#other chronic illness bs

[tumble-tv]

"kill them with kindness" WRONG run them over in your wheelchair 👨‍🦼 👩‍🦼 🧑‍🦼 👨‍🦽 👩‍🦽 🧑‍🦽 👨‍🦼 👩‍🦼 🧑‍🦼 👨‍🦽 👩‍🦽 🧑‍🦽 👨‍🦼 👩‍🦼 🧑‍🦼 👨‍🦽 👩‍🦽 🧑‍🦽 👨‍🦼 👩‍🦼 🧑‍🦼 👨‍🦽 👩‍🦽 🧑‍🦽 👨‍🦼 👩‍🦼 🧑‍🦼 👨‍🦽 👩‍🦽 🧑‍🦽 👨‍🦼 👩‍🦼 🧑‍🦼 👨‍🦽 👩‍🦽 🧑‍🦽 👨‍🦼 👩‍🦼 🧑‍🦼 👨‍🦽 👩‍🦽 🧑‍🦽 👨‍🦼 👩‍🦼 🧑‍🦼 👨‍🦽 👩‍🦽 🧑‍🦽 👨‍🦼 👩‍🦼 🧑‍🦼 👨‍🦽 👩‍🦽 🧑‍🦽

[jaxyscreams]

Bruh I hate chronic illness tell me why doing two grocery runs had me cold sweating and almost passing out in the grocery store & when I got home 😭

[the-withering-system]

Well my GP left without telling me. Without even looking at my scan that she ordered. The only other doctors in my practice are men and 3/5 I've seen before and were misogynistic bastards who would've diagnosed me with hysteria had they been able to.

All in all I'm fucked

[jvzebel-x]

Why do you hate rich people so much? I get hating that wealth equality isn't fair but damn lol

a couple reasons, lmao. i grew up in a place where wealth inequality was showcased to an obscene degree. because of how social structures work, i've stayed on the losing end of that my whole life so i can't ignore it, no matter where it is, lol. &i've spent too much time existing around people who lord their money+the privileges it affords them over people who have nothing, &i have spent MUCH too much time being the person who's having that money lorded over them, lol. there's something special-- truly special-- about the manner in which those with absurd amounts of money think that fact directly correlates to their worth as human beings in a wholly positive manner. &in every measurable way it kind of does in today's society, lmao, so my personal opinion is all i have&it's never going to get anything but worse as i am forced to continue to witness the actual correlation between money&human worth be directly inversed, lmao. anyone who can hoard money with the world looking the way it does now deserves a guillotine. end of story.

[blu-engineer]

for all my mentally ill girlies out there who aren't "self aware", or are "too much", or don't mask;

people w/ psychosis, dissociative amnesiacs & people with other memory problems, cluster Bs, autistics who "don't get it", ADHDers who are "too loud", people who are questioning, undiagnosed, with fluctuating symptoms. OCD that's loud, obtrusive. depression, and chronic brain fog, that makes it hard to Be A Person how people expect. shut-ins, loners; attention-seekers, adrenaline junkies.

if you "take up space". if you're "weird" or "creepy", or you talk to yourself or you're visibly mentally ill;

you're not alone in this fight. there are others like you in this together. people are here for you, people who understand what it's like to be an outcast, or why your memories don't line up with others, or when everything is too quiet, or too loud.

you don't need to function like a neurotypical. you aren't one. it's hard, god knows that; but it is worth it to keep on going. you will find your peace.

[writerblue275]

How the Heartsteel members would take care of a sick/injured S/O.

Inspiration: Extremely self-serving, but I don’t care. I’m currently in the midst of a chronic illness episode. For me that involves an ungodly headache that can last for straight days, if not weeks, and other bs. All because my body can’t handle sodium 😭. If I don’t do something to distract myself, I’m going to cry, and I’d rather not do that, so here we gooooo.

Genre: Headcanon

Type: Fluff (very very slight angst in the concept [if you squint] just because you don’t feel good).

Gender: Gender Neutral Reader

Tw: None! This is pure fluff. 🥰

Aphelios

Aphelios would actually be a great caretaker.

