school count? like k-4th?

72. Have you ever catfished someone: no

73. Do you have any siblings: Yes

74. Do you live with your parents: yes, she struggles with mental health issues.

75. Do you have more than 100 followers: yes

76. Do you have more than 1,000 followers: somehow

77. Do you have more than 10,000 followers: No.

78. Do you smoke weed: No

79. Do you drink: rarely/socially

80. Do you have a job: Yes.

81. Do you own any musician/youtuber merch: Yes

82. Do you have any internet friends: Absolutely

83. Do you play any instruments: ha. no

84. Where did you go/are you going to college: U of Utah and TXST

85. College major: Anthro, English, History

86. Names of all your group chats: They don’t have special names? Oh I am in a regional BTS chat. So there is that.

87. Tap the middle autofill button 10 times: I’m gonna die happy I was like naughty and omg. ...ok wtf

88. What time zone do you live in: US central time

89. Your best friend’s sign:I have a group of them so cant pick one.

90. Your 2nd, 3rd, and 4th closest friends’ signs: Can’t remember the exacts, but they are fire, air and earth signs, plus me makes water and the full set.

91. Your crush’s sign: Pisces

92. Your mom’s sign: Sagittarius

93. Your dad’s sign: uh...

94. Your sibling(s)’ sign(s): Scorpio & Capricorn

95. Your enemy’s sign: I don’t have one

96. Your ex(s)’ sign(s): Leos. Nearly all somehow... staying away from Leos. lol There was a Capricorn in there too. And a Gemini.... or was it Virgo.... crap idk

97. An ex best friend’s sign: mmmm *skips*

98. Tag 5 people to participate: uhhh.....whomever wants to

#about me

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morganalefays · 7 years

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Hey... I know this is a lot to ask of someone, but I was wondering if you have any advice on dealing with depression. I'm scared to ask for help because I'm a minor, and I don't want my parents to worry, but some days it's just so hard. Sorry to bother you.

hi! you’re not bothering me and im glad you asked for help. i’ve got a lot of advice for you! :)

the first step is to look for support, which you are doing and it’s really good! I don’t know how old you are, but if telling your parents is not an option, then you don’t have to! i really encourage you to find someone you trust to talk to however. this can be an older sibling, a relative, a friend, a teacher, etc. i do think that talking to someone who is a bit older or who you know has experience with this kind of stuff, either personal or professional is a good option since in some cases friends your own age might not be as well equipped to deal with these kind of problems. but of course friends can be very wise and helpful as well! everyone’s situation is different. even if they can’t provide you with like professional therapy it helps when you don’t have to hide how you feel all the time and just have someone to hug you when you need it.

take yourself seriously. i know this phrase is overused on tumblr, but your feelings are valid. this at least was a problem for me, thinking that “its not sooo bad……. i’ll manage……. people have it worse……” etc. but if you feel that you are depressed then you are. you are not faking and depression is an illness that needs treatment just like any other. it might feel embarassing or like a failure to ask for help but its not. depression is actually really common. there is help to get and you should get it.

Your school probably provides a therapist/counselor of some sort. even if it feels scary i really recommend that you see them and discuss your situation. either they can help you there, or they can refer you to someone else. I dont know where you’re from but i’m almost 100% sure that they don’t have the right to tell your parents.

i also recommend googling a little bit on where you can turn with these sort of issues in the area where you live. for example what clinic and such. you can also read a bit about depression online and doctors that you can ask anonymously for advice. even if you don’t feel like you’re ready to contact a doctor or therapist it can be nice to know what your options are. but these things your counselor can also help you with!

asking for help is not easy, it’s scary as fuck. i’m not gonna lie, it took me years until i did, but i really don’t recommend that…. hahha. finding people on tumblr to talk to can also be really good! it really helps when you find someone who understands and has gone through similar things. it will be hard at first but it will be worth it.

here are also a few practical things you can do in everyday life that personally have helped me:

write down your feelings and try to make sense of them, why are you sad? what makes you feel depressed? is there something you can change? sometimes it helps A LOT just to identify negative behaviors and actively changing them. if for example you see a pattens that you feel really bad at night when you’ve just been on tumblr for 5 hours, thats a negative behavior and you need to change it. when you start feeling bad, close your laptop, and do something else! read a book or just walk into another room or whatever you can think of that might better your mood!

go on walks! i know this is a standard advice but there is a reason for that. when you’re depressed it’s really easy to isolate yourself and get stuck in your own mind and it really helps to change your scenery, move your body, get fresh air and just see that there is a world that exists outside of your own head. go outside at least once every day.

another cliché advice is yoga. i really like yoga with adriene on youtube, cause every workout is only about 20-30 minutes and its chill cause you can just do it alone in your room :P

instead of binge watching tv shows i’ve started watching documentaries, it’s really good for me cause if you only watch one documentary instead of like 5 hours of tv you don’t get stuck as easily. you also learn a lot of stuff and you feel productive! if you want any tips for good netflix documentaries or something just hit me up!

you can also follow @depressionresource here on tumblr for a lot of good advice!

i really hope some of this could help you. good luck and i’m rooting for ya! ♥

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