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#wire conveyor belt#conveyor system#mesh#airflow#drainage#sifting#separation#lightweight#mesh type#wire gauge#material#belt width#belt length#edge options#surface treatments#product characteristics#conveyor incline/decline#operating environment#maintenance requirements#manufacturer#supplier#India#customization#Wire Mesh#Rubber Conveyor Belt#Conveyor Belt#Vibrating Screen#Wedge Wire Screen#Wedge Wire Panel#Barbed Wire
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gretchen sees dylan g as a version of her husband who is motivated and competent while her husband has never been able to hold down a job. but dylan g was literally created to do that job and only exists to do that job. he isn’t a version of her husband who has managed to “find his thing”— he just never had a choice in what his thing would be. he’s been robbed of the freedom to try to find something he’d be passionate about, even if it would’ve meant failing a bunch along the way
#severance#dylan g#dylan george#gretchen george#im sad now#dylan g manages his adhd because the environment he’s in is hyper-structured and built on operant conditioning/other behavioral learning#and only has one thing he has to do all day#i wonder if we’ll see gretchen realizing how sheltered and one dimensional this life is that dylan g is forced to live
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Agent Caspar's pad
#caspar#agent caspar#my art#bunny#rabbit#spy#retro#furry#environment#this is one of his better kept bases of operation#the other ones would be overflowing with heels
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[PUT INTO PLACE, TIED DOWN AND ARRANGED, AND IS NEVER THE SAME, AGAIN.]<-listen to my favorite songs. VAMPIRES ARE WONDERFUL ARENT THEY. THE FLESH IS SO MUCH MORE DURABLE. SO MUCH STRETCHIER THAN HUMANS. THE STRESS DOESNT KILL A VAMPIRE THE SAME WAY IT DOES A HUMAN. YOU CAN TAKE THEM APART THREAD BY THREAD AND LEAVE THEM WIDE AWAKE WITHOUT WORRY OF THE BRAINMATTER SPOILING UNDER VINEGARY AGONY.
#cw gore#WEEEE WHIPPING OUT ALL MY BELOVED PIXEL HORROR GAME SOUNDTRACKS FOR THIS ONE#STILL A WIP#SORTA. FORKSFORKSFORKS INSPIRED ME TO START WORKIN AT IT AGAIN. AND NOW IT LIVES. IT LIIIVEESS!!!#MOSLT.Y ATLEAST. I MIGHT MESS W IT MORE LATER. WE SHALL SEE. ANYWAY GABRIEL MONTEZ HUH. WOW POOR GUY#THERES A FASCINATING FEELING THAT COMES WITH BEING ON A OPERATING TABLE.AND BEING IN IMMENSE PAIN#ONE OF MY FONDEST MEMORIES IS LAYING ON A DENTIST CHAIR. SHAKING AND INVOLUNTARILY CRYING AFTER MANY MANY#NEEDLES TO MY THE MOUTH. I METABOLIZE THE NUMBING STUFF QUICKLY APPARENTLY. THEY NEEDED ALOT OF NUMBING SHOTS#BUT I WASNT AFRAID OR DISTRESSED. THE DENTIST WAS VERYVERY NICE AND ALSO UH. PRETTY. BUT THATS BESIDE THE POINT#THE POINT IS. THAT IT WAS FASCINATING TO REALIZE MY PHYSICAL RESPONSE TO PAIN UNDER A CONTROLLED ENVIRONMENT#I DIDNT KNOW HOW EASY IT WAS TO SHAKE AND TO CRY PRYVIOUS TO THAT EXPERIENCE.MY DENTAL ADVENTURES CONTINUE#THEY CONTINUE TO HELP ME UNDERSTAND WHAT ITS LIKE FOR PAIN TO BOIL AWAY THE TIME. TO DISTORT THE PASSING HOURS AND CONSUME EVERY THOUGHT#DO YOU REMEMBER PAIN? THE MOST SEVERE PAIN IN YOUR LIFE? NOW WILL YOU IMAGINE RED LIGHTS? RED LIGHTS AND SHIFTING FIGURES#NOW WILL YOU IMAGINE PAIN UNRELENTING.PAIN WORLD SHATTERING.PAIN IMMORTAL.CAN YOU IMAGINE BEING PULLED APART#THE HUMAN MIND CAN ONLY WITHSTAND SO MUCH PAIN BEFORE IT SHUTS DOWN AND HIDES.IT NEEDS TO PROTECT ITSELF AFTERALL. PAIN CAN ALTER#PAIN SHIFTS THE CHEMISTY OF THE MIND OF THE FLESH OF THE SOUL. FOR HUMANS ATLEAST. BUT YOU ARE NO LONGER HUMAN#YOU CHOSE OTHERWISE DIDNT YOU BOY.BECAUSE YOU WANTED MORE.STATUS.POWER.APPROVAL.SECURITY.SAFET.Y.#OHHH YOU CAN WITHSTAND THE PAIN FOR THAT. FOR ALL THAT. YOU WERENT TOLD THERE WOULD BE PAIN BUT YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WERE PROMISED.