I think a lot of this comes from an excellent example. We know Alune took care of Aphelios when he was injured/after his surgeries. Since he was the recipient of her wonderful care, he knows what to do.

Extremely prepared. He’ll work from your place as much as possible so he can be close by (he has that little mobile keyboard set up shown in his “what’s in my bag” pic). Excellent at running out to grab supplies/medication (I feel like he has an excellent memory so you just need to tell/show him something once). Also phenomenal at making sure you take your meds on schedule and changing any dressings/wraps.

If for some reason an extra set of hands is needed or Phel needs further advice on how to best care for you, you know who he’s texting? Alune! She is happy to help however she can because you’re her friend too and she hates knowing you’re sick/in pain.

I feel like Phel’s immune system is pretty strong so even if you were contagious, he’d cuddle you. If he was really worried, there’s always his mask. (Makes my public health heart sing.) He has many extras so you can snag one too in order to be doubly safe. You get those healing cuddles!

Ezreal

This is where Ezreal’s typical golden retriever energy is extra useful!!

Like genuinely I think Ez is a really really sweet “nurse” and will do an excellent job of taking care of you. Or at the very least, he’s great at distracting you and making you smile so you don’t feel as shitty/in pain.

I can’t see Ez cooking tbh (mood), but he is more than happy to order delivery/run to grab whatever carry out whenever you want it. If he can’t do it because he needs to stay with you for some reason, he’s texting Alune and the boys and practically begging them to help him out. (One of them always does. They love you and want you to heal.)

Also happy to run out to grab whatever supplies you need. This sweet green bean is so eager to help you heal that not only will he grab what you ask for, he’ll also grab other things that you might not need. He’s of the mindset it’s better to be overprepared rather than underprepared.

I can’t see Ezreal wanting to cuddle if you’re contagious, tbh, which is fair, but he’ll definitely make sure you have all the blankets and pillows you need. He will sit near-ish to you though and hold your hand. And if you’re not contagious? Oh he’s clinging to you as much as you want him to.

Kayn

Ok…so…this isn’t Kayn’s specialty as a partner, let’s be honest here.

Kayn is an amazing partner in so many other ways, but he’s not exactly...naturally nurturing? BUT that doesn’t mean he’s not going to try. He knows you need him, so he’s really going to put in a lot of effort to try and take care of you as best he can. (This secretly sweet rockstar!)

Kayn might fake grumble about it, but he will definitely go out and get whatever supplies you need. You may need to take a picture of a label/find one on the internet but he’s got you! (“Baby, there are so many CHOICES. How do I know which is the right one? I don’t want to get something you don’t need!”)

The first time you were sick/injured and he was with you, he texted the HS group chat for advice on how to take care of you and shocked everyone. (That was the moment the rest of HS knew Kayn was really head over heels for you. 🥹 <- Their faces as they read the texts.)

One thing I cannot see him doing is cuddling you when you’re sick (unless you’re not contagious). He doesn’t want to get sick himself. He will tuck you in and give you surprisingly soft forehead kisses though. He says they’re to check your temp but you know they’re to show he cares.

K’Sante

K’Sante is another member who just gives off such excellent and caring vibes. He has to come from a big, close-knit family, because he gives eldest brother vibes through and through.

Because of this, he’s perfect at taking care of you when you’re sick or injured. He’s done the same thing for his siblings/cousins many times.

Even though Sett is officially the best cook, I still fully believe K’Sante can throw down in the kitchen. Whenever possible, he’s making everything from scratch for you. You deserve it, after all. His meals alone will have you starting to feel way better.

He is fully stocked on OTC meds, ice packs, bandages, whatever you need. As a gym bro, K’Sante can get pretty sore, so he’s already got that stuff around for himself. Also, anything you need picked up, he’s got that taken care of.

As the eldest who took care of his younger family members, K’Sante’s immune system is PREPARED. Unless it is before a really big event, he would be fine cuddling you, even if you’re contagious. If it is close to a big event then he’s understandably a little more hesitant (he does have obligations to HS) but he’ll still be nearish to you and hold your hand so you know he’s there.

