#please God let me sleep

[pigeonsnatcher]

It’s 9:00, and I sleep through my alarm.

It’s 10:00, and I drag myself out of bed. I take off the shirt I sleep in and get dressed. Maybe I put on some makeup. I like the way the black eyeliner looks.

It’s 11:00, and I do a fit check in the mirror before I head out. I look hot. I don’t look for too long.

It’s 13:00, and I’m eating lunch with my friends. It’s warm in the cafeteria. My jacket is wrapped around me anyway.

It’s 17:00, and I’m glad I put effort into my appearance today. I look like the girls I thought were cool when I was younger.

It’s 22:00, and I’m doing homework. I sing along to brand new city, the words so ingrained it’s automatic. I barely register my singing.

It’s 1:00, and brand new city is still on repeat. I sing the same two lines a bit more forcefully every time they come around.

It’s 3:00, and I’m trying to sleep. My arm touches my chest through my shirt. I grab my stuffed bear and hug it the same way I used to.

It’s 4:00, and I’m looking up the cost of top surgery. The numbers form a pit in my chest.

It’s 4:15, and I close my eyes and picture myself flat. I accidentally brush my chest and the vision is shattered.

It’s 4:30, and I’m remembering why I stopped binding. This big, trying only reminds me that it doesn’t work.

It’s 4:45, and what my mother said to me comes to mind. I wonder if it’s true that becoming flat would only make me an ugly girl.

It’s 5:00, and I am forcibly reminded that my 14-year-old self is still inside me.

It’s 5:00, and I sob.

[shynerdwantscuddles]

No one in this bog has a crush on me :(

[sarayu-sunrays]

i'm so tired but i can't go to sleep

[halftheway]

sore throat last night upset tummy tonight i just want one W

[foreignallyofc]

Wowzers!! I do love my crippling anxiety coming out of NOWHERE just to spook me that I don't have enough money till the end of the month! I had to check and in fact, I have enough (barely tho lolz), so I should be fine :)

[pepsi-maxwell]

dorian it's 1:30am on a work night, why are you up posting chocolate pudding wrestling smut fic

because i've lost control of my life

[pyschedtrickster]

Another one for the heathens <3

[ink-wells-and-feathers]

But what if... Aromantic Gorgug?

Asexual Gorgug?

Agender Gorgug?

Triple A Gorgug?

[highonstan]

narrator from fight club really speaks to me as i, too, cannot sleep.

[themichaelvan]

CATEGORY 7 TUMMY HURT EVENT

[blueyedgrass]

TRYING to do something for c tommy. Trying.

[deez-no-relation]

Do you know that scene in Deadpool, a big part of his origin, is when the bad guy Frances puts him in this airtight container to spend a weekend barely getting any oxygen so that every few minutes he is gasping and desperate and barely on the edge of life

I was just reminded of that after sharing a bed with someone who has severe apnea

[demo-ness]

Terrible terrible thing where the body heaviness and slowed breathing of falling asleep makes my hypochondria panic and hit the eject button

[awkwaamo]

Growing up is being excited to schedule a nap into your day only for you to lie awake the entire time feeling nothing but disappointment

[taaayloooor]

just committed the biggest sin in the universe (saw my sisters social media)

[eldritchpina]

When they were little their only fun activity consisted in eating grass