#ITS ALL WORTH IT IN THE END. NOW LETS JUST HOPE SOME BLONDE TWERP DOESNT PROVE TO BE STRONGER THAN THE STRONGEST PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE#LETS HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. LETS HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. I LOST MY TRAIN O THOUGHT#anyway dawww poorr gabeee that shit probably huuurrrrtttss but so much time has passed that your body got tired of screaming and squirming#why havnt you passed out yet? maybe you might as well have at this point. like sleeping with your eyes open and your nerves awake#OH HEY FUNFACT ABT THE ART. I FOUGHT W IT ALOT. TOOK A LONG WHILE FOR ME TO BE REMOTELY HAPPY W THIS.#i was thinking abt pixel horror video games when i made it.just as i do with all great things ofc ofc#i love you pixel horror game i love yooouuuuu.i struggled so much w the colors for so LONNGG UHGHGHGH but im finally happy...im finally fre
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I'm probably going to post about this on the MW subreddit, but I still find it pretty hilarious that most fans assume the "struggles" Jimbalaya was dealing with back on Earth were related to criminal acts (usually in order to demonize Curly) meanwhile most of the pieces of clues I've gathered from the HFIM dlc and the QnAs we got about the characters' lives have lead me to believe Jimbalaya's struggles were about poverty.
In the HFIM dlc we're pretty clearly playing a fish version of Jimbalaya, and the whole game is about how a capitalistic system ruins people (fish) and those that climb up help perpetuate the system and those that go down just get eaten. So it's pretty interesting to me that Jimbalaya fish even after consuming other fish and items... keeps going down.
But it was the third QnA that sealed it for me. Curly's hobbies are around a lot of friends and family that he could join interesting things. And of course play snow sports in Winter. Winter snow sports... which let's be honest is a pretty expensive hobby to have. Meanwhile, Jimbalaya can't afford any hobbies other than joining one with Curly.
I think this kinda just adds more fuel for Jimbalaya to both envy yet aspire to be like Curly.
I dunno, it's just fascinating to me watching so many fans claim the "struggles" were so obviously to do with crime when most of the current evidence I noticed seems to point towards money related issues.
-🌟 Anon
I think both are valid and valuable interpretations that’s the MW fandom makes but I think the major problem with it is the severity in which they make Jimmy out to be every factor wrong with men in society.
Like I think it’s interesting to use the idea he has some record, misdemeanors/petty stuff, that has complied to make his life more difficult. It’s all his own doing for his entitlement and general behavior but it can also be used to comment on Capitalism banking on desperation and envy. A lot of his actions are desperate because he knows his crimes on the Tulpar will make it virtually to climb any ladder, anywhere anymore due to their weight. Like in the end the problem is undeniably how the proverbial rat race creates environments that fosters Jimmy’s and creates ineffective systems like Curly represents.
Curly on the other hand benefits from the corporate part of it with his financial freedom, stability and prestige but he too is socially stagnant, deeply unhappy in the identities placed on to him and unrecognizable as anything other than a cog in the machine. I think this goes in tandem with the other members too as the identities placed onto them in the scenario all represent stages in capitalism and class discrepancies: Anya represents largely marginalized identities (particularly women in blue collar fields/harassment) and how they ultimately have to fend for themselves. Daisuke a sort of perception of both a class between Curly and the rest, protected no matter the effects of the establishment due to his home life but at the same time he is the metaphorical future gen, things stripped from him as the older generations squabble amongst themselves in private conversations leaving him unequipped. Then there’s Swansea being sort of those who have lived through it, knowing how it ends but ultimately still lack the skills, resources and want to change it, letting it cycle.