Sett

Ooooooh baby this is Sett’s time to fucking SHINE.

He was raised by his incredible Ma! Like of course Sett’s going to be really fucking good at taking care of you. (He already does an excellent job of doing that when you’re not sick/injured.)

We know he’s the best cook in the group so homemade soup/whatever comfort food you want/need you will have and it will be delicious. Really good about reminding you to take any meds you need to (he sets a reminder in his phone). Also fully stocked on OTC meds, medical wraps, ice packs, etc. Like he is PREPARED. (Perks of loving a gym bro.)

Happy to give you cuddles if that will help. I feel like Sett is another member that has an immune system of steel, so even if you’re sick, he’s still cuddling you if you want him to. (You definitely do like 95% of the time because how could you not?? Sett cuddles sound fucking elite!)

Worst-case scenario and you get sick while he’s traveling? He makes sure you are in the very best hands possible and sends in the big guns. That’s right, he has Ma come over to check on you/stay with you if need be (which she is happy to do because she adores you and loves how happy you make her son).

Yone

I think Yone would be a phenomenal “nurse!”

He might come across as cold/intimidating to those who don’t know him, but you always bring the soft side of him out. That’s totally applicable when you’re sick. Sweet Yone incoming!!

He cared for his younger brother Yasuo when he was sick or injured, so he is well versed in what supplies are useful for a multitude of ailments. Is well stocked on all of it too. If for some reason you need something and he doesn’t have it, he’s remedying that ASAP.

I’ve been thinking about whether or not Yone cooks. My gut says not really besides breakfast food. While he’s not going to make you homemade soup/your comfort food, you bet he’s asking Sett or K’Sante to make some for you. (They’re happy to do so. You keep your their producer sane. Helping you is self-preservation 😂.)

While he’s likely been injured many times, I feel like this beautiful motherfucker (affectionate!!) has never been ill a day in his life. His immune system is just that strong. Whatever the issue, he is down to give you whatever cuddles you desire. (I’m bringing back my headcanon of cuddly Yone and NO ONE CAN STOP ME 😋.) Enjoy the forehead kisses and sweet little verbal check-ins.

[doyouknowthisdisabledcharacter]

All mental illness has the potential to be disabling and I think your other anon doesn't grasp that just because something isn't disabling for them doesn't mean that it isn't for someone else. I think in terms of these polls it shouldn't be looked at as "oh well for ME this doesn't disable me therefore it's not a mental illness that's a disability", it should be looked at as "does this mental illness this character has put them at a disadvantage in some way?" because at the end of the day disability is when something you have impairs your ability to function to societal norms. Which I could get into how BS societal norms are too but I'm trying to stay on the topic specifically of polls here.

Because we can argue all the live long day about what is or isn't a disability but at the end of said day it really does come down to the fact that a lot of chronic mental and physical conditions can and do often present differently and in one person maybe it's not so severe and they can function, but in another it's disabling and they haven't left the house in three days because the idea of having to talk to other people makes them have a panic attack. Or sometimes the severity can even change with or without intervention.

Thanks for the input

[hollowwhisperings]

Jojen is Fine, Actually: "Weirwood Paste" is Weirwood Paste.

CW: humanitarian diets, body horror, general blasphemy, mention of grooming (in the context of creepy tree wizards).

Okay so my being a HUGE Jojen (& House Reed in general) fan gives me an Obvious Bias against the idea of Jojen Dying Offscreen.

My being a huge literary nerd & lore geek, however, informs my Metaphor Senses that Jojen is Fine*, Actually.

The "Weirwood Paste" is Weirwood Paste: made of weirwood seeds, locally sourced. Said "Local Weirwood Tree" being. Y'know. Brynden Rivers.

It's Brynden Paste.

(*Fine: chronically ill, majorly depressed, freezing cold, surrounded by creepy tree people, stuck in a zombie wasteland, if he ever goes home he Dies, repeatedly dreaming of his own death... but, at least, Not Dead nor Being Eaten by the Prince of his Dreams? He's "Fine".)