The entire thing with Jimmy circles back to the fandom ultimately wanting easy solutions to the events in the games, a face to blame and a weird black and white thinking to issues that are dangerous to view that way.
#an off tangent that is semi related is the idea of the crash happened Curly deserved some punishment I see in the fandom and while I agree#he needs to reflect and possibly build back the trust Anya lost in him the idea completely ignores the struggles he faced and the abuse he#faced and it’s like again the entire absolving the abuse of an imperfect victim as a factor in their behavior#but back to the ask the game tackles so many things and tries to not make it one note or stereotypical but conversations lead to that cuz#too many people are unwilling to admit how subjective good choices are and how environment affects places a big part in how we deal with#situations like everyone says what they will do and would but no one sits and thinks of the way it would be in the situation with the#dynamics at play and can’t see the other lenses or metaphors#mouthwashing#🌟 anon#ask#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#also if I get asks about Jimmy can you just use his name like a big part of why I think people can’t properly#engage in this game is the decentering of Jimmy as the main character and main perpetrator like he is the ultimate reason everything gets so#bad and no one wants to talk about him outside of we know he’s bad already like it’s immature and why guys can get away with it as we focus#on the men that don’t stop them and not stopping the men that do or their mentalities past a surface level amount of disdain#like say his name show his face don’t let him slip through the cracks like the game tries to show you he did#his whole mode of operation is in the dark and out of sight and it’s still perpetuating that because you refuse to show him#at least on my in box I’ll talk about him and analyze him and I would prefer if we didn’t speak about him like a forbidden word cause that’s#how the assault of victims gets looked or glossed over when you don’t say what it is or who did in all seriousness
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Itsy-bitsy headcanon before bed:
I’ve mentioned this in (very minor) passing before but in my lil’ AoC-verse, the Yiga Clan has been surreptitiously farming mighty bananas in Faron for centuries. I just think, that they have too many stockpiled (and in the other timeline, every member who pops up to kill Link has some) for their stores to come solely from theft and happenstance gathering.* And after all, bananas don’t grow in the desert or highlands of their home…
Anyway, they “farm” in a way that makes the groves look very natural, so nobody else would tend to notice they’re not just growing wild. Just as they’ve been looking after the apple trees on Satori Mountain as stated in my linked post up there. The thing is, that means the Clan can’t defend their crop too intensely, and they always lose some of it to passers-by. In the past, there have been some incidents where Hylians have thought they were farming bananas in the general area; these were dealt with by quickly grabbing as much of the crop as possible, laying natural-seeming traps, and putting illusions on the trees to make them look blighted until the Hylians gave up again for another while and moved their operations somewhere else in Faron.
Post-Calamity, Master Kohga made it known that it’d been his people tending a large amount of banana trees all this time and that they hoped to plant more and expand their operation. Princess Zelda, as one show of gratitude for his assistance (*cough saving her father’s life cough*) and to aid in her own push to legitimize Yiga participation in commerce, worked with Kohga to draw up formal documents to the effect that yes, that land and those trees/bananas belong to the Clan. Which Kohga privately thought was annoying political theater since why wouldn’t it be theirs, why should the Yiga have to make nice to ~earn~ a right to what their hard work had created, but…still, he saw it as a step in the right direction by the Princess, surely (since it seemed she was trying hard to make nice from her end, too <3).
So where do the Yiga farm their bananas? Largely all along the stepped cliffs of Ubota Point, with a smaller reserve crop (looking even more wild and natural) on the higher areas around Bronas Forest and Kamah Plateau.** Post-Calamity, the Clan has been able to start building an open and permanent base of operations on the Point, as they’ll begin to sell and ship some of their crops to places besides their home in Karusa Valley (Urbosa and the Gerudo are among their first big customers, hehe). The Yiga’s once-small Faron Team has been bulked up considerably now that they don’t have to hide. Things are just getting underway with this, but it feels like a good start to their business relationship with Hyrule. Yay! :D
Okay goodnight everybody! <3 <3
*There’s turn-in quests in AoC where the Clan wants to buy up every mighty banana in Hyrule. This is to sustain them while they understandably are shorter-handed and all-hands-on-deck with the Calamity (thanks Astor) and haven’t been as able to tend their crops, which they haven’t been up front with Hyrule about anyway ofc.
**As I’ve also said before, I headcanon that locations on the BotW/TotK map are bigger in “real life” for lack of a better descriptor. So Faron in general is big enough for the Clan and Hylians to be farming bananas and other things too. But incidentally, Ubota Point’s environs are the area in BotW where you can find the most mighty bananas, just growing everywhere! …and personally I’ve also been attacked by a bunch (ha! I have made a banana pun!) of Yiga in Faron both before and even more after that timeline’s Kohga fell in a hole, so….
#kidk says stuff#master kohga#yiga clan#age of calamity#legend of zelda#kidk headcanons#this post brought to you by us trying to find every banana in Faron in botw tonight#bonus: the Clan does NOT farm anywhere near Dracozu Lake/River/Forest. wrong environment (wetlands) plus Hylia’s statue is there ewwwww#((there’s few to no bananas in that area in botw per today’s exploration using the slate’s detector))#anyway short disclaimer my Kohga certainly has not bent the knee to Hylian *rule*#he considers the kingdom a tentative *ally* with a lot of potential for trade that’ll benefit his people#as of right now in my lil’ verse they’re what a government lawyer like me would call ‘in but not of’ Hyrule#as in they’re operating within the borders and auspices of the kingdom but are decidedly NOT governed by the Royal Family#kohga absolutely resents any implication otherwise
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i still find it absurd how many people lose their shit over anglerfish and other deep sea fish and talk threateningly about how scary and awful they are, and then you look at them and how big they actually are, and they're just like, the size of your hand, maybe. like this isn't even a swarm situation, they're notoriously solitary. it makes more sense to be the token trope of a person standing on top of a chair screaming about a mouse.
#all the care guide says is 'biomass'#they can't even get up to the surface of the ocean without dying. you are terrified of Nothing.#thinking again about how i write abyssal merfolk#where evolutionarily. they hung out deeper because it was specifically safer down there.#they weren't even particularly dedicated to hunt down there. it's just the fact that nothing else would bother them.#(which is not to say that nothing could)#(but like. much less dense concentration of large life which might pose an issue.)#(or much life at all! and their trash already operated as basically a mini whalefall!)#(like that one cheetos bag in a cave. many more nutrients in a low nutrient environment all in one place)
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Doing more with less with GEOS by Jonathan Sturges, Alex Jacocks
GEOS/GeoWorks on C64, C128, Apple II and IBM XT clone
VCF East XIX
#vcfexix#vcf east xix#vintage computer festival east xix#commodorez goes to vcfexix#geos#Graphic Environment Operating System
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Maya Fey in Ace Attorney 1: Her insecurity about her usefulness after she loses her powers provides an interesting commentary on the ‘magic user’ role that girls in fiction (especially in 90s/00s media) are often given to ‘justify’ their presence in a primarily male cast to a primarily (though not exclusively) male audience. Her magic is her use. Her magic is her value. What message does this send to the audience who lives in the real world where girls can’t use magic?
Not only is the inadequacy one would feel from not having access to the ability they’ve been led to believe gives them their value acknowledged, the game then goes on to assure that these fears, although understandable, are unfounded. Maya isn’t useful because of her ability to channel spirits, but because of who she is as a person. Yes that does include spirit channelling sometimes, but Maya doesn’t lose her value when she loses that power. She still makes essential contributions towards winning trials because she is just as stubbornly determined as Phoenix to find the truth. Maya’s value doesn't come from having a special power, it comes from the same attributes that give Phoenix his value; attributes that anyone can have, no matter what they’ve been led to believe about themselves.
Maya Fey in all subsequent games: Constantly gets kidnapped and/or needs to be saved by Phoenix.
#ace attorney#maya fey#even if you ignore this reading Maya's arc in AA1 is just soooo solid#especially her performance being directly contrasted against Mia#an actual legal professional who actually knows legal stuff#and a pretty good legal professional to boot#Maya is just so out of her depth#and she's feeling it (especially when she stops being able to summon Mia)#but she keeps trying and SHE ACTUALLY SUCCEEDS IN HELPING BECAUSE MAYA IS A VALUABLE AND CAPABLE PERSON#even if she's in an environment where someone of her calibre wouldn't typically operate in#this is the first thing i've sat down and actually was able to work onwithout quitting after two sentences in a while. yay!#extra glad I was able to make this because I wasn't super happy with the last long Maya post I made#It's not terrible. It's just not super solid.