First and foremost: storytelling conventions, even in a series as "deliberately unconventional" as ASOIAF, tend to tell audiences that NO ONE is genuinely "dead" until you see a body. And personally check its pulse. And test for rigor mortis. And maybe stab them in a lethal place, jusr to be Sure. And then burn the body, scatter its ashes, send couriers off in different directions to hide what remains in Remote Places never to be known of by the other couriers. Maybe Silence the couriers if they come back.

Er, you get the picture.

Most subscribers to "Jojenpaste" are in it for the lolz or assume The Worst due to Jojen's non-presence in the latest Bran chapters (aaand Jojen's being Very Permanently Dead in That Dragon Show). It's also an "easy" assumption that Since GRRM Is GRRM, any & all opportunities for Humanitarianism will be fully utilized.

Except... the weirwood paste is ALREADY "made of people" just because it's Weirwood (specifically, weirwood seeds) and the series has consistently described weirwood trees as "[human]".

Weirwood have "bone white" bark; they have Faces carved into them; they "Watch" and "Listen" and "Witness": this is consistent across POV characters, even before Jojen casually brings up "oh they're what Greenseers Become" or any meetings with a Literal Tree Man.

Weirwoods are described in human terms, doing human things, and at least 1 major character has been directly equivicated with Weirwoods for Plot Purposes: Ghost the Direwolf (and wolves, of course, are consistently used to mean "someone of House Stark" and the Starklings especially).

Then there is The Creepy Tree Man in the room: Brynden Rivers, called "Three-Eyed Raven" by Bran and Jojen (for that was how their Dreams interpreted him) or "The Last Greenseer" by the Singers (...despite BRAN very pointedly Being There To Prove Otherwise).

Brynden is also, as mentioned, a Tree Now.

A Weirwood Tree.

Y'know. Like the ones whose seeds make the Paste Bran's been eating.

So, unless the Singers have been sneaking about in Others' Territory to collect seeds from a different weirwood tree... that Paste is made of BRYNDEN.

Bran being fed "Brynden Paste' while Brynden Indoctrinates Teaches Bran to be a Tree Wizard makes far more sense, logistically & thematically, than Jojen getting shanked offscreen to belatedly be revealed to be "part of Bran all along".

For one thing, Meera would gladly set the Cave & everyone in it on fire if anyone so much as looks at her baby brother suspiciously. For another, Brynden is Right There for the eating & is filled with all sorts of Prophecy Juice: he's a Blackwood, he's a Targaryen, he's a Royal Bastard, he was an Infamous Spymaster with "A thousand eyes and one", he's done weird sacrifice BS before, he's a Greenseer (Jojen "only" has Greensight), he's a Living God (as per Singer & First Men Lore), the Cave Cult is trying to turn Bran INTO him...

There is a lot more "logic" to Bran's Magic Lessons featuring his knowingly (subconsciously, at least) eating Brynden than his secretly eating his friend. Human sacrifice tends to require Knowledge of the cost being paid & being Willing to do it anyway: Bran might be too tripped up on Paste to consciously connect the "Weirwood Paste" he eats with "that Human Weirwood Tree i'm sitting next to" but the Singers explicitly tell Bran the Paste is made from Weirwood Seeds. Bran "knows".

Godeating (metaphoric & literal) is a trope that is most commonly found in JRPGs, nowadays, but it has Precedent throughout western mythology: the Titan Kronus ate each of his children as they were born, Zeus alone escaping, in an effort to Dodge Prophecy; Zeus inherited Said Prophecy and, being his Father's Son, ate his first wife. The details of the Titanomachy (the War against the Titans by their reasonably upset kids) are Lost but Zeus, at least, gained all his Wife's Wisdom (& her pregnancy too) after eating her: Athena may or may not have Taken It Back upon breaking out from her Eaten Mother & Dear Old Dad.

Consuming something in order to "become" what is eaten is Fairly Common, if not with that specific phrasing: vampires seldom explain their reproduction as "eat me to become me", whilst the adorable Nintendo character Kirby & his method of Powering Up via Playing Vacuum, is Rephrased out of Sheer Self-Preservation (no one, not even I, likes to admit that The Cute Pink Blob is an Eldritch Abomination). Many JRPGs & works in eastern media use similar themes of "monster eats monster" and "let's eat god" for the purposes of High Stakes Action. Japan & East Asia has a lot less "baggage" when it comes to utilizing themes from Abrahamic verse, meaning that western works using themes of [consuming the divine] and [apotheosis] use Vampire Methodology. Such is the case in the Dragon Age series & its Order of Grey Wardens (who are, From A Certain POV, dragon god vampires).

Within the ASOIAF series itself, Dany's eating a horse heart (raw) has Humanitarian Themes in service of Prophecy and [Divinity]: the horse heart to the Dothraki, a society of horselords, could be what weirwood seeds are to First Men (especially given Jojen's whole "btw, the trees are gods are former greenseers").

Brynden & the Cave's Singers (whom I dearly hope are some long-exiled Cult & not reflective of Singers as a whole) are not particularly subtle in their Intentions for Bran: he is to be their New "Last" Greenseer. Bran is to Become Brynden or Brynden is to Become Bran: either and possibly both are plausible, though how compliant with the Singers' goals Brynden may be has yet to be revealed.

(the Brynden of F&B and D&E strikes me as someone who would gladly bodysnatch some poor kid for his own Agenda: the Singers seem unlikely to support fire-breathing foreigners, not without a Contingency Plan; somewhat likely to want Bran for the purposes of installing a Tree Hivemind Police State; and maybe, possibly... "just" wanting a Second God for their Cult in Bran, who probably Smells Better).

SUMMARY

Weirwoods are Personified in almost every appearance. Weirwood Trees are considered Gods. Jojen (& some Singers) have stated that the Next Evolutionary Phase of a Greenseer is "Weirwood Tree". Brynden "the Last Greenseer" is part of a Weirwood Tree.

Brynden & the Singers are Turning Bran Into A Weirwood Tree.

Bran's current diet is Tree Paste. His magic teacher, Brynden, is Part-Tree. The Nearest Tree to make Paste from is Brynden. The Paste is made of Brynden.

(Let's NOT think too hard on which parts of Brynden: I've only gotten this far in this Meta by using "Hunanitarian" as a pun.)

Eating Gods to Become A God is an existing Trope. Brynden is a God, by Singer & First Men definitions. Bran is being Groomed to Become Brynden, a God. To Become Brynden, Bran must Eat Brynden.

TL;DR

The Weirwood Paste is Weirwood Paste and Brynden is the Weirwood: the Paste is not "Jojen", it's BRYNDEN.

Jojen is Not Paste: Jojen is Alive but Not Well & Very Depressed.

[tenpintsof-sundrop]

Hey everyone! If you don't know me, I'm Sundrop. You can call me any nickname you want - including Nisha, Bunnie, Sunny, whatever. I use she/her pronouns, I'm autistic, bisexual, and polyamarous. I am chronically ill, and I often make posts about my struggles with disability and medical trauma. I am into horror movies, DC, Fall Out Boy, badass female characters and pathetic whimpering men, and cheesy reality shows from the 2000s, among many other things.

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Most Recent Work: Careful - Dad!Spencer Reid x Mom!Fem!Reader (Series)

[queermoths]

google: how to explain to abled ppl who will never fully grasp either that my chronic sleepiness and chronic fatigue are so so different from each other and also so much more than "just [sleepy/tired/not getting enough sleep/getting too much/whatever bs they insert]" like. best way i could try to describe This is: im sleepy but nothing fixes it. not all the sleep in the world will take the sleepy away/wake me up. i could sleep forever and still be immeasurably sleepy.

and also im Tired. so fucking Tired (different from sleepy). and nothing has fixed either. not exercising (that makes it worse), not caffeine (makes me calm and focused but also sleepy not awake), not being social (just drains me more), not therapy, not mindfulness, *literally* nothing fixes either.

and sleep has this magnetic pull on me that i *cannot* escape. the return to slumber is an inevitability i continue to endure and spend every waking moment actively resisting, no matter how "fine" i seem. (maybe ill write a poem about this idk.) and waking up from sleep is shit its so hard for me to be properly "awake." im groggy, on top of the sleepy and fatigued. and if that grogginess finally gives me some semblance of respite from it, im still weighed down by the expansive and seemingly neverending chronic sleepiness and chronic fatigue. and somehow im meant to just fucking "manage" (a more "socially acceptable" way of essentially saying, "cope, you lazy motherfucker.")

as if *any* of this is manageable. as if it could somehow be solved if i "tried harder." as if any of this is the more palatable version so many abled people sing to the fucking hills.

and none of this is even doing the chronic fatigue or chronic sleepiness justice, really. and i haven't even mentioned the fucking chronic pain, either. like holy fucking shit. can i catch a fucking break, please? apparently not.

but so many ableds seem to think that this all is comparable to like, being tired from a long day at work/working out in the gym. and they think that for us chronically ill people, our issues are just "mindset" or "not trying hard enough." or some "punishment" we "deserve." which, like, im not going to start unpacking the whole "disability is punishment" bullshit that institutions and individuals spout without even thinking twice.

idk im just so done. im done.

[dogwittaablog]

I don't envy Nolan. Man's been through it since the start.

Like being born in Winnipeg, middle child and only son in a hockey family. Like so many other sons he was pretty much groomed from the beginning to be the perfect hockey player, promised he would be something great.

Finally breaking out only for injuries to hit. Finding out a surgery he had wasn't necessary and may have been detrimental would have been a massive blow.

Being a naturally withdrawn person close to only friends then being thrust into the spotlight as second overall pick. Immediately having that much pressure on him when he was still barely an adult knowing that if he doesn't immediately prove that he deserves to be in the NHL he will be torn apart.

Hoping maybe that since many players can still maintain a semi private life he can too. But the fangirls get their hands on him. Suddenly every move he makes is monitored. Everything he's posted, commented or liked is on blast. His friends have to delete pics of him or go private for their own safety.

More and more injuries stack up and the media isn't giving him a break. Everytime he comes back it's constant questions about his illness and pain. The internet isn't much better with every hockey bro and their friend attacking him from every angle they can get.

People spread rumors about him incredibly, disgusting and sexual ones and contact his family asking about if they're true or not.

Having to sit a year out knowing he has a chronic condition that will never get better.

Finally coming back for the pandemic to hit then he gets traded. Maybe a new start away from the bs, but it still follows.

Having to hear constantly that he was a bust and that the flyers fucked up by picking him. Even people he worked with on the team saying they regret ever taking him. He put on a brave face, but after awhile that feels like death by a thousand cuts.

Finally being able to get back on the ice again only for a dirty hit to end it all again.

Having to sit out while his team wins the cup. Watching all his friends and teammates live successful lives on and off the ice, while he stays at home wondering what could have been.

Finally thinking after a year of being gone people forgot and maybe he can start anew again. Only for one word on a post to thrust him back into the spotlight with reporters and fan practically beating down him and his family's doors.

I don't know if I believe in a god, or if that god has favourites, but I know Nolan isn't one of them.

OH-

[tumble-tv]

The body isn't body-ing

[is-the-owl-video-cute]

Your opinions are always cool! I like how smart and realistic you are.

Have you read that book about how diet culture has a weird history with racism, it's called Fearing the Black Body: The Racial Origins of Fat Phobia by Sabrina Strings

Sabrina went on a doctor's podcast to talk about it and the doctor very much agreed that diet culture, BMI, keto, all that shit is just a bunch of BS. It's really refreshing to hear from a doctor who is actively against diet culture and is genuinely concerned with the health of her patient's over their body types! If you're interested, you can find the podcast episode on spotify. The episode is just called the title of the book and the podcaster/doctor who posted it is called Dr. Arabia Mollette!