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I turned him into a potato
#all seekers are capable of operating in apocalyptic environments at 1.5 V#or whatever the quote was
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code black's medical accuracy goes to shit every episode but by god do they give these characters layers
#code black#first episode with ethan and ho boy#am I read to have that unpacked#also whats up with them operating in non sterile environments like every 3 episodes#why are you so crazy about that#ace is ranting
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Debian 12 w KDE Plasma let's go~~~
I've got no idea why I didn't like KDE before tbh.... cause trying it now, its kinda nice~~~ last time I tried it was idk how long ago.... when I started messing around with linux to begin with.
It, unlike xfce, has a software updater so I don't need to use the terminal on debian~~~ it looks really snazzy tbh.
last time I used it was idk how long ago..... a decade ago? and I guess now it's just Plasma and not KDE anymore? ??
annoying problem that I fixed~~~~ also for some reason the icons and stuff on my second hard drive have reverted back to dev/sda for my main OS partition and dev/sdb for where all the rest of my data is... and idk why~~~ but the lock icons on everything in that drive is gone~~ and idk what fixed it......
also time.... the date and time was incorrect and i had no idea why given I've selected the proper time zone.... I was just really confused and idk why.... but now I did and it's fixed~~ I had to change the BIOS time to UTC
and since there's no "sync w internet" and you need EXACT SECONDS now the time is slightly off cause I didn't time it down to the second.... but putting my BIOS time into UTC instead of local time fixed it~~~
also still don't know exactly why I can and could get debian to boot and install perfectly fine on my machine even with secure boot and the like from a windows install still on. when linux mint debian edition just.... wouldn't......
stupidly simple fix but I'm happy to have figured it out myself~~~ hope I like KDE more than I did a decade ago. idk why I didn't like it that far back... maybe it was worse? or there was too many customize options and it paralyzed me?
but now I like it so far~~~~ wonder if I can do it up like windows xp/95? lol. throw myself into customize options of KDE and be lost here forever :)
slowly figuring stuff out and my preferences in the linux world~~ idk why I liked xfce..... the KDE log in screen is nicer and more sleek and modern~~~
will gnome stuff work with kde? if I install gnome games? I always install gnome games and then never play any of them lol I mean I'd assume they would but idk~~
idk why I'm documenting my journey with trying different distributions or desktop environments here..... cause I feel no one really cares..... but I got no one around me to talk linux to... even if I am still (in my own eyes) a newbie at it....
welp~~~ back to system config~~ :) hope that's fun~~ and to find accessibility settings~~
what was up with the clock tho? why did I have to set my BIOS time to UTC to get it to be local time? how does linux configure time? never noticed that before~~~
I distro hop a lot I think~~~~
and would ya believe it my function keys STILL WORK~~~~ WOOOO~~
edit: there are swipe gestures to go back on browser?? gonna like KDE I think~~~
yet another edit: double check bios cause I'm a doofus sometimes~~ secure boot is still on but now greyed out and can't toggle it off, fast boot and something below fast boot are disabled~~
still have no idea why pure debian is able to load with secure boot on (permanently now I guess) and linux mint wasn't able to despite it being debian as well.... but debian 12 works so neat~~~~
bad thing tho about the "swipe to go back" is that I keep almost doing that while trying to scroll down~~ could just use the arrow keys but got so used to using the touchpad to scroll ...
#personal#thoughts#thinking#i think too much#operating system#operating systems#linux#linuxposting#debian#debian 12#KDE#KDE plasma#Plasma#DE#desktop environment#been a long time since I messed with KDE#got the time fixed#and that was stupidly simple#the drives being weird and having lock icons on everything straightened itself out and idk how#it looks sleeker and nicer than xfce tbh#maybe I was overwhelmed with all the configuration options when I first tried KDE?#cause just at a quick glance there's a lot
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RE puzzles are great
#Started the RE2 remake yesterday and was reminded of how out of place they sometimes feel but I suppose they ''make sense''#Considering the environments the games each take place in and such I mean. They're just funny#A secret passage hidden away behind a mechanism that needs 3 medaillons to open which are all embedded into 3 different statues? Yeah#My favourite one so far is probably the one for opening Leon's desk. What kind of Mickey Mouse operation are they running in the RPD#Never played or really looked at the original so idk how faithful the remake is but I like it so far. Nice atmosphere and fun gameplay#After I'm done I might check out a playthrough of the original to see what was up back then. Compare the puzzles etc#These games are so fun. Not sure yet if I'll get to RE3 some time but I would definitely like to play RE4R#It looked fine from what I've seen; never got to play the original for myself unfortunately. But it is apparently a good remake#If it's compelling enough I might finally play the original of that to compare them another time too#Yve's Thoughts.
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Stuck in hospital again as the 7yo is not having a good run of it. He's long had and has further developed an absolutely visceral physical terror reaction of blood tests, too, which is interesting given he's unbothered by blood/injury in non-medical settings. But was watching how he and the medicos were trying to interact, him desperately shrieking/begging that they tell/explain everything, let him pick what finger, let him pick exactly what moment it goes in, let him pick exactly what moment it stops; the way he would go so rigid they couldn't do anything, couldn't pull his arm into position, him crying, no you can't do it now, you have to come back in 10 minutes; then him and I hit on the method of doing a 'practice run' over and over at his request where I'd pretend to be the nurse and come in and do it all to him (with no needle of course) until he was calm enough to go, ok, they can do it now BUT they have to come in and say [insert string of words] and [string of words] and start in the corner and come around the bed in exactly the same way you did---
All so he had some sense of control.
And in the meantime, they'd come in and just go, 'look over there! pretend it's not happening! think of something nice! look at your iPad!' until the mad fighting and writhing escalated too far and I had to pull them aside and explain that no, actually, what would help him was letting him work through what was being done to him and understand every step in detail in advance, and trying to force him to look away was making him panic worse.
Anyway, after five lots of it today, two sets of sheets changed (the visceral wet-sobbing and drooling he absolutely *soaked* through them), they brought in a "Certificate of Bravery" for "letting his blood be taken", and THEN the buggers took a photo of him looking absolutely white-faced and miserable with the nurses, and gave him stickers, and when they left the room he crumpled it all up and shoved it into corners under the mattress, muttering, I didn't want a certificate, I didn't want stickers
#bodily autonomy in medical settings :( :(#he was letting them do it but just needed to be fully informed and at his own pace#alas that is the not the pace of an ED and even the best of nurses out of all of them just didn't have the capacity for it#i'm pretty sure the little one is somewhere on the low end of PDA but it's not recognised in Australia so we can't do anything about it#as it stands both his dad and i prefer to operate in a demand-lite world so it sort of hasn't been pathological the way it could have been#until we collide with demand-heavy environs like hospitals
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I do wish some overwhelming evil would befall my boss
#i'm doing sepf checkout today and it's become 100% more tedious now that i will get fired immediately if i'm more than thirty cm away from#the customer#it's like wow this was annoying to begin with but now i can't even afford to look away lol#the boss and his bored ass family of snitches are constantly checking the cameras#i do think he can also access them from his house which i don't think is legal but what does he care#i am operating in a TOXIC ENVIRONMENT !!#every time my boss says anything i will genuinely consider getting a new job for like seven business days after lmao#rayrambles
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trying to resist the thing where you feel bad about X and then your brain is like hey why don’t you try feeling bad about Y and Z too while you’re down there in the pit
#I feel kind of bad about work lately and it keeps nagging at me so I know I need to carve out some time to longform journal about it#but I should not do it now because I’m already in a funk and I’ll just make myself feel worse#I also have a bad feeling that the bad feelings are actually @ myself and not about the environment#like I think I’m doing the thing again where I find the level you can coast at and get by#and then I just coast#because (mean brain enters the scene) I am fundamentally lazy and have no work ethic etc#I just think my whole life is like me operating at 60-70% and not really pushing myself to give closer to 90-100%#but agh ok not the day to open that up#it’s also rainy and I think I’m just like#experiencing the perfect storm of sick on vacation + pregnancy hormones + upheaval period at work + dreary winter weather + bad brain
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