The BMI was invented by Nazis/eugenicists, so yes it definitely has deep roots in white supremacy. In general the 20th century saw a large degree of nationalism in several countries, heightened during the world wars and following cold war. Sydnee McElroy is the other doctor who comes to mind in terms of being a physician openly against fatphobia and everything related to it.

My health issues caused me to lose 30lbs over about two months and my BMI still calls me overweight. It also doesn’t take muscle mass into account because it has called me obese during periods where I have built up more muscle from work. I am not fat by any rational definition of the word, at most I’ve only ever been a bit chubby when I was younger and didn’t have chronic illnesses emerging, so I consider my body type, weight, and “score” on the BMI and it makes me genuinely worry for those who judge their self-worth based on being below “ideal” BMI weight.

It’s all a sham. Keto can actually kill children and young people, and it can cause serious health problems for anyone. It forces weight loss by malnourishing you and upsetting your natural biochemical gradient. It literally causes some of your organs to function incorrectly when followed too closely.

[cheerstotheelites-if]

Is Fleur well liked in her manor by the staff working there, even on a surface level? I was under the impression that she only allowed Chiffon to get that close to her, but now Damaris? What's she like and has she noticed Fleur's silent suffering?

I won't spoil too much details, since I do plan to introduce [a few of] the Heartstein manor staff soon. (Idk I might make a small side story where you play as one of the staff members somewhere in the future).

To say Fleur is liked in the manor by most of the staff... it's more on pity, really. Pity on her being born into this family. Pity for being born with a chronic illness. Pity on having Jules as a dad. But they do care for her enough to worry about her well-being. They can't intervene on whatever BS Jules or Mrs. Heartstein is doing because they're their employer and they need the jobs.

Damaris, on the other hand, is a girl adopted and taken in by the old man (Chiffon) when she was around 11. Fleur was around 4 when they met. If Chiffon is the dad that stepped up, Damaris is the older sister Fleur always needed.

[idyllic-affections]

HI MAHAL this may seem a bit sudden but im feeling very affectionate today and needed to find someone to SMOTHER WITH LOVE AND THE FIRST PERSON WHO CAME TO MIND WAS YOU <3 so i js wanted to say……

I LOVE U SO SO SO MUCHHH!!!!!!!! 🫶🫶🫶 WAHHHH i appreciate u so very much and even tho weve only been moots for four months iT FEELS LIKE ITS BEEN SO MUCH LONGERRRHRHRH!! tysm for listening to what i wanted to say to you and for putting up with all of my bs LMFAO IM SO GLAD THAT I MET UUUUU 💕💓💝💝💖💕💝💓💞💘💕 talking with u always brings me so much joy RAHHHH 😭😭 I LOVE EACH AND EVERY INTERACTION OF OURS EVEN IF ITS FOR A BRIEF MOMENT AND IT ALWAYS PUTS A BIG SMILE ON MY FACE WHENEVER I LOOK BACK!!!! you’re very funny sweet caring and friendly AND I JS WANNA HUG U AND CLING ONTO U VERY TIGHTLY i dont plan on letting go anytime soon hehe :3 hope ure okay w that <3333 i dont want our friendship to enddd!!!! 🫶💖💘💓💕😭😭🫶💝💘💕💗💗💓💞💘🫶🫶 OH OH AND IM SOSOSO PROUD OF U!!!! URE DOING ABSOLUTELY AMAZINGGGG AND U MATTER A HELL OF A LOT TO ME MWAH MWAH‼️‼️‼️

if addi has a million fans, im one of them. if addi has one fan, im that fan. if addi has zero fans, im no longer alive HEHE 🫶

LILIIIII SOBS..... NOT ME BEING THE FIRST PERSON TOC OME TO MIND????? I LOVE YOU TOO WTF /P there's NO way we've only been moots for four moths, it feels like it's been way longer than that pleasee.... i am convinced i've known you for more than 16 weeks. that is such a short amount of time!!!

hsjnskdskhsjksh for me it has NEVERRR been "putting up with you"!!!!! i love talking to you and listening to the things you want to say!!!!! my response time may be slow sometimes but it never has anything to do with you <333 it is just the neurodivergent brain i think. words are not always easy!

i do my best to be very kind because i think there is not enough kindness in the world lately! so i always want to remind people that kindness does still exist. if i, as a trans and chronically ill liberal person living in the modern usa, cannot beat the darkness myself, then at the very least, i can be a light that helps other people through it. you know!!! spreading kindness where it is needed!!!!

of course, you are welcome and encouraged to stay in my life for as long as you would like to <33 BUT THANK YOU..... i am also very proud of you!!!! you are wonderful and lovely and you're doing great!!!!!

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🌟I'M OPEN FOR COMMISSIONS!🌟 (Rd1: 9-29/11-29)

Greetings to everyone who is and everyone who isn't. As content as I'd be to reblog things forever, I do draw and I do need things… soooo, drawing instead of ebegging because crushing guilt either way and using my one chosen defining skill to feel useful? To be honest and fair, I just need at least $25-30 to get past instafart's bs, but I could also do so much more if my chronically ill butt just… tried? I have self-trust issues, don't @ me… Also, I'm not starving; I need sundries. 🤷🏾

✅ will draw: fanart, ocs, nudity, light gore, suggestive/light n-s-f-w. Furry, animals, therian, toon, and light kink all welcome

⛔ probably won't draw: heavy gore and n-s-f-w, mecha (not because I don't like it, I just doubt my skills in it. Ask at your own risk, I guess…)

🌟PRICES🌟

🌟NOTES🌟

The color type is the base price, the size adds as advertised

Detailed backgrounds, extra characters, and/or designs will cost extra; about +10-15 each depending on my spoons at the moment.

One-page comics are... doable, but not a thing I plan to do often, at BnW or Full Color price + $40. Comics are hard, even short ones.

One of observant mind will notice that one of the examples is traditional. DO please specify if you'd prefer traditional or digital. If not, I'm gonna randomly do one, the other, or a mixture (It's the same effort for me, either way.)

There will be times where I will NOT be able to sit up and work. I will either edit this message, or make another one with said announcement on it and pin it. An then subsequently edit or make another message again to announce that I'm well again. So goes the conditions of having a corporal body; sometimes you get stuck with a shitty one.

I plan on taking breaks. They will be announced similarly. Because breaks are good for you.

The ability to say 'no' is always at my discretion. I'm willing to try things; I am NOT willing to be uncomfortable.

I have more examples if you're curious, just nothing recent or that I personally feel represents me as an artist at the moment... It's complicated...

Reading is hard, so I made the different bullet points different colors. Um... yw?

🌟CHECKLIST🌟

Email me at angelicdirt0 (at) gmail.com. Say hi, say hey, and include "commission" somewhere in your subject line, please! OR dm me if you need to ask something real quick - but full requests with references, descriptions etc. should be exchanged via email. :v

Please include:

What type of commission you'd like - b&w/color, portrait/half body/full body, how many characters, etc. references of the character(s) - if you don't have an image of them drawn out in their entirety, please provide picture references of all their parts (hair, face, clothes, colors, etc.)... You have a reference sheet? Even better!

What you want to see - what pose do you want your character(s) to be in? what expressions? what is the vibe you want conveyed? is there something you want to focus on in particular (e.g. a character's ring, a scar, a limb, etc.)

Are you okay with your commission being public? - you will get a higher-res, un-watermarked version of your commission and the project files (Krita, FireAlpaca, or GIMP... I tend to jump around). I do intend to put lower-res, watermarked versions of my commissions up on my blog / portfolio, so please let me know if you would like it to be a private commission.

You'll receive a reply within 3-4 days, at which point we can talk a little bit more about your commission if needed!

Full payment will be required upfront through a P@yp@l or c@sh@pp. The invoice will be sent to the email you used unless specified otherwise.

Thank you so much for the look, and hope to talk to you soon